#i cant escape thwm

[beasalmeh]

holy shit im arguing with someone on tiktok and im convinced theyre reading my comments with their eyes closed

[nixisglitched]

This whole music thing genuinely has such an unaturally harsh grip on me, I'm trying so hard to have self control and not commission art of them playing together as humans then broken down playing together as the creatures they are now

[femmedesyeuxnoirs]

It feels like i have no choice anymore. Its either eat underwhelming diet food and be tortured by cravings all day or give in to them and binge an entire cake and make myself sick. I cant keep doing this i hate it i want to escape its making me insane. Nearly every moment of every day eating revolves around my mind no matter what. im obsessed with it. I already know my brain matter is shriveled up but i feel powerless to my ed. I cant stop myself from feeling violated when my stomach is full. Its like im a child again when i had no choice but to do, say, act, eat however my family insisted was the “right” way. It feels like im letting thwm win and if they win my life up until now will have been meaningless

[arataka-reigen]

i have inadvertently been watching every fucking anime saori hayami is in. i originally watched her in demon slayer and spy fam and her voice is so unique its hard not to notice when she’s in other stuff. even across genres… shonen webtoon tower of god, bisexual harem isekai my next life as a villainess, emotional movie a silent voice, ecchi gambling anime kakeguri, slice of life cooking anime sweetness and lightning, fantasy shoujos snow white with the red hair and im giving the disgraced noblewoman a crash course in naughtiness… i cannot escape her. i dont WANT to escape her, but i feel like i should be able to at least

DO NOT ESCAPE HER

In all seriousness, she is definitely one of my all time favorite VAs, she has the range baby, she delivers im absolutely all her roles. She puts so much emotion into the characters that I cant help but instantly connect with thwm

I absolutely can't wait for her as Falin from Dungeon Meshi. While I read the manga she was the actress I pictured for Falin and when I heard her voice in the trailer I almost cried.

[nothing-a-good-nap-cant-fix]

i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them why do they always do this. i hate my dad why is he always like this why is he always like this why is my mom always like this. he starts saying about how we're such bad people because we laze around all day and that we're always messy and dirty and that we're just lazy fucks and thats all he ever says about us. he always thinks we're dumb and stupid. and our mom always says we should do more that what we're already doing isn't enough that it's "what we should be doing" and that we should do more do more do more i hate her i hate her i hate her whats wrong with everyone i hate my sisters i hate my parents i hate everyone i hate everything why does this always happen why are they always like this why why why why i hate this i hate everything i wanna leave i wanna leave. i wanna leave. i work so hard just so i can escape this fucking place and i have to keep telling myself that its for me its for me. i should work hard to finally leave. if i work hard in my studies i cna leave i can leave i cna leave i want to leave. Why is my mom staying home. I hate it when she stays home. I wish she'd gone on her trip for a month. Now she's just gonna go on and on about how we're messy and stupid and don't even know how to do basic chores. i never asked to be part of your fucking family i never asked you to be stupid and get pregnant in college i never asked for you to keep me fucking alive fuck you fuck you fuck you i never asked to be here i never asked to live with you fuck you. fuck you fuck you fuck you i hate you i stopped loving you years ago fuck you.

I fucking hate this. My only safe place is the fucking bathroom and even that isn't safe enough. I can't stay in here too long or else my dad will notice and start getting mad at me again and say that I'm trying to escape again and that I'm on my period and acting immature. i hate this iw anna cry and i cant even cry or else theyll see and theyll make fun of me everyone will make fun of me. i have to keep telling myself that its worth it. that all my hard work will be worth it and ill finally escape. I need to earn money now. But im too scared. I already have social anxiety to deal with and i cant i just cant. 2021 i thought i finally escaped to a safe place only for me to realize im fucking stupid. of course they arent safe. Of course they were just like them. i thought they would understand but they didnt. they only infantilized me and made me feel like i was stupid and useless. it felt even worse being with them. And now i can hear my mom getting mad. Fuck fuck fuck of course my sisters dont know that shes unsafe that they shouldnt even trust thwir emotions around her whats wrong with them dont they understand its unsafe never show your emotions around her. but theyre stupid. i understand. they think shes still their mom. they think that she actually loves thwm. i understand. but that means i should leave them behind too. theyre too attached to mom and still see her as a mom. okay. theyre stupid. im going to escape and im not bringing them anymore. they think mom still cares. she doesnt. dad doesnt care. he never even wanted to be here. If he had a choice he would never choose us.

Fuck fuck fuck i want to cry my time is up here i cant stay too long anymore theyll notice theyll notice i dont wanna leave but i have to what choice do i have i have to get yelled at again i have to get yelled at again i have to just stay quiet again fuck fuck fuck fuck i hate them i want to just run away fuck i have to go now i have to leave fuck fuck i want to run away i want to leave i dont want to get out the bathroom please please please i want to feel safe for once.