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heartbreaking! the tags and summary sound like the best fic in the world but it also sounds like it completely demonises Ed :(
#sorry this is an appreciating the complexities of edward teach account#im here for fics where they decide to not allow ed back into their lives. esp modern aus when you have more freedom to leave#but theres too many that just. miss all the nuances too him. miss the fact stede would forgive him for anything in particular#this isnt about a specific fic btw. ive whined about this before bc im noticing it like. so much more these days#esp w stizzy fics :( which is sad bc i love love love solo stizzy but i cant do it when theres so much ed hate for no reasonnnn#hes not even a character in this yall just had to throw shit at him huh#nyxtalks#i feel like this should have a warning tag. but its not really critical im just. idk im sad! i want to see ed do better and improve#i dont want to brush off his actions but i dont want to treat them like thats all he is either!#its why i call myself a sympathiser. im not apologising for him he can do it his damn self. im just in the background giving him a thumbs up#i guess just. vent
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if you draw enough monster ocs, when you go back to drawing a human character, it feels like "sameface syndrome" everytime, by virtue of their face being. human.
#toy txt post#or maybe i am just sameface syndrome#but also different face syndrome#two characters will have the same face but then the next time i draw those characters its a different face than they had last time!#i know part of it is being out of practice but also there is definitely an element of feeling constrained by human facial structure lmao#the monsters have Their Own Problems but like. no one has a face like bokrae no matter how inconsistent i am about drawing her#her features are iconic enough to her that you can tell everytime#birdie???? i faceclaimed eartha kitt for her and im still struggling cos i feel weird about faceclaiming as a concept#but even then 😭 one time i was trying to give headloose a face and someone was like wow he looks like birdie!#me 😭😭😭😭😭 what!!!!!! hes not supposed to!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i need to practice. features#you know the worst part about coming up w a bunch of fuckin Scenarios in my brain for ocs is that i have even fucking Drawn them yet#to give them like. iconic staple features and figure out what their faces look like. which feels like it would really help to have that#knowledge and muscle memory before i jump into trying to draw intense scenes with difficult poses!!#not to mention. listen. i can do the monster faces. somewhat. the bodies??????????? well for one. theyre too big everytime#im convinced i could be trying to draw bokrae on like a full ass wall size paper like a mural thing and run out of room. it just keeps#happening. i have no sense of scale for them either. by which i mean i struggle w scale already and also cant decide what i want it to be#and ive tried to handwave it away by being like ohhh uh. birdie casts spells on them to change their sizes for convenience but also#no. perhaps that explanation works for other ppl. @ myself tho its not good enough i Know Better!!!!!!#agh!!!!!!! i really need to figure out bokrae's Teeth also. like i dont. i coukd get away with it. but i should. and i want to.#anyway all this to say that i need to give these characters faces and body designs (actually the body designs for humanoid ocs is the easy#part. the faces are whats stumping me? well. i need more practice w all the body types again but like i Know what im Going For at least.#for the most part anyway. havent fully figured out heights. struggling w characters that i want to make short but give imposing tall energy#on occasion? birdie can be short all day long no problem. I want Alasdair to be short enough that he has a bunch of short boyfriends that#feel tall around him? bytte was going to be like 6ft max but then i thought about making her taller and like. what if i made her taller#headloose is not that /short/ but he is Not Tall and prolly pretty lean? twink build for sure#and of course all these short /tall distinctions come with a bias of relativity to my own height which i categorize as medium height#but short ppl call me tall and insist its not average and tall ppl call me short. (5'6) and then i have to factor in how the gender changes#the dynamic of a height like my height is Short For A Man but medium to tall for a Woman. which id argue is medium height bc mens heights#are socially held to high standards (hehe) and also i know ethnicity/race is also a factor? but im out of tags. rip. bye
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there was a post i just saw like a disney post and op had the fucking audacity the gall the sheer nerve to call oliver and company one of disneys scrap movies and im feeling so incredibly violent over this
#i had a whole rant in the tags but decided to spare op my wrath#so im saying it here instead#or not bc i dont remember what i said#but fucking hell#calling oliver and company a scrap movie#like what the fuck#im so offended like actually i dont give a shit abt disney but that movie is my baby#thats honest to god my fave movie ever#and youre gonna call it SCRAP?#i dont even know on what basis it was called that like maybe it was like on revenue or like box office ratings i dont know how movies work o#or how op labeled it#but im offended on all accounts either way#and the post was like. stop remaking the god movies (lion king for example) and remake the scrap movies instead#LIKE THAT MAKES ME FEEL EVEN MORE VIOLENT#i need to bash someones head in#im exploding ops head with my mind#its not that serious but im mad abt it anyways#iits 230 am and im so mad it got me eide awake#i need to rewatch to make myself feel better#like its literally about a little baby cat in a giant scary new world and learning and exploring and found family#like come on what the fuck#IT HAS GEORGETTE!!!!!!! LIKE COME ON GUYS#what the hell#ive wanted to eat that like cookie dough chocolate chip looking ass goop jenny fed olover my entire life#IT HAS WHY SHOULD I WORRY IN IT PLEASSSEE#it has the best songs ever please im begging#ITS GOT JENNY!!#fucking hell i cant deal with this rn#go watch oliver and company#michi tag
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"What's this I hear about a whole lot of 'Nothing', then?" Martyn's voice travels from across the room. Or at least he thinks so. He can't quite see that far, with the... everything around him... much too bright. "I'm not quite sure you know what this is yet, but rest assured it is 'Something' alright." Scar doesn't have much else to do. So he bites.
or: woof. emotions. hmmmm. what if we pretended not to for half the ficlet. i hear guessing games are a wonderful team activity this time of year.
#is this what i get when i give myself free time? almost 1.5k words in an afternoon? i should attempt being creative more often.#secret life#goodtimeswithscar#gtwscar#grian#inthelittlewood#pearlescentmoon#.my writing#scott is also there. but his impact is so small i feel bad giving him a full tag. but like. he's there. he's a winner.#i just decided to format his dialogue in a special way and that naturally reduced any chance of a big speaking role.
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Moe ref I made today to sorta update its look, to how I've been drawing it lately (focusing on the face!)
Biggest update is getting rid of the bottom lashes, and giving it creases/just the eyebags instead... and also committing to giving it facial hair! So creatureful........ (the chin hairs make me think of goats... the little hairs beneath the side burns make me think of whiskers.....)
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#moe tag#the lash lore is so funny to me. like. i have a history w this. esp when i used to draw myself waaay more#i would be so indecisive about it. going back and forth. ultimately deciding not to give myself lashes. just big ol eyes.#the. same exact thing has happened to moe.#but anyway it was ESSENTIAL. to have this addition bc i was a coward when i made my first official moe ref.#i thought about giving it facial hair even back then. but i didn't. an absolute injustice and travesty.#i've grown as a person. you should absolutely give your strange ambiguously presenting transmasc charas shitty patchy facial hair.#you WILL have shitty patchy facial hair. god is stored in the shitty patchy facial hair of a transman.#there's love in there... also....#also something funny about moe is that it is extremely well-groomed. it doesn't have an elaborate routine#but it is Very intentional and VERY particular. it just intentionally makes itself look 'worse' LMFAOOOO#the only thing it doesn't control is the acne. sad! but also. nothing wrong w it. no reason to hide it#(unless if it is actively bleeding.)#moe ref#my art
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people on death note tiktok are so stupid. i dont like that ship either because its extremely out of character NOT BECAUSE ITS TOXIC????, DIE
#txt#ask to tag#the vast majority of relationships in death note are toxic regardless of if its romantic platonic or familial#IS DEATH NOTE TOO PROBLEMATIC FOR YOU NOW??#fucking stupid 😭#IF YOU HAVE TO HATE AT LEAST FO IT FOR THE RIGHT REASONS#i saw someone say ->#m.ikami/light is toxic THE AGE GAP!!! if they met at 18 yo and 22+ they should NOT BE SHIPPED#<-#WHAT ARE YOU FUCKING ONNNNNNNNNNN.#ARE YOU STUPID#ITS NOT FUCKING REAL AND ALSO?????? ???????????? oh my god#youre stupid#mika.mi can be interpreted as having romantic/sexual infatuation for livhf THAT IS IN CHARACTER AND ENTERTAINING#IF SOMEONE DECIDES TO BELIEVE LIGHT WOULD ENTERTAIN THAT IN A MANIPULATIVE WAY OR WHAT HAVE YOU. THAT IS OKAY.#REGARDLESS OF AGE LIGHT HAS THE MIST POWER IN ANY RELATIONSHIP HE COULD FEASIBLY BE IN BECAUSE 1. HES KIRA AND 2. HES A FUCKING GENIUS????#HES ONLY SURPASSED BY L AND NEAR. FUCK YOU STUPID PEOPLE 😭 STOP TRYING TO MAKE HATING A SHIP A MORAL THING?????? HUH#THEYRE LITERALLY NOT EVEN REMOTELY PEDOPHILIC#OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. YKNOW THEY ARENT INCESTUOUS#and i dislike l.awlight for a billion reasons my number 1. being that i dont think its in character for them to behave in the kind of fanoni#sed way a lot of ll shippers do. NOT BECAUSE ITS TOXIC... NOT BECAUSE 'LIGHT LITERALLY KILLED HIM.' SHUT THE FUCK UP 😭 SHUT THE FUCK UP#i hate tiktok i hate STUPID IDIOT D.EATH NOTE FANS WHY ARE THERE SO MANY OF GHEM.#id love to make a post on tt abt this but i dont want to ostracise myself even though these people are fucking stupid#ohh but its abusive ohhh ohhh ohhhhh the power dynamic ohhh#I DONT CARE. IF ITS ENTERTAINING GIVE ME MORE??#out of every dn ship m.ikami/light is the one that appeals to me the most#'he manipulated him!!' GOOD I WANT MORE.#the m.ikami/light hate is actually the most bizarre thing to me HELLO. WTFFFFF WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT
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i know eddie has been through some shit in terms of his military trauma, but i would love it if season 7 remembered he actually has medical/combat experience that the others don’t. i recently watched season 2 again and omg there are so many times when he gives advice or takes control of something bc of his experience. the only time i can remember off the top of my head since then is season 5 when he gives the advice about the bomb when he’s at dispatch. i need them to have a call where there’s something really awful happening, mass chaos, mass injury etc etc, and there are multiple ladder teams there and another captain asks if there’s anyone with expertise in something like this and bobby just goes ‘i know a guy 🙂’ and then hard cut to eddie storming around giving people orders and telling them what to do and where and when! he gets to have a bamf moment where he remembers that his military experience can also be an asset rather than just a burden (and bonus points if it affeCTS buck, i you know what i mean lol)
OH MY GOD I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS LITERALLY LAST NIGHT BEFORE I WENT TO BED. I was thinking about when Taylor (derogatory) is introduced and he just starts talking physics and deals with the whole helicopter. And obviously there's the bomb, the grenade, and the few times he says I've seen a few of these in combat, but like, it's an expertise they never talked about again. Besides the medical training, the academy training, he also has around 5 (?) years of army experience and it would be great to see him use that knowledge and I think it would be good for him to also see that he can use that in a way, and somewhere he would have people around to support him if it triggered him (ideally it wouldn't but they could use that to go all recovery isn't linear). They could've gone in such fun ways with his knowledge outside the academy, and they just never used again. And I guess sure, if you're in Los Angeles the expectation would be for him to not encounter that type of situation but it would interesting to see him bend what he knows to apply there. He clearly dealt with bombs in the past, some improvisation skills, even the random tipbits about why rushing into a specific situation would be bad like he does with the helicopter and the dynamic rollovet, and I'm pretty sure there's another call he starts talking physics I don't remember what now, that could add a whole layer as to why he is so good at the job, because, yes, it traumatized him, but I think it would be good for him to realize that he got something useful from all that too.
Also yes please, call where Eddie is taking over and Buck is just "this is definitely working for me, yes sir"
#i was talking to myself about how efficient Buck and Eddie are as a rescue crew and that a lot of that comes back to Eddies military#background because it did give him skills beyond just being a medit#and when paired with Buck and his heavy rescue skills the two of them are quite a match#like it makes absolute sense as the why bobby would look at eddies file from the academy and decide that he was the one he wanted#to be partnered up with buck#they line up in a powerful way#he can just send the two of them#because both of them have the heavy rescue skills and when you pair that with eddies medic skills#its over the two of them can deal with the whole situation without them having to worry about getting a paramedic down with them#but yeah#eddies military background should be more explored#let him learn to use those skills in a better light#i really need a tag for asks#anon 😌#911#diaz
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i would rly rly rly Really like to find my wrist/thumb brace tomorrow
#rumbles#i’ve been in fucking. agony#work video games texting scrolling drawing dms chatting#everything. my whole hand is fucked#i don’t know where i put the damn thing. it hurts so bad#also talked to my mom about when we should put Siri down#how we both know he won’t go on his own#how neither of us think he’ll decide on his own#like my good old jackson#i’d give anything not to choose when that is#anyways. don’t talk to me about that part yet. sorry for the tag rant#this is bad for my hand too but i can’t help myself
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they should make a world where you dont have to talk when it takes too much energy
#i mean. technically i could Just Not Talk#but even if i explain that im tired talking is hard rn etc#my mom will decide im ‘giving her the silent treatment’ and a fight will ensue#which would b worse than gritting my teeth and forcing myself to talk a bit#whatever. year and a half ill move out be able to be quiet when i want#just gotta power through it#vent in tags#rambling#sorry for all the like depressed posts lately btw.#idk if thats sth i should apologize for actually bc like#its not like i can control my mental state#but. ykwim#i dont want to be a downer
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kali challenged me to try and draw him and i guess thats how well i can do
#cant tag kali otherwise she can reblog and i dont want this to be rebloggeed#because.. well.. gestures at everything#anyway uh im still watching tokyo encounter#maybe i should give him a tag#either i will tag him#daddy voice 3#according to the seiyuu meme sheet#or#mr i-just-lie-about-myself#will decide later#I DREW THE SECOND KANJI WRONG I CANT FIX IT NOW JUST ACCEPT MY APOLOGY LAHFLAF#art tag
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bitching in the tags ignore me
#goddddd i hate being angry and frustrated and also i hate adhd#i am still pissed off at whoever in the flat decided to blast EDM in the morning when i was trying to catch up on sleep#after a long late retail shift and then taking over an hour to get home because the buses were being total shit#and with me knowing i won't be sleeping tonight. because this fucking essay needs me to do an all nighter#i want to scream. 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂#i have such a hard time coping with anger lmao im so bad at it#and i am SOOOOO tired and i am going to be awake so long!!!!!!!#im 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪#i might call out sick from work on tuesday to give myself a chance in hell of like. recovering before i have to deliver therapy on weds#and also a chance to edit this stupid thing before i submit it#anyway!!!!!! anyway!!!!!!!!!!#im more annoyed than i really should be tbh my brain is just so fucking frustrating at the best of times. let alone underslept#gray.txt#uni tag
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{Once again, i can’t be bothered to update the verses page, seeing as this idea is still a wip anyways, but-- For some level of commitment to that pokemon au/verse, imma slap up this post lol-- tho imma toss most of it under a cut, because long post--}
𝓣𝓻𝓪𝓲𝓷𝓮𝓻 𝓒𝓵𝓪𝓼𝓼: Ace Trainer
𝓞𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓞𝓬𝓬𝓾𝓹𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼: Pokemon/Contest Coordinator, Hobbyist Photographer
{𝓣𝓮𝓪𝓶 𝓡𝓸𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻}
𝑴𝒊𝒛𝒖𝒏𝒂 {Serperior} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Overgrow
{Move Set} Energy Ball Gigia Drain Leaf Blade Wrap/Wring Out
𝑲𝒆𝒊 {Liepard} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Limber
{Move Set} Thunder Wave Double Team Night Slash Foul Play
𝑴𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒊 {Ninetales} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Flash Fire
{Move Set} Flamethrower Fire Blast Psyshock Hypnosis
𝑺𝒉𝒊𝒐𝒏 {Umbreon} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Synchronize/Inner Focus
{Move Set} Quick Attack/Assurance Confuse Ray Moonlight Pursuit
𝑨𝒛𝒖𝒌𝒊 {Braixen} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Blaze/Magician
{Move Set} Psychic Fire Spin Heat Wave Magic Coat
𝒀𝒖��𝒖 {Mawile} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Hyper Cutter
{Move Set} Flash Cannon Play Rough Iron Head Crunch
{𝓡𝓮𝓼𝓮𝓻𝓿𝓮 𝓣𝓮𝓪𝓶 𝓡𝓸𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻}
𝑲𝒐𝒋𝒊 {Alolan Meowth} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Technician
{Move Set} Feint Attack Dark Pulse Torment Bite
𝑨𝒚𝒖𝒎𝒖 {Torracat} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Blaze
{Move Set} Lick/Fire Fang Flamethrower Flame Charge Body Slam
𝑹𝒂𝒊𝒋𝒊𝒏 {Luxray} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Intimidate
{Move Set} Thunder Fang Discharge Thunder Roar/Charge/Swift
𝑰𝒔𝒂𝒎𝒖 {Zangoose} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Immunity
{Move Set} Crush Claw Poison Jab X-Scissor Revenge
𝑴𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒓𝒖 {Lycanroc - Midnight form} | ♂ | 𝑨𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: Keen Eye/Vital Spirit
{Move Set} Stealth Rock Stone Edge Reversal Counter
#{|ooc post|}#{|A view beyond the lens: Headcanons|}#{|ooc notes transition--|}#verse tag tba when i think of one lol--#and the rest of his reserve team i plan to think of names for as well--#but for now-- this is mostly what i've got lol#oh! also-- any pokemon who have two abilities listed is because i haven't decided if they should have a standard or hidden ability--#even tho giving them hidden ones would make it harder for me to build this team myself in game XP#added disclaimer that some details in this may get updated later-- once i research more
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I'm just..very sad and pathetic today. Sad and pathetic hours.
#Angry rambling in the tags. Read at your own risk.#Also recreating 2014 tumblr hours apparently#All very fruitless ofc#I'm actually glad we have collectively decided to ignore each other's depressive episodes this has done more to boost mental health than#any online mental health apps#I don't want attention from anonymous people I want attention from people who are literally sitting beside me who didn't even wish me#Yeah it's my birthday and they didn't even wish me#I am SO awkward about birthdays but I wish Them.#I even do the whole song and dance. Cake and all.#And they can't even wish me and indulge in that momentary awkwardness with me#I knew even as a child that adulthood is going to be lonely but no one tells you it is lonely AND suffocating#I'm not even asking for much?#It's okay if there isn't love but this is a courtesy issue. we live in a society and all that#They could at least /pretend/ to care. even that would be enough#Maybe I should buy myself an entire cake. and eat it. alone#<- obviously I'm not doing that but what if. what if.#This isn't even the first year they forgot lol. They just keeping giving lesser and lesser fucks#A part of me is cringing even as I write this but you know what. our predecessors were on to something with the anonymous rants.#Very cathartic. This could be a draft and it'll still be cathartic.#Tomorrow I'm going to wake up late and take a day off and cry a lot. and get myself a cake. and one of those double chocolate chip cookies.#It'll be a celebration
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( prev tags from @artpigeons )
OKAY BUT LIKE this raises new questions for me: is Astarion just looking to have a Casual Conversation with Tav/Durge in these early scenes, and is this the kind of stuff he would have talked about with his spawn siblings (when they weren't being tortured ofc)? making it a perfectly logical and acceptable topic to bring up, in that getting-to-know-you kind of way, with new people?
since, after all, he hasn't quite started actively trying to seduce you at this early stage, so clearly he hasn't decided what to make of you just yet. and what better way to gauge a new acquaintance than with the kind of small talk he would have shared with his siblings - the closest thing to people on an equal footing with himself that he would have known for centuries....
OR IS IT, say... another way of testing boundaries (as we see him doing in so many other ways especially during act 1) to see how much he can get away with, socially, that he hasn't had a chance to do in two centuries?? could he even talk about these questions with the other spawn? has he been bottling up these kinds of macabre fucked-up thoughts all this time because literally nobody else, including his spawn siblings, ever wanted to talk to him about that stuff?
he certainly wouldn't have been able to seduce victims for Cazador with this kind of talk - but maybe even his siblings thought it was weird and off-putting (but not in a good/affectionate way) too, leaving him with literally no one to talk to about these kinds of things. (and is that why you get those bumps in approval for just going along with it and not brushing him off for being weird?)
I could probably write a whole essay on this, but I'm going to stop myself here and let the questions stand on their own (at least for now) ✨
when i first played bg3 and i got the astarion bite scene i was like "lmao this guy inmediatly telling me his tragic backstory???". but for him thats not his tragic backstory, that was yesterday. and like 200 years and before that he doesnt even remember that well.
and then his idea of small talk is "who of our companions would you eat" and "how do you want to die"
#no queue only reblog#text post#bg3#astarion#OH YEAH also ought to tag#bg3 spoilers#so. perhaps. I am still not normal about him. (never will be)#I could genuinely dig so deep into this and talk about the dark thoughts in relation to trauma#not even starting on the amount of tension and hostility that Astarion clearly has with at least some (if not all) of his siblings#the different interpretations of how he might have tried to cope by venting negative emotions with macabre discussions like these#but maybe his siblings preferred to avoid and deny and repress leaving him no outlet at all#or the alternative that they all just talked about this stuff casually because this (and constant hostile rivalry) was their Normal#cannot decide which possibility hurts my heart more#but I said I wasn't gonna write a whole essay and that should include in the tags#so I'll stop myself here (again)#thank you op and prev for giving me such a fun jumping off point for my little mini hyperfixation :)
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ok maybe I'm a little late to this BUT I'm gonna do a to-do list motivation thingy because I've had the worst two weeks since I started college :)
SO these I should start on asap:
50 I make the snack I really want but I haven't had the motivation to make
100 I clean my dorm. another thing I've been meaning to do for a week
150 I do the presentation about mid-victorian fashion I've been putting off (due Monday)
200 I start memorizing the monologue that was due a week ago (now due Tuesday)
these can wait longer:
300 I spend time outside. It's so nice but I'm getting stuck scrolling because I feel like shit. vicious cycle ect
500 I start setting a better weekend routine (aka getting up before noon)
1k I start working out again. I was doing a routine to get more masc and build muscle and I liked it but life hit me like Crowley driving the Bentley and I've missed like 3 weeks
2k I buy my first binder. I've been coping with sports bras for almost a year now and I haven't been able to justify spending $50+ on a binder even though I know I'd love it and use it everyday.
Do I tag people? I don't know but I'm going to. @the-globe-theatre-maggot @weirdly-specific-but-ok @howmanyholesinswisscheese
here's just some context if you want to read, feel free to skip. some of this I've talked about in the maggot server, some I haven't, but I really just need a place for this to go that's out of my head. tw homophobia, transphobia, car crash(??)
How I Have Been Run Over By The Bentley Going 90 In Central London What Feels Like 50 Times In The Last Two Weeks
I'm going to college about 4 hours away from my parents, and it's been really nice. They.. suck, to say the least. transphobic/homophobic ect, super traditional conservative catholic, racist, all of it. so i tried to move somewhere where I wouldn't have to think about them and I could be myself and do what I can to be happy. March 1st was the start of my spring break, which meant going home because the dorms close. I was already not excited, but I was prepared. the problem with being away from home is I forget just how bad they are. My optimism gets the better of me and I think maybe this time they'll be better. so I decided to not hide my septum piercing.
that was a mistake. it starts a whole fight where they say we know you're trans, you're actually a girl and you always will be, we have the bones argument, they think I'm being influenced by demons or something (if only they knew about crowley) because I want to change my name, and they tell me that going on t will completely ruin my body and give me cancer and other things. They're also mad about my dyed hair, septum, and general style, and say I'm setting a terrible example for my (5) younger siblings and make it a point to tell me just how much of a disappointment I am. I think I'm pretty cute and fun but y'know, whatever. very fun time. I lie so much, don't give them any more details about my identity, and say I'm not planning to go on t to save my ass. which is all on instinct which makes me feel worse because if I'm really trans I should be able to stand up for that, right? maybe I'm faking the dysphoria.
the next morning I wake up really sick, and spend the rest of the week sick and feeling like shit because I'm home and back in the same place and situation I was a year ago that I thought I escaped. at one point I pretty much lose my voice but also kind of get gender euphoria from it. it's weird.
On Friday it's time for me to drive back 4 hours to school, and I make it about 3/4 of the way when google maps takes me on a random gravel road and I crash my car, really crash my car, like sideways-in-a-ditch-windows-broken-crawling-up-out-the-door crash it in the middle of nowhere. (I was fully paying attention to the road, it was raining and super slick) I call my parents because I have no one else to call and I sit in a Subway for 3 hours while they drive to get my car. when they get there they're (understandably) really mad, and they tell me that I'm not mature enough to be going to school so far away and I need to get my shit together and stop depending on them. which. is probably true. but made me feel even more stupid about the fact that I crashed my car. I get back to school and I'm still Very Sick with no energy or motivation to do anything. So I've spent the last week trying to get better and honestly to do anything. it hasn't really worked. I'm a lot better health-wise (Not emotionally), still sick but I have a lot of work due, so I really need a push to get started
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◜ mk1 men breaking the bed/headboard while fucking you ◞
▸ characters: bi-han, syzoth, liu kang, raiden, kuai liang, johnny cage, tomas◂ ▸wc: 4k+ [wow]
▸ tags¬es: REQUESTED by @luvv4lurd. drabble but long (like very long), fluff, nsfw, breaking, licking, ropes, inappropriate usage of power/abilities, humiliation, rudeness, rough, biting, power, begging, fingering, swearing, monster fucking (kind of), power play, pet names, calling god/goddess, possessiveness, protectiveness & more in the work, enjoy! [didn’t want to write this long & I am not sure whether @luvv4lurd wanted it to be this long but couldn’t hold myself, they’re so cute! hope all of you like it, have fun!]◂ ▸ m.
BI-HAN doesn’t care about hurting you that much, yet, he gives you a safe word to make him stop when it is needed. clearly, he wants to fuck you well enough so that he can show you only he can fuck you like this. this goal of his brings him to an edge that he put your body down on the bed, ass up, cock thrusting deep inside your walls as your body jolts forward and backward in sync with his cock’s rhythm going in and out of your pussy full of cum - since you have cum like two times already.
he’s a bit rougher than he is usually because he heard a few other lin kuei’s members talking about you - how they are mesmerized by your presence whenever you come into view, however, they complained about how they can’t talk to you because you’re always with the grandmaster, sub-zero.
that moment, he decided to fuck you hard enough to make you have difficulties with walking, making everyone realize who fucked you - their grandmaster - they will know who you belong to and that was why he is rough right now.
you don’t complain though, well, until he makes you scream his title - “my - ohh - my grandmaster!” he loses his mind, releasing his power; hands get colder as ice appears on them from fingertips to the arm, and since his hands on the headboard, to hold it tight and fucking you with a great strength, it covers with ice, making the surface so easy to break into pieces and this is exactly what happens.
the headboard breaks into countless pieces, the room’s temperature going down in an instant, your eyes widen but bi han gains his mind’s control, hands turning to normal as they touch your waist, sending a chill down your spine with their coldness - bi han begins to fuck you harder as if it’s even possible, blaming you.
“see what you made me do whore? it’s only because of you! have to get a new one now, but you should pay for what you have caused pretty slut and you will pay by giving this beautiful wet pussy to me - to the rightful owner of it. will fuck you until you can’t walk for the next week, my dumb whore.”
SYZOTH tries his best not to use any of his strengths during the make-up sessions you share - getting intimate yet shy while doing it. he wants you to stay healthy even after the sex, only maybe some of the marks on your body that he likes to leave. however, sometimes you become a brat, acting naughty, trying to play with his nerves of pleasure and instincts enough to make him go rougher, and since he doesn’t want to hurt you, his hands find the sides of the bed while he’s fucking you with the position of missionary, green innocent eyes focusing on your face that full of cries, parted lips, half-closed eyes watching him with such delight he wants to prove himself further – wants to fuck you so good that your body cannot forget about it in the following days until the day he fucks you again.
and he loses himself when a hand grips him by the hair, pulling his face down at your level, ear to ear, you say in a whisper which is followed by a little moan afterward, “cmon pretty boy, I know you can do better than – ohhh – this!”
who is to decline your offer? who he is to hold himself still instead of fucking you harder – better?
syzoth whimpers at your words, he lets your legs hug his bare back, hands wrapping his neck as his hands begin to hold the surface of the bedsides tighter to find a balance after shoving his dick into your wider pussy rapidly than before, roughness and lust dripping from heart to body within actions.
“oohhh –“ he moans in sync with you, “tell me how good it is my love, please, please –“ he stops himself from crying by biting down your shoulder a few times, listening to your cries mixed with both pain and pleasure with full attention, and when you praise him, his edge comes, making him lose himself, and letting his nature form in some parts of his body; a tail appears on his back, it wags on its own – eyes turn darker green – and hands are covered with the skin of his true form, all green until it reaches to the arms.
all feelings double when his strength rises, weight becomes hard to endure, dick bigger – definitely rougher, going in and out of your aching yet wet pussy, and you reach climax at the same time – the exact time when a few crack sounds are heard, causing you to look into each other’s face – looking both excited and peaceful because of reaching the climax and shocked when the bed break into two, its middle swallows your bodies as syzoth hold you from the back from an instant, turn you around so that his back meets with the rigid surface of the floor under the bed.
hands on your back, hugging, turning into human form, and tail disappears as he looks at you with innocent and shy eyes as if you’re not lying down on the ground, inside a broken bed, cums still dripping.
“I’m so sorry y/n – but it – it was too much for me to handle. my love, how can I make you forgive me? I will do anything for you – just say it and I will show how sorry I am but please don’t judge me. I can’t hold my thoughts together when I have your pretty pussy.”
LIU KANG can be the steadiest person – or a god but you don’t know any other god aside from him, but not in bed, no, never. he is that steady, straightforward, gentle, cute, and all these kinds of things under the lights of daylight, however, when it turns into a dark sky when you visit him in his room – or you in yours, exchanging a few words, questions only to begin to fuck after the formality.
it’s not that he uses you as his fucktoy – yes, it feels like it because it turns you on, but no, he’s in love with you – so deeply that he loses his mind whenever he sees you, and when it comes to getting intimate, oh, he forgets about the timeline he has created entirely, focusing on you – your pretty face he likes to watch, your magnificent body he finds as the most beautiful thing on all realms, your voice that comes into his ears as prays while you moan his name and even his title whenever you feel like it, and oh, your delicious pussy that neither his fingers, his tongue nor his dick will ever get bored of – it will be such disrespectful thing to be bored when you open your legs wider to him, showing your pink pussy that begs for his caring and affection – that he gives you what you want right away.
he’s a god, yes, but he can kneel in front of you if it is needed – to eat you out, or even to beg you.
on a night, when he lets you do whatever you wanna do with him, you chose to ride him in order to show him how you love his dick so much as he watched you from below, making you feel so powerful because of having the god of fire, liu kang, under you – moaning your name, eyes blurry, a bit of fire travels on his shoulder since he hasn’t logical side in the brain, no longer when you ride him so good – it feels as if you’re his goddess and you can’t deny that it doesn’t turn you on just by thinking about it.
smiling widely, you let yourself get the pleasure at the highest level, so, you throw your head back, and hands travel on your body from hair to shoulders, from breasts to abdomen, from there to your ass – literally exhibiting your own body to liu kang while bouncing on his lap – pussy clench around his length whenever you sit down only to rise up and repeat the action rapidly, riding him, fucking him.
and liu kang’s last logical side screams him not to hold you – because if he does it, he is sure he will break you into pieces. he doesn’t want to hurt you, especially when he witnesses the sight in front of him – breathtaking, making him lose the balance of his strength. instead of holding you, he grips the headboard behind him as he sits there, having you on his lap – watching you riding him beautifully.
then, you look down, and chuckle, “let your goddess take you to the stars, pretty boy.”
he never had this kind of situation with any other person, so, when you reflect his own words with yours – ‘let your god take you to the stars, pretty girl’ – he really sees stars, hands get tighter, and he breaks the bed with his power of strength and fire, moaning your name loudly, “aggh – y/n!” as he cums hard into your warm walls.
the moment he opens his eyes once again, he sees your smirking face first, one of your soft fingers travels on his cheek as you kneel down closer, “oh, couldn’t pretty boy resist it and cum in an instant?” you chuckle, mocking him, “where is the god of fire, huh? maybe, you should be the one who calls me goddess instead.”
he doesn’t waste a moment, holding you from the waist, he closes the gap between your bodies – nose to nose, white eyes devour yours only by looking at them intensely, and he smirks – darker than yours, radiating fire.
“darlin’, you are already my goddess but you need to learn who you belong to. don’t worry, the lesson you will have now will be enough to make you remember it to no longer forget about it. I will teach you personally while fucking you on this broken bed.”
RAIDEN is a stranger to his own power that has been given by liu kang to fight with it to protect the earthrealm, however, now it sticks with raiden every second of the day and night, and he can’t leave it even while fucking you.
he says he should get used to it in every situation. he’s shy about it while saying it but you know that there are other reasons behind the desire to bring his lightning power into the bed ‘cause, that way, he can send a tickling jolt to your body – even to your pussy, making your pleasure rise up, wanting him to continue what he’s doing.
he knows you like it too – how he can’t anyway? you love seeing his eyes turning to light blue from time to time, love to let it flow through your skin, sending chills down your spine, getting you closer to the edge.
raiden discovers your kink contains electricity accidentally, and in a weird situation when he forgets to leave his amulet bonded to his hand while getting intimate with you.
he doesn’t realize holding it even when he goes hotter as he lowers down on your body, kissing every inch of you, reaching your exposed pussy soaking wet to the ground because of his gentle, slow yet effective approaches. he’s so gentle with you that he literally begs to taste your cum in his mouth.
letting him, you lean onto the headboard, wide open legs meeting with his soft-looking eyes, making him whimper at the sight.
you look so pretty that even after having your cum in his mouth, he can’t stop - he says he wants to thank you for letting him eat you out passionately by hovering over you, hands find the headboard behind you as he thrusts into your wet and fleshy pussy again and again with a pace driving you mad.
you scream how good he’s making you - to make it double, he uses some electricity that flows through your body without even noticing it, and the sudden sensation makes you clench around his length, swallowing it entirely, giving raiden a heart attack because of the pleasure he has never felt before, and it ends up with him using his strong muscles to hold himself in balance by gripping the headboard harder, making it crumble and break into pieces in a second.
to protect you from the falling pieces of it, he lowers down, covering your body within his but it makes all things go worse – or better as you say afterward; his cock reaches the end of your pussy, and it even becomes visible on your abdomen – and the scream, moans you made causing raiden to lose his mind – he begins to thrust into you, balls hitting your ass, forehead touches yours, eyes turn into light blue when you look at them.
“you have no idea how beautiful you look right now, my love. so – so beautiful. I am so sorry to break the bed but I can’t stop now. how can I? your pussy begs for me to continue fucking you. ohhh – it feels so good. I am offering myself to you as a forgiveness gift.”
KUAI LIANG is a man who lives to give you, his beloved lover, what you deserve – the whole world, as he believes. loving doing the things you want, he’s no longer a gentleman in bed as the bond you share grows more powerful as well as the intimate sessions you have an increase in passion and trust.
he becomes rougher when you need him to be. being such a needy lover for him, you choose to trust him enough to let him have you in ways you can never imagine on your own because he looks fragile from the outside – he still is but not when you get into the bed after a long and exhausted day, ready to find your peaceful hours, inside each other’s arms which turns into a hot moment since you can never resist the urge of getting closer – he turns into a beast, you can see the sparkes he has inside his eyes – reflection of the fire he has within his soul and body.
on one of the nights you become lustful for each other, kuai has you on your knees, ass up in the air, and your second cum’s juice flows through his thick warm cock onto your inner thighs and ass, however, he can’t focus on the mess you’re making because all his attention is on your wrists which are roped with his kusarigama – it has no kama yet the coldness of metal chains around your wrists are enough to send you chills since kuai’s entire body radiates warmness.
holding your wrist, he increases the pleasure you are getting from the way he fucks you into the mattress, moans coming from you mixing with the swears and praises he says between his rapid breaths, dripping sweats and moans – only you can make him so weak, so fragile yet powerful at the same time – it causes him to try to prove himself to you in a greater way that you can never forget about it, that your body screams his markings.
the sound that is created by the lewd sounds of his thrusts hitting your soaked clit build twist feelings inside your stomach that is pushed down onto the bed as his left hand holds the wrists that have chained while the free one is put on the headboard’s edge, holding it tightly because he needs to find a source of stability to stay still but it doesn’t work – not when he finds this new angle amusing, begins to shove his dick into your warm walls faster, then, when his climax hit, the solid tool cracks – collapsing.
when he comes to his senses, getting off his high, he realizes what he has made.
he looks a bit guilty, eyes finding yours, his face has an expression of a man who seeks forgiveness yet he seems to enjoy it, and he smiles when you chuckle, joking about how he can easily turn into a madman only because of having you like this.
as he agrees, he caresses your hair, hands playing with the chain to open it. he turns your body over, hugging you from the shoulder, he still doesn’t take his dick off of you.
“’m so sorry honey, didn’t mean to break the bed but weren’t it the head of the bed, I would break you – was so good – you feel so good. fixing it will be the first duty for me after I get more of you – can I? please say that I can because I need you – one more baby, please, give me one more. promise I will be more cautious with our surroundings. don’t want to get you hurt. you will only get pleasure until we’re done, my love.”
JOHNNY CAGE can be the most reckless fucker in the whole timeline. interested in you only, he loses the last logical side of his brain – if he has any when he has you in different situations yet each one of them is as effective as the others.
being energetic, having almost superhuman strength, and going wild in sex, he is sure unreliable while fucking. creating a sense of fear with excitement in your abdomen, ideas rush into your mind as you think about what he will do differently this time in every intimate moment. his uniqueness can be pointed out even while fucking you or letting you fuck him.
he’s also loud, talkative, preferring to let you know that you feel wonderful, perfectly taking his dick – or him, entirely, destroying his mind because of the beauty you have as lust cages him like a chain.
he seems like a madman too with his mind full of thoughts about how he can turn the sex you have into something more bustling, catchy, and entertaining for the two of you, maybe a little more for you ‘cause he prefers to be an unforgettable lover. he addresses you as his queen, and he is determined to prove himself right by treating you as one.
to do this, he tries to get his ideas turn into realities while fucking you.
not caring about your surroundings, not thinking consequences of being unconcerned, not realizing what he has done until his highness’ effects of being pussy drunk decrease. the reality hit his face when he saw the world around him, you still under him, mind dizzy, mouth dry because of moaning non-stop, eyes half-closed as you looked up at his face, cries cleaning your heated face.
the bed, worth a million dollars he chose to fuck you onto, now has a broken headboard – the pieces falling onto the floor and the bed’s soft white fabric. the memories of the moment before rushes into his mind as he looks at the broken material inside his fisted hands; he understands that he is the one that caused this. he fucked your wide-open pussy so mindlessly that when he gripped the head to find something to hold on to, he broke it without realizing it.
as you still soak wet with your cum, and his own getting out of you, he jokes about the situation; chuckling while pointing out the power he has enough to break the bed’s head in one movement, showing it to you with such proudness you roll your eyes – this time not because of his dick, but because of his silliness.
he puts his hands on your sides, smirking down at you, winking, and having no shyness about breaking the bed.
“oh princess, it was worth a million dollars but doesn’t matter. you are worth more than anything in entire timelines. to have your pussy, I can break all of ‘em pretty. but can we appreciate how strong I am? ‘is all because of how good you’re makin’ me feel – ohh, pretty lady, making my mind go crazy like that – ‘is because of you that I broke it, but, what about we break the couch too? wanna do it – wanna break it too while eating you out. c'mon princess, gotta fuck you in every piece of furniture in this house.”
TOMAS is not like his brothers – he is not like the rest of the men at all. he’s a lover who puts your well-being before anyone else, including his desires, and passionate when it comes to that decision in times he has you inside his arms, standing naked from head to toe, giving yourself completely to the man you trust the most, you love the most.
his fragile manner doesn’t let him go hard on you even if you want him to do so. afraid of hurting you even a little bit prevents him from becoming rougher and harsh to you. he listens to all your pleases, begging him to fuck you harder, wanting him to believe he can never harm you, yet, he chooses to stay still even when you act so bratty, trying to get into his nerves, making him let it go.
tomas, being a cute shy boyfriend, delicate when the matter is you, stays determined for a long time ‘'til the day you plan everything out and make him lose his gentle manner, causing the loss’s emptiness to be completed with the new one – greed.
the greed he has for you builds up from his deep soul to show itself through his actions after he sees you sitting on the bed, on your knees, the dress you wear is thin and represents the color of tomas’ armor, the delightful body underneath it is visible to his widened eyes, looking innocently yet devilishly to his eyes, smiling widely as you rise your hand for him to hold and get into the bed with you.
who he is to resist? his determination is not that great – and both of you realize it when tomas gets into the bed, a moment later, when his cock meets with your already soaked and prepared pussy after he fingers you, he feels warmness, fire building within his body, making him want to devour you, unlike the times you had before, he’s a bit dizzy now.
he moans your name over and over again, lips curl only to moan, whimper, and beg for more. you let him though, saying he can get what he needs – you say he can use your body for his pleasure, and when he finally admits it feels euphoric to go rough on you, moans coming out of your pretty pink lips like a melody to his ears, encouraging him further.
he grips you from the waist while fucking you; he uses your body as he pleases, moving your body front to back, his thrusts meet with your walls in mid-air, earning rhythmic moans from both of you.
throwing his head back, he decides to hold the bed under your body because he realizes the red marks on your waist due to the grip he has on there. when his hands reach for the mattress, he grips the white covers strongly, hands turn into fists, and those fists hit the bed’s rigid surface – the bed breaks into two the moment he cum carelessly into you after you praise him, call him your good boy.
he swears for the first time, eyes closed shut, his cum meets with yours, forehead connects with your chest as you hug him from the shoulders.
breathing deeply into your breasts, warmness flows from his breaths to your exposed skin, smoke appearing on the curves of his body slowly, and you feel his tears because of both pleasure he has felt and quilt coming from breaking the bed, making your bodies go lower a little bit.
“oh, I’m so sorry, so so sorry, didn’t mean to – I – I just want to prove myself and get lost when you moan my name like that, calling me your good – ohh – boy. ‘m so sorry my goddess, please, forgive me. wanna say it will not repeated but I can’t – it felt so good that I wanna do it again – right now. my love, would you let me do it again? say yes, and I will be a very very good boy for you – only for my goddess.”
what a journey of rut! here's a cake for you because you deserve it after reading this, bearing it with me! 🍰
❤️ tagging: @lookingforgoodthings , @snowprincesa1 [taglist]
#mortal kombat#mk1#mk1 x reader#mk1 smut#bi han#bi han x reader#syzoth#syzoth x reader#liu kang#liu kang x reader#kuai liang#kuai liang x reader#raiden#raiden x reader#johnny cage#johnny cage x reader#tomas vrbada#tomas vrabada x reader#sub zero#scorpion#reptile#bi han smut#liu kang smut#reptile smut#scorpion smut#raiden smut#johnny cage smut#smoke smut#🍰 was sooo fun thanks for reading!#REQUESTED
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