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Met another queer person on the bus today :)
I'm wearing large earring in the asexual colors. Got on the bus, and this awesome-looking person in alt fashion, great makeup, and a pentacle necklace gave me a curious look and the limp-wrist gesture.
After realize they were asking me, I responded with the limp wrist and a nod, then gestured to them questioningly, to which they responded with a nod and a thumbs up.
Very happy :)
#i barely made the bus#technically I could've taken the next one without a problem#but for some reason I felt like I had to make this one#so I ran and just made it#and now I know why#:)#also I was wondering for several minutes what made them think that#like I'm aware I give off That Vibe but I didn't realize it was that strong#and aside from my upside-down “stay weird” on my shirt#and “queers for Palestine” bracelet which I don't think was very visible from that angle/distance#I wasn't quite sure what gave it away#then I remembered#I'm wearing shoulder-long asexual flag earrings lol#queer#lgbtq+
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SBG EP 80 SLIGHT FASTPASS SPOILERS
i find these two pieces of dialogue from her very.. interesting. i feel like she’s putting up a front about caring for aiden if that makes sense? like she only does it to look good in front of the other parents or to convince herself she’s a good parent. sure she probably cares about him to some extent but she’s not putting much effort to it? if there was a choice where she had to choose to save herself or aiden she seems like the type to choose herself if push came to shove.
“i haven’t been this stressed since our publisher accidentally printed an extra ten thousand copies” seems an awful lot like some sort of guilt trip to twist around their situation and make it about her. how exactly are YOU saying you’re stressed out when the kids literally witnessed someone fall out of the car and nearly get KILLED? it just seems kinda narcissistic in my opinion. instead of trying to comfort anyone or be supportive in any way EMOTIONALLY, you’re too focused on yourself.
which brings us back to the first photo where she reprimands tyler for kicking aiden out of the chair cause he’s quote on quote “obviously injured”. funny how she only starts saying something and being defensive when she’s in the room with him and other people. did she try comforting him at the hospital? no. she may pay attention to aiden physically but she’s definitely not good at handling the emotional aspects at all.
overall she’s just a neglectful parent. most of this post is about the mom but the dad is also a problem too considering he hasn’t done anything significant in these past few chapters. him being silent is just as bad as jessica being conceited in my opinion. it’s always me me me with her. but maybe that’s just my own experience talking…
#i hope this made sense 😭#in my defense it’s almost 4 am here#bare with me guys#school bus graveyard#sbg#aiden clark#school bus graveyard webtoon#aiden sbg#sbg aiden#jessica clark#william clark#sbg headcanons#sbg theories#school bus graveyard (webtoon)
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memory: when i was a toddler OMW back home with my mother on one of those intercity travel buses when we suddenly heard women screaming only for me to look down & see dozens upon dozens of cockroaches running up my legs & under my dress
#legitimately traumatized me for life#pretty sure i felt no way about bugs up until that point in fact beetles were my favorite to grab &play with in my kindergarten's... garten#sorry#there were hundreds of them running around everywhere on the floor. i have no recollection of what happened next or later that evening#apparently it was because of the hot weather & something about the bus that made it so that all those roaches escaped & dispersed everywher#still feel sickened when i hear that bus company to this day#Events That Formed My Sundowning Neurosis. soon as the lights dim i turn into a purely atavistic prey aminal#it happened again when i was with my cousin in the summer when my mother sent us out to get something from teh bodega#& my cousin was like trying to reassure me that no roaches were crawling up my legs but there actually were#it was just too dark to make out until we reached a lamp post O_O that was years & years ago BTW#IDC that they are harmless i wrote this post because there was one in my bathroom just now & all i could do was scream for help#apparently barely cos i was told it was a “pathetic scream” i was Paralyzed !!!! they were like what would you do if you lived by yourself#literally Die & let that thang take over my house IDKcaus i am not going anywhere near it#AUUURRRGHHHH go away pleeeaase. let Us be civil OK leave me alone please leave me alooone ( that one video )#i have no fear of bees or wasps or whatever other ones libellules i forgot what the name was in english. oh dragonfly. Dope name. ETC ETC#sortof creepygirl tumblr 2009-2012 if you thinkabout it... ♯Swag
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Me: why should it take longer than an hour to get somewhere 30 minutes away?
The MBTA: challenge accepted (evily)
#sometimes I am extremely lucky#barely made it to that bus#the green line is a terror#I had to go inside the airport and it was scary#mbta#the t#public transit
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I slept rly deeply last night even tho it took me a while to get to sleep but I think that was bc I had acid reflux and I'd been playing videogames too late not anything else.... still only got 6 hrs but doing pretty okay all things considered 😚
#and not feeling sick this morning so im sticking w the higher dose for one more day. my heart rate does feel a little uncomfortably fast#but its tolerable. just gonna make notes of how it goes through the day and ill submit my review form to my dr this evening#and hopefully she'll give me the green light to drop back down instead of continuing to titrate up#this is making me think of those heartrate fetishists... do u think i could make money selling tachycardic heart recordings online#i do wanna try to exercise this morning while i have energy. might take the bike out it looks like a gorgeously sunny day#maybe ill try to map my cycle route to work so i can consider cycling there instead of taking the bus in a couple weeks..#i cant atm thp cuz they have scaffolding up and its blocked off the bike racks sadly 😔#i think making myself eat + drink as much as i can has helped control the nausea too. just need a lot of fuel to process meds properly ig#and a lot of sleep.. its a bit stressful to think abt how rigid im going to have to be abt my daily routines if i want to stay medicated#but to be honest i have a pretty rock solid sleep/meal routine already bc its the only way i can function with the hours i work#so like. i dont rly need to worry too much. i think i reacted badly the first couple days bc my base anxiety was high#and then bc that feeling was heightened by meds -> made me not eat/sleep properly -> knock on sickness the next day#but yeah still the side effects arent very nice and i dont wanna take the risk of it exacerbating every difficult emotion i deal with#but fingers crossed bc 30 worked rly nice for me and i had barely any side effects so hopefully i can settle w that long term 🤞#we will see....#ANYWAY. sorry for making the same post over and over the last couple days. talking abt it on here has helped me feel a lot calmer#i dont wanna bother ppl irl w every thought and physical symptom i experience hourly. but this is my blog i can do what i want#hope everyone else has a nice sunday <3#.diaries
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drawing more furry fnaf art. yknow just to keep you posted. i love posting in the tags sorry these ones got away from me
#sammy is a brown bear (like freddy). his mom is white like funtime freddy#then crying child is blue (like bon bon. and to go with lizzies bonnet pink) (theyre not twins in my au but they definitely act like it. so#its like cute.) mrs. afton is blue violet (rockstar bonnie) bc i was running out of colors. i had already assigned her blue anyway.#max is black bc i seriously ran out of rabbit colors. or! no wait shadow bonnie. thats totally the inspo and not i had made his ears black#already. i think thats literally every rabbit color available. the afton family is pretty big. ig vanny. who would go with vanessa. obvi bu#shes not in my au. or at least not an afton. and therefore not a rabbit. if she was though shed be white.#and if you havent seen any previously drawn ones henry and william are yellow (obviously. they already have fursonas. theyre the reason#everyone else gets one. LOL) micheals purple like classic bonnie (who... is purple even if it was then retconned. hes purple. look at#withered bonnie. i hate ppl who say its just lighting. thats a lie by big blue bonnie. he was literally purple and then he changed his mind#like i said lizzie is pink like bonnet. and then charlie is black like lefty. because duhh.#DONT ask me about how this shit works okay. the rabbit dated the rabbit and the bear dated the bear. bc thats what happened. theres not#here. the bears got divorced. and the rabbits. the yellow rabbit and bear are fucking#no um. i like willry but i think if they were really fucking. i just think things would go differently. henry's gay in my au i dont think i#he actually had a man to fuck he'd manage to have children. its not who he is to me. will is bi but he obv thinks henry is some exception t#him being perfectly normal and straight. everyone wants to fuck their business partner. otherwise youd do it yourself#ig they can fuck after. i hate when people do these boring aus where henry and william never get married and william isnt a murderer and so#like what? theres nothing? just a couple of guys? if im looking for fics where theyre fucking im not looking for a fic where everything is#nice and clean. be serious. can we at least have some angst about it being the 70s or are you too much of a bitch for that too#anyway.....#simons spouting#simons fnaf au#OH also if anyone reads this whats the stance on this stupid idea i have where sammy pretends he has a thing for michael to annoy max. bc.#their parents had a thing for eachother. and sammy and max have a more familial relationship. and michael and charlie have a familial#relationship. but michael and sammy have barely met and do not at all. is it pushing it? i was thinking yknow from sammys perspective that'#'his sons' dad but! like you can fuck your sons dad. that's not weird. unless thats the way youre phrasing it i guess LOL. but i guess#michael would be like. thats 'my sisters' brother. and that is not someone you fuck*. BUT this isnt michaels perspective its sammy being#annoying. and from sammys perspective that is NOT his sister and there for NOT his sisters brother. *also im pretty sure this is subjective#if youre just friends. yknow. the ethics of sammy using this to bother max is not on the table because i think he deserves to be a#a bit of an ass. anyway LMAOO fkdglfg. let me know if youd like ive got anon asks on. please dont judge me for not knowing this.
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Good morning! 14 beautiful hours later
#i think i have sleep disorder#was falling asleep at the bar & fell asleep on the bus and barely made it to 9pm before i passed out😓#granted yes i didn’t sleep much the night before & cider also makes me tired#But. still. 14 hours. it’s laughable
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confirmed for fuck no I'm not going to work tomorrow 👍
#i had a good time at the movies! and i don't feel That Bad (yet)#but i powered through on Friday and could barely walk yesterday#im not doing another 10hr shift til i go to a doctor#update: have texted work + made an appt for first thing tomorrow#i didnt even know you could do appts at urgent care places??? but apparently you can!#and it's a...would be a 20min walk from my house if i could walk that far. 😭 well 10ish min bus ride isnt bad
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dude its always "be yourself" till youre trans and now suddenly oh i get to nitpick every little thing about you oh that gesture was very feminine made you look like a girl oh youre wearing a shirt thats cream coloured? seems a little feminine to me oh you paint your nails? so youre a girl after all like ???? youre giving me mixed messages here am i meant to be myself or am i meant to conform to your idea of what a man is in order to be accepted as one by you
#⚠️#one time after i came out my mum saw me lounging around in a black t shirt and she was like oh it made you look like a man thinking it was#compliment but dude i got so mad i was like for fuck sake is that seriously what i have to do to be considered a man is lounge around in a#black t shirt??? lounging around is masculine???? what????????#i was also just a very angry person in general but still that really confuses me#had a psychiatrist note down shit about my appearance saying whether they thought it was feminine or masculine (they thought it was all#feminine) which was fucking crazy cause i went in for an adhd diagnosis#people just find out youre trans and suddenly start acting like experts on whats feminine and whats masculine and what makes you either#gender like shut the fuck up#can also come from people who they themselves accept some cis men are feminine and some cis women are masculine but suddenly as soon as you#try to transition now you have to be masculine or be feminine or youre not valid in their eyes#its fucking crazy#like if i showed them a dude with long hair theyd be like thats a dude with long hair but as soon as i have my hair long im told to cut it#i can show them a dude in a skirt and theyd probably laugh thinking its funny or some bullshit but theyd still think its a dude in a skirt#but if i wear a skirt suddenly im a girl#i know at the root of all this they truly believe people cant switch genders cause in their minds sex and gender is the same but still its#so annoying especially when they pretend to be accepting or think theyre being accepting and when you challenge them on their transphobia#they get all mad at you and act like youre being rude for criticizing them for doing the bare minimum whilst also just continuing to be#transphobic#like yeah you use my correct name but when im not around you use she/her for me and you say i **want** to be a boy instead of i am a boy bu#when i talk to you about this suddenly im the bad guy like its my fault youre using language for me thats transphobic#like ok man. whatever.#sorry for asking you to be a decent fucking human being toward me and treat me with respect#its like people just treat trans peoples gender like something they can just dismiss like its nothing liek we're just playing pretend or#something#like god its frustrating. i need to cut my mum out of my life fr
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Thinking of the way other kids treated me when I was in school makes me crazy like why'd they do all that 😭
& it wasn't even that bad I have always just been really really sensitive. SAD.
It only got physical a few times too like how long has it been, 6? 7 years? And I'm still hung up on it somehow
It's actually so fucked up how whatever you go through as a child will Literally change you forever, can't I like... scrape those parts off.... and be a normal fucking person for once 😭
#I can remember like. being kicked around a few times or having trash thrown at me#or one time that I remember SO CLEARLY is waiting for the school bus inside (it works dif here)#and some kids knocking a bible stand over so it hit my feet like those things were HEAVY and made of like. metal or smth IDK#and I had to bear it until I got home and then I could barely walk around cause it was THROBBING so I just did my chores and went to bed#and another time not necessarily being hit or anything#but boys would take their socks off after PE and throw them at me and laugh#I think they did all that cause I was literally just. stoic. I never reacted even when I wanted to scream#I thought that if I didn't react they'd all get bored and stop#it only stopped around 7th grade when they stopped considering it fun I guess#and then they started being nice to me like WHAT.#I never called anyone out. I just didn't wanna deal with the shame yk#these tags are so FUCKING long. why'd I say all that.#whatever. MY diary ‼️#diary
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Random teammate: good job!1!1!1! You did X so quick and Y was so good and-
Me after putting my entire heart body and soul into a race, barely alive, just trying to get to my water so I don’t fuckint die: yehh uhmmhm thakfs *high fives and misses their hand*
#like thanks girlie but like-#I’m panting out of breath barely made it out of the pool and resisting the urge to lay on the bench and take a nap#PLEASE JUST LET ME CHUG MY WATER FIRST#I sound bitchy rn but I promise I am thankful for ur praise but at least W A I T#true story btw#I just got on the bus after a swim meet#ALSO MY DAD BROUGJT THE TEAM COOKIES!1!1!1!1!!1!1#LEGIT NOTHING TASTES BETTER TJAN A FRESH HALFMOON AFTER A MEET#drinking water after swimming restores like 90 hp#IT TASTES SO CRISP AND FRESH AND#swimming#swim team#competitive swimming#I swear when a pool has those massive fucning walls that are impossible to climb it’s like they’re TRYING to kill me after a race
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I’ve been upset so I’m gonna vent in the tags
#I’ve been feeling really really lonely lately#I think my one irl friend is tired of me#I haven’t made a new friend in Three Years#nobody wants to be my friend#I’ve been so sad the past few weeks#at school everybody has somebody#everyone in groups and talking and laughing together#and I’m just there the only one alone#at work everyone paired off into groups talking when it’s slow#and I’m alone#I’m always alone#nobody likes me#on the bus I saw a kinda friend but she barely paid me any mind#and I just cried the rest of the ride#no one wants to talk to me or know me#i can’t do anything#everything I’ve been watching has been upsetting me more cause even the characters I relate to have people#I’ve never dated anyone before#probably never will no one would want to#people use to like me I don’t know what happened#whenever I try to talk to someone they just awkwardly brush it off#I haven’t been getting much praise for my art so I think it’s bad#I’m just so sad and tired and I haven’t told anyone anything#no one knows all of this is bothering me#just gonna cry in bed
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Literally just saw a video of a former lab colleague in a farewell party for a friend of his who's leaving to Portugal, and they were all joking around about how he's eventually meeting Cr*nald and acting veeeery excited about it
The funnier part is that said former colleague likes to present himself as a "woke man" and "feminist ally" and etc 🙄🤮
#men are... awful#being a man in times like these makes me want to shot myself in the head#anyways I made this post specifically to point out how this particular brand of man tends to be the worst#label themselves as allies and shit and act like they should get an award for doing the bare minimim#and at the same time defend their own and idolize rapists and abusers like they're part of their family#in brazil we call these 'esquerdomachos'#anyway i hope he gets hit by a bus
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— SAGE VALENCIA, lead vocalist of KIN/DREAD [x]
and i'm still full of the love you want
#infamous if#infamous oc#oc: sage valencia#the amount of time i spent on BGs/rooms in sims only to have like. barely anything in frame <3#yes i made the green room and sort of the rehearsal space kinda and also the bathroom from the demo that isnt even in here#sage is the loml but also shes constantly being clowned on by the universe#like w retrying the filter and getting yet another seven-related result while waiting for bus assignments/interviews#yes shes glancing over at him shes annoyed but its good for the sleeper sage/seven shippers they're thriving#also i have no idea what her view/follower count would be im just guessing off band monthly listeners pre botb#yes shes in love w seven still. yes shes romancing everyone. she wasnt going to but she had other ideas#at least her playlist is thriving at 250+ songs#was going to add facts but i HAVE misplaced the list i was working on & im not going thru all my tabs. also yes thats an LiS ref in her bio
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Can we please normalize not immediately assuming and force conforming someone you just met's gender????? Or questioning them about it?? It's fucking invasive and uncomfortable. Like. Please don't ask about my genitals .....like how is that not fucking weird to you....
#i had an interaction today#lady said hi on the bus and then we walked and waited for the other one and she started asking about me and telling me her life story n shit#then she started to mention god a lot and im like 'oh boy here we go'#she then asks my name and i say it. AL#she looks at me and is like 'Al?? like for what?'#im just like its just al#and shes like 'thats a boys name youre a boy? no youre a girl#you look like a girl#do you have a vagina???#you either have a penis or a vagina its as simple as that#and im literally sitting there like 😧#i said im not comfortable answering that and shes like okokok alright then#but dude???#i just fucking met you and youre asking me if i have a penis or a vagina??#thats fucking invasive and uncomfy as fuck#why the fuck do you care about that#she just made me so uncomfortable right then and there#i realized the bus didnt coone so i walked away cause i needed to get an emergency lyft#but fuck dude#like seriously#who fucking does that#im so uncomfortable and upset and sad#i already was misgenderd so much yesterday andbit was making me really sas and dysphoric#and today has been barely fucking started and i get this interaction on the way to work#im so tired#im so tired of this society#im so tired of gender norms#im so fucking done#nonbinary#transphobes
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sigh. i love my lil sister so much
#i got her off the school bus today and ahh she was so happy :) she loves school#and her special ed teacher is actually rlly good? and cares about her students?? it’s a miracle#and she had a lil bit of a rough day#but she helped her teacher clean up and wash dishes!!! yay#so i got to be excited about that to hee and i made her chicken nuggets and turned on tangled and fed her :)#how is she in middle school it’s fucking insane she’s growing up so fast :(( i can barely give her a piggy back ride now :((((
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