#i could just be over stimulated

[nexttothelamp]

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[joshpeck]

hello website of neurodivergents, can you give me some insight into how your medication & management of ADHD has been?

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

[tanicus-caesareth]

guarana drama, damage control

[philosophiums]

i love like. wayyyyy at the end of the day sitting down and something happens and it just Clicks why everything was not great all day

[mccleans]

watching how people's empathy and capacity for kindness have died away in recent years is scary. people will say the most heartless, callous things with no qualms because it gets them a few likes

[softgrungeprophet]

the new safeway pharmacy app has been out for a fucking year and i still can't get my medications reliably mailed! two fucking weeks and it was never sent out! i never had this issue on the old app, which coincidentally also sent real email confirmations for orders instead of the shitty app showing you one popup confirmation and then never providing any other info. no real confirmation that's for damn sure

at least i didn't have to pay for it to not be delivered 🙄

but now i got a notification from the Albertsons pharmacy (??? i don't go to Albertsons?) that they're holding it for two more days before restocking, how considerate. so the length of time the pharmacy holds stuff, that you cannot find anywhere on their website, is in fact two weeks. at least i know that now!

[bhaalsdeepbat]

bc of the stimulant shortage, i am having to take vyvanse that is 4 years expired, but only on days i work, to get me through until the powers that be can fucking FIGURE THE ISSUE WITH MANUFACTURING ENOUGH FOR EVERYONE WHO IS BEING PRESCRIBED STIMULANTS.

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Anyone else feel like they’ve been walking around in a lucid dream since they were born?

[daz4i]

i am so angry about being alive it's not even funny anymore

[elizabethplaid]

toothpaste woes - daily notes, jan 13, 2024

Tonight's meaningless* panic is over the flavor of toothpaste. I've got a Rx fluoride one, and the first tube was fine - tasted better than the Crest whatever I was using! Second tube? Different manufacturer, worse than Tom's of Maine mint, feels like chalk. Barely held off a panic attack and physically gagging when I used it, due to sensory issues.

My first work-around is to do a tiny dab of Rx and a tiny dab of the Crest on my brush. Probably wouldn't bother with the mix if I was still using the fluoride rinse, but I'm on a different one, because of the crown. (Clorhexadine. Pretty sure I'll discontinue it sometime after my permanent crown is installed.)

Long-term solution would be to ask the pharmacist (in person!) if I could just get this one manufacturer from now on. Between an understaffed rural pharmacy and my nocturnal lifestyle, it's probably not going to work if I just send someone on my behalf. I -do- have another refill available, so it's not like they'd make me wait, necessarily.

I hope they laugh at my empty tube, because I squeezed the HECK out of that bastard. Dental stuff is sensory hell for me, so if I like a toothpaste, I don't want to waste it.

*Meaningless in the grand scheme of things. I know I'll get through this issue. Sometimes, though, the panic blinds me to the possibility of it working out, so think of things in dramatic terms. So, like, I'm trying to acknowledge my panic is a big feeling but not a big reality. I have the power to make it a less-big reality, too. (Gotta hype myself up!)

[ashtraysystem]

get me outta heeeerrrrrreeee

this kind of class is not my forte. I can't think in terms of open ended, I'm a specific task kind of guy.

I would work on my mythology homework but the printer won't work, and I need the physical media in order to properly process the content for it. Most other classes it wouldn't matter, but this one has so much reading that I have to. I meant to print them on my home printer yesterday but forgot and didn't have time to before I left. Didn't know I'd have so many problems with printers today.

I'm behind in what I wanted to accomplish today and its pissing me off. It's makin me spiral in a stupid angry way.

We are low on spoons and high on forks and knives. Our body hurts. We need food. We need quiet. We need our preconceived schedule to not be messed up by printers failing at their jobs. We need people to be specific, to speak the fuck up when they are talking so that we don't have to pretend we heard them when we have no fucking clue what they said. We need to just fucking chill.

[tadpal]

living in a city is great until i want to go on a walk and there's no fields

[gmos]

what does it mean when i feel like each minute passes excruciatingly slowly even when i invest my full attention into something for what feels like a long time

[tomandgeriatric]

I didn't really sleep much at alllll last night....like...i "went to bed" finally at like 6:30 am....i have to work at 8 am. I can't tell if its the medication, or just my own dumb brain keeping me up at night. I've always had problems falling asleep, not staying asleep, but falling asleep.

[scientia-rex]

A lot of younger people have no idea what aging actually looks and feels like, and the reasons behind it. That ignorance is so dangerous. If you don’t want to “be old,” you aren’t talking about a number of years. I have patients in their late 80s who could still handily beat me in a race—one couple still runs marathons together, in their late 80s—and I lost someone who was in her early 60s to COPD last year. What you want is not youth, it is health.

If you want to still be able to enjoy doing things in your 60s and 70s and 80s and even 90s, what you want to do, right now, is quit smoking, get some activity on a regular basis (a couple of walks a week is WAY better for you than nothing; increasing from 1 hour a day of cardio to 1.5 will buy you very little), and eat some plants. That’s it. No magic to it. No secret weird tricks. Don’t poison yourself, move around so your body doesn’t forget how, and eat plants.

If you have trouble moving around now because of mobility limitations, bad news: you still need to move around, not because it’s immoral not to, but because that’s still the best advice we have. I highly recommend looking up the Sit and Be Fit series; it is freely available and has exercises that can be done in a chair, which are suitable for people with limited mobility or poor balance. POTS sufferers, I’m looking at you.

If you have trouble eating plants because of dietary issues (they cause gas, etc.) or just because they’re bitter (super taster with texture issues here!), bad news. You still want to find a way to get some plants into your body on a regular basis. I know. It sucks. The only way I can do it is restaurants—they can make salads taste like food. I can also tolerate some bagged salads. On bad weeks, the OCD with contamination focus gets so bad I just can’t. However, canned beans always seem “safe,” and they taste a bit like candy, so they’re a good fallback.

If you smoke and you have tried quitting a million times and you’re just not ready to, bad news. You still need to quit. Your body needs you to try and keep trying. Your brain needs it, too. Damaging small blood vessels racks up cumulative damage over time that your body can start trying to reverse as soon as you quit. I know it’s insanely, absurdly addictive. You still need to.

You cannot rules lawyer your way past your body’s basic needs. It needs food, sleep, activity, and the absence of poison. Those are both small things and big asks. You cannot sustain a routine based on punishment, so don’t punish your body. Find ways to include these things that are enjoyable and rewarding instead. Experiment. There is no reason not to experiment—you don’t have to know instantly what’s going to work for you and what won’t, you just need to be willing to try things and make changes when things aren’t working for you.

You will still age. Your body will stop making collagen and elastin. Tissues you can see and tissues you can’t see will both sag. Cushioning tissues under your skin will get thinner. You’ll bruise more easily. Skin will tear more easily. Accumulated sun damage will start to show more and more. Joints will begin to show arthritis. Tendons and ligaments will get weaker and get injured more easily, as will muscles. Bones will lose mass and get easier to break. You’ll get tired more easily.

But you know what makes the difference between being dead, or as good as, in your 60s vs your 90s? Activity, plants, and quitting smoking. And don’t do meth. Saw a 58-year-old guy this week who is going to have a heart attack if he doesn’t quit whatever stimulant he’s on. I pretended to believe it was just the cigarettes, and maybe it is, but meth and cocaine will kill you quicker. Stop poisoning yourself.

Baby steps; take it one step at a time; you don’t need to have everything figured out right now. But you do need to be working on figuring things out.