#i am too paranoid for that

[theshitpostcalligrapher]

I live in fear of more of my favourite restaurants getting tiktok famous bc I know this sounds paranoid but I haven't been able to order delivery from one of my favourite Chinese places for weeks and a tiktok gassing the place up from a few weeks back JUST came across my feeds

[schadenfreudich]

This is somehow a very funny way of getting rid of a significant amount of my intrusive thoughts, because I didn't even do it on purpose. I wasn't thinking about my intrusive thoughts I just needed to know this because I was already hyperfixated on it before I decided to read the entire wikipedia article.

And then it took me almost two days to notice that I had a lot less intrusive thoughts.

[ryllen]

pov: me super sad on them altering zayne's ENG voice on the recent update

[fairyhaos]

JEONGHAN 💌 2024 New Year's Greetings Messages

[qrovidcore]

so HEY UH

WAS ANYBODY GOING TO TELL ME THAT DURGE AND ASTARION REALLY DO HAVE THE SAME TRAUMA OR

WAS I JUST SUPPOSED TO FIND THESE PARALLELS OUT FOR MYSELF

OH OKAY YOU ALSO WERE TRAPPED AND HURT YOURSELF TRYING TO CLAW YOUR WAY OUT?????? YOU ALSO WERE THE SPECIAL LITTLE PET OF THE PERSON WHO TORTURED YOU, WHO IMMEDIATELY STARTS TALKING DOWN TO YOU THE SECOND YOU SEE THEM AGAIN?????? OKAY. YEAH. WE CAN COMPARE NOTES IF YOU’D LIKE.

[immeya]

I just read airplanes for the first time….

[parkitaco]

for once in my goddamn life i would love to feel secure abt a relationship

[who-the-fuck-knows-blog]

thinking about ed’s “apology” being a series of minimizations — “perhaps some of my actions, maybe all of my actions, maybe me, myself, maybe I, me made some of you feel somewhat — whatever that nasty, dark stuff was that brought us here, it’s in the past. all i wanted to say at the end of the day is that we’re trying to move the culture forward”

how haltingly he admits to the blame, how he still moves the blame onto “dark nasty stuff” that “brought us here” instead of “my actions. what i did” and then immediately moving onto “it’s about just moving on and not thinking about it anymore” essentially.

thinking about how ed could say “hello Mr. Latch, it’s not your fault you’re broken, no. you didn’t break you. you were just trying to do your job, weren’t you?” to a door but cant say it to izzy. ed “i didn’t apologize for jack shit” teach, izzy already rewriting his trauma to excuse ed and place blame onto himself. Ed, going around to fang and allowing lucius to push him off the ship. he tried to make up with lucius and fang (who had already forgiven him) but noticeably hasnt been alone w izzy

thinking about ed saying “let’s move past it into the future” and izzy later saying “not moving on is worse” instead of/than acknowledging the actual trauma. idk idk

i dunno why i keep thinking about these scenes together. I think it has to do with the repeated word, but could be about how Izzy is blaming himself for his actions and Ed is being very gentle and understanding to a door latch he’s fixing, and not the man who he shot.

(ultimately, i do think he’s working on it, he’s getting there. but he isn’t there yet. it’s still early days, though.)

[ineed-to-sleep]

I'm watching Berserk and I may or may not have hyped myself up to turn my vampire ocs into dark fantasy characters. mmaybe

[uncanny-tranny]

The two things I love most about language are simultaneously that the human need to communicate is so strong that we will invent languages, vocabularies, and new turns of phrases at the drop of a hat (freeing our thoughts from the confines of our mind), but also that language is so naturally limiting that it won't truly encapsulate your deepest, most inner thoughts and feelings (your thoughts are yours, but at what cost). Do you understand how feral this makes me feel. "Please understand me," we tell each other, and we both will be seen but also so, so misunderstood, and it isn't our faults, not really, and we continue trying, trying, trying to be understood.

[rocicrew]

When traffic exceeds a certain mass energy threshold, a ship will disappear in transit. Abruptly vanish without a trace. It's connected to the artifact we discovered on Ilus and it's happened a number of times. What can we do about this?

[cyber-therian]

the way im trying to force myself to be a spiritual therian because a post (i probably misinterpreted, if im being honest) made me feel like i can never be right about what my type really is because im a psychological therian

[akajustmerry]

anyway, update on my harrowing journey through the australian psychiatry system to be prescribed adhd meds: my psychiatrist is refusing to prescribe me any adhd medications because he suspects i have a heart condition. my doctor tried to explain to him that i do not have any personal health history of that and there is no need to be this cautious. but the psych is refusing to prescribe until my heart is given the okay from a cardiologist. i saw my doc a month ago and she sent a referral to the cardiologist. TODAY, i recieved via fucking LETTER that the cardiologist will not see me until february 27th NEXT YEAR. Bear in mind i was diagnosed back in may and told by the assessor ON THE DAY that i should be medicated immediately given my depression. it is OCTOBER and i won't see a cardiologist for 4 MONTHS and then i will probably have to wait months to see the psych again after that. i've been crying all day. this is so shit this is literally been the worst year for me mentally since 2015. i need a job? can't get one! need meds? can't get them! need money?? see point one! need a body that isn't barrelling towards worse and worse hormonal issues for no reason? can't have that either. and then there's [gestures vaguely in Arab]. like idk i am so tired and i don't even feel like i have the right to be cos how can i even be so tired from having Literally Nothing Going On

[mossiestpiglet]

tragically almost gave myself a rage tummyache because i cant tell the difference between different vehicles and thought our shitty security guard had returned, fortunately it’s just a totally different motorcycle

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

it turns out that, in moving, i have traded out having to deal with many small spiders for having to deal with the occasional fuckoff huge one

[misfit-crew]

I’m entering my ARG theorist arc oh god

So. The voywex page. (Spoilers if you wanted to find all of the secrets on your own or something)

His typing is SO slow. And honestly it kind of reminds me of when I was but a child and pressing the keys on my loud ass keyboard as slowly as possible so they didn’t make the takataka noise.

It’s a god damn crawl- except for the very last sentence.

“Then stay quiet.” Clearly meant to emphasize the words because it is actually typed at a reasonable pace. It reads as frantic to me- he’s scared of what will happen if someone like the blog curators finds out he’s chilling in their website.

Or Home. But that’s a different theory.

I also believe he’s the one scribbling over some of the guestbook pages that are a little too meta about the ARG. Trying to hide that there’s any weird vibes going on in the corners of this website- don’t worry about it everyone! Here’s a little doodle not related to what that guy said ha ha ha :)

Moral of the story: it is super tempting to send cute little remarks about the ARG into the guestbook, and I kinda want to do it too, but. Idk Wally asked us very politely not to spill the beans and I do not want the potential Consequences of these actions. Our responses in the guestbook may be a lot more important than we realize.

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk :) Wally Darling Supremacy