#i can't bring myself to care and study hard tho

[airenyah]

yeah i've given up on tomorrows exam

[cutiecutedoll]

my guide to wonyoungism, improve your life, glow up, be THAT girl:

🎀 have a routine: this is something I learned from being on therapy for so long. It is really important to have a routine because if not you can have bad sleeping, be tired all day, get bored easier, you won't be able to finish your responsabilities, it can bring you bad self esteem and in general is a complete mess.

🎀 work out: always do what's best for you and do what you feel comfortable doing but please! work! out! I'm such a lazy person and at some point it was really hard for me to have motivation to do anything, but once I put my mind into it, and force myself a bit and started with 10 mins of pilates everyday (since it was something easy to start with) my life and my self esteem improved a lot. Working out is another way to have schedules and a routine, also improves your self esteem by making you feel capable of doing stuff, and ofc is good for your body.

🎀 have a good skincare routine: first, do some research about your skin type and see what products can work better for you (you can also go to have a skincare treatment and ask the beautician or search on internet) but always do what's more comfortable and affordable for you, don't use stuff that influencers recommend bc you can alter you skin type based on the products you use too (as a beutician I know) Also don't DON'T do it everyday, some products can be used everyday like the cleanser but others not. As I said just do a good research. Besides skin stuff it's really interesting!!

🎀 improve your diet: with diet I don't mean to specifically have a diet, actually I'm a bit against them, since being strict about what we eat can cause stress and guiltiness, it's really important to have a balance, eating healthy at the end of the day means nothing if you don't enjoy it. And you can enjoy it by having fun creating new healthy recipes, doing a journal about your fav healthy recipes, buying new cookware (pink plates, pots, pans, etc) or eating a hamburguer, a chocolate cookie sometime

🎀 journal: this is something I do since 2014 lol it's without doubt one of the best things the human has created. It has helped me to improve my writing skills, to get to know me better, to vent about stuff idk how or whom to talk about, also make it fun! In my journal I vent and write about my feelings,fears, dreams, goals, etc but also write down my travels, concerts or fav kpop artists, decorate with stickers, a piece of confetti, even dried flowers!

🎀 hobbies: this is something I also learned recently on therapy, I mean we all had hobbies from time to time but do we know about the importance of having them? I spent this whole year doing nothing since I can't work or study, and without hobbies I can tell you life is too boring, and it can lead you to bad self esteem too I mean, I kinda got crazier for spending so much time alone with literally nothing to do. So find new and fun stuff to do just for the pleasure of doing it, you don't have to be the best at it. I bet you can find hobbies ideas on YouTube as well.

🎀 be more femenine: this is ofc an optional step but I think it can be important, since always either wonyoung or it girls usually look very femenine. Don't forget to make it a fun thing to do! Finding your aesthetic, maybe trying a new one, enjoy going shopping..you can be femenine with your clothing, with your skin care routine, with your jewlery...this is just about feeling beautiful and also powerful.

🎀 improve your behaviour towards other people: with this I mean basically being more open. To meet new people, to make new plans...also fixing your body gesture (at least mine is shit and It always end up hurting my back and shoulders)

🎀 affirmations: good affirmations are a thing, this I learned in therapy too. The way you talk to yourself is important and changing the mindset too. If you tell yourself "I won't be able" then for sure you won't. This is not an easy thing tho I know, but is a necessary thing. Forcing yourself to change your mind every time a negative thought pass by is a hardwork but is well payd, cause the price is your happiness. For this is VERY important to have some help and work things up in therapy. But to give you a little tip, surround yourself with good energy, put some pictures of good affirmations in your room, as background of your phone, even on a shirt!

🎀 enjoy and trust the process: as I kept saying in each step, making it something fun to do it would help you to don't feel it like an obligation cause it's not. It's ofc a responsability to improve your life so you don't fall in depressed behaviours for example, but by making it something fun, then you won't feel guilty if someday you don't feel like functioning and need a lazy day in bed. And by trusting the process, we keep motivated to keep going.

🌼hope this works for you, please let me know if so, have a great day and a great life! 🌼

[kosukeiichi]

What are your thoughts on the w leotard and the w heroine dynamics? (analysis or headcanons, whatever fits)

W LEOTARD .... i've never seen someone call them that before it made me laugh out loud

i'll start with gf army then , umika and tsukasa !! i really enjoy their time together on screen . if we're talking analysis , i guess i can try to find some mirrors here and there . like how tsukasa keeps her interests a secret while umika is more open about it . though granted i have a hard time finding mirrors between them and sakuya and touma . i do think that's mostly because they're not as mentally ill as whatever w red or noel have going tho .

for umika alone , she's probably the one to come out of lupat the best . i mean , she's studying in france now and she seems to be pretty happy with shiho too . it sometimes hurts when i think about how she got stuck in this mess , and how in the end she just wanted everyone to be friends . thinking about it , she sacrificed a lot of her youth to become a phantom thief . and the fact that she was okay with just being a passerby like touma and kairi in the end ... somehow i have a feeling she doesn't really want that . i hope she can bring the group back together one day .

tsukasa is . definitely the most mentally stable out of everyone in the show . literally the best cop to come out of the show , but i don't think she was given much to work with other than being the gap moe competent one . i wish we could've seen more of her relationship with everyone cause right now most of her interactions are just , oh yeah she's the big sister figure to everyone . i think this could've been helped with diving back to her backstory during her academy days a bit more . i like the implied awkward friendship she has going on with touma though !!

about umika and tsukasa as a ship ... i can see the appeal and i don't see anything wrong with it , but it does give me the feeling of " the lesbian ship that exists to bully or take care of the gay ships " if you know what trope i'm thinking about . i much prefer umika with shiho , and tsukasa with none of the main cast because she needs to focus on herself !!!!

( also hesbian tsukasa and nonbinary or demigirl umika is so real don't come at me )

moving on . i like sakuya ! .... if i ignore half the things he did in the show . i think he's a little stupid and definitely immature . like you can see he's competent when he puts his mind to it , but god he does spend a lot of time onscreen just being stupid or creepy doesn't he . i think estrogen could fix him . other than that , i like the character that they gave to him if we ignore all the uncomfortable shit he did . he's clearly got low self confidence , and a bit of an inferiority complex . i feel like the pats really come best as a trio , they're like a little family to me , if only they learned to be more caring to one another . cause i can definitely imagine the sibling-like relationship they'd have with one another .

as for touma ... he's my number one punching bag i love him . i really like the autism they pumped into him and i just can't help but make him suffer a little bit for comedic purposes . though if i stop thinking about him as a comic relief for just a moment i think i'll start getting sad . i wish we dove a bit more into his backstory , i wish we got to see more of him with aya . i think they rely on one another a lot . and idk i love reading into throaway lines , but umika once called out " hey look everyone ! touma is eating !! " now i don't mean to read too much into this but maybe despite being a cook , touma struggles with his own relationship with food or something . we know he started cooking because of aya too ... there's just so much that could be explored then .

some people won't agree with me for this but sakuya / touma is a hilarious ship i love when touma suffers . it's like putting him up max tsundere levels but in the silently i'm going to either kill you or kill myself way . it's even funnier if you consider that aya and sakuya would definitely get along and she'd be like " CAN WE KEEP HIM " . anywayss , i like ayatou if that hasn't been obvious yet . and i think for sakuya ships , i think he needs to work on himself more ...

for headcanons , i'm an aroacespec touma believer , i believe his relationship with aya is so much more than romance , and i really wish we could've seen more of them . also sakuya is genderfluid and bisexual to me , that genderswap episode was really suspicious i think he'd want to get into it again .

i think that's about it for now !!!

[betweenthings2]

hello!!!!

hope you are having a lovely start to your summer!!! it’s winter in australia now (obviously) and it’s so miserable. a core part of my identity is wearing lacy silky tank tops and now i’m forced to wear scarfs and multiple layers under cable knit sweaters. ugh. i also have covid which is fabulous especially since im meant to sit two major practical assessments at tafe this week. i’m studying patisserie and it’s great but the thought of getting yelled at by a chef over this is equal parts exhausting and terrifying. enough about that tho.

i’m rereading Everything and wanted to point out a specific passage that remoulded my whole being, but the more i read the more exerts piled up and it was getting a bit ridiculous, so i’m being good and limiting myself to three

1) “I want to,” Matty promises. “I really do. I, erm, I was trying to figure out how to bring it up without being presumptuous.”

“I’m ok with presumptuous,” George offers. “Really.”

"I just,” a pause. Then, in a quiet voice Matty admits, “He haunts me, George.”

"Matty," George murmurs, resisting the urge to tug Matty into a tight hug.

"I am haunted. He's in the room every time my wrist hurts, every time something slams, every time someone touches me and I'm not prepared for it. There is something in the corner of every room I'm in telling me I'm less, telling me I need to be scared, telling me that the only way I will ever be loved is through violence."

he haunts me. i am haunted. LEAVE ME ALONE😭the whole lead up to this with george saying he’d get married to matty in a heart beat is just so. sweet. your writing is so bittersweet i want to watch it all on a big screen with my friends who don’t care about the 1975 at the independent cinema in my area. like this scene is something that would be edited and talked about the way scenes from Normal People are talked about. paul mescal wishes he had this script.

2) George finishes cooking and Matty’s good mood lasts through the rest of the evening and into the next day.

It ends, though, because of course does and because Matty can never catch a break.

like a bucket of icy cold water crashing over me OH MY GOD. literally felt my heart drop even tho i knew what was coming next.

3) George feels like he can't breathe, like he's been hit in the stomach. He can't do anything but let Matty's words fall heavy in the room, his own guilt following just milliseconds later, because he has Matty naked in bed and it doesn't seem to matter how gentle or careful he was or how many times he stopped to check in and make sure Matty was ok because he was the one who had initiated it and oh, god, what if he's just as bad? What if George just ruined everything? What if he hurt Matty? What if he forced Matty into something he didn't want to do? What if everything is ruined now over something as trivial as sex?

wow. putting aside how tender the previous scene was and how gut wrenching mattys admission is this spiral is so well put. “something ad trivial as sex” is so profound to me. i just want to hug george he is trying so hard and giving himself such little grace. i don’t remember the exact wording but IRL matty once said something about how “we give the people we love the least amount of slack and grace because we love them” and that kinda mirrors how you wrote “One of the many problems with it is that the person Matty usually ends up targeting is himself. The only person who ever ends up suffering because Matty gets scared is himself. Matty is his own harshest critic and his own first victim.” and it’s just like, george please you are trying so hard also and are so good also please give yourself the kindness you are showing matty. they are so young to be dealing with something so heavy it’s breaking my heart.

i went into this thinking it would be a short little message but it never really is is it? so sorry about the rambling let’s blame covid even tho it’s definitely just me😵‍💫 will update you on what i read next🩷🩷🩷🩷 !!!!

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Hell, Matcha Anon!!

I'm sorry it's winter for you! I'd swap seasons with you, if it were possible, because I was not made for temperatures over about 65*F. I also never have any fun during the summer--I just work and think about how much I'd like to not have to have a job. I hope your sweaters are cozy and that you have some good hot tea.

I'm also so very sorry you have Covid. Covid is awful. I had it actual years ago and I still feel a little like I didn't completely recover. I tried to write and watch films while I was sick, but the brain fog was so bad that I literally could not focus long enough to watch anything or write a paragraph, so I literally laid in bed for a week and watched TikToks. I also think it changed the way I taste things and what I like. I hope you feel better soon!

Studying patisserie sounds like fun! I'm on a quest to figure out how to make good croissants because I firmly believe that when you consider all the variations, croissants are the best pastry. I figured out macarons, now it's time for croissants.

You absolutely do not have to limit yourself to three comments. You could go through the fic paragraph by paragraph and I would read every word and have comments on everything.

1) I was reading something a while ago about the notion of hauntings and that inspired this bit of dialogue. It predates the fic and was part of the reason I wanted to write Everything. It didn't fit into The Big Light but I liked it, so I wrote 11k words to use it, which seemed logical at the time.

Fictional!Matty really is haunted, I think, not just by this particular partner, but by everyone who has ever mistreated him and all his own mistakes. Fictional!George doesn't quite grasp it though. He doesn't really understand that fictional!Matty can't just move forward and believe what he says because there's all this everything else. It's also an idea I really wanted to explore--what does it mean to be haunted? what does it mean to haunt? what is the difference between a haunt and a memory?

I'm thrilled this part resonated with you! The idea of a haunt feels so evocative, but I do often watch Ghost Files or Buzzfeed Unsolved while I write, so maybe that influenced things. I don't think ghosts are real, but it's good background noise for me.

My writing as a film??? It's of film quality?? Really?? Thank you so much!!

2) This part only really happened the way it did because I needed to put fictional!Matty and fictional!Adam together in the narrative. I had already written the conversation fictional!M+G have in bed and I needed a reason for fictional!Matty and fictional!Adam to have a private conversation. It's already mostly written for the version of Everything from fictional!Matty's POV.

3) I was kind of on the fence about the last line you highlighted, if I'm being honest. On one hand, sex is kind of trivial, but on the other, it's really important and it is really important to this narrative and this construction of fictional!M+G. I've got some notes for these scenes from fictional!Matty's POV and they're all about him feeling important and loved.

Fictional!George is trying so hard throughout all of these fics. He loves fictional!Matty so much, but fictional!Matty is so hurt and scared. There's a little bit of a lack of communication in some ways, I think where neither of them can say the kind of naked truth, so they go back and forth with a kind of layer between what they say and what they mean. Fictional!Matty can't figure out how to say everything and fictional!George doesn't know if he can ask, let alone how. There's going to be some resolution to this eventually, though, I promise.

They're in their late twenties here because it's before A Brief Inquiry and there's supposed to be this air of love and celebration at the very beginning because fictional!Matty went to rehab! he's doing better! he's sober and alive and he's putting all the bad behind him! they're making another record! and then it's all taken away by all the bad that happens in these fics. It's so hard for them to comprehend how truly awful everything is because things were supposed to be good. It's so big and there's so much and it's so hard. They're going to be happy, though, in the very end. That's my promise.

I look forward to your thoughts on whatever you read next and I hope you feel better soon! Thank you!! 💚💚

[mangodestroyer]

Aside from stressors and mental health issues, I think my attention span has also caused me many issues throughout my life.

I mean, I just could not get myself to pay attention in school as a kid. To the point where I wouldn't perform well at all and teachers thought there was something wrong with me (on top of the autistic symptoms I had and speech problems). I also didn't care. It wasn't until middle school that I suddenly decided to care and suddenly became one of the best students. But even then, I didn't pay much attention in class (literally took all my mental energy to do so) and didn't always do assignments.

I graduated hs with a 3.8 and above average test scores. I sometimes got Bs in some of my classes because I just didn't do assignments sometimes and couldn't always get myself to pay attention. And it was hard studying for and sitting through standardized tests. Tbh, I'm grateful I managed to pull off the gpa and test scores I did. But there's also a part of me that knows I could do better, and feels guilty for not being more "on it."

But then I didn't do too well with college when I first started out. My attention span issues got so much WORSE. They've been getting better, but holy shit! My performance was awful!

I'm starting to do well in school again. Two 200 level courses and one 300 level course. I got a B in the 8 week Stats class because I kind of forgot it existed half the time and couldn't really get myself to spend time learning the material. I'm fighting for A's in the other two classes. Getting two A's would bring me up to a 3.5. My goal is to get at least a 3.7 before I graduate. I want to feel like I at least have a good grasp of the material I'm learning about and have a shot at getting into a good graduate program. Which I understand will be hard as a math major.

And yeah, it's the same story. Getting overwhelmed by assignments and procrastinating. Not taking the time to properly learn everything. Not studying enough. And so on.

It's the same thing with interests outside of school. I have so many stories all planned out that I still never got around to writing. So many shows I've planned on watching, for YEARS, that I still haven't gotten around to (I have a very long list and haven't even touched it). Same thing with books. Same with video games. Same thing with any kinds of arts and crafts. Nope! Fucking around and doing nothing is more important, ig.

Idk, maybe it's not that big a deal. Really wouldn't mind learning how to fix it tho. I think going outside helped, but I can't do that rn. It's too cold at this time of year.

I guess I'm also worried that I don't adequately learn the materials in school well enough, and that this will come back to bite me later on. I just always get this feeling like there's so much I'm missing.

[jujuliabautista]

Still you.

Hey. How are you? Are you happy? I wish you were because i am not to be honest. I'm trying but i can't. Yet?

Happy birthday to the both of us. Its our 25th Birthday. Were old enough. 😅 i know you're happy now. And im glad you were even tho its not me the reason behind those smile of yours.

Thank you for the unforgettable memories that we've shared in our elementary days. And i'm sorry for leaving you soonest as i could that time.

Year 2018, i never thought you'll message me back then because we both knew we were so awkward on our last reunion. We never talked or looked at each other on that party. No one even remembered that we were exes back then. No one except us. But that reunion brought painful memory which i accepted already. And that is you were remembered as one of the exes of my so called best friend. Yes. My best friend.

Damn this 3am thoughts. Haha i have no one to tell this as of my writing so yes. Here i am. Writing on tumblr of what i am thinking rn to my unrequited love.

Does first love hurts this much? My mom thought you were just my puppy love since we were in grade school that time but for me it wasn't. Even though we broke up too fast, i was on my happiest that time. The butterflies i felt, the i love yous' , being taken care of and so on. Damn. I missed that.

What went wrong? What happen to us?

I lost myself the moment i lost you. I tried so hard to bring myself back but i think i failed until to this day.

I was a quiet, shy, grade conscious girl not until you tranferred to our school. I admired you the moment i saw you. Fun fact, my best friend (5th grade best friend) and i had a crush on you that time. We don't know but we admire you.

I have no plans of telling you that i have a crush on you. It should be a happy crush since school must be my top priority on my plate. And sucks to tell you but im not good on balancing education and lovelife as well. So it should be HAPPY CRUSH.

But things didn't go as planned. That happy crush thing vanished the moment you said you liked me. I may not be so sure as of this writing but that time you asked for my number and you said you liked me. That was the happiest day for me that time. Who would've have thought that the person you admire likes you back.

Knowing that feels surreal but at the same time knowing that my bestfriend (other friend) likes you too, i had a second thought. I told her everything but lucky me she supports us. She backs off. But she left after that year and never had a chance to talk again. So i dont know.

Things escalated so fast that the moment you asked me to be your girlfriend, i said yes quickly. But asian thing, i asked you to hide our relationship since my parents and sister won't allow me to do relationships until i graduated college.

We were so happy back then. But we were too early to play on fire. Not that kind of fire but you know what i mean. We were at our happiest not until i fucked up my grades which alarming to our professors since they knew that i have a smart sister. So this teacher reported me to my parents after knowing about us.

And worst, my dad saw our conversation which should not be shared. They got mad and won't let me near you again.

I tried.

We never had the proper break up. We just didn't talked after they forbids us to talked to each other.

Days. Weeks. It was hard for me. And hopes you had a hard time too.

Im trying but it wasn't enough. I lost myself a bit which causes me not to focus on studying so i kept on having bad grades that time.

I tried. But i totally lost myself the moment i learned that you were dating my other friend. Which also i considered bestfriend.

I'm hurt is an understatement. I am deeply hurt. I thought of trying to get us back but i guess im too late.

I know this friend knew about us but what i couldn't understand is of all the boys on our batch that time. Why you? My EX.

And i'm trying to be understanding here but why her? You knew we were friends. I couldn't accept the situation so i fucked up over and over again.

I dealt with the pain for a year. I tried. I had a thing with one of your friend which i assumed you knew about us. You thought I easily moved on and easily had a thing with your friend. Naah. Hate to say this but he was my rebound. I can't take the fact that you were happy and i'm the miserable one so i said yes to be his girlfriend.

But hey! He is a good guy. Shy and sweet type of person. We never dated in actual nor being together alone. We were just flirting on our phones. Haha. Silly. But then things happen. Worst scenario, he two-timed me. Im not sure. Not interested as well that time.

The pain is still there everytine i see both of you together. Im in so much pain that made me decide to transfer school 6th grade. So i wait. I pretended to all of our friends that i am cool with the situation for a year.

Then our graduation day came. It was the moment i've been waiting. And i do believe that time that when i transferred i'll get to move on. But jokes on me. I didn't.

But i guess i have to let you go now like for real. I've already done my part. I tried so hard to meet you and explain every thing that happen and seek answers on questions that i had years ago. I thought everything deserves a better closure but i guess not all needed closure. Maybe our relationship doesn't need closure.

I love you. And i will always will.

I like you still first love.

Hope this would be my last letting go moment. Its hard you know.

So yeah. I wish you the best in this lifetime.

Thank you.

- J.

[thesaurus-lover]

What you say that makes them swoon ~ dcst

this idea is one of those shards that i'm gifted at times of night when i'm supposed to be asleep 💀 i realized it would only work best in an x reader format, so here it is! still had fun tho since it felt more like character study than anything lmao

anyway i did the early KoS for this <3 will probably be unable to stop myself to do a part 2 with the tsuka empire!

characters: ishigami senku, ooki taiju, ogawa yuzuriha, kohaku, chrome, asagiri gen, + mini bonuses at the end!

cw: gn!reader, safe for anime only's, fluff, kind of implied romance but it's not at all explicitly... romantic?? just sweet,, so u can take it platonically if u want

word count: 1.4k

"senku, what do you really want?"

naturally, "swoon" is much too strong a word for senku, but those words sure bring him close

of all the technical and practical questions people ask, you choose to go to him with—get this—a personal inquiry in genuine curiosity

and you're sure as hell not going to accept the same "save all seven billion people and restore humanity" mantra that he chants near-religiously

so as senku stalls you with a dry, "what, am i being interviewed now?" it strikes him hard that he wants a lot of things

to see the stars. to laugh with taiju and yuzu and gen and all the others. to rebuild funny modern gadgets with chrome and kaseki. to live a bit more normal again. to hear his dad's voice one more time. to—

shit, could he really tell you all that?

he realizes that's one of the things he wants, too. to just tell you, to make sure another human knows that even his calculated heart aches for things he knows he simply can't have

so when he looks back at you, with your tilted head and die-hard curious eyes, he thinks that one of these days, he will end up opening up

"taiju, i'd spend everyday with you."

at first, he merely blinks, stuck between whether to think "well duh" versus "oh my god really?"

he ends up settling on the latter, squeezing you in one of those all-too-familiar bear hugs and undeniably touched that you found the need to tell him something so sweet

you'd think that letting one single thought sit in his brain for too long would make it go stale, but really, it's the best way for him to process it to its fullest extent

so it's only a bit later on (after he tosses your words left and right inside his head) that taiju realizes that it means that your care for him overrides any and all of his flaws and antics

it's a reminder that you do want to see him everyday, and that you'd never get sick of him even if you did

and that... well, that tugs straight at his heartstrings, making him tear up faster than he thought possible

so at times when he worries even just the least bit that he's being overbearing, he only has to remember what you said on one very specific day

and when he does, you best expect that you will get scooped up in another hug out of nowhere

"yuzuriha, i don't know what i'd do without you."

she's well overworked at this point of the day, and you insist that this tiny, tiny, super insignificant favor of mending your shirt can wait until tomorrow, or even the next day, really!

but yuzu is stubborn and insists—she insists that she still has the energy and that it'd be a waste of concentration if she doesn't do it now

you can only stand outside the tent until she comes out a couple minutes later and hands the garment to you, good as new

so you say it, quietly and out of breath, as if you're the one who had just expended all their energy quite literally fixing up other people's problems

she has to take a moment to completely process your words, and only then does she take your hands in hers in silent gratitude

surely anyone sensible can realize that they'd be lost without her expertise, and yet it's few and far between that she's reminded how irreplaceable she is

but yuzuriha also understands that you're not just talking about her skills; you'd undoubtedly be completely, utterly lost without this girl you hold so dearly

and when you gingerly wipe the sweat off her forehead and hand her a glass of water, she's dead sure that all she strives for is more than worth it

"kohaku, you make me feel safe."

immediately, pride swells through her veins; but there's another fuzzy feeling somewhere in her chest that she can't exactly name

there's some deja vu from the feeling of when ruri squeezes her in a warm, cozy embrace after thanking her for the millionth time for all she's done

as well as the feeling of when suika looks up at her with sparkling eyes behind her lenses and the admiration one could only have for a big sister

but... there's still something else. this feeling is still somehow different from those, if that makes sense?

despite the mild confusion, kohaku does the single logical thing to her: she's direct to you about it

"you're... wow," she starts, a small smirk playing at her lips, "you really are special, huh?"

almost instantly, you fumble over your own feet in surprise, but she's quick to laugh it off and catch you in a hug; she wouldn't know what she'd do with herself if you didn't realize just how much she meant it

a fierce protector through and through—kohaku is well aware that that's what she is, but coming from you, the sentiment means double than what it already is

"chrome, teach me!"

his excitement for this upcoming project is contagious, and senku would chew you out for not doing anything, so you might as well learn how to help get it up and running

the words slip from your mouth with zero hesitation—they're so simple, yet chrome genuinely can't wrap his head around what it does to him

he's admittedly so used to everyone else defaulting him to the backseat role of little brother figure, so it's such a refreshing splash of water to the face to finally be the one being looked up to

he has to bite his lip to try and put a lid on the giddiness that surges through him at the idea

seriously, you, asking to learn something new from him? he hasn't felt this much adrenaline since that real baaad sulfurina incident

you wave a hand in his face, yanking his thoughts back to earth with a call of his name

"oh, yeah! yeah," chrome says brightly, moving over to give you space at the workbench, "of course, c'mere. i know exactly what you can do."

and just like any other time, his intensive focus and hands-on expertise makes a great scientist's apprentice out of you without fail

"gen, just be yourself, okay?"

you say it nonchalantly, almost teasingly, on a day that he tries to make himself look particularly bad

and he knows that you know exactly what the words mean to him: you're calling him out for the anti-hero drama king act, and he absolutely wants to hate you for it

how dare you take the fastest route to his heart? what in the world gave you the RIGHT?

days—maybe even a couple weeks—pass of him being quieter around you than usual, and you're almost sure that you had somehow upset him with the remark

until he finally comes to you with a cute little wood figurine of your favorite flower—a peace offering, if you will (though it was acquired through kaseki's help)

after his two very simple words of "thank you," your natural first response is "???" but he quickly adds, "for reminding me. just what i needed, actually."

while still somewhat baffled at the sudden gift, you can't help but melt at the gesture (and from the smirk on gen's face, you can tell that he's well aware)

you just have to admit: for a compulsive liar, he sure does have one of the most genuine hearts you've ever had the pleasure of meeting

bonuses !!

"kinro, i want to be just like you." -> nobody would've thought about it, but he gets insecure that his stubborn nature comes off as being a party pooper. it's a big relief to hear that his dedication to be a good role model pays off!

"ginro, be proud of yourself!" -> he's told so often that he isn't trying hard enough that sometimes he really starts to believe it ): nothing could ever make him feel more validated than your words do.

"suika, i never regret asking for your help." -> sweet baby gets a serotonin rush whenever her efforts bear fruit. it only pushes her to work harder, and just like everyone else, you adore her for it.

"kaseki, your work inspires me." -> it seals your spot on his long roster of emotionally adodpted grandchildren. because c'mon, the passion he's dedicated his whole life to, appreciated? i don't think i need to explain further.

[xcinnamongirl]

hangman's love languages | fem!reader x Jake Hangman Seresin

am i writing instead of focusing on my tasks and studies for upcoming school week? yes. am i feeling guilty? absolutely no, but i'll regret it during the week, when i'll be overworking myself again to cope with all the tests and assignments ;)

warnings: none i think, tooth rotting fluff <3

also should i use you or y/n, what do you prefer?

let me start with my fave one

physical touch: Jake is like a giant teddy bear, also he's so warm, like look me in the eye and tell me his arms and chest isn't welcoming to cuddles. When he's tired, sad, happy, when he seeks for comfort - he always finds it in you, more precisely, your cuddles. You're the one to comfort him without having to talk - that's what Jake struggles with the most, he always had to play tough guy, no emotion talk, so he appreciates whenever you see him in one of these moods you just silently open your arms for him to lay on your chest. It also works the other way around for you, through physical touch Jake shows you what he can't show with his words, his undescribable love affection for you.

words of affirmation: as i said earlier he isn't the best with his words, but he tries his best for you, he compliments you and your actions daily like "you look beautiful", "jake i barely woke up i look like shit", "nah you're the prettiest woman on earth". Now tho he started using gorgeous: "jake i made you coffee", "thank you gorgeous". Also let me tell you, this man is whipped for you, he can't seem to stop braging about you to coyote and payback, he even started mentioning you in his talks with phoenix, rooster and bob, even maverick.

acts of service: ladies and gentlemen, the king. need someone to help you during moving houses? Jake's the first to help. need help with work? even tho jake knows shit about your work/studies, he'll try his best to help you. also buying you lunch and coffee and bringing it for you to your workplace/univeristy without you even asking. You, on the other side service him with massages after a long the that man is tensed, so you slowly work on the knots in his muscles, doing skin and haircare with him, he secretly loves it.

quality time: he may not spend the most time with you due to his work and having to travel to drifferent places where he's needed, but he tries hard and you see and appreciate this. when he is home tho he can't seem to let go of you: watching tv, laying cuddled in bed or on the couch, training, doing housework, even showering - everything you do, you do it together. He loves to take you to this little dates: walk in park and picnic later, taking you to the beach and after for a beer at the hard deck later, cinema or at home movie marathons, driving around with no destination, and many many more. And you do the same for him.

reciving gifts: he loves to take care of his best girl, so: gifting you a bouquet, sweets, books you have mentioned, your fave scented candles, also jewellery is his favourite - necklaces, bracelets, rings, any kind of earrings for every piercing you have. On the other side he loves when you gift him with colognes, but when you got him a necklace? this man wears it pridely along his dogtags. He also loves when you got him his comfort food but he won't tell you, he's afraid to look like a complete softie, everyone knows he is for you

!thanks for reading, would love some feedback!

[annoyingloverbear]

ASANO GAKUSHUU X READER HEADCANNONS

Before you ask......don't ask. Yes I like assassination classroom too.

This is a HC about Y/n and Gakushuu attending the same high school.

Ohh boy do I tell you this boi fell hard for you.

And by 'fell' I mean literally fell.

It was one of those rare occasions his father being the disciplined father he is made Gakushuu walk home from school just because he didn't eat his roasted asparagus in dinner last night.

He didn't really mind tho. His home wasn't that far and he liked to see what's going on in the outside peasant world sometimes.

As he was passing a convenient store, he heard some commotion in the alley behind it.

He ignored it and started to walk his way, but he saw a glimpse of a grey uniform skirt and snapped his head towards you.

He saw you, clad in Kunigioka's grey uniform and surrounded by three tattooed bulk men.

"Come on little girl, just keep us company for some karaoke. You see my friends and I we all are really bad singers and would love some help."______"What makes you think I'm good at singing?"________" Oh I can tell you are naturally good at it little bird! Your angelic voice is like as sweet as honey to my ears."________"Back off."_________"What?"________"I said back off you pathetic excuse of a human being before I break your willy and shove it down your throats."________"YOU STUPID BITCH!!!"

He raised his hand, but before he could even swing you neck sliced him in the throat and kicked him down there. He clutched himself as you once again kicked him in his ribs and hope that the blow was enough to keep him down for a bit. You grabbed your heavy aluminium water bottle (those things hurt guys😭 not that I've been hit by one but I accidentally hit myself. it's a great, heavy yet non-obvious self defense tool so carry one around👍) and swung it towards one of his friends. A sickening clang could be audibly heard as you hit him in the head and Congratulations!! You eliminated one more player.

You turned around and swung it towards yet another person who skillfully twisted and yanked your aluminium bottle away from you. This person was similar to your build and was standing in a defensive position, so you kicked the only thing available to you, his shin.

You were surprised as you heard a rather boyish yelp as your victim fell to the ground and grabbed his aching leg. Only then you realized......

Shit it's the previous headmaster's son.

"Oh no!! I didn't mean to kick you are you okay?"_________"I'm fine thank you."

You moved your hand towards the part of his leg which was sprained and saw that he flinched. Clearly he was in pain and seeing that he took care of one of the guys who was hitting on you felt bad so you took him to your house to treat his injury no matter how much he refused.

That was it. That's how he fell for you.

He expected himself to fall for someone who was at the same level of genius as him, but apparently he was wrong.

Why you ask he fell for you? Because you were the only one who can kick his ass purple and speak sweet words to him at the same time.

Seeing that you were an average student, not too good not too bad, he didn't really have a problem with sharing his feelings for you with someone.

The first one to notice it was not Ren, but Karma. Or you could say that Karma found his theory to be correct as he eavesdropped on Gakushuu telling Ren about how he felt for you.

Ren, knowing his manipulating skills encouraged Gakushuu to manipulate one of the teachers to transfer you from class C to class A.

And so you did.

Gakushuu, Ren along with Karma and you. This was a particularly chaotic classroom.

You weren't really complaining, as your grades got better the day you stepped in the class. But you can't shake the feeling that ten pairs of eyes were watching your every movement.

(And lol that was so true😂)

Gakushuu only respectfully watched you and your subtle movements. The way you'd chew on your pencil or nails when you were stuck, the way your eyes turned big round and innocent every time you didn't understand a concept, the way you'd pick on your peach fuzz on your face when you were anxious. Every single habit, every little thing he loved about you, he would have it memorized. Heck when he was feeling stressed out about his future company finances (yes he's planning big) he would pick on his own peach fuzz and smile like an idiot as his heart relaxes and flutters at the same time.

Ren however, watched for your responses to guys. Every time the handsome professor walked in, (admit it, we all have one at some point in our life😏) you would sit up straight, your spine rid of any slouchiness from studying. The way you would cross your legs so your skirt rides up just a bit, and the way your gaze turned sly and your smirk naughty, yes this boy is serious about helping his best friend. Heck he would even come up to you and talk to you to get some type of reaction towards him, but figures out you didn't really like him (ouch!😢)

But Karma stared. And by stared I literally mean stared. Bore holes in the back of your head by staring at you too much. He didn't understand that a guy as corrupt as Gakushuu would fall for a disheveled angel like you. It's not that you weren't beautiful, but the combination of scary principal's son and a smol fluffy bean didn't seem very safe. At times you would even find Karma behaving as an older brother to you. And you weren't one to complain but rather happy that someone in here truly cares for you than judge you for your grades.

Add 7 other girls who were suspicious of you and that's all the people who keep staring at you during the time you're in class.

Every morning you hand in your homework, it was always Gakushuu. You would hand in your homework, he would scan it once and turn around to check others'.

But you knew better than that.

After school was over, you would make your way to the hallway but a strong grip held you back.

"We need to work on your Social Studies. You suck at it."______"But shuu!!!"_______"No buts. Get in the library and wait for me there."

He would drag you to the library and make you study your worst subject (which isn't fun at all🤢) but he would make it a LOT easier for you to understand.

Of course Ren gave him some tips to flirting. Hold her pinky, look in her eyes, compliment her and yada yada yada yada yada......

He did try one of them, but he almost had a heart attack from his heart beating so fast that he decided not to listen to his minio- I mean friend anymore and do it his way.

And honestly he loves his way!!

He loved the cute nicknames you made for him while you whined for him to release you. He loved it the way your face lightens up when he explains there was an easier way to solve an equation.

All the nervousness is his system had vanished.

He also got to the point where when you got an obviously easy question wrong, he would pinch your cheeks while grinning wide.

This made study time a lot easier for you.

You weren't aware that he was like that for and with you only. Only you made him feel that way.

But you found out soon when he got TOO comfortable one day and let it slip out.

"Y/n I think I have a crush on you."

As soon as he said it, blood rushed to your cheeks and drained from his.

Both of you were staring at each other for a hot minute before you broke the silence.

"You're kidding aren't you? I'm not even that smart or that much of a genius in anything. I- but-"

"Y/n I know that. But it's just something about you that I love. I- I can't express in words how much I adore you."

You were starstruck.

Asano Gakushuu. THE Asano Gakushuu likes you!!!!

But you still refused to believe yourself AND his words. Wondering if he was turning into a playboy like Ren.

All you could say was "Then show me."

The library was quiet and you two specifically picked up a spot away from other students, the librarian and surveillance cameras so both of you can goof off. Who knew that this was also the perfect place to kiss?

He gently took your hand as he first stared at your eyes and shifted his gaze to your lips. You acted confident as if you knew how to kiss but god knows you kicked the ass of your first boyfriend before he could even hold your hand.

His gaze stayed on your lips as he licked his and visibly gulped. You wanted to throw a snarky remark but seeing the boy was as edged as a cat you wouldn't dare.

Bringing one of his hands up to your cheek he slightly tilted his head as he came near you before stopping right where your lips weren't touching his but you could feel his minty breath. Obviously waiting for you if you were okay with this, you decided to close that painful space between the two of you.

As soon as your lips touched his, he was in charge. This wasn't a particularly deep or fast kiss. You weren't digging your tongues in each other's mouth but rather just moving your lips to each other, as if giving silent yet intimate messages to each other. His lips slightly glided over yours, and you definitely knew that the way he was kissing you, he was an expert hidden within an amateur. The kiss wasn't heated or passionate in any way, but it was sinfully sweet.

It lasted for about a minute, but felt like an eternity.

Pulling away he stared at you again softly before saying "Thank You" and intertwining your fingers with his.

You were too shocked to react to anything. You were an average student. You got into fights. Your mom always yells at you to behave. Your dad keeps telling you to improve your temper. Why the hell does this boy like you?

He noticed you were staring at him the same way you stared at the blackboard during class when the professor was teaching the quantum theory for the first time.

Now that this boy had finally kissed you, he was bold enough to reach out his thumb and running it over your lower lip before popping it in his mouth.

"Pineapple flavoured lip balm, huh? I thought strawberry was the preferred choice when it came to anything for girls. Including......" his eyes lowered to your legs which felt like they were bare naked in the tiny skirt.

"Shuu!!!! Don't stare at me!!" You shoved him away as he laughed and you covered your face with your sweater paws.

"I'm sorry dear. You are just so adorable I couldn't help myself." He said while stroking your hair.

Little did they know a certain playboy on the other side of the library was paying attention to them the whole time and a redhead was poking his head from above one of the bookshelves.

[littlemoondarling]

Major Tw for Self harm.

Please don't feel like you have to read this to see if I'm okay, I am. So please, if you might be triggered back into Sh, or just back into that mindset, please don't read this. In fact, if Sh makes you uncomfortable, don't read this. Don't feel obligated to read this because I'm your friend. I want you all to be safe, to keep yourselves safe. This is just some analysis I thought of about my own struggles, there will be zero censorship in this, so if you want to proceed, do so with extreme caution. Take care.

When I used to cut, I never wanted people to see them, i won't say i was exactly ashamed, I just wanted them unseen. There was a small part of me tho, that wanted my parents to see them, so they finally realise that I'm not lying, that I can't just "positive thoughts" my way through this fucking shithole. That wasn't the outcome tho, when mom finally saw them. It was more of "just never do this again, but I'll never help you, I'll only say I am while I do things that you told me makes things worse." It left me to wonder just how far they want me to go before they understand. But that is a story for another day.

Point is, I've always known why I cut. It is not to gain attention or sympathy, nor is it to die believe it or not. It is simply to get those violent emotions that plague my mind out. I can't bring myself to hurt other people, I care for them. So the only person I don't give a single flying fuck about, is me. It is also to punish myself. To punish myself for not being up to their expectations yet. For letting everyone down. For making them have breakdowns because I'm on my phone tok much. For being so fucking ugly, too.

But cutting isn't the only form of self harm I did, far from it. In fact, cutting is actually the simplest of them, in form and in reason.

I would harm myself in obvious ways, smash my finger repeatedly onto the edge until it is blue and swollen, take 9 random pills (not enough to kill but enough to make someone as frail as me sick to no end) slice my finger, hit my head until in almost blind. And other random attempts to make myself sick.

Now those. Those aren't things you can easily hide. And I never intended to. I wanted people to know about those. To pay attention to them. Of course rarely anyone figured out that they were hand made. I'd always say they were an accident. Oh I fell in the shower! Oh I should pay more attention while cutting the lettus! Oh I didn't realise that I hadn't eaten before taking that one pill! (My aunt saw right through that. I mean, it was silly. One pill won't make you vomit five times and look like a damn corpse)

But nevertheless I wanted these to be known. Why? I didn't know. But now I think i do.

Whenever someone is sick or has a bad injury, people would be more sympathetic. But not just that. They would also let you be "lazy". And I think the solution lies in the latter. My family never pays any attention to the symptoms of my severe depression, anxiety and other shitty illnesses. So they always push me to do more. Things that should be normal for others. Take a bath every day. Keep my room clean. Study regularly. Spend time with family. Make friends. Call people. Eat regularly. Be happy. Spend less time on the phone.

Now if you have or know anything about mental illnesses, certain ones (like depression and adhd) make doing these very simple things, extremely hard. But no matter how much I explain that to them, they never understand. And when I do these things, they don't understand why I'm proud. They say it should be normal. Something that I should do every day.

And I think that is where my "atypical" self harm comes to play. When you are sick, you are seen as a hero for washing the dishes, or cleaning your room or socializing. I want people to finally see my suffering. This sickness that I give myself prevents me from doing these things the same way my mental illness does. So I want that to be seen. I want them to excuse me. To praise me. To no longer be cruel and dismissive of my pain just because it isn't physical.

Idk how to end this. But... take care of yourself, whoever you were. You are worth the life you were given, even you don't meet people's or society's expectations. I care for you. You can vent to me if you want, my anon is open if you don't want to reveal who you are. I care for you.

[anime-apparently]

match up request by: @otakupandasworld

May I please get a written matchup for haikyuu? I can be described as introverted and withdrawn because of events in life despite being outgoing and lively in the past. I randomly doze off and daydream a lot when I’m alone, with friends, and family. Because of my introverted personality I am often mistaken for cold a lot because of my “resting bitch face.” Once people get to know me I am just emotionally shy and empathetic. Even though I can respond and identify to the feeling of others, I have a hard time expressing my own and try not to express it often. When I’m with friends I am very upbeat, joyful, and hardworking by supporting my friends and family and putting their needs before my own and keeping them happy. I’m pretty much independent and a hard worker that spends too much caring for everyone but myself. My friends describe me as a good listener and easy to talk with because I Am open-minded and easygoing. I like to watch anime, read manga, play video games (final fantasy and kingdom hearts: my favorite series. also metal gear, solid, resident evil etc.), watch DC comic films and shows XD Besides that, my ultimate favorite hobbies include drawing fan arts of Kpop groups & anime, while listening to music (second ultimate favorite hobby). I also like to swim and drive around because of my love for adventures and imagination (also relaxation). I have a strong passion of disliking bugs (especially cockroaches). I especially love to eat sweets , in particular boba and macaroons. I have big brown eyes, long wavy brown hair, baby face (don’t look my age. I Am mistaken for looking 13-17), slender body. I am half-Chinese, el salvadoran, and French descendent. Sexuality: heterosexual Age: 23

I match you with...

SUGAWARA KOUSHI

- he's not one to be swayed by a resting bitch face and he's the one to approach you on your first day of school

- he tries to make you feel welcome and he eats lunch with you at times

- at first you're introverted around him but soon enough you two are joking around like old best friends

- he decides to let you meet the team after that

- he doesn't mind you being intoverted and helps you be more open to others

- both of you are independent and hardworking so study sessions together happen a lot even if you two don't really talk much during said sessions

- he's amazed by your bloodline and often asks questions about it

- you two are both the mom friend

- he's not really a gamer but he still plays with you

- he prefers manga so most of the time if he comes over, he's reading manga while you play

- imagine gaming nights with him and food served is cooked by you two together

- he shares your likes in music and anime

- binge watching with him is the best

- like you'll be cuddled up with him uwu

- he kills the bugs for you and finds it funny you're scared of "a measly bug that can't hurt you" (his words not mine)

- he likes bringing sweets around with him just for you

- midnight drives with him are the best

- going through WcDonalds at night and just staying in the car with deep night talks

- he's not big on kpop but since you listen to it a lot he slowly forms a habit of listening to it

- he goes sparkly eyed if you draw and he likes watching you draw

- as i've said before you and him are the mom friend, so he drags you to matches and you help around

- tsukki actually likes having you around since you can take his attitude and you are mostly withdrawn and you do not poke your nose in other's business

- suga makes extra effort in games

- he confesses when he noticed you were daydreaming again and you honestly didn't catch it

- so he properly confessed after a match

- uwu you're blushing and he's kinda cool but when you admitted your feelings he blushes too

- don't worry about dozing off or daydreaming in class, you have suga to keep you awake

- he gets invested into DC because if you

- Daichi and Asahi are two people you learned to be open to because of Suga

- he urges you to be more welcoming to others

- your cool demeanour slowly breaks overtime because of him

- since both of you are moms he suddenly became a dad

- and i honestly pity the team

- he'd start making dad jokes and while Hinata is excited by it, the others were not

- save them huhu (but the team's grateful you decided to stick around)

- dates with him are probably mostly at home with you two cooking the meal you'll share

- but imagine shopping dates tho, he'll ket you go anywhere even if you're hesitant at first

- you two are the parent type of couple

- and he's so affectionate

- he makes sure you put yourself first before others

- he slowly helps you love yourself more

- you two are honestly a cute couple together who are similar in more ways than one uwu

A/N: Hope you like it!

[punkscowardschampions]

Ronnie & Joe

Ronnie: still stalking mckenna Joe: what, we can't BOTH like music? Joe: that's gonna be problematic for me tbh Ronnie: mozarts ghost aint gonna possess him in the encore Ronnie: you can fuck off Joe: you can enjoy your night Joe: I'll take my chances Ronnie: take your chances somewhere else Ronnie: or you wont have any Joe: you looking out for me? Joe: not necessary, I promise Joe: you look like you got your hands full as is Ronnie: its a threat Ronnie: shouldnt be necessary Joe: my apologies for making you work harder but its still not cutting it Ronnie: [throws something at him in a dangerous manner watch out everyone] Ronnie: we can both be into cutting Ronnie: not a problem for me Joe: [when he's probably with his flatmate or similar like they will complain honey they basics lmao, meanwhile just like 😏] Joe: careful, people will think you care Ronnie: what fucking people Ronnie: your girlfriend Joe: for one Ronnie: muzzle your bitch or give her shit to sink her teeth into Ronnie: it aint complicated Joe: I don't think not glassing randoms is exactly rocket science either Ronnie: nothing random about you Ronnie: you fucking wish Joe: you want some projection with that Joe: I found you, remember Ronnie: wasnt hiding nancy Ronnie: not still a runaway kid Joe: then don't hide Joe: I weren't looking for you, alright Ronnie: bullshit Ronnie: you said there aint no other bastards Joe: I meant tonight Joe: this is just coincidence, nothing more Ronnie: leave then Ronnie: your buyers remorse is about as welcome as you Joe: hardly Joe: that's not what it is either Ronnie: they were all out of shiny sisters baby Ronnie: take what you can get Joe: I've already got one of them Ronnie: yeah Ronnie: i remember Joe: you don't want a refill then Joe: replace the one you tossed Ronnie: you on the spectrum or do you not wanna read social cues Joe: well I ain't leaving either way but if you don't wanna make the most outta it Joe: 👍 Ronnie: keep putting words in my mouth & see what happens to yours like Joe: what spectrum are you on if you think that constitutes a please and thanks Ronnie: take it up with your ma Ronnie: she wasnt about to teach me how to play nice Joe: not really her forte Ronnie: thats why im still waiting for my plane ticket home yeah Joe: possibly Joe: I don't know Ronnie: 💔 Ronnie: how olds your good sister Joe: jury is out on good Joe: but 14 so we'll wait and see Ronnie: ill fucking drink to that Ronnie: if she was a write off shed already be Joe: depends on your perspective Joe: I try not to have one Joe: [is at bar] Ronnie: depends on your mas Ronnie: we cant all be black sheep Joe: exactly Joe: they don't really get on Joe: but she's probably just dreading the PTSD a teen pregnancy scare will bring Ronnie: should have kept me around Joe: yeah Ronnie: 1 more abortion and your country would offer me a fucking exorcism Ronnie: fun for all the family Joe: some girls have all the luck Joe: would not believe how hard it is for a lad to get one 🙄 Joe: [just putting the drinks for 'em on their table, when Charlie probs gonna flirt with you like oh hey] Ronnie: your girlfriend will let you hold her hand for her 1st Ronnie: stop sticking it in your cello & youll knock her up in no time Ronnie: [just staring at the drink like you've never seen one before] Joe: come on, she's CoE if I've ever seen it Joe: abortions? sure, but exorcisms ❌ Joe: [tryna just walk off but you know they'd be like who are you hello?! 'cos annoying lmao] Ronnie: not in ireland anymore baby Ronnie: [when you walk off like where the fuck have you got to be my dear] Joe: [at least he's not gonna drop the bomb, just being vague af like oh we met once or whatever goodbye] Joe: you gone yourself? 🛫🍀 Ronnie: on whos 💰 Joe: idk, your pals maybe Joe: but I've fucked off so he can at least top up your drink 'cos its long gone too Ronnie: wanker Ronnie: [comes back and punches charlie love you boy] Joe: [just wait 'til you have your own mindblown with that crazy connection boy] Joe: ✊ Ronnie: [gives him the biggest fuck you look ever like I can't believe you typed that] Joe: [just loling a lil 'scuse him company its not at whatever you said] Ronnie: [comes over, ignoring everyone else obvs, to drink his entire drink and walk off again] Joe: [omg stop flirting you two, everyone like what is going on tbh] Ronnie: [dancing with charlie cos he don't take kindly to being punched but you don't wanna answer his questions either] Joe: [save it for later you nosy hoe] Ronnie: [when you see his poor flatmate going to pee and follow her intimidatingly soz bitch] Joe: [this poor girl is in no way prepared lmao] Ronnie: [thinking she's about to get mugged or murdered] Joe: [when you're 18 and its your first time away from home no doubt this poor girl honestly] Ronnie: you deffo she aint catholic Ronnie: could see her in a penguin house Joe: weren't a question on the flatmate icebreakers Joe: shoulda asked for some segregrated accomodation but thought londoners were meant to be post-religion post-everything so Ronnie: 💔 it aint god its you baby Ronnie: shes no londoner Joe: no, I do know that one Joe: she's from Kent, I think Joe: or Surrey? Ronnie: not holy holier than tho Ronnie: u Ronnie: never gonna please a horse girl mckenna Joe: 😏 Joe: I'll not go there then Ronnie: charlies fucking easy to please Ronnie: youve done the 1 drink minimum & youll avoid the pregnancy scare Joe: I think he's the one that does the pleasing Joe: so I've been assured Ronnie: gets him off dont worry like Joe: I'll sleep easy now, tah Ronnie: lullabies are shit but yeah Joe: 🤞 that ain't his encore either Ronnie: if it aint opening an artery to spray the crowd count me the fuck out Joe: I wouldn't hold your breath Joe: though might be more fun Ronnie: [dramatically holds her breath in his direction like kids do] Joe: [just watching 'cos weird and into it] Ronnie: [lowkey going purple probably because you know she won't stop til she hits the deck] Joe: [just watching 'til the last sec when you obvs gonna catch her] Ronnie: [giving him a look when he does like we have to stop meeting like this but then exposing his tattoo wherever that is cos gotta check that really happened] Joe: [I hope you didn't opt for your booty, lol, probably inner bicep moment or something 'cos not that bitch getting those out at any chance] Ronnie: [just touching it like you're not shamelessly flirting with your brother okay then] Joe: [just looking at her face hardcore 'cos you can pretend you're checking her tat too] Ronnie: [when you come back to yourself and remember you're supposed to hate him for being your brother so you push him away unnecessarily hard and retreat to your corner] Joe: [go off to the bathroom yourself boy] Ronnie: [french exit while he's gone even though it'll make Charlie more annoying] Joe: [have fun Joseph] Joe: you missed the bloodbath Ronnie: made my own Joe: safer bet Joe: on all counts Ronnie: safer for your girlfriend Ronnie: & you Joe: you know she ain't my girlfriend Ronnie: no shit you dont wanna claim that conquest Joe: wrong again Joe: not gonna bang my flatmate who pays the bigger part of the rent 'cos she gets the en-suite Joe: give me some credit Ronnie: shed give you some if you gave it up to her Ronnie: but if youd rather pay rent Joe: there's no way I can keep that going 4 years Ronnie: she aint hacking it Ronnie: you can fucking smell the homesickness Joe: its like, down the road init Joe: ugh Ronnie: & Ronnie: she cant fit her horse in the en suite baby Joe: 😂 Joe: true..I'll make some rich friends to move in when she gallops off into the sunset then Ronnie: theyll not slum it with you for 4 years Joe: but I'm so charming Joe: what's the solution then, sis? Ronnie: sell yourself or kill yourself Joe: 👌 Joe: already with ya Ronnie: yeah dead connected us Ronnie: 🖕 Joe: you're the only one that's allowed to be suicidal? Ronnie: oldest cunt gets dibs Ronnie: aint that how this sibling shit plays Ronnie: whatever you wanna do ive already done it Joe: half the time Joe: but the other half is youngest gets away with it 'cos they're cuter so Ronnie: cause theyre a crybaby Ronnie: yeah you can have that soft lad Joe: 😥 bit of a prerequisite for the suicide Joe: so generous Ronnie: i left you alive so you can do yourself in Ronnie: since youve got such a boner for it Ronnie: generosity begins & ends Joe: You can stop thinking about my boners then Joe: that'll be my attempt at the virtue Ronnie: put em away Joe: you tryna expose me Ronnie: you dont need my help Ronnie: flashers keep more hidden than you Joe: really Joe: don't seem like that's something that would bother you Ronnie: youre that special mckenna Ronnie: every fucking thing you do bothers me Joe: 💘 Joe: check facebook some more, I'll keep my events up to date Joe: can avoid each other easy Ronnie: nah you see me you walk the other way Joe: I got places to be babe Ronnie: yeah a&e Ronnie: if you dont get the fuck outta my face Joe: see, you're well about it Joe: I got it, yeah, we're not family Ronnie: were nothing Ronnie: & if thats what gets you off pay for it like the other cunts do Ronnie: not my 9-5 Joe: I found Soho by myself, don't worry Joe: we're good Ronnie: boss Ronnie: stay there Joe: more expensive than Sophie's horse that Ronnie: train her up to be whatever the fuck you want then Ronnie: 4 years in she could probably kiss with tongue like Joe: you gotta ask yourself why you care Joe: 'cos I know Ronnie: i dont have to ask myself fuck all Joe: deny it then Joe: works for me Ronnie: theres no need to deny theres cunts i wanna talk to less than you Ronnie: or i that i gotta have something to do while i wait Ronnie: 💘 Joe: you're all talk Joe: say no more Ronnie: fuck you Joe: yeah fuck me Ronnie: stick your therapy speak in whatever hole you reckon can take it Ronnie: ill reverse over your head before i submit to this psychology bullshit Joe: not what I'm studying Joe: or doing Ronnie: you reckon if you say im all talk itll get you some action Ronnie: dream on motherfucker Ronnie: i dont look like her that much Joe: bold assumption Ronnie: nah Ronnie: charlies more like a brother than you & ive done everything there is to do to that tosser Joe: bold to assume I'm half as fucked up as you Joe: spent long enough telling me I can't be 'cos I got a ma and now I wanna fuck her, okay Ronnie: wearing it on your sleeve aint you though baby Ronnie: saw your arm & yeah i reckon halfs about right Ronnie: but me at 19 wouldve left you in more pieces than that Joe: you must be proud Ronnie: what the fuck of Joe: your 19 year old self Ronnie: youd have liked me better at 9 Joe: alright but a nonce joke is hardly original Ronnie: neithers wanting to fuck your ma Ronnie: read a book schoolboy Joe: that's you throwing that about Joe: not one I ask the prozzies to act out tah Ronnie: what the fuck else was your lil challenge about then Joe: what was yours? Ronnie: i didnt fire any shots shithead Joe: not true Joe: i got the 🍒 to prove it Ronnie: fuck me youre that cunt Ronnie: 1 sos & i owe you my life yeah Joe: where'd you hear that Joe: what was it, needle not clean or something Ronnie: you dont need to wait for a death that slow Ronnie: fucking do it Joe: why do you do it Ronnie: why do you give a shit what i do Joe: interesting Joe: why do you fuck with your face like that Ronnie: too late to keep it pretty for you Ronnie: should have nancy drewed this shit earlier Joe: you ain't gonna answer Joe: alright Ronnie: cant we both like pain Ronnie: is that your problem Joe: 'course Joe: no monopoly on that shit Joe: its universal, so the books say Ronnie: bullshit do you read fuck all else but sheet music Joe: not no more Joe: but i can read more than scales, like Joe: have to write essays and shit sometimes Ronnie: fucking hell Ronnie: save this riveting shit for your flatmates Joe: she does art Joe: dunno what the lad does, he's out his room less than me Ronnie: horse cocks out of clay like Ronnie: bet shes the professors pet Joe: 🤞 she gets in an ill-advised affair with a pervy prof Ronnie: every other repressed white bitch has done it Joe: my home is safe Joe: hooray Ronnie: til i sleuth your address Joe: then its petrol bombs and dog shit, I know Ronnie: after theres fuck all left to steal Ronnie: 🤡s in films 🔥💸 Joe: and eat six year old's arms Joe: crack on Ronnie: i aint bitten any kids since i was Joe: I'm proud even if you ain't then Ronnie: raise the bar baby Joe: guess the other lad you were with don't technically count no more Joe: actual kids are that annoying Ronnie: kids get to be annoying Joe: lucky ones Joe: the ones that get to be kids Ronnie: no shit Ronnie: youll be born & die a saint Ronnie: such a fucking martyr Joe: when God comes a calling, you can't refuse, obvs Joe: guess that's what she gets for not aborting you, nice bonus for being good Ronnie: yeah Joe: likes a joke as much as the next Joe: gutted for her Ronnie: cant take the scouse sinner out of her however much irish catholic dick shes taken since Ronnie: 💔 Joe: if its only paddys in heaven, I'll lose the invite Ronnie: you better stay in purgatory then Ronnie: dont want you in hell with me Joe: you're just jealous I'll be too busy getting tortured by some other demon Joe: you're alright, anguishing over my wrongs for eternity sounds like a bit of me Joe: I can hack it, more painful than being sodomized with pitchforks or whatever weak shit you're in store for Ronnie: wanna see your cum face even less Ronnie: fucks sake Joe: 😂 Joe: shh, you already know he's got that sick sense of humour Joe: your own clockwork orange moment for eternity now Ronnie: 💘 Joe: you ain't nothing like I thought when I was 🔎🤔 Ronnie: cheers for the romantic cliche you pussy Joe: you're that special Joe: and welcome Ronnie: what did you reckon id be like Joe: like the rest of 'em Joe: complete the cliche Ronnie: fuck off Joe: what, I did Joe: there ain't a bigger compliment, honestly Ronnie: i dont wanna hear your compliments Ronnie: or how big they are Joe: 😏 Joe: you asked Ronnie: cause i cant resist hearing how fucking soft you are Joe: that makes you pretty fucking soft yourself then don't it Ronnie: fuck you Joe: back here, yeah Ronnie: back at get someone else to knock you out Joe: shouldn't be hard Ronnie: depends how hard you are Ronnie: could be a turn on or off Joe: either way, its incentive for them to go harder Joe: can't lose, me Ronnie: enjoy yourself baby Joe: never Joe: if I lose my overwhelming urge to die what have I got Ronnie: new overwhelming urges Joe: won't be that good Ronnie: write it in your diary i didnt ask for your review Joe: you can do that you know Joe: they've all got profiles, like they're a shit local pub or something Ronnie: what a fucking state Joe: won't miss it when I'm in pugatory Ronnie: if i had a shot for every time you cried your eyes out id miss that Joe: you'd miss having a liver Joe: and functioning braincell Ronnie: didnt mean that kind of shot shithead Joe: your aim is for shit, true Ronnie: or that one Joe: ahh Ronnie: you had me at dirty needles 💘 Joe: s'worth being alive for, then? Ronnie: what the fuck waste of a question is that Joe: why? Ronnie: what do you think Joe: reason I'm asking Joe: if its just another slow way to kill yourself then I'm sound but if its more than that then its a potential for the repertoire Ronnie: if it was id have taken a faster way out Joe: its noted Ronnie: why do you wanna die Joe: its not even Joe: I ain't actually sad, soz to burst your 😥 bubble, IOU some shots, whatever Joe: just wanna turn my head off, not have to participate Joe: deal with any of it Joe: but saying you wanna be put in a coma doesn't quite have the same punch Ronnie: underline that note then Joe: yeah? Joe: not like I've never thought about it Joe: think about it a lot, hence the need for a fucking switch Joe: how cliche to look like I'm doing it to spite her though, eh? Ronnie: whatever you take now thats strawberry flavoured childhood bullshit Ronnie: youve found your prescribed dose of working adult medicine Joe: it don't touch it, not worth taking unless you wanna down half a blister at a time and have a decent kip Joe: get me some and I'll pay you 20% for your trouble Ronnie: come over Ronnie: told you im waiting Joe: alright Joe: if I ask for your current location do I give away that I'm not a decent stalker Ronnie: youve fucking shown that card bitch Joe: figured Joe: be obliging then Ronnie: [a location of who the fuck knows where cos we don't need Charlie or Bronson there for this excuse you lads] Joe: [when you need some privacy for your bonding] Ronnie: [when you need some privacy to shoot up your half brother who you ain't even told your other fam about] Joe: [fun and games] Joe: cool Joe: 🤞 i'm there just after the heroin Ronnie: get here before or ill be in no state to keep obliging you Joe: I'm yet to be initiated, my timekeeping skills are 🔥 Ronnie: give a shit about your cv Joe: I'll be there Ronnie: your loss if you aint Ronnie: dont come crying to me Ronnie: i wont hear it for fucking ages Joe: i'm not an idiot Ronnie: it dont matter who or what you are Ronnie: stopped listening after the ill be there Joe: 💘 Ronnie: get it tattooed next yeah Joe: yeah Ronnie: over the real fucker Ronnie: cause you love a cliche Joe: 'course Joe: have to find another dickhead with a gun though Joe: that one did not know his left from his right Ronnie: get what you pay for baby Ronnie: & we didnt Joe: touche Joe: I'll forgo accuracy for that Joe: and the dirty needle, obvs Ronnie: getting to put his hand on my tit will blow the brains he has like Joe: 😏 Ronnie: but if i toss him off thatll get shit back on track Joe: hot Joe: love that you have a plan Ronnie: cute Ronnie: you reckoning im pure chaos Ronnie: not your manic pixie dream skank Joe: ain't planning on being a composer Joe: least not now Joe: don't need to write about you Ronnie: 💔 Joe: make up your mind Ronnie: you aint on my mind mckenna Ronnie: dont get your balls in a twist Joe: do you wanna be on mine or not Ronnie: i know whats on yours Joe: same Joe: makes a change Ronnie: compose a song about your confusion then like Joe: less cliche than a love song Joe: still Ronnie: do it from the pov of the horse Ronnie: be a hit with your flatmate Joe: you just wanna get me stalked Joe: paybacks a bitch, yeah Ronnie: wanna get your habit paid for before you start it Ronnie: throw her a boner Ronnie: whats the fucking drama Joe: i don't fancy her Joe: nor having the convo about where all her moneys going Ronnie: & Ronnie: i dont fancy the cunt with the tattoo gun Ronnie: got fuck all to do with it Joe: & Joe: you're lowering standards, not getting anything up Ronnie: close your eyes & think of gear Ronnie: youll do anything for a horse like that Joe: let me try it first Ronnie: dont need to hear about your trust issues baby Joe: better stop talking now then Ronnie: yeah Ronnie: shut the fuck up Joe: [you know when its like 'removed message' that] Ronnie: 🖕 Joe: what Ronnie: i cant cut your sense of humour out Ronnie: cant live with it Joe: no funny business Joe: just a buttdial Ronnie: charlie aint here but adorable that you 2 homos hit it off Joe: just scousers gotta stick together or did you know him from back home Ronnie: he didnt give you the rundown Ronnie: mustve made him speechless mckenna Joe: too busy trying to work out how I knew you Ronnie: we grew up together Ronnie: & the mime standing next to us Joe: cool Ronnie: nah Ronnie: fucked Joe: I mean that you still know 'em, talk to 'em Ronnie: we aint trying to throw our family away for a new one Joe: like I said, s'cool Ronnie: like i said hes gonna eat that shit up Ronnie: you fawning over his family set up Joe: good to know Joe: not really my type either, call me fussy Ronnie: fucks sake Ronnie: join the god squad now & save yourself the 12 steps Joe: 'cos I don't wanna do a bloke or my horse girl roommate Ronnie: cause you only wanna do your ma Joe: you can't just give me dud options and come to that conclusion Ronnie: we playing fuck marry kill now Joe: not playing nothing with you Joe: cheater Ronnie: crybaby Joe: you'll 😥 when I have to kill your mate Ronnie: you wish Joe: making people cry is your thing Joe: I don't need to fight that claim Ronnie: like you aint been wanting to save me again since the 1st time Ronnie: thats your thing yeah Joe: save you from what? Joe: smack? obviously not Joe: other self-destructive tendencies? try again Ronnie: it obviously dont matter Ronnie: id never seen you & id still never seen a cunt more excited to do a rescue Joe: and I'd never seen you Joe: maybe you'd got all kinds of fucked up 'cos of all the shit I dragged up Joe: basic decency ain't nothing to get excited about Ronnie: i know how to self soothe im a big girl now Joe: didn't need you self-soothing yourself to death on my conscience Ronnie: didnt ask you to give a shit Ronnie: catholic guilts best left at home baby Ronnie: youll never find a place with the cockneys Joe: about myself? Joe: its barely but hanging on by a thread Joe: soz Joe: dead girls fuck you up Ronnie: not your type either then Joe: ultimate type Joe: don't wanna commit right now, tah Ronnie: 🤞 i od & you can finally sort your misery boner out Joe: too giving you Ronnie: im dead i aint giving a shit Joe: put that on the headstone Ronnie: pay for it you write whatever cliche you want Joe: you want a classy picture affair Joe: got it Ronnie: stop getting me Ronnie: it makes me wanna blow my brains out Joe: its obvious you wanna be seen Joe: no spooky sibling connection required Ronnie: fuck off Joe: what's better than ruining a graveyards ambiance for the mourners for the forseeable Ronnie: theres no room in the ground soft lad Joe: they just chuck you in with the old bones Joe: or 'move' them Ronnie: hot Joe: mhmm Joe: plague pit is the way to go Ronnie: fit the horse & the girl Ronnie: how fucking romantic Joe: that's me Ronnie: ill put john in the 💘 for you baby Ronnie: your ma robbed you blind of so many lennon comparisons Joe: still time to be pretentious with soph Joe: fuck off getting out of bed for good Ronnie: smother her with a pillow & fuck her corpse youll be feeling peace & love Joe: 💎🍓💘 Ronnie: playing with emojis & yourself aint getting you here Ronnie: hurry up Joe: can't make you any closer Ronnie: 💔