#i can't talk them about secret life bc it makes them sad too and i don't know what i can say

[omgitsbeewave]

i made a kinda sad post and my Internet went off and tumblr deleted it....

i'm just sad today

edit: i saw and deleted it bc this one is more emotional and stuff. i'm sorry everyone who will read the tags

[sugar-omi]

I hate myself for thinking this but, what if MC finds out she’s pregnant and the first thing in her mind is that she’s fucking up Cove’s future. So instead of telling him she just breaks up with him and shuts herself away from him so he can’t convince her that they’ll work it out. Now Cove has no clue why the love of his life just broke his poor heart. Skip to five years later, Cove comes back to surprise visit his dad but surprise there’s MC, Cliff and a little five year old boy that looks way too much like Cove. Like I’m talking copy and paste that’s a little Cove

oh my fucking god.... i. pls i have some thoughts but also OUCH. BIG OUCH

mmm i'm not gonna make a full fic/detailed post... maybe later if we're all itching for some angst or i'm up for causing more heart ache n then i am very much open to expanding on this (already thinking abt cove getting to know his son.... omfg my heart HURTS)

but i wonder how MC "gets away" (for lack 'a better words) with not telling cove about the kid.

because i can tell you right now, cliff and kyra can't know about it and keep it a secret. not for 5 years at least.

so does she beg everyone in her family to keep it a secret? i think that's the best bet. moms would really prefer Not to keep it a secret, but they also can't force you to tell cove...

but i also don't see them letting 5 years without cove at least knowing, go by either... they'd try to keep the secret, but seeing cove's sad face would break them quickly, if not instantly.

also your friends!!! god, they can not keep a secrete to save their life, especially that big. so you can tell them, but expect the news to find its way back to cove in about.. mmm... 4 hours? so yeah....

anyway!!! lets say that your family kept the secret...

i think your son would eventually start asking about his dad. he sees how you and your family react to him, hears all the mumbling about how he looks so much like... "cove"? when you think he's in the other room.

and he sees how sometimes you look sad and how you slowly and tenderly run your fingers through his hair. and how sometimes you tell him "yknow, daddy has hair just like yours."

and when he asks why you're sad, if you respond with something along the lines of "you look just like your dad, thats all."

or even if you say that in response when he asks what his dad looks like (if you haven't shown him pictures), or if he overhears you saying he looks like this "cove" guy

you notice he starts looking at himself more often... maybe even asking, "does daddy have green hair like mine?" "are his eyes really blue, just like mine?" "does he wear glasses too?" and still in awe that he and this man he's never met, but already seems to adore him (as much as a toddler can adore someone they don't know), share the same features.

and if you show him pictures of cove, which i hope you do, but if you don't, don't worry because your son will probably realize "he has green hair like me!!!!" and he'd either run up to enthuse about it or run up to ask him if he's his daddy bc they have the same hair color... or just call him daddy n if anyone tries to argue about it, wdym?! they have the same hair color, what more do you need?!

so hopefully, cove is the only man with specifically seafoam green hair. otherwise, you're shitting yourself every time your son runs off to meet his green-haired-brethern

anyway. I think all your sons questions, and seeing pictures, knowing that he shares so many traits with cove, and seeing you miss him.

oh god, seeing you sad would make him insist so so much on seeing cove.

"if we meet daddy, will you be happy again?"

also can't believe I almost forgot.. your son being sad about not having a dad, and being jealous of other kids for spending time with their dad, etc.

he'd ask you questions about why he doesn't have a dad, n if he does. why isn't he around? and a real heartbreaker.. does daddy hate him? does he not love him? is that why he isn't here?

so I guess that means it's time to go back to sunset bird! and finally explain why you moved away n never looked back, and why you don't talk to anyone but your parents from back then...

now I won't get into everything right now (im a fuckin liar. I can feel a tangent coming on)

but I wanna talk abt how cove would feel, just a bit, and how I think your future with him would look...

I think at first, he'd be really shocked, seeing this carbon copy of his much younger self. the only thing telling him that his 4-5 year old self didn't jump out of one of his many childhood pictures,

is any birthmarks or beauty marks that maybe you have, or the boys hair being curlier than his, or his skin tone, or maybe he has your nose. whatever it is, he knows he's looking at the imperfect combination of you and him.

(cove's heart is beating outta his chest right now, n you're lucky he only stumbles instead of fainting, because this really is a shock... but that deeper part inside of him, that egotistical, primal almost, part of his heart swells up at the thought, the reality. that his son looks mostly, if not entirely like him.)

but after shock, he's sad. I think he'd be really sad, because he realizes that this is why you broke up right? and no matter how in control of your emotions you think you may be, your wide eyes show how afraid, nervous, and sad you are. he knows. he knows without even talking to you and it hurts

and after he gets past the anger and confusion stage, maybe even in between in fact- which would be more natural since, I think he'd feel this all at once but that's besides the point

he'd be really sad he missed all his sons milestones. walking, first words... God he probably dreams about it (when he does eventually fall asleep), and now his heart is tugging at the seams and the seams are RIPPING.

he also starts thinking about how hard it must've been doing it by yourself. and going through all that without him, your partner.

but maybe you didn't rely on him like he relied on you? maybe you didn't trust him like he did you, maybe you just... didn't need him. like he needed you.

you did break up afterall, and you never let him know about the kid until now, so maybe you thought he'd be a failure of a father and nipped it in the bud before disaster struck...

but I also think that's where anger comes in. because you didn't tell him. he didn't have a choice at all.

he knows he had a tendency to hesitate or run away, but he thinks really hard about it, and he knows he wouldn't have ran away from this.

leaving you alone would scare him a lot more than being a father. being a bad or absent father would scare him a lot more than trying to be a good one. knowingly abandoning a life he helped create, would scare him so much more. he wouldn't be able to sleep otherwise.

so while he gets it. he doesn't get why you didn't try.

and if you explain that you worried about ruining his future, he's so upset and so mad because how could you make that choice for him? how could you take on the burden alone?

this is also where confusion merges in, because while the answers are so obvious or easy to guess, he just can't believe it. he doesn't wanna believe it...

now about your future...

cove still loves you. he's loved you his whole life, it's hard to stop even 5 years later... and seeing you, it makes his heart throb because he's dreamed about this for many nights.

you broke up with him without giving any answers. you even up and moved by the end of the week so when he tried to give you space, before talking to you, it was too late. your room was pretty much void of every sign of life.

you took all your treasured items, your clothes- spare some youd been meaning to get rid of, your pictures, your hobby items. everything. he's surprised you didn't just take the bed and frame.

he's surprised you didn't just carve out his heart n take it with you, because if it's still in his chest, why does it feel so hollow?...

it'd take a really long time to even think of a romantic relationship. if at all. maybe cove's even accepted the break up at some point, depending on how long you'd been together. but if you'd been together since you were 13, it's a hard pill to swallow. bc you can put up with his angsty teenage self, what changed...?

I think seeing you be a parent, and so adored by your son, warms up his heart. makes him fall in love a bit at the sight.

it's not instant, he's getting to know you again. and getting to know this life that he didn't even know was waiting for him.

it's a good 2 or 3 years of figuring out this mess until it becomes something that makes sense. or as much sense as it can make. and if there's still something there, no matter how miniscule. it will catch fire.

now about the kiddo... he's so scared. and I hope you took a few days of talking with cove, and prbly cliff n Kyra bc they have a lotta feelings n thoughts on this too, before you try to integrate cove into his life.

it's small. cove meeting you at the park, and either your son is asking cove a billion questions (both abt why the sky is blue, and awkward questions abt why he wasn't present before...)

or he's trying to drag him on the monkey bars (doesn't work, cove's feet are on the ground still....)

or he's sitting silently on the blanket, reading, occasionally showing cove his favorite scene of the picture book or making him pronounce a word

but it does get bigger, it becomes lunch-n-movie dates, spending the night at your house (at your son's insistence. prbly bc he didn't want him to leave after a fun day), then cove taking him out alone..

it's a lot. and sometimes it feels like you're going backwards or that you're not moving at all because it's hard, for awhile. and even though his dad is on speed dial, there's not enough information he can give cove in how to take care of and deal with a kid he just met a few months ago.

especially a kid who already has a bit of personality, is hell on wheels (like most 5 year olds), possibly has many questions n sometimes problems with cove suddenly being here... it's a lot. n cliff can't help with any of it really.

he does get comfortable, eventually. although there's still times when he's sad, sometimes even angry about what happened, and all he's missed out on, he's so so happy to not miss out on anything else.

[pupyuj]

Gp pervy landlord yujin IS GIVING ME GENUINE BRAINROT RN IT'S INSANE :(

hehejejjrkf 😵‍💫😵‍💫 tropes that fit yujin like a glove: loser, pervert, virgin... like this is just perfect 🤤

you've built a pretty close friendship with your kind landlord during your months of stay in her apartment! you could say that you have a bit of a crush on her 👀 yujin was pretty, she was funny, a bit awkward when talking to you but in an adorable way, and her jokes were lame, but you still laugh bcs she was so cute 😭😭 you never could've guessed what she does behind closed doors... never could've guessed that she fights for her life trying to hide her hard on whenever you talk to her, never could've guessed that she stares at you hungrily whenever you're not looking... and certainly, you never could've guessed that she spends hours in the safety of her own apartment getting off to the thought of you 🫠

she cherishes every moment she has with you in like an almost obsessive way?? she gets excited delivering your packages to you if she so happens to get a hold of it, the slightest skin contact gets her soo hard it's actually pathetic 😭😭 her favorite part of the day is seeing you first thing in the morning when you check your mail in your pajamas,, with your hair being slightly a mess, your eyes so sleepy,, you just look so cute and fuckable to her 🫣 definitely doesn't make her interest in you a secret whenever she gets to talk to you in the morning bcs that's when she wants to fuck you the most but you never really notice cuz you're half-asleep most of the time 😭😭😭

oh um.. she also jerks off to some cctv footage of you in the laundry room of the apartment that she has... bcs whenever you do your laundry, you wear some really short shorts and yujinnie fantasizes about coming on your ass while you're wearing them all the time :(((

sjbsbcdjfjkdbf imagine like,, getting trapped in a packed elevator with her,,, but not like in a oh-no-the-elevator-is-broken way but there's just a lot of people in it that you can't really move 🤭 standing in a super close proximity with yujin, her breath fanning your face a little and she's blushing and she's so hard and you can feel it bcs you're kind of pressed against her???? SHE CANNOT MEET YOUR EYES AT ALLLLL 😭😭😭 and you're kind of a mess too bcs holy fuck your landlord's dick is literally on your thigh 💀

"i'm really sorry... (y/n)-ssi..." yujin managed to say ugh she was adorable,,, laying her forehead flat on your shoulder to hide her red face :((((

"it's okay, yujin-nim. it happens." you were saying while laughing. yujin raising her head only to find that the two of you are within kissing distance,,, you were so pretty up close, she's only getting harder 😳😳😳 yujin leaving the elevator in a rush,, and your face was just red and you walked to your apartment kind of in a haze,,, yujin just became 200 times more attractive 🤤🤤 BUT SHE WOULD AVOID TALKING TO YOU FOR A BIT AFTER THAT :((( you weren't supposed to know how she feels about you like that 😩 and ofc you were sad about this bcs you really did like having yujin as a friend... so now maybe it's time to promote her as a fuck! 😍

inviting her over to your apartment to celebrate one year long of being under her care 🫣 yujinnie being so stiff and even more awkward than she normally is after the whole elevator debacle 😭😭😭 everything going smoothly until you're both buzzed from some champagne,, giggling at the smallest things while watching a movie,, cuddling with glasses in your hands and suddenly yujin was kissing down your neck,,, "(y/n)-ssi.. i really really really.. hic... i really want to fuck you right now... i always have.." and then she's pulling you to her lap,, pressing her cock against you while still kissing your neck 😩😩

"mhm.. whattt... yujin-nim, you're such a perv..." you were saying while giggling uncontrollably bcs yujin was sucking on that sweet spot on your neck while touching you everywhere :((( 'accidentally' spilling your drink all over yujin's shirt bcs you kind of turn into a little shit when you're drunk sjdbfjfkf "oops... guess you gotta take this off now.." you sloppily unbuttoned yujin's shirt and threw it away,,, and you gasped seeing her body,, "wahh, yujin-nim, you're so hot..." while poking her abs and groping one of her boobsjdbfjfjffk

aaaacckkkkk yujinnie taking off her pants in a hurryyy when you've kneeled down in front of her 🫣🫣 "i w-wonder if... hic... i can take all of you in me.. whoa.." you said, staring at your cute landlord's thick cock 😩😩😩 yujin not wasting any more time and forcing it down your throat, and she starts you off in such an insane pace too.. she has wanted this for soooo long 😵‍💫 she was pulling and tugging at your hair pretty hard but it made you so wet that you didn't mind that it hurt a little :((( choking when she spills her load in the back of your throat,, her telling you to swallow which you do of course bcs you would be crazy not to drink her delicious cum 🫠🤤🤤

but imagine you're like the sleepy kind of drunk :(( you're half-asleep with your ass up on the couch while yujinnie is fucking you so roughly from behind :(((( "good night, (y/n)-ssi... ahh.. ahh...! i promise i'll.. m-make you feel good even when you're asleep... fuck..!" you only hearing yujinnie's grunts in your ear while entering a deep slumber :((

you'd definitely wake up with cum on your tits, thighs, and stomach 🤤🤤🤤 and yujinnie cuddling up to you, making you feel so warm and safe in her arms 🥺🥺

[aleksa-sims]

RL Story

CW: Divorce, addiction

It was a Friday, October 13th to be exact. Daniel and I are getting a divorce today. After weeks, he finally signed the divorce papers. I was devastated. It was so hard for me to take this step. But I had to finish it, for my Baby and also for myself, to finally forget Daniel. We met near the city hall, where we had an appointment with a divorce-case officer and judge.

Once there, I saw Daniel coming towards me. I honestly didn’t want to divorce him. I loved him, still, so much. 😥But... that's just the way life is. 😞... He looked at me... I wanted to hug him but instead I just said sadly, hi. Daniel seemed absent for a moment, staring at my belly. 🩵👶

He had this... empty look. Not sad or angry, rather.... emotionless.

With my eyes lowered, I just stood there. I struggled to hold back my tears. Exactly a year ago we moved together. I was so happy with him and now this. 😞

Me: I'm so sorry. I never wanted this! And I still don’t want it. I wish we could just go home together.

Daniel: Same, but...let's not get into that now. Relax and think about your Baby.

Me: What?

Daniel: It's gonna be okay. Trust me.... C'mon, let’s get this over with.

Me: Yea,,...whatever you say. 😞

Um.... well! Daniel and I didn’t get divorced today. The judge asked us why we wanted to divorce? D.'s & my statements left some question marks with the judge, I think? We have to wait six months, before we get divorced.... Daniel said that my jealousy (Tina, Irma...) & insecurity were the biggest probs for him in our relationship.😠... However, the real reason for postponing our divorce was bcs Daniel inherited Dominick’s plot & house. (division of property) Although I refused any claim to Daniel’s property!!

Me: Did you really, seriously mean what you said to them?

Daniel: I answered all questions honestly.

Me: Why didn’t you just give the real reason for our divorce? You took off!!! I didn't know where you were!! And my Baby isn't yours. This fact is the reason for our divorce! You can't handle that I'm pregnant. Or that we are both addicts, which would have been a good reason why we can’t stay together! 🤦‍♀️

Daniel: The juge asked me WHY, I left! You got it?.... You and my borther, your secrets drove me crazy. That fucking shit about Tina. I was overwhelmed with my shit, our drugs you and your delusions. I kept trying to make you happy! I only loved you and I only wanted you. But you just didn’t believe me. Be honest, it wasn’t my fault, just yours!! You don’t know what you want! And you can’t make decisions! But I’m not like N.! I don’t want to tell you what to do or how to live your life. You are responsible for yourself! Finally get it, or just stay with your soccer player and let him control you.

Me: What kind of shit are you talking?? Nico doesn’t do any of this to me.

Daniel: I talked to him! He said, you won’t be the same after he’s done with you. He told me this to my face!! And btw, I can’t stand Alex calling you Lexi!! 😠

Me: You must have misunderstood N. He isn't like that! He was just upset, bcs I confessed what I wanted from you the other day. Besides, you’re jealous too!!! Anyway.... I-.. I just can’t stand it around you anymore. And I’m sorry I was so jealous. I loved you so much. I wanted to do anything for you. I was terrified to lose you. I’m sorry. Sorry I was such a freak to you. But I didn’t do anything wrong with your brother, D.!! There was NOTHING between Alex and me!! IDK how many times I’ve had to say this damn sentence. Finally get it!....

Me: It hurts so much and it just doesn’t stop.... I don’t want to love you anymore. I wish you’d never married me. 😢

Daniel: Damn, I-... I'm sorry. I still struggle with that... stress disorder. Either I feel nothing-... or I boil with rage.🤦‍♂️

Me: It's ok.. I'm leaving.... See you in 6 moths. And.. stay off drugs, just... take care, Daniel. 😢

Daniel: Wait!

Me: I gotta go. Sorry. Bye!.... 😭

Daniel: I-...... love you.

I just wanted to get away from there. Far away from.... him.💔 Not really, but.... agh, you know what I mean. And I’ll see Daniel again sooner than I thought. Right after delivery. It was about that annoying name change. D. and I were officially still married, but I didn't want to give my Son his surname. D. is not his Dad, but N. Such a mess!!

Previous/Next

[moonspirit]

BEWARE BC I'm about to just rambling here... (sorry, English is not my first language and this is long)

But can you imagine Annie and Connie being the new chaotic duo?

As Connie has always been the og aruani third wheel, and also, the first time you see Connie laugh after Sasha's death is when he sees Annie stuffing cake down her mouth (bc it remembers her of Sasha). I can see them being friends after all the trauma 🫠

I can imagine in a Post-Rumbling world Annie and Connie being the ultimate duo of messiness. First, you have Connie, who, by himself is already the personification of chaos. Then you have Annie. Annie, who never had real friends, Annie who never was loved. And now she is loved !!! She has friends !!! And omg she doesn't know why, but Connie is her favorite one At the beginning she thinks that if she didn't have Connie, it's either Jean or Reiner, who, btw, she hates most of the time (she doesn't but they have a special dynamic), or Jean, who is the perfect mix of a dork and a jerk (he refers to him as de jork) So Annie thinks: HE IS THE ONLY ONE SANE HERE AND ALSO SHE CAN TALK ABOUT HOW SHE THINKS ARMIN IS THE CUTEST LITTLE THING ALIVE WITHOUT FEELING WEIRD BECAUSE CONNIE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS THAT THEY HAD SOMETHING GOING ON. But no, actually Annie loves being around Connie because deep down she is just a chaotic silly little girl just as he is.

They meet up to talk shit about everyone they know while drinking wine and eating cake (strange combo just like them) Connie asks Annie for advice about women (bc Connie is kind of a wh*re) and Annie gossips about Jean and Pieck, bc they are dense idiots and obv she, also, talks about ARMIN (OMG CONNIE DIDN'T YOU SEE HOW HE TOUCHED MY BACK TO MAKE ME HOT !!! ANNIE, HE JUST GRABBED YOU BC YOU WERE CROSSING THE STREET)

everyone is freaking out. WHAT DO YOU MEAN CONNIE AND ANNIE ARE FRIENDS? THE BIGGEST DUMBASS ALIVE AND THE QUIET BUT LETHAL GIRL ARE FRIENDS???

When Reiner finds out he wants to cry (Annie does'nt do that stuff with him) Jean wants to run away bc THE ChAOOOOS and Pieck just finds it funny but she is lowkey jealous bc she can't get Annie to open up but aRMIN????

Armin hates it but loves it. He loves that Annie has her very first real friend, and Armin knows that Annie reminds Connie of Sasha (But he is absolutely terrified of them when they are together). BECAUSE HE HAS TO BE THE ACTUAL ONE WITH BRAINCELLS AND BTW CONNIE KNOWS TOO MUCH ABOUT THEIR SEX LIFE.

AND ALSO, CONNIE THINKS HE IS A FUCKBOY HE THINKS HE IS THE KING OF FUCKING BUT THEN ANNIE TALKS ABOUT HER SEX LOFE WITH ARMIN AND HE IS SHOCKED.

Their dinamic:

Connie: God, that Hizuru ambassador is such a bitch.

Annie: Yeah, you're right. She should disappear.

Connie: Ikr. OH. OH.

Annie: We should kidnap her.

Connie: Yeah, we should, bestie.

Armin: (he knows they are perfectly capable of kidnapping that poor woman) What if we don't (?)

Another one:

Connie: And then, she said that a lasted more than her lovers, that I was the best a I had in bed and I thought, god, I just did preliminaries.

Annie: That's too sad, I come three times in preliminars. That poor girl has a terrible sex life.

Connie: ARMIN MAKES YOU COME MORE THAN TWO TIMES?? HOW YOU DO THAT

Annie: Sex.

AGDJSLSNDHSKS- HAHAHAHKAAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA Anoooonnnnn this ask is goooold!!! Help I'm bursting a lung xD

Connie and Annie should absolutely be explored more - post canon they have sooooooo much potential to be idiots together! I think they'd be extremes on the energy spectrum: Connie always raring to go and Annie just wanting to sleep. But WELP, this is now a very dangerous and dumb combination and once they're together, they cannot be stopped!

I think it's really funny actually, because post-canon Annie actually gets up to some really dumb shit (everyone's rubbing off on her :<) and who better to encourage it than the most enthusiastic guy on the planet? Connie ey? She can also trust him to go along with her super secret spy missions and not tell anybody (well... For a while anyway.)

What's ALSO good about these two is how Connie... Is always the first to get the Latest and Most Exclusive Aruani News. They've just got together? He knows. They've just had their first kiss? He knows. They're holding hands? He knows. They're fucking? He kno-

Armin: "NO, PLEASE, DON'T KNOW!"

Tho honestly, if you add Pieck to this duo, everything spirals dangerously out of control.

Also:

Armin: (he knows they are perfectly capable of kidnapping that poor woman) What if we don't (?)

*wheezing* AKSKSBXKSLAZHOAKANAHSVDBKAKA HELP-

[padfootastic]

(The idea that Remus wasn't the only werewolf at Hogwarts but they're just all keeping it a secret and Dumbledore doesn't tell them they're not alone is SUCH a concept! Kind of obsessed actually if Remus gets a shack protected by a murder tree what do the others get? It makes sense that they would want to separate them all when turning as they can't guarantee safety if they're together. Are there like? more shacks somewhere in the forest? A mini village of shacks that have so many protection spells on them not even an earthquake could do any damage to them?)

It being a personal favour to a friend make sooo much sense though. The way that people talk about werewolves in the books really doesn't lend itself to people thinking of kids as werewolves. They're gruesome hardened killers who want to tear the wizarding world apart! 11 year olds just... don't fit into that narrative at all. Dumbledore probably never thought 'oh let me see if I can do something for the other werewolf children' because how many would there even be? two others in the whole country? Those are outliers nothing needs to structurally change just for maybe a handful of kids.

Also re: his parents/Dumbledore telling Remus that going to Hogwarts is an amazing opportunity. Based on Remus' later personality I'd almost say that they(he?) also made it a point to specify that Dumbledore believed Remus specifically to be worthy of this chance. Just insane pressure on this scared eleven year old that he had to keep proving to Dumbledore that he was still worthy of the risk while he was at school. He could have gotten kicked out the moment he wasn't! (Would also be a way to explain why Remus was much more careful than James and Sirius) And later in life he would want to still show Dumbledore that it wasn't a mistake to think him worthy. His inability to keep a job (even if it isn't his fault but prejudice) would make him feel even worse about the whole situation!

THE SNIPPET!!!!! I'm obsessed it sounds fantastic! Sirius needs a good hug and some hot chocolate :( Poor guy :( (you should also get yourself some hot choco!!) Almost being haunted by love he doesn't think he deserves and can never get back :(((

The fact that order members being present would derail Harry and Sirius having a conversation is just so sad but so real.

Also to your tags on the new Sirius and Harry snippet (which was ALSO brilliant!!!). Harry would definitely respond to "acromantulas are predators!?" with some version of "yea. we did noticed that actually." Sarcastic little shit that he is. It's always so fun to see Sirius' response to all the things that happened to Harry (and the trio as a whole) but also how Harry then reacts when he encounters the first adult who puts him and not the result of those situations first.

gosh i KNOW right!!! literally a revolutionary concept, so so layered. sadly, the fic it was in didn’t delve into it too deeply, it only came out because of the aforesaid tragedies but truly, it makes you think no? if we didn’t have the shrieking shack plot, it would’ve honestly been a very plausible theory. (but god does a warded mini village of snacks sound ridiculously cool. even though it opens up avenues for dumbledore to be accused of forming his own light-indoctrinated werewolf pack ;)

oh, absolutely! kids being seen as the outliers to what is essentially a structural issue is so on brand. they’re such OBVIOUS victims that it just makes sense to help out. only in small, incremental, ways though bc they’re still monsters at heart but just enough to bring them into the very fringes of society instead of entirely outside of it ykno?

yesss and even the fact that, iirc remus doesn’t tell dumbles about padfoot in PoA because he’s ashamed? that he broke the headmasters trust in school? like, we consistently see remus just being. one overburdened mf.

oh man sirius is definitely getting hugs but i am running to the doc right now to put a note in for a scene on sirius getting hot chocolate. perhaps he wakes up from a nightmare and harry is already there and he makes his godfather sit down and practically inhale two cups of hot choc bc what is better than chocolate for driving away the terror?

[uyuforu]

Hiii.

How are you doing? I hope things are good. I would like to participate in your game. Here are my charts:

For exchange:

These are some things that I feel like could be true about your FS.

💭Your fs  is very intelligent,wise right off the bat.

ASC at 21° + MC at 9° in Juno PC . He could appear very knowledgeable in his professional life. Someone who knows what is to be done.

He could even be powerful because of his knowledge/wisdom(Sag Pluto 9°).

💭And because Uranus aspects   10H Pluto , it will give him unique ideas or ways of executing his knowledge. The type to not just be a bookworm. And because he has this unique way of doing things , he can be less intimidating to others although he seems to have that strong aura in his professional field.

💭Moon is in trine and Venus is sextile with Pluto...damn he must be popular amongst females. He probably attracts lots of sapiosexual people .Women love his nerdy brain.

Appearance wise , he's very attractive. He is secretive , mysterious in his ways . Very calm and composed. Mature and organized. But boy when he is pissed,he's PISSED.

He has this intensity about him that is very calm like the type of beauty that slowly, very slowly makes you drunk.

He could be obsessive...stalking even.

💭Your fs has great sex appeal too. He is just sexy even if he's just existing. He is a passionate man. And when he loves you, he will SHOW it.Grand gestures .

Food could be a way. Like taking you to fancy restaurants or ordering your favourite food.(Scorpio Groom 1°square Leo Venus )

Oh my goddd...He probably feels like he's not a good enough boyfriend or his way of expressing love is not very nice. He loves you deeply but his weird/unique  way of expressing it makes him feel not good enough internally. Externally he might seem okay or even confident.

He is sexually very attractive as well. He seems confident and that's just simply HOT. Also he probably daydreams about the sexy stuff.(Mars 24° sex. Moon Juno PC)

💭Your fs could have some wounds from past friendships. But he probably learnt some life lessons through them. I think his education process was traumatizing to some extent.

He could have been struggling due to his studies but he was strong and bounced back 10× stronger.  Although it was painful, it made him see clearer and could've have found his 'purpose ' in the process.

Emotional intensity. Hot and cold behaviour at times because of his past experiences,he could feel sad.

Good imagination power.

He could be into women who are textbook beautiful..Libra ppl...but he also likes some uniqueness about you...like yea you're really pretty but what's the weird thing of yours that  makes you beautiful in my eyes...that energy. He loves/adores eccentric ppl..who are different and refreshing. People who are owning their shit.

💭Your fs could have some major placements in Aquarius /Sagittarius/Aries..His Mars could be dominant. Saturn as well.Taurus or maybe an earth sign Saturn?

Your fs might have beautiful eyes..the ones that scream royalty..like back the fuck off.

But if he's in love with someone, his eyes will be lit with passion and I can see a devilish smirk on his face in my head😭

(Literally he's  something else when turned on..its like a whole new world)

💭He's someone who will age well. His 'beauty' blooms better with age.

💭He's spontaneous,weird but full of love and knowledge. Feels frustrated when he can't express shit. Very reserved and quite generally but likes talking when he's comfortable with someone. 

Union is in Libra in both charts.  Maybe you met in a very balanced setting..well organized bc of that virgo degree. Venus at 11° tho..online meeting at some point. It could've felt like a dream meeting your fs.

In both PCs, Groom is conjunct Vertex..he was meant to be a groom/husband.

Idk how accurate I was but yeah. (This is my first time reading for someone so 🤡)

Thank you so much for reading till the end. And I appreciate your work here on tumblr.💗

GAME IS CLOSED. Thank you for participating to the game. Here is your reading. Also thank you for the reading. It was super detailed so I must thank you a lot for that, and I think it's a terrific analysis!! Really enjoyed it :)

જ⁀➴ Could meet FS in church, or in a religious setting, while traveling, or in college, or while studying. You could meet them unexpectedly, or just out of nowhere, in your everyday life. You could also meet them online, and have a crush on them, or they have a crush on you. Or you will text, call a lot.

જ⁀➴ FS can be a foreigner, but they can also be someone who is quite athletic about their look.

જ⁀➴ They can work out a lot, and be considered "hot" or "sexy"

જ⁀➴ FS can be very worried or anxious about their money, but at the same time they can have hard times not spending money lol. Love to shopping, and can actually spend a lot in a little time.

જ⁀➴ FS is smart, and FS and you could study the same thing.

જ⁀➴ FS can be more logical than creative, and have hard time to let their imagination flow

જ⁀➴ FS can also either not want children or have no plans with children for their future.

જ⁀➴ FS does wanna get married, and will probably know they will marry you when they meet you.

જ⁀➴ FS is hard working and has a lot of ambition. Can succeed in their career eventually.

જ⁀➴ FS is super popular among friends, can have a lot of friends. People may find your FS to be very nice and cool, get along with anyone.

જ⁀➴ FS can also have friends around the world

જ⁀➴ FS can also use social medias a lot and have a good amount of followers

જ⁀➴ FS can be popular among women

જ⁀➴ FS can also be quite lucky in general

જ⁀➴ FS can be more secretive than they show.

Potential placements of FS:

𝜗𝜚 Aries/ 1H

𝜗𝜚 Leo/ 5H

𝜗𝜚 Gemini/ 3H

𝜗𝜚 Libra/ 7H

𝜗𝜚 Pisces/ 12H

𝜗𝜚 Taurus/ 2H

𝜗𝜚 Possible Earth Moon

𝜗𝜚 Possible Fire Rising

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Thank you for reading!

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[polkadotpatterson]

For the ask game:

For Dot + Workman: 4 (in general types or specific shows, 12, and/or 25 (🥺) 

And then also and/or Salt coven for 15, and/or 37 bc now I'm thinking of salt movie night

4. Their favorite show to watch together?

I'm gonna be real I am perpetually bad at knowing what media any characters would like. I could see them both enjoying documentaries tbh? That's my vague answer lol

12. Who prefers calling to texting (& vice versa)?

I think when Dot was away in the Core and Dallas they tried to call each other whenever possible so they could properly talk!

...and now I'm thinking, what if Dot's fingers aren't particularly compatible with phone touchscreens, so they have to make a lot of extra effort to text either bc they have to wrestle with the screen, or bc they had to get an ancient nokia or something similar with buttons, and texting that way is its own kind of struggle. so, calling!

25. (a lil sappy, but..) What do they like about each other?

ough... I think the main thing has always been that they just Get Each Other in ways that other people can't. They both have that love of the sport and that great synchronicity when they play together, and they understand what it's like to be irrevocably changed by it in more ways than most players, to have their old lives stripped away and have their bodies made into something unfamiliar. and they help each other deal with that and work through it! it's good to have someone around who just understands you. kindred spirits. you know how it is

Beyond that, Dot likes that Workman is just such a warm person, someone who brightens up the room and makes them smile, makes them feel more at ease in any situation. Workman likes all the little things about Dot that the blessing tried to hide but couldn't, like their sense of humour and their devotion to their team, and of course how good they are with Beasley and how Workman can trust that Dot is the right person to take care of him when they're not around :')

SALT COVEN MOVIE NIGHT!!! this is such a fun concept. has everyone read the salt? read the salt

15. Who's the first to cry during movies that don't seem sad?

I think this definitely depends on the movie! Like, they can't watch anything with ocean scenes in it when SomeThing is around bc it gets upset and bad things happen when it gets upset!!! I think Dian would probably cry at some things in movies. Yado will cry at cute animal scenes. Phoenecia might cry a bit at a scene that reminded her too much of her old life and then she'd have to insist that this isn't crying, it's the new Moisturization Ducts that she gave herself, they're very efficient

37. Who wanted to see Oppenheimer; who Barbie? Did they switch opinions after?

I feel like this is a bit harder for me to answer when I still haven't seen either of them, but here's my best attempt at sorting them:

Team Barbie: Dian, Yado, Jenkins, Elodie, Carson (edit: KEVIN I forgot about Kevin)

Team Oppenheimer: Mehr, Austin, Weston, Phoenicia, Minh, SomeThing

Really doesn't care about any of this: Milo

I know Elodie and Minh aren't part of the coven (and technically neither is Carson) but I think this is funnier if it's Team Movie Night Double Feature and Elodie is happy to go bc yay team bonding! and meanwhile Minh is like what is the secret plan, why are you dragging me out here for this, is this an ominous threat about how you're building your own atomic salt bomb or what??? he's not having a good time

[dxcinhx]

dropping some thoughts about vida here

i started watching this show for melissa barrera and i absolutely enjoyed it and have rewatched some episodes bc it's very entertaining

s3 felt kind of different, it was almost like the sisters switched roles at some points

i might be reading too much into it, but in the first few eps as emma and nico's relationship was going well i would look at emma's face and be like she's happy but she's still waiting for the other shoe to drop, and of course it did. and i was so sad to see her clam up again and fall back into her whole "vulnerability = weakness" thing. for a few episodes she just looked so dead inside like she was seriously depressed and triggered with everything going on, like nico's secret wife and her awful dad making himself known

i love lyn so much but i need her to be single. i'm so glad she finally realized where her true priorities lie and that she needs to work on turning into a chameleon with the men in her life but i just hate that it happened in the last like 20 minutes of the series finale

side note but i was not expecting lyn to get so into religion for a hot minute. i mean i understand that it was her yet again molding herself to the people in her life, so i think she snapped out of it once her father showed his true colors but still like it was so jarring. god the man gave me such awful vibes and the last scene of him and emma after she confronted him was legitimately hard to watch

the sisters spent so much time apart and on different pages this season it made me sad :( i completely understand why but i do miss the moments in the first episode or in earlier seasons when they were sisterly and messing with each other

i love that mari had some more time this season to build herself up a little more and yes this is cruel to say but her dad dying is a blessing ! now she can finally look after herself and find people who appreciate what she does. honestly that man pretty much killed himself after he kicked out the only child who actually took care of him. ladies ask not what u can do for machismo but what machismo can do for u

speaking of this family i can't STAND johnny oh my GOD get off my screen and get away from the women in ur life all u do is hurt them

god i wish this new generation of shows had longer seasons. a 6 episode season is nowhere near enough to develop the characters and storylines better (even tho this season the episodes weren't all 30 min like s1 and s2). i was like holy shit things are happening so fast it's one terrible thing after the other but of course they are, they only have like 5 hours to tell the story!!

i'm really fond of this show and how witty it is, its integration of mexican and american and mexican-american cultures, the spanglish, the butch rep!! everything

actually one of my favorite moments this season was when lyn was talking to that european dude at her bf's mom's bday party (fuck her bf and his mom by the way holy shit he was such a weirdo) and she was talking about how difficult it is to be perceived as mexican by gringos while still not being mexican enough for mexicans. when she said she couldn't even hold a conversation in english or spanish i was like u read my mind. i'm literally incoherent. anyway it really resonated with me as an immigrant and i think it's such an important conversation to have!!

anyway emma and lyn repaired their relationship and their bigoted father is rotting in hell and they keep the bar and eddy's back too and everything is going better than ever, they told me so themselves <3

[these-written-reveries]

Guys can I confess a little secret to y'all? If you know me it's probs not a big surprise but shhh, just listen...

Sometimes...sometimes the male characters I like give me the ick. And it's been happening more often with 2 particular clown characters 👀

If you know me, you know I identify as lesbian/queer, so like DUH. But I find it interesting that it's happening more often. Basically with any characters played by real people. I think the comphet in me is slowly dying, guys. It kinda worries me bc I don't wanna lose the special love and connections I have with these characters, but I can't help itttt my lesbian brain thinks they're icky sometimes guysss 😭

You know who's never given me the ick tho?

✨ Anime boys ✨

They're the furthest from being real men so obviously me likey 😍 They're pretty and not too realistic and they got the masculine look/energy that makes my heart go 💓 (I'm talking to you, Bakugou Katsuki, Kirishima Eijirou, and all the other MHA boys that have me in a chokehold). It's honestly a match made in heaven.

I guess I should've known the comphet wouldn't be able to stand the test of time. The beast is growing weaker inside me. After all this time, I see it as an old friend, and I am sad to see this happen. I salute you, old pal. You've made my life hell in many ways, but what would I be without you?

Gayer. Definitely gayer. But I digress...

I'm being so silly 🤭 but forreal guys, idk what to expect of my future with these characters I've long considered to be f/os of mine. I don't think my love for them will ever fully fade away, but I feel myself growing more distant from them 🥺 I used to be able to overlook the icky parts and now I can't ignore it as easily 😭 this is supposed to be a good thing for me and here I am all pouty and sad about it pfft but I'm sure the self shippers out there will somewhat understand. These have been my comfort characters for a long time. I don't wanna lose the bonds I've formed with them 🥺

Anyway, I'm still totally cool with writing for these characters, I enjoy it so much still. But as for my personal relationships with these characters...the connection feels a little weaker these days 😔 but that doesn't mean it's the end! I might wake up in a few weeks head over heels for them all over again. Guess we'll see, huh?

If you read this far, thanks for helping me carry the burden of this very serious confession. I'm afraid the weight of it was too heavy to bear alone for a moment longer. It had to be said 😭🤭

[wosona]

This is gonna be a bit long bc first and foremost I'm a chatterbox xx

I literally saw some wonzer be like "i hate luna sm" like... can we talk about how abnormal that is?they're not some fictional couple being shipped, these are real people who look very happy together, how tf can you be a fan of Lucy and hate that she's happy? It's one thing to want to date your idol and getting jealous that someone else is dating them, but the fact that they're not even doing it because THEY want Lucy for themselves. They want KEIRA to have Lucy - mind you, these are two people they don't know irl and never will😭😭😭

I can't imagine being Lucy and having my fans mock my girlfriend's appearance, lie about her sexuality and start rumours that she's straight and dating every man she comes into contact with, or make up rumours about her and Eva Navarro being too close because they so desperately did not want her to date Lucy. I would feel so helpless.

The only silver lining is the "Goodbye Wonze🥺" tiktok edits they were doing a few months ago. They make me laugh sm

i find it hilarious when there’s videos accepting they aren’t together, but there are a few comments saying shit like “i think they keep their private life very private” or “lucy and ona are definitely just friends, kei all they way”. Like HUH they aren’t some secret agents they don’t care THAT much to the point they hide everything, get a grip.

it’s the extent of the parasocial relationship that scares me. like how can you, a random stranger online, know what’s best for them or what has happened between them. i’m sure lucy and keira would love to leave everything in the past, imo that’s quite clear. i feel horrible that some days they might come across a suggestive edit or video of them, like imagine scrolling and seeing someone analyse your past 7 year long relationship. that’s absolutely insane to think about and they must have some thick skin, cause i’d desperately want to comment and tell everyone they’re wrong.

but thank you for this it’s such a sad topic imo, one where all sides have been treated badly by stupid little online people. and don’t worry i love chatterboxes as you can probably tell 💕💕💕💕

[sporksaber]

Harry potter fic pitch. Post war. The main characters are in their early 20s.

Hermione is a [I cant remember the word for wizard cop] and draco is her work partner. Hermione, happily married and exactly where she wants to be on her career track to make her minister by 35, is the most put together person you would ever meet.

Draco meanwhile is an absolute disaster of a man. He regularly locks himself in their office to have mental breakdowns. He has dated exactly two people, one tried to murder him and the other relationship was just really sad to watch. Hermione is the only one who can regularly put up with him. He became a [wizard cop] entirely by accident. He's great at it, but he did not get there on purpose.

Harry is kind of vibing at this point. Post hogwarts he told the ministry and all its sections to fyck off and spent 2 years blowing shit up with luna. Now he invests in small businesses and hermiones charites and just finds small things that make him happy. (He also goes to therapy, bc without it he'd be as big a mess as draco.)

Ron is doing similarly to harry. He does a number of smaller things that he hops around and competitively plays chess. But he is also very put together and content with his life. Only partially due to hermione telling him he should ask her to marry him.

But anyway. The plot is a drarry romcom as they flail their way into a relationship through a series on (un)fortunate events. But, told mostly from hermione's point of view. And she does not understand how they are as dumb as they are.

Picture this. Hermione is sitting in her office eating cereal after her alloted biweekly all nighter. Draco slams open the door. He's ranting about how him and Harry accidently locked themselves in a closet together and Harry complimented his eyes or some shit. As it happens hermione is keeping a running commentary in her head mostly consisting of "how does one even accomplish that?" As she continues munching on her cereal.

Another scene, this time one of the few from draco's point of view. Hermione is acting insane, because the woman is terrifying when she's on a mission. He has stepped back to let her set people on fire as she pleases. She eventually tells him she'll take care of the paperwork and he should go talk to Harry. And then draco has a much needed talk about relationships and boundaries with his significant other.

I decided it would be funnier if all the characters have their turns to be absolutly bonkers but that only sane characters can narrate. We can't have harry and draco purposefully making the worst decisions for their relationship and have them explain their reasons in a complex and understandable way. That's too easy. Just like we can't have the totally 100% reasonable explanation for why hermione set those people on fire. The pov has to be swapped.

I'd also like to add that at some point harry brings up theoretical malfoy babies and it'll be revealed that hermione has already decided on the dates of conception as part of her 15 year plan. (She can't have them durring her field days without endangering them or taking extended time off,so she planned them around when she'll be transitioning from senior [I still can't remember what they're called] to more powerful but less dangerous political positions as she builds herself a strong platform for minister. She planned it by month. She'll get pregnant the month following her transition to administrative work, so she can announce it after a quarter of successful work. She'll have the second after her first turns 38 months so they won't have to deal with 2 toddlers at once and she won't have to be heavily pregnant durring the worst part of toddlerhood but they'll still be close enough in age to build a strong relationship.) Ron gets naming rights. He has the names picked out but is keeping them a secret. He very excitedly tells this to harry. He's looking forward to being a dad. (He's not quite ready yet, but he will be.)

[txicgf]

i will just say, as ive posted so wistfully about the past recently - I am happy where I'm at. I am happy with jade, and despite the tone of my more visceral posts, I don't want to be with anyone else. I feel so comfortable working through these ugly feelings because I have their support, y'know? there's no one in the world I'm more comfortable with, I can't imagine and never want to imagine having to go through my day without them again.

I will admit (and have admitted this to jade) that I can be sort of delusional at times and get lost in narratives that I make up in my head when I get stuck on something. Everything and anything to do with her, I definitely do this the most about, and it's had me consider in the past of course what my life would have been like had I stayed with her or Jade just wasn't here and I was on my own. I feel a weird sense of guilt around it, but I also think it's human to imagine all possibilities - and all other possibilities just make me so fucking sad. i get lost in the thought of her and all those unresolved and uncomfortable feelings sometimes, I'm introspective and my brain likes to hold onto things more than I've ever liked, but I could never imagine nor do I have any real desire anymore to be with anyone but jade. the idea of not having them around scares me. it makes me so sad to imagine a world where I'm not hearing their loud stupid snores from the other room or their silly voices and getting their from behind hugs when I'm cooking or going on our album drives or finding secret water, i love the fact that they never shut me up even when i feel so guilty about it and pretend to forget things ive told them bc they want me to go on a tangent again, the way they care about people and the world and politics and the conversations we have that literally are unmatched with anyone I've met ever,,,,, calling each other 'my love' constantly even if it's cringe and dancing together in the kitchen to sabrina carpenter and watching trashy dating shows and gossip girl and sex and the city and everything camp and ultra femme that ive always been too embarrassed to show people, pointing out actors we recognize in everything and making a game out of it, our bike rides, showers, playing story games together and losing actual days to it, just sitting in bed together in complete silence. even right now, they're snoring up a storm right next to me to the point it's slightly overstimulating, but im so peaceful just to be here with them with our little cat family. they get along so well with my family too 😭 honestly them being around has even brought me closer to them i think, i love watching jade and everyone talk in our family group chat and we've all been talking music for weeks in a way that I just don't think would've happened if jade and i didn't delve so hard into listening to tons of albums together, and never shutting up about it with everyone lol.

I just think they're so compassionate and kind and smart, the best listener ive ever met but also the only person ive really ever been able to talk to in such a natural way. everything with them has felt natural, even from the beginning when they freaked me out and i pushed them away for as long as possible lol. Everything they have to say is so wonderful to me, I could listen to them for hours. I get in my head and I get on a 'narrative' and i lose sight of everything that makes me happy so quickly. even if ive learned to stop actively self sabotaging when i get in a mindset, i hate realizing how much i can lose sight of what really concretely matters to me. there's no one else i would want to spend my days with, no one i admire more and no one i feel as comfortable with, almost ever. the connection born out of knowing someone so deeply from years of history and long term cohabitation is something that i didn't realize would be so intense, lol. i can't imagine going through my days without them.

i was so stuck on her for years and nothing really ever happened, despite the romantic tone of the relationship/friendship, and I didn't really realize until semi recently that because of that, I never really knew how I was in a relationship. only idealized pictures of what i wanted to be like or do. growing up, outside of her, the only other real romantic relationship i had had was with jade. i treated them like shit back then, and we lost contact for a long time because of that before we became friends again - but in a lot of ways, they're really all ive ever known romantically or physically. the stuff with a, was incredibly on and off and emotional and i spent most of it pining for naught and occasionally kissing her behind her boyfriend's back. so so so so so much of that relationship lived almost entirely in my mind, even if it had so much sway over myself. whereas with jade? the connection and magnetism towards each other was immediate and uncomplicated and intense, and it scared the shit out of me. i lost my virginity to them and vice versa and all that gross silly stuff. ever since we've met, we could barely be in the same room as each other for an hour without putting our hands all over each other or having some weird ~romantic~ moment .... it was also apparent to just about anyone with eyes. we connected so immediately and so intensely, and have just about the entire time we've known each other. even when we reconnected, we were friends for awhile again before anything but even then, we both still had feelings for each other and it was inevitable that we got to where we are now. when it came to the connection we have between us, there has never been any question. there's no one in this world id rather have had that experience with. in a lot of ways, ive learned how to love by loving them - all of my experience is tied up into our experience, and I wouldn't have it any other way. they're my best friend and my person and there's no one else in this world im so wholely myself with, so completely happy and content with. i love that we've grown up together and learned how to love together and i love the familiarity we have and the peace we have cultivated together. my mental health is still fucky sometimes, but i feel so fucking lucky and blessed to be able to sit next to them while they're conked out and snoring with an alfy in my lap and just. be in our little world. i have never felt this way before, and i don't know if i ever want to go back. i love them so much, and im just so giddy and excited to see how that will grow throughout the years i know we will spend together<3

[spectrophobias]

@dollhidden asked: What does Caleb think of the counsellors at the camp? Is there anyone he dislikes, or anyone who likes the most? Does he even know them?

ryan is caleb's favorite counselor by FAR jgksks like he's really the only one caleb would actually consider a friend? he's not the only one who was there as a camper or anything, caleb can hardly keep track of himself let alone a bunch of kids LMAO but ofc he remembers ryan bc he just feels like a focal part of camp at this point. the summer rolls around, ryan comes back, those are just natural facts of life ! and caleb really doesn't have friends outside of his family gndks so it might sound a little sad but he'd probably consider ryan his longest/best friend besides his sister. (also i feel the need to mention how we've discussed caleb and kaylee being younger than the 90s birthdays LMAOOO i promise it's not like a 25 year old man trying to be besties with a child)

part of why i think he and ryan would click well is that they just really really love their baby sisters LMAO they're cute!! both of them kind of have.... not so conventional families? they both kind of try to fill the parent void and i think it would make caleb feel a lot better to realize that 1 he's not alone in that and 2 it's HARD he's not just a fuckup, ryan doesn't really know how to do this either, they're both just doing the best they can. ofc he can't tell ryan about the werewolf stuff though and caleb kind of distances himself from everyone at that point ? like he bit his dad and his sister, now he has this stupid curse, he was always a bit introverted but now he just wants a ten foot high wall between himself and everyone else, he's so afraid of hurting people.

obviously kaylee doesn't let him ice her out, but goddamn if the boy doesn't try ! LMAO. he feels so guilty, he doesn't feel like he deserves such a sweet, understanding sister, he feels like a danger to her even though he's already done The Worst Thing to her that he could have possibly done. he talks to bobby about those feelings mostly, because he doesn't want to unload it on her :(

so tbqh once it came to that year's batch of counselors, he was pretty indifferent. mentally he feels like getting to know any of them isn't really an option, because look at what he's done to the people he cares about already. he always goes back to that, he blames himself like he'd had any semblance of control of what he was doing when he bit chris and kaylee. getting close to people puts them at risk, it means having to come up with excuses every month, he feels so disconnected from the Normal world and while a part of him already felt that way living out in the middle of bumfuck nowhere LMAO its very much intentional. he just tends to give people an absolute stone wall when they try to talk, and the counselors pick up on it and assume he's just kind of weird and has other things to do ! he even kind of starts to pull away from ryan by the time he reaches counselor age, he doesn't like lying or being secretive and most importantly, he will NOT put ryan at risk too like he has a baby sister to go home to, it makes him feel sick to even think about passing the curse along to another family like that.

so uh i'm fucking sad now! LMAO. the more i write caleb the more im like oh. oh honey. please find a therapist LMFAOO i want to wrap him up in blankets and kiss his forehead jfksks bc with every transformation he feels a little more like an actual monster and a fuckup :( i think he'd actually really get on with some of the counselors too, he just doesn't give himself the chance. like he and jacob are absolute loverboys LMAO they could have been friends!!! and he won't let himself!!!!!! IM SO SAD

[canisbeanz]

I am SO late to this post but oh well, I have things to say too, I hope you don't mind.

I find Tobio really interesting as a character and it always bugs me how little screen time he gets smh. I think the best he gets that I've seen is in the 2003 series, because of all the flashbacks and occasional ghost Tobio sightings I feel like you actually get to know him better than him just being a plot fodder child character who dies before the story really starts.

Obvs there's also the short "The Secret of Atom's Birth" which does an amazing job establishing his personality and making you actually care about his death, but I don't usually count that one because 1 I'm not sure how canon it is to anything bc it has some very obvious differences to the 03 series continuity, and 2 It doesn't have an official or even good fan English translation so it's pretty hard to understand what's going on in more detail than the obvious parts that don't rely on spoken language to be understood. (Honestly, I think it is a testament to how good the directing of the short is if I can still understand enough to get emotionally invested while not understanding a single line of dialog.) Also, Idk how others feel but ik I personally have a very hard time having any empathy for a character's death if I didn't have a chance to get attached to them while they were alive. So in a lot of adaptations, I end up really not caring about Tobio at all which really isn't great considering how important he is to the overall story. (Warrior Cats has really desensitized me to character deaths lol) Because they're not real people I don't really place any value on a life I didn't get to know anything about. Like, I can look at a character and the situation surrounding their death and go "Yeah that's pretty sad" and have empathy for other characters who miss them, but unless I get a chance to get attached to that character for more things other than stuff related to their death I have a really hard time seeing it as any kind of substantial loss. (Can't miss what you never had ig)

This is one of the biggest problems in the 09 film imo. I watched that film as my first introduction to anything Astro boy and I had absolutely no attachment to Tobio at any point in the runtime, before or after his death. In fact (and this is gonna make me seem absolutely evil lol) the first time I watched Tobio's death scene in the movie I genuinely laughed out loud. Something about how he just completely vanishes without a trace but his hat is unscathed is just hilarious to me for some reason, and how President Stone just gives absolutely no shits about seeing a child get vaporized absolutely kills me every time lmfao. My apathy towards Tobio there also really isn't helped by the fact that after the initial "you're not Toby, get out of my house" scene he's basically never mentioned again. When your film centers around an inciting incident that is sparked by a very sad character death and the audience couldn't care less about said character you've probs made a bit of an oopsey.

I also feel like adaptations could really benefit from letting Astro properly interact with Tobio. No traveling back in time to meet him or have him actually talk to his ghost or anything like that, I mean more letting Astro acknowledge Tobio's existence as a real human child with feelings and a personality, and less like his fleshy blueprints would be cool. Also, I think showing how Astro himself feels about the fact he's made in the likeness of a dead kid he never even met would make some really interesting opportunities for character growth. (yes 03 does do a tiny bit of this, which is appreciated, I just want more lol) One major thing that always gets to me about Tobio and Astro's relationship is just how little there is of it. Astro barely acknowledges him a lot of the time and when he does it's usually in a very matter-of-fact "I was meant to be Tobio but I'm not so L Tenma" kind of way, (Yes 09 I am looking at YOU again) I just feel like, at the end of the day if Astro doesn't care about him then why should I?

To continue on 09 a sec I can actually think of a certain other robot film where a character's family member dies in an explosion off-screen and leaves behind nothing but their hat that works infinitely better and 99% of the reason for that is just how the dead character is established ad treated after death. Tadashi's death in Big Hero 6 makes me cry every. single. time. and the point at which it hits me isn't even when it happens, it's about half an hour later in the "Tadashi is here" scene. In an hour-and-a-half-long film, Tadashi is only actually alive for 23 minutes. They make SUCH good use of his screen time and do an amazing job of establishing who he is and why we should care about him that his presence is felt through the entire rest of the film, not just because the rest of the cast keeps name dropping him to remind you they miss him, they don't need to because YOU as the viewer miss him just as much. His death doesn't just feel like a 'make the plot start' button, it's an actual loss of a person the audience cared about. With 09 Tobio the only thing his 11 minutes of screen time tells about him is that he likes science, is very smart and seems to be a bit of a know-it-all and is a troublemaker who doesn't listen to authority figures. While this is all fine and I realise that he had like half the screen time Big Hero 6 did, I feel like they could've done a much better job getting the audience attached to him. I also think it really doesn't help how there isn't really any gap between his death and Astro's creation to show Tenma grieving him. There's no scene showing what Tobio left behind and give the audience a second to breathe, it just jumps straight to him building a replacement. (I'm not even gonna go into how much time that film wasted on the RRF instead of actual important scenes but OOF it's bad.)

TLDR I agree with everything you said and just wanted to add my thoughts. They really need to stop using Tobio as just a superhero origin story and actually expand on him as a character separate from Astro. In some cases, it almost feels like Tobio fills the role of 'main character before they get superpowers' like Peter Parker before the spider bite or something, it really just doesn't work with him because it ISN'T the same character lmao.

Tobio talk

I honestly have come to the realization that as well known as Tobio is because of Astro, while Astro stays the same in his iterations, Tobio is so obscure that while he has a few constants (shy/introverted/polite/struggles with his messy room, cares about his parents, etc..) most about him changes in different forms of media, and is also kept unknown for plot reasons, even his name itself changed as it wasn't Tobio originally. Usually because he is hit with a truck, or killed some other way, in the begining before we get to know much about him.

I think the most character he has ever been given is in Atom the Beginning, and the 2003 anime via flashbacks and a visit from his ghost (ouch as that scene hurt me🖐️😭)

The 2009 movie gave him a bit more screentime but there his character was different as in they kept most of the constants but made his personality more mischievous, confident, and sometimes hilariously cocky as he tries to live up to Tenma's ridiculous expectations

I think the other one would be Pluto which we don't even see Tobio in at all, but we get a lot of insight on who he was via Tenma having his usual existential breakdown about his death at the dinner table, very much confusing Astro (at the time who grew up thinking he was Tobio), leaving him very confused on why his father is talking about him in third person right to him.

As for the rest he is only brought up via flashbacks, people talking about him, and his unfortunately short screentime in the beginning of almost every iteration.

Most people base his personality on Astro but even then that's very incredibly vague as in every iteration Astro is displayed to, not just have traits only Tobio would have and replicate things Tobio would do, but also have a personality pretty different to Tobio. Tobio is shy and reserved (usually), Astro is polite like Tobio was displayed as but is more open and extroverted, in the 2009 movie Astro and Tobio have similar traits that make them alike but their personalities are mostly different, same for Pluto, and many others.

The only thing that stays the same between Tobio and Astro no matter the iteration is their looks and most importantly their moral compass. No matter what Astro and Tobio have the same moral compass on things

Now this brings us into aus which do exist in the small yet vastly powerful and growing Astro Boy fandom

I don't count Aus in this as they aren't anything canon or official, but nonetheless it is the one instance where their moral compasses change. In this instance you have what I call the "what if?" phenomenon, that happens in every fandom where they take the wholesome lil guy and change their moral compass around, usually making them into a bad guy/antagonist for their own interesting plot and story explorations which can lead to pretty interesting au reads. And as a side note yes, I am aware some people may find it upsetting as it's always out of character and some people don't like seeing their favorite good guy made out as a terrible person or doing something terrible which is understandable, it's not my cup of tea either, but at the same time you shouldn't worry about it affecting your love for the character because you have to remember that it's not their actual character nor is it affecting their actual character/reputation as a character. As long as it isn't made into anything immoral then just let people have fun and don't bug them. It's not hurting you or anyone else, or taking away the reputation of the character. Just vibe and let vibe.

Now what does this have to do with any of this? Well two things actually. One not only is the "what if?" extremely rare here, but it's also the only instances of their moral compusses getting turned around. The fact it never happens in the official media, and rarely ever happens in the fandom itself, is something I find to be a pretty cool constant for their characters that is agreed upon 100% in canon and a lot of the times in the fandom as well.

And I believe it is because it helps link the two together as their moral compusses, or better yet, their hearts, being of the same tune, helps them react to important situations the same way as eachother. They reflect eachother. Despite their differences, Tezuka shows that they are still always connected by heart and always will be in their official works.

So anyway, Tobio deserves more attention as there is both so much yet so little known about him at the same time, and with his ties to Astro's past it makes him such a cool character that deserves much more recognition! ^^

[dragonsbabe]

Imagine Aemond’s secret lover who married Aegon, dying in child birth to Aegon’s child that she didn’t want. I don’t think Aemond would ever forgive himself. And he’d try to raise the baby bc we know Aegon has little interest in his kids. :(

Plus: "Please write more about heartbroken aemond with reader who was forced to marry aegon, it was amazing but too short 😩" - from another anon

Sorry, i know it was short but i'm lazy hehe sorryyyyy. And anon, you hurt me but it was just amazing 💖 but here we go

— BABYLON II

• Despite she doesn't talk to him, Aemond would always make sure she's okey and his brother doesn't hurt her in any way

• we know what Aegon is capable of, so Aemond would walk outside their chambers every night, trying to hear if everything is okey

• he also tries to be with the two of them so she is not alone with him

• when he knows she's pregnant he can feel his heart break. He can't believe she's having a baby with his own brother

• but he's concerned about her health and the baby

• and she is so scared that maybe she would look for some comfort with Aemond

• "how are you feeling today? Do you need something?" he asks one day entering her chambers after hearing that she had a rough night

• "I'm fine. I just need some sleep" she said and he was surprised she answered

• "then I'll let you rest"

• "actually, could you stay with me for a while? Please"

• he was so glad that she talked to him again. They were lying on the bed

• "sorry for being an idiot all this time" she says before start to crying on his chest until she falls asleep

• the next months are actually really nice

• Aegon is just being Aegon, you know?

• but Aemond is always taking care of her, rubbing her belly all the time, making sure she gets everything she wants and needs

• he thinks that maybe he could be the father of her future babys and not Aegon

• but the day she is giving birth omg

• Aemond can hear her screaming and wanna be with her, but Aegon doesn't want anyone else in the room (plus: imagine if Aegon always knew that she was in love with Aemond so he's jealous of him and that's why he doesn't let Aemond to be with her)

• all Aemond can do is wait until everything is done

• and after some time he can hear the baby crying and he can finally get into the room. He's relieved that the baby is okey but then he sees all the blood on the sheets and notices that she passed away

• Aemond is the one who makes sure she has a proper funeral

• everyone notices how affected he is, but no one says a word

• Aegon is always ignoring the baby and Aemond is mad at him

• but he knew Aegon, it's nothing knew, so he is the one to take care of the baby

• even though it is so painful because they have their mother's eyes

• and the first time the child calls him "Dad" he is crying

• and imagine when the child asks him about their mother. He can't handle it. He would ignore the question until it is not that painful and he can avoid the tears from running out of his eye

• he regrets every single day the decision he made, wondering how his life would had be with her

• but now is too late and all he has is the memory of her

• bro, I love being sad. Send more angsty requests jsjs 💖