#i crave backstory

[fandomfaeofveryfewf4cks]

Okay, but when the train pulls up and Ambrosius is waiting for them with the guards...

Ballister saw Ambrosius' face and then scrambled to hide...

Which honestly seemed a little out of character to me for a second because surely he isn't scared of these guards like that. He's beat their butts in training for most of their lives, right? (At least that's my headcannon)

It had to have been seeing Ambrosius that made him scurry like he's trying to hide from his crush.

More specifically, this is what I think was going on:

*pulls up to the station*

Nimona: We're here! Aww, and so are your friends!

Ballister thinking: shit, is Amby here? Is he mad?

Ballister *peaks out the window*

Ambrosius *major frowny face*

Ballister, who has had to deal with the 'disapproving hubbie face' only once before and hoped to never be on the other side of it again: gaaaah, oh shit, Bae is mad. Bae is very very mad.

I mean, I know they're both dealing with their own versions of feeling betrayed by the other in this scene, but I can't help but think Ballister has definitely seen that face before, (either at him like once or twice, and/or at countless people who had picked on Bal and did NOT live to tell the tale) and developed an instinctual "boyfriend is pissed, oh shit oh shit oh shit" kind of response.

[thefrogwithabagofchips]

In szn 3 I would very much like a tour of each players lockers! I want to see what the little personal items they keep so bad <3

[allthewhumpygoodness]

Whumpees! Calling! Out! For! A ! Parent!!!!

What's the situation? Do they wake up from a nightmare disoriented and confused, enough so that it takes them a second they forget they aren't with their parents and call out to the first person they see, only to be embarrassed a moment later when they realize? Are they so delirious they actually think their dad is there with them when it's really just an unrelated caretaker who's heart is breaking for them? Are they so scared, sick, or in pain that they just really really want their mom and don't care if that's impossible right now?

[taradactyls]

Absolutely obsessed when characters are desperately, wretchedly, in love but can't do anything about it immediately. I want them to yearn with their whole heart, and devote so much of themselves to that love even though it seems impossible at the time. A level of pining that feels like it's going to break them but only makes them stronger.

[crystallizsch]

GOOD MORNING HELP ME

I AM STILL NOT OVER IDIA’S CHIBI JAMIL

HE LOOKS SO HAPPY I WANT TO SHAKE HIM

[mommyesque]

Applause for the power couple !!

[angelvings-archive]

                            heart this for a starter ( or two ) and i'll im you for muse / s 🫶🏻

[arraunean]

I also hope that you love d&d because i will soon post my oldmen yaoi confort characters ( just my married OCs)

[cephonmercury]

i wish more bsd characters backstories were touched on more :/

look at hirotsu, dude is fifty, has probably been in the mafia before most characters were born, knows who knows what about mafia secrets and we barely know anything about him

same goes for kajii, higuchi, hell we still have no idea what’s going on with tanizaki

like they don’t even have to be really expanded on i’m desperate at this point 😭🙏

[rotisseries]

the really fucked up thing about arcane is that it will have you sincerely saying things like "maybe I should download league of legends". satan is speaking to me and he wears the crest of riot games

[mortysmith]

rick becomes super into multiversal travel after prime introduces him to it, very hyperfocused on it and the opportunities it presents (like how the gotron episode establishes that rick can get carried away unless someone reels him in). diane might initially be supportive of this but as rick's appearances around the house become more shoddy, she gets fed up and they separate. after a much more complex deterioration of their relationship obviously rick considers this a win at the time, since he's now free to dick around and do whatever he wants, essentially adopts prime's life philosophy and hangs around him. him and prime would eventually have some sort of falling out, which leaves rick extremely bitter and annoyed. he ends up spending most of his life alone, still living by his pop nihilistic ideals because he thinks this is what he wants. eventually he'd still end up squatting in prime's dimension and realizes that he actually Prefers this family life. his infatuation with prime could develop into resentment when he realizes that he essentially robbed rick of a comfortable, idealistic life

[innerchorus]

Quick and dirty final predictions for Chapter 132:

Kubard intervenes somehow to protect/help Isfan

If that is an undead Shapur and not a sorcerer impersonating him, then a sorcerer is nearby controlling him

TEAM ARSLAN TO CAPTURE THAT SORCERER (we know Farangis is out on the streets, this would be the perfect opportunity for her to assist)

Hilmes to get kidnapped simultaneously??

[telesodalite]

This is a bit random, but I've been thinking about Misfire a lot lately, and it struck me, that with his adhd, the whole implied/hc'd substance use is only sometimes considered as a form of self-medicating? And, idk, I find the concept interesting.

Like, yeah sure, within the canon implications it's just stereotypical stuff, so it can be interpreted as wholly recreational, and whatever one might call accidentally catching a high from blood you've taken from a corpse.

But like, his adhd is emphasized as an important aspect of his character, so surely it's impacted his millions of years worth of life with its symptoms? Both good and bad?

The Decepticons in idw1 are weird, in many ways lol, but in the sense that they're the faction defined by their oddballs and rejects. They're the unwanted, the belittled, the different, the oppressed, the strange, the mad. But at the same time, any deviance from their impossible and ever-changing standards is punishable and looked down upon.

It's a classic, almost frustratingly stereotypical case of a system built against oppression becoming the oppressors. But that's not the point here.

The point is that they opened their arms and offered the idea of freedom to those who felt different from the pre-war standards, who felt belittled by it, or betrayed by it, and promptly went and turned around on these people to make them feel belittled and betrayed and made different from their own new standards.

Abuse, in many forms, runs rampant within Decepticon ranks. From the very top, to the very bottom. Any deviation or perceived weakness is an open invitation for such actions. Throw in the DJD, and there's no escape from it. No way to get out, only fit in and keep your head low, or become the very thing you originally wanted to fight against and be free from.

Substance abuse is mentioned in canon enough to assume that certain amounts of it were almost expected across both Decepticon and Autobot ranks and contingents. But considering the condition of Decepticon standards and communities, it can be assumed to be a bit more rampant in their case.

So, Misfire. We don't have much context for his background and what all he's seen and done.

It's implied he did some spywork, or at least made some cross faction connections during the war with Brainstorm, which might've been a big enough deal that it caught the attention of Skids, because he's aware of Misfire of all people, knows he changed his name right at the end of the war, and considers Misfire somewhat as a nemesis, which, might I remind thee that Skids was part of a secret special operations unit, a secret special operations unit under fucking Prowl!? So uh, possible big interesting stuff that never got explained there.

(The possible spy bit keeps me up at night I swear to god, bcs wtf were all those tiny implications supposed to mean?!? I need to know all the details of that possible spy drama so bad, omg)

Then, we know he "accidentally" killed "a dozen" other cons towards the end of the war, and that he was going to be jailed for it.

So Misfire's life obviously went down the drain before the murdering a dozen fellow soldiers bit, but considering every awful and challenging factor of being a sub-par soldier in the Decepticon army/air force, what kept him from doing something like that earlier on?

More important, what got someone like him through the war? What kept him going? What kept him alive? Well uh... the same thing that kept a lot of Decepticons going I guess. Substance abuse.

Ok so where does the self-medication angle of this whole thing come in Teles?? My answer to that would be, uh, inherently ig.

Because think about it, you're just some kinda weird guy, caught in the middle of one long ass war. You're never good enough, can't achieve the one thing you've been gunning(lol) for, and are just sorta flying by the seat of your metaphorical pants through life. You're a solider, and a victim of systematic abuse because of that, and at some point, you're possibly a perpetrator of that abuse*. On top of all that, you've also got raging adhd during all this stress and trauma, and man, quieting those racing thoughts and numbing that constant buzzing itch in your body probably feels really good when you're escaping your extremely stressful situation for just a bit.

It feels better to be more detached, to be "calmer", less caught up in a hundred thoughts at once, more focused, more in control. Eventually this becomes the subconscious focus of his using to ease the stress. It "fixes" something. Makes things "right". So casual escapist substance use tumbles into substance abuse and addiction.

How this factors into his post-war life, idk, you decide ig.

I figure the scavs being broke and cut-off from others could play a part in Misfire having to wean himself off of whatever substances were most common among his ranks, but he's also probably creative enough to make stuff from whatever they pick up. Anything considered to be "hard stuff" would likely be frowned upon or policed by Krok tho, because of the whole traumatic experience with Roadbuster and his extreme brutality due to perceived Syk abuse.

But then again, the scavs are all still very much cons with vices, and 100% constant sobriety is apprently a challenge or punishment for cons and bots alike post war.

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*(Expanding on that bit via another ramble I had lying around that i thought i'd include)

When considering Misfire's adhd, most things emphasize the hyperactivity and impulsiveness in general without also emphasizing the negative sides.

That moment where he almost punches Grimlock comes to mind a lot.

It could be viewed as just a side-effect of perpetuated Decepticon abuse, a knee-jerk reaction that may have been turned on him during the war for his mistakes, that he in turn expresses towards others "mistakes".

Something to also consider here though, is how the impulsivity of adhd can make violent reactions worse, anger and/or frustration harder to control, and harder to hold back from expressing outwardly or physically, especially if left unchecked or untreated for a long time.

But Misfire stops and takes a second to collect himself before becoming somber as he considers Grimlock's perspective.

This instinctually violent reaction is not something he wants, or likes, and judging by how much time has passed by that point in the comic, this has been something he's been working on and is still working on.

But what about while he was still an active solider? When holding back was seen as a weak or foolish response? How did the impulsivity play into it? After being treated like that himself, struck or beaten for mistakes, at what point did it snap and he found himself standing over another solider as they stared up at him with that same fear and shock and hurt he had felt. How did that affect him to know he was capable of doing that without thought?

Because, ya know, he's done bad things too...

[princess-of-the-corner]

However one interprets her character, Emilie's "Representation" backstory of leaving her rich people home (indicated to be stifling and controlling and a big deal for her to return) to learn and grow and see the world makes her involvement in Adrien being isolated and kept from going to school pretty hypocritical.

YEah......

On one hand, there's the cycle of abuse and continuing what you grew up with not knowing different.

On the other hand, there's her knowing her own situation was fucked but creating the exact situation but worse because since he's a senti Adrien doesn't have an option to escape like she did.

freedom from shitty parents but just for me thanks.

[hisbutleronhiatus]

It has been 8 days since the Kuroshitsuji hiatus was announced.

Frances and Tanaka are reminiscing about old times while they have tea together.

[mcd-brainrot-hours]

i feel like if jesson continued mcd season 3, we would’ve gotten an in depth ro’meave backstory