#i asked like 12 other people and the only one who thinks its weird is santa

[feral-ass-raccoon]

having aphantasia is so fuckin trippy actually bc i just

- what do you mean when people said "picture this" they meant it. like actually meant it in a literal sense

- yea i know my oc's designs in theory obviously but when i put it down on paper it doesn't look right. no i can't 'see' it in my mind. what

- do i know what my conscience[s] are saying??? yes. am i actually hearing them??? no wtf [not sure if this counts since i think aphantasia is more about the visual thinking but oh well]

- can i describe a honeycrisp apple in extreme detail?? also yes. no i am not seeing the apple i just know what it looks like

- people with photographic memories. that cannot be real. what in the actual fuck you can pull up images of things you've seen/done on command?????? there's no way

idk its just wild that some people can see things. in their head. when they think abt it. sounds fake but okay

[sweetflanfiction]

Asymetrical Symphony - Part 14

Universe: Arcane (LOL)

Pairing: Viktor x reader

Summary: You had been on the rooftop with Jayce and the Herald and somehow you were sent to a place where things can be different with your help

Disclaimers and Warnings: If you want me to tag you on the chapters let me know! Also leave a comment with your thoughts :D Not finished, not proofread. English isn't my 1st language. All I know about LOL is from google and all I know about Arcane is taken from the show, so inacuracies will be plenty. I have a sort of idea on how to I'm gonna go with magic and runes, so bear with me. The reader will be written as GN (going by they/them) to get everyone involved, but if you see any discrepancies let me know.

A.N: I've made some cute headers for the thing!!! What do you guys think??

Part 1 • Part 2 • Part 3 • Part 4 • Part 5 • Part 6 • Part 7 • Part 8 • Part 9 • Part 10 • Part 11 • Part 12 • Part 13

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The respite that was felt after the council decision was welcome, but at the same time it felt very tenuous. Because of your knowledge, it always felt like things were always about to go downhill. It didn’t make you paranoid per se, but it consistently felt like there was a hitch that needed to be scratched somewhere.

The sun was already high when you made your way to the Academy. You had scheduled an appointment to supposedly check on your mother's commission. According to Jayce, everyone who entered that lab after the council decided to supervise it had to be accounted for. 

You asked for the visitor pass at the reception, adjusting your shoulder bag and smiling at the man sitting there.

The morning had been good; your audition for the orchestra had gone amazing, and you were now headed to butt heads with your two favorite brainiacs after leaving your mother on a date with her loving partner.

Today was going to be good.

The door to the lab was ajar, but you knocked, the reflex to open it speaking a rune thwarted as you heard more than the two familiar voices inside. 

“Come in.” Jayce’s voice boomed, and you walked inside.

You tried to keep the good spirits when you noticed not just Salo but Ambessa and Rictus inside the room. 'Trying' being the key word.

You felt your face contort into turmoil as your eyes landed on the general’s bodyguard. His eyes turned back to you in a blank, nonchalant expression. In your head, the words ‘I know how you die’ kept replaying, like a broken lullaby.

The sound of glass shattering made your head snap to the windows of the lab. The skies had turned a deep, dark, grayish purple, the room darkening as well, and the window of the lab kept cracking. The sound of the glass grinding going up in volume. In the middle of the crack, a purple glowing rune appeared. Ragged and jagged and angry.

You tilted your head and kept staring at it. It was almost hypnotic, a weird tingling in your gloved hand. You wanted to use it, and you wanted to use it now.

It was a feeling unlike any other rune appearance. It was a pull to do it; you needed to do it.

You heard someone call your name in the distance, but the pull was too strong. Golden fingertips came into view as they grabbed your arm.

Without thinking, you twisted your arm around the hand and quickly moved it down to escape its grasp. Following the movement, you shoved a hand out to push it out, only to be snapped out of your headspace by the sound of a slap on a cold metal surface and another hand on your wrist.

Blinking, the space around you got back to normal. Rictus stared at you, one of his eyebrows raised, and you did the same, the mask of civility gone and a scowl now etched on your face.

“Rictus…let the heir to the Rainemoure house go…” Ambessa’s voice cut through the silence. Rictus' grip on your wrist slackened, and your arm fell to your side. 

Your gaze shifted to the other people in the room, everyone staring at you in confusion. 

“I…” you started, trying to move your face to a more neutral expression. “I apologize; I don’t like being touched.”

“Then maybe you should acknowledge when someone calls your name.” Salo said, and you nodded, slowly coming to your senses, putting the mask back on.

“I apologize. It’s been a long...morning. You looked at both scientists.

They were both wearing the same worried look. Jayce’s eyes kept shifting from Rictus to you and back, and you noticed he was slowly releasing the handle of a hammer. Viktor was staring at you, trying to decipher what it was that had happened, his cane standing mid-way through a step.

“I completely forgot that you had an appointment.” Jayce said, sneakily moving the hammer away from his hand, trying to divert attention.

“It’s alright. I’ll be at the cafeteria; I haven’t had lunch.” You quickly put your hands up, trying to get away from the lab.

“I’ll accompany you.”. Viktor blurted out.

“I’m sure they can make their way there by themselves. This takes priority.” Salo scoffed, looking you up and down.

“Councillor Salo is correct.” You smiled, mask fully back on. “I do apologize, General. I didn’t mean to surprise or harm your bodyguard.”

She fully turned to you and gave you a wolfish grin, tilting her head to the side.

“No need for apologies. He can take it.” Her eyes twitched as she tried to peek back behind the curtain.

Forcefully, but gracefully, you turned to Rictus.

“I am sorry.” You told him, trying with all your might to not grit your teeth, and he nodded. “Well, I’ll see you two in a bit.”

You waved as you walked out the door before making a dash to the elevator and just standing against a corner of the well-lit box, taking several deep breaths.

Aside from the sudden encounter, the feeling of that rune still lingered. It was like a hunger that would only be satisfied when you devoured it, and at the same time, it felt like a caress, stroking your soul, telling you everything would be fine when you spoke it. It was seared into your mind, and yet you didn’t want to speak it.

The elevator pinged, and you walked out directly to the cafeteria, where your objective lay. Or stood. 

The Academy’s Grand Piano was donated by the PSO. In your universe, it was a shiny black beast with ivory keys. In this universe, it was a matte grey delicate piece that was perfectly tucked into a corner of the cafeteria.

You walked to the small counter that separated the tables from the service area. A young man was behind it, leaning into the counter reading a book and scribbling something in a notebook. A student. Knocking gently on the counter with your knuckles, so as not to frighten him, you watched as even so he jumped a little. He looked up at you, sighing deeply in annoyance.

“Good day, what can I get you??” He marked the book and looked at you, trying to be courteous and failing.

Ordering something quick to snack on, you looked at the piano as the man started to prepare the food.

“Is the piano tuned?” You nodded towards the instrument.

“Yes.”

“Can anyone play it?” 

“Depends.” He placed the latte mug in front of you. “If a person were to just slam on the keys and call that ‘playing it,’ then no…”

“What if a person might just know a bit about it?”

“It’s all yours…”

Little did he know that in your timeline, that piano had been, in fact, yours. Your father donated it to the orchestra, and the orchestra donated it to the Academy. 

You grabbed the mug and the small dish with your sandwich and walked to the piano.

“Do you have any requests?” You asked the kid behind the counter, and he shrugged.

“Something that doesn’t sound like a cat screeching.”

“I can do that.”

You sat at the piano, placing your food on a small table nearby. The audition this morning made you remember how much you enjoyed playing.

It reignited something in you. Playing at home, with your mother and Wyllah listening, was nice, but sitting on a stage, with the spotlight on you and people who had never heard you play sitting there, was another experience.

It soothed you, removing any trace of anger or worry the last few minutes had caused you.

Vivaldi - Winter (The Four Seasons)

Placing your fingers on the keys, they moved on their own. Touching the ivory keys in sync with the music in your head. Much like the runes, this was something that, after learning to do, you did without thinking about it. Your brain played the song, and your fingers moved on the piano or any other instrument you had learned to play. 

And much like the runes, as you added a note to the melody, it became enriched and more intricate. Your hands flew over the black and white keys like muscle memory.

As you kept playing, you looked at the kid behind the bar who had fully stopped what he was doing and looked at you. In a second his impressed expression changed to a blank one, but you saw his little grin as he shrugged.

There was a small crowd of students that had followed the sound and sat on the tables looking at you. Some were eating while others were trying to study.

“Sorry…” You looked at a girl who was looking at you, a book opened in front of her. She smiled and shook her head.

“It’s nice.” She answered. “Please keep going.”

You straightened your back and kept playing. Sometimes you’d play something more upbeat and then go back to something calmer. You’d banter with the young bartender while you played. 

Debussy - Clair de lune

After a few songs, you looked up to see both scientists standing under the arch of the cafeteria entrance looking impressed. Viktor walked towards the piano, followed closely by Jayce.

“I just might start coming to the cafeteria more often…” Viktor announced, leaning into his cane when he got near you.

“You should; the service is quite exceptional…” You said it loud enough that the student behind the bar could hear it.

“Flattery will get you everywhere!” He said, not taking his eyes off his notes.

Jayce grabbed two chairs on his way over and mentioned one to Viktor while sitting on the other. His face had a little concern painted on it.

“What happened up there?” He immediately zeroed in on you, and you sighed.

“Talking about beating around the bush.” You gave Viktor a look, and he shrugged.

“The rage you had in your face when you looked between Rictus and Ambessa…it was murderous.” Jayce whispered. “And then you punched him in the chest.”

“It was a slap at best.” Viktor corrected, placing the cane between his knees, Jayce shooting him a dirty look.

“Listen…” He took a deep breath. “I understand things are... weird for you. Different places, different customs. But that can’t happen, not while Hextech is hanging on the line.”

“It’s not just that…” You sighed and got closer to the edge of the bench. “There was a rune in your lab…”

They exchanged a look, and both got closer, leaning into their knees. The sight of the three of you huddled together must have been something.

“It was different…Like…” You played a few high notes on the piano and then slammed a hand on the low notes. “This…”

Everyone in the room stopped what they were doing to look at you, the sudden sound catching their attention.

“I don’t know what it was, but..." You tried to explain, "Normally they appear when I need them, and I wouldn’t feel the pressure of using them… but this... this one demanded to be used, like it needed it. Like I needed it.”

“Did it hurt you?” Viktor asked, his eyes roaming your arms and face.

“No. If anything, I hurt it by not speaking it into reality.” 

“It was time that we found a bad word in the language…” Viktor’s jaw clenched, and after a second he got up. “I’m going to need sugar to study this fully…”

You snorted, and Jayce rolled his eyes as Viktor walked towards the cafeteria counter. You followed his rhythmic strolling, smiling as he looked at all the pastries on display, making an unimpressed face at it.

“Rictus did something in your timeline, didn’t he?” Jayce’s voice snapped you out of watching Viktor’s judgment of the pastry.

“It wasn’t Rictus himself. It was Ambessa.” 

“The General?”

“She wants the hextech to be weaponized so she can fight her own enemies…”

“I know…” You looked at Jayce, and he was looking at his feet. “I’ve gathered as much by what Mel tells me about her. Not that she tries to hide it. General Medarda makes some interesting questions.”

You sighed and turned back to the piano, playing some old melody that you knew by heart.

“In my universe…” you started, your tone unsure. “she gets it…She uses it… It doesn’t behave like she wants it, but…in the end…she gets it…”

You steal a glance in Vik’s way as he waits for his order to be prepared. He was chewing on the cheek, deep in thought.

“How?” Jayce frowned in confusion, and after a second, his eyes widened. “Which one of us died?”

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[autismprotocol]

TMAG Theory Board Update (EP 11-12)

Hi guys sorry about the late posting I've just started a new quarter of college and its been pretty hectic. also got into my school design BFA program so pretty stoked about that! Anyways lets get into the Episode Breakdowns because even though not a lot of lore related things happened I still have a lot to talk about

For the breakdown I'll separate each by episode in sequential order

What Happened in Episode 11: Marked

Celias Rude Awakening- we jump right into the weirdness straight away with Celia waking up on the side of the interstate. she indicates that this is not a weird occurrence and ends the scene by telling someone named Jack that she's "on her way." If you remember episode 8 after Celia and Sam talk to Gerry and Gertrude, she mentions stuff about wanting help with her own mystery. When Sam asks about it she says she's looking into Time travel, other dimentions and teleportation. Many people have theorized that maybe Celia is just a super heavy sleepwalker, but I think the she teleports random places out of nowhere. This could be a side effect of her reality hopping if this Celia is originally from The archives universe.

As for the identity of Jack I'm not quite sure about that yet. I cross referenced the name Jack with past episodes of TMA. The only thing that came up was Jack Barnabas from the statement about dating Agnes Montague (aka an avatar of the desolation and Jesus-like figure for the cult of the lightless flame) So Unless Celia is secretly Agnes of Agnes reincarnated , I can't find any way to link Barnabas to Celia. (if anyone has a theory feel free to send it my way.)

Sam Lore- this one is pretty minor story-wise but I thought it was interesting. Before the statement for the episode is presented we get some classic Sam and Alice Banter ™ most of it is pretty lighthearted but I noticed Sam mention something that could indicate he might be an amputee.

These could not mean anything and I find it weird that it hasn't been mentioned until now but thought it was kind of cool and I will probably be drawing sam with a prothetic leg in the future cause I really like this head-canon. It also begs to question if he is missing a leg. it might have anything to do with his past as a Magnus institute test subject but then again could just be a fun character detail added by Jonny and/or Alex .

The Statement- Getting into the statement we get another Ink5oul appearance. Also possible Ink5oul identifying as she/they. (and lets be honest being a fear avatar is pretty non binary core). I found this Episode gave me a feeling of a hybrid between the Vast, Buried and the Flesh some people are theorizing that is might be a new entity called the Deep but I think that the fear of the ocean could easily apply to the vast or buried. Not much to say about this story though pretty standard Magnus horror that also gave us a hint to what Ink5oul's goal could be/which entity they serve.

Post Bonzo- Gwen has a debrief with Lena after her first Externals Liason assignment and her meeting with Mr. Bonzo. Undoubtedly Gwen is still pretty shaken from her encounter, even arriving late to work due to sleeplessness. Gwen is able to ask Lena a few questions mainly she wanted to know who's name was written on the letter given to Bonzo

Lena is largely unhelpful but tells Gwen she should have worked it out by now and if not to pay close attention to the case load for the next couple of days. before the latest episode my guess was Klaus because that is the only person mentioned so far that the OIAR intends to kill. but more on that later

Marked- Now were getting to my favorite thing about this episode. This episode title can have two meanings. The first is the more literal interpretation. Tattoos are marking of the body and the case this episode was all about tattoos so easily a good name would be marked. But I believe this is a red herring meant to misguide listeners who have not consumed all 200 episodes of TMA because if you know the world of Magnus Archives the term Marked takes on a entirely different meaning.

In TMA the term marked is used to indicate that somebody has been influenced by one or more or the fears and are one their way to becoming an Avatar. I think this could be a coded way to tell the audience someone in the OIAR has been marked. I have two potential candidates

Alice Dyer- Alice has been having dreams about the Institute after her and Sam's adventure into the ruins. also she mentions feeling like someone's watching her (common to people influenced or fed upon by the Ceaseless Watcher/The Eye) My guess if she is marked it would be by the Eye.

Gwendolyn Bouchard: Probably the most likely culprit. The main way an entitly tends to mark people is through encounters with other avatars. Gwen has just had an encounter with Mr Bonzo last episode who I strongly believe must be an avatar of some sort.

What Happened in Episode 12: Getting Off

Aww Sam!!- Sam asked Celia out and it was adorably awkward. not much to say I just loved this interaction and I'm longing for a new Magnus brand office romance hopefully is wont be an agonizing slowburn that ends tragically like a certain pair of morons from Archives (I love you Jon and Martin but Jesus christ)

It's Bonzo time bitches!!- Probably one of the most gruesome Magnus statement I've ever listened to (good work Alex) Mr Bonzo completely annihilated some poor dude at his bachelor party. Based on the date of the Incident the I can confidently say that whoever Baz (the groom) was he was our mystery person the OIAR sent Mr Bonzo to get rid of. Along with some of the bloodiest imagery we learned a few things about Bonzo. The most interesting detail is that Bonzo has to be summoned by playing his theme song I think the CD of his theme song acts somewhat like the tapes did in TMA by materialising out of nowhere. Also fun fact you know that torn seam that is right down Bonzo's middle? that is actually is his mouth lined with rows sharp teeth so I guess I know that now (so fun) Moral of the story dont f*ck with Mr. Bonzo

Alice knows something: Theres been this recurring audio glitch throughout TMAGP thatnks to a few extremly observent fans we have started to relize that these glitches are not at all random and are actually letting the audience know when a character is lying (i actually reposted somones deepdive into all the istances of this glitch so far if you guys are intrested in knowing more) why i bring this up now is becuase since we know when any charater is lying we also know when they are being truthful if there is no glitch when they say somthing and at the end of this episode this interaction occurs

Alice goes ahead and makes a joke about this to annoy Gwen but the fact theres no audio glitch when she says "I know" means she does actually know who is behind the OIAR and is activly refusing to share it with Gwen or the others. What do you know Alice!?

and that's about it im already loving these next batch of episodes and am so excited to learn more (ERROR has to show up somtime )

thanks to everyone who resonded the poll on the last update I will continue to include drawings into the breakdown even if it takes me a little bit of time to post. anyways I wrote this all in one sitting and I'm about ready to pass out so thanks again and the ask box and comments are always open for discussion and theory crafting.

-Echo

[rattlebear25]

EDIT 15/12/24: I CHECKED SOME INFORMATIONS ON THE WIKI THAT I MISSED

Another thing that makes me leave the HB fandom are those people who insist on saying that Stolitz is toxic. So I'm a sick person because I like and justify "an abuser with his victim"? Because i love Stolas' character i am weird?

Tbh Stolitz is probably my MLM ship in the Hellaverse because:

- Maybe they started off on the wrong foot, but that doesn't mean they can't improve their relationships over time.

- If Blitz was really abused and stressed, why does he also smile secretly after doing things with Stolas, when no one is looking? Why is he calm after m4te with Stolas?

- Why doesn't he try to steal an Asmodean crystal to continue living? He attacked a Incubus to go search his sister in UnHappy Campers. Why he doesn't take his Crystal to resolve all their problems? I read that you must have a registered Asmodean Crystal to travel legally on Earth (i think it means Ozzie must give the consent to use the crystal so Blitz can't steal it)... But when he saved Fizzarolli... He couldn't ask him as a reward for helping him an Asmodean Crystal? With Asmodeus' permission so being able to travel to Earth without breaking the law? If his relationship with Stolas was so toxic and problematic for Blitz why he doesn't take the Crystal from Fizz as an alternative to the Grimoire so he can be free from their deal or find a way to avenge on Stolas, making team with Striker, Stella and Andrealphus and gain so much money for I.M.P.? No? Probably because he likes having fun with the demon owl so continue to use his book to have a easy way to a fun night.

- Also after Full Moon Blitz doesn't need Stolas' Gremoire anymore, but he would like to continue being with Stolas because all in all despite the circumstances, Blitz was starting to love Stolas.

- Also, one thing that people didn't understand is the meaning of Stolitz: thanks to this relationship Blitz learns to give more importance to love and its romantic side while he only cared about the s3xual part while Stolas learns to put aside his selfishness and think about the good of others, and this also concerns Octavia, his daughter.

The toxic relationship damages one or both partners while their relationship has made them mature. And it's one of the reasons why I prefer Stolitz to Fizzarozzie because Asmodeus and Fizz have no problems and their relationship starts well from the beginning and can be boring and predictable. Instead Stolitz is interesting to follow because it starts badly and two characters in question mature. But no, is it toxic?

I am really tired of this trend of considering relationship toxic because everyone said without reflecting. The real toxic relationships here were Chaz x Moxxie or Stella x Stolas, not Stolitz but ok.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA if I send in screen shots to someone that made a callout post about a former friend?

Please read this entire thing before your decision. I understand the "blurb" may make me seem like a backstabber and someone you wouldn't trust, but I have my reasons I'll detail why this person is a former friend.

I'm a former friend of someone we'll call Marie. Marie, idk how to explain it, but she kind of didn't care about anyone but herself. Anytime someone would talk about something she'd make it about herself and it was very annoying. Marie also would make a lot of us uncomfortable at times. She said some racial slurs to us various times and claimed it wasn't racist. One was towards me and I asked her not to, basically I told her she can't call me a slur because she's white and made me feel uncomfortable. The other was some Irish thing I had to google because our friend who is Irish was uncomfortable and I'm still horrified with what I saw.

Marie would reblog my vent posts on tumblr a lot. None was ever to console me. One was where she reblogged and said "this would be a good ice breaker for a date." I did go off on her since at the time I had such a nasty break up and my vent had absolutely nothing to do with that. Now here's the issue, besides reblogging my vent posts, someone archived her reblog of my vent posts on the wayback. Multiple ones. I contacted wayback, but they said they only delete archives if the blog owner makes a statement on their blog. For reference, i have had multiple chronic stalkers and Marie was very well aware of it. So I already had wayback not allow archives of my blog because one stalker was using it to archive everything on me online. So a stalker found a loophole in the form of Marie. Now, this was before Tumblr had allowed us to disable reblogs. So no jumping to the comments saying it's my fault when this was years ago before that function was available. So, Marie refused and told me its whatever and if anything they were probably archiving her edits despite all of the archives on her blog had my vents she reblogged, like every single time she reblogged it got archived.

Now lastly, Marie was one of those people who would never celebrate anyone's victories. It was so weird, someone could say "oh, I got a new camera for my photography" and she'd say something like "in 3rd grade someone shat on my camera, so I never got a new camera". It would make stuff so awkward and make us not want to talk in our discord. I got a scholarship one year she decided to go to school (she was 12 years out of highschool) and she lost her financial aid in one semester because she didn't do any of her school work! Yet somehow "the government picks favorites and doesn't want to pay people that deserve it". Her words, I was very offended since she knew I worked full time, was a POC, and was not eligible for financial aid. Let me have the scholarship win without making it about you!

So one day I just blocked her everywhere after I deleted the friend discord we had. It wasn't right after, I waited over a year and became more and more distant. She did contact me again, but surprise surprise, she wanted me to help build her a website for her "oni-sona". I declined and we haven't spoken since.

Now the callout part. She has a callout under her new alias and it has her previous too. In this callout it's talking a lot about how she treats people like shit and uses them for her own gain. It details as well to not support her or any of her projects because she steals (idk about that, I've personally never witnessed it, but I'm believing OP because everything else is true.)

Now, would I be the AH if I submit stuff to add to the callout? I was just going to send in how she reblogged my vents and someone archived them on wayback and she refused to contact way back to delete them despite knowing I had stalkers. Maybe I'll submit more stuff, but not caring I had stalkers is my biggest gripe and something I think should be added since she allowed my stalkers to do that.

[houseof1000gods]

southern gothic, as a literary genre, portrays the darker sides of the south such as poverty, racism, religious tension, and alienation. how would you describe australian gothic in your own words? is there any media with that vibe? (sorry if this is a weird ask I’m just curious)

i only woke up like 30 mins ago so this wont be very insightful or anything but i consider aus gothic to be mainly the fear of the unknown in relation to the bush, like the thick bush u could easily get lost in or the outback where its just nothing for miles but dirt.

i grew up in a small town where everyone knew each other, there was one shop, one pub and one primary school, and my town was rivals with the neighbouring town because "they got more" than us (shops, customers, etc). as well as that, my primary schools and other schools in the neighbouring towns were a part of some interconnected community where we'd do events with each other like walkathons, school sports, etc, but one of the other town's school decided not to join and every year they have like 5 students (genuinely, even still to this day) so they now have resentment towards the other towns. so i also see a sense of community and rivalry when i think of aus gothic.

as well as that, i live where the gold rush took place so gold detecting, random mines in the bush that you have to avoid cause u could fall right through, remnants of settlements that were abandoned after the people there went home because they couldn't make a fortune looking for gold like they thought they could also comes into play.

mainly for me though, its all about the bush. i grew up on a road where one side was about 5 houses and the other side of the road was all bush. when i was growing up i honestly didn't give a fuck about the bush cause to me it was just where i lived, but in recent years i've really come to appreciate the beauty of it, especially since my nana still lives there on the same street i grew up on so i can still spend some time there.

as for aus gothic media/literature, i'm a massive fan of horror so i'd 100% have to say wolf creek. i loooove wolf creek. my other (obvious) choice is picnic at hanging rock, that story really plays into the fear of the unknown. i studied that in year 12 so i know too much about it lol. AND OF COURSE LAKE MUNGO. i almost forgot about lake mungo, i absolutely fucking love lake mungo.

if anyone has any other recs for good aus gothic media send them thru, i do read a bit but unfortunately nothing to do with aus gothic lol

edit: dogs are also a part of aus gothic for me! sounds completely unrelated but most people i know who live out bush have dogs, i grew up with multiple dogs, from kelpies to bulldogs to staffies so i've always loved dogs and associated them with my time spent growing up out bush.

[therivercrow]

Another Rook Ask Game

The lovely @robinsea sent me this Rook Ask Game - original post by @obsessed-with-book-boyfriends.

There's quite a few questions, so my answers for Alana are beneath the cut:

1. Did Rook have any crushes within their faction before they left with Varric?

Alana had a fledgling crush on Teia (because who doesn't?) and had a brief one-night thing with Noa de Acutis while they were on a stakeout together.

2. Is your Rook allergic to anything?

Erm...other people's bullshit? Does that count? Nah, no allergies as far as I know.

3. Sweet or Savory snacks?

Both - dark chocolate covered coffee beans are their favourite.

4. What movie genre would they like best?

Probably stuff that's kind of arty and weird and makes some abstract point about loneliness or memory. If they watched any assassin/spy movies they'd be the one pointing out all the things the film gets wrong and how it really doesn't work like that.

5. Favorite Season? Why?

Spring, because the lilacs are in bloom.

6. What’s their favorite hobby/interest?

Cooking with Lucanis, playing the elven bass, reading trashy novels that Bellara lends them.

7. Favorite type of jewelry? (Rings/Necklaces/Bracelets)

Alana's not one for jewellery - it gets in the way in a fight. But a couple of well-placed rings can add impact to a punch, so those.

8. What is your Rook’s favorite animal?

Cats! They absolutely stop to pet every cat in Thedas, and want to adopt one (or several) after all this business with the gods is dealt with.

9. Pick a song from their playlist. What is it, and what made you choose it?

Within Temptation - Stand My Ground.

This one opens my "Songs for Rook" playlist and encapsulates Alana's attitude:

Though this might just be the ending of the life I held so dear / But I won't run, there's no turning back from here...

10. What is a random quirk your Rook has?

They're unable to stay still, Alana is always fidgeting, twitching, just constant movement.

11. Extrovert or Introvert?

Introvert. They love the Veilguard team, but they absolutely need to take time to themself to recharge, usually on the top balcony of the lighthouse with a coffee.

12. Something that annoys your Rook?

Bureaucracy and petty politics (looking at you, governor Ivenci!)

13. What languages does your Rook know?

Common/Trade, Antivan, Tevene, some Orlesian, a few phrases in elven and Qunlat (mostly swears in the latter).

14. Are they ticklish?

Nobody ever gets close enough to find out.

15. If your Rook could do anything, no repercussions, what would they do?

Punch governor Ivenci in the face.

16. Would your Rook make a good villain?

For Alana to become a villain, they would have to lose everything and everyone they care for so that their rage is the only thing left. They'd be terrifying and destructive - the kind who just wants to burn the world because they can't live in it any longer. I...don't like thinking about that.

17. What does your Rook do to wind down after a stressful day (like post Weisshaupt)?

Their Crow training exercises. The rhythm of martial arts, weapons drills, magical training gives them a sense of stability when everything else feels unstable.

18. Your Rook discovered a portal to another fictional world. Where did they end up? (And how screwed are they?)

So, Faerun was the obvious choice but I watched Arcane recently and like the idea of them ending up in the Undercity. They're a magic assassin, so they'd be fine - probably end up running the place.

19. How easy is it to get your Rook out of bed in the morning?

Alana's an early riser, unless they've had a long night (either on a contract or just...a big night at the Hilt or Cobbled Swan) and then they'll sleep til noon.

20. How organized is your Rook?

Meticulously. Crow training, especially with Viago, taught them to always have everything in its place. Weapons cleaned and racked properly, Crow leathers hanging up to avoid wrinkles, potions in clearly labelled bottles in a proper potion chest. Their room is like a military barracks and they like it that way.

[melted-braiin]

Ramblings abt my favorite Ghost

But dudes, Danny.

I am a sucker for characters that are goofy and silly and juuuust angsty enough to break my heart and I think its hilarious when this absolute hopeless romantic grows up to be a fucking ladykiller.

Like, 12 year old Danny being nice and wholesome, talking about how pretty girls were and giving them flowers (the girls just laugh at him) and 15 year old Danny realizing hes bi and openly admitting that he finds his male classmates hot sometimes (this got him bullied) and it doesnt help that hes this dorky, snarky, kinda gloomy loser. And hes kinda unnerving so nobody really likes him.

Highschool passes by mostly uneventfully. Sure, ghosts attack and whatnot but something happened in junior year that put a massive power rift between Phantom and his rogues (rumors of Phantom overthrowing the ghost king and taking his place float around. Nobodys sure but Star claims Ember started the rumor and nothings really disproven that so-)

That specific class of Casper high leaves for college. At the time of their graduation party, Danny had grown just a bit taller, and his eyes a bit brighter, but he was still mostly a dork.

Fast forward a few years- the high school is hosting a reunion.

Old friends meet up, some after years and some after a weekend. That one jock became a famous author, and his buddy became a single dad- The weird goth girl and the prettiest girl in the grade are dating now. That one Tech geek has made a program that revolutionized computer engineering.

Its all fun and games, comparing lives and embarrassed apologies because they were all kind of asshole teenagers.

They count heads of their year and find a few people missing (as is to be expected). Danny is among them.

"That's odd," Sam Manson- resident goth- notes.

Kwan blinks, as he's the one who was counting, and asks, "Why?" because it wasn't unusual to skip highschool reunions (especially considering Fenton's experience)

Tucker snickers something incoherent, about getting lost in space. Sam sighs.

"I'll text him?" she asks, to which Tucker shakes his head.

"No I wanna see what he does," Tucker giggles. At Sam's raised eyebrow, he tacks on a hasty, "He has court today"

While Sam gets a look of understanding followed quickly by mischief, everyone else in their general vicinity is very concerned.

"Why's Fenton in court?" Kwan asks, Star nodding beside him, "Did he do something?"

Paulina makes a strangled noise, as if she wants to ask but showing worry might seem somewhat hypocritical of her all things considered. Dash raises an eyebrow and his lips thin in worry but he doesn't voice anything.

Danny does not show up. He doesn't show up during the official reunion, but Sam claims he and Valerie may show up at the spontaneous after-party (they literally all just pile up into their vehicle of choice and head to the nearest decent bar)

Valerie does, in fact show up— in her Red Huntress suit.

She complains about owning a company and being a Hero alongside it. How she's graying even though she's barely twenty seven, and it sucks. People ask why she's revealing her identity and stuff- she just shrugs and says, "Its kinda pointless now, dontcha think? I mean-" then gestures vaguely with her ecto-blaster. All the girls around her nod solemnly and the guys mutter and question if this is some kind of inside joke.

(it is. Im not gonna tell you what. Cuz idk. I wasnt in the know, sadly)

Anuways, the only other thing of note is that resident heRO THE AMITY PARK PHANTOM SHOWED UP. YO WHAT THE FU-

When asked what he was doing here, Phantom blinked real slow, looked at his hands and went, "Oh."

(it is worth noting that ghosts dont age. No matter how old they get. Phantom is no different, he's always been, is, and will be, Amity's Fourteen year old protector)

He looked over the heads of the crowd, saw his two best friends snickering to eachother like the assholes they are, and thought, "Fuck It™."

This is the story of how Danny's class found out that the same dork who rambled about space in grade school is now the Ruler of the Indefinite Multiverse.

(I should mention that Danny is like, really Pretty. And I do mean pretty.

His hair seems weightless and soft even in human form and his blue eyes too bright to be real, constantly crinkled at the edges with a sharp smirk or silly grin. He has light freckles that look like a smattering of stars on his skin and his teeth are just a little too sharp. His voice is usually bright and kind of high pitched but his real voice is like a deep tremor that isnt quite human anymore- it sounds like glaciers breaking and Space humming and the Thousand murmurings of his subjects. Hes gotten taller and more fae-like and hes just- !!!!!

I am so normal about him can you tell?)

[car-o-line]

sorry if I already made a request but I want to try to have a danganronpa ultra despair girls a platonic warriors of hope with a very maternal reader who’s also a child just maybe two years older or one year basically they are the closest to an actual loving mother and they have also been wronged by adults in some horrible way and takes care of the kids how they wished their parents did

We actually love a motherly y/n🎀, honestly I wished more people wrote for the hope hoe kids cuz like there’s literally so much potential☹️

Warriors Of Hope kids with a motherly reader who’s also like traumatized😋

TW: trauma, abuse mentioned, self harm, Monaca, and spoilers, its danganronpa what’s expected😭

Okkk so basicallyyyyy, ur only a year 1/2 older than them because I couldn’t choose :’(

I think the kids are like 12 ish, so y/n would be 14?? Let’s just go with that-

Also what happened to y/n won’t be said because my brain will not think and yeah😁

ily guys

Daimon Masaru:

Honestly, he kinda treats you like you’re his actual mother.

Like oh, Kotoko called him a perv? “Y/N KOTOKO KEEPS CALLING ME WEIRD NAMES!!!”

Nagisa keeps correcting his wrong narrative? “Y/N TELL NAGISA THAT I DON’T WANT HIS HELP!!!”

He feels like he could talk to you about anything, he doesn’t know why though. But he only knows that you’re a trustworthy person and it’s rare to get that for him.

He’s a bit(really) stupid so he’s kind of oblivious to your situation as a whole, the only things he’s knows is that adults weren’t all that kind to you, which makes him upset. Like, he just couldn’t understand why someone as kind as you be subjected to such torture by those, those disgusting demons.

He never bothered to ask what happened to you, it wasn’t that he didn’t care(well maybe tbh) but he just didn’t feel like it was his place to actually ask you directly.

If he ever hurts himself like how he did before his battle w/the robot, he’d always feel a bit guilty whenever you’d rush up towards him and almost start tearing up at the sight of his injuries. But at the same time, he likes it when you start to patch him up with bandages and comfort him. It makes him feel cared and loved for, and he appreciates that.

He’s probably called you mom at least twice, and none of the others let him down about that.

He forces you to play soccer with him🤩

Kemuri Jataro:

You’re the nicest one to him, so he’ll take that and RUN with it.

Though sometimes he compares you to own real mother, which upsets you slightly but you have to remind yourself that he’s basically saying that you’re good and she’s bad.

He sometimes even has the slightest urge to take his mask off around you, when it’s just the two of you. But then he remembers how “ugly” he is and doesn’t want you to witness such a thing.

He knows you’d never judge him, and he only knows that because you wouldn’t stop yappin about how god awful his mother was to him and that the things she did was not okay whatsoever, or how you’d reassure him by placing both of your hands on his mask and telling him that he didn’t have to remove it around anyone if he didn’t want to but that he needed to remember that he’s beautiful no matter what other people think.

(he didn’t listen but oh well)

You’re the first person he shows his..art, too. It takes a lot of effort not to seem appalled by his creations.

You scold him for doing stupid stuff.

And from saying degrading things but he won’t stop so what’s the point-

Utsugi Kotoko:

You’re her favorite adorable lil thing<3

Out of all the Warriors of Hope she’d probably be with you the most. It’s not her fault, you're just so adorbs!

A kind of obvious one but she’d make you play dress up with her, or just sitting down and eating UNPEELED chestnuts together.

She’s definitely more intelligent than Masaru and Jataro and is also more pushy than them so she’d definitely try to figure out the reason you despise adults. Though, to her dismay you just wouldn’t answer her. Telling her that your situation was not as bad as everyone else’s and to worry about the next part of the “kid paradise” plan.

She sometimes doesn’t realize that you’re technically older than her, like even though the age difference is basically nothing she sometimes just thinks you’re her exact age and when Monaca refers to you as a “potential demon” in the future, she gets all defensive about it but then relearns that you’ll be an adult before all of the Warriors of Hope.

She tries her best to impress you with her acting and singing skills, such as for any show she wants to put on she’ll make sure you approve of it first. Saying things like, “Could this be better!?” Or, “Noo! You’re just being nice! Be as cruelly honest as possible!”

Shingetsu Nagisa:

The most mature and most reasonable one out of all of the WOH, so he’ll probably be the one you’d go to if you ever need anything you could do.

It’s kind of hard to make a deep bond with him which makes you a bit upset. But knowing what the boys been through it makes a bit more sense.

He’s the most knowledgeable one out of the five children so you sheepishly go to him whenever you need help, you kind of thought you were a bother to him. Always asking him if he needed anything or scolding him when he never got enough sleep. But he secretly appreciated it quite a bit.

It was rare when someone came to him to check on his wellbeing, he brushed it aside at first because he only believed you did it to just seem kind. But after a while he came to realize that you truly cared for him and the others and even placed their needs before your own.

So in return he likes to do his own little check-ups on you. It’s nothing heartfelt or affectionate or anything, it’s just to make sure you’re physically and mentally healthy.

Like sometimes if he thinks you’re not sleeping enough he’ll just go up to you and just tell you to go to sleep. Even if it’s the middle of the day, anything you say back to him other than an “okay” or “yeah” would just be meant with a scolding. He takes sleeping schedules VERY seriously ngl.

Sometimes you both parent each other, even if you’re just a little older than he is.

Towa Monaca:

“Monaca believes Y/n will be saved and kept as a real mother when she turned into a demon.”

“…Monaca I’m a year older than you.”

Yeah just cause she likes you and all but it doesn’t make you safe from her when you turn 18🤩

She scares ts outta you.

Like you could be gently explaining something, not even scolding her and she’d just start whining and crying that you’re bullying her. Just to try and make you mad<3

It never works tho, you’re more confused than upset. You’re too much of an angel to get mad at her<3

She kind of treats you like a servant, but like a favorite servant. Hope that makes sense😭

She really likes to rant to you about how great “Big sis Junko” is, she literally will not stop talking unless you say you have to leave.

Also mentions how you’re going to be the next “Big sis” as well, so have fun with that!

I’M SORRY THIS IS REALLY LATE I LITERALLY DO NOT HAVE THE MOTIVATION SO ANYTHING RN😭 ahem, i know Monaca’s is short but I literally do not know what to write-

[allislost-writes]

Burial Ground- Part 2

Haymitch Abernathy X GN reader

Mentions of death, slow burn, SOTR spoilers in further chapters. This is the first fic i have ever written, asks and comments encouraged : )

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You wake up early, too early for comfort, but you drag yourself out of bed anyway. It’s weird being in this house, it’s so… big. The size of the house only emphasises its emptiness. It’s just you in here, quiet and alone. Surrounded by furniture all provided by the Capitol for whatever unlucky victor might end up here. It’s eerie. Sifting through rubble for bodies is better than staying in here. You’ll have to find a way to fix the creeping emptiness of your new home later.

The sweet bread Peeta gifted you makes for a good breakfast, it’s no doubt he’s talented in the kitchen. After pulling your leather bag over your shoulder and making sure it has everything you need in it, you put thick leather gloves in your pocket and head at the door, ready for a long day. It’s barely after sunrise when you start walking to the town, the air still cool and crisp. The ruin of district 12 a stark contrast to the fresh springtime air. It’s sad, seeing what happened to this town. You can imagine how the wind would russell the trees as the townspeople shop around, or scour the garbage cans for food. It’s not an easy life for any one who lives in the districts, but people still want to return here. To home.  Now this is the hard part, figuring out where to start.  The sad thing about this line of work is seeing how hard everybody fights to stay alive. You start with the people that are in the streets in walkways, trying to run from the bombs and fire. There’s no way you can get all of these people to rest in a day, or even a week, or month, but you’ll do what you can. Slipping your thick gloves over your hands, you start moving bones. 

When the sun is high in the sky, you’re ready to take a break. There’s a pile of bodies you've retrieved, and you cover them in a white sheet. These people will remain protected until you can give them a proper burial.  As you’re affixing the sheet, footsteps come from the treeline. Katniss stands, some sort of animal she hunted in hand, and she looks solemnly at the bodies you’ve placed. You expect her to leave, but after standing for another beat she turns to you sharply.  “Heard what you’re here to do. Peeta wants you to come for lunch.” 

And with that, she’s gone. You’ve heard she can be kurt, so you’re not hurt at the brisk exit. 

After cleaning up and retrieving the basket Peeta gave you the bread in, you make your way to Katniss and Peeta's front step and knock on the door.

“I don’t want to meet them! Listen, they're here to bury bodies, not become ‘best buddies’ with us, can’t I just leave?”

You regret knocking immediately. Peeta answers the door and ushers you towards a table, where you see Haymitch, the one who was no doubt arguing about not wanting to meet you. 

Peeta pulled out a chair for you, “I just need to help Katniss with the last of the soup, then we can all have proper introductions. Sit tight.”

You peer into the kitchen, the way Katniss and Peeta just move together so seamlessly is amazing to watch, they twist around each other like they’ve been doing it their entire life. 

You’re brought back from your thinking by Haymitch, across the table from you, pulling out a flask. “So, you’re the one brought in to clean up all the Capitols dirty work, huh?” he continues, before you can even respond “I hope you can handle it, let me know if you need some, uh,” he pulls his flask up and gestures it in the air, “liquid courage to keep you going. God knows I’d need it.” He takes a large swig, and you’re sure he’d take more if it weren't for the bowls placed in front of you both, Peeta and Katniss occupying the other chairs at the table.

Nobody speaks. The clinging of spoons on bowls is all you hear, and it’s unbearable. You pray someone says something, anything, because you do not know what to say. Peeta is the one to break the silence. “So, soup, huh?” You almost choke because of laughing, what a horrible way to try to start a conversation, but at least he tried. You’ll at least attempt to answer to thank him for his effort, but the best you can manage is “Yeah man, soup.” The silence feels even worse than it did before. Haymitch puts his head in his hands and groans, Katniss looks like she’s close to doing the same. You don’t blame them. Haymitch speaks, his head still in his hands, “This is terrible.” You have to agree. Peeta tries to talk about soup more, to ease the tension, but it does not work. Judging by the look on Katniss’ face, she is hating this almost as much as she’s enjoying it. You’re sure Peeta will be teased later about inviting you over and then not knowing what to say. The silence is deafening, but at least the soup was good. Your bowls are collected and you return the basket you brought with you and thank Peeta, while Katniss hands you some kind of bundle. It’s berries, a peace offering after the awkward meal. You and Haymitch are fairly quick to leave.

You step outside and both let out a sigh, turning to Haymitch who looks at you out of the corner of his eye as if he is suspicious of you, you say “I’m never going to forget how horrible that was.” He tries to hold it back, but he chuckles.  “Yeah, that was bad.” You nod in agreement, making your way to your house, alone.

[calronhunt]

If you're comfortable sharing, what's the reason behind your despise for wc? Is it more connected to the reappearing irresponsibility of its writing or the vindictive horde of the fandom?...

I am certain that the nostalgia for warrior cats and my childish awe for the fandom a decade back is what holds me back as an artist and perhaps even a person. But I have not figured out how to fight it yet.

I have read some of your older posts on this but would be glad to hear your opinion, whether a hate one or whatever

I'm going to say a lot of sweeping mean statements about warrior cats fans and I hope everyone can be smart enough to realize that obviously i don't mean every single one. okay? okay.

There's a lot of factors in regards to my hate. It is primarily the fandom/the people who read it though (but also the books are just genuinely bad lemme make that clear)

The fandom is genuinely garbage and I consider GENUINELY harmful (in part is personal shit that certain people in the fandom have done to me/people I care about that makes canon warrior cats kind of a trigger for me (dw asker you didn't by asking this)). The warrior cats fandom has an insane grooming/being inappropriate with minors problem, with a lot of popular adults at the head who are either genuinely malicious actors or are too emotionally immature and stupid to know how to properly interact with minors in a fandom space for a book series Made For Children. People are okay to engage with stuff that's made for kids as an adult, but you HAVE to realize that it's not made for you and you HAVE to actually care to not be fucking weird with the minors who predominantly are in the space.

As well, I just strongly believe that warrior cats ruined a large generation's ability to like. engage with a story and write a story. Warrior cats people seem to only read warrior cats books or similar children's books (like wings of fire) so they only consume written media through the lends of like. One of the worst book series ever written which was, once again, written for children. Like warrior cats is just fucking bad. The first arc was mid at best, everything else has been hot steaming garbage. There are no themes, there are large chunks of the books where nothing happens bc they have 6 books in an arc to fill and they never have enough material to fill that, events simply Just Happen for no rhyme or reason half the time, and they are also INSANELY misogynistic, ableist, and racist. And people read that and then they think "oh this is what a story must be like" so they go off and they write slop exactly like warrior cats but maybe with "abuse" slapped onto it to make it seem more deep and like you're actually saying something this time (and the abuse is never written in a more complex way then "this guy is mean is bad let's kill him"). And everyone will suck their dick bc everyone else ALSO only reads warrior cats so they're like "well this slop is slightly better than this other slop!"

At this point in my life, it's more the meaning that warrior cats holds in my mind that makes me hate it more than anything else. All it symbolizes to me is a group of stunted emotionally immature adults who don't wanna grow up or engage with anything made for their age demographic bc it will challenge them in a way that'll make them uncomfortable. I've seen wc adults in their 20s say they don't wanna engage with adult books bc "they're all about affairs and having sex" which is shit i said when i was like 12. I've seen wc adults in their 20s recommend someone read wings of fire instead of his high fantasy adult gay novel that the person just couldn't get into. They're just children masquerading as adults and it all leads back to warrior cat's fault, or at least that's where my mind has put all the blame.

and that's why i despise warrior cats <3 My genuine recommendation to get better as an artist/writer/whatever is just to engage with a whole bunch of different media if you want to improve as a writer and also as an analysist. Think about "what are the themes that this is presenting to me" when you read a story, think about the elements of a story that you DO like and why you like them, think about why you don't like other elements. just genuinely engage with art that you're presented with and think about it.

[messrsrarchives]

yk you are the first person i've ever heard say they Want me (cis) to speak up about trans rights/trans issues in fandom. everything else i've ever heard has always been sit down, shut up, and listen. stay in your lane, don't try to speak for us, let us speak for ourselves, and that always made sense to me, so that was what i've done. for years.

i gave my money, i liked and reposted, i left nice comments, i called out people irl for little remarks, but i never really spoke up myself on here or TT because i didn't want to be putting my nose where i shouldn't.

i guess that is something that i should change moving forward. i'm sorry that i was misinformed. i guess i'm just wondering how wrong i was. obviously you're more plugged into the trans community than i am. is your opinion pretty common these days? do more trans people want cis people speaking up?

i genuinely thought our role was supposed to be listening and uplifting trans voices, not speaking ourselves. i apologise. i will shift my behavior moving forward

hiii ! <3

it's such a weird thing right!? because i think every person i've spoken to (this is very tiktok centric) has said two things about it and the first is that it's neverrrr the ones with massive influence saying anything and the second is that it's mostly trans people over there -> so i think it's a common opinion, it's just how much of that that gets heard i reckon

i think part of that "uplifting" is spreading the breadth of trans voices?? like, yes when it comes to trans issues, ultimately listen to them for the lived experiences. but in real life terms not wizard ones, if only trans politicians spoke about trans rights, we'd never get anywhere. cis politicians have to go interact with trans people to know what policies would be best for them, and then take that information and project their voices further

so,, ultimately, yes. there are certain voices in the jkr discussion that should be listened to more, but that doesn't mean they're the only voices. like when i did the jkr podcast and i did the episode about harmful things in the book, i'm not someone who can comment on the racism and the harm that she has caused to poc communities personally, but i spoke about the stereotypes and then was like "now you have the based information, go and take that into your conversation with those that are affected"

so it is very much communal efforts !! but yeah i completely get how it can feel like the right thing to just listen! and i appreciate that <33 there's a lot of names over on tiktok that i saw reposting every video and sending people my way and commenting agreements and stuff and that's always :'))) yay. but also i think that - particularly with larger creators that comment but never say anything - makes the silence even louder?? because it's like four people holding hands and reaching for others and they're just nodding in agreement rather than coming and standing with us, and its like 😖😖 we know you agree pls this bag is so heavy can you take some of it. like carrying in the shopping with 12 bags on each arm and the rest of your family is saying thank you amd that's nice and all but but all you can focus on is their empty hands whilst you're staggering about trying to balance the weight (i hate carrying in shopping btw, when the bags twist UGH)

but anyway ! no apologies needed !!! absolutely not <3 big fan of the discussions popping up, very glad to see all the asks come in with things like this 🫂🫂 very uplifting if you will !

[suzukiblu]

Hi sorry I'm new here so I'm not sure how the whole WIP thing works - is it only things you're actively writing? I'm not trying to pressure you or anything, I've just been fully brainrot consumed by your Red Hood omegaverse WIP and I haven't seen anything about it in almost a month. Again, sorry if this comes off as pushy ;-;

You're all good, man, I am always of the "ask if you don't know" mindset! Just makes the most sense, imo. And thank you, glad to hear you're enjoying . . . um presumably the DickJay one since that one specifically namedrops "Red Hood" in the WIP tag and also I don't THINK I've updated my other Jason-related omegaverses in the past month-ish, but heck if I actually remember either way, haha. 😅😅

Basically the way it works around here is I have about eight hundred billion WIPs I consider "active" ( there's an alphabetical but still slightly chaotic list of specifically the DC ones right here; just make sure to open that link in a browser if you're on the app 'cuz sometimes the app gets tetchy with it ) and I work on whatever I'm vibing with unless either:

a) I am actively running WIP Wednesday or a similar writing meme, in which case I will put up a post about said writing meme and its rules and what the options to request from are (WIP Wednesday typically goes up 12:30pm EST the weeks I do it, but other request memes I just do randomly )

OR

b) someone donates to me on Ko-fi, in which case I write them thank-you words or sentences, word count and specific WIP depending on if it's a one-off dono or a specific subscription tier ( those explanations/rules are a little hard to summarize down to an elevator pitch but are all on my Ko-fi page if/as needed ).

Otherwise, like I said, it's just whatever I'm most vibing with. Sometimes I also just randomly write more of something because someone's interested in it and as a result told me something that gave me the itch to work on it or because somebody I know is bummed out or having a tough day/week and I know they like a specific WIP, or I'll take votes via poll or things like that; it kinda just depends? Also sometimes I will ask weird questions like "hey spin this wheel and tell me what random quote you got" and will write based off the responses people, well, get, haha. Lately I've been picking one WIP to dedicate a specific amount of time to and posting daily in it during that time; right now we're doing a month of "think pink" 'cuz I was feeling it and also I knew people would appreciate seeing more of it; next month, who knows! Maybe four fics!! Maybe no fics!! It'll be a surprise to us all, especially me, hahaha.

So yeah I am very, very ADHD, if that was in any way at all subtle, lol.

[dreamsy990]

(video essayist voice) kingdom hearts is-

so, kh1. its been. a little while since i played. so forgive me if the game isnt exactly fresh in my mind. theres maybe gonna be errors so please bear with me im trying my best.

this is probably the kh game i have the least thoughts on, which feels weird considering its the first game in the series, but i just dont have a lot of strong opinions on it. its a pretty solid game!

starting where i normally do, the gameplay is probably the worst aspect of the game. they really thought platforming would be a fun thing in this game, but its just. not. the physics are so bad oh my god. if i ever have to jump in kh1 again itll be too soon. the difficulty is also a little bit all over the place. i played on standard (like i do with pretty much every game) and i would randomly jump from breezing through the game to trying a hundred times to fight one boss. most of the time its not the fun kind of difficult, just frustrating. the only time i can remember the difficulty being fun is the last riku fight in hollow bastion. i wish more of the game was the fun kind of hard. strangely enough, i know a lot of people struggled with the riku race and fight in the tutorial, but honestly those were easy for me? i got the fight first try, and the race second. idk, get on my level nerds i guess?

the worlds here are hit or miss. some of them (mostly the original ones, hollow bastion and traverse town specifically) are just amazing and i love them. others are. uh. lets say getting rid of the tarzan world was the best thing to come out of copyright law. also, this game is the only one where i skipped an entire world (sorry atlantica, you fucking suck). so theres that. the disney worlds are probably my least favorite aspect of the game

the story is alright! i dont have much to say about it other than i think that its mostly pretty good when i know whats going on, although both me AND one of my friends were so confused at the ending that we had to go call someone else to ask what the fuck happened and honestly i still dont really know? what the fuck is a kingdom hearts you ask? the world may never know.

this game and 2 are the only ones where maleficent is good. i miss when she was like a fun villain. she was just super into the housing market and i love that. what the fuck is she even doing in ddd? getting into bitcoin????

rikus great, i dont think i need to say that. hes such a freak and i love him. soras pretty good, shoutout to haley joel osman for doing a great job for being uh. 12??? at the time???????? hes great. i know a lot of people really like ansem sod but i just dont get the appeal? he never did anything for me. like hes fine i just didnt care about him whatsoever and anyone who says hes a better villain than like. xemnas. is wrong.

0/10 where is axel. ok but seriously uhhhhhh i give it a 7.7/10. its a solid, enjoyable game! not my favorite, but thats not to say i dislike it at all.

[sillybayo]

Bayo's Black Rose Arc Analysis

Some notes before I begin:

-This ramble/essay contains heavy discussions of CSA, general sexual themes, and incest. Also, keep in mind that the characters discussed here are 12-17. While I will be looking into how sex affects them mentally and such, I will not tolerate child sexualization here. I will block anyone who makes a single weird comment or make me uncomfortable. We'll be talking about this from a pure psychological standpoint.

-This is a thought dump rather than anything formal, so I won't be dropping episode titles or numbers. I'm also going purely off of memory, and things I said in group chats. So if things lack clarity, this is why.

-I'm not saying I "cracked the black rose arc code" or anything, this is purely my interpretation that I wish to share, due to not seeing many black rose analysis', and being displeased with what some people have said and concluded. I just want to put what I think out there for others to enjoy :3.

-To avoid being repetitive and cluttered, I'll be generally referring to any character who pulls swords out as "wielders", and any character who has had a sword pulled out of them as "sheaths". Any scene where this transpires will be called a "sheathing scene."

-Once again, due to the material of this analysis, I will be blocking anyone who sexualizes the characters in notes, or anyone who I see as creepy.

With that out of the way, let us begin :3!

So I was watching rgu video essays one day, and I stumbled across one about Miki. About halfway or late into the video, they begin talking about how Miki and Kozue had sex in the black rose arc, due to the way she touched him before the sheathing scene, and the way he turned beet red when Nanami asked how it felt for the sword to be taken out. And I thought it made sense at the time, as I was still new to utena, and I only watched it once. And the allegory is clearly there in other black rose sheathing scenes (besides with utenanthy), right?

But then I thought about it more when I rewatched the juriori black rose episode a year or so later, and caught Juri blushing when Nanami asked her the same question. And...wait. Because doesn't all of the black rose sheathing scenes look..uncomfortable? The sheath cries in pain as the sword comes out of their chest, and Wakaba even forced it out of Saionji. And this weirded me out, because why would a show thats so clearly against rape of any kind go on to write something like this? Why did Miki and Juri blush about something that was so forceful? And even if they were under a mind controlled like state, why would they write the wielders to be rapists? With the way rgu writes sex and rape, it didn't seem right, y'know?

So a few months later, when I decided to continue my rewatch and reached the Wakaba black rose arc episode, thats when I truly started to think about it more. And thats when I reached a conclusion: Miki and Juri are more influenced by Touga and Saionji than they realize. And by extension, they're all influenced by Akio.

You see, Touga and Saionji clearly view Anthy as someone to be sexualized. Shes their wife, who would fulfill their every request. Even though they might not know Anthys and Akios relationship, and/or how the latter treats her, this is an undeniable shared mindset.

Even though the boys and Utena uses Anthy as a sheath in the exact same ways on the outside, you know that when its with Touga and Saionji, its sexualized. They own her. When Touga demands Anthy to kiss his sword, it feels so off that Utena couldn't bare to watch. You could argue that its because it would hurt Anthys lips, but in later episodes its clear that it isn't the issue, as Utena uses the same powerup but in a more supportive fashion rather than sexual. So whats up with that?

I say; in (most of) the wielders view, the sword is like a penis.

I know, a very silly thing to say. But I don't mean exactly. And I, of course, don't mean literally.

Do you know that scene from the scream movie, where the two guys are stabbing each other, begging for it and all? It definitely has sexual undertones, because of the mood set by the characters, and heres where I'm getting at; the idea of a long pointed object being thrusted in you.

What I think is that Anthy is so sexualized by the student council, that the idea of a simple sword being pulled out of her 14 year old south asian brown girl chest, is arousing.

So when each of the student council members become sheaths themselves, of course they think that its one of the most sexually intimate things to experience. And its so stupid, right? Its just a sword. a SWORD.

And I shouldn't be referring to the student council so generally, because Nanami is the only one who sees through this. As far as I remember, she wasn't weird in the slightest when she was Tsuwabukis sheath. And even in the apocalypse arc, shes uncomfortable when Touga kisses her, and disturbed when walking in on Akio and Anthy (but then again I haven't rewatched that episode yet, so I could be wrong). She purely meant to ask how the sword felt, with no sexual intent. Miki and Juri were just pure idiots on that part.

So then, wait, if the sword pulling in the black rose arc wasn't a metaphor for rape, then what is it?

Well, I argue that it black rose wielders follow the same mindset as some sexual assaulters when they're under the effects of Mikages reverse therapy, in a way. Its the strong feeling of thinking the sheath owes the wielder something, and that the wielder deserves it no matter what they say.

Another reference to a different piece of media, but remember when its revealed that Pearl continued to fuse with Garnet for her own personal wants, which crossed Garnets boundaries? People interpreted that scene as Pearl raping Garnet, when....no. What? Of course she isn't. Its just the general idea of your wishes being disrespected, and boundaries ignored. Do you see where I'm going with this?

The black rose wielders see something in the sheaths that they want for themselves, whether it be their love, their attention, or some secret third thing. So with nothing but entitlement and desperation in their heart, they force the sword out of their hearts, where their desires lie.

But, wait. How about other scenes with swords? Like when Anthy is Utenas sheath, and when Anthy has a thousand swords stabbed into her? Do swords still represent desire?

Well, yes! Very easily. Utena fights for the pure sake of love and friendship. She fights Saionji when hes cruel to Wakaba, and she swears to protect Anthy with all her heart. She duels with the strongest ounce of care in her soul. Thats the desire to keep her loved ones happy.

What about when Anthy what continuously impaled? Well, that was the villages desire to get to the prince. And it was Akios desire to finally revolutionize the world after so long.

I may be missing a few scenes, but this is the general idea, and I hope I got the idea across. Thats the end of my little ramble :3. As an acespec hypersexual, I already spend a lot of time deconstructing the truth behind sexual things and feelings. So this was fun to think about. I hope y'all liked this, and understood it most importantly. Toodleeess

[fuutaprotectionsquad]

So I've been thinking about the Milgram remix

And the first time I watched it I noticed that theres 4 times where they do this weird remix-ey noise that I can't explain in words. They do it during the pauses between lyrics.

Putting this under the cut :)

Two of the times, it sounds really similar. From 0:12 - 0:22 during Undercover, right after part of the chorus and before the actual start of the song (I'll call this one #1). And from 9:25 - 9:41, during Bring It On right after the intro/prechorus thing (which I'll call #4).

It happens again in Undercover from 0:33 - 0:42, after the "FUTURE" line (#2). And then once more from 1:33 - 1:42, during Harrow right after the intro chorus (#3). Which timestamping made me realize is exactly a minute after #2, and is the same length.

Before I start, why does this matter?

Well, artistically, it doesn't make sense to have it three times in the first 2 minutes, then only once after that. They had more opportunities to use it too. After the intro chorus in half, there's a pause they just leave as is (notably the only pause like that in the remix, aside from when it transitions). And in TIHTBILWY, the pause after her intro chorus is edited out. If anything, it'd make sense to edit out the pause during Bring It On, because it's significantly longer than the rest. But they didn't. And I think that's intentional.

So let's start with #1 and #4. Undercover and Bring It On. Es and Fuuta. They're both the same, as Fuuta says in his t2 voice drama. But more specifically, we the audience are like Fuuta, judging people from behind a screen, deciding their fates and enjoying it. "Shouldn't you look beyond your ego, before it all ends?" It was Fuuta's ego that drove him, something he couldn't look past until it was all over and his sin had been committed. I don't think I need to yap about those parallels more, so lets continue.

Next we have #3, which is clearly different from the rest. It's Kotoko's vocals, not the voice(?) we hear in the other ones. Showing how innately, she is not like Es / us. She's trying to be, as we can see very well in Deep Cover, but all she's doing is innaccurately emulating Es.

But what does her repetitive vocals sound like, then? This one may be a stretch, but listen to the transition between Fuuta and Amane from 10:52 - 11:10. That's the only other time vocals are looped. "Now let's be reasonable."

Obviously, Fuuta and Kotoko acknowledge their similarities and differences, which also tie into their parallels with Es. As for the line itself, it sounds like something Fuuta would be saying to Kotoko, in response to her "harrowing." But what does Amane have to do with it? Well, small tangent for a second but in Kotoko's part, she's repeating the chorus of her song (i think). Which obviously represents her goals. What if the repetition in vocals represents repeating your ideologies to yourself, in particular, the ones that mirror those of someone else?

And this is pure speculation but maybe, in the same way that Kotoko is doing with Es, this represents Fuuta wanting to emulate Amane. She could be his definition of reasonable, and the line he's repeating could be directed towards himself. He sees her as more put together than he is, asking why she can bare the voices and he can't. These two instances of vocals being looped aren't particularly similar, because Kotoko and Fuuta are striving to emulate different people, but they're still doing the same thing. And they're the only ones doing it, hence why its the only time it happens in the remix.

Another detail I noticed is Haruka, Yuno, Muu and Amane are the only ones whose songs start at the beginning, but then cut out a chunk of the middle after the first chorus and play the bridge next. They're also the only ones who aren't really involved in what happened with Kotoko in t2.

There could also be something said about what I mentioned earlier with half and TIHTBILWY, if we're saying that the editing in the songs symbolizes their roles in Kotoko's attack. But idk what so I'll leave it at that.