#i can’t even imagine a friendship with a woman because i don’t think i could trust them

[dweebalina]

people (women) have always done this thing to me where they somehow come to the conclusion that im mean or bitchy or standoffish and then just act sort of cold towards me based on this character they created in their heads and it sucks lol. and because they project this personality onto me, they then think it’s okay to be rude to me because in their heads they’re being mean in return, but in reality I was never mean in the first place! why does no one ever assume that im shy? honestly..i’ve never really felt like being a black woman played a part in it but idk.. black women do it to me too. it doesn’t feel good, even if it’s coming from someone i don’t care for or someone who’s personality i don’t like or someone i don’t want to be friends with. there’s this woman at my job that’s 42 and from ny like me and knows the area that im from and even from my first interactions with her i never liked her. and i think she’s Jamaican and i don’t think i could ever trust a Jamaican woman lol but she’s never done anything that i can even just out right give an example of her being rude because it’s so subtle and weird. she just talks to me in a way i know she would never talk to the other 27 yo at my job like that. And they’re friends. i don’t like them and i don’t want to be friends with them, i just don’t like when people do shit like refer to me as she or her when im sitting right there. just out of basic respect and acknowledging another person sitting there.and there’s this younger girl there that does weird shit like maybe say hello to me crack a joke with me when the other girl my age isnt there, but when the other 27 yo is there she’ll put a paper on my desk and tap on the note on it instead of talking to me. Or suddenly she forgot my name..like stop being a weird bitch!!

[willowed-wisp]

relationship headcanons [ ghost ]

SFW

- You didn’t know what to expect being set up by your childhood friend Kyle Garrick

- Having an inkling it would be someone he worked with in the ‘parachute regiment’. So you expected 5’11”, stocky build and maybe a Mohawk?

- What you got was 6’4”, unable to tell what build he had because of the hoodies and a mask?

- He scared you to begin with, especially when you heard his voice. And Simon was used to that, that’s why he didn’t date… he couldn’t remember the last time he had sex or even spoke romantically to a woman.

- You thought about walking out on the date, but held in there. Realising maybe he was so awkward around the other people in the pub. “Wanna take a walk?”

- “Think you can keep up?” That was the first confident thing Simon had said that night.

- Maybe walking along the canal wasn’t the best choice but he seemed harmless, not a serial killer… He leant against the railings… his eyes reflected the street lamp, the night a dreary sight.

- You went to start your car, no such luck- like your date. He hadn’t told you one thing about himself… date failed and now your car refused to work with you. Your phone at 1% charge… you couldn’t even call a taxi.

- When you started to walk to the pub, an off-road jet black 4x4 pulled up beside you. It was Simon. “Car trouble?”

- “Yeah…”

- “Get in.” Was it a bad idea to jump into the car of someone you’d only just met and communicated with through Kyle? Yes. Were you in any position to turn down his kindness? No. “I’ll drive ya home…”

- Then the pin dropped, “My house keys are in the car,” A dry laugh came from him- trying to imagine what he looked like under that thing.

- “I can’t leave you on the street…” And that’s what led you straight into the passenger seat. His truck was spotless and surprisingly comfortable, like nobody had ever sat in that spot before you. “You can stay at mine for the night, don’t tell Garrick… he’ll have a field day….”

- “Thanks, but you could just drop me at a bus stop?” Not that you wanted that, not that you wanted anything from the good samaritan at the wheel.

- His head shook, “In this area? No chance, love,” You wondered how long he had travelled to go on this date because he had been driving half an hour before he pulled into a drive. From how he looked around getting out of the car and how high the garden hedge was, you thought it was lucky he hadn’t thrown a bag over your head.

- Not that you’d remember where he had taken you anyway.

- His house was almost barren, not many belongings. “Kitchen is on your left, living room on the right and bathroom is upstairs the first door you see…” He was talking much more than he had in the crowded environment.

- “D’ya have a phone charger? I’ll call Kyle to come get me tomorrow to look at the car…” He just gave you a stare, then you realised. Kyle didn’t live in your area anymore, over a hundred miles away. “Fuck…”

- “I’ll take a look at it in the morning…”

- “You sure? I can pay you fuel money,”

- Long story short, Simon turned down your money. And he kept coming back after he fixed your car, jotting your number down in case it gave you any more trouble.

- He doesn’t take his mask off until you have sex for the first time

- After that he rarely wears it when in private with you

- It’s weird when you have guests over (TF141) and he wears the damned thing

- You make sure you wash the masks every other day and make sure Simon alternates

- Never gets spots from them, either.

- Has tattoos but would never get a matching one with anyone

- He thinks it’s a jinx on any relationship or friendship

- You’re probably his first proper relationship

- Discloses he’s in the SAS when he gets deployed about a year into your relationship

- You never realised how worried sick you’d be until he got through the front door

- Bundles you in his arms, never taking the smell of your hair, perfume and skin for granted again

- Fixes all of your car troubles- he may have gone into mechanics had he had a settled childhood

- Finds it difficult to introduce you to the family, not because of you. Because of the baggage.

- His mother welcomed you but with caution in hand. Until you got talking to her and she just seemed to open up to you.

- She invites you round for dinner every Sunday. It makes Simon smile

- Never worked through his emotional baggage about his dad

- So when the subject of kids is brought up, he shudders

- You don’t press the matter, not with Simon

- He’s stubborn and you seem to be the only one who can change his mind

- Simon doesn’t fall in love easily but when he does, it’s deep and he’s never leaving your side

- Much more of a goofball than other people see- those dad jokes are primed and ready for an occasion

- Not a jealous guy, he knows you’re his…

- He’s more worried about you when he’s away

- It’s like a hole in his heart being away from you and he strives to get out uninjured and alive not to burden you

- Knows that if you can get past his work, you’ll get through anything

NSFW

- Your first time was very spontaneous, two months into you seeing him.

- The back of his car, you couldn’t remember the cause of it but you remember making out in the back of his truck

- Going out into the woodlands to cool off but instead, you were hitched on his hips and fingers dragging across his muscular shoulders.

- Clung to each other while his body rolled into yours, you biting down slightly on his clothes. Instead of purring his into the daylight air.

- It didn’t end there, the back of the truck and back at his.

- Practically never ending until the morning… where you’d lay on his chest. He was stroking through your hair

- Whenever he’s asleep, he recounts those memories and every encounter after that.. just so he can be close to you when away

- Surprisingly gentle- knows he’s a big guy

- Though he’s not without his rugged potential. Prefers not to be too rough

- Has sexual experience but nothing above 5 women and then it wasn’t reoccurring

- Doesn’t have a vice for sex, he loves feeling close to you

- Loves facing you, he loves that intimacy

- He’s quite an intimate guy

- Never wears the mask when you have sex

- If you ask him, he refuses… finds it difficult to open up about work and his experiences

- Closer than anybody else would be able to get, over his dead body

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[magics-neptunes-things]

Clingy Girl

Hi guys ♥

This is a request from here! I love writing for Ona and I missed it so here you are :)

Next one will be the end of Collide, with Leah Williamson.

Enjoy ♥

TW : None :)

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The first time you were introduced to Ona, officially, was when she arrived in Barcelona. You’ve been there for two seasons when the Catalan made her appearance in Barcelona. And the least we can say is that you were the victim of what is called a real love at first sight. At the same time, how could it be otherwise?

Ona is a real ray of sunshine in your life since her arrival, completely changing your established routine until now. And more, she even flipped your life and your world upside down. You still don’t understand how and why, but Ona quickly made you understand that your feelings were reciprocal and just two weeks after her return to Barcelona, she asked you for a date.

A second followed quickly, initiated by you this time, then a third. And your first kiss, your first moments, your first sleepless nights talking about everything and other occupations that are only yours. You quickly found yourself addicted to her, you just can’t spend a day away from her without it being torture.

You have decided to keep your relationship secret, however, including for your teammates, wishing to distinguish between your private and professional life. This doesn't prevent you from sitting next to her when traveling or sometimes being partners during workouts.

The most complicated thing though is the fact that Ona is terribly tactile. It's with everyone really and therefore with you too. She never has any gestures with you that would make think of anything other than friendship. The problem is the sensations it gives you and the constant work you have to do on yourself to not forget that you are in public.

Today, it’s a little more difficult than usual, for both of you. Ona flew a few days to Manchester to meet Leila Ouahabi and her girlfriend, one of her closest friends.

You couldn’t go with her because you had things to do for your sponsors, and needless to say, you missed her terribly. You had trouble sleeping alone and ended up miserably falling asleep in front of the television the two nights of her absence. You saw that some people imagined romance scenarios between the two Spaniards, which made you roll your eyes. The girl who posted the photos of Ona and Leila being her girlfriend, it would be more very strange if something happened between them. But it’s probably the downside of not talking about your relationship officially.

The day of her return, Ona arrives around 10:30 in Barcelona while the training starts at 12:00. Needless to say, she doesn’t have time to go home to change. But you offered to take her at the airport that’s why you find yourself in the arrivals hall of Barcelona, making the hundred steps while waiting for your girlfriend.

When she finally appears, you must refrain from jumping on her and settle for a simple hug. You briefly close your eyes and slide your face into her hair in a way that may differ from a hug between two friends, but you can’t help it. Ona's arms who tightens you against her however make you understand that it doesn't bother the young woman.

You end up releasing her reluctantly, looking greedily at her face. In your opinion, Ona has the most perfect face of creation, drawn by the gods. You still remember Ona’s amused laughter and rolling eyes when you told her, but also her cheeks that were tinged with pink. Ona seems to understand what is going on in your head, since she smiles softly and shakes her head.

"Stop" laughed the Catalan by pushing your shoulder.

"I didn’t do anything" you answer maliciously before taking her bag from her hands.

Ona always smiles when she follows you to your car and again when she sits in the passenger seat. You join her after closing your trunk and dropping her travel bag next to your stuff for training. When you find your place behind the wheel, you feel two hands grabbing by the collar of your jacket and Ona draws you against her to put a kiss on your lips.

You can only smile at her lips, putting a hand on her arm.

"I missed you" whispers Ona against your lips.

You hums for any answer at first, dropping several kisses on her lips before backing away slightly.

"I missed you too. Barcelona sucks when you’re not there"

Ona smiles at you tenderly and releases your jacket only to grab one of your hands that she imprisons between her two to put on her lap. She will not release her until the stadium, despite the different conversations you have during the journey.

Arriving at the stadium, you still exchange several kisses after checking that no one could see you before going to training. You are surprised when you feel Ona clinging to your arm and the look you cast at her must speak for you.

"What? I often do it with Aita" Ona said, shrugging her shoulders.

"If you say so" you laugh softly, laying a kiss on her head.

The smell of her shampoo tickles your nose and you must refrain from looking for her lips again. You can’t wait to go home so you can have her only for you. When Ona presented you her flight plan, you must admit that you didn't imagine that it would be necessary to give you a few hours to meet before going to training.

Ona is practically glued to you on the benches listening to Jona’s tactics for the next game. She grabs your hand again to play with your fingers under the table during the meal and you often have to remember yourself that a simple friend doesn't look at the lips of her friend with envy. When you join the changing rooms to put on your training outfits, you take advantage of Ona’s pretext that shows you something on your phone to stick to her, your hand in the hollow of her back.

"Maybe we should tell them we know and they’re anything but subtle?" whispers Claudia to the attention of Patri who walks behind you, in the company of Salma.

"No way" answers Patri "They are already like that without us knowing, imagine how they can be when they have told us about it"

The answer, said on the tone of humor, makes the other two laugh and attracts your and Ona's attention. But they quickly divert the conversation to something else and you reluctantly remove your hand from Ona’s body, letting your fingers brush against her butt in the process. The look the brunette gives you only lasts a split second, but you can’t hold back your guilty smile.

This gesture is also noticed by Patri who share a glance with Pina.

"I changed my mind" Patri whispers to Claudia, watching you laugh and tease while you change. "But we’ll have some fun before"

Patri is quick to implement her plan and quickly catches up with you both before entering the field.

"Ona, can I talk to you?" asks the Majorcan before taking a look at you and a smile. "Alone?"

"Of course" the Catalan replies curiously, briefly squeezing your hand she was holding before letting go.

You give them a smile in return and join the small group already formed by your teammates in the center of the field. You exchange a few words with Aitana and Jana, waiting your girlfriend’s return. And, when she finally appears with Patri, you can only notice her upset look and frown. It’s subtle and discreet, so others don’t notice. But you do.

Unfortunately, the coaches arrive shortly after. This doesn't allow you to try to question her to know what is going on and when your eyes cross, she simply shakes her head negatively, her eyebrows still frowned. You’re a little worried, to be honest. If you weren’t totally focused on Ona, you would have noticed the amused looks that Patri and Claudia exchange.

You cannot question Ona during the first part of the training and it's only when you have your break to drink that you can finally approach her.

"Are you all right?" you ask softly as you look at her

"Yes" simply answers Ona before putting her bottle back in the fridge.

"Ona" you call softly when you see her ready to leave

Her eyes soften a little when they crosses yours. Her silence worries you as much as her behavior and frustration that seems to increase over time.

"Later, all right?"

You nod and put the gourd in the fridge while biting your lip gently. You feel your stomach writhing under anxiety, you don’t know what it is, but it impacts Ona enough not to tell you directly. And this is probably the first time, you’re not used to your girlfriend keeping things secret between you. The worry must be visible on your face, since Ona grabs your hand, making you slightly startled. You didn’t expect her to be here, but left to train further.

"Don’t make that face" whispers Ona, completely ignorant of Patri and Claudia who are watching you with an amused smile. "Patri asked me if I thought you’d say yes if she asks you to go on a date with her, considering you’re single"

"Patri?!" you whispers too, mechanically looking for the other woman on the field.

In the meantime, she has carefully focused her attention on the stretches she has to do. Frowned, you look thoughtfully for a few seconds, trying to make sense of this information. You get along well with her obviously, but like others on the team. You never imagined a relationship other than friendly with her.

"It doesn’t make any sense" you always whisper by shifting your attention to Ona. "We were never close in that way, even before you came here and she never said or showed anything"

"Really?"

Ona's detached air doesn't deceive you and you sigh softly while rolling with your eyes.

"Of course, I would have told you otherwise"

Ona is content to respond with a vague grunt and thoughtfully bites her lip. Not being able to speak freely is frustrating, but it's obviously out of the question to go hide somewhere to talk. You stroke herhand with your thumb to draw herattention to you before speaking again.

"Don’t worry like that. I will refuse, isn't it obvious?"

"Yes" sighs softly Ona relaxing a little despite everything "It’s just that… I don’t know, I don’t like the idea"

"I understand" you assure her with a slight smile.

If you had been alone you would have taken her to you to hug her, but the whole of your team surrounds you and the fact that you held your hand like this for so long is surely strange enough. Ona gives you a light smile before releasing your hand to return to follow her exercises. Again, your exchange wasn't missed by the duo decided to test you.

Contrary to what you had imagined, Ona didn't go back to the other side of the field to resume training but stayed with you all along. You surprise her several times glaring towards Patri, and you discreetly reminded her that she isn't supposed to blame the Majorcan. It only attracted you grunts for a simple answer, but it didn't take Ona away from you. It gives you the impression of having a bodyguard, provided that a bodyguard literally sticks to you all the way.

At the end of the training, Ona is on edge and doesn't hesitate to grab you by the arm to drag you quickly to the changing rooms. You decide to shower at Ona’s, the brunette hoping to escape Patri, but the latter magically appears outside the door of the locker room when you leave.

"Hey Y/N, I have a question for you"

Patri’s tone is joyful and you see from the corner of the eye Ona darkening next to you. Her arm is literally wrapped around yours in a way that is both possessive and protective and her eyebrows are more gathered than ever.

"What’s going on?" You ask nevertheless trying to keep a neutral face.

"Are you doing something tonight? I thought we could go for a drink or something…"

"Yes she’s doing something" Ona answers in your place, pulling on your arm so that you follow her to the exit.

"Tomorrow then?"

You’ve never seen Ona so nervous before. You’re surprised not to see smoke coming out of her ears.

"Tomorrow too" Ona continues to pull at your arm. "And every other day. Come on, let’s go"

You take a few steps back under Ona's insistence while continuing to observe your interlocutor. It's at this moment that your eyes cross Patri's and you detect something other than the hope of someone who asks someone else on a date. Fun? Mischief? It flips in your head and you suddenly stop walking.

"You know" you accuse her, pointing at her.

"Know what?" Ona grumbles, not enjoying you stopping.

"Yes, I know what?" repeats Patri with a big innocent smile.

Ona ends up also understanding and also turns to face Patri. Her eyebrows are ruffled, but it seems that her annoyance is this time related to the little trick played by Patri. And Claudia, but you don’t know her betrayal yet.

"For Ona and me. That’s why you set up this ridiculous plan to ask me out" you roll your eyes shaking your head.

This makes Patri laugh, who shrugs her shoulders before teasingly putting a hand on your arm.

"Don’t denigrate yourself like that, I could very well have done it" said Patri maliciously.

"Stop" moaned Ona, putting both arms around your waist to take you away from Patri. "How did you know?"

"Everyone knows it or suspects it" laughs the Majorcan again. "We thought it would be fun to tease you before telling you."

"We?" repeats Ona with an arched eyebrow.

"Well, maybe Pina helped me to plan this"

"I hate you, both of you."

"I’ll tell Alexia" you sulk

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"Ona" you laughs when your girlfriend take you back in the bed with her, grabbing you by a piece of your (her) t-shirt. "I’m thirsty"

It’s been a few hours since you came back from training now, you had plenty of time to shower, have dinner and… well, celebrate Ona's come back in her bedroom.

"Well, you are forbidden to leave me now"

"I never dreamed of it" you assure her while returning in bed to face her, your hand slipping delicately in her hair.

Ona doesn't wait a second to stick against you again, so close that it becomes difficult to say which part of the body belongs to whom. It's however far from disturbing you, the arms of Ona in your back caress you tenderly and her face in the hollow of your neck tickles you delicately.

"I hated this day" mumbles Ona, her lips tickling your skin making you shiver.

"Why? You came home and we’re not so bad here, are we?"

"No" agrees Ona smiling, dropping a new kiss before backing away. "But the part where I thought Patri was genuinely attracted to you, not so much"

"You know very well that I would have said no" you answer by depositing a kiss on the corner of her jaw.

There’s nothing you don’t like about her, but the definition of her jaw, you love it. Like her eyes, her smile, her abs and do not start talking about her hands and arms.

"I know" Ona replies, taking you away from the fantasies of your own girlfriend. "But still. At least now everyone seems to know you’re mine"

"It bothers me less than I could have imagined"

You know you both chose to remain secret, but now that you know the rest of the team knows, you can’t help but say it’s better that way. Ona seems to approve, even if she hums for simple answer, her lips starting to ghost the hollow of your neck.

Despite the teasing of your teammates, nothing will really change in your respective behaviors. Ona and you will continue to exchange complicit and amused looks and smiles regularly, your daily proximity will not change either. The only difference is that now, when you travel for a game, Ona doesn't hesitate to take her naps completely lying on you. And you won’t complain about that either.

[unemployedhockeyfan]

Not All Breakups Are Equal

Summary: Lando and Eloise, two best friends. They'd been there for one another for as long as they could remember. But, just a few short weeks change everything.

Warnings: angst I guess

Notes: Hi! This is a first for me, so please share your feedback!! Let me know if you want a part 2!!

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This was not how it was supposed to end.��

We were supposed to be friends until our dying breaths. If I let my true imagination wander, it wouldn’t have ended just like that either. If I was honest with myself early on, he would have been the man I saw as I walked down the aisle. 

But here we are in his way-too expensive Monaco apartment. 

“Eloise, I don’t understand why you are so pressed about this,” Lando shouted in my direction. 

The issue was nearly nonexistent three weeks ago. Lando, my best friend, had been seeing a new girl. I had tried my best to try and get to know her — it is what I always did when a new woman entered his life. 

The key is that I tried. She didn’t want any part in being my friend. Only a few days after I had met the new fling, I found out what she had to say about me. 

None of it was good. Honestly, most of it was vile. She’s so fake. She’s just jealous because he will never look at her like that. He just pities her. I’ll make him forget her name. 

As my mind continues to be clouded by what my best friend’s new girlfriend thinks of me, I’m thrust back into reality. Lando and I are shouting at each other — something we never used to do. Really, this may be the first time it’s ever happened. 

Max, a mutual friend to both of us, is sitting awkwardly on the couch. He clearly wishes he was anywhere but this apartment. I can only imagine what Lando’s neighbors are thinking at this moment. 

“How could I not care, Lando?” I yelled back.

“She was joking,” Lando responded. 

This wasn’t a joke. A joke is between friends. A joke isn't supposed to leave you crying on the bathroom floor. 

A joke isn’t supposed to end a friendship. 

“She was not joking, Lando. She was serious. If you cannot support me, if you cannot tell her that it’s not OK to talk about me like that, I’m not sure we can be friends anymore.” 

I can’t believe those words just came out of my mouth, and by the look on Lando’s face, I don’t think he can either. 

“Eloise,” Lando said before he paused to take in my emotions. 

I felt the tears rolling down my face. I hadn’t even realized the tears had started to come. But how could they not? A 15-year friendship was only a few words away from ending. As I had made the proclamation, I glanced to my side and saw Max’s mouth agape. 

The three of us — the three musketeers — had been side-by-side-by-side for as long as I could remember. My twin brother had grown up karting with them, and while Lando and Max were friends with Rory, there was something about the three of us that clicked more. 

I watched from the sides as they grew up and chased their dreams and I watched as Lando made his Formula 1 debut. 

Along the way, I had apparently caught feelings for the British driver, too, but I’d never openly admit that. 

Max suspected it, though. 

“You can’t seriously be thinking about ending our friendship over this?”

“I don’t know, Lando. I think we’ll always be friends, but I can’t be an active participant in your life if she is too. I need to protect my own mental health.” 

Lando’s eyes were beginning to be rimmed with tears. 

I cannot believe I’m the person who’s making him cry. When he and Louisa went through their breakup and I saw how sad he was, I vowed that I would never be the reason for his tears. 

But, here we are and I’m making him cry. 

The longer I stand here in his kitchen, though, the more I start to think about it not actually being my fault. He’s the one who invited his new girlfriend into his life. She’s the one who said negative things about me. I’m just protecting myself. 

“No, Eloise, you can’t just walk out the door.”

My mind was so cluttered that I didn’t even realize I had taken steps toward his front door — that I had one hand on the doorknob. Here I was, though, a simple hand movement and step away from walking out of Lando Norris’ life. 

“I’m sorry.”

I twisted the handle, opened the door and walked out. 

I was three steps down the hallway when I heard the door slam closed. I paused, part of me hoping I’d hear his voice call out. All I wanted was for him to follow me out into the hallway and fight for me to stay. 

As I stood three feet away from his front door, it was silent. He hadn’t followed me, Lando was still in his apartment — likely gazing down at his kitchen counter with Max equally shocked sitting on the couch. 

It was silent. 

I glanced back at his apartment, willing the front door to open. It never did, so I turned back around and walked toward the elevator. 

This was it. Our friendship was over. No, our friendship was paused. I wouldn’t let it be over, at least not in my head. 

No matter how much it hurt, no matter how much sleep I lost over it, I was going to always tell myself that Lando was going to come back. I didn’t care if it was him coming back to me as a single man or if he entered my life again with the same girlfriend as long as she agreed to be kind to me. 

As I stepped out of the elevator and into the lobby of Lando’s apartment building, I braced myself for the evening chill. Before tucking my arms into my body, I wiped away the tears that seemed neverending at this point. 

Only seconds after stepping outside, I heard my name being called. 

“Eloise! Eloise! Stop, please, Eloise!” 

It wasn’t Lando, though. It was Max being the friend he always is. 

“Where are you going?”

It was a valid question, I don’t live in Monaco. Well, not officially. 

My job allows me to work remotely, so I truthfully live wherever Lando happens to be that week. That’s over now. 

“Um, I’m not really sure. I may just show up at the airport and see where I can get a flight. I just can’t be here.” 

The look on Max’s face is one I hope to never see again. I knew at that moment that Max had always known. He knew about the crush I started harboring when we were only 13 years old. 

“Eloise, I’m not going to stop you from leaving. I cannot imagine how much you’re hurting right now, but please know he does love you.”

“No, Max, don’t say that! Please, my heart can’t entertain that idea — not anymore.” 

“But he does, Eloise. He just doesn’t reali…”

“Max, stop,” I shouted to interrupt him. “Please. I need you to not say what you’re thinking. If he loved me, even if he didn’t realize it, he would never let me feel like this. Even if he wanted to still see her, he’d tell her to be kinder to me.” 

Max just stood there. He didn’t know what to say. To be honest, I didn’t really know either, but he knew enough to at least pull me into a hug. 

That’s when I lost it. The tears started flowing and it seemed like nothing would stop them. Max laid a kiss on the top of my head, he’s always been another brother to me. He gave me an extra squeeze before placing his hands on my shoulders and pushing me away slightly. 

“Just let me know where that plane ticket gets you, OK?”

“Always.” 

With that, I turned away from one of my two best friends, with the other several floors away, and began to walk. I didn’t even have my suitcase. I guess I’d have to text Max about that one because I couldn’t turn back now. 

It was just after midnight by the time I arrived at the airport — I had thankfully found an empty taxi despite the late hour. 

As I approached the counter in the airport, the employee gave me a quick glance before her eyes returned to the screen in front of her.

“May I help you?”

“I’d like to buy a ticket.”

“To where?” 

I froze, I still hadn’t thought this far. I could go home, but that would be the first place Lando looked. For as much as I wanted him to chase after me, I still didn’t want to be easy to find. 

On a whim, one place came to mind. 

“New York. New York City.” 

[kining-the-evil]

hi, I'd like to ask for some headcanons maybe, about Cameron and femreader, where r falls first but Cameron falls harder, maybe she is struggling with her sexuality but being sure she's in love with r ¿? please and thanks.

luv you <3

I Don’t Wanna Be Your Friend (headcannons)

An: Trying to get back into writing and starting by some simple headcannons. I hope you guys like it!

Warning: Fem!reader, gay awakening, reader is already out, not necessarily internalized homophobia but Cameron definitely has some inner turmoil, technically kind of cheating but it’s insinuated that she immediately breaks up with Chase after, other then that it’s all fluff for this one

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You worked as a pediatric specialist, so you don’t necessarily see her often but enough that you get a sort of school girl crush on Cameron

She’s cute, in your eyes she’s confident, and very successful in what she does, all things you find very attractive

But you are very sure that’s she’s very straight

But what gay woman hasn’t had a crush on a straight woman? It’s just some harmless fun

Only it’s not

You start spending more time with Cameron, and a pretty close friendship began to grow between you two

You find her at lunch to eat with her, bring her coffee almost daily, compliment how she looks, etc.

EVERYONE sees the way you feel for her except for Cameron herself

When she asks you to call her Alison instead of Cameron? You’re over the fucking moon. Not even Chase calls her Alison!

Speaking of Chase, him and Alison are together when you start to hang out with her, and he clocks you immediately

You’re pretty open at work about your sexuality, and you’ve talked to Alison about ex’s so Chase knows you like women, and it’s so obvious that you have a crush on his girlfriend

He’s annoyed how Alison seems to chose to spend her time with you instead of him, date nights are canceled because you want to celebrate something, or because you had a hard day and she wants to help make you feel better

It actually causes quite a few fights between Chase and her, eventually he admits that he thinks you like her and that she’s choosing you over him

She tries to be understanding, assuring him that she doesn’t like you and that she’s sorry that he feels that way. She promises that she’ll spend more time with him

But his comments are exactly what launches her into thinking about her relationship with you.

She’s straight, right? She’s never had feelings for a girl before, and she doesn’t have feelings for you. You’re just friends. Best friends! It doesn’t matter that you make her happier then she’s been with anyone since her husbands death, that she feels so relaxed around you, that she’s more herself with you then with anyone else, that your actually really fucking cute-

Oh

Full on spiral after she realizes. Alison feels like absolute shit. How could she do this to Chase? How could she do this to you?! She’s sure you don’t feel the same, and she can’t possibly imagine ruining your friendship

But her mind goes to what Chase said; that you’re obviously in love with her

Do you have feelings for her?

She starts to over analyze everything about your interactions. Every hang out, every coffee date (god, she feels so weird calling it that now that she feels this way), every lunch time at work, she’s mulling over every second to try and figure out if there’s a hidden meaning or anything.

You definitely notice that something is different when you hang out

She’s quieter now, doesn’t talk nearly as much and seems closed off when talking to you

And then she starts seeing you less and only one thing is on your mind;

She must have realized that you had a crush on her, and it clearly made her uncomfortable

After she skipped lunch with you three days in a row you decided you have to apologize to her

You corner her in a room and immediately launch into an apology

“Listen, im Sorry.” It’s the first thing you say and Alison is already frowning.

“What are you talking about?” She asked, and you just shook your head.

“I know you know about my crush, and I’m so sorry that I made you uncomfortable. I know you don’t feel the same and you’re happy with Chase, and I would never ask you for anything. I accepted that we’re just friends, and I really am happy with that. I really don’t want to ruin this-“

You continue your rambling until you notice that she is just staring at you

You take it as her trying to figure out how to kindly say she can’t continue this friendship.

In reality her brain seems to be in error mode because did you just say you liked her?!

“I’m really sorry,” you finally said. “I’ll… I’ll leave you alone from now on.” You turned to leave her alone in the room but ate stopped by Alison’s hand on your arm.

“Wait, y/n-“ she quickly says, causing you to turn and look at her. It’s then that you notice the look in her eyes. It’s not a look of pity that you would expect from someone who has to tell another person they don’t love them back, it’s a look of… is that fear?

“I don’t not want to be friends with you,” she quickly said. “I didn’t stop hanging out with you because I thought you had a crush on me- in fact I didn’t think you did at all! I didn’t think you’d ever like me, but Chase thought you did and it made me think about how I felt around you and it scared me and I didn’t know what to do and-“

“Wait wait wait, Ali, slow down.” You reached out to hold her by the shoulders. “Take a breath,” you told her and she followed your directions. “What do you mean by ‘how you feel around me’?”

Cameron looked at you for a moment, clearly unsure of what to say. But you were patient. You rubbed circles on her shoulders with your thumb where you were holding her, and you gave her a soft smile that she loved so much.

“You… you make me happy.” Alison finally said. “A happiness I didn’t think I was ever going to feel with someone again. And it- it scared me. I’ve never felt this way with a woman.”

Your eyes searched Alison’s face, as though trying to find any lie in her words. You wouldn’t get your hopes up, you couldn’t get your hopes up. If she didn’t mean what you thought she meant, it would be devastating.

“Alison Cameron, I love you.” You got the words to leave your mouth. “How do you feel about me?”

Alison’s breath caught in her throat when you said that to her, and she wasn’t sure what else to say then: “I think… I think I love you too.”

At those words you couldn’t help the smile that came over your face, and you were pulling her into your arms for a hug, and after a second you pulled back to kiss her lips.

It was short, and you quickly pulled back to gage her reaction

She looked at you with wide eyes before a shy smile came over her face.

‘Can I kiss you again?’

And absolutely you did.

And while you did she did her best to not think about Chase, she once this was done she’d have to go to him and tell him they couldn’t be together anymore, that she had found someone else

She just wanted to stand here, in this moment, with you

[joyride-time]

Roleswap: Boy Genius AU

I’m not above low-hanging fruit when it comes to titles. Thanks to @annoyinglandmagazine and @grandpuppyalpaca for being interested

The past generation is all the same, and so is the present generation except for Agatha, Gil, and Tarvek. And Moloch, who is now a woman.

What I’ve decided on about the au is:

The Heterodyne son genes were too strong and the Holy Child was born male. Almost all male Sparks the appropriate age mysteriously disappear while the Geisters are looking for the Holy Child, but Anevka is still the one put in the Summoning Engine because, well, Aaronev had no illusions that either of his kids is the Holy Child and was just rolling the dice to get Lucrezia back. Also, I can’t decide what Gil Sturmvoraus is up to, so is he even at Sturmhalten?

Tarvek Clay lives in Beetleburg with his loving family and a job as Beetle’s assistant. People understand why he’s there less because ornamental male assistants aren’t as popular, but it doesn’t become a big problem.

I think OG Tarvek’s legacy obsession is fun, so here he’s half-convinced that his Uncle Barry really is Barry Heterodyne. He lives with the logical and emotional sides of his brain at war and constructs elaborate fantasies about what his parents are up to. I imagine him less laser-focused on making something Sparky than Agatha was… maybe his experiments exploding is a little more private?

Agatha is the Baron’s Beautiful Daughter and can bench press a car, because Klaus did the same improvements to her as he did to Gil. Not sure if she is as explicitly into the heroing hobby as Gil is in Paris, but she probably runs into a lot of trouble she can’t resist solving. Is she still a heartthrob to the ladies of Paris? Flip a coin. Does she have as much of a foot-in-mouth syndrome as Gil? I say no, since Gil’s seems to be his brain working at half power around a girl he likes and Agatha mostly powers through her own “hot boy” moments.

Agatha’s role is easy to leave static at the start of the story and Gil and Agatha are very similar people to me, but… I just have no idea who Gilgamesh Sturmvoraus would be as a person. Nature vs nurture debates whip at me relentlessly, not just because of his new family but because I don’t have a solid idea of how much of his upbringing makes up his canon self.

My only two really solid ideas for him are 1) Klaus decides that Agatha-Gil friendship could be romantic and is partially motivated to separate them by not wanting to be in-laws with the Sturmvorauses. This changes nothing but it’s funny. 2) Agatha goes “why is the only guy I click with fucking Sturmvoraus” and this is part of her designated Wulfenbach “alone forever” angst. Or maybe she does try dating… if that even goes well.

For other things… How much does Gil care about his family? Does he think becoming Storm King is a good idea? Does he manage to save Anevka? I think the bio equivalent to Anevka is probably cloning her… but again, does he even care if Aaronev is stable? Is running away an option? Is whistleblowing, once he discovers the Summoning Engine? Does he try to play incompetent like canon Tarvek or just go with being as powerful and scary as he can manage being? Does he have any self-made friends? Is he obsessed with the Muses? What’d he do with the Violetta situation? Does he like Zulenna? Does he obsess over Agatha's secrets or try to move on? Are he and Zola friends? Did Bang kidnap him with associated sexual harassment vibes? Are either Agatha or Gil library nerds?

He still dislikes Martellus, so there’s that. I like to think Agatha and Zola become friends… Truly the biggest twist of the au.

Back to the other two… Agatha gets called on having Heterodyne style possessiveness in canon, but here she’s not a Heterodyne. And does she hate Gil as long as/the same way that Gilvek hate each other? And if Tarvek’s morals are wibblier than Agatha’s, him having The Voice could be worse. Also, it’s unlikely Dr. R would grope him, but I’m sure he can get pissed off in some other way. I'm swapping Moloch because even if Tarvek is scantily clad, the Spark mix-up relies on gender assumptions.

Also, Gil is exposed to too many giant spiders for his liking. Maybe he'll get less scared of them. Or not.

[transfemme-shelterdog]

Ugh I get so annoyed when I see posts hating on transmascs who call out transandrophobia. Someone I’ve been following a lot time shared a post basically saying we just don’t have it as bad, but that that doesn’t mean we have it bad and that we don’t need to make it a competition. All the ppl reblogging were transmasc and acting like it’s so ridiculous and we’re trying to just play the victim. It seems so absurd to me because they are literally framing it as a competition by saying it’s inherently harder, when I think experiences can vary pretty hugely from person to person. They also claim that femininity is just inherently harder to obtain than masculinity but I just really can’t help but feel like that’s a completely unfounded thing to say too because masculinity is incredibly hard too. Like, I have been clocked as trans by cis people so many times for the tiniest most insignificant things, and cis dudes are always harassing each other for behavior that’s not seen as masculine enough. It’s just so upsetting because it’s such a widespread belief in the community. I have trouble finding other trans ppl irl because of where I live, but the one trans woman who I have met and am friends with is very heavy in that sort of belief and just feel exhausting that anytime I try to talk about things that have happened to me she always scoffs and acts like she thinks I’m just making it up, for whatever reason. She is a very kind person with a great heart, but it still hurts to be dismissed like that. Idk it just feels like I’m surrounded by transphobic cis people, have been assaulted both physically and sexually, and then I meet one friend who I feel like could understand but she thinks I’m just trying to compete to say I’m oppressed for no reason. I just don’t understand at why we can’t even talk about it online without being called names or ridiculed.

Speaking as someone who grew up male for 26 years, and also still presents as male in my workplace, which is majority men, I can confirm that men do in fact rip on each other for the most miniscule things. Like, if you don't do masculinity exactly how one guy does it, you're gonna get ripped on. Men are always ripping on other men, it's seen as a rite of passage and form of bonding and friendship. It's odd, but that's kinda how men are I guess. Can only imagine how much harder it would be for a trans man to try to balance masculinity just the right way so that they don't get ostracized too much.

I'm sorry that the trans woman in your life is like that. You deserve to have your voice heard, and believed. You should have someone you can vent to, and talk about your lived experiences, without being mocked or scoffed. I know I don't know you IRL, but you can always vent to me via dms, or asks, and I can respond and publish them (unless you don't want me to, just say so). I'll always be here for you, no matter what. You have at least one trans woman on your side, dear. <3

[aurore-boreal1s]

Personal review regarding what if…? season 2 episode 8 (spoilers)

No ok, I must admit, the episode was good in some aspects.

Wanda was majestic. Loki and Scott were hilarious and I loved every single moment with them.

Thor was amazing, dark and serious out of loss but still enjoyable, and the crumbs of his relationship with Hela were very nice.

I’ve actually liked Tony for the very first time in my life, probably because I tend to like him a lot more in AUs and fanfictions than I do in the normal timeline.

And then… there were those two.

I will never comprehend why marvel wants Steve to be so dependent on Peggy. And I will never comprehend why, to make him interact with her, they have to destroy or sideline every other relationship he has built, or make his character flat.

Bucky being friends with Scott was amazing, but the fact that him and Steve interacted like two times was extremely disappointing. You’d expect “best friends in every universe”, if you dislike the romantic pairing so much, to acknowledge themselves for more than a few scenes, in only one of which they’re in frame together (Bucky was literally 😐 while his best friend disappeared, come on now).

And the storyline about Peggy coming from another world to save the universe was just… Mbah. It could’ve been executed in another way without including her and it still would have made sense. It really feels like a Y/N insert.

Seeing literally any other character was so good, so fun, and they had to ruin it this way, making Peggy once again the self insert and girlboss she didn’t need to be.

Plus, forgive my constant complaining, but it’s extremely infuriating how all of Steve’s friends were eliminated to put the focus solely on Peggy. Where’s Sam? Where’s Nat? Where’s Clint? It’s not an underrated friendship we’re talking about, a big chunk of the fandom loves the cap quartet or team cap, and after civil war it would have been nice to see them interact, especially after its popularity and popular demand. Outlaw team cap would have been glorious, a good chance to bring back many characters who aren’t here anymore in the right way, and involve characters that are rarely involved in What if in the storyline, for a change.

The treatment of Sam in this series particularly angers me, and even more so in this episode. I understand not involving him in other storylines, but Sam was a big part of CATWS and he wasn’t even in the episode centered on that film. What, because Steve met him while running he can’t be introduced in any other way? And oh, there’s no excuse for this episode. If there was one episode they could have placed Sam in, it was this one. Sam was there in infinity war, where the mess happened, and he should have been with the other avengers in this one.

If marvel wanted to involve someone from another universe so bad, it should have been a Captain America Sam from another universe. Can you imagine the poetry of seeing Steve and Nat again after endgame? Can you imagine having closure with them both, and having fun in the process? It would have been so great.

Another great storyline without involving characters from other universes would have been one where Steve, who touched the time stone, accidentally brought everyone in the past, and he was the only one to remember it. And to go back and prevent everyone’s distraction, he had to recruit the avengers, who don’t know him and don’t trust him but that in the end become his friends and companions. It would have been so interesting to see the original avengers involved in something different from being some side characters or extras in the one woman show that seems to be What if, constantly centered around the same bland, one dimensional reimagined side character. Peggy’s blandness is so obvious in these episodes (aside for some random remarks that made me smile) that literally everyone who’s involved directly with her must be bland like her, otherwise risking to overshadow her.

I don’t think I was supposed to cringe and look away as much as I did during Steggy’s forced scenes, but I did. If they had to force Steggy and Peggy down our throats, at least they could have done something different from the same bland and boring storyline as always. I wouldn’t be as mad as I am now if Peggy and Steve’s relationship wasn’t as bland. I would have preferred an enemies to lovers type of twist or change, where Steve doesn’t trust Peggy and struggles with her because he sees in her a different version of the Peggy that died in that universe. But noooo, god forbid, let’s go with the same old song.

An episode five or ten minutes longer with a better, avengers-centric or Steve-centric storyline would have been much better than what we got.

And given that this was my most anticipated episode, I was very disappointed by it. I hope for the next seasons, if there’s other ones, Marvel will listen to the general complaint regarding Peggy and will give her a break. I don’t think any of the original avengers or relevant MCU characters made as much appearances as Peggy, and being a main focus in four episodes out of nine is ridiculous.

[chaoticunicornsworld]

about Neil Newbon fandom

My native language is not English so if you find grammar error please forgive me.

So here is the thing about Neil Newbon. He is a real person in a real world with a real life. And he works as an actor/artist. For money. Also, I can imagine he is working for fun, but first, for money. His work contains impersonations of fictional character's voices and movements. And also it contains keeping touch with fans. When he streams he is not your friend or boyfriend and he is not an object, he is working. You don’t know shit about him, you just collect the crumbs of his public persona. And as somebody who works in customer service i can tell, it can be different from the real person. I can be flirtatious if it serves the cause, even if I don’t exactly like the people in front of me. I can smile, I can be kind and helpful, I can listen, I can make them seen. And the next moment I can do the same with the next customer. And It's not a lie it’s not manipulating, I just use my customer service persona. And sometimes the stories what i hear can touch me. It is a tiring mental work, it can be overwhelming sometimes as well. So when you buy his prints or cameos, you don’t buy him, or his friendship. You just buy a piece of art, and you can think you buy to be seen for a moment. But if you have to buy to be seen by someone, better find a counselor or a therapist as he always suggests in those videos. If you play BG3, and romance Astarion, there is a scene where he tells you his favorite lines, and at some point he tells you „I love you”. And if you choose „it is to soon” he tells you it can be true if only for this night. That’s what you get from Neil, his attention for that moment. If you watch his streams you can notice people pay to write messages that can be mentioned by him. That’s working for money. Even, if he enjoy it. And I’m not against supporting his work, but please don’t use him as a therapist, or sex object. 

Also about the thirst. I’m a fully functioning woman, so I’m not denying that he is attractive and sexy, and the edits on tiktok about him can be really dirty. I feel ashamed when I see them even if they can affect me. Again, those pictures and videos are not him, those are his roles. Even if they are from interviews, or from public events. Those are the characters played by Neil. (And yes, there can be a character for Neil Newbon as a public person.) Not him. Please try to contain yourself, don’t embarrass yourself and don't objectify him, or anyone else. It’s humiliating. You can bring back the energy to your real life with your real partner, it could make your relationship better. Be aware, what you see isn't Neil, it is his art. How would you feel if somebody used a piece of art from you to look at you as a sex object? How would your partner feel about it? What do you think, how his wife feels about it? Or how will his daughter feel when she sees them?

And last. If you claim you “Love him” and then feel happy about that made up scenario as he is single, you don’t know about love at all. First of all, how could you love somebody you don’t know? What do you love about him? I can tell you, you love your imaginations about him. And it’s a form of avoiding real relationships when you love fictional and/or unavailable persons. You don’t have to face real emotions, if you chose that path. But it is not real. It’s a maladaptive coping mechanism. But If we accept theoretically that you “Love him”, and you tell you are happy because his marriage ended and he is single, that also isn’t love. It’s more like possessing. (And I can’t even tell if it’s true or just made up by some twisted mind.) Do you really think love means being happy for someone being unhappy? Do you really think if he is single then a person like you, with your mindset can be a real pair for him? Keep your dignity please, and let the real person keep his boundaries.

[whiskerknittles]

This Is A Jenna D’Sora Callout Post

Most of you won’t know her by name, but this is the despicable ensign who briefly dated Data in the season 4 episode “In Theory”. I hate this woman. She fills me with a rage so intense I can’t even describe it—but that won’t stop me from trying!

Background: D’Sora, after leaving a relationship with an emotionally unavailable boyfriend, decided to try a relationship with Data because they had similar interests and enjoyed spending time together. The relationship fell apart when D’Sora told Data that he, by virtue of being an android, is even more emotionally unavailable than her ex, and they break up.

Thesis: Data was the most authentic and attentive partner anyone could ever ask for, and D’Sora is an idiot.

Evidence:

1. D’Sora routinely disrupts and changes their plans, doesn’t communicate her own needs, and flat out lies* to Data multiple times in the episode. In fact, she disrupts his personal time in order to start one of their dates early, denies that’s why she showed up, and then when he accepts her denial as the truth and goes back to what he’s doing, she gets upset. What is up with that?!??

(*lie is probably a strong word to anyone who knows what I’m talking about—the thing in relationships where someone says something like “oh no I’m not mad” when they are or “oh we don’t have to do that” when they specifically do want to do that. It’s some kind of mind reading game you’re supposed to master to prove that you love your partner because expecting honesty and explicit communication goes against the rules of romance, apparently.)

2. Data not only pursues the relationship despite having no experience in romantic intimacy, he writes himself an entire program to help him perform romantic behaviors. Sure the code wasn’t perfect, but it was a massive effort and also a work in progress! I guarantee Data built other intimacy programs in the past (friendship at the minimum) that he spent a lot of time working bugs out of, but he didn’t have to write a romance code—he did it explicitly for her!!

3. She gets upset when she asks Data what he was thinking about when they were kissing and his first thought wasn’t her. I get why that could be seen as a sign he doesn’t care, but as a person with a partner whom I kiss with regularity, sometimes you’ve got other shit on your mind! It’s not that you don’t care or don’t want to kiss them, it’s that mushing mouths together really doesn’t take up that much brain power and if you’re doing it for any length of time you’re gonna think about other stuff! If that’s true for humans, imagine how it must be for an android built to do literally hundreds, THOUSANDS, of calculations all at the same time. That’s not a sign he’s emotionally unavailable, that’s just how his brain works!!

Conclusion: there’s actually a bunch more I could say on the point of Data having emotions that we as humans just can’t understand, and everyone’s emotional needs are different. However! Data was not the failing partner in their romantic venture, it was 100% D’Sora, who has a 20th century attitude toward romance in the 24th century future (yeah I know the writers are from the 20th century, that’s no excuse) and the fact that she walked away from it implying that Data wasn’t enough for a human romantic partnership is a crock. If given an opportunity to make out with Data I’d do it, and I wouldn’t be a coward about it

[moyazaika]

Buckle up Genie because I finally got the chance to read “Blood in the water”. I had wanted to read as soon as it dropped but couldn’t until yesterday.

After reading the title I was reminded of a song’s lyrics “We'll never get free // Lamb to the slaughter // What you gon' do when there's blood in the water? // The price of your greed is your son and your daughter // What you gon' do when there's blood in the water?”

Anyways lets begin reading. I keep thinking darling/the knight could somehow be covered in grime or dirt or something like that, the water is gonna be so dirty- Nevermind, the way I actually cackled when the blood was mentioned 😭 Like “Oh, dirt wont be something that they have to worry about”

This line kicked me, stabbed me 20 times and then roasted me “You swore you would follow this man to the ends of the world and yet, he does not even trust you in his darkest hours?” A month ago I had to end a friendship with someone who I saw as a best friend due to lack of communication and more issues. Honestly I don’t want to say more because I know I’ll rant and I got my friends tired of listening. I’m getting better.

I began doing exercise, got back into drawing and I’m thinking of finally getting back into writing (the blog I have was meant to be for writing but… yeah). Btw, would it be okay if I ever showed you random stuff I drew that is perhaps unrelated to your oc’s or stuff like that?? It’s okay if not, don’t want to impose myself. 🫶🏼

ANYWAYS LETS GET BACK TO BUSINESS. I like how with some of your yanderes, they remind me of a sly fox or cat. Specifically one playing with their prey. Yet here I wouldn’t say darling fits into what I would think is the mouse or deer prey. There’s a clear power play, alright, but here this doesn’t feel like a snake coiling around it’s prey like Valentino or a fox playing with the mouse like Kean.

This reminds me more of a dog and their owner. Not a fully trained dog, as the prince speaks to them sometimes chastising them. But also not as a puppy because the knight is already somehow trained to exist, kill and die for the prince. Their whole world revolves around the prince, their life is intertwined with his.

“Please don’t turn me into an accesory” YES, this darling’s relationship with the prince reminds me of a dog and it’s owner. I had to check if I was actually correct and after some reading I found out that dogs build a deep sense of identity and purpose around their “job” and when that purpose is taken away they feel lost. They might seem withdrawn, restless, anxious, or even show physical signs like refusing food or sleeping more. In a way, it’s almost like grief. If the change is handled with care most dogs eventually adjust, but like, obviously in the knight’s place it wasn’t handled with care. The prince tightened the leash without giving them a second to breathe.

“why would you strip me of who i am? why would you strip me of who i have always been?” I can’t put onto words how much I loved this. Chef kiss, beautiful. Stunning. I had to stand up and clap /j AND HOW DARLING BEGS AND JUST- like they know they can’t change anything, I’m- I’m alright, I 😭

My brain works in… mysterious ways, so I was reminded of an scene from the movie “The last Unicorn” where a wizard rescues The Unicorn by turning her into a mortal woman. Molly, another character, breaks into heartbroken sobs, and The Unicorn is utterly horrified.

“You hear me? You’ve lost her! You’ve trapped her in a human body! She’ll go mad! // “What have you done to me? I’m a unicorn! I’m a UNICORN! I wish you would let the Red Bull (the antagonist) take me. I wish you would’ve left me to the harpy! I can feel this body dying all around me!”

Don’t know if what I wanted to show makes sense buy yeah, I deeply enjoy how you deal with the loss of identity. I can’t even put into words how much I love reading and seeing and feeling and AHHHH. Imagine myself flailing my hands and walking around in circles, and that’s exactly how I get while reading. I want to write even more because everything should be appreciated and analyzed but I think I’ll end yapping about the same stuff and I can’t write my thoughts into what I want. Genie, as always you leave me speechless.

Good luck on your essay. May luck and pure spite be on your side. Send you good luck and good vibes 🍀

— ❤️‍🩹 nonnie.

WAAAahAHhww if there's one thing i LOVE and adore it's gotta be a line by line analysis of someone's fav parts of my writing you really are spoiling me with this ask nonnie ily

it's always such a treat hearing from you because you pretty much hit the nail on the head as always LMAO the loyal guard dog trope is one of my favs so it was a treat to subvert it where the yandere is the one in control and the darling's more of a lovestruck, sorta wayward puppy if anything (loyal to a fault; a little out of line, but nothing a firm loving hand can't correct)

and honestly i would love to see your art !!!! obviously i'm no critic but i like appreciating pretty things when i see them :)

and,,, yeah,,,,, the essay ended up being okay--i submitted it with 15 minutes to spare lmao that was an intense 12 hours (and w no caffeine too,,,,) so pls remind me to never do that to myself again :'))) i'm hoping for a credit but even a pass would be crazy HAHA

thank you for such a sweet message, please take care of yourself nonnie and i hope everything goes well for you <3

[rere9500-18]

Let me just talk about this hug because this friendship makes me emotional.

The moment, and I mean, the literal MOMENT Gwen jumped through that portal, Miles was confused. (Hell, the moment he saw the portal open, he was so confused.) Confused as to how exactly Gwen was able to do so, considering he thought there was no other way to travel across universes. (He was actively studying quantum physics in order to someday figure out how to visit the other spiders.) And Gwen just falls out of the multiversal sky and lands on his bed.

He has questions. Tons of them; a lot he cannot get out due to the amount of shock he’s in. Seeing Gwen again wasn’t on his weekday list for that week. What was happening?

But, then Gwen runs to hug him.

And it’s like something clicked in Miles’ mind. He doesn’t know what it exactly was and he still has lots of questions in store later, but a part of him feels like that hug, that tight embrace, was somehow him realizing Gwen just needs him right now.

He doesn’t know how she got there or why in that moment, but his quick transition to “How did you.. How did you do-… How have you been?” with his light-hearted pats on her back? It almost completely assured Gwen that going to see Miles, even though she wasn’t supposed to, was worth it. To see someone she herself thought she might not see again was an opportunity she could not turn down.

“Look at you! You grew, huh? You had a little growth spurt!”

This statement can kind of tie into Gwen’s future statement of “Feelings make me hungry”, for many reasons.

Of course she’s not hungry now (as far as we know), but she is dealing with some of her emotions right now. Seeing Miles again brings a tornado of emotions out of her. Some seen and some not. The obvious one excitement/happiness at getting to see her friend again after a long time. She’s awkward with her emotions (as all teenagers can be), but it’s clear she’s very happy to see Miles. And him her.

One emotion that may not be seen to Miles in the moment (but maybe seen to the audience as the movie progresses) is how scared she is. She’s technically not supposed to be seeing Miles right now, so she’s taking a risk as far as reasons go for why Miles wasn’t supposed to be apart of this.

Speaking of which, let’s talk about the scene where Gwen tells Jess she’ll never see Miles again.

I know I’ve spoke about how that hurt Miles in another post of mine (Miles and his abandonment issues), but we also need to realize how that statement itself also hurts Gwen. Alot actually.

Imagine waiting a long time to see someone and then the opportunity to do so presents itself. You take it, but in doing so, you risk that person getting brought into something they’re supposedly not supposed to be brought into. But then when you try to fix it, they’re already brought into it.

Gwen loves Miles. She wouldn’t try to hurt him on purpose, but her situation isn’t very nice to her at the moment. She isn’t to blame for her dad not accepting her being Spider-Woman (at first), she’s not to blame for basically becoming homeless, she’s not to blame for wanting to see her best friend again, she’s not to blame for said best friend following her to a different universe. Neither of them are to blame. They’re teenagers in difficult situations and they’re currently learning as they go.

It hurts Gwen to realize the ‘good’ days may be gone, but she has hope that they’re still there, waiting to come back out again.

Idk. I just don’t think outright thinking Gwen or Miles did something wrong on purpose in this movie is.. good? They made mistakes (on cue, the Spot. On cue, Gwen accidentally killing her Peter not knowing he was the Lizard). As Spider-people, they’ll learn, grow, and always get back up.

And try to bond over just how strong they can be when they have each other to lean onto when they feel like they can’t get back up.

[im-out-of-it]

the most unrealistic and chaotic thing for me to come out of TID is how Gabriel goes through his trauma of having to kill his own father and get himself some growth, Will literally gets nothing and his behavior is basically accepted

but what’s crazier is that Gabriel says to Will “I thought once we could be friends” and then Will makes a whole joke about it. no one in their right mind would keep Will around

I’m just saying if you have a Will, Jace, or even James around- you would be cutting off that motherfucker so quick before he could say hello

and also how many times does Gabriel have to make amends with Will? I swear this is literally just like the merry thieves with Alastair. why do these men have to go out of their way to get accepted into the little herondale circle while the herondales don’t do anything to make amends?

look it’s been years since I read TID but I do not recall a time where Will tried to make amends. a little sorry isn’t going to cut it. I don’t remember him actually trying to be better or showing growth

why does Gabriel have to go out of his way to be all nice and kind to Will while Will continues to treat Gabriel horribly? how he makes a song and a joke of Gabriel’s trauma and no one bats a fucking eye but Gabriel makes one dumb joke about Jem and all of a sudden he’s a monster. the disability jokes aren’t in good taste (and I make my own disability jokes due to having some) but as far as bad behavior goes, Gabriel is not as bad as Will is

can you imagine if Gabriel made a joke and a song out of Will’s fake curse????? oh there would be hell to pay because if you’re not a herondale, you can’t be outright nasty and get away with it

so why does Gabriel keep having to make all these damn amends while everyone looks at Will and basically says “hasn’t he been though a lot????”

and another unrealistic thing is, Cecily is shown to be this thing young woman/teenager who stands her own and calls out toxic behavior- so why does she just ignore how Will treats Gabriel?????

and I won’t go into TLH because let’s not forget when little Alexander gets tortured and almost dies and how Gabriel and Cecily can’t get a word in but yeah let’s make it all about Will and Tessa- or how we don’t get to see their reactions to Christopher dying but hold the fucking phone, Will and Tessa must have sex at this very moment

Cecily loves Gabriel and I’m sorry but if I’m with someone and my sibling is being a dick for no reason, I’m calling them out. if my boundaries aren’t working then they are out of my life!!!!!!! WHY ISNT CECILY DOING ANYTHING WHY DOES SHE PUT UP WITH WILL??????

ALSO ALSO ALSO Will treats Cecily horribly when she tries to be a part of wills life and he does it in the name of “protection”. it’s so unrealistic for someone of Cecily character to stand around to be treated this way and also watch the love of her life be treated wrongly

if Will has that much of a problem with Gabriel, he needs to get his shit together and get it figured out. because I don’t recall Will ever growing up. and he still “teases” Gabriel but I’m sure if Gabriel threw a punch back, Will would cry and say how horrible Gabriel is to him

to me, it doesn’t seem to be this bickering teasing friendship they have. I think that Will 100% has a problem with Gabriel and won’t grow up and get over his shit so he puts all this hostility to Gabriel and it’s accepted

(my dream fanfic is where Cecily goes off on Will and defends Gabriel)

it’s like Will can be insufferable and rude to everyone but hell, they can’t be rude back to him or call his toxic ass out

[dutchforstrangers]

I like you in a skirt - Taiora drabble

For @taioraweek 2023 Day 2

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A/N: Here’s a drabble of a concept that has been sitting in my WIPs for what feels like ages. I’m exaggerating obviously, but it’s an idea that has stuck and now’s finally the time to give it a stage. Non-established Taiora, taking place in my "About all the times" universe [x][x].

Loosely ‘based’ on this fanart of Sora holding her school uniform skirt (and looking absolutely disgusted by it).

Summary: Middle school is approaching which means: school uniforms for both Taichi and Sora. Taichi has a hard time imagining Sora -the tomboy- in a skirt, but when he actually sees her...

Day 2: School days | Characters: Taichi Yagami (POV), Sora Takenouchi, Koushiro Izumi | Genre: Friendship | Rating: K | Wordcount: 732

“A skirt…”

“Don’t tell me you aren’t aware of the fact that girls do indeed have to wear skirts in middle and high school, Taichi-san.”

“Yeah, I’m aware. It’s just… I don’t think I can imagine her in a skirt.”

Taichi stared at the closed curtains of the fitting room their female friend was currently in. He had to admit that to some extent, he had liked the idea of seeing girls wearing skirts on a daily base soon. But after seeing the horror in her eyes, holding up the to her hideous thing, he was a tad more careful with what he liked.

He repeated her words in his mind like a broken record playing.

“I do not want to wear a skirt.”

The image of her holding up the thing between only her thumbs and index fingers, the other six fingers keeping a distance to the fabric as if it was the filthiest thing she had ever seen and held, remained stuck with those repeating words.

Sorry was what he felt for her. In fact, Taichi was so sorry he had been trying to come up with what he thought were solutions. To make her laugh, like he always tried. He should’ve known though he would never succeed, like he had not done yet.

“Maybe you can ask to wear trousers instead?”

“And being the only girl wearing trousers? No.”

“Or you could wear the trousers over the skirt.”

“That still makes me the only girl wearing trousers. It’s also one of the stupidest things I’ve ever heard. So no.”

“Okay, theeeeen… the only option left is burning it and go to school in your underpants!”

“Ugh, I can’t with you!”

He would only make her more mad and annoyed with him.

Koushiro had looked at him like he had seen him looking at him a thousand times, scolding him for being stupid with only his eyes, shaking head and sighs.

In a way, however, Taichi had succeeded. Simply because giving her those rather crazy options made her step into the fitting room and close the curtains shut behind her. And she had not entered it solely to be rid of him, but probably to try the skirt on anyway.

She was stubborn like that and when it came to Taichi, she needed to prove her right of the skirt being awful. Little did she know he was never going to give her that right, even when he had a hard time imagining her wearing one.

She had been in his soccer team for as long as he could remember, always playing alongside the boys. Besides, she wasn’t just playing games as she was one of the few players who could actually score a goal. People would always describe her as the tomboy, the girl who was wearing the pants in every sense and meaning. But she wasn’t as tough as she looked most of the time, under that hard exterior hidden a gentle and caring young woman.

Taichi recalled the times in the Digital World where she had a hard time accepting her Crest. In the end, there was nothing to accept, all she needed was the strength to look at herself in the mirror and see the girl she already but unknowingly was. 

The skirt contained the same symbolism. It was the one thing she needed to finally see what feminine potential she was hiding inside.

And underneath those jeans she was always wearing.

He watched the curtain slowly open, revealing his friend dressed in the green colored school uniform. His eyes boldly scanned her from top to bottom, stopping at her skirt for a bit longer, his eyes unable to deny the long legs it was exposing.

A blush started to form on his cheeks.

“What do you guys think?” She asked sounding a bit insecure, her comfortable level low, but not as low and annoyed as it was before.

“I think it suits you better than how you pictured it, Sora-san,” Koushiro answered politely with a warm smile. It made Sora smile back shyly.

“I—erm…” Taichi started, trying to find the right words to say. Pity he could only come up with more stupid-sounding ones.

“I like you in a skirt.”

“Baka,” Sora said, unable to hide the red shade quickly appearing, fumbling with the skirt she was wearing like your typical shy school girl.

[bsdtakanenohana]

My Opinion On Every Single Bungou Stray Dogs Ship

Part Ten- Yaoi Ships V

This is the biggest category of ships so expect a few more parts to be of these!

Parts Six, Seven, Eight, and Nine. Search #bsd ships on my account for more.

Fyoya/Fyodor Dostoyevsky x Chuuya Nakahara: Do people actually ship this? I mean y’all do ship almost anything so probably. I think it’s stupid. No i can’t give more detail. 0/10

Fyozai/ Fyodor Dostoyevsky x Osamu Dazai: This ship is kinda funny (idk) so I like seeing some memes about it. But other than that it’s… no. Sorry guys Fyodor is pretty unshippable. 1.5/10

Their reactions when they hear people ship them^

GiyuZai/ Osamu Dazai x Giyu Tomioka: Who tf is Giyu? *opens Google* Oh he’s that dude from Demon Slayer. I just started watching that. Um, he’s barely appeared in the episodes I’ve seen, so idk much about him and why there’s a crossover ship with Dazai. But ok. -/10

Gozai/ Osamu Dazai x Satoru Gojo: Oh my gosh. Nice crackship. I saw the first season of JJK so I know why this is a joke ship. 1/10

IceDoc/ Ice Man x Doc: Imagine if fans of the Flags put as much effort into fleshing out the female characters in this series as they do five guys who died years before the beginning of the series and only show up for one chapter of a book. Even putting that effort into an OC would be time better spent. 0/10

Jonozai/ Osamu Dazai x Saigiku Jouno: It wouldn’t work. In any iteration. 0.5/10

KuniAtsu/ Atsushi Nakajima x Doppo Kunikida: I’ve never heard of this ship, so I’m kinda curious about the reasonings behind it. I mean I can see why y’all find them interesting. But I don’t think their personalities would work in a romantic relationship. My opinion is the same no matter who’s a man or woman. 2.5/10

KuniAku/ Doppo Kunikida x Ryuunosuke Akutagawa: This is because of BEAST right? I haven’t read that yet, so I can’t form an opinion on this ship for that AU. For the canon universe, it doesn’t make any sense. But I will refrain from ranking it for now. -/10

KuniBram/ Doppo Kunikida x Bram Stoker: This is because they’re both a new/better father figure for Aya, right? So together they would be her dads, making people want to see them in a romantic relationship like parents are supposed to be. Okay. This seems funny to me, but idk if it could happen? We would have to see more of Bram’s personality first (which probs won’t happen lol RIP). 1.5/10

KuniChuu/ Doppo Kunikida x Chuuya Nakahara: I never understood this ship. It’s like for people who want to ship both SKK and KNDZ but then get annoyed at Dazai and want to see the relationship without him. I’ve seen people say things like “they’d be besties because they’d be able to complain about being partners with Dazai and dealing with his antics!” and I could see them complaining together, but Chuuya would find Kunikida annoying to deal with just as he gets annoyed with Dazai. Does Chuuya seem like the type that could stand to be around someone who is such a stickler for certain things the way Kunikida is? 🙂‍↔️ I think Chuuya’s personality wouldn’t be too much for Kunikida in that it would prevent a friendship but it would prevent a romantic relationship. 2/10

[vivianbernadetteaurora]

Beyoncé

In the words of Wendy Williams, “she can’t read she’s got a six grade, I’m glad we’re going to use my kitchen TV because it’s got closed captions so I’ll be able to understand everything she saying”., Did you know that Beyoncé can’t read?. no Beyoncé talks like a sixth grader, that’s Wendy not me, but I kinda get what she’s saying. Back then Beyoncé spoke like that., very childlike could be however mercury, Mercury sign, that can sometimes the time and what your voice is going to sound like in astrology.

But what I love about all these pictures here, that Beyoncé can’t save her life around Kim Kardashian. now let’s add that to the end and take it out again and that’s their whole friendship, Kim likes to think that they are friends. I naive Libra Arse can’t see that they’re not. If you look at all these pictures she’s even getting annoyed at north. I know the camera can’t catch you. It really awkward but moments but you can also catch it in the truth. Some fashion show really shouldn’t and Beyoncé has got a completely different view., kids are at home with the nanny of course. Well Beyoncé, sees her PR team. Taking the pictures of her with the baby.

Beyoncé knows how to do pr, but this is the wrong time, her PR is like not making me talk in an interview but also making me look good, Kim’s PR is making me look like a good parent by walking down the street and taking, or anything else for that matter these guys will do anything a good PR, everyone else look bad, I MEAN PRINCE EVEN GOT SICK OF HER ARSE, HE CALLED HER UP ON THE STAGE . And then he’s like bitch get off the stage .

Now that was probably a stunt too , although with Prince I wouldn’t be surprised , he is a Scorpio rising after , also a Gemini sun man , he didn’t like the Kardashians, but Kim was everything he wanted in a girl, a little bit dumb, dark, dark features, natural stunning body, I know ha ha ha, but looking natural to some degree.

Look at this post was meant to be about Beyoncé and I’ve gone into Kim Kardashian, but Kim annoyed a lot of celebrities along with her family. Especially that woman .. she often brings up on keeping up with the Kardashians and the Kardashians on Disney. and being at Beyoncé’s parties come on you’re making yourself look silly. Can you imagine that if had been born in the mid 70s so just five years back? She would’ve been a prince girl I don’t know if she grew up quite privileged so who knows . Now what are my reasons for Beyoncé not liking her. look at the pictures at first and you can see how far she can’t act as the captions say. 

Kind of like a Carmen Electra, but Carmen had the, street smarts, the edge that, prince was want to of said to her don’t ever, dye hair 👱🏽‍♀️. If that Carmen needs to really be in this slide, specially I’ve had prince, and then she got with Dennis Rodman, and Dave Navarro two very different but very similar men. Different on the fact that of their personalities maybe and what they do., same because they both like girly things, can be quite feminine. Kind like Prince.

When the elevator situation happened with Beyoncé, Solange and Jay-Z, Beyoncé couldn’t hide her face and that, or actually she did pretty well she smirk 😏 . A lot like Solange can hide her face either while sat next to one of the Kardashians it looks like here. and she sure couldn’t eat here either., that was iconic at 2014 moment. And the Solange, love you for that.

Here is the terrible acting, PR nightmares, PR winners, being a Kardashian and being a superstore