#i am sososo lonely

[thefabulous-mostgroovy]

this is a serious question: how do you actually go out and Meet People? i have literally two friends, one of them lives in another country, and the other is always too busy to hang out. so, genuinely, how do you meet new people once you've left school?? everyone at my work is either twice my age and weird about trans people, or they're my age but we are Just Work Friends and i barely know how to talk to them.

[cathkaesque]

Terminal case of missing my bf itus

[cimicherrychanga]

btw u guys have to promise to not be mad at me for becoming ur turtle mutual. please

[marxstradamus]

feeling separated

[gibbearish]

huh. having now understood reaching my target audience of one i think i now get why certain artists have gone batshit, and its because no matter their audience size or how explicitly they state things, no one gets what theyre actually saying

[bunflora]

having a normal one tonight

[goldeelocks]

More incoherent complaining sorry (i know ive been so negative lately i just need to vent lol)

I wish I had a disordered friend. Not for competition, just to talk to. Because this was kind of fun at first but now it's consumed my whole life and i don't have control over it anymore and I just wish I had someone in real life to talk to about it because it is SO isolating and lonely to deal with (I mean I don't have to tell you guys that, you all know exactly what I mean lol) but I can't because then I'd give myself away. And I'm not even skinny yet so no-one would take me seriously anyway.

Aaaaaa im sorry I've been complaining so much on here lately, i hate to do it because there are so many wonderful beautiful things in my life that I should be grateful for but instead i choose to focus on all the bad things. I promise I'm not so negative irl lol its just that everyone on here is so kind and understanding and I am sososo grateful for all of you truly. I really don't know where I'd be without all of you.

[druidgroves]

unfortunately i am a pick me girl when it comes to ghosts/the paranormal. im convinced that by being niceys to them that they wouldn't harm me or possess me. what if they're lonely. what if they just want a friend. i would be sososo nice i would let them watch tv & play music for them. i just think the ghosts would like me. im built different.

[etchabot]

You and me will all go down in history...

Collaboration with @vilesorcerer 💚

WAAAH HERE'S A HUGE COLLABORATION BETWEEN ME AND MY SWEETIE BABY HONEY ;_; i did the lines and they did sooo sososo good with like. everything else. they're amazing and i kiss them and i love them so much MWAHMWAHMWAH

we've been giving bethesda toooooo much emotional labor by putting our two men in fallout 3. donnie has been my lone wanderer since ~2017, which was one of the first things i talked about with my then friend, now partner of almost two years. elias is their character who has been through a lot but i am so honored to see how far he (and they!) have come. fallout 3 is kind of shit, but it's *the* shit, and it's *our* shit that we love so much.

this illustration comes from our ideas for an expanded fallout 3 experience which fleshes out the game's themes of destiny and morality. we talk a lot about how we might change the events of the game, particularly those involving battles at the jefferson memorial.

following a vertibird explosion, elias dives into the tidal basin after donnie. scorched debris falls around them as he attempts to pull donnie from the depths...

[polyamorouspunk]

omg for sleepover friday i NEED to rant about my crush cause hes so akdjakdj <33

so, of course, as is in true queer fashion, i am madly in love with my best friend - i mean what can i say? he is GORGEOUS and the most kind, caring, charismatic boy ive ever met, and ive met a LOT of boys. hes one of the only people i know that fully accept me and are 100% okay (and not secondhandedly uncomfortable) with my transness/queerness - im a t4t poly gay man.

so! we spend like every second ever together and he is so nice to me and i love being around him. the only problem here is that i have no clue if he may even ever like me back. i met him this school year, and he is very picky about who he likes / dates - hes stated it takes him years to like / get a crush on anyone - but im like . the opposite. i get crushes sososo easy and they stick like GLUE and i had a crush on him from the first time i spoke to him and he touched my face in a way that felt so insanely intimate and sweet.

anyway, to the point. we both actively yearn about how much we wish we could have a boyfriend - were both lonely gay men. why wouldnt we? - and it is so insanely painful because like. dude. im perfect for you. youre perfect for me. HOW do you not see that? :( every time he talks about something he likes in a boy it feels like hes vaguely hinting at being in love with me but i know hes not cause idk why would he be?

we text each other every time something good, bad, neutral happens. we call when we get home every day until we go to bed and we text each other when we wake up. HOW IS HE NOT MY BF :(

also the other day i wrote a paragraph ab how much i loved him (3k+ characters) and he was like “i love you” “i love you i love you i love you” and its never been so obvious to me how much im in love w someone UGH

idk why im sending this tbh maybe for advice so like 1) should i make a move and 2) how do i make a move

also for sample heres what a goodnight text from him looks like (to see if maybe im just over-exaggerating)

“Hey, imma assume ur asleep. So goodnight, I love you so much, so soooooooooooo fucking much. I cannot WAIT to see you tomorrow, goodnight and I hope you have amazing dreams 💗”

AAAAA im having a he likes me he likes me not moment tbh

Aaaah that’s so cute you HAVE to do something omg you have to bro that’s some fairy tale level shit omg go for iiiit live your best gay life 2024 let’s goooo

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ari you've outdone yourself again... i have no words

referring to suguru by his last name... oh the distance.. the yearning... the sadness of the reader which hurts me to see (please be happy together!) the sweets. this drabble wrecked me and wrung me dry.

i really love the movie playing in the back, the violence that suguru finds solace in, the lack of uncertainty in who hurt who. maybe that shared experience is why they both still hold so much love for each other, willing to lend their hearts to one another again

suguru's dull sense of taste and the cigarettes. oh my lord you capture adult/cult leader geto so well there's just something very tragic and lonely about him, but he's still brimming with love... the macarons. and yes everything you said abt him is TRUE!!! the intense stare. the heavy presence. poh my lord........ i dropped everything to read this and as always it's written so beautifully and feels so natural. you did a Great job!!!!!! 🌖

🌖 ANON MY ANGEL I’M SMOOCHING YOU SO GENTLY <333333333333

you’re always sososo sweet!!!!!!!! i can’t believe how fast you were with this one 😭😭 I’M GONNA CRYYY ILYSB…….. tysm for reading. and enjoying. and taking the time to tell me abt it :’3 i appreciate it sosomuch!!!!

AND AS ALWAYS YOU GET IT COMPLETELY???? wahhhh….. the dynamic…… the themes……… the tiny details. that’s exactly what i wanted to convey!!! 🥺🥺 the sense of distance with his last name, the silent yearning…. and the movie!!!! you put it so perfectly i’m actually in awe. the violence that suguru finds solace in, the lack of uncertainty in who hurt who!!!!!! yes!!!!!!! sugu watches the movie and finds it beautiful, finds that kind of heavy love beautiful, but it just makes reader feel sick. they find solace in the tenderness and sugu finds solace in the violence. :’3 and yes, i completely agree!!! i think their shared love and pain binds them together whether they like it or not… neither one of them ever stopped loving the other. like reader said, that’s their sin.

AND CULT LEADER GETO!!!!! ohhhhh 🌖 anon you have no IDEA how overjoyed i am that you like my take on him he’s literally my princess…… i love him so much and i agree wholeheartedly when you call him sad and lonely 😭😭 he’s so, so lonely!!!! and there really is so much sadness still inside of him. and a lot of softness too!!! i wanted the final scene to be heartbreaking for both people because reader can’t help but cry over what they lost, and geto can’t help but hate himself for making them cry. i wanted the ”i’m sorry” to feel ambigious in who said it bc it could really be either one of them (but obv geto murmurs several apologies after too….) they make me feel. a little ill..

anyway i’m getting carried away as always LMAO but!!!!! thank you so much for always being such a sweetheart!!!!! your comments mean so much to me <33333 i’m cradling you very close to my chest and rocking us both back n forth <3333333333

[lutavero]

1, 4, 8 and 26?

How did you get into graphics/gif making? Oh wow, I... it happened so long ago omg, it's actually nearing 10 years?? 💀 believe it happened around 2014! I became sososo obsessed with the How To Train Your Dragon franchise and that led me to Tumblr because that was where the gifs were coming from to facebook and it made me make this Tumblr blog and then just fell in love with these evermovers <33 And then a kind blog explained how to download a free software so that I could make my own. <3

What do you enjoy about making graphics/gifs? The fact that I can rewatch certain scenes infinite times, that while cropping you can notice small, otherwise hidden details. Coloring and blending can be fun too! And then I get to read all of your nice little compliments in the tags or your metas. ♥♥♥ That is definitely up high on this list.

Your favorite graphic and or gif created by yourself? This got a little long 😅 I am still so!! proud of this color palette Jaskier set, this orange/gold Clary set, this TK set is just so dear to me, and then there is this set I did for @kiras-sunshine birthday last year, this Tarlos s3 pride set with this Bi!Nancy set, and special shoutout to the sets I made last year for the Lone Star Season 3 Ep and Character weeks, with a special spot being reserved for my feral cat! TK set!! The best legacy I could hope to leave!! 💖💖

Texture(s) you like! Ripped paper and bokeh!!

Ask a graphic / gif maker

[darkdoverpseeker]

🕊️🖤

[ apologies for resending this, but i’ve realise i neglected to use emojis last time. i’m sososo sorry, still learning about the tumblr rp community! 🙏 ]

hello my dead dovies!

i am a 29-year-old woman (she/her/hers) looking for another 21+ roleplay partner who has discord. please respect that i would prefer not to write with a cisman. i’m a literate writer who loves to worldbuild and am capable or multi-paragrah replies; i’d like someone with a similar skill level/passion.

i would like to begin this post discussing my one ““limit””, because i feel it’s an odd one when concerning a dead dove role play. i enjoy writing about/around/referencing/implying intimate 18+ situations, but when it comes to writing the explicit act itself, it just doesn’t interest me. i believe there are flowery ways to write about the topic, without having to get into the knitty-gritty details. again, physical attraction/acts of intimacy will take place, and we can absolutely write about them, i just prefer we go the flowery route with anything explicit.

however, other 18+ topics (such as violence, gore, drug use, illness/sickness, crime, etc) are 100% things we can dig into, deep and dirty, knitty and gritty, all of it. <3

if you’ve continued reading passed this point, then let’s move forward.

i’m specifically looking for an m/m hetalia role play. the first character i play is southern italy, and while i can write against most any character, i’ll provide a few ideas… spain, prussia, france, portugal, netherlands, denmark, russia. open to 2ps as long as they aren’t overly edgy. i would also enjoy writing greece against turkey, but only turkey.

the plot/story idea i’m looking for is also somewhat specific.

i’m craving a stalk/victim roleplay. potentially (hopefully) with a decent age-gap, though with both characters still being 18+. idc we’re glorifying this horrible scenario because i love this trope. :)

this would be a humanverse au, or some variation of a modern omegaverse au, and whoever you choose to play would be an intimacy seeking stalker (and an alpha if applicable). tl;dr, an intimacy seeking stalker is typically someone who is (often, but not explicitly) lonely, and becomes romantically/intimately obsessed with/protective of their target, sometimes to the point of misinterpreting the actions or words of the victim as meant for them, or even perceiving an actual relationship between the two of them. we can also throw in a good ole dose of obsessive love disorder, which basically exacerbates this type of stalking. old “presents as an overwhelming, obsessive desire to protect and possess another person.” less likely to be violent/pushy/angry than other types of stalkers, though they can certainly delve into those things. after all, there are obviously going to be darker/taboo aspects of this plot.

i want us to play with all the classic stalker moves/tropes — leaving mail and gifts, taking photos, peeping through windows, knowing where they live, knowing their phone number, breaking in… i do not want to portray any physical violence from the stalker towards the target, though manipulation isn’t off the table.

in this roleplay i’d like for the stalking to start out small/slow/subtle, and escalate over time. i will likely portray lovino as initially put off, but eventually giving in/playing along. like i said, we’re glorifying this awful trope so there will be some level of reciprocation at some point.

like this and i’ll send you a message asap!

like if interested!

[shirajellyfish]

Ooh this looks fun! I don’t like the ask game format much and this is too many for tags so I will just. Answer all the questions. Under the cut because it’s long

1. Shandzii. I saw the jester because of Shandzii and was like wait wait WAIT  minute is that a robot jester where can I get more of this because I need MORE

2. Robot! Jesters!!!!I have always loved robots and robot things. I also realized a few years ago how much I love jesters. I spend hours on ebay looking at (... and occasionally buying) weird porcelain jesters. Most are terrible and it’s hilarious. I love them. So when I saw ROBOT JESTERS it was already all over for me. The lore and phenomenal voice acting only worsened my brainrot.

3. Uhhhh. I don’t know. Over a year by... some amount. I haven’t been counting oops.

4. Nah. I don’t think SB actually seems like that good of a game? As an interactive space to explore it’s cool, but the actual gameplay inside that space doesn’t particularly make me want to play it. (I would say I’m also too baby to play horror games, but SB fails so hard at being spooky 99% of the time that I can’t say that would be an issue here.)

5. I mean I did write a 470K word fanfic (”I see you, Sundrop!”) so it would be weird if I didn’t say that

6. I love biblically accurate art the most. I don’t think that style is necessarily better than any other, it just scratches my particular brain in just the right way. For fics I will read literally anything with a plot if the writing is decent. I will read a story where Sun and Moon are your shoelaces if you can make it work. I devour fanfics and I love them.

7. Mer AU is my favorite! Mermaids are also a thing I like a lot like a whole lot. Though really any kind of creature or cryptid makes me so excited.

8. Riley Greene! A character built to find answers for all the silly questions I have about the details of how animatronics work haha

9. Biblically accurate DCA my BELOVED. I honestly don’t see why people think he’s creepy. Maybe it’s just my face blindness talking but he is perfect and good to me.

10. Fanficfanficfanficfanfic.Ohhh so much fanfic. So tasty fanfic.

11. Sun. I’m sorry, Moon... If both were in a trash compactor and I could only save one, I’d dive into the compactor and die trying to save both. But if I was just casually hanging out with them for an hour and I had to choose which, it’d be Sun. Time for arts and crafts.

12. What’s not to love about Eclipse? Feral fandom Eclipse or combo Eclipse goodest boy canon Eclipse or spooky BB world glitch Eclipse, all of it is great.

13. I’m one of the people that doesn’t think of Sun as affected by the virus, as he doesn’t harm Gregory at all. Maybe he would have been a bit calmer though, he seems lonely in SB.

14. I’m torn between “what if he was SCRUNKLY” and “Maybe like the in game ads where he’s calm and sleepy?” because both are so good.

15. Definitely two people. That was my headcanon before Ruin, but Ruin pretty much confirms it.

16. Robot stuff! I looove the little details about how robots work, how they think, what it’s like to be one. Repair scenes are my favorite.

17. Sexual content. Not shaming, I’m just asexual myself and would just rather not see it because of personal preferences. If you like that kind of thing you are valid, it’s just not for me.

18. New chapters from sooo many fanfics. So so sososos many FANFICS feed me new chapters.

19. YES let’s sit down and do crafts let’s play games. (After I finish hiding behind things panicking because I am SHY, anyway)

20. If you (literally anyone reading this) has a fanfic I want to eat it. Let me eat it.

alright dca fandom, here's some questions bc i'm curious. the funky jesters make our brains go brr, but why? treat it as an ask game or answer in the tags if you feel like it! :)

how did you get here?

why these characters in particular? what was the hook for you?

how long have you been here?

have you actually played fnaf sb?

if you make content, what's your favorite piece you've contributed?

what's your favorite sort of art or fic? what genre/flavor/style?

what's your favorite au?

do you have any ocs, or have any ocs you're fond of?

what do you think of the dca's canon appearance? Scary? Cute? Something else?

what keeps you in this fandom despite the very small amount of canon content the dca had?

be honest: if you had to pick only one, sun or moon?

thoughts on eclipse?

thoughts on pre-glitch sun?

thoughts on pre-glitch moon?

do you interpret sun and moon as two sides of the same person, or truly two separate beings in one body? does it matter?

what's something in the fandom you'd like to see more of?

what's something in the fandom you'd like to see less of?

anything you're looking forward to?

do you think you'd actually get along with the dca if you met them irl?

free space! talk about whatever's on your mind!

[fluffypeachwriting]

HIIIII !!!! OH MY GOD HI HELLO IM SORRY FOR COMING HERE AND BEING SO LOUD AND NOISY BUT I JUST FINISHED READING UR STRAWBERRY AND POCKY FANFIC AND OH MY GODDD I AM OBSESSED WITH IT. IVE BEEN BINGE READING IT AAAALLLL DAY AND I AM SOO IN LOVE WITH IT. YOUR WRITING IS SOOOO GOOD IM LIKE !!!!! MAN !!!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS !!!!!!!

I WANNA TAKE OFF CAPS BUT IM LIKE. CRYING SOBBING SHASKING DYING /pos SO LIKE OMGGG I NEED TO RANTT,,,,I LOVE LOVE LOVEEE HOW U WROTE THIS,,,ICHIRO WAS SO CUTE AND ALSO SOO HOT OH MY GODDD ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS. I WANT TO DRAW FANART OF THIS SO BADLT LIKE. I HAVE TO. THIS IS TOO GOOD. ALSO THE RELATIONSHIP WITH ICHIRO AND THE READER DIDNT FELT RUSHED OR ANYTHING!! IT WAS SO GOOD,, WHICH IS ONLY NATURAL CUZ THIS IS ALMOST LIKE 60K IN TOTAL BUT STILL !! ALSO UR WRITING OHHH MY GODDDD UR WRITING,,,,I HAVE BEEN STRUCK WITH INSPIRATION AFTER READING THIS- IM LIKE !!1 WOW !!!!! I WANNA WRITE TOO !!!! :D IT WAS JUST SOOO !!!! AGHHHH IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT WITHOUT ME SCREAMING HERE HEELPP...IT WAS JUST SO GOOD !!

ALSO ALSO WHEN ICHIRO LEFT AND THE READER DIDNT KNOW WHATS UP,,, U LIKE CONVEY EMPTINESS AND LONELINESS SOOO WELL!! LIKE,,, IDK MAN I JUST. I FELT THE SADNESS....IT HITS!!!

ALSO ALSO I THINK IT WAS IN CHAPTER 17 WHERE UR LIKE DESCRIBING ICHIROS FEELING AND AND WAS THAT A HANAHAKI REFERENCE??????? IM PRETTY SURE IT IS BUT REGARDLESS THAT WHOLE SEQUENCE WAS SO !! WOW !!!!!!! I LOVE IT SOO MUCH AAAA I LOVE THIS SOSOSO MUCH IM SUCH A BIG FAN OF THIS,,,,HUGE FAN EVEN !!!! You did a wonderful job with this and i genuinely cant wait to start reading ur other fics!! :3 HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!!! <3

Thank you so much!!!! It makes me so happy to see people enjoying what I write!!! I still check my notes all the time even though I haven't posted in a while ;; you have a lot of posts on here to get through so I hope you enjoy!! Don't apologise for ranting in my inbox, it actually makes me so happy to receive positive comments of any kind! I don't want people together the impression that I've abandoned this blog or anything but at the same time I don't wanna make a bunch of irrelevant posts all the time and get peoples hopes up about more fic orz

I had a lot of fun creating a characterisation of Ichiro (and the others) that fit with the fic and my personal interpretation of him, while also keeping true to canon as much as I could, so it's so much of a relief to see feedback from people who liked it!

I was listening to Purple Eyeshadow by Furihata Ai on loop while writing the chapter of the same name (the lonely chapter you're probably talking about) if you want to experience what kind of vibe I was going for there ♡ the song is about a wildly different situation tho lmao

I'm not sure what part of ch17 you're referencing sorry but I don't recall adding a hanahaki reference in there, but it's very cool that you saw that in there!

I hope you have a wonderful day too! ☆

[hyuckmov]

HIII JING DROPPING BY HERE TO SAY HI MY GOD THERE WAS SO MANY THINGS THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK ><

I attended tds2 in my country in my gosh post concert depression is really hitting me hard rn 😭 BUT OVERALL IT WAS QUITE FUN I SAW MARK AND HAECHAN LIKE TWICE NOW THE FIRST ONE ONE BEING IN 127 THE LINK FKEKNDBDHDKDKDK

i keep laughing at my fancams tho because of my ridiculous screams that sound like i'm fighting someone or generally barking HAHHHAHAHAHA

I AM HAECHAN BIASED BUT OH MY GOD JAEMIN IS JUST SO GORGEOUS AND REALLY KNOWS HOW TO INTERACT WITH THE CROWD >< (tied very much still to haechan tho no one can escape him)

ANYWAY HOW ARE YOUUUU MY FAVE FIC WRITER?? 🥺 tell me how your week went!

i see that u went out drinking AND I HOPE U HAD FUN!! ALSO OH MY GOSH UR WORKING ON TWO (?) NEW STORIES AND I CAN'T HELP BUT GET EXCITED EVER SINCE HIMBO HAECHAN WAS RELEASED 😩😩

I HOPE U ARE WELL AND PLEASE TAKE CARE OF URSELF OKAAYYYY TAKE UR TIME WITH UR WIPS I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR ANYTHING FROM YOU!! 💕

- 💛

HIII SLAYYY to ur eventful week!!! omg pcd is the worst. i had a photo of jaehyun from the 127 concert that i used as my wallpaper and i would literally just stare at it and my friends would be like... ENOUGH. but also you are so luckyyy to have this experience like MAHAE TWICE??? IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUUU i hope it was the best best time evevrrr and you got to make a lot of memories :)

im so stressed whenever i take videos for concerts bc i'm scared my voice will be picked up. when i went for the dpr live concert, it picked up the voice of this girl next to me and GIRL. i was so upset... bc it was so distracting. i'm literally trying to go for a concert twice so i can scream in one of them and just record videos in the other one 😭😭😭 but also im considering selling that ticket and buying one for another artist hehe

JAEMINNNN (growling rn) my feelings for him have been out of control recently. i know idols are just curated images, but damn...his is curated so fucking well... ,istening to ariana grande and niki in his room...grocery shopping in LA... his smile and hsi ARMS and his arms and his arms......wna fall into his chest i am so insane he is sooo it's all so intentional. THE WAY him and hyuck look at each other sometime during concerts???? if i were haech i would be backstage asking him WHAT ARE WE!!!!!

HOW MY WEEK WENTTT i finished up my internship!!! it actually went pretty well bc i rounded it up with a presentation on a research project i did and i tried really hard w it and i was validated w my efforts!!! i got to see my friends a little and irrelevant and tmi but i think im so lonely im going insane bc im kind of having feelings for my best friend but it might be because i dont see him a lot so i'm. trying to quit bc its so embarrassing... next week i have a bunch of interviews so WISH ME LUCKKK 😭😭😭😭

also this is so lame of me but when i drink im mostly NOT drinking outside im drinking... at home? or at a friend's place? LET ME EXPLAIN see it's because 1-2 drink jing is DIZZY. that's my first reaction to being drunk and it's so LAME and terrible in public spaces because i do the ditzy stumbling around and typing terribly on my phone (fun fact i got drunk at a school function once bc soju looks like water and we smuggled it in) and i literally almsot FELL down the stairs in front of my teachers it was. not good. anyway yeah thats why i dont really drink in clubs and bars (ALSO because it's so expensive there 😭) 😞😞😞😞😞  but i'm having a lot of fun i usually have plain soju but today i had whiskey!!!

i AM working hard on my stories and im exicted to share them with you when i'm done!! thank you for always being supportive of me and my efforts <3 i appreciate and luv u so os sososo much