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pillage-and-lute · 4 years ago

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I'm not trying to be nosy but is there like a "thing" with you and consent issues? Like, plenty of people just fix the bits they don't like and write a fic, is it like a PTSD thing?

Hello Anon! I love seeing asks in my box, but this one will need some careful handling.

I would like to start, first and foremost, by saying that no one is allowed to comment or leave in my asks any hate towards this anon, and I will absolutely delete it (and Nonny don’t worry I am not angry at you). On my blog, when I’m not staring at unfinished drafts or sifting through the lovely tags y’all leave, I would like to try and be a patient and educated place for fandom discussion, and the discussion of fandom in general. I may fail at this at somepoint, but let’s go, education.

TW: Discussions of rape, abuse, and other trauma below the cut

Dear Anon,

Asking about why people are extra concerned with consent is a nosy question, pretty much always. (There may be extenuating circumstances but right now I can’t think of any) However, asking about my issues with consent (or asking if a person has been through x trauma [e.g. rape or abuse]) is a nosy question that pretty much everybody, whether they are willing to admit it to themselves or not, wants to ask. Sometimes people ask it without thinking in much more frightening and public arenas than an anonymous Tumblr ask. It is understandable, and I was somewhat expecting an ask like this when I mentioned how concerned I am with issues of consent in my fics.

However, asking about the trauma of someone you don’t know is not something you should do in future for a couple reasons. (And I would like to stress again that I am not upset, and I hope you treat this as a learning experience)

Number One: You don’t know how long it has been since the trauma has occurred and may reopen fresh or just healing wounds

Number Two: Logical or not, they may feel guilty or somehow responsible. Your question could make them doubt themselves (e.g. ‘was I really raped? was it somehow my fault?’) or make them feel guiltier (e.g. ‘am I using this for attention?’ or ‘It was my fault that x happened, I should or shouldn’t have done...’)

Number Three: They don’t owe you anything. A person can write, read, perform, or enjoy whatever content they like so long as it isn’t actually illegal. They shouldn’t have to explain their trauma to strangers.

This also goes for what we used to call SquickFics, although rather in the other direction, fics which are messed up, portray unhealthy relationships, abuse, mental illness, rape and other traumas. Authors are not the same as their characters (although if one were to compare J.K. Rowling to Voldemort...well...) and they should not have to justify what they write, especially if they are, as some do, writing fics about rape in order to process trauma. They shouldn’t have to place their trauma out onto the internet to be judged if they are ‘allowed’ to write what they do.

I hope in future, Anon, that you will consider your asks carefully, but I truly believe that you meant no ill will, and I am rather glad that this conversation has a place to happen.

All of this being said, it has been some time since my trauma happened, and I am pretty open about it, in short, I was sexually assaulted and abused emotionally, and so I am extra specific about the consent of the relationships in the media I consume, and I try to do so for the sake of others as well.

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ts-unpopular-opinions · 4 years ago

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Side Tracks opinions part 3: Logan

(Here I go again! Logan’s playlist is a bit more straightforward than the other bois, so heres hoping this one doesn’t take me as long 🤞)

1) The Elements: Not much to say. It just a literal musical list of the periodic table of elements. You can’t get much more Logan than that 😂 Also, Logan likes chemistry!

2) White and Nerdy: Apart from the obvious listing of nerdy things and the legitimate title, Logan feels like he doesn’t always get taken seriously enough by the other sides (“I wanna roll with the gangstas, But so far they all think I'm too White and nerdy” “I wanna bowl with the gangstas, But, oh well, it's obvious I'm White and nerdy”). Basically Logan is a big nerd and a dork. He knows that and he’s worried that sometimes it ostracizes him from the others.

3) Algorithm: Logan doesn’t understand humans very well, at least, he doesn’t understand anything but the logical aspect of humans and the world. He has a different view on life than the other sides (“Supercomputer status, walkin' along streets”). He thinks that the dilemmas and problems in the world would not exist if it wasnt for humans throwing a wrench into all of it with their feelings and emotions (“Humans don't understand, humans will sell a lie. Humans gotta survive, we know we gon' die. Nothing can live forever, you know we gon' try. Life, is it really worth it?”). As the song puts it, Logan believes that the theoretical algorithm of life is perfect, and he doesn’t understand why it needs to get muddied and ruined by simple human issues (“Looking for something worth it, the algorhythm is perfect, mmh”).

4) Fitter Happier: This song is interesting because it shows us the innerworkings of Logan’s thought process. A lot of what he does involves simply planning daily tasks (things as small as drinking or eating) based on what he knows is most healthy for Thomas. The song completely lacks any sense of feeling or emotion and is, as I stated, a legitimate list of things to do in a day. All tasks are put in place to keep Thomas fitter and happier, however, Logan doesn’t have a grasp on emotions and clearly doesn’t know all of the things that Thomas needs to be happy AND healthy. I’ll just list some interesting daily tasks in the song here: “Regular exercise at the gym, three days a week” “Eating well, no more microwave dinners and saturated fats” “Careful to all animals, never washing spiders down the plughole” “Favours for favours, fond but not in love” “Still cries at a good film” “Still kisses with saliva”. As the song goes on, you kind of get a sense that Logan is losing his grip on Thomas, or doesn’t understand why Thomas isn’t feeling satisfied with the plan that, to him, is perfect. Thomas feels trapped in the life that Logan plans for him, and Logan does not understand why that is (“A pig in a cage on antibiotics” “No chance of escape”). There are also a lot of points in the song where Logan shows that he finds emotions to be a weakness, or something to hide away (“Will not cry in public” “Nothing so childish” “No paranoia”).

5) Medicine: I’m not 100% sure what this song is about, but it talks a lot about ancient philosophy. Basically being curious about the world and people in it. I’m guessing that Logan just likes philosophy and thinks that people should always stay curious. Logan really values curiosity and thinking (of course).

6) The Watchtower: This ones... interesting to say the least. If you’re a fan of the broken blue crayon theory you may want to look into this song a bit more. The song talks about being broken and wanting to restart things, possibly showing that Logan will crack at somepoint and need to reevaluate how he’s been handling things (“I'm breaking, I need another start. Far away, From the city lights.”). Ultimately, I think this song is about Logan’s neutrality over all the situations that the group handles. He doesn’t really see problems as good or bad, because he can see logical scenarios with both options (“From the watchtower, We can see things coming. Good or bad”). He knows that this mentality makes him a bit unlikeable because the other sides want him to side with them, but he doesn’t really mind (“I don't mind, If I'm impopular-ar.”).

7) The Breach: Another interesting one which I feel like could have two meanings. My first take was that this song was about Virgil escaping the dark side of Thomas’ mind and mixing in with the light sides. Logan wasn’t quite sure how to process this new arrival at the begining and had no control over his escape (“Generally operating normally, A small anomaly has become evident” “There is spiking in the pulse of a member of the cargo” “First: the recommended course of action should be to Administer a sedative to all the cargo via ventilation” “Now: one specifically is up and moving to the door”). After looking into the lyrics a bit more though, it seemed like a lot of them could be applied to Janus as well, specifically his first appearance when he was disguised as patton. Logan knew from very early on the Janus was taking pattons spot, but was unable to say or do anything about it due to Janus being the only one with “the access code” (“The ship is fully capable of automating this But requires an approval code from the administration” “He has found the access panel situated in the floor. He is entering the codes and overriding has begun. Reading rage in the nervous system, nothing can be done”). Either way you see it, I’m nearly positive it is about a dark side coming out to the light and Logan not being able to control it.

8) The Letter C: I LOVE THIS ONE 😂 And it’s the first in our list of songs that Logan vent’s about Roman in! The premise of the song is that someone insulted the main singers rap and so the main singer goes off about the comeback he wished he would have used to tell this guy off. It’s honestly such a funny song and I couldn’t give it the justice it deserves here by just listing the lyrics. It gives off huge rap battle vibes and I’m sure Logan would have been imagining the one who insulted him as Roman. Here’s just some great lines that I’d like to point out: “Man I wish I could’ve hit him with a zinger. Should’ve served him with the verbal equivalent of a middle finger.” “I’d say, "Are you insured medically? ‘Cause you sure better be When you’re broken in half from provokin’ the wrath” ““Aw shit!” “Oh crap!” Everybody within earshot would be like, “Oh snap!” I’d high five all around while the guy falls down in a ball on the ground” “I pull out a sharpie marker, Narrow my eyes through my Warby Parkers. Like, “Watch who you’re f-in’ with, with your f-in’ ish””.

9) Galaxy Song: Logan trying to calm Thomas down in the only way he knows how: Gushing about how great the natural world is (“Just remember that you're standing on a planet that's evolving” “Now the sun, and you and me, and all the stars that we can see, Are moving at a million miles a day” “Our galaxy itself contains a hundred billion stars” “And our galaxy itself is one of millions of billions In this amazing and expanding universe”). It’s cute, its wholesome, and Logan tries his best to be comforting 🖤 (“So remember, when you're feeling very small and insecure, How amazingly unlikely is your birth; And pray that there's intelligent life somewhere out in space, Cause there's bugger all down here on Earth!”).

10) Streaks: Logan explains to Thomas that growing up is a process that he needs to experience. He understands that it’s hard and scary, but he believes that if you follow the plan and stay in the lines, everything will work out alright (“You can decide on the colors that you like As long as you stay in the lines” “All these years of filling out papers, Building a future, keeping your head down. Tryin' to keep a head on your shoulders” “Cause It's all a piece of the plan. It's something You'll understand When you're older” “Give em what they need to move on, then you let them go”). As he’s explained in canon, he doesn’t really see room for taking a lot of creative liberties in life, and he believes Thomas should follow the mold set out for everyone in life. That’s the logical way to survive anyways.

11) What I do for You: (This song and the next song feel pretty connected to me, so keep that in mind) In this song, Logan really shows his pride and ego. He believes he is the most important side for Thomas and that he will get Thomas the furthest in life (“I want you to survive” “I'm your only hope, I'm your savior too. Every single test You've been ever carried through”). Despite his superiority complex, he knows that Thomas doesn’t see Logan as important as he should. Logan knows how much he does for Thomas but is a bit annoyed that Thomas never seems to notice (“I couldn't ever give up on you, But don't thank me”).

12) Erase Me: Oooh boy. This ones heavy... Logan is PISSED. The whole song feels like a jab at Thomas, daring him to get rid of Logan to see what happens. Logan still feel important and knows his necessity as part of Thomas, but he’s frustrated with the lack of recognition he gets for all of the things he does (“Would it be easier? To just delete, our pages And the plans we've made” “Erase me, so you don't have to face me. Put me in ground and move the daisies” “So what will you do? With no me for you” “Erased me, what the fuck is this? You're crazy, Turn around and do each time, Replace me”). Logan sounds MAD in this song, something that he’s shown in canon quite a few times. It’s interesting that Logan alone seems to be the only side whose shown such anger and furstration, this song just adding to his list of instances. I’m not sure what that could mean going forward...

13) Art is Dead: Well what do yah know? Another rant song for Roman! We all know how Logan feels about Thomas’ choice of career as an entertainer and this song is basically just that. Logan can’t understand Roman’s dreams and aspirations for Thomas because they don’t make any logical sense to him (“ Have you ever been to a birthday party for children And one of the children won't stop screaming Cuz he's just a little attention attractor. When he grows up to be a comic or actor He'll be rewarded for never maturing, For never understanding or learning That every day can't be about him. There's other people, you selfish asshole!”) Logan would rather Thomas take up a job that is benefiting society and making his world a better place (“Cause I wanted my name in lights When I could have fed a family of four For forty fucking fortnights”). Roman’s self-centered and fantastical view on Thomas’ future is just childish to Logan and he feels like Thomas may one day grow out of it (“I'm just a kid And maybe I'll grow out of it”).

14) Equation: Oh man... I just don’t know. The song mentions a mom and dad, so I automatically go to a younger Thomas and his younger version of Logan. The song just asks a bunch of questions that feel like things a little kid might ask (“Have I made you cross? Have I made you sad? Have I made you proud Mom?” “How white is the snow, Does it matter after all?Will I ever learn How to fly like a birds?” “Are you going to school? Are you far from home? Are you well alone Dad? Will I be a brave? Will I be a bright? Will I be a good grown up?”). Logan may have represented more of Curiosity in Thomas’ younger years than Logic. A lot of Logan’s songs have an encompasing theme of wonder and curiosity being amazing things to have. I think Logan really values that part of himself/Thomas.

15) Sunrise: Yes! The love song everyone! I’ll shut that down right away and say that Logan DOES NOT UNDERSTAND LOVE. He isn’t even capable of “love” as some of the other side may be. He of course understands love and how it works, but it’s merely a process to him, and a word which he’s openly stated that he doesn’t like to use. So lets try to look at this from Logan’s perspective. The song is literally about learning spanish, yes its clearly romantic, but its about learning spanish. Something that Logan has shown an interest in since wayyyy back at the begining of the series. I like to imagine that this song came up in Thomas’ playlist and Logan was overjoyed that Thomas was not only learning something from the song, but also learning spanish!

16) One More Time with Feeling: This one feels kind of tough to crack. To me, I get the feeling that Logan’s again talking about the others and the fact that they don’t listen to him. He prepares his words and hopes to get through to them, but is only welcomed by blank faces and misunderstanding (“Everyone takes turns. Now it's yours to play the part And they're sitting all around you, Holding copies of your chart, And the misery inside their eyes is Synchronized and reflecting into yours”). After getting shut down, Logan tries again ‘with feeling this time’, hoping to get through, but it falls flat over and over again (“Hold on. One more time with feeling. Try it again, breathing's just a rhythm. Say it in your mind until you know that the words are right”). Logan has been trying really hard to appeal to the others in different way, but if seems like it never works in his opinion (“You thought by now you'd be So much better than you are. You thought by now they'd see That you had come so far”). He want’s to finally be shown the respect that he believes he deserves and hopes to one day be loved by the others and much as they love each other (“And the pride inside their eyes Would synchronized into a love you've never known. So much more than you've been shown”).

17) In My Mind: Logan has a drastically different view of Thomas’ future than is actually the case (“In a future five years from now. I'm one hundred and twenty pounds, And I never get hung over Because I will be the picture of discipline” “And I will be someone I admire And it's funny how I imagined That I would be that person now, But it does not seem to have happened” “Maybe I've just forgotten how to see That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be”). He’s realized that he has some unrealistic expectations for Thomas and that’s odd to him as, logically, things should have played out how he thought they would. At the end of the song, Logan seems to accept the fact that even though Thomas hasn’t strictly followed the plan that Logan expected, he’s still doing great and succeeding at life (“I am exactly the person that I want to be”).

18) Not Perfect: This song has a lot of lyrics, but most of them can be taken at face value. Logan recognizes that everything in Thomas’ life (his world, his country, his house, his body, and his brain) is not perfect. I’m sure it’s a metaphor for Logan realizing that he, himself, is not perfect and he’s begining to realize that he can’t solve every problem.

19) Human: This song is also long. REALLY LONG. But thankfully it is fairly straight forward. When life is getting Thomas (or any of the sides down) Logan will list facts about their life as a human that are supposed to be comforting or inspirational. It’s basically just like Galaxy song, but a bit more personal and loving. Here’s just some cute quotes from it to keep you all going: “For you are a force of skin & nails & heart. A walking Monae, you're breathing art” “The average human heart will beat over 100 million times in one lifetime. I'm sure you'll find someone who won't mind skipping one for you” “You need to grow up. You need to grow out of things. When something doesn't belong, even your body knows when it's time for that thing to be Replaced” “15 million blood cells are Destroyed in a human body every second. If your body can get over it You can get over that last relationship”). Basically Logan trying to ground Thomas in reality to make him realize that everything he’s going through is just human.

20) Time Adventure: (ughhh this song make me cry every time I hear it) That being said, I was a bit surprised to hear this on Logan’s album and not Pattons. Not only that, but it’s his finishing song. The song is all about growing up and how, even though time passes, you will always have the good memories that you built along the way. It’s also about how, no matter how much time passes, the singer and the person theyre singing about will always be friends. Seems kind of like a weird song choice for Logan right? It seems like it needs to include Patton in someway... So perhaps its Logan trying to comfort Patton. Patton has shown a fear of growing up and changing, so perhaps telling him that he’ll always have a friend in Logan no matter how the times change is something that Logan does to ease his worries.

(Oh boy... this one took a long time 😅 Sorry about that! Like usual, let me know what you think and give your own opinions if you’d like!)

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generous-dimensions · 7 years ago

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5 Things

thank u for tagging me @niczka!!

- 5 things you will find in my bag

(my purse)

a really tiny moleskine sketchbook

portable phone charger!! gotta be prepared man

my wallet

earbuds

a pen/pencil

-5 things you can find in my room

POSTERS AND ART PRINTS. my walls are crazy covered- i have 21 posters/prints, my pride flag, and some misc photos/drawings/etc from friends above my desk!!!

i call it the art cart even tho it’s not a cart but. it’s a little purple shelf next to my desk i keep most of my supplies on

a tiny accidental shrine to norman babcock

both a wii and wii u that are used solely for hulu or mariokart at this point

my memory boxes! i keep all my letters and scraps of things in one, and all of my journals (currently at 10!) in a box

- 5 things I’ve always wanted to do in my life

go to either nyc, portland, or san francisco!

crowd surf at a concert (but i usually have good spots i don’t want to give up. so idk)

marry a beautiful girl one day

have a comic or cartoon that is somewhat successful

MEET DANNY DEVITO

- 5 things on my to do list

read chapters 12-13 of warriors don’t cry for AP eng

get started on the glowbos (glow phobos) drawings for drew

put away laundry

play life is strange with my gf at somepoint today

i probably need to do the dishes shit

- 5 things people may not know about me

i met george bush when i was 4 and made the front page of the macon newspaper! it turned into this big crazy thing because they didn’t have my name down and they wanted to credit me. they found out who i was a week later when i won a beauty pageant in the area and was like, lowkey a local celebrity for a few months

i don’t hold my pencil the “right” way! i make a fist around it, tucking my thumb in against the pen. it’s resulted in this weird bump/callus that i’ll probably have forever. it looks gross but no, it will not pop, no it doesn’t hurt, it’s just like, a weird bump of skin that kinda formed as a cushion for when i write/draw

i have been drawing practically my entire life!!! i realized when i was 6 or 7 i wanted an art-based career

thinking back on it ive actually met a pretty good amount of celebrities. more than most people my age have i think? i blame my parents, specifically my mom. she was kind of a groupie for bands when she was younger and taught me how to meet bands after concerts from a pretty early age. then it just happens that ive been to cons/signings/festivals so?? i could go on but i feel like thats bragging and i dont wanna sound like a dick

i have a girlfriend!! she lives in california and we’ve been in a long-distance relationship for almost 4 months now. she used to be seafarin-karen on here but her parents made her delete right before (or was it after?? i cant remember) we started dating.

tag five people

@kommandermeouch

@havvehoagie

@deadysprinkles

@iatethelastpieceofpizza

@sheetz

#dont worry abt doing it if you dont want to ghfjdh #thank you for taggin me tho!!

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dreamingofstarslight · 5 years ago

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A.O.S. Yelling: Episode 1 "Pilot" Part two!

Starting off from 11:23! (And again in no particular order)

The Doctor asking if people are sure no one saw Mike is just her trying to cover her tracks

Even though Mike technically does know who's talking (since he did see her face), he still asks (technically) for Skye's name

There's a sign that calls for attention from campers, hunters, and fishers, behind Mike, but looks more like something you'd find in camp grounds, not a cafe

Skye is literally trying to apply herself for the job of "guy in the chair" for Mike

Shield is mostly well known by this point in time because of the whole New York incident, which is something someone like Mike (who's probably in his late 20s early 30s) would know about (since it was a hugely public thing) but he still thinks that Skye means he should carry a shield (which he should if he was going to be a superhero)

Skye says that shield goes after guys like Mike, but then doesnt even seem to know about the index until later episodes, which means she probably saw someone with powers get taken at somepoint before

Mike says he's "hiding" from shield and the like, but really the logical idea for someone who just got caught displaying powers by saving someone (especially for someone who has a kid) would be to not come forward as the superhero

Skye takes out 3 sugar packets but never orders anything or opens them, which means she was probably warming up her hands to the movements so that she could get Mikes id later

Ruthies cafe is open 24 hours, which is probably why Skye decided to have her van always be there

Skye knows how to create whole new identies and later its said that she knows how to because she's done it before (inference is that she did it for her), but more logically, being a member of the rising tide would mean you would have to be super careful, and if you didn't want anything to tie back to your family? Have someone (probably Skye because she seems to be able to do it very well) "delete" you and create a new identity for you to be able to act under

The mask part is where Mike draws the line and probably assumes that despite what she said earlier, Skye's just another groupie-stalker type

Skye saying she had an office is what got Mike's attention

Mike also keeps the information that she stays in the alley behind (beside?) Ruthies in his mind for later

The girl (barista I think they're called) who's seen serving people behind Mike and Skye while they're talking at the bar part is very cute

Ruthies lists apple, cherry, and peach, as their types of pie, despite (I think) peach being more of a cobbler type of food and not that popular type of pie

Mike is 6'3" according to his drivers license

Also according to his drivers license, Mike is eight years older than Skye

May (when we first see her) is working on memos for level 3 ops (I think they're ops)

May seems to be the only person to have multiple (and I mean multiple) boxes of files around her desk, the file boxes are also placed in way that resembles walls

When I first saw this I thought Coulson saying "I'm not asking" was his way of saying that he was ordering her to drive the bus, but! In actuality, when Coulson says that they'll be picking the ops and running themselves, May (despite knowing she'd be asked to join) looks visibly worried, and Coulson (who's know May for a while) knows that just the sheer thought of Coulson being out in the field without "adult" supervision is enough to make May join up

May smiles (genuinely) when Coulson jokes about administration being the place where they actually make the red tape

The bus is way bigger than I originally thought

Despite it not being that bright out and Ward having darker coloured eyes, he still wears sunglasses when going to the hanger where the bus is parked

Ward packed a smaller bag than everyone else did, which if you don't know that he needs to be on the bus, makes it seem like him getting thrown off the bus because he messed up an interrogation was his plan all along

Despite everyone saying that they werent gonna be called "night-night guns" everyone calls them that until Fitz makes a version called an Icer

.1 microliters is a very very small amount of literally anything

Fitz (for some reason) has the night-night gun out of its case, despite it still being a gun (whether it works or not)

Fitz says that the bullets are hollow, which probably means that Simmons could put more than .1 microliters of dendrotoxin in the bullets

The reason they fight so much in the first few episodes is because Fitz didn't at all want to go into the field

I, with a second to process them, can understand most of the "sciencey" things that Fitz-Simmons say which means that they're probably dumbing what they say down by a lot, and yet are still told to dumb it down more

Not even after two minutes of knowing them, Ward gives the look of "if doesn't Garrett give the order somepoint soon, so help me god I'm going to be on trial for murder"

Lola is kept in perfect condition throughout the entire show (not including the time when Ward shoots at them and they fall about 20 thousand feet)

Coulson says that the bus was in heavy rotation back in the 90s, Captain Marvel takes place in 95', assuming Carol didn't go back to Earth until the events of Infinty War brought her there, she would be super surprised upon seeing a helicarrier

Also on that last note, the helicarrier was built right around the early 2000s

Coulson, despite being part of an agency that takes the liveliness of almost every agent and smashes it to pieces and then throws it in a fire, still jokes around a lot more compared to most everyone besides Skye (who also stops joking around as much after season 1)

Ward recognizes May as The Calvary instantly, while Fitz-Simmons don't know she's The Calvary until they're told, despite everyone "knowing" the story of what happened

Ward says "what game are you really playing" when talking about May because he knows that May, if given the incentive or order, would take him out without a second thought

Ward's bunk seems to be closer to the cockpit than everyone elses

The bus has at least three floors to it

Skye has a poster in her van that says "kid hero saves family" which means Skye probably dealt more with exposing the powered people part of shield

Skye is wearing a different shirt than when she was talking to Mike

Ward is a dick, for multiple reasons but for ep1 its because he put a bag over Skye's head while its shown that she physically struggled against that

Ward inedvertly called Skye a mistake

Skye is immediately sarcastic towards Ward

Skye planned to get inside of shield from the beginning, for a high school dropout that's a fairly intelligent plan

May wears a suit and high heels to go check out the lab that blew up, but in the next episodes she's wearing what looks to be a "proper" outfit to fight in

Ward, is extremely aggressive in his way of interrogating Skye while Coulson is softer, and speaks in a light tone (probably because Skye looks super young)

Project Pegasus is the project that killed Dr. Lawson and gave Carol her powers, which stands to reason that Skye know a bit (if not a lot) about the events of Captain Marvel

Even though she could totally get a brand new (and better) laptop after she joins up with shield, she still sticks to the laptop she won in a bet, so it was probably a bet she made with her rising tide friends and she kept the laptop out of sentiment

Skye looks to be on the verge of tears when Coulson starts saying how much worse anyone else would be if they got to Mike before shield did

Even though the video of Mike was probably out for about a week, the bodies that were in the lab weren't removed by law enforcement, so shield probably took over the investigation as soon as it happened

Fitz is probably a big Disney fan, and that why he named the dwarfs after the seven dwarfs of Snow White

Part three coming soon! If there are any typos I missed I'll get them here within the next couple of days! Episode was stopped at 22 minutes and 36 seconds

A.O.S. Yelling: Episode 1 "Pilot" Part One.

In no particular order:

Mike Peterson was a great dad, no matter what

They were near the Doctors lab most likely for Mike to get a checkup

The other guys explosion was much smaller than Mike's predicted one, which means Mike probably had more of the centipede serum in him

Skye looked Mike right in the god damn face, and he looked her dead in the face so he knew who she was

"If the job was easy it wouldnt be any fun" doesn't seem to be shown to be said by anyone other than Garrett and Ward (and also the very annoyed mission dude that tells Ward to abort the mission but that was probably just him responding that way because Ward most likely says it on every mission)

The dude in the red tie is wearing what looks to be a cheap suit, and for someone who has that much money behind his fireplace, I doubt he couldn't afford an expensive one

The lady in the apartment has water boiling on the stove but doesn't seem to have been watching it at all????

Also she's living her best life, just, her best life

She, the dude in the red tie, and the chitauri neural link, are never mentioned again, and presumably, she just leaves the place, and doesn't look back??? Was she a spy too????????

Based on the way everything looks, Hill's office is most likely in the Hub

Ward is so uncomfortable when Hill says "you haven't been near his arms"

Ward already knew that Coulson wasn't dead because he was being put on Coulson's team by Garrett

Skye stalks Mike until he goes into Ruthies (she's seen at the bus stop as he walks past and to Ruthies)

Hill says it was eight seconds and that it gets longer every time Coulson tells the story, assuming it goes up like 5 seconds each time, a shit ton of people have asked

Hill says that the avengers aren't level seven, but Clint and Natasha are level 8 agents, so in theory they know, and that means that part of the avengers know that Coulson is alive

Coulson says that the rising tide is "good" because they were able to crack their rsa implementation but Skye is the only rising tide member to be known to have crack their rsa implementation?? (I'm sure others have but it isn't said I dont think)

Coulson (despite knowing multiple Agents from Operations) is still shocked anytime one of them purposes murder of their enemies as a solution

Coulson holds Ward's files (and possibly others) right about over where he got stabbed, he doesn't seem to be doing it consciously so that means he's most likely subconsciously trying to shield himself from getting wounded in the same spot (because you know, he died last time he got wounded there)

Ward got the highest marks since Romanoff, but not higher than hers. Ward passes the lie detector later on, which means (by logical conclusion) that Natasha also passed and Fury won't tell anyone that it can be beat (for good reason)

The little "poop" Hill drew means that Ward's people skills are shitty (I just found this super funny)

Ward really plays up the "I don't want to be on that team" bit for someone who needs to be on there, he didnt even take into consideration what would happen if Hill was like "fine, go back to Paris"

The files in Hill's arms magically jump back to Dr. Streiten's

The t.a.h.i.t.i. stuff is dropped in the first episode (which made me yell the first time I noticed it) but the little conversation is said in front of a bunch of other Agents, and at least one of them had to of been eavesdropping (on purpose or not) for a bunch of spies trying to keep a secret as big as that one, they sure don't mind who might be listening to them talk about it

Ward seems genuinely shocked that Hill drew a little "poop with knives" for his people skills

Coulson says he's had plenty of rest, which probably means about a month or two at least (physical therapy takes awhile), and then it was probably about another few weeks before his team was approved, so the footage of Mike jumping out of the building with the doctor was probably out for a week or so, Skye probably stalked Mike for like, an entire week

Skye tells Mike that her name is Skye, the repeats that its her name to Ward and Coulson. But Ward asks "what's your real name" after that even though Skye is a semi perfectly normal name for someone to have, which means his "lie detectors" in his brain went off. But Skye seems semi used to calling herself Skye, and the person who texts her at the end of ep. 2 also calls her Skye, so in theory, she only just changed her name probably a few months before she caught the footage of Mike, and got nervous and forgot (then quickly remembered) to call herself Skye in front of Ward

Part two coming tomorrow! If there are typos I missed I'll also get them tomorrow (its 2am so I'm going to bed),,, Episode was stopped at 11 minutes and 23 seconds.

That is all! Goodnight!

#i speak #a.o.s. yelling #agents of shield #part two!!#self reblog

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sbd-n-chill · 7 years ago

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Sooo... don’t really know where this is going, just want somewhere to express my thoughts without people knowing who i am, would rather be anon..if you know me and somehow manage to find this, i’m impressed, but maybe you should do something about this. First off, i wanna say this isn’t a cry for help or attention, if you wanna message me(if you can do that on here, haven’t used this in ages, deleted my old account so i could start afresh) then you can message me, but i’m not gunna get pissy or whatever if nobody does, just using this to express my thoughts, as facebook is too bitchy, instagram i don’t post super personal stuff, twitter is too short for this stuff and i don’t use much else so here i am.

So, unsure on how to start this really, so probably gunna ramble alot and go off on tangents, so this post may give you a glimpse into my mind and how messed up it is quite frankly. So, like most peoples nowadays, gone through depression etc, because the world sucks and that seems to be what a lot of people are going through nowadays, which is shitty, and with it, i haven’t really recovered from it, i go through phases, sometimes i’m pretty happy and sometimes, well most of the time recently, i don’t even wanna live and i can barely get myself out of bed. I’m never gunna claim i’m more important or special than somebody because i’ve got depression blah blah, i get it, i just wanna express myself, cool? Cool. Especially recently, i’ve been so low, and i can’t even express why, because i have no idea why, i just wake up and i’m like nope. I guess my depression stemed many years ago, from my ex girlfriend, it was a toxic relationship, and because she was depressed and self harmed and stuff, i thought it was okay for me to do it as well, so thats when it all started, this is going back about 5 years ago now, and yet here i am, no better, actually, probably worse now. Most days i want to cry...which is incredibly rare for me, because i am not a cryer at all, i think i’ve cried 2 in the last 2 years, only reason i can remember that number is because they were quite vivid reasons and i will never be able to forget them, but lets not go down that path (i’ll probably ramble about it at somepoint because i’m that kind of person). But yeah i want to cry most fucking days, i’m never usually one to show my emotions so its an odd feeling to me. Most people to this day don’t even know i am this way, because i hide it, like most people do, because they don’t wanna deal with the hassle or talking about it, i couldn’t, i’d be overwhelmed.

Usually i am quite a resevered person, i like the quiet, i’m not a social animal, well not in most environments at least, so when i’m quiet most people just expect it of me. But for a while, well since about new year infact, i’ve been too quiet, even for my liking, i’ve spoken to hardly anybody, i’ve not socialised at all, well that partly isn’t my choice, my so called “friends” do shit and not invite me, so frankly, fuck ‘em, i can’t be bothered with them anymore so i’ve not tried to talk to them. So i only talk to a very small handful of people. I do have some form of escape from this hell that is my mind, which is the gym, i hit the gym regularly. Infact i’m a powerlifter and i do competitions(bit of a clue to who i am, but you’d have to know me kinda well to know its me). So yeah the gym is my escape, but sometimes, its not enough, my mind gets in the way and i simply can’t focus and do what i need to do, which makes me worse because i panic and worry about the fact i can’t do what i need to do in the gym because i’m worrying about other shit, its a vicious cycle.

I go most days of my life not wanting to do anything, i can barely leave the house because i’m an anxious mess and i freak out around people, the only time i leave the house is to go to the gym and work. If i’m not there i’m in bed, even in the day, because it’s my comfort place, because i’m fucking scared of everywhere else. My confidence is at a massive low, you’d think, the fact i go to the gym, and have been for a good couple years now, i’d have some confidence, but no, i can’t even get changed in front of people, yet i know people would be more than happy with what i have, but i’m not. Everyday of my life i feel worthless and i’ve achieved nothing, i don’t feel like i have anything in this life and i’m at the point where i literally don’t feel anything anymore because i don’t give a fuck about anything anymore.

Probably will be more to come, but thats all for now

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