#i am so tired im sorry if this doesnt make any sense

[simplydnp]

whenever i watch phil’s daring advice videos i realize he is really against overtly jealous boyfriends, do you think dan is better with jealousy these past few years? do you think he used to be bad with it?

dan has, in the past, referred to himself as jealous. in my opinion, he's also very bad at hiding it.

i'd have to go back to specific segments, but the advice phil generally gives is more about excessive/controlling jealousy. the type where red flags are popping up continually. for the people receiving advice, it might just be a conversation they have to have, or they might have to call it.

i think it's up to dnp with how they deal with it. clearly, it isn't the same as situations presented by viewers, otherwise his advice would be different. i think there's a few points of interest around this all.

if we're looking back to the beginning: dan is 18. he's young, his brain isn't fully developed, he had a difficult childhood. stability is not something he knew. so to meet phil, with all his awkward emo rizz and close relationship with his family--it's natural to want to hold onto it. i can completely understand any jealousy from that point in time, because it comes from fear. it's rooted in insecurity and instability. all he wants is this one thing, why does everyone else have to want it too? but he knows exactly why people want phil--it's why he does! he does seem aware of it, as the quote i mentioned earlier does come from the early years. but it doesn't mean he could stop it from coming out. and i don't really think he wanted to, at that point. (this did change)

there's a secondary participant in this though too. someone who saw all his flaws and loved him anyway, loved him despite them, and loved him because of them. if there's one thing you know about phil lester, it's that he loves dan. and has for a very, very long time. from what we've seen, in the early days, phil liked a jealous dan. there clearly wasn't a discussion about stopping it. it's nice to be wanted. to be seen. instead of just tolerated by your peers. one of the things he'd do would be invite dan in when he felt jealous, or when he could feel jealous later. dan should be a youtuber too. then they can do this together. and it's not to say any or all of their career decisions were based on jealousy. but i do think it played a role. because they know each other too well to simply ignore it. (but i also think it'd unconscious for phil, sometimes).

but as the years go, they had to 'clean up' their image for radio. they put themselves into boxes and those boxes weren't supposed to have jealousy in them because it's too real. but of course it came anyway. and phil is not as innocent in this as you may think.

the second thing you know about phil lester is that he loves to rile dan up. he loves when dan gets snarky and wordy and dramatic. he loves the outbursts and the swearing and the enthusiasm in it all. he loves that dan feels things and acts on them. so he... pokes the bear sometimes. cause it's fun.

in the next years, there was both more and less jealously. less because of their Straight branding, and therefore pushing anything like that down. more because of 'phil trash #1' becoming part of their brand. and it's never really gone away--cause it's true. dan could suddenly be jealous or fond on main again and it could be played off. so it happened more. but also, they were successful now. secure, in so many ways.

if you see jealousy now it's very evident that dan's trying to hide it. it's just as bad as it used to be, if not worse. cause he's allowed to be jealous now, and is out of practice of hiding it. and i honestly don't think they care that much anymore. he fights it back cause he doesn't want to say it at times, but it's different now. and phil can still tell anyway, cause he loves pushing dan's buttons.

in terms of phil giving advice, i'd say it's more about finding someone who is compatible with you, and loves you for you: the things you do, the words you say, the person you are. dan and phil live in an existence of constantly affirming each other, and they probably don't think about it since it comes so naturally to them. they are on the same page. there's trust and love there. phil knows why dan gets jealous. but he isn't going anywhere. and he knows dan knows that too. so it's kind of fun to play into it all.

[nolongerexistingsadcatface]

Ok yes America hating the cold is funny (eh) BUT. have you considered that I like the imagery of an America sitting alone in the forest in the bleak mid-winter landscape of an east coast woods, all alone in both body and mind, agonizing over her seeming doom to be stuck in the throes of loneliness for all eternity?

[vaguehotels]

had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what

[lannisterdaddyissues]

today is not a good day

[whatifitis]

♡ 150 reasons - LN 4 ♡

Summary: 150 reasons why lando loves you

Author's note: idk i thought it'd be nice

CW: literally just fluff

Hi baby!! :D

I saw this trend on tiktok just now and wanted to do it for you. I love you a lot and you know how hard it is for me to show it sometimes. I thought this could be a nice small way to at least show you a bit of how much I love you. My love for you knows no boundaries. <3

P.S. if there’s any misspelings dont say shit cause im dyslexic and you know that :(

Your smile

Your eyes

The way your eyes sparekl all the time

Your rosy cheeks

Your wavy hair (you hate it but u love it)

Your heart

Your brain

Your patience with evrything (including me)

Your honesty

Your inteligence

Your humor

The way you’re always there for anyone. Doesnt mater if u know them well or not

You always listen to people and help them when they need it even if your tired

You challenge me and help me become a better person

You never judge me

You make me feel safe

You believe in me, even when idont

You inspire me everyday whether it’s work related or just life in general

You’ve seen teh good and the bad in me and you still love me

You laugh at all my jokes even if they suck

You’re my best friend (🎶you can hear it in the silence🎶)

You respect my space when i need it, even if i go about it awfully (when writing ‘about it’ i accidentally wrote ‘tit’ :I)

You give the best fucking hugs 

When i get anxious, you always help me, even if it’s just when you sit with me and help me breathe 

You took the time to learn about me and my mental struggles so that you could help me better

You make life so much more better 

You remind me that i’m worth more than i think i do

You chose me

You make me blush and happy

Your music taste is amazing as well (btw i got us tickets to see Noah Kahan)

You’re like my personal google and dictionary

You get along with my family

My mum loves you (i think she loves u more than she loves me ngl)

You get along with max and you mock sometimes and it makes me laugh so much

You stay even if im mean and dont deserve it

You sacrifice a lot

You always put others before you 

You don’t mind my gaming (even when i keep you up late with my screaming)

You always listen to me talk about the things i like 

You hold my hand in public (it sounds stupid but it makes sense ok so shut it) <3

You never give up on me

You bring out the best in me

Max said he hadn’t seen me so happy until i met you

You make me feel lucky to have u

You support my career and stuff even though it gets really hard sometimes

You make the bad days better

You make everyday better as well, not just the bad ones

You never make me feel bad or ashamed about feeling certain ways

You always validate me when i need it

You never lie to me

You always tell me straight up when im the one in the wrong

The way you smell

The way you look when u see me

The way you hold me tight even if i’ve just raced singapore and am sweating out of every crevise

You stay strong for the both of us

Your attitude

Your kisses

You’re always down to play video games with me (IM SORRY FOR IT TAKES TWO I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS HARD)

The way you call me your love

You stand up for me even when im not deserving of it

Your cooking skills

The way you play with my hair

How we’re able to joke with eachother

The way you tell stories

The way you talk in general

How funny you were when telling me about work and snot shot out of my nose 

You match my freak

Your singing (even if its off key sometimes)

You never doubt me

U dont mind my clinginess (sorry about scaring u in the shower the other day as well)

You never tell me to go away

You always communicate with me

You plan things for our future

When you send me vlogs when im away (or even when im home but youre at work)

You make my heart feel full

You’re consistent with loving me. Whether you’re sad or mad or happy or anything, you still love me the same

Youre never too busy for me

The way we can just sit in silence together and do nothing but still have fun

The way you help me pack when im getting ready to travel

The way you pack my favorite snacks for me when im going away for a while

We can share victories together, big or small (lol big or small, ya know, like dicks)

You never make me feel alone

You watch stupid ass movies with me all the time

You dont get mad at me when you try to teach me to play valorant (it’s fucking hard, csgo is better anyways)

The way your face lit up and you started talking faster when you were talking to me about your favorite artist

The way you speak to me so gently when i need it

The way you make a playlist for every mood possible

The way you make a playlist for every book you read, even if the book was bad

How you insist we don’t have enough driving playlists so we always make more

The way you introduce me to new things (i still wont try fish, screw that)

Youre adventurous

You put up with my shananigens

The way you made a million stickers on whatsapp

How you always say ‘i love you’ with the ‘i’

When you tell me goodmorning and goodnight even if youre mad at me

How you help me dress better

How u kiss me in a way that screws me up forever

How you always ask me about my day

How you always put your leg on mine

How you show me how forever feels

How you put up with my stupidity (I REALLY THOUGHT THE MATTRESS WAS GONNA HELP)

You’re gonna be an amazing mum someday

How you spam me with tiktoks

Your laugh is the best sound ive ever heard

Youre beautiful inside and out

How u were able to make me laugh even after i’d poked by hand with a knife when i tried cutting an avocado

How you helped me escape the bed sheet when we discovered my new found claustrophobia

How you always rep mclaren and quadrant merch

How you always make backed goods and make them healthy sometimes so i can still eat them

How when we’re out and you can tell im anxious

And when you realize it you find small ways to ground me like holding my hands or tapping my foot with yours

You love the pictures i put in the new digital frame (you cant lie and say u dont like yassified alonso)

If im hungry in the middle of the night, you join me in snacking or ordering a whole pizza

How you know you’re lactose intolerant but still eat dairy filled foods

And how you lock me out the room when you have to deal with the aftermath of eating dairy

How you're already naming our future children

How you laugh til you cry at 3 in the morning from watching tiktoks 

And waking me up to watch them with you

How you get so excited when talking to me about the last book you read 

How you tell me about the book theories you hear and your own theories (violet’s mom was definitely venin)

How when u find me snacking in the middle of the night, you don’t question it

How we have dance parties in the living room

How you quote random things all the time, especially tiktok sounds

Your love for musicals

How you say “me and boq” every 5 mins

Your unconditional love for not just me, but everyone 

Your love knowing no boundaries

The way you didn’t get scared away when faced with so much hate and shit when we first started dating

Your strength

How you learned the “wait, they dont love you like i love you” thing in different languages

Your high streak on duolingo

Your creativity

Your piano skills

Your love for celsius (although it’s not good for you and you should probably slow down on them :( try coffee instead)

How you and my mum go shopping together all the time

How you’re invited home more than i am…

Your dedication to work

Your work ethic (it’s not the same as the reason above)

Your vast knowledge of everything in Marvel

How you interact with the fans

How you show me off in every way possibel (i might've said this already)

How you help me with quadrant shit

How you give me a room tour anytime youre somewhere new

The light you emit

The way you make everything so much brighter

How you always try to learn new things (we should try tarot reading again, that one was fun and we can scare the shit out of max with it)

The way you never let go no matter what

The way you always give back to people

The way you live everyday like it’s the last

The way you love me and hold onto me

[jerrsterrr]

Ramble about their latest drawing:

Took me all day!!! I struggled so hard i had no idea what i wanted to draw and i needed a cool one for this code im filing on the JERRSTERRRVERSEA toyhouse folder, so we got this!!!! It kinda, Definetely, totally represents different sort of eras and how these three are to eachother while being the same guy.

Winged guy has their eyes closed and imagines the other next to it with eyes closed aswell, the star inbetween makes up the dragon, or you know, their soul, the red background was basically where the story starts, where he is in control, the soul just a star, him the mind and the body (the other guy) unaware to the constant torture Xiety is using to cope. WHILE in the other one, is when Jerii, the body finally escapes, outgrowing the mind by leaving to the clouded area, with many doors to other sort of souls and realities are. He has matthew!! The dragon, but they obviously arent exactly put together again. The only thing tethering Jerri to not full losing its sort of original bodily form is being close to matthew, (represented by its eye with the star), yet he imagines the mind next to him with open eyes, always watching and knowing. But he couldnt be more wrong!! He looks away, doing anything but forgiving herself. And matthew just watches on.

💥

Okay bye haha

My silly little guys

[strawberrykisseslia]

loml

pairing: vanessa shelly x fem!reader

tw. angst / no comfort, you're married to vanessa, not really happy marriage

wc. 859

an. uh yeah, i love angst n im kinda griefing, maybe doesnt make sense at all, bare with me there and CHAT OH MY GOD THE SURPRISE SONGS HAS BEEN WILDDDD HOW R WE DOING?? now good bye for another few months (joking... or am i)

song(s) rec. loml , fresh out the slammer - ts

pleasant reading. (or not)

everything seemed perfect.

your marriage with vanessa was good. you loved her and she loved you. but you felt lonely most of the times. vanessa was never home. she kept on burying herself in work and pushing herself to the edge. you always told her that she can talk to you, you are there for her. but she never took the chance to be more open. you knew about her past, how hard was it for her but didn't you prove enough for her to trust you more?

this topic always came up while you were having dinner or while you were just having a moment of peace.

tonight wasn't different. you had to tell her how lonely you felt. how loveless this marriage felt from the inside while looking perfect on the outside.

you just couldn't keep on waiting for her. maybe, your love wasn't enough for her? she never told you what she exactly wanted.

you took a deep sigh as you put your fork down. "i can't keep on living like this." you looked down at your plate. you had to stay strong. strong for your wife and for yourself. you needed to figure something out. quick.

vanessa looked up from her food. she felt guilty. she knew, she wasn't there for you a lot of times. but she still had to process everything that had happened to her. she met you after her coma and she still wasn't over it. and she just couldn't open up.

"you're never home and i just-" you shook your head and dared to meet her gaze. "i don't know what to do." you murmured out. it was hard. for both of you.

vanessa nodded with each of your words. "i know." her voice was weak and quiet.

the silence that came felt so loud.

when both of you met everything was different. sure, vanessa was closed up but it was still better. you spent nights just talking about everything. little after your wedding day, she started to stop sharing things with you. like her day, how she is. she brushed it off. even when you invited her to your shared bed, she turned you down multiplie times. you respected it, of course. but you just didn't understand why she wouldn't talk to you like how she used to. what happened?

even vanessa didn't knew what was wrong at all. she just still needed time.

"vanessa, you know, you can talk to me, right?" you asked. you were a little bit scared from it but you did it.

she nodded as she set her eyes on the now cold food in front of her. "i know." she responded, her voice just above a whisper.

"vanessa, i'm tired. i'm tired of waiting for you because i feel like you're never here." you sighed and ran a hand through your hair. "i feel... lonely." it felt scary saying it out loud. but you had to. because if not then no changes will be made. for the sake of your marriage. for the better or for the worse.

with every second pessing by it felt harder for you to hold back tears. and for vanessa as well.

vanessa couldn't and didn't even dare to look into your eyes. the guilt was eating her up.

this conversation felt more deeper than the other ones. because you finally said what you were feeling.

"you can't keep on burying yourself in work, vanessa. you have to be with me too. mentally too." you explained with a soft tone. "i want to make this work." you whispered. you weren't sure what was going through your wife's head.

vanessa wanted this too. she just couldn't forget. she will never. but she doesn't want to hurt you any more.

"i'm sorry." her voice broke. she covered her face in her palms.

your lips parted and you just stared at her. you didn't know what exactly to do. comfort her? give her space?

"i never wanted to hurt you." she spoke up and lowered her hands and looked right into your eyes. now that she was fully facing you, you noticed how tired she was. the bags under her eyes. her rather messy hair. she looked like a mess.

before you could have said anything, vanessa stood up from her seat. she rushed to the front door to put her shoes on and gathered her keys then stormed out of your shared home.

it happened so quickly. you just sat at the table above your cold food. you leaned back into the chair and let out a heavy sigh. a few fast blinks and tears formed in your eyes. you couldn't hold back any longer. you never wanted her to leave like this. with so much hurt.

you wished this was just a bad dream and you would wake up in any second. but no. this wasn't a dream, this was reality.

you just hoped vanessa would be back soon. that she wouldn't do anything stupid. you wouldn't be able to handle that. you can't lose her. you loved her so much. you truly thought what you had was special.

[isacksteban]

OKAY to fuel the marcmarc delulu... If Bez's love language is touch and he touched the tire mark on Marc arm, in the cool down room pre-podium - doesn't that mean he used his love language towards Marc???

You know what I mean, right? Has this already been discussed? (If so, sorry, haven't seen it)

THIS IS SO TRUE 😿😿

my love language is touch too, always hugging or holding hands or messing with my friends bc ik im bad with words so marco touching marc so tenderly is so confusing

im sure he didnt think too deep into it while doing it but seeing the incident on screen and his first instinct being to brush his tumb against it?? i wouldn't do that to someone i dont care for.

ofc he doesnt want anyone hurt, whether vale hates them or not, but it was such a personal thing imo??

and the way he stepped away after marc pulled his arm back was as if he was conflicted, a sort of why did i do that did it make him uncomfortable omgomgomg thing

and we know marco looks up to marc in some way, calling him a maestro and taking that iconic (im insane) picture with him in 2015 just shows that he has both vale and marc on a little podium in his mind

ofc vale takes gold but marc is a close second and dispite his little outburst after valencia 2023 and the fact he doesnt agree with everything marc does a part of him will always be looking up to him and wanting to reach his level

does any of this make sense? no.

am i rambling? yes i dont wanna be at school

[sheyfu]

If you were in the world of blue lock and you could kill one character and save a character from dying, who would those 2 characters be ?

HMMMMMMMM this is kinda hard JWJEJSJSI i'll answer this in a metaphorical and a quite literal sense (bruh i sound so 🤓☝️ rn 😭😭😭😭) OKAY SO FIIIRSSSTTTT

metaphorical:

kill: baro shoei

- in a metaphorical sense, i would kill baro (like destroy his mentality of being a king [his superiority complex]). i mean don't get me wrong his character development was probably THE BEST like im not kidding his development DESTROYYYEEDDDD me but like also resurrected (?) smth inside me. his realization that isagi was the king of the field in that match and how he slowly broke down was so dear to me (we like 🤞🤞 fr we're gang). but also the way he made his "defeat" into motivation and buried it into his ego was 🔥🔥🔥🔥 but srs i would kill him just to see him like that again LMAOOOOO

save: michael kaiser

- now in my eyes, michael is someone who's currently dying like he has this terminal and uncurable illness that not even soccer can heal. but like saving someone is a process; it's not done quickly. in a span of (n) years, i would want to show him the world (more than what he's already seen HWHWHSHSI). i'd take this man on drives by the coasts to aee the sun, give him flowers and spoil him and let him do wtv to me. i'd show him all the books and genres im into and all that and love him like he's my last. tbh i dont think this makes any sense (i am so tired 😭😭😭) but yeah 😓😓

literal:

kill: gurimu igarashi

- literally no explanation idc if he's a monk i want to kill him so bad. I HAAAAATE HIM FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART (im so sorry to the igarashi girlies)

save: chigiri hyoma

- listen. this man. has my heart. if we were in an apocalypse or smth, i'd save him even if it meant me getting bit by a zombie. if i do save him unscathed tho, i'd protect him with my whole heart. im in a silly sad mood so like: if i were to spend my last moments with someone from blue lock when the world is in chaos, it would be chigiri. i know my response doesnt really answer the question, but it's kinda related to it HISHDSIJD (IM SORRY 😭😭😭😭😭) BUT ANYWAYS YEA. to me, chigiri is translucent. he's something you can see through, yet below, deep under his skin, he hides something---he's someone i want to change. if i were to be with someone translucent, i'd work my ass of just to make him transparent (gets? HWUASUDAD IM LIKE IDK losing my mind rn 😓😓😓). i consider myself to be quite lazy and definitely an egoist (im so sorry gang). he's someone who can fix the emo shit (oops) inside me, tell me whatever he wants to tell me, yet someone who loves like you're his last love. he gafs about your shit but he does this to keep you safe (he's also gets very sassy the longer you are tgt imo)

IM SORRY THIS IS LIKE VERY . MESSY .. 😭😭 I DONT THINK I WAS ABLE TO EXPLAIN PROPERLY BUT STILL I HOPE IT'S AT LEAST A LITTLE UNDERSTANDABLE 😭😭😭😭 THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK >:)) i had fun answering this ueueue <3

[mothwiingz]

i hate walking so much. my fucking knee is so unstable and weak, every movement gives me anxiety cuz idk if its gonna start hurting really badly or not. i havent been able to see my PT since september bc of transportation issues (mom works full time, dad is blind, i can barely walk, we live in the woods, how am i meant to get anywhere). she was able to send the PE teacher at my new school a list of exercises for me to do, but i cant talk to her or anything. and the exercises make my knee hurt even more but i cant tell her bc theres no one available, that i can contact, who can help me. i hate walking anywhere cuz it goes backwards every single step and its painful and exhausting to try and compensate for it (using both crutches to support my bad leg still hurts and doesnt stop it from going the wrong direction, holding my leg in the air is tiring, tilting my leg so theres different muscles being used to move it puts a Huge amount of strain on those muscles after a full day, wrapping my bad leg around the non fucked up one and walking by swinging my entire body forward at once (idk if that description makes sense but whatever) is fine until me and my backpack together are over 200 lbs and then my arms get exhausted super quickly, theres really no good solution). i wish i never had to walk again, id be so so much more happy and comfortable. id enjoy just going on trips to places, for the first time in years. instead of being so exhausted i feel like a zombie dragging its decaying body around. but my dads right im not sick enough to need a wheelchair even if it Would make my life so much easier and more comfortable. thats out of the question since my dad would never let me. what im really hoping for is that the fucking orthopedics department gets back to us soon and can either tell me “here’s your knee brace, sorry we made you suffer and wait so long without any kind of medical help whatsoever” or “we’ve decided you don’t need this but we’re not going to help you with any other solution to one of your joints malfunctioning so badly that you’ve had to walk differently for the last month. fuck you, go suffer”. genuinely how long does it take to just look over my records and make the decision. it’s not a novel it’s just a couple pages. cuz you’d really think it would be a shorter time than ONE MONTH. ONE MONTH of me fearing even the tiniest amount of walking because i know my body wont work correctly and itll be nothing but pain. one month of waiting for doctors to get their shit together about this. and many many more with all the other issues i have combined! hey when do i get to have a higher dose on my adhd meds! theyre not working well enough and i still cant do the shit i want or need to do! you said id know within a week if they worked for me! so why do i have to wait THREE FUCKING MONTHS FOR ONE APPOINTMENT???

god someone please just get me out of here. i dont even care that much about my body being all fucked up. the scary part is how the only ppl who can help me are just sitting there doing nothing/way too busy to help while i cry out in pain

i know this is nothing compared to the issues other people face. but i need help. i really really need to see a doctor. and im sitting in limbo here, never sure when my next appointment is gonna be. no matter how badly i need it

[themetalvirus]

hi question: ik egghog sonics whole deal is that he doesnt get redeemed and cant be redeemed, etc etc, but i was staring at him the other day and got super sad and wanted him to be happies,,, if i drew something that sorta like something that could be the start of a redemption arc for him (PURELY a hypothetical), would that be ok or no? i have my own characters that if ppl messed w their stories id be like. who do you think you are. so i totally understand if the answer is no!!!

Sonics lack of redemption feels like a fundimental part of egghogs au to me, so i just wanted to ask permission first before i drew anything about it,,,, sorry if this is weird or anything ToT u can ignore this if u want obvs!!

(sorry if. none of this makes any sense i am v tired qwq)

feel free! im totally ok with reinterpretation of egghogs and people straying from """my vision""" to make their own narratives around it, either big or small. all i ask is credit for their funny little outfits and the parts of the story i came up with 👍

[undeadsparkles]

and sorry to those who arent involved who got flashbanged with that very angry post but like please put yourself in my shoes and understand that i dont want too and cant take it anymore

i promise im not always like this and i promise that i dont just snap and change my opinions on people in an instant but ive been pushed past my breaking point and just am tired. just like please dont think less of me thats all i ask really

to my moots i hope you are all well and hope i dont seem less approachable after all of this. I just wanted to enjoy thq with others who also enjoyed thq but seeing how even after 3-4 years that the thq community still doesnt hold any basic respect for me feels awful because i truly did want to like it here but shit happens

the server will stay up im not quitting forever or now a quest hater i just like man im human too i have my own struggles and being treated like shit aint helping

love yall /p and good luck with whatever your doing and contact me on discord for a nice chat idk (i might be like awkward tho i do have autism and anxiety)

I still wanna make thq art and post it just not on public public social media

oh and donchard is still the best ship ever argue with the wall

ok now im done just like again i hope nobody thinks less of me and i just hope everyone is ok im also writing this sleep deprived so i just hope it makes sense LOL

[3cosmicfrogs]

For the ask game have u considered a wuxia SWBtS AU because i have considered it. I don't know enough about wuxia though so I Am Outsourcing.

jhgfadkjgak i am most definitely not the wuxia expert, all i know is Condor Heroes. but i will do my best! (this is short because im tired and its late)

The only confines of the genre, to my knowledge, are that it's historically set between the 7th and 19th century, and that super-human feats are accomplished through martial arts. so in that sense, not much would need to be changed from the original except that the fighting needs to be more flashy and improbable. sorry. infact the story would actually have even fewer supernatural elements than in canon...

ouyang and xu da would have the absolute most insane martial art skills. the way that ouyang's sword doesn't have a name becomes a whole Thing, because this is the genre where swords have Important Names!

let us assume that this is not just any generic wuxia, but a wuxia soap opera: Baoxiang is thriving. Absolutely slaying serving cunt the house down yass your honour. he was born for starring in a swishy robes drama. while everyone's wardrobe veers away from historical accuracy and incorporates hanfu elements as is typical of the genre, his outfits are always next level. you think his Salad Robe was obnoxious? honey you got a big storm comin.

canon is pretty much wuxia, sorry. but if you want to make this into a xianxia show (more supernatural elements, à la the untamed, word of honour, journey of flower, with a focus on good versus evil typically)... my vision for this is unclear, however this is the vanquishing-ghosts-and-zombies-and-other-good-deeds genre so zhu seeing ghosts is... less unusual than it is in canon.

being a monk should by all means and conventions of the genre grant her some super sweet special skills, however it would be much more interesting especially in a xianxia adaptation if it doesnt. i dont really know what to do with this knowledge, but i'll leave it here anyway.

this was a really hard ask! i'm sorry to dissappoint, i only recently started exploring wuxia/xianxia as genres (grew bored after reading western high fantasy for almost 2 decades lol), and also i really have no idea how to translate tre into either genre. i mean you could certainly make it look like a typical xianxia soap opera by upping the romantic conflicts, yassifying the outfits, and making everyone conventionally attractive by modern standards...?

anyway thanks for the ask anon! i think im done with headcanon askbox games now...

[sad-rad-stoned]

Im just so sick of people being all “I’m doing something nice for u” but turn around and making the entire situation SO unnecessarily stressful and trying to fucking say its MY fault that they put in zero fucking effort while I’m expending ALL of my energy and giving them ALL MY FUCKING TIME AND MONEY

Dude fuckin.. makes a deal w/ me for helping out with gas money… but then takes like three fucking hours to apparently do his hair???? Are u kidding me???

No birthday desert for my partner now cause u fucked around without saying SHIT to us so we waaaaiiiitted around to hear back oh my GOD bitch

[acaciapines]

If you’re still doing songs - song 69 and 138?

im always up to do em lets GO! i'll put both above the cut n then talk below :)

69. It’s Called: Freefall – Rainbow Kitten Surprise

king misses his mom. he misses his sister. he misses his aunt and his grandparents and mari trying to pin him down and luz letting him crawl under her covers and eda hugging him when he grabbed for her and firefly chirping good morning and good night and throwing out her wings to keep him safe.

“kiiiiiiiiing,” the collector whines, flipping upside-down through the air. “you’re so boring, what is your problem?”

“just tired,” king says. it’s hard to look at the collector straight-on. the thoughts that surround him are a messy array, and barely any of them are his, the way they are for anybody else: it’s a weird conglomerate of old thoughts like those that drift through the sky, but so packed together he can’t make anything out. it’s a beach of golden sand the collector runs through, leaving kicked-up grit in his awake.

“naw, c’mon,” they needle, landing right in front of him. “you’ve been tired forever. be fun!”

he misses his family so bad he’s sure it’s a wound spilling out of him. how can’t the collector see that?

“okay,” king says, “fine. let’s play.”

138. Habits – Genevieve Stokes

ask anybody: edalyn-owlbert clawthorne was never planning to have kids.

never really interested her. not the settling-down part, not the needing to keep another living creature alive part, not the having to be a good influence, gag. nah. kids were never going to be her thing, and so she never sought them out.

and then the little buggers found her.

well. she’s technically the one who stumbled across king, the owl beast’s faltering flight into that abandoned ruin he was living in, but king was the one who followed them both and refused to be left behind. plus, that stone-monster was going to kill him. eda wasn’t a fan of kids, but she didn’t want to leave them for dead, either.

looking back she’s pretty sure the owl beast was laughing at her.

laughed even harder when she took in luz. you’re an apprentice, kid, eda had told her, and the girl had squealed, and her daemon had sat there on her shoulder with her tiny chest puffed out, and something in eda knew this was going to be a permanent thing.

oh well. at least she skipped the changing diapers phase of things.

Discussion

for the first one: oh! hey! this one is relevant to for the future which im writing right NOW! ive been thinking a lot recently about how kings gonna be Doing in that entire like, 2-3 months he's basically on his own with the collector, because i'll be expanding out from what was shown in the show, and just...god. poor kid.

its terrifying! im a collector lover but even i'll admit he is Not great with king, especilly towards the start, and thats not going anywhere--king misses his family and the collector has been on his own for so LONG, and has this sense of entitlement to kings time + space. why does everyone else get a lifelong friend with them since birth? the collector wants that! and if they werent born with it they'll find a friend then! like KING!

its just a LOT. it makes for fun writing though kdnfkgdfg king doesnt hate the collector but oh boy is he not actually friends with them.

this one also makes it pretty obvious what im doing in regards to king being a titan lol but ive decided not to talk so explicitly about that unless im asked a question in which i cant speak around it. i gotta keep some of my secrets!

for the second one: MOM EDA MY BELOVED sorry i literally love that trope so much okay. its so so fun to write. eda really tripped and fell into parenthood like ah shit now ive got to be responsible for HOW MANY of these guys now? two? three? am i supposed to count mari and luz as one or two because based on the day that is a WILDLY different answer.

but yeah <3 its also made even more funny that firefly knew 100% what she was getting into. this was a massive shock to eda, but firefly's been a mom from the start!

also ooooh got that owlbert mention huh wonder what that is about...wonder what my owlbert secrets might be....if he shows up at all....hmmmm...

[obb-z-scene]

RIProducer's "Pyrite Girl" reminds me of Rick!!

TW mental health and suicide discussion

NOT PROOFREAD IF SOMETHING DOESNT MAKE SENSE IM SORRY

Analysis below. I'm working from the end to the beginning because I said so.

This is the end..chorus? Christ I'm in choir I should know this. Anyways, something about this just screams his mental state. Not all of it, but a lot of it. It showcases how he's both a huge ass egoist and extremely self loathing. Him just knowing he's destroying himself and that he's going bonkers, but also fully deluding himself into thinking that he IS God and is untouchable when in reality he will break any moment now. It also ties into the irony of the title Pyrite girl, which is also known as "fools gold" due to being mistaken as gold for its colour. His "shield of gold" is really a fake protector.

Him putting up protective emotional walls so he does not get attatched again. Probably after Diane's death, and possibly also from being betrayed by Prime in their partnership/relationship? I'm unsure where their relation to eachother will actually lead canonically but I've read some interesting theory posts and it's got me convinced a lil bit so I'm adding this.

He oh so badly wants to be understood and comforted but he doesn't have anyone anymore because they all either left or betrayed him. (Let's push Squanchy and BP aside for the sake of convenience I'm tired) and this will soon turn into a need to hide the vulnerable parts of himself away.

Ricks response to Prime's betrayl, "you left me covered in gold" implying that Rick is the reason he is the way he is today. His anger is new but so is his grief, and it hits so very hard. ("don't you try me! Don't take it lightly!" And "I'm broken, yet somehow, still alive.")

"I've been pulverized for the past five thousand five hundred days." References his endless hunt for Prime. It's exhausting and killing him so badly, example "you shattered my mind one thousand times.", but he's counting every single day to torture himself because he can't keep failing his family. This can also be backed by how the AI in his old house taunts him so horribly, and he even fucked with the time in that dimension just so he could suffer and continue to look with a constant agonizing reminder.

This mainly just reminds me of all the enemies and allies he's made but there's also an actual point here. The people in his life that love him want to try and fix him in their own way. People like Birdperson and Morty. Probably even short term partners, not-seen-in-canon-friends, and probably Unity too when it broke things off. It realized it could not fix someone that wants to stay broken. And Rick does need support, he needs his big support system because he's been so lonely for so long. But without him putting the work in himself, not much can be done. I actually read a fanfiction where Unity had used some sort of mind control to make Rick pass out before he killed himself, and I think that was really smart but also sad. It knows it can't jeopardize it's own health to be around him, he is toxic and infectious like the plague. He seeps into every person around him to survive, but it sees the humanity in him.

In conclusion, the song can be seen as Ricks fall into...himself. or a fake self, someone he shouldn't have been. You can also just think all of this is bullshit and that's okay too. This song is really good and it's story is both a thinker and easy to place at the same time! I hope I made sense and that my tired almost-4-AM brain didn't make you want to retake kindergarten. Feel free to pm me or comment whether you just wanna tell me how your day was or you want to discuss this more. :)

-Ozzy