#i cant bring myself in that headspace

[selamat-linting]

resignation letter is the most potent painkiller. i love you resignation letter i love you one month notice <3

[arolesbianism]

I wanna take a crack at making some fake screenshot graphics for my Sif Odile duo loopers au but I do not feel confident enough in my ability to mimic isat's art style and I also have a crippling fear of drawing backgrounds

[whateveriscatchy]

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[ningningkittie]

i cant stop thinking abt him... have been doing that all daynd i feel so sad nd my heart hurtsso bad nd i long for him sm it's just a bad day :((

[ozlices]

btw it is our little's chosen birthday today since it's also emu's bday & not a single person has wished them happy birthday even with them being devastated in our discord status so 🙃it'd mean a lot to them to come back from their sad nap to ppl wishing them happy bday

[dreamybasil]

Can you tell me the plot of the game of Omori?

Thanks!

lplot... omor.....

[huge HHUUUUGGGEEEEE essay below the "keep reading"] (i'll try keeping it short..........not) (i cant help myself)

Basically it starts off with WHITE SPACE, a blank world where a boy OMORI lives!! You have MEWO, a tissue box, a laptop and a sketchbook in there!! and wont forget the black bulb :D

There's also a door, that leads you into NEIGHBOURS ROOM where all your friends are! Not really all of them, but the ones that will follow right with you! Aubrey, Kel and Hero!!!

Aubrey is a really cheery girl who's pretty much inlove with Omori

Kel is an energetic baller who's athletic and silly and stupid /aff

Hero is Kel's older brother! Also the one who stops all the fights between Kel and Aubrey, because those two fight a LOT

When you get outside the room, you can go to the forest playground where you see a lot more of your friends, and especially MARI on her picnic blanket! Mari is Omori's older sister!!

She's loving and perfect, a pianist who takes care of the whole group and is like the glue that keeps them all together.

And lets not forget BASIL!!!! He's Omori's best friend!

He's really shy and caring but cherishes all his friends <3

There's a ton more places to go to in headspace, where you can all explore!! And each one in the order of the game...

Vast Forest, Train station (with additional bonus Orange Oasis and Rain Town), Otherworld, Junkyard, Pyrefly forest, Lost forest, Sprout mole village, Sweetheart's castle, Deep well, Last resort, Deeper well, Humphrey...

But the game also has psychological horror genre in it, and that concludes into even more places

specifically: BLACK SPACE. A total opposite to WHITE SPACE, and there's a bunch of doors, each one leading to one nightmare and a mess of a world.

But without a conclusion, all of those are just dreams, made by a teenage boy named SUNNY!

If taking plot by using the SUNNY ROUTE.... He can come out outside after KEL knocks on his door, and explore the outside!

A small city with just 15 houses and a church!

Faraway Town, Faraway Park, Faraway Plaza and a supermarket mall-like building OTHERMART, that also connects with HOBBEEZ, GINO's and FIX-IT!!

gah im yapping so much and getting into tons of little details..

If a little shorter, through the story you acknowledge that Mari is actually dead, and Basil helped Sunny with the murder, in a way.

There was an argument between Sunny and Mari, since they had a recital to attend at autumn and Sunny threw his violin down the stairs in their house, and Mari started yelling at him, and out of pure rage Sunny pushes Mari down, causing her death.

Sunny tried bringing her body upstairs and put her into her bed, thinking she just needed a rest, but then realizing she's dead.

Basil saw it all, and he tried to help out Sunny, by carrying her body into the yard and framing her death as if she hanged herself with a jumprope, but once they tried to go back inside, Sunny looked back at her and saw something horrifying, which traumatized him for the whole time until he finally came back outside to see his friends, who changed a lot, because it was 4 years since the accident happened

each one of them also show one stage of grief

kel shows acceptance, basil shows bargaining if i remember right aubrey - anger hero - depression and sunny is denial

in the end, taking the good "true" ending, Basil and Sunny had a fight during a sleepover at Basil's house, ending in both of them being in a hospital due to severe injuries and Basil stabbing Sunny's right eye out

and at the hospital, after Sunny wakes up and beats OMORI in a fight, he goes into Basil's room where everyone else were, and tells them the truth.

Once the truth is out, their immense guilt is not following them anymore, both of their SOMETHINGS (hallucinations, in a way) disappear!!

[kamiversee]

heyy it's me again... more theories more questions! i'm not sure if you can answer this one or if i'll answer it for myself but here we go!

in chapter 48, the one you posted just before this one, Suguru brings up Satoru in front of Choso. Choso had absolutely no reaction to it:

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“Ohhh, I get it now,” Geto chimes in, “Thisss is why you stopped hooking up with me.” He points out, “I thought Satoru told you to stop or something-“

“Suguru, please.” You utter through gritted teeth as you look at him with begging eyes.

He raises a brow and his face twists up in confusion, “Please what? I just never knew why you stopped calling me to have sex.” Geto shrugs, “Didn’t know you went and found yourself a new fucktoy-“

A vein pops out along Choso’s jawline and he’s trying so very hard not to snap, “Say somethin’ else.” He challenges the male sitting across from you suddenly.

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I'm not sure if it was the situation where maybe Choso didn't hear him say it because he was too focused on the fact the reader and Suguru had fucked?? I just thought I'd bring it up because it felt a little too weird to me!

anyway that should be it for the next while with my theories until i overanalyze this new chapter!! thanks for the great stories cant wait for more chapters! xoxo

YAP SESSION TIME WOOHOOOOOOOOOO

Okay not a real yap session since it’s just one question BUT STILL.

I was waiting for someone to notice that Choso didn’t even react to Gojo’s mentioning😹

But I will say, given the most recent chapter, you get Choso’s pov and notice how stressed he was so perhaps he just wasn’t in the headspace to pay attention to it? ^.^

That’s really the most I can say to tht though <3

[curious-l1ght]

I am now in the headspace where if I don't know your tumblr I will go through your blog.

My trust has just dissapeared.

Never thought I'd experience this. This is the shit that I see in those video essays, can't believe I've actually kind of experienced it.

Its always like: "Oh, that's terrible! I hope that never happens to me. I hope those victims/people who were hurt/people who went through it get better and find peace!"

So it gets worse. It gets really worse. This wasn't exactly supposed to be a vent but it all went downhill.

I talk about suicide and self harm in this.

I hate how she was the one who really got me into Doors. I hate how she was the first person I considered a friend. I hate how that inside joke is ruined now. I hate how she got me familiar with so many things. I hate how I felt bad for her. I hate the fact that I thought I felt like I could relate to her medically. I hate the fact that she was the one who I went to for help. I hate how I asked her for help when I was suicidal. I hate how I relied on her. I hate that I have so many memories with her in them. I hate how I thought we were best friends. I hate how manipulative she is. I hate how she hurt so many people. I hate her

I HATE HER SHITTY APOLOGIES. I HATE HOW THE "APOLOGY" SHE GAVE ME WAS MASSIVE AND FILLED WITH LIES AND MANIPULATION TACTICS. I HATE HOW SHE TRIED TO GUILT TRIP US. I HATE HOW SHE FAKED THINGS THAT PEOPLE GENUINELY SUFFER FROM. I FUCKING HATE HER AND I JUST WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING ABOUT HER.

SHE KNOWS IM SUICIDAL. SHE KNOWS THAT I HAVE HURT MYSELF, DOESNT SHE?! SHE JUST FUCKING LOVES TO MAKE EVERYTHING WORSE. EVER SINCE LAST YEAR, EVERYTHING HAS BEEN RUINED. HEART SURGERY, CUDA PASSING AWAY, HIGHSCHOOL, IRL FRIENDS THAT HURT ME, GETTING TOLD IM MATURE FOR MY AGE, WANTING TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF, LOSING MOTIVATION FOR EVERYTHING, LEARNING THE ONLY GOOD FRIENDS I HAVE ARE SUFFERING IN THEIR OWN WAYS AND ME WANTING TO HELP THEM BUT I CANT, AND NOW THIS?!

THATS ALL I COULD THINK OF! THERES PROBABLY MORE! I JUST WANT TO TEAR MYSELF APART AND KILL MYSELF BUT IM TOO FUCKING SCARED TO DIE. IF I DIDNT HAVE ALL OF THESE FEARS I CAN BET YOU ID BE GONE BY NOW.

I'm sorry that I have to rely on so many people in order to not lose it. I wish I didn't have to rely on everyone and make their day worse by bringing her up.

Just fucking leave us alone, selfish asshole.

This wasn't meant to be massive. It was just meant to be everything until I started saying how much I hate things.

I won't be killing myself any time soon. I can't do it because I know how many people would be devastated to see me gone. I had to experience my brother trying, and even though it wasn't successful, I'm still heartbroken from it. That was years ago, too.

Thank you to the people who have been helping me.

I will continue to help others and keep an eye out.

I will make sure people block her.

Just. Block. Her.

[drawballa]

What to do against art block? It's been months for me.

I suffer more so from burnout rather than straight up art block, so I'm not sure how useful my tips will be but maybe you can get even a little bit from it <3

Number 1 thing is working on something that brings you joy or matches where you head/heart is at. For example, I love both my royalAU and my collageAU, but I had to take a break from collageAU because my heart was with the RoyalAU. And in the same context, you love drawing headshots and hate drawing full body? Then just draw some headshots! At least until you're in a better headspace and then you can work on full body again.

Number 2: taking inspiration from the things around you. Saw a super cute outfit online? Watched a really cute moment of the boys on RUN? Draw it! I've been doing that a lot with my patreon drawings and its helped SO MUCH! Not everything has to be a unique and original idea. Some of my favourite stuff has been inspired by irl content.

Number 3: Knowing when to push through and when to stop/change direction. This is really dependent on the individual so I cant tell you when you should do what, but I find that it helps to assess yourself when your feeling stuck. Usually I'll ask myself, is this drawing really stopping me or am I just being lazy? If it's a drawing that NEEDS to get done, I'll usually say to myself "okay if I just finish this then I can work on what I really want to do". And if it doesn't need to be done, I think its important to understand that you can abandon projects. Just because you've started it and put time into it doesn't mean you have to finish it - especially if its putting you in a negative drawing head space.

I hope you were able to gain something from that <3 External encouragement is also a big help so just know what I'm rooting for you!

[kimio7]

Oh scrolling through my bookmarks and seeing fics that are just SO GOOD i cant bring myself to read it in the wrong headspace

[rufusx2]

thinking more of my "autumn headspace" so to speak a thing that happens within me only during the autumn season typically end of august to mid october in which my mind is completely free of my material shackles and i become completely and totally convinced that i can become a different person overnight i am overcome with not only a want for life and a hope for the future but i actually do make changes and i feel things much more deeply than usual, but with an air of detachment from it as if i am not quite out of body but definitely not in it either. a sort of overlap between us both? i dont recall much but i remember crying at night but being so fervent during the day. jaw clenching and shaking and buzzing with that energy. in fact i would honestly describe it as more of a high energy phase than anything else- i would be genuinely unstoppable if i could trigger it on purpose, or choose to live like that permanently. it feels as if there is a haze of gold placed over my vision when i look back in my memories. and this with comes the burning need to walk and keep my body moving. during this time a coworker described be as a "busy body" and he was absolutely right. when i was a teenager this would manifest in me going on hours-long bike rides until i could taste blood in my mouth from moving so fast, and now i wander the nearby neighborhoods turning on random corners until i can't walk any more. i am like a shark compelling to swim and i just can't stop. and it is amazing. i think so many things and while i still think while i walk it's always a bit duller now. i remember walking out in the autumn not caring if i had work later and not adjusting my hair or bothering to check my posture. i would stare at myself in the shadow i left on the sidewalk only. of course i also at one point felt as if the blank walls of my bedroom were going to swallow me up but i have posters up now. i think up countless ideas, and can only try to match that intensity and continue my projects during the rest of the year. i rarely think of new ideas in spring summer or winter. and the thing about fall i think is not just the general "vibe" of it all. because i could easily replicate that by watching over the garden wall or listening to my Autumn bands or putting up my halloween stuff at different times of year. but i think the crispness of the air and the leaves falling off the trees and the relief of being over with summer fuels me. i go for walks in spring sure but the warmth and wetness of the air distracts me from falling into this. while it rains in autumn, it's dry whenever it isn't (which is why it's part of wildfire season). but going back to my detachment. i find it freeing. of course i am still plagued by daily anxieties, but it's more manageable i suppose? or at least, it doesn't happen as frequently. but the main thing that brings me artistic inspiration (or at least, HAS brought me artistic inspiration for this project specifically), is this idea of the Ideal self. how i can become a new person, and change who i am fundamentally. it's futile of course, but for the duration of this phase i really do do it. and i know i'm doing it because other people like me more. every job i have ever had, i got hired in autumn. i am calmer. i think differently. i do things that i cannot do otherwise. and i try so hard to keep this up but i just cant. again, not in my nature. but i feel as if i can change my nature during those few short months a year. and i feel less trapped by this body. and of course this can tip very quickly into self hatred which i have gone into before on this blog (it's what is meant by 'WWJD' and killing the old self to be reincarnated as the new self) but i still cannot help but wish i knew how to trigger it. what drugs can do this to you? i would trade this sober mind for her any day of the week.

[schakira]

i cant bring myself to text back bc im mortified they're mad but also im not in the right headspace to pick the conversations back up

i have the feeling i forgot smth. not an assignment, not a chore, not a payment, not a duty, or smth... i feel like i'm forgetting some form of leisure...

[cometogethcr]

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[idontwanttospoiltheparty]

You have five questions to split between Paul and Taylor. What are they?

Also, you can only listen to one Paul album ever again. What is it?

oh gooooooooooooooosh

Okay. I'm doing this assuming that my asking them won't like hurt them, because if I actually met either IRL I would not be asking invasive questions lmao. And also assuming they'll tell me the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.

To Paul: How has it been, having others writing songs about you?

To Taylor: Do you think it's a choice: getting swept away? (this is like one of my absolute, all-time favourite lyrics by her, I just want her to riff about it)

To Paul: What do you think is the cruelest and what the kindest thing you've ever done for someone?

To Taylor: Are there times you wish you hadn't hardened your heart as much as you did?

To Both: Is there a type of song you haven't written yet but still want to?

Also not a question but I would like to see them bonding over their 1969/2016 parallels. Also would like them to tell me their fave song by the other.

ANYWAYS. I still haven't listened to a LOT of Paul's stuff and if I very cheekily assume that Wings ≠ Paul – which means I can keep Band On The Run my beloved – I'm just gonna say Tug Of War DESPITE having only heard three songs off it because I LOVE all three of them!!!!!!

[loverscrossmp3]

thank u for the tag my love @gaewaren !!! <3

last song: who i want you to love / bleachers

last film: 27 dresses

currently watching: been rewatching new girl while simultaneously waiting for vol. 2 of stranger things!

currently reading: what would u all do if i said i’m… still rereading normal people. what would u say then

current obsession: going on bike rides in the evening with my brother? cooking? sharpening my pinterest boards? a bit of everything really!

+ open tag xx

[xiaojaan]

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