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I'm not going to pretend it doesn't make me angry that I spend months and years trying to peddle my work to make ends meet, that I spend so much time mentioning my books and comms and everything, and people ignore that consisently... But the moment I finally break under the hopelessness - when it's obvious that it's fucking futile, that almost no one deems my work good enough to share with anyone else - suddenly they're concerned and scolding me. I'm working several jobs, bathing, generally keeping things clean, and I do this with several health problems including chronic pain. I found out that one of my cysts is growing and I may need to have it surgically removed. Which means potentially missing work to recover. Which means more money I lose. I spend so much time crawling out of the hole and it goes ignored, but the moment I just give up bc I don't have any strength left, suddenly that's my fault and I'm mentally sick. And that kind of makes me wish my entire situation upon people, and when they whine that it's hard, well fuck you, you thought I could ace it so surely you can, babe! I hate being angry about this, but it's just so exhausting to tell people who accuse me of not trying that I HAVE I HAVE SO FUCKING HARD AND YOU DID NOT PAY ATTENTION THEN Or you know you're attempting to gaslight me by claiming I didn't try despite that I obviously have worked my ass off trying, and that's so much fucking worse
#mcalhen personal#and I'm not saying I'm not mentally ill but ffs stop using it as a weapon to discredit people when they have the solutions right there#feels like people hate my writing and me and that's why I didn't go âI got the jobâ bc friends who never support me would be like#âI'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU CONGRATSâ cool I'm not I spend an entire day usually recovering from very calm shifts at a job I like#but the moment I publish a book it's not congrats it's I don't know this guy I don't know Cal and I'm gonna pretend I never saw anything#I don't even hate my goddamn job even tho it can be stressful but it's the easiest thing for mostly just 2 days a week#but it is not sustainable and I cannot survive on this and disability would be invasive as hell and y'all don't know shit about how they#treat disabled people in this country but goddamn I have watched that shit unfold with my autistic brother who can't work#and I can never help him at this rate#bc I can't help myself#I can't help anyone#and saying that is a big fucking issue with people who think if they say 'it gets better keep going' I'll magically unfuck my life#as if I haven't spent the entirety of my life trying to unfuck things#as if I didn't give myself an education in spite of my family#y'all never been threatened with physical violence bc you weren't supposed to ask for school supplies and it fucking SHOWS#I have learned so many things on my own time out of sheer desire to better myself and my situation#but at a point where nothing works out and each day is just filled with more bad news#at what point am I actually allowed to give up?#or am I supposed to just keep this up until I die with 40 more years of collected bullshit pain#bc if you want me to live like this for 40 years then... you never cared at all#and what's so stupid is that I really want to earn my living by doing the work#I work on my art and writing but let's just admit that it's pathetic already#no mental health services or pills will erase that I'm a pathetic garbage can of uselessness#also I realize no one owes me anything like boosting my work or w/e#but also don't ask me to turn rotten ingredients into a feast and say I'm not trying when I can't fucking do it
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I mean no offense, but I think your problem is that you take everything too personally...
hi, well, you know... while i don't particularly appreciate you saying this to me on anon, i do agree
#like i can handle having this conversation in private if you think i need to hear this?#i'd appreciate that more#and i also don't really appreciate you saying this after i shared my feelings on no men in tennis standing up for what's right as an abuse#survivor... like#again i actually do agree. that's an issue i have. on account of my mental illness. i can admit that#but i also do think expecting me to not have personal feelings regarding this topic is... idk. unrealistic and maybe a bit insensitive#like yeah sorry i actually can't help but draw parallels between the way no one seems to care about protecting the women zverev hurt#while doing the most to protect HIM and the way no one who could have helped me when i was in an abusive situation did#and i don't think that's bad bc it's undeniable that most cases of domestic violence are linked in a way. because the patterns in how#they're treated are more or less the same#they don't believe you they blame you your abuser gaslights you they don't help you out of the situation even when they said they would#they treat the abuser more kindly than they treat you they discourage you to come forward wanting to protect the 'peace' more than they#want to protect YOU etc etc#so i actually do think it's personal for me. and that hurts me deeply so maybe that's what you meant. that i hurt myself this way#but i also don't think i want THIS to not be personal - i mean i'd love it if it wasn't but i can't unfortunately cancel my abuse -#because i don't want to see this as just an issue that has nothing to do with me even if it hurts. that'd feel wrong#i don't know how to explain this...#but. yeah. idk. this made me feel a little weird. again yeah it's true. but it's also not nice to hear when i'm clearly in pain because of#what's been happening in men's tennis and maybe a little more compassion would be nice. even if you didn't mean any harm#idk#asks#anon#abuse tw
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every time i go in my room i want to scream and cry it's so fucking messy in here and i don't even know where to start cleaning and even going to bed is overstimulating
#i've been so fucking anxious falling asleep lately and this is definitely a contributing factor#it makes me want to leave everything and go live across the country#i can't even ask for help bc the one person who can help me just had surgery#i don't even know where most of the stuff came from but it's exactly that: stuff#i think the worst part is knowing that it's probably way simpler to deal with than my brain will let me believe#going away for a week really reset my brain and now i'm processing that i'm not actually doing that great right now#because all i want to do right now is just go away again and not deal with anything here
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opposites attract | choi su-bong (thanos)
ă»â„ă» summary: he's chaotic and loud, you're shy and introverted but he can't help but be intrigued by you ă»â„ă»word count: 1.3k ă»â„ă»warnings: mentions of death bc squid game, nam-gyu is mean to reader (im sry), female reader. ă»â„ă» authors note: i love writing this chaotic man <3
Of course the second game just had to be one where you had to interact with people and find a team. Talking to people, approaching them â it was your worst nightmare. As you stood there in the sea of people all talking and teaming up, you timidly stayed in place, your hands pulled into the sleeves of your jacket giving yourself sweater paws. Since the first game, you had kept to yourself. You had even voted to leave. Why would anyone want to stay in a place like this where people were getting killed for losing childrenâs games? Unfortunately, the majority had decided to stay even after a heavily heated debate where player 456 had declared heâd been here before. While it was all kicking off, you had hid behind the crowd. Conflict was something you avoided. People were usually something you avoided but when a salesman came up to you with promises of money, how could you say no?
So, as you stood there, too shy to approach, you accepted the fact that you were probably going to die. There was no way you had enough courage in you to find a team. Even if you did, who was there to ask? The only person you might consider approachable was player 456 but he already had a team. There was no point going over there, asking and risking embarrassment as they turned you down. Aimlessly you wandered around the room, fingers toying with the ends of your sleeve â a nervous habit that youâd had since you were a child.
Guess youâd just have to accept your fate. You were either going to get killed because you couldnât find a team or end up in a team who didnât want you. Just as you were about to sit down and give up entirely, someone cleared their throat behind you. Spinning around, you came face to face with the infamous player 230. His purple hair was unmistakable, youâd seen him when heâd been fighting some other boy yesterday.
âSenorita, excuse me,â he said, his hands clenching his jacket to his chest. Your eyes landed on his multi-colored nails first before daring to glance up to look at him. Eyes met his dark ones for only a second before looking back down at the ground. He noticed instantly, tilting his head to the side as he looked at you. âTeam with us.â
âR-really?â You dared to glance back up. He seemed serious but the look his friend was giving was anything but friendly. It looked like heâd rather team with anyone but you.
âYeah, really? Sheâs kind of weird,â Nam-gyu looked you up and down, pulling a face then turning back to Thanos. âWe can find someo-â
âShutup,â he held his hand up in front of his friendâs face, his eyes solely focused on you. âTeam with us. Iâll keep you safe.â
It wasnât like you had any other options so you nodded. Thanos seemed thrilled, throwing his arm around your shoulders in a side hug. Your instinct was telling you not to trust him but at the same time there was something slightly comforting about him. After all, he had ignored his friend to solely talk to you. Why on Earth he was so adamant to have you on his team baffled you but it saved you from getting eliminated⊠if you made it through the game anyway.Â
Turns out it was five mini games in one. As the rest of your team argued about who would do what, Thanosâ eyes were fixated on you who was looking at the ground. There was something about you that intrigued him. The difference in your personalities was more than noticeable. He was loud, crazy and obnoxious while you, on the other hand, seemed shy, insecure and quiet. Maybe it was true. Maybe opposites really did attract because for some reason, he wanted to get to know you more. He actually wanted to know you. That rarely happened with him. Usually he was the type of guy to get a crush, fuck and then move on to the next one. It was rare for âMr One Night Standâ to really want to get to know someone. To be honest, he wasnât sure he liked the feeling. The pounding in his chest as he tried to examine you with his eyes. It was impossible to really get a good read on you.
âAnd, the loser over there can do Gonggi,â Nam-gyuâs voice echoed through your ears. Panic struck, you leaned forward, speaking before you even thought about it.
âI-I donât know how to play Gonggi,â you mumbled.
âBetter learn quickly then, huh?â Nam-gyu smiled fake-sweetly at you.
âHey, stop it,â Thanos stopped his silent beat boxing to chime in, leaning forward to glare at his friend. âLeave her alone⊠What are you good at?â
âI can do spinning top. I played it a lot with my friendsâŠâ you tried to speak with a bit more confidence, a pink hue tinting your cheeks. Thanos noticed, grinning at you.
âSpinning top for you then. Youâre cute, by the way,â he winked, causing your cheeks to only redden more.
Somehow, someway, the team had managed to survive. A lot of teams seemed to struggle with Spinning Top but you had got it the first try â Thanos almost blowing out your eardrums with the loud cheer of celebration when you did. Now, back in the main room, you were sat with the team. If it was up to you, you would have gone to sit by yourself but Thanos had insisted you sit with them. It seemed like he wanted to keep you around. It wouldnât be too bad to have some friends, right? You sat beside Thanos, a space between you. While he was in a world of his own, DJing some invisible show in his head by the looks of his hand motions, the rest of the team were arguing. Your knees were pulled up to your chest, chin resting on them.
Watching everyone talk with each other so easily â even if it was arguing â made you feel slightly jealous that you couldnât. It wasnât that you didnât want to because you did but the mere thought of striking up a conversation with anyone brought you too much anxiety. It was just better to keep to yourself. If you had to be the weird, quiet girl then so be it.
âTheyâre idiots,â the deep voice beside you said. Turning to look, youâd noticed Thanos had closed the distance between you both, his shoulder touching yours now. âYou good?â
âUh, yeah, thanks,â you smiled, tucking a stray piece of your hair behind your ear. âThanks for letting me team with you.â
âNo problem, Senorita. Told you Iâd keep you safe, didnât I?â His toothy grin made your heart skip a beat. Oh boy. That was the last thing you needed.
âY-yeah,â you laughed, tearing your eyes away from him yet again.
This time, his finger gently reached out, tilting your chin to look at him. His eyes pierced yours, a look of intrigue on his face. âYou have pretty eyes. Itâs a shame you think the floor deserves to see them more than me.â He leaned in a little closer, his hot breath fanning against your face. Being close to someone wasnât new for you. It was something that didnât happen often but youâd had your fair share of encounters with people. âMeant it when I said you were cute, babygirl. Stick with me through these games and when we survive, let me take you out for a drink. Maybe I can get more than a few words at a time out of you.â
Once again, he winked at you, removing his finger from your chin and turning his attention to the argument going on in front of him. Meanwhile you were in a daze, your heart beating against your chest so much you were sure it was about to beat out of your ribcage. Yeah, this man was definitely going to be trouble.
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I get why of course but I also really do not care about trying to force people to sign up for rewards and push donations on them and then also force app downloads all to match a quota/set number because some guy in the Big Office said so like. Not to sound like I'm old and hate technology but the fact I've now been on both sides of this 99% of the time I can guarantee you the customer wanted to get out of there 5 minutes ago and nobody likes doing this and if they REALLY wanted to join the rewards program they'd of done it on their own already.
Or.
They're old and ANOTHER app in their name and on their phone is just going to confuse them more. Where I am working now they STOPPED and or are stopping sending out physical coupons like. I don't know who you think your main customers are but not doing mail out coupons for people and or rewards members is making you lose a good chunk of your customers but okay
#like im already being uhm pressured? to Do It More and I was also pushed super heavily yesterday to push our donations even more bc we had#to get rid of them and thats just. its not me man. its technically part of my job but im not a persuasive person i dont have the skills or t#alk to transfer someone to our app. I really truly just want to scan their items and get them out bc thats what 99% of people want sorry#for not Pushing Myself and Going Above And Beyond#it's like. Im selling warranty's wrong. And I get that one more but also. People dont really want to spend more money. I ask if they would#like to purchase a warranty to protect the item. But thats wrong amd I need to be saying its a Total Protection Plan and a Money Back#Guarantee and covers Everything. Oh and yeah its almost half the product. Yeah ik those headphones were 6.99 um the warranty is 20.00 dollar#s. Yeah. Oh also join our app. Are you an app user? Yeah everything's on our app you need to download it. Nothings physical anymore. LOL! Al#so can you donate today? Donate. Donate now we NEED to get rid of these. No we can't just give them away!! We can't profit from that! LOL!#elias.wip#ig it's that#capitalism is a hellscape and sorry for being a peak doesnt want to work entitled zoomer who doesnt care and only wants to do the bare#minimum but I just..... I dont want to do this. no one does and also some people just arent persuasive and that shouldn't mean i cant work#there. the quota shouldn't rely on Just Me. It should be achievable if even one worker is doing it.#idk -_- maybe im just a bad worker actually and I'll never make it in a corporate setting and i should just go into fast food and want t#o kill myself everyday instead but then I'm not pushed to upsell products and services as much#i was made to download the app to be 'able to help new members' i dont fucking shop here/i/ didnt want it.#maybe this is just my depression lol! and I'm just not motivated enough but man. if youre gonna have me on register again all day just let m#e make the idel small talk and 'do tou want a bag :)? Havw a nice day!' and not. pushing 3 different things to every customer
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[Dance with The Devil] [movie!Shadow x reader headcanons]
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Summary: a collection of random headcanons/small scenarios based on my "Click Click Boom" post for Shadow!
Word count: 1.5k
Disclaimer (1): Harkness scale people, he is of age and can consent and is sentient. I'm allowed to want to kiss the hedgehog.
Disclaimer (2): This can be read as Romantic or Platonic! Though I did write it to be implied romance.
A/N: Yall asked for more, who am I to deny the people (I imagine kissing him every second of the day). I tried to hit a lot of asks all in one to give eveyrone what they asked for! I hope y'all enjoy! Reblogs and comments are super appreciated and motivate me to write more <3
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Shadow is so extremely overprotective of you, borderline to an unhealthy agree but is it really when you're welcoming to it??
You, by all means, shouldn't encourage him. He's one of the strongest beings on the planet. He can't just make threats, God knows if he'll act out on them.
You can't help but let it happen though, a warm fuzzy feeling deep in your chest clouds your judgment for a few moments. Knowing that Shadow sees you as someone worth protecting, of caring for.
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Shadow baring his fangs at Sonic and fucking growling is new though.
"Shadow did you just- did you just fucking growl?"
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Sonic was just trying to hug me dude, relax.'
"He'll get his scent all over you. No."
Shadow turns his back on you, so he misses the blush that overtakes your entire face.
He has an inkling though, if the strangled cry from your throat is any indication.
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Riding ! With ! Him !!! He takes you on drives all the time, it helps him clear his head and it's his way of asking for physical contact without giving you idea, feeling you against his back and your body pressed up against his does wonder for his mental health, he'll purposefully take longer routes and side roads at night to keep you close.
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If you fall asleep on the couch, Shadow isn't gonna curl up with you, but he's next to the couch, head propped up against the arm rest as he watches over you. He's well aware he could just teleport you both to your room, but you look too peaceful :( and he knows he takes up all your time and energy, so he rather let you rest.
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Shadow always walks behind you. It's a nervous habit. If he wanders behind, he has the perfect view to scan for threats.
You go to tell him he's being paranoid, but stop yourself. The last person he cared for died, the girl who gave him a purpose. You shut your joke down fast, shaking your head when Shadow raises an eye bridge at your expression.
"Do you want to hold my hand?" You go with that instead.
"Absolutely not."
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Please god can you imagine shopping for him, getting his leather jackets and what not bc he fucking deserves it, especially when you nervously claim that he needs the correct gear for riding his motorcycle and he hits you with:
"That's useless, I can easily chaos control if need be."
BUT HE DOESN'T RIDE WITHOUT IT EVER !!!! You even got it monogrammed, and he runs his thumb across it often, scoffing at himself when he realizes, snatching his hand away.
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Shadow likes to be useful, even though you tell him again and again that he doesn't owe you anything, he doesn't listen.
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If you wear makeup and ever fall asleep in it, you can't ever seem to remember if it was you who took it off, your memories jumbling up together to the point you're not sure.
It was Shadow, he knows you don't like showing others your bare face, which he thinks is ridiculous as shit, he likes you as you are, whether with makeup or bare, you're you.
Please I could cry imagining him so gently taking a makeup wipe and rubbing small circles to get that waterproof eyeliner off of you, eyes laser focused into his task. I'm gonna throw up.
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In the colder months, he's susceptible to being more mellow and relaxed. Despite being the ultimate life form and having fur, he still gets cold and hates the feeling.
This brings me to the fact that bro steals your blankets, he has no remorse and will walk right into your room to take your heated blanket. He's an asshole.
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Fully believes that nicknames are stupid and that they don't matter, the best he's gonna do for you is call you by your first Intial (ex: Teddy = T) It's rare that he'll do call you by it regardless, but beggers cannot be choosers.
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Getting matching bangles to match his inhibitor rings!! Makes him go stupid for a second, brain computing that oh??? You want to match him?? He's gonna tease you, but when you threaten to just take them off, he immediately goes quiet.
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The subject of being sick came up often in asks, and he struggles really hard with it. It's not obvious, but if you look closely, his quills are pin straight, and he's easily more agitated.
He's not mad at you, it's not your fault, it's just that seeing you curl up into bed brings back so many bad memories of when Maria has flare ups and couldn't leave her bed.
It made him feel useless. His whole reason for being was to help cure illness, maybe not the common cold. He's aware of that, but the point remains.
Shadow gets more docile, even going to ask Maddie what to do. The woman offers to come over and take care of you instead, but Shadow shuts her down quickly. He's more than capable, and he's a little overprotective.
"Are you sure? I don't mind, I don't have anything going on."
"That isn't necessary."
"But it might be better if it's m-"
"I can take care of them."
It's hard to argue with a 5ft hedgehog that can easily snap your neck, so she regents and hands him over some cold and flu medicine along with painkillers and vaporub and instructions. He looks so silly with all of it in his arms, Gatorade, water, the medicine, some food, but it warms your heart. You haven't had anyone really look after you when you were sick, always left to fend for yourself, so it's nice.
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For my period havers, I am on mine, so this made it in:
Shadow using his hands as personal heating pads for your stomach or the small of your back, you can't seem to remember where you put your heating pad so he sits there with you and just, shoves his hand onto your skin, it's added comfort due to his fur.
"Oh my god, that feels good."
You groan into your pillow, curling up into a ball, your back facing the ultimate lifeform.
"Is it really that bad?"
Shadow hums, moving to ever so slightly knead the skin, smirking to himself when you damn near moan at the feeling.
"You know damn fucking well it's that bad."
Shadow snorts.
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Once you're both closer, he allows you to touch him alot more, so long as you ask him first if you can run your fingers over his quills, he finds it soothing, it's common to find you both on the couch, fast asleep together with the TV set to come true crime YouTube video.
Sonic takes a million pictures, to which he sends to Shadow later. The black hedgehog doesn't say anything, but he secretly saves each one.
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Speaking of the others, you try and force him to spend time with team Sonic to varying degrees of success. Mainly the success being if you will also be there and be by his side. The team likes you well enough, always playfully telling you that they can handle Shadow if he ever hurts you.
Which gets them Shadow staring them down, his eyes lighting up as a warning.
You'd think they'd learn that this man doesn't play when it comes to you, but they're a bit stupid.
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When it comes to any insecurities you may have, he shuts that shit down IMMEDIATELY, you think it's because he genuinely doesn't give a fuck, but no, it's because he cares about you and will logically tell you facts. Does it help? It's varying, but he still tries.
Issue with your weight. He doesn't care. Are you healthy? That's all that matters. He's strong enough to lift you up, and he'll demonstrate it on you if need be. He doesn't know who put it into your head that there's any issue with it, but he'll fix it.
"Shadow, can I ask you something?"
"Go on."
"Does my weight ever bother you?"
"I am not like human men."
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You're insecure about talking about your interests/hyperfixations? He actively will sit down and listen, eyes intense as he takes in every single word you're saying. He'll nod and hum, but his ears are flicked towards you, and Shadow will ask questions pertaining about the characters.
The motherfucker is healing you slowly but surely, mentally and sometimes physically.
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No one thinks that Shadow would be a good companion and will make jokes offhandily that they're sorry that YOU'RE stuck with him, and you don't correct them. They don't deserve to know him.
They don't get to know how the lifeform curls up next to you on his bad days, seeking your affection.
The hedgehog who helps you dry the dishes after every meal with a way too focused look on his face.
The Shadow that always cracks dry ass jokes in hopes to make you smile after a long day.
It's your little secret, and it's one you gladly keep to yourself.
"Oh, he's stuck with me." You wave them off with a smug smirk on your face.
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#teddy loves shadow â#shadow the hedgehog x reader#shadow x reader#shadow the hedgehog#sonic 3#sonic 3 x reader#sega#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#shadow#sonic the hedgehog x reader
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#I realized that I have a bunch of u processed feelings bc instead of feeling and dealing with them I have been intellectualizing them#instead and now I have this all figured out in my head but also not really and its low key eating me up lmao#I know I have to deal with all of this bc I keep getting worse and this is going on for a while now.. tbh the weight in my chest is getting#a bit too heavy to handle and I feel shitty#the past 2/3 years have been hard on me.. so much stuff happened at the same time and it broke me#I miss being okay-ish. I've been depressed for so long but not like this.... I know I'm a way colder person now and have been for a while#and I hate it lmao I really miss being warm and feeling comfortable with the people that I love but lately all I can do is shut them down#ffs I can't even hug some of my friends anymore and I know its weird for them because I was not this person at all and I miss how things#were before. I feel like I'm becoming this shitty person who doesnt show affection and quite honestly don't care about things as I used to#and that sucks. I hate how I'm feeling now and the person that I am now but idk how to deal with the feelings that I have stored#and its not like I can talk to people about it because as much as they are willing to listen they wont get it and sharing things with#someone that won't understand won't help me at all. I will just feel like I'm over sharing and like they're judging me lmfao#there's this one friend I could talk to but I already rely on her with so much I dont want to become a bother/burden especially now that#she has some bug stuff coming up and has to focus on that#idk I just want to be alone 24/7 and every time someone asks to meet up I feel pressured and stressed out bc I'm not in a headspace to be#with other people and being a people pleaser on top of that doesn't help bc I end up saying yes and it just makes me even more frustrated#I'm just not okay enough to pretend and have a good time or listen to other people's problem right now.... damn I even feel shitty for#saying that....#idk I need to figure out how to deal with this first bc its killing me and I'm constantly feeling like a piece of shit#meh I wish time travel was a thing bc as much as I'm a believer of not going back in time to change things bc they made me who I am I would#be willing to do that now#anyways....#if anyone sees this no you don't#I just needed to write it out
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â phaethetically in love !
premise. belle thinks her brother is the most oblivious person in sixth street. the reason? one: because his (super obvious) crush on you is practically the worst kept secret in new eridu, and two: because he can't even see that said crush is reciprocated! good thing he has one (1) amazing, wonderful, nosy sister to help him out, yeah?
or, belle thinks the two of you are a prime example of an s tier romance movie; and she really wants to skip to the final arc already.
pairing. wise x gn!reader.
warnings: kinda ooc wise (i just started the game), wise is a loser (lovingly), belle is an instigator (proudly), comedy, facepalm moments.
a/n: for @vxnuslogy and @milksnake-tea bc yes wise kissers yes
MY (rlly cool btw đ„ș) MASTERLIST || INBOX !
âyou're in love with [name], aren't you?â
like all siblings in the worldâor what's left of it, belle schemes.
(against wise, of course. obviously.)
her brother bursts into a mess immediately, nearly spilling his cup ramen all over his new shirt, chopsticks sticking out. laughing nervously. general chop would not be proud. âwho told you that? i meanâ haha, who said that, belle?â
his sister rolls her eyes. âme, myself. i.â she emphasizes, leaning her elbows against the table and putting her palms together; the grin she wears right now is so serene, but not in the angelic, nice way. belle smiles and wise finally thinks, oh. my sister may need to book herself to the closest self-help guru in new eridu.
âi have reason to believe that you, my dearest brother, are in love with [name].â
her voice goes up an octave at the last bit, leading wise to stuff her mouth with potato chips. already, heads have turned. âmff.â
âkeep your voice down! and stop broadcasting it to everyone here-â
âwhat, i am right, aren't i? they clearly like you back, so why haven't you confessed yet?â
âkeep. your. voice. down.â wise says, and belle's shit eating grin only widens as she sees her brother's ears tinged with pink. âand... how did you even know that?â he asks, mortified.
âwell, one: because it's obviousâlike, have you seen how obvious you are?â belle huffs, taking a bite of the potato chip with force (personal grudges are involved). âand two, because they like you back, dummy!â
because when belle sees the two of you together, it's like wise focuses on no one else. you are the center of his worldâand he is just being pulled to bask in your light. his eyes soften like they melt only for you, and wise looks like all he is is, all he wants to be, is to belong with you.
(and, wise likes to stare at you for ungodly amounts of time. belle even caught him staring when you were petting a cat by the street and decided to name the stray âwiseâ; courtesy of him, apparently. the cat literally just had grey fur.
âwise.â
âhm?â
âyou're practically spawning heart eyes now.â)
it's sickening. (in a oh my god my brother is in love kind of way, mind you.)
âso!â belle says, a devilish sparkle in her eyes. âallow your dearest sister to help you out, 'kay?â
wise nearly coughs up blood.
âwhat?!â
so at present, belle compiles her (hastily written) list of romantic moments you and wise have shared. she's not surprisedâthe number can be counted on one hand. diabolical, disappointing, world-ending! she resists the urge to cough up blood.
first, a coff cafe date with tin man's help: a fail. tin man's wingman capabilities were very superb, but she never heard the end of it when wise was lecturing her about how tin man kept sending over heart shaped desserts and little fortune cookies. the fortune cookies in question which said âyou can do it!â and a latte with art of caricature tin man making a heart. (you were very confused). belle thought it was motivating. wise thought it was mortifying.
next, even instilling help from fairy to calculate statistics about what event would you two be likely to be together. fairy said, and belle quotes: âprobably never. that kind of pining's for the long run, with the other master's current experience. give it a year or six, master.â
so, she's currently face-palming.
did her brother really have zero game? why were the two of you just dancing around each other?! she's tried everythingâfrom letting you two spend more time with each other in commissions, her inviting you over more to leave you to chat with her brother, and even the entirety of sixth street has lent their aid! how were you two not dating yet?!
âdidn't they go on an arcade date at random play yesterday?â belle mutters. âthat should've increased your progress by a long mile, bro! even general chop said you two were really, really close in the noodle shop....â
just what was she going to do now? at this rate, her brother would be relationshipless in no time! in fairy's words again, it would be phaethetic. and that would be a phaethal blow on her pride.
â...master, i said no such thing.â
âwell, now you did.â
âThe Ethereal Reckoning,â there's a pep in your step, the boxes full of movie DVDs in your arms as you walk back to the movie store. it was heavy, but at least you got to walk with the grey-haired proxy beside you. âThat movie was great! Thanks for recommending it to me.â
Sporting a dopey, lovesick grin in response, wise nods at that, content to listen to your voice. it was actually belle's idea to let you lend movies you like over so the two of you could talk about it back and forth. wise would need to (begrudgingly) treat her to a bowl of ramen later on.... she saved himâhe probably wouldn't even be talking to you for this long at this point, let alone hang out with you without her. for someone so nosy, he guesses his sister was a pretty good wingwoman.
âthe main character was pretty similar to billy, you know?â you ramble on as wise listens. âi mean, because they were an android too, and...â
he finds that he's content to listen to anything you say, really. (right now he doesn't really know what you're saying, something about a horror ethereal movie, but you could just tell him anything and he would listen).
âi feel like the heroine's death was unnecessary, though.â you sigh, âtoo much tension just for it to end like that? how anticlimactic.â
your voice was so nice, so warm and easy to listen to, and wise can't even say anything to retort, simply staring with a growing (lovesick) smile on his face. talking to people was hard work, and talking to you? it might just make him combust.
â...ise? wise?â
âah, huh?â he snaps out of his trance, only to find you mere inches away from his face, the only thing keeping you apart the boxes full of movies he's carrying. â...!â
âare you listening?â you furrow, and someone really might be out to get him right now because in that moment, wise flinches from the proximity, bumping into you.
then, because the universe thinks his life couldn't get more dramatic than it already wasâyou stagger, about to fall forward.
he moves before he thinks. âwatch out!â
and wise.... practically astral-projects to another plane when he feels you fall into his arms, his hands on your waist. he can feel the warmth of your skin on his, the flustered look on your face. (he feels like he's going to die).
the two of you lock eyes for a moment, and wise feels like he's about to so something very stupid and his hands are still on your waistâ
â....â
â.....â
someone save him.
âah...â
âsorry!â you recover first, hurriedly letting yourself pull away from him (much to his disappointment). âi wasn't looking, and i- are you okay, wise?â
âno, no, it's fine.... i-i'm fine....â he hopes his voice isn't as small as it is, he couldn't be smooth to save his life; and wise helps you gather your bearings, his hands brushing against yours, blood rushing to his ears. sheepishly rubbing at his nape. âsorry, i was distracted.â
perhaps in the mood to lift the atmosphere, you sputter out, âno worries! it's fine! besides, you listened to me all this time.... i really enjoyed the movie, really.â
âof course i'll listen.â and before wise can think to stop his traitor of a mouth, the words spill out of his lips like it always wanted to be.
âyou're worth paying attention to.â
it's automaticâyour face heats up, warming like the sun on a hot day in new eridu, and god, he is such an idiot-
âyou think so?â wise gulps. you looked bashful, and were way too adorable right now, and his face felt like it was on fire.... wait, that's not the point! he has to answer you, at least. this is a chance to make progress!
ây-yeah. definitely. i enjoyed... watching the movie with you.â he says. did his voice just crack just now? âwe can hang out more often too, even without belle.â
he feels bad for throwing his sister under the bus like that, butâwait, did he just ask you out on a date? (accidentally)
well, it didn't matter because wise feels like he won the lottery right now, because you brighten up immediately. âreally?â
then you cough and compose yourself. âi mean, sure! i'm sure it'll be fun, haha...â
awkward silence ensues. uh oh, did he say something wrong? was he too forward? he wants to say something, but something is lodged in his throat, and wise can't bring up a response. (his heart was beating like crazy right now, though).
âuh...â
â....â
then, something soft brushes against the side of his cheek. as fast as it was felt, wise felt the sensation leave just as easily. did you just-?
you just kissed him. on the cheek.
âthanks for hanging out with me, wise.â
âyou're welcome- wha- huh?!â he nearly drops the stack of dvd's he was holding. you pull away, an enigmatic smile on your face. face flushed.
before he can even respond, the two of you finally arrive at the movie store. damn it, gods of the world. why did his luck run out now?
âi guess this is your stop.â he blinks, your voice coming back to him. âand, wise?â
âah, uh, yeah?â
âit's a date, then?â your eyes sparkle and shine a light through his heart. super effective!
is this really happening? is he really going on a date with youâoh, he's so thrilled he could actually burst into song and kick his feet, but belle would tease him ruthlessly after. nosy sisters were so much work....
âyes!â he almost yells it out, but because he didn't want to look uncool in front of you, wise composes himself. play it cool, play it cool. don't mess up this chance! âyes, definitely. it's... it's a date.â
you put down the other stack of dvd's down the table, flashing him a dizzying, lovely smile smile. wise swears he falls even harder for you.
âthen it's a date.â
BONUS.
âseriously?! you're going on a date with them?!â belle shouts, so unceremoniously that wise slaps a hand on her mouth.
ânot so loud! but, yeah.â he says, face heating up. âyour plan worked, sis.â
âyes! yes! finally!â his sister practically cheers, âi can finally be free of your sickening heart eyes... and finally, our street's most anticipated couple is here!â
wise can't help but sigh in fond exasperation. he guesses he'll let her have this one today.
âalso, belle?â
âwhat?â
âyou didn't tell anyone about this, did you?â
...
âuhh....â
(on the day of the date, wise receives an abnormal amount of good luck posters. he also gets a disturbing amount of thumbs up from the neighbors.
the last straw? tin man, giving him a baked cake with the words ârooting for you!â covered in pink heart sprinkles.
he facepalms. belle...!)
a/n: d d do you guys get it..... phaethetically...... phaethon..... wise is phaethon and he's awkward in love lol hahahahaha (đ)
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spencer x bau!reader my beloved <333
they're out on some case and they're all just throwing out ideas (yk how they do before they have a breakthrough and solve the case?) and reader says some weird fact and spencer cant help but just break professionalism and kiss her bc it is SO HOT that she knew that and he is so impressed that she knew that đ€đ€
Spencer's drawn out of his contemplative stupor at the sound of your voice, rough and heated and tight, "No, Derek, that's not true! It's a common misconception, but a dangerous one!"
He glances over at Derek's face, jaw tense at the frustration of being wrong, then back to you, your passion tangible as you explain the proper facts of Derek's incorrect assumption. It's a statistic that shouldn't be appealing to Spencer, even out of your mouth, because it includes terms like enucleator, and cannibalism, but when you turn to him, breath slightly heaving after your mouthful of words, and raise a brow, "Spencer?" at him for confirmation, he can't help himself.
He's fairly certain that you'd asked him for backup, for a fact-check to prove Derek wrong, but in the moment all he can do is grab your face, and yank you forwards in your rolling chair to kiss you.
You let out a muffled yelp as his lips meet yours and he feels your tense muscles stay that way as he holds your jaw, but it's over as soon as he clears his head. All he does is smash his lips to yours, then withdraw, face lax as he watches you fluster.
He belatedly registers Hotch's stern, "Reid," as well as a scoff from Rossi and various other whoops and titters from the team, but the sound he cares about the most comes from your throat, a soft, barely-audible whine.
"Sorry," He excuses himself calmly, letting go of your face and tucking his hands beneath his thighs on the chair, "Yes, Y/N, that's correct."
"Okay." You breathe, head still spinning from the unexpected strength he'd displayed, "Uh- okay, thanks... for- thanks."
Penelope is, perhaps, the least collected person in the room, pink-painted mouth still agape as she stares between the two of you.
Before Hotch can move the conversation along she stammers, "But I- I say smart stuff all the time." She turns a narrowed glare upon Derek, "You never do that to me."
Derek throws his hands up to placate her but your attention is stolen by Rossi this time, who regards Spencer with an expression that looks to be part amusement and part disgust.
"Everything I say is smart, too," He pays little mind to the way that JJ scoffs at his declaration, "But Reid, if you ever do that to me, I'm bribing Strauss to fire you."
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I keep imagining it being the night before the Yule Ball, and bc Matty never wears his tie for the uniform anyway, you have to help him out and do it for him bc he wants to look perfect for you and is struggling. Just me? Okay đ
oh my god yes this is so cute!!!
itâs the night of the yule ball and the common room is practically deserted, everyone already in the ballroom. youâre perched on the arm of one of the big leather chairs, waiting for mattheo to finish getting ready because of course heâs waited until the last possible second to figure out his suit. his black dress shirt is unbuttoned at the collar, sleeves rolled up, and heâs muttering curses at his tie because itâs refusing to cooperate.
âthis stupid thing,â he growls, yanking at the silk like it personally offended him. his brows are furrowed, his bottom lip caught between his teeth in concentration, and honestly? it's kind of adorable seeing him this flustered. you can tell heâs about three seconds away from throwing the tie into the fire.
"need some help?" you offer, trying to keep the amusement out of your voice (and failing spectacularly).
he looks up, a little startled, like he forgot you were there, and then that familiar cocky smirk makes an appearance. "help? me? nah, i've got it handled," he says, even as he fumbles with the fabric again, somehow managing to make it look worse.
"sure you do. come here."
"i don'tââ
"mattheo."
he sighs, dropping his hands and tilting his head back dramatically like he's being sentenced to death.
you canât help but laugh a little as you slide off the chair and cross the room to him. âhere,â you say, taking the ends of the tie out of his hands before he can actually commit arson.
heâs suddenly so quiet, like he doesnât trust his voice not to give him away, because holy shit youâre so close. close enough that he can see the little flecks of color in your eyes and catch the faintest whiff of your perfume.
âwouldâve done this ages ago if iâd known you didnât know how to tie your own tie,â you tease, looping the fabric around your fingers to start fixing the knot.
he huffs, but itâs not annoyedâitâs shy. âdidnât wanna bother you.â
and you just give him this look, one brow raised, because bother you? the boy who literally leaned his entire weight on you during potions last week and whispered nonsense in your ear for thirty minutes straight thought this was bothering you?
âyou couldâve just asked for help.â
"yeah, but where's the fun in that?" he quips, but his voice is quieter now, his gaze fixed on your face.
and then, because it's mattheo, he can't help himself. "you're enjoying this, aren't you? playing dress-up with me?"
you smirk, tightening the knot just enough to make him swallow hard.
"maybe a little. you clean up nice, riddle."
"you think so?"
you step back, admiring your work, and something about the way he's looking at youâlike you're the only thing in the world that mattersâmakes your chest tighten. "i know so."
"i just... i just want to look good for you."
and just like that, any teasing remark you were about to make dies in your throat. because mattheo riddleâthe arrogant, insufferable, too-cool-for-everything mattheo riddleâis standing here, nervous and vulnerable and entirely too sweet, all because he wants to impress you.
"you will," you say softly, your fingers curling around his. "you already do."
and the smile he gives you? yeah, that's the kind of thing that could make you fall in love all over again.
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reader x hyunjin based on the last skz code where they went camping - he looked so hot working on that tent đŻđš - , going with the boys since it was all minho idea, reader doesn't like camping but she likes him so, building tension up bc that's hot too, and maybe he could switch places with reader's bff and sneak into their's tent? đ€
pairing: Hyunjin x Fem!Reader
t/w: friends to lovers ; Hyunjin is a flirt ; fluff ; a little suggestive.
w/c: 2.1k
a/n: it was fun to write! And yeah, Hyunjin really looked hot (I mean, he always is). The way he rolled his sleeves up omg, I couldnât not write this. Hope you like this, anon!
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âł Reader has with the members the same friendship they have with each other.
"I hate this." Jiwoo complains as she drops the bag she was holding to the ground.
"Come on!" You try to cheer her up, "It's nice to be out in nature sometimes!"
She shoots you a glare, "That's easy to say," she says bitterly, "You hate camping more than Iâ hey!" she exclaims when you nudge her arm with your elbow, silencing her.
"I love camping." You lie loudly, with the boys just a few meters away from you.
"I can't say the same." Changbin comments, slapping his arm to kill a mosquito.
And suddenly, an arm falls around your shoulders. You turn towards the person who has come up next to you and see Hyunjin, unconsciously shrinking under his close presence, "I agree with Y/nie, a bit of fresh air away from the city is nice."
A small smile forms on your lips.
"You say that because you have no intention to help with anything." Chan chimes in, opening one of the bags he carried.
"Clever of you to assume that." Hyunjin responds, smiling.
"That's why Hyunjin will help set up the tent." Minho states, biting back a smile.
"Huh? I don't know how!" Hyunjin complains, taking his arm off your shoulders and moving closer to the older guy.
You regret that the contact was so short, but you maintain your composure and watch him walk away.
"You'll learn." Minho closes the conversation in a tone that allows no reply.
â
âYou need to pump it?â Hyunjin asks, looking for the pump to inflate the tent.
You watch him curiously, seeing him search non-stop for a while.
âDid you find it?â Minho asks him, watching in disbelief. There are only 5 bags, how can he not have found it yet?
He starts to approach him, but you are quicker.
âThey have accessories here.â Hyunjin says in a pouty, hopeless voice, closing a bag. He turns to continue searching but almost falls to the ground from the jump he makes when you suddenly stand up in front of him, very, perhaps too, close.
You hand him the pump that you found in a few seconds, âYou suck at finding things.â
He puts a hand on his heart, opening his mouth and sighing slowly with closed eyes, as if he has just seen a ghost, âYou scared me.â
You roll your eyes at his dramatic behaviour, âDonât thank me.â You say sarcastically.
He smiles, his front teeth slightly showing behind his slightly parted lips, âThank you, Y/nie.â He blows you a kiss for show. You are used to this, yet you blush, while he bends down to attach the pump nozzle to the tent opening.
âDo you need help with that too?â you tease, smirking, trying to hide the visible blush coloring your cheeks from yourself, since he can't even see you.
âHuh?!â He stands up and rolls up the sleeves of the baggy t-shirt heâs wearing, showing his muscles, âI donât need your help, these are enough for me.â He flexes his biceps.
You like them, donât you? You think heâs cool, right? Hyunjin hopes so.
You chuckle at his words while he gets to work to really show what heâs capable of as you return to Jiwoo, who needs help with setting up your tent.
You donât even realise you've been distracted watching him the whole time, as his muscles contract with the effort of pushing the pump handle, and soon small drops of sweat start to trickle down them.
Your eyes are fixed on the way his hands roll up the sleeves each time they unroll and on the way he lifts his head and pulls his hair back with one hand when it bothers him too much and prevents him from seeing. It almost seems like he does it on purpose so your eyes never leave him.
But someone's hand rests on your shoulder, waking you up. âHeâs really handsome, isnât he?â Minho smirks and holds back a laugh when you turn to look at him, blushing and trying to stammer out a response, but he stops you right away, âWipe off all the drool youâve spilled first.â He chuckles and walks away with your eyes on him, shaking his head slowly, amused.
Just then, you hear the sound of someone falling to the ground, and when you turn, you see Hyunjin sitting from exhaustion. His breathing is heavy, and pained sounds and light groans leave his lips, the heat of the sun making everything worse, while Jisung takes his place to finish inflating.
His friend hands him a black tank top to wear instead of the sweat-soaked shirt he has on, and that's what Hyunjin does.
He takes off the white t-shirt and uses it to wipe off the sweat covering his body. And once again, it seems like he does it to show off so that you watch and canât take your burning eyes off him, off his body. But deep down, you know itâs not like that, and this thought forces you to immediately look away when his eyes meet yours, amused. Itâs a quick contact, it lasts little but says a lot.
And you have to use all the self-control you have in your body not to set your eyes on that tight black fabric that perfectly hugs his body, making his muscles appear more tense and defined.
âThatâs better.â he sighs with relief, soon returning to work and starting to add the stakes.
The silence is filled with the sounds of hammers, and you don't notice when he moves away from the group.
When you stand up after finishing setting up the tent, you look around, confused by his absence. âWhere's Hyunjin?â you ask Jiwoo, who is taking out lights from a bag to use as decoration.
âHe went for a walk over there; there's a river a bit further from here.â She points in a direction with the index finger of her free hand.
âOh.â you nod in understanding.
Only a few seconds of silence pass before she speaks again, âGo to him, he's alone; I'll take care of decorating the tent.â It's written all over your face, what you want to do. She suppresses the urge to roll her eyes and winks at you instead.
And you don't need to be told twice.
When you arrive at the spot, you search for him with quick, darting glances. âHyunjin?â you call out before finding him lying on a large rock with his hands on his belly and his eyes closed.
He didn't answer, so you gather that he's sleeping. You slowly approach him, trying not to make any noise, and sit down next to his sleeping body.
You look at his serene face and can almost hear his calm breath and sense the steady beats of his heart.
The place itself is very quiet. It's cozy, isolated from everyone else, and intimate.
You glance around a couple of times with furtive eyes, but you end up realising that you're alone. Then you look at him, his slightly parted inviting plump lips. You bring your face close to his almost instinctively, faces so close that you can feel his warm breath on your own lips, but then you pull away.
What are you trying to do? It's wrong and stupid. If someone saw you, it would be a mess.
And if you had done it, he would have noticed, because he's awake.
Your ears burn, your cheeks flushed with shame and guilt when his eyes open.
He doesn't say anything for a few seconds, looking at you with distant irises, wrapped in thoughts, then he sits up, raising his torso.
"I heard you calling me but I didn't feel like answering.â he tries to smile to tease you, but what comes out is more of a grimace. You pretend not to notice though, lying to him as well as to yourself.
"I knew it, that's why I've been sitting in silence." You smirk, trying to push away the shame and alleviate the strange tension that has arisen.
However, the situation changes so quickly. There is still tension between the two of you, but it is different with his hand holding your chin and his thumb slowly, intensely stroking your lower lip. Intense, too, is the look his burning eyes give to your rosy lips.
When your eyes meet, his movements stop, and itâs difficult for you to tell what he is thinking. The eyes are the reflection of the soul, he likes to say, but at the moment his do not reflect much.
And then, he pulls away from you. His gaze, his hand, a moment later are no longer on you.
He stands up, "You had something on your lips." He looks around, normal, apparently enjoying the scenery.
You touch your lips, embarrassed, "Oh."
He looks at you and chuckles softly, sitting back next to you with a now more serene air.
One of his arms rests on your shoulder in a friendly gesture, trying to get as close to you as possible.
"I like this place, it's quiet and relaxing," he says. "I want to paint it."
"Hey lovebirds!" You hear someone say from just a bit further away from you. You immediately recognize it's Jisung's voice, who has joined you. "Get a room."
Hyunjin chuckles, and you try to do the same, but your mind is clouded by the memory of his gesture.
The fact that he didn't stop you when you tried to get closer to his lips, the way he touched yours with his thumb.
These images still flash in your mind while everyone else sleeps. You touch your lips with two fingers almost unconsciously, smiling sadly.
But apparently, you're not the only one lost in thought, as the entrance to the tent is opened and the little lamp in between you and Jiwoo is turned on. The latter gets up and leaves, letting someone else in.
And how could you not recognize that head of dark hair making its way inside, closing the entrance zipper after murmuring a 'thank you' and receiving a nod in response.
"Hyunjin? What are you doing here? It's late." you ask him, but receive no answer.
You receive no answer because instead, his lips crash against yours in a needy gesture.
Your eyes widen at the sudden gesture, but you don't push him away, not even when his lips start moving on yours shortly after. Instead, you reciprocate.
It's desperate. Your movements aren't even in sync, but it's okay. It's perfect like this; you couldn't ask for anything better.
One of his hands rests above your ear, caressing it so delicately that you barely even notice, as if youâre made of porcelain.
You break the kiss with quick breaths and uncontrollable heartbeats, emotions finally laid bare.
"I've wanted to kiss you for so long." he admits in a whisper, looking into your eyes.
You find the strength to speak, albeit lightly, "Today by the river⊠I didn't just watch you." You admit, and you can't help the hint of embarrassment you feel in saying those words to him.
"I know, and I hoped so much that you'd do what you were about to do, but you stopped." His smile doesn't falter for a moment. "You didn't have anything on your lip; I just used it as an excuse to touch you. I actually wanted to kiss you, but when I looked into your eyes, I didn't have the courage." He confesses.
"And here you are now." You chuckle.
He huffs a chuckle, "It wouldn't have been like this if you hadn't tried to kiss me first."
âNow I wish I hadnât stopped earlier today, by the river.â you say, lowering your eyes to his lips and then back to his, licking your own lips. âIâve always thought you have nice lips and Iâve always wondered what it would be like to kiss you, you know?â
âNow you know,â he says happily. âOr do you need to explore a little more?â
You donât even need to answer; he already knows the response. And once again, your lips are on each otherâs, in a kiss that quickly becomes fast and hungry.
Your hands roam over each otherâs bodies, fingers tangled in hair, hands gripping cheeks, hips, ending up on thighs.
Your breaths are fast, and the tent heats up. Youâre so lost in each other that you donât realise youâre not being very quiet anymore.
Itâs Changbinâs voice that wakes you up and makes you pull away. âCould you guys keep it down a bit?â he shouts from a couple of tents away from yours.
âIf you two donât let me sleep or wake me up at any hour of the night, Iâll put you in the air fryer.â Minhoâs voice intervenes right after, annoyed.
You and Hyunjin lock eyes and then laugh silently.
âAt least weâll be put together.â
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description: literally just a heejake pwp threesome
work count: 5k
warnings: dom!heeseung, switch!reader, sub!jake, member on member (heeseung and jake are boyfriends and act as such), pussy drunk jake, cock drunk jake and reader, subdrop, fluids (jake drools a LOT), dacryphilia, spitting, mean dom and soft dom heeseung, dp, cumming untouched, overstimulation, creampie, cum eating, squirting, multiple orgasms, orgasm delay, degradation, praise, breeding kink, pet names, puppy as a term of endearment, fluff. they're in love idk what to tell ya!
* only minimally proof read! excuse any mistakes bc im too damn tired to proof it all *
a/n: dedicated to my bff @sjyfave who gave me the pairing to work with. i'm popping my smut cherry with this one! i hope y'all enjoy, it's literally just pwp so i hope it suffices as my (semi) return to writing hehe
heeseung really shouldn't be enjoying this this much.
jake is acting like he always does, hanging off of heeseungâs tall frame as they stand beside the bed, waiting for you to pick a movie for the night. but as he watches jakeâs eyes twinkle as he looks up at him, heeseung can't ignore the way he urges so desperately to see them flutter shut. heeseung imagines all the ways he could cause that, his cock twitching beneath his sweatpants at the imagery of jake lying, pliant and needy beneath him, shaking from the desperation of waiting ever so patiently to be touched.
you glance over at them from your spot on the bed, the lack of noises coming from your boyfriends strikes you as strange, with jakeâs giggle being a commonly heard noise in your apartment. you see jake staring up at heeseung, eyes shining at the mere thought of simply being around him. the sight brings a smile to your face, seeing jakeâs pure adoration for the faded cherry red haired man shining through his gaze.
jake and heeseung have always been this way. jakeâs smiley, bouncy, puppy-like behavior increasing tenfold whenever he's around heeseung. jake loves heeseung, and heeseung loves jake. when heeseung discovered your love for jake that mirrored his own (feelings that he had only recently begun exploring as beyond platonic, once you expressed similar feelings for your shared best friend), it was a no brainer to ask jake to join your relationship.
and he made the perfect addition to your relationship. jakeâs hyper personality works well with two partners, the two of you are thankfully able to keep up with his energy as a team. jake is the sunshine beaming through the blinds on a summerâs morning, brightening the lives of everyone around him. jake makes both you and heeseung happier than youâve ever been, and in return you give him the love he deserves but has never received. and you canât help but wish that you had infinite amounts of love to give him, it never feels like enough for your bright eyed, bushy tailed boy. you would give him the whole world if you could, and most days you wish you could, doing practically anything to keep the sparkle in his eye.
if you could read heeseungâs mind right now, youâd hear similar sentiments in his brain, wishing he could give jake whatever he desires, and hoping that he is enough for him.
heeseung can see jakeâs clingy nature rapidly evolving into something he knows all to well - jakeâs insatiable sex drive is kicking in and beginning to take over his entire body. jake holds him tighter, pulls him closer, practically trying to crawl into his skin (heeseung wouldnât mind jake crawling into his skin, if heâs being honest.)
you hear a small whimper and glance back over at them from where your gaze had zoned out on the television.
âwhat is it, jakey?â you hear heeseungâs voice quietly ask, watching as jake just continues to stare.
okay, maybe he should be enjoying this. because heeseung always enjoys toying with his boyfriend, the way jake doesnât even bother to hide his quickly reddening face or his growing hard on from him. heeseung knows jake like the back of his hand, and right now he needs attention.
jake doesnât respond, prompting heeseung to hold the side of his face, thumb running gently across his cheek. âtell me what you need, puppy.â
jakeâs entire body is buzzing with anticipation and pure want. wanting heeseung to touch him further, wanting be sandwiched between the two of you, needing so deeply to be shaking and sweating from the overstimulation you both constantly provide him with. he shivers at the thought, dick swelling further in his sweatpants, poking more into heeseungâs inner thigh. the closeness of their cocks makes heeseungâs twitch once more, overcome with the need to capture the two in his large hand. if only jake knew the restraint it took for heeseung to stand still like this, urging jake to make the first move.
jake opens his mouth to speak, nothing coming out but a small squeak as a small smirk envelops heeseungâs lips. he doesnât move, watching as jakeâs gaze drifts lower and ghosts a hand over his cock. heeseung nearly jumps at the sudden touch, grabbing jakeâs larger hand and holding it up by the wrist, bringing it up between them, their gazes meeting on the limb held in the air before settling back on each other. âuse your words, angel.â
you watch silently, shutting the TV off and tossing the remote onto the side table and shimmying yourself closer to them, perching yourself on the edge of the bed, legs hanging off the side. heeseung glances back at you, amusement twinkling in his eyes alongside a glimmer of discomfort from how painfully hard his dick sits in his basketball shorts. you reach your hand out, gripping jakeâs hip lightly from behind him.
âtell heeseung what you need, baby boy.â
jake whimpers at the nickname, one thatâs only used when you and heeseung both know heâs very needy. you feel your own wetness grow in your panties at the sound, waiting until you can pounce on the energetic boy standing in front of you. but you wait for heeseungâs lead first, knowing that youâd be in trouble for making the first move. heeseung loves playing this game, teasing jake within an inch of exploding, knowing how it makes both you and jake feel. he loves the way you take control with jake but still yield to him, and loves watching the two of you come undone simultaneously, the sight often times spurring him into his own orgasm shortly after. watching the sight of two pairs of eyes fluttering shut, rolling back, bodies shivering and shaking, fluids spilling everywhere; knowing how jake will watch with hooded eyes and a sleepy gaze after two orgasms as heeseung collects cum from all three of you just to force jake to suck it off his slender fingers.
jake knows if he doesnât say anything, heeseung will drop his hand and leave all three of you unsatisfied, barring jake from touching himself at all.
âplease kiss me,â jake pleads, âplease, heeseung.â
heeseung smiles lightly before obliging, capturing jakeâs oh so plump lips between his own. jake slots his lips against heeseungâs in return, hands unmoving even as heeseung drops his wrist in favor of gripping his free hip roughly. your lust begins to take over, needing to feel someoneâs hands on you in the moment, and the noise that slips from your mouth causes heeseung to pull away preemptively, lingering close to jakeâs face.
âyouâre working our girl up over there so easily, pup.â heeseung watches jake glance back towards you, smiling as he can feel jakeâs already impossibly hard dick get even harder at the sight of you with blown out eyes, watching in awe as your two boyfriends kiss. you didnât mean to make a sound, wanting to watch a little longer and hold back your need to be touched if it meant being able to witness the two men you adore loving on each other. âbet sheâs so wet for you, jakey.â
the tips of jakeâs ears get redder than before, if possible, as he canât take his eyes off your wide eyes and hard nipples poking through your (jakeâs) thin t-shirt. âpants off. now.â the authority in heeseungâs voice leaves no room for argument and you can already feel that youâre absolutely soaked, panties sticking to your core as you try to tug them down.
âlook at that,â heeseung taunts you, reaching down to sit eye level with your pussy before blowing on it. âbabyâs soaked, jakey. look what you did to our girl.â he glances back at jake, watching as his hands shake slightly, holding himself back from pouncing on you instantly, waiting for heeseungâs instructions. jake tears his gaze from your dripping core, looking up at heeseung for permission. âclean up the mess you caused, jake.â
jake falls over himself, landing headfirst in your pussy. he sets an insatiable pace, licking a long stripe all the way up to your clit before sucking it harshly. your body reacts in tandem, back arching as you look down at the way he devours your pussy. he wastes no time, slurping up all your juices before dipping his tongue inside. the sensation has you fighting to close your legs, but a hand from your side holds one open. jake is rutting against the floor like a dog in heat, the friction from the carpet and his sweats doing little to help the untouched dick between his legs. the drool from his mouth is falling down past his chin, soaking you even further as it slides all around your dripping cunt and spills out onto the floor.
âis our jakey making you feel good, angel?â your heart stirs at the nickname, tearing your gaze from the man between your legs to look up at heeseung, a soft smile on his face. you nod earnestly, âyes, feels so good, hee.â
âbe a good girl for me and keep your legs open.â
you nod again as heeseung captures your lips in a kiss, his lust beginning to take over as he bites on your plush bottom lip, hard but not hard enough to draw blood. the painful sensation shoots right between your legs and you moan into his mouth. jake moans beneath you, tongue still buried deep inside, and the vibrations make you whimper. heeseung dips his tongue into your mouth with fervor at the opportunity, his free hand reaching down to pinch your clit harshly between two fingers. jake pulls back and licks heeseungâs hand, the pressure on your sensitive clit doubling as you lurch forward, losing connection with heeseungâs lips. he chases and recaptures your lips in another kiss, his fingers getting harsher before moving to slide two fingers inside of you. he curls them just right, hitting your g-spot instantly. you moan against his tongue as jake follows his fingers, licking over heeseungâs hand as he drools all over them, dripping down past the back of his hand and over heeseungâs wrist. heeseung nearly chuckles at the action, knowing jake is a drooler, but continues his onslaught against your g-spot, prodding the spongy wall with his skillful fingers and rubbing your clit with his free thumb. the hand on your thigh grips harder, and the pain only further fuels your desire. your body tenses suddenly, an orgasm about to crash into you.
heeseung smirks as your lips stop moving against his, eyes fluttering open to watch you come undone on jakeâs mouth and his fingers. âgo ahead, princess.â at the sound of his permission your orgasm hits, body seizing as you stare at heeseung, eyes rolling back as cum gushes out of you, onto heeseungâs fingers. jake never ceases his actions, slurping and licking still as cum coats his face, still incessantly humping the floor. you reach down and attempt to push jake away, heeseung uses his hand that was on your thigh before to grab your wrist, halting your actions before bringing it to his own clothed, neglected cock. he removes his fingers from your pussy, reaching up and shoving them harshly past your slightly parted lips. you suck on them instantly, eyes fluttering open as your thighs shut around jakeâs head. your tongue swirls around in tandem with jakeâs, not halting his actions as your legs clamp his head in place, doing the exact opposite of what you need right now, eyes brimming with tears from the overstimulation.
âyou can take it,â heeseung tells you, âtake it, baby. let jakey make you feel good.â
more drool and cum dribble down jakeâs face, surely making a stain in the floor that heeseung will clean in the morning. his dick is impossibly hard in his sweats, begging to be released, yet he continues licking and sucking and prodding into your already spent pussy.
heeseung smiles at the tears that are now streaming down your cheeks, removing his fingers from your mouth after youâve sucked them clean of any fluid. he smacks your clit with the wet digits, your body jumping at the action. he chuckles at your reaction to the pain. heeseung thinks you look so beautiful like this, writhing and squirming under jakeâs tongue, wetness sliding down your cheeks and landing on your t-shirt. he loves seeing you lose control under him and jake.
âjakey,â jake doesnât respond, and heeseung moves his stare down to the boy between your legs. âjake.â he repeats, opting to grab a handful of his hair and yank him off of you, your back falling onto the bed once no hands are on you.
jake tries to lean back in, and heeseung is marveled once again by how absolutely pussy drunk jake is right now. heeseung knows jake would eat you out for hours if given the chance, never halting his actions even when you cry and beg for mercy. heeseung thinks jake would live with his head between your legs, if only youâd let him. little does he know if you could, youâd let him settle in there for all of eternity.
jakeâs gaze moves up to heeseung, loving the pain in his scalp that comes with the harsh tug of his brown hair.
âyou best remember whoâs in charge here, puppy.â
his warning sends a shiver down jakeâs spine, nodding incessantly in order to please heeseung, jake only ever wanting to be a good boy for him, and for you.
âget up on the bed,â heeseung lets go of jakeâs hair, pulling away to take his own shirt off and toss it somewhere in the room. jake obeys instantly, sitting on his knees next to your lying down figure. jake leans down and plants a single kiss on your cheek, his plush lips soaking up a few tears still sitting on your skin. jakeâs hands roam your body, grasping at your tits and fondling them in his large palms. heeseung watches intently, shedding himself of his basketball shorts and tugging upwards on his cock a few times. jake moves to straddle your waist, grinding down on your exposed cunt as he gropes at your boobs underneath the fabric of your shirt. he holds you up in order to take off your shirt quickly before returning his hold to your flesh, burying his head between them. you groan at the feeling as he begins to drool once more, rutting incessantly against your pussy, still fully clothed, sucking and licking and biting on your tits. he chases his own high, and heeseung can see how close he is. he holds back, watching as jake drools all over your upper body, loving the mess he makes before jake is stilling suddenly, cumming completely untouched inside his sweatpants. his head never once rises from your chest, slobbering everywhere and leaving no expanse of skin untouched by his tongue and full lips. you think he looks adorable, becoming drunk on loving you right after being pried up from between your legs, where he was pussy drunk not even moments before.
heeseung lets go of his hard dick, watching as jake never even feels an ounce of shame for cumming in his pants like a teenage boy, continuing to drool everywhere. you coo at him, holding his cheek in your hand before pulling him up into a sloppy, warm kiss. spit spills from the corner of his mouth as your capture his velvety lips in your own, slipping your hand beneath his pants and grasping at the base of his cock, stroking upward with a quick tug. jake whimpers, and you push further against his mouth, shoving your tongue past his lips as you continue to overstimulate him from two points.
âwhat a needy puppy we have here, y/n.â
you nod, pulling away from jake to stare into his blown out pupils, âsuch a needy boy, isnât that right baby?â
jake nods intently, âso needy,â he whimpers, practically already fully hard again from your constant strokes of his overstimulated dick.
heeseung lowers himself onto the bed, lying back against the pillows perched against the headboard. âtake off your pants and come here, jakey.â jake pulls away from you, tugging his pants and boxers off before coming to sit on heeseungâs thighs, staring down at his boyfriend casually resting against the pillows. you crawl over to sit beside the two of them, arousal growing between your legs once more at the thought of being able to watch again. âiâll take care of you, puppy.â
heeseung surrounds both of their dicks in one hand, beginning to jerk the two of them off at once. you groan at the sight, reaching over to tug jakeâs shirt up and over his head. you toss it aside, taking one of jakeâs nipples between your fingers and pinching harshly.
âahâ y/nââ he gasps out between needy pants, never tearing his eyes from where heeseung holds both of them in his hand. âmoreâ please moreââ
you shake your hand, snaking your other hand down your body, drawing lazy counter clockwise circles against your clit. âyouâll take what i give you, baby boy. got it?â
he nods with earnest, moaning loudly and mumbling incomprehensible words.
you continue tweaking his nipple between your fingers, eyes returning to the show in front of you. you reach forward, licking from base to tip right where their cocks meet. heeseung moans loudly, stirring an equally as desperate moan to slip from jakeâs bitten lips. you reach beneath them to grasp heeseungâs balls, squeezing them lightly and watching for his reaction, pleased when he groans and dips his head back, eyes fluttering shut.
âso sensitive, hmm, heeseung?â
âwatch who youâre talking to.â
your pussy drips as you abuse it further, dipping your hand between your folds before smearing your arousal on both of their dicks. jake lurches forward at the sight, letting out a tiny âfuckââ that affects both you and heeseung. jakeâs reaction stirs something in you, patience giving way, despite the enjoyment you derive from simply watching. you need to feel full, and you need to feel full now.
heeseungâs eyes flick over from his hand to your face, shaking his head, âgod, youâre a fucking menace. youâre gonna get it, you know?â
you nod, knowing your punishment would arise soon enough, not caring enough as you whine out to no one in particular, âneed you inside,â you grab heeseungâs hand to halt his movements. heeseung lets your interruption slide, letting go of his grasp on his and jakeâs cocks before sitting up, tugging you with him. he pushes jake to lie down, âflip around,â he instructs, to which jake instantly obeys.
heeseung picks you up and manhandles you down onto jakeâs rock hard length. you hiss at the pain mixing with the pleasure, loving when heeseung uses you and jake to make each other feel good. you love relinquishing control to him, and jake loves it doubly so, allowing the two of you to boss him around like a toy, knowing heâll always get his release if heâs a good boy for you both. jake groans at the feeling of your walls suck him right in, âfuck- so fucking tight-â he pants, âoh my godââ he glances up at heeseung, tongue lolling out as his brain shortcircuits from the feeling of your pretty pussy that he loves oh so desperately fluttering around his length, drool slipping out of the corners of his mouth as he pants.
âgod, just as tight as the day you met her, isnât she, jake?â heeseung degrades you, shoving you down to lay against jakeâs chest before inserting three fingers alongside jakeâs dick, pumping in and out to prep you minimally as his other hand continues to yank you up and down along jakeâs aching length. you fall further onto jake at the intrusion, âtight like a fucking virgin even after having two dicks to stretch her out, isnât that right? our babyâs just a needy slut, jakey, taking all that we give her.â
you nod profusely, open mouth panting against jakeâs chest as he squeezes his eyes shut. heeseung grips your hips, prodding his tip inside with a tight stretch that reverberates through your body. jake holds your hip gently trying to ground you before taking his second hand and shoving two fingers into your mouth. âgreedy y/n,â he whispers between his own pants and gasps as heeseung pushes further, relishing in the feeling of your walls paired with his boyfriendâs cock sliding in alongside his own.
âtoo fucked out to even speak, hmm?â heeseung pulls all the way out, leaving just the tip in before sheathing himself in you to the hilt, the three of you all groaning at the action. your mind begins to feel fuzzy, unable to focus on anything as you continue to swirl your tongue around jakeâs fingers as if it were his dick down your throat, shoving deeper and deeper until you gag and spit dribbles around them. heeseung can feel jakeâs cock twitch at the sight, knowing your boyfriend loves it absolutely filthy and messy. âshe can take it,â heeseung assures jake who continues his assault on your mouth as heeseung continues to rail into you, balls slapping against your ass as you squeeze tightly around he and jakeâs lengths. heeseung reaches over you, shoving a thumb into jakeâs mouth, who mimics your actions of sucking on the finger diligently. after getting it sufficiently wet enough, heeseung snakes down to reach your clit, beginning his relentless assault on the hard bud. you clench around him with his action, âfuck, your pussy is a dream. bet youâd love to be stuffed full twenty four-seven, never a moment without a cock inside one of your holes.â
âgod, youâd love that so muchâ iâd never leave you alone, between jake and i, weâd keep you plugged up all hours of the day.â heeseung rambles, more for his own desire than either of yours, knowing both of you are nearly gone. the thought of stuffing you full every hour of every day making his need grow further. âfuck, my perfect girl. this pussy was made to take us, wasnât it? made to be a fucktoy for jake and iââ heeseungâs eyes flutter shut at a particularly tight drag of your walls and jakeâs sticky dick against his own, âone cock will never be enough for you, pretty girl, will it? youâre absolutely insatiable.â
âeughââ you mumble around jakeâs fingers, mind going numb as heeseung fucks you out of your own brain. jakeâs beginning to tumble into the same space, and heeseung smiles as he watches jakeâs eyes cross from a pointedly sharp shove back into your pussy. jake can feel their tips touch inside, the realization wholly erotic to him and spurring him further into a liminal space where only you and him and heeseung exist, and nothing exists but the pleasure and pain that heeseung provides. âboth of you take me so well, my sweetest angels, always needing heeseung to help you cum. so desperate for my cock, youâd do anything for it, wouldnât you?â heeseung chuckles lowly, glancing between the two of you, fucked out of your minds and unable to even move on your own, the degradation mixed with praise barely registering in your mind. âtwo cock drunk little whores iâve got here, hmm?â jake nods, not sure what heâs agreeing to, just hoping to please heeseung.
ââm gonna c-cumââ jake sputters, looking to heeseung for permission. âalmost there, pup, just a little moreââ heeseung continues his assault, his thrusts slowly moving you higher up on jakeâs chest until he tugs you back down, burying jakeâs dick all the way to the hilt once more. âf-fuckâ heeâ i c-canâtââ jake stumbles out, the pressure building in his tummy as his orgasm threatens to spill.
âyes you can, and you will.â his tone leaves no room for disagreement. he notices the tells from your body, knowing youâre still gagging on jakeâs fingers below, your hands grasping jakeâs biceps as you brace yourself to cum. heeseung pinches your clit, and that breaks the dam, fluid rushing out of you all at once. heeseung watches as it gushes out of you, grabbing jakeâs chin and tilting it up first and ordering him to open, before spitting inside the cavern of jakeâs mouth. he closes jakeâs jaw to make him swallow, which he does with a loud moan that heeseung feels vibrate against his hand. he directs jakeâs head down now for him to watch, too. jake groans once more, long and drawn out at the sight of you squirting. âheeseung, pleaseââ he whimpers.
âgo ahead puppy,â jake cums, a long burst and heeseung thinks jakeâs never cum this much in his whole life. heeseung persists with his thrusts, never once stopping even as you cry out from around jakeâs fingers, on another plane of existence entirely but still able to feel the way your cunt begs for mercy. he watches as he pushes jakeâs cum back inside of you, ramming deep into your cervix. tears leak out the sides of your eyes, the sounds escaping your mouth indicating the same. jake withstands the oversensitivity of his cockhead as heeseung makes a point to drag against it with every push and pull of his own dick. âgod, and now youâre crying? pathetic. youâre getting what you wanted, dumb slut. take what i give you.â
âjake, turn her head towards me,â jake obeys, and the sight of your cheeks covered in wet tears and your mouth still stuffed full of two of jakeâs huge fingers makes heeseung cum on the spot, shooting deep inside you. he doesnât move until heâs fully spent, and even then he sits still within you. jake begins to pull out and heeseung allows him, seeing the boy about to slip fully into a subspace from the entire overwhelming experience.
heeseung thrusts a few times back into you for good measure, watching the combination of everyoneâs fluids slipping out of your gaping hole, sliding down his base and onto his balls. he groans, slowly pulling out before taking his fingers and shoving it all back inside. âgonna keep you plugged full til youâre pregnant, angel. would look so good with our babies in you. swelled up belly and youâd still be able to take us both at once.â he presses kisses all over the expanse of your back slowly, the sweet action contrasting the next words to leave his mouth, ânaughty angel disobeyed heeseung, so this is her punishment.â
youâre beginning to somewhat return to this realm, pulling off of jakeâs completely spit covered fingers and looking back at heeseung, ââm not naughty,â you pathetically whimper, pulling a smirk onto heeseungâs face in response. âyes you are angel, touching without permission, getting me all worked up when you know i was loving on our puppy and trying to make him feel good.â heeseung removes his fingers from where he has you plugged up, shoving the fingers into jakeâs mouth. even when heâs subbed out, he sucks diligently, slurping up the mix of everyoneâs fluids until heeseungâs fingers are clean. âyou took your punishment well, my bratty girl. and you make our puppy and heeseung cum.â
without heeseungâs hands to hold you up, you fall down away from jake, leaving room for heeseung to lie in the middle. he steps into the bathroom and wets a cloth, returning with it to clean the two of you up. he wipes the drool from both you and jake, cleaning faces and stomachs and inner thighs and fingers and any other place jake, or you, had dribbled spit onto. heâs gentle when wiping you, and especially delicate when cleaning jakeâs now soft dick. if he left that cum inside you any longer, the minute jake regained his senses heâd be diving in headfirst to suck the mixture right out of your abused hole.
âmy two beautiful angels, you did so well my babies.â he places a kiss on each of your foreheads before tossing the cloth in the hamper in the corner of the room. heeseung takes his place between the two of you, and you curl in to cling onto him in your post orgasm haze. ââm so tired,â you mumble, laying your head against his chest. jake has his back to the two of you, and heeseung wraps a hand around his waist, splaying his hand against his lower abdomen.
âheeââ jake calls as heâs slowly recovering from the subdrop. âyes, baby?â
âi love you,â jake mumbles, bringing heeseungâs hand up to his mouth to pepper it with kisses.
he replies honestly, without a second though, âi love you too, jakey,â he rubs against your shoulder, lulling you further into dreamland, âmy well behaved boy, did so well for me puppy.â
the praise seems to settle into the nooks and crannies of his brain, saving the phrase among all the other memories of when heeseung has reassured him. that he loves him just as much as you, that him being added into you and heeseungâs relationship did not make him any less loved. and jake never hesitates to express the same sentiment to you, knowing how inside your own head you can get sometimes. heeseung turns his head towards you, who will knock out shortly after settling your head further against his pectoral.
âdid well for me, pretty girl,â he presses a kiss to the side of your head, pulling you closer with the strong arm thatâs wrapped around your shoulders. âsuch a good girl, i love you.â
itâs left unsaid, but you love heeseung, and you love jake. heeseung adores the pair of you, the two of you constantly keeping his hands full. and jakeâs heart swells knowing that he has two people in this world that love him unconditionally.
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halo! new follower here! i like your yandere!ex!bully!Eren x Reader âĄ_⥠can I ask for a continuation of it? where y/n is on her pregnant phase and up until the child was finally born. like how would Eren treat her? bcs ik for sure y/n would drop out on her college T_T
â ïž: NON CON, Forced Pregnancy, yandere!eren...
DARK CONTENT! DO NOT READ IF TRIGGERED EASILY!!
-> sorry for the wait, life's been hectic
-> yall got me fucked up. The eren smut tag be so dry nowadays
-> part 1
The last few days, you've been feeling uneasy
Eren's been avoiding you ever since that night he stormed into your house and fucked you unconscious
You desperately want to talk to someone about your feelings but can't due to:
1. lack of friends... scratch that, you don't have any friends
2. Your mother doesn't give a flying fuck about you
3. Eren... The person who is causing you to feel this way
You can't put your finger on it, but it's a gut feeling that something bad is going to happen
Nonetheless, you can't just wallow in your bed all day so you get up to get ready for your 12pm lecture
Everything seemed normal until you started to feel nauseous upon your arrival at school
You thought maybe it was because you hadnât ate anything in the morning, so itâs just empty stomach nausea
But no.
The nausea was then followed with a pang of dizziness and before you knew it, you collapsed onto the floor.
Waking up in a hospital bed and being met with emerald eyes was not ideal
It was unfair how pretty he was. How could someone look like a prince from a fairy tale be so ruthless and cold?
His hand reached to touch your cheek, gently caressing it. You canât remember the last time he touched you so gently like this.
âIâm gonna go get the nurse to make sure youâre stable.â He spoke is a calm, gentle tone. Despite all the shit heâs put you through, you couldnât help but feel safe, wanted and loved when he spoke to you in that moment.
He left the room and you took the chance to sit upright and look at your surroundings. There was a fruit platter, a teddy bear and some flowers on the table.
How long have you been out for??
Panic began to settle in, but luckily Eren and his father walked into the room. Right, his father was a doctor.
After some small talk, he did a quick checkup and said that thereâs nothing to be concerned about. He got up and paged a nurse before leaving you and Eren alone again.
âAm I able to go home now? Your dad said Iâm fine.â
âNot quite yet. Thereâs something that we need to tell you.â
The door opens and a machine is pushed into the room. The nurse wheeled in a sonogram?
âWhat do you need that for?â
âTo check on how your little bean is doing sweetheart.â
It looked like a vampire sucked all the blood out of you. You went pale. Is this what your gut was warning you about?
Instantly, you begin freaking out. Thrashing around, trying to get up and away from this hospital, away from this city, away from this life and more importantly, away from him.
Eren holds you down on the bed and tried his best to keep you calm. He knew your reaction wouldnât be pleasant, but you couldnât possibly despise him this much, right?
âWhat is she talking about? I- I canât be pregnant! Iâm too young. Please god, this is not happening. Why me?â You begin sobbing, as Eren holds you close to him, sitting on your bed and pulling your body onto his.
âCould you give us a moment pleaseâ eren cleared his throat and eyed the nurse as she left and closed the door behind her.
It was like a switch went off in him and he grabbed your jaw tightly, pulling your face close to his.
âStop fucking crying. Youâre embarrassing me. Youâre the one who fucking caused me to do this. You kept trying to leave me without a reason. Even though I pleaded with you to stay, to give me another chance to fix my mistakes. But you didnât. I know the reason why you broke up with me is to whore around. Like your mother who doesnât even know who your dad is. Now unlike your whore mother, this baby has a father. And I have no plans on abandoning my child because I donât want them to turn out like you. So sit up straight and let her take the ultrasound. Youâre ruining whatâs supposed to be a happy moment for first time parents.â
He roughly let go of your jaw and called the nurse back in while you sat upright again and wiped the tears away.
Eren lifted your gown to expose your stomach and pulled up the blanket so you werenât exposed down there. The cool gel was spread on your stomach and before you knew it, a small bean was presented on the sonogram screen.
Your heart began to soften up after realizing that you were growing a baby in your stomach.
But the tears wouldnât stop. You ended up turning away from the screen and closing your eyes, trying to figure out what youâre going to do.
After the nurse left to print out the pictures, Eren helped you get dressed so you could finally leave this depressing place.
The car ride was silent. You had the bouquet of flowers resting on your lap while you played with the ultrasound photos with your fingers
You noticed eren was headed back to his place so you cleared your throat and asked him to drop you off at your place.
âIâm not gonna leave you alone. Not when youâre pregnant with my child. Weâre gonna be staying at my place so I can take care of you. We also have to search for a house to settle in before the babyâs arrival.â
âEren, all of that isnât necessary. Iâm still in my first trimester.â
âEven more reason for you to stay with me. The first trimester is always the riskiest. And Iâm not taking that risk.â
âI canât just up and leave everything, Eren. My lease isnât up until July and I have a job too.â
âI donât care. Iâll pay whatever I have to, and break the lease.â
Panic began to set in
Tears started forming in your eyes and the palms of your hands became clammy
The idea of being tied to Eren for the rest of your life made your heart pound in your ears and your stomach churn
Youâd be signing your freedom away
You wouldnât be able to go to school, or have a job
Youâd be stuck at home as a house wife, like heâs always wanted
You couldnât let that happen
no no no no no
It was a stupid, impulsive decision
But you were desperate to get out of his car and stay away from his place
So you blurted,
âWhat if itâs not yours?!â
It was the straw that broke the camelâs back
I know I didnât answer this request to the full extent, but tbh if I did, youâd have to wait an additional 10 months.
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Don't really have a solid request but how about the ball lol literally no request just more like a prompt lol
âËâčË đ  tangled up with you all night
pairing: fred weasley x f!reader
â„ In which, you and fred go to the yule ball and end the night with a bang (almost literally)Â
warnings: fluff, it gets smutty but they don't do it, establish relationship, pretend the opposite gender can go into the dorms for thisâŠ, pet names, lots of snoggingâŠ., bad writing near the end..!
a/n: i was planning on writing smut but gave up bc i lowkey can't write smut for the life of me, that's why i have like 3 posts containing smut i fear.. lowkey gave up at the end, so another cliffhanger?????? sorry in advanced if there's any errors..
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The Great Hall shimmered with the glow of a thousand enchanted candles as students milled about in their finest dress robes, their laughter and chatter mixing with the soft hum of magical music. The Yule Ball had transformed Hogwarts into a winter wonderland, and the air was alive with excitement.
You stood at the edge of the hall, smoothing down the fabric of your dress and glancing around nervously. Even though youâd been dating Fred Weasley for a few months now, the butterflies in your stomach still hadnât gotten the memo. He had promised to meet you here, but you couldnât help feeling a little self-conscious as you waited.
âLooking for someone, love?â came a familiar voice from behind you. You turned to see Fred, his signature grin lighting up his face. He was wearing deep maroon dress robes that should have looked ridiculous but somehow suited him perfectly. His eyes sparkled with mischief as he held out a hand to you.
âYou clean up nicely,â you teased, taking his hand.
âAnd you look absolutely stunning,â he said, his voice softer as he pulled you closer. His gaze lingered on you for a moment, and you felt heat rise to your cheeks.
âShall we?â he asked, gesturing towards the dance floor.
You nodded, letting him lead you into the throng of students. The music shifted to a lively waltz, and Fred spun you effortlessly, his hand firm on your waist. You couldnât help but laugh as he exaggerated his movements, drawing amused glances from your classmates.
âFred, youâre going to make me trip,â you protested, though you were grinning.
âNonsense,â he said, twirling you again. âIf you fall, Iâll catch you. Thatâs what dashing boyfriends are for, isnât it?â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât suppress the warmth that spread through your chest at his words. Despite his joking demeanor, Fredâs grip was steady, his movements confident. He had a way of making you feel like the only person in the room.
As the song ended, Fred dipped you dramatically, earning a smattering of applause from a group of Gryffindors nearby. You laughed as he pulled you upright, his cheeks slightly flushed but his grin unwavering.
âYouâre impossible,â you said, shaking your head.
âAnd yet you love me for it,â he quipped, leaning in to brush a kiss against your temple.
The night passed in a blur of laughter and dancing. Fred kept you on your toes, whether by sneaking snacks from the refreshment table or convincing you to join him in an impromptu snowball fight in the courtyard. He was a whirlwind of energy, but he always made sure to keep you close, his hand never straying far from yours.
After a particularly lively polka that left you both breathless and laughing, Fred led you off the dance floor. "Time for a break?" he asked, raising an eyebrow.
âDefinitely,â you replied, fanning yourself with your hand. âI think my feet are going to protest if we keep going.â
âFeet or no feet, youâre a brilliant dancer,â he said, grabbing two glasses of pumpkin juice from a passing tray. He handed you one, his fingers brushing against yours. âYouâve got to teach me your secret.â
âSecret?â you asked, taking a sip of the cool drink. âYouâre the one whoâs been leading.â
âAh, but youâre the one who makes it look good,â he said with a wink.
The two of you wandered to the edge of the hall, finding a quieter corner to sit and watch the other students. Fred pointed out some of the more amusing pairs on the dance floor, his commentary making you laugh until your sides ached.
âOkay, but look at Neville,â Fred said, nudging you gently. Neville Longbottom was valiantly attempting to dance with Ginny, who was clearly trying to guide him through the steps. âBless him, heâs got the enthusiasm. Not so sure about the rhythm, though.â
âHeâs doing his best,â you said, though you couldnât hide your smile.
âAnd thatâs all that matters,â Fred agreed. He leaned closer to you, his shoulder brushing against yours. âAs long as youâre having fun, nothing else really matters, does it?â
âNo, it doesnât,â you said softly, turning to look at him. The warmth in his gaze made your heart skip a beat.
As the evening wore on, Fredâs antics continued to delight you. At one point, he conjured a handful of enchanted mistletoe and tried to sneak it above the heads of unsuspecting couples. When Professor McGonagall caught him, she gave him a stern look that only made him laugh harder.
âYouâre incorrigible,â you said, shaking your head as he returned to your side, still chuckling.
âAnd youâre still here, so what does that say about you?â he teased, slipping his arm around your waist.
The two of you eventually found yourselves on a quiet balcony overlooking the snow-covered grounds. The music and laughter from the Great Hall were a faint hum in the background. Snowflakes drifted lazily from the sky, catching in Fredâs hair and on the shoulders of his robes.
Fred draped his cloak over your shoulders, his arm curling around your waist. âHaving fun?â he asked, his voice softer now.
âThe best,â you said, leaning into him. âThank you for tonight, Fred.â
He tilted his head to look at you, his expression uncharacteristically serious. âIâd do anything to see you smile like that,â he said, brushing a strand of hair from your face.
Your breath hitched at the tenderness in his gaze. Before you could respond, he closed the distance between you, his lips capturing yours in a kiss that was warm and sweet and everything youâd ever dreamed of.
When he pulled back, his grin was back in place. âSo, I think Iâve earned the title of Best Boyfriend yet?â
You laughed, resting your forehead against his. âYouâve more than earned it, Fred Weasley.â
He beamed, pulling you closer as snow began to fall softly around you. In that moment, with Fred by your side and the world fading away, everything felt perfect. The two of you stayed there for a while, talking in hushed tones about everything and nothing. Fred shared a few outrageous stories about the twins' latest prank ideas, and you told him about your hopes and dreams for the future. It was a moment suspended in time, just the two of you against the backdrop of the magical evening.
As you sat there, the distant sounds of the ball began to fade. Fred glanced up at the stars, his hand still holding yours. "You know," he said, "nights like this don't come often. But with you, every day feels like it could be just as magical."
You smiled, resting your head on his shoulder. "You always know the right thing to say, don't you?"
"It's a talent," he said with a mock-serious tone, earning a laugh from you. "But really, I mean it. You're⊠well, you're brilliant. And not just for putting up with me."
"Putting up with you is the easy part," you teased. "It's keeping up with you that's the challenge."
He chuckled, pulling you closer. "Lucky for me, you're the only one who can."
As the night drew to a close, Fred walked you through the quiet corridors of Hogwarts, the sounds of the ball fading behind you. The soft crunch of snow underfoot was the only noise, adding to the serene feeling of the moment. Fred's hand never left yours, his touch warm and comforting against the cool night air.
"You know," Fred murmured, his voice low, as he glanced at you, "Iâm really glad we had tonight. It was perfect."
You smiled, squeezing his hand, the warmth of his fingers against yours making your heart beat faster. "It really was."
As you neared the entrance to Gryffindor Tower, Fred stopped suddenly, his body turning toward you, and his eyes locked onto yours with a kind of heat that made your breath hitch. There was something in his gaze tonightâsomething different, something deeper.
"Stay safe, yeah?" he asked, his voice low and rough, like he was holding back. "Iâd hate to think of anything happening to you after a night like this."
You teased, your voice softer than usual, a slight breathlessness in your words. "You worry too much."
"I donât think I can help it when it comes to you," he said, his hand rising to brush the side of your face. His thumb traced the curve of your jaw, a slow, deliberate touch that sent a shiver down your spine.
You felt the air between you thickening, charged with an undeniable tension. For a moment, you just stood there, staring at each other, unable to look away. The heat between you two was palpable now, the kind of closeness that made everything else fade into the background.
"Iâll be fine, Fred," you whispered, but your voice faltered, and the words felt hollow against the current that was pulling you closer to him. "But Iâd rather you stay."
Fred didn't speak right away. Instead, his thumb traced your lower lip, sending a surge of warmth through you. His eyes flickered down to your lips before locking onto your gaze again, the air between you thickening with unspoken desire.
"Are you sure?" he asked, his voice a soft rasp.
You could feel his hand on your neck, his fingers threading through your hair, and before you could respond, his lips were on yours, soft but insistent. The kiss was slow at first, testing, gentle. But as your bodies moved closer, the kiss deepened, and you felt the heat between you intensifying.
Fred gently guided you back, his hands resting on your waist as he led you toward the nearby bed. The back of your knees hit the edge, and in one swift but tender motion, Fred pushed you softly onto the mattress, hovering above you. His lips never left yours, and you could feel the warmth of his body against yours, the closeness making your heart race.
The kiss was a beautiful mix of passion and tenderness, each moment heightening the connection between you two. He pulled back just enough to look down at you, his expression serious now but filled with affection.
âYouâre incredible,â he whispered, brushing a stray lock of hair from your face.
You smiled up at him, your hands resting on his chest. âSo are you.â
There was a pause, the two of you just looking at each other, your breath coming a little faster. You felt his thumb trace the curve of your jaw, the simple touch sending shivers down your spine.
âYou make me feel⊠different, in the best way,â Fred said, his voice hushed, full of sincerity.
You didn't respond at first, still lost in the lingering sensation of the kiss you two had just shared. The taste of him was still fresh on your lips, your heart racing with a mixture of excitement and warmth. The way his lips had pressed against yours, so gentle at first, then deepening with a hunger that had made your whole body respondâit was as though the world had narrowed down to just the two of you.
"Are you still there?" Fred's voice broke through the haze of your thoughts, his tone teasing, but there was a softness in his gaze that made your heart flutter.
You blinked, finally bringing yourself back to the present. Looking into his eyes, you nodded, not trusting yourself to speak just yet. His smirk grew, and before you could catch your breath, he leaned in again, this time with more intent. His lips met yours in a kiss that was far more urgent than the first. It wasnât just a kiss nowâit was as though he couldnât get enough of you, his hands moving to cup your face as he deepened the kiss.
The world seemed to slip away again, the only sound in your ears, the steady rhythm of your breathing, the pounding of your hearts. You could feel the warmth of Fredâs body against yours, the heat of him pressing you back into the softness of the bed beneath you. His hands slid down your arms, tracing your skin with a light touch that made you shiver. You responded instinctively, your fingers tangling in his hair, pulling him closer, if that was even possible.
His kiss became more demanding now, his lips moving with a passion that matched the storm swirling inside you. You could feel his pulse in sync with yours, the chemistry between you undeniable. Every touch, every movement, seemed to carry a deeper weight, a silent promise of something more. But you werenât rushing. Neither of you were. This moment, this connection, was something worth savoring.
Fredâs hand moved slowly down your side, and for a moment, you frozeâunsure whether you were ready to take this step, but then, he paused, his forehead resting against yours, and you could feel him searching your face for any sign of hesitation.
"Is this okay?" he whispered, his breath warm against your lips. The tenderness in his voice made your heart swell, and you found yourself nodding. There was no rush, no pressure, just the two of you, letting the moment unfold at its own pace.
"Yes," you breathed, your voice barely above a whisper, but the certainty in your words made his eyes soften.
With a soft smile, Fred leaned in again, his kiss gentle, yet full of everything unspoken. His hands cupped your face again, holding you tenderly as though you were something precious, something he never wanted to lose. You melted into him, your body responding as if it had always known where it belongedâright here, in his arms.
As the kiss deepened again, your world spun in a dizzying, blissful swirl of emotions. You could feel his heart thundering in his chest, and yours followed in perfect time. His hands roamed, slow and deliberate, and with each touch, each whisper of his lips against yours, you felt the bond between you growing stronger.
And then, as you pulled back slightly, both of you breathing heavily, you rested your forehead against his, the world outside seeming to disappear entirely.
"I never want this night to end," Fred murmured, his voice rough and full of emotion.
"Me neither," you replied, your voice steady but filled with the depth of feeling that you could no longer keep hidden.
Still deep in the kiss, the two of you lost track of time. Your pulse raced, each touch igniting a warmth that spread through your entire body. But then, reluctantly, Fred pulled away, his lips lingering just above yours for a moment longer before he slowly opened his eyes.
You sighed, a soft whine escaping your lips at the sudden emptiness that followed his kiss. His gaze softened as he looked down at you, his expression a mix of tenderness and concern. There was something in his eyes, a silent question, as if asking if you were okay. You nodded, your heart hammering in your chest, and he seemed to understand, his lips curling into a small, reassuring smile.
"Are you sure?" he murmured, his voice quiet but steady, his hand brushing a strand of hair away from your face.
You nodded again, your hands finding his and squeezing gently. "I'm sure."
Fred's smile deepened, and with a slow but deliberate motion, he moved to carefully unzip the back of your dress, his fingers brushing lightly against your skin. The sensation sent a shiver down your spine, but there was no hurry in his movements. He took his time, his gaze focused on you, as if savoring the moment.
The dress fell away, leaving you in your undergarments. Fredâs eyes flickered up to meet yours, his breath catching slightly. He didnât say anything at first, just letting the silence stretch between you two. His fingers hovered over the hem of his own robes, and you noticed the teasing glint in his eyes as he took a step back.
"Patience, love," Fred said with a playful smirk, his voice low and full of warmth. "Youâll have all the time in the world."
You could feel the heat rising in your cheeks, your heart beating faster as his words hung in the air. It wasnât frustration, though, not really. It was anticipationâeverything felt heightened, the connection between you two growing deeper with every passing second.
"You're impossible," you teased softly, but there was no real annoyance in your tone. You only wanted more of him, more of this moment, but you could feel the power in his calmness. The way he moved, how he made you feelâlike everything was on his terms, yet somehow he always made you feel cherished.
"I know," Fred said with a grin, stepping closer again, his fingers brushing against your arm as he gently guided you to sit back on the bed. "But youâre the one who keeps me on my toes, arenât you?"
Your lips met again, this time slower, more deliberate. The kiss was still filled with that same heat, but there was a tenderness in it that made your heart swell. Fredâs hand cupped your face, his thumb gently tracing your jawline as he deepened the kiss, pulling you closer. You could feel the strength of his arms, the way he held you, not to control you, but to keep you safe within his embrace.
Everything around you seemed to fade into the background as you melted into him, your fingers tracing the fabric of his robes as you felt the warmth of his body against yours. The night had become more than just a kissâit was an unspoken promise, a bond growing stronger with every shared moment.
When the kiss finally broke, your foreheads rested against one another, both of you catching your breath. The air between you felt heavy with meaning, the unspoken emotions and desires lingering like an invisible thread tethering you together. It wasnât just the kissâit was everything that had been building between you two, a connection that ran deeper than words.
"Donât worry," Fred whispered, his breath warm and steady against your skin. His voice was softer than usual, carrying a gentleness that sent a wave of reassurance through you. "Iâm not going anywhere."
You smiled faintly, trying to inject some levity into the intensity of the moment. "I know thatâyouâd never leave dear olâ me," you quipped, your voice light but your heart pounding.
Fredâs lips curled into a smirk, his signature confidence still shining through. "I wouldnât dream of it," he replied, his tone playful yet undeniably sincere.
He leaned in again, this time his hands moving with deliberate care. His fingers brushed along your shoulders, trailing down to the clasp of your bra. He hesitated for just a moment, his eyes meeting yours, silently seeking permission. You gave him the smallest of nods, your chest tightening with anticipation. With practiced care, he undid the clasp and let the fabric fall away.
"Beautiful," he murmured, his voice so soft it was almost a whisper. His gaze dipped for a moment, his eyes tracing over you with an awe that made your cheeks flush. It wasnât just the way he looked at youâit was the way he made you feel seen, as though you were the only thing in the world that mattered to him at that moment.
Fred straightened slightly, his hands moving to the buttons of his shirt. His pace quickened as he undressed himself, his usual teasing nature giving way to an eagerness that matched your own. You watched him, your eyes trailing over every movement, but your mind was already racing ahead, anticipation building with every second.
Soon, the both of you were left in little more than the bare minimum. Fred stood before you in his boxers, and you in your panties, the weight of the moment pressing between you. His gaze returned to yours, filled with a mix of excitement and something deeperâconcern, perhaps, or maybe reverence.
"Youâre sure about this, sweetie?" His voice was steady, though you could hear the faintest tremor of excitement beneath it. His words carried more than just a question; they carried a promise to stop at any moment, to ensure this was what you truly wanted.
"Fred," you replied softly, your voice unwavering despite the butterflies in your stomach. "Iâve never been so sure in my life."
At your words, his expression softened, a smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "Alright then," he said quietly, leaning in to press his lips to yours again. This kiss was differentâslower, deeper, carrying with it an unspoken understanding. His hands roamed your body, each touch deliberate and reverent, while your fingers found their way to his face, cupping his cheeks as though to ground yourself in the moment.
He pulled back for a breath, his hands trailing lower, brushing the edge of your underwear. Fredâs gaze met yours again, his eyes searching, asking the question one last time without words. Are you sure?
You nodded, this time more confidently, your heart racing with a mix of nerves and excitement. Fredâs lips twitched into a small smile as his fingers hooked into the waistband, carefully sliding the fabric down. The movement was slow, deliberate, as though he wanted to give you every chance to change your mind. But you didnâtâyou couldnât. You wanted this, wanted him.
As he discarded the final barrier between you, Fred paused for a moment, taking in the sight of you. His expression was one of quiet reverence, as though he couldnât quite believe you were real. He quickly rid himself of his own boxers, and for a moment, the two of you stood there, bare and vulnerable in every sense of the word.
Fred stepped closer, his hands finding your waist and pulling you gently toward him. The warmth of his touch sent a shiver down your spine, but it was his eyesâthe way they held yours with such intensityâthat made your breath catch.
"This," he murmured, his lips brushing against yours as he spoke, "this isnât just tonight. You know that, right?"
"I know," you whispered back, your voice barely audible. "I trust you."
And with that, Fredâs hands caressed your waist, his thumbs tracing soft, reassuring circles against your skin. The warmth of his touch contrasted with the cool air, making you shiver despite the heat radiating between you.Â
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Hello. Sorry if this a stupid question u can ignore if u want.
How can someone get better at media analysis? Besides obviously reading a lot.
Im asking this bc im in a point where im aware of my own lack of tools to analyze stories, but i don't know where to get them or how to get better in general. How did you learn to analyze media? There's any specific book, essay, author, etc that you recommend? Somewhere to start?
I'm asking you because you are genuinely the person who has the best takes on this site. Thank you for you work!
it sounds like a cop-out answer but it's always felt like a skill I acquired mostly thru reading a ton, and by paying a lot of attention in high school literature classes. because of that I can't promise that I'm necessarily equipped to be a good teacher or that i know good resources. HOWEVER! let me run some potential advice to you based on the shit i get a lot of mileage out of
first off, a lot of literary analysis is about pattern recognition! not just pattern recognition in-text, but out-of-text as well. how does this work relate to its genre? real-world history? does it have parallels between real-life situations? that kind of thing.
which is a big concept to just describe off the bat, so let me break it down further!
in literature, there is the concept of something called literary devices - they are some of the basic building blocks in how a story is delivered mechanically and via subtext. have you ever heard of a motif? that is a literary device. it's a pattern established in the text in order to further the storytelling! and here is a list of a ton of common literary devices - I'd recommend reading the article. it breaks down a lot of commonly used ones in prose and poetry and explains their usage.
personally, I don't find all the literary devices I've learned about in school to be the most useful to my analytical hobbies online. motifs, themes, and metaphors are useful and dissecting them can bring a lot to the table, but a lot of other devices are mostly like fun bonus trivia for me to notice when reading. however, memorizing those terms and trying to notice them in the things you read does have a distinct benefit - it encourages you to start noticing patterns, and to start thinking of the mechanical way a story is built. sure, thinking about how the prose is constructed might not help you understand the story much more, but it does make you start thinking about how things like prose contribute to the greater feeling of a piece, or how the formatting of a piece contributes to its overall narrative. you'll start developing this habit of picking out little things about a text, which is useful.
other forms of in-text pattern recognition can be about things like characterization! how does a character react to a certain situation? is it consistent with how they usually behave? what might that tell you about how they think? do they have tells that show when they're not being trustworthy? does their viewpoint always match what is happening on screen? what ideas do they have about how the world works? how are they influenced by other people in their lives? by social contexts that might exist? by situations that have affected them? (on that note, how do situations affect other situations?)
another one is just straight-up noticing themes in a work. is there a certain idea that keeps getting brought up? what is the work trying to say about that idea? if it's being brought up often, it's probably worth paying attention to!
that goes for any pattern, actually. if you notice something, it's worth thinking about why it might be there. try considering things like potential subtext, or what a technique might be trying to convey to a reader. even if you can't explain why every element of a text is there, you'll often gain something by trying to think about why something exists in a story.
^ sometimes the answer to that question is not always "because it's intentional" or even "because it was a good choice for the storytelling." authors frequently make choices that suck shit (I am a known complainer about choices that suck shit.) that's also worth thinking about. english classes won't encourage this line of thinking, because they're trying to get you to approach texts with intentional thought instead of writing them off. I appreciate that goal, genuinely, but I do think it hampers people's enthusiasm for analysis if they're not also being encouraged to analyze why they think something doesn't work well in a story. sometimes something sucks and it makes new students mad if they're not allowed to talk about it sucking! I'll get into that later - knowing how and why something doesn't work is also a valuable skill. being an informed and analytical hater will get you far in life.
so that's in-work literary analysis. id also recommend annotating your pages/pdfs or keeping a notebook if you want to close-read a work. keeping track of your thoughts while reading even if they're not "clever" or whatever encourages you to pay attention to a text and to draw patterns. it's very useful!
now, for out-of-work literary analysis! it's worth synthesizing something within its context. what social settings did this work come from? was it commenting on something in real life? is it responding to some aspects of history or current events? how does it relate to its genre? does it deviate from genre trends, commentate on them, or overall conform to its genre? where did the literary techniques it's using come from - does it have any big stylistic influences? is it referencing any other texts?
and if you don't know the answer to a bunch of these questions and want to know, RESEARCH IS YOUR FRIEND! look up historical events and social movements if you're reading a work from a place or time you're not familiar with. if you don't know much about a genre, look into what are considered common genre elements! see if you can find anyone talking about artistic movements, or read the texts that a work might be referencing! all of these things will give you a far more holistic view of a work.
as for your own personal reaction to & understanding of a work... so I've given the advice before that it's good to think about your own personal reactions to a story, and what you enjoy or dislike about it. while this is true that a lot of this is a baseline jumping-off point on how I personally conduct analysis, it's incomplete advice. you should not just be thinking about what you enjoy or dislike - you should also be thinking about why it works or doesn't work for you. if you've gotten a better grasp on story mechanics by practicing the types of pattern recognition i recognized above, you can start digging into how those storytelling techniques have affected you. did you enjoy this part of a story? what made it work well? what techniques built tension, or delivered well on conflict? what about if you thought it sucked? what aspects of storytelling might have failed?
sometimes the answer to this is highly subjective and personal. I'm slightly romance-averse because I am aromantic, so a lot of romance plots will simply bore me or actively annoy me. I try not to let that personal taste factor too much into serious critiques, though of course I will talk about why I find something boring and lament it wasn't done better lol. we're only human. just be aware of those personal taste quirks and factor them into analysis because it will help you be a bit more objective lol
but if it's not fully influenced by personal taste, you should get in the habit of building little theses about why a story affected you in a certain way. for example, "I felt bored and tired at this point in a plot, which may be due to poor pacing & handling of conflict." or "I felt excited at this point in the plot, because established tensions continued to get more complex and captured my interest." or "I liked this plot point because it iterated on an established theme in a way that brought interesting angles to how the story handled the theme." again, it's just a good way to think about how and why storytelling functions.
uh let's see what else. analysis is a collaborative activity! you can learn a lot from seeing how other people analyze! if you enjoy something a lot, try looking into scholarly articles on it, or youtube videos, or essays online! develop opinions also about how THOSE articles and essays etc conduct analysis, and why you might think those analyses are correct or incorrect! sometimes analyses suck shit and developing a counterargument will help you think harder about the topic in question! think about audience reactions and how those are created by the text! talk to friends! send asks to meta blogs you really like maybe sometimes
find angles of analysis that interest and excite you! if you're interested in feminist lenses on a work, or racial lenses, or philosophical lenses, look into how people conduct those sort of analyses on other works. (eg. search feminist analysis of hamlet, or something similar so you can learn how that style of analysis generally functions) and then try applying those lenses to the story you're looking at. a lot of analysts have a toolkit of lenses they tend to cycle through when approaching a new text - it might not be a bad idea to acquire a few favored lenses of your own.
also, most of my advice is literary advice, since you can broadly apply many skills you learn in literary analysis to any other form of storytelling, but if you're looking at another medium, like a game or cartoon, maybe look up some stuff about things like ludonarrative storytelling or visual storytelling! familiarizing yourself with the specific techniques common to a certain medium will only help you get better at understanding what you're seeing.
above all else, approach everything with intellectual curiosity and sincerity. even if you're sincerely curious about why something sucks, letting yourself gain information and potentially learning something new or being humbled in the process will help you grow. it's okay to not have all the answers, or to just be flat-out wrong sometimes. continuing to practice is a valuable intellectual pursuit even if it can mean feeling a tad stupid sometimes. don't be scared to ask questions. get comfortable sometimes with the fact that the answer you'll arrive at after a lot of thought and effort will be "I don't fully know." sometimes you don't know and that can be valuable in its own right!
thank you for the ask, and I hope you find this helpful!
#narrates#thanks for the kind ask! i feel a little humbled by your faith in me aha#this may be a bit scattershot. its 2 am. might update later with more thoughts idk#nyway i feel like a lot of lit classes even in college don't tell you why they're teaching you things that might feel superfluous#hopefully this lays out why certain seemingly superfluous elements of literary education can be valuable#the thing esp about giving theses and having a supporting argument... its not just because teachers need to see an essay or whatever#the point is to make you think about a text and then follow thru by performing analysis#and supporting that analysis w/ evidence from the text#u don't have to write essays but developing that mindset IS helpful. support ur conclusions yknow?#anyway thanks again hope it's illuminating
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â§Ë°. doctor's orders
hey guys. did you know that medieval doctors would prescribe orgasms as medical treatment, as it was believed that a buildup of sexual desire would cause illness?
you know who would know this?
warnings: afab!reader (they/you pronouns, I say cunt a lot), fingering, humping, praise, usage of "little one" bc guhhh, biting, medical kink if you squint, long
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It was of the opinion of your dear friends that you had fallen very, very ill.
There could be no other explanation; the pleasant, thoughtful prefect, their beloved friend, had become disinterested and grumpy, isolating themselves in their room and dismissing any attempts to talk.
You complained of being dizzy. You always looked as if you didn't quite sleep enough the night before, or the night before that. And you were distracted, your mind clearly on something else.
And despite the best efforts of your friends, you refused to see the nurse.
"I've never seen them so stubborn," Vil complains. "It's as if they want to suffer."
Leona scoffs and kicks his feet up on the table. "I say let 'em be. They're going through a phase. Can't do anything about that,"
"Was this really important enough to meet over?" Trey asks. "I have to take batter out of the fridge in fifteen-"
"Yes, we heard you the first time. And yes, it's important. They've become an absolute hermit," Vil says.
Cater leans into his elbow on the table, smiling. "And aren't they like, a little old to be going through phases?"
"My thoughts exactly,"
Each of your friends exchange glances. All have their theories, but none are willing to share them in the dim lighting of the classroom. Leona sighs.
"As much as I hate to ask, can't you just have your little lapdog figure it out?"
"Rook?" Vil asks. "I've tried. He smiles at me, as if he knows, and then says he hasn't a clue and walks off."
"Psh. Typical,"
"What're we talking about?"
Lost in thought and tense conversation, no one had noticed the door to the classroom opening.
Perhaps they wouldn't have noticed even if it was quiet, since the fae standing at the mouth of the room with his hands folded behind his back and a curious smile on his face was known for surprises.
"...Good evening, Lilia," Vil says. "We were only having a conversation."
His eyes light up at the trepidation in Vil's words. "Ooh, gossip?"
"Nothing of the sort,"
Cater grins, and leans further against the table. "Uh, kinda, tho. A certain someone's been weird lately, and it's freaking everyone out,"
"Oh," Lilia says, raising his brow. "That's unfortunate. Are they unwell?"
Cater shrugs, and Vil rolls his eyes.
"Yes. But they refuse to be tended to,"
The fae hums, the same curious smile on his lips. He's obviously not too worried. "Perhaps I can help. I've treated some illnesses in my time. What are the symptoms?"
Vil seems reluctant to share, as if he doubts Lilia's word, but then he sighs.
"Fatigue, shortness of breath, and they complain of feeling lightheaded. They've also taken to isolating themselves in their room, and their attitude has..."
"They're a huge dick now," Leona grins. Vil glares daggers at him.
Lilia hums again, cradling his chin in thought. "I see... if that's all, then I think I know what's ailing them. I'm afraid it's rather serious,"
And the room goes silent, everyone's attentions drawn to the small fae. Some suddenly look quite nervous, and others- Leona- roll their eyes.
"Woah, Lils, how serious are we talking?" Cater asks, sitting up straight again.
"I read of it in a Briar Valley medicinal tome some time ago. It's quite common in mature humans," he explains. "Some cases have been deathly. Luckily, there is treatment... ahem, but it must be given by another person."
"Like an injection or something?" Cater asks.
"Khee hee. Yes, something like that,"
Vil puts his hands on his hips, still looking skeptical. "And I suppose you'd like to give it?"
For a fleeting moment in that dark room, in the flicker of candle, Lilia's smirk sharpens, a knowing, sly gleam in his eyes.
Then, as if it had never happened, his cute, jovial expression returns. "Of course. I am the expert, after all,"
.
"Knock knock~"
Lilia is, perhaps, the last person you want to see right now.
Between your friends pestering you and the dull, unrelieved ache between your legs that you can never seem to rid yourself of, this week has felt like twelve of Lilia's lifespans combined.
The door opens without a response from you.
"There you are!" Lilia beams, as if he'd been looking for you all day. As if you'd been anywhere but in your room...
"Hello, dear. A little birdie told me you weren't feeling well."
You suppress a groan of pure, tortured anguish. "Listen, I know you're just trying to help, but I'm really not in the mood for visitors,"
"Aren't you?" he says with a tsk, tsk, slowly closing the door behind him. "I think a visitor is just what you need. I know just how to make this go away, after all."
You almost roll your eyes. He's just like the others- no amount of soup and bed rest was going to help you.
"Aww, don't give me that look," Lilia smiles, delicately sitting at the end of your bed. "I can tell this isn't a stomach bug or a cold. I'm not witless like the others, you know. Now, we're both adults here. Would you like to tell me about it, or shall I guess?"
You blink. No other option. You want to believe that he doesn't know what he's talking about, but he's Lilia.
Your refusal to answer only sharpens his grin.
"Guessing it is. Let's see," he says, his eyes lingering on your body for a moment too long.
"Khee hee. Seems like someone is a little overdue for some fun. Frustrated, are we?"
"Lilia!"
You throw your pillow at him, and he catches it with a giggle, setting it beside him and leaning over you.
"I'm right, then? Oh, don't tell me. I love the suspense. But you do know it's unhealthy to abstain. Lethal, sometimes. Back in my day, it was called womb sickness. Now it's... what, going cold turkey?"
"Lilia,"
He giggles again. "Oh, I apologize. Too lewd?"
He's not sorry in the slightest. If anything, he seems to be drinking in your frustration and embarrassment, and he has that glint in his eyes- that fiery sort of look he has before a competition.
"It's not that," you huff. "And I'm not... abstaining. I just... I've... I've had trouble... getting there."
Lilia doesn't seem surprised. If anything, his smirk only sharpens, and his eyes lower to your body again, lingering far too long on the exposed tummy visible between your shirt and your pants. His fingers, cool and almost calloused, brush against your cheek as he tucks hair behind your ear.
"Hmm... that is unfortunate, isn't it?"
"Very," you say, plainly.
There's a moment of silence, his eyes dragging down your body, shamelessly admiring you with only a look.
His hand snakes from the sheets beside you to your thigh, fingers pressing into the plush and thumb languidly stroking along the warmth of your inner thigh. There's nothing shy or gentle about the touch.
"Let me help you,"
"Excuse me?"
He bursts into a fit of giggles, his fingers digging into your thigh.
"Khee hee. My apologies, what I meant was, it is quite unhealthy to go so long without proper release. But there are... treatments,"
His thumb presses into your inner thigh for emphasis.
"So... let me help you. In a strictly professional, medical context. Of course,"
"Of course?" you repeat.
"Of course,"
His hand slides up your side, and he gives you a firm, reassuring squeeze before sliding back to your thigh, coaxing your legs apart.
Lilia stills, taking a breath and enjoying the look of you on your back underneath him. Then, he cozies himself up next to you, resting his head on your shoulder.
"This'll be better if you relax. Doctor's orders," he says. You can hear the smirk in his voice.
His fingers dance along the hem of your pajamas before sliding between the fabric of your pants and underwear. He traces a line up your clothed cunt, feeling for arousal, and then, without warning, he pushes his thumb against your achey clit, hard, making you jolt.
"Khee hee. Couldn't help myself,"
You don't have the mind to curse him out now, not even in your thoughts. His mouth finds your neck, and he presses kisses to it as his thumb moves in deep, languid circles over the pearl of your cunt.
"O-oh,"
"You like?" he giggles, fangs grazing against the tender flesh of your throat. "Don't get too cozy. We're only starting."
Every few seconds, he changes the direction or pace of his thumb, stroking your clit in circles or moving up and down, both agonizingly slow and agonizingly fast, never giving you a moment to breathe, and certainly not to cum.
"That's it," he murmurs against your neck, lowered, crimson eyes watching your chest rise and fall with each breath. "Aren't you a brave little one? Getting so wet for me..."
As if to emphasize his point, two fingers make their way beneath the thin fabric of your underwear, dipping between your folds and dancing in your slick. The cold of his skin makes your hips jolt again, and he giggles.
"Mmh. You weren't kidding. You're desperate, aren't you?"
He takes your flustered silence as a yes, and withdraws his fingers from between your legs, holding them to the light, playing with the glistening strings of slick between his fingers.
"...How cute,"
He's been torturing you for so long, you'd nearly forgotten... everything. The time, the place, your own name...
Only the absence of his hand from your cunt reminds you, and you meet his eyes with a pout.
"Lil-"
"Suck," he commands, holding his fingers to your lips. The warmth of your own cunt meets the warmth of your tongue as you let him in, and he hums happily. Once, he presses down on your tongue, making you gag, much to his delight.
He withdraws the hand and uses it to hold your face, smearing your cheek with your spit as he guides your lips to his. Lilia kisses you hard, tasting yourself on your tongue, almost moaning into your mouth when you do.
Then, he pulls away, his eyes lowered, fangs pressing into his lower lip in a grin.
"Ready?"
"Ready?" You repeat, watching him rest his head on your chest as he lays himself beside you again.
His fingers slip beneath your underwear again. "For your treatment, silly thing. Ready?"
You can suddenly feel your heart in your throat, and as soon as the word leaves your mouth, there are two nimble fingers breaching your cunt.
"My, my," his giggles almost drown out the sound of your moans. "Don't worry, little one, I'll take good care of you."
He scissors his fingers, stretching you out as if to test how much you can take, which is pleasurable in its own way, and then he begins moving. He pumps his middle and ring finger in and out, shallow at first, but going further with each noise of yours. He curls his fingers the deeper he goes, forcing more moans and whimpers and incoherent babbles out of your throat.
Though you can't see his face as he focuses solely on the place between your legs, you can tell he's enjoying this... if only because he's been grinding against your thigh since before you kissed.
"That's- that's it, just like that, you're doing so well, little one-"
The speed of his hips quickens with the speed of his fingers, filling the room with the sound of your desperate moans, his whines, and the squish of his fingers thrusting into your slick hole. His ankle hooks around yours, locking your bodies together as he humps your thigh. The heel of his palm grinds into your clit as his fingers push deeper.
You're convinced he can feel your orgasm coming before you do, because as soon as he hits the perfect spot, he sinks his fangs into your neck, overwhelming you with pain and pleasure and making you cum, finally, all over his hand.
Your vision goes white, and his soft praises sound distant until you can feel your fingers again.
And his, as he pulls them out, admiring the way they're wrinkled from your wetness and covered in slick.
"Mmh. I'm impressed. You must have been truly desperate to cum like that- or perhaps you just like me? Khee hee,"
You can't seem to speak, your body still numb and tingling with pleasure. Lilia grins at the state of yourself and leans up to kiss your sweaty forehead.
"All better, I take it? I knew I always had a knack for medicine," he says, sitting up.
You watch as he licks his hand clean, savoring the fruits of his efforts.
"I'm sure your friends will be pleased to see you in good health again."
Your eyes widen, and your lips finally part- "Don't-"
He chuckles. "I won't say a word, don't worry your pretty little head about it. It'll be our little secret, Prefect~"
Lilia looks away for a moment, seemingly lost in thought, and then he smiles again.
"...That was a close call, though. It would be just terrible if something like this happened again. I'll have to return in a few days to make sure you're taking good care of yourself- doctor's orders."
#twisted wonderland smut#twst smut#lilia vanrouge x reader#I'm not editing this anymore so forgive me for the typos
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