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Stockholm Week 10: Grind Before Barcelona
Hi! I canât believe that itâs already the end of March. Isnât that crazy? It still feels like late February to me.Â
Iâm bringing this up because my trip to Barcelona is coming up real fast. I am leaving on the 27th when the Explorative Travel Week begins! We get a week off as a travel break; certain elective courses travel as a class during that week, but I am not in any of those electives so I get a week off from school. Hurray!Â
The number 1 country I wanted to travel to was Spain, and I am finally going there next week. That also means that this week has been rough, catching up with all the homework and finishing up projects before the break.Â
3/18 Mon: (the best news) Class Canceled!Â
On Monday, the only class I had switched to online at the last minute due to traffic issues.Â
I took the opportunity to call my boyfriend and my mom while I worked on my assignments the entire day. I slept earlier than usual, around 11 pm, to treat myself :)Â
3/19 Tue: Spicy Uno
We have been watching this Netflix series called The Chestnut Man in the Scandinavian Crime Fiction class, and I have been on my nerves since the start of the show. The plot and the music interact too well to the point that I have to cover my ears and close my eyes every now and then. I hate horror movies but I would say this is an extremely well-played thriller/detective show. I recommend it to anyone who likes mystery/crime genre!Â
When Iâm at home, I always have to try very hard to refrain from watching the rest of the episodes on my own. It has been a difficult battle but I made it to the 5th episode (out of 7) without binge-watching it alone.Â
I didnât know (and wouldnât have known) that crime fiction was so popular in the Scandinavian region before I took this class. I can see why itâs so famous; all the books and films are quite good! I always look forward to starting a new book or series in class. This course has been my absolute favorite class in Stockholm :)Â
During lunchtime, I surprisingly met a new friend whoâs going to Barcelona on the same day!!! She and her friend booked their flight yesterday, so I never heard about them when I was asking everyone if theyâd like to join our Barcelona trip. The most surprising part was that her friend turned out to be my friend who always sat next to me in two classes! We exchanged numbers to talk more about the trip.Â
Afterward, I went to Arkivet, a second-hand store on the higher end. There are high-quality clothes that are in good conditionâall the way from H&M and Zara to COS, BOSS, and Coach. Although it is a bit more expensive than other stores like Myrona or Stockholm Stadsmission, the pool is much better in my opinion. I bought a Tommy Hilfiger trench coat for $70!Â
There are so many buttons on this coat
Happy with my purchase, I came back home and made Alfredo pasta for dinner. I have been CRAVING creamy pasta and it momentarily satisfied my yearning. I need to go to an Italian restaurant and get a good alfredo spaghetti soon.Â
I threw some chicken and sausage in there too :)Â
That night, my friends and I all gathered around my room to play Spicy Uno. My friend taught us the extra rules and it was a lot more fun than I expected. Towards the end, we even incorporated Never Have I Ever into the game (ŕ¸ËâË)ว
After they all left, I couldnât sleep right away because of the sugar rush from all the goodies we ate (ice cream, jellies, chips, chocolate bars, and wafers).Â
I blame this sugar rush for the catastrophe that happened a few minutes later.Â
I was peacefully putting on a new set of fake nails until the nail glue fell down on my joggers. I can definitely say that it was an exothermic reaction because where the glue spilled was hot. Thankfully, I was able to separate my pants from my thighs by lifting it up a little bit, but my pants did not survive the accident.Â
Picture that captures the moment of the tragic incidentÂ
If anyone knows how to remove nail glue on clothes please let me know ( â˘Ě ĚŻâ˘ď˝ĄĚ )
3/20 Wed: Skansen Open-Air Museum!Â
Todayâs field trip for our Swedish class was Skansen, the worldâs first open-air museum!Â
The escalator was endless and the area of the museum was unparalleled to any other museums I visited. We had a full experience with the tour guideâwe even got to go into houses from the 1700s and see reindeer!Â
Us inside the houses
More cool photos:Â
Some cool facts:Â
Going to church was obligatory: people were officially tested on their bible knowledge and the answers were recorded!Â
Each house was numbered (well over two thousand pieces for each house), deconstructed, relocated, and reconstructed in the museum!Â
After free fika with the entire class, my friend and I hung out around T-Centralen. We went to cafes, second-hand stores (again), and the system. We headed back to the hog together.Â
For the rest of the night, I worked on the insurmountable group project for my online ChemE class until 4 am⌠;)Â
3/21 Thu: Reeeaaaading
I woke up early to do the pre-lecture homework for the classes. Despite dozing off for a few minutes here and there, I finished the assignment!Â
For Fridayâs class, I started and finished reading half of The Wolf and the Watchman by Niklas Natt och Dag. Iâm starting to spot the similarities in the settings of the crime fiction novels!Â
3/22-3/23 Fri-Sat: Zoom Meetings
I devoted two whole days to working on the group project. I had a series of Zoom sessions with the Professor and then with teammates.Â
Cooking and doing laundry was my time off from work!Â
When I was done with the project around 11 pm Saturday, I started scavenging for English-guided tours for Barcelona. The tickets were rapidly selling out!Â
I managed to get an English tour of Sagrada Familia and Park Guell. They were expensive, but when would I ever have the chance to visit Spain? With that mindset, I joyfully paid for the events.Â
3/24 Sun: Planning Barcelona..
My body weighed 200 tons today and wouldnât have gotten out of bed until 2 pm if it wasnât for the Barcelona planning meeting I scheduled with my friends.Â
We met at Downtown Camper Cafe in T-Centralen and stayed there for three hours, making reservations and finalizing schedules. We are ready to fly to Barcelona!Â
The bathroom was fancy
Again, when I got home, I cooked and did more homework.
Tada!
With the energy I gained from dinner, I was able to work on the group project until I got burnt out at 9 pm. I called my mom for a little (meaning 1.5 hours) and did some more work before going to sleep.Â
I am SO excited to share my experience in Barcelona next week!Â
Stay tuned for new, rejuvenating adventures coming soon!!!Â
Tack, Â
Jiwoo KimÂ
Chemical Engineering
DIS Study Abroad in Stockholm, Sweden
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â Aren't you in the least bit interested in what [phone ringing] is all about? Perhaps some killing or a murder? â No.
#ultraviolet#ultravioletedit#ola serafin#michal holender#ultraviolet 2017#edits#i binged it yesterday on netflix and i am have many many feelings about the whole show#but these two mostly#ola x michal
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Hello there! I really hope I'm not late for the Freddy Carter event and I'm very sorry if I am...but, if I'm not, can I annoy you with a platonic request, please? Since I'm late because I wasn't feeling well, can you write something about Pin trying to cheer his sister up while she's sick, please?
FREDDY EVENT, send in requests for any of Freddy Carter's characters (NOT the man himself (= no Freddy Carter (the real person) x readers), only his characters)!! The event will be on for an indefinite time, if you're unsure, see if the event post is pinned. If it is, then it's still on. (Other requests are open too, but they go to my normal to-do list which I'm not able to start doing til March at earliest)
I have a soft spot for platonic stuff as well, they seem to be super easy to write for some reason! Even when I do crush on Freddy's characters romantically, writing platonic stuff is refreshing after so many romantic pieces. Though I feel like this isn't very good, mean anons kind of made me more critical towards my own writing again. But I hope this isn't as bad as I see it. As always, feedback makes me more motivated and confident about my writing so please leave some, it helps a lot and brings a big smile on my face đ
Word count: 574
Your nose was leaking, your throat and head hurt and you were cold, even under three blankets. Becoming sick was never fun, but why today of all days? You had been looking forward to the beach trip for weeks, which Bright Fields had set up but now they were going without you, having fun without you.
You had tried to read and watch some Netflix shows yesterday, but you hadn't been able to focus on anything except the pain in your head, it felt like someone pounded your brain with a hammer.
Not everything was terrible, though. Your brother being a Duke gave you a warm room in a luxurious castle with a comfortable bed, with more snacks and drinks than ever before. Arthur would check on you once an hour, asking if you needed anything, and he would do anything you wanted to ask, and he was expert in anything. Even hot cocoa made by him felt luxurious. And when you had told him that your head hurts, he had made you some medicine. It tasted absolutely terrible, but it took your headache and throat pain away anyway, and you could finally binge a new show from the giant TV propped up on the wall across from your bed. The show was cheesy and full of cliches, but you needed something like that, where you didn't have to think much.
"The Duke- your brother is here," Arthur's voice snapped you out of the show, and you turned your head to the door. Pin appeared behind him, and nodded to Arthur as he passed him, sending him off and stepped into your room. You paused the show and frowned, wasn't he supposed to be on that beach trip?
"How are you holding up?" he asked as he sat beside your bed, taking a look on the pile of tissues on your lap.
"Better, my nose is still leaking and I'm still cold, but Arthur is doing his best to take care of me," you answered, your voice slightly raspy. "But... aren't you supposed to be on that beach trip? Oh, please don't say you dropped out because of me."
Pin shook his head. "We called it off for today. We'll go there when you're better."
The thought of the team caring about you so much getting to go with them made you smile. "That's comforting to hear. Really. Say thanks for me."
Pin nodded and turned to look at the television. "What are you watching?"
You chuckled nervously, suddenly embarrassed. "Well, it's this really stupid show, but it's also kind of wholesome? I don't know." You made a move to shut down Netflix, but Pin stopped you by snatching the remote and smirked.
"My sister doesn't get to have a bad taste alone," he told you and pushed the play button, taking a handful of popcorn from the bowl on the empty space on the bed. You stared at him for a moment, but then let out a giggle and leaned back, taking popcorn yourself as you continued watching the series, Pin on the armchair beside you, and soon Arthur brought you another bowl of chips, clearly knowing you two would be sitting there until late night, watching shows and movies. Pin just was the type of brother who did anything to cheer up his sister if she was feeling bad, mentally or physically, and you were lucky to be that sister.
Freddy event's tags for Pin: @scandalous-chaos @brekkers-desigirl @mentallynotstableghost
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A Family Affair | Euro 2020 Football Fanfiction
Hi besties!! here is the long awaited part 9!! I hope you all enjoy it as much as I did whilst writing it!! a big thank you goes to @emwritesfootball for proofing this part & making sure its up to scratch for all of you lovely readers! Let me know what you think babes hehehe!! Love Always, Steph xx
Part 9. | nona parte
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The season kicked off in the middle of August and Amelia had been more than prepared for her first match in the premier league. She spent day after day analysing the players in the first team, introducing them to the magical world of rehearsed tactics. It wasnât all sunshine and rainbows for the brilliant girl; she had to learn how to implement the plays coupled with the speed of the game. But so far, so good. Chelsea have been winning and her plays have been working, the boys were getting the hang of it - no matter how apprehensive they were at the start.
Jorgi played a big part in demonstrating the success of the play, performing best in his midfield role to guide the game and direct the change in play to his teammates. By the time they had played a few fixtures, they had really gotten the hang of her approach to set pieces and began to put their trust in the young girl. They were starting to see results and wanted to keep the winning streak going while they could. The fourth fixture in the new season was one that Amelia was looking forward to, personally: Chelsea v Aston Villa, Stamford Bridge, 3pm kick off.
Jack and Amelia had grown closer and closer, FaceTimeâdatesâ as Jack would call them, a weekly occurrence. She had spoken to him just as much as she had spoken to Jorgi - and they were still carpooling to and from Cobham together. Her friendship with Jack was full of easy conversation and flirtatious banter, teetering over the line of friendship but being that they were kept physically apart, the friendship line remained largely intact. One person that had drifted even further away from her, despite her believing that it couldn't be possible, was Ben Chilwell.
Every time she walked into a room that he was in, if he didn't have to be there he would immediately leave. Amelia didnât understand what the problem was. Yeah sure, they were flirty together in Mykonos but they never crossed a line together, no matter how many times the wine went straight to their heads. If anything, she should be the one running away from him. She was the one who sent him a couple of messages here and there that he just opened. She spoke to Mason, Jorgi, Billy Gilmour - who was another one of the boys she had developed a strong friendship with - and all of them insisted they didnât understand their friend's strange behaviour.
On the evening before the Villa match, Amelia was laying on the couch in her townhouse binge watching yet another docu-series on Netflix when her doorbell rang. This was strange, most people that came past the house these days had their own set of keys (her parents, her brother, Jorgi) or they texted to let her know they were outside. Her townhouse was three stories high, so if she was upstairs on the top level vacuuming the chances of her hearing the door were slim to none. Either way, she got up off of her loveseat and walked to the front door, peeking through the peephole - she lived in London, alone, she wasnât opening that door until she knew exactly who was on the other side.
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âTo what do I owe this visit, Benjamin?â
âHi, Mils.â
âWow, nickname basis already - I thought only friends called each other by their nicknames.â
âDid you think we werenât friends?â
âWell, friends donât treat friends the way youâve treated me since the evening I left Mykonos.â
With a sigh, Ben looked down at his feet. I did feel a small bit of guilt for that one, but he deserved it. Continuing to find the cracks in the marble step of my doorâs threshold more interesting than facing my expression, I took a step back and forced Ben to look up at me.
âWell, are you going to come inside? Iâve got the kettle on and a really good series going that I would like to get back to.â
With a charming smile, Ben took a step forward, took the door handle out of my hand and shut it behind him. Slipping out of his shoes, he followed me down the short hallway to my kitchen and pulled a seat out at the island bench.
âSo, really now - why are you here? Nervous about tomorrow?â I questioned as I took two cups out of the cupboard and brewed one tea for him, one coffee for me. 3 years in Italy and coffee in the evening became the norm for me. It was my comfort drink.
âIâm here to apologise for the way I've been acting towards you for the past six weeks. Iâll be honest, I donât know why Iâve been like thisâ
âCut the crap Ben, you know exactly why youâve been doing it. Now tell me the truth or, as far as I'm concerned, you never came here tonight and tomorrow we will be back to how we were yesterday - you running away from me and me pretending that it doesn't bother me. Even though all it does is bother me.â Not expecting that outburst to come out of me, and to be fair neither did I, Ben looked me in the eye and stayed silent, choosing his next words carefully.
âThe first time I saw you, the night you told your brother off in the rec room at St. Georgeâs Park, I thought you were the most determined woman I had ever seen in my life. Not scared of the 30 grown men who were very obviously all on the same side, literally. Then the next time I saw you, after the final match, how you comforted your brother when you were at the highest of highs and he was lower than low, I thought you had more compassion than every person in that stadium put together.â
âWhen you came to SGP again the next day and delivered the tactical analysis of the game you won, I thought âwow she is so intellectually brilliantâ. And then when you turned up in Mykonos, all sunkissed and relaxed, sitting next to me and involving me in conversation with my pals but making me feel like you wanted my contribution...I remember it like it was yesterday. Amelia, you smiled at me and my heart did a somersault in my chest.â
âYou shut me down outside the club that evening, and when we came back inside I caught the end of your conversation with Jorgi about Fede. Putting two and two together, I understood all that I needed to. The few days after that we carried on like normal. Then, you left and I didn't know if I would ever see you again to be fair. When you messaged me, I got too nervous to reply because I didn't know how to just be your friend. And then when I thought I had finally gotten through a day without thinking about my friend's little sister, you showed up at Cobham as my tactical analyst. I didnât know what to do Mils, I don't know how to be just your friend when I've had nothing but unfriendly thoughts about you since the first time I saw you command that room of men you had never met in your life.â
The whistle of the kettle ringing out behind me is the only noise filling the kitchen. Iâm staring at Ben; heâs staring back at me with nothing but truth behind his eyes and his heart on his sleeve.
âBenj, what you were feeling, what you are feeling is totally valid and I never want you to feel like you canât share those feelings with me. Youâre right, Mykonos changed things for me. What you were feeling was reciprocated, but Ben, I was going back to Italy. At that exact moment, I had no idea I would end up here. I thought I was enjoying a break before another high-intensity season in Italy. I wanted to kiss you so badly at the club that night, but I knew it would only hurt you. Iâm used to being hurt, it's a feeling I've grown to expect. But you, youâre too pure to experience the kind of hurt that comes along with knowing youâre making a bad decision, but doing it anyway, because I wanted to be selfish with your heart.â
âAmelia, can I ask you something?â I nodded, holding my breath as I braced myself for the question poised behind his eyes. âIf you were in the mood to be selfish, what would have come from that evening?â
âI can probably show you better than I can tell you,â
Walking around the island bench, I pulled the back of Benâs chair slightly so he pivoted towards me. Standing in between his tracksuit-covered legs, I ran both hands up his arms until I got to his neck and finally beside his face. Threading my fingers through his hair, I pulled his face towards mine and our lips met. It was as soft as a butterfly kiss but as powerful as anything I had ever felt before. His hands wound around my waist and settled themselves on the small of my back before travelling down and giving my backside a gentle caress, forcing a laugh out of my lips and straight into his mouth. Pulling away slightly, so we both had a bit of breathing space to sort out our lightheadedness, Ben spoke his next words very softly.
âI need you to promise me something, Amelia.You need to promise me that you will stop thinking about my heart before your own. I am old enough to make my own decisions, and the decision to ignore you for these past few weeks has been one of the worst ones I've made in a really long time. But I did make it, and it was because I got scared, and I hurt you, and I am so sorry. The decision to come here tonight however, I feel like it more than makes up for that one very very stupid oneâ
âYouâre such a smooth talker, Benj.â
âSay my name again, Mils, you donât know what it does to me.â
âDown boy, your tea is going cold and I need to find out who killed Sophie in West Cork.Meet me in the lounge.â
A few hours had passed and it was nearing 10pm, well past Ameliaâs bed time, but Ben was still sitting on her couch, feet on the table (despite her telling him to remove them) and arm around the back of her shoulders.
âChilly, I donât want you to think I'm not interested in you because I so am, I just donât want to rush into anything. What I left behind in Italy was complicated and heavy; I'm still trying to learn how to exist without him if I'm honest. I want you to just give me the space I need to grow into my own here in the city, if thatâs okay with you.â
âOf course it's okay, Mils. From what Jorgi has told me about Fede, I can understand why you want to take it slow now. But please, donât call me Chilly. My friends call me Chilly, and Mills. I thought I made it clear before that I donât want to be your friend.â
âTo me, youâre Benj. Thank you. Wait - what do you mean what Jorgi has told you about Fede?â
âI may have asked a couple times about you, and for the record, he is team Bamelia.â
âBamelia? That is the ugliest word I have ever heard. Never use it again.â
âHow can it be ugly? It's mostly your name, and nothing associated with you could ever be considered anything less than beautiful.â
âStop being so smooth Benj, youâre going to make me blush in a minute.â
âGood, canât wait to see how you could possibly look even cuter than you do right now.â
âThatâs enough Benjamin.â
âOkay Iâm done now.â
Part 10. | parte dieci
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love in bubble wraps.
fandom | haikyuu!!
pairing | kuroo tetsurou x reader
genre | fluff
w.c | 1.9k
author's note | based on a real life experience... :)
Love, you think, comes in many forms. Sometimes love is a warm, home-cooked meal that is now cooked at least once a week because you told your mother you liked it. Other times, love is laughing and crying alongside the friends youâve known since pre-school because everyone passed their highschool finals with flying colours. Throughout our lives, we gradually come to meet the different forms of love, because it comes in all shapes, colours, and sizes.
First, we learn that love is a roof that you can always turn to when a storm blows in. Then, we learn that love is knowing that there are people who will drop everything to help you when your car breaks down in the middle of nowhere. Lastly, we learn to interlock our fingers with the one we wish to walk to the end of time with.
Then again, love varies from person to personâ Just like how the goddess of love, Aphrodite, looks different to every soul that sets its sights on her; Beauty truly lies in the eye of the beholder. For some, love comes in the form of a warm body to cuddle next to on a rainy day. For others, love comes in the form of a jewelled ring. For you, love comes in the form of a 6â2 man who still doesnât know how to tame his bedhead.
Tetsurou is often too busy for his own good, always running around here and there to secure contracts, ensuring that Japan can make a name for itself during the Olympics. He books train tickets to opposite ends of Japan at least once a month, leaving before the sun rises and returning after it sets. The sun never dictates his work day, because while his coworkers work from nine to five, Tetsurou works until he finishes his tasks.
Okay, so your husband is a bit of a workaholic. And maybe not just a bit.
âL/N-san,â Your colleague asks one day out of sheer curiosity. A group of women are gathered around the snack station, sipping on cheap, machine-produced instant coffee as they gossip about their marital lives instead of working. âNow that I think about it⌠Iâve never met your husband, have I?â
âAh,â You sweat-drop nervously at this. Wonderfulâ Your parents are already pressuring you about how Kuroo rarely visits with youâ And now your coworkers, too? âHeâs quite busy. He works very hard to make sure that weâll be well-off in the future.â You respond, knowing that your reply is just a thinly-veiled way of saying âHeâs rarely home,â.
âOh, thatâs awful,â Wherever you go, thereâs always a middle-aged lady who has nothing better to do than to prey on the weak spots of your life, âIt must feel lonely. You must feel so sad when you see my husband pick me up from work.â A smirk dances up her lips as she waits for you to walk into her trap, smiling as widely as a spider watching its incoming meal.
âNot really,â A practiced smile counters hers as you take a sip of your coffee. âI know Tetsurou loves meâ Thereâs an unbreakable trust between us. He might not be home often, but I know that heâs working hard so that we can have a better tomorrow⌠And thatâs sort of comforting, in a sense. Knowing that Tetsurou wishes for a future where weâre financially stable, where we can just spend a whole day doing nothing in each otherâs presenceâŚâ
A chorus of âawwsâ makes you blush. Out of the corner of your eye, you see the middle-aged coworker huff in failure. You mentally fist-pump the air at your victory.
âAnyway, I heard that you got engaged last weekend, Shiho-san,â Changing the topic quickly, you smile when the attention of all the ladies instantly redirects to the said woman, who blushes fiercely as they all coo at her ring. âCongratulations!â
âOh my! He bought you such a beautiful ring⌠Ah, Shiho-san, youâre so lucky!â
âMy husband also bought me a new bag last week,â The middle-aged woman chips in proudly, cocking her head towards her cubicle, where the leather handbag sits atop a tower of documents. âItâs very expensive.â
âThatâs nice of him! Itâs been forever since my husband bought me something.â Sighs another lady. Most of the group hums in agreement, sharing sympathetic looks with those that share the same fate.
âAt the beginning, when we were still dating, Hayato used to buy me so many things, nowâŚâ The coworker that brings homemade cookies every New Yearsâ party says, looking dejected. âItâs like once weâre married, they donât have to worry about making us happy anymoreâŚâ
âAh, what about you, L/N-san? Does your husband buy you things often?â
You groan internally when the attention shifts to you once more. Honestly, youâre just there to listen and enjoy your coffeeâ Must you keep getting dragged into the conversation? âWell, personally I donât really need my husband to buy me things to keep me happy, but⌠He does bring back trinkets whenever he travels.â You think about it for a while, then brighten when you remember the latest thing Tetsurou brought back for you.
âWhat is it?â Your change in expression isnât missed by your coworkers, who preen with curiosity, excited to know what made you brighten up.
âAh, itâs nothing⌠I promise, youâll be disappointed if I tell you.â You chuckle.
âCome on!â âBe a good sport, L/N-san!â âWeâre curious now, you canât not tell us!â
âOh, fine.â You sigh, âBut donât say I didnât warn you.â
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[ Three days ago, Saturday ]
You were on the couch, binge-watching Greyâs Anatomy with the Netflix subscription Tetsurou got for you to occupy yourself with while he was out of town. Your cat, Kazume (nicknamed after your husbandâs best friend) lazed on your lap, yawning once in a while and swatting at the stray threads from your sweater.
Somewhere in between your fifteenth and seventeenth episode, the front door chirped with the sound of someone inserting a key into the lock. You perked up at the noise, Kazume yelping in protest as he almost slipped off.
âOh, sorry Kazu.â You said quickly, a smile widening your lips as the front door opened.
âIâm hoââ Before your husband could finish his sentence, you were already at his side. Kazume meowed loudly from the couch, complaining about you abandoning him for another man. Tetsurouâs eyes softened, the edges of his hazel irises worn down by exhaustion. You took his laptop bag from him, as well as the folders he has in hand, balancing them like how you would balance your three grocery bags when Tetsurou wasnât around to help. âI missed you too, but are you sure you can carry all of my files with one hand?â
âYes!â You replied confidently, showcasing your balance as you wobbled through the living room with all of your husbandâs stuff. Tetsurouâs laugh echoed through the apartment as he followed you, his reflexes coming into play as he dived for a falling file. âOops.â You giggled, helping him up after he practically hurled himself at the floor.
Tetsurou shook his head, sighing fondly while he hugged you from the back, taking comfort in the familiar smell of your hair shampoo. âI missed you.â He mumbled.
âMe too.â You hummed, reaching back to stroke your hands through his still-untamed bedhead.
âOh, before I forget,â Tetsurou leapt up suddenly, chucking his backpack onto the ground. âI brought back something for you!â
âI already have like, twenty-five keychains from Hyogo,â You reminded him, âPlease tell me itâs not aâŚâ Your voice trailed off when Tetsurou proudly whipped his gift from his backpack, hazel eyes shining for your reaction.
â... So?â Tetsurou grinned widely, like a five-year-old child holding up his drawing for his mother to critique.
âOh my god, I love you.â You declared in your 80 sq ft kitchen, grabbing the gift from him. âIâll clean up your stuff, go take a bath and we can have dinner while watching theâŚ'' You pursed your lips as you try to recall the information that kept evading you like an annoying fly. â... 15th? 16th episode of Greyâs.â
âYou started that without me? I said I wanted to watch that.â Tetsurou pouted petulantly like a child.
âI finished all the other stuff I wanted to watch,â You told him unapologetically. âAnd Kazume wanted to watch it too. Now hurry and take a bath or Iâm starting without you.â
Twenty minutes later, you were cuddled up to your husband, who did not bother to comb his hair (âItâll just be messy later anyway,â His reasoning was). Every few seconds, he would scoop some cold mash potato out of the giant bowl (The two of you were too impatient to heat it with the microwave) and feed you. All throughout the episode, there was the constant pop-pop-pop of you working your way through the giant piece of bubble wrap Tetsurou had brought home for you.
âYou know, I was thinking,â You hummed as Tetsurou pressed âNext Episodeâ. âIf It were any other woman, they might have slapped you for bringing just bubble wrap home after a whole week away.â
âWell, then Iâm lucky that you arenât âany other womanâ, am I?â Your husband smiled, pressing a gentle kiss onto your lips before picking up the mash potato bowl again. âAre we just going to have mashed potatoes for dinner?â
âI bought spicy instant noodles yesterday, we can have that later if you want.â
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âThatâs actually so sweet of him!â Your colleague coos as you finish your story. âWish I had a husband like thatâŚ'' Even the middle-aged lady begrudgingly nods in agreement. For a moment, you feel a surge of prideâ It was your husband they were talking aboutâ Your sweet, hardworking, dork of a 6â2 bedhead.
âYou wouldnât be able to survive.â Another lady snorts. âThat guy is away for weeks at a time.â
You hum. âWell, at least he calls back every night, regardless of how tired he is.â In the corner of your mind, you remember that he makes sure to call his grandmother every weekend, and that he sends his parents (and grandparents) money every month, that he visits your parents the first Sunday after heâs back from his tripsâ Not to mention that he always brings a gift of wellness products (The most recent one was a box of abalone).
The group of women swoon once more.
âWell, I guess we should get back to work,â You dispose of your paper cup in the trash, brushing your hands off. âSee you ladies later.â
The moment youâre back at your desk, you take out your phone to text your husband, who is, no doubt, going to be very, very confused.
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you know it's love when your dad comes home with this giant piece of bubble wrap and your mom literally squeals and snatches it to immediately start popping it on the couch while browsing facebook on her ipad
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Gettinâ bi
(Title inspired by the song âGettinâ biâ from the show âcrazy ex girlfriendâ)
Description: Really, all Roman wanted was some time to relax after a long week. But, of coarse, his brother Remus has to come and crash his binge watching session.Â
TW: caps, cursing, let me know if I need to add anything else
Ships: platonic creativity twins, implied roceit
Genre: human au, high school au (kinda, itâs mentioned they go to high school but thatâs it)
Prompt: bisexual (prompt given by @pridewrite2021
(Mild spoilers for the show crazy ex girlfriend!! Also if you havenât seen it, go watch it because itâs soo good and not as sexist as the title makes it sound! You donât really need to have seen the show tho to read this)
It had been a long week. Roman had been having to balance home work, art coursework AND practicing for the school show. Not to mention how many arguments heâd gotten into with Virgil about lighting of said show. But now it was finally Friday night and he could breathe.Â
Roman went straight to change out of his regular clothes and into his silk red pajamas, the material feeling soft against his skin. He then switched off his bedroom light, making the room as dark as possible, flopped onto his bed and switched on his TV to Netflix. He looked through each of the shows on his list that heâd been meaning to watch before changing to his âwatch againâ list to binge âCrazy Ex Girlfriendâ for the 5th time. What? Roman knew what he liked.Â
He clicked onto a random episode before huddling into his white duvet and red and yellow pillows. A few episodes passed, Roman singing along to all the songs having memorised them by now.
âI really needed thisâ Roman thought as the next episode began to play.
Then, as if on que, his brother Remus burst through his door, the light from the hallway blinding Roman.
âHey dipshit! What we watchinâ?â Remus said, jumping onto Romans bed, crushing his legs in the process.
âOw! Remus!â Roman squawked, pulling his legs away.
âDonât be a puss.â Remus laughed, nudging his brother in the side and yanking the blanket over towards him.
âRemus!â Roman said, trying and failing to steal his blanket back.
âSorry Ro-bro, itâs mine now. So, what we watchin?â He asked again.
Resigning himself to the fact that Remus wasnât going to leave, he answered rather defeatedly, âCrazy Ex Girlfriend.â
âThat again? Wait, was that you singing the songs again?! I thought a cat was getting mauled somewhere or something!â Remus laughed as Roman made an offended gasp before hitting his brother in the head with one of his pillows.
âShut up!â
They were able to get though a few minutes of the episode without too much of an issue. Emphasis on the too much because Roman has a beautiful singing voice thank you very much and those arenât even the right lyrics Remus and you know it!
That was until a very specific scene started to play.
âShit.â Roman thought. âAre we up to this bit already?â
Roman watched very quietly as the character Darryl began to call his co-workers into his office, his back going (ironically) very straight and his discomfort hanging thick in the air.
âWhat the heckity heck five abs and one pec am I supposed to do here?â Roman thought in panic as Darryl began to sing the iconic song âGettin biâ as he came out to his co-workers. It was one of Romans personal favourites in the series considering he was also bisexual. But also considering no one apart from a few close friends knew that, this was approaching dangerous territory.
âIf I donât sing this song, thatâll look suspicious!â Roman thought. âBut if I do, thereâs a very high chance Iâll get too into it and out myself! How the heck to straight people react to this?!â
He eventually opted to humming it slightly, making a comment about how he âdoesnât really know the words to this one,â despite it being on his playlist. Roman then dared a glance at his brother, who was watching the show unbothered. He couldnât help but wonder what Remus was thinking. Sure, Remus had never said anything homophobic in the past but Roman had met some of his friends and they werenât exactly the most pleasant of people.
âWell, most of them.â Roman thought, blushing slightly as he thought of Janus, Remusâ best friend, before shaking the thought away.
âItâs pretty cool they have so much diversity in this show.â Remus said casually, tossing popcorn into his mouth. (Wait, when did Remus get popcorn?) âI mean, most shows completely ignore bisexual people existing but this guy gets a whole ass song about it.â
Roman couldnât help the warm, comforting feeling in his chest. âYou think?â He said, carefully.
âWell, yeah. Me and one of my friends whoâs bi was talking about this yesterday. In shows and movies, they always act like a character can only be either straight or gay but thatâs so stupid. They can be bi or pan or poly or omni. Theyâre just uncreative and erasing a bunch of people.â Remus said, tossing a sweet into his mouth. (Wait, when did Remus get sweets? What the fuck?!)
Roman honestly felt like he could cry. âSo you donât think itâs, like, made up or whatever. Or a phase?â Remus looked at him judgingly.
âWell, obviously not.â He said as if Roman was stupid. âWhy, do-oofâ Remus was cut off by Roman tackling him into a hug. And yep, Roman was definitely crying now. Remus just seemed to freeze like a deer in headlights.
âRoman, what the hell?â Roman moved away from Remus, frantically whipping tears from his eyes. âUh...Roman? You alright?â
âIâm...um.â Roman began to choke on the words he was so close to speaking. âAm I really about to do this?â âIâm bisexual.â He quickly said, eyes averting Remusâ.
There was a beat.
It surely must have been just a few seconds but God did it feel like an eternity. Roman looked at Remus, waiting for him to say something. Anything.
âOh God this was a mistake! He hates you! Heâs going to out you to mom and dad and-â
Remus smirked. âYeah, and the skys blue, grass is green and snakes have two dicks. What else is new?â Remus laughed.
âI...what?â Roman said, not entirely sure what to say to that, especially that last comment.
âI already knew you werenât straight, you dork.â Remus smiled, nudging Roman in the shoulder.
âYou...what?â Remus just laughed.
âRoman, youâre literally a theatre kid. Plus, anyone with eyes can see you drooling over Janus every time I bring him over.â Roman felt his entire face go red at that. Then he felt a twisting sense of horror in his gut.
âDo mom and dad know?!â He asked, slightly panicked.
âProbably not but I wonât tell them if youâre not ready.â Roman sighed in relief at that.
The two then turned back to the TV. The song had finished and the episode was continuing. Roman felt...strange. Almost as if it wasnât him who had just come out.
âIâm really proud of you, you know.â Remus said, not taking his eyes off the screen with a small smile on his lips. Roman felt his heart light up, almost like a massive weight had been lifted from his chest.
That was until Remus playfully punched him in the arm.
âOw! Remus!â
âWhat? Thatâs how I show affection!â
This quickly turned into a wrestling match.
Roman was glad things hadnât changed that much, at least.
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For those who want to listen to the song: here
Iâm not saying this was an excuse for me to tell everyone to go watch crazy ex but like...Iâm not denying it eitherđ
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A lot of Makorra shippers only moved on because theyâre afraid of being called homophobic for not shipping korrasami. I LITERALLY saw someone on Instagram yesterday call a makorra shipper homophobic just for saying korrasami came out of nowhere. Also, Korrasami shippers LOVE to bring up the "popping bottles" backlash to make fun of makorra shippers. I left the tlok fandom in 2014 bc it was so toxic as a teenager, but now iâm 23. Iâm no longer afraid of shipping something i always loved.
Ah, yes, I realized I didnât address the fandom's toxicity in the last ask, but Iâve spoken about it before. I don't talk too much about the past because I was at the edge of the fandom back in 2014/2015. I was aware of fights, but the discussions I saw were moreso on bi-erasure. I saw one post saying it was wrong to ship Makorra. I remember being really confused about why Makorra was actually problematic, but I didnât appreciate being told who I can ship the only dark-skinned woman protagonist on a major television network with. Why are you forcing me to ignore Mako and Korraâs relationship? Book 1 is practically about Mako and Korra, all other characters be damned. Me preferring the story of one pairing and a popular romance trope, second chances, is not wrong, and no one would know how I view the LGBT+ community based on who I ship in one show.
I ended up leaving the community because I was disappointed with season 4 in general. When Korra was released on Netflix, I figured it was time to rewatch the series again (plus, Iâve been binging all my favorite romance anime). So imagine my shock when I created a new Tumblr and Twitter account to rant and rave about TLOK, and I saw nothing but hate and name-calling in the Makorra tags. I saw people casually throwing around the word âhomophobic,â and one person said people who donât like Korrasami are just misogynistic.Â
I just wanted pretty pictures, and people are out here psychoanalyzing shippers! So, I dug through some blogs and to feel more grounded with this fandom I didnât recognize. After reading through their commentaries and experiences, I actually became more upset at Bryke than the teenagers/children who comment on Makorra posts saying how much better Korrasami is or accuse Makorra shippers of being homophobic.Â
Yes, I truly believe these comments are mostly coming from people in their late teens and younger, at least in 2020. I canât speak on 2014/2015, but since we were younger, the early 20s/late teens, I wonder if our age group was also the loudest. Donât get me wrong, adults can be horrible people and can get really nasty. However, every time I look up the rudest commenters' profiles, they were teens. When one Korrasami shipper wrote âscrew Makorraâ on my AMV, I figured Iâd have some fun trolling them until I clicked on their profile and saw a child. Needless to say, I ignored them and reflected on how parents are allowing their babies on TikTok while my parents freaked out at the idea of showing my picture on FB growing up.Â
*Iâm not still mad about that*
Also, while it doesnât give anyone an excuse to make such a strong accusation, part of me, as a straight person, feels like I canât get too upset because I also become very aware of my privilege. The space Iâm in is a majority of young LGBT+ fans (at least on Twitter where Iâve seen the most toxicity). Some people see TLOK as their safe space and imply why should there be Makorra shippers when they have all these other cis/het shows they can engage with. It doesnât work like that, of course. TLOK doesnât only feature Bi characters. Theyâre POC/Indigenous, women, and Korra has dark skin. Thatâs a lot of marginalized communities. Makorra/TLOK is my comfort show, not because sheâs with a man, but because of the reasons I just listed. Also shipping Korra with Mako doesnât mean sheâs no longer bi. Sheâd still be attracted to women.
Hereâs who I am upset with tho, Bryke. Mostly Bryan. While Makorra shippers called out Korrasami shippers for cyberbullying, the focus seemed to be on Bryan for making it seem like there was something wrong with them for not finding Korrasamiâs narrative satisfying. It was especially sad to read bloggers who identified as being part of the LGTB+ community saying Bryanâs hetero-lens dismissed their experience and then having to defend/proving themselves to anonymous messengers.Â
Fans saw it as a betrayal. They saw it as the go-head for the rude Korrasami shippers to harass Makorra artists because they âdidnât watch the show correctly.â When the creator, the person you admire, also puts the blame on you, that kind of pain is on another level.
Korrasami shippers played a huge role in kicking Makorra shippers out of the fandom, but we canât underestimate how much Bryanâs statement is a slap in the face. He used his characters and social justice as a shield for reasonable criticism. Just because we say a story is bad and Asami is grossly underwritten doesnât mean that weâre against the idea of Korra and Asami being a couple.Â
Of course, Iâve seen some very problematic statements from Makorra shippers. After all, homophobia is real. However, aside from the actual bigots, people have no issue with Korrasami. They just wanted a stronger connection between the girls. Many people seem to think Makorra shippers were looking for more romance, but we know we couldn't expect that. We can expect more screentime, musical cues, and more emotional support, which most people can see as platonic, but be romantic if you really want to. Makoâs interactions in book 4 can be seen as platonic, but all of us Makorra shippers saw it to be romantic.
Popping bottles! I completely missed that joke in 2014 and I discovered it this year. I agree itâs pretty annoying, but I become a troll and say Iâm popping bottles for my Makorra moments. I donât get any engagement, but I donât seem to lose followers for it. Maybe popping bottles represents âstraight-baiting?â I donât get it why itâs so funny after all this time, but weâre Makorra shippers. Weâre the joke đ
Anyways, to wrap up, lately, there seems to be a bit of a shift on Twitter. When I first created an account. I stayed in my little corner live-tweeting about TLOK and Makorra. I had to stop looking at the Makorra tag because it was so negative. Now, Iâm seeing people admit theyâre cute, and then saying theyâre platonic soulmates. Iâll take it, although, as one commenter said, âthatâs boring!âÂ
Someone led a Makorra Week back in October, and it was really nice! I have feeling people speaking up on the name-calling and reminding people that weâre talking about 2D characters helped. We just want to be left alone and enjoy the scenes we have in the show, art, and fanfiction.Â
Keep shipping who you want! Donât let any stranger shame you for your shipping preferences, especially in fiction! Iâm so happy you feel more comfortable shipping these two dorks! Youâre not alone! Iâve been a Makorra shipper since 2012, and while I find Korrasami cute (I love Korra, and I love Asami), Makorra is my OTP. I really like them, and I think they were meant for each other.
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Far Away but Not Apart
Ao3
Summary: Roman loved Logan with all of their heart, even if they had only ever seen him through a computer screen. Content: Nb!Roman, donât think thereâs anything else really Pairing: Romantic logince Notes: This is the amos prize minific for @averykedavra who requested long-distance logince. Iâm not certain I stuck properly to the prompt, but I do hope you like it, Avery!
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   â-Iâm just saying, there is no crueler mistress than the one that would place soulmates such as ourselves so far apart!â
   Logan sighed, rolling his eyes in a way that Roman was fully aware was amused, not annoyed. Though he had started the facetime sitting up and back in his fancy office chair, he was now leaning forwards, elbows on the desk, supporting his chin with one of his hands. âIf fate were as cruel a mistress as you claim, Roman, then why would she allow us to meet each other at all?â
   âTo torture us!â Roman replied dramatically, grinning when Logan chuckled. âIt is only in knowing the other exists that we suffer! To be so close in heart but so far in distance-â
   âA pity, yes, but one we will survive.â Logan said, scoffing when Roman pouted at him. âYou will only make yourself feel worse about our situation the longer you dwell upon in it.â
   âI have dwelled upon it every day since the one I met you, and suffered it every day since the one you allowed me to call you mine.â
   âWeâve only been dating for four months, Roman.â
   âAnd friends for two years!â Roman added on for him. âAnd never once during all of that time have I so much as held your hand! It is a crime, my beloved, a crime, a sin, a defiance against all that is good and pure!â
   âYouâre overexaggerating.â
   Roman sighed and collapsed backwards on their bed, hand splayed over their forehead. âNo, Iâm suffering.â
   Logan laughed, and Roman lifted their head just enough that they could see him as he did so, their faux pout dropping so that they could smile at their muse. People who didnât really know Logan said he was cold, unfeeling, logical to a fault. That was because people who didnât really know Logan had never seen him smile brighter than the sun and laugh prettier than any angel could.
   Roman didnât realize they had gotten lost in their thoughts of loving Logan until the object of their affections coughed and said, âYouâre staring.â
   âHow could I not?â Roman replied without missing a beat. âYou are beauty incarnate, my sweetness, figure carved from smoothest marble and face painted with finest hues. I cannot help but to stare.â
   âYou really are too much.â Logan told them, but his cheeks had flushed a dark red that let Roman know their words had had exactly the impact they had hoped for. âI was asking you what you were doing this weekend.â
   âLosing myself within worlds far more interesting than ours for but the fact that they do not have you, my angelic love.â
   âSo⌠binging Netflix?â
   âMy way of describing it was better.â
   Logan chuckled. âIf you say so, dear.â
   Roman smiled at the petname. They had always loved how it made them sound as if they were an old married couple (which Roman fully intended for them to be one day). âAnd what are you going to be doing over your break from work-aligned existence?â
   âNot really a break, Iâm afraid.â Logan said, prompting Romanâs smile to become a frown. âIâve got a business meeting on Saturday, leaving Friday night.â
   Romanâs frown deepened. âDoes that mean virtual movie night is off?â
   Logan nodded, now frowning himself. âIâm sorry to say, but yes. Weâll have to reschedule for another week.â
   âWell that sucks.â Roman said, trying to keep the majority of their disappointment out of their voice. They knew it wasnât anything that Logan could change, so they didnât want to make him feel bad about it. âYou better get me a souvenir though. To make it up to me.â
   âIf a ten dollar bobble-head will fill the hole in your life that is our Friday night virtual movie marathon, then I am glad to oblige.â Logan returned, briefly looking away from the camera to check a paper on his desk. âYour address is the same, yes?â
   âDonât know how I couldâve changed it without you knowing.â
   âJust checking.â Logan said, marking something down before he turned back towards the camera. âNow, I hate to once more be the figurative bearer of bad news, but I must take my leave- I have a client call in a few minutes here.â
   âSkip it.â
   âI do have to keep my job, Ro.â
   âYour new job can be loving me, twenty-four seven, benefits are spending all your time with me.â
   âAnd how much does loving you pay?â
   âDid you not hear about the benefits? Theyâre better than money!â
   Logan just laughed fondly. âYou are cute, Iâll give you that.â
   âSo youâll take up my offer and your new job?â
   âSadly, to function in the real world, I need a cash-paying job.â Logan told them, smiling at Romanâs following pout. âBut if it alleviates your pains, know that I already love you twenty-four seven.â
   At that, Roman allowed their pout to morph into a smile. âWell, look at whoâs being cute now.â
   âIâm simply stating the facts.â Logan replied, glancing at his watch. âOne of which is, unfortunately, that I really must go now. Iâm worried Iâll be too busy tomorrow to chat- Iâll call you on Saturday, alright?â
   âOh, my star, my sun, my only light through the darkness and troubles that are this world, however will I survive a whole day without any contact with you?â
   âYou are strong, my knight, Iâm sure youâll find a way.â Logan told them in return, grinning when Roman blushed. âI love you.â
   âI love you too.â Roman responded, blowing Logan an imaginary kiss. Logan, as always, indulged them by âcatching itâ before he turned his camera off, Romanâs screen going dark soon after. As soon as it darkened, Roman sighed, falling back against their bed and shutting their laptop as they did so.
   It was going to be a long day and a half.
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   âRoman? Wh- Why are you calling?â
   âBecause I miss you!â Roman whined, not bothering with pretending to not be clingy. âYesterday was long and dull and completely devoid of true joy and true love! I simply could not bear to wait til you called me! Oh, how I have missed you, my world, my stars, my universe-â
   âItâs barely been a day, love.â
   âLove!â Roman said, ignoring the majority of his sentence and latching onto the important part of it. âI havenât heard you call me that in over a day! Possibly two! Hell, darling, Iâve been in absolute hell without you.â
   Logan laughed at that, and Roman had never before so desperately wished they were on a facetime, just so they could see the absolute glory that would be Loganâs face while he was laughing. It didnât matter how many times they had seen him laugh- it would never be enough. Before Roman could say something to that extent, however, their doorbell rang, grabbing their attention.
   âDamnit.â They said, annoyed. Did they have packages coming today? They didnât think so. And they really, really didnât want to get up.
   âWhat is it?â
   âThe doorbell- itâs fine, probably just a package or some door-to-door salesperson. Just annoying, interrupting the melodic sound of your laughter-â
   âYou should probably get that.â
   Roman groaned and threw their head back. âBut I donât want to!â
   âIt could be someone important.â Logan told them. âDonât worry, Iâll still be here when you get back.â
   Roman groaned louder, but they still swung themself off their couch. âFiiiine. But when it turns out to be nothing, Iâm going to⌠Iâm going toâŚâ
   âYes?â Logan asked, in a much too smug way that suggested he knew perfectly well Roman had no way to end their threat.
   â...Iâll think of something.â Roman said vaguely, ignoring Loganâs following chuckle of disbelief and amusement. Shaking their head, Roman moved the phone from their ear to the side of their neck, muffling the speaker as they opened the door. âOkay, listen, Iâve got some important stuff going on so-â
   Roman cut themself off as soon as they saw who was standing on their porch. Because it wasnât a salesperson or a dropped-off package- it was a man with a suitcase by his feet, a phone in his hand, and a face Roman would sooner die than forget.
   âSurprise?â Logan said, and that was all he was able to get out before Roman had flung themself at him and wrapped them up in what Roman was sure was the biggest, tightest, most important hug they had ever given.
   âYouâre here!â Roman said after a minute of just basking in the magnificence of the moment. They still refused to let go of him, having dropped their phone so that they could hold on solely to Logan, keeping him as close to their chest as possible. âYouâre really here!â
   âWell Iâm certainly not a hallucination or someone pretending to be your boyfriend.â Logan said, having managed to get his phone into his pocket before returning Romanâs hug. âSo I should hope Iâm really here, yes.â
   âYes- but- youâre here! I can see you! I can hug you! I AM hugging you!â Roman exclaimed, knowing they were getting repetitive at that point but not caring at all. They were currently hugging their boyfriend for the first time ever, after all- how could they care about anything else?
   âThat you are.â Logan agreed, voice still a professional neutral before he tightened his grasp on Roman and added, âSo I am as well.â
   Roman giggled, a mostly involuntary sound that was brought about the sheer joy of the moment. They pulled back from Logan, just a bit, just enough that they could see his face- his beautiful, lovely, gorgeous face, a face that was a million times prettier in real life. âCan I kiss you?â
   âMhmm- not on the lips. Weird texture.â Logan said, but he was still smiling, unbothered by Romanâs question.
   Happily, Roman pressed a kiss to Loganâs forehead, grinning when they saw Loganâs smile grow. âI can work with that.â They said before moving to pepper the rest of Loganâs face with kisses.
   âIf I- if I knew you were going to be this persistent I- I wouldâve stayed home.â Logan protested, having broken down himself and begun giggling in between Romanâs kisses, rendering his protests unbelievable.
   âMy most beloved, you are a horrible liar.â Roman told him, pressing an extra special kiss to his nose before saying suddenly, âHey, wait- donât you have a business meeting youâre supposed to be at?! You canât be here!â
   Logan laughed. âRoman, my prinx, this is the business meeting. I lied so I could surprise you.â
   Both Romanâs eyes and smile widened as they dived back into scattering kisses across Loganâs entire face, only stopping when Logan pulled far away enough they could no longer reach his face.
   âWe are going to get absolutely nothing done if I allow you to kiss me all day.â Logan said, though at Romanâs pout he did lean forwards to kiss Romanâs forehead. âI did take Monday and Tuesday off, but I canât be here forever, you know.â
   âYou say that as if it would be a waste of our time if I used it for little more than showering you in all the affection you deserve.â Roman returned, attempting to resume their attack of Loganâs face.
   Logan pulled back once more, chuckling when Roman immediately began to sulk. âThere will be plenty of time for that. But there is also time for other activities, such as one that might have been missed recentlyâŚ?â
   Roman blinked at Logan, frowning for a moment in confusion before their face lit up in a grin. âOh! Movie night! We can have a real life movie night!
   âOnly if we donât spend our entire weekend standing on your porch.â Logan pointed out. âSo⌠may I come in?â
   âOf course!â Roman said, finally (albeit regrettably) letting go of Logan so that he could grab his suitcase and come inside. The moment he was within and Roman had closed their door, however, Roman had their arms wrapped around Loganâs waist, smiling as Logan laughed and put a hand backwards so that he could hold Romanâs shoulder.
   âYouâre very touchy.â Logan commented, though he didnât sound annoyed.
   Roman just held him closer. âTwo and a half years, my heart and soul and life! So long have I waited for this moment- you wouldnât hold it against me that I wish to cherish it, would you?â
   âItâs actually been two years, four months, and three days since our first interaction.â Logan corrected them before softening, leaning back and more into Romanâs hold. âBut no, I wonât hold it against you.â
   âGood.â Roman said, pressing a kiss to the top of Loganâs head. âBecause I have no plans of letting you go anytime soon.â
   Logan tilted his head back so that he could smile at Roman. âWell I should hope you donât.â He responded, looking fondly at Roman. âFour days arenât that much time. It would be a shame to waste even a second of them.â
   Roman grinned. âAw, you do like being cuddled!â
   At the claim, Logan looked down, trying (and failing) to hide the blush Roman could still see blooming in his cheeks. âMaybe just a little bit.â
   Grin widening, Roman shifted as quickly as possible, eliciting a small yelp from Logan as they lifted him up and held him against their chest. âDonât worry Lo,â Roman began, using their new position to kiss Loganâs forehead, âFour days may not be a lot of time in the grand scheme of things, but it is plenty of cuddle time.â
   Roman expected Logan to protest that, to say that time was the same whether it was in the âgrand scheme of thingsâ or in âcuddle timeâ or any other definiment of time, but he didnât- instead, Logan just let out a small sigh and rested his head against Romanâs shoulder. âWeâre watching Big Hero Six first.â
   âOf course!â Roman agreed enthusiastically, leaving Loganâs luggage behind on the floor as they walked over to their couch before adding (just because he could), âAnything for you, my love.â
   Because Logan was right- four days wasnât that much time.
   But Roman had plans to make the most of every second.
#logince#ts logan#ts roman#nb!roman#ts sides#sanders sides#fanfic#fanfiction#the cryptid speaks#amos minific#i haven't written logince in forever#gosh i missed these bois#averykedavra
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thank you for the tag jasmin @cloudylotus ! ^-^
iâll tag whoever feels like doing this <3
name: em
pronouns: them/her
star sign: capricorn
height: 179cm
time: 15:04
birthday: january 10th
nationality: belgian
fave bands/groups: stray kids!! but i listen to a lot of different artists
fave solo artists: woodz <3
song stuck in your head: under pressure by queen bc iâve been listening to the bohemian rhapsody movie soundtrack hehe
last movie you watched: cloudy with a chance of meatballs, iâve been revisiting my childhood by rewatching all the animated movies they suddenly threw onto netflix!! i rewatched all of shrek, puss in boots, how to train your dragon, now also cloudy with a chance of meatballs, and next on the list is spirit!
last show you binged: currently trying to binge woh but uni isnât allowing me to do so >:(
when you created your blog: on my sisterâs birthday in 2014Â đ
the last thing you googled:Â âwhat are cities doing to make use of vacant buildingsâ itâs for my paper!
other blogs: i have two sideblogs, one for kpop which is @minhho and one for anime which is @joerry :D
why i chose my url: mxtx lied when she said all side characters in tgcf are straight i just know it because fengqing are actually married with kids (fu yao & nan feng) thank you for coming to my ted talk đ
how many people are you following: *whispers* šâ´âľ áľËĄáľáľË˘
how many followers do you have: i just reached 3.9k yesterday!! if i reach 4k i might do a little something hehe
average hours of sleep: it used to be 7-8 hours but lately iâve been doing revenge bedtime procrastination and i go to bed at around 1:30am but my internal clock (which hates me) always wakes me up at around 7am
lucky numbers: i am like xie lian, luck is never in my favor đ
instruments: guitar (does one coldplay song on the piano count??)
what iâm currently wearing: flowy flower pants, white striped shirt and a long black sweater
dream job: *mental breakdown* < me too jasmin me too
dream trip: okinawa in japan!! also australia, south africa, canada, and new zealand! these are all the highest on my bucket list
fave food: i do love a good bowl of ramen, but salmon with bĂŠarnaise sauce and french fries is *chefâs kiss*
top three fictional universes youâd like to live in:
sk8 the infinity â i would probably have a restraining order from sia la luce and âSâ but i can live with that đ
fake slackers â i would kill to be in class 3 theyâre honestly some of the funniest characters iâve read about
percy jackson â Â donât ask me why i just think it would be neat to be a demigod and i still have my camp half-blood shirt lying around
last song: we are the champions by queen
currently reading: guide at how to fail at online dating but i have not picked it up since....... january........
currently watching: word of honor :D
what is antipoetry to you: donât ask my single braincell too much questions he is currently under a lot of stress
currently craving: a fruit salad so iâm gonna go make one (also a break from life pls thank you)
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A - Appearance.
What are you wearing? I have a gray turtleneck and brown shorts at the moment.
What are on your feet right now? I never wear anything for my feet when Iâm at home.
What color are your fingernails? I say this a lot on surveys but mine are never painted. Nothing against them, Iâve just never felt the need to spend on something like my nails.
What does your hair look like right now? I have apple hair at the moment to temporarily get rid of my bangs, which I am more than sick of at this point.
B - Best Friend
Who is your best friend? Angela and Andi.
What was the last thing you two did together? The last time I saw Angela we went to the BTS pop-up store. I havenât seen Andi since January, but when we hung out that evening we just had Korean barbecue and we also parked somewhere in UP to just talk about life in my car. My breakup had been fresh at the time and back then I just needed someone to whom I could vent.
What is (s)he doing right now? Iâm sure Andiâs doing something with Leigh, maybe having a video call or something since I think they tend to have one every evening. Iâm not sure what Angelaâs up to but considering her replies have been a bit slow tonight, I guess sheâs somewhat busy at home.
Are you talking to her/him online right now? Angela just replied to something I sent her around 15 minutes ago but the exchange wasnât meant to be a full-blown conversation, if thatâs what you mean.
C - Crush.
Who is (s)he? Eh, I donât have a crush these days; too obsessed with work to figure out what I find attractive lmaooooo. I do have a main celebrity crush and I might just cite them instead so that I can at least fill this section out.Â
What does (s)he look like? Curly hair; mismatched eyes; moles underneath his right eye, on his nose, and on his lower lip, and the widest smile Iâve seen on any person.
What was the last thing you two talked about? Heâs a celebrity crush...
Does (s)he make you smile? Yes.
D - Dad
Whatâs your dadâs name? Edgardo.
What does he do for a living? Heâs an executive chef for a luxury liner company. He hasnât worked in a year and a half due to the pandemic and has stayed in the country this whole time, but weâve *very* recently been informed that he can go back abroad in around two weeks! Of course it will suck letting go of him again after having him back for such a long time, but Iâm just glad the family can finally be on track again, financially speaking. It had been something Iâve been worrying silently about.
What was the last thing you two did together? Had dinner last night, but we did that with the whole family too. We donât really do things thatâs just the two of us.
Do you get along better with him than your mother? Yes.
E - Ebay.
Have you ever bought anything from ebay? No. Iâm not sure we have eBay here anyway.
Do you just shop around when youâre online? I donât really shop âaround.â I usually have an idea of what I want to get myself, and itâs just a matter of finding the right shop from which to buy.
Do you know anybody who is addicted to it? I know a couple of co-workers who love shopping, like Gabi.
Have you ever sold anything on it? Iâve never tried selling, but Iâm actually in the middle of doing something for the very first time â Iâve decided to get into trading! I got my BTS Butter album yesterday but didnât get to pull the photocard I was vying for â the pull I got, though, was of the most popular member, which means it would be a very easy trade. I put the trade offer up the other day and I finally got a match yesterday.
F - Facebook.
When was the last time you logged on? Like five minutes ago. I constantly check it.
How many friends do you have? Just checked and it says I have 686. I wanna get rid like half of them though.
Do you hate when your facebook chat messes up? Hmm, that doesnât really happen.
Who was the last person to leave you a wall post? Angela.
G - Google.
Do you Google everything? Yeah, I think I look up a random item or phrase at least once a day. Doesnât hurt to learn a new thing each day. :)
What was the last thing you Googled? The K-Pop group g.o.d., since my teacher mentioned them in our Korean lessons earlier.
Would you ever trade Google in for Bing? No, I havenât used Bing in like 12 years.
What do you Google the most? Synonyms, I think, since Iâm constantly writing for work.
H - Hair.
Do you like your hair? Itâs a love-hate relationship most days because I hate how thick and frizzy it can be...but I recently had mine trimmed all the way up to my neck and for some reason itâs taken on a wavy form, which I didnât expect to come out at all. And Iâve found that it actually suits me quite a bit, so Iâm enjoying my hair for now.
What color is your hair? Black.
What does it look like right now? Slightly damp since I took a shower not too long ago.
What kind of shampoo for you use? Just a normal Dove one.
I - IbuprofenÂ
When was the last time you took ibuprofen? I donât think Iâve ever taken it? I usually take paracetamol...idrk the difference either. Do you rely on it for everything (cramps, headache)? I only ever take medicine for headaches/migraines.
Are you so thankful people made it? I mean sure, Iâm glad there are those who have been able to create products that can instantly relieve pain or discomfort, but Iâm not obsessively grateful.
Do you have any right now? I donât think we have any.
J - Jobs.
Do you need a job? Nah, I already have one.
Where do you work? Media/PR industry.
Where would you work? I wouldnât change jobs/industries. This is where I wanted to end up in, and Iâm really really glad and fortunate to have landed here on my first shot, right out of college, and during a pendemic.
How much money would you like to get paid? An additional P5k (~$100) would probably be more satisfying, but considering my parents arenât the traditional Filipino parents who suck 100% of my earnings right out of me the second payday comes, Iâm able to enjoy a substantial chunk of money to myself, give them a portion of my earnings, and still be able to save.
K - Kissing.
Who was the last person you kissed? That would be my ex.
Will you next kiss be a mistake? I have no idea when that would be and with whom it will be shared, so I wonât be able to give you a definite answer.
Do you kiss someone everyday? Other than my dogs, nah.
Who was your first kiss? The aforementioned ex.
L - Love.
Who do you love the most in your life? My best friends. Iâm also doing a whole lot better in the self-love department these days, so that too :)
Have you ever been in love before? Yeah.
Does it make you so happy when you feel the feeling of love? Sure. It feels light and comfortable, especially when itâs shared.
Why is this word so hard to describe? Because everyone feels love differently. < There we go.
M - Mom.
What is your momâs name? Abigail.
What is she doing right now? She was watching The Good Doctor the last time I checked on her like five minutes ago. Itâs her latest obsession.
Where does she work? She works in the food and beverage department of a 5-star hotel in the city.
Do you two shop together a lot? I rarely do my shopping with either of my parents.
N - Netflix.
Do you have Netflix? Technically, I guess. My dad pays for it and we have a family account.
If not, what movies would you order? I donât think Iâve ever ordered a movie before. Before streaming on Netflix, I just used to get illegal torrents lol.
Do you rent a lot of movies? Iâve never rented a movie. Was too young for it, I think.
Do you have the tool where it just downloads to your tv? No.
O - Ohio.
Is this the state in which you live in? I donât even live in the US. Never been there either. < Same.
Is Ohio State your favorite football team? I donât like football.
Did you know Ohio Is For Lovers? Iâm not familiar.
Have you ever been to Ohio? See first answer in this section.
Q - Quitting.
What was the last thing you quit doing? Practicing on Duolingo. I had an extremely short period of using the app again a couple of months ago, but I lasted all of two days hahaha I had been trying to get back on learning Korean, but I enrolled in official lessons not long after that anyway so it didnât make sense to continue the stages in the app.
Do you need to quit talking to someone right now? Nope. The people Iâm talking to right now in between this survey are all welcome conversations.
Would you ever quit school? That wasnât an option for me and I never wouldâve done it anyway.Â
Donât you think quitting is stupid? No. Sometimes it can be the strongest thing you can do for yourself.
R - Reading.
What was the last book you read? Does my Korean lesson textbook count hahaha...if not, I havenât really read anything in years.
Do you own a lot of books? I do, but they are all books from my childhood and teenage years. Itâs been a while since I last updated my bookshelf.
Do you have a library card? No, havenât had one since Grade 1.
Have you ever read a book that changed your life? Without Seeing the Dawn was pretty influential to me, but I dunno about âlife-changing.â I need to read more to find the book that would have that effect on me.
S - Safety.
Do you always wear your seat belt? I do these days. I didnât really practice it when I used to drive to school, whoops. Always forgot to do it.
When riding a four-wheeler do you wear a helmet? I rarely get to do that.
Did you ever wear knee pads and a helmet when riding your bike? Nah. I canât ride a bike either. Do you always think safety first? In COVID terms, yeah. I have a face mask and shield on as soon as I find myself outdoors.
T - Talk
Who was the last person you talked to? Reena. Who are you talking to right now? Nobody. Itâs just me, this survey, and some music in the background.
Who did you last talk to before you went to bed last night? Angela and Reena, if Iâm not mistaken.
Do you need to talk to anybody right now? No, Iâm good.
U - US ARMY
Do you support it? I donât know enough about it to have a bold opinion, considering Iâm not even from the US and itâs been a while since their army has had any strong contact with my country.
Do you know anybody who is in the army right now? I think one of Angelaâs uncles has a high position in our national army.
Donât you ever wonder why their camo doesnât match anything? Not really.
Would you ever go to the army? No.
V - Virgin.
Are you a virgin? Nope.
When did you lose your virginity? I was 18.
Do you wish you wouldâve waited? Nah, it felt right when I did it the first time; and I maintain that stance now even though Iâm no longer with that person.
Do you think you could have stayed a virgin until marriage? I could. Sex isnât a big deal to me.
W - What.
What are you doing right now besides this survey? Iâm also listening to mono. and taking bites from my doughnut every now and then.
What are you craving? Spicy tuna salad, but it can wait. Andi got me my favorite truffle baked macaroni because itâs CM Punk day today :D :D and thatâs able to satisfy my savory cravings for now.
What do you need to buy? Shelves.
Why are you taking my survey? Iâve mentioned this before but I like categorized/themed surveys, so alphabetical ones are always fun for me.
X -XanaxÂ
Do you know anybody who is addicted to Xanax? I donât think so.
Have you ever taken it before? No.
Do you even know what it is? No, actually.
Have you ever suffered from anxiety or depression? Iâm sure I have.
Y - Yourself.
Name. Robyn.
Age. 23.
Do you smile a lot? Sure, Iâd say thatâs common these days.
Z - Zebra.
Are you addicted to zebra striped? Not really.
Do you own anything zebra striped? Nah. I have some stuff that come in black and white stripes, but not zebra print. Is anything on any of your websites zebra striped? No.
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Enchanted Pt. 1
A/N: So I am a total liar because I said I was going to do a Taehyung One Shot, but I am not. I donât think I was meant for the One Shot lifestyle. I think my problems stems with having too many details in my work :( but I hope that you guys enjoy the beginning of this Tae mini series. I am going to try and stick to 3 to 4 parts, but we shall see. Happy reading! And as always, constructive criticism is always welcome/appreciated!
Moving to South Korea on your own seemed like a good choice at some point. Especially since you came to live with a boyfriend you made online and he promised you a wonderful life in an exciting country. Of course you were too naive to see what was really happening even though your friends and family tried talking you out of it the whole time, up to the day you were due to leave for Incheon. Â
It was a big surprise to you when you arrived at the airport and he wouldnât answer your texts. You figured he was stuck in traffic or on his way and didnât want to text while driving, which is a good thing. But after waiting at the pickup curb for half an hour with still no answer, you started to worry. What if he got in an accident? Is he okay? He couldnât have forgotten that you were arriving today because you sent him a screenshot of your flight info. Deciding that you had enough, you finally decide to call him.Â
We are sorry, the number you have dialed is disconnected or no longer in service. Goodbye.Â
âWhat the heck?â You whisper to yourself. You try it one more time and get the same message, your heart sinking. Is he ignoring you right now? Why isnât he picking up? You log into your instagram to message him and your stomach twists in knots when you realize he blocked you. Your chat was no longer available and when you looked him up by username nothing came up. Tears welled up in your eyes at the realization that he was not coming for you and he just completely ghosted you. How could he do such a thing? Why would he promise to live his life with you and have you come out to a foreign country where you only know him just to abandon you? Did he mean it when he said he loved you? Or was it all just a game for him?Â
Deciding that wallowing in self pity at the airport surrounded by strangers was not something you were about to do, you wipe away the stray tears and get to work.
âThis is why we came with a plan.â You say to yourself, glad that you didnât just come without a proper plan in place and blind trust on that bastard you once called your boyfriend.Â
You looked up a hostel near the airport that was accessible by bus and started on your new journey. Thankfully the public transportation in Korea is amazing and you didnât have to wait long to get on the bus. Once there, you made sure you kept your ears open for the name of your stop, grateful that you were smart enough to learn some basic Korean so you can get around without a problem.Â
Taking a deep breath you try not to let your pain crush you and you manage to keep your tears at bay. Even though things are not going the way you planned, that was not going to ruin your plans to live in this country. You are going to make it work and show that bastard that you donât need him.
****3 months later****
âHey do you think you can cover my closing shift tomorrow? I have to go wedding dress shopping with my sister.â Minyoung, my coworker asked.
âYeah thatâs fine.â You say with a smile. Any extra income is welcomed especially because rent is almost due and youâre short.Â
Working at the cafe part time makes you just enough for your rent, but itâs still not enough. The cafe is close by some entertainment agencies and itâs always filled with crazy hopeful fans and on rare occasions, the idols themselves. It was hard to know sometimes because most of the time they were wearing face masks, but on rare occasions they came in without one. You werenât particularly a big fan of any of these artists but you could say that they were very talented. Minyoung was your closest coworker and she was extremely obsessed with them. She would listen to their music all the time and talk about them non-stop. It was endearing but you were lost half of the time. She tried getting you into it but you were busy with work and your side job as an English tutor, that you didnât really have a lot of extra time available. Binge watching music videos and tv performances is a luxury you couldnât quite afford.Â
Your English tutoring was what made it possible for you to survive without having to eat ramen all day every day. It was great because that way, you didnât have to call your family and ask them for help. Your parents were no longer angry with you, but they were concerned. You assured them that you were fine and everything was under control, even though they didnât know that you were actually ditched the second you arrived in the country. You were going to tell them, but you wanted to wait and make it seem like you broke up later on.Â
Now, however, you were struggling to make ends meet because the family you tutor for left for a two month vacation and you were out of that extra income for that time. So you were more than willing to cover as many shifts as possible, even if it wasnât the same as your tutoring job. What mattered was that your bills were paid on time, even if you had to eat ramen with Kimchi every day.Â
You sighed a breath of relief when it was finally time for you to clock out for the day. Your back and feet were so sore, the thought of a hot shower excited your tired limbs. You bid goodbye to your coworkers as you grabbed your purse and left the building. You saw a huge black van park in front of the cafe and you felt grateful that you were off and didnât have to help the huge group that was coming in. It looked like the type of vans that idols use, but it could also be a school group or even a church group. Regardless, you were glad it wasnât your problem and you can go home to relax. Besides, who gets coffee this late? The cafe was practically empty now.Â
Your apartment was close to the coffee shop therefore your commute was short. You lived in an older building but the rent was low and your landlord was nice. She was a sweet old lady that helped you out and didnât treat you differently just because you were a foreigner. She checks up on you a lot and gives you some banchan from time to time, which you always appreciate because her cooking is amazing.Â
You take your shoes off as soon as you enter your apartment and sigh at the mess you left in the kitchen this morning before going to work. You woke up late and in a rush to eat some breakfast and make some coffee, so it looked like a tornado passed by your kitchen. You were extremely exhausted and decided that the kitchen could wait until after a nice hot shower and maybe some fried chicken from the place down the street.
After your much needed shower and a clean kitchen, you were able to enjoy your fried chicken while watching some TV. You didnât watch a lot of Korean TV, mainly sticking to streaming apps like Netflix. But you did enjoy watching the music shows from time to time and tonight was some kind of comeback stage. You watched as the myriad of girls screamed on the TV screen and rolled your eyes at the noise, extremely amused at how they idolized these people. You had to admit that these artists were all gorgeous- men and women, although you knew that the makeup was attributed to it as well. You never knew that men could be cute and sexy at the same time. These pop idols were not afraid to rock some femininity but still managed to look manly and sexy all in one. It was something completely different than what you see back home, but you were not complaining. Before you knew it, exhaustion crept over you and pulled you under without warning.Â
*
The second you walked into the cafe you could feel a buzz of energy in the atmosphere that was a little too much for you at such an early hour.Â
âWhatâs going on?â You ask Minuk, taking in the giddy whispers of some of the female staff.
âTheyâre losing their minds because BTS came in yesterday to get some coffee and they are practically drooling.â He grumbles, rolling his eyes at the ridiculous situation.
âThey would.â You shake your head, knowing that Minyoung is going to cry the second she hears that BTS was here after she had gone home.
âWhen did they come?â You ask the group of giddy girls.
âLiterally like a minute after you left yesterday! If only you had stayed a little longer.â Bora answers, she was the one who worked the evening shift with you yesterday and she stayed to close the shop.
âIt was so amazing. Theyâre all so nice and down to earth.â She swooned, tying her apron around her waist.
You chuckle at her dreamy expression, thoroughly amused at the whole situation. BTS are a very popular group so it makes sense that they came to get coffee once the place was empty and they had a low chance of getting mauled by crazy fans. You had to admit that they are very talented and passionate about what they do. Since Minyoung is a huge fan of theirs, she would force you to listen to their music and stream any music video that they would release. You would oblige but you havenât gotten too into KPOP. While you enjoyed listening to it over the speakers at the cafe, the grocery stores and basically anywhere you went, you werenât a hardcore fan by any means. You were still trying to get fully settled in this country and your priorities were different right now. Perhaps in the future itâs something that you can get more into.Â
The day went by in a rush and you were surprised at how tired you felt once you finally sat down to have your lunch. Well, it was more like dinner because you were all so busy that getting a break was almost impossible. Today was the first day of the holiday drinks and it seems like all of Seoul was anticipating this day because the incessant line of customers just died down five minutes ago. You were closing for Minyoung today and you were working the closing shift with Dara. she insisted you take a break to eat something before she headed home for the night. You were very thankful because you were starving and your feet ached.Â
âOkay Iâm all done.â You say, coming back from the back room.Â
âDid you chew your kimbap at all?â She teased, noticing that your break was way too short.
âItâs fine.â You waved her off, you much preferred to get your cleaning tasks out of the way to make closing easier.Â
âYou know what I noticed? Since it was busy all day no one ground the coffee beans for tomorrowâs opening shift. Iâm going to do that right now before I leave. It should take me about twenty minutes.â She informs you.
âOh gosh, yes please. We cannot leave without doing that first. Are you sure you want to stay and do it? Your shift is basically over.â You say, not wanting to keep her here unnecessarily.Â
âOf course. Besides, it's dead right now and I doubt anyone is going to come in within the next twenty minutes.â She brushes you off and heads to the back where the coffee grinder is.Â
Thankful for the help, you decide that you should start on your cleaning tasks so you can get out of here soon too. You were concentrating on trying to get a stubborn stain off a table that you were startled when you heard the doorâs bell jingle, signaling someone coming into the cafe.
âWelcome.â You quickly greet, bowing at the customer.Â
âAre you still open?â The deep voice asks, his eyes looking at you intently.
âYes we are, no worries.â You say, quickly walking back to the register. âWhat can I get for you?â You ask, taking in the customerâs appearance. He is wearing a black cotton face mask so you canât see his face that well.Â
âIâll have a medium hot chocolate.â He says, looking right at you.
You type the order in the POS system and try not to turn red under the strangers gaze. You are a foreigner after all and you should really be used to the stares by now. One thing is seeing a foreigner on vacation, another thing is seeing them working and living here.Â
âOkay, anything else?â You ask, briefly glancing up to look at him.
âJust that.â He answers, shaking his head lightly.Â
âIs it for here or to go?â You ask as you run his card for his total.
âHere.â He says and you quickly look up at him. He just stares back at you and you quickly look back down, the heat now spreading all over your face. It wasnât very often that people would have their drinks in the cafe this close to closing time, but you couldnât complain. You informed him that you would bring his drink to his table and he thanked you in that deep voice of his.
You quickly got to making his drink and you carefully took it to his table. As you approached, you could see that he removed his face mask and it was dangling from one of his ears. You were curious to see if his face was as attractive as his voice. The moment you were in front of his table, your breath hitched in your throat. He was very handsome, his smooth skin looking beautiful under the cafe lighting; his hair was fluffy and it looked so soft, making you want to touch it.
âHere you go.â You say with a smile, carefully placing the mug in front of him.
âThank you.â He says, looking right at your face. You held eye contact for about two seconds but inevitably looked away and walked back to the barista station, deciding that it was the perfect time to clean the area.Â
You kept glancing back to the table where the guy was and noticed that he would be looking in your general direction and that made you nervous. You hated being watched as you did your job, but he was the only person here.
âHey, Iâm all done with the coffee, Iâm going to head out.â Dara says, coming from the back and breaking you from your inner freakout.
âOkay, thank you so much for that.â You thank her, glad that your workload has lessened.
âOh, I didnât hear the customer come in.â She says, barely noticing the man sitting at the table. âOh my gosh.â She suddenly whispered, her eyes as wide as saucers.
âWhat?â You ask, looking back at the customer and noticed he looked away the second you looked his way.
Dara quickly pulled you to the back, away from his sight.
âThatâs Taehyung from BTS!â She whisper-shouted, her body trembling slightly out of excitement.
âOh. No wonder he looked kind of familiar.â You shrug, his ridiculously good looks now making sense.Â
âHow can you be so passive about this? Heâs BTSâs Taehyung!â Dara shakes you slightly, making you laugh at her excitement.
âHeâs just a human being.â You reply, rolling your eyes.
You walk back out to the front of the cafe and almost jump back when you see that Taehyung is no longer sitting down but standing right at the counter. Dara eyes you nervously but says her goodbyes, leaving you alone with Taehyung.
âSorry about that wait. Is there anything else I can help you with?â You ask, your customer service voice on.
âNo thatâs all, I just didn't want to leave the mug on the table.â He explains, smiling at you.Â
âOh, you didnât have to do that. Thank you.â You say, bowing slightly and picking up his mug.
He stood there watching you place the mug in the sink, making you feel self conscious about your actions. You slowly turn to look at him, his soft eyes watching your every move. He held eye contact with you for what felt like an eternity but was probably about five seconds. Before you could break eye contact or say anything, he gave you a cute boxy smile, your heart beating irregularly at the sight.Â
âHave a good night.â He finally said and bowed, before turning around and heading out.
â..Um, uhhh, yeah you too.â You mumble, watching his figure walk out to a car that was parked across the street.Â
You shook your head and tried to forget the odd encounter, focusing now on locking the door and making this place sparkly clean for the morning shift⌠which you are working.Â
By the time you made it to your front door you were practically dragging your feet, exhaustion wracking your whole body. You went straight to the shower and then straight to bed, too tired to even feel hungry.
*
âYou freaking bitch, tell me all about it!â Minyoung screeched the second she walked through the doors of the cafe, which thankfully was empty at the moment.Â
âWill you keep it down?â You chastise, worried that customers are going to be coming in while she is screaming and cursing.Â
âDara texted me last night and said that Kim Taehyung, THE Kim Taehyung was here last night! Is that true?â She questions you, wanting all the details. She is a hardcore BTS fan after all.Â
âYes, I didnât realize who it was until Dara told me.â You tell her, rolling your eyes at her whines about how she canât believe that you didnât recognize someone as amazing and handsome and Taehyung.
âOkay but all that aside, I do want to ask you something.â She says after the first wave of customers finally leave.Â
âWhatâs that?â You ask, scared of what she might come up with.Â
âWant to come to a BTS concert with me? My friend and I bought tickets a while ago but she canât go anymore. If youâre interested, you can have her ticket. You havenât been to a kpop concert yet and itâs a great experience you should have.â She tried to convince you.
A concert sounded like a lot of fun, especially since you havenât done many fun things since you arrived in Korea. Minyoung is the first friend you made and you havenât been able to spend much time with her outside of work because youâre always so busy and you need some distraction.Â
âOkay, I guess Iâll go.â You give in, smiling at her excited jumping. She promised that you would have a great time and not regret it, which you hope was right.Â
*
It was the day of the concert and you were excited to go with Minyoung, even though she was literally going crazy with excitement. She coordinated your outfits in case you got to meet the boys; which you knew was almost impossible but you let her be with her wishful thinking. You felt comfortable and confident in your all-black ensemble, your cute skirt and top giving you a confidence you have not felt in a while, ever since your âboyfriendâ ditched you the second you got to this country.
This concert was unlike anything you have experienced back home and you were feeding off peopleâs energy. Everyone in the stadium was excited and you could feel it in the air and it was contagious. You laughed at the way everyone screamed at the top of their lungs the second the stage started to rise, indicating the start of the concert. The noise was deafening, especially since you had tickets in the pit, right below the stage. Words couldn't describe what you felt throughout the concert. These guys were not just excellent artists, they were amazing performers. The energy they radiated was incredible and you soon found yourself screaming along with the thousands of fans. You were familiar with BTS and knew the name of the different members so it was easy to follow along with the fan chants. There came a point in the concert where the members went to different parts of the stage and they were singing, dancing, being silly and waving at the fans and the cameras. You immediately recognized the member that went to your side of the pit, since he was just at the coffee shop not that long ago. Minyoung was next to you, singing at the top of her lungs while you swayed next to her, smiling at the soulful way she was singing. You were so busy taking everything in, you didnât notice the person staring at you; his eyes glued to your face and not looking away.
âOmg, look!â Minyoung practically shouted in your ear, your eyes following the direction her finger was pointing.Â
You see Taehyung walking in front of your section, singing his part of the song, all while looking right at you. You made eye contact with him and he did not break away. You telt like you were in a trance, his brown orbs so tantalizing you couldnât look away even if you wanted to. You felt as if the earth stood still and the only people in that stadium were the two of you. It felt silly to say, but you honestly felt as if there was an invincible cord pulling you towards him, strong and unrelenting. You donât know if he felt it too, but the way his brown eyes looked at you, it made you feel like perhaps he did.Â
The moment was broken when he suddenly looked away and ran back to his members that were standing in the main portion of the stage again. The beginning of their last song for the night started and you watched amazed as you still felt that strong pull. Was this something all the fans felt? If so, you totally understand now why theyâre so loved by them. The concert ended with a spectacular performance and you were surprisingly sad that the concert was over. Perhaps it was time for you to start finding some time to get more into this band.Â
âOkay, bitch! What the hell was that?â Minyoung asks excitedly as you walk back to the subway station.Â
âWhat was what?â You ask innocently, hoping she would buy your bs lie.
âGirl donât play dumb with me, you know exactly what Iâm talking about.â Minyoung was not having your faux innocence today.
âI honestly have no idea what you are talking about.â You try to play it off but it was no use. You knew she was not going to let you off the hook that easily.Â
âCome on, donât be a jerk and tell me!!!!â She practically yelled, earning some glares from a few of the older people waiting for the subway.
âOkay fine.â You relent. âI honestly donât know what that was all about, but it looked like Taehyung was looking at me. It could have just been a coincidence though.â You try to brush it off, but your heart was being fast at the memory, calling you a liar because it knew that it wasnât just a coincidence.
âYeah, okay, coincidence my ass. He was looking right at you and you know it.â She insists as you enter the subway, sitting down on the empty seats.
âDo you think he remembers you from the cafe?â She asks, eyes twinkling at the possibilities.
âI donât think so. They see and meet a lot of new people all the time, I highly doubt he remembers me. Maybe itâs odd for him to see a foreigner at a show here in Korea.â You offer, not believing that you were special enough for such a successful man to remember.
âWhatever! There are tons of foreigners at their shows here. Trust me girl, I know what I saw. And if he comes by the coffee shop by himself again, then I know Iâm right.â She insists as the both of you get off at your subway stops.Â
âWell if you insist, but I donât think thatâs true.â You say with finality.Â
âYeah yeah yeah.â Minyoung waved you off, the both of you parting ways.
You arrive at your apartment and make a beeline to the shower, wanting to wash off the sweat and makeup from the night. Your mind was still buzzing from the encounter at the concert, your stomach fluttering with a mix of excitement and nervousness. Your mind told you that it meant nothing, that it was pure coincidence. But there was a small part of you that wondered if he really remembered you and the look you shared meant something more.
You fell asleep still thinking of those brown eyes, their warmth encompassing you into unconsciousness.Â
*
It was two days after the concert and you were exhausted from working two double shifts in a row. Dara had covered your shift so you could go to the concert and now you were paying her back. You also picked up an extra shift because you wanted to eat more than just ramen once your rent was paid. It was an hour before closing and Hana had just left since it was a slow night. You sat at a stool and rested your back for a second, your lower back killing you. The cafe was empty and you needed a small break before you started to clean all the tables. Hopefully you wouldnât get many more customers at the end of the night.Â
âHi, are you still open?â You hear a gruff voice say as they enter the cafe. You stood up at the speed of light and walked back to the counter, embarrassed that a customer walked in and youâre just sitting around.
âYes, welcome.â You say, bowing slightly.Â
You look up to take the order of the customer and your breath hitches in your throat, your eyes not believing the sight before them. There stood Kim Taehuyng, his mask hanging from one of his ears.Â
âHello, can I get a medium hot chocolate?â He orders, a small smile gracing his lips.Â
âOh, of course. For here or to go?â You ask, suddenly wishing that he says to go.Â
âFor here.â He answers.
After you collect payment, you quickly get to work on his hot chocolate. You notice that he sat at the bar and was watching you make his drink, which was extremely nerve wracking. You take a deep breath and turn around, meeting his curious brown eyes.Â
âHere you go.â You say and place the cup in front of him, averting your gaze.
âThank you.â He says, his soft deep voice sending a shiver down your spine.Â
You get to work, hastily cleaning up the tables and hoping that he leaves soon. He makes you oddly nervous and you donât know why. It could be the way his eyes seem to stare intently at you, but you canât be sure. Maybe thatâs the type of person that he is and it means nothing. But something in the depths of your stomach makes you feel like thatâs not the case. Youâre almost done cleaning up the cafe when you hear the stool scrape against the floor, indicating that he has gotten up. You look over, expecting him to be halfway to the door by now but were surprised to see him still standing by the bar.
âCan I get you anything else?â You ask, wondering why he is still here.
âNo thatâs all.â He says, still staring.
âOkay.â You answer, staring back at him.Â
The silence was very awkward and you didnât know what to do so you stood in place. He was just looking at you and you could feel your face getting red, giving you away. Could you be blamed? He is such a gorgeous person, you really did not know how to react to him standing there and looking at you like heâs never seen such a monstrosity before.Â
By the grace of all things holy, he finally broke the silence.
âWhatâs your name?â He asks curiously, confusing you further.Â
You stared at him in awe, wondering why the hell Kim Taehyung wanted to know your name. After a few seconds of stupefied silence, you mumbled your name, hoping it was coherent enough.
âIâm Kim Taehyung.â He introduces himself, such a silly thing.
âI know.â You say without thinking, mentally slapping yourself for being so stupid.
He chuckles slightly and you can feel the redness coating your face once again. Great.Â
âWere you at our concert the other night?â He asks and you swear you have to be dreaming. None of this is real.Â
âUm, yeah?â You say uncertain, not understanding whatâs going on at all.
âI remember you. I hope you enjoyed it.â He flashes a heart stopping smile and you swear you have died and gone to heaven. What the hell is going on?
âYes, um, I had a great time.â You nod, the urge to pinch yourself very strong because you swear this is a lucid dream.Â
âGood, Iâm glad. I have to get going now.â He tells you and you nod, not understanding what he wants you to do with that information. Of course he has to get going, he canât stay at the cafe all night.
âI donât normally do this but, I was wondering if I can get your number?â He asks and has the audacity to look shy and cute and hot all at the same time. Who is this man?
âUh, ye-yes.â You mumble and write your Kakao id on a sticky note and hand it to him.Â
âThanks.â He flashes you a bright smile and bows, waving goodbye.
You bow back and watch his frame walk out of the cafe and into the night. Slapping yourself across your face, the sting indicates that indeed, you did not dream all that up. It was reality and you had no idea why Kim Taehyung wanted your phone number.Â
You quickly finished cleaning up the last few things you needed before finally closing the cafe and heading home. It was a chilly night and your light sweater was not enough to stop the nippy air from hitting your skin. You power walked home and sigh in relief when the warm air thawed out your skin. After your shower, you had some leftover kimbap for dinner and settled on the couch to watch some late night tv. You were so concentrated on the show that you jumped at the sound of your KakaoTalk chime, indicating you got a message. Reaching for your phone, your eyebrows furrowed in confusion as you see the unknown senderâs message.
KTH: Hey this is Taehyung. Did you get home safely?
You jumped on your seat and blinked your eyes repeatedly, not believing what your eyes were seeing. Was he actually serious?
Me: Hey, yes I did. Thank you for checking in.
You sat on your couch in anxious excitement. Biting your thumb nail, you were staring down your phone to see if he would reply. When did you turn into this person?
KTH: Good, Iâm glad. I was wondering that if you are available, would you like to get something to drink tomorrow night?
Oh crap. Is he serious?
Me: Sure, that sounds great.
Your knee was shaking in excitement, the disbelief coming and going in waves. Was this actually happening? What did you ever do to deserve this?Â
KTH: Great! Iâll text you the details tomorrow. Good night :)
Me: Good night
You screamed into your pillow, heart racing at the possibilities that tomorrow will bring. You? Getting drinks with THE Kim Taehyung? You donât know what brought this on, but you will not question it, thatâs for sure.
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Past loves and future babies pt. 5
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Fandom: MarvelÂ
Summary: Trying to Dance over their issuesÂ
Pairing: Steve Rogers x OC
Notes: This took a bit of a turn I wasnât planning but I actually like it this way. Let me know what you guys thinkÂ
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Giggles, they bubbled up and floated around the room filling it with fizzy magic. Steve tried to remember a time he had come home to such a sound. And if so, it had been a long time. There had been so much silence after Thanos. And before that the noise was anything but laughter. When you are on the run laughter wasnât really a daily occurrence.  Â
Dixie stood in the middle of the living room in a sports bra and legging stretching. Her phone propped up on a chair where she was watching something. Her hair pulled back in a messy ponytail as the light back lit her in a way that made her almost look like she was glowing.Â
She looked so different from the girl yesterday. So much more relaxed, in her own element.Â
Bucky was right. He didnât know this woman at all. But she didnât know him either. And at least he was in his own home. She had left everything and everyone for this.Â
Part of him debated just leaving. Letting her enjoy herself without him around to ruin it.Â
âHello Mr. America.âÂ
Too late.Â
She smiled up at him from her warrior on3. A big cheesy grin that seemed to light up the already bright room. It was infectious and he couldnât help but smile back. Standing up she pulled at her ponytail.
âDonât stop on my accountâÂ
âOhh enjoying the view of my sweaty body?â she giggled swaying her hips as her hands moved over her body in an exaggeratedly sexy motion. She was silly, something Steve was slowly learning more and more.Â
âSo what are your plans today?âÂ
âWasnât really sure, what do you guys do for fun around here?â
âWell Sam enjoys the large media room, Bucky and I like to hike around the property, Wanda and Vision normally cook, It really just depends.âÂ
Dixie nods thinking it over about to respond when her stomach spoke for her. Letting out a loud growl. Chuckling Steve nodded toward the kitchen.
âHave you eaten?âÂ
âLunch sounds amazing, I was going to shower and then figure out how to work that fancy kitchen.âÂ
âI can start something if you would like to take a shower.âÂ
âI wonât say no to a hot guy making me foodâ Dixie giggled spinning around heading for the bedroom, âBe back in a bitâÂ
âTake your timeâ Steve called after her fighting back a smile. Maybe this wouldnât be so bad. It seemed like she was startling to settle into the place. Plus making food would hel[. Something to do. Something he can control.Â
Dixie sighed letting the warm water wash over her. Trying to clean away any anxiety she was feeling about being alone with Steve again. It was weird because at this point they had (quite literally) slept together. But she still felt like she was with a complete stranger.Â
A beautiful strangerÂ
But a stranger none the less.Â
Although as she walked back into the main room watching Steve walk around the kitchen he didnât feel that much of a stranger. His blue eyes met her as she came closer. A platter of meats and cheeses.
âI figured you could make your own sandwich if you want or just eat whatever.âÂ
âOhhh so fancyâ Dixie giggled, âIs that wine?â Â
He smiled pouring her a glass, âIt isâÂ
âYou know how to make a girl feel special.âÂ
âSo what did you do for fun?â Steve asked, helping himself to some meat and cheese.
âOh Iâm just a simple girl, some binging Netflix is always fun. I am very partial to cheesy 80âs action movies.â Memories of her and Mac sitting on a beat up old couch they had gotten from craigslists with a pack of cheap beer between them. Laughing like nothing else mattered. Calling out lines and guessing what would happen next. Â
It felt like a lifetime ago.Â
âOh and what made the 80âs so cheezy?â Steve perked up, many people had recommended things to him but cheesy 80âs action hadnât been one of them. He was honestly not even sure what that was.Â
âOh man I forgot you missed stuff.â Dixie said taking a sip of her drink mulling it over. Would it even make sense to a man who spent most of his life in the 30âs and 40âs.Â
âYeah, I have been keeping a list of things I need to catch up on.â Steve said, pulling it out. Dixie instantly lighting up.
âWait you have a real honest to goodness list, lemme see!âÂ
Taking it she flipped over the pages, âMan Star Wars? Itâs insane to me that you missed all this stuff. I mean it makes sense but⌠golly gosh jeez whizâÂ
Steve raised an eyebrow fighting back a smile, âJeez whiz?âÂ
âYeah old man, we are going to have to start working on this.â The idea of experiencing movies like Indiana Jones and the Matrix with someone who didnât know anything making her excited.Â
âActually I had a better idea.â picking up a remote he clicked play. Soft music started to play. Moving around the large island that broke up the kitchen and the living room he held out his hand to Dixie who watched him. Her playful smile slowly melting from her face. Eyes studying him intently. Unsure.
âWhat?â she asked, looking from his hand to his bright blue eyes. Her stomaching flopping slightly. Shuttering as if she was standing on the edge of something. Something high up. That vertigo, gravity pulling you down.Â
âCan I have this Dance?â
She felt sick, slightly off balance, âAre you serious?â
âDonât like dancing?â
âIâm not very goodâÂ
Steve wasnât stupiud, he saw the shift in her. Buckyâs words coming back to him. Youâre a stranger to her as well. âItâs ok, I⌠I want to try okâÂ
Dixie wasnât really sure what try meant. Try dancing? Try to get to know each other? Try romance? Try, the small voice in the back of her head sang. Try something.Â
Slowly she slipped her hand into his, those unbalancing nerves swaying even harder as his hand gripped hers. She was fighting her better judgement. All the warning bells that told her to step away from the ledge. But he was right. They had to try. The world was counting on them. And if this would help him commit to their destiny then she would have to give a little.Â
As she followed him into the center of the living room she hoped it was worth it. Hoped that no matter what happened it didnât crash and burn around them. That she could navigate herself between that fine line of caring for someone and not falling in love. Â
He smiled down at her as the music played slowly moving. She giggled again and his smile grew.Â
âYou have a great laugh.âÂ
âUh, thank you. I like your smile. The real one anyway.âÂ
âReal one?âÂ
âYeah not that uptight, Iâm trying to make you feel at least one. This one.â she pointed toward his face and nodded her approval.Â
âI guess I should apologize for being so⌠uptight.âÂ
âItâs okâ she nodded, âThis whole situation is kind ofâŚâ
âAwkward?âÂ
âEminently.âÂ
âWell at least we are on the same page.âÂ
âIf there is one thing I have learned growing up as an awkward kid wasâ Dixie paused for a moment, âLean it to the awkward.â she leaned forward as she spoke her bright eyes looking up at him. He smiled down unable to picture the beautiful woman in his arms as an awkward kid. However, some could say the same about him. Â
âOk then,â he said leaning forward, his forehead brushing against herâs. Their faces only a breath apart. Barely touching, eyes locked on one another. Caught up in the moment. âIâm going to kiss you.â Steve whispered his words drifting through her gently stirring something deep inside that made her shiver as he broke that abyss between them meeting her lips with his own.Â
Steveâs kiss felt like a question. Asking her what she wanted, asking himself if this was right. His kisses were always slightly hesitant, holding back slightly. Searching as if looking for something that wasnât there.Â
Or maybe someone.Â
As he slowly pulled away Dixie licked her lips. Trying to hold back the words that raced through her mind. Suspicions that seemed to be slowly confirmed with each passing second.Â
âWhat is it?âÂ
âWhat?â Steve looked down at her confused, âWhat is what?âÂ
âThere is something wrong, what is it.â
âItâs not youâ it was quick, defensive. Dixie couldnât help but take a slight offence to it.Â
âI never said it wasâ her voice soft, eyebrow raised slightly. Hard eyes studying him, peeling down the layers of the man in front of her. Trying to understand who he was. What had happened to him.Â
Steve sighed looking away for a moment. Heart heavy. Memories of wounds that hadnât healed yet. Were still fresh. Still bleed deeper than any of the scars on his body.Â
Peggy.Â
âWhat?â Dixie asked again, her hand gently rubbing his arm. He met her gaze, deep blue and so broken. It hurt her. All those fears she had about her own walls. They were nothing to whatever was pushing away from.Â
Because he was already broken. He was suffering from what she had feared for herself.
âTry me.âÂ
âI⌠itâs not youâ his words empty, hollow. Like a plea trying to protect her. Trying to fall on the sword for a woman he didnât even know. Trying to be strong.Â
âIâm a good listener.â she let out a soft chuckle, âWhen I want to be.âÂ
âI just,â he sighed, running his fingers through his blonde hair. Unsure. Knowing it was wrong but⌠he needed to let it out. Needed to try and push this pain away. And then he looked down at her. Wide eyes looking back at him. Waiting. This wasnât her fault. This wasnât for her. She was just some girl. âForget itâ
Turning he walked toward the stereo turning off the music âThis was a bad idea.â
âWhat?â Dixie felt herself flush with anger. Heat building up burning inside her bright and hot. âDon't you walk away from me Steve Rogers!â She snapped grabbing his arm. He froze turning shocked.Â
âWâŚ.â
âI gave up everything to be here the LEAST you could do is be honest with me!â frustration building up. Bubbling from where deep inside her. The injustice of it all. Reminding Her again and again. She was the only one trying. Â
âDonât push it.â his words flat, a warning. Tired but a warning.Â
âTry me,â she said again, crossing her arms over her chest. Holding on tight to herself. Trying to hold back all the things she really wanted to say to this man in front of her, âwhat are you scared of?âÂ
âIâm not scaredâ he said, âIâm FINEâÂ
âClearly, you canât even get it upâÂ
âExcuse me?âÂ
âYou canât even do what Iâm here for, something is blocking you WHAT. IS. IT?â with each word she thrust her finger into his hard chest. Pushing him. Forcing him to take a step back. It didn't hurt but⌠it made him mad. Who did she think she was?Â
âStop that,â he said, grabbing her hand.
âStop what? Trying to get to know you? One of us has to try!âÂ
âIâm tryingâÂ
âYes because running away the moment you could is trying SO hardâÂ
âAre you mad I left this morning?âÂ
âIâm mad you wonât talk to me!âÂ
âIâm talking to you right now!â
âNo youâre not, you are trying to pour sugar over shit. Asking me to dance. Letting me decorate my room. Kissing meâ she pulled her hand out of his pushing him with both of hers with enough force that he took a step back word, slightly off balance. Was it just him or were her hands hot? A heat that spread across his body.
âDAMN IT Dixie STOP!âÂ
âStop what!?!â she snapped pushing him again. âAt least one of us is trying!â
âI wasnât even supposed to be here!â he snapped, the straw that broke the camelâs back. Shattering his strong glass box that increased his emotions. Shards scattering around them tearing at them. Ripping through their insecurities and doubts.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âYou want to know the truth, woman? Iâm not even supposed to be here.âÂ
âWhat do you mean you werenât even supposed to be hereâŚâ her voice was hoarse, laced with shock âwere you going to die?â Memories of her own childhood rushing back. Darknesses that creeped in when no one was around. When it felt like she could never be free.Â
Her question was like ice water on his fire. Cooling him off so that he was standing there gasping for air.Â
âNo I⌠I was going to leave everything for someone.âÂ
âIâŚâ she stammered unsure how or what to say. All her suspicions confirmed yet so many more questions filling her up.Â
âLike I said itâs not you,â he said, turning. His words ripped into her. A million cuts pouring out polling around her. His large back to her unable to face her and what his truth would do to her.Â
It only took a few steps and he was gone. Out the door. Running from her. From the reality that not only had he ruined his own life with his delusions but someone elseâs tooÂ
Like she said. She gave everything to come here.Â
To a broken man Â
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So just binged Titans (2018) on Netflix and -
I want to say stuff. Lets start with the basics. Iâm not a hardcore DC comics fan. Iâm your occasional TV viewer who watched Teen Titans, and loved the Batman cartoons. Iâm your ordinary Joe. That would mean, for me, this show is my introduction into these characters. Iâm viewing these stories as manifestations of archetypes, I am not familiar with âclassicâ characterizations, or âthe right way of this one to talkâ and so on.
I enjoyed the show a lot. Like, I literally binged the whole two seasons in the expense of some very cherished sleep time. It sucked me in.
And I became very curious about the backgrounds of the characters, and I looked some of it up (fucked up stuff! good!) and I was interested in maybe some reviews or hardcore fans sating their... say.
And. Guys. Guys.
So much negativity? Over... it being too violent?... Too dark...? Too... new?
I watched this show right now with virgin eyes. And I have to say that,Â
A. Dick Grayson of this Titans is the definition of âDick Moveâ, and is literally trope co founder. And I love it. GO GRAY MORALITY GO. Also his introduction was. GOOD STUFF. I am rooting for this broken brain. His choices and inner struggles were very intriguing to watch, also his choices, morals and oh overall, a beautiful rendition of an adult, a grownup person that comes to terms with some very fucked up implicaitons.
B. For all the reviewers trashing Raven, calling her OOC and HotTopicRaven, guys, F U I loved her, I loved Teen Titans Raven as a kid, and this one is 16 and goddammit she is allowed to be emo and rock her style. And that she does. The âpossessionâ thing she has is creepy cringe AWESOME STUFF. She rocks it, The actress ROCKS IT. Her whole journey was so engaging. TEAM RAVEN!
C. I was not familiar with Hawk and Dove, but Iâm here rooting for them. Like full on SHIP THAT SHIP. I want them to be together, and I donât care they broke my heart and then patched it up and Iâm here for this couple.
D. Gar. OH PRECIOUS GAR, thanQ for righting the wrongs of decades of werepeople by transforming in and out while naked. Iâm just so so grateful for this, but also, SO SO likable and the amount of empathy that was dragged out of me for the poor dude, I just want more screen time of him doing whatever he wants to do. I will literally watch an episode of Gar making various veggie shakes. I would. But also I want him to have more plot. Like, yesterday.
E. Kory/Starfire. Whoever trashes her costumes, go sleep on some legos. She rocks it, the actress rocks it, SHE ROCKS THAT RING ON HER LONG BEAUTIFUL FINGERS, and if anyone even dares to oink anything about her being black as apologetic, I say F U, she literally ABSORBS SUN POWER in this version, that melanin is rightfully hers. Also if you want to call me racist have fun, but I love the idea that genetics are applied with scientific purposes rather then, just, um, representation fodder launching pad. Fuck this shit, SHE IS THE SUN, GORGEOUS SUN. I love her discovery of self, maybe a hasty one. but damn poignant. I enjoyed her way of going around not remembering who she is. I root for her and her upcoming clash with her sister.
D. Donna. I kinda felt she will be in and then out and I didnât really get attached to her BUT she was introduced as this very independent and firmly grounded person, and I was so happy to see her keeping her ground, good for her.
E. Jason Todd. Now here is a surprise. What a bomb of character that one. Now after doing minimal research about the fucked up origins of that one, I wasnât surprised to see how he is probably the most twist and broken mess of them all. And he is the embodiment of DCâs wrongs, so it seems. This one is the ghost that Corp couldnât get rid of or something. This one carries so so much nuance. But what really got me is how ensemble DarkHorse this one is. The actor is amazing. It reminds me how Dylan OâBrien of Teen Wolf out-shined the ever-living crap out of his co-stars cast back in the day. This one has similar energy. I literally squeezed on my couch into a little bulb of fright and pity when he had his outburst in front of Rose. His violence is so spot on brutal - I mean, while Dickâs violence is vicious, this one is brutal and Iâm here for this. Also, his very introduction? Shivers down my spine and that feeling of âshit he had it REAL BAD as a kid. THE WORSTâ.
E.02 I... donât care for Rose. Right now anyway. Maybe later on with her half brother as her copilot in S3? Weâll see. For now...? meh Sorry.Â
F. Conner. From the very moment the name Superman was dropped I was like, there is going to be a supersomething. Now I am not familiar with all the comics and I barely remember Teen Titans, but I am on tumblr, so. OK his origins are creepy AF, also intriguing, and Lex, you obsessed fucker. GOOD. But then Jason was falling of the building and it was literally 2+2 âoh Conner is gonna save the poor soulâ, but oh no they had to go full-on âcatch you as you fall Lois Lane styleâ but except no flying up - instead crashing on a car. This character, just broke out of a laboratory, had a random journey, and was alive for like two days in total just to be at the right time at the right place to save Jason falling from that building? ?? What am I suppose to do with this information??? I mean, Someone DID THIS.  And I mean, that is kinda spot on. The writers should be VERY CAREFUL NOW with that, coz it can be either beautiful stuff or a very gruesome publicity fodder.Â
G. THEME. This Titans is. HORRIFICALLY IN YOUR FACE OOZES DARK TRAUMA AND CHILD ABUSE. While watching it I lost count of either abused/used children and crappy fathers. Dick is introduced while investigating a child abuse case. Raven was literally conceived so her demonic father could pass through her into this world. AND SO ON. And that literally includes Bruce and Dick themselves under that category, as the bad fathers. GOOD STUFF. You should really meditate on that. The amount of usage of children under the hands of adults in all the verity of forms, from sexual assault and rape and whatever violence to selling for profit (Conner is brainwashed and has a bid put on him, as a soldier for sale. He is a few weeks old.) is shockingly overwhelming. Like, this is THE THEME. Obviously this is a Found Family Trope kind of show, but oh my GOD they all are running from is just like, I dunno a mass of horny catholic priests?Â
IN CONCLUSION
Titans may have a messy output with many plots but it is not that hard to follow. Itâs not just darker and edgier, itâs just NOT THAT COMIC. This seems to be a show that might tackle some of the darkest stuff media doesnât outright... tackles. Itâs more then just âoh crap daddy issuesâ. It has the actual feeling of âI will not be avenged. How do I move forward. Who needs me, who do I need to heal?â If it plays it right, it can be a thing of beauty. Or, if it will hear to all those negative shallow reviews, it will go crashing down in shamble.Â
Signed, a satisfied, average viewer.Â
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Never Have I Ever: A Review
I know that this blog was fully intended to be all about my medical school adventures but since that hasnât begun yet I shall fill this space with my other thoughts.Â
A year ago, Mindy Kaling released a casting call looking for young South Asian American women to be the lead in her new Netflix show. I downloaded the script and seriously considered auditioning. I ultimately didnât and now a year later I binged the entire season in one night.Â
I had a feeling since the trailer was released that I wouldnât like this show. I have always found South Asian representation in modern media problematic. I have my reservations about Lilly Singh and Priyanka Chopra. However, I will admit I have always thoroughly enjoyed Mindy Kalingâs work. I think itâs because she might be more obsessed with rom-coms than I am and thatâs evident in almost everything she makes, including this show. The days following the release of the show on Netflix my social media feeds were filled with posts about how problematic and cringey the show was. I began retweeting a lot of these harsh criticisms without even seeing the show because I was sure they were true. I had been anticipating this.Â
Tonight, I actually sat down and watched the whole thing and I couldnât have been more wrong. I really really enjoyed it. There were parts that were very cringey and parts I didnât agree with. My biggest complaint with South Asian representation in popular culture is that we are never shown as progressive people when a lot of us are. Never Have I Ever failed in this area in some scenes, like when a male chaperone is needed for an arranged marriage to be fixed (come on!). There were also moments where it shined like where Devi was allowed to eat meat no question even though her parents were vegetarians. She was allowed to make that decision herself which is very common in many modern Indian-American homes.Â
The ongoing aspect of the show that I truly loved was Devi meeting with a therapist. Mental health in South Asian culture has been taboo for so long and the show handles it beautifully. The epiphany Deviâs mom is able to reach with the therapist had me wanting to scream about how every Indian person needs to see a therapist like yesterday!!!Â
The romantic aspects were also great! Mindy Kaling always nails romance in my opinion (at least early on in her shows). Danny and Mindy were my faves until they went haywire after season 3. Devi has two main love interests both pretty adorable in my opinion. Iâm personally Team Ben because come on how can you not be?! ALSO *spoiler alert* but can we talk about how epic that episode Andy Samberg narrates is?! I LOVE ANDY SAMBERG and he was the narrator!! I think that was one of my favorite episodes.Â
There is so much to be said and discussed about this show. The acting all around is fantastic in my opinion. The supporting characters are all great!! Special shout out to Deviâs mom and dad for not only being a super cute couple but really bringing out the realness that is desi parents.Â
At the core of it all, this is a show about grief. I donât know much about grief except that I am experiencing it now for the first time. Itâs hard and constant and I found solace in knowing that a lot of the experiences I am having Devi has had too. At one point, Devi discovers this repressed memory of this fight she had with her parents right before her father passed. A few days ago, my mother reminded me of how my grandmother tried to teach me to cook right before she was diagnosed. I acted like a brat just like Devi, and now that memory wonât stop gnawing at me.Â
Devi and I are nothing alike but there are similarities in our experiences. I think people are being too hard on this show. All South Asian women arenât clones and their stories arenât the same. This is just one beautiful story about grief and acceptance that taught me a lot about my own grief and acceptance.Â
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tips for surviving the pandemic: things i learned from my immigrant parents
Itâs hard to believe that itâs only been a little over a week since the WHO announced that the coronavirus (COVID-19) was officially a pandemic. This has been a long, challenging week for a lot of people and it is nothing short of terrifying to read reports of what is happening in Asia and Europe as many predict that weâll likely endure a similar fate here in the United States. In the midst of all of this chaos and uncertainty, Iâve been reminded of so many lessons that my Taiwanese immigrant parents taught me. Iâm sharing them here so that others might also benefit. Thanks Ma. Thanks Daddy.
ä˝ ć¨ĺ¤Šĺˇ˛çśĺşĺťäş.
âYou already went out yesterday.â
1. Learn how to stay home. Our family is eight days into self-isolating at home and Tony asked me this morning if I had cabin fever. And strangely, the answer is no. Iâm not. Not to downplay the difficulty of this moment but my experience with this âshelter-in-placeâ ordinance reminds of pretty much all my summers between kindergarten and 8th grade. Both of my parents worked full-time so summer was just three blissful months of nothing. No structure, no plans, no camps, no playdates, and no responsibilities. My parents never made me feel like I was missing a thing by staying home and I donât remember ever feeling bored. There were always library books to read, stories to write, and thoughts to journal. Hours were spent playing school with my big sister (now a first grade teacher!), making up random games like who can avoid touching the carpet longest, learning Kim Zmeskalâs latest gymnastics floor routine, writing lyrics to Kenny G saxophone solos, and rehearsing for our variety show that we would perform to our tired parents at the end of the day. And thatâs not even including the hours we spent watching The Price is Right, CHIPS, Knight Rider, and Airwolf (yep, no cable).  Â
As a teenager I carefully plotted all my hangouts with friends so that I didnât have too many consecutive days when I was out of the house. Whenever I asked my parents if I could hang out with friends, they would always say, âBut you already went out yesterday. Whatâs wrong with staying home? Why do you always have to go out?â It was as if having too much fun two days in a row was off limits. If there was a big party on Friday, I would purposely make sure I stayed home Wednesday and Thursday just to increase the chances of being able to go out on Friday. I know a lot of people talk about how awful their high school years were but I was one of those lucky kids who had a really great group of friends that made me feel seen, loved, and cared for. The downside was that I couldnât get enough of it. I was always thinking about the next hangout, the next event, the next thing. It took me all the way until my late twenties to fully appreciate the fine art of staying home and to finish my unexpected transformation into the expert homebody that I am today.Â
Iâm reminded of that old quote by Blaise Pascal, âAll of humanity's problems stem from man's inability to sit quietly in a room alone."Â
Itâs great to be out and about, but itâs also really important to learn how to stay home. Â
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ćä¸čŚĺäťéşźďźć¸
ĺ°çŽą.
âWhat are we eating for dinner?â âCleaning the fridge.â
2. Be creative with what you have. I love food. Not in a foodie sense, but I get a lot of pleasure out of eating. Iâm not a food snob by any stretch of the imagination. I thoroughly enjoy a Stoufferâs frozen lasagna or a peanut butter and jelly sandwich as much as I enjoy a fancy, inventive, Michelin-starred meal at Commis. Whatâs hard for me is when food is eaten as sustenance rather than with delight. But my parents taught me that you can always take pride in preparing a meal. No matter your ingredients.
My mom is an excellent cook. I know a lot of people think their mom is a good cook but my mom is legitimately skilled in the kitchen. There were some nights when Iâd ask what was for dinner and my mom would just reply, âCleaning the fridge.âÂ
Now for some, this might sound terrifying. But my mom could honestly make something out of nothing. I still crave my dadâs simple egg and garlic fried rice. My parents raised me to be able to make an tasty meal just from rummaging in the pantry and fridge for random leftover things. There were plenty of summers where lunches and snacks were an individual culinary adventure for each of us kids. I still remember the day I witnessed my baby sister add a Kraft single on top of her onion ramen noodles. She saw my confusion, shrugged and said, âYou should try it, itâs good.âÂ
With all the hoarding folks have been doing during this pandemic, Iâve found myself feeling quite anxious. Trying to calculate if we have enough food. Estimating how many more meals we can eat at home before we need to make another grocery run. As someone who struggles with a scarcity mentality it has been hard not to panic. But then I keep reminding myself that I know how to make good food using just whateverâs available.Â
You know, I was pretty disappointed with Mary H.K. Choiâs second novel, Permanent Record, given how much I enjoyed her debut novel, Emergency Contact. But I was absolutely thrilled with the shine she gave to what her protagonist calls âHot Snacksâ.
Hereâs an excerpt from Permanent Record that is a beautiful ode to creative food mashups and immigrant kids everywhere:Â
âI edit and post a Shin Ramyun Black video set to music. My favorite instant noodles with three flavor packets and so much garlic. Itâs a classic Korean HotSnack, especially when you throw in cut-up hot dogs, frozen dumplings, extra kimchi - and this is where the artistry comes in- eggs, cheese, corn from a can, and a drizzle of sesame oil on top. And furikake if youâre feeling wealthy. The next night I put up a bacon, egg, and cheese not in a bagel but in a glazed honey bun. Laced with sriracha and pan fried on the outside. Then itâs chilaquiles with Spicy Sweet Chili Doritos and chorizo. Jamaican beef patty casserole disrespected with a smothering of Japanese curry and broiled. With Crystal Hot Sauce over the top and pickled banana peppers. Iâm trolling with that one but the controversy is berserk. When I run out of old videos, I make saag paneer naanchos with Trader Joeâs frozen Indian food, and itâs a hit. Especially when I add yogurt and a thick layer of crushed-up Takis on top.â
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çéŁçşĺ.
âWatch soap operas.âÂ
3. Find a way to escape. Iâm generally pro technology but Iâll admit Iâm a little bummed at the way iPhones and iPads have made TV viewing such an individual activity. I like how Disney+ has gotten some families back to watching TV together again. Although I will say, we really coddle our kids these days. I grew up in a time when movie ratings only applied in the theaters and we watched movies with our families like Alien, The Fly, and Gremlins. We were scared out of our minds and sometimes could only watch through the cracks between our fingers covering our eyes because it was so scary. Okay, this also might be why I canât watch horror movies as an adult.Â
From a young age, my parents taught me that watching other peopleâs drama unfold on screen is one of the best way to escape your own drama. Some people say binge watching became a thing when the TV networks started releasing shows on DVD. Others give credit to Netflix releasing their original content a whole season at a time. But truth be told, I first learned how to binge watch from my parents.Â
We would rent 30-40 VHS cassette tapes from that random spot in Bellaire Chinatown. Can you picture it? You needed multiple plastic bags to transport that many VHS tapes.Â
Do you remember the one about the dying mother who needed to find homes for each of her 7 children? I donât think itâs normal for a 10 year old to cry so much but you better believe itâs made me learn the true value of a soap opera escape hatch.Â
Are you in a pandemic? Nowâs the perfect time to pick up that YA novel, binge that reality show, start that kdrama, or rewatch all six seasons of The Sopranos again.
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ä¸ĺ猎ććä¸é¨.
âItâs going to rain next week.â
4. Be informed about whatâs ahead. If you ask either of my parents about the weather at any given time they can reliably tell you the daily percent chance of precipitation and humidity for at least seven days out. Theyâve always been this way. They would inform me of the weather at various points throughout the week. They planned their yard work and car washes around the weather forecast. Thereâs something about the way the weather forecast is available to everyone. And it feels like itâs just a matter of making the small extra effort to access it and gain a slight advantage. I feel like so much of the immigrant mentality is to be diligent in making the right choices to not screw yourself over and seizing opportunities whenever you can. And it wasnât just weather but this is such an obvious example of it.Â
I remember my dad saying to me once, "Can you imagine if someone decided to read every book in their local library? If they just went shelf by shelf and systematically read all the books? You could do it, you know. Itâs free, it doesnât cost any money to check out a book from the library. But no one really does it.âÂ
I think immigrant parents get a bad reputation for forwarding chain letters and health/science hoaxes they get on email, WeChat and Line. And in a pandemic, yes, they are definitely susceptible to misinformation, rumors and flat out untruths. But the thought behind it seems right.Â
The mistrust of government leadership is actually quite relevant right now in this pandemic. Many immigrants left countries with governments that were overtly corrupt, oppressive, and used propaganda to influence its citizens. And while many Americans still take pride in living in a country that verbally champions freedom and democracy, the truth is that our government has already failed us and lied to us in many ways. During this pandemic, we cannot wait on leaders to tell us what to do. We must be diligent in reading for ourselves, seeking experts, using our critical thinking skills, and making preparations accordingly.
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ćä¸ćĺˇ?
âAre you cold?âÂ
5. Check in with yourself. Check in with others. I have so many memories of my parents walking through the living room and asking me and my sisters if we were cold. It felt like they couldnât walk past the thermostat without asking us if they needed to raise it or lower it. As if they couldnât hear us sneeze and wonder if they needed to turn off the ceiling fan. They couldnât see us sitting in a dim room without turning on a light for us. There are so many times I fell asleep reading on the couch and woke up with a blanket over me. Or sometimes I was fully awake doing something random, like playing Egyptian Rat Screw with my sisters (a cardgame for the uninitiated), and my mom would walk by and wordlessly drop a warm, heavy blanket over my shoulders. Thatâs care, yâall. Consistent, immediate action, and often without words. Â
The tip here is to pay attention to your discomfort during a pandemic. Thereâs this immigrant stereotype of stoicism and thatâs true to some degree but maybe the resilience is made possible not because of unnatural toughness but largely because immigrant parents can also be so incredibly perceptive and tender in some very tangible ways.Â
When everything is chaotic around you and youâre busy multitasking these next few months, donât ignore your needs. Notice how youâre feeling. Physically and emotionally. Where are you carrying your stress and tension in your body? You donât have to tough it out. Oh and remember to check in with your people on how theyâre feeling. Is there a light switch you can turn on for someone?Â
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çŹćťäşş.
âLaugh to death.âÂ
6. Laugh to survive. Look, we didnât have the perfect family or anything like that. Weâve definitely had our share of difficult times, financial stress, health issues, arguments, and pain. But my parents also really knew how to laugh and taught us to laugh with abandon. Like, bent over, tears running out of your eyes, canât breathe kind of laughing. Our dinner table was kind of like a writerâs room. It was difficult to tell a mediocre story. You had better come prepared with a punchline or a point. It was a tough crowd, every night. On many occasions I stopped myself halfway through a story upon the self-realization that there was no real way to land the plane. Polite laughs were nowhere to be found, except perhaps a charitable smile from my baby sister. But it didnât stop us from trying. I think my sisters and I are all probably better storytellers for it and we definitely have learned to try to bring humor into difficult times. Â
I know that this pandemic is so incredibly dark and depressing that it can sometimes feel disrespectful, inappropriate, or childish to laugh at anything. But my parents taught me that you laugh to survive. Nothing is ever so dark that you canât find a reason to laugh. And sometimes you really need to find something to laugh about.
Iâve been taking long breaks each day from major media news outlets but I have been finding such joy and laughter from the meme creators on IG and the comedic geniuses on Twitter. In Taiwanese when somethingâs really funny, people will say a phrase that is imperfectly translated as laugh to death. Like you killed a person it was so funny. Nowâs the time to find that content or those people who will get you to laugh to death.Â
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ćčŚĺťćŞčť.
âIâm going to go re-park the cars.âÂ
7. Go to bed with a plan for the next morning. I grew up in a suburb of Houston, Texas where one property developer built the entire neighborhood and used the same eight or nine floor plans for all the houses but changed up the brick and trim color to keep things interesting. Most homes have a long driveway that connects a garage set near the backdoor of a home to the street. By the time I was driving, we had four cars in total -- two in the garage and two on the driveway. At the end of the day when everyone was home for the night and my dad was getting ready to go to bed, heâd announce, âIâm going to go re-park the cars.â Then weâd all kind of stop what we were doing and rearrange the order of the cars to match our morning departure schedules. This meant figuring out who was leaving when in the morning and sometimes also prompted brief check-in conversations about any changes in our usual routine.Â
In a pandemic it can sometimes feel like there are a million different things to attend to and large conceptual concerns that demand your attention. But thereâs something calming and centering about spending a few minutes each night thinking through specifically what needs to happen just tomorrow. Not the day after or next week. Get super tactical and specific about what tomorrow morning looks like. Check-in with your partner about any aberrations to your schedule (e.g. I have a super important conference call at 7am tomorrow) to minimize any unnecessary surprises. Thereâs something magical about setting up your morning that helps you rest just a little easier at night.Â
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ććä¸ćĺć猹ĺć.
âOn Wednesdays we have prayer meeting.â
8. Make time for your spirituality. Growing up my parents both had physically demanding jobs. My mom was a seamstress for many years, providing alterations at my aunt and uncleâs dry cleaners. She later worked in an elementary school cafeteria and then eventually became a classroom aide for special needs students. My dad worked at that same dry cleaners for years until he got a job at the post office. He then became a letter carrier, delivering mail on foot. The summer months were especially grueling, carrying a heavy sack of mail in 100 degree, humid weather, and walking until sweat soaked his shirts and blisters formed on his feet. They had every excuse to skip weeknight events. But unless they were sick in bed, I canât remember a time when they missed their weekly prayer meeting with their friends from church. Â
Pandemics have an unsettling way of forcing us to confront our mortality and can trigger a bunch of unresolved shit that has been bubbling underneath the surface. Weâve lost some of our usual coping mechanisms and it can be super hard to quiet the anxieties, fears, and other demons that we usually try to keep under control. This isnât a lecture about a particular faith or belief system. Itâs just a reminder to prioritize your existential questions, your interior life, and your connection to things much bigger than yourself -- whether thatâs a community, a yoga practice, a faith group, a tradition, or something else.Â
I have a fledgling meditation practice that Iâve been trying to strengthen since last year. When I say fledgling I mean that sometimes I bail before the ten minutes is up and check my phone. Even though Iâm not very good at it yet, I can really tell the difference on the days that I make time for it. Our church started hosting its weekly Sunday service online and thatâs challenging for me because a church service feels like itâs designed to be so much about the physical rhythm of going to a place, seeing faces of people I love, hearing their voices co-mingling with mine in song and in prayer, and tasting the bread and wine in my mouth. The online service was short, and just for viewing through a zoom conference call, but there was still something meaningful about setting aside that time Sunday morning, asking our wiggly kids to be present, and saying the liturgy out loud knowing that in homes all across the country, other people are doing the same.Â
If things are really going to get as bad as some are predicting, weâll need the spiritual strength to make it to the other side. Those habits are hard to form overnight. My parents taught me that you really have to make the time for your spirituality non-negotiable, so that you wonât abandon it when itâs inconvenient or when you are too tired.   Â
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ć˛čžŚćł.
âWhat choice do we have?âÂ
9. Rise to the occasion. Whenever my parents are telling old war stories about things they had to do to get to where they are today, inevitably one of us will say, âMan thatâs crazy, how did you manage to do it?â And instead of pointing to some super personality trait of theirs or some complex self-help principle, they always say, âWe had no choice.â Itâs not said in a defeated way, but in a posture of accepting that life can be cruel, unfair, and capricious. And that itâs not helpful to dwell too long on the whyâs and howâs. My parents taught me that you canât stay in despair mode. You eventually have to push yourself into problem solving mode and you do whatever it takes to move forward. Â
This coronavirus is so unlike anything weâve ever experienced in our lifetime. It is so unprecedented for me that my brain is having a hard time processing the reality of whatâs happening right now and the rest of my lived experience. I spent the first few days of this week just being overwhelmed, anxious, angry, and irritable. At this point though, Iâm in go mode. Iâm doing what needs to be done for our family and taking care of business. What choice do we have? I can hear my parents saying it. One day, if weâre lucky, weâll say it to our kids too.Â
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What battery percentage is your phone on right now? 44%.
Do any medical afflictions run in your family? Cancer and diabetes.Â
Who did you last talk to in person and what did you say? My mom. We were talking about the story being covered on 48 Hours on the ID channel.
What's your favourite Mexican dish? I like burritos, especially from this local Mexican restaurant. Itâs simple, just beans, rice, cheese, cilantro, sour cream and guacamole, but itâs so good. I like to have this gravy and cheese dip on the side for dipping, too.
Have you ever been to a professional sports game? Yeah, Iâve been to a hockey game once.
How far do you live from New York City? Iâm all the way across the country on the opposite side in California.Â
How often do you talk to your parents? We live together, I see and talk to them all the time.
Do you prefer pads, tampons or something else? I just used pads. TMI, but I say âusedâ because I donât have a menstrual cycle anymore due to health reasons.
What was the weather like in your town today? Itâs supposed to be 77 F today. Itâs slowly been starting to cool down. I need it to drop down more for my liking, though.
Are there any phrases or words that you say a lot? Yes, but for some reason whenever Iâm asked this I canât think of an example.
How many boyfriends or girlfriends have you ever had? One.
Have you ever ordered a specially made cake from a cake shop? Yeah, my childhood birthday cakes were ordered from a cake shop.
What was the last movie you saw and who did you watch it with? In the Tall Grass on Netflix with my mom and brother.
What's the name of your first real boyfriend or girlfriend? Derek.
Do you clean your ears daily? Not daily, but a few times a week.
What accent do you have? As a Californian I feel like I donât have one, but I guess it would be a Californian one? *shrug* Like I said, I donât feel like I have one but everyone does. Itâs not distinctive like someone from Boston or North Dakota, ya know? Ha, I Googled Californian accent and it even says, âTheir accent is indeed similar to General American, meaning it sounds to American ears like it isn't an accent at all. Everyone has an accent, however.â Then it talks about how we pronounce certain sounds/words differently and some of our sayings and slang. Ha, it also brings up how if anything, non-Californians would probably think of a Californian accent being valley-girl or surfer dude, which yeah thatâs true people do tend to associate us with that and words like âhellaâ and âstoked.â
What scent of air freshener do you keep in your bathroom? Itâs a pumpkin cinnamon scent or something like that.
Have you ever dated a model? No.
What's the best job you've ever had? Iâve never had a job.
How about the worst? --
Do you have naturally straight hair? No, I have wavy hair.
What is your ultimate goal in life? I donât know.Â
Have you ever visited someone in prison? Yes.
What months were you and your siblings born in? I was born in July, my younger brother was born in February, and my older brother was born in November.
Do you write down your passwords in a physical place to prevent losing them? Yeah.
What are your three favourite vegetables? Potatoes, spinach, and broccoli.Â
How many times a day do you check Facebook or any other social network? I check Facebook and a few other social medias a few times a day.
When was the last time you had a blocked nose? It gets stuffy now and then, but it doesnât tend to last long. I havenât had a real stuffy nose, like because of a cold, since earlier this year.
Who is your favourite comedian? I donât have one.
What colour are the socks you're wearing today? White.
What did you have for dinner last night? Wingstop.Â
What was the last concert you went to? Green Day back in 2009.
Are you an ugly crier? Yeah. Iâm also just ugly.
What scent is the soap or body wash you use in the shower? Itâs just Caress bar soap, it smells clean and soapy.
Have you ever had sex in/on a vehicle? No.
Who do you live with? My parents, brother, and doggo.
What letter does your street name begin with? --
Do you do anything to groom your eyebrows? I pluck them.
When was the last time you ate at McDonald's? A few months ago.
What's your favourite Popsicle flavour? Not a popsicle kind of gal, really.
Who was the last person you sent a Facebook message to and what did you say? My aunt. She was just checking in and seeing how Iâve been doing.
Do you have any injuries at the moment? Yes.
Have you ever been to an ophthalmologist? Iâve been to the optometrist numerous times, but I donât think an ophthalmologist.Â
Do you own any animal print clothes? No, not my style.
Are you tall, short or average? Would you change this? Iâm short and âI wish I was a little bit taller.â
When was the last time you went to a drug store/pharmacy? Hm, I donât recall. My mom or brother always pick up my medicines for me, I havenât gone in awhile.
Do you ever binge-watch TV shows? Yeah. My current binge-watch is Sabrina: The Teenage Witch (the one from my childhood with Melissa Joan Hart).Â
Have you ever mustered up the courage to tell someone how you feel only to be rejected? Yep. Twice. Not a fun time...
Do you keep your files and documents organized in one place? Unfortunately, no. Iâd like to be organized with that kind of stuff.
What's your favourite sweet treat to bake? I donât bake anymore, but I used to like making cupcakes or cookies during the holidays.
Are you good at flirting and letting people know you're interested? Ha, no. Iâm too awkward. Thereâs been times I thought it was obvious I was interested only for them to be like, âI had no idea.âÂ
What did you have for breakfast today? Itâs 1:22AM.
Do you prefer sweet or savoury breakfasts? Savory.
Do you like chick-flicks? Yeah.
Have you ever taken an acting class? Yes, which is really shocking for someone as shy and awkward as I am. I actually took two while at community college.
What is your favourite kind of berry? I donât have a favorite. I really only like strawberries out of the berry choices, but I couldnât even tell you the last time I had any.
When was the last time you watched one of your favourite movies? Iâve been watching some of my favorite horror movies. I plan on watching a lot this month.
How often do you use Youtube? Quite often.
Do you prefer Prince or Michael Jackson? I like more Michael Jackson songs, but I like some Prince songs as well.
What's the coolest thing you've ever dressed up as for Halloween? Not sure about âthe coolest.â
Are you ignoring anyone right now? I guess thatâs what itâs called when you donât respond to messages or make any attempt to contact or reach out to them. :/ That was never the intention and even now itâs still hard to admit that thatâs exactly what Iâve been doing the past few years. They eventually stopped trying to reach out and I donât blame them. Iâm such a shitty person.
How do you usually style your hair? I throw it up in a pony tail or bun; not much styling going on.
Do you have any tattoos? Tell me about them. Nope.
Have you ever worked in a store while someone shoplifted there? Iâve never worked at a store. Iâve witnessed it happening while shopping at stores, though.
When was the last time you used a stove? I just made my ramen.
Is there anything you absolutely refuse to eat? Insects, seafood, stuff like bull testicles, etc.Â
Are you sitting, standing or laying (or something else) right now? Iâm sitting on my bed.
How many hours per week do you typically work? Zero.
What was the last pill or tablet you took? My pain medication.
How far away from your house is the closest grocery store? Just down the street.
Have you ever lived in university/college campus housing? Nope.
Who was the last person you complimented? My mom.
Are you the type of person to take naps, even if you've slept plenty? âEven if youâve slept plentyâ ha, right.
Do you have a crush on anyone at the moment? Nope.
The age old question: dogs or cats? Dogs.
When was the last time you saw your best friend? I see her everyday, all the time. We live together. Sheâs my mom.Â
Do you know any couples who resemble each other? No, but Iâve seen couples who do.
Have you ever been fired from a job? Why? Nope.
Are you tired right now? I always am. <<<
Do you like spring rolls? Yeah.
What do you live on in terms of a street, road, crescent, place, court etc? Lane.
How many purses or handbags do you own? Six. Do you get along with all your aunts and uncles? Thereâs one uncle we donât talk to for reasons, but otherwise yeah. I havenât seen any of my aunts or uncles in awhile, some I havenât seen in years, but thereâs no drama with them. I have one aunt that Iâm really close to, though.
Have you ever eavesdropped and heard something you didn't want to hear? Yes.
When was the last time you used a pen, pencil or marker? I used a pen yesterday.
What's your favourite type of curry? I donât eat curry.
Do you often go to do or say something and then just forget? It happens. Brain fog.
Who makes you laugh the hardest? My mom and brother.
Have you ever had casual sex? No.
What was the last thing you paid for with cash? Food.
What's the last letter of your middle name? Nah.
If your phone rang right now from a number you don't know, would you answer? Nope.
How long is your hair? Down to my butt.
What was your first pet's name and how did you pick that? The first pet whose name I picked was our dog, Scruffy, when I was about 4 or 5. Iâm not sure how I chose that name. Do you drink diet or regular soda? Regular.
Have you ever been to Europe? No, but Iâd love to.
Do you worry about your own health? Always. Yet, I admittedly donât do some things I should be doing. I certainly could be doing a lot more.
Who did you last make plans with, and what plans did you make? Uhh, I made plans to watch something on Netflix with my mom tomorrow haha. Those are the only kind of plans I make nowadays.
Can you smell anything right now? My ramen.
How old were you when you got your first cell phone? 15.
When was the last time you bought a pair of shoes? I got a new pair for my birthday from my mom. All the shoes I have were birthday or Christmas gifts, to be honest. I donât recall the last time I bought a pair of shoes myself.
Do you like fruit and vegetable combo juices? No. Or any kind of juice, period.
Have you ever been on a spring break trip? Yeah.
Would you rather be warmer or colder right now? Iâd like if it were cold enough to need a blanket. Weâre still not there yet in California even though itâs almost mid-October. :(
How tall are your highest heels? I donât wear heels. I couldnât even if I wanted to.
What's your favourite flavour of frosting? Good olâ vanilla is the best, but I like strawberry, lemon, and cream cheese as well.
When did you wake up today? I havenât gone to bed, yet, itâs 3:58AM.
Do you change your appearance often? No. I havenât in quite awhile.
Have you ever blocked someone on Facebook? Why? Yes.
How many people do you work with?
What was the last thing you ate? Ramen.
Do you have any plans for three hours in the future? Probably attempt sleep.
Has anyone ever made a comment about your weight that offended or upset you? Yeah, itâs frustrating.
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