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the fog cleared and the sun came out and all the grass is wet from the rain and everything is beautiful
#it is such a pretty day#i cried in my car about it Lol#im finw just. seasonal depression thing . when its foggy and dark i t makes me sad#and then the sun came out right when iw ent to lunch and it was like a big hug#drove to get lunch with the heater pointed at my face and the window down#rambling
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today i found out im graduating from my university with a first class honours⭐️😭
#I’ve cried so many times lol#this has been such a beautiful weekend#was three years sober on Thursday#spoke in front of hundreds of people at a convention on Saturday#had an offer of an interview for a job I’m SO excited about and really want#spent the weekend w some of my fav people#GOT A FIRST?????#literally cannot explain how magical my life is currently and wanted to share that with u guys#IT DOES GET BETTER !!!!!!!#three years ago I didn’t wanna exist and now I’m like crying happy tears in my car🕺#ANYWAY#love u all
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Just got back from my friend’s wedding :’) I think it says a lot that I was the only high school friend that showed up
#TBF the others in our friend group back then live in different states now#And flying out for a wedding can be SO expensive.#But yeah idk it just meant a lot to me :’)#And my friend (the groom) was SO happy to see me. And his family was too#That made me really glad 🤧#The fact that he invited me to come at all also says a lot I think#And you know what maybe I cried on the way home in the car but that’s nobody’s business but mine!!#I’m very very happy for him. And his wife is SO sweet and so pretty#It’s just weird yk? Cause in high school I liked this guy SO much#Like I daydreamed about getting married to him some day#So seeing him marrying someone else felt very weird lol#Bittersweet mostly#Sorry this is super embarrassing LMAO but it’s not like I’m ever going to tell this to his face.#I know they’ll be very happy together and I’m so so glad he found someone that fits together with him so well#He’d better come to MY wedding tho. In the future. LOL#Shima speaks#It was a very ‘saying goodbye to your first love’ kind of thing.#Even after I confessed to him in high school (and got rejected) I never really stopped liking him#Like I just never got over it I guess. Even tho I KNEW nothing would ever come of it#Idk sometimes it’s hard to let that stuff go! It’s hard to stop liking someone after you liked them for so long and so strongly#I want to say I’m over it now but considering I was crying in my car:#Well. JFJSJMFMSMSNN#I know I don’t feel that way for him anymore like as a fact but. Idk it was weird—#Again bittersweet. I think I just needed a second to process and really let it sink in#Goodbye to my high school fantasy //waves a handkerchieff#Also MAYBE I saw them be so happy and was like. Why can’t I have that with someone. HUH#Leetle jealous. I need to find me a someone *squint emoji*#Anyway rant over wedding was good I’m just an idiot ;)
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been telling my siblings 'you would NOT make it in vulcan academy' when they do smth goofy recently and nobody's been able to refute lol
#just me hi#listen here you little idiot... [<- fond]#anyway i've been doing this for months and it brings me much joy hbfhsvh#to me it's just an academy. with vulcans. and they are NOT getting enrolled loll#//so speaking of siblings i've been off and about with my dad more often#which is cool but that means spending a lot more time away from my siblings and ouhhrhrhrhrhrhrhhghhhhhhhhh#[tears in eyes]#my buddies :( Where Are My Buddies :( lmaoo#staring out car windows yearnily bc i want my brother's opinion + dumb joke combo on some random thought i had but he's miles AWAYYYYYYYYYY#i'm home rn but like. Man hfbhsfbvh#//oh man but here was one time one of them used the academy thing on me and i could only sputter. touche motherfunker lolllll#//anyway i am exploding all of them with my mind [<- endearing]#my youngest siblings do art (because they saw me doing it [funkin dies and explodes and cries and stares at a wall forever] lol <3) and#they're ! ! ! ! ? ? ? ?#leo does humanoids + has a more geometric style atm and it's really cool!! he keeps asking me to help him draw hands but he asks me at like#1 a.m. when my brain isn't working practically anymore so it's just me going 'yea and the thumb bone connects to the hip bone. +~Somehow~+#[mystery chimes]' and then he goes off on some sort of random thought and we are derailed forever hgbbfhsh#and ruff is so good at drawing animals it's insane. like have you seen this kid's cats they are Sick ! ! ! i genuinely did a double-take#when i saw her stuff a couple months ago loll#/and then my older siblings are v into video games#which is cool bc if i am ever bored they have like 5000 things that i can suffer on while we all laugh hfbhsfhv#i think i'm still helping test one of apollo's games that he's working on -#he's learning code and all kinds of cool stuff - also he's insanely good at blender like Woauhghsgh. wizard shizz hbfhsvb#+ reed helps him w/ that bc i believe he's the architecture guy lol :) - also it turns out reed n i share a lot of opinions on media and#stuff so that's awesome :D he didn't know what whump was but he liked all the points of it so i tried explaining that to him the best i#could hbshfv o7#+ chess has been trying to convince me to give him + leo a ~mystery~ story to play and i finally caved lmjfhsjf#he's real good at the clues it's going well :3 i am scared for my life HFBVhsfvh#also trying to convince him to play kartrider w/ me again cuz i have leo on it now and we need a 3rd okay-to-decent player in our soon-to-b#posse Loll :33 //i ran out of tag space... ouhhh..... okay then.. ciao ciao toodles :D
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Me: *watching the new choreography for KoNY with my community theatre*
The choreography: *is different from 5 years ago*
My autistic ass: *starts crying because they changed it*
#edit: turns out I was overstimulated lol#that wasn’t the only time I cried last night#and after sitting in my very quiet and dim car for about 5 minutes I started feeling better#newsies#king of new york#kony#community theatre#community theater#tap dancing#autism#actually autistic#adhd#actually adhd
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Have you considered looking into work-from-home jobs? I’m not sure what field you’d be looking into, but that might reduce some of the anxiety of the process. A zoom interview might be required, but you could probably see if you could do camera-off.
Based on research I’ve done in the past, script-writing and editing jobs can often be done remotely! You do have to be wary of fake offers, but those are often the ones that seem too good to be true. You’re intelligent, so you can probably spot those easily.
Regardless, take a deep breath and remind yourself: if they don’t want to hire you, it wasn’t meant to be in the first place. Work on solidifying your resume and building your portfolio. You already have lots of pre-written material you could use as references!
I hope this isn’t too much coming from a stranger, but we’re all rooting for you!
Yeahhh... tbh I don't really have much of a resume. I had one soul sucking retail job about ten years ago that my uncle helped me get on account of me being the equivalent of the world's most pathetic-est sopping wet beast in interviews 🥲 and I wound up getting fired in the end for having the audacity to call in sick 4 times a year instead of 3! I know, I know, I'm horrible and lazy and undeserving of the 8$ an hour they were paying me to lift heavy boxes and deal with rude middle aged women 9 hours a day 😮💨
I'm kinda wary about getting a job doing any sort of writing since writing is what I like to do for fun and relaxation. If it turned into a soul sucking activity for me I'd be pretty boned. Getting donations to write chapters is different because I'm getting money to write what I love and want to write anyway, but I don't want to start associating my favorite thing with work, ya know?
I know that kinda limits my options though. Especially since I ain't got no skills that could be used remotely beyond that. I'd love to have a part time retail job that I could just show up a couple times a week, do some menial tasks for a few hours with minimal human interaction, and then go home. That's my ideal job. But the only jobs available near me are full time or have requirements I do not meet.
I know, excuses, excuses! But I'll survive. I might have to sell a kidney but I'm sure I'll live (jkjk things aren't that dire, I promise)
Thanks for the advice though! It's been a really long time since I've had to work and the prospect is terrifying but with any luck it won't literally kill me 🤞
#trust me i CAN be more dramatic#this is me being reasonable lol#i just really really hate being bossed around#my last job was the worst#we were so understaffed i was in charge of 2 departments#and different managers were constantly coming around to order me around#greatly underestimating how much time and effort it takes to be 6 people in 1#whodathunk#also my manager never approved my time off#UNPAID time off that i requested months in advance#hence why i was calling in more than my allowed 3 times a year#i had to call in sick on my WEDDING DAY#and when i tried to quit the first time my manager guilted me into staying#long enough to get so depressed that i cried in my car after every shift#and when i tried to quit AGAIN#she decided to fire me one week into my 3 weeks notice#which i was actually pretty stoked about#wince i didnt have to come in for the next 2 weeks#i was only doing for a courtesy anyway#like YEOWCH my time there was so fucking horrible when i think about entering that life again i get nauseous#i am not built to do that kind of labor#i am built to cuddle kitties and write gay yearning
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Good luck with the wedding!! Hopefully it goes smoothly and the rest of the evening treats you kindly!!
Hehe I showed my bestie this during the reception/ dancing and it made her chuckle :3
Thank you Robin! We are finally free! That was a long 14 hour adventure, I'm going to be tired for the next 7 days oof.
Hey, I even danced to ONE song, so that's something!
But honestly, I think I had the most fun on the half hour drive back to besties place. We jammed out in her jeep XD
Tomorrow morning we will do the Asian Food Market and hopefully I can get some lotus root, and then the Farmers Market.
It was a beautiful wedding and I'm glad to have supported the bride but both bestie and I are so glad to be done with this endeavor. My bestie more so she was a little more antsy. If you read what happened at the Bachelorette party you'd know why lol. Guess what maid of honor lost AGAIN while we were getting ready asdfgjknfdr
Anyway thank you so much Robin I really appreciate it! I hope your weekend treats you wonderfully and all sorts of amazing things happen for you!
#wren askbox#wedding saga finally done#honestly i worry about this marriage though#they were off and on in college and he is not being supportive of her depression#she told me that when she cries and hes just kinda judgemental like why are you crying?! stop#idk i dont like that#plus his side of the family is pentecostal and bride texted me one night asking questions about all their crazy beliefs#cause oh yeah one of grooms family members had one of 'those' cars at the wedding parking oof#i guess groom has expressed interest in going back to church and shes worried it would be back to his families church#big oof#idk bestie is not confident this will last either#I feel bad bride is an incredibly sweet soul and she only deserves happiness#i really hope groom follows through with all his promises in marriage#oh also we pulled out 24 bonny pins from my hair lol#hopefully that was all of them#also wore makeup for the first time not a fan#but i asked for it very light i could barely see any difference but i certainly felt it#hopefully i got it all washed off#all in all im tired but feel like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders
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Real talk for a sec. (CW abuse)
Today, I realized one of the big problems with car dependence that people don't ever really talk about is how it hides and perpetuates household abuse.
I know someone who was abused as kid, in a suburban area full of detached houses, but I never realized how much this environment made it all worse. Here's what happened: because they didn't have a license, if their parents blew up at them, they couldn't leave the house without their parents driving after them and finding them within like, a minute. There was no one else around to help them, or see what was going on, because obviously these suburban areas don't have a lot of people walking around. They knocked on doors a lot, but nobody answered. There weren't any buses. There weren't any places to hide, no businesses to go into and get help, because everything was lawns and gated-off yards and closed doors. They were stuck walking away for a super brief escape, until their parents drove up behind them, threatened them to get back them into the vehicle, and gave them a verbal lashing.
Imagine being 14 and needing to get away from an abusive situation, but all you see when you go outside is this:
It would be so isolating! Where do you even go? How would you feel as a kid, knowing you can't get away geographically? That no one's gonna help? Hopeless would be an understatement!
What's worse is apparently, their parents yelled at them all the time, and slammed doors, and this person and their sibling both screamed at the top of their lungs for their parents to leave them alone and let go of them, but not a single person called it in, nobody called the police, because nobody heard what was going on. Everything was too far apart, and no one ever passed by to hear things from outside. If someone did pass, they were in a car, and nobody was gonna hear anything through both the walls of a house, and the sound-muffling interior of a car. There's no inherent support system, no chance for someone in an abusive situation to get spontaneous, in-the-moment help, because these neighborhoods literally promote seclusion with how walled-off they are.
Worst of all? This person considered calling the police and support lines, but they were abused and gaslit into thinking they shouldn't because their parents said they were crazy and overreacting. They needed somebody to step in for them.
But nobody got the chance to even realize it was happening.
Yeah, their parents were well-off financially to have a house, but the fucking price that was paid by this person and their sibling. Finances aren't a benchmark for mental health.
This blew my mind, but it makes sense, and it makes me super angry. And I'm gonna guess this doesn't just happen with kids. I can't stop thinking how, when I was a kid, I lived in a place like this, and how many other people could've been in this situation, and I just didn't know it because of how the place was designed.
#i'm talking with them about urban planning and i feel bad bc i know a lot of people were and are in the same boat :/#oh yeah and apparently they grew up in a place w shitty bus service too (bc of course the bus service sucks in a car dependent city)#and their parents left them stranded at destinations a lot of the time without any way to get home if they decided to be nasty#they're like 'yeah i cried a lot especially when my phone died lol' about it and i'm like ?? holy shit so would i??#the whole thing is fucked tbh#car dependence#car dependency#urban sprawl#urban planning#walkable cities#walkability#abuse cw#abuse ment cw#child abuse
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i feel like the lessons are getting worse instead of better
#almost cried lol#and it was at the lsst 5 minutes too#i mean that road sucks no matter if youre with the car the bus or on foot#ruined the whole day#im not even excited about parking the car (there were no other cars around and he told me what to do so it was very easy but still)#gonna go reheat my tea and read and maybe cry#studying can wait idc#jo says stuff#jo learns to drive
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watching everything everywhere all at once has encouraged me to write the wacky story i've had in my head for a while that has to do with growing up, giving up a past self without losing your sense of self etc... like i'm not gonna execute it with the same genius by any means but the fact that a really unique and at times seemingly insane story seems to have an audience willing to try to consume something like that gives me hope. it's like ok i'll write my silly crazy story. maybe i'll get one reader out of it lol
#@ my sunday writing group: sorry you might get a really weird thing thrown at you soon lol#sam rambles#idk i have a story idea and i cried thinking about it in the car so like. maybe there's something there
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just finished watching cars the movie..... life is so beautiful yall
#last time i watche this movie i was so little.... back when i didnt have an inkling about motorsport or gaf really#back then motorsport existed to me only in the form of the cars movie loool#but bro watching the movie now im so MOVED 😭😭😭#the way i bout near CRIED when micheal schumacher came on screen 😭😭#i had to explain who he was to my mom LOL#anyway.... guys cars is the best movie ever made liam lawson is so correct and based#oscar piastri as well while were at it. watching this movie makes me wanna act like a car too fr#this is your sign to WATCH CARS‼️ it will revitalize your soul trust#cars the movie#my stuff
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#im gonna vent a lil in the tags here#i have so little hope in life anymore haha idk wtf to do about it and it all fucking sucks#the likelyhood of me working full time ever again looks like zero#at least not traditionally#and i think part time is still far off like i cant stand working for so many reasons#im trying to get my shit together in a way so that my bf can be the sole breadwinner#because he can be at least at the moment because we live so far below our means but thatll change eventually#but im having such a hard time with everything like fr idk what to do#the weather isnt helping the fact my car wont work here soon in the wintet isnt helping the fact im not making money isnt fckin helping#i just lay here like paralyzed and in my own head or trapped on my fuckin phone and screaming internally#im so tired lol and i need to make money and the little i get from my sister for carting her kids around is nice but its gas money at best#i feel so bad about not working and my bf says its okay but i dont fully believe him like ive cried about it to him and everything#it sucks working but it also sucks not working lol straight up dont reccomend#when is capitalism finally collapsing so i can thrive on the barter system#sigh anyways im gonna wake up and be totally productive tomorrow or so help me
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i was so angry i anger slept my day away until like 8pm
#like i woke up but was tired so i fell asleep again#but then when i had dinner with my dad i discovered he had gone into my car and threw stuff inside away WITHOUT ASKING ME#and i have been so angry ever since#and i was upset also#so i literally locked myself away in my room n cried and then just sat all angry and fell asleep again#like WHO DOES THAT#WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND TAKES IT UPON THEMSELVES TO GO IN YOUR PERSONAL BELONGINGS AND THROW SHIT AWAY#dude i am still extremely pissed about that too#like im awake now and im drawing to get myself to calm down but its not working cuz i wanna smash my computer lol#now i have to fucking be hyper conscious of my belongings#around literally everyone apparently#smfh#voxxrambles#txt#im so MAD AND UPSET#moving back in with him is temporary but it's also a mistake#i should've just. let myself rack up debt and dealt with it rather than move back in with him#its not gonna be that long but it's going to absolutely be a fucking horrible experience#i hate feeling like im 15 all over again#i moved 8 states away from this place for years for a reason
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I hate seeing animals or thinking about them. I get all emotional and sad thinking about potential ways they could get hurt or die :(
#i hate my brain#also i still have that very vivid image of my dog getting hit by a car in my head#like I'm terrified this will happen someday#why do i torture myself like this#i also keep thinking about her dying from cancer or something#like i cried on my way to class today because i just thought about that#and there was a cat in front of the student dorm and i just thought about how it might get hit by a car on his way back home#and fun thing is#this happens with any animal#i see a random bird and just get sad because i think it might get hurt#yayyy#crying myself to sleep tonight#i hate having emotions lol#i get that with humans to a limited extent#but like i don't see a random person and think 'huh potentially they could get hit by a car or die somehow else any moment'#except for people really close to me- i do that there too. but not as much. idk where this is going actually#anyway#normal brain behavior#night night#void screams
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JULY REC FICS
Hello, my sweets!! I wanted to try something out to provide my full and utter support to all the amazing writers I've come across in the form of monthly rec fics (starting this month). Join me in giving them love through comments and reblogs. It really is a joy to hear how you're doing as a writer. It makes up for all the angst we write lol
I will be going based on what I've read recently and not by the date the fic was posted. And the number of fics will depend on how much I've read the entire month. Also, please respect these writers. Some contents are 18+, so MINORS should not be interacting in any way, especially when the authors themselves specify it.
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Spencer Reid
✿ a question unasked by @easy-there-leftovers ↳ SOOOO ADORABLE. I'm a workaholic craze gal, so it speaks to me on a silly level.
✿ missing the happy hormone by @lavenderspence ↳ I'm a sucker for Spencer fluff this month, what can I say? This fic Tina made had my waterworks going on for about a minute because it's so sweet
✿ desk duty by @reiderwriter ↳ All you have to know is the amount of evil laugh I made while reading this
✿ the theory of love by @ophelia-is-complex ↳ Genuine intimacy is quite a challenge to write, but THIS ONE, this one had me in a sappy mood
✿ like nothing matters by @cerisereids ↳ gagged and had to pause the reading so many times because HELLO— had me spiraling at work
✿ the devils disguise by @qlossytbh ↳ I said I sobbed a little bit, but I actually cried so much I ended up taking a nap and felt better afterward. It's all fluff, though, don't get me wrong. I'm just very dramatic when the red devil's on the clock
✿ not so funny by @reidmania ↳ Angsty, that made me wanna start a fight with some random twiggy tall guy. Sooooo good!
✿ cloaked in passions touch by @raekensluver ↳ If you don't like Spencer's hands, you're fucking lying to yourself!!!!!
✿ language of devotion by @gghostwriter ↳ I'm in love with reid, and this fic just had me stumbling back onto his lap like a good gal
✿ this req response by @mandarinmoons ↳ Sorry, I'm not sure what the title is, but it's so adorable and got me to go to work, so kind of a lifesaver tbh
✿ hallucinate by @gghostwriter ↳ Oooo, this one was so cute, hehe. Honestly, I lean towards Spencer fluff lately just because I've been too overstimulated with work this past month, so READ THIS ONE ITS CUTE
✿ it's golden, like daylight by @dudeitiskarev ↳ I actually felt like I was reader the entire time I read this. It's well-written and so adorable and something that should be framed in a museum
✿ much ado about nothing series by @incognit0slut ↳ binged it all morning, and I was whipped !!! It's ongoing, so if I have to wait, so does everybody else
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Aaron Hotchner
✦ choiceless hope series by @hotchfiles ↳ This series had me rolling over my bed on a Saturday. A lot of feelings getting played (mostly mine)
✦ beanstalk by @solardrop ↳ I kid you not; I was giggling like a weirdo when I read it. And that itself deserves the recommendation.
✦ too busy being yours by @hotchfiles ↳ Lari knows how to get a sick gal to giggle. I love bau!rossi!reader. I love Rossi as reader's dad, so I enjoyed it more than I thought I would
✦ ignorance by infatuation by @boneblushed ↳ Oh, this one was a nice snack while on my break at work. LOVED IT SO MUCH
✦ hungover by @basketonthedoorstepofthefbi ↳ Mmmm, such a good read! Plus Jemily is there sooooo
✦ from across the bar by @hotchscoffeecup ↳ Evil laugh ensues. A nice cuppa of some good ole kinky stuff
✦ doomed by @hotchfiles ↳ guys, I stopped my car in the middle of driving home just to read it, so it's THAT good. Honestly, I strongly encourage everyone to read all of Lari's works! She's my writer crush, if none of you realized it by now
✦ a bunch of cuties in love by @lavenderspence ↳ hehehehehehe this definitely did not remind me of that one older guy I used to flirt with who had an adorable younger brother that I babysat🤭
✦ schrodinger's cat by @none-of-your-bullshit ↳ angst on a Saturday morning is like taking a shot of soju before 11 am, and this one felt like it <3
how about you also comment your top 3 fave fics for this month to spread more love to our great writers?
#spencer reid#aaron hotchner#criminalminds#criminal minds#dr spencer reid#cm#ssa spencer reid#aaron hotchner fic#aaron hotch fanfiction#aaron hotch x reader#aaron hotch x you#aaron hotchner fluff#aaron hotchner smut#aaron hotch fic#spencer reid angst#spencer reid blurb#spencer reid fluff#spencer reid imagine#spencer reid series#spencer reid smut#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid x you#ker's rec fics
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I was debating whether or not to say this because it makes the vote blue crowd more insufferable but it's telling how no one knows *how* trump is "worse" than biden with his promises about palestine. They mention how he says he wants israel to "finish the job" but biden has been doing everything but outright saying that he wants the Gaza invasion to continue. He doesn't need to say it, he let's it happen. Interestingly, they don't mention how trump took money from the adelson family under the condition that he lets israel "annex" the west bank but rather just focus on nebulous "he's worse because he's the bad guy" type vibes.
I mean this is interesting because it shows that you all have no idea about foreign policy other than just vibes, with no... intent to actually educate yourself about concrete facts. Yet you still expect us to take you seriously politically by just telling us "trump is worse than biden about Palestine" without you even being aware about policy relating to Palestine. How many of you knew about the Abraham Accords when it happened? I literally sat in my car listening to npr the day it happened and cried in the garage of my college. So many of you vote blue people have not seriously followed news about Palestine before and it shows with your flimsy explanations lol.
Do I want a trump presidency? No of course not. But if you're serious about caring for Palestine, you'd make actual arguments instead of these "he's worse than biden" copypasta to try and convince people.
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