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mildmayfoxe Ā· 1 year ago
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went & dropped of a ups return & ended up walking through a food festival with spicy specials bingo which was a pleasant surprise! gave up on bingo early bc i can only eat so much food as one person even though i love spicy but had pupusa (pictured), birria taco, spicy mango ice cream, and loaded peruvian fries which were way too much for me to finish alone & had to bring home
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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat Ā· 10 months ago
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:((((((((( i ran out of tags . tumblr hates to see me thrive!!!!!!!
ok niku just . read the tags first and then come back here ok šŸ™šŸ™ i have a lot i still need to say this is so important to me . this fic changed my life .
(WARNING this got long ā€¦.. really long ā€¦.. mysteriously. i got carried away šŸ’” PLS donā€™t feel the need to respond to any of this btw i mean that sincerely i know this is kind of a Lot i just need you to know much i adored this fic <3333)
BACK TO GOJO ok so his talk w readerā€¦ā€¦ it was just so satisfying to see them finally get to tell someone about their experience. it mustā€™ve been such a great feeling for them !!!! to get some of it off their chest :((( ā€¦ and to have Gojo Fucking Satoru our safe harbour of a man there to believe them and listen to them and reassure them. heā€™s so mature when it comes down to it and you captured that so wellā€¦ā€¦ like as much as he acts childish and teasing this is exactly how i picture him interacting w someone he doesnā€™t know in a situation like this!! heā€™s flirty and unserious but he tells you heā€™ll protect you and means it. (iā€™m so down bad it physically hurts)
sorry iā€™m abt to go on a tangent i think BUT I JUST šŸ˜”šŸ˜” reallyā€¦ REALLY love their dynamicā€¦. how it evolves so much even though he doesnā€™t even know reader exists for most loops!! and to them heā€™s just this beautiful Something that they canā€™t help but look atā€¦ā€¦ ā€inhumanly attractiveā€ is a great way to put it like heā€™s justā€¦.. this magnetic forceā€¦ā€¦ā€¦.. and i feel like even before they speak to him for the first time they probably find some kind of hope in him.
AND thatā€™s so important bc to me thatā€™s like . the main Theme of the fic? hope. reader has to find some kind of hope to make it through shibuya and more often than not they find it in gojo!!! in just seeing a familiar handsome face, in learning how to navigate the timeline through his actions, in talking to him and finally having him on their side. their choice to trust him fully at the end just made me soooo insane. and obv the hope theme continues even after that because gojo believes in them!!! believes that theyā€™ll be okay in the prison realmā€¦.. more on that later actually bc i Still. have a lot to talk abt šŸ˜”šŸ‘‰šŸ‘ˆ iā€™m just wildly flipping through my notes at this point iā€™m sorry to throw this at u when weā€™ve barely interacted but in my defense this fic reached into my actual skull and started rewiring my brain so!!!! yeah.
i got completely sidetracked there but . yes!! the conversation between them when gojo gets sent back in time is. so good!!!!! so wonderfully written!!!!! i havenā€™t mentioned it that much yet i think but i love your writing i devoured every lineā€¦ā€¦ i struggle w the flow of my own writing SO much but this just flows so incredibly well??? it was sm fun to read????? and the rhythm of the paragraphs (that sounds. Insane but i hope u know what i mean šŸ˜­šŸ˜­) is so distinct!!! and ofc there are SO many banger lines in this in generalā€¦. the gore descriptions and the lines abt reader and their fixation on hope. on gojo!! ā€He's a terrifying sort of beauty and you can't help but be captivated by him.ā€ <- this is just one example but!! idk iā€™m just so enamored by ur writing style.
and the dialogue!!!!!!!! i cried!!!!!! itā€™s so consistently gojoā€¦. him going all ā€oh?ā€ ā€interestingā€¦ā€ but not explaining anything ā€¦ the ā€ding ding ding!ā€ after making reader guess what he should just be telling them (itā€™s the teacher in him <33) AND AND AND these too!!!! :3
ā€œJust think of it like having a lot of MP.ā€
ā€œYou know, your technique kind of reminds me of save scumming.ā€Ā 
THEY JUST FEEL SO CANON thatā€™s our gojoā€¦ā€¦ thatā€™s exactly what he would sayā€¦ā€¦ heā€™s so unserious and so funny and so charming šŸ˜”šŸ˜” sigh.
ANDDDDD reader telling him good luck!!!! gojo beaming and squeezing their shoulder!!!!! the lil wave!!!!! šŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗ that made me smile so wide niku heā€™s so infuriatingly cute . it felt so genuine!!!! pls know that this gojo will probably live in my brain forever like genuinely . iā€™ve been brainrotting over him all week and this was the final nail in the coffin. iā€™ll never be free.
ok but also !!!! extremely important !!!!!!! before i get to the ending i just need to tell u . how much i loved kenjaku in this ā€¦ā€¦ā€¦.. kenjaku nation (me & six others) will never forget these crumbs of content like he just feels so real!!!!! and heā€™s so interesting!!!!! made me realize how truly down bad i am for him bc these lines made me so fucking happy šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ brain started releasing serotonin like CRAZY iā€™m so ashamed.
ā€œYou can come out, you know.ā€
ā€How interesting.ā€
"I'll be nice, though. I'll make it painless."
ā€¦ā€¦.. heā€™s just ā€¦.. yeah. yeahhhhh. šŸ˜”šŸ˜” iā€™ll never be normal abt him. i think itā€™s SUCH an interesting detail that he always makes readerā€™s death painless in every single loopā€¦. he never lies about it. that feels so in character to me too!!! heā€™s kinda fascinated at first and when that interest disappears he kills them. but he doesnā€™t make it unecessarily cruel because thereā€™s just. no need. kenjaku is a sicko but heā€™s oddly polite at times and iā€™m justā€¦ā€¦. yeah. gonna need you to take over for gege akutami actually šŸ™šŸ™ get in the writerā€™s chair!!! the fandom needs u!!!!!
wait while weā€™re on this topic pls just know the entire confrontation between reader and kenjaku was one of my favorite moments in the entire fic <333 not JUST because iā€™m a kenny stan okā€¦ā€¦ā€¦ readerā€™s resignation and ā€I appreciate it.ā€ made my brain spin because itā€™s just . kinda chilling? kinda sick? that they arenā€™t even really afraid of death anymoreā€¦ or more like theyā€™re just so frighteningly used to it.
AND AND ANDDDD niku your writing in this scene šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜µā€šŸ’« gutted me like a fish.
Time doesn't flow in the box. He didn't lie. You die again.
i exploded btw . ackkk i wish i could explain it better i just!!! :< adore your writing. these lines made me go completely batshit theyā€™re just so good. and the ā€time doesnā€™t flow in the boxā€ line ā€¦ how that ties in with the ending and readerā€™s choice. whewww.
segway time <3333 this is the final rant i promise!!! i just need to talk about the ending bc it was so perfect and like many other things in this fic it made me insane ā€¦. have i said that already ā€¦. probably at least a couple times šŸ˜”šŸ‘‰šŸ‘ˆ itā€™s true ok!! itā€™s just sooo interesting to me and obviously so wellwritten and fitting and just. thematically ties everything together so well? i was FLOORED
hhhhh i donā€™t know where to begin so iā€™ll just start w the final convo between reader and gojo :> he asks for their name !!!!!!! i cried !!!!!!!!!! calling someone by their name or knowing their name as a form of like . Closeness or Affection is one of my greatest weaknesses and i also think itā€™s soooo telling that GOJO wants to know Your Name. he wants to know you. to hear that from someone who seems so inhumanly beautiful and violentā€¦.. for him to kind of extend a final olive branch and attempt to connect w you :((((( it just says so much without spelling it out and i. started chewing at my desk. itā€™s so good!!!!!!! such a genius way to tie everything together!!!! and readerā€™s final words to himā€¦
ā€œThank you, Satoru Gojo.ā€ You burn the glittering glow of his brilliant bright blue eyes into your mind.Ā  And then, everything is engulfed in an unending black.Ā 
first of all!!! so so sooooo pretty. wowow. second of all THE THANK YOU ā˜¹ļøā˜¹ļøā˜¹ļøā˜¹ļøā˜¹ļø thatā€™s also such a perfect conclusionā€¦ā€¦.. reader finally put their trust in someone and had that faith returned. and they thank him!!!! i like to think it means something to gojo tooā€¦. likeeee how often do people really thank him for what he does? how often is his hard work to protect people acknowledged and appreciated? sorry to bring gojo back into the discussion all the time sadly i AM in love w himā€¦.. šŸ˜”šŸ˜” and this fic made it worse so technically itā€™s your fault. kind of.
okay so my brain is kinda spinning away again so iā€™ll get to the final final thing!!!! for real this time!!!!! readerā€™s decision to be imprisoned in gojoā€™s steadā€¦ thatā€™s so . genius? iā€™m so in awe??????? it makes so much sense from a character perspective based on what theyā€™ve been through ā€” after being at the mercy of time for so long, wouldnā€™t it be nice to be free of it? completely? itā€™s almost kind of chilling and just the idea of it scares me LMAO but it makes sm sense that reader would be drawn to it.
AND like i mentioned before!!! how it leads to a deeper connection between them and gojo, and how at the very end of the fic heā€™s the one who has faith in them. faith that theyā€™ll be alright, of sound mind.
ā€¦ā€¦ and that brings me to the final final final thing because. itā€™s just like the opening poem!! reader is the cat in the box. nobody can say for sure if theyā€™re alright, not to mention alive, until the box is opened. and we donā€™t get to know!!! you leave us on a cliffhanger and thatā€™s so good bc it really is like the cat in the boxā€¦. we can only wonder but it also gives us the freedom to decide for ourselves if we think they come out okay or not and iā€™m justā€¦ā€¦ā€¦ā€¦.. in love. with this fic. and the ending and the reader and gojo and you.
hopefully youā€™ve noticed atp but i really did go completely insane reading this šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ i said it at the beginning but just to reiterate!!: for SURE one of my all time favorite gojo fics . AND loopfics in generalā€¦. thank you sm for your hard work :ā€™3 aaaa i canā€™t tell u how much i admire the time you spent working on this??? your storytelling and writing and characterization skills????? i genuinely feel sooo giddy and excited and happy rn bc. i just adored this fic!!!! iā€™m so lucky i got to read it!!!!! :33 pls pat your gojo on the head from me and let him know i love himā€¦. itā€™ll boost his ego but thatā€™s a risk iā€™m willing to take šŸ˜”šŸ˜” i hope you have theeeee loveliest day or night a human being can have bc you made mine <3333333
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beyond the unending night (reader + satoru gojo)
notes: it's finally here. the long awaited halloween fic. yes, i know it's march, but i did start working on it in september. haha. there's so much i could say, but i will leave it at that this fic is, in every sense, a fic that i would not normally write. and yet here we are.
contains: f!reader (no physical description or gendered language is used), no explicit romantic pairing (though you don't have to look hard to find the reader x gojo implications), major character death (played with), semi-graphic depictions of death, blood and violence, minor suicide ideation, canon retelling (lines of dialogue are pulled from the jjk english dub because i'm a dirty dub watcher). opening poem is from higurashi no naku koro ni (minagoroshi-hen). fic title is from giga's beyond the way.
please note that this is a time loop fic and, by nature contains repeating scenes (particularly from canon). please do not read this fic if you do not like that sort of thing.
wc: 21,883 read on ao3 (account required)
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Please tell me what happened in this night. It's like the cat inside the box.
Please tell me what happened in this night. You don't know if the cat in the box is dead or alive. Please tell me what happened in this night. The cat in the box was dead.
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The first time, it is instantā€” you donā€™t even know whatā€™s happening.
The second, it is by flame, but you barely realize it, barely feel itā€” a second of mind numbing heat before nothing.
The third time, it is something slicing across your throat; you see the blood spilling everywhere, then the pain followsā€” a moment of pure agony before nothing.
The fourth time you realize whatā€™s going on; whatā€™s really going on.
You realize youā€™ve been dying.
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You think your head is going to explode.
At first, you think itā€™s because the subway platform is crowded, insanely soā€” there are hundreds of people shoved into this space alongside you, packed like sardines in a can. Youā€™ve never been one for crowds, but itā€™s the reality of things when you live in Tokyo. For the most part, youā€™ve learned to accept it, but even this crowd is a little much and you wish you hadnā€™t listened to your friends when they said you should go party in Shibuya for Halloween; you donā€™t even like partying.
Thereā€™s a sharp pain in your temple followed by a thought so loud that it feels like someone is screaming it at you through a megaphone positioned right next to your ear.
Itā€™s the night of October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
For the eighth time.
Before you can even question the thought, images flash in your mindā€™s eye, blurry at first before they come into focus. The platform gates open. Chaos ensues. People dropping onto the subway tracksā€” spontaneously bursting into flameā€” their heads, necks sliced off, stomachs cut openā€”
Bile rapidly builds up in your throat, and you clamp your jaw shut, trying to force it down. Not here. Not now. You try to focus on something else, anything else happening outside of your brain. Thereā€™s a pair next to you musing about the people standing on the subway tracks, wondering what the two (the four?) of them are talking about. You blink back tears as you look. You can only see two: a freakishly tall man with white hair dressed in all black, and another man, dressed in strange, yet more traditional looking garb. Are those costumes too? You donā€™t have a lot of time to think about it as another image forces its way into your brain.
Your corpseā€” lifeless on the ground.
Your corpseā€” burning to ash.
Your corpseā€” bleeding out.
You canā€™t hold it in any more. Every fiber in your being screams at you to get away from the subway tracks, but instead you rush toward them, shoving people left and right as your hands desperately reach the stability of the gate. You grip it like a lifeline as you retch over the side of it, the contents of your stomach spilling all over the subway tracks.
Thereā€™s a quiet murmur of disgust behind you but you canā€™t be bothered to respond. You need to get out of here. You need to leave. You need to do it beforeā€”
The gates open and the crowd starts to move like a tidal wave, pushing and shoving their way through the gate. Youā€™re swept away, vomit long forgotten as you and a few dozen others tumble onto the railway.
Alarm bells go off in your brain, loud and deafening. A voice in the back of your head screams for you to get off the track! Get off the track now beforeā€”
The platform erupts into a cacophony of screams, drenched in horror, saturated in fear. You are surrounded by people, by corpsesā€” beheaded, sliced open, bursting into flames.
Your terror roots you to the ground as the carnage ensues around you. Itā€™s only when another person, another corpse, dressed in a magical girl costume collides with your body that you can finally move. But itā€™s too late, you realize, despaired and helpless, as your bodies fall to the ground.
Itā€™s too late.
You die an eighth time.
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You think your chest is going to explode.
At first, you think itā€™s because itā€™s so hard to breathe, frustratingly soā€” there are hundreds of people squeezed into this space alongside you, packed like cattle for slaughter. You've never been one for crowds, but itā€™s the reality of things when youā€™re in Shibuya. For the most part, youā€™ve come to accept it, but this crowd is way too much and you wish you had just stayed home and ordered a pizza; though honestly, the thought of pizza kind of makes you sick.
Thereā€™s a dull throbbing in your forehead, followed by a thought so loud that it feels like someoneā€™s hollering at you from a loudspeaker thatā€™s been installed in your brain.
Itā€™s the night of October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
You think it's the ninth time now.
Behind you, you hear a woman screaming, her voice crazed and terrified. You turn your head automatically to look at her and when you see her you realize you recognize her yellow and white magical girl costume. You can say with certainty that youā€™ve never seen her before and yetā€”
Before you can ruminate more on it, imagesā€” memories assault your mindā€™s eye with a clarity that is absolutely sickening. That woman colliding into you, your bodies slamming into the subway tracks before you bothā€” Your stomach churns violently,
and you feel like youā€™re going to puke, but you force it downā€” can't afford to right now. Instead, you make your way over to the woman.
Her head is in her hands as she mutters over and over again about how everyone is going to die. People around her figure that being stuck in here with the crowd has probably gotten to her. You, however, know better.
ā€œ...hey,ā€ you say softly.
Her muttering comes to an abrupt halt and slowly she raises her head to look at you. Thereā€™s a flash of recognition in her eyes and she grabs you violently by the shoulders. ā€œYou! You know, donā€™t you? That weā€™re going to die?ā€
If it werenā€™t for the fact that you have indeed experienced death here eight times already, then you would have thought sheā€™s lost her mind. Slowly, you nod and she seems relieved by it, her grip on you loosening.
You canā€™t help but feel a little relieved tooā€” glad to know that youā€™re not the only one experiencing this nightmare. Thereā€™s a voice in the back of your mind thatā€™s confused though. Why is she only remembering now? But then again, it took you a few times before you realized yourself.
Around you people start to gasp, and you glance back toward the railway to see an abnormally tall man with white hair and dressed in all black jump down from the atrium onto the railway. He lands rather gracefully for someone who jumped at least one floor and starts to converse with the other three people (you think they're peopleā€” two of them are in some pretty wild costumes) on the track.
Wait. Isnā€™t it supposed to be just two people: the tall man and the one in the traditional clothes? Where did the other two come from?
ā€œWe have to get out of here,ā€ the woman says. ā€œBefore they kill us.ā€
Her grip shifts from your shoulders to your arms and she starts to shove at everyone around you, trying to force her way through. She seems to know, just as well as you do, that any second now the gates will open and the crowd will start spilling onto the railway, littering the tracks with bodies and ash. Neither of you can let yourselves get swept up with the rest. If you do and you end up on those tracks, youā€™re as good as dead.
People move aside at a snail's pace, many of them too focused on trying to see what is going on on the subway tracks. This isn't good. You need to move faster or elseā€”
The collective sound of the gates opening echoes in your head, a metallic hiss that makes your stomach fold into itself. Before either of you can stop yourselves, you both whip your heads back to look, to confirm, but itā€™s a mistake.
The briefest lapse in attention is enough to pull you both into the current of people, and try as you might to fight against it, the crowd splits you and the woman apart as it swallows you both whole. Youā€™re both spat onto the tracks at the edge of the platform and your head collides with the metal rails of the track. It feels like your skull is about to crack in two, and it takes every fiber in your being to scramble to your feet. You're close enough to the platform that if you can just climb up it, then you'll beā€”
ā€œHelp! Help!ā€
Itā€™s the womanā€™s voice. You turn to see that she ended up a couple meters away from you. Sheā€™s staring at you, eyes brimming with fear filled tears as she extends her hand in your direction. You take a step toward her, reaching out.
And then, her entire body is engulfed in flames, the skirt of her magical girl costume a ring of fiery death around her.
Her blood curdling scream is the only thing you can hear, her burning flesh, the only thing you can see. You donā€™t know what to do.
You canā€™t save her.
There's something touching your back. You can barely feel the pressure, but it's hot, scorching hot, mind numbingly hot, painfully hothothot.
You know this sensation. You have felt it before. The scent of burning cloth, burning hair, burning flesh clogs your nostrils. It's too late, you realize, helpless, despaired as the flames eat at your bodyā€” your soon to be corpse.
It's too late.
You die a ninth time.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the tenth time.
Your head hurts, but you ignore it. Thereā€™s something more important that you need to attend to. You immediately make your way to the woman you met during your last round, the one you watched burn to death. Her costume is still pristine, unmarred by fire and death.
For now.
Sheā€™s not screaming this time and while thereā€™s a little voice in the back of your mind thatā€™s concerned by this, you try to ignore it.
ā€œUm, excuse me?ā€ you say when she doesnā€™t acknowledge you as you approach.
The woman turns to look at you. Youā€™re taken aback by the distinct lack of recognition and it feels almost as if the woman you encountered previously and the one before you now are two separate people. In a way, they technically are.
ā€œDo Iā€¦ know you?ā€ she finally asks when you donā€™t say anything.
Your mouth is dry. How do you even answer that? You donā€™t know her. You just watched her die twice. You know her. She begged you for help. You couldnā€™t save her.
If you explain all of this you know sheā€™s just going to think youā€™ve lost your mind. Maybe you already haveā€” youā€™ve died nine times after all.
You give her a weak smile. ā€œIā€¦ just wanted to tell you that you think your costume looks great.ā€
She blinks, taken aback by your words. Thereā€™s no doubt that she wasnā€™t expecting you to say that. Itā€™s the truth though, her costume is nice; sheā€™s dressed up as a character from a magical girl anime that was popular a couple years ago.
ā€œThank you! I made it myself!ā€ The woman breaks out into a genuine smile and your heart hurts. In a few moments sheā€™ll die and the costume she worked so hard to make will be nothing but ash on the subway tracks.
ā€œSorry,ā€ you blurt out before you can stop yourself.
ā€œFor?ā€
For watching her die. For not being able to save her.ā€œ...I just kind of came up to you all of a suddenā€¦ā€
She laughs. ā€œItā€™s okay.ā€
Itā€™s not.
You consider telling her that she should try to move. That if she stays here she will die. You donā€™t want her to die. Again. You can still hear her screaming in your ears as she burned to death. You want to tell her.
You donā€™t.
ā€œStay safe, okay?ā€ you say. It almost sounds like youā€™re begging.
She gives you another smile, kind and gentle and you think youā€™re far too undeserving of it for not telling her what fate will soon befall her. ā€œYou too.ā€
ā€œIā€™ll try,ā€ you say and move away from the woman just as the gates open and the crowd surges toward the railway. You do not fight it as you are swept up into the crowd and despite what you said, you do not try, this time, to stay safe.
You die for the tenth time.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the fourteenth time.
Thereā€™s a slight ache in your head, but itā€™s subtle enough that you can ignore it. The pain you feel lessens with each round and you think itā€™s a sign that your body no longer feels the need to remind you of the precarious situation that youā€™re in.
Or maybe you are just becoming numb to everything: your death, the death of the people around you, the death of the woman in the magical girl costumeā€”
You try not to think about it too much as you reach into your bag to check the time on your phone: 8:37PM. Thereā€™s not a lot of time: you need to move.
At the very end of your last attempt to escape this nightmare you realized something. You need to know exactly what is going on around you so you can plan accordingly: where to not stand, where to not go. Up until now, youā€™ve relied almost solely on the knowledge gained from your previous failures to try and survive, but obviously itā€™s not enough to keep you alive. Youā€™re not sure why you didnā€™t realize this earlier. The panic, maybe? The fear?
Maybe you really are becoming numb to all this.
Unlike previous iterations, this time you elect to move closer to the gate, positioning yourself somewhere against it where youā€™re unlikely to be pushed off the platform in a couple minutes when they open. You take great care to place yourself where you can see the ones responsible for the slaughter very clearly. At the beginning, you could only see one, the one who looks the most human, but with each repetition, the other two have become more and more clear. You wonder why. You donā€™t have time to think about it.
Murmurs nearby alert you to the arrival of the fourth major player involved in the nightā€™s events. You look up and see the white haired man dressed in all black descending upon the platform like an angel from the heavens. This is your first time really looking at him and you realize thereā€™s something almost inhumanly attractive about him. You canā€™t quite put your finger on it, but it occurs to you that you shouldnā€™t even try; you donā€™t have the time to be drooling over some handsome stranger.
Youā€™ve naturally never taken the time to try and listen to whatever the conversation the man and his opponents have before all hell breaks loose on the platform, but you try and lean closer to listen. Itā€™s hard to hear over the dozens of conversations going on behind you, but you try anyway. There might be a clue to whatā€™s actually going onā€” or better yet, a clue on how to get out of it.
Itā€™s obvious that youā€™re missing context from what bits of the conversation you do manage to hear, but honestly it all sounds like stuff out of a shounen battle manga. There is one part of the exchange that you manage to hear with a startling sort of clarity. It feels almost as if your heart stops beating as your blood turns ice cold in your veins.
ā€œIf I run away, youā€™re just gonna kill everyone here, right?ā€ the man in black asks.
Thereā€™s a pause, and if your heart was still beating itā€™d be long enough for just four heartbeats.
ā€œIf you run away?ā€ The monster with cane repeats, the sadistic grin spreading wide across its features, displaying its charcoal black teeth. The gravelly sound of its voice sets fire to the blood in your veins, your stilled heart thumping wildly, in fear, in anticipation. Soon. Itā€™s happening soon. You brace yourself. ā€œWeā€™re going to do that even if you donā€™t!ā€
You die a fourteenth time.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the seventeenth time now.
Things are going surprisingly well, even as the people around you tumble onto the tracks. You manage to hold on, desperation keeping you from falling into the abyss. This is good, you tell yourself, despite the fact that itā€™s not the first time youā€™ve achieved this. Every little victory is worth celebrating, but you have to remain vigilant. This is yet another information gathering loop, and while you know that maybe this time youā€™ll be lucky and live, thereā€™s still a chance, a big one, at that, that you will die again.
You have to make the most of each and every death.
Itā€™s such a morbid thought, but the ends justify the means, or so you tell yourself. If you have to die a few times to make it out of this unending nightmare, then so be it.
The spot youā€™re in is a good vantage point; itā€™s easier to see everything happening below you. Itā€™s so good that itā€™s actually sickening. You watch as the monster with the cane and one with what looks like branches for eyes slaughter the people on the track, mowing them down, setting them aflame. In another life, in another many lives, that was you down there, and for what feels like the first time in forever, you feel like youā€™re going to be sick. You feel like, at some point, you likened the scene before you to some kind of shounen battle manga, but you think that was wrong.
This is borderline horror.
Everything plays out before you like a scene out of an action horror flick. If you didnā€™t know better, youā€™d think you were just an extra on set, but you know the reality is that youā€™re just an extra to whatever phantasmal battle is taking place in front of you. The monsters and the strangely dressed man all try to attack the man in black, but he manages to block every hit effortlessly, as if he is protected by some sort of invisible barrier. When it seems the two monsters are about to hit him, he merely jumps out of the way and the two monsters seem to collide, the force of their combined strength sending a gust of air throughout the crowd. The man in black neatly lands on a nearby platform half wall and says something about curse users, whatever those are, to the monsters, before he starts to mock them, pulling down his strange blindfold in the process.
And this, youā€™ve found, is where you start to get in trouble.
You clearly remember thinking, at some point, previously, that there was something attractive about this man. You still donā€™t know what it is. You havenā€™t had the time to try and figure it out, but there is one thing that you do know: you canā€™t keep your eyes off of him.
He drops back down onto the tracks, antagonizing his opponents in an arrogant tone as he approaches. When he comes to a stop between the two monsters, the second round of their fight begins. They try to hit him, but he dodges still, gracefully, fluidly, like the three of them are embroiled in some sort of passionate, yet violent dance.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he cruelly rips off one of the arms of the one-eyed monster.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he brutally kicks the branch-eyed monster in the abdomen, sending them flying to the other side of the platform.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he effortlessly hurls the one-eyed, now one-armed monster in the same direction, sending them smashing into the wall.
Only when the man in black seems to fly to the other side is the spell over you seemingly broken. Still, your eyes give chase, and your body too, rushing from one side of the platform to the other. You canā€™t lose sight of this fight, you tell yourself, settling in a spot you recall being safe during your last round. Doing so could mean another death, another loop, another October 31.
You watch as the man in black acrobatically dodges what looks to be vines or roots that the monster with branches for eyes seems to have summoned from the depths of the Tokyo metro. He lands on the monsterā€™s shoulders, balancing on them as he uses its branch-eyes for leverage. The look in the manā€™s eyes is so crazed that you can see it from where youā€™re standing. He says something to it and thenā€”
With a feral and sadistic smile, he rips their eyes straight out of their skull.
Your heart is pounding wildly in your chest as you watch the fight unfold. It is horrifyingly, disgustingly violent, yet still you watch as people on the track are killed by the human-like person, blood raining down as their freshly beheaded skulls go flying into the air. He and the one-eyed monster launch their counter attacks against the man in black and the blowback is so intense the power goes out causing everyone to scream.
Thereā€™s a faint glow where the man in black is standing that starts to grow brighter and brighter. You can make out his form turning to face the wall, and it seems almost like heā€™s slammed the monster that had branches for eyes against it with some sort of telekinetic power. Despite the panic from the people around you, you manage to hear him, chuckling like a mad man as he draws closer and closer to the monster.
The one-eyed monster yells out a name, a name you think must belong to the man, but he doesnā€™t hear it. He doesnā€™t hear the one-eyed monster as he extends his hands out toward the eyeless monster, exerting some kind of force that you canā€™t really see. He doesnā€™t hear the one-eyed monster as the eyeless monsterā€™s entire body is vaporized in a flash of blue light. He doesnā€™t hear the one-eyed monster, as the lights flicker back on revealing a smoking crater stained with purple blood where the eyeless monster once stood.
But you do.
Satoru Gojo.
You make sure to remember that.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
And this is the eighteenth time.
You watch as the man called Satoru Gojo stalks through the crowd of people on the subway tracks, chasing after the one-eyed fire monster. It throws people at him, in a clear attempt to slow him down.
It does not work.
Satoru Gojo climbs back onto the platform in a way that you can only describe as inhuman, and the people nearby shriek and move away from him, out of terror, out of fear. You, on the other hand, draw closer, refusing to lose sight of him.
He is relentless in his pursuit of the one-eyed monster. It continues to throw person after person at him, but he does not stop and the people float there, suspended in midair before they are gently lowered to the ground by some unseen force and scramble away.
No one dares get close to Satoru Gojo, everyone on the platform seems to know that doing so means certain death, yourself included. But you still feel the need to keep an eye on him. The monster and the strangely dressed man are focusing more on him than the crowdā€” anyone in between is just collateral damage.
But not you.
Especially since youā€™ve made it this farā€” youā€™ve never made it this far before.
A voice echoes throughout the platform; you realize itā€™s the automated announcement.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
You can hear everyoneā€™s relief coming from all sides. The train is coming! The train is coming! A ripple of hope makes its way throughout the crowd. With the train comes the chance to get off the platform and the senseless violence thatā€™s been happening here. Some of the people around you are talking excitedly and others are running toward the gates, toeing the yellow line theyā€™ve been instructed to wait behind. And you, you should be excited, you should be hopeful.
All you feel is dread.
It eats at your stomach, at your chest, at your mind. Clawing and gnawing at you in a way that leaves you paralyzed on the platform. Thereā€™s something wrong here. You canā€™t be sure because youā€™ve never made it this far, never survived long enough for the train to come, but something is just not right.
No.
You must be paranoid. The train coming is a good thing. It has to be a good thing. You are just paranoid. Itā€™s normal. Itā€™s natural. Dying seventeen times would do that to anyoneā€” rob them of hope, condemn them to an existence full of fear.
It is not lost on you that the thought of dying more than once, much less, dying seventeen times is not normal or natural in the very slightest.
But you need hope, you crave it, wildly, desperately. The hope of freedom, of escape is the only thing getting you through this unending nightmare. Every time you die, every time you wake, it is with the hope that maybe, just maybe this iteration will be different, maybe this one will be the one where you make it out, make it back to your friends who must be waiting for you, make it back home where you can be safe and sound. You need the hope to keep going. Because without hope, what will you have left?
The train screeches as it pulls into the station and the people around you laugh in both disbelief and relief. They start to push and shove toward it, fighting to be able to board because thereā€™s no way everyone here will be able to get on an eight car train and being left behind at this point is practically synonymous with death. Unable to decide if you believe in the train as a symbol of hope or a new layer of fear, you are pushed along with the crowd toward it.
The doors of the train cars slide open and the current passengers all rush off as they disembark. You as well as everyone else on the platform can see with a horrifying clarity that the train is filled to the brim with monsters. Monsters that reach out and grab anyone their hands can reach. The woman to your left. The person to your right.
You.
Hope is gone.
What do you have left?
You die for the eighteenth time.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
This is probably the twenty-sixth time now.
If there is anything this entire ordeal has taught you, it is that you are resilient. Whether it is some innate trait that you never had any reason to uncover before or just a byproduct of being trapped in an unending cycle of being dead and not dead, you don't know. What you do know, though, is that even if you no longer have hope, you at least have your resilience.
Whether you want it or not.
You check the time. Itā€™s 8:35PM. Something flickers in your chest, like a faint light in a sea of darkness, but you ignore it. You donā€™t have time right now.
With a nimbleness born from your previous failures, you weave your way through the crowd. Youā€™ve done this enough times to know where the gaps areā€” who will yield and who wonā€™t. Your destination is the escalator that leads off the platform and up to a higher part of the station. Youā€™d noticed previously that the escalator along with every other entrance onto the platform will eventually be blocked by vines or roots of some sort (the work of the branch-eyed monster probably). Itā€™s not a perfect plan because you donā€™t know what happens on the other side, but whatever it is has to be better than whatever is happening on the side that youā€™ve been on.
Youā€™d tried to get to the stairs during your last two rounds, but youā€™d just missed it. You hadnā€™t been fast enough and had gotten caged and slaughtered along with the rest. But this time, this time you have more time. Itā€™s just one minute, but itā€™s enough. You know it is.
The flickering in your heart grows stronger. Hope. You try not to pay attention to itā€” you donā€™t want to be disappointed yet again. But you want to so badly. A voice in the back of your mind tells you to focus on the good, tells you that if there was truly no way out of this endless nightmare, then why would you get more and more time with each round to escape your fate?
With that thought in mind, you break out into a run, recklessly rushing through the crowd, shoving anyone who will not yield to the side. Out of the corner of your eye you can see the stark white of Satoru Gojoā€™s hair as he descends upon the platform.
You need to get up those stairs.
Now.
If you remember correctly, the roots and vines donā€™t close off the area the moment he touches down, but a little after they start talking, so you think there is probably some time, but you canā€™t leave it to chance.
The stairs are packed, and for some reason no one is moving. The escalator right next to it is just as full and the power doesnā€™t seem to be working. You donā€™t have time for this. You clamber onto the escalatorā€™s rubber handrail, ignoring the weird feeling that passes through your body as you do so. You donā€™t have the time to worry about whatever that is. The people around you start exclaiming around you, but you donā€™t care, you donā€™t listen. You wobble as you try to balance yourself and when you think youā€™re steady you try to run.
But you trip.
And you die for the twenty-sixth time.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
This marks the thirtieth time.
And you have, finally, finally made it up the escalator, up the stairs with barely a second to spare. You pause, glancing back as the roots or vines or whatever the hell they are seal off the entrance to the platform. You notice that the area where the plants come down is actually fairly clear, despite the crowd. It seems weird, but you donā€™t dwell on it.
A strange feeling envelops your entire body and your legs turn into jelly. As you sink to the floor, you realize what youā€™re feeling is relief as all the tension, maybe thirty iterations of Halloween 2018 worth, seeps from your being. You don't remember the last time you felt anything other than fear and dread; itā€™s weird, but not unwelcome.
That voice in the back of your mind tells you that you can't relax just yet: October 31st isnā€™t over. Even though you have repeated this night again and again, burning the events that play out on the platform into your memory, you do not know a single thing that happens over here. It would be smart to scope everything out.
Legs still shaky, you rise to your feet and start walking. You think itā€™s probably for the best to try and head up to the surface and you make your way up to the next floor.
Itā€™s packed with people here too, but relatively peaceful, especially when you compare it to the pandemonium taking place beneath your feet. Still, you can make out the undeniable hum of displeasure resonating throughout the crowd. People complaining about how uncomfortable their costumes are, people complaining about how much they want to go home, people complaining about how much their nights have been ruined because they couldnā€™t meet up with their friends andā€”
A thought hits you like an eight car train.
You were supposed to meet up with your friends.
Thatā€™s why you were on the platform in the first placeā€” you were waiting for them to arrive, but then the trains stopped working, and people just started pouring into the station out of seemingly nowhere (you think you heard some people say theyā€™d come from the crossing?). Soon after that is when everything went to shit.
You check your phone, though, for once itā€™s not to look at the time (8:56PM). Instead, you open LINE to check your friendsā€™ group chat. Thereā€™s no signal here, for whatever reason, so if there are any new messages, you havenā€™t received them. The last one was from Kei, mentioning he was enroute, but as far as you know, youā€™re the only one who made it to Shibuya before the trains stopped.
Did one of them maybe make it here though? Surely, you would have run into them ifā€”
The image of a woman in a magical girl costume fills your vision, burning to death before your very eyes as her screams echo in your ears. It is the first time in what feels like forever that youā€™ve thought about her and your stomach churns violently. You couldnā€™t help her, you canā€™t even help yourself, so how could you even expect to do the same for your friends if they were here? The mere thought of having to watch them die over and over is almost enough to send you over the edge. You donā€™t know if you could do it.
Would you even have a choice?
No. You can't think like that. You have choices. You've had choices. If you didnā€™t then, you would still be down below, among the fire and brimstone. Dying, if not dead already. However, instead, you are up here, where, for the moment, it is quiet and peaceful.
That thought, in of itself, is enough to give you a shred of solace, a glimmer of hope.
You take a deep breath and fiddle with your phone a little more, changing your lock screen to a picture you and your friends took at a photo booth not too long ago. The four of you are huddled together, faces squished as if you're all struggling to fit in the frame, despite there being plenty of room. You're mid-laugh because it's the first time you've been in a photo booth in years, Mio and Shin are grinning mischievously and finally, Kei is smiling, but only just slightly, the embarrassment clear on his face. It's probably only been a few months since you all took this picture, but the fact that it feels like it's been years makes your heart ache.
You press your forehead to the screen, like a prayer, like a promise.
You will make it out of this nightmare.
No matter what.
A shrill scream yanks you from your thoughts and you are instantly on your feet, alert as your eyes flit around frantically to identify the source. It doesn't take long for you to find it and when you do, you think you might have stumbled upon a new layer of horror to this nightmare.
Itā€™s not the corpse, dangling by a noose, that terrifies youā€” by now youā€™ve seen dozens upon dozens of dead bodies that the sight of just one more doesnā€™t faze you in the slightest. The thing thatā€™s the most mortifying, thatā€™s the most disturbing is that right next to where the body is tied are two girls, two teenage girls still dressed in their school uniforms.
You can accept monsters and weirdly dressed men being responsible for the carnage tonight, but children too? Both girls look like theyā€™re barely in high school and try as you might to rationalize things, to chalk it up to coincidence, you cannot ignore the ominous energy radiating from them.
The very notion that these two children could have killed someone here is a hard pill to swallow, but so is the fact that youā€™ve died.
And youā€™ve had to swallow that pill thirty times now, so whatā€™s once more?
ā€œListen up!ā€ one of the girls yells over the crowd, but she is mostly ignored; you donā€™t think everyone here has noticed her and the corpse dangling from the rafters. She scowls and turns to the other girl and says something quietly to her. The other girl nods and almost instantly sheā€™s stringing up another person, another example. You want to look away so badly, and yet you cannot bring yourself to and you watch the poor soul choke to death.
ā€œI said listen, you dumb monkeys!ā€ the girl shouts, and this time sheā€™s caught most of the crowdā€™s attention. ā€œIf you donā€™t want to end up like these two, youā€™ll listen to what we have to say!ā€
There is clear dissent among the crowd, people dismissive as they utter their disbelief. Some seem to think itā€™s a prank, but you know better. It takes two more examples before the crowd goes silent before the two high schoolers.
ā€œAbout damn time!ā€ The girl roars and then points toward the atrium, which is currently covered by roots and branches. ā€œAll of you move over there!ā€
You have a bad feeling about this.
Still, you comply; the girls have made it abundantly clear that failure to do so will result in death, though, at this point, you're almost certain this iteration is a bust and death is all but imminent. You try to keep positiveā€” thinking you can at least gather information or, who knows, maybe there's a chance that this one is the one.
Yet when you step onto the mound of vines and branches that cover the atrium it feels as if you've crossed the threshold into hell. Your footing is stableā€¦ but for how long?
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
It's faint, but you can hear the announcement from below. The liquid in your stomach curdles at the sound as you recall the train and, in particular, what is on board. Soon enough, those monsters will be swarming the platform, massacring everyone in reach, guzzling down their blood, feasting on their fleshā€”
It dawns on you that the people on the platform are the monsters' first course.
And you, and those around you here in the shrubbery, are the second.
As you realize this, the branches and vines disintegrate beneath your very feet and suddenly you are mid airā€” falling, falling into the abyss below.
You die for the thirtieth time.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
You've done this nearly sixty times now.
After countless failures, you've decided that you're just not going to go upstairs any more. No matter where you try to go, you still end up herded onto the death trap above the platform where you ultimately fall to your death. You've tried positioning yourself in the same spot, tried bracing yourself for the dropā€” but nothing seems to work: upon landing, assuming you manage to land without hurting yourself or dying in midair (which has happened a couple times) you get grabbed and killed by one of the monsters from the train. It's probably not impossible, you just don't have the physical prowess or reflexes for it.
If anything, you can try again later, but you sincerely hope you don't have to.
It's 8:32PM, and you have plenty of time to get to your chosen spot for this loopā€” it's close to the stairs, in the very center of the platform. Here, there's little risk of getting pushed off onto the tracks when the gates open. You'll probably have to move when the train comes, or even before (assuming you survive) to avoid the monsters, but you'll get to that when it's time.
You can't really see the fight once it breaks out after Satoru Gojo arrives, but you still try to keep track of it as best as you can. You see when he hurls both monsters across the platform and you're not sure if it's muscle memory or what but you have to fight the urge to move to the side and watch. It's been a while, yes, but you've seen the fight countless times beforeā€” it doesn't change. Satoru Gojo will give chase. He will rip the branches from the branch eyed monster's skull. He will use some kind of power to eviscerate them.
You don't need to watch, but there's something in you that wants to.
It doesn't make sense, you've seen it all before; if you're unlucky you'll see it all again.
The lights go out and people start screaming; Satoru Gojo is ending the life of that one monster. Soon enough he'll be back on the platform, in pursuit of the other. You think at that point it would be good to move, reposition yourself as far from the incoming train as possible.
When he rises from the tracks like a demon straight from hell, you realize it's the first time this loop that you've actually gotten a good look at him. You remind yourself, again, that this isn't the first time you've seen this man, this scene. You can't help but watch, but stare at Satoru Gojo as he stalks through the crowd in pursuit of his prey. His expression is an eerie sort of calm that's at odds with the acts of violence you've seen him commitā€” his eyes an unnaturally bright blue.
He's a terrifying sort of beauty and you can't help but be captivated by him.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
The sound of the announcement sends your heartbeat into a frenzy, snapping you out of your little trance. The train is coming and you need to get moving. As you dart to the edge of the platform, the thought occurs to you that even if you avoid the initial wave of monsters, it's likely you will inevitably be caught by them and killed. It wouldn't be impossible for Satoru Gojo to turn his attention to them instead of the two he's currently facing, but he's just one manā€” can he truly defeat all those monsters?
You can see the train pulling in and you brace yourself, praying that it'll work out somehow.
The doors hiss open and the screaming starts again as the monsters come bursting out of the train, biting and mauling anyone they can get their hands on. Those who were lucky enough to not be at the front start to scramble away and the monsters give chase. Your body is taut, ready to try and dodge any that come your way.
Out of the corner of your eye you notice something moving through the air. A person? With blue hair? You take the risk to lookā€” they're attacking Satoru Gojo. He tries to punch them but they fly away from him to dodgeā€” disappearing into the crowd.
You hear a loud cracking sound over the cacophony of the crowd and your stomach twists; you know what that sound is. The roots above the atrium disintegrate and bodies from above start to rain down onto the platform.
And then, you're not sure what happensā€” it's so quick that you only manage to see what looks like an explosion of blood surrounding Satoru Gojo. Corpses litter the ground around him and even from here you can tell he is shaken by the carnage.
The monsters have finally reached where you're standing, and you duck under one as it lunges at you. Although it's big and scary, you realize it's moving kind of slow. Right after it another one comes at you and you take a side step to avoid it; this monster is kind of slow too.
Maybe you can do this.
As soon as you think that a strange feeling courses through you. Every hair on your body feels like it's standing on edge and the voice in your head is telling you to look at Satoru Gojo. You don't understand why because you think he's the least of your worries right now, but you do it anyway.
He's in some sort of stance, one hand raised to his face, fingers bent in some kind of gesture. There's some sort of aura, oppressive and frightening emanating from his form.
Satoru Gojo is doing something.
You just can't tell what.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
And you are utterly confused.
Barring your first few loops when you weren't fully aware of what was happening, you have very distinct memories of how each of your previous iterations of this night have goneā€” of each and every one of your deaths. But for your last round, the last thing you remember was feeling the immense power radiating from Satoru Gojo's body, but that's it.
You do not remember dying.
In fact, you don't think you did.
And yet, here you are again, back at the start: it's 8:32PM and the monsters and strangely dressed man are standing on the subway tracks waiting for the arrival of Satoru Gojo.
You don't understand what's going on; you didn't die but you're still stuck in this damn loop. Up until now, your death has served as the trigger to restart the loop. It's not impossible that maybe you suffered a quick and painless death but you're almost certain that isn't the case.
Something else must have happened.
Something having to do with Satoru Gojo.
You have to find out what. If you don't, you won't know how to avoid it, and if you can't do that, then you really might spend an eternity stuck in this nightmare. And so you take great care to repeat the steps of your last round. You need to make sure to survive to the same point you made it to last time.
Miraculously, you do.
The moment you feel that sensation again, a prickling sort of feeling that envelops your entire body, your eyes are on Satoru Gojoā€” trying to figure out what the hell he's doing. His eyes are crazed with a desperate kind of focus. You see his mouth moveā€” he's saying something. A spell? A prayer? A curse?
You don't know.
You do know.
Your brain feels like it's going to explode.
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Again.
Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
Again.
You do not know how many times it's been the night of Halloween in Shibuya: you stopped counting around the hundredth loop. It feels like it's been a while since then. Or maybe it hasn't? You don't know any more.
What you do know is that this night ends up going one of two ways before you are forced to repeat it. Either you die, in some way, shape or form or something happens just after nine that forces you to reset. You still don't know what it is exactly; you only know that Satoru Gojo is responsible for it.
You do prefer it to dyingā€” it's far less painful.
But if anything, you wish you could just die permanently and never have to repeat this night ever again.
Unfortunately, you know better.
The only good thing youā€™ve noticed about all of this is that you really do seem to keep waking up earlier and earlier. The last time you checked, it was at around 8:30. It might take hundreds of thousands of loops, but eventually youā€™ll certainly wake up early enough to avoid this damn entire mess.
But by the time that happensā€¦ will your sanity still be intact? Will you really be able to go back to a normal day to day life after living the equivalent of hundreds of years, repeating the same night over and over again? You donā€™t even know how youā€™ve managed to stay sane all this time and as much as you want to believe you could do itā€¦
There has to be a breaking point.
For both your mind and this time loop.
If youā€™re lucky, youā€™ll reach the latter first.
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Thereā€™s a dull ache in your head that feels foreign yet familiar. Your mind is foggy, all your thoughts hazy as you try to recall what the word for this feeling is.
Groggy.
It feels as if youā€™ve woken up from a nap and you blink the sleepiness away from your eyes. When was the last time you took a nap? Itā€™s been a whileā€¦ You think you maybe tried once or twice, but you were too nervous, too on edge. Awake or asleep, it didnā€™t matter because, either way, you were doomed to repeat this nightmare.
As you think this, you realize that something is different.
Youā€™re used to how the start of each loop feels like waking up suddenly and abruptly and it becomes clear to you that you havenā€™t looped. This is completely uncharted territory.
You need to find out whatā€™s going on.
The first thing you notice is that itā€™s quiet. Almost eerily so, especially when the last thing you remember was screaming and chaos. You glance around you and find that it looks like all the monsters from the train are dead, the ground littered in their bloodstains and corpses. There were so many of them, you donā€™t know how someone could have wiped them out so quicklyā€¦ Could it possibly have been Satoru Gojoā€™s doing?
More concerning than the complete eradication of the monsters is the fact that nearly everyone else on the platform is standing stock still, their mouths ajar with blank expressions on their faces. Itā€™s almost as if their souls have completely vacated their bodiesā€¦
Were you like that too before you woke up?
You hear voices, and your body immediately goes tense as you turn your head in their direction. A little ways ahead of you, you see a man dressed as a monk conversing with the blue haired person from earlier and before them isā€”
Your heart nearly stops: itā€™s Satoru Gojo, restrained and on his knees.
Honestly, you canā€™t make heads or tails of the conversation theyā€™re having; itā€™s more shounen battle manga nonsense. Satoru Gojo doesnā€™t seem to be enjoying their conversation either, and he interrupts them, clearly annoyed.
ā€œAre we gonna do this or what?ā€ he asks. ā€œThe view sucks and Iā€™m just kinda bored.ā€
ā€œI wanted to enjoy this sight for a little bit longer, but you are right,ā€ the monk says. ā€œI wouldnā€™t want anything to happenā€” gate, close.ā€
When he says that, Satoru Gojoā€™s restraints move, the weirdly shaped cubes at the ends of them closing in around him, trapping him in a giant red cube. It starts to shrink until itā€™s small enough to fit in the monkā€™s hand.
You gulp and hope they donā€™t notice that youā€™re awake. The fact that they havenā€™t slaughtered the rest of the people standing around you is a good sign, but you donā€™t want to find out what happens if they know youā€™re cognizant.
Itā€™s not hard to play the part of a living statue, especially when you compare it to everything else youā€™ve had to suffer through on this night. You watch as the monkā€™s allies, the ones who had attacked everyone on the platform, wake up, but before they can do or say anything, the box holding Satoru Gojo slips through the monkā€™s fingers and makes a dent in the concrete. The look on the monkā€™s face makes it clear that itā€™s a problem he wasnā€™t expecting.
You donā€™t know a damn thing about Satoru Gojo, but you feel like this kind of thing is the norm for him.
The blue haired person suddenly looks in your direction and you nearly stop breathing. Have they noticed you? It takes everything in you to keep perfectly still, in hopes that maybe they didn't, that maybe theyā€™re looking at something else. They raise their arm and it extends, their hand acting like some kind of projectile. You almost shut your eyes and brace yourself for impact, but their hand flies upwards and hits something on the ceiling, destroying it.
Inwardly, you breathe a sigh of reliefā€” youā€™re still safe.
For now.
You listen to their following conversation and while you still donā€™t fully understand everything, itā€™s clear theyā€™re talking about what to do next since theyā€™ve taken care of Satoru Gojo. Something having to do with someone named Yuji Itadori? The group seems split on what to do about him but itā€™s clear heā€™s their next target.
Eventually, everyone but the monk (you heard the blue haired person, who is apparently named Mahito, call him Geto?) runs off, probably to find this Yuji Itadori person. Once theyā€™re gone, Geto speaks and, at first, you think heā€™s talking to you, but it becomes clear heā€™s addressing someone else. ā€œThose cursed spirits are actually smarter than the two of you.ā€
ā€œGive him back!ā€ a voice hidden among the crowd hisses. Your blood runs cold at the sound. You recognize it; itā€™s one of the high school girls from the upper floor.
ā€œWe cooperated with you fully and kept dropping monkeys for you,ā€ says another voice; it must be the other girl that was with her, the one who hung all those people.
ā€œNow give us back Master Getoā€™s body like you promised!ā€
ā€œDonā€™t toy with Master Geto any further than you have!ā€
You blink in confusion. Isnā€™t the monk named Geto? The way the girls are talking it sounds like theyā€™re talking about someone elseā€¦ Is it possible that the body is ā€˜Getoā€™ but the person theyā€™re talking to is someone else possessing it? It sounds kind of crazy, but then again, so is every single thing youā€™ve experienced tonight.
Your suspicions concerning this ā€˜Getoā€™ are confirmed only seconds later as he says, ā€œNow begone, or is it your desire to be killed by this body?ā€
One of the girls vows her revenge and you hear shuffling somewhere else in the crowd as they scurry away. Now you think itā€™s just you and whoever it is thatā€™s puppeting Getoā€™s body. You see him plop down in front of the box (the prison realm, you think heā€™d called it) thatā€™s holding Satoru Gojo.
ā€œYou can come out, you know,ā€ he says after a while.
You freeze. The rest of the platform is completely silent. This time you think he might actually be talking to you.
ā€œI know youā€™re there,ā€ ā€˜Getoā€™ adds, his voice casual. ā€œIf youā€™re insistent on hiding, you should know that Iā€™m not afraid of using whatever means necessary to smoke you out.ā€
Given everything his allies have done, thereā€™s no doubt in your mind that heā€™s serious. You were hoping to hide out among the crowd until he decided to leave, but it looks like you wonā€™t be able to now.
Looks like this loop is a bust after all.
Your heart starts to race as you weave your way through the crowd. In every single one of your loops, you were always treated like a bit character, never noticed or singled out by any of the major players of the night. Although this is your first time encountering this ā€˜Getoā€™ itā€™s clear to you that heā€™s involved with everything thatā€™s happened here and honestly, you get the feeling he might actually be the mastermind behind the massacre.
That makes you even more nervous.
You come to a stop in the place where Satoru Gojo was once kneeling before he was put in that box. Now that youā€™re out in the open, ā€˜Getoā€™ looks you over with some sort of nonchalant curiosity.
ā€œYouā€™reā€¦ā€ he starts, sounding thoughtful, "not a sorcerer, are you?ā€
Sorcerer. You heard that term thrown around by him and his group a few times. Itā€™s what theyā€™ve been referring to their enemies as. It probably wouldnā€™t be smart to lie and say you are one; you get the feeling heā€™d see through your lie anyway. ā€œIā€™m not.ā€
He hums. ā€œHow interesting.ā€
ā€œ...what do you mean?ā€ you ask before you can help yourself.
ā€œItā€™s just you have an abnormally large amount of cursed energy for a non-sorcerer,ā€ he explains. ā€œThough, I suppose that all just sounds like gibberish to you."
You nod and look down at the box lodged in the floor. It has eyes, big creepy looking eyes. "...are you going to do the same thing to me as you did to that man?"
He laughs, "...fortunately for you, the prison realm only holds one person at a time and I need him sealed away more than you."
"...does that mean you're going to leave him in there forever?"
"If I'm feeling nice, I might unseal him in a hundred years or so."
One hundred years? At this point, you've probably lived roughly that amount of time through your loops alone, but for Satoru Gojoā€¦ "Won't he die first?"
"Only if he decides to," 'Geto' says, looking completely and wholly unbothered. "Time doesn't doesn't flow in the box, so when I unseal him, he'll be the same as he was just now. Physically anyway. Who knows how deteriorated his mind will be after all that."
Time doesn't flow in the box.
The words echo in your mind over and over. Time doesn't flow in the box. In other words, that means time has stopped in the box, and if that's the case thenā€”
"Anyway, rather than worry about him, shouldn't you be more worried about yourself?"
You look at 'Geto' and he's smiling at you, it's friendly, but ominous. There's no doubt what is going to happen next, though you had already resigned yourself to this iteration being a bust; it was only a matter of time.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
"I was thinking I might keep you around, even if you arenā€™t a sorcerer, your wealth of cursed energy would serve my plans well," he muses. "Butā€¦ it would be too much trouble trying to teach you how to use it in time."
As he talks, you realize this is probably the first time your death is intentionalā€” every other death you've suffered has just been a byproduct of the ongoing slaughter. You were just another casualty, a victim, never a target.
You're scared.
Even though you know that once he kills you, once you die, you'll just loop back to around 8:30 again. You'll be on the platform again. And you'll play out some sequence of events before you eventually die again. And again and again.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
"I'll be nice, though," 'Geto' says, raising a hand and another monster appears out of nowhere. You donā€™t even bother trying to figure out from where. It doesnā€™t matter, especially since this monster will surely be the one to end your life. "I'll make it painless."
"...I appreciate it," you say and close your eyes hoping that he's not lying about it.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
He didn't lie.
You die again.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
And you're trapped.
You don't know how and you don't know why, but you are stuck in a time loopā€” forced to suffer through the horrific events of the night before you die and begin it all again. It's been a long time since you stopped counting how many loops you've gone through, but if you had to guess, it's probably somewhere in the hundreds now.
You are so very tired.
But it doesn't stop. It won't stop no matter what you seem to do. You are stuck. You are trapped. You are doomed.
ā€œTime doesn't flow in the box.ā€
Ever since that first loop where you heard whoever is possessing Geto's body say that, the words have been stuck in your head, playing on loop.
You finally realize why.
ā€œTime doesn't flow in the box.ā€
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It's 8:25PM when you wake up; that should be plenty of time.
You need to find Satoru Gojo.
After hundreds of loops you've come to a singular conclusion: you need to prevent him being sealed in the prison realm. You've witnessed it enough to know that you won't be able to do it alone; you'll need his cooperation.
You rush upstairs as fast as you can, ignoring the shiver that runs down your spine as you step onto the stairwell. According to your previous loops, Satoru Gojo arrives on the subway tracks at 8:40PM. With how crowded the upper floor is, you donā€™t know if youā€™ll have the time to intercept him and talk to him, but if you can at least figure out where to find him, then you can try and talk to him during a subsequent loop.
When you reach the fourth basement floor, however, you donā€™t know where you should even start. Heā€™s pretty tall so you think you could spot him in the crowd, butā€¦ there are still so many people. It occurs to you that maybe it would be better to try and look from a higher vantage point so you head to the stairs that lead up to the third basement floor. You check your phone again. Itā€™s 8:35PM; you need to hurry.
Luckily for you, you find him very easily on the third basement floor.
The only problem is that heā€™s in a hard to reach spotā€” squatting above a sign hanging over the crowd.
You check your phone again. Itā€™s 8:38PM and heā€™s starting to move, presumably to meet with those waiting for him on the subway tracks. Itā€™s good that you found him, but thereā€™s no doubt about it.
Youā€™re going to need more time.
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The moment you wake up, you immediately bolt toward the stairs. It's taken many, many more loops, but you've finally brought the time you wake down to around 8:15. You're still not sure if it's enough time, but there's only one way to find out.
You barrel your way up to the next floor and zig zag through the crowd to get to the next flight of stairs. By the time you get to your destination, you're completely out of breath, your chest heaving as your lungs clamor for air. Youā€™ve done this so many times, yet your body acts like itā€™s always the first. It sucks, but thereā€™s nothing you can do about it. You slow to a brisk pace to catch your breath and check the time. Itā€™s 8:27ā€” a new record. Hopefully itā€™ll be enough.
The goal is to catch Satoru Gojo before he moves to his lookout point above the crowd. While not impossible, it would be difficult for you to follow him there. You eye the safety barricade that blocks off the area where heā€™ll be moving in just a few minutes warily.
Yes, getting over there would be extremely difficult.
You donā€™t want to think about it right now; youā€™ll deal with it when the time comes.
Especially since Satoru Gojo has now entered your field of vision.
Your heart starts to race at the sight of him and it feels like itā€™s beating a million times a second. There isnā€™t a lot of time. You need to talk to him, but your legs only wobble, your feet planted firmly to the ground. This is not good. You need to move. You need to move.
Finally, after what feels like both an instant and an eternity, your feet finally budge, propelling you in Satoru Gojoā€™s direction. The beating of your heart only grows louder as you make your way toward him, mingling with the single thought thatā€™s echoing throughout your mind right now: will he even hear you out?
You need to make him.
ā€œExcuse me!ā€ The words nearly come out in a stutter as you realize that you are actually talking to Satoru Gojo. You have watched this man at a distance for so long that it almost felt like he wasnā€™t real, like he was just another fixture in this nightmare that youā€™ve been living for far too long. And yet, here he is, right in front of you, in the flesh.
And his attention is on you.
All sound stops: the crowd around you, the thoughts in your head, the beat of your heart. Even though you cannot see them through that blindfold of his, you know that Satoru Gojoā€™s eyes are on you and the thought of that, the knowledge of it is actually a little overwhelming. Your mouth is dry and suddenly you donā€™t know what to say, but you need to say something. You need to say something before he thinks maybe you bumped into him by accident and just walks away without a word.
ā€œI need to talk to you!ā€ The words just burst out from your mouth and something about it is just absolutely embarrassing. Youā€™re not sure if it's desperation or the fact that you havenā€™t really talked to anyone other than the existence occupying Suguru Getoā€™s body in nearly forever.
Satoru Gojoā€™s lips slowly start to form a smile, ā€œOh, yeah?ā€
The sound of his voice makes your mind go blank. Thereā€™s something different about it right now; more playful, amused even. Maybe itā€™s because heā€™s talking to you, a harmless human being and not a monster trying to kill him. Itā€™s almost kind of jarring, but you know, with certainty, what Satoru Gojoā€™s voice sounds like. And the fact that heā€™s actually talking to you right now has you kind of excited. You nod, doing your best to not show how thrilled you are that heā€™s not ignoring you.
He hums thoughtfully, ā€œSorryā€¦ but unfortunately I kind of have some business to attend to right now.ā€
ā€œIā€”ā€ You start to say that you know that heā€™s headed down to the platform below to fight withā€¦Choso and Jogo, you think their names areā€” you donā€™t know the name of the monster with the branches for eyes. ā€œItā€™sā€” itā€™s really important!ā€
Gojo tilts his head a little, clearly thinking. You should probably say something else, something to try and convince him to stay a little longer and hear you out, but your mind is both full and blank. Where do you start? From the beginning? Or do you start with what is most important? Maybe you should say what you think will get his attention. Youā€™re not sure, and you realize you really should have thought about this earlier because youā€™re running out of time right now.
ā€œ...mind handing me your phone?ā€
You stare at Gojo, completely and wholly confused, but he just holds out his hand expectantly. When you donā€™t move, he wiggles his fingers a little, a silent gesture telling you to hurry it up. Without thinking, you reach into your bag and unlock your phone before handing it to him.
ā€œKind of sucks that cell service isnā€™t working right now,ā€ he remarks as he types something into your phone before handing it back. ā€œBut! Here's my number.ā€
You look down at your phone and, sure enough, Satoru Gojo has added himself as one of your contacts. Heā€™s even added a little star to the end of his name. Thatā€™sā€¦ a little unexpected. Why his number though?
ā€œAre youā€¦ hitting on me?ā€ you mutter in your confusion.
He laughs, ā€œWell, you said you had something really important to talk to me about, right? So just give me a call when you get home or some time tomorrow and we can talk then!ā€
Youā€™re not going to make it home, or even to tomorrow, and neither will Satoru Gojo. As you start to tell him this, he steps past you. Desperate, you try to grab him, but somehow, for some reason, you canā€™t. You remember he did this with Jogo and the other monster, made himself untouchable.
This is not good.
He gives you a little wave, cheery as he says, ā€œIā€™ll talk to you later!ā€
You watch, helpless as he hops over the barricade beyond your reach.
Gripping your phone tightly, you take a deep breath. It's fine, it's not like you didnā€™t expect things to go well anyway.
You'll just have to try again.
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Every time youā€™ve tried to solicit help from Satoru Gojo, it has gone the same way. He just wonā€™t give you the time of day, and in some ways you canā€™t blame him; heā€™s clearly here to deal with the monsters down on the platform. Youā€™re fairly certain that he probably thinks that whatever is going on with you is a much lesser issue in comparison.
Plus, it probably doesnā€™t help that in the times that youā€™ve approached him, you havenā€™t been able to articulate yourself particularly well. Once you start talking to him, you just get hit with something akin to stage fright and the connection between your mind and your mouth just stops working. Itā€™s gotten better with each attempt, butā€¦
Itā€™s just so frustrating.
It is interesting that Gojo has given you his number every time, star symbol and all. Youā€™re not sure what kind of person you were expecting him to be, but after witnessing him literally and viciously rip monsters apart, youā€™d figured heā€™d be a little more somber. However, in the fragmented conversations youā€™ve had with him heā€™s come off as far more friendly and playful than you would have thought. Is he the type of person to get more serious when the situation calls for it? You canā€™t help but wonder, but ultimately, it doesnā€™t really matter.
What really matters is that youā€™re able to convince him to help you.
You have to convince him.
ā€œExcuse me!ā€ you say, stepping in Satoru Gojoā€™s path. You donā€™t stutter this time, and your voice is more sure. This is good.
ā€œYes?ā€
His head turns in your direction and you gulp. Gojoā€™s gaze, despite that blindfold of his, still feels just as overwhelming as it did the very first time you approached him. You have no doubt that heā€™s sizing you up, but thereā€™s just something about it that makes you feel like youā€™re being picked apart.
You take a deep breath and step closer to him, hoping your voice sounds firm enough as you say, ā€œI need your help. Iā€™m trapped.ā€
He chuckles a little, ā€œI know, but yours truly is on his way to go beat up the bad guys keeping you all trapped here, so soon enough youā€™ll be all free to go on your merry little way.ā€
Right. You were so caught up in your own plight that you nearly forgot that technically youā€™re not the only one ā€˜trapped.ā€™ Satoru Gojo obviously knows that everyone else is confined to this station, but you doubt he knows that youā€™re confined to this night alone.
ā€œThatā€™s not what I mean!ā€ you sputter.
ā€œThen what do you mean?ā€ Gojo asks. Should you tell him that you mean that youā€™re trapped in a time loop? Youā€™re honestly not sureā€” in the movies and manga youā€™ve read about time travel, revealing that sort of thing risks creating a time paradox which seems to be a bad thing. If you have to tell him, you will, butā€” ā€œOh, I get it.ā€
You stare, bewildered. Did you maybe just spew all of that aloud?
Gojo gives you a mischievous smile. ā€œYouā€™re hitting on me, arenā€™t you?ā€
ā€œNo!ā€ The word comes flying out of your mouth. You canā€™t deny heā€™s attractiveļæ½ļæ½ youā€™ve thought it all this time, but that is not whatā€™s happening here.
ā€œNo need to be embarrassed,ā€ he continues, ignoring you. ā€œI totally get it, so if you want, Iā€™d be happy to give you my number!ā€
Again? Youā€™ve received Satoru Gojoā€™s contact details in every loop youā€™ve talked to him, star symbol and allā€” you even have his number memorized. Thereā€™s something kind of odd about how he keeps giving you his number. Part of you wonders if heā€™s got some sort of ulterior motive, but you havenā€™t thought too deeply about it. There are way more important things going on.
ā€œI donā€™t need your phone number,ā€ you say. ā€œI need to talk.ā€
Your response seems to give Gojo pause. Did you somehow manage to get through to him? No way. Your suspicions are all but confirmed when he gives you that familiar apologetic smile.
ā€œLike, I said, Iā€™m sort of in the middle of something, butā€¦ā€ Gojo reaches into his pockets and rummages around until one hand fishes out a folded up piece of paper. The other hand keeps digging around in his pocket and when Gojo seems to give up on whatever heā€™s looking for, he turns his attention back to you. ā€œGot a pen?ā€
What?
Gojo tilts his head. ā€œWell?ā€
ā€œI do, butā€¦ā€ You trail off, unsure why heā€™s asking.
He holds out his hand waiting for you to just hand him the pen. You still donā€™t get it, but you reach into your bagā€™s front pocket and pull out the pen and hand it to him. Gojo looks almost like an excited child when he takes it from you, quickly scribbling something onto his paper before shoving it and your pen back into your hand.
You look at the paper; it looks like a receipt. For a disturbing amount of mochi that Gojo bought earlier today. The amount of money he spent is almost sickening; way too much to be paying for mochi. More importantly, you notice something juxtaposed over the receiptā€™s print.
Itā€™s Satoru Gojoā€™s name and number.
He even drew a little star next to his name.
ā€œIf you change your mind later, just give me a call!ā€ he tells you cheerily. ā€œI promise Iā€™ll make it worth your while!ā€
You gawk at him. He cannot be serious. You literally just told him that you didnā€™t need it and yet he still gave it to you. He must want you to contact him later, but you canā€™t even begin to understand why. It canā€™t have been something you said or did, right? Unless, heā€™s actuallyā€”
ā€œLater!ā€ Gojoā€™s voice cuts through your thoughts and you notice him walking off with a wave.
You canā€™t let him get away.
Again.
You crush the receipt in your hand and rush after him. Despite the crowd, Gojo seems to move through the people with ease and it almost seems like they are yielding to him naturally. Itā€™s good for you. Makes him easier to chase.
ā€œWait!ā€ you yell, but Gojo doesnā€™t even look back. Bastard. Your muscles strain as you try to run faster. You know you wonā€™t be able to grab him if you get to him, but there has to still be something you can do to stop him. Circle around him? Cut him off before heā€”
Satoru Gojo reaches the barricade.
ā€œWait!ā€ you yell again. ā€œSatoru Gojo, wait!ā€
He does not even acknowledge you.
Youā€™re almost there though. Almost. If you reach out your hand, then maybe, maybe you can grab him. Something in your head tells you that itā€™s useless; youā€™ve never been able to touch him. But, you donā€™t care, you donā€™t care because you have to try. You stretch out your hand, desperate and hoping, but just as you do, Gojo effortlessly jumps over the barricade, moving to survey the crowd.
Due to your momentum, you almost collide into the barricade, but you manage to stop yourself. You stare at Satoru Gojo through the glass. He watches the crowd for at most three minutes. Is this just another bust? Is there really nothing you can do? There must be a way you can get his attention. Is it possible to climb over the barricade? No, itā€™s too high. Thereā€™s nothing you can grasp onto or use as footing either.
This fucking sucks.
Another minute or two and Gojo will be on the move again, and there will be no way you can follow, no way you can get his attention. You press your hands against the glass, pushing against it. Naturally, it doesnā€™t budge. Why would it? If only you could get it out of the way. If only you could break it. This stupid barricade is the only thing between you and Satoru Gojo and thereā€™s no way you can climb it, but if only you could break it.
If only you could fucking break it.
Suddenly, the glass feels warm. Satoru Gojoā€™s image starts to look a little distorted as the warmth beneath your fingers grows. Something is happening. The glass starts to vibrate and shake. Violently. The tremors grow stronger and stronger. You should stop. You should back away.
You donā€™t.
The barricade starts to crack and fracture and soon the sound of shattering glass resounds throughout the entire room. Everyone starts screaming. No one knows whatā€™s going onā€” not even you. But you donā€™t care. Itā€™s gone. The barricade is gone.
You take a step forward, toward Satoru Gojo. Heā€™s on a beam thatā€™s about a two meter drop from where youā€™re standing. Thatā€™s fine. Thatā€™s okay. You can make it. You have to. Without a second thought, you jumpā€”
And you land on the beam. You look up and Satoru Gojoā€™s attention is back on you. Heā€™s finally, finally turned toward you, face twisted into an expression you canā€™t decipher or even comprehend, butā€”
Somethingā€™s wrong; your world is turning on its axis, butā€”
Satoru Gojo is looking at you, andā€”
Up is very quickly becoming down, andā€”
Satoru Gojo is coming closer, butā€”
Youā€™re slippingā€”
But heā€™s right there, andā€”
Youā€™re falling, butā€”
Heā€™s trying to catch you, butā€”
Itā€™s too late. Itā€™s too late.
The last thing you think you feelā€”
ā€”is Satoru Gojoā€™s arms around you.
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Itā€™s October 31, 2018ā€” Halloween in Shibuya.
And you are causing a commotion.
ā€œShit! Fuck!ā€ you curse loudly. The people near you start to shift away but you barely notice; you donā€™t really care.
You were so close, so fucking close and yetā€¦ yet here you are again. Itā€™s quarter past eight and you are back on the goddamn platform. You donā€™t know what happened; you remember falling and thinking you were going to die, but you are absolutely certain that, once again, this time, you didnā€™t die.
Is Satoru Gojo at fault again? Did he do something? Like he did all those other times you looped without dying? When you think about it more, you donā€™t think so. You donā€™t know what happened; all you know is that you tried to get to him, but you slipped.
And he caught you, you definitely remember that.
You still donā€™t understand why you looped, but thereā€™s not much you can do about it now; itā€™s not like you can go back anymore. It just sucks, because you think he might have actually listened if youā€™d talked to him.
Or he would have come after you forā€¦ whatever happened with the barricade. It could have been taken as an attack on the crowdā€¦ But if he thought you were doing that, then why would he catch you?
You donā€™t know.
All you know is that you have to try again.
The only problem is that you donā€™t know how you managed to shatter the barricade. You think about it as you make your way up to where youā€™ll find Satoru Gojo. There is the possibility that it wasnā€™t you and something else happened to it instead, but that feels way too coincidental. It had to be you. Thatā€™s the only thing that makes sense. You just canā€™t figure out how you did it outside of wanting, wishing, praying for the barricade to break. Itā€™s not like you have supernatural powers like Satoru Gojo and his enemies.
Despite your mind being completely and wholly occupied by trying to figure out how in the world you managed to break through that barricade, you still manage to make it to the second basement floor of Shibuya Hikarie by 8:25PMā€” a brand new record. Satoru Gojo doesnā€™t show up until around 8:34PM, so that gives you almost ten minutes to try and figure out what you need to do to try and replicate shattering the glass barricade again.
Exceptā€”
Except Satoru Gojo is already here.
The thought that maybe youā€™re mistaken flashes in your mind before itā€™s quickly dismissed; thereā€™s no way youā€™d mistake anyone else for him. There is absolutely no denying it: that is Satoru Gojo. Bewildered, you double check the time on your phone. Maybe you misread it and youā€™re actually late but sure enough you read it rightā€” Satoru Gojo is here early.
What the hell is going on?
Of the thousands of times you have experienced this night, this hell, this sort of thing has never happened before. Everything happens at a specific time, as if adhering to an unseen schedule. Itā€™s likely that what happened in your last iteration did delay Satoru Gojoā€™s arrival onto the platform, but other than that there has never been a deviation to the time table.
And yet, here Satoru Gojo is, nine minutes early now.
You realize that thatā€™s not the only thing thatā€™s strange: heā€™s not moving. In previous rounds, when you encounter Gojo here, heā€™s walking to the lookout spot beyond the barricade. But, right now, heā€™s just standing there, hands stuffed in the pockets of his jacket. It almost looks like he's waiting for something.
Or someone.
This unexpected turn of events has you rooted to the spot. Youā€™re not sure what you should do. No. This shouldnā€™t change anything. You need to talk to him. As concerning as a change like this is, the extra time it gives you should be a good thing. Despite knowing that, your feet are still firmly planted to the ground.
The crowd shifts and you see Satoru Gojo start to move. Toward the barricade? No. Heā€™s not heading in his usual direction, rather heā€™sā€”
You stop breathing.
Heā€™s headed toward you.
All sound stops: the crowd around you, the thoughts in your head, the beat of your heart. Even though you cannot see them through that blindfold of his, you know that Satoru Gojoā€™s eyes are on you and the thought of that, the knowledge of it is absolutely mind numbing.
He comes to a stop before you, lips curled up to form an amused sort of smile as he says, ā€œSoooo, you needed to talk to me?ā€
You try to answer but no words come out of your mouth. Are you dreaming? You have to be, right? There's no way that this is actually happening. Could it be that, after thousands of loops, youā€™ve finally lost it? Your mind shattering along with the glass of the barricade at the end of the last one?
Gojo tilts his head, indicating that he's still waiting for an answer. When you open your mouth, at first, nothing comes out, the words stuck in your throat. You force them out, your voice cracking, ā€œ...how did you know?ā€
He smiles, looking almost mischievous as he reaches up and lightly taps the side of his head. ā€œI remembered, of course!ā€
All you can do is stare at Satoru Gojo. He remembered? How is that possible? From his perspective, this is the first time youā€™ve met and while it shouldnā€™t be possible for him to remember thereā€™s something in your mind thatā€™s keeping you from completely dismissing the possibility.
Gojo laughs, ā€œI take it from the look on your face that youā€™re not used to this sort of thing happening. Is this the first time?ā€
ā€œNo.ā€ The fact that the word is out of your mouth before you can even really think about it surprises you and you really have to think. Your face scrunches together as you try to remember. Is this really not the first time? Then, the memories assault you, overlapping as they replay simultaneously in your headā€” a woman in a yellow and white magical girl costumeā€” begging you for help as she burns to deathā€” smiling as she tells you she made her costume herself. ā€œ...it happened just once a long time ago.ā€
ā€œā€˜A long time ago,ā€™ huh. Sounds like you've been at this for a while now.ā€
ā€œ...unfortunately.ā€
Gojo hums. ā€œSo when you said you didnā€™t need my phone numberā€¦ā€
ā€œYouā€™d already given it to me a few times,ā€ you say, figuring thatā€™s where this conversation is going.
ā€œReally now?ā€
Does he not believe you? Or is he just being an ass? Youā€™re not sure, but since you had taken the liberty of memorizing Satoru Gojoā€™s phone number you recite it back to him to prove your point.
Just when you think you may have stunned Gojo into silence he starts to laugh, obviously finding something funny about the fact that you know his cell phone number. ā€œSeems like you've got quite the fascinating technique there.ā€
Technique? What is he talking about? Your confusion must be plain on your face because he adds, elaborating, ā€œThe time travel.ā€
You continue to stare at him. You don't think you'd consider what you've been going through time travel, because traveling implies moving from point A to point B, but you've been stuck walking in circles at point A for a long time. What really gets you isā€¦ ā€œWhat do you mean by ā€˜technique?ā€™ā€
ā€œYou mean you donā€™tā€” oh. I get it; no wonder youā€™re trapped.ā€
That does not answer your question in the slightest. ā€œCan you please explain what you're talking about? What do you mean by ā€˜technique?ā€™ā€
ā€œRight, rightā€¦ So basically, a technique is like a special sort of power,ā€ he finally explains. ā€œLike I said, your technique seems to be a kind of time travel. Whenever you activate it, your mind is sent back in time.ā€
What he's saying makes sense, butā€¦ ā€œHow come you were sent back too?ā€
He laughs again. ā€œIsn't it obvious? Think back to beforeā€” do you remember that I caught you as you were falling?ā€
You nod slowly. The memory of his arms around you is almost embarrassingly vivid. ā€œ...is it because we were touching?ā€
ā€œDing, ding, ding! That's correct! Anyone you happen to be touching when you activate your technique gets affected by it too!ā€
Something about his tone annoys you, but you try to ignore it. He could have just told you rather than make you guess. ā€œHow do you know that for sure?ā€
ā€œWell,ā€ he continues. ā€œYouā€™ve done your little time loop a bunch of times, right? If your technique affected everyone, or even a few people in a select range you would have noticed for sure. And if it affected only just you then we wouldnā€™t be having this conversation right now, now would we?ā€
When you think about it, you do think that the woman in the magical girl costume might have bumped into you before the loop where she remembered.
ā€œThatā€™s honestly just conjecture, but I've got pretty good eyes, so Iā€™m hardly ever wrong.ā€
Gojo gives you a grin and while you do think that his reasoning is sound enough his confidence is a little grating. More than that, though, youā€™re glad that this conversation is actually going really well.
ā€œEither way,ā€ he says thoughtfully. ā€œIt doesnā€™t look like you can control your technique. Usually a personā€™s technique manifests when theyā€™re a kid, but you seem to be a special caseā€¦ in fact, I bet your technique activated for the very first time tonightā€” probably under some pretty extreme circumstances, too.ā€
ā€œ...dying counts as an ā€˜extreme circumstance,ā€™ right?ā€
ā€œOh, absolutely. Or legitimately thinking that youā€™re gonna die, but it seems like your body has been unconsciously activating your technique as a sort of defense mechanism. Which is why youā€™re trapped.ā€
ā€œSo, if I could control it Iā€™d be able to make it out of this time loop.ā€
ā€œYeah, but in this case it probably wouldnā€™t end very well for you,ā€ he points out with a chuckle. ā€œItā€™s not like you actually want to die, right? I mean, if you did, then your technique wouldnā€™t even activate in the first place.ā€
You donā€™t; what you want is for this night to finally end. To be free from the endless cycle of dying over and over again and again. You donā€™t think death is quite the answer; even if you were to learn how to control this supposed technique of yours, thereā€™s no guarantee that you would just unconsciously activate it when the grim reaper comes knocking on your door. No, the answer isā€¦
ā€œAnyway!ā€ Gojoā€™s cheery voice cuts through your thoughts. ā€œI highly doubt that youā€™re the type that makes a habit of jumping off ledges for the funsies, so the fact that youā€™ve been dying tells me that some pretty gruesome stuff is about to go down, so, tell me what happens tonight.ā€
The sudden drop of his voice sends a shiver running down your spine. If it werenā€™t for the fact that youā€™ve seen how serious Gojo can get, the sudden shift in demeanor would probably freak you out a bit, but it doesnā€™t. This is the Satoru Gojo youā€™re familiar with.
You do have one concern though. ā€œThatā€¦ wonā€™t create a time paradox or anything, will it?ā€
ā€œNah,ā€ Gojo shrugs. ā€œYou wouldnā€™t cause one with the way your technique works, besides, if youā€™ve only been going back at most an hour or two in time itā€™s hard to believe youā€™d be making a really big impactā€¦ unless you really believe in the butterfly effect.ā€
Youā€™re still not quite sure.
ā€œTrust me, itā€™ll be fine.ā€
His voice sounds strange. Gentle. Kind. It's the most soothing thing you've heard in a long time and it makes you want to believe him.
ā€œ...okay.ā€
Anxiety is still gripping at you, but you try to dispel it, taking a deep breath before beginning your explanation. For the sake of brevity, itā€™s probably best that youā€™re as concise as possible. There isnā€™t much need to really get into the nitty gritty of things unless he asks specifically.
Naturally, you begin with his arrival onto the platform and how soon after a fight breaks out and how the crowd is unfortunate enough to be involved. Gojoā€™s expression is passive for the most part, but he does crack the faintest hint of a smile when you mention how he manages to eviscerate one of the monsters.
It disappears once you tell him about the arrival of the train. Between the dozens upon dozens of people being dropped onto the platform by those two high school girls and the hoard of monsters disembarking from the train, everything devolves into pandemonium.
ā€œWait,ā€ Gojo holds a hand up and you pause. This is his first interruption since you started recounting the nightā€™s events for him. ā€œEveryone is able to see the monsters?ā€
You stare at him. What a weird question. ā€œ...yeah?ā€
His mouth twists and it looks like heā€™s thinking about something. You canā€™t even begin to imagine what. Finally, he comments, ā€œMakes sense.ā€
It does not, but you donā€™t ask him to elaborate. Surely if it was important he would have just done so.
ā€œAnyway, in the middle of all that, youā€¦ you do something.ā€ Your brows bunch together as you remember the stance Gojo took, the crazed and desperate look in his eyes, the feeling of your head about to explode. ā€œI donā€™t know how to describe it. At first, it would just force me toā€¦ activate my technique, I guess. But now, it just knocks me out for a few minutes.ā€
Gojo frowns and he rubs at his chin, obviously thinking about what youā€™ve said. Eventually, he raises a hand and bends his fingers into a familiar gesture. Itā€™s the one that preludes whatever he does on the platform. ā€œDo I do this?ā€
ā€œYeah.ā€
He hums. ā€œInteresting.ā€
You wait to see if heā€™ll explain. He doesnā€™t. Great. Even if he doesnā€™t think you need to know, it certainly would be nice to. Itā€™s annoying otherwise, but you ignore the feeling and continue. ā€œI canā€™t tell you what happens when Iā€™m knocked out, but when I come to everyone is basically a zombie and all the monsters from the train are gone. I think you kill them.ā€
ā€œI probably do,ā€ he says casually. ā€œBut what about Volcano Head?ā€
ā€œ...you don'tā€¦get a chance to kill him,ā€ you say slowly. Gojo tilts his head, waiting for you to elaborate, but you hesitate. You have to tell him, you know you do, butā€¦
You have seen the interaction so many times and though you don't know the exact nature of the relationship between them, you can tell that seeing Suguru Geto (or rather seeing his body) shook Satoru Gojo to his very core.
There's no doubt in your mind that he will not take this news well.
ā€œCome on now,ā€ Gojo's tone is light-hearted, unaware. ā€œDon't keep me in suspense here.ā€
It's as if you're withholding the punchline to a joke. In a way, you suppose you are, but you don't think he's going to find it funny.
You take a deep breath. You need to tell him. The worst thing that could happen is that he doesn't believe you, but if that's the caseā€¦ you'll probably just end up repeating this all again until you find a loop where he does.
Having made it this far, you'd like to avoid all that.
ā€œBefore you can get Volcano Head you get restrained by something called the prison realm,ā€ you say slowly, ā€œby someone calling themselvesā€¦ Suguru Geto.ā€
The second the name leaves your mouth, there is a clear and obvious shift in the air. Gone is Gojoā€™s laid-back and frivolous demeanor, replaced with something more somber and almost frightening. The tension grows more and more palpable to the point that you think it might almost choke you.
You almost wish that it would.
ā€œYou canā€™t be serious,ā€ Gojo finally says, once your words have fully sunk in.
ā€œIā€”ā€ You start to speak, but come to an abrupt stop when you see him shove his hand into his pocket to yank out his phone of all things.
The both of you know full well that thereā€™s no reception here, but you donā€™t think that heā€™s planning on making any calls. Gojo scrolls and scrolls on his phone before he stops and shoves the screen in your face. It shows a picture of three peopleā€” a teenage girl with a cigarette in her mouth, a younger, happier version of Gojo sporting a pair of round sunglasses andā€”
ā€œWhen you say ā€˜Getoā€™ is this who youā€™re referring to?ā€ Gojo demands, using his other hand to point at the third person in the frameā€” a handsome young man with long dark hair pulled up into a bun.
ā€œYes, butā€”ā€
ā€œThatā€™s impossible. It canā€™t be him,ā€ Gojo interrupts, his voice firm, cold even. ā€œHeā€™s dead.ā€
Thereā€™s a note of finality in his words that is definitely meant to leave no room for argument. It doesnā€™t stop you, though. Instead, you glare at Gojoā€™s stupid blindfold and say, ā€œ...being dead doesnā€™t mean a damn thing! Iā€™ve died hundreds of times and yet Iā€™m still fucking here, butā€”ā€
ā€œYour situation is different,ā€ he interjects, the temperature of his tone hiking up, his words like heated hissing. ā€œI killed him almost a year ago. There's no wayā€”ā€
ā€œYou didn't get rid of the body properly!ā€ You cut him off, raising your voice in hopes that he'll take even just a second to stop and listen. It seems to work and you add something you remember ā€˜Getoā€™ saying. ā€œYou should have had Shoko Ieiri get rid of it, but you didnā€™t and now someā€¦ some kind of gross brain thing is possessing the corpse!ā€
The air between you both is silent as the grave. Though you can't see it, you can feel the weight of his gaze pressing down on you. Heā€™s definitely having second thoughts about everything youā€™ve said so far. Thereā€™s a chance he might even think youā€™re his enemy now. You stare him down though, refusing to look away. Youā€™ve made it this far, you canā€™tā€” you wonā€™t back down.
ā€œ...youā€™re not lying, are you.ā€ Gojoā€™s words are more of a statement than a question. Thereā€™s no doubt in your mind that he knows the answer, and yet heā€™s still asking. You wonder if maybe heā€™s clinging onto some vain hope that maybe, just maybe this all a sick, cruel joke thatā€™s gone way too far.
ā€œIā€™m not.ā€
Gojo holds your gaze for a second longer before he lets out a curse. ā€œFuck!ā€
ā€œ...Iā€™m sorry,ā€ you say quietly, mostly because it feels like the most correct thing to say at this moment. You donā€™t know the whole story, but it seems like they were close. If so, then it must have hurt Gojo a lot to have killed him, and must hurt even more to know that someone is desecrating the body. You hate that you, a complete and utter stranger, happened to be the person to tell him, butā€¦
It had to be done, for the sake of getting past this unending night, it had to be done.
Gojo runs a hand through his hair and lets out a ragged sigh. ā€œOkay. What happens after that?ā€
You give him a rundown of what follows; he gets sealed, the monsters wake up and all but ā€˜Getoā€™ leave in search of their next target. When you mention the high school girls demanding the brain give Getoā€™s body back, Gojo snorts loudly.
ā€œFat chance of that,ā€ he says derisively.
You nod in agreement. It was clear to you that the brain parasite has no intent on giving it up any time soon. ā€œAfter they leave, heā€¦ talks to me.ā€
ā€œProbably couldn't ignore all that cursed energy you have,ā€ Gojo remarks offhandedly.
You stare at him, expression twisted in a way that shows that you have absolutely no clue what that means. It should be fine for you to ask this one question; it actually concerns you after all. ā€œWhat does that even mean?ā€
ā€œExactly what it sounds like, thoughā€¦ probably doesn't make much sense to you, does it?ā€
You give him a pointed glare and all Gojo does is laugh.
ā€œJust think of it like having a lot of MP.ā€
ā€œ...Like in a video game?ā€
ā€œExactly!ā€ Then, Gojo tilts his head, clearly thinking. You don't bother asking; you don't feel like he'll explain.
ā€œHe does ask me if I'm a sorcerer, whatever that is. Is that why?ā€
ā€œProbably. Ordinary people don't have even a fraction of the energy you're packing.ā€
ā€˜Ordinary peopleā€™ he says as if youā€™re not an ordinary person who got caught up in all this supernatural sorcery bullshit. Or at least you were, but if the time loops are really a product of your own doingā€¦
ā€œDoes he kill you when you answer?ā€ Gojo asks to get the conversation back on track.
ā€œNot right away. What happens next kind of varies,ā€ you answer. ā€œHe usually lets me have a question or two before he kills me; I've asked him a couple different things.ā€
ā€œReally taking advantage, arenā€™t you?ā€ Gojo says and you're not sure what to make of his tone. Is he mocking you or is he easing back into that laid-back persona of his?
ā€œIf Iā€™m doomed to repeat the same situation over and over, I might as well make the most of it,ā€ you respond flatly.
ā€œYou know, your technique kind of reminds me of save scumming.ā€
Heā€™s definitely gone back to acting almost completely unseriousā€” all signs of his earlier agitation are nearly gone.
ā€œSo what did you learn?ā€
ā€œWell, the prison realm only holds one occupant. Once theyā€™re sealed, time stops for them and the only way out is if the bearer unseals them or if they choose to kill themselves.ā€
ā€œI seeā€¦ And what about our body jacker?ā€
ā€œHe didnā€™t go into detail but he said something aboutā€¦ striving toward the evolution of mankind?ā€ You frown a little at the memory. He didnā€™t explain further because he said that you wouldnā€™t understand.
ā€œHuh. Interesting. Wonder how he was gonna go about doing that.ā€
ā€œI don't know, but I can't imagine you'd like it since he goes out of his way to seal you into that box,ā€ you say. ā€œSaid youā€™d get in the way because youā€™re too strong.ā€
Gojo shrugs his shoulders and grins a little. Cocky. ā€œWell, I am the strongest sorcerer around, you know.ā€
You would think him overconfident if you hadn't seen the magnitude of his strength first hand.
ā€œAnyway, that's as far as I ever go. When he's decided heā€™s done talking to me, he kills me and I loop back.ā€
ā€œSo, in short, what you want help with is getting past that point, right?ā€
ā€œMore or less.ā€
ā€œAnd all I have to do is avoid getting caught by the prison realm?ā€
You nod.
ā€œWhatā€™s it look like?ā€ he asks. ā€œA big cage with a bunch of metal bars?ā€
Now that you think about it, you havenā€™t woken up early enough to see it before it traps him, but you canā€™t imagine it looks that much different. ā€œNo.. Itā€™s a small box with eyesā€¦ It gets big enough to fit you in it, though.ā€
ā€œHuh.ā€ He stretches his arms out above his head as if heā€™s trying to emphasize how large he actually is and shoots you a grin. ā€œShould be easy enough then. I bet our body snatcher used the shock of seeing Suguru to trap me but since I'll see it coming, avoiding it'll be a piece of cake.ā€
Gojo makes it sound so easy, and maybe it really is as simple as that, but you can't help but be worried still.
ā€œDon't tell me you don't think I can do it,ā€ he says, tilting his head.
ā€œIt's not that,ā€ you admit. ā€œI'm just concerned I might die before we can get to that point.ā€
Truthfully, since you know that will just result in another loop you're less concerned with dying itself and more worried about losing the progress you've made in convincing Gojo to help you. Even though it's been clearly proven you can loop him as well, there's no guarantee you'll be able to make the physical contact needed to do it upon death.
ā€œYou've made it pretty far on your own, though, right?ā€
ā€œYeah, butā€¦ Iā€™ve messed up plenty of times.ā€ More than you can even count. ā€œThere's also the possibility that taking the time to talk to you might have thrown things out of whack.ā€
Speaking of time, you check your phone. It's 8:39PM. You curse.
Gojo leans over to check your phone. ā€œLet me guess, I'm supposed to be somewhere right now.ā€
ā€œYeah, this is when youā€™re descending down onto the platform.ā€
ā€œYou know where I am down to the exact minute?ā€ He asks and you tilt your head back and forth a little. Itā€™s not exact per se, but itā€™s close enough. Gojo chuckles a little. ā€œMan, I didnā€™t realize that you were actually that into me.ā€
That earns Gojo a glare from you, but he just laughs it off. ā€œI doubt being a few minutes late is going to make a big difference.ā€
You certainly hope so.
ā€œDon't worry,ā€ Gojo says and you notice he's using that tone from earlier. ā€œYou won't die.ā€
Itā€™s hard to argue with him when he uses such a reassuring sounding voice and yet, you still open your mouth to tryā€” to voice your doubts, but what he says next silences you before you even can.
ā€œI'll protect you.ā€
You think your heart stops beating in your chest and your words dissolve in your throat.
He grins at you. ā€œDid you fall in love with me just now?ā€
That catches you a little off guard. You're willing to admit he's hot, but surely he must be joking. ā€œHow could you even think of something like that at a time like this?ā€
Gojo laughs again. ā€œWell, since someone is so worried about their time table being all messed up, I better head down there; canā€™t keep Volcano Head and friends waiting, right?ā€
You blink. Is that it? ā€œWait, shouldnā€™t we make a plan or something?ā€
ā€œIsnā€™t the plan for me to not get caught in the prison realm?ā€
Yes, butā€¦ ā€œBut what about me? Is there anything I can do?ā€
Gojo stares at you, or at least you think he does. ā€œ...I donā€™t know, is there?ā€
Youā€™ve seen the encounter between Satoru Gojo and those monsters so many times and you try to picture a version of it where you intervene andā€¦ all you can see is yourself getting in his way. Youā€™re no fighter, noā€¦ sorcerer, or whatever he is, youā€™re just some ordinary person that was unfortunate enough to get all caught up in this mess. The most you can probably do is kick the prison realm out of the way when the time comes, but otherwiseā€¦ ā€œ...no, I guess not.ā€
His expression turns sympathetic. ā€œYouā€™ve done plenty by telling me everything that happens. So just wait up here, and let me handle the monsters.ā€
You almost nod. Almost. But then you remember what transpires up here above the platform. You know it sounds safer up here where youā€™re less likely to get involved in the carnage, butā€¦ ā€œWait, no, if I stay up here then Iā€™ll fall to my death when those girlsā€”ā€
Gojo laughs, interrupting you. ā€œDonā€™t worry about that. Itā€™ll be fine.ā€
ā€œHow?ā€
ā€œJust trust me.ā€
ā€œIā€¦ā€ Itā€™s hard to. After everything youā€™ve gone through itā€™s hard to trust in anything, to believe in anything. Even though youā€™ve made it this far this time, the worry that something will go wrong and that youā€™ll have to do it all again still lurks in the back of your mind.
Despite all that, you want to believe.
You want to believe that you can make it past this unending night, that one day youā€™ll wake up and itā€™ll no longer be October 31, 2018. And the first step towards that is trusting in Satoru Gojo.
ā€œ...okay,ā€ you say quietly. ā€œOkay.ā€
Gojo chuckles then asks, ā€œAnything else before I head off?ā€
You start to ask if thereā€™s anything you should say, in case things donā€™t work out, but you stop yourself. Youā€™re choosing to trust him, to believe in himā€” you can figure out that stuff later if things end up going south after all. So, instead you give him a smile and it feels a little weird because you donā€™t remember the last time you did. ā€œGood luck!ā€
For a split second, Gojo looks almost surprised, but then he laughs again, beaming widely at you. He starts to move past you and reaches out to give you what you think is meant to be a reassuring squeeze of the shoulder and then heā€™s off. You turn to watch him go, the crowd, once again, parting almost naturally for him.
When he reaches the barricade, he pauses, raising his hand as if heā€™s giving you one last wave. Then he jumps over it onto his little perch and then less than a minute later heā€™s gone, descending to the platform below.
Now, all you can do is wait.
You check your phone again and itā€™s 8:44PM. If you remember correctly, the high school girls start threatening everyone right before 9PM. With Gojoā€™s arrival being shifted back almost five minutes, does that mean that theyā€™ll be shifted back too? It would make sense, but youā€™re not too sure.
Out of habit, you keep checking your phone and at nearly 9PM, you hear the shrill voice of one of the girls over the crowd, commanding everyone to do what she says, her partner stringing up bodies until everyone listens. Everything plays out just as you remember it, which is mildly comforting, though you know that the events that happen up here are more or less independent from what happens below.
Surely, just as Gojo said, a few minutes arenā€™t going to change anything, butā€”
No.
You agreed to trust him. To trust that everything would be fine.
When the girls start to demand that as many people as possible climb onto the roots and vines covering the atrium your heart starts to hammer in your chest. In just a few minutes, all the foliage will disintegrate beneath you, and you and everyone else here will fall into the abyss below.
You are afraid.
There isnā€™t a single loop where youā€™ve really survived this fall. If you donā€™t die in midair, you die right after landing. Itā€™s a death trap, and thatā€™s why youā€™ve stopped coming up here. Thereā€™s a part of you, the part that knows whatā€™s about to happen, that wants to try and run back onto stable footing. But you canā€™t, because you know if you do then the girls will kill you for sure; you have to stay.
Itā€™ll be fine, you tell yourself, itā€™ll be okay.
You just have to trust Gojo.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
You hear the announcement faintly below you. Itā€™s almost time. You brace yourself and try to stay calm. Gojo said he would protect you, that you wouldnā€™t die. You donā€™t know how he intends to keep that promise, but all you can do is believe in his words.
Itā€™ll be fine. Itā€™ll be okay.
The vines and roots start to crack and the ground beneath you starts to give out. You squeeze your eyes shut as that sickening weightless feeling overtakes you. It occurs to you that this is actually quite literally a trust fallā€” will Satoru Gojo really be able to catch you?
As you fall, you realize almost instantly that something is different.
Youā€™ve experienced this fall dozens of times and so, even though it has been a while since youā€™ve gone this route, you are very familiar with what it feels like. Something is different. Youā€™re falling faster. The trajectory is changing. Itā€™s like some force, other than gravity, is pulling at you.
Is this Gojoā€™s doing?
Just as your body collides with the ground you hear the sounds of mutilating flesh meld with the screams surrounding you. Blood and severed limbs litter the ground, but you try to ignore it. You need to focus on your own survival right now. Quickly, you scramble to your feet scan the area around you; youā€™re on the platform right now and right in front of you isā€”
Right in front of you is Satoru Gojo.
His back is turned to you, his focus currently elsewhere. Looking at him you realize you recognize this scene, though itā€™s much closer and at a different angle. Heā€™s about to do that thing, that thing that knocks you out.
Something in you tells you to move closer to him, after all, he used his mysterious powers to deliberately bring you closer to him, right? You rush toward him and as you do something he said earlier pops up in your mind.
Anyone you happen to be touching when you activate your technique gets affected by it too!
Whatever heā€™s about to doā€¦ Is that his ā€˜technique?ā€™ And if it is, would it work the same way as yours? If so, thereā€™s only one way to find out: you need to touch him. You dodge monsters and other people as you run toward Satoru Gojo andā€”
A monster still manages to grab you, its large hands wrapping around your wrist. You try and yank it free, but it's much stronger than you are.
ā€œShit!ā€ you hiss as the monster starts to pull you toward it and away from Gojo. What do you do? Your other hand is still free, should you try to punch it in the face? Orā€”
Before you can do anything, something blasts the monsterā€™s head clean off. Shocked, you stare as the monsterā€™s body slumps onto the ground, its grip loosening on you instantly. You whip your head around to find that while Gojo still has his back to you, his arm is bent back in your direction, his palm open as if he fired some invisible blast from it.
Then you feel it again, something pulling at you, but this time it's more forceful. Your body is yanked toward Gojo and the second you feel his hand press against you, you see him make that gesture with his other hand.
ā€œDomain Expansion,ā€ he whispers in a strained voice. ā€œInfinite Void!ā€
Something happens and your vision flashes for a fraction of a second. And thenā€”
The room is enveloped in an eerie stillness; all the violence and bloodshed coming to an abrupt stop. Monsters and humans alike stand like the living dead, unconscious with their eyes wide open as if they are staring into an infinite abyss. You recognize this scene, youā€™re familiar with it because itā€™s similar to the one you wake up to after being hit by Gojoā€™s ā€˜domain expansion.ā€™ The only difference is the presence of the monsters, who are all but gone when you regain consciousness.
The pressure from Gojoā€™s hand is gone and he says to you, his voice still low. ā€œIf youā€™re squeamish when it comes to blood and gore, it might be best for you to close your eyes.ā€
And then heā€™s gone.
You do not take his advice. You do not close your eyes. How many loops were you unable to witness whatā€™s about to unfold? A few hundred? A few thousand? And if all goes to plan, then you will never get another chance again: thereā€™s no way you could possibly look away.
And what you see unfold before you is that Satoru Gojo was right.
He is the one to kill all the monsters.
Itā€™s not as if you really had any doubt, after all, it seemed like the most logical conclusion to come to and yetā€¦
Thereā€™s a difference between knowing and seeing.
All the violence resumes and the platform is engulfed in the sounds of carnage and slaughter once more. The lack of terrified screams makes everything more disconcertingā€” without them, all you can hear is the squelching echo of mangled flesh and blood splattering all over the place. You canā€™t really see him, but you can tell where Satoru Gojo is in the crowd as he leaves dozens upon dozens of decapitated heads soaring in his wake. Once or twice, he leaps out of the crowd and even from where you stand you can see the crazed glow of his inhumanly blue eyes as he massacres monster after monster.
Even though you donā€™t think you have anything to be scared of, you are still terrified: Satoru Gojo is no longer a man, but violence incarnate. You want to move closer to where Gojo gets trapped, but youā€™re afraid to. What if you get in his way? What if he kills you by accident?
Dying again when youā€™ve made it this far is definitely not ideal, but isnā€™t being killed by Gojo the best case scenario? Because then the two of you would probably loop together again andā€”
No.
Gojo said you wouldnā€™t die.
He said heā€™d protect you.
Itā€™s hard to believe when heā€™s in the middle of a massacre, slaughtering monsters left and right, but you remind yourself yet again that you have to believe in him.
You take a deep breath and start moving, taking care to keep an eye on where Gojo is. You donā€™t know how long this is supposed to take, but you do know where he ends up when heā€™s just about done. The closer he gets to that spot, the sooner the prison realm will be unleashed upon him.
Thereā€™s a small group of zombified people nearby and you settle yourself among them. Itā€™s not super close, but you think it's close enough that you'd be able to run over and kick the box away from Gojo if you have to. You do a quick survey to see if you can spot the body snatcher, but he's nowhere to be found. Hopefully, he hasn't noticed you moving around, or, if he has, he's more concerned with Gojo than he is with you. Given that you always seem to be the last thing he acknowledges, you'd like to think that he doesn't consider you a threat.
Which you're not, not really anyway.
The sounds of slaughter start to die down and you look to see Gojo approaching the spot where he gets caught. He looks beat, his eyes unfocused and his breathing heavy. You do another quick scan around him and notice a small box a few meters away from him, wrapped in what looks like paper charms or seals or whatever they're called. That has to be the prison realmā€” though it looks different than what you saw before. Gojo seems to notice it right after you do, his gaze honing in on it, examining it with some measure of bewilderment. Then, some invisible force slices through all the paper seals covering the box and it expands, the corners of the box floating up in midair to reveal what looks like a large sheet of dark red flesh with a large bloodshot eye stapled to the middle.
Disgusting.
If Gojo didnā€™t realize before, he seems to now, because he takes a step back, away from the grotesque thing. Good, goodā€”
ā€œHey! Satoru!ā€ Your blood runs cold at the sound of the body snatcherā€™s voice. He emerges from the crowd, smiling widely as he gives Gojo a wave. ā€œLong time no see!ā€
Satoru Gojoā€™s entire body goes rigid. Shit. You told him, you warned him about what was going to happen, who he was going to see, but was that not enough? Itā€™s possible that no amount of warning would have been enough to mentally prepare Satoru Gojo for the sight of the man he said he killed a year ago. After all, you know that thereā€™s a stark difference between knowing and seeing. Even then, if Gojo doesnā€™t gather his wits and move now then heā€™s going to get caught and you canā€™t let that happen.
Your body moves before you can even think about it.
You scramble out from your hiding spot in the crowd and throw yourself in between Satoru Gojo and the prison realm. Thereā€™s no way you can kick it away from him now, not when itā€™s in this form, but maybe, if you get between them you can at least keep it from capturing him.
The eye quivers erratically, as it flits from Gojo to you. Every hair on your body stands on end as it watches you, the pupil dilating and contracting uncontrollably. You canā€™t look away from it, your own gaze fixed to your image reflected in the black abyss of the pupil. Something in the back of your mind tells you to stop, to get away, itā€™s dangerous, but you keep your feet firmly planted to the ground.
A second, or maybe even a minute passes and the prison realm shifts, its fleshy form morphing to restrain you.
The body jacker looks at you, his frown tinged with disgust. ā€œDonā€™t you think youā€™re being rather rude by butting into what could have been a touching reunion?ā€
You scowl. Is he still trying to play the role of Suguru Geto?
He sighs and looks past you at Gojo. ā€œSatoru, I thought bringing lesser sorcerers to fight alongside you was more trouble than it was worth?ā€
You hear Gojo snort from behind you, ā€œIt isā€¦ but this person here isnā€™t a sorcererā€¦ Just like you arenā€™t Suguru Geto.ā€
The faker almost pouts and presses his hand to his chest as if Gojo's words have wounded him. ā€œSatoru, Iā€™m hurt, how could you say such a thing to your best friend?ā€
ā€œCut the bullshit,ā€ Gojo snarls. ā€œYou canā€™t fucking fool me. You might be in Suguruā€™s body but I know with all my heart and soul that youā€™re not him.ā€
The corpse snatcher stares at Gojo, expression blank before he sighs once more. Then, his gaze shifts back to you, his eyes narrowed as he looks at you with sheer disdain. It feels as if youā€™ve been drenched in ice cold water. There's no smile this time but you already know what's going to happen.
Heā€™s going to kill you.
ā€œI intended to deal with you later since you seemed harmless enough,ā€ he says, raising a hand to summon a monsterā€” the same one he always uses to end your life. ā€œBut youā€™re in the way. So, I think itā€™s for the best if I just get rid of you right now.ā€
Instinctively, you try to take a step back but the prison realmā€™s restraints keep you in place. Not that it would have mattered much, even in the loops where youā€™ve tried to escape the fakerā€™s monster, it still kills you, too fast and too agile for an ordinary human like you to avoid. All you can do is squeeze your eyes shut and wait for the monster to kill you. At least, itā€™s always painless.
Something touches your back.
Your eyes shoot open.
Before you is the monster, wiggling and writhing only mere centimeters from your face. It gurgles and snarls at you, desperate to fulfill its masterā€™s wishes and kill you but it doesnā€™t move any closer. You stare at it with wide eyes, unsure of what to do.
Someone behind you clicks their tongueā€” Gojo. You try to turn your head to look at him, but your movements are too limited, the most you can do is turn your head to the side. The sounds the monster is making start to change, sounding more frenzied, almost as if itā€™s in pain, and you flit your eyes in its direction just in time to see its entire body explode. The monster's guts and bright purple blood fly off in every direction, getting on the floor, the ceiling, the zombified bodies of the people unfortunate enough to be nearby, but not on you.
This is Satoru Gojoā€™s doing.
He steps in front of you, half turned towards you as he moves in between you and the body snatcher. His hands are shoved in his pockets as he loudly says, ā€œDid you really forget about me?ā€
Youā€™re not sure if heā€™s talking to you or the body snatcher.
Past him, the imposter scowls, raising his hand once more, probably to summon even more monsters, but Gojoā€™s quicker, and it almost looks like his eyes are glowing even brighter, the blue looking almost white as he whips his head in the fakerā€™s direction. The sound of mangling flesh and breaking bones echoes throughout the room as Gojo, using that mysterious power of his, seems to break the fakerā€™s arm.
The body snatcher hisses loudly and despite the fact that his face is twisted in very obvious pain, he tries to shoot Gojo a mocking smile. ā€œDo you really think you can kill your best friend again?ā€
ā€œI already told you,ā€ Gojo turns to fully face the monster inhabiting Getoā€™s corpse. He tilts his head a little to the side and some force starts to squeeze at the fakerā€™s neck. ā€œYouā€™re not Suguru.ā€
You hear a loud crack as Gojo telekinetically snaps his neck.
The head rolls onto the ground and you almost look away, but then you notice his eyes still moving, looking around. Is he still alive? Then you remember: the thing possessing Suguru Getoā€™s body was some kind of parasite. ā€œGojo! Wait! The brain!ā€
He reacts almost instantly, head turning and in an instant the skull is crushed and all that remains is red splotch on the ground.
You almost relax. Almost.
But the body is still standing.
Horrified, you watch as it quivers violently before falling to the ground. Then what looks like dozens of black spirits start to erupt from the corpse and the entire room is engulfed with a shrill howling.
What the hell is going on?
ā€œThose must be all the cursed spirits he consumed,ā€ Gojo explains uselessly, voice barely audible over the screaming. ā€œGuess he was empty before.ā€
You donā€™t bother asking what he means. There are bigger problems right now. ā€œWhat do we do?ā€
ā€œNo choice to exorcise them,ā€ he answers plainly.
For him to exorcise them, he means. You both know that thereā€™s not much that you can do. You still canā€™t move and honestly, you donā€™t even know if itā€™s possible to get out of the prison realmā€™s restraints. Not without dying. And if you die nowā€¦
Everything will have been for naught.
Youā€™ll reset time and have to do this all over againā€” assuming you can even get to this point again.
There has to be something, you just have to think outside the box.
Or ratherā€”
ā€œGojo!ā€
He glances back at you.
ā€œYou need to seal me in the prison realm!ā€ you exclaim. He turns to face you fully, looking bewildered and you start to explain as fast as you can. ā€œThose things are going to attack any minute right? I canā€™t move or try to hide and I canā€™t expect you to protect me the entire time and if I die then Iā€™ll end up looping time again, butā€” but, if you seal me in the prison realm then that wonā€™t happen.ā€
Gojo frowns, looking conflicted. ā€œYou donā€™t think I can do it?ā€
ā€œWouldn't it be easier if you didnā€™t have to?ā€
He tilts head and you think heā€™s conceding your point.
ā€œPlease,ā€ you beg, staring at him desperately. ā€œWe donā€™t have much time. The otherā€¦ cursed spirits will wake up soon too!ā€
You donā€™t have to explain that you mean Volcano Head and friends.
It takes only a second for Gojo to consider the very few options you have. ā€œ...how do you seal it? Do you know?ā€
ā€œI think so,ā€ you answer. ā€œThereā€™s no guarantee itā€™ll work but I think that if you say ā€˜prison realm, gate closeā€™ it should seal me inside.ā€
If anything, itā€™s worth a shot.
Gojo nods. ā€œDo you know how to break the seal?ā€
ā€œIā€¦ donā€™t,ā€ you confess. You never asked, and you donā€™t think the body snatcher would have told you even if you did. He only told you that it holds one and thatā€¦
That time doesnā€™t flow in the box.
ā€œ...you donā€™t have to break the seal.ā€
Gojo frowns, ā€œWait a secā€”ā€
ā€œEven if I make it past tonightā€¦ What if this all happens again? What if I inadvertently trap myself in another time loop?ā€ you ask. ā€œIā€¦ I donā€™t want to have to go through all of this again. Itā€™s better for me in a place where time doesnā€™t pass.ā€
You donā€™t know for sure if itā€™ll be better, but right here, right now, it seems like the best option.
It feels like an eternity passes before Gojo says anything.
ā€œ...fine,ā€ he agrees and you donā€™t quite know how to feel about it. The howling around you all grows louder. You wonder why the cursed spirits havenā€™t attacked yet. Maybe Gojoā€™s power is holding them at bayā€¦ for now anyway. You both know that he canā€™t ignore them forever.
ā€œ...before I do, though, mind if I ask you just one thing?ā€
You blink. ā€œNot sure what I can do for you in this stateā€¦ā€
He laughs. ā€œI just want to know your name.ā€
What an odd request. Though, now that you think about it, you donā€™t think that during this loop or any other loop really, youā€™ve ever told him your name. It only seems fair to tell him, since youā€™ve known his for longer than heā€™s known of your existence.
You tell him your name.
He nods, looking as if heā€™s committing to memory. Probably easier to remember than his phone number. ā€œAny last words?ā€
You try to think of something. Nothing comes to mind and you just shake your head.
Gojo takes a deep breath, ā€œAlrighty thenā€¦ Prison realm, gate close.ā€
Just as it did the many times youā€™ve seen Satoru Gojo sealed away, the boxes and restraints around you vibrate a little before they start to close around you, growing large enough to fit your body as they approach.
You wonā€™t see it, but once youā€™re inside the box will shrink and become small enough to fit in the palm of someoneā€™s hand.
Will it be quiet inside?
In your final seconds, some words, some last words come to mind, and you say them, hoping that he hears them in time. ā€œThank you, Satoru Gojo.ā€
You burn the glittering glow of his brilliant bright blue eyes into your mind.
And then, everything is engulfed in an unending black.
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Itā€™s November 30, 2018ā€” morning on the campus of Tokyo Prefectural Jujutsu High School.
Satoru Gojo strides through the school grounds, casually tossing a small silver box with eerie blue eyes known as the prison realm up and down in his grasp. Walking at his side is Shoko Ieiri, a pretty woman whoā€™s been unfortunate enough to have been Satoruā€™s friend since high school.
ā€œAre you sure this is a good idea?ā€ Shoko asks, twirling a few strands of her long brown hair.
ā€œWhat do you mean?ā€ Satoru responds nonchalantly. ā€œAll my ideas are good ideas.ā€
Shoko hums in clear dissent, but doesnā€™t say anything more. Even she knows better than to try and waste her time trying to argue with Satoru. ā€œIā€™m just worried about their mental state. Didnā€™t you say that time doesnā€™t flow in the box?ā€
ā€œIā€™d be worried if it was some normal person,ā€ Satoru says. ā€œBut after what theyā€™ve gone through I think theyā€™ll be fine.ā€
ā€œ...well, if you say so.ā€
The two arrive at their destination: the largest training area on the Jujutsu High grounds. Satoru places the prison realm at the center and takes a few steps back with Shoko standing behind him, in case anything happens.
He doesnā€™t think it will, but itā€™s always good to take at least a few precautions.
ā€œGojo, are you sure we should be doing this?ā€ Shoko asks again. ā€œDidnā€™t they want to remain in the box?ā€
ā€œOf course I am,ā€ Satoru says with his usual air of confidence before looking back at the prison realm nestled in the grass. He grins and thenā€”
ā€œPrison realm, gate open.ā€
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fc: rihanna and other girls from pinterest
warnings: cussingā€¦lots of it, cheating, cussing, sexual talk, talking shit about charles (please note that i do not agree with the things said itā€™s just for the fic šŸ˜­) iā€™m back from my breakkkk, much needed cause i have so many ideas to write and requests šŸ¤­ hope yall enjoy this been sitting in my drafts for a min now šŸ˜­
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toxic3mmy Ā· 8 months ago
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alex talking in spanish while fucking your brains out šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«
a tus ordenes jefešŸ«”
[ty for da request <33]
prompt: alex seducing you in two languages
warnings! smut!!
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you woke up from a very intense dream. it was about alex and you getting really intimate and he decided to use a lot more spanish than usual. quite frankly, it really turned you on.
the way that he rolled his rā€™s, his tongue almost thick in his mouth as he spoke. the spanish nicknames and sexy talk was just delicious.
you got up and did your regular routine. you ate some breakfast, cleaned the house up, and then sat down to read one of your romance novels.
now that you think of it, you were reading this steamy book before bed and itā€™s probably what made you have that really good dream. your book had hispanic characters and the sexy main character was gushing in the spanish language.
he finally got the female character alone, painfully alone. he was cornering her and making her feel pent up.
reading this was definitely making you feel pent up, too. you ran your fingers down your chest and then your belly. you finally reached your panties which were just soaked. you suddenly came up with a brilliant plan.
you sat in front of your huge bedroom mirror on the wall. you sat completely naked, with a soft blanket only slightly covering your breasts and groin. you snapped a few pictures in that pose as well as some completely nude and sent them to alex with the text,
iā€™m feeling really lonelyā€¦
you smiled as you realized you did not have to wait long at all for a response. you saw the chat bubble typing and waited for your boyfriend to reply but nothing. you frowned at your phone and decided to get dressed.
you then decided to take a relaxing bath. you even set up a few candles on the tub and added foamy bubbles. you continued to read for about an hour and imagined yourself in the book getting seduced by alex.
the sound of your front door slamming shut had your breath caught in your throat. you stay absolutely still, in hopes that if itā€™s someone breaking in, theyā€™ll leave quickly.
suddenly, you see alex in the restroom doorway and you can breathe again.
ā€œyou scared me.. i thought someone was in the house. what are you doing home so early from work?ā€ you sat up a bit in the tub
ā€œget out of the bathā€ he murmured with an almost angry expression on his face
ā€œwhat?ā€
ā€œi said,ā€ he walked forward and grabbed your arm, pulling you up harshly ā€œget the fuck out of the waterā€
ā€œi-iā€
ā€œno, you donā€™t get to speakā€
alex roughly led you to your bed and threw you on it with only a towel on
ā€œyou think this is acceptable?ā€ he asked, pacing around the room
ā€œdo you think itā€™s okay to send me pictures like that while iā€™m at work? i had a huge fucking boner and i needed to do a presentation y/n. i couldnā€™t even speak clearly without thinking about you and it was too much. my boss sent me home early!ā€
you couldnā€™t help but let out a giggle muffled only by your hand.
ā€œoh.. you think this is funny? letā€™s see, whereā€™s that book you were readingā€ he walked back to the restroom to retrieve your novel
ā€œspanish, huh? you mean to tell me that this filthy smut is what made you think you could send me nudes while i was working?ā€ he examined your novel
ā€œalex pleaseā€¦ im really sorry about earlierā€
ā€œi wonā€™t take that sorry apology. sluts like you deserve to be punished. what do you think?ā€ he smiled and cradled your jaw in his hand
ā€œdo w-whatever you need to do..ā€
he then sat down on the bed next to you and reached out to run a finger down your cheek,
ā€œremind me of your safe wordsā€
ā€œgreen if i want you to keep going, yellow if i need a pause, and red if i need you to stop immediatelyā€ you said a bit nervously
ā€œgood girl,ā€ he grabbed your hair tightly in one hand and used his other to take his cock out of his pants, ā€œput your mouth to good use and suckā€
and you did exactly that. you took his shaft in one hand and sucked lightly at his tip, taking more of him in your mouth as your hand moved up and down.
ā€œjoder.. mm so good, gatitaā€ he said, head thrown back in pleasure
you moaned around him, sending vibrations down his leaking dick. he couldnā€™t stop his hips from bucking up and his hand pushing your head lower, making you choke.
ā€œyou like that? quieres mas? mĆ”mame la como me gusta, zorraā€
you didnā€™t answer. instead you quickened your pace and took him deep into your throat. after a few minutes of this, alex stopped you.
ā€œs-shit.. i donā€™t want to cum yet.. take a break gatitaā€ he said, letting you up for air
he took the rest of his clothes off and pulled your towel off of you
ā€œque hermosa eresā€¦ā€ he said, crawling over you and softly kissing your lips. he deepened the kiss while playing with one of your perked up nipples. he kissed at your jaw and slowly moved lower.
he mouthed at your neck, sucking and nipping the skin there until a bruise was visible. he smiled at your whimpering and rolling of your hips into him. he continued lower and licked your nipple, your other breast being roughly pawed at with his free hand.
you were a moaning, wet mess underneath him. his chain dangling above you, almost as if it was taunting you.
ā€œon your hands and knees, slutā€
you propped yourself up for him, your ass and dripping pussy in full view for alex. he immediately grabbed at your ass and you felt the warmth of his tongue at your entrance.
ā€œyou feel so goodā€ you moaned, biting at your arm harshly to muffle your sounds
a loud smacked echoed through the room and your ass stung
ā€œdidnā€™t i say you didnā€™t need to speak? this is your fucking punishment and you will not cum until i say you can. you do what i say, understood?ā€
you nodded and immediately felt a harder smack to your ass
ā€œuse your words, pinche zorraā€
ā€œi understand.. please alex..ā€
ā€œshut the fuck upā€ he once again was at your hole, burying his face in your ass and pussy
he licked up and down and between your soaked folds. you gripped at the sheets and tried to resist the temptation of screaming his name. instead, you let your face fall into the mattress, your ass still in the air for him. you arched your back and fucked yourself onto his tongue.
ā€œeres mi jugete, princesa. eres miaā€ he said before continuing to delve deeper into you, making you squirm like never before
your pussy was clenching around his tongue and he knew you were close. so he stopped. you let out a cry of despair as he wiped his face of your juices.
ā€œyou want to be disobedient? iā€™ll have to show you the consequences of that, gatita. es lo que merecesā€ he said as he positioned himself behind you, lazily pumping his still hard cock
ā€œwhatā€™s your color, princesa?ā€
ā€œgreen.. so so greenā€ you were anxious for more of him
ā€œmy whore is so needy,ā€ he laughed, teasingly sliding his tip over your hole ā€œme tienes empapado en tus jugos, zorritaā€
he slapped his cock on your clit, making you jump and cry out. you had tears running down your face. you felt so good
ā€œte voy a llenar, princesa, te quiero llenar tan lentamenteā€ his cock slowly entered you and you were struggling to stay quiet underneath him
your back was still arched for him as he grabbed both your arms and held them together behind your back
ā€œes tu lesiĆ³n.. tu castigo por ser desobedienteā€ he purred as he pushed into you and you were so full and yet you still needed more
ā€œmi zorra linda, mi putita.. fuck yourself on my cockā€ he whispered and you felt him so deep inside of you
his speed increased with every deep thrust. you moved your ass back, meeting his thrusts. his high pitched whimpers and moans were music to your ears
ā€œputa madre, no sabes cuanto te necesitabaā€¦ tu cuerpo, tu alma.. todo es mio, zorritaā€ he continued to fuck into you, letting out small groans at every thrust
ā€œte encanta cuando te cojo asĆ­? con tu culo al cielo y tu cara enterrada en el colchĆ³n? te ves maravillosa, gatita. mi zorra, te voy a usar hasta que aprendas que no me vuelves a desobedecerā€ he promised, now slowing his pace and holding your hips from behind, letting your arms free but you still kept them behind you
ā€œestas tan apretadaā€ he whimpers, out of breath now
ā€œa-alex.. im close.. please?ā€ you pleaded for release
ā€œruĆ©game, zorraā€ he let out a breathy laugh
ā€œpor favorā€¦ i promise i wonā€™t ever disobey you again, please! alexis, cojeme mas duroā€
ā€œpor supuesto, zorritaā€ and he did, he fucked you faster and harder. he rolled his hips at a heavenly angle, making you cry out some more
ā€œjoder, estoy cerco, viene conmigo zorritaā€ he begged
he chased your highs until you both came together. he slowed his pace to a stop and pulled out of you, leaving you with an unbearable feeling of emptiness.
the two of you laid together and came down from your highs. alex grabbed the novel that started this all and he smiled,
ā€œy/n? why is the main characterā€™s name alexis??ā€
you quickly snatched the book from his hands and hid it behind you
ā€œstop being mean!ā€ you said, covering your face in embarrassment
ā€œaw baby, youā€™re so naughty.. so filthyā€ he teased
ā€œso what?! itā€™s literally the same as watching pornā€ you argued
ā€œis this when i accuse you of cheating on me with the book alexis?ā€ he smirked
ā€œwellā€¦ he does have long luscious hair and a bangin tan bodyā€¦ā€ you sighed dreamily
ā€œhey! itā€™s not my fault i donā€™t tan! you know my skin just gets all red and sunburntā€ he pouted
you couldnā€™t stop the smile that formed on your face, kissing him lovingly
ā€œi actually am sorry for getting you sent home from work, but itā€™s not my fault iā€™m that sexy that some pics turned you on that muchā€
ā€œsays the one who gets horny off some words on paperā€ he teased back
ā€œtouchĆ©..ā€
ā€œyeah, touchĆ©ā€ alex smiled
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ybklix Ā· 8 months ago
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Wearing lose shirt with nothing underneath & sitting on his lap ?? šŸ˜µā€šŸ’« Lee know?
minhoā€™s lapšŸ˜®ā€šŸ’Ø
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ā™” lee minho
āŸ”summary: Your boyfriend loves to tease you and make you feel good even after a tiring day at work.
ā€ pairing: idol lee know x fem reader
ā™” genre - warnings: smut, established relationship, dom! minho, teasing, slight dirty talk, fingering, masturbation, spanking, unprotected sex
word count: 3k
a/n: my first request ig wohoo u little minhoes, is this how it works? lol, i had this in my head since minho is tio by zayn coded
You missed Minho, you haven't seen him for days because he was busy at work, you knew that during these dates it was difficult to see him, and then it became almost impossible once he returned to make his presentations, even staying all night in the place. But tonight he promised to see you, lately he ended up so tired that all he did was go to his dorm to rest, sadly you had to insist that he agreed to see you, he also missed you intensely but when it came to his work he got too serious, after all, he had a reputation and image to maintain.
You had cooked for Minho variety of his favorite dishes, you were a little exhausted but it would be worth it to see his tender face light up when he ate something delicious. You were in the kitchen, setting everything up when you heard the characteristic sound of your door indicating that someone was coming in, you smiled broadly and almost run to your foyer to see who it was. Minho was wearing blue jeans, a simple white shirt and a thin jacket loose to his body, he was completely covered even though it was a hot summer day in the city, he couldn't risk being recognized.
You pounced on him and hugged him by the neck, you had missed him so much you couldn't get enough of saying it, Minho reciprocated the hug right away, holding tightly to your lower back.
ā€œOh, y/nā€ Minho said while he could still breathe in the smell of your hair.
ā€œDon't let us stop seeing each other for so longā€ you warned him in a stern but gentle tone once you parted.
Minho smiled as he watched you tenderly and nodded, removing his jacket and face mask.
ā€œWhat's that?ā€ you asked him as you noticed he was carrying plastic bags from somewhere he shopped in his hand.
ā€œAh, a dessert for later, come on let's goā€ Minho added confidently, walking into your apartment.
Minho walked next to you to the kitchen with his hand gently on your butt and finally saw what you had cooked for him.
ā€œWoah, it looks delicious. Thank you, loveā€ Minho walked over to you giving you a kiss on your head.
You watched his round eyes sparkle as he sat down to eat, you wanted to hear everything from him, even though you texted daily and were updated on every single thing he did, you wanted to hear him talk and talk.
ā€œI'll take a picture and post itā€ he said before picking up the chopsticks.
You smiled at the horrendous angle he took the pictures and joined him for dinner. You didn't want to ask him about work, his face looked a little dull and tired that you didn't know if it was right to start talking about it, but there was nothing else to say, since he spent more time at the company than with you, you both knew that starting a relationship would be sometimes a lonely dynamic, still it was worth every second when you were with him, as if he rewarded you double and you forgot that you don't see him that often. Still you tried to be gentle and say to him:
ā€œDid you have a long day today?ā€
Minho looked at you and stopped eating for a second.
ā€œYes, kind of, it was long because it was a day of waiting and small recordings, there were no rehearsals so I found it tedious.ā€
You could tell it was one of those days by seeing his perfectly coiffed hair and light makeup a bit already worn on his face.
ā€œDid you pick the best pictures for the album?ā€ you said to him amused.
ā€œSure, I posed like thisā€ he replied amused making a random pose by putting his hands behind his head.
Minho smiled, adorably raising his high cheekbones and you caught his laughter. He kept telling you more details, you adored listening to him talk, he even shared his upcoming schedule to see which days he could dedicate his day only to you, you sighed watching him, sometimes you wanted to be a clingy girlfriend going everywhere he went but, you had to keep your posture.
ā€œWhen we go to Busan, you're coming with me, I'm not asking youā€ he commented seriously looking at you intensely, you knew him well, yes he meant it but his intention of being intense was just him being a bit of a tease.
You nodded, giving him a kiss on the cheek; after a few minutes he wanted to tidy up and wash all the dishes used as he was always helpful no matter what, you begged to help him as he insisted that you should stay seated to rest the food.
You were next to him, helping him to dry the dishes while Minho washed each pot cautiously, you loved the closeness of his body, honestly you were totally willing for tonight to be one of those tender ones where later he takes a shower and you both go to sleep cuddled up, but you lost yourself in the movement of his big soapy hands, the skillful crush of the sponge and his marked arms with notorious veins... that's when you realized that you didn't just need Minho's company, you needed everything from him, and when you least thought about it, you remembered that it had been long days without sex. You decided to blame your random horny thoughts to the heat of the day, despite having your apartment cool, outside it was a total mess, strong sun during the day and dry and hot nights, you wore shorts and a loose button down blouse that Minho bought you on one of his many trips, he always did that, he bought something for you, but definitely his favorite thing to give you as a gift was clothes that matched his.
You were relieved that Minho didn't notice that you suddenly became aroused at the thought of his hands touching your body, nor that he noticed you looking at him shamelessly, he was just there innocently helping you wash your dishes; otherwise if he had noticed he would start with his double meaning comments and his arrogant little smile, you didn't want it now, you felt completely needy that you didn't need any more humiliation by your boyfriend.
You both finished and Minho decided to rest a bit in your living room making himself comfortable on the couch.
ā€œYou'll stay here to sleep, right?ā€ you asked standing in front of him.
ā€œMmhumā€ gasped Minho as he stretched his body closing his eyes and trying to relax, ā€œSeungmin is in charge of the dorm, I told him not to disturb at all.ā€
Minho stared at you, you smiled and were ready to sit next to him until you noticed how he patted his thigh indicating you to sit on his lap, you couldn't be happier and fell on his legs hugging his neck, positioning your body sideways on top of him. You loved sitting on his lap, his thighs were strong and worked, you were so comfortable and your ass accommodated perfectly with no problem, Minho also knew how much you loved it too, as well as slapping his thighs with your ass as you jumped on his cock.
For him it was simple, when he wanted to have you, he did, he would get hard in seconds when it came to you, he still loved to tease you and prolong the process, torturing you both.
ā€œHow much did you miss me?ā€ he murmured with an arrogant tone in a low, thick voice.
You slowly lost your sanity as you looked into his leering eyes and heard his tone, oh god, you thought, of course he was going to fuck you tonight, you were so excited that your lower part started to react. Minho was holding you tightly by the waist with his left hand while with his right one, he caressed your thighs.
ā€œYou know that I missed you so much, Minhoā€ you stared at him.
ā€œI needed you too, princess.ā€
He said and moved closer to you to give you a slow, fiery kiss, you needed him so much, you wanted to jump on his cock now, you were so wet and ready, you wanted to feel full, you could feel him too, so hard in a short time, but Minhoā€¦ he liked slow play and it was killing you inside.
You moaned between the kiss and pulled your body back as you felt Minho's heavy, warm hand rub your center on top of your garment, you knew perfectly well that Minho could keep you like this for a long time, kissing you hotly until your lips swelled; his hand on your waist began to slide inside your loose blouse finally feeling his touch of skin on yours, making you feel so good, Minho moved his hand up to notice your exposed tits, cupping them tightly as he moved his kisses down your jaw and neck, he was still surprised by the sudden delight of feeling your breasts in his hand.
ā€œWhy aren't you wearing anything underneath, princess?ā€ he gasped between kisses, feeling his heavy, hot breath on your neck.
You hated talking when Minho made you so bad, your breathing was so ragged and ragged, but knowing him, you knew he always wanted an answer; if you didn't he would make a sudden move on you and growl through his teeth 'I'm talking to you'.
ā€œIt's a hot day and... I'm in the comfort of my home, Minhoā€¦ā€ you tried to sound as poised as possible.
Minho smiled sideways and squeezed your nipples and the grip on your pussy tighter, causing you to reflexively close your legs a little.
ā€œOr is it because you love to tease me and were so ready for me, kitten, wearing clothes with easy accessā€ Minho whispered in your ear, massaging your breasts harder, ā€œBesides, how do I know you weren't out there like a little slut going shopping to make dinner with nothing on underneath.ā€
You shook softly, when he made those kinds of comments you knew you were in for a bit of physical punishment so you bit your lip at the memory of his heavy hand on your ass.
ā€œStand up for a moment babyā€ he ordered you in a rough voice, you almost moaned as you stopped feeling his hands on you, it felt so wrong when he stopped touching you, ā€œTurn aroundā€ he said and positioned you with your back to him.
You listened as he sat up a little from the couch and suddenly you felt his hand squeeze your thigh and then both them search for the button of your shorts, deftly removing them, you were so excited by every slow movement your boyfriend made and it was so unexpected, in a second he could kneel you down and make you suck his cock, or bend you over and start penetrating you, curiosity was eating you to know what he was going to do with you, but you just decided to enjoy every second of it.
Minho took the elastics of your panties and pulled them tight leaving your sensitive and wet pussy exposed, he massaged your ass with two of his hands and you felt a soft kiss on your skin, suddenly nothing, you turned around confused and found your boyfriend trying to pull down his tight pants from his thighs, despite being a bit baggy, once he sat down they became tight on his big legs and finally free him of that denim that burdened his cock. You bit your lip internally screaming to feel his stiff penis in you; Minho pulled down his underwear releasing his throbbing sex full of energy.
ā€œCome hereā€ he grabbed your arm tightly, ā€œI want to smack your cute ass a little.ā€
You frowned confused trying to have an explanation, ā€œBut..ā€ you tried to say but Minho was being rough moving you.
You swallowed nervously and put your abdomen on his thighs, leaving your ass at his mercy as you felt his erection rubbing a little on your waist.
ā€œDon't expect me to be gentleā€ moaned Minho, lifting your big, loose blouse a little and giving you a hard spanking and then squeezing the injured area.
You gasped in pain, and pleasure as you felt his fingers fuck your entrance all of a sudden, Minho gave you another four hard spanks with his right hand, leaving his hand branded on your ass while with his other hand he mercilessly moved his fingers in you, you were so close to cumming from the pain and pleasure that you felt a little guilty that you find something like that so fucking exciting, but that was Minho, if he didn't make you suffer a little in sex then it wasn't him, even when you made love which was supposed to be sweet and romantic, he fucked you so deep that he made you dig your nails into his back.
Minho saw your legs contract waiting for you to unload all your tension, you were about to tell him you were going to cum, but he stepped forward and stopped, pulling you by your hair with his left hand and telling you full of desire, ā€œCome here, I'm not done yet, you can't cum until I tell you.ā€
He made you sit back on his lap for which you moaned for your newly hurt ass, this time turning your back to him, you moaned as you felt his hard cock press against your back, he grabbed your waist a little to lift you up and position his dick between your wet labia, making you both moan, the firmness of his manhood felt so good pressed against your soaked cunt, enveloping it perfectly that you wanted to start moving, but you were completely in submissive mode, it was obvious that you couldn't do anything because it was one of those times when your boyfriend took total control.
Minho moved your loose hair out of the way and positioned his face on the side of your neck. He was so turned on he wanted to see everything of you, he was so needy for your pussy squeezing his cock but the long wait turned him on more, more with your needy gaze and sizzling gasps.
ā€œTake off your shirt, babyā€ he commanded in your ear.
You were about to bend over and take it off over your head like any normal garment but Minho stopped you, ā€œNo, no, do it button by button.ā€
You almost whimpered at the feel of his throbbing cock under your dripping pussy and you being able to do nothing about it; with trembling hands you tried to do it as fast as you could while Minho watched with so much amusement.
ā€œGood girl, you're a good girl for meā€ Minho murmured as he saw you managed to do as he asked, ā€œLet's get it offā€ he gently slid your blouse off, finally leaving you naked.
ā€œI want you to show meā€¦ā€ he muttered again, taking your dominant hand and bringing it to your cunt, ā€œHow much you missed me, I want to see how you played with your pussy pretending it was me, did you do that, princess?ā€ gasped Minho.
ā€œYesā€ you moaned as you touched his tip pressing against your pussy.
It wasn't a lie, the nights were long and boring without Minho and your only companion at times was your faithful vibrator, but nothing compared to him.
You settled your body a little, rubbing your wetness against his erection and let yourself lean on his chest as you tried to stimulate your clitoris giving him the show he wanted. Your squirts were falling on his cock, you closed your eyes letting yourself go as he squeezed your thigh and your tit. Minho was getting the best view possible, watching you squirm for him as you rubbed his swollen cock.
You gasped, your entrance was a little hard to reach in that position and more so with your boyfriend's big erect dick between your folds.
ā€œWere you moaning my name while you were doing it alone, you dirty slut?ā€
ā€œMmmā€¦ Mi-minhoā€ you whimpered as you continued to play with your clit and subtly rubbed yourself on his cock.
Minho was so lubed too, he moaned to feel your little movements, if you kept this up he was about to cum too. You started stimulating yourself slowly but your heart rate was getting higher and higher, speeding up your own movements in your pussy too, you were so ready to cum on your boyfriend's cock that you were frustrated that you didn't want your own fingers to be the ones satisfying you, so you thought you were going to give him what he craved so much.
ā€œFuck me, Minho, do it now, pleaseā€ you whined in his ear.
Minho smiled to hear you begging.
ā€œThen sit on my cock now, princess, take it and ride it wellā€ he gasped.
Agitated, trying to get back all your senses as you incorporated feeling the incredible wetness of your pussy and let yourself fall on Minho's cock, sliding so easily and smoothly inside of you, still, you ached. You both sighed in pleasure finally as you were joined and you began to jump up and down non-stop being heard in the room the grotesque sound of your wet cunt, your ass falling hard on Minho's thighs and the gasps of both of you.
ā€œCum for me, princess, cum all over my cock nowā€ Minho whispered excitedly.
Minho helped you by holding your waist and when you felt a little overwhelmed you let yourself lean on his chest still with his t-shirt on and he began to ram you hard lifting his hips, while he played with your clit. You felt him so close too, you whimpered with bated breath and fell surrendered in orgasm, sitting on his cock and thighs.
ā€œYou did it so well, princess and dinner was delicious, thank youā€ Minho told you agitated but sweetly, stroking your hair.
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melobin Ā· 4 months ago
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omg did you see the eunseok day off thing? the moment he started making that bee thing I just wanted to kiss him until I pass out ughh šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜µā€šŸ’« anywaysss could you please do how riize would react to you trying distract them with kisses (or even more iykyk) while they're trying to put some new toy/figure together? or even just eunseok because i'm literally crawling for this man rn
if you can't it's ok tho, just needed to put this thought outta me before it ate me alive šŸ¤­šŸ¤­
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shotaro
shotaro would let you, no questions asked. unless heā€™s doing something really important, all of his attention is going to you. heā€™s more than happy to drop what heā€™s doing to focus on you and let you kiss him. would put the thing down immediately and forget about it for as long as youā€™re with him for, all you have to do is litter little kisses against his cheek and heā€™s all yours. will definitely try to put it together later on but would find himself distracted thinking about you instead.
eunseok
eunseok would ignore you on purpose, just to tease you. realistically, he doesnā€™t care about the toy heā€™s building but he loves the way you whine when you donā€™t get his attention when you want it. will wait till youā€™re sulking and sighing and going to leave before he drops the toy and pulls you down onto his lap, laughing at you for being so needy for his attention. kisses you and tells you heā€™ll make it up to you for teasing you, kissing your neck whilst running his fingers over your body. wouldnā€™t be long until his fingers are inching under your clothes and pushing inside of you. suddenly thinks the best thing to do is to fuck you and then let you cuddle sleepily into him whilst he finishes building it.
sungchan
sungchan is a wild card, his reaction depends on how heā€™s feeling that day. he could melt under your touch and drop what heā€™s doing instantly, leaning into the kiss and holding you as close as he can or heā€™ll tease you and tell you heā€™ll get to you when heā€™s done. giggling when you whine about how long heā€™s taking and kiss at his neck. sungchan is really easy to work up and make hard so it isnā€™t difficult for you to get him where you want him, he just has too much self restraint and will make himself suffer just to tease you that little bit more. will make it up to you after by sitting you on the very table he was using and eating you out until youā€™re crying.
wonbin
wonbin is similar to sungchan in the sense that his reaction depends on how heā€™s feeling that day, heā€™s more likely to cave right away than to tease you though. when heā€™s feeling more teasing, heā€™ll taunt you. copying your whines when he doesnā€™t react to your kisses with a smile on his face whilst he fiddles with the piece of the toy, turns to you smiling whilst youā€™re pouting back at him. ends up putting the toy down and pulling you into him whilst telling you how cute you are, kissing you as an apology and promising to give you all of his attention once heā€™s done. on the flip side, most of the time wonbin would end up caving into your touch and letting you climb onto his lap so you can kiss him properly, gets so lost into it that the two of you end up making out for hours before you even think about moving to the bed.
seunghan
seunghan would be a difficult one to properly distract, partly because heā€™s invested in whatever heā€™s building but also because he likes to make you work for it. he wants you to be pawing at him shirt and whining for his attention whilst kissing at his neck, all whilst he laughs and tells you heā€™ll be done soon and to be patient. heā€™s not afraid to grab you to make you look at him and ask you to be a good girl whilst he finishes what heā€™s doing, promises heā€™ll make you feel good when heā€™s done but for now he needs you to be a good girl and wait. will reward you so well if you do wait but if you donā€™t then heā€™s more than happy to make you cock warm him whilst he continues doing his toy.
sohee
sohee wants to attempt to not be interested in the way you kiss his skin gently and run you fingers over his lap, but he canā€™t. ends up pushing a piece of the toy together a little too hard causing it to slip out of his hands and make a loud noise against the table startling you both. thatā€™s when he gives in and leans back, running his hand through his hair before looking at you and letting you kiss him, sighing when you giggle about him getting frustrated. heā€™s the one who ends up pouting, waiting for you to stop giggling before kissing him.
anton
anton would have no composure at all and would give up even thinking about putting the toy together, the moment you sat next to him his thoughts would be gone and as soon as you press your lips to his skin heā€™s done for. heā€™s instantly turning his head so he can kiss you properly, his arms wrapping around you so he can pull you to sit on his lap. the toy wouldnā€™t even cross his mind when he has his lips on yours, though it would be a fun game to make him put it together whilst jerking him off and not letting him cum until itā€™s completely finished !!
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coopersadams Ā· 5 months ago
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knees deep
cooper is a fast mover. you're not sure you mind. 802 words.
saw someone talking about cooper fluff and i was like šŸ˜µā€šŸ’« written as a light prequel to this but not a necessary read at all.
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cooper takes saturday morning breakfast seriously.Ā 
you spend most saturday mornings at the kitchen island, watching him whisk, scramble, toast, and plate breakfast by himself. itā€™s endearing, the amount of effort he puts in. itā€™s a routine by now, but you still see the perfectionism at play. you watch him take a second to look at every plate, to take a bite of everything, just to make sure itā€™s all right. he refuses help (ā€œi want to spoil you guysā€) and after a few months together, you had learned not to push him to change his mind.Ā 
riley and logan wouldnā€™t give it a second thought if something wasnā€™t exactly right (they ate so fast, you werenā€™t sure they would even notice). it makes cooperā€™s attention to detail all the more endearing.Ā 
ā€œsoā€¦ā€ he starts, and you lift your head to look at him.Ā 
youā€™re surprised he says anything. he usually bounces back and forth, humming to himself or murmuring about the texture of the eggs. youā€™re mostly there for silent company; you read or scroll through your phone at the counter, waiting for him to ask you to get the kids. your interest is piqued. ā€œyes?ā€
ā€œi was talking to the kids this week,ā€ he says, pulling plates from the cupboard. you can see the tiny upturn of his lips, the way he always looks when heā€™s holding his cards close to his chest.Ā 
ā€œi should hope so,ā€ you tease, ignoring the good natured roll of his eyes.Ā 
he looks so nonchalant, plating the food in the same way he always does. eggs first, one waffle for each plate, fruit last. such a creature of habit. it makes you grin. ā€œwe were talking about how much time you spend here.ā€
itā€™s a little bit of a wake up call, and you find yourself sitting up straighter. ā€œoh.ā€
like he can sense your anxietyā€”and he can, youā€™re sure. he knew all your tells. no one could read you quite like cooper. ā€œwe were thinking that it might be easier for everyone if you just moved your things in here.ā€ you blink once, and then twice, and then cooper is turning away from the plates lined up in front of him to look right at you. ā€œsince youā€™re here all the time anyway.ā€
ā€œoh,ā€ you say again, cheeks warm at your lack of wit.Ā 
itā€™s fast. itā€™s a little too fast. but itā€™s also a little too exciting. cooper had a tendency to move fast, like he was working on a predetermined timeline. you hadnā€™t minded. you love cooper. you love his kids. you love the house. you love being with them, like you fit into the unit.Ā 
ā€œbutā€¦my apartment,ā€ you mumble, spinning around in your stool.
cooper sighs. a real, true dad sigh, like he knew this might take some convincing. he rounds the counter to stand in front of you, hands resting on your thighs. ā€œwe can pay for it until the lease ends, honey. or we can sell it. whatever you want.ā€ we. like it was his, too. you think you might like that. you arenā€™t sure yet. ā€œand we can turn the den into that library youā€™re always talking about.ā€
you suck in a breath, looking at his hands on your skin. his thumbs rub little circles right at the edge of your shorts, and you take a moment to consider the proposition. you had been together for six months; before you met cooper, you would have laughed at yourself for even considering it. you wouldnā€™t have considered it, not with anyone else. but you trust cooper. he had been nothing but open with you; he had laid himself all out, asking for your full acceptance or nothing at all. you love him. you feel safe with him.
ā€œyou should knowā€¦i donā€™t like to do the dishes,ā€ you say, like it might be a dealbreaker.
he grins. ā€œi know.ā€
ā€œand i donā€™t do yard work.ā€
ā€œthatā€™s alright,ā€ he promises. ā€œyouā€™ll never have to.ā€
your legs spread only slightly, but itā€™s enough for him to fit himself between them. his hands slide from your thighs to wrap around your waist. you continue, ā€œand i donā€™t like your duvet cover.ā€
he tries to look irritated. ā€œyou donā€™t like my duvet cover?ā€
you lean into him, chests pressed together. ā€œno. itā€™s soā€¦white.ā€
part of you is screaming; your brain is telling you no, absolutely not, itā€™s not a good time. your heart doesnā€™t want to listen. any trepidation you feel disappears when he smiles down at you, hand reaching up to brush the high of your cheekbone. ā€œgot it. new duvet cover.ā€
ā€œand everyoneā€™s going to talk,ā€ you remind him.
he leans in, lips brushing yours when he says, ā€œi donā€™t care.ā€
itā€™s enough for you. it's more than enough for cooper.
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localkiss Ā· 10 months ago
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Princess Sprinkles!
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Vendetta Chris Redfield x fem reader!
cw: dd/lg, creampie, squirting (guys idk how squirting feels like....), multiple orgasms (reader), fingering, pet names, praise kink, oral fixation (reader obv), light mentions of breeding, soft dom!Chris!!, afab terms used, size kink ish.., Chris being silly, Chris being a lil mean one time, and some fluff :3 !! ā€” Lmk if I missed anything.
wc: 2005 !! (šŸ¤­ birth year go crazyy LOL!)
notes: if you don't like ddlg just um. Idk don't read šŸ’€!! I fr try not to make the reader teeny tiny but like dude Chris is huge asf.. size kink go brrr šŸ§ŽšŸ»ā€ā™€ļø! I'll be making reader a lil squishy from now on bc I'm not skinny either ā˜šŸ».Also I used to watch the Bratz babyz movie on repeat sm that the disc got ruined šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ soo.. yes that part is directly from yours truly! Not proof read šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«
tags: @argreion, @rigorwhoring bc ily guys šŸ˜‡!!
"Daddy!" You squeal as soon as Chris picks you up and spins you around. Making your fluffy mini pleated skirt twirl upwards.
Chris hoists your pretty body over his shoulders and pats you on the butt, practically skipping towards your shared bedroom. It looks like someone dumped all the squishmallows possible into the master bedroom. He can't help but think of you every time he sees a stuffed animal. Shits rooted in his brain. Stuffies = his angel!
Yeah, he might have to fight with them to make room for himself, but he wouldn't trade it for any other way. He doesn't actually fight them, knowing you'd throw a hissy fit and say "Hate daddy! Forever 'n ever!" Chris's heart shatters like glass whenever you say that.
He's grown softer because of you and those little threats of yours make his heart drop down to the core of the Earth. Would he admit it to team Alpha? No. Never in a million years. But they've got eyes and ears, they're not Patrick Star. Dumb and living under a rock.
Lately he's been covered in hickeys and cute little doodles that're supposed to be like tattoos by yours truly. Goes to work and gets teased by his squad, telling him how you've got him wrapped around your pretty little finger. How much you've changed him, for the better. He always shrugs them off, putting them back to work.
You for sure made Chris cut back on smoking a fuck ton. Constantly crying about how the stench will ruin your stuffies and the coat the walls of the house with a film. You're right, that's for sure. And the fact that second hand smoke is even worse is what clicks it into his head for him. His baby. His sweetheart, could end up dying because of his stupid ass habits.
Chris has lost too many of his men because of his habits. Too many good men. You are his savior. He pounds away the guilt into your needy little cunt. Constantly craving him. Needing him. Loving him. Honest to God, he needs that more than anything in this lifetime.
"Sweetheart," he sighs and sets you down onto the bed. "I missed you. Whatcha been up to?"
"Slept 'n colored and um... Ate some snackies, watch movie, 'n had lotsa juice!" You mumble, eyes glancing around the entire room. Using your hands to talk, as your words get slurred when you're in this state of mind.
Chris presses a faint kiss to your temple and noses down to the underside of your ear. Carefully holding the back of your head with his hand. He gives you more kisses and blows raspberries into your ear, making you squeal and swat at him.
"That's good baby. Glad you had a productive day." Chris smiles at you lovingly.
Your heart then swoons, making you feel all mushy inside. Praise gets him everything from you. Just like you crying out for daddy gets you everything from him!
He lazily starts to unbuckle his belt, pulling it through the loops. Setting it down on the bedside table with a thud. He starts to undo his fly, pushing his pants all the way down, kicking out of them.
Only dressed in his boxers and shirt, he engulfs you with a hug. Nuzzling into your neck, feeling your hands grab ahold of his shirt.
"Daddy?"
"Just recharging honey, hold on." His voice is deep and gruffy, sending chills up your spine.
You lay there, body buzzing with warmth as his figure presses you into the mattress. His hips shift and move against yours, causing you to gasp.
Thighs squeezing against his fit waist and he sighs into your neck. "Daddy's not charge. He excited..." Your fingers tug on his shirt and he sits up.
"Off?" Pointing to his shirt and you clumsily remove your own shirt and skirt. Now both of you are only in your underwear. Well, you still have your white thigh highs on, but still.
He presses your thighs up to your chest and settles in the middle as best as he can. Feeling his skin on your skin feels like heaven. Makes your panties wet, which he's noticed but doesn't want to say anything about it. Knowing you get all shy and embarrassed when he points things out like that. He likes it. Thinks it's cute that you want skin ship.
"So pretty baby," he pushes his hips forward. His cock catching onto your clit with each slow roll. "Pretty pussy, pretty tits. Pretty girl. My pretty girl."
Chris leans back and gets rid of his boxers. Pulling your panties up to slip his cock between your folds. Laying back down on top of you. Humping you instead of fucking you.
You can't complain, his tip his pressing against your clit nicely. Your hips rolling up to meet his and his dick slips inside.
He bottoms out immediately with a growl. "Baby. Did I say you could put it in?" Chastising you with a rough thrust, acting like it's your fault his dick slipped inside of your tiny hole.
"Daddy, didn't mean to. Not m'fault," you whine out, kicking your legs.
"S'okay. Daddy will make it all better." Chris presses a kiss to your forehead and acts like he's going to pull it out. Only to harshly thrust it back into you. "Fuck, princess. She's not wanting to let me go. You hear her crying for me?"
Moaning, you dig your nails into his back, "Daddy, daddy, never leave," you start babbling already.
He groans and rabbits his hips, making the bed rock against the wall.
"Wait, daddy, stuffies no want look, turn," you try to speak as he continues to fuck you like he hates you.
"Shit, okay baby. Hold on," he grunts and turns them around as best as he can. "Better now?"
You nod and go in for a kiss and he meets you halfway. Drooling into your mouth and your tongues swirl together before you suck on his. Moaning as he drives himself deeper inside of you. Squelching sounds and skin on skin echoing in the bedroom. Surely you guys won't get a noise complaint this time!
He spits into your mouth and smears it all over your lips with his thumb, pushing it into your mouth. Who needs a pacifier when you've got daddy's thumb?
Watching your eyes flutter shut and your lips wrapping around his thumb, it sets him off. His other hand driving down between you both and rubbing harshly at your puffy nub.
Biting down, you furrow your eyebrows. Breathing quickly and moaning softly. "Close," you hum around his digit. Sucking on it as you get closer and closer.
Chris's dick hits a special spot inside of you and your body shakes underneath him. Pussy trying to push out his cock as a clear liquid shoots out of you.
"Goddamn, baby, squirting on me, mmhhā€”fuck..." His hips falter and he dumps his cum inside of you. Resting his body on you, burying you into the bed. Making sure his cum never leaves you.
Chris pulls his thumb out of your mouth and kisses you feverishly. "Putting a baby in you, s'that alright princess?" Your pussy agrees by clenching around his thickness.
But he's acting like you've got a choice, since he's already done the deed. He pulls you up into his arms and you guys slowly make your way to the bath. Still connected and full.
Keeping you in his arms, he reaches down to turn on the water and put in the plug. You giggle and some of his cum starts to spurt out and drip down his balls. He settles in the tub with you on his lap, grabbing the soap to fill it with bubbles.
Chris slowly lifts you off of his length and sets you between his legs. Back pressed against his hairy chest. While his cum dribbles out of you.
His fingers make their way down to your sensitive cunt and slowly dips them inside. "Shh, I know baby," pressing soft kisses to your cheek as you whine and claw weakly at his forearms. The other one is keeping you pressed against him.
"Daddy's helping you baby," he starts to curl his fingers and your legs shake. Clearly overstimulated from earlier. But Chris starts to be a bit greedy, smacking his palm against your pretty little pearl.
Throwing your head back against his shoulder, he coaxes you into another orgasm. With the disguise of helping you get his cum out. If anything, he's trying to fuck it back into. Serious about putting a mini him or you inside of your tummy.
"Baby, almost there. Y'got it princess.. mmh.. cum one more time for daddy? Promise I'll clean you up and get us some donuts with sprinkles on 'em, just the way you like." Man, he's even bribing you! Daddy knows what you really want right now. So you whimper in response.
"Daddy, mmhhff... Daddy oh god! Please, please, please!" Your heels dig into the tub as the water fills it. His lips sucking and biting into your neck is what makes you cream around his digits.
Body convulsing and breath raggedy and higher as you come down from your second high of the night. Chris grabs your face and kisses you all over, mumbling praises into your skin. "Good girl, daddy's so proud of you."
Then, he takes his time washing you off, letting you play with the rubber duckies and splashing water onto him. Putting bubbles on his beard and making one for yourself.
"I daddy! See?" You pout and furrow your eyebrows, taking a drag of an imaginary cigarette. Chris rolls his brown eyes and takes the imaginary cigarette and puts it out.
"Babies can't do that stuff, remember? Only daddies can do that, silly baby girl." He wipes the bubbles off of your face and his, nibbling on your earlobe. Making chewing noises, "Om nom nom, my baby tastes so yummy!"
You squeal and press your face into your shoulder. "Daddy! Got wash so we can eat nummy donut! Donut sprinkle!"
He hums and gets to work. Gently washing your back and hair as you wash your front side and down to your toes. Chris hauls you up and he turns on the shower to wash your hair and his. God knows he needs this shower after training his new squad mates today.
Chris washes his own figure as you cup the water in your tiny hands and splash it up in the air. Watching you pretend you have powers as the water runs down your arms and to the tips of your fingers.
"Alright princess. Let's go get some sprinkled donuts," he pats your heart shaped ass with a chuckle. Wrapping you in a fuzzy towel, he gets to work drying you off. It reminds you of that Bratz babyz movie. Sure reminds him of it too. From how often you guys watched it, the CD stopped working and you threw a fit.
So of course, he bought a couple more, just in case. It's not like he doesn't have the money for it. So why not keep his baby sated with something so simple as a 2000s movie? He even bought you some Bratz dolls and monster high ones. Likes how you squeal and jump around in excitement every time he buys you something so simple as a doll. Makes him happy.
"Princess sprinkles and daddy sprinkles! Getting donut sprinkles! Sprinkles, sprinkles, sprinkles!" You laugh as he puts on your blue matching cinnamoroll pajamas that he spent fifty dollars on. Worth it in his opinion. Looks so cute on you, he can't help but press kisses all over your cheeks.
"Alright, alright, princess sprinkles. Let's go get in the car. Daddy'll buy you all the chocolate sprinkled donuts there is at the bakery." Chris's heart thumps in his chest. Yeah, there's a sprinkled shaped hole with a sprinkle version of you in his heart.
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uhitsum Ā· 3 months ago
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youve probably answered this question before, but just how did you do it? im at about 120 now (but very short), i can only dream of reaching 200. Whats the secret (is there one?)
I don't think there is much of a secret, I can't tell you any new hack for gaining that you've never heard before. But I'll gladly share how I did it :)
I started at 120lbs too, which was a bit underweight on my 5'8" frame šŸ˜… I didnt only gain for the kink, but because I felt genuinely unhappy in my body and I wanted to change it. Here's a rough outline of the pace of my gains:
Sept 2022: 120lbs
Jan 2023: 155lbs
June 2023: 180lbs (plateau until October)
Jan 2024: 200lbs (starting this blog shortly after turning 18)
September 2024: 220lbs (I havent stepped on a scale this month, but I know I hit 220 lol. also yay, 2 years of gaining šŸ„³)
From Sept 2022 to Jan 2023 was probably the most work I've put into gaining, since i had to rewire the metabolism that had kept me skinny all my life. I don't believe in tricks and hacks in fattening up (not that I could get much for myself, I was 16 and couldn't drive) so I did it the old fashioned way. I altered my meal schedule in this sort of way:
7am Breakfast
NEW 10am Brunch snacks (often a Peanut Butter Smoothie)
12pm Lunch snacks
NEW 3pm actual Lunch (usually followed by a food coma)
6pm Dinner
NEW 9pm 2nd Dinner
I probably wasn't hitting all of these meal times every day, but adding more opportunities for me to get my hands on food throughout the day meant i was almost always thinking of my next meal šŸ˜…
Besides just eating more often, another area I worked on was eating more at each meal. I would push myself to go back for seconds, or to pair more with whatever I ate at each meal. I adopted a "what could I add" mentality, where I would never eat one thing alone. My favorite example was for breakfast: before, I'd eat a breakfast sandwich, which is a respectable small meal at ~400 calories. When I was in my "gaining prime," I would add a second sandwich, and put tater tots in the air fryer, adding up to 1000+ calories for just a little more work.
While I know this won't be the glamorous answer many people hope for, it's good honest work with results hard to ignore. After you force yourself to overeat for long enough, it becomes impossible to go back to the small and infrequent meals of before ā€” your own appetite is enough to keep up your gaining momentum šŸ¤­
From Sept 2022 to Jan 2023 was when I was working my gut hard to adhere to the schedules, but I loosened up once I upsized my wardrobe a second time and could feel the softness creeping in. My gainer's appetite kept me cruizing until June, gaining an average of 6lbs a month (šŸ„µ) when I started work (at a Frozen Custard shop, no less) which kept me on my feet late at night and made me plateau.
It wasn't until October that I would start pushing myself again, on one Very Horny week where I had the house to myself. I binged every single day, including my first experience drinking melted ice cream (cut with Heavy Cream) šŸ˜µā€šŸ’« which led into a plateau break as I gained 20lbs in 3 months once again.
2024, despite me making this blog, has been predominantly a cruising year. I started at 200lbs, bigger than I had ever expected to get when I first started, so I mainly just eat a lot when I want to, and don't when I don't. Now that I'm in college, both stress eating and a very loving boyfriend join the mix, so we'll wait and see what these next few years have in store for my waistline šŸ˜‰
So, that's the long and short of it! If you're looking to gain, I think you have to push yourself, but make sure you're only doing so in ways you can enjoy. Routine is EVERYTHING, with the end goal that you shouldn't have to make conscious decisions to overeat; it should just be a fact of life šŸ˜Œ I wouldn't personally recommend relying on drinks to fatten up from the very beginning, since those can be easy to get sick of, but they can be valuable tools for plateau breaking in combination with an otherwise gourmand mindset.
Thanks for the ask! And to anyone brave enough to make it through to the end, thank you for reading! I love telling my gainer story, because I like to put it into a more realistic framework than many of the hot and horny stories out there are able to do. As thanks, here's a belly pic just for you! Dont mind the bruises, we just had a little fun yesterday :3
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wooyoungmybelovedhusband Ā· 2 years ago
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Seonghwa would be so whipped throughout the whole time. This man would be so soft, he would whisper sweet nothings into your ear every time you shift in pain or let out a cry. Seonghwa is in full praising mode during this time, he would literally call you all the sweet nicknames in the dictionary. Overall, Park Seonghwa is a soft dom-
"You have to squeeze my hand when it's too much for you, do you understand me, doll?" You nod slowly, moving your hand towards his so you could lock his long fingers with yours. Seonghwa's free hand trails down your naked body before slipping in between your thighs. He had you sprawled out on his lap, placing your bodies in front of a mirror so you could see yourself when he finger-fucked you.
His fingers graze over your clit, and his index finger comes down to press against your clit harshly making you whimper. Seonghwa leans down to prep kisses up your neck, trying to distract you from the pain. "You're doing so well, doll. You took three of my fingers for the first time, I'm sure you can take one more." Your muscles instantly tense up from his words as you squirm in his lap. "Daddy no, t-too much, will be too big."
His hand which was placed on your thigh comes up to ground your hips, preventing you from squirming. "Princess, you know what to do when it's too much. I know you can take it, pretty girl. Now let me do my work." You mewl slowly in submission, finally stopping your hips from squirming around. You immediately bury your face in the crook of his neck when you feel him insert his fourth finger into your hole. "Such a good pretty girl for me."
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[I mean- DO I NEED TO SAY IT THIS MAN IS FREAKING COCKY ABOUT IT.] Compared to Hwa, Joong will definitely be on the teasing side. Man will mock your state the whole time, taking pleasure in the fact you are so tiny and fragile that you need to be trained to take his cock.
Hongjoong's nose traces down your body, his lips leaving kisses down your naked body. His hands caress your sides gently before wandering in between your thighs, he spreads your thighs apart slowly revealing to him your wet cunt. His fingers rub over your clit, spreading your wetness all over your inner thighs. "You're so, so fucking hot like this, babygirl. So fucking tiny." He slips two fingers inside your hole, shoving them deep in you.
Hongjoong leans down to press soft kisses all over your breasts, and he curls up his fingers inside you making you gasp and moan loudly. "You like that babygirl, you like how big my fingers feel in your tiny little cunt?" You whimper lowly, your pussy leaking out more juices around his fingers. Hongjoong curls up his fingers inside you, and his lips latch onto the soft flesh of your breasts. You moan loudly as intense pleasure shoots through your body making your back arch against the bed.
"You look so fucking pretty like this babygirl, squirming and whining just because of my fingers." Hongjoong whispers mockingly against your skin, thrusting his fingers fastly inside your hole. "D-Daddy, g-onna cum-" Before you could finish your sentence, your pussy clenched around his fingers before cumming all over his hands and soaking the silk sheets. "Fuck! That was so hot babygirl."
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Literal Soft dom pt.2! Man would be so damn soft and sweet, bet that he'd be scared inside to hurt you. He will be whispering the softest praises into your ear, while he gives you butterfly kisses over your neck.
"Are you sure about this, princess?" You nod without any hesitation, and Yunho gently pulls you in a kiss, leaning down to your height. His hand snakes around your waist as he pulls you onto his lap making you straddle his thighs. His hands caress up your thighs slowly, his large hands covering your thighs completely. Your breath hitches and you moan into the kiss. His hands slowly move higher, hunching up your skirt around your waist.
Pulling away from the kiss, Yunho trails his kisses down to your neck and his hands move to your clothed clit and instantly slip inside your panties to feel your wet clit. His fingers tease your entrance, spreading your wetness as he rubs circles onto your clit. You let out a loud moan when he slides his fingers into you, "Fuck, you're so tight baby."
His fingers thrust into you at a low pace, his long fingers stroking deep inside your pussy. "My pretty girl looks so fucking cute stuffed full with my fingers." His fingers find your sensitive spot in seconds making you cry out in pleasure. His fingertips thrust against your sweet spot making you clench hard around him. Yunho presses soft kisses on your neck while whispering, "My precious doll."
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Yeo will slightly be cocky about it although I see him as the softest dom. He would be very soft with you tho, giving you loving kisses everywhere and also swooning over how cute you look squirming around for him.
Yeosang pushes you back on the bed gently, as he grabs the thin dildo from the corner of the bed. Placing the toy next to you, Yeosang leans down to press soft pecks on your abdomen. He notices the way your muscles finally relax under his touch before placing the dildo right at your entrance.
You moan when you feel the cold metal make contact with your clit. Yeosang pushes the dildo slightly inside your hole making you grasp and hold onto his biceps. His hand comes down to lock them with yours, as he gives your hand a squeeze. "Relax, Baby. It will all feel good soon." You slightly let loose only for a loud moan to escape your throat when he thrusts up the dildo into you.
Your next words die down in your throat when he pushes up the dildo deep inside you. Yeosang thrusts the metal toy in and out of your hole slowly, stretching you out slowly. Your hips shudder slightly in pleasure as your eyes roll back. Your thighs close around his hands but his hands keep thrusting the toy back and forth. "You're so fucking small princess, can't even take my cock without having me to stretch you out."
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peachhcs Ā· 11 days ago
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macklin definitely invited the to the next game and he plays so well everyoneā€™s like why is mack playing so hard ā€¦.. they donā€™t find out for a while. mack rushed out after the game to find her and no one saw them together
this is kind of short iā€™m sorry šŸ˜µā€šŸ’« but i think itā€™s so funny mack would just disappear after games and the guys would be so confused
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macklin flew across the ice after the puck. the fans in the sap center were on their feet cheering the rookie on as he fought his stick through the guys of the detroit red wings. the younger player was on fire tonight, making two goals already in the first period. not that anyone was complaining, but they wondered what the boy drank or ate earlier to make him play like he was.Ā 
"what's up with him?" eklund leaned over to where will was on the bench.Ā 
"what do you mean?" will wondered, eyes on the game waiting to get called in.Ā 
"i'm not complaining, but celly has been going ham tonight," eklund chuckled and bordeleau heard the two talking, popping himself into the conversation.
"dude, he's been on fire. what'd he drink earlier?" the older player laughed and will didn't have an answer for them nor did he really see a huge difference in his friend's performance. he was just playing like he usually did.Ā 
"i have no idea. he's always this good?" will raised his eyebrow.Ā 
"i mean yeah, but if i didn't know any better, it feels like there's someone special watching him tonight," thomas smirked and then the older guys dropped the conversation before will could respond.Ā 
he became puzzled for a second, thinking back to a few weeks ago when macklin was constantly hiding his phone from him. he was still doing that, but will just sort of let it go knowing mack would never tell him. after hearing eklund and bordeleau talk about it though, will started wondering if what they were saying could have any truth behind it. the blonde glanced behind him for a quick second like he'd see someone in the stands that wound just stand out to him but with the hundreds of fans in the arena, they all looked the same to him. no one was standing out.
unbeknownst to will, blaire was seated four rows up from the bench. she had on a simple sharks t-shirt mack gave to her for the night. she was focused on the game that she didn't see will look back in her direction briefly. she was impressed with mack's two goals so far, a wide grin on her features. he had definitely grown a lot since they were in chicago and shattuck.Ā 
the brunette skated across the ice towards the goal, missing it by just an inch when he passed to his teammate. the fans cheered nonetheless, the whole arena buzzing with excitement. blaire had never been to a hockey game as loud as this one, but she was happy seeing all of these fans cheer her rookie on.Ā 
mack's gaze would occasionally glance towards the stands where blaire was. a smile always found its way to his lips seeing her cheering him on like old times. he also made sure she wouldn't be sitting next to any weirdos that would pester her and the boy still looked up there to make sure she was doing alright. she was content in her seat next to a mom and her kids and two teenage girls on her other side. mack badly wanted to give her a shirt with his name across the back but they hadn't even gotten that far yet, so he had to live with just a plain sharks shirt.Ā 
when the game finished mack met blaire around the back where no fans would see them or any of his teammates. the girl quickly smiled when he came out in his suit and freshly showered.Ā 
"you played so well!" she beamed and the boy smiled.Ā 
"thank you. thanks for coming too," they exchanged a quick hug.
"that was probably the most fun i've ever had a hockey game. i didn't realize how exciting it got in the arena. you'll have to bring me along again sometime," mack thought her smile was to die for.Ā 
"i'm glad you had so much fun. do you wanna grab something to eat before i drop you off back at your dorm?" the brunette wondered mainly because he didn't want the night to be over just yet. blaire flushed, "yeah, i'd like that."
mack grinned and then quickly led then out of the arena before getting caught. by the time will and the rest of the players made it out, the brunette was long gone.Ā 
"where'd our star of the night go?" toffoli looked around when the younger brunette was no where to be seen.Ā 
"who knows. maybe he found some fan to hookup with," bordeleau joked.
"ha! i wouldn't put that past him," eklund chuckled too and will just rolled his eyes. he'd definitely know if mack was hooking up with some fan because mack was bad at keeping secrets and was always telling will about something he learned during the day.Ā 
"thanks for that, bordeleau. we'll catch up with him tomorrow at practice," tyler determined and the others agreed. everyone was pretty tired and wanted to head home knowing they had morning skate tomorrow.Ā 
no one would figure out where mack would disappear to after games until a lot of months later.
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Bunnyā€¦ u know that clip of Nico thatā€™s going around rn the one where a LunĆ© asks ā€œHow was your day, baby?ā€ and he laughs and goes ā€œPerfect, babyā€
Well guess who got the craziest most delulu daydream of phone sex with Nico šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«
Bf!Nico whos overseas or something and u two are calling before you go to bed. What was supposed to be an innocent goodnight call ends up with u having ur hand between ur legs and him in ur ear dirty talking to you, telling u things that make u wetter and wetter. Saying shit that gets your heart pounding like ā€œitā€™s difficult without me there, huh babyā€ or an ā€œI know, baby~ā€ when u whine a little too loud or moan his name.
Maybe heā€™d tease you a little. Making fun of ur pussy thatā€™s so wet he can hear it thru the phone or maybe heā€™d tease you on the fact that you got so horny over just his voice. His beautiful partner with their thighs trembling all over a ā€œperfect, babyā€ when replying to u asking how his day was.
Bf!Nico whoā€™s mouth waters at the pics you send him after you finish. Face and body all flushed, eyes dazed, and thighs soaked.
Bf!Nico who tells you the next morning that heā€™s coming home in a few hours, which is way earlier than heā€™s supposed to.
- šŸ˜µā€šŸ’« anon (i NEED to be sedated)
i had to look up the clip for this when i first got the ask and i LOST MY FUCKING MINDDDD ur so crazy for sending me this truly i cannot believe šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ u ate down with this ask seriously idk if i have much to add
i think nicho is soo the type to talk u thru ur orgasms or guide u thru masturbating. "rub your clit while you finger yourself, just how you like it when i do it.. good girl." loves to hear u get urself off while on the phone with him. and ur so right he def says "i know, baby.." or "shh.. it's okay, baby." cuz he knows u miss him so bad and u need him so so bad. he'd so tease u for getting so turned on and needy when all he did was talk to u, all he had to do was talk about how much he missed u, how pretty u are, and how he can't wait to get home but you truly feel so so deprived. he's such a tease, even the type to ask u to finger yourself and put the phone mic up to it.
when u send pics of ur flushed body and ur sticky fingers thats what really tilts him over the edge. he was already so horny for u after u got yourself off like that but he'd have to send u a pic of himself in return, a pick of his cum splattered all over his toned abs >.<
i could so see him working smth out to where he can get home earlier because he so desperately needs you, like he'd have so much pent up in him that he'd feel like he's going crazy.
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mika-no-sekai-blog Ā· 6 days ago
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Word count: +4300
Warnings: SA, abuse (kinda Cinderella vibes), almost rape, seriously 18+ pleasešŸ™
This was written only because few scenes, that will be in the next part, is occupying my mind for weeks now and I need to get rid of that to make space for anything else. At this point I have no idea what to do with this anyway. I have potential villain/s and that's it. Nothing more - I still didn't get much further, only a hazy outline of story that could work, but it's still more than I had when I started to write Heal me
This most likely isn't up to everyone's taste and it's a bit raw and harsh (like winter), but who knows. You might like it nonetheless
Hopefully it will help me get rid of whatever is eating on me since August, so I can again be productive and write something..different Anyway, enjoyšŸ«°
Edit: as I read it after a long time I surprised even myself.. in many ways =_= Where did this come from - seriously? Sorry if there are still mistakes. I usually do at least five rounds of checking before posting anything, but this.. I can't possibly do another round. Don't tell me I didn't warn you. 18+ really!
Let's start new year with angst šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«
Part II
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I stood by the window, wrapped in warm fur. My eyes roamed over the crumbled ruins of houses disappearing under layer of heavy snow behind the inner walls, icicles longer and thicker than my forearm, glittered in sun. Silver snowflakes danced above that graveyard of half-fallen stone walls that were sticking up like black fangs surrounded by pure whiteness.
These lands used to be prosperousĀ and lively, dozens of families lived under the governance of my father, the lord whose family was assigned to protect the border with Autumn Court. Because of the good relationship with the lords on the other side of border, father's family used to be one of the strongest and most important in entire Winter Court. But that was story of past.
Everything started to crumble when my father took a lady from Autumn as a bride. Like ice and fire, people of Winter never fully trusted the wieldersĀ of fire from Autumn, despising them; looking down through the fingers at my poor mother. RumoursĀ spread faster than plague, infecting every heart on its way. Nobody cared they were true mates, it didn'tĀ matter.
The day I was born was the day when everything went to Hell. People started to leave, moving to who-knows-where. When my powers manifested for the first time, they started to run away in big groups until just few were left behind, mostly only vassals and families of staff at our castle. Fire wielder born in Winter.. it was as if my father brought in a demon disguised as one of them. As soon as I started to notice and understand the side glances, the disgust and even the rage on faces of faeries around me, I swore to never again use the magic circling in my veins and buried it deep down. Of course, every act against the nature demands a price to be paid. My price was almost constant migraine and often nose bleeding, yet it was better than using the powers.
I was three when my mother suddenly died. She was weak and unwell ever since I was born and the harsh blizzard that hit whole Winter Court that year, was too much for her; or that'sĀ what I was told. She was always cold and it caused her a great suffering - something we had in common.
During the following months my father was rapidly withering and aged a lot during that time, refusing to eat until I burst into tears, scared he would leave me, too. That broke him and finally, he ate. He started trying, living to take care of me.
In his efforts to protect me and save the name and positionĀ of our family, when I was ten, he married a widow with son from prestigious family. The boy was eighteen at the time. Ever since they started to live with us, I felt his intensive gaze glued to my back anywhere I went. I tried to ignore it, really tried, but it was getting worse and worse lately.
Faint sounds of jingle bells scared away pictures of the past and all dark thoughts and I straightenedĀ up, watching the horizon. At first I saw nothing, only blinding whiteness. I squinted, listening carefully. No, it wasn'tĀ a cry of cold wind, that were really jingle bells and they were quickly getting closer. And then I finally saw it.
Pair of reindeerĀ passed through strait between the steep mountains that were protecting this valley, hauling huge sleight seemingly made of the polished ice. When they reached the first ruins, I recognised the emblem of High Lord's family at the sleigh's side. I immediately rushed from my bedchambers and ran to father's study at the ground floor. By the time I reached its doors, the sleigh were already passing the gates.
"Father!" I heaved. "We have guests! Message from the High Lord!"
Father looked up from the stack of documents, slightly startled, putting down the glasses. "It must only seem to you, sweetheart. There's no way-"
"Guests! We have guests from capital!" My stepmother shrieked as soon as she opened the doors. Then she noticed me and wrinkled her nose in disapproval. Despite my father's belief, she never liked me nor consideredĀ me her daughter. She managed to suppressĀ her hate in presence of him, but she never omitted the oportunity to hurt me, verbally or physically. "I thought that you are unwell when you didn'tĀ join us for the breakfast," her lips curled into cruel grin. "You look well to me."
"I saw royal sleigh from the window," I mumbled, averting my eyes. She hated when I even merely looked at her. Once she claimed that the disgusting fire in my pale eyes burnt her and punished me for it. Whether it was true I didn'tĀ know. Except of the fire magic, I looked like a normal High Fae of Winter Court. My long white hair had slightly silver shade, my skin was pale and eyes had color of frozen river.
Father stood up and swiftly headed to doors. "If it is so, we have to welcome them accordingly. Where's Zima? Are maids preparing the refreshments?"
"I instructed them to brew the best tea we have and prepare some warm refreshments on my way. Zima is training, but I sent butlerĀ to call him in," Morena replied as she hurried after father. I followed after them, keeping my distance.
The second she mentioned him, her son appeared. He observed the situation and his cold, almost white eyes landed on me. He took his time as usual. It felt as if he was trying to peel off all of the clothes from my body. Cold shiver ran down my spine and I tugged the fur cloak even closer.
"I was told that we have visit from capital. Is it true?" his raspy cold voice caused that I instinctively cringed.
"Yes, dear," Morena looped her hand to his arm, excited. "Royal family's ignored us for years now! This has to be some good news finally!"
My father sighed. "I have bad feeling about it.."
Chirping, Morena led Zima to the foyer. I matched my steps with father. "It certainly will be okay. No need to worry," I smiled gently.
Father only pressed lips into thin line. We arrived just as the sleigh stopped at the stairs and importantly looking male in thick fur cape got out.
"I'm Isen, High Lord's main advisor," he said without paying any respect to us. He was looking down the length of his nose at us with frown, then his eyes slowly wandered all around the mostly empty, dark and cold hall. Compared to the High Lord's castle, ours had to look like a nest of poor villagers to him. That much was clear from the strict lines around his mouth that only deepened. "I brought a message from His Highness. Can I have a word with you, lord Cherith? In private, of course." His gaze stopped on me and one of his brows raised as he surveyed me from feet to head with almost interest.
I held my breath, looking down as ethics dictated. However, he wasn'tĀ the only one looking at me. Morena's rage was stagingĀ into me like daggers and my stepbrother's sick possessivenessĀ made me feel even more uncomfortable.
Father's brows knitted with worry and he cleared his throat.
"Yes, sure. Please, follow me to my study."
"How about a cup of warm tea?" Morena offered with sly smile.
"There's no need of tea. I don'tĀ plan on staying here long," the adviser declined coldly.
Morena paled and froze on spot. "As you wish, your-"
They were gone before she finished the sentence, the soft click of doors echoed in hallway. She turned to me, baring her teeth.
"What was that? What have you done to catch his interest? You little witch!"
"I did nothing," I tried to defend myself, already knowing what would follow.
She grabbed my elbow harshly. "Come!"
I was resisting, but she pulled me all the way to the closest lounge. Zima followed without word with perverted grin. He loved to watch my punishments. He locked the doors and warded them.
Morena pushed me to the table. "Pull your skirts up!"
"But I did nothing bad, I-"
"You dared to look at me with your dirty eyes today. That alone is enough good reason for punishment! Hurry up, if you don'tĀ want it to get worse."
Tears stung my eyes. No matter what I would do, I wouldn'tĀ get out of here without punishment. Even if I tried to call for help, all staff at this castle ignored me. I couldn't ran from this, so I did as I was told.
Zima stepped away from the doors for better view and his mother took out thin wand she was hiding in her skirts. As usual, she whisked the back of my thighs until she drew blood.
I bit on my lower lip, suppressing the cries of pain, my fingers fisted the edge of the table. I wouldn't give her such satisfaction. Silent tears rolled down my cheeks - that was the only sign of my protest.
When Morena was done with me, she simply left, immediately losing interest in me. Though, my punishment wasn'tĀ over. Zima was still in the room. I suspected that his mother knew very well what he was lately doing to me, yet she never stopped him, never told him anything.
"Don't dare to move," he hissed as he stepped even closer.
His trousers fell down and I could hear strange noises from behind. Thankfully, I didn'tĀ see him nor what he was doing there. NeverthelessĀ I closed my eyes and clenched my teeth, the worst part was just about to come yet. My fingers balled into fists. I could feel his hand on my legs, his fingers digging into my flesh as he groaned. And then it started. He pressed his hips against my clothed back, rocking back and forth as something thick and hard poked me, sliding down my underwear and between my thighs. Both of his hands landed on my sides, holding me down. I held my breath trying to block his disgusting moans and groans. Once a single sob escaped me, I was unable to stop the following ones.
I didn'tĀ know how long it took until he finally groaned for the last time, something wet covered my inner thighs and he pulled his trousers up. He leaned over me, whispering into my ear, slightly breathless. "One day, you will be mine. Truly mine. You can't escape me. I'm looking forward that day."
The doors closed behind him and I shivering pulled my skirts down and fell to my knees. I curled into a ball on the floor and cried. The stinging pain of beating slowly subsided as the shallow wounds healed. However my soul was behind the point of mending for years now. I had enough of this. I couldn'tĀ take it anymore, but what could I do? Where could I go to get rid of my stepmother and especially of her disgusting son. Bile rose in my throat and I crawled to the window, pushing it open.
The freezing cold air filled my lungs and few snowflakes landed on my cheeks, mixing with the tears that already started to turn into ice. This kind of pain was welcome. At least for a moment, I could forget. I sighed heavily. What kind of life would I have if my mother didn'tĀ die? I wondered. She for sure wouldn'tĀ let anyone treat me like this. For her, I wouldn'tĀ be nuisance nor the monster.
The sharp pain split my head and my vision went black. I hissed, massaging my temples even though I knew it wouldn'tĀ work. A wave of nausea made me empty my stomach. I again closed the window and wrapped myself in the fur cloak. Slowly breathing in and out, I sat down and waited until it got a bit better.
After a while I heard hurried steps at hallway and dared to peek out. It seemed that the lord Isen was done here, leaving. I hurried to the foyer, wipingĀ my mouth and adjusting my appearance.
"I hope that you understood the instructions and you and your family will act according the High Lord's will," I heard his reserved voice as I got closer. My stepmother and her son were already there, waiting. Morena seemed to be confused, but she didn'tĀ even look my direction as I joined them. Her son narrowed eyes on me in malice. However, it was my father who worried me. His shoulders were slumped, he was paler than usual, terror and pain marking his face.
"Yes," was the only thing he said. Lord Isen immediately turned away without second glance at my family. His eyes landed on me for a short moment though and he was off. Reindeer shook their heads, ringing the jingle bells and the snow creaked as the sleighs moved.
"What did he come for?" Morena asked the second the entrance doors were firmly shut.
My father only shook his head and his sad eyes searched for me. "My sweet little girl, can you accompany me for a while?"
I was already eighteen yet he still called me like that. My heart filled with love. "Sure, dad." I took his big, warm hand and he led me back to his study.
"What's going on?" Morena demanded, following us, her son at her heels.
"Later. I'll tell you later," father stopped them with a simple gesture.
We walked down the hallway in silence. Father locked the door of his study and pulled me into a tight hug. He let out a shudderingĀ sigh.
"What happened?" I asked softly, holding him just as close.
Father was still silent. When it already seemed that he wouldn'tĀ answer, he took a deep breath. "High Lord thinks that it's time for his heir to get married," his voice was strangelyĀ raspy. "And he chose you to be the bride."
I froze in disbelief, lump raising in my throat. I felt sick again. "Me?" My voice was weak and shaky, mirroring my terror. "Why me?"
"I thought it's long time forgotten and royal family already crossed out our name from the family tree," he sighed, leading me to the small sofa near to the hearth with flickering flames. "Long, very long time ago, royal family needed someone reliable to protect our Court from the Autumn as the natural barrier of mountains didn't seem to be enough. The High Lord decided to entrust such important task to his cousin who he was very close with. He gave him new name and extensive land at the border. It's a position that is inherited in our family for generationsĀ now."
Even though I understood what he was implying, I still didn'tĀ see the reason why to choose me. Father had to read it in my eyes because he squeezed both of my hands in his big one and smiled sadly.
"High Lord needs to strengthenĀ the position of the heir and the royal family. Unfortunately, there isn'tĀ any suitable lady between their close relatives, so he decided to call upon our ancient bonds and wants you. The noble families in power aren'tĀ very reliable these days and keep plottingĀ against the royal family. But we, despite everything, still keep on our oath and serve well, so High Lord counts on our loyalty now."
I swallowed hard. "Do-.. Does he know about..?"
Father nodded. "He knows about Evalyn, your mother, but that'sĀ all. He, as the rest of the court, has no idea about your powers. By your appearance, he probably assumes you took after me."
"If he finds out..?"
"I tried to object," father sighed heavily, tears shining in his eyes. "Unfortunately, it isn'tĀ a proposal. It's an order. You are the only reminder of my beloved Evalyn I have. I swore to protect you, my little girl, but the moment you get married, I won't be able to fulfilĀ the promise... I can't even imagine what will happen once young Kallias or his father finds out about your magic."
He pressed face to my hands, cool wetness trickling into my palms. "I thought I have enough time to find someone kind who would love you and take good care of you somewhere far from this Court. Somewhere where you could live freely without being looked down. But I failed you.. I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry, my precious child.."
His words were breaking my heart and I wept with him. He was trying so hard for me all these years. Because of me he lost almost everything, yet he never blamed me for it and always thought so dearly of me. And now, he was even apologising.
"Please, don't, papa." His shoulders trembled and he started to cry even harder. "You protected me whole my life."
Suddenly, he raised his head, pale eyes wild. "You have to go. I'll send you to your family in Autumn Court. They will hide you - royal family won't be able to forcibly take you. Not without risking a war. We can say that you ran away. Yes. That could work." He stood up, pacing.
"Papa, no," I stood up too. "You can't do that! Royal family could take it as a betrayal and punish you for that."
"Who cares what will happen to me? As long as you are safe, everything would be okay."
I hugged him, crying to his shoulder, willing him to understand.
"I care, dad," I sobbed. "I won't allow it. I'll rather go to Mountain Home and endure it. I will live as up to now and-"
"You can't not use your powers for the rest of your life. It's too dangerous. It could kill you. It's already causing you so much pain."
I looked him into the eyes, determined. He was my only living family, the only person I held dear in my life. I wouldn'tĀ let anything bad happen to him. I couldn't. "No! I can do it. I wil go!"
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It was already late at night when I finally returned to my bedchambers. I was exhausted. It took some time to persuade my father, but at last he agreed. It hurt so much to see him in such a state, so sad and broken. However, there was no way around this. I had to do as I was ordered by High Lord and marry his son, Kallias.
At dinner, father broke the news to Morena and her son. Morena made a big scene, but over all she seemed happy to get rid of me. Zima took it seemingly calmly. He didn'tĀ say a word and frowning stared at his plate with dinner he hadn'tĀ touched. I had a bad feeling about that, his words still ringing in my ears.
One day, you will be mine. You can't escape me.
Maybe this wedding was the getaway from this situation I prayed for, given by the Mother herself. The question was whether it was reward or different form of punishment though. Anyway, I had no saying in it and had to obey.
After the dinner, I spent the rest of the evening at father's study, talking with him about everything and nothing. He wasn'tĀ a drinker, yet he opened a bottle of wine and offering me a glass, we gazed to the flames in hearth until we grew too tired and called it a night.
I reached for the door handle of my bedroom, the metal cold in my hand. I twisted it and opened the door, already excited to dive under the thick and warm comforter while soft crackling of fire would lull me to sleep. I halted as the gust of freezing cold air rolled out from inside, biting into my flesh. I suppressedĀ the urge to tug the fur cloak closer and looked around, or at least tried to. Curtains were closed, the room was completely dark except of few last coals in hearth. I heard movement from somewhere near my bed, soft rustling of the sheets. Someone or something was here.
A pale big hand with long fingers shot out from the darkness, grasped my arm and pulled me in. The door closed with loud click, followed by the sound of lock. I was trapped. I was so scared I couldn't make a single cry as I was nudged backward and fell on the bed. The person straddledĀ me, trapping me under their heavy body, hand on each side of my head. The smell of strong alcohol filled my nose.
"You can't escape me."
I cringed at the hoarse deep voice, the voice I knew. Whole my body started to shiver. I clenched my teeth, but even that couldn't stop their chatter. It was Zima, my very drunk step-brother.
"You are mine and you always will be."
His cold fingers wrapped around my throat, slightly squeezing as if testing it. Then they slowly slid down to my chest and under the dress, leaving a burning pain wherever his skin met with mine. He yanked on the collar with such strengthĀ that the fabric had torn. The freezing cold clenched its claws into my skin and I cried out in pain and horror.
"I won't let some brat to take what is mine. To touch what belongs to me. This all is mine, only mine."
He sounded like a crazy man. His cold hands cupped my breasts and pushed them together while his face nuzzled between them. His wet tongue licked my skin and sucked on my nipple and I cried and screamed. The pain his cold touch caused me, was agonizing, much worse than the horror of being so helpless. I tried to push him away, punching his ribs and anywhere I could reach, yet it seemed he didn't even notice.
I was dizzy and nauseous. Just when I thought I wouldn'tĀ be able to take it anymore and faint, the doors in connected sitting room opened and a maid called out.
"My lady, your father is sending you a tea! I brought also your medicine!"
Zima stilled, listening.
"My lady?"
He cursed and his weight disappeared. The window on the other side of room opened, letting in even more of the coldness and he was gone. I managed to sit up and pull the fur cloak over the torn dress with trembling fingers just before the door opened and maid peeked in.
"My lady..? For Mother's sake!" she wailed. "Why it is so freezing cold here? My lady, are you okay? Why is even the window ajar?"
It was Lucy, a young maid who began to work here just recently. Unlike older maids, she was very kind to me and often came to help me dress or brought me a tea. She immediately ran to the window and shut it close, locking it. She turned on few lights and add logs to the hearth. When the fire came to live again and flames started to dance over the log, she rushed to me.
"My lady, are you all right? You are so cold and shivering. What happened?"
I tried to hold it back, but when she started to rub my arms and back to warm me up, I burst into tears.
"I'm so happy to see you, Lucy."
"Everything is okay now," she comforted me. "What happened?"
I cried even harder. I couldn't tell her. I couldn't tell anyone about this. Who would believe me anyway. And the moment my father would find out.. I didn'tĀ even want to think how he would react. It would break his weakening heart for sure. I didn'tĀ want to lose him. He was my only family.
Lucy just pressed her lips together and brought in the tea.
"Here. Drink this, my lady. It will warm you up."
I reached for the cup. The fur cloak a bit loosened and Lucy gasped.
"My lady! Your neck! You have frostbite all over your throat!"
The breath hitched in my throat, panic rising. I had to come up with something and very fast. If she noticed that it was in shape of a hand, that my dress was torn and the wounds on my chest.. She was clever girl, she would piece together what happened.
"I-it's nothing. It will heal in no time. Could you prepare me a bath, please? I'm really cold."
She nodded, but her gaze lingered on my neck, brows furrowed.
"It's only good that you will leave soon," she mumbled and left.
I swallowed hard. She knew. With such, all servants probably knew, yet they never said anything. They never helped me nor said anything to my father. When it came to the servants who worked here since before I was born, it wasn'tĀ so surprising. They couldn't care less for me. However, when even those who came recently, didn'tĀ say a word.. well.. It had to be because of Morena. She most likely threatened them all.
Dread washed over me. Maybe after all it was really good that I would leave soon. If only to get rid of Zima and his mother. But what about my father? What would happen to him after that? More I thought about it, more restless I grew. If only father could stay in the capital with me.
That night I couldn't sleep. The bath helped a great deal and warmed me up, yet I couldn't stop shivering, jolting at the slightest sound. The wounds healed really fast, however my heart needed much longer.
Most of the time before the day of the wedding, I spent locked in my chambers or with father in his study. I couldn't relax even when Lucy told me that Zima left the castle and wouldn'tĀ be back before I would leave. Last days at my home I spent in constant state of alarm and haste, preparing to leave my old life and to survive the new one in capital with faeries I'd never met.
And at last, the final day of my current struggles came.
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withahappyrefrain Ā· 3 months ago
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ugh medical kink bob giving pussy inspections and how clinical and professional heā€™d be about it with the whole glasses and stethoscope and gloves getup is so hot. heā€™d get so into it and make a whole roleplay with your wide eyed innocent patient act and heā€™d ask you questions about your body and your pussy while heā€™s thoroughly touching every part of you and massaging your breasts and checking your heartbeat during the physical ā€œexamā€ until youā€™re dripping and then he finally puts his hands between your legs. itā€™s especially hot when heā€™s been gone a while bc it makes the reunion so much more heightened and the teasing buildup to orgasm so intense. heā€™d make you cum hard and stay composed and focused like itā€™s just a normal doctorly thing while youā€™re gasping and moaning and squirting all over his hands and then heā€™ll take his pants off and get inside you because he thinks this treatment will make you feel good and that stretching you out will take care of the tingling between your legs and all the wetness youā€™re complaining about. maybe heā€™d be on the receiving end sometimes too and youā€™ll give dr floyd a taste of his own medicine. sorry for rambling i have a lot of feelings about this!!
Zero notes, you fucking ate with this!!!
I can see him ordering scrubs to be honest. He is committed!!
I think he also likes the idea of roleplaying as the doctor and nurse, whose tension has been building up for a long time and finally y'all can't take it anymore, you must have each other!
@delopsias wrote a fic where reader was the doctor and Bob was the patient! It altered my brain chemistry, I think about it often šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«
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rinstaro Ā· 2 years ago
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I want big daddy fierces face between my legs<33
mmmmm gentleman tongue fucking me till I cry
Yummy.
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oh bestie same !!!!! tmi but its been like,,,,,,,, a week and a half since i got my coochie ate !!!! THATS TOO LONG !!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like fierce would be sooooooooo good at it <33 i make the rules and itā€™s completely true
cw: mostly just thirsting šŸ˜µā€šŸ’« coochie eating obvi, overstim but u tell him to this time!!! he's just,,,,,, meow, reader has a vagina no pronouns!! short and sweet cause iā€™m getting back into The Groove Of Writing
minors do not interact.
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you didnā€™t have to beg him, just a ā€˜pleaseā€™ would suffice. heā€™d do anything you asked of him. so why were you so needy? well, it was simple in your eyes. your boyfriend is fine as fuck.
he didnā€™t even have to do anything and you were drooling over him. he was tall, strong, and unbearably handsome. though, those werenā€™t his strongest points.
no, your favorite thing about him is how gently he treated you. his touches were delicate as if he was scared youā€™d shatter beneath him. when he held you, heā€™d repeatedly ask if it was okay, if he was hurting you in any way. your absolute favorite was the way he spoke to you and only you, that special tone of voice he had reserved just for his darling.
fierce held strength beyond comprehension, and wouldnā€™t dare hurt a hair on your head. of course, unless you asked.
ā€œi want it til i cry. pretty please?ā€
ā€œyou shouldnā€™t even have to ask. come here, beloved.ā€
oh, and it was easy to get him between your legs. it was his second favorite place, only coming second to being in your arms. though having your hands in his hair was more than fine, for now.
he adored how you sounded when he had his tongue in your cunt. sweet little cries of his name, telling him how good it felt. his hands rested at your waist, helping you grind into his mouth as he tongue fucked you. you were drooling, tears threatening to spill out of your eyes. ā€œf-fuhā€” oh myā€” more! please!ā€
he groaned softly. your pussy tasted like heaven to him, and you were letting him eat it for as long as he wanted. it sounded lewd, your moans mixed with the sounds of him devouring your cunt, but it didnā€™t embarrass you much when you were on your third orgasm and still begging for more.
your lover doesnā€™t care how much you tug and pull, boss him around and tell him to go faster. you asked him to give it to you til you cried, and his desire to serve you came before everything else. even his ownā€¦ needs. little did he know, you had planned to return the favor later on.
fierce lets you card your fingers through his hair, pull his hair, grind onto his tongue, all of it. all he asks is that you donā€™t hold back when you cum. he wants it all over his face, all over the sheetsā€” yeah. because to him, nothing beats the feeling of your creamy cum dripping down his chin.
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sashasspace Ā· 9 months ago
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Blind dating adventures šŸ“±ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„
This is all in Princessā€™ POV šŸŽ€
Princess is a baker living in Newcrest and sheā€™s on a blind dating app sharing her experience while comparing her dates to baking experiences!
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1. Terrance Dreamer šŸ’Š
Blind Date 7/10
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After going on my date, my bestie told me heā€™s a kleptomaniac, a crimelord and works for basemental, but the chemistry was there and he charmed me until he stole from a kid during our date and his girlfriend/baby mama is my co-workerā€¦ and this is my first experience on this blind dating appšŸ«£. Heā€™s like an old cake that still tastes good, but after you ate it, youā€™re wondering if it was worth itā€¦
2. Gunther MunchšŸ“
Blind date 2/10
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Felt like I was hanging with a friend. He barely talked about anything outside of writing and kept staring at meā€¦ I cut the date short, but he wanted a second chance, and I gave it to him.. spoiler alert he tried to act like he lived in a mansionšŸŒš. Itā€™s like biting into a Boston cream donut and thereā€™s mustard in itā€¦ terrible!
3. Devan Lee šŸ©ŗ
Blind date 10/10
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Maybe because lives down the hall, but it was so much easier being on this date. This was the first date I had shared kiss with a sim I met from this app. It was great and Devan felt like a good friend too, but with an added romance. I am crushing so hard just writing thisšŸ¤¤ā€¦ itā€™s like baking cinnamon rolls, heā€™s comfort, warm and consistent.
4. Mark Eggleston šŸŽØ
Blind date 1/10
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I wasnā€™t able to give Mark a full chance because my estranged father crashed the date, but I found out he got a girl pregnant a day after we went on the date, so heā€™s like a plain muffinā€¦ forgettable
5. Krishna šŸ„£
Blind Date 0/10
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If I can rate it lower, I would. It was my first time in Del Sol Valley. I was swiping and I thought he was relatable because we were both out of town, but we went from arguing, dancing and kissing. It was confusing. Maybe it's time I do traditional dating because blind dating apps ain't it either LOL! Heā€™s like a fish pieā€¦ just wrong!
6. Kiet Preedee ā™Ÿļø
Blind date 10/10
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After taking some time off from blind dating, Iā€™m back again LOL (don't judge). Kiet is mature, but heā€™s also really immature with the corny cringe jokes. However, he makes me feel thingsā€¦ things Iā€™m not fully sure I understand either. It gets weirder because we woohooā€™d after our first date which got me pregnant šŸ«£. Kiet reminds me of a Black Forest cake, yummy, a lil tart (cringe), but so hearty and full of surprise.
7. Brendan Choi šŸ“‰
Blind Date 0/10
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I needed something fun and Brendan caught my eye, but the date went so awful. I thought because we kinda knew each other, it wouldnā€™t be so awkwardā€¦. Letā€™s say the worst possible thing a date can do he didā€¦. If you thought woohooing something else, you won a million simoleons šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«. It was like baking a soufflĆ©, except you forgot to turn the oven on and well it's hours laterā€¦ will it come out right?
If you want to watch Princess Ribbonsā€™ life, click here!
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