have to do a triple chem paper tomorrow and can i just say that paper 2 is a godsend compared to paper 1. fractional distillation? reversible reactions?? freaking potable water? i think i might be in love.
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working on this 60th rewrite is making me way too ambitious now i'm like oh but i should rewrite empire of the wolf. and turning of the tides. and flight into hull. and the siege of big ben--
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this is fucking pathetic i see ONE instagram post and i spiral and when i ask my mother for validation and idk, COMFORT?! she's just telling me that i can practice over the summer and improve and thats WAY more than what ill need to do and just reinforcing the idea that im not good enough AS IT IS and its not realistic to be a fucking tryhard over the summer for something i will NEVER succeed at and im crying and snapping at everyone and my sister heard one snappy word and started yelling at me too and like cut me some fucking slack im never gonna be able to complain about this outside my home bc if i did complain it would be fucking selfish (and ACTUALLY selfish im not lying) and if i dont get in again i KNOW that its gonna fucking break me and i feel like a worthless idiot and im not good enough for this thing and im never gonna get in so whats even the point of trying again when itll just destroy me
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Hi Clam. Question about CoGR. I know you didn't have the fic finished when you first started posting. Did you make an outline for the whole fic or did you just wing it?
I'm struggling to keep my longfic together and could use some pointers.
Oh worm! Coming to me for planning tips is a dangerous game considering I change it up with every fic hdKJH
But in the case of CoGR specifically, yes, the entire fic was outlined before I started writing! Every chapter had a very basic concept attached to it so I understood what was meant to happen + how his Thought Processes had formed. And at the very top of the doc I had the entire Zote History written out so I could keep it in mind as I wrote
I also color-coded chapters based on where they were taking place, unless something important was discussed in that chapter, in which case they were color-coded with red text (hence my author notes referring to certain chapters as "colored red"!)
actually i went digging thru my files and I found the old planning doc, so if u were wondering how the cogr plan looked, well. here u go,
and yes it's in chronological precept order, meaning my plan was backwards. i only figured out that I wanted to go in reverse precept order After I wrote down the initial plan, lmao
But even with an established outline far in advance, stuff was constantly getting tweaked and messed around with as I wrote. Really big plot points stayed relatively the same (such as Chapter 47 - the plan for that stayed pretty cut and dry from start to finish) but some things ended up being added or changed as I went along (for instance, the entire grub arc was a sort of last minute decision; I got the idea a few chapters in advance and went 'hey fuck it that'd be fun to add' so I Did, and I found it made the chapters where the grub was included far more interesting than if they were never there!)
So my advice would be to make an outline but not be too hard on yourself when it comes to sticking to it. I find an outline to be SUPER helpful, as if I don't plan something well in advance I just end up writing myself into a hole (R.I.P Tinnitus), but adding little things as I write can make it all the better.
So make a plan, yeas, but give yourself breathing room for changing things/adding stuff!
Hope that helps at all!!
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You people are assholes and cruel I should have never fuckin said how old I am now go to hell.
I have had to endure the most strenuous types of bullying that shall leave scars on my psyche for the rest of my life
I hope you disgusting ruffians are pleased with your efforts to torment me as they have worked to high affect
I shall never doze away to escape from the troubling thoughts now plaguing my mind from this horrendous bullying
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22/9/23
Today I:
-carefully monitored Lulu and she's honestly doing so well! Her energy and mood are high, she isn't angry about the cone, she can navigate our stairs pretty easily, she is still able to slip through a (big, but I still was doubtful...) hole in a fence she loves going through on our morning walks...my girl has been in a good place all day and I am so relieved :))
-did all the exercises my occupational therapist prescribed me on Wednesday (only did a little bit yesterday) and I feel good about at least accomplishing that today
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GUYS IM DONE I JUST NEED TO EDIT SO BE READY
ITS 7K WORDS AND I HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY
here’s a sneak peak 🤭🤭
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