#i am unwell and this should be illegal

[calkestis]

YUKI ISHIKAWA for Safari Magazine (x)

[the-eyes-of-andyserkis]

[harley-quinns-girlfriend]

me whenever I finally get out of class

[jokersfangirl84]

I AM SPEECHLESS!!!

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 10/1/2024

come getcher BOY in HOUSTON TX limited time DEAL he will be going to the shelter where they hopefully have more resources to place FIV+ cats on FRIDAY!!! he has gotten so sleek and healthy looking after only a month of unlimited kibble he will be SUCH a nice silly companion for someone but unfortunately that someone is not me

^worried about the air purifier turning on

listening

OWW. feat BUBBLE by Halo Boy is fun bc it’s fun to yell “gimme love bites like OWW!” brain empty just songs that are fun to blast in the car. not quite a candidate for the “SOMEBODY COME FUCK THIS (GAY)” playlist but certainly worthy of inclusion on the “SOMEBODY COME FUCK THIS (NOT GAY)” playlist

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reading

i have a lot of uncomplimentary thoughts about frank lloyd wright. part of them revolve around the fact that buildings are really not meant to last forever, especially experimental buildings made with experimental materials. i am furious, however, that a cryptocurrency grifter couple bought his only skyscraper for $10 to "save it from bankruptcy" from a tiny nonprofit, seem to be hacking it up to sell the furnishings in pieces, and have put the building up for commercial sale on a site mostly used for fast food franchises and strip malls. the building, like many frank lloyd wright buildings, is in pretty rough shape. i've seen some walkthroughs and video tours and there's a ton of water damage and then extra water damage from oklahoma winter ice. i do not know if the building as a whole is reasonably salvageable without tens of millions put into it and a new foundation put in place to take care of it.

Liz Waytkus, the executive director of Docomomo US, an organization that works to preserve modern architecture, said it strongly opposes any sale of the Wright materials. “They’re trafficked goods,” Waytkus said. “The same that you would say of pottery or vases from Egypt or Mesopotamia that were obtained through illegal ways, these pieces from Frank Lloyd Wright should be thought of in the same exact way.”

i think the above quote is a little dramatic. what the crypto couple are doing is more in bad taste than anything, bc they do own the building. in my heart of hearts, i do think pieces and fixtures designed specifically for a site should stay with the site as long as reasonably possible. they're not going to look or function quite the same anywhere else. this is the unfortunate reality of getting a superstar architect to design The Whole Site and not just the building, you're kind of (in good taste and not legally) obligated to continue to preserve The Whole Site and not just the building.

another in the "not technically illegal but in bad taste" file, for both sides imo but i do think the misbehavior is greater on one side. idk if matt is like Unwell, or if he has tech founder brain and it's simply been more visible lately. oh my god i looked up how old he was (40) and he is local to me. ive probably seen him patio dining somewhere or walked past him at the rodeo and simply haven't noticed

But in a dispute that’s meant to clarify what is and isn’t WordPress, Mullenweg risks blurring the lines even more. WordPress.org and WordPress.com both have a point — but it looks an awful lot like they’re working together to make it.

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watching

kind of a light week? i don’t have anything particularly interesting to say about any of these.

i did not plan this bc i was kidnapped last minute by my bestie to see Howl’s Moving Castle in theaters, which was a very fun movie to see on the big screen. i have not seen a movie in theaters since Birds of Prey in early 2020, kind of scary to be inside a theater again! wish covid had not so thoroughly broken my health and confidence and i also wish covid was Over over instead of a constantly rolling crisis!!

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playing

i am going to preface this section with two facts: 1) i have been playing genshin impact since version 1.0, before the second major region in the game came out and 2) i have been unemployed since january and have spent more hours per day playing this game than really anyone should in the past couple months.

ive set a bunch of very silly goals for myself bc genshin impact is largely a game about making your own fun within the grindy gacha framework and i have hit two and a half of them. you can "ascend" a character six different times to up stats by a decent percentage, and i have now ascended all 64 characters the maximum 6 times. the last one was heizou bc 1) fuck a cop and 2) fuck the machine boss in the chasm for his mats. why did THREE characters need these mats. wretched.

my next goal is to get all my characters to friendship level 10. you can increase this mostly by spending the in-game renewable resource "resin". getting your characters to friendship level 10 has no in-game benefits but does give you a fun little namecard for ur profile. i have been prioritizing my five-star characters and then going through the nations' characters in order. ive been done with the mondstadt kids for a while, i just maxed out my last five-star (dehya) today. as u can see by this list sorted by friendship level, i have five liyue characters and two inazuma characters left and just buckets and oodles of sumeru and fontaine characters.

i haven't really done much with the newest natlan character, kachina, bc i do not enjoy playing as the small children characters. there are so many tall hot ladies in this game. speaking of, the next character i will be pulling for is this tall drink of water

i have also caught one of every catachable animal! this one was very irritating bc u can only buy five nets a week. finding this one specific lizard was also very irritating. none of the point in the desert the official game map assured me were spawn points were actually spawning for some reason. had to go to several underwater caves and cross my fingers

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making

fallow week

[lifemod17]

HAPPY WASTELAND, BABY! DELUXE TO THOSE WHO CELEBRATE!!!

spoiler free rambling below the cut

I was one of the few people who was lucky enough to have avoided any spoilers from this song when it was leaked right after the NYC listening party- it was actually one of the main reason why I avoided tiktok and twitter for a while... yall. I prepared myself for this song BUT. IT REALLY DIDN'T HELP. I AM SO VERY UNWELL.

It fits SO PERFECTLY with the theme of Wasteland, Baby! and I want to throw hands with Andrew for just letting this sit in a folder in a laptop but I can forgive him because it's out now.

I LOVE that it sounds imperfect, like he gets into these off-kilter flows and runs, but it's deliberate?!! AND IT WORKS WELL.

2019 Hozier, YOUR PEN GAME!?!?!!! SHOULD BE ILLEGAL IT IS SO GOOD. i need to process these lyrics more tomorrow when I'm more awake cuz OH BUDDY it hurts.

Wasteland, Baby! is such a beautiful album and I hope his new fans will get to appreciate it just as much as Unreal Unearth: Unheard now that the deluxe/special edition is here

[pearlparty]

Austin Butler photographed by Collier Schorr for VMAN

[misschinablue]

welcome to the UK, where world leading healthcare is free at the point of use! hopefully you don't need it though. underfunding and shitty management of the public health sector by non clinicians mean you could wait up to six months for an urgent referral. hope all your organs are in good working order because you could die waiting if they're not :) and god forbid you should need to see a GP or a practice nurse for something more minor - the demand highly outweighs the supply and you'll be engaging in the hunger games to maybe get a 10 minute telephone appointment in September 2026 :) mental health suffering? well you are shit out of luck my friend - again, demand far outweighs supply - everything has been cut down to less than the absolute bare minimum - and the criteria for services is sky high now. make a cup of tea and take the crisis line number. you'll be fine right?

welcome to the UK, one of the richest economies in the world! how is it then that living standards are as low as they were in the 1970s, what with the old cossie lives and wages that were already laughably meagre now completely out of sync with how fucking expensive everything is?? i know you worked hard to get your education and onto your graduate scheme and did everything society asked of you to make it in life, but things are different now so here's your mouldy room in a shared house where the rent is a million pounds a month and lol what disposable income aren't you just happy to have a roof of your head?? stop going to Costa every morning for your soy triple shot vanilla latte you entitled little shit! it's not like we've had 14 years of complete mismanagement of the economy or anything! ps. aren't you so tired of hearing that it's all your fault?

welcome to the UK, where we have a welfare system designed to help people.in need, I.e. those out of work and those too sick to work! but good luck accessing that too. and if you want to try - LMFAO! oh honey no one LIKES working. but all this pretending to be too unwell to work ain't fooling anyone! come on mate drop that defeatist attitude and get on indeed.com. none of your conditions are even real. stop using your multiple sclerosis/depression/long covid/terminal cancer as an excuse. fucking sickness culture in this country. the high rates of mental illness especially have no obvious cause at all do they?

welcome to the UK, a tiny country that prides itself on tolerance and has historically seen great benefits to the economy and culturally from immigration! but god forbid we make this an easy place to live for trans people! this Woke has gone too far! and oh my GOD aren't all these refugees SO annoying?! they clearly just want to come here for the free healthcare (you know that non existent thing) and to get welfare benefits (you know asylum seekers aren't entitled to benefits apart from a pittance allowance from the home office right?) and they're absolutely not braving a life threatening journey to escape horrific conditions and persecution in their own country. but whatever. not our problem. off to Rwanda with you. human rights are stupid lmao. empathy? compassion? never heard of her.

welcome to the UK, where we support genocide and saying certain things in opposition of it is actually fucking illegal. i wish i was kidding.

welcome to the UK, where nothing works and everyone is sad.

welcome to the UK. god i fucking hate it here.

british tumblr - even if you don't think it will make a difference, even if you recognise there is just a lesser of two evils here, even if you don't trust any of them, even if you're fucked off and burnt out, i am BEGGING you to vote to get these absolute cretins out of power. we cannot have another five years under tory rule. there will be nothing left.

[dufferpuffer]

Dufferpuffer Lupin fiend… I want to know what you think: do you think Lyall knew about the Order of the Phoenix? Do you think he knew what his son got up to after graduation?

I believe he’d be very eager to support his son (financially, offering him a home), and Remus would be very eager to decline that support - but would he eventually say “it’s fine dad, I actually don’t need a job because I’ve been camping out at my rich friend’s house, which became a headquarters for a guerrilla, which I fight for full time, so don’t worry about me”?

I have a small obsession with Lyall and I am a Lyall survivalist (I believe he lived to bury his son). The reason for my obsession is because I hate the old overused children’s adventure trope of dead parents! I think it’s delicious to try to make sense of a relationship that could be very complex and problematic.

Could he have been someone like Andromeda and Ted, not an order member, but a distant supporter? Or would he disapprove completely? Or would he be completely ignorant?

it is I, the Loopy Lupin Fiend I too am a Lyall Survivalist - I wrote a little thing ages ago, just a tiny little story about Lyall walking up to accept Remus' Merlin of Honor on his behalf while being haunted by what he has said about werewolves in the past. Just a silly thing :) Maybe needs a rewrite idk, i'm no writer. I'm a yapper. I yap.

Remus is the sort of man who cuts off those he cares about most. If it weren't for the war he would have NEVER spoken to Harry, Sirius, Albus... anyone ever again. He would have fled when Tonks showed any amount of love for him. He would have fled Arthur's unwavering support and Molly's kindness despite her fears and prejudice.

He would have held their positive feelings in his heart like treasured memories and not dared ruin them with the disappointment he would surely bring. Leave them happy.

That is what I think he did to his father. He 'killed' his mother, after all. Just a sweet accepting Muggle, and she died earlier than she should - after his childhood left her thin and weak from stress. (of course he DIDN'T kill her, but the stress parents show when looking after disabled children... it hurts us. Speaking as a disabled child, it hurts a lot seeing parents suffer from being unable to help. it feels like it is our fault for being unwell, confusing and hard. Remus is the type to REALLY blame himself.)

He didn't want to put financial or social strain on his father, who already would have been a target: Specializing in the study of Boggarts and Dementors and such - the exact Dark Creatures Death Eaters use... alongside the fact he insulted Fenrir personally...

I don't think Remus told him shit. I think Remus cut contact completely, at least for the war - maybe, hesitantly, letting his dad know he was alive afterwards... But the best thing he can do for the people he loves is let them live without him - and I think he truly loves and idolizes his dad. He knows Dementors inside and out, and the first think he caught and taught at Hogwarts was Boggarts. His dads specialty.

I think Lyall would be supportive of the whispers of an 'Order of the Pheonix', a secret group maybe perhaps curated by Dumbledore. An underground illegal militia working outside the Ministry. He may have worked with the ministry himself sometimes - but he has seen their incompetence first-hand and experienced their lack of support for the most vulnerable in society.

But if he knew Remus was a part of it all he would do was worry, even if he was proud of his son... so Remus wouldn't tell him. If anything - just let him know he was safe and well (even if its a lie) and he wasn't being pulled in by Fenrir's nonsense.

I like to think he wrote to Lyall telling him he was going to work at Hogwarts. Albus hired him - he was going to be a professor!!! That every time he wrote to his dad it was good news, and Lyall treasured the fleeting contact with his son - even if he knew if he ever wrote back "Come see me sometime!!!" Remus wouldn't respond.

[chemicalarospec]

my dad invited me and my brother to watch Firefly with him and it's actually really good??? (idk why I expected it not to be-- probably because the last time I tried one of his old Spaceship Shows (the one with the puppets) it was too sexist and too slow to get through.) First of all it should have been ILLEGAL for them to not have a single Chinese character in this show, but as a Chinese person I do like the aesthetics of the show and how they mashed up traditional Western and Chinese styles. The pronunciation is hilariously bad (IF ONLY THEY HAD A CHINESE ACTOR, HUH), but I like it because it's funny. (Me and my brother do laugh out loud every time.)

But the characters are actually so good?? First of all we got THREE FOUR (I didn't count right lmao) female main characters, no smurfette principal here! One of them doesn't even have any implied romance so far okay technically River doesn't but I was thinking of Kaylee and she has a crush on Simon lol. Kaylee, my favorite -- I LOVE how her appreciation of girly feminine stuff is portrayed as something that should NOT be mocked and does not negate her more "masculine" role as the mechanic and that she can nerd out WHILE being feminine. There's also how Mal, the main character, and Zoe, his first mate, have a longstanding and deep connection that's entirely platonic! Men and women CAN just be friends! Do note, Zoe (who is awesome btw) is married to another man, the pilot who is honestly so far the most boring character, and Mal is interested in Inara. Who, speaking of, I also love how so far Inara's profession as a (unionized it seems!) sex worker is treated with respect. River is the most ~okay~ in terms of sexist writing as a weak and mysterious and mentally unwell but sexy woman, but since she's not the only woman it doesn't feel like a big deal. (I feel like she's going to become more grounded, at least I hope so because I want to see more of her personality!) Misogynistic comments are challenged when made! Of course the writing isn't perfect but it's a LOT better than what I expected (and if a modern show didn't do the things I'm praising here I would be offended btw).

Also River's brother Simon is a complete dandy (I think it would be stereotyping for me to call him gay lmao), I love that for him. Episode one he bleeds from his mouth like a dying c-drama boy-- I just had a Vision of the resemblance and now I can't get it out of my head, all he needs to do his open his eyes super wide and then he'd be a dying c-drama boy. He cares for his sister so much, it's super sweet even though he REALLY sucks at dealing with psychosis(? would that be the term to describe her episodes?). Book is an instant icon of course, he's just there forcibly being the moral compass lol. Christianity in space smh. Despite being mr sexism I also love Jayne's character - he's funny (love a guy who's always trying to kill) and the question of his loyalty is intriguing. Mal is a kind of a Generic Protagonist Man but his backstory is solid enough that means his brooding attitude actually makes sense. The "Badger" side character is funny/interesting too, and my bro says he looks like Captian Sparklez haha. (Wash (Zoe's husband) is there. Sometimes he's funny.)

Going back to the design, I am partial to Victorian or whatever aesthetics, so I love how they threw that in along with the cowboy thing, and there's a lot of individual pieces merging Chinese aesthetics with that that I think do a great job. It speaks to my mixed heart <3. The costuming is actually so fun (mostly speaking to crowd scenes), so many characters get to wear distinctive outfits . Also kind of Killjoys vibes because they say "shiny" haha. I respect how space shots have no environment noise, only cowboy music lollll. Visual effects are interesting; you can always Tell but it does seem to me the best they could do at the time.

Wow this post turned out longer than I expected. So a recommendation for Firefly I guess! Forewarning, the parts with the "Reavers" are pretty dark/grotesque -- actually, there's significant violence throughout the show, the Reavers are just the worst.

[nyarlathotep-thecrawlingchaos]

Hey Nyarla. Loving to have you back, just, really quick, yeah? No thoughts just

These? Loving them. Art. Chef's kiss. Wonderful. But. May I bring your attention to:

That was all thank you good day ❤️

Ex-feckin-SCUSE ME BUT WHY DOES MIHAWK LOOK LIKE A NPC PIMP IN A GRAND THEFT AUTO GAME CONCEPT ART

AND WHY AM I FAR TOO OKAY WITH THAT ENTIRE IDEA—

Also on the subject of Crocodile with long hair, I have seen that fan art before and it makes me very unwell because I have a thing for long hair and this is not okay.

This should all be illegal.

As such please feel encouraged to continue storing such contraband in my ask box 🙏

I. Ahem. I'm going to go submerge myself in some ice water now 🥲

[harley-quinns-girlfriend]

Tvs in restaurants shouldn't be so loud

[sparkdoesart]

I am an amphibia fan first and person second

Ive been going a little crazy lately about this show again so im here to put the drawings in ur face before i actually explode

Unhinged whatever below vv

Yall do not understand,,, how unwell i have been about this show recently. And always. Im so autistic about it i swear i. Cant. Ive watched this show. More than 20 times. If anyone wants the context to this,, (and wont care about spoiling the show,, seriously,,, consider before you read my rant,,,)

This drawing is a cat version of my favorite character. The yellow orange stuff is from when they actually just. Fucking stabbed her. W a fire sword. Im still so so so salty abt it btw. Dont mind me. I just have an out of body experience every time i hear keith davids voice. Dont worry about it. Im NORMALLL.

...

Anyway

I

Love marcy

So much

..

I dropped everything for 3 whole days when they released the book about her. Actually stopped everything. Did nothing but read that for 3 days. Im so. Okay. Im great eve. n.

You guys think my infinity train shit is bad????? You missed yt me. Im CRAZY i

Mmm

Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhheheheheheh

I will hopefully be drawing yk. Actual. Human marcy. Later. Bc i was almost in tears listening to some songs earlier. And i needed to draw her as quickly as possible. Plus drawing the ...blood(...?) Was fun.

The songs,, btw,, if you evem care,,,

Slumber party by slotface

Twin size mattress. By the front bottoms(??)

And erm

Ofc

No big deal. From. Yk amphibia. That pops up in my playlist and sometimes i almost cry in public but thats fine.

Im. I should stop now.

Hey YOU 🫵

Go watcg amphibia. But like. Illegally. Fuck disney. Love amphibia.

[blurrymango]

Being an atheist is hard because on one hand, mainly people associate atheism with reddit or being a ffucking communist, and on the other hand, 99% of religious folks, specifically Christians in my experience because I live in America, a majority Christian country, are annoying cunts who think they're better than everyone else. And they're wrong, you never see Jews acting so ffucking smug and self-righteous, because Jews generally cool and the religious aspect of Judaism isn't built upon the idea that "everyone needs to be Jewish or else they're going to hell and if they're not Jewish then it's ok to kill and abuse them." Jewish folks aren't like that. Christians and Muslims are like that though.

I mean for ffucks sake it's illegal to be an atheist in some countries and we all know how much so much of the world hates Jews.

The majority of the world is Christian. The second most major religion is Islam. Because these two religions are proselytizing religions, or as I like to call them, colonist religions.

I don't know where I'm going with this. I just get extremely annoyed whenever I see posts made by Christians where the tone is so ffucking condescending. It gets on my goddamn nerves honestly.

I could talk about my gripes with atheists as well, but it should be obvious that I don't like a majority of them whether it be because they're communists or they only ever hate on Christianity as though it is uniquely evil or the ones that claim to be atheists but are so very obviously still religious.

You can't be an atheist and believe in ghosts, or magic, or the Devil. Like. Sorry. But if you really believe magic exists, you are not an atheist, you are a fool. Ghosts are not a secular idea either. Ghosts directly imply the existence of souls and an afterlife. AKA STUFF THAT ATHEISTS DO NOT FFUCKING BELIEVE IN.

This post got away from me. Goddamn. Likely because I am VERY sick and not in a clear headspace, so please don't take my words as inflammatory even though they very obviously are, as I am unwell and not being as clear and concise in my feelings as I can be, so there is likely a lot of room in what I'm saying for people to misinterpret or be jackasses about.

So like. Don't be saying some shit on this post if you are religious. Or a communist. Or if you hate religious people. I don't wanna hear it. Especially not now when it feels like there are millions of crabs pinching the back of my throat and a bunch of explosives in my head straining at the seams.

[volcanows]

i am so unwell it should b illegal for me to b at work rn

[hachigram]

004 VD ー BLESSED BE THE CHILD

LUKA: Ah. You’re in your seat, too.

HARUHI: Am I not supposed to be? I apologize. I will stand up right away.

LUKA: No, no, no. Just… Stay seated.

HARUHI: Understood. I will do as you say.

LUKA: Thank you. Now, shall we begin?

HARUHI: This is an interrogation, correct? But these are reserved for criminals, are they not?

LUKA: ……Aren’t you a criminal?

HARUHI: Negative. My actions were justified. They cannot be referred to as “criminal.”

LUKA: But you killed someone, didn’t you?!

HARUHI: Correct. I ended the life of another person. But that does not make me a criminal.

LUKA: But murder is illegal! Murder is a crime!

HARUHI: I am righteous in my actions. He deserved to have his lifespan shortened.

LUKA: Is that so… Well, what did he do that was so horrible?

HARUHI: I do not have to tell you anything. You will understand at the end of this interrogation. Even though I still believe I have been wrongly incarcerated.

LUKA: ………..

HARUHI: Well? Do you not have any further questions for me?

LUKA: I do, I do, just…. Give me a moment.

HARUHI: I shall await further instructions.

LUKA: [Under his breath] This kid…

[ A long pause is taken as Luka mulls over the information he was given. ]

LUKA: Okay. Name, age, and occupation?

HARUHI: I am Haruhi Nanami. I am twelve years of age. I no longer have an occupation.

LUKA: “No longer” have one? What were you doing before?

HARUHI: Forgive me. But as per the regulations I must follow, I am not allowed to disclose it.

LUKA: That sounds suspicious. Especially for someone your age.

HARUHI: What does the amount of time I have lived on this planet matter to my prior statement? What importance does it serve?

LUKA: Haaah. Never mind. I won’t get anywhere with this topic. Moving on… How’s life here in prison? Have you been getting along with the others?

HARUHI: Affirmative. Kisaragi-san is someone I converse with rather often. As she is a year older than me, she tells me about situations and experiences I have yet experienced. She is nice to speak to. She is proper company.

LUKA: I see. You must really enjoy her company.

HARUHI: Mmm. I do. What about you, Warden-sama? Do you, perhaps, have a person that you can confide in such as that? Do you have a romantic partner or interest?

LUKA: …………I can’t… seem to remember…

HARUHI: If you cannot remember if you have a romantic partner, then you must not have one. Therefore, you must be lonely and distraught. Perhaps I should introduce you to someone.

LUKA: Th-That’s not necessary… I just… [ A pause as they try to recall their past. ] Oof… I think I have a headache…

HARUHI: If you are feeling unwell, perhaps we should postpone this interrogation until you are feeling better. If you would like, I am able to pray for you.

LUKA: I appreciate it, but there’s no need. I’m alright.

HARUHI: M-Maybe you should listen to your body. If it ceases to function, it will be harder to recover from it. It is possible that your heart shall cease functioning, as well.

LUKA: No, really. I’m fine. We can continue.

HARUHI: Very well, then.

LUKA: Alright. Are you aware of the process that we use to extract your memories?

HARUHI: Affirmative. You read my mind and it projects my memories into a musical format for easier digestion.

LUKA: How do you know that much?!

HARUHI: I overheard Yuki-san having a panic attack in his cell. Since our cells are right next to one another, I am able to hear him rather clearly. I would appreciate it if you would render him unconscious from time to time, for I am unable to sleep properly with his constant muttering.

LUKA: A-Ah… I see.

HARUHI: Well, then. Shall we get it over with? I am finding this interrogation to be rather unpleasant.

[ The mechanical bell tolls right after. ]

LUKA: Very well. Prisoner number four, Haruhi Nanami… sing your sins.

[ MV: VITA ]