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[sideblogsoicanaskquestions]

Hello!

I feel like this may come off as a dumb question but what is Aplationic along side all the loveless/heartless identity in the Arospec

I feel like when I try to understand I am conflating Care with Love

Like I guess what is Love?

Like when I hear Romantic and Platonic from others it very much comes off as basically

You don't want to date

And then everything else falling under platonic

I don't want to date. People are exhausting

Like I just want to know more.

I tired looking in the tag but I just got all the "Your Valid " posts and nothing explaining

Which is just making me feel kind dumb

Like you are valid! I just don't understand and feel dumb

Like I could look it true but I want someone who is Aplationic and all that to explain ut

As it is your identity

At this point I am 100% sure I am ace and I am somewhat sure I am Aromantic but I am just having some trouble with some of the other Identities on the Arospec

This is a mess. I am so so sorry

Basically what does Aplationic mean?

[happyhauntt]

— march fic recs, brought to you by happyhauntt.

a wee fic rec post for a few of the fics i read in march that altered my brain chemistry!! i've put a lil comment next to each rec because honestly writers don't get praised enough for their work these days and i wanted to show my appreciation for these talented souls!!

grishaverse.

➡ kaz brekker.

what do you want from me by @rubysunnday. notes: literally perfect wtf.

dark days by rubysunnday. notes: i reread this literally constantly, it is so perfect, kaz's characterisation is perfect, i adore it.

bloody hands by rubysunnday. notes: i devoured this whole thing like a starving person it was sO good.

when am i gonna lose you? by @crowsmybeloveds. notes: this is so beautiful honestly i have no words.

the lost princess by @ellewritesalright. notes: look it's only part one but elle is a fucking wizard and i'm a sucker for an anastasia au.

you and me (a whole lot of history) by @heliads. notes: this was so cute and such a clever concept i fell in love!!!

schat by @amourology. notes: fully choked this is so adorable.

soulmate by @magpiencrow. notes: KAZ BREKKER SOULMATE AU didn't know i needed this but now i need 100 more!!!!

➡ nikolai lantsov.

nine long years series by @ellewritesalright. notes: i am actively fucking screaming over this fic. i will never stop. this might genuinely be the best thing i've read in a LONG while. everything about it has me sobbing i actively CANNOT COPE. and it's not even finished yet.

one of us by @songofpatrochilless. notes: literally had me sobbing you don't understand the domesticity of it all!!!!!.

come on back to me by @atlabeth. notes: there is a very strong chance that i'll literally never stop screaming about this fic.

dreams of you by @wh0refornikolailantsov. notes: every cell in my body is SCREAMING.

this love by @lantsovsupremacist. notes: did not, in fact, give you permission to hurt me like this do it again.

salt in the wound by @in-my-feels-probably. notes: brain goes brrrr this has everything i need to survive tbh.

wanting was enough by @rubysunnday. notes: beautiful stunning magnificent i want to eat it.

an exhausted smile by @writing-havoc. notes: think i had an aneurysm reading this it was that amazing.

run away with me by @sumsebien. notes: i am still sobbing over this.

in emerald hearts, emerald minds by @undiscovered-horizon. notes: love love love love love. there aren't enough words in any language to describe how much i love this.

➡ alina starkov.

alina starkov x reader by @heliads. notes: alina does not get nearly enough love and this was so fucking sad and cute and brilliant.

➡ nina zenik.

the ten steps to 'i love you' by @sophierequests. notes: this was SO HEARTWARMING AND SWEET i adored it!!!

➡ zoya nazyalensky.

forget-me-nots by @syllvane. notes: not enough zoya fics on this hellsite. but also this ripped my heart out and made me sob so RUDE. i feel devastated.

➡ inej ghafa.

inej ghafa x reader by @heliads. notes: INEJ MY SWEET BABY, this fic is everything to me. everything. and it's so beautifully written!!!

➡ the darkling.

the dark side of the moon series by @myhairpintrigger. notes: this fic is ASTOUNDING. i haven’t cried this much reading something in a long time. i was FULL-BODY SOBBING. i don’t even like the darkling. i am Not a darkling girlie. but i was intrigued by concept of this fic and i can safely say it has ruined my life. this is Emotional Damage Incarnate. i will never recover. author, i salute you.

911.

through the smoke by @borntobewondering. notes: spent twenty whole minutes sobbing after reading this. i felt undone i felt hollow i felt so utterly fucked. author is a genius and that's all there is to say.

not so one night stand by @shmaptainwrites. notes: this was so fuckin adorable i'm in love.

d.c. to l.a. by shmaptainwrites. notes: bobby my guy just doesn't get enough fucking credit and this is so fucking adorable.

criminal minds.

➡ spencer reid.

trouble almost all my life by @januaryembrs. notes: this series is. it's literally. everything. i love bugsy like she's my own child. sister relationships are everything to me. i spent an hour sobbing in my bed over parts 2 and 3. i want this tattooed on my forehead.

➡ aaron hotchner.

found by @benedictscanvas. notes: DADDY i mean what. all jokes aside this was so sweet and beautiful and i'm in love the writing!!!

doctor who.

rage rage (against the dying of the light) by @morganas-pendragons. notes: felt feral after reading this. kayla just gets me in my feels every time.

heartbeat by morganas-pendragons. notes: this was the most emotional devastating thing i've ever read and i fully needed 3-5 business days to recover. rude. i want 100 more.

untitled by morganas-pendragons. notes: PAIN i love this so much.

ache by morganas-pendragons. notes: just scoop my heart out of my fucking chest i don't want it anymore after reading this.

a mind full of blissful terrors by @magiccath. notes: simply fucking amazing.

light in the dark by @i-imagine-my-doctor. notes: screaming please i adore this so much.

baby talk by @kisstherainwriting. notes: THE ABSOLUTE CUTIEST EVER. there's not enough clara fics and this had me squealing and feeling all warm and fuzzy!!!

holding my hand by kisstherainwriting. notes: angst galore this was STUNNING.

in another's eyes by @cas-kingdom. notes: PERFECTION.

where do we go now series by @theetherealbloom. notes: literally so fucking amazing i don't have enough words.

marauders.

the winner takes it all by @ellecdc. notes: brb faye is having a STROKE--

come back, be here series by ellecdc. notes: i think i had a full on stroke while reading this series. the attention to detail is insane. the characterisation is perfect.

i don't know you anymore (maybe i never really did) by @thenyoumightaswellwrestleangels. notes: SCREECHING i'm in love you don't understand.

bridgerton.

➡ anthony bridgerton.

distractions by @peterpparkrr. notes: simply immaculate.

right person, all the wrong times by @wwinterwitch. notes: did you mean one of my favourite tropes bc this is it.

right in front of me by @idontgiveaflyinggrayson69 & @thirteenisles. notes: i felt feral after reading this tbh.

➡ sibling!reader.

reluctant caretaker by @rubysunnday. notes: this fic hit my heart in all the right places okay sibling stuff means everything to me.

did she have a cookie by rubysunnday. notes: a joyous read from start to finish i CACKLED the whole way through.

moon knight.

come back to me by @mgparker. notes: still sobbing. immaculate.

the other sarcophagus by @starryevermore. notes: i literally reread this constantly i adore it so much!!

marc spector x reader by @softlyspector. notes: i had an aneurysm reading this and i haven't been the same since.

more marc spector x reader by softlyspector. notes: i am having an intense emotion hold on. anytime i see autistic stuff in canon content for any fandom i SQUEAK. and this is so well done honestly.

star wars.

heartless by @youvebeenlivingfictional. notes: i reread this constantly, it's so amazing and heartwrenching and beautiful and i want to eat it.

little talks by @light-yaers. notes: you simply do not understand how much i adore everything beff writes. i adore this fic more than i need oxygen to breathe.

right where you left me series by light-yaers. notes: personality-defining series. i LIVE for this fic. every update adds five years to my lifespan. if you're not reading this you are MISSING OUT.

a light, a song, a bluebird by @millllenniawrites. notes: made me SOB 10/10 would recommend if you like emotional trauma.

invisible string by @campingwiththecharmings. notes: pining!!! loneliness!!! i adore!!!

hard landings by @softlyspector. notes: no. no you don't understand. this fic doesn't just own my soul it is my soul. i want it tattooed on my face.

misc.

hopper x reader by @luveline. notes: you don't understand this might be the cutest shit i've ever read and jade is a fellow welsh person which automatically makes them brilliant in my book.

muña by @in-my-feels-probably. notes: alicent means fucking everything to me and this had me sobbing.

mistletoe magic by @writingsbychlo. notes: literally the cutest fucking thing ever, had me kicking my legs and squealing!!

[sibsivsig]

Hi, I love reading your posts. I would like to make a request to Shisui Uchiha. I would like something like enemies to lovers, they are in the forest arguing because of a mistake in a mission and they end up starting to kiss, then it evolves into a moment hot and wild. I would like the pair to be female. If you can't do it, no problem 💜

Shisui X Fem!Reader

I could never hate you

"How could you be so... so... so careless?!", Shisui was basically yelling at you, his hands clenched into fists.

"You were in trouble! What was I supposed to do? Let you die?!", you shout back, in disbelief of the sheer audacity of him.

He was your.. friend? Colleague? Long term acquaintance? It didn't matter, you didn't want him to die.

"Shisui, you were about to fall into a trap", you remind him of the events 5 minutes ago.

"You went against my orders and almost got yourself killed. That would have been my responsibility to bear, my fault.", he grabbed your shoulders and looked down on you.

Has he always been this tall?

You place your smaller hands on top of his, gently squeezing them. He pulls his hands away quickly, turning around and moving his hand through his hair.

He was tense, that much was obvious.

How does he see me? He doesn't seem to care about me much outside of missions. You sigh, putting your hands on your hips.

"Y/N, don't be so careless with your life", Shisui speaks up after a while, a weird undertone in his voice.

He seemed sad, perhaps a little worried. You try to stretch out your hand towards him but he walks away and leans against a tree.

"Shisui, we're barely acquaintances, why do you even care? On top of that, you're stronger than me, more valuable to Konoha", you try to reason with him, not understanding why he's so upset.

He whips his body around, in disbelief of your words, his brows creased.

"How could you even say that? Do you have any idea how important you are to me? Barely acquaintances my ass, I care about you more than anyone else", he hisses back, gripping your shoulders tight.

"Shisui...", you begin to talk, your head swirling with hundreds of thoughts at once.

As long as you could remember you and Shisui were always competing with each other. Whenever he could do something new, you trained 10x as hard to be able to do it as well. But it also helped you become stronger, develop more will power, kept you motivated and in general helped you become a better version of yourself.

"I don't want you to get hurt either, not just because you're valuable to the village...", you begin talking but stop abruptly.

What am I supposed to say next? What should I do next? Why don't I want him to get hurt? How do I feel for him?

Shisui mumbles something incomprehensible, distracting you from your thoughts still running 100 miles per hour in your head. You inch a tad bit closer, the distance between you feeling too large.

But before you even have the opportunity to ask him to repeat himself, he closes the distance between you two, his lips crashing down on yours.

His hands wander from your shoulders to your back and waist, feeling the curve of your hip under his palm. He gently moves his lips against yours in perfect rhythm.

"I don't want to lose you because I love you", you finally manage to mutter out.

Shisui wraps his arms around your smaller form, pressing you against his chest and placing his chin on top of your head.

"I love you too", he mumbles as he closes his eyes, his heart finally calming down.

[cheesecakezyum]

I just found your blog and I am LOVING the Wukong content. I was hoping to request some smut headcanons (maybe alphabet hcs- if you feel up to it). I completely understand ty! <333

NSFW Alphabet ; Sun Wukong

Please do not click the ‘keep reading’ option if you are under the age of 18. Adults only, please! :)

Welcome to my page! I’m ecstatic that you’re enjoying what I’m providing <3 Doing alphabet headcanons are actually some of my favorites!

Mainly because it helps me with future pieces of writing (smut ofc) — like a cheat sheet almost!

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A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He loves to hold you in general, so after a session of utter passion? It’s tripled. He’ll sometimes want to keep his cock buried in you overnight if you’re up for it and continue from where you two left off the next morning.

He’s not too big on cleaning himself personally after sex (like the absolute gremlin he is), but he’ll begrudgingly set a warm bath for you if that’s what you want! You’ve explained UTI’s and yeast infections to him, which is why he no longer complains about keeping his semen inside you as long as he can.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He loves his tail. I mean, it’s like a third hand! Another tool to balance himself, grab things, and especially bring you to him when he’s needy.

He personally loves your ears. They’re so cute and small compared to his! Sometimes you’ll catch him fiddling with your earlobes. He also enjoys the noises you make when he nibbles on them.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

It turns him on extremely seeing you covered in his cum— legs spread, ever so slightly trembling as you’re leaking with his semen, your face twisted into an expression of pure bliss. It’s enough to get him riled up all over again.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Has a Owner/Property kink that even to this day hasn’t publicly told you about. You found out yourself after a certain rigorous handjob when he basically begged you to let him cum, ending his plead with master.

Praise kink too, but he’s a bit more open with that.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

At first he may seem clumsy, but he’s simply learning what makes your body tick. After maybe 3-4 sessions expect him to have your anatomy and personal pleasures memorized to the tea. Every whimper, moan— it’s all a sign to let him know that he should keep the ministrations going.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

The mating press.

His main interest is the deeper penetration aspect of the position. He also loves the look of your helpless face every time he presses into you.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Pretty goofy! But Wukong knows when to switch the mood to make it better for you both. One minute he’ll be joking to you about a show playing in the background and the next will be eating you out like you’re the last meal he’ll ever have.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

This man is 100% a hobo. Although being filled with body hair already (cause, y’know. Monkey?) he has a pretty clean happy trail which matches the ash orange color of his mane!

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

He won’t have sex with you unless there’s at least some sort of feelings in the mix. Whether they’re unspoken or not it’s something that’s always there. He’s not there just to fuck, he wants to make love.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Doesn’t masturbate often. He’d have to really be in the mood, but even still— he has trouble concentrating when it’s only imagination. If he ever does though, you’d be the only thing on his mind. Maybe a picture, or a voicemail would do.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Breeding. It’s instinctual for him to have reproductive urges; The idea of stuffing you full of his cum to be the future carrier of his children is quite appealing to the simian.

Marking. He likes both you and everyone else to know who you belong to. Whether it be carrying your scent with him— or the many bites littered around your body. He thinks it’s like taking a park of him with you.

Cockwarming. While it can be seen as torture for both parties, he adores the way you slowly break down above him. A simple shift of the hips enough to make such deliciously crude noises escape from those pretty lips. It makes sex that much more gratifying if there’s at least a bit of a wait.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

He’s a bit more comfortable if you guys have some type of privacy, considering the entirety of Flower Fruit Mountain is littered with primates. So a bedroom or bathroom would do.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Being the big spoon. While it may start as sweet and lighthearted before you know it he’ll be slowly pressing his clothed erection into you, huffing softly and asking if you’re up for a round or two.

Your own moans. He’ll work hard as hell if it means by the end of the night you’re screaming his name, begging for more— to go even harder.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Degradation/Humiliation.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Prefers to definitely give. He finds his own pleasure in yours!

Let’s just say he knows how to use his tongue quite well. This can go back to E; He knows what you need to reach your climax and he’s more than happy to give it to you.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Slow and rough. Wukong wants to feel your walls clenching every single time he’s just about to pull out, only to thrust back in without a care in the world.

As his peak eventually reaches though— he will often try to chase it with a faster, sloppier pace. ONLY if he knows you’re both close.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

While he does like to take his time with you, quickies are a pretty common occurrence when you’re with Wukong. In a certain spot with few wandering eyes? He’ll lift you up against the wall and pound into you.

In a certain position while your cleaning? On the counter you go. Just sucks that you have to pick up even more of a mess after.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Not too fancied on the idea of trying something new unless he has somewhat of an idea of what’s gonna go down. He doesn’t want to be left in the dark, and communication is especially key for this monkey.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

His stamina is as big as his ego. This man could go fucking you a whole night if it meant filling you up to the brim.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He doesn’t have any toys, and isn’t too fond of buying any simply because he doesn’t know where? Like???

If you have your own, though, he’d be more than happy to hear how to use them and spice up your tango just a bit more.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Humiliation really isn’t his game, but he loves to mention how destroyed you look under him— asking you to tell him just what you want him to do while he’s hovered over you.

It just gives him a bit of pride to know that he can make you into such a mess. You lustful deviant you!

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

I don’t think he’d be necessarily loud. The trembling quiver of his voice as he breathes out your name— the occasional curse.

He’d have to be pretty wound up in order to raise that voice of his. It’s not necessarily impossible! The stroke of his tail is a pretty quick way to get an unprepared whore moan out of him.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

It’s like he’s constantly in the honeymoon phase when he’s with you. Pet names like hun, sweetie, peaches, schnookums even. His corniness is sickeningly addictive.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Sleeper build. He doesn’t look necessarily ripped at first glance with all those robes but a good feel of those thighs or biceps shows that even thousands of years later, he’s in great shape.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

High, very high. Maybe not at first; jumping straight into sex after building a relationship just isn’t him. One taste of that pie, however, and suddenly he can’t seem to get enough of you.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterward)

He doesn’t fall asleep immediately after sex. It’s certainly tempting, but he’d much more prefer taking care of you, taking in the moment and making sure you’re okay.

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Definitely give their new album a listen if you’re interested!

[kaythejay]

Sometimes I forget just how privileged my life is as a queer person. I mean, I live in the US. It is completely legal here. When my partner and I decide to tie the knot, we will be able to do so. Though I am old enough to remember when that became legal, so I'm not in any deniability about the fact that I know it can be taken away (especially knowing that Roe v. Wade has already been taken away and they will certainly do the same to Hodges v. Obergefell if given the chance). But regardless, I do not have to worry about going to jail or getting killed because of my sexuality.

I have a lot of family that supports me. My partner's entire family has been absolutely wonderful in accepting me into their family. I mean, her mom has already started calling me her daughter-in-law, and we're still several years out from that being true (mostly for financial reasons/I'm still in school because I changed my major and added time to my degree). My grandma is always asking about my partner because she absolutely adores her. The reason I don't really talk to my parents has nothing to do with the fact that I'm gay (they like my partner more than they like me). They don't care about the gay thing, there's just a lot of other stuff that happened while I was growing up (before I even knew what gay was) that makes it hard to talk to them.

I'm growing up in an era where queer pride is becoming more and more mainstream. I know a lot of young kids whose parents have gone out of their way to teach them about queerness and that it is ok. There's one kid that I knew that was even taught things beyond the "basics" (he knows what pansexual means for example). Rainbow capitalism is proof that the world is shifting. I can walk into Target right now and get myself a bold (though, admittedly probably ugly) pride outfit. When I was little, that just was not a thing.

I get to see the shift in how controversy is handled with celebrities. For example, the whole thing with JoJo Siwa at the moment is all about her as a person, not the fact that she kissed a girl in her latest music video. When I was little, if you were gay, you had to hide it or be ridiculed for that reason.

And honestly, in my day-to-day, I really don't have to think about it that much. I mean, if I'm out in public with my partner I still have to think about if we're in a safe space if I wanted to like. Hold her hand or anything because we do live in a red state, so we're not 100% safe from being harassed. However, I don't have to think that much about it otherwise.

I mean I will once I'm a teacher (and my partner who has just gotten her teaching license has already talked to me a lot about that). I have a friend who is teaching in a district that simply putting a poster up that has a rainbow on it (even if it has nothing to do with pride) is enough to get yourself put under fire. She got into trouble for introducing herself with her pronouns (and she's a cis, straight woman, no queer shenanigans going on there).

J talks to me a lot about the fact that she feels bad that she can't about me in a professional environment like a straight couple could. She assures me that it is not because she doesn't want to. But honestly I have to remind her that like. I avoid the topic probably even more than she does. I haven't been out for nearly as long as she has, so I haven't gotten as comfortable with people knowing that stuff as she has. She's also talked to her mom about it, but her mom doesn't fully understand that it is a safety thing. J's mom's response is almost always "I don't really talk about my husband much either." She kind of struggles to understand the point of "but you could if you wanted to without repercussions." Whereas if me or J tells the wrong person that we have a lady partner, we've immediately put ourself (and possibly the other) in danger. Sometimes I forget just how deep the danger goes.

But then things happen.

People in our dorm have put notes on our door (because we were ✨roommates✨) that were less than kind. We had to get our RA and RLC involved, but they couldn't do anything since there aren't cameras in our building. But boy did my RLC want to (she's also a queer lady, freaking awesome, Imma miss her when I'm over RA-ing in a different building). And I'll be honest with you. Even in our dorm, we were super, super careful about how we presented ourselves because we knew it wasn't safe. And still, someone with ill intentions somehow found out about us.

Someone crawls into your Tumblr inbox to call your slurs and tell you that you're faking for attention and that you'll never understand what it really means to be gay. Only for them to disappear when you turn the anonymity off.

Someone yelled "faggots" at us out of a car window while we were all decked out heading to lunch after the pride parade.

And I know, I know I'm incredibly lucky that that is the extent of the harassment that I've faced because of my sexuality.

But honestly it just goes to show just how important pride, and pride month as a whole, still is to this day.

For me, pride is a huge celebration of who I am as a whole person. It is the one time of year when I can take the mask off completely and just feel free to be me, knowing that I'm safe from judgement. Like my partner was saying the other day, I don't really realize just how much of myself that I sanitize for the majority's consumption until I'm at a pride event and am no longer doing any of that. There's certain ways that I would carry myself/dress/etc if I didn't have to worry about the people around me saying or worse doing something to me just because they pick up on my queerness.

Pride events are a chance to be around a very large group of other queer people. It is a chance to show people who are important to me a massive aspect of my life in a way that isn't sanitized for public consumption. It's a place where we get to be freaks and weirdos and not have to worry about getting looks. Because honestly for as weird as you might look, there's someone not all that far away that looks even weirder and it is so freaking cool to get to see.

But pride is so much more than that. They're also an "in your face" of the people who hate us. It is a show that we are not going to back down and stop being who we are as people just because people don't approve of our "lifestyle." It is the community banding together to welcome everyone who is accepting and protect people from those who aren't. It is a place for "baby gays" to find that it is ok to be be queer and find their place in the world.

I hope you all have a happy pride month, whether you are celebrating out and proud, or hidden in the closet.

[newtdrawz]

Could u do dally and pony friendship hcs🫣

OH MY GOD YES I CAN

You don't understand,, how obsessed I am with their friendship omg 😭 (lil warning these are prolly ooc but I really tried 😭😭 I promise) (feel free to add on to these I love seeing other ppls hc's!!)

Ok throwback to my Ponyboy HC's post where I said Dally is really supportive of Pony's hobby in art!!!!!

Dally might be (secretly ofc he would never admit it) like the #1 fan of Pony's art, besides Johnny and Soda obvi

He really likes watching him sketch and paint, it's memorizing to him and he can't fathom how it looks like a picture from a camera almost, he tells him that too. ("I dunno how you're able to do that so quickly, Pone." "It looks like a photograph almost.")

Pony always tries to downplay his talents and Dally (ofc in his mean/tough love Dally way lol) tells him not to do that and to not sell himself short

Dally truly believes Pony could be famous from his art. That he could get out of Tulsa and make a name for himself. He doesn't really know how to communicate that to him besides the rare compliment here and there.

Another throwback to the post where I did the hc that Johnny and Dally will sit in and listen to Pony read,,

Dally doesn't like reading, never really cared for it. He thinks Pony reading all the time is a little funny and he'll tease him abt time to time.

When he first finds Johnny sitting in the lot with Pony and Pony reading one of his books out loud to Johnny he obviously had to interrupt and obviously sit with them (they're happy to include him btw they don't mind 😭😭)

Dally will not. Shut. Up. He asks Pony abt a million questions abt the book. ("Well why'd the guy go and do that?" "Why's he stupid?" "Wait what happened before that?" "What's that ladies name again?" "Wait What's she look like again?")

This is one of the very few (and probably first) times Pony talks back/sasses Dally ("Why don't you be quiet and let me finish reading the page? And then maybe you'll know what's happening.")

Idk how to explain this but Dally is def the type of friend to feed into his friends delusions 😭 or like hype them up for something they definitely SHOULD NOT do,, like ykwim?? And he def does it with Pony

He definitely encourages Pony to get into a little bit of trouble, just a tiny bit.

Obviously Pony can get in trouble on his own and he does plenty but Dally just encourages it a little bit more lol

He calls it "getting Pony out of his comfort zone" while Darry calls it "peer pressuring" (there was def a conversation/argument abt it 😭😭) (Dal: I am NOT peer pressuring him, I'm getting him out of his comfort zone. Dar: yes you are Dal! Dal: No I'm not! Pony do you feel peer pressured?! Say no. Pony: No... Dal: See?! He's fine. He's having fun!)

Dally 100% keeps Pony out of any real trouble tho, the kind that'd get him sent away or seriously hurt. He'd never encourage him to do something bad enough to warrant those things.

Ok, Dally is actually really nice but in a mean way. Like he's aggressively nice where no one's sure if they're being threatened or complimented or insulted. He's no different with the gang

If Pony or Johnny are like really bad at something Dally will threaten the rest of the gang to lie and be nice 😭😭😭 he won't be nice because it's not expected of him but he'll make everyone else be nice.

One time Pony tried to bake a cake and for some reason he just can't bake. He can cook fine but not bake. So it was like awful but ofc the gang tried it.

When Pony isn't paying attention Dally turns to the gang and straight up threatens them. ("This thing tastes like shit but you're all gonna tell him it tastes good or I swear I'll shove your faces into the cake.")

Dally has no idea WHY he does it, cuz he's not nice (he is) and he doesn't care abt Johnny or Pony's, or really anyone's, feelings (he does he's just emotionally constipated 😭😭😭)

Dally still is kinda mean to Pony though, not mean but like teasing?? Like in a big brother way

Sometimes he just says things without really thinking abt it or randomly teases him (like Pony reading all the time and being a nerd and not talking to girls)

One night they're both sitting on the porch smoking and it's kinda late and Dally randomly just says "ya'know I don't really mean it, right?" And Pony says yeah and Dally just nods and they go back inside.

After that Dally still teases him and stuff but Pony kinda knows now to not really take it heart cuz that's just Dally being Dally.

From an outsiders perspective it does look/sound like Dally is just being and a-hole 😭😭 but the gang just knows him enough that it's some weird love language he has to just be mean to them 😭

Whenever Dally's about to do something really stupid/dangerous/illegal he threatens Pony and Johnny to not do it

Before he does anything he'll look both of them in the eyes and either tell them to beat it incase the police show up or back up and hideout

He looks directly at Pony and goes "Do NOT tell Darry I did this infront of you or else." ("Do not, and I mean do not, EVER do what I'm about to do or I'll beat both of you.")

Dally is basically like the only one rlly allowed to be mean/tease Pony (in his head at least 😭)

Dally makes fun of him plenty and Pony just rolls his eyes and laughs. Dally will ruffle his hair and punch him in the arm and all that.

But the minute someone who isn't Darry or Soda or himself says something rude to Pony he just gets so mad 😭

One time he threatened Steve cuz Steve said something to Pony. ("You better shut up and leave the kid alone, Steve.") (Steve's confused cuz like not even 5 seconds ago Dally just called Pony an idiot or something 😭😭)

He's especially this way with socs and authority figures

And it's not like Pony can't defend himself or anything, Dally knows he can but he just gets mad anyways and again he just starts talking before thinking and next thing he knows he's nearly throwing hands with someone cuz they were an a-hole to his friend lol

He's basically the "only I can be mean to him and no one else can" type of friend 😭

Ok this post got a little out of hand 😭

I had waaaaaay too much fun with this I just really love talking about and making hc's 😭 I'm still trying to nail down Dally's personality so if (which he probably is,,) he's ooc sorry 😭 I literally can't help taking the characters and literally changing sm abt them from canon 😭😭 it's truly a problem but I will try to get him right 🙏

(If there's any spelling mistakes or anything sorry I did this half asleep w/ a headache cuz I was so excited abt this ask 😭 I couldn't wait)

[bigsoftmarshmallow]

Hello!!

How's your day been? :D

I have ELady headcanon thingy that might expand ze fluff.

Despite how stoic Elady normally is, she's actually very expressive with her hands & arms. As a result, when she's around people that she doesn't trust, she tends to keep her arms folded over her chest, or by her sides, or hands planted on her hips, or folded together behind her back in order to keep them still.

But with someone she trusts, she uses her hands to gesticulate. Part of the reason being due to her fluency in Shadow Hand Speak (SHS). It's not an official Hyrulean sign language, nor do many even know about it to begin with, being mostly used by Sheikah & sometimes Yiga as a means to communicate with each other quietly on stealth missions.

She doesn't always use SHS when speaking, but almost out of habit, it feels unnatural to talk & not have her hands doing something. So, she still unconsciously uses her hands to get her meanings across or for emphasis.

It's just a bit of a quirky thing she does around those she trusts with her life. And one she honestly finds a bit embarrassing.

I think that Ganondorf thinks it's effing cute. And I believe that, sometimes, he tunes her out to see if he can figure out what she's saying just by watching her hand gestures. Which sometimes gets him in trouble when his Lady realizes that he isn't listening.

It annoys her a little bit when he does it, though she can never be 100% sure that he isn't listening because he always seems able to respond as if he had been.

Also, whenever out & discussing business or sensitive information, she tends to fold her hands over her mouth in a natural position to dissuade lip-readers. Likewise, she too can read lips.

I can’t help but wonder about his thoughts & feelings as he watching her attentively, yet also isn’t listening to her. Just, this entire conversation, & he finds her adorable, ridiculously charming, & amusing beyond words.

Like, I think he’d be internally snickering at her gestures.

That is so fuckin' cute! I also talk with my hands as well, even when I'm doing my job, which is talking to people on the phone. I always use my hands to emphasize what I'm saying or to help explain what I am doing. If you force my hands to stay still, I actually lose my words much more easily. I talk easier if my hands move.

I know a little sign language too! My ex in college taught me a little from her sign language class, and I retained some. Not much but a little!

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Wind Waker Ganondorf

Thoughts and Reactions: Wind Waker Ganondorf is amused and charmed by Equal Lady's expressive hand gestures. He finds her quirks endearing and often watches her hands more than he listens to her words, trying to decipher her meaning through her movements alone.

Internal Monologue: "She's like a captivating dance, her hands speaking volumes. It's a wonder how she can be so expressive yet so guarded."

Response: When Equal Lady catches him not listening, he chuckles and gently teases her. "You know, I could watch your hands all day and still understand everything you say, my love."

Ocarina of Time Ganondorf

Thoughts and Reactions: Ocarina of Time Ganondorf finds Equal Lady's hand gestures fascinating. He respects her for her skills in Shadow Hand Speak and enjoys watching her express herself, even if he doesn't always listen to her words.

Internal Monologue: "Her hands move with such grace and precision. It's like she's weaving a spell with every gesture."

Response: When caught not listening, he smirks and responds smoothly, "I was just admiring your elegance. Your hands tell a story all on their own."

Twilight Princess Ganondorf

Thoughts and Reactions: Twilight Princess Ganondorf is deeply intrigued by Equal Lady's gestures. He sees them as a reflection of her strength and intelligence. He finds her habit endearing and often gets lost in watching her hands.

Internal Monologue: "Such a subtle yet powerful way to communicate. She never ceases to amaze me."

Response: When caught, he responds with a gentle smile, "Forgive me, my queen. Your hands are as captivating as your words. I couldn't help but watch."

Hyrule Warriors Ganondorf

Thoughts and Reactions: Hyrule Warriors Ganondorf finds Equal Lady's hand gestures both charming and useful. He appreciates her skill in Shadow Hand Speak and often watches her hands to see if he can understand her without listening.

Internal Monologue: "She's a master of subtlety. Her hands reveal as much as her words."

Response: When caught, he gives a playful grin, "I was just testing myself to see if I could keep up with your hand signs. Seems I still need to work on it."

Tears of the Kingdom Ganondorf

Thoughts and Reactions: Tears of the Kingdom Ganondorf is captivated by Equal Lady's expressive hands. He finds her gestures a delightful quirk and often watches her intently, enjoying the silent communication.

Internal Monologue: "Her hands speak volumes. Every gesture is a testament to her strength and grace."

Response: When caught, he responds with a warm smile, "Your hands are mesmerizing, my love. They tell a story all on their own."

Demise (Skyward Sword)

Thoughts and Reactions: Demise is fascinated by Equal Lady's hand gestures. He sees them as a symbol of her cunning and resourcefulness. He enjoys watching her hands, finding it a unique and intimate part of her.

Internal Monologue: "She is a force of nature, even in the smallest of gestures. Such power and grace in her hands."

Response: When caught, he chuckles and says, "Your hands are as powerful as your words. I couldn't help but watch them in awe."

Overall, each Ganondorf and Demise find Equal Lady's expressive hand gestures charming and captivating. They appreciate this unique aspect of her personality, and their reactions reflect a mixture of amusement, admiration, and affection.

[desistancejourney]

in the last year or two that I identified as trans (I considered myself trans in some way for about 5-6ish years) I felt like I HAD to keep feeling like I was trans in order for the things about myself to still make sense, it felt like an imposition, because any reason that I had to question it would be considered transphobia. And when I finally gave myself permission to stop doing that, I felt such a relief that I didn't have to do that anymore. It felt like a burden had left me and I no longer felt obligated to identify as trans, if that makes sense. And for several months after that the "trans" feelings weren't happening organically and I felt freedom to be myself because a female can be anything she wants to be, and i almost had trouble recalling all of the reasons I felt trans in the first place (I mean I understood some of the reasons logically but not the memory of the original very first feelings). But now that it's been over a year since I desisted, the feelings are starting to come back a little bit and it's been a weird experience. I have different thoughts and feelings about what these feelings mean now than I did then, but it's still interesting to see these feelings come up largely on their own without being surrounded by trans ideology like I was before. Like I'll have the thought "I really wish I were a guy" sort of out of the blue. Not "I want to look like a guy", not "I want to remove my breasts". It's more like "I think I would have been a lot happier if I were born a man." And while i would characterize myself as somewhat gnc, it's not even about that? It's just that I feel more like a guy than a woman. But when I push harder on that thought it almost always comes down to stereotypes and things that shouldn't necessarily be gendered but that doesn't stop it from hurting? And maybe it's the fact that I'm likely autistic but I don't really relate to or understand many of the women around me, or I do but not in the way I feel like I'm supposed to, whatever that means. The idea that "woman just means adult human female" has helped me in the sense that i don't have to be or feel any way to be a woman, and by simply just existing as a female person I am forcing the label of woman to be applied to me, and if I don't fit what you think it should mean then you're the one who's wrong, not me. But I still don't "feel" like a woman. I don't believe in magical gender feelings anymore in the trans ideology kind of way, but even among radfems (who I don't always 100% agree with) I still feel like there's a sense of being a woman that they feel that I just don't. I'm not trying to project "woman feelings" that they don't have onto radfems, I'm just trying to describe my own disconnect from womanhood, regardless of how its defined. I really would like advice on this point and maybe there's a way of looking at it that I haven't thought of. It's not that I "feel" like a man, either, in the sense that again, I don't believe in magical gender feelings, and also that since I am not a man (as in a male human being) I couldn't possibly know what it is to "feel" like a man. Even as I typed out "I am not a man", just now I felt a certain sadness; not like I was lying, it just made me very sad and that was unexpected. Sometimes when I feel this way I start to think that every lesbian has had these thoughts before. But I also see a lot of evidence that that's not true. I know there are other things that led to me thinking I was trans (trauma and autism for starters) other than just being gay. I guess I'm just surprised and confused that I still feel this yearning to be man even after desisting. I sort of convinced myself that a lot of those feelings were coming from the community that I was in, and I still largely think that, but there's still something inside me that contributed to my trans identification that I haven't dealt with yet. I just feel really sad about it today particularly and I wonder if any detrans or desisted women (or anyone, really) had some insight into this.

[shinjisdone]

Yo! I have this regarding Thorfinn and reader and bro when I tell you I fell in love with your writing. I DID. I FELL HARD. You write Thorfinn so accurately and I thought it was beautiful aswell as how you wrote canute but like I said I got this random thought in my head

What if we get a poly relationship or friendship between Thorfinn Canute and reader, what doy ou think it would be like and how do you think it will start and how will be like? For me personally I like do little imagines that they all like eachother equally, bit of fighting here and there but even if it's not going to be an actual romantic relationship between the three I just like the thought of Thorfinn gaining his own little trio

I would like to hear your opinion on this one!

(It's oki if you ignore this<33 have a good day!!)

AAA almost forgot about this but it's always ok to ask things or to share your own takes!!!

Sob sob you fell in love???? 😭😭🥰🥰 thank you so much! I do hope I will be able to continue having people fall so hard they can't get up

Ngl I do pat myself on the shoulder for writing Thorfinn in character (only cuz I am so obsessed I have to understand him 👁👄👁) but it makes me happy that Canute is seen like that, too!

Hm, I never thought of poly relationships but I think for it to start (and Thorfinn having an Trio is super cute, especially if its chaotic) I think it works best when Thorfinn and Reader are still Canute's guards. HOWEVER they'd have to do more than just travel (find themselves in shenanigans) AND Ragnar would have to be away a lot. The man is a massive mother hen who would not allow Canute to grow, let alone speak to the other two on his own.

For the vibe I'd say it's similiar to Spongebob, Patrick and Sandy (with Canute switching between Sandy, the voice of reason and Spongebob, who curiously goes along with Patrick's plans).

Thorfinn is 100% Patrick with his stupid ideas 😭 his overconfidence in his intelligence and strength causes him to think he's better than anyone. He thinks ALL the choices he makes are the best for Reader and Canute but no, no they're not. And when someone points it out that no, he's dumb, he's like "the inner machinations of my mind are an enigma" -> gets beaten to a pulp by Askeladd

And meek Canute just goes with it cuz he don't know better 😭 or he's like I've got no choice I have to trust these idiots to keep me safe

After his awakening he'd wake up as Sandy with an actual mind and thinking for himself. He'd often chastises the both of you for your poor decision-making.

And Reader definetely switches between Spongebob and Sandy too. Either they talk Thorfinn out of stupid things and get him outta trouble or just goes along with it completely because they trust him so much and are like 'do it or die - all with Thorfinn, my bestie!' while talking Canute into it too with the promise that they will look out for him.

It's just

Thorfinn does stupid and reckless thing -> Reader joins and drags Canute with them-> Canute cries not wanting to be there and tries to be the voice of reason

Or

Thorfinn does reckless stuff-> Reader gets mad and chastises him for it, makes better plan -> like a child of divorce Canute looks between them and just tries to get along with the best thing and wants to please both of them.

[roobylavender]

someone posted this panel regarding oliver vs bruces parenting taking a jab at bruce that seems funny enough, like we can just like the post and move on but i checked the notes and apparently fans of each family are at war arguing with each other😭mostly shitting on bruce because oliver is the better parent and somebody brought up how when queen and his kids were having issues at some point that it was ooc and while i am not super well read on GA stuff i can definitely buy that, but what i dont understand is why that isnt allowed for bruce. i saw tags concerning the other horrible things bruce has done as like a gotcha to bat fans and its like why are only his comics the ones we take at face value as 100% accurate and in good faith am i wrong for finding this dumb😭

not at all i totally agree it’s dumb lol 😭 the thing that confuses me about the bruce v oliver debate is that i don’t get why there’s a need to compare when their parenting issues are at completely different ends of the spectrum. granted i do think both of them have issues with communicating but those stem from different things. every problem bruce has as a parent has to do with how he neurotic he is about being a parent to begin with. he cares too much, he worries constantly, he carries reams of guilt, etc. he’s constantly arguing within himself whether to keep the people he loves close so he can make sure they’re safe or to let them go so they can pursue their own dreams and aren’t put in harm’s way bc he asked them to stay. he’s like, a conditional-helicopter parent, in the sense that the helicopter gene only activates when people are in his city, which is why he allows them to walk away bc then it means he’s not trying to control them (except we obv know that leads to the problem where they feel like he’s pushed them away bc they think he thinks they’re not good enough)

oliver to me in comparison is someone who initially did not take parenthood seriously enough and almost treated it like he did any other relationship. unlike bruce, he was very intentional with treating roy like an equal—when i use that modifier at the beginning what i mean to say is that bruce was very cognizant of his position as a parent. dick’s safety was a higher priority than was dick’s self esteem (at least beyond the zucco incident which had a very specific goal of closure) even though bruce very much came to believe that dick was his equal, esp as an adult—and to the extent that when roy got into serious trouble with drugs oliver not only expressed this sort of condemnatory disappointment but also only expressed pride at roy having recovered from his addiction later on bc it was something he did on his own. he respected roy’s responsibility and maturity even though realistically as a parent he should have stepped in to help bc roy was still barely an adult and he had fallen prey to drugs bc oliver left him alone in the first place

those are both styles of parenting that i think you can criticize. there’s pros and cons to being too protective of your children vs not protective enough. and i think people tend only to criticize the former style and its example in bruce bc a recovery of his relationships with his children has never been the goal in the way that it is for oliver’s writers. which is a shame bc i really don’t think you or i believe bruce is as intentionally selfish as writers portray him to be. but alas 😭

[countrymusiclover]

100 - Not Little Girls Anymore

Part 101

Gemini Runaway

@icefrye19 @secretdreamlandmentality

Stomping around in the woods I clutched my hands into fists at my sides feeling anger boiling in my body. The wind blew my hair in my face before I just lost it. Throwing my hands out in front of me breaking the bark off trees into tiny pieces that were almost too small to see. “Universa ruina I tenebras ra damis infinitum..dissulta.”

Raising my hands up again the trees smashed again and the wind began picking up. Gripping my hair tightly in my fingers I heard someone coming up to me where I spun on my feet showing my fangs at whoever it was. “Get the hell out of here unless you’re looking for a fight!”

“Raelyn, Woah hey don’t bite my head off. It’s just me.” The figure stepped out from behind one of the trees that I had destroyed where I saw Cami with her hands raised in the air.

The veins underneath my eyes slowly went away when I slumped my shoulders calming down at the sight of her. “Cami, what are you doing out here?” She had moved back here about two years ago so she could work at one of the bars here like she did when she was human.

“Freya called me and told me that you’re brother, Hayley and Andrea are missing. If you want me to help track them I can. But I am also here and I can provide some booze and an ear for listening.” She claps her hands together with a weak smile.

Blinking through some tears I pushed my hands inside the pocket of my jacket. “I’d say booze after I get to rip whoever took my brother from me!…..but right now I…I need a hug. Jacob and I have never been apart like this since he came back from the dead.”

“Come here, Rae.” Cami opens her arms for me where I collapsed against her, beginning to sob in terror that someone might hurt them. “Hey ever since I have met you and your brother even when he was just a siphon witch there is nothing that stopped him from fighting back.”

Holding tightly onto her shirt in my fingers I croaked through some more tears. “I just don’t want to lose him, Cami. He’s…he’s still my brother…my twin brother.”

“You don’t have to explain it to me ever. I would give anything to have my own twin brother back in my life. All you should know is that I am here for you always.” She broke the hug holding my forearms seeing that some tears were falling down my face.

Sucking in a breath I felt my phone go off when I read a text from Freya that said people were gathering at the compound asking about Henry the newly turned hybrid. “Thanks Cami…oh Freya says there’s trouble at the compound. Someone wants Henry out of town.” She grasped my hand in mine and we vamped into the main entrance of the compound where I saw Vincent where I immediately got angry again.

“Raelyn Mikaelson, I thought we had an understanding about you and your children staying in this city. And now I have to deal with one of them making a hybrid. I’ll throw you out of-“

Raising my hand I shut him up with a silent spell stomping up to the witch who thought he could do anything to me. “Silencio, at first I thought you were helping us but you’re not. The truth is now that I look at you, you really just wanted them gone. You wanted my family torn apart!”

“Of course I did. This city was in danger and now it isn’t because I put the Hollow into the Mikaelson’s. You asked for my help to save your daughters and your niece so that is what I have done.” He somehow undid the spell I had used throwing me against the wall where I growled about to charge at him.

Cami vamped in between Vincent and I before I could hurt him. “Wait, wait, wait. Just stop for a second here. Okay Raelyn just wants her family back together. Can’t we find a way to bring them back and not destroy the city?”

“Cami, you can’t be serious now. When you were human Klaus compelled you without a thought, you nearly died multiple times. And then you became a vampire after Klaus’s ex forced Raelyn to turn you. So I don’t understand what makes you still be friends with this family. They only care about the ones who they share blood with!” Vincent raised his hands up in the air rolling his eyes at the former human.

Pushing around Cami I grabbed his shoulders about to throw him until I saw Jackson and a wolf from Hayley’s pack coming into the compound. “Now isn’t a good time Jackson!”

“I’m not here for my mother’s request. The wolves have been saying they want the Mikaelson’s back in this city. Lisina, tell her.” Jackson put a hand on the black woman.

She stepped forward giving me a half smile. “Hayley convinced us all that you were a good person before you gave us your blood to become hybrids. And we have been told about this wedding between your daughter and Jackson. So we will fight to make that happen. Because you made our suffering stop every full moon.”

“Thank you, Lisina. I appreciate the support.” Taking her hands in mine I smiled back until I saw some rain outside turning red like blood which couldn’t be good. “Uh, there’s something I have to take care of first. So you all should go home before the storm comes in.”

“You told him to come back, didn't you? Oh there’s gonna be trouble people.” Vincent began running out of the compound in a panic.

Vamping upstairs into the alcohol parlor I covered my mouth with my hands instantly crying happy tears by who was standing in front of me. “Oh my gosh, Nik!” He smiled in my direction with his hands in the pockets of his jacket leaning against the wall.

“Hello Raelyn.” He smirked through some tears of his own before he vamped forward and I did the same until we met in the middle. Jumping up I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck.

He wrapped his arms around my back where his blue eyes focused on mine and didn’t break away ever. “Please tell me I’m not dreaming right now. That you really are here after all this time.” I shuttered almost not believing that I could physically feel him underneath my fingers.

“You’re not dreaming, Rae. I’m here….I’m right here and I am not going anywhere until we reunite our family.” He rested his forehead against mine where our breathing picked up. I gripped his jacket in my nails leaning forward finally kissing him after five years.

My heart races even though it no longer has to beat to keep me alive. My hands go around his neck as he pulls my face closer to his, his lips inches from mine. "I tried to forget the desires but I can't Nik. I can’t live my immortal life without you. You are my life, Klaus always and forever." I brush my hand through his hair before he vamped my back against the wall trapping me there.

I part my lips nodding my head slowly before his lips gently leave kisses on my neck. I gripped his hair in my hands moaning when he hit my sweet spot. And he moved his hands upward cupping my face in his hands kissing me deeply. “You are my life too, Raelyn. I have spent a thousand years on this earth but these five years without you has been the worst torture of my existence.”

“Vincent ruined us…he ruined our family that we had. And I….I want to make him pay. I -“ I cut myself short sniffling through tears until I moved my hands over his shoulders removing his jacket and tossing it across the room.

My arms moved to the hair on the back of his neck shuttering out a shaky breath feeling so much desire built up inside me wanting to come out. Nik moved his hands and started to remove my jacket, crashing his lips to mine like kissing me was what kept him alive. Once my jacket is gone he starts kissing me harder again, my hands gripping his locks seconds before we heard footsteps coming up the stairs causing us to separate partly from one another.

“Dad!” Missy hollered with Hope and Alina coming in seconds after in utter shock.

Klaus slowly moved away from me stomping up to our daughters. “Do you have any idea what you've done?”

“What are you talking about?” I raised a brow at him, shifting my gaze to our girls seeing that the anti magic bracelet I had put on them had been removed somehow even though I was confident that they couldn’t remove them. “What did you all do to get the bracelets off?”

Alina stepped forward clutching her hands into fists at her sides. “We found someone who could touch the bracelet and snap them. Jackson did it without a second thought because he actually cares about me mom.”

“I’m going to kill Jackson!” Klaus threatened under his breath until I sent him a glare knowing that he wanted to but then Mary would want war against our family.

Hope finally spoke up sitting down on the couch hitting her hands on her knees. “We knew it would take something big to bring you home.”

“So you had your little hybrid friend attack your cousin and her parents?” He scolded his first born daughter.

Hope rolled her eyes thinking that their plan was perfectly fine. “Henry just did the heavy lifting. And "attack" is a really strong word. They’re fine. In a really nice coffin, sleeping. Mom cloaked her in a sleeping spell for five years until I wrote a better one myself.”

Her father threw his head back grumbling. “Oh, well, in that case, I've never been prouder. Where are they!”

“You're just gonna go disappear again if we tell you ... .and then mom will cut our communication with you all together like she did for almost two years until we did something about it.” Alina snarled, crossing her arms over her chest glaring at me.

Nik ran a hand over his face seeing some flowers by the window that had bloomed were now dead. “Alina, you are in danger when we're in proximity. I know you feel that. The dark magic inside us manifests itself in ugly ways. We could be putting others in danger, too. The whole city.”

“I don't care! You’re our father and we deserve to have you in our lives no matter what it takes.” Alina stomps up to him glaring up at him with her head tilting upright slightly.

He flashed his werewolf eyes at his second daughter. “This is not a debate, Alina!”

“Dad, we missed you. And while you have been gone all mom has done is keep secrets from us. Alina is supposed to marry Jackson and leave….she wants to split us up!” Missy starts crying, pushing her hair out of her eyes.

Shaking my head at them I spun on my feet gripping my locks in my fingers. “I had a hard enough time grounding you all before. And if your were anyone else who kidnapped my brother I would tear you in half. But I can’t do that because you're my kids ... .our children and yet I need to spill blood!” The vampire veins and fangs appeared when I whipped my head around towards our daughters.

“You are making it harder for me to not trap you in our room for the next few days and make love to you over and over again.” Klaus smirked at me with a small crooked smile, slumping his shoulders and running a hand through his hair. “The little girls I knew would never have dreamed up a scheme like this.”

Hope got to her feet, throwing her hands upwards. “Well, sorry to disappoint you. But that little girl hadn't read your memoirs. You compelled Cami O'Connell to write your story. About a guy who used to put his family members in coffins and use them as leverage.”

“So you've studied my old tricks. Did you learn this one?” He bent his head down slightly smirking before he was standing in front of Hope and he grabbed her head seeing the three coffins inside the attic of the old church. “She's at St. Anne's.”

Hope shoved him away from her sniffing through angry tears. “Get out of my head!”

“You could die. Just by standing here, I could be destroying you. I'll ask your mother to take it easy on you. Okay? Good-bye, girls.” Klaus threw his hands out in front of him. He glanced from me and back to his daughters with some tears.

“We know some tricks too, daddy.” Missy raised her hand shutting the door in his face before he could vamp away. Grabbing my husband's hand I dragged him out of the room and into ours, locking the door behind us knowing we needed to talk things through. Because a Mikaelson reunion was never easy.

Comments really appreciated ❤️

[heavenwontbethe-same]

Hey!! Long follower of yours but I've only recently been back on Tumblr and I just saw a post about Cordelia being the one who should have died in CoT. I was curious about it and read the tags and I'm already disappointed in Cordelia/CC. Because I really like Cordelia but I haven't read CoT yet, so if you're comfortable could you maybe elaborate a little? Just so I can understand if I should be prepared to be disappointed in Cordelia in CoT when I finally read it. (I don't care about spoilers so have at it). I'd really like to know your thoughts<3

hello! i would start off by saying that when you do read chot, to go in with an open mind because of course what i will be saying in this post is my own opinion and my perception of the books will obviously be different to how others see it. this post is going to be long and incoherent at points, i do apologise beforehand.

with that being said, i liked cordelia from the snippets we got before tlh even came out. i liked her in chog, even though there were certain moments that made me pause - her allowing her friends to make whatever assumptions or comments about her brother they liked without her ever blinking an eye, because she was too concerned with fitting in with them. but i still liked the book and still liked her.

choi is where i started to dislike her though, and it literally took me almost 2 years to finish choi because i found cordelia so insufferable.. in the very beginning of the book, alastair is looking out for her and wants her safe and out of trouble and says as much to matthew, but cordelia berates him in favour of her friend (page 17). at this point, cordelia knows the truth; if not in its entirety, then at least a considerable part of it. at the wedding reception, her friends are hostile to her brother despite all his attempts to be cordial. i believe at one point they even suggest that alastair made cordelia uncomfortable? the same alastair that sacrificed most of his life to protect her? and all before you're even a 100 pages into the book (page 96). she says, on page 297 to matthew, "perhaps you think i am terrible, still loving him." of course, she thinks it, she thinks alastair is kind and sweet and vulnerable, but god forbid she ever said any of this to her friends in her brother's defense. this post by @thepictureofsdr on cordelia and her continuous reluctance to defend alastair in any way shape or form is very well said.

and that was all just the sibling aspect of it. she continuously lies to lucie, her supposed best friend and future parabatai, about lilith and james and even matthew, while shunning lucie for keeping secrets of her own. lucie tries to talk to her, apologises for not telling her, but she can't move past it even though she literally did the same.

*chot spoilers*

in chot, during every battle or fight, she was reluctant to lift a weapon in order to not summon lilith. valid, but instead of seeking shelter, she would just stand there and wait for danger and have her friends babysit her while fighting off demons. there's a fight in chot where grace is inside because she can't fight. cordelia also won't fight but she's out there, not helping her friends fight them off, but also just standing there as a sitting duck waiting for them to attack??? and they eventually do attack because why wouldn't they, and three people are distracted from their own fights trying to save her. assuming you already know who dies, they die trying to save her here, all because she wouldn't lift a weapon but has to be in harms way anyway.

she hands off cortana to alastair, who not to mention lives with their heavily pregnant mother, knowing that demons now had a special interest in cortana after she became lilith's paladin. she eavesdropped on her brother and charles, when it was not her place to do so, she eavesdropped on james and grace and caused a whole other problem. she ran away with matthew to paris and led him on even when she knew she'd never get over james. she kissed matthew and ended up comparing him to james but still continued to kiss him anyways. she'd be in james' presence but think about grace even after james' continuous assurance that he felt nothing for her, and then she'd wish she was with matthew instead. every time she was in james' presence, she'd fixate on grace.

she did get more tolerable after she knew the truth, but that was such a small portion of the book and my opinion of her was already negative by then. she then goes on to rehash the lucie and lying thing even though it was resolved earlier in the book. the book ends with the epilogue stating that attitudes to her brother had changed because he had changed. and that was true, alastair wasn't closeted anymore and had changed, but cordelia follows it up with the line that he wouldn't have to worry about fitting in with her friends anymore, and that hit me the wrong way.

the overarching themes of her dynamic with most characters, whether intentionally or not, seemed to give off a holier than thou attitude. she never held herself accountable but was comfortable doing it to everyone else, even if her actions caused the problem in the first place. her relationship with alastair was particularly disappointing, given how much he sacrificed for her and how she was at times disappointed/ashamed to even be related to him. this just reminded me how this applies to edwina's character from the bridgerton show too, but i digress.

she never really had any character development throughout the entire series, so i would've preferred her dying instead of an actually interesting character.

[dullyn]

I'm interested in your perspective writing the arthurian legends for pre/early teens! It was a huge obsession of mine at that age (and now lol) and I just encountered the incest etc as part of the story - at that age I just wasn't troubled by it. Your experience sounds a lot like mine where those elements were more impactful as an adult but maybe less so as a kid. Could it just be incorporated passingly/not graphically rather than changed? Its such a strange thing to navigate. Good luck on your writing!

Okay so what I’m doing with mine is relying on two things: uninformed narrator and being a little picky&choosy with what I have in my story.

My narrator is Lancelot as a 15 year old boy fresh out of the Lake World except he’s very unaware of everything as I’m making him more of a modern guy sent to Camelot than a boy raised with fairies determined to Be A Knight. So this gives me some leeway as he’s a bit stupid (said with love) and does not entirely understand all customs/happenings around him so that the kids reading can like learn it along with him.

Then with the picking and choosing, I think it’s nice that there is just So Much Source Material for the Arthurian legends cause it means I can write about the knights doing almost anything and it will have happened at some point. (Hence the joke post I made where I said I gave Hellawes a dragon, cause why not). So I can like stay away from the crazier/unethical events that happen in the main plot of my story (Like Bors and Claire cause I hate that so much). Though not entirely deviating from the legends as a whole. I don’t think I’m going to mention the whole incest thing in this book, maybe in the future, and that is entirely because if I ever publish it I would rather not have my story be classified as something Mature and therefore not be shown to the entire intended age group (Cause people are weird about books).

My ultimate goal is for it to be more of a gateway for kids to read it and get into the official legends, then for it to be a 100% recreation of the stories warts and all. Kind of like how PJO is a kid friendly adaptation of Greek myths (ish) and got a lot of people into Greek and Roman mythology. (I am not in any way saying I am similar to Rick Riordan and his skill as a writer, I’m just a college student typing away at my laptop). I just want people to appreciate Arthur and the Knights the same way I did as a kid (and still do).

[djservo]

jumpscare february is almost over. cas djservo, how was your february reading what's on the horizon for march? public must know

what a blur the last half of february was! I read three books, the last two being less than 100 pages I all but slogged through.. something in the air! however - and likely incidentally - I caught up with/watched more TV than I've watched in months (including The Bear finally! will discuss at the end) so you win some you lose some in this cycle of #Conscious/deliberate content consumption 🌀

Junky by William S. Burroughs

I've tried and failed so many times to get into beat literature for the sake of #Context and #Understanding as an #AmericanReader and particularly as someone who enjoys media grappling with the disillusionment with the American Dream, but I fear the few read I've tried have all been too obtuse, boring, and/or one-note to me. I also doubt my reading explorations will ever measure up to the high expectations teen-me held after watching Kill Your Darlings (2013) for the first time -- though I think the chaotic-sensual aura I was so drawn to in the first place aligns more with dark academia (before it was even named dark academia) rather than the (supposed) gritty introspection of the beat era. Additionally, a quick wikipedia peruse of some of the more prominent names feature an uncomfortable paragraph or two exposing questionable ethics + political/social alignments, so most of my curiosity has been marred if not killed completely. I definitely wouldn't say Burroughs is the lesser of however-many evils in that sense, but I feel like Junky specifically has been referenced a lot in memoirs/essay collections/discussions of queer subcultures I've enjoyed so FINE! CURIOSITY KILLS THE CAT! I can recognize its groundbreaking impact contextually, but maaaaaan Go Ask Alice was a more titillating read. meandering in a repetitive way with no real juicy syntax to make up for it - it was so Whatever. I guess it wasn't long enough to be a waste of time, but I don't feel as if I've missed anything life-changing all these years. at least I can say I tried!

Crazy For Vincent by Hervé Guibert

speaking of questionable ethics 🫢 troubling, but at least short enough to digest in a night or two. I love when I find out a film I enjoy's screenplay was written by an author (or vice versa) bc it's like gaining access to another angle of their storytelling, and back in January I watched The Wounded Man ('83) which really stuck in my head for weeks. Manic urgency practically radiating off the screen, that kind of burning desire that makes you hold your breath -- like of Course I had to see how that translated in Guibert's written texts (though now thinking about it, I think it was moreso about all that was unsaid + the performances themselves rather than the dialogue specifically, but I DIGRESS.) one of the reviews I liked for The Wounded Man includes a quote by Clarice Lispector (another author I want to explore): "Having passions does not mean living beautifully but suffering pointlessly." So fitting for the resonant desperation throughout this short piece, so much pathetic longing you're all but limping with relief once it's over. shadowboxer or daredevil by fiona apple, that sort of hopeless growling croon. I think I'll check out Guibert's journals eventually when I'm feeling particularly self-loathing 💭

The New Testament by Jericho Brown

Note to self: no poetry while traveling!!! My head and heart were simply not in it as they ought to have been which is a shame because with the few pockets of fully-devoted attention I had to spare, the glimpses I got were beautiful. I used to think poetry was kind of the perfect non-committal yet complementary companion for any occasion, but being as deep as I am into this June Jordan collection, I've definitely evolved my way of thinking (more on that at the end of this month/when I finish the collection). Still very graceful and angry and hard-hitting, though I want to revisit this eventually in a more cohesive way rather than picking up and putting down in disjointed fragments

After I finish the two books I'm currently in the thick of, I think it's in my best interest to take up something lighter/more straightforward. I picked up a bite-sized Jean Cocteau at a used bookstore and I forgot I'd placed a hold on The Stranger by Albert Camus so those will likely follow, then maybe a memoir/something food-related because, finally, THE BEAR!

I didn't intend to watch the whole thing so soon, but I was with a friend who'd already seen it and I mentioned it was on my radar so we watched the first episode which of course turned into a two-day binge (huge for me!!) The performances were all so amazing, I found myself frustrated that everyone wasn't getting an equal amount of screen time/backstory bc I was so invested in each character LOL which is a strong start to a series I'd think! I loved the evolution of everyone's dynamics, the varying degrees of respect/trust and modes of communication, the vein-popping chaos and claustrophobic passion of it all. I totally get why Kitchen Confidential has been referenced so much in discussion - I'd think Bourdain would approve! I've also had a soft spot for Jeremy Allen White since Shameless so I'm thrilled that he's getting his time to shine - this role suits him so well! HOWEVER . the soundtrack and editing felt inconsistent and sloppy at times which really took me out of it, and I was soooo disappointed with the general (lack of) stylistic distinction/direction. story and performances aside, it kinda felt indistinguishable from any other Hulu Original Show™ - granted I barely watch TV (let alone Hulu Originals) nowadays so what do I know, but it just felt Too devoid of the cinematic gumption I was expecting given the setting/subject matter - which of course were supplementary to the broader scope of dealing with trauma/grief while running a business in the hellscape of late-stage capitalism, but still..... what was with those Food Network ass montages plsss this isn't Giada At Home!! what's the point of setting this at a deli if I end up craving a chocolate cake more than a sandwich?? where were the sensual meat cuts? the delicate intricacy of razor-thin garlic slices a la Goodfellas? the crackling of fresh bread ASMR? but I'll Acknowledge again that it has been a minute since I've watched/finished a new tv show - I'm mostly a film gal so in that sense I'm probably being more critical than necessary or fair when it comes to a literal 20-30 minute-per-episode tv show so FINE it's literally FINE 🧘‍♀️ though there's also The Crux of being so late to a popular piece of media that's been gif'd and screen cap'd to death and generally seems to have already had its wave of Cultural Discussions so the Meat and Intrigue of it all had kinda been diluted/dumbed down for me upon starting. maybe if I'd watched it when it was initially released it'd hit harder and I'd be as blown away as everyone else, but for the most part I just had a fun time and haven't really thought about it since (though I'll likely rewatch before s2 whenever it comes out)

[awellboiledicicle]

I do appreciate that Hypnos’ character, and his interactions with Zag, lend themselves perfectly to them sitting there wondering what would impress.... a family of farmers that’d probably just like Demeter to take a fucking nap and let it get warm outside.

Like bc Hypnos is Hypnos, he 100% logically knows he could show up and be like “i’m a god, i want your daughter, peace” and leave with her. He knows that. But he also knows she’s spent so long convinced she’d somehow failed being a woman because she didn’t get married ‘at the right time’ and would be forever bummed if it wasn’t done the right way-- and the right way is giving presents and impressing her father. But he’s just barely convinced his own mother that he’s even passingly in the right mindset to get married, let alone knowing how to project “suitable son in law” vibes. He’s still only got one friend that isn’t Timo herself. He doesn’t technically have a job that mortals would consider a job, per se. Not to mention mortals think he only sleeps all day when he’s not making people fall asleep! Not a great first impression.

But like he’s only worrying about all this because he knows Timo would/does worry about it. BUT ALSO, he’s grown up around gods-- who have a totally different culture to how they do things. Same with Zagreus, who is trying to help bc he has a heart of gold. So like, Hypnos has context but trouble articulating the why of what he’s doing, and Zagreus has the why--help friend marry for love, how sweet--but not really the context because that just... isn’t a think people talk about in hades. 

The convo with Nyx was probably a shock for her, though. Because again his character lends itself to him being very, very focused on a very, very specific thing and just... not articulating it until it occurs to him he should.

so it was kinda just him floating up like

"Heeey, i know we're not talking a lot, independence and all that, buuut! It's good news this time!" "Yes, my child?" "I, er. Well i'm planning on getting married!" "... pardon?" "Yeah! There's this mortal girl--and i know, i know, i'm ... me, so keeping a wife is a BIG step. But! I love her a lot, so i figured i'd let you know! Oh, do you want to know about her? I made a list of things i like about her, if you want!" "Hypnos, i... am unsure you understand what you're proposing." "you'd think, with my track record! But, you know, i just... Mother, i really, really love her. Its so much easier to focus on things when she's with me-- sure it's things like music or remembering history things she tells me, but she makes me feel like i can do everything! I want her in my life and i even have a plan to marry her! But i don't... know about mortal things. And you know, well, almost everything! I know you don't like me asking for your help, but i want.. I want to make sure she gets married the right way, and not just... me bringing her here." A long pause. "Very well, if you believe yourself ready to undertake such endeavors. Tell me of this woman. Let me learn of who has so enraptured my son. If, then, she seems sound and you still wish my aid, you shall have it." She then gets to listen for four hours to hypnos excitedly talking before he actually gets to the 'i was going to ask for Heras favor so i would override whatever the other guys offered and get me some pure olympian ambrosia to grant her immortality and then Hera could marry us as gods--' part.

[marshmalleaux-queen]

This post is going to be weird, maybe uninteresting, kind of personal, and definitely cringe (you're 100% allowed to say it), but honestly, I'm writing it almost entirely for myself. "Peace of mind" kind of thing, I guess.

Back in 2011, when I was 14, I discovered a roleplay page on Facebook for Romano from Hetalia. I made a post there as myself (Cici - not an OC or anything) and ended up in an RP almost 1,000 comments long. We took it to other posts on occasion and even in the DMs for a short time (after DMing pages became a thing), but after a while we both kind of disappeared from each other, I think.

I was in a very bad place around the ages of 13-15. I won't go into detail but it was bad enough that most of it is actually a total blank in my memory. Those RPs and the person behind the page are some of the very few things I do remember, because they were honest-to-goodness like a light in the dark for me, and I don't really care how cheesy that sounds. I remember sharing all my problems with them pretty much every day (well...more like saddling them with my problems, if I'm being real) and, god bless their soul, they took all of it and responded with in-character comfort. My troubled teenage self couldn't have fathomed a more perfectly-written Romano, both classically stubborn and tender and understanding of my troubles.

The admin running the page was a veritable angel herself, taking time out of her day to check on me and make sure I was healthy as I could be at the time (...maybe not so strange in hindsight since I was sort of a...concern). All of this despite the fact that she was also dealing with her own issues - something that I really wish I had the capacity to acknowledge sooner, because I definitely don't think I supported her nearly as much as she supported me.

...At least, that's how I remember things. Those few years are so fuzzy in my memory that I very well may be imagining some things that didn't actually happen, or forgetting things that did. Not only that, but the original post has since been removed and I can't find a single trace of it anywhere, save for a note on my laptop that says I posted it on July 14, 2011 (but literally nothing else).

At the very least, I know for a fact that the comfort I received from her was real, and despite everything, I remember it fondly. It's not as though it consumes me, but for the past decade-or-so since then, I've often wondered how she's doing and if she's happy. The whole thing holds a special place in my heart that I've never been able to let go of 100%. A small part of me still genuinely thinks I wouldn't be here today writing this if it weren't for her.

...So, it's a really, really long shot, but...

Destiny, if by some astronomical chance you happen to see this and remember me, I want to apologize with everything in my being for all the heartache I must have put you through. I feel incredibly selfish for worrying you so often, and even if I was young and hurting it was no excuse to burden you as I did. I want you to know that I'm not in that dark place anymore, and I haven't been for a very long time. I'm still not 100% (is anyone ever, really?) but I am much healthier than I ever thought I'd be. I don't know if I'll ever get to speak to you again - maybe you don't even remember me, or want to associate with me if you do (in which case I truly can't blame you) - but at the very least you deserve an apology, and maybe even this bit of closure.