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I couldn't agree with this more.
Going to make this a soapbox moment for this time because I've thought along these lines for a while but was never able to put it to succinctly and accurately as these two posts.
Like yeah, fuck these people and all of the fear and pain and suffering and outright deaths their cult causes, they deserve to be cussed out and ostracized.
But ultimately... do we want the emotional satisfaction of cussing them out like they deserve?.. Or do we want them to stop supporting their cult, and for that cult to fall out of power and never return?
People are stupid, stubborn, selfish animals, insult them, threaten them for what they vote for and they'll just dig in harder.
I mean just consider if say libertarian tried to convince you to vote their way by calling you insults and calling you a commie and all sorts of things. Now consider if they just had a conversation with them where they laid out their values with minimal judgement. Which one of these two is more likely to get you to consider their point of view?
It's not fucking fair that they don't see it on their own, that they won't register the fear and pain that their support of the ideology causes, and that the insults that I too feel the need to think of will just make everything worse, that the only way to make things better is to try to be far more patient, understanding and graceful than many of them are, in a way that many of us can't.
But that is how it is.
And ultimately we get to decide if we want to pick fights with them wherever we see them because it makes us feel better, or if we want to try to invest the effort to change their minds and try to build a better tomorrow before they all die of old age.
I don't blame anyone for not having it in them and just feeling violent and angry or threatened and afraid or any number of combinations of negative emotions, because you frankly should feel these things with people that support an ideology that has it out for you, but ultimately when it comes to your direct environment and people you interact with online... just try to consider the posts above.
If you decide to have at it anyway, fair enough. But if all things considered you're willing to not get into it with somebody...
Might I give some advice:
Not everyone has (or needs to have) the energy to thoughtfully respond to republicans on the Internet. You do not have to do that.
But some people do, and can. And I think we gotta let them.
An example:
I have a former teacher, I'll call her Grace, who is an incredibly kind woman in her 70s. Devout catholic, had voted for various parties over the years, but has been pretty strictly democrat over the past 15-20 because that aligns with her values of kindness and service.
She shared a post about the pope's recent letter and expressed that she agreed with his concerns about how trump is treating immigrants. A friend of hers commented a long paragraph basically saying "dear Grace I care for you but I don't understand how you can be a Christian and a democrat. Blah blah abortion blah blah gender blah blah drugs."
Grace replied "I'm very busy right now but I am going to respond to you soon with my thoughts". When she did it was an incredibly generous, rational monologue that connected with this person's humanity, their shared religious values, and made a beautiful case for why she supports who she does. I didn't agree with a good half of what she said as I am not a Christian, but the result was an expression of values that I think put her on the side of justice and compassion.
The person replied and thanked her and said she had a lot to think about. It was probably the best case scenario for a Facebook politics conversation
You know what came very close to ruining it? A bunch of (mostly younger) people piling on with "fuck you you racist maga pos" and "no one has to explain anything to you, go to hell" etc etc. Even after Grace wrote that she intended to reply herself.
I watched this republican respond to all the easy, quick insults by saying "this is why I don't think any democrats can be Christian, this is how you all speak to me." If Grace hadn't put so much work into writing her response in a way that was tailored to fit this person, I would not be surprised if that person left Facebook doubly certain that Christian nationalism is the way to go.
I'm not saying we can't cuss out jackasses. I'm not saying everyone needs to respond to bad faith arguments like Grace did or use their time like she did.
But this was on Grace's Facebook page, and interrupted the work she already volunteered to do. Just so these individuals could feel like they "did something" and got a shot off at an enemy.
I think that's selfish and childish and unproductive. They could have said anything they wanted in their own space, but they made grace's job harder for no fuckin reason. And then "loved" her reply and said "that was beautiful Grace, thank you for sharing your thoughts"
Like... Buddies. Pals. If someone volunteers to scrub the toilet fucking let them.
#and obviously yeah there's outright bad actor trolls online that will try to invoke responses#people who are LOOKING for a fight#I'm not saying they all can and should be attempted to be reasoned with#especially on the internet#MAGA trolls intentionally picking fights are not a good target audience for a balanced and understanding conversation#but then remember the first rule of the internet right?#don't feed the trolls.#and I dunno this was just my attempt to chip in#obligatory apologies for politics#but this is one that's important I think#yfrit.txt
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memories of you . rafe cameron
warnings . angst, past lovers, child
wc . 1.1k
leaving the outer banks was the best decision for you and amelia, escaping from the life that you once cherished, now going downhill because of your ex. rafe was stuck in his ways, drinking, drug use, losing his temper, and you knew that it wasn't the best for you or your child. though rafe wasn't happy with your decision, he still let you make your own decision.
it was now years later. you, james, your husband, and amelia were taking a trip back to the outer banks to visit your family. they all knew about your past relationship with rafe and knew that he wasn't the best for you. you two didn't keep in contact, even though he was the father of your child. the last he'd seen you or amelia had been when you finally broke things off with him.
you'd hate to admit it, but there have been days that you missed him. his touch, his presence, his heart before he went down the wrong way. you knew it was wrong. you have a husband, and nice home, a beautiful daughter who is a splitting image of rafe; but you love your life now.
your relationship with james started about a year after you moved out of the outer banks, settling into south carolina, still getting use to the change in pace and surroundings. james worked in real estate, which is how you two met. he took you out to dates, got to know you and your daughter better, and helped you settle into your new home, and years later you two are now married.
james was driving on the familiar road you once knew too well as your childhood home came into view. "mommy, look! it's nana and papa," amelia squealed from the back seat. your mom and dad would drive down to south carolina, knowing that you couldn't come back to the outer banks until you were ready. "i know, baby! are you excited?" you asked, looking at her from the backseat.
amelia nodded eagerly, moving around in her car seat. when james pulled into the driveway, your parents immediately greeted you all, your dad opening the door for amelia, getting her out of her car seat. you laughed with joy, watching the sight in front of you. eventually, everyone got their hugs in, catching up on life, now in the house. you and james were sitting on the couch, listening to your mom talk about the knew things that've happened in kildare.
"you know," she continued, "that old boyfriend of yours got accused for murder again," she said, sighing to herself. you just nodded, your mind drifting off to rafe again. how was he doing? does he know you're in town? does his mis- no. cannot think of him.
♱
you and your little family would stay with your parents for a week, visiting old locations, showing james where you grew up, and more tourist attractions. you had decided to run to the old grocery store you once loved, taking amelia with you while james helped your dad with fixing up the house.
you and amelia were shopping for groceries you would need for the week, foods that she would like, snacks, a few new toys, some things for you and james. you were keeping small talk with amelia, her sitting in the front of the shopping cart. "this is where nana and i shopped when i was your age," you said looking down at her as you two were in the line for checkout. "really? like me?" she asked, her hands playing with your car keys. you nodded, kissing her forehead as it was your turn in line.
after you two finished shopping you exited the store. just as you were leaving you accidentally walked into a man. "i'm so sorry! i wasn't paying atten-," before you could finished, you looked up at the man you ran into. you were taken aback for a moment, your breath catching in your throat as you looked at him. he still looked the same way you remembered before you left, still handsome as ever.
it was rafe.
"no, no, you're fine," he says, looking down at you, saying it quietly. you didn't spare one minute, immediately exiting the store, pushing the cart to your car. you didn't even see if he was following behind you, your heart racing upon seeing him again. you felt like a teenager again, blushing slightly at the thought of him again.
once all the groceries were in the car, you placed amelia in her car seat. just as you were about to get in the driver side, rafe was at your side again. "wait! wait! y/n!"
you turned to face him, your breath catching once again. "rafe..."
he stood in front of you, looking down at your face. you still looked as good as you did when you two first started dating. "can we talk? really quick?"
"i have to get back to my parents," you said quietly. "she needs to eat lunch," you said, directing your attention to amelia to make sure she was okay. she was occupied with her toys in the backseat, not recognizing her biological father communicating with mother again. "she's grown up," he said smiling slightly to himself. "you look amazing," he added, directing his attention back to you.
you nodded, biting the skin on your lip. "thanks.... she just turned 4," you said quietly.
he nods in response. "i know, i remembered." that response just made your heart flutter again. he still remembered it even though you two didn't communicate anymore.
"i can't talk now since i have to go... but maybe sometime this week? i'm only in town for a week though," you said, looking up at him. "james and my parents are waiting."
he nods. "yeah, yeah of course - james... your husband i'm assuming?" he asked, pointing to the ring on your hand. you nodded, moving your hands behind your back. you almost felt ashamed? here was the father of your child and your visible ring from another man was on your finger.
"maybe we can meet up at the park tomorrow ? the one we used to hang out at, maybe around five?" you questioned, opening your car door. rafe nods in response. "okay, great. i'll see you then."
once you got in your car and drove off, you let out the deep breath you didn't know you were holding. you didn't realize how much you missed him until you had a conversation with him again. he visibly seemed to be doing better and you're happy for him. you were looking forward to talking with him, catching up on life, seeing how each other were doing.
would it be at your best interest though?
part 2? this idea was inspired by @issabellec7 so tysm!
#outerbanks rafe#rafe cameron#rafe cameron smut#rafe cameron x reader#rafe fanfiction#rafe fic#rafe imagine#rafe obx#rafe outer banks#rafe smut#outer banks#drew starkey smut#drew starkey#drew x reader
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Roy and Jamie would absolutely accidentally fall into a total power exchange relationship without noticing. One day after 4am training, Roy, without thinking, tells Jamie "The blue headband." And without hesitation Jamie picks the blue headband from his collection that has gathered at Roy's.
And it's the little things, right? Roy is already in charge of Jamie's meal plan, so it just makes sense that he cook for Jamie, since he knows his nutrition plan better than anyone. Roy is already training Jamie privately in the mornings, and with his new role as assistant coach, it just made sense that he paid a bit of extra attention to Jamie and his workouts, and Jamie was known to overwork himself, so it just made sense that Jamie only work out while Roy was around, watching him to make sure he didn't over do it.
And one day on their day off, and Ruth had just picked up Phoebe who'd just spent the day playing in the yard with Jamie while Roy rested his knee and did reports, that something in his mind clicked.
Jamie spent almost every moment of his day with Roy now. He slept over at Roy's so he could sleep an extra 20 minutes before 4am training, and since he arrives to work with Roy, Roy brings him home- his home that is. And Roy tells Jamie to go stretch out while he makes dinner. After dinner, he has Jamie take a proper shower, and while he does, Roy lays out the clothes for Jamie to wear to bed.
And in all that time, months at this point, and at no point has Jamie asked for a night away (and isn't that an interesting thought, that Jamie would ask to go out, ask permission, like he belonged to Roy. And maybe he did in a way) But Jamie *hadn't* which means that Jamie had gone on a date or slept with anyone in months.
"Jamie?"
Jamie looks over from where he's sitting at the kitchen island, hands wrapped around a mug of tea. "Yeah, Coach?"
"Why haven't you gone out on any dates recently?"
And Jamie pauses. He looks, genuinely confused for a moment.
"You haven't told me I could." And Jamie says that as if it's a totally normal thing for your coach to decide when you're allowed to go out on dates.
"What does that have to do with anything?" Roy demands, feeling off kilter in this conversation.
Jamie shrugs. "Ever since I just let you decide what I do, life's just been easier, innit?"
Something dark and possessive curls in Roy's chest at that. He'd made Jamie's life better by being in control. He'd always been overbearing, especially in relationships, but maybe. Maybe they just hadn't been Jamie.
"Do you want me to start going on dates?" Jamie asks, something mischievous in his tone, but there was something else. Hope? No that wasn't right. Desperation, maybe. But for what, Roy didn't know.
"And if I told you no more dates? Indefinitely?" Roy decides to test the limits. How far would Jamie allow him to push?
Jamie shrugged. "Already been doing that, haven't I?"
And Jamie is so smug, looking so proud of himself. Roy has to take him down, just a little.
"What if I told you that you couldn't cum without my permission?" And oh, that's an interesting reaction. Jamie's eyes flutter and his cheeks redden deeply. He swallows before saying "Whatever you think is best, Coach."
And at some point, Roy has entered Jamie's space. He brings one hand, much steadier than he feels, to Jamie's chin. He's taking a risk, as calculated as it is.
"And if I told you only I could make you cum?" And Jamie melts, big eyes looking up at Roy like he held all the answers, and maybe to Jamie, he did.
"Please..." Jamie whimpers, his hands coming to wrap around the fabric of Roy's shirt.
And Roy has to take a deep breath, he needed to think rationally. He steps away from Jamie, and tries not to crumble at the pathetic sound Jamie makes as he does.
"Jamie-"
"Please Roy, I'll be good I promise? And I have been, haven't I? Doing everything you tell me to."
Roy is back, bringing Jamie close to his chest. "Yeah you have, Jamie. I'm not upset with you, never with you my good boy." He pauses. "Not anymore, anyways." He teases, and it works because he feels Jamie laugh.
"I just need to be clear, what we're doing, what we are. Am I just your coach? Or do you want more from me?"
This time it's Jamie who pulls back as he scoffs. "You haven't been just me coach in months." He looks a little bashful. "Always had a thing for ya, even when ya hated me and I lived to piss you off. You've seen the stupid poster in me room back home."
Jamie finally meets Roy's eyes, brave as ever, his boy. "I want to be your boyfriend, or partner. If ya want that too."
Roy smiles, letting Jamie nuzzle into his hand. "That is what I want, Jamie. More than anything."
"And to keep telling me what to do?"
And Roy laughs but nods. "Whatever my boy needs."
And a month or so later, Keely comes over and witnesses how they act with each other at home, and realises that oh my god you idiots are in a TPE relationship and cue Roy doing in depth research, printing out contracts and establishing safe words. Jamie happily does whatever Roy asks of him, just like he always does. And Jamie knows he could've said no at any point in this, in fact he had, when Roy tried to get him to eat mushrooms (he had limits!) but he knows the safe words makes Roy feel better, knowing how much power he has over Jamie. And if it makes Roy happy, Jamie is happy to do it.
#royjamie#ted lasso#tpe relationship#these dummys accidentally enter into a TPE relationship aka season 3#jamie tartt#roy kent#keeley jones#shes so over them but also loves them dearly
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I had no idea you're a professional photographer! I mostly follow your other blog for Corgis - if you posted your work there and I missed it, I apologize.
Your photography is AMAZING and thank you for sharing tips on light!
Bonus if you have time: when did you develop (haha!) interest for it and what's your favorite thing about this medium? ☆
Thank you. I have been trying to go back to my older work and edit things with my current skills and I have been posting that on occasion.
I also have an Instagram which is sort of like my current portfolio until I have the energy to create a proper website.
It's funny you mention corgis because Otis was the reason I got a proper camera. My followers helped me raise the money to get him and I felt like he belonged to everyone. So I wanted to make sure I took lots of photos of his shenanigans for people to enjoy. If they couldn't have a corgi of their own, I wanted them to live vicariously.
I never do anything halfway. I always go quite overboard. I filled my brain with everything I could possibly learn about photography so I could take the best possible photos of Otis.

In the process of doing that, I realized I loved the art form. So even though Otis isn't around anymore, I owe him for giving me this wonderful creative outlet.
I took a long hiatus from photography when my parents got sick and I had to take care of them. Even though I stopped taking photos, I would watch photography education to help me relax. And it felt a bit like that meme of the dude studying the blade. I was learning some very advanced stuff.
Once my parents both passed I found myself with a giant hole in my life. And photography called me once again. I was a bit rusty operating the camera for a day or two, but because I had continued my learning, it all came back pretty quick. And I realized I was orders of magnitude better at photography, lighting, and post processing than I used to be.
My first photoshoot after 7 years was of my aunt and uncle. I didn't have much in the way of lighting equipment (I sold it to help my family), so I bounced a little flash off one of those science fair trifold thingies.


These shots made me realize I definitely needed photography back in my life. I figured if I could do that with cardboard I found at Walmart, I would have great potential with proper equipment. So I'm in the process of building a new studio and getting some new gear so I can show off what I'm capable of now.
I ran into a little medical hiccup a few months ago which put everything on pause. While I'm recovering I'm not really able to take any photos. So I've decided to try and write some photography education and help others with their photographic journeys as best I can. And I am still continuing to learn and planning what I want to photograph when my health is in better shape.
I really want to do high quality animal portraiture. Not just cats and dogs. I want to find other exotic pets too. And I also want to do an art project where I help people take high quality photos of their parents. One of the things I was most grateful for after my folks died was the photos I took of them.


And also this one I took of my grandmother.

Having a really high quality photo of people you love is so important. And I don't think everyone realizes that. So I'm hoping I can help folks capture these important memories.
Oh, my favorite thing. I almost forgot. I would say it is the problem solving. Every photo is a new puzzle for me. Especially if I am working with artificial lighting and modifiers. I enjoy imagining a photo in my head and then going through the process, solving problems, and realizing what I imagined in real life. It's a great feeling.
This photo of my friend Ryan comes to mind. I just had this vision of someone reading in the middle of a forest. And so we dragged lights to my neighbors yard and I taped a flash inside the lampshade.

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A KISS WITH OR WITHOUT YOU
Pairings: Eddie Munson x Fem! Summary: Yours and Eddie's prom night... although you didn't go together, you always find a way back to each other. Warnings: Guess...I dare you.
if you want to listen to the songs then it's 1. Against all odds by Phil Collins. 2. Every breath you take by The Police 3. With or without you by U2 (let's just pretend that song was released in '86 ok?) and bonus 4. Secret love song by little mix. but listen to that first if you're going to listen to them.
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You'd probably think wanting to kiss Eddie was a good idea, that staring at his lips every fucking day might give him a little hint that maybe...just maybe, you like him.
And it did, oh boy did it.
But all that went out the fucking window-
That was, when you asked Gareth to Prom...
Now you think wanting to kiss Eddie is a curse, seeing the glare he sends your way from across the room.
It was awful, but you learnt to deal with it after about 10 or so minutes- or the spiked punch eased your mind.
But he didn't want to go with you, right? that's what he said?
Besides, it wasn't like you and Gareth were going out or anything- this was a friendly date, so he could hang out with his friends ONLY.
You thought Eddie might have been happy, that he could spend the night with not just you and Jeff, but now Gareth, but now you relaise that might have not been a good idea- but thats didn't mean you knew why he was pissed off.
But to Eddie.
Oh, you knew exactly what you were doing.
When Eddie found out you had asked Gareth to go with you, he couldn't be more mad- confused and upset
Because it turns out, apparently, he was reading everything wrong, which might have been expected since he's never been in this situation before- having to read into if a girl likes him or not.
But he really thought you did for a second, he swore that for a moment, just a moment- something could happen.
But it must have just been him and is imaginsation- since it likes to go running off places a lot.
But either way, when he found out, he almost didn't show up
Said a big 'FUCK YOU' to prom before Wayne barged into his room with a suit telling him it was his last one- not that he had gone to last year's- or the year before that- but this was his last chance.
And Wayne was going to get that picture of his nephew in a suit whether he liked it or not
'Seriously?' Eddie had said to him when coming out of the bathroom, suit fitted on his body to well it almost made Eddie sick.
Wayne had only pulled out his camera and started recording, making Eddie roll his eyes and make his way past him, to the livingroom, where Wayne had paused recording to take a few photos.
So, you may think Eddie was pissed at you.
But he was mad from before that, all from when Wayne had asked him:
'Going to pick up that girl?'
The long-haired boy had to stop himself for having ago at the old man, it wasn't his fault he didn't ask you.
He should have.
He had plenty of opportunities, but at that point he was still trying to figure out if you liked him.
As. if.
But Eddie took too long to decide what to respond with, would he lie to Wayne and tell him yes or tell him the truth- but Wayne knew better than that, he could tell by the way his nephew's face fell that he hadn't asked you.
So, Wayne let him leave without a second word.
Nothing but a 'have fun' before Eddie dove off.
So, Eddie wasn't mad at you.
He was just made at you.
Which sounded petty...because it's not just your fault.
but to him.
It was.
It was actually all your fault in his eyes
as said before..you knew exactly what you were doing
He had watched you and Gareth walk into the hall with smiles on your face, your hand attatched to his arm.
Gareth was dressed in a similar suit to Eddie, but unlike the metalhead, Gareth actually wore the jakcet, Eddie's long gone to the back of his chair where he now sat, glaring at you watching the two of you dance.
It was bullshit.
All of it.
Gareth.
This stuffy room.
The blinding lights.
The shitty music that makes him want to go deaf.
This fucking suit that's strangling him and makes breating so hard.
And you.
The most bullshit of them all.
All of this night was pure and utter bullshit
Your arms wrapped around Gareths shoulders, swaying back and forth, with his hands low on your hips.
You looked happy- like you were having fun.
You looked nice.
Pretty
Beautiful
Stunning
Breathtaking
Bullshit. You looked bullshit
You hadn't even seen him this whole night, not a single glance his way that he would think about all night, re-thinking over and over again as he laid awake.
But that's what he thought.
Your eyes drifted towards Eddie for the 50th time in the one hour you've been here so far.
His arms were folded protectively against his chest, his figure slumped in his chair with so many empty punch cups on his table in front of him.
The slight tap of his shoe caught your eye, it wasn't in time with the the song, so you knew it had nothing to do with the music, but probably the pure boredom he was feeling, his face also gave that away.
You hadn't even seen Jeff at all so Eddie was all alone, making your heart softly ache, feeling bad
But it's fine, He didn't want to go with anybody. Besides, no type of Prom would ever be his type of scene.
So alone he continued to sit, watching you dance with a smile on your face.
He should leave; He shouldn't stay drinking the shitty punch from the glass bowls on the 20+ year old tables.
He shouldn't keep watching you, imaginig it's him dancing with you, his hands that rest on your hips, making you laugh, making you smile.
Making you giggle when he accidentally steps on your feet, he's always been a bad dancer- ballroom dancing.
But if you could rocking side to side- he thinks that would be ok, he could do that- he just doesn't want to- not with any girl on this room that either sit alone too or dancing with their date or friend.
To be honest, he hasn't even noticed any other girl- anyone else in this room except you.
There seems to be an infinite empty space that allows you to be in his direct line of sight, your face glowing with your colour shining in the blue light above you
Why is it that everyone else is blurred but you seem so clear? why is it that all he can see is you? the one he doesn't want to see but can't seem to look away.
It was bullshit.
It was just that when the piano of a song echoes throughout the room, everyone's dancing turning even slower than before.
That was When Eddie really felt like leaving.
'How can I just let you walk away? just let you leave without a trace'
It wasn't fair, why you dance with Gareth but not him. You barely even talked to him!
You've been acting weird ever since his graduation party, where you seemed so distant, disctracted about something he couldn't tell- and wouldn't ask.
It was stupid DUstin, spilling his secret that he liked you.
Eddie wondered if you believed it.
And if you did believe it; it made this situation even worse because that would mean you really didn't like him.
And fuck that.
'So, take a look at me now. Well, there's just an empty space, and there's nothin' left here to remind me, just the memory of your face'
That seemed about right, if Eddie was going to be honest.
Which he wasn't, because then he'd technically have to admit he's listened to something that's not metal- even if it was against his will.
He hates to admit it... but it's got him in his feelings-
It wasn't the saddest of love songs- not even the best, really, but it really seemed fitting.
Minus the whole relationship thing.
'I wish I could just make you turn around, turn around and see me cry'
If only you would turn, look at him and smile, thats all he wants right now.
Which is why Eddie stands up and goes to the punch bowl again, pouring himself another glass before sneakily pouring some vodka in his glass.
Cause if he's not going to have fun at this stupid thing, may as well get a little drunk, right?
The sour drink burns his mouth when he takes a swig, grabbing a brownie on the food table and stuffing it in his mouth.
You may think he's eating and drinking his feelings.
But that would be impossible.
because he doesn't have feelings for you.
He doesn't like you.
He doesn't think your pretty.
He doesn't think about you all the time.
He juat needs to get a grip.
Eddie Munson doesn't fall in love.
'Take a good look at me now 'Cause I'll still be standing here'
He turns around to go back to his lonesome table, finding it occupied with Gareth, making out with a girl that is so not you.
The Munson boy frowns, looking around the hall for you, but he doesn't seem to find the light that seems to follow you.
That was until you crept up behind him, your plastic cup filled with the shitty punch
"Hey" you greeted, your eyes stayed ahead, looking to where Eddie's ees were, trained on Gareth making out with a girl you have never seen before.
You wonder where she came from, but actually, you didn't care.
You had a good time with him- but he was the one that decided that you should have more fun- that you would have more fun with the guy you actually wanted to go with.
So, in the middle of the last song, Gareth had to bring Eddie up
"So, do you actually like him or not?" Gareth had asked you, his hands loosening against your hips.
"Do I like who?" you questioned, an eyebrow raised at his words
"Eddie...I mean- everyone at hellfire kind of sees it- and he thought he did...I think he's confused" the junior spoke, a shrug on his shoulders when he tried to figure you out.
"I don't know what you're talking about, Gare" you sighed, looking away.
Your eyes drifted to Eddie, who wasn't in his seat, instead, you found him spiking the punch when Principle higgins looked away.
Of course, he was the one to do that.
"Well... he wanted to go with you, y'know?" Gareth squinted, his hands dropping from your sides
"If he wanted to go with me, he would have asked- or not tell me he didn't want to go with me" You huffed, looking away from Eddie just as your mind pictures you kissing him again.
"Eddie's not like that... trust me.. He might not have asked...but that doesn't mean he didn't want to go with you- we all know what he said after Dustin said all that shit that Eddie was speaking out of his ass... and if i remember correctly, he never said he didn't want to go with you- you said that.. that's what he told me" He put his hands up defensively and took a step back before you had a go at him for the last bit of his little speech.
But why would you? what he said was correct, you were the one that said you wouldn't
"I mean, it’s not like I wanted to go with you anyway." I beleive you said, actually.
So maybe your mind was playing tricks on you, that you had imagined he told you those words.
That you convinced yourself he didn't want to go with you.
Which is when Gareth smiled tightly, letting you go to his friend.
"go...we both know you want to"
So, you looked over to where Eddie was once more, finding him stuffing his face in with a brownie.
How could something so gross look so cute?
That was the Eddie Munson effect.
And it was an understatement to say you fell for it.
For him.
Which is why you did what Gareth told you.
Which brings you here, right next to the guy you've probably pined over since the 'date' at the fair, but haven't realised it.
"Hi" He grumbled, confused as to why you're next to him, and your date- well... being someone elses date.
"looks like he's having fun, right? happy for him" you spoke, rolling on your heels, forgetting that you are seriously wearing heels and practically trips over before he's quick to catch you
"you alright?" He asks
you nod as the next song echos through the hall
"Every breath you take, and every move you make, every bond you brake, every step you take I'll be watching you"
You smile when you look up at Eddie, sheepishly standing up straight, consiously patting down your dress.
He looked good, you had to admit it
His hair was messily tied up into a bun, his frizzy curls esaping the elastic that tied it together, the pressed shirt did well to fit his figure, tightening well around his biceps. But what caught your eyes wwas the way his tie matched your dress perfectly.
Almost the exact shade to your dress, but with an embroided floral design barely noticeable until you really look at it.
It was a coincidence, you hadn't told anyone what colour dress you were wearing, and that tie seemed to be quite old- Like Wayne had kept it in a cupboard for this exact event for 5 or more years, so would it be silly to think it was fate?
It had to be.
"Oh, can't you see, you belong to me, how my poor heart aches, every step you take"
"You wanna dance?" You nodded to the dancefloor, a hopeful tone laced in your voice.
"Not really a dancer" He replied
Eddie was still a little confused, why were you next to him? why were you talking to him.
But he couldn't help the smile that rose to lips when you asked for some of the achohol in the flask he kept in his suit jacket.
He went over to the table where Gareth was still making out sloppily with the random girl to get his jacket.
He reached into the inside of the pocket and looked around before taking the small metal bottle out and pouring a little into your red plastic cup.
You grinned as you took a sip, feeling the sting at the back of your throat
"Oh god that makes it even worse" you groaned, caughing for air
"good, isn't it?" He chuckled
You hummed and nodded when Eddie looked around.
then silence fell between you two
'Since you've gone, I've been lost without a trace
I dream at night, I can only see your face
I look around, but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold, and I long for your embrace
I keep crying, baby, baby, please'
You looked to the photo booth area and nudged him
"Did you take any photos?"
He shook his head "nah...it was too long of a line when I got 'ere"
You took him by his arm and practically dragged him over to the area, ingoring his protests
"In ten years, you'll thank me... you need at least one photo to remember tonight!" you giggled
But Eddie didn't exactly want to remember tonight.
Not when tonight was the night you danced with someone that wasn't him.
Not when tonight was the night he was supposed to spend with you.
But if you asked him to take a photo with you, he'd do it, which is why he is now in front of a camera, a cheesy themed background in the back as he smiled cheesily
Your hands were clutched into his bicep, leaning into his side with your own grin on your lips.
If anyone would look at this photo, they'd think you went together, and that thought made Eddie's heart clench
You took four photos in total, two being a little goofy, but the other two sweet and collected.
After the photos you found your shoulders slump, you thought it might have been better than this, more fun.
"wanna get out of here?" You pointed behind you to the door once you were standing still for a moment, standing in front of the dancefloor.
He was silent for a moment, making you glance up at him, finding his eyes already on yours.
His eyes were soft, yet hard.
Warm, yet cold.
Wide, yet squinted.
You didn't know what he was thinking in the moment until he spoke, finding the perfect time in the song where it went quiet for just that split second.
He found the perfect time to speak his mind.
To ask you something that has hung on his lips, waiting to be spoken for a while now.
He found the perfect time between everywhere and nowhere to tell you how unfair this is.
And how much it's affecting him.
Just not directly.
But he stopped himself.
The lights blinded Eddie as he opened his mouth and closed it again, the flashing blues and purples dancing around the room and tainting everything.
"wanna raid the food first?" he smiled mischievously, stepping towards the dessert table, filled with cupcakes and brownies and cookies, your mouth watering at the sweet taste that hasn't event reached your mouth yet.
You nodded and he grinned wickedly, grabbing you hand and whispering
"ok... I go cupcakes, you go cookies and brownies. go, go, go!" he drags you to the table and takes a plate of nicely decorated cupcakes as you pile your hands with the gooiest and fudgiest of brownies and cookies, runnign away when a teacher comes to choo your both away and scold you.
"Get back here!" Miss O'donell points at you both as you dodge the couples on the dancefloor while Eddie grabs a few cups that look like some sort of pudding with fruit.
If it looked good, he's going to get it, you best believe
But you both made a bee line for the exit, running to the parking lot where he leads you to his van.
It was cleaner in there.
no mess on the floor, although still smelled like weed.
But the sweet smell of the desserts in your hands did well to mask it.
Made you hungry, but at least not sick.
he puts thetwo cups in the small holder in the middle and the plate of cupcakes on the dash, you following his actions as he turned on the car.
If you weren't surprised by the clean state of the van, you were definitely surprised that instead of the blasting metal music that almost made you go deaf playing straight away, the radio was on, the faint hum of 'with or without you' starting to play.
It was warm in the van, but especially hot in the way you were burning up with how Eddie was looking at you.
For the first time, Eddie didn't look bothered by the song playing.
It wasn't metal, or any guilty-pleasure blues that reminded him on his mum.
It was a cheesy, romantic love song.
Although he didn't seem to know it, you liked the effort he put in to make you think he did when he started tapping his foot.
'You give it all, but I want more... and i'm waiting for you, with or without you, with or without you'
It's been a while since you were alone with Eddie.
It's nice, a little awkward but the way he lips curve into a smile, you know it's ok.
It'll be ok.
Eddie's breath caught in his throat, and for a brief moment, it felt like time slowed down completely.
You just had to look so pretty in your frilly dress with puff sleeves, you had to look so beautiful with the bush on your cheeks and eyeshadow on your eyes.
You just had to look so stunning.
His eyes searched yours, uncertainty flickering in the depths of them, and then- he moved, practically without thinking.
his hand reaching up to gently brush a strand of hair from your face. His fingertips lingered on your skin, warm and trembling, as if testing the waters.
Your eyes made their way to his lips again- just...looking.
It was harmless, really.
It wasn't as if you were going to prance yourself onto him and just pull him into a breath-taking kiss, knocking teeth and heads together.
But...
You did.
'I can't live...with or without you'
Capturing his lips with yours in a bold, searing kiss, you met him in the middle.
In that moment, every unspoken doubt, every bit of fear and longing, seemed to vanish as if it were burned away by the intensity of the kiss.
Eddie’s eyes widened in shock, but then, as if the tension had finally reached its breaking point, he melted into your kiss. His hands, which had been trembling moments before, now roamed with hesitant urgency, pulling you closer as if trying to hold on to this sudden, overwhelming connection.
The kiss deepened, becoming less tentative and more insistent- an explosion of everything you’d both been holding back.
For those few stolen seconds, the world around you disappeared. All that mattered was the heat between you two, the way his lips fit perfectly with yours, the unbridled intensity that made every nerve in your body come alive.
And even though you both knew that nothing had been certain until now, that kiss seemed to say, with or without words, that maybe you were both ready to give in to those feelings.
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Yes, finally- I thought I' hand it to you since it's been a while, to which i apologise.
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i love to do this kind of stuff, it's so fun. i made two swords bc i couldn't decide which vibe i wanted for the sword, so here.
i was thinking it was the sword belonged to some kind of merperson warrior, and the second belonged to a fairy warrior? idk but i like the first one better.
these are trying times, come make a blade with me ⚔️

i did dual blades because i am extremely indecisive ! 🤍
no pressure tags : @keeper-of-my-heart @oooohno @nina-ya @a-girl-cant-decide-on-a-name @luffysprincess @djarinova @txmxkis @mrs-kurooo @izvmimi @mandiemegatron + YOU !!
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I love your scenarios and hcs, I'm especially obsessed with the ones where the yanderes experience intense regret for (parts of) what they've done, like the cheating hcs for Kisaki and Ran or that excellent one of Mikey with an insecure darling who tries to leave him. Ough, the anguish, the regret, it's everything. So can I ask for maybe some headcanons for yandere Rindou, Inui, and Mitsuya who have achieved their dreams of being with their darlings but it's not all they made it out to be - one way or another, they've broken their darlings, and now they find that they don't like it at all. Thank you so much!
I AM SO SORRY ABOUT THE DELAY
WARNINGS: MINORS DNI, PHYSICAL ABUSE, MURDER, SUICIDE, KIDNAPPING, AND POSESSIVE BEHAVIOR
Rindou Haitani
He regretted it the moment he brought you back to his place. Thankfully his brother and him shared the pent house suite of a large luxury building and had plenty of room and privacy. Still, watching you throw things at him and cry about how much you hate him is basically torture.
At first when you quieted down and stopped with all the dramatics he was relieved. Maybe you were starting to get used to your environment?
No you were plotting an escape attempt and lulling him into a false sense of security. And you try again. And again. And Again. And fucking again. Until finally he took his brother's advice...
"I don't want to do this," He whispered in your ear as his grip on your limbs tightened, "It's just... I have to keep you from leaving..."
SNAP! Goes your legs. Don't worry he'll feed you and help you do everything you need to do. He'll even help with physical therapy! When he decides he can trust you enough to not run.
You're quieter now. Sure, you flinch any time his hands get near you and you're suddenly a shaking mess whenever he walks in the room. It's just nerves though. You'll get better, right?
Ran has to come over to help keep him together. It's honestly a disturbing sight to behold. Watching Rindou brush his S/O's frail hair, helping her get dressed and feed her. It's like he's playing with a doll...
"It's ok, baby. You're just... sick. That's all. You're just sick and I'm going to make you better again."
Inui Seishu
You're a childhood friend he's adored ever since you moved in next door. After the fire though, you stayed in touch. Or at least you tried. You called, you wrote letters you even tried going through Koko, but he just kept you at distance.
Years passed, he fell in with a bad crowd and you tried to move on. But you never really forgot your friend... Which is why when you ran into him, gang uniform and all you just smiled and tried to talk to him like he was the same kid you grew up with.
And Inui feels everything he felt for you and tried to push down rushing back up. You're so warm and kind. He wants that for himself. No he needs it.
Which is why when he's dragging you back to his place and locking you chain and all to his bed he's sure you'll understand. Inui has needed you so badly, and he's been so alone and suffering. You'll make it better though right?
But it was like the very air around you was poison. He's watching you slowly start to fade and wither. Your complexion is terrible, you won't take a brush to your hair, getting you to fucking eat is a fight.
It slowly starts to drive him insane. What happened to the woman that danced all night with him? Where is his love that would laugh and smile at him? When was the last time he actually heard your voice?
Inui is convinced you're some kind of imposter. You couldn't possibly be the same girl he loved all these years.
With rough hands wrapping around a delicate neck and squeezing so tightly he whispers; "I don't need a fucking fake to love."
Mitsuya Takashi
OOF. Taking you was a challenge. It was only because you refused to marry him... "I've got my whole life ahead of me. You're just starting out on your career. Now just isn't a good time." But Mitsuya wasn't going to wait a second longer to be with you forever.
He knew you'd fight him, but you're not strong as he is. And honestly, your escape attempts are pretty much thwarted every time. He's smarter than you.
Its... Impossible to get away from him... And eventually you loose all hope. But it's ok. You'll hang in there. When he finds you, limp and dangling from the ceiling fan he doesn't believe that you're gone.
When you left you took whatever sanity he had left. Because he keeps you. Your corpse. He's crafty and resourceful so stuffing and embalming you is easy work. And he makes sure his favorite doll is only dressed in his finest works.
"How about this, darling? I think the pastels go lovely with your new complexion. Don't worry about your stitching either. I'll make sure you don't break apart again."
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hello traincat!!!! just recently gone through my spideytorch rabbit hole again. only now it is worse. and i’m actually considering writing fics about those two losers…
i LOVE your villain!peter fic, and i have seen a few other premise where peter is the Spider. but now its got me thinking and now i have brainworms of villian!johnny. i think of johnny and he will always be that sincere idiot that always puts others needs before his own. maybe if i break him enough mentally….. hmm decisions decisions….
thoughts?
also ur the bestest ever and i spent valentines giggling and reading your fics… i hate those stupid losers(i am obsessed with them…)
Thank you for reading my fics! I hope you had a good Valentine's Day. 💖
So it's my opinion that you can push pretty much any character into villain territory, you just need to figure out the right buttons to push. Some are admittedly easier than others. With Peter, for The Spider and the Last Spark, I had a very definite breaking point in mind. Spoilers for my own fic but the Spider's universe is a canon divergent version of 616 where, during Civil War, the Kingpin's assassin succeeds and murders both Mary Jane and Aunt May before Peter reaches the motel room.
This wasn't a totally original idea or anything. What If? Back in Black goes in a similar direction, killing off MJ, although its Peter is ultimately less successful than mine. I decided to kill off Aunt May too to completely strip Peter of any positive influence, including his own universe's Johnny, who died as a result of the attack he suffers at the beginning of Civil War.

I also took a lot of inspiration from What If? Grim Hunt, where Peter ultimately doesn't back down and decides to kill Kraven. (Notably my inspiration for his costume -- the black suit sans the mask -- was from Grim Hunt, and also his regular collection of slutty, slutty bathrobes.) The regular Grim Hunt makes a prediction via Madame Web that if Peter did kill Kraven, it would set him on a path where he wouldn't be able to stop killing, which is something Peter himself muses on in Spider-Man: Friends and Enemies. So I had a lot of canon information to use as a foundation.
(What If? Grim Hunt) "You killed someone." "I did that for you too!" Haha. Love him. What a freak. The other big thing I was considering with Peter was his personality flaws and how I could magnify those. Peter's big thing is responsibility, which on the flipside means he often assumes responsibility for other people. The ugly flipside here is control. Peter loves to be in control of a situation, and why wouldn't he? He's the strongest, fastest, and usually the smartest person in any civilian room he walks into. That's a big power rush. So take someone who is angry and grieving, who had that control stripped away from along with any positive influence in his life all in one night -- that's a powder keg.
(ASM #542)
Regret was a big factor for my Spider, too. Regret that he couldn't protect MJ, Aunt May, Johnny. Regret over his dead child. Regret that he didn't provide a better life for MJ when she was alive. My goal was to work from a place of pain and transform it into this little kingdom of control. Peter's not powerful enough to take over, say, the world, but he could take over New York and hold it as his own sovereign territory, especially with how broken the community was during Civil War, and especially with a big show of power, which was why I had him kill the Hulk. (Whether or not Peter could kill the Hulk in canon is a debate I'm not interested in. What's important is that Peter does canonically state that he's figured out a method to kill the Hulk, and I absolutely believe that he believes he could do it.)
So how do we apply this method to Johnny? It's a little bit trickier, because I don't have a clear breaking point in canon where I'm like, okay, if we shifted X, Y, and Z, I could see this being a springboard into supervillainy. Johnny is, at heart, an extremely kind and moral character. He's also not self-motivated the way Peter is -- Johnny functions as part of a team, and when he explores things on his own they tend to be hobby related, like racing and pop stardom. He's not usually an independent actor.
On the other hand, we can use that to our advantage. "If you break him enough mentally" sure, that works, but how are we going to do that? My first thought again is to strip the support system. I think Ben in particular has to go -- we see how Johnny spirals when he and Ben aren't on good terms. (Take "has to go" however you want for your individual context. I don't think it strictly has to mean killing characters off. I had to separate Flash from Peter in The Spider and the Last Spark and I had him lead the rebel army.) Reed and Sue, I think there's wiggle room. Is either of them a villain? Johnny's easily influenced by his loved ones, especially when he's young. If you want to play into his naivete, I think there's the beginnings of a villain route there.
Alternatively, we can play into the destructive nature of Johnny's powers. I talked a little about Claremont's take on the origin story recently, where Johnny absorbs the heat from the shuttle crash and then immediately goes Nova. The only reason Sue and Reed survive is that Ben covers them. But traditionally, Ben isn't rocky until a few moments after the crash. What if his own transformation hadn't taken place yet? Ben still covers Reed and Sue, but it's not enough, and Johnny accidentally kills his family. Add in the more modern Fantastic Four origin approach where the Four are held, at least temporarily, by the military, and you've got an isolated, guilt stricken Johnny who is facing his worst fear: being alone.

(Fantastic Four #214)

(Fantastic Four: First Family)
That's easily enough to break him. I think you could write a villain!Johnny based solely on this. But again, Johnny's not a very independent actor. So some kind of outside influence is immensely helpful. Another supervillain? Someone with other motivations who sees a deeply lonely, emotionally scarred young man with enormous power, and recognizes someone easy to manipulate? Would Johnny even care if he was being manipulated at that point?
Which brings me to the big thing with Johnny for me. What does Johnny want most in the world? He wants to be loved. And while I think a solo Johnny villain story is interesting, part of me is always a little bit committed to the idea of villain couple Peter and Johnny. (Which is what the Spider was clearly trying to swing in The Spider and the Last Spark.) Johnny, lost, directionless, craving the affection that Peter has to give in spades, and Peter, with the capability to be protective and devoted, but who also becomes infatuated at the drop of a hat. Peter, obsessive. Johnny, yearning. A huge hole in both of their hearts that's never quite filled. So yeah, why not take over the criminal underground? It's not like they have anything else to do on a Saturday night.
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As someone who got into AEW via fixating on MJF and has spent the last eight months obsessed with Hangman and Swerve this upcoming feud was made for Meeeee and I cannot Wait to watch MJF beat the snot out of Hangman's hypocritical face in person in a couple weeks.
There are so many layers to this feud and things they could have made the core, but the one they're going with is Authenticity? No. Even better. It's Verisimilitude. Possibly my favorite word in the English language: having the appearance of truth. It's not about who's most Real. Things that are verasimiliar are often not factual but portray a Truth, like a fake blood on TV that's the wrong color because humans don't want to believe that real blood is that candy coated firehouse red, they want something more sensual with a bit of chocolate syrup mixed in to make it darker. It's about what, and in this case Who, Feels Most Real and is therefore most deserving of our appreciation.
Is it the bullied little boy who never had a friend and shoved everyone away before they could hurt him first and who just desperately wants unconditional love, and who has been rejected every time he tries to reach for it from the audience, mentors, mentees, fiances, & his one and only friend? Who opened himself up to the world and tried to grow, to improve, to let himself be vulnerable one more time in the spots he knew were softest only to have everything he loved and valued ripped away.
Or is it the other ball of self-esteem issues, the anxiety riddled ball of imposter syndrome that has whittled itself down to a core that has always been there, of burning Rage at himself and the injustices of the world around him that he has allowed to consume and isolate him, feeding his worst tendencies for addiction and obsession.
The relationship both have with the audience is Insane, and neither is healthy. They both obsessively need us and shape their entire identity around what the world thinks of them, while insisting to themselves and us that they aren't. They're just aware of their responsibility as a champion, or no longer going to care what people think, but somehow those 'I don't care what you think' protests only last so long and they're caught up in obsessions over audience chants and signs against them again.
And then there's the Swerve of it all. My 'Swerve the Realest'. The Other Man who just about one year ago also had the audience decide 'yes, you're a heel, but you're so damn cool we've decided you can do whatever the fuck you want'. Swerve, genuinely, did nothing wrong. Except... He lost at Revolution, and stood in a ring, in front of Tony Shiavone, and admitted, "I've done some pretty terrible things here" and "I'm not a good person... But for the first time ever it felt like people were really rooting for me."
Swerve, as far as we know, has never lied to the audience. He's beaten up teenagers, broken and entered, broken arms, and left things out, but never lied. He is Swerve the Realest.
Meanwhile Hangman, who raged that "[Swerve] never paid for it, and they loved him for it" is now having crowds cheer itemized lists of his crimes from an irate MJF, and staring him in the face telling him that he's never run from his problems (which has been his entire arc) or ever once lied to the audience, all while he wears the same outfit through Feb 2025 he wore March 2nd 2024, the day before Revolution last year, when he first hobbled to the ring on a crutch, told the audience he was always truthful with them, that he couldn't compete the next day. Then when Swerve came out and listed his own crimes flat out to Samoa Joe the day before his first title shot, Hangman beat him unconscious with the crutch, showing he'd been fine, and screaming an apology later for lying but saying he would Rather Die than let Swerve win it himself, and Rather Die than not win it himself.
The next day he tapped out to Samoa Joe. Y'know. Like a Liar.
#hangman adam page#maxwell jacob friedman#swerve strickland#aew#aew revolution#monty rambles#oh also gabe kidd is showing up something something his noncon face turn
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Love and War.
Pairing: Dean Winchester X Y/N Singer
Blurb: You must've read a lot of enemies-to-lovers, let me show how someone can be your lover and enemy . . .
Warnings/Trigger Warnings (18+): language, gore, major and minor character deaths, break up, major angst, surprise ending, the Supernatural Wars (TSW) spoilers.
Song Inspiration: Love and War by Fleurie.
Prompt: "Nothing is fair in love and war."
Challenge: This is a flip POV challenge but can be read as a standalone one-shot! To read this same chapter from the reader's perspective, head on over here. Original plot credits of this first chapter go to my dear friend, Hepza on Wattpad. Go and show her some love 🥰.
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Love and War.
The metal hit the floor, clanging in the loud silence.
'You were never good with swords,' I bragged, shrugging with my free arm. Her formal cold smirk disarmed my heart just as much as I had disarmed her of all protection.
'That's why I brought reinforcement,' she smiled with a sinister nonchalance. Her backup emerged from the tree line: Charlie with an archery set, poised in a shoot-to-kill position.
As dread and agony pushed beyond the other emotions, a futile plea pressed past my lips. 'Princess—'
'No, you don't get to call me that,' she barked with such acid that it burned my heart.
'Y/N—'
'Put your sword down,' she cut me off once again.
I vanquished the control of the weapon. Charlie kicked it out of my reach and into my lover's hands.
A lover that had turned into my enemy.
'That's it?' my voice quieter than I'd like it to be. 'You are going to throw all that we had out the window – just like that?'
I should be more raged, more bitter, I should probably be yelling at her for what she did, for what she is doing – but I can't. I can't be mad at her without knowing why she did what she did. I just love her too much.
'Oh, no,' she calmly raised her head high, her expression of stark hate – the same eyes that couldn't not hold love when they used to look at me – the same face I've woken up to for as long as I can remember, the same girl whose love has consumed my every cell to the point that I won't know how to live without her anymore.
But she seemed to have no problem turning on me.
'You already did me that favor when you decided to hunt me down for your father, Your Highness,' she snarled.
'How did we get here?'
A few days before . . .
I was in the middle of a presentation, stating a common point, when the doors to the meeting hall were rudely opened to one of the most blunt, and annoying brats I'd ever set my eyes on: Y/N Singer.
'Your Highness,' the guards addressed, looking about nervously, probably worried about their job status after this – and if I knew Bobby any well, which I did – they were probably wondering if they were gonna survive the day.
But I could honestly not care less as my eyes drew to the rugrat of the girl His Majesty Robert Singer liked to call a daughter. She was amusingly in her nightly undergarments, unafraid of the stares and the jaws she dropped as she stepped into one of the most formal meetings, amongst the most esteemed kingdoms from around.
'Bullocks,' Bobby harshly mumbled under his breath.
'Your Majesty,' one of the two guards that seemed to have been chasing the princess breathed out, 'we tried to stop the Princess, but she . . .' he trailed away, unable to find proper words, also busy panting – he probably had had to run after her.
She'd do that to you. She was one of the better warriors I had met in my life while traveling the world. She was definitely fitter than the poor bodyguards that seemed to have been assigned to keep her away.
Stopping her is like stopping a tsunami dead in its tracks – it's impossible. That's one of the reasons why I love this annoying brat.
'I got this,' Bobby groused – he didn't, but okay. 'Now go and do your damn duty.' He turned to his daughter (this is going to be fun to watch), 'Y/N, what are you doing here in your . . . ' he tried to bring a polite statement into fruition, and was failing miserably.
'My undergarments,' she supplied, unabashedly. And I had to hide my proud smirk behind my hand as all the nobles began exchanging awkward and uncomfortable looks. Some of the ladies were jealous, and some of the men resisted to check my girl out.
Not that I minded – she was indeed a sight to look at.
'Let me see,' Y/N continued, 'I woke up and the first news I received was, Your Eminence has canceled our breakfast together. So, I was wondering what made you ditch our daddy-daughter date; and here you are, canoodling with your comrades.'
Her eyes swept over the table, her gaze tainted with slight resentment, and suddenly I had to stop myself from rolling my eyes till I could see my brain.
I knew how much she cherished the time she got to spend with her father, especially after what happened to her mother – Bobby was the only family she had. And I loved that she held onto that with everything she had. But her methods sometimes were slightly . . . crass, for the lack of a delicate word. She lacked the tact she needed to get things done her way.
Sometimes it was adorable, sometimes I just hated it.
It was a little bit of both right now. Even though it was adorable: her reckless courage and her flaunted beauty – I was in the middle of speaking about, as she calls it, "the damn Dam" – one of the most important projects our countries ever took up.
'Here, put this bloody robe on,' the King huffed, extracting himself from it and draping it over his daughter's modesty.
She slapped the robe off of her, crossing her arms and humphing with one of the cutest angry pouts I'd seen her sport – okay, maybe I was over the fact that she interrupted us and now I was enjoying this a little too much.
'Not until we sort this out.'
'Gentlemen, give us the room please,' Bobby intoned in a resigned manner.
Everyone, relieved, scraped their chairs across the floor, dragging themselves away from the room when Crowley stated: 'Well, I don't mind staying for the show.'
Y/N rolled her eyes, as mine own narrowed at the bastard. I mean, same, but come on!
'Not now, Crowley,' chastised the father, then turning his elderly stern gaze towards me, a silent order written in them to shoo the people away so that none could become prying ears.
After depositing them on the other side of the door, I stood back to eavesdrop myself.
'Listen, my dear, you can't walk into a royal meeting like this and demand we have a meal together.'
'And you can't ditch me like a prom date, then have a tea party with your friends.' She paused, composing her wits into reasoning, 'Never let anyone treat you like a damsel in distress, or anything less – you taught me that, Daddy.'
I smiled at her, even though she couldn't see me, and decided it was time I let my presence be known.
'Sometimes you make me wonder – did I make a mistake raising you like a boy?' he was saying just as I pushed the door in.
'For what it's worth, Your Majesty, I find the hubris of our Princess very gallant,' I found myself saying in a formal format, a smirk playing with my lips, as Y/N shoot me a "not-funny" look.
Oh, look who's talking.
'If only her future groom would agree to that,' the King tiredly said, a small smile on his face, one that I returned with a tight one on mine.
'Now, if you are done with this jibber-jabber, Your Majesty, I would like to know how you're making up to me for my loss,' she asked with authority.
Bobby smiled down at her fondly, 'I will make it up to you tonight, Princess. Promise.'
'I'll appreciate it if you keep to it,' she said.
'Of course,' he confirmed. 'Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a bunch of Royals to threaten for their lives in case they have any ideas of leaking what happened here.'
We both chuckled, and he shot me a look over her head – a silent warning that the threat applied to me too. I simply nodded.
'Dean, do you mind escorting my idjit daughter back to her room?' Bobby raised his brow at me.
'Dad, I can—'
But I cut the gorgeous e/c-colored Princess off, 'Not at all. It would be my pleasure, Your Majesty.' And my hand quickly gripped her arm before the protests I knew were begging to be told could leave her mouth.
I could feel her orbs boring into my back as I dragged her away, but if she was going to be stubborn – so was I.
Our rapid footsteps led us to her bedroom hallway, and as soon as I knew all the eyes were off us, I swiftly bent down to put her across my shoulders like a sack of potatoes, a grin tugging on my face as she squealed in surprise – her reaction the only reason why I did it in the first place. She was too nauseatingly cute when she was taken off guard.
'Put me down, Winchester!'
There were no signs of compliance until after we were inside her bedroom where I let her to her feet gently, speaking soon as our eyes met.
'Really?' I wondered incredulously, 'Ambushing a royal meeting by waltzing in your undergarments – you got some nerve, Princess.' I teased, the title meaning more than just that within the safe confines of her room.
It was the term that I used to refer to the fact that she had me wrapped around her little finger like the Princess she was. And I love her to bits for everything she is.
God, I'm screwed.
'I am a Singer, my love,' she goaded. 'It is in the blood.'
Fair enough.
I took her hand to twirl her around, letting her fingers go from mine so that she stumbled towards her wardrobe. 'Now get dressed,' I commanded in that voice she said did things to her.
She sifted through her clothes landing on one of the familiar morning gowns.
'No, not that,' I chided, 'you wear that too often.'
My eyes shifted to the mirror on the side; I started to fix my hair which seemed to have lost its lusture like I had lost my will to live after that goddamn meeting – sure, it was important, but dammit, if it didn't make me want to kill myself out of boredom.
'Fine,' she grumbled, putting it back for an alternative choice. 'How 'bout this?'
I glanced over, grinning for she had brought up another number she looked mighty fine in. 'Yellow suits you, sweetheart.'
She nodded before staring at me – a look that I took too long to realize than I'd like to admit – was ordering me to turn for some privacy. But then, perhaps, I wanted to ignore that look. But she refused to budge.
Oh, come on! I thought to myself, 'What, it's nothing I haven't seen before.'
She kept staring at me dryly till I gave up.
'Alright, alright!' I sighed internally, surrendering as I turned to instead gaze at the door. So much for that.
Anyways . . . 'So, daddy-daughter date. Really?' It wasn't the fact that she liked to do it, it was the fact that she actually chose to utter these words. If that didn't deserve a face, I don't know what did.
'Hey, it's a work in progress,' she protested, shuffling her limbs to get changed.
I scoffed, shaking my head, once again realizing how annoying she had been before, well. 'How I fell for you, escapes me, Princess. You are—'
'Enticing,' she suggested, with a smile in her tone.
I felt her tap on my shoulder. I turned to her, a smile on my face, as a chuckle left me. 'That's not the word I was looking for, but I won't complain,' I teased.
'Quit flirting and help me with this, De,' she reprimanded, turning about to display her unlaced corset.
My fingers pulled at the strings, but the smile never left me. 'Is it enough?'
'A little bit tighter,' she requested. I heeded. She said, 'So, how is the Dam Construction project?'
'Kicking our asses,' I murmured, working on tying off the loose ends.
'Yeah, I barely saw my father during the last couple of months, and of course, you . . . I feel like I forgot your face,' her tone is sad.
And I feel bad.
She is right. We'd had barely gotten time to ourselves these last few months and all because of this stupid project. Well, not stupid – but still. The disagreements just keep on piling and I just want is to get this over with – probably one of the reasons why I've been pushing to dedicate more of my time to this instead of other things.
For now, though, I'll settle for some humor. 'What are you talking about?' I try to sound playfully offended. 'You could never forget a face like mine.'
She ignored my clear self-appreciation, 'However, I do appreciate what you guys do.'
'Yeah, it's gonna help a lot of people. The river can replenish many monarchies. Kids don't have to walk miles to get water if this project is finished,' I end with a deep sigh. I really want this to work – helping people is what I'm passionate about, but the lack of enthusiasm my stick-in-the-ass colleagues share has been grating on my nerves.
'When you finish it,' she corrected me softly.
'Only if it's as easy as it sounds,' I complained.
'My love, you people are constructing a historical monument that is going to gather a primary waterfront and spread it across to regions that don't have access to it. It is obvious it is hard.'
'Not just the labor, sweetheart, some of the Kings are rebelling at the last minute: not to share water with the half-breed domains,' I huffed, now helping her with the gown.
'Some of them as in . . . '
'Gordon,' I finished for her, adjusting the wrinkles on her dress for her.
'Bingo,' she said as if she'd had that pegged.
She handed me the necklace I gifted her after I was done. It was my one-year anniversary present to her, and I loved that there wasn't a day that went by without it around her neck. I gathered her hair with one hand, brushed it away to the side, and then dangled the jewelry around her neck – the symbol of our secret relationship.
'You were never a fan of him,' I noted, clicking the lobster lock in place.
'He is a prick, Dean,' she ranted, 'No one should be a fan of him. He is self-obsessed and despises the small sub-kingdoms – top of it all, I don't like the way he sees me.'
A smile twitched on my lips as she turned.
'What?'
'You're so beautiful when you're angry,' I admitted, 'I couldn't get my eyes off you this morning.'
It was true – how could I look away when her eyes gleamed with the fight that inspires me to never give up?
'Shut up,' she blushed. She distracted herself by walking to the mirror to redress her hair for the day.
That's when I noticed it, 'You're wearing your Leaflet Crown?'
'Yes. Why do you ask?'
'You only wear this when you're going on hunts,' I managed as dismay clawed up its way into my consciousness, 'and last time I checked, your father forbade anyone from going into the dark forest.'
I know it was petty to bring up her father's warning in our conversations. But it wasn't like I could forbid her from doing something. She was a stubborn woman who got what she set her heart to. For the love of God, though, for once, I just wished she'd listen to Bobby or me. I worry, and I don't know how long before my worries turn into my day-mares.
'Oh, that,' she seemed not to notice my inner discord.
'Care to explain,' I pressed, picking up the Crown from her head.
'I was going to meet Charlie,' she assured, 'that's all, my love.'
'Ah, right,' I realized, 'Charollete, your Chief Musketeer. Her and her troop have been really helpful to us on the guarding duty at night. She's wonderful,' I end on the admission.
'I know,' she childishly booped my nose, making me smile again. She replaced the crown then marched off to the shoe rack, selecting one that matched.
Before she could slip them on, I plucked them out of her grasp. 'Here – let me.'
'Your wish is my command, My Prince Charming,' she teased, moving away nevertheless to plop down on her bed.
I would mind, but I'd honestly take any chance I'd get to touch her. I was so starved for her touch, practically a man in a desert. And I swear it'd kill me if she were a mirage.
I dipped down at her feet, taking her heels on my knees as I slipped the first shoe on her, and she initiated another conversation.
'How is Sam?'
'Sammy is happy, actually,' I said as if it was as much news to me as was to her. 'Away from all the castle drama – he got his gal, his hair is as long as ever – so, he's as good as he can ever be.'
'Same ol' Sam, huh?'
'Yeah, I would be lying if I didn't envy his guts to stand up to my father and give away his title for Jessica.'
'I fell for the wrong brother then,' she playfully offered.
'I don't know, Princess,' I smirked, taking the other shoe to her free leg. 'The shoe fits,' I winked, as her foot perfectly slid in.
She bit her lip to suppress the grin I knew was begging to burst on her face. Then, slowly, the corners of her lips turned down as she switched topics once more.
'Why did we decide to keep it a secret again?' she quirked her brow.
The unexpected turn made my face fall. I had an answer that I'd rather not give. But it wasn't one that she hadn't heard before. Something she gave me proof of, 'Oh, right. Your Dad.'
'He'd rather marry me off to the Harvells,' I declared.
'Wait, Joanna?'
I nodded.
'Wow,' she huffed, 'your Dad is shaking up the wrong tree on so many levels. Charlie is gonna be thrilled to hear this.'
Her undertone shocked me, 'Wait, Charlie and Jo?'
'Mhhmhmmmm,' she wiggled her eyebrows suggestively.
'Wow,' I was taken aback. Who knew Jo was gay?
With that, Y/N reverted back to her original point. 'I don't get it, Dean. What doesn't he see in me?'
Her defeated look hurt.
I climbed up next to her on the bed, facing her as my hands took up residence on both her cheeks and she leaned into them on reflex. 'It's not you, sweetheart. It's just—'
'The fact that we're not hunters, but scholars – I get it, love,' she brushed me off, scoffing, and pulling away from my touch as if it had burnt her. She put as much space as she could between us while still staying in the room.
I knew how frustrated she was getting by my defenses. At first, she'd hesitantly give in, and shrug the disappointment off, but as our relationship grew, she expected more. She had never expected this to be a secret for so long.
I hated that I couldn't give her my everything, I hated how much of a coward I was.
I should have called quits on this relationship long back – given that I couldn't provide her with what she wanted. She was everything that I could want – and yet, I barely had anything to offer to her. She deserves the world, and here I am, in fear of losing her, I held her back from everything that she could have.
And hell, if I wasn't going to try my hardest to keep her in my life, still. I honestly don't know what she saw me, but until she was going to have me, I was going to try my best to have her too.
I reached for her, gripping her by the arm and yanking her back till she was spinning on her heels and clashing against my chest, her hand twisted against her back to allow me leverage to hold her against myself with as little space as I could manage. I searched her face for any signs that this was the moment that she gave up on me.
Finding none, I finally spoke. 'You are it for me, Y/N.' Her eyes closed as a blush rose to her cheeks, ears, and neck, her head lowering as she basked in my commitment. 'You are my happy ending and always will be,' he whispered into her hair as my free hand came up to trace nonsense patterns against her cheek. An involuntary smile kicked my lips upwards as I could feel the honesty behind those words thrumming in every fiber of my body.
I waited for her to look at me again, using the opportunity of when she did to dip down and capture her lips prisoner against mine.
We both melted into the intimacy as I stole the breath from her lungs for as long as I could, feeling my heart accelerate, knowing that I could never want anything more than this, right here.
When the need for oxygen overpowered us, I let her lips go, not failing to hold her gaze in the promise of my words.
'I hate it when you shut me up like that,' she said half-heartedly.
I called her bluff with a cheeky smile, 'No, you don't.'
She shook her head with a smile she couldn't control herself.
'Mmm,' I grunt in discontent freeing her from my arms. 'I must go,' I sighed, 'because if I stay, we might not leave the room till moonrise. Don't wanna give your father and the committee any funny ideas,' I joked.
She shook her head in agreement once again.
I pressed a chaste kiss on her forehead one last time. 'Stay out of trouble,' I cautioned, as I walked backward towards the only exit of the room.
'No promises,' she smirked.
I rolled my eyes, God, this girl is gonna be the death of me.
The meeting ended and left me worse for wear. I antagonize everyone in the meeting for their role in irritating me, as I move to the stables to leave for the examination of the constructions being conducted for the damn Dam. Not to mention I was running low on men because the ones assigned by Bobby were late. By two hours.
It honestly pissed me off, but then I decided to simply screw it and take the men that I did have with me to gauge the progress of the work.
My soldiers flanked me on their horses as I lead the team down the winded roads and towards the riverside we were trying to stem and reap for our benefits when I received the message.
It was a fraction of musketeers under King Robert that had been assigned to me for guard duty returning from their camp where apparently the Princess had been safely taken to after the unexpected attack on her in the Black forest.
Safe to say, no longer did work matter as I quickly dismissed everyone, and hauled ass to the Camp following the piece of soldiers who retraced their steps to their tents.
They guided me down the beaten paths through the trees, rushing against the wind under my agitated orders to make haste.
As soon as the treeline cleared, the daylight blinded me as we spilled into the clearing. As my eyes were getting accustomed to the light, my glance swept over the place where all the clattering and clamoring of moving and training soldiers seemed rather unaffected by today's ordeals – a fact that estranged me considering I was about ready to burst from fear.
The team took my horse and one of the guys led me to the tent that housed the love of my life.
'In here, Prince Dean,' he saluted, leaving me alone.
I had started screaming even before I had entered, 'What were you thinking?!'
'De—' she jumped up to sit, her eyes widening at my outburst.
'I particularly told you not to go into the forest or anywhere near it!' I yelled, feeling rage eat me up, thinking of the thousands of possibilities of what could have gone wrong – of what could have happened.
She could have been dead. Dead!
'Is this some kind of joke to you!?' I exclaimed, my body running so hot that I could have a fever, my chest heaving under the relentless stream of anger that had built up in my heart, and the lump in my throat threatened to choke me. 'You could've died!' I shouted, feeling tears prick the back of my eyes.
I kept on venting and she took it silently, watching me, 'You just never listen to me! You have this incessant need to be brave, to do it all by yourself, to-to be a freaking warrior! Well, guess what? You're life just isn't yours! It's mine, too, alright?! You're my life, and if something happened to you, I-I-I . . . I won't . . .'
I looked up to see her staring at me with guilt glazing her eyes. I doubt she was even hearing what I said.
'Say something!' I snapped at her.
She flinched out of her thoughts, shock, and fear marring her breath-taking features. And I felt that my anger was unjustified toward her. I took a deep breath, composing myself as I let my rage flare out of my nostrils, paving the way for the overwhelming fear I had felt on my way over when my mind had been reeling with thoughts of desperation over losing her and the pain that would follow.
All I know is that I never want to feel that again.
So, I kneel in front of her.
As scary as it is to love someone as much as I love her, I need to calm myself and be there for her.
'I'm sorry,' my gruff voice told her. My apology was supported by my hands as they went to her knees, rubbing circles there and my gaze lowered to anywhere but her face – my head heavy with shame and guilt of having exploded on her.
'Me too,' she apologized, her hand going forward, probably unconsciously as she started stroking my hair. 'I should've been careful,' she muttered.
The pressure in the room melted off, leaving the reality of the situation to settle heavily over me. My shoulders slumped under their weight, 'I just . . . I don't know what I would do if anything happened to you,' I voiced my biggest fear.
There. It was out in the open.
It was as simple as birds chirping and insects buzzing – I'd lose it; I'd lose myself if I lost her.
Everything that I did, that I'm doing, and that I will do – that was for her. I did it knowing that when I was done, I'd be going back home to her. To the promise of a love that consumed me, that made me the happiest guy in the world, to the woman of my dreams, and to the keeper of my heart. I'd be destroyed without her, and that was nothing short of a fact.
And that thought petrified me – chilled me to my very bones.
I've never had to think much about it before. She's been reckless but never came been this close to death. She's been hurt – but this was much worse.
She's been with me for as long as I could remember – we were kids when we were friends, and ever since it only blossomed into more. So much so, that I could never again imagine my life, my future, without Y/N in it.
She let my head go, and grabbed my hand from her lap, squeezing it tightly. 'Dean, I'm here.'
The hot lump that had accumulated in my heart thawed, letting the sweet grasp of relief grip me. I took a deep breath cherishing her hand on mine.
I swallowed, pushing my tears back – unwilling to let them make an appearance. 'And I couldn't be more grateful for that fact. Don't ever scare me like that again,' I gritted out, looking up just in time to see her nodding.
That's when I noticed the injury above her eyebrow, on her forehead.
'What happened here?' My hand instinctively raised to its level, my thumb levitating above the wound – one that'd surely leave a mark, one that was temporarily covered with herbs that imposed medicinal properties and benefits.
'The stupid Phantoms,' she blurted.
My heart lurched in shock, and a tendril of fear fizzled down my spine.
'Phantoms?' I quizzed, eyes wide.
She rushed to explain, 'Yeah, I rode the outer banks to reach here soon. I swear, I didn't even cross the border or step foot into the forest! Yet, they attacked us. Poor Phillip took most of the hit . . . Do you know the fire-forged sword didn't do a darn tooting to them—?' she cut herself off, waiting for my reaction – perhaps expecting another outburst.
But I was out of those, and tired – we both had had a long day – so, I tried to lighten the atmosphere. 'You were never good with the swords,' I decided.
She relaxed before delivering a playful punch to my shoulder.
I breathed out, 'Thank God Charlie and her men made it on time.' I made a mental note to send her a fruit basket for saving my life.
'Yeah . . . I . . . Yeah . . . ' she cleared her throat, firing a question at me. 'How did you get here so fast?'
'I was already on my way to examine the constructions at the Dam when they informed me there had been an assault on the Princess – I lost it,' I licked my lips, shaking my head. 'I couldn't stay there for a minute,' or I would have suffocated, 'I left there and rushed here,' to find my breath, I completed in my mind.
It dawned on her, 'Wait, does that mean—?'
'No,' I replied, already knowing where her mind went, 'your father doesn't know. I specifically ordered the men involved in the construction and Charlie's troop not to tell. If they break it, they know the consequences.'
'My hero,' she mocked, placing a hand over her heart.
But I didn't have it in me to smile.
My thoughts wandered off as I bathed in her presence, consoling myself constantly that she was right here in front of me.
'I would be lost without you, Princess,' I revealed, without even realizing that I was speaking it. I looked up into her e/c orbs, waiting for her to say something.
'Dean, I'm here,' she repeated. 'Am not going anywhere, and I'll always come back to you,' she traced a hand over the shadow that had grown on my cheeks.
I leaned into her hand, a sigh involuntarily escaping me. 'I love you,' I confessed.
'I love you, too, My Prince,' she conveyed.
The admission made my lips stretch into a huge smile – the kind which starts to hurt your cheeks, and one that the woman I loved mirrored.
You would think that we must have said it pretty often but being Royals and all, saying it out loud was not a constant courtesy everyone was awarded with. It was freeing to finally be able to say it again. And it was equally as exhilarating, if not more, to hear her say it back.
She leaned down to press her lips against mine, our eyes fluttering shut as the intimacy of our words spread to our actions – a kiss that was slow, passionate, and full of happy promises. If love were an action to me, I'd describe it with this one kiss.
And if it were up to me, I'd never let her go.
But the tent was barged into and our moment was disrupted.
'Oh, sorry!' Charlie exclaimed, looking as flustered as I was probably feeling.
Red painted my cheeks and neck and slightly tinted my ears, as I struggled for a reasonable explanation to the Chief Musketeer who could potentially ruin my chance to be with Y/N.
'Dude, if the tent is rocking, don't come knocking,' Y/N reprimanded.
And once again, I was reminded of her reckless and straightforward personality.
'I'll . . . I'll come back later. You carry on, then.'
I jumped to the rescue, 'Oh, no. No. There is nothing to carry on. I was just . . . uh, I was helping Princess Y/N to practice breathing exercises.' I dumbly answered.
God, never let me be a spy.
'Huh,' Charlie nodded, biting her lip to keep away her smile at the blatant lie – something she won't point out simply out of respect for the Royal.
'My love, she knows,' the h/c-haired woman broke to me, barely able to suppress her own glee and amusement at my pathetic attempt to keep our secret hidden.
'She—what? You know?' I quizzed.
'Yup,' she gave me a mischievous grin. 'Who do you think gave her the suggestion to wear sexy lingeries to your little rendezvous.'
Well, that was information. Incriminating one, at that.
Y/N was the one blushing now, 'Okay, shoo, get out of my tent, Commander, I think you have pressing matters on hand.'
Charlie lingered, 'I have more embarrassing stories, My Liege – if you're interested – you know where to find me.' And she fled before my love could utter another word to save herself from any further embarrassment.
I had my up-to-no-good smile in place as Y/N looked down at me, already glaring. 'Don't even think about it,' she terrorized.
And I burst into peals of laughter – the full-body shake kind. I was having too much fun imagining what all I could find out about her.
'Okay, sweetheart,' I said in a final tone, 'I have to go check on something, too. You take good rest, alright? I'll come to check on you once I'm finished,' I promised.
'Till then,' she dramatically leaned back against the armrest of the couch she'd been lounging on, 'I'll be here,' she put her arm over her face, performing more theatrics, 'waiting.'
God, I'm in love with a dork. An annoying, reckless, kind, passionate, stubborn dork who's now the reason I live.
I shook my head, retracing my steps out of the place before my breath hitched and I just knew I had to do this – I retrieved my steps just so that I could scoop her curious and confused self into my arms and kiss the daylights out of her.
I kissed her senseless, I kissed her like there was no tomorrow, I kissed her with everything that I had, with every cell that loved her, and every thought that worshiped her.
When I pulled away, it was safe to say we were both dazed.
I smirked softly, winking at her, before at last, I made my exit.
True to my word, I ended my work as quickly as I could manage; I needed to see her. I headed back towards the palace - arranging a small care package to the best of my abilities before discovering Juliet and sending her on a mission - to find Y/N and deliver her to me.
The note attached was sober: Meet me at our place.
It was this blossom tree near the small creek. Almost as gorgeous as the woman who was going to meet there.
Hearing her feet approaching I got down from the tree I was waiting in, silently, wondering if she would notice me before I snuck up on her.
She didn't fail me, spinning on the balls of her feet, the arrow already notched with a fatal aim.
My lips tugged heavenward as I offered the white roses I carried in one hand, forgetting momentarily what I'd called her for. 'I come in peace. I gather Juliet delivered my message with success.'
'She's feisty to everyone else,' she mused. 'How you enticed her eludes me.'
I smirked, feeling my chest swell with pride, when: 'Kneel.'
I was on the ground before my mind could even process the command. My knees buckled at just the smile of this woman, I could give my life if she asked for it - surrendering to her was too small in comparison.
'Surrendering so soon, My Liege?' she mocked, drunk on power.
'I will always kneel for my Queen,' I loyally commented, making a cute laugh bubble out of her, a hot blush rendering her ears and neck red.
She lowered her weapon, and we reshuffled our positions into a more comfortable stance where we could sit under the tree, arms wrapped around each other.
The blossom leaves broke from their home to cherish the love we held, fingers entangling and detangling, the moon reflecting its eternal shine into the water beyond us, its lustrous shadow shimmering and thrumming with endless possibilities.
'I didn't find you in an occupied moment, did I?'
'Nah,' she casually denied. 'I was scaring away another noble my father brought in to meet with me.'
My chest tightened with anxiety before relaxing again. 'Just the usual then,' I tried to joke.
My mood turned pensive as I plucked one of the leaves from the ground. 'Do you remember the day we found this place?'
'Of course I do! How could I forget? We tried to climb up the tree, and I got this,' she rolled up her sleeve to flaunt the scar on her right elbow.
'We were so young and carefree,' I muttered. 'Good old times.'
'De . . . What is it?' she picked up on the shift.
'My Dad wants me to marry Jo,' I blurted out quietly. 'He's planned this whole engagement ceremony to announce it to the citizens tonight.'
'What?' A pause, 'What did you say!?'
'What did you want me to say Y/N?' I deflected.
'I don't know,' she said. 'Something between - "No, I don't want to marry Joanna", or "I am in love with the daughter of King Robert"?!'
'It's not that easy!' I suddenly got defensive.
She scoffed, 'Nothing was easy for us, ever, Dean.'
I shook my head, feeling the weight of the conversation slumping my shoulders - an action she subconsciously mirrored as the reality of the situation kicked in.
'We should tell them!' she exclaimed in desperation. 'Both of our fathers.'
'I can't!'
'What do you mean "you can't"?!'
'You know,' I struggled to gain a footing in this argument. 'I can't do that!'
'Why?' She ranted, 'Because we are from two entirely different nations who just depend on each other? Is it because we are not hunters? You, of all people, know that your kingdom cannot survive without our lore knowledge! You need our expertise as much as we need your men! That is the deal.'
'I know very well about the deal, Y/N,' I snapped. 'That is not the problem!'
'Now what,' she shoved me back in an accusatory tone, 'your father wants our resources and not the Princess!?'
'He wants to unite Harvelle's nation with ours,' I reasoned, 'It would be a resourceful arrangement for all our kingdoms.' But even as I said it, I felt my throat close up, my eyes prick, and my heart crumble a little in the agony under the light of the prison sentence I was putting on myself.
'You can't be serious,' she argued. 'You're honestly considering this offer!?'
'I am not! As a matter of fact, I have no idea what to do!' I breathed out, worried that if I didn't rush this confession, I'd break.
'Let's elope!'
I don't think I heard her correctly. 'What?'
'You heard me,' she confirmed.
'Are you out of your bloody mind?' I glared down at her - finally noticing that we two had stood up unknowingly, trying to win an argument by physical intimidation - a natural reflex.
'I am not the one thinking about marrying another girl,' her gruff voice threw the acid words in my face, betrayal and hurt making her tone shake.
'I can't,' I clenched out, ignoring the last statement because if I thought about it for even one second, I wouldn't be able to do this.
'You can't, or you won't?' she challenged.
'I won't,' I rose up to the bait. 'I am not going to disobey the King's commands.'
'For the love of everything on earth, Winchester - you're not just his perfect soldier!' she screamed with venom.
'I am neither a love-struck teen,' I yelled back. 'I am a Prince. I pledged to put my country and my people before my own desires.'
'And I didn't?'
'You wouldn't be talking about eloping if you cared for your people! Your Father should've knocked some sense into you instead of pampering you,' I gripped.
'And John is what, Father of the Year? He handed you a Silversword and told you to scare away the wolves you were mortified of when you ran to him for shelter!' she emotionally wagered in my face.
'He was teaching me to fight back,' I offered.
'You were eight years old, Dean,' she pointed out as if that was supposed to make me change my answer.
Anger ran white hot in my veins, making all logic rush out along with the steam coming out of my ears. 'At least he is not like Bobby!' I glared, frustration oozing out of me in waves. 'Do you know he was the reason behind the delay of the Dam Construction? He wanted to include all the small towns so no one could be left out, all half-breeds and special kinds included. It took me a month to convince all the other Nobles - and now the raw materials are exhausted! That's why we need the help of Harvelles'. If not for his soft-ass nature, we wouldn't be in this mess—!' I blamed.
My words took a hit when the sting of a slap echoed on my face. My head had turned with the force of it, but when I righted my gaze onto her - she was furious, and I was hurt by her action.
A profound silence descended, the water of the creek gently waving, coddling our tensions that kept on increasing with the increase in the misunderstandings we were spectacularly failing to resolve.
I looked at her as if she were a stranger, shocked that she would hit me. I never thought in a million years that she would hit me.
That's when I knew I had gone too far.
My hand was already inching towards the warmth on my left cheek - probably leaving a bruise in the shape of her palm there. 'Y/N . . . ?'
'Don't,' she raised her hand as if to physically stop me from speaking. She was recomposed in her demeanor. 'Seems like you've already made your mind, Your Highness. I have nothing else to say. Marry any girl your Father shoves his finger at, and be his little puppet. But don't you dare talk about my Father like that,' she ended, punctuating by abruptly and promptly exiting.
What had I done?
The engagement ceremony dragged on. My royal attire felt heavy against my bodice - like if all the weight of my emotions were cut into cloth, this is how it would feel.
Jo was nodding and smiling politely at the people coming up to congratulate us - a tightness around her eyes from stopping herself from crying.
And ironically, she was the only person here who probably understood me.
This felt wrong, and I wanted to cry.
Jo's hand was wrapped with mine, but we both were tense under each other's touch - that's not how love should feel.
Love is when you could feel all your worries evaporate as soon as you just see the other person enter a room. Love is when you feel like the happiest human alive to just feel them love you back. Love is when you feel invincible if they support you. Love is what breaks you when they leave you.
Love is Y/N.
And I just seemed to have lost her.
I blink my eyes rapidly even though there's no water to blink back. I don't cry very often, and today I really feel like I want to.
'Oh, honey, congratulations!' another royal smiled sweetly.
I nodded, barely returning a ghost of the same smile.
'When's the date?'
'As . . . soon as we can marry,' I gulped. 'King John doesn't want to waste any time.'
'That's lovely!' she cheered.
Jo cleared her throat, her eyes rimmed red, voice thick. 'Can't wait.'
'You two are so lucky to have each other. Your love is like no other,' she boasted.
'Thank you,' we both said in unison, mirroring the fake gratefulness, our shoulders slouching as soon as she left.
'I can't take this anymore,' Jo murmured. 'My Liege, can we take a walk?'
'Uh, yes, of course. Princess,' I add in courtesy, hating that I have to call her that.
Joanna dragged me away from the dull and pretentious party, functioning only because of the open bar, teeming with equally jealous and hateful nobles.
She took me to the serenity of the garden where the plants, closer to the dead than living, still seemed to understand better the need for calmness we both desired and shared.
Down, ways away from the dying function, nearing a pond, my mind wandered off to what I had just given up. The water, always soothing, now a staunch reminder of my greatest woe.
'Are we screwed or what?!' she burst out, derailing my train of thoughts.
That's when I noticed Jo was crying, silent tears descending down her rosy-with-anger red cheeks.
'Jo . . . ' I trailed off, failing to find words that would ease her.
Because nothing would. Neither of our happiness was gonna survive this marriage and that was a fact.
She sniffed. 'Charlie never wants to see my face. She told me it was too hard, that I don't know what it feels like to date a Royal. Well, she doesn't know what it feels like to be a Royal!'
I scoffed involuntarily, 'Oh, trust me, a Royal won't understand this either.'
She met my agitated gaze, 'Y/N freaked?'
I wasn't even surprised that she knew - Charlie must have told her. Charlie can't keep secrets when it's with people she loves.
My hand raised instinctively to my previously slapped cheek. 'Something like that,' I dropped my hand.
'What are we going to do, Dean?' she sobbed, 'I don't like you! Hell - I don't even like boys! I love Charlie, Dean, I love her, and I can't live without her.'
'I don't know,' I repeated from earlier that evening.
'What do you mean, "You don't know"?!' she started pacing. 'This isn't right! Our parents are forcing us—!'
'No one's forcing me,' I cut her off.
'Fine! But you can't tell me you're happy with this marriage. I mean, don't you love Y/N? I've seen how you look at her, how you treat her, how you talk about her when she's not there - she was your first!'
The pinch in my chest tightened. 'Sometimes you have to sacrifice—'
'For who? Our selfish parents!?'
'Jo!'
'No! Dean, our parents got what they wanted! They married for love!'
'And look how that ended,' I raised my tone to match hers. 'My Mom and your Dad are gone - they're dead! Leaving our parents to exist as shells!'
'They died in accidents, but you want us killed. This marriage will kill us, Dean; it will kill me!'
'Apparently,' a third voice interrupted. 'It will kill King John, too.'
We turned to Castiel holding up a bloody arrow, the crimson making me dread the answer to whose life it took - but what made my breath hitch was that the arrow was decorated with a Phoenix feather.
'Prince Dean,' he addressed. 'It seems your lover has declared a war against us.'
No, no, no! This cannot be happening. That's impossible, absolutely not. No!
Things went to the crapper hella quickly.
My mind raced as I tried to swallow that in the last twenty-four hours I had almost lost the love of my life before I broke up our years of relationship, gotten engaged with a lesbian, and almost had my father murdered by who everyone assumed was the woman I loved (forgive me if I didn't want to jump to conclusions), leading to our advisors issuing an order to enslave her by my hands - there was even a bounty and everything.
Our soldiers have been fighting with one of our closest allies come dawn - the only reason why they received the news they did: My mentor, my Uncle - Bobby was dead. That's what our soldiers told us.
What even is this?
As we rode the horses through the forbidden forest, I couldn't help but feel the pit in my stomach grow. Something was wrong, and by God I swear, if something happened to Y/N . . .
She was the only one unsafe right now. Dad and Sammy had been granted protection, but she was out there, alone, no doubt being hunted by whoever killed her Father and I was not losing two of the few people I cared the most about in one night.
On our way, I lost the assistance of Benny and Cas - separated, the former by the soldiers of the Singers, and the latter by the devils of the forest. I rode alone towards the location the Princess was last seen at - and jackpot!
Her sword was out and swinging before I could demand her attention, my reflexes making me move on my own, and soon our weapons were clanging - then, sooner, I had disarmed her.
Her sword clanged against the half-cut tree stump. 'Should've stuck with archery,' I taunted, the tip of my sword levelling with the heart that once belonged to me.
She raised her hands in surrender - but I couldn't tell if she was playing along or actually being sincere. 'Come home with me,' I said before I could stop the words from toppling out.
'Home?' she spat out. 'Mine is burnt to the ground in flames, love. There is no way home anymore!'
'Come with me,' I offered. 'To our country. I'll talk to Father—'
'You mean as a slave?' she challenged.
My mouth dropped slightly, the words dying in my mouth, unsure myself as to how that would work. I wondered why I would even say something like that to her - her arrow was found in my father's chest. What more could I need than that to acquit her?
But deep down, I knew this couldn't be it. She loved her father, she knew what it meant to be devoted to the last parent you had. How could she even do that?
And obviously, the attack on the Singer Palace was not her. What was the story behind that? Something was going on, and we needed to figure this out - together, whether we wanted to or not.
'What, cat got your tongue?' she quipped.
'I don't see the way around, sweetheart,' I informed. 'You are unarmed, and even if I let you battle me, I don't think it is gonna do you any good – you were never good with swords.'
'Yeah,' she shrugged smugly, 'that's why I brought reinforcements.' Her gaze flicked to the side to reveal Charlie with an archery set, a Phoenix arrow pinning me as its target.
I was so preoccupied on getting things straight with Y/N, I didn't even notice her lurking in the shadows. 'Not gonna lie,' I said, 'I'm impressed, sweetheart. You did get me.'
'Drop your weapon, My Liege, or I'll need to run an arrow into your leg,' warned Charlie.
'I would do what she says; as you know, she's a woman of her word.'
Unwilling to heed just yet, my eyes darted to my peripheries – wondering if my soldiers would ever show up.
As if reading my mind, 'Oh, don't worry,' Charlie snarled, 'they aren't gonna join us, Your Highness, your Knight Benjamin, and other soldiers have been taken care of by none other than our Captain of the Royal Guards.'
Captain Garth Fitzgerald, I thought in annoyance.
'Come on,' I stalled. 'A fight between my vampire knight and your werewolf bishop? Somehow I feel bad I have to miss it.'
'Kneel,' My Queen's order interrupted us.
And every rational thought flew out of my mind as I threw the towel in. My sword clattered out of my hand and the ground dug into my skin as I looked up at Y/N, surrender encompassing my every fiber when I looked at her regally towering over me.
Somehow, I always knew she would be the death of me – but what's more, is that she's that one person who made me feel most alive.
Charlie kicked my sword for her to grab.
I smirked, 'Come on, sweetheart,' I goaded. 'You aren't gonna hurt me – we both know that.'
Just to prove a point she slashed the metal across my left arm, crimson seeped out of the horizontal, somewhat deep, wound, making me hiss.
But it shouldn't sting as much as it did, right?
'I would reconsider that theory.'
She's bluffing. 'Princess—'
'NO! You don't get to call me that. That is allocated for the people I love.'
And Charlie might as well have shot the arrow into my heart. Unwillingly, my eyes welled up with hurt.
How could she even say that?
'That's it?!' I gritted out, practically shouting. Pants began to slowly heave my chest in strain, 'You're going to throw all we had out the window just like that?'
'Oh, no, you already did me that favor when you decided to hunt me down for your Father, Your Highness,' she made sure to highlight the emotional distance we had nurtured in just the last day with the formality and venom sugar-coating her every word in an acidic way that was meant to burn me from the inside out.
'That isn't fair,' I said in a low voice, close to a whisper, pissed off that she was lecturing me about how she doesn't love me anymore just because I'm hunting her down.
She tried to kill my father for God's sake! . . . I think.
A fog seemed to be collecting in my mind, stopping me from thinking straight.
But either way, was her love for me so fickle and weak?
'Nothing is fair in love and war, My Prince.'
'How did we get here?' I muttered, already exhausted.
'You killed my father, Dean,' she explained.
My head snapped up in shock. 'What!?' I spluttered. 'Are you insane? Y/N . . . where did you get that from?'
'You burned the man who practically raised from ashes,' she cried out, her eyes wild with grief.
'Y/N, I didn't kill King Robert!' Sweat beaded my forehead, and I felt my heart accelerated its beating.
'Then what was your locket doing there?' she brandished my amulet as proof . . . the amulet that when I'd gotten out of shower earlier, yesterday in the evening, had been missing.
I had thought I had misplaced it and would've searched for it later since I was getting late for my own engagement ceremony. A locket that made her think that I had the blood of her father on my hands.
I struggled to speak, 'I . . . uh . . . .'
'You never go anywhere without this,' she claimed, 'tell me where you were last night!'
I couldn't believe my ears, feeling a part of me shatter. 'You think that less of me?'
'That didn't answer my question.'
'Fine,' I felt my throat close up, 'yesterday, there was an assault on the King at the ceremony. I was busy finding the assaulter and putting them to rot in jail. Turns out, it was the woman whom I dreamt of spending the rest of my life with.'
'What?' she stepped back in the exclamation. 'That is crazy – I was at the camp with Charlie. Mopping in heartbreak because of you.'
'In the entirety of the seven regions – you are the only one who uses the Phoenix feathered arrows,' I told her, feeling black dots dancing in front of my eyes as a throbbing pain between my ears made me aware of the unnaturally strong headache.
'Dean, I didn't try to kill John . . . ?' it sounded more like a question than a statement.
'That'd explain the bounty on your head, Princess,' Charlie pitched in – helpful for once. 'Connect the dots – it's like the worst murder mystery cliché ever; someone's trying to turn both of you on each other.'
Of course, I realized. My body slightly swayed and trembled on my buckled knees. Something is seriously wrong.
'But the real question is who could do that—' Charlie's throat was slit in the middle of her speech. Her eyes were dead and closed before her body hit the ground in the pool of her own blood.
'Charlie!' I heard myself scream along with Y/N.
The voices were getting farther away from me, somehow. My limbs thrummed with heat as if my muscles and organs were liquefying in one big pile of goo, yet it felt like I was being weighed down under tons of lead.
'She's too smart for her own good,' a hated familiar voice answered, 'and to answer her question – that would be on me.' His troops littered the area behind, guarding the Alpha male I would like to do nothing more than gut.
'Gordon, you filthy animal!' Y/N yelled, lunging forward to attack.
The crew he brought surged to meet her but I forced myself on my feet: 'Make a move on her – you'd be dead before you hit the ground. Do I make myself clear?' I used the steeliest voice I could muster, making them halt.
'Why am I not surprised these were your shenanigans?' Y/N scoffed, her feet unconsciously gravitating to make her stand next to me.
'You know,' he said, 'I'm gonna take that as a compliment, Princess.'
My mouth went dry with the effort of simply standing and talking, 'Why are you doing this, Walker?'
'Why do you think – it was all because of that damn Dam!' he confessed.
'You were all in for that since day one,' I argued.
'No, Dean, you were all in. I am not. What was I supposed to do – stand up against all of the other big nations? Even I'm not that foolish. The river starts in our nation – it is ours. I'm not going to share it with the malodorous half-breeds.'
'You nasty racist—' I stopped Y/N before she could recklessly get herself killed.
'You better think twice before you do what you intended to do,' I threatened, 'because my—'
'Your rescue?' he scoffed with a laugh, 'Benjamin and Garth? Oh, they are on their way to reach where her Mother and Father went,' he pointed at Y/N to make her angrier. Translation: they're dead.
'Now,' he explained the climax of his diabolical plan just as my weight was beginning to get too much to keep on my feet. 'It is time for me to settle my tabs with you two love birds then I will tell your Father that she killed you, and boom! All that union crap and the Dam project will be closed.'
'Not gonna lie, I'm shocked your malevolent brain can plot like that – only if you had put that to good use. I always thought you had it in you. In fact, Gordon, I had my eye for you . . . for a long time,' Y/N stepped out of my reach, lying as she went.
But my brows furrowed when an ache seemed to start spreading from my heart and flowing through my blood to other organs. The taste of warm rusted metal soaked into my taste buds.
Oh, shit.
Y/N apparently hadn't noticed. 'Now you stand here, sounding all smart with your devilish grin – it's so intoxicating,' she stated in a sultry voice.
With the little adrenaline I had left, I caught the sword Y/N threw at me in time - a feat she managed to accomplish as she had neared them with her distracting flirting. I used the momentum I already was in to plunge the sword into the first guard who came at me.
The second one took longer – more prepared as we sparred in quick flicks of our wrists, dancing on our feet in the art of war. My vision was seemingly getting hazier and I knew not how much longer I could hold my ground – but I couldn't leave Y/N alone to fend off for herself.
With her as my motivation, I swiped the man's sword from his grip by using the hilt of my weapon to his wrist bone that cracked under the pressure. I, then, applied a left hook and proceeded to behead the man with another fatal blow.
Y/N had already taken care of the third guard. There were only three plus Gordon. If we killed him, she would be okay. She was going to be okay.
But in the meantime, Gordon had taken advantage of our distraction to point Y/N's own weapons against her - her bow and arrow.
'Nice try,' he appealed to our attentions.
A small, almost inaudible gasp left me as my heart beat inhumanly fast. More blood gargled up my throat, the acidic burn left in its wake. I felt my knees buckle – this time involuntarily, an action that I followed by purging blood from my system – silently gaging and choking, as my body was wrecked with painstaking seizures.
'You're not gonna win this fight, Gordon. It's two against one. Us against you!'
'Yeah, I won't worry about that,' he smirked in confidence.
'Y/N . . . ' my voice came out strained, wheezes escaping my body as I grappled for any kind of comfort I could find in what's probably and horrifically my last moments alive.
'Dean!' her voice broke through the ringing in my ears. What just happened?
My hands were shaking miserably, unable to hover me over the bloody vomit. So I leaned sideward, a motion that made me dizzy, and I would have struck my head harshly on the ground had it not been for her.
She turned me till she was propping me up against her folded legs, her arms holding most of my weight up. But that was honestly enough for me. I was safe again.
'Dean, look at me, love,' her panic-stained voice pierced my hearing, her dainty fingers slapped my cheek lightly – the opposite cheek she had slapped me on just yesterday.
Huh, well, I'm positively fucked, was all I could think.
My eyes were dry and stinging with tears all at the same time, claret dripped from the corner of my mouth still. I could barely keep my eyes open – but I had to.
I need to see her one last time.
Because God, she's gorgeous.
Her h/c h/l hair fell in waves around her frame, singling out the beautiful features that composed her face. The now glossy e/c eyes, the small adorable nose, the thin pink lips, and the ever-glowing s/c skin.
'What did you do?' she was yelling.
'Me?' he asked with hysteria and amusement. 'Oh, no, it's all you, Princess Y/N. Once I knew he was after you, all I did was paint a pinch of black widow venom on his sword. To kill you on the spot, of course. Because I knew your Romeo won't be able to do that. But fate had other plans. You are the one who marked his pretty skin, so don't pin this on me,' he shifted the blame.
She truly is the death of me, my dying brain thought it was funny to remind me.
'Y/N,' I whispered, wanting to tell her so much.
I wanted to let her know how much I loved her, how sorry I was for the fight the previous night, how much I want to marry her, how much I would have loved to settle down and have kids with her, how much I want her by my side to rule our kingdoms, how fortunate I think I am to have her as my lover, how she made me the happiest man on the planet to let me hold and have her.
But all that comes out is a repetition of her name, like a chant – a prayer that saved me, and will save me. I've worshipped her for as long as I can remember, why stop now when I was dying?
'Save him, please,' I heard her plea as sleep fought to take me under.
'Now, where's the fun in that?'
'Oh, my God,' she sobbed, looking down at me as water glittered on her cheeks. I wish I could raise my hand and wipe it off – I wanted to tease her for this, make her laugh one last time. But it was impossible to move; my nervous system and organs shut down one by one. 'Dean, my love, stay with me,' she begged me.
I could only grunt in pain.
Her hand squeezed mine.
'You did me a favor, Princess. Now it's my time to seize the chance and finish the job.'
My mind took too long to process this, only realizing what it meant when an arrowhead poked out of Y/N's right lung, gory with her blood, making her gasp. But she didn't budge from my side.
I opened my mouth to scream at her to leave – to run. To save herself, but my vocals failed me terribly.
'You will pay for this,' she promised, but she didn't move, looking down at me in her arms.
My helplessness finally overwhelmed me. The woman I had sworn to protect was going to die – and I could do nothing to save her.
Tear broke their barriers.
This was it.
'I . . . love you,' I choked with all the remaining energy I had.
'My love . . . I love you, too . . . .'
A/N: Me from the first time I tried the first-person POV - I've tried not to harass its originality, so all the mistakes and drama-queenness is mine 🙃.
Anyhow, if you're new to my page and you don't know, this one-shot is intrinsically linked to my series The Supernatural Wars, Purgatory Series, and another in the works. If you're interested in diving into a whole new world, do continue to Part 2!
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Aaron Taylor-Johnson x Fem!Reader
Summary: An unexpected coffee accident turned your life upside down into a world full of glamour and flashing cameras everywhere you turned. You thought with Aaron by your side, it was going to be easy to navigate, but it turns out life in front of the flashing cameras isn't so effortless after all.
Author's Note: Welcome to my new era. I know most of you have read my JQ fics, but I've moved on these last several months now. This prompt was originally requested by @metal-redcherries for a JQ fic, but I decided to twist this a little bit and turn it into an ATJ fic. Anyway, enjoy! :)
Wordcount: 3.4K
Disclaimer: 18+

chapter one - chapter two - chapter three - chapter four - chapter five - chapter six - chapter seven - chapter eight - chapter nine - chapter ten
“So, I know that we’re lacking staff at the moment, but we are working on getting some more hires…”
Your boss, Keith’s, voice slowly turned into a ringing sound in your ears until you had tuned him out. You swatted your hand in front of your face as a small fly flew in front of it. Your eyes slowly shifted towards the many plants that were sitting on the back corner of Keith’s desk. The plants were creating a new habitat for small flies, and it was annoying you lately. It was all over the office area and sometimes, it would enter your own office.
Keith had mentioned that he bought some new spray to get rid of the small flies. His plants were too important for him, so he couldn't get rid of them that easily. He loved them and took care of them in the years he had been in this company. The fly problem was resolved quickly, but there were still a small amount that would live within his office.
It had been a long week, and it was only Thursday. You still had one more day to go, and you were dreading for this meeting to be finished so you could go home. Keith had called you and Asher, his two leads of the department, to break the news that the lab production was expanding, which meant more work for the team with less people.
You work at a genomic lab, and your position was a chemist lead for five months now, which meant more responsibilities and more document work than lab work.
Same goes for Asher.
Asher had asked Keith the question of how this was going to work given the less people you all currently have. Keith was currently explaining everything to him. You had tuned them out for about five minutes now as Asher continued to question him. Asher has always been like that. You have known him since freshman year of college, and he always asked ridiculous questions that were unnecessary.
No one questions Keith’s decisions. Ever.
And yet, here he was.
You didn’t understand why your supervisor, Max, wasn’t the one who told you this. Besides the fact that he was barely at work all the time, Keith was the director of the chemical production that went on in the lab, and he already had enough on his plate. You couldn’t help but shake your head slightly at the thought of how unreliable Max could be.
“Anyway, we won’t be doing this right away.” Keith’s voice suddenly resurfaced back to your attention. “I already made a proposal for hiring new staff so hopefully, we’ll be able to get some new people around here.”
“And we will be the ones training them?” Asher asked, sounding insulted.
Jesus fucking Christ.
You rolled your teeth over your lower lip as you watched Keith’s reaction to Asher’s question. You have learned how Keith reacts in a certain way to certain people. You knew that because you have done one on one’s with him and have developed a better relationship with him than he and Asher could ever have. Keith’s eyes sparked in a way that he couldn’t believe he was hearing Asher’s tone of voice.
You didn’t blame him.
Asher was being rude.
“As a lead of this team, yes.” Keith answered.
Oh, here we go.
“As a lead, it’s part of your job to train new hires and support them when they need help. As a lead, you're there for your team to ensure day-to-day priorities and provide proper instructions to certain tasks. It’s what a good leader does.” Keith continued, his voice growing serious.
The corner of your lips lifted, holding in the smile that was slowly creeping up on your face. Asher was slowly sliding down his seat as Keith continued to explain that if you have any questions or concerns, you both could always talk to Max or talk to him privately.
Asher anxiously scrambled out of his seat as soon as Keith dismissed the meeting.
“Have a good day, sir.” You murmured as he gave you a curt nod and a warm smile.
Keith never had a problem with you.
Asher, however…
You watched as Asher exhaled a deep breath as if he had been holding it in the last thirty minutes or so. His cheeks were a shade of pink as you both walked down the office area and stopped in front of your office door.
“I don’t know why you keep questioning Keith.” You murmured.
Asher gave you a glare and rolled his eyes. “Because don’t you think it’s a little ridiculous that he is giving us more work?”
“You heard Keith. He already is going to hire more people.” You argued. “You know how he is. He probably already submitted that proposal a long time ago. I won’t be surprised if he already found people to hire.”
Asher scoffed lightly, shaking his head. “Why do you always defend him?”
You couldn’t help but roll your eyes. You have known Asher all through college, and you could sense the behavior he projected whenever he was upset. It honestly annoyed you, even now. The behavior he tends to portray was just inappropriate and irritating.
You saw that flick of idea in his green eyes for a moment. You shook your head immediately before he even said the words.
“Do you..” He looked around the office, making sure no one was around before whispering, “Do you have some crush on him?”
The disgusted feeling immediately washed over you, making your stomach turn at the gross accusation he just threw at you.
Was he fucking serious?
Your brows raised in surprise before anger took over you. “What the fuck is wrong with you?!”
Asher rolled his eyes, “Oh, come on!”
“You’re fucking disgusting, you know that? Jesus Christ! What the fuck is wrong with your brain?”
Asher’s eyes immediately turned into guilt as he saw the anger that sparked in your eyes. The tension in his shoulders relaxed as he exhaled a sharp breath.
“I’m sorry.” He murmured, his eyes dropping down to his feet. “I’m just… I’m just upset.”
You shook your head in disbelief and turned around to open your office door, but Asher was quick to grab you by your wrist.
“Wait.” He said. “I’m sorry, okay? D… Do you have plans for tonight? Do you want to get dinner?”
You couldn’t help but scoff at his question and slipped your wrist away from his grip. You couldn’t even look at him right now. You didn't have the energy today to give him some patience and understanding.
“Yeah,” A hint of irritation through your voice. “Sara and I have Pasta Thursday tonight.”
“Right.” Asher nodded. “Okay, well, I’ll see you tomorrow.”
Rolling your eyes, you entered your office and gathered your things together. It was the end of the day, and you were thanking your little stars above that it was almost the weekend. You couldn't believe you had to deal with that bullshit. Asher was getting on your last nerve lately.
Pushing the thought away, you zipped up your bag and yawned softly, shaking your head to wake yourself up. It was already 3:30pm, and you still have to hit traffic going home.
Walking out of the double doors of Genome Dynamics, the Los Angeles heat greeted you. It was starting to cool down from the afternoon air, but it was still hot. It was mid-October, and you were ready for the weather to start getting cold. You walked down the parking lot and threw your bag on the backseat before sliding yourself in the driver’s seat.
Maybe a little coffee would help you a little bit.
Your favorite coffee shop was just five blocks down, and you decided to make a little pit stop before going straight home.
Entering the shop, the delicious smell of coffee immediately greeted you. It sent warm shivers down your body. You loved the smell of coffee, and you loved the atmosphere this coffee shop always had. The shop wasn’t too crowded. There were only a couple of people waiting in line and a couple people sitting around the tables, their eyes focused on their laptop or book.
You ordered your favorite mocha blended coffee and waited on the other end of the counter for the barista to make your drink. As you waited, you felt your phone vibrate in your hand and Sara’s name appeared on your screen.
Sara: Got the goodies! On the way home now!
You couldn’t help but smile and text her back.
You: Great! I’m fucking starving! It’s been a long day.
Sara: Same. Got some tiramisu for dessert too! 🤭
You: Great. I’ll see you soon.
You gazed up from your phone when you heard the barista call your name. You saw the girl set the delicious blended coffee on the counter. Instantly, you mentally cursed yourself when you saw the whipped cream on top. You totally forgot to tell her that you didn’t want any whipped cream, but it was too late. It wasn’t that big of a deal, so you just let it go. You grabbed the coffee carefully and made your way towards the other counter to grab yourself a lid and straw.
Although, you didn’t make it all the way because as this day already been unlucky, you weren’t paying attention and immediately hit something hard the moment you turned around. For a moment, you thought you were that tired that you hit the wall that was behind you but when you slowly looked up, you were greeted by a man. Not just any man.
You knew this man.
His curly brown hair was a little longer than you usually would see him in. It was pushed back from his forehead. His beard was trimmed nicely. He was wearing a white button up with a navy blue striped vest along with navy blue trousers that matched with his vest. His white button up and navy blue vest was now soaked in whipped cream and blended coffee.
Motherfucker.
A small gasp slipped through your lips before stalking towards the counter and grabbing some napkins.
“Fuck.” You muttered under your breath. “I’m so sorry! I didn’t see you!”
You wiped the bundle of napkins on his shirt, and jesus, you couldn’t help but think how he felt almost like a rock. There was nothing in his body but just muscles. He didn’t say anything as you continued to wipe off the coffee from his clothes.
“Of course, my clumsy self would do this.” You murmured, wondering if you were talking to him or to yourself.
Maybe both.
“My brain is fried, and I can’t think anymore for today. I’m so sorry for this. I swear, I didn’t see you there. I was way too distracted over some stupid pasta waiting for me at home—”
You heard a low chuckle that vibrated through his chest where your hand was. Your eyes slowly gazed up at him. His one brow raised, one corner of his lips was lifted, while his blue eyes were staring right into yours.
Fucking Aaron Taylor-Johnson.
“Do you always ramble on like this, darling?” His British accent slipped through his voice, and you wondered if this was some sort of stupid prank.
“I… uh…” You stuttered, taking a step back. “Been a long day.”
Dimples indented his cheeks as he smiled at you. He looked down at the mess you made on his shirt, and you knew that it probably cost hundreds of dollars for just that one shirt alone.
“It’s alright.” He said, reaching for more napkins and dabbing it on his shirt. “Accidents happen.”
“I ruined it.” You said. “I can pay for it. I don’t know. It’s probably going to cost a whole paycheck. I can barely afford my own clothes, but I don’t mind. I don’t know, maybe I can pay you monthly or something or get you something cheaper, but I’m not even sure if you would want that. I mean how would I pay you monthly? I’m a stranger. You probably don't even want to see me again—”
You were rambling again, and you were out of breath when he chuckled at you once again.
“It’s not my personal clothes.” He cut you off. “It’s my costume for the movie I’m filming.”
Your eyes widened from his small commentary, and it didn’t make the situation better. Some Director or someone from the costume department would probably sue you now for ruining a movie costume.
Fuck.
Aaron laughed softly when he saw the panic that washed over your face. You didn’t understand how he was this calm, and how he was okay with all of this.
“It’s alright.” He reassured you. “Although, I��m not sure how the costume department will react to the artwork you made on their costume.”
There was a hint of tease in his voice, but you didn’t find it funny. Your heart was beating a million miles per hour, and he was over here teasing you?
Teasing you!
“I’m kidding.” He laughed. “They have some detergent to get this out. I always make a mess on set with my costumes whenever I eat. It’s not a problem.”
The reassurance in his voice finally made your shoulders relaxed, and he probably saw it too because his grin widened. Your conversation was interrupted when the barista called his name and set his drink on the counter.
“I’m sorry again.” You murmured.
“It’s okay. I’m Aaron, by the way.” He held out his hand.
As if you didn’t know him.
You introduced yourself and shook his hand, giving him a small smile.
“Nice to meet you.” He said. “I’ll see you around… hopefully.”
He squeezed your hand softly before walking around you to grab his coffee. You took a deep breath and threw the half empty coffee cup that was still in your hand and sped walk towards the front doors of the shop.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
You didn’t even dare to look back at the coffee shop as you walked straight towards your car. You drove off almost immediately and found yourself on the freeway in just five minutes. You mentally cursed yourself for always embarrassing yourself in front of someone that was famous or important. It was like your brain always knew how to short circuit in situations like these.
Arriving at your apartment building, you tapped your foot impatiently inside the elevator. When the two doors slid open, you walked down the hall and inserted your key on the keyhole to unlock it. You were greeted immediately by the smell of your favorite pasta and garlic bread but somehow, you lost your appetite now.
“Hey.” Sara smiled, setting the plates on the dining table. “You’re a little later than usual. Busy day?”
Sara’s your roommate and best friend. You also met her in your first year of college. She was your very first friend on campus, and the two of you were always two peas in a pod. Even now.
“Uh no.” You set your bag down on the floor behind the sofa and walked towards the dining table. “I stopped by at The Insomniacs.”
“A coffee?” Sara raised her brow. “This late? You’re not going to sleep tonight.”
“It’s fine.” You shrugged, feeling more exhausted than ever now. “Coffee doesn’t affect me like that anymore. I'll still be sleeping like a baby tonight.”
You pulled out the chair and sat across from Sara, your eyes studying the pasta and garlic bread that was sitting on the table. You have been thinking about this pasta all day but looking at it made your stomach turn.
“Besides,” You added. “I didn’t even drink coffee.”
“What do you mean?” Sara handed you the plate of garlic bread.
You grabbed a few pieces for yourself and set them on your plate. “It ended up on someone’s shirt.”
“What?” Sara’s eyes widened.
You explained everything that happened from being too exhausted from a long day of work to deciding you were going to grab some coffee. Then, you told her how you grabbed the coffee from the counter and the moment you turned around, you bumped into someone.
“Not just someone.” You said. “Guess who?”
“Your ex?”
You made a disgusted face. “No! Someone famous.”
“I don’t know. Leonardo DiCaprio or something?”
You laughed, shaking your head. “No, it was freaking Aaron Taylor-Johnson!”
“Shut up!” Sara’s eyes widened as she grinned excitedly. “ATJ?! You spilled your coffee all over ATJ?!”
You threw your head back and groaned in frustration before leaning forward against the table and buried your face in your hands. You shook your head as the scenarios replayed in your mind.
“I’m such an idiot.” You mumbled through your hands before looking up. “It was embarrassing, Sara! The worst part? He laughed about it.”
Sara chuckled, taking a sip of her wine. “I’m sure he found it cute. Besides, he probably won’t even remember you. He has thousands of fans. You’ll slip away from his mind in like a day.”
“Thanks.” You said sarcastically, eating your pasta.
“You know what I mean.” Sara smiled. “It’s so funny how you always run into celebrities.”
You looked up from your pasta with wide eyes. “What do you mean by always?”
“Did you forget that you ran into Jennifer Aniston in a bathroom once?” Sara scoffed.
Oh, yeah. Sara would never let that one go.
It wasn’t your fault. Your childhood friend, Hannah, had dragged you down to an after party event. It just happened that Sara’s—and yours— favorite actress was in that event. You also embarrassed yourself in front of her by stuttering and rambling on about how much you loved her movies and her. Jen was sweet enough to take a picture with you and a video for Sara.
At the end of the night, you wanted to slap yourself for acting so stupid.
“Well, maybe if you get out of Pasadena, you’d see more celebrities.” You teased her.
Sara’s job was located in Pasadena. She worked for NASA and even if you didn’t actually understand what she did over there, you knew Sara loved her job. Meanwhile, your job was located in Burbank. A lot closer to Glendale, where you both lived. Also, a city swarming with celebrities sometimes since the Warner Brothers studios was located in Burbank.
“No, thanks.” Sara replied. “I actually love my job.”
“Yeah?” You leaned back against your chair. “How’s space going? Is there some comet about to hit us or what?”
Sara almost choked on her wine. She wiped the corner of her mouth with the napkin before tilting her head at you.
“What happened at work?” She asked.
Sara knew you only would ask that question when you weren’t having a good day.
You rolled your eyes. “Asher being Asher.”
“That’s nothing new.” Sara argued. “What did the idiot do now?”
You sighed and reached for your glass of wine. As much as you loved the pasta, you couldn’t eat any more of it.
“Keith pulled us into his office, letting us know about more production coming and that he was planning to hire more people.” You sipped your wine for a moment. “Well, you know how you don’t ever argue with Keith? Well, Asher did. He threw all these questions, which Keith shut down instantly. Asher was all aggravated after the meeting.”
Sara chuckled softly, shaking her head. “Oh, Asher.”
“Then, I told him to quit acting like that and he accused me of having a crush on my boss! Like what the fuck? That’s fucking disgusting!”
Sara laughed. “Oh god. You know he’s acting like that because he likes you, right? He has liked you since we were in CalTech.”
“And since CalTech, I have told him I’m not interested.” You scoffed. “He needs to move on.”
Sara chuckled softly and sipped her wine, while comfortable silence surrounded the dining room for a moment. You and your friends, including Sara and Asher, met in CalTech. The first year, Asher wasn’t shy about his feelings towards you, but you never liked him like that. Despite the fact that you were still friends until now, that was all that was ever going to be. He was also a complete opposite of you, and you never liked his behavior whenever he got upset.
Later on that night, you and Sara shared the tiramisu, while Sara told you about her day. Then, you helped her with the dishes and eventually retired into your own rooms. As you laid on your bed that night, you stared at the ceiling and let out a deep breath.
Your body and mind was exhausted.
Just one more day, and it's the weekend.
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"Come away, O human child! To the waters and the wild With a faery, hand in hand, For the world's more full of weeping than you can understand." ~The Stolen Child by W.B. Yeats
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