#i cant believe i've lived longer than you did and you wrote THIS

[latinthusiast]

Anchises to Aeneas:

o gnate, ingentem luctum ne quaere tuorum "son, do not ask about the immense grief of your people"

scene reimagined in the goriest way possible in Lucan's Bellum Civile:

Erictho's reanimated soldier to Sextus Pompey:

tu fatum ne quaere tuum "do not ask about your own fate"

[coldbam]

last line(s) challenge

I was tagged by @absolutelybifurious and @playinginthunderstorms

thank you so much for the I love doing this even if i don't really much to share rn bc i just posted the fic i've been working on

I've been wanting to get back into the proposal sequel doc, but I couldnt seem to get any words out today, so instead, to brute force myself into getting some creative juices flowing, I wrote out the below, which could be nothing, or could end up being a tiny little eddie maddie drabble. Again, do not expect this to be much yet!!! just a little exercize for myself:

“Uh, Maddie?”  “Eddie, oh my God! Hi!” Maddie pulls him into a quick hug. “What are you doing here?” She looks past him, as if expecting to see someone else, maybe Buck, or even Hen. But of course it’s just him, that was the whole point.  “Uh, you know. Just trying new things.” He sees a tiny wince from Maddie, gone in a blink of an eye and God, she probably knows exactly why he's trying to fill his time lately, avoiding an empty house. “Um, did you…hear about this from Linda?”  “No,” Maddie says with a smile. “I told Linda. I can’t believe she’s passing off my recommendations as her own.” “Ah, she did not mention that.” They laugh politely and then lapse into a silence lasting a little longer than it should. The thing is, despite their lives being so wrapped up together with Buck, Chimney,  the whole 118, and dispatch evan, Eddie hasn’t actually… spent much time with Maddie. And definitely never alone. There’s always been a buffer.  “So, pottery?”

lol I cant think of anyone to tag ATM, but tbh if i write something real tomorrow or monday I might just... come back and do this again 🥰🥰

[castlebyersafterdark]

you are never too sappy! (congrats btw! + big love to the mike to your will... i see that blue heart and height difference mention 😉) the balance works so well so far. like a little glimmer of you. especially as its always relevant through a byler prism, so youre not making it all about you at all. i cant believe how cosy it is here. i genuinely await your writing like i would a new published novel hahaa. i also was going through my likes and saw an anon post on spicybylerpolls from february. it mentioned the sears catalogue and byler's fantasies and i had adored it at the time. rereading now, i'm like... VINNY?!?!? hahaha maybe it's not you but it's textbook and the style of writing and openminded humbleness felt very you. love.

especially love the self-acceptance journey you seem to be on here, allowing yourself nerdery, allowing yourself spice in byler forums, keeping a healthy eye on your online habits! + growing to love yourself more through will perhaps, keeping up with your writing, learning you kind of love cringe roleplay sex in fic?!?!? hehehehehe and also realisations that you may or may not want to share! its all gold dust - and honestly, this feels like blogs as i knew them growing up, like wordpress, blogspot, etc. proper old blogs where it's just right mix of artistic and personal.

x

Thanks, I feel so happy being here, everyone is so sweet 😘 Saving the dash from my personal rambles:

I didn't want to ruin it by changing things up too much. But, I do kinda want to talk about whatever here and post the occasional non-Byler stuff, still mostly the normal fandoming and spicy posting like I've been doing. Keeping the chill vibes. This does feel very much like a different type of blogging than I'm used to. It's cool. Even if people get sick of me or lose interest, I'll pretend that's not the case hahaha. Corny as hell, but it feels safe here.

Incredibly flattered that you look forward to my writing! I've always wrote fic and original pieces and scripts and loved it but had zero confidence. Did it anyway. I still have a lot of growth to work through with my writing when I decide to post polished fics, but that's fun now, feels different. I have so much in the wheelhouse. It'll fuel me to season 5 and beyond, I'm pretty sure.

That's funny you mention the spicypolls account, because I HAD to go searching through their archive and I found that post - wow, I see what you mean. The typing style certainly could make you think it's me, and it was an excellent post but full disclosure - I've never sent anything into that blog before! I only started this blog in May (whoa! 2 months?? Feels a lot longer!) and I genuinely only lurked and never interacted anywhere on the spicy corner before I converted this account, even on anon.

And I never thought I'd learn things about myself through something as genuinely kind of silly as what is, at its core, an explicit head-canon and writing blog for a fictional fandom ship. Hahahaha. But here I am. Feeling a little more confident in embracing my vulnerabilities and weirdness. Weirdness isn't bad! It's stuff I've known but it's different when you just live your life, instead of actually talking about it outside of your brain. Helps me feel less embarrassed after posting here sometimes - I look back over what I post and just cringe on occasion but power through a little easier lately!!

And ohhh it always comes back to the cringe roleplay, doesn't it 😏 Which has been a fun exercise in letting myself play around and try new things in general, with writing. With real life. Be a little weirdo. Find your people. Stay authentic.

Thanks for this one, it's a little self-indulgent, rambling about myself, but it made me smile. ❤️ Incredibly corny, but this is the kind of environment I think I've always been searching for online, but looked in all the wrong places. So, ughhhh. Finally.

[tortilla-of-courage]

Describing it as being like home is actually pretty accurate yeah.

And YES! I am totally willing to talk about my modern AU.

I've been calling it the Adoption AU because Time ends up adopting all of the boys. It mostly started as, I saw an edit for a tweet someone did with Wars and Wild that involved Taco Bell (cannot remember the blog or post for the life of me though), and so I wrote a thing about Warriors sneaking out of his university dorm to pick up Wild, who snuck out the window despite his broken arm, and then got extorted by Legend in exchange for silence at 3am.

This was followed by a fic where Groose decided spray painting a public building was a good idea and got himself and Sky arrested, set earlier in the timeline.

So then I made a timeline. Twilight is Time and Malon's biological son, and he found Wild on the side of the road one day (Wild's backstory involves a bad car wreck and an underground hospital, but no conspiracy bullshit. Yet). Wild has no memory, so they keep him. Wild brings home Legend, who was told his uncle died at school before a holiday. They then also keep Legend. Malon finds Four in her barn one morning for complicated reasons, and they keep him too. Twilight finds Warriors, who is in his class, hiding in an alley one day after he ran away from an abusive home and brings him home too. SS Impa (who I've nicknamed Shield because there are enough prominent Impas here that they should get nicknames too) is a social worker who's trying to find Sky a home and has run out of options, and turns to Time, who has a record of successfully housing 'unhousable' youths, and asks if he can take one more. He can. Wild finds Hyrule and brings him home because 'Rule needs a shower even more than Wild does. Hyrule stays. Wind's grandma ends up with Wind and his sister but can't financially take care of both and so Wind ends up with the boys and everyone is +1 Grandma.

Twilight has a fic detailing how he knows Midna and Dusk and I ended up shooting him (oops) but at least their social project gets handed in on time.

Then I started hashing out Time's backstory and suddenly this AU had plot. And organized crime. And a conspiracy. And secret societies.

The summarized version is that the gems from OoT are like, Idk what they do yet. Haven't gotten to a point where I need to figure that out yet. But they are Important and have to be carefully guarded. The Great Deku Tree (just called Deku because he's not a tree here) was Time's foster father before Ganondorf killed him. Also, Ganondorf is Deku's half brother. Because. However Time 'stole' the Emerald and he and Navi ran until OoT Impa (Sage) and Lullaby found them. So Time got adopted into Lullaby's family. Ruto inherited the Sapphire from her mother who also died from mysterious circumstances, and Darunia has the Ruby. Lullaby got the Ocarina from her late paternal grandmother.

Then Ganon finds them and tries to steal the Emerald from Time, so Lullaby goes looking for help and thus finds the sages. Saria is an anonymous hacker who uses the screen name 'Kokiri'. Time reveals he didn't steal the Emerald, he was Deku's heir, and then Navi goes missing. Time is home worried enough that he's physically sick, and Ganon decides to try and attack the home. Only Lullaby's family is Olde Money, and they live in a big, old manor, so Lullaby as Sheik decides to play 'Home Alone' with the secret passages in the walls and they piss off Ganon because when did that brat get a sheikah bodyguard??? Sage and Rottla (Lullaby's mother, who is fully sheikah as well) rush home from a thing and Kokiri is running a play by play watching the security cameras.

I pull in my headcanon that Time was killed in the Downfall Timeline by getting impaled on Ganon's tusk and Ganondorf stabs him with the tusk of a mounted boar head and then Sheik shows up to protect his brother, and then Mama gets home and is not happy to find this man in her home attacking her kids. Time is fine, but Navi stays missing. (She's alive tho.)

Also, Time's foster dad was the last leader of a secret society known as The Order of The Lost Woods, and Time learns this upon meeting Tatl, who gets him sucked into another event that would probably make a good action movie. I have thought too much about the Order and it's hierarchy, but what's important here is that Time ends up with a standing job offer and Tatl and he remain friends and we find out how I fit FD into this AU. It's not pretty. This is where Time loses his eye too.

The AoC came out and I added that Link in as Wild's twin brother and he shows up during the main plot.

Which starts with Twi getting kidnapped. (I'm not really meaner to him than the others, I swear, he's just the most logical choice to be Time's heir. Which he is. He doesn't know this though.)

So he's kidnapped by Ganondorf, who broke out of jail, Zant, who shot Twi in highschool, and Ghirahim, who has some history with Sky I haven't fleshed out yet and a very public rivalry with Warriors over twitter. About six weeks later Sage finds him in an abandoned warehouse (because of course) with a shackle on his left arm and a lot of new injuries. He ends up fine, but he tells Time later in the hospital what happened and he's both message and messenger and Time is this close to just committing murder. Tatl talks him down.

Somewhere here is the half finished fic where I introduce AoC Link as Luke/Knight, and this is as far as I've plotted thus far.

Other tidbits: Wild and Lullaby/Sheik are both genderfluid, Lullaby/Sheik married Ruto, Wild has a very popular YouTube channel, Twi does drag racing sometimes, Sky has a pet bird, Four has DID to explain how the Colours are here too, and Wolfie exists in the form of a random wolf-dog Wild found and brought home that Legend somehow convinced half the family was Twilight. Also, Warriors has somehow befriended an entire sorority and he doesn't know how this happened.

This... got long. As you can see I have a lot of thoughts about the Adoption AU. It's gotten a bit away from me, I'll admit. This went from 'Wild does stunts on his motorbike and keeps breaking bones but somehow not the bike' to 'Twilight got kidnapped and Time is the target of a mafia that Ganon runs and also maybe killed a man once' and I don't know how that happened. Also, this is the condensed version of the summary. My actual summary/outline is much, much longer than this. So if there's any detail you want more on, feel free to say so and I'll happily go into more detail (there are so many things I didn't even mention....)

And yes, Robbie having a bong is very important to my best friend, for some reason. He has one in a modern AU and he probably invented one in canon. I happen to agree that this makes sense for his character, if anyone would invent a bong in LoZ it's Robbie (this is such an anticlimactic end to this ask after the stuff about the modern AU...)

Also, sorry for the long ass ask. I genuinely don't know how to condense the Adoption Au down any further. There's a lot of important plot beats to cover, and I still skipped things.

-Attllhak

oh my GOD???? if you ever write and post this somewhere id love to read it, the level of "crazy" conspiracy/action movie elements implemented sound sosososo cool, from Ganondorf being Deku's half brother to trying to "send a message" via Twi and- just- all of this is SO good.i sat here and reread this ask like 3 times as if that would magically spawn more info about it ahaha

there's so much to unpack here but it's honestly so worth it i love every single detail!!! i can imagine the actual outline being way longer, nad honestly that just makes me the more excited/curious about all that might be missing from this ask - i cant believe it started with Wild and Wars going to Taco Bell of all things

also i can totally see Robbie making a bong, no matter the setting or AU. fits him a lot I'd say

and dont worry about long asks!! i adore opening up my askbox to see one ask take over the entire thing, it makes me really happy aha

[darkisrising]

6 , 7, 8 👀👀👀

6. do you have any kind of consistent writing schedule or just hoping for the best? I write consistently but I try not to get mad at myself if life happens and I don't get a chance to. These days I try to write anywhere between 200-500 words a day. It used to be 2k a day but for reasons unknown I haven't been able to do that lately (hence the slow down in fic updates). At first I felt really panicked about it, but the longer it went on and I realized that it wasn't getting better, the more I've made my peace with it.

7. tell us about the plot of the first fanfic you ever wrote

HA! Haha. Ha. Well, back in the days before ao3, we had to email writers to tell them how much we loved their fic. I did that and started a correspondence with a writer that was LEAGUES better than me and for some unknown reason was willing to look at my first attempt at a fic. She tried to gently tell me it was a bad idea, but I blazed on ahead with posting, and wouldn't you know it? I got all kinds of people mad at me.

Basically it was a Smallville fic that opens with Lex dead of apparent suicide via overdose? I think? The fic is explaining how things got to that point, basically Clark is now Superman and hates him (I think? I can't remember) and Lex reverts to club kid ways... I think, again, it's been a while. All I know is people apparently expected Lex to come back to life in the fic and he never did and they were big mad about it. The writer friend TRIED to explain that no one likes character death fic but I was like "no, no, this is gonna be different and great, just watch." It... was not great. Which is not to say that I don’t think character death can be done well, but this was very much not that, lolol. Oh, well. That’s how we learn: through failure.

8. what’s your relationship with constructive criticism and feedback like? do you seek it out? how well do you take it? I like con crit, but I think a lot of people---in rl and in fandom--- don't know how to give it so I'm wary of taking it in spaces that aren't set up for it. I also believe that it works better and is more useful if the writer is mentally prepared for it. Because it *is* a very intimate thing to be sharing something you've written, and though I firmly believe everyone can improve---and if someone is interested in getting better they need to listen to crit--- if you’re not expecting it there’s always the risk of it hitting in the insecurities. So, yeah, my rules for it are that I need to be prepared for it and usually I need to have asked for it first. I think in general it works best if you go into it asking your reader to give you feedback on a specific issue that you’re looking for feedback on so that its more productive than “i really liked it/ i didn’t like it” because that stuff is so subjective it’s not all that useful as a place to springboard from. Compliment sandwich is always a good way to go when giving it--- compliment, critique, compliment--- just so the writer doesn’t spiral into a den of self pity, which is always a productivity cockblock.

I also, personally, have a rule that when receiving it I can’t “explain myself”. Like if someone says something is a problem it is SO tempting to explain away the issue in great detail to PROVE them wrong, but that just becomes defensive and time consuming. I try (try, don’t always succeed because *taking* critique is just as much an art as giving it) to listen to it as the impressions of someone who doesn’t live in my head and cant see all the brilliance that lives in my brain (ha) and then parse through that what I’m hoping their impressions/understand of the material to be and if they went off course somehow then that’s on me and I need to go back in and fix it. No need to tell them that they didn’t ACTUALLY get that that was supposed to xyz, because lol I can’t do that for every reader I encounter. BUT if someone sees a problem with a fic, I totally don’t mind if they reach out and say “Hey, do you mind if I give you some feedback on something that didn’t work” (or something) so that I can mentally prepare for it and make sure I’m in the right emotional place to be told about all my faults, lol Thanks for playing!!!! 💜 * Ask game

[dballzposting]

Ok and like obviously he tried to not care and obviously that didnt work. That's why with that majin buu shit he wanted so bad to get back to the person he used to be - becasue he had spent so long trying to detach and trying to not care and trying to only care about himself, only to fall back to Bulmas house and her son and he just like hung around and loved them and stuff and then the kid was 8 and Vegeta was still there . Kakarot was dead and he was depressed for a while but he started training again bc he could not live without a goal .

And he just wanted vindication, you know, and he just wanted his due, he wanted to be how he expected hinself to turn out when he was younger. Coming to earth for the first time having only ever lived one life he was expecting that to be forever, a cold and powerful saiyan for forever, and he was expecting to be the strongest becasue that's all he was ever told and ok I've never seen the first half of dbz I will admit but I'm assuming that he was expecting to be the strongest in the universe and kill frieza or something right? Like he wasnt gonna live like that any more he was gonna show the world his teeth right? Something like that? Like he wasnt gonna tolerate that freiza bitch any longer right . He was gonna do smth about that as the prince of all saiyans right. All the saiyans that frieza killed right. I'm not equipped to talk about the depth and severity of that tho I'm just gonna focus on vegeta's self-image

Right so that self-vindication was such an ardent goal of his for so long, like his whole life, and he was built and nourished by it, and his whole life revolved around it, and so how was he supposed to move on from that?

His goals had been fucked up by Kakarot bc Kakarot had killed frieza (well really future Trunks did and that was fucked up) and saved vegeta's life and stuff etc etc and kakarot was still stronger than him and GAH. I domt need to tell you vegeta's psychology you know this..

And now Kakarot's dead and he just cant accept that . He died so honorably and it shook Vegeta to his core and like what is he supposed to do now????? He has unresolved unfinished and un-vindicated thoughts emotions and feelings regarding all that sooooo he keeps training and believes - bc he has to - that one day he will get his due, one day he will face Kakarot again and win.

Anyway so like ... he had those, ideas from his youth you know, hes been carrying them around, and he tried to disconnect from the new life he was beginning to have on earth once but that didnt work, he still cared about Bulma and Trunks in the end, and he still has these feelings to be vindicated but hes grown too soft and his heart too aware to be able to stop caring about his new life now .

That's why that majin buu shit was so epic bc before he said any of that I already knew exactly what he was going through .. bc I have a lot of scorpio myself you know so i felt like i understood it .. uh

I actually meant to write something else instead I domt rmemebr why I wrote this .

Just the idea that when Vegeta came to earth he was young and had a self-image that was set in stone, becasue it had to be, he had to be solid and sturdy and he had to be able to stand by himself and know exactly who it was he was standing by. Bc he had to overthrow frieza and be a leader at some point you know!!! Self-vindication!!! And he was not anticipating change and growth. He was not anticipating for Bulma to introduce him to a whole sea of new feelings without explanation and he was not expecting to have a kid and he was not expecting to not be able to detach in the typical saiyan fashion!

By dragon ball super hes a bit of a thottie tho and I'm glad to see that hes found some harmony between himself and his life and others like that ❤ Love

Honestly my entire perception of Bulma x Vegeta is hinged on the fact that Vegeta had never experienced touch that wasnt in the context of violence and personal glory before . And so he completely could not comprehend the language of caresses and gentle consideration and touch and it was just so weird and foreign and confusing to him.

Like he didnt get it so it was completely uncomfortable and upsetting and made his stomach twist and it was just some weird shit and he had a hard time being exposed to it as his brain was trying to understand it . But at the same time it made him freeze up like a deer in headlights and made his entire heart melt to liquid and run down his chest .

It's a good feeling in a way but it's also an uncomfortable state to be in, all sweaty and anxious and powerless, but that's just love sometimes, it's sickly in the gut and horrifying to the psyche but still somehow reads as a good and non-terrible thing . And it's just bamboozling and weird and Bulma just thinks at first that he has a comically bashful side that she wants to tease but actually everytime she looks at him with her big blue eyes and he makes the mistake of not looking away in time, he dies and then comes back to life and there is no cap to how many times this can happen in one day. Honestly dealing with her was more of a workout than the gravity chamber tbh .. the reason he got stronger wasnt bc he was training it was bc he had developed a tolerance to his heart completely melting in his chest while he simultaneously kept his composure ... hard shit to pull off