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you’re the one that i want (part 17)

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time went on but the pain never went away. it dulled, for sure, with san incessantly telling you that you deserved better and the piles of work that were being assigned to you.

but you were also doing everything in your absolute power to ignore seonghwa.

you never lingered before or after homeroom and made sure to never even look in his direction. you drowned out the sound of his voice in class or entire presence when you passed him the hallway. you and san even started to break the school rules and went out for lunch so neither of you had to be reminded of that table.

the one time seonghwa dared come to the cafe, san forced you into the back room and gave his ex friend a piece of his mind. you thought for sure you were gonna have to run out and separate the boys but seonghwa just looked completely...empty and defeated.

it seemed as if he took san’s words to heart, the blonde speaking them so lowly and harshly you still don’t exactly know what he said to this day. you just know that when you and seonghwa’s eyes met through the small glass window, he looked as sad and broken as you felt inside - but for very different reasons.

he was upset with himself while you were upset with the both of you. at him for acting the way he did and denying you once again but also at yourself for letting it go on for so long. you should’ve been stronger and made it known he was hurting you from day one, not just avoid him for the sake of saving yourself more pain and suffering.

you’ve switched between feeling sad, angry and vengeful so much during these weeks that you don’t even know how you feel anymore; you just know you’re hurting and know it’s because of him.

“okay but you can’t not go because of him,” san whines. you were both sitting at the cafe during your wednesday night shift, the shitty, rainy weather outside keeping you free of any customers.

“san,” you whine back, looking at your friend in annoyance; he’d been harassing you for days to go to his friend’s party on friday, a group of boys from another school he’s been friends with since 5th grade.

“look, i was honest and told you he’d probably be there to warn you,” he tells you honestly, taking a sip of his hot chocolate. “but if you’re gonna make me go through it by myself, that’ll be really mean.”

you roll your eyes at the pout on his lips, feeling yourself frown when he adds, “because you know, i’m avoiding one of them too.”

you both know it’s a low blow and san has to resist the urge to smirk knowing he did just play a little dirty. but it doesn’t lessen his actual anxiety over it, knowing he’s gonna be around alcohol in a party atmosphere where stupid decisions are almost always made.

“that’s not fair,” you say with a pout, kicking against the counter with a groan.

“c’monnn, love, i’m gonna need you there.”

you let out a sigh, looking at the boy with a pained expression; it would be the perfect time for you to get out and party though, you think, given the fact that your parents told you just this morning they’d be going away for the weekend.

things at home had been surprisingly...civil, only a few fights and slaps here and there that do little to break your spirit. because it’s already pretty crumbled, eating quickly with them before rushing into your room to do homework.

you never thought you’d say it but schoolwork and projects and essays were actually saving you these days, distracting your mind from just how badly your heart was hurting.

and what better way to further distract yourself than by getting drunk for the first time?

“for the first time?” san yelps when you tell him you’ve never drank before.

“kind of, yeah,” you tell him with an amused smile, the utter shock on his face all too endearing. “i...got tipsy over the summer,” you say quickly, grazing over the memory before you tell san you’d only had one drink.

“oh, that won’t do,” san says with a shake of the head.

you watch with a raised eyebrow and a cup of tea to your lips as the blonde prances over to the cabinets, looking inside before smirking at the extra box of jello he knew was laying around back here.

“we’ll start you off with jello shots and then move you up to the real stuff. get ready for friday, biiiitch.”

you let out a snort and warm tea spews from your mouth, dripping down to your chin and onto the floor as you let out a choking fit of laughter. san yells that he just mopped the floor and insists that you’re doing it this time, your eyes only rolling at him.

“i’m about to choke and die and you’re worried about the floor.”

“you can’t choke and die, we have to go to this party first.”

the jello shots had gone down easily, your personal favorites being the strawberry and raspberry. but now, the straight vodka sitting in one of san’s many shot glasses is proving to be a challenge.

“i think i’m drunk so i don’t need to do-”

“cheers!” san yelps, taking your glass from the table and forcing it into your hand. you let out a sigh as you watch the boy down his 4th one with ease, looking at him with concerned laced in your eyes.

“san, if you’re gonna puke tonight, i’m gonna be really-”

“i’m not gonna puke,” he whines, “we ate so much before this and i’ll drink water. but you have to start little lady. we only have an hour!”

“okay i will but i’m just warning you that i’m gonna hate every moment of this and-”

he rolls his eyes before pushing the shot glass toward you, snorting when you take down the vodka with a sneer and gag. but by the third, the burn gets almost manageable and you and san mentally prepare one another for what’s about to come.

you tell him to not take wooyoung’s shit, that if the boy even dares to signal for him to go outside so they could be alone, he points his middle finger at him and goes off to dance and have fun.

he tells you that if seonghwa tries to corner you and suck another hickie onto your neck, (the blonde had been so irritated at that, the possessiveness and boldness in the action making his blood boil) you knee him between the legs and kiss the closest person next to you. even if it’s him.

you laugh at that very unlikely circumstance as you stumble out of his house and into the uber, both of you determined not to let those two handsome but horribly cruel boys get to you.

you try to keep the slurring of your words quiet so the driver isn’t alarmed by the drunk underaged kids in his car, whispering back and forth about what songs you’re gonna sneak onto the aux.

you thank the man as he pulls up to the house, big and beautiful with a wrap around porch and a few kids littered outside. and then even in a drunken daze, you feel your stomach knot with nervousness. the unfamiliar crowd, the loud booming music coming from the house, the thought of seeing seonghwa in this state, now all too daunting.

but san notices your discomfort immediately and grabs your hand, saying hi to a few people in passing as he leads you into the house. he tells you to stay close and to not let go of him, your eyes widening at the amount of people in this house; what kind of high school party is like this?

“oi felix!”

a boy with blonde wavy hair turns around and smiles at san, walking over and fist bumping him; you bit your lip to hide your smile, secretly wondering who’s hands were smaller (it’s me, the author, i am wondering). felix notices you standing beside san, your intertwined hands catching his eye before his face lights up.

“who is this? is she your-”

“friend,” san clarifies, pulling you into him affectionately. “but she is very much single if anyone is interested.”

“san,” you whine as you disconnect your hands and hit his arm, felix laughing quietly before he holds out his. you take his hand with a small smile, mumbling your name before three boys barrel right into him.

“san!” they all scream in unison, excited cheers as they run toward the boy and grab him in a hug. you giggle as you wait off to the side in fear of getting trampled, felix looking at you apologetically.

“sorry,” he says, his voice so deep and full it makes your eyes widen. and maybe it’s because you have alcohol coursing through you that you show your surprise, looking around like you’re scared someone’s gonna watch you before leaning in.

“your voice...is very deep.”

a loud chuckle leaves his mouth as he nods his head, talking more and leaving you in amazement.

you don’t even hear san and the other boys conversing behind you, you and felix talking about the blonde-haired boy. you tell him that you work at his parents cafe and also see him in school every day, giggling sweetly when felix’s face turns into a grimace as he commends your ability to deal with the loud, whiney boy five days a week.

the very same boy who, little to your knowledge, is trying to set you up. but it’s not his fault, he rationalizes in his head, the idea just fell into his lap really.

“hey, who’d you come with?” hyunjin asks san, the two blondes turning when they hear your giggle pierce the air.

the taller boy can’t help but smile softly at the sound, thinking it’s the cutest thing he’s heard since he got here; he wasn’t even gonna come tonight, always put off by the gross group of people and loud, terrible music.

“that’s y/n, my new friend,” san says, smiling when he sees hyunjin’s intrigued gaze.

he’s known the boy for years, one of his first friends from middle school who proved time and time again how sweet he was. everyone had always been intimidated by his good looks and tall figure but he was just as a soft-spoken as he was kind; he’d be the perfect distraction for you tonight.

it’s why he drags hyunjin over to you, planting the boy in front of you and your head snaps away from felix. “i was just telling him how you always-” a pair of dark, unfamiliar eyes looking at you cause the words to stop, your breath catching in your throat at the man in your presence.

his blonde hair hangs in his face, a black headband over his forehead just a few inches above the prettiest pair of light brown eyes. he’s taller than san and felix and it only adds on to how much your sad little heart flutters, your usual sober nervousness replaced with a drunken fascination.

“oh. hi.”

and then when his lips quirk up into a smile, your heart nearly threatens to pound out of your chest.

“hey. i’m hyunjin.”

you sat with the boy for most of the night, your legs grazing as you stayed on the couch and gave him playful slaps to the arm when you drunkenly giggled into him. you quickly discovered he was just as funny as he was kind and handsome and if you didn’t know any better, you’d think you had a little bit of a crush on him.

that the happy, fluttering feeling in your chest was something you hadn’t felt in a while, your shy smiles back and forth only making you more giggly. or it could also be the sips you took from san’s spiked seltzer that might have something to do with it.

because one second you and hyunjin were debating whether goldendoodles or chihuahuas made better pets and then the next, you were both charging over to san for the final decision. but he yelped excitedly, having not seen you both all night because you were so lost in each other, and threw his arms around you.

“don’t look now, love, but asshole one and two just got here.”

you pull back and look at san with wide eyes, the blonde only nodding his head with a calming look in his eye. he had thought you guys had gotten lucky and the four boys weren’t gonna show up but leave it them to waltz in a few minutes before midnight, their eyes searching the crowd before a brown pair of narrowed eyes caught his attention.

san avoided the boy’s gaze to look at seonghwa, watching his eyes roam over the crowd before landing on you. his handsome face immediately drops, his jaw tightening and eyes narrowing as he watched you and hyunjin laugh together.

the tall blonde’s hand was resting on your hip, this thumb running over the exposed skin between your jeans and shirt as you two laugh with hyunjin’s friends.

to seonghwa, it looked as if he was trying to make a move on you. that he was slowly enticing you until his hand traveled lower and lower and just the thought of it causes anger to rip through him. like an anger he’s never felt before.

because he would do that to comfort you.

to calm your nerves and ground you if you were feeling upset and anxious, like you typically did around crowds or unfamiliar groups of people. but you looked awfully cozy next to the boy in the loud, chaotic environment, smiling up at the boy so prettily it makes him growl lowly in his chest.

“what the fuck was that?” mingi asked the boy, his eyes following seonghwa’s dark gaze before his face morphed into one of surprise.

“ohhh shit.”

“shit,” you said under your breath, hyunjin hearing the frustration in your voice and looking down at you curiously.

but you and san don’t look away from one another, trying so hard to remember what you said earlier. that you’re gonna ignore them and pretend they’re not even here, that you both deserve better and should move on to bigger and better things.

that if, given the opportunity, maybe it wouldn’t be a terrible idea to distract yourself with other people. and what better way than in the arms of a long haired blonde boy with the prettiest face you’ve ever seen?

“what’s wrong?” you hear his voice mumble in your ear, turning around and sucking in a breath when you realize you’re a lot closer than you thought. his eyes look over you with a soft concern, watching your drunken hazy eyes look back at him.

“no-nothing, someone’s just here who i...don’t wanna see,” you settle on saying, not needing hyunjin to know all of your baggage and nonsense drama.

he looks at the new group of boys who just entered, recognizing them immediately and waving; he’s mostly friendly with yeosang but has seen the other three before, the dirty blonde boy eyeing him with such distaste he can only assume that’s who you’re having a problem with.

but if you don’t wanna see him, then he’s gonna make sure you don’t.

so he smiles down at you, his finger tapping you on the nose playfully and smiling when you giggle quietly. he’s happy to see a smile back on your face, the lingering anxiousness in your eyes making his stomach sink.

“then i can promise he won’t be anywhere near you.”

the words send warmth through your body, your heart fluttering and cheeks turning pink as you bite your lip to hide your smile, hyunjin’s hand reaching down to interlace your fingers. you don’t miss the way the blonde’s face warms a little bit too in the dark room, turning your body and resting your head on his shoulder lazily as you talk with san and the rest of the boys.

you miss the way yeosang and mingi hold seonghwa back from charging over there, the shorter boy looking at his friend in confusion. “what the fuck do you think you’re doing?” he snaps, pulling the boy back by his shirt. “we just got here. you’re not about to start shit.”

“i’m not gonna start anything, i just have to-”

“stop,” wooyoung says firmly, knowing all too well the feeling seonghwa is experiencing right now; but he also knows nothing will come of acting on it. of charging over there and tearing you away from the blonde, of growling out that you’re his and shouldn’t be with other people.

the dirty blonde snaps his head to wooyoung and resists the urge to punch him in the mouth, letting out an annoyed huff before shrugging himself away from yeosang and walking toward the kitchen to grab a drink. a drink that he holds on to for the next thirty minutes of the party, keeping the same cold bottle in his hand so people don’t ask why he’s not drinking.

he hates this shit.

drinking and partying and mingling, passing a poorly rolled joint around like all of this is gonna make him wanna be here when really, it’s the last thing he wants. he can’t believe he’s been sitting here as long as he has, leg bouncing as he watches you smile up and chat with hyunjin as a blush spreads on your cheeks.

there’s a hot burning feeling of anger and rage and possessiveness growing in his chest, something you brought out in him within the first few weeks of meeting. and he knows he deserves to feel this way, that he hurt you and made you feel bad and basically pushed you into another man’s arms.

but that doesn’t mean he’s not mad. and that doesn’t mean he won’t stop it because how could he watch that? how could he sit here and watch you with someone else when he wants you to be with h-

“hyunjin,” you giggle drunkenly, feeling his breath tickle the skin of your neck.

you both had been watching san and his friends banter back and forth, the boys loud and talkative and crazy as they relive their middle school memories. about the pranks they pulled on teachers and how much trouble they always got into.

about how san and changbin had gone from absolutely hating each other to becoming the closest in the group; san thought changbin was mean and scary and changbin thought san was annoying and soft - and perhaps you could see what both of them were saying.

because changbin did have a darker look in his eye, easily getting annoyed and shoving his friends around but also blocking their falls when they were about to smack into the wall. it’s nice to see san hanging out with a group of rowdy boys since these past months, he’s only been with you - a emotional, baggage-filled teenage girl.

“what?” he whines lowly, squeezing at your hips again and causing your heart to stutter in your chest.

it feels nice to have someone touch you again, touch you in a way that warms your body and makes you feel liked and desired. you’d gotten so used to it with....him and it’s almost like for the time being, your fragile heart is temporarily healing.

you know the feeling is different and you know you don’t like it as much but at least hyunjin is sweet.

because you also you know tomorrow, or maybe even in a few hours, you’ll go back to normal. sad that you have to ignore the boy you love and mad that he’s making you do it in the first place. confused and irritated at just how much your head was in the clouds this summer.

but for tonight, you don’t care about any of that. you only care about that way this other boy is making you feel, someone who was a stranger when the night started but made you so comfortable so fast. made you happy and giggly and acted as the perfect distraction from the eyes that have been piercing into you all night.

you made sure not to to look anywhere but the corner you and the boys were in, turning in hyunjin’s hold and reaching up to play with his long blonde hair.

“you...shouldn’t ever cut this,” you hiccup, a cute smile crossing the boy’s face at the sound of it.

“you like it?” he mumbles, biting down on his lip at the way your nails graze his scalp.

he’d been on his best behavior all night, shy smiles and innocent touches as he got to know you and saw you come out of your shell bit by bit; it probably helped that he was just as nervous and uncomfortable as you.

but now, with a few drinks in him and the way you’re looking at him, he feels himself losing it. losing the resolve to be good and just wanting feel your lips against his for a second; nothing more, nothing less.

“i like everything about you,” you say teasingly, your hand moving down to twist his necklace around your finger. the metal pulling at his neck causes his adams apple to bob, his eyes falling to your mouth at the exact moment you slip your tongue out to wet your dry lips.

the music is blaring and you think a group of kids are fighting but you can only hear the ringing in your ears and the pounding of your heart, cocking your head to the side when the eyes that have been so soft and sweet turn dark and hungry.

“everything about me?”

and with the way his voice drops and a pretty smirk crosses his mouth, like he knows exactly what’s he’s doing, you twist the chain between your fingers and pull him closer to you.

his large hand moves to your face, the sound of your breathy exhale causing desire to hit him. every reaction you have is so cute and innocent despite the boldness behind them, your lingering eyes and lips pulled into a smirk making him wanna do this all night.

have your hair tangled in his hand, pulling you closer until your lips finally meet and part on one another. your tongues colliding and moans being swallowed as he presses you against the wall. hearing you sigh out his name and make sure you want to see him and kiss him.

but he doesn’t get the chance.

because just before your lips can meet, he's harshly grabbed by the back of his shirt and shoved across the room. your eyes pop open when you nearly fall forward if not for the hard chest you bump into as seonghwa towers over you; his eyes hot and blazing and face so tense it makes your stomach swoop in nervousness.

"y/n," he growls and you immediately feel your heart start to pound, narrowing your eyes at him.

"what do you want, seonghwa?"

"what the fuck," you hear hyunjin shout, watching as the blonde stomps toward him. seonghwa rolls his eyes upon hearing it, turning around and catching the quick fist flying his way. it shocks hyunjin as much as you but the boy doesn’t show his reaction reacts, sneering at him as he asks what the hell is his problem is.

"has nothing to do with you so back off, hyunjin."

"she said she didn't wanna see you," he retorts, ripping his hand from seonghwa's grasp and pushing at him. he hits the back of the wall and you wince at the loud sound, standing in front of hyunjin as you see the dirty blonde make his way over.

"st-stop," you drunkly whine, pressing yourself back into hyunjin and causing seonghwa to growl out your name lowly.

"no. he's right. i didn't wanna see you."

he bites the inside of your cheek when those words leave your mouth, your heart sinking at the way his face every so slightly drops and eyes twinge with hurt.

"just give me five minutes. i need it."

"and i need you to leave me alone. i've given you almost three months, what's so different now?"

you were with someone else, he thinks, you were with someone else and there's nothing he hates more than seeing his girl with a guy who's not him. he's had to watch it all fucking night and it's killing him, making him so god damn angry and jealous he thinks he's about to explode.

but if you guys kissed, he'd be over. he would've gone over and beat the shit out of the long, blonde haired boy watching you two right now with curious eyes.

"y/n," he growls again.

but you only roll your eyes because it has nothing to do with you and everything to do with his pride. he saw you with someone else while you haven't looked his way, smiling and giggling and trying to forget him in the arms of someone else.

and it was working, it really was working. your heart feel like something other than the breaking, crumbling mess it's been since the moment you left your aunt's house. since the stupid boy looking at you like you're the one hurting him started this mess in the first place.

"i don't wanna talk to you!" you whine loudly, stomping the few steps toward him and pushing him back with all the force you can muster; but given your size difference and drunken state, he doesn't go far. he only clenches his jaw and wraps his hand around your wrist, dragging you outside despite you telling him to stop manhandling you.

you don't know where san is, thinking those two conspiring assholes made their moves on you at the same time, and you hear hyunjin's friend telling him not to cause problems with them. but you don't wanna be anywhere near him, especially in this vulnerable state.

because you know you're gonna end up crying and you're so fucking sick of crying. so sick of saying the same things to him and then hearing his lousy apologies over and over again. having the memories of your summer play in your mind when he says a certain word or gives you a familiar look.

you're so sick of him and a part of you wishes you never met him. that you just spent your summer quietly inside or at the beach with your aunt so you didn't realize you were capable of being loved by a man like him, even if it was just for a short time and in private.

even if everything might've been a lie. because it's the memories of him that makes this so hard, remembering how the same boy who could look so unbothered about you was the same boy who'd mumble into your skin that he loved you.

the same boy who now dragged you outside, the crisp night air cooling your warm, flushed skin. you cross your arms as you look up at him with your face pinched in anger, tears of frustration already pricking your eyes.

"what is wrong with you!" you yell, your hands balling into fists as you resist the urge to stomp your foot and smack him. his eyes narrow and he steps forward, his large hand taking your face in his hold. his thumb rubs at your hot skin gently, anger coursing through him at himself.

this is his fault. this is all his fault and now you're sad and drunk and ready to cry.

"you're drunk," he states obviously. you roll your eyes at his statement, biting the inside of your cheek so you don't say the vengeful comment that wants to leave you.

but because you are drunk and pissed and not in your right frame of mind, you say it anyway.

"so what," you snap at him. "if you're thinking that's why i was about to make out with hyunjin, then you're absolutely-"

anger flares in his eyes and he tugs you closer to him, tightening his hold on you. everything inside of you is screaming to push him away and yell at him, tell him he doesn't get to do this anymore; that you're not his and you never were.

but you can't find the words in your fuzzy brain, looking up at his dark gaze and feeling a sense of pride in how angry that made him, especially when his words are lowly growled at you.

"you better fuckin' stop, y/n."

"i don't think i will," you say, pressing your body closer to him and moving your finger over his lips. "i think i'll kiss you both and see who does it better." his jaw tightens at the same time his hands on your wrist and hip do, growling another warning "stop it," in your ear.

"why? at least hyunjin was gonna kiss me in front of people.”

your words are powerful and biting but the hurt in them is obvious. hurt that's been building up for months and festering. "he even talked to me all night in front of people. and you just watched from a-far, as usual," you hiccup, "like you didn't even know me."

his eyes soften at your tone and he drops your wrist from his hold, looking down at you carefully in case you're gonna try to flee. but your vengeful look is quickly changing to sadness, seeing him stand in front of you with his gaze softening by the second.

"y/n, baby, i would talk to you but-"

"but nothing," you snap, your eyes shooting to his. "i am so fucking sick of us having this conversation, seonghwa. just admit i wa-wasn't anything to you and we can move on with our lives."

"stop. fucking. saying that," he says, taking your face in his hands and holding it tightly. his warm hands on your skin makes tears prick your head, his chest heaving as he tries to control the emotions ripping through him.

"stop giving me hope," you cry out, "stop making me think you're gonna admit that you love me. that you loved me at all and actually considered giving us a chance."

the more you get worked up, the more you start to hiccup and the tighter he holds you. he hates seeing you like this and it's obvious in the way his stomach is sinking, how he just wants to take you back to his house and mumble apologies against your skin until you give him another chance.

"i do love you."

"w-we knew each other for two months, that's not enough time to love.”

because that’s another thing you started to think. maybe you both were just confused about what you felt, so consumed by teenage lust and fascination that you convinced yourselves it was love; you didn’t think that was the case for you, but maybe for him.

maybe it wasn’t enough time for him to love.

"yes it is," he growls, pushing you back until you hit the brick wall behind you. you swallow nervously at how close he's pressed up against you. he can smell the alcohol on you mixed with the scent of your perfume and he remembers it so vividly.

lingering when you would pass him on the beach, faintly on the case of his pillow after you would sleep in his bed, tickling his nose when you would fall asleep on his shoulder; even when you were sick and smelt like sweat, you had that scent.

"don't fucking tell me it's not enough time when you're the only person i've ever felt like this about," he says lowly, his voice low and deep and so full of certainty, your stupid little heart lifts again. "and i know you feel the same way."

you swallow the lump in your throat and tears are burning your eyes at the way he's so close to you. his hand’s right next to your head and his body is right against yours, finding comfort in the feeling you were so trying so hard to forget.

but because you know seonghwa would never hurt you and welcome his presence despite everything, you don't realize how bad this position looks.

not until an unfamiliar, feminine voice speaks up.

"hey! get the hell away from her!"

"jojo, they might be-"

"she's about to cry, that's definitely fucking not-"

"okay, relax!”

the small girl with long brown hair looks at you with sympathy swarming in your eyes, her friend eyeing seonghwa suspiciously and looking ready to fight him.

"hey, are you okay?"

your lip wobbles at the soft kindness of the girl's voice, the one named jojo looking between you and seonghwa. "ye-yes," you hiccup, shooting the girls a small smile as they narrow their eyes. "i promise, i'm okay. we're just....talking."

"why are you pinning her against the wall?" the girl asks, feisty and eyes blazing; seonghwa can smell the alcohol on her breath but has a feeling she's usually this bold without the liquid courage.

"i'm just talking to her."

“you can’t talk to her without towering over her?”

seonghwa looks at girl with an annoyed look, throwing his hands up innocently before taking a few steps away from you.

the girl looks at you and you nod your head to confirm that it’s okay and you are just talking, eyes shining with gratitude despite the tears in them. the two girls look at you for a few silent moments before nodding their heads.

"we'll be around, if you need help call out."

"thank you but i promise i'm okay," you hiccup, the girl giving the tall boy one last dirty look before walking away.

"you can't just do that shit, jo. you have to be careful."

"oh please, what were his chicken legs really gonna do?"

you wanna laugh at the girls comment but can only feel sadness in your chest, you and seonghwa looking at each other as his hands run through his light hair. your eyes train on the floor and he lets out a long exhale, looking at your dejected, drained figure.

"i was never more honest about my shit than when i was with you this summer, y/n," he finds himself finally saying truthfully.

he was happiest with you, he wished he could be like that all the time and wanted nothing more than that. wished he could believe every day of his life that he was good for you and treat you as such.

you swallow the lump in your throat and the tears are stinging your eyes so badly at the way he's saying this. how his words always sound so true and genuine and make your heart soar.

"but now you're lying," you squeak out shakily, your watery eyes meeting his and making his lips turn into a frown. "you're lying and it's hurting me. i feel like...i feel like i don’t even know what the truth is anymore.”

he swallows the lump in his throat at your words, watching your eyes roam his face before a tear runs down your cheek.

"i wish i never met you," you blurt out honestly, your words breathy and full of sadness. "because you've hurt me so badly and have made me so sad but i still..." you can't say the words that you still love and want him because it's so stupid.

"come here," he says, his voice low and pained but direct as he looks at you. a whimper leaves your mouth as you shake your head at him, trying to back away from him but only pushing yourself further into the wall.

"no," you brokenly whisper, voice small and shaky as you feel all the giddy drunkenness drain from you. now it's like every sad and heartbroken emotion you've felt hits you tenfold, your chest and stomach physically paining you.

"please, baby," he says lowly, his voice making your stomach twist even more.

"we're gonna figure it out but, please baby, for now, i need you with me. i'm here with you. we're both here and we have time left together."

you stay planted against his shirt until your tears stop falling, nodding your head against him and feeling your face flush with embarrassment. you hadn't meant to avoid him all day but you were just so sad when you realized how many days you had left with him. until you were ripped apart and wouldn't see other for god knows how long.

"i know it's hard and i'm not mad at you," he says again when he sees guilt and shame in your eyes. "but i'm here. how many times did i have to say it, pretty girl," he hums lowly, his hand running softly through your hair as his tone is laced with slight amusement.

"you can't call me that," you say, shaking your head as tears continue to blur your vision. "or look at me like that. it's not fair."

his eyebrow quirks up and he takes another step toward you, his heart dropping at the way your face falls even more. you know he's about to reach out and hug you and pull you into his arms and you're gonna crumble. cry into his chest and have him stroke your hair and tell you everything's gonna be okay.

but it's not okay. how he's treated you isn't okay. how he's discrediting everything you guys had isn't okay. and it's not okay that every part of you is gonna be willing to forgive him.

"none of this is fair," you say when he leans closer, voice dripping with anger and sadness as you smack at his chest. "you're hurting me and you could give a shit and i wish i never fucking met you. why did you do this?"

you knock your fists into his chest and he takes every single one as he wraps his arms around you and pulls your body closer.

he shushes your muffled cries against your head, muttering that he's so sorry over and over again. sorry that he knew he wasn't good for you but allowed this to happen anyway and sorry that he can't say he wishes he never met you.

because meeting you was quite easily the best thing that ever happened to him and he thinks it's about time he proves that to you. he holds you until it seems as if every last tear is out of your system, your body slumping into his chest before he hears your breaths even out.

(part 18)

#hyunjin series is in the works #aha just kidding #unless....#seonghwa #seonghwa angst #seonghwa series #ateez #ateez angst #ateez series #seonghwa imagines #ateez imagines #seonghwa scenarios #ateez scenarios

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joshuas · 4 years

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watch and learn

♫ pairing: Seo Changbin x Reader

♫ genre: college/university student!au, slice-of-life, fluff

♫ word count: 2.5k

♫ warnings: Nil of note!

♫ summary: seo changbin is a massive flirt, and it’s new years eve...

♫ a/n: The fourth addition to my seasonal oneshots! This is a continuation from my Minho oneshot. We’ve officially moved from the christmas storyline, and well into new years, for your reference. Enjoy! Also, thank you Chloe (@writerofbts) for the essay topic referenced in the story!

♫ skz seasonal oneshots: 1 |2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8

“You know, I’m so glad you’re finally dating the person you like,” Changbin said, approaching Minho, a slightly frazzled Hyunjin and an excited Jisung. “Yeah— although it was thanks to none of you.” Minho scoffed, rolling his eyes, his gaze softening as he observed his significant other from across the hall. The end of year formal was always a lively occasion, the planning committee going above and beyond what was expected of them. “We provided you with invaluable advice!” Changbin said incredulously, slightly hurt. “We? Hyung, you literally only hung out with us once the entire time Minho was trying to woo them—“ Hyunjin broke off, pinching the bridge of his nose in annoyance as he stared past Changbin, “oh my god, what is he doing here? I thought Chan hyung was dj-ing, not this guy.” Hyunjin huffed, sprinting to stop a shabby-looking guy from setting up his equipment on the stage. “Besides, none of your advice was useful. It didn’t even work.” Minho rolled his eyes, adding to the conversation. “Excuse me, I know playing hard to get didn’t work but you didn’t even listen to my advice.” Changbin crossed his arms over his chest, staring down Minho. “What was your advice again? Oh yeah, being overly flirtatious. That just sounds borderline creepy.” Minho countered, whilst Jisung sipped at his drink, observing the two bicker, wide-eyed. “No! It’s just letting the other person know what you want. As soon as they know that you’re flirting with them, it’s the quickest route to a relationship. I should know, my mother won over my dad using this method.” Changbin defended. “I think there’s only one way to resolve this— Changbin hyung, you need to prove to us that your method works by romancing someone to the point that they fall for you.” Jisung proposed, standing between the two of them. “Isn’t that mean, though? What if I don’t like them the same way?” Changbin said, unsure.

More importantly, what if the person I like finds out... “It’s not like you’re declaring your love for them— you’re just asking them to go on a date with you. The rest can be figured out later.” Jisung dismissed the other boy’s worry. “I agree with Jisung. How about you choose... her.” Minho agreed, pointing randomly at a girl in deep conversation with her friend. Changbin scrutinised, uncertain, “...fine.” “Go get a girlfriend!”

Changbin paced outside, biting his lip as his thoughts overruled his mind. After all, Jisung and Minho had pointed towards the two of you, and, just by chance, they had chosen the best friend of the person he liked. Uncertainty clouded his thoughts, unsure of whether he should just give up and move on. The most important thing was not to hurt your feelings. He had just made a jerk move a couple of days back (although, it wasn’t entirely his fault) — he didn’t want to take your date for the dance as well and make you hate him. “Changbin hyung, you do know who you’re going to hit on, right?” Jisung ran up to him, stopping him in his tracks. “Of course I do.” “Well, Minho hyung’s smug, so make sure you win her over. He wouldn’t ever let you live this down if you don’t.” Jisung warned, giving an encouraging smile and lightly pushing Changbin towards the entrance You only need to ask her on a date. That’s it. And then you can clarify everything to Y/N. It’ll be fine... Steeling himself, he walked, purposeful.

“Ryujin, you don’t understand! He literally made them a playlist and expected them to figure out whether it was a declaration of love or not. Seriously, why can’t guys be upfront with what they want? If someone made me a playlist, I’d think that they were just recommending music to me.” You huffed, defensive. “I don’t think you understand. A playlist is just a modern-day version of a mixtape — generally, if a guy gives someone a mixtape, it is a clear declaration of their admiration for them. Besides, why are we talking about Chan’s love life?” “I don’t know, you wanted an interesting conversation topic? Don’t even get me started on what happened with Felix. Oh, and Minho’s whole art competition fiasco. Man, that friendship group is weird...” You observed, looking around at the conglomeration of people in the hall. “We could literally talk about anything else and you find their lives the most interesting—“ Ryujin stopped, staring at a man approaching the two of you - Seo Changbin. Also an English major, the two of you had become quite close, one would even say that you were good friends. Nothing more, obviously. I mean sure, whenever he was around your heart did beat a lot faster, and whenever you read his work you internally swooned at his eloquence and way with words, but has Changbin ever really showed any interest in you? No. So what was the point on dwelling on whatever emotions he made you feel? “Oh hi, Changbin.” You raised your hand in greeting, giving him a small smile. “Hey, Y/N. Can I just say, you look incredibly stunning tonight? Wait— that’s just every day, never mind.” Changbin smiled brightly, bringing you in for a hug in greeting. He turned towards Ryujin, “And who’s this... equally as stunning human being?” “Oh, that’s Ryujin - my roommate and best friend. Ryujin, meet Changbin. Changbin, meet Ryujin.” You gestured between the two of them. “Best friend? Oh, I’m hurt, Y/N. I thought I was your best friend.” Changbin placed a hand against his heart, dramatically mocking offence. “It’s also lovely to meet you, Ryujin.” He took her hand, softly kissing it, as he did a weird bow thing. You stared at him, (slight disgust) and confusion etched upon your features as your gaze met Ryujin’s equally confused and slightly panicked eyes. “It’s lovely to meet you too, Changbin. Y/N’s told me a lot about you.” Ryujin gave him a small smile. “They have?” Surprise captured Changbin’s expression, before a charming smile replaced it less than a second later, “I mean. That’s so odd because they haven’t mentioned you at all. How about we go to the buffet table and I get you a drink and you can tell me more about yourself.” Changbin held out his arm, guiding Ryujin across the hall. ...okay that kind of stung. It’s fine, though! Totally fine. I’ll just chill at this dance... by myself. Haha, it’s fine. It’s not like my best friend and my other best friend (cough cough crush) are going to fall in love with each other, marry, have kids and live happily ever after because of this stupid dance! Ugh, this is all my fault... Maybe, I scared him off earlier this week with my question...

[4 days earlier] “Hey, Y/N! What are you working on?” Changbin waved at you friendlily as he entered the university cafe, placing his books down and sitting opposite you, “Oh hey, I’m just working on a draft of my essay on... the role of English fever in English education in South Korea.” “Ooh, interesting. Do you want me to look over it?” Changbin questioned, propping his hand underneath his chin. “Please.” You passed the laptop to him. Brow furrowed, he read through the essay, typing quickly to add comments, “I think it’s pretty good— you have a lot of superfluous words, but other than that it should be good to hand in as a draft.” He flashed you a kind smile — one of those smiles that makes your heart flutter and just... burst with happiness. “Thank you... hey, Changbin?” You sighed, nervously wringing your hands. “Yeah?” He quirked up his eyebrow, gaze travelling to meet yours. “Do you have any plans this Thursday night?” You asked. “Thursday... isn’t that the New Years’ formal?” Changbin asked, raising his eyebrows. “Um. Yes. And regarding the dance, I was wondering if you’d like to... go with me?” You said tentatively. Surprise flashed across Changbin’s face, “Oh! Um... thank you for asking—“ “Changbin hyung, I need your help! The formal planning is falling apart and I am this close to having my hair actually turn grey from stress.” A younger boy entered the cafe, binders overflowing, approaching your table. “I’m really sorry, Y/N, I’m probably going to have to help Hyunjin out.” Changbin apologised profusely, packing up his things. “Oh. Um, yeah it’s fine. I’ll see you soon!” You said, awkwardly waving at the two of them.

“Wait, so you didn’t even get an answer??” Ryujin asked, incredulous, as the two of you decided on coordinated formal outfits, agreeing to be each other’s dates after the tumultuous day you had had. “No answer means he doesn’t want to go with me. If he wanted to go, he would’ve slipped it in before he left or texted me or something. But look. Nothing.” You held up your phone. “That jerk. I’m going to go teach him a lesson!” Ryujin started, grabbing her keys as you held her back. “How about... we leave him be, and let this entire thing go?” You smiled forcedly at her, urging her to sit back down on the chair in your room. “My best friend just got rejected by the guy they like and you expect me to be fine with it? I mean, if you don’t want me to confront him, at least let me help you dress up so much that he regrets not taking you. Let’s show him what he’s missing out on!” Ryujin proposed, organising the outfit on the bed. “That sounds a lot better than going and attacking him, so I guess I’ll let you do that.” You sighed. “Yes! We’re going to look like the most amazing power couple ever.” She clapped her hands excitedly. You sighed, looking at your phone for the billionth time, “Yay...”

[Present] As you observed Changbin and Ryujin conversing from across the hall, a hollowness settled over you as a lump formed in your throat. So he really wanted to go with someone else... Ryujin excused herself from Changbin, running over to you, “You need to help me. He’s definitely hitting on me. I don’t think he knows that I have a boyfriend. That, or he doesn’t care. Either way, you need to help me!” She hissed, panicked, quickly turning to give a pained smile to an approaching Changbin. The music swiftly changed to a slower song as Changbin held out his hand to Ryujin, “May I interest you in a dance?” He asked, charming smile fixed upon his face. Okay, Y/N, it’s time to step up and beat him at his own game. You have to be clear about your own feelings towards him. At least it’ll confuse him and temporarily stop him from flirting with Ryujin. I mean... that doesn’t sound too bad when you consider that factor. Steeling yourself, you flashed an equally as charming smile at Changbin, stepping between the two of them and holding out your own hand, “Actually, can I interest you in a dance?” “Oh— Y/N! Um..” You cut him off, dragging him over to the dance floor. You hesitated slightly before intertwining your arms around his neck as he hovered his hands around your waist, maintaining a slightly large distance between the two you. “You know... you can come closer if you want. You don’t have to be so far apart, we wouldn’t want to take up unnecessary dance floor space.” You suggested, quietly, as he tentatively came closer, placing his hands delicately at your waist. Silence pursued for a couple of seconds as the two of you swayed to the music. Changbin cleared his throat, “Did you know... that the most common letter in the English language is the letter ‘e’?” What? “Oh... really?” You stared at him, slightly confused at his conversation topic. “Yeah. It comes up in almost 11% of all English words.” “Oh, that’s interesting...” You gave him a small smile. “Did you know that there are 7,655,957,369 people living on Earth and somehow I fell for you?” You braced yourself, confessing the last part as fast as possible. “I— no. I didn’t know that...” He blinked, confused and dazed. “Which part?” You questioned, the slow song had come to an end, couples departing the dance floor, migrating outside for the fireworks. “Alright everyone, there’s one minute left till the new year—“ Chan’s voice echoed through the microphone. “Both, actually. Like how you knew that number off by heart? But I guess the more important question to ask is since when did you have feelings for me?” Changbin questioned inquiringly. 47, 46, 45... “Really? You’re asking me that? If I had to say when it would have to be when we had our first debate in tutorial. You were so eloquent, respectful, and like seriously passionate about the topic. Honestly, it amazes me how no one else fell for you that day. I mean— I don’t know if they haven’t but if they haven’t then—“ You broke off as Changbin stared at you, wide-eyed before cutting you off, “I like you too.” Now it was your turn to be stuck in shocked silence. 35, 34, 33... “You... what? When? Why? How? I thought you liked Ryujin.” You spluttered out, seriously confused. “No— it’s a long story but basically I was trying to prove that being upfront with your feelings is the best way to someone’s heart, though I guess it kind of backfired but in a good way since I really like you. As for how and when surprisingly it was at the same debate. You were always so quiet so you had initially piqued my interest. And then you were a literal spitfire when it came to debating. Not only were you fiercely passionate, but your mannerism, the way you carried yourself and how classy you were before, during and after the debate were also enrapturing. And so, I fostered these feelings for a while, but I was so scared to tell you. Before all of this relationship discussion, you were my friend, and I didn’t want to ruin that.” ...10, 9, 8... “I tried! When I asked you to the dance, I wanted you to come with me as a date but then Hyunjin came and you never contacted me, so I assumed you weren’t interested.” You explained, slightly exhausted by how oblivious the two of you were.

7, 6, 5... “Of course I wanted to go with you! I had this whole thing planned out to ask you but then you asked me and then I was held up for the rest of the week, trying to help out Hyunjin and stop him from heightening his blood pressure any more.” Changbin explained, equal exasperation in his tone. 4... “Oh... oh! Wait so what does this mean for us?” You asked, realisation hitting you. 3... “It means...” 2... “Can I kiss you?” Changbin stepped closer to you, tilting your chin up. 1... “Yes!” You exclaimed as he leaned towards you, pressing his soft lips to yours. Fireworks resounded in your ears, the sentiment both literally and figuratively speaking. You pulled back, breathless. “Happy new year, Changbin.” “Happy new year, Y/N.”

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kpopmakesmequestionmylifechoices · 3 years

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Kingdom Round 3, pt. 2: How to discourage idols and kill versatility in K-pop - a guide by "experts".

As in my last post I'll talk about my thoughts on the performances, but mostly I'll question the freaking ranking because wth those experts should really reveal themselves at this point (I'm salty). Anyways, let's get into it.

1. A small "disappointment" and two big surprises.

ATEEZ: Oh guys the beginning made me emotional because it reminded me hardcore of Block B Very Good hahaha. Generally I must say, ATEEZ rearrangements are always good. It just sounded very ATEEZ-ish, and that's cool. I personally prefer the original Rhythm Ta over the rearrangement tho. About the performance, I don't have any criticism I think. I personally found that rope scene a bit strange tho, and overall I just wasn't impressed by that stage. Possibly because nothing can top the Symphony Nr.9 for me hahaha.

BTOB: First of all, SKZ X BTOB interactions are peak comedy I loved this so much. Minhyuk fangirling on SKZ back door stage is me tho. And "Kingdom is 15+ right?" Oh man I love those dudes.

About the concept, totally loved it because it was super fun to watch. I was worried beforehand because I couldn't imagine anyone pulling off SKZ' powerful rap. They didn't tho. They did it their own way and I was surprised. The meaning change to a more uh...mature sorta concept was also quite interesting. The moment Eunkwang knocked and opened the door: chefkiss. Those lyrics? Rude but chefkiss. I in general really liked the rearrangement, but in the end it lost its power a bit. Maybe also because I have the original Back Door burned into my brain and the ending just rocks af. But honestly, my brain also was fried by THIS:

[*my edit/gif - I made a full gifset in that style now]

Stray Kids: I must say, I was a bit scared before because anyone having to do a BTOB cover must have absolutely stable vocals. This was the stage I was most concerned about when I heard about the song choices. Without a reason. Because SKZ absolutely killed it. Sure, I.N didn't hit that note as it was planned but let me tell you, it didn't affect my enjoyment of this stage at all. The stage setting? Fantastic. Changbin's rap sounded as if he's in utter pain and despair, Felix added to that with his hyper low tone part which was ABSOLUTELY cool. This was just great, full of feels, and I have NO criticism, bye.

Recap: When thinking about the past 6 performances, I feel that ATEEZ and iKON did the best job with making the others' song their own. In my eyes, SF9 and TBZ both stayed in their comfort zone with their song choices, while BTOB and SKZ took on the extreme challenge to pick songs that are basically the opposite of what they usually do. As I Iove versatility and surprises, SKZ and BTOB have a special place in my heart with those two stages.

Hence, my personal ranking looks as follows:

1. BTOB & SKZ (tied): For me those were the biggest surprises and caused the biggest enjoyment and entertainment for me. If I HAD TO choose a first place, I'd pick BTOB - because Back Door is one of my FAVOURITE songs of all time, and solely evaluating the songs, I heavily prefer Back Door over I'll be your man. Anyways, with that ranking, SKZ jumped from my personal lowest rank in the first round to my personal highest rank.

2. SF9: After seeing SF9's stage last week, I was sure that I'll have them as #1 in today's post. I loved everything about the performance (besides the weird gun dance sry), and I especially loved how they stepped up their game without making the perfomance too huge and too overwhelming. Nevertheless, due to the fact they stayed pretty close to their usual style, I'll rank them 2nd because I was more impressed by the others' style change.

3. iKON / ATEEZ: The performances were good, but to me personally they were absolutely not memorable. It's a matter of taste after all.

4. TBZ: I know, I again rank them last. And again, no I don't hate them. I simply neither am touched by their stages, nor do I understand their plots. So I once again rank them last. I don't find their performances bad tho, because as all groups, they're doing an amazing job. The stages are simply not my cup of tea.

2. Oh you prove that you're a versatile artist? That must be punished!

↑ That's how I imagine the experts' thoughts. Expert ranking was as follows: ATEEZ / TBZ / iKON / SF9 / BTOB / SKZ.

Okay I must say. Which freaking expert would place SKZ last??? I'm not biased in the slightest, if I'm biased then for SF9 and BTOB, but bruh. SKZ last? That's like, ridiculous. Considering the immense challenge SKZ had from switching from their usual style to freaking I'll be your man?

I don't know man, I can't take this ranking seriously. I really wish we'd know what the criteria is...It's a mystery to me how this could happen. Those boys get punished for stepping out of their comfort zone and doing an amazing job? Literally same story with BTOB. Both groups completely stepped outta their comfort zone and that's what they got for it...Well done, experts, well done. This is how you destroy versatility in K-pop, but sure, go on.

Honestly at this point I hope stays and melodies work together to catapult both groups up in the ranking because this is just utter nonsense...

3. Ya all groups, why don't you support your exchange partners :')))))))

↑ This is me hysterically laughing and crying at the same time at the fact that they don't vote for each other. Groups' ranking was as follows: ATEEZ / SF9 / BTOB / iKON / SKZ / TBZ.

Honestly my only explanation for this result is that the groups don't vote for those people they see as their biggest opponents? It's weird man. I personally for example don't understand why the groups which exchange songs don't vote for each other? None of the performances was bad, and I think it's low-key a matter of respect to give the group you exchanged songs with one of your votes? Because after all they tried their best to present your song in a presentable way even tho it's not their own? Idk man. I don't like this weird feeling of "hostility". But might only be my own feeling idk hahahahaha.

Honestly I wish we'd get to see the groups' evaluation and reasoning behind their choices...

That was it from my side this week...As always, thanks for reading! As for next episode, I'm super excited to see proper interactions and them finally having fun...ouf and after all those years Minhyuk going back to vault jumping I'm hyped hahahah. And now I'll go rewatch SKZ and BTOB lol.

#mnet kingdom #kingdom legendary war #btob #stray kids #sf9 #ateez #ikon #the boyz #*mine

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Hey, happy 200+ followers, hope it comes more in the future (and it will) 😘. And can I request a SKZ Reaction to their idol!s/o being their senior/sunbae. Thanks in advance honey, good luck on your uni.

Hey! Thank you for requesting 😁 you are so sweet! I hope you enjoy these scenarios and sorry they took so long 😁😁 Also I got a little carried away with some of them sorry 😂

Chan

You had just gotten off stage from rehearsals feeling exhausted and gasping for a drink of water. Your group have been practicing non-stop for weeks to make sure that your performance for the show was perfect. However, due to you constantly rehearsing, you haven’t had much time to see your boyfriend. The two you are both idols, so you’re schedules are usually busy anyway, but lately you have been so busy that you have barely had enough time to reply to his messages.

“(Y/N)!” You hear from behind you before being spun around and engulfed in a tight embrace. You can’t help but smile widely, completely overjoyed that Chan had come to see you.

“When did you get here?” You question happily as you pull away slightly to look at Chan.

“About 10 minutes ago, I caught the end of your last run though, it was amazing.” He beams down at you, a blush covering your cheeks as you become shy from his compliment.

“Stop, it wasn’t that good.” You insist which makes chan chuckle.

“Of course it was, your group always gives the best performances, thats why you have been around for so long.” Chan continues with a slightly teasing tone, loving how timid you become when being praised.

“Hey! Just because your group hasn’t been around as long as mine doesn’t mean you can call us old.” You playfully retort, raising a brow in amusement. You both burst into laughter as you enjoy each other’s company after so long of not spending time together.

Woojin

“What do you mean you’re not good enough?” Woojin softy asks as he takes your hands and moves them from covering your face.

Although you were technically his senior, you couldn’t help but feel like you weren’t good enough, like you have been holding your group back ever since your debut. It was tearing you appart inside.

“You are a million and one times good enough, everyone can see it but you. You’ve clearly been overworking yourself so you should get some rest.” Woojin speaks sincerely, his eyes gazing deeply into yours as you sniffle to keep from crying anymore tears.

“Only if you promise that you will do the same.” You reply, knowing that the words he has just spoken to you were what he also needed to hear. Woojin softly smiles and nods in responce as he pulls you into a tight embrace, neither of you ever wanting to let go of each other.

Minho

“You have to be kidding me.” Minho flatly states, rolling his eyes as he you approach him backstage.

You had just finished getting ready and decided to pay your boyfriend and his group a visit before going onstage.

“What, is this bad?” You smirk, titling your head to one side teasingly.

“How on earth am I meant to compete with you? You know, sometimes I wish I was your senior.” he reply’s as a smile overtakes his face at you playfully wiggling your eyebrows as him.

“Just because you are older, but I debuted first.” You continue to tease in a giddily, childshish mood.

“Honestly. Sometimes I’m embarrassed for you.” Minho continues, trying to keep a serious face while surpressing his laughter.

“Jealously isn’t a good colour on you.” You sass before turning around and walking away. Minho just watches you with a devilish smirk, loving that you can be just as sassy and quick witted as him.

Changbin

“How fantastic.” Changbin exclaimed in fake excitement, his face falling flat straight after to show his sarcasm.

“It’s ok, you’ll get to where I am one day.” You reply which earns you a playful slap on the arm.

“Alright, I get it! I bow down to you my great Sunbae!” Changbin overdramaticly responds, mockingly bowing to you making you laugh as you watch him in amusement.

“See, this is why I like you.” You comment through your giggles before Changbin pulls you into a tight hug, squeesing you to death as you laugh louder.

Hyunjin

“How did you do that!” You state in complete awe as you watch Hyunjin practice. He never seizes to amaze you every time you watch him dance.

“Oh please, like you haven’t been a main dancer for your group for a lot longer than me.” Hyunjin retorts. He always likes to compliment you, knowing that you think he is way better than you, when he believes it’s the other way around.

“That doesn’t mean I’m better than you though.” You respond without a seconds thought, voicing your instant reply to your boyfriends seeming facts.

“Yeah sure... I guess we’ll have to fight to see who’s really the best.” You roll your eyes at Hyunjin’s suggestion.

“I challenge you to a dance off!” You laugh as Hyunjin dramatically challenges you, grabbing your hand and pulling you up into the middle of the room before playing some music.

Jisung

“And that’s why I need to step up my game.” Jisung states matter of factly, nodding his head enthusiastically as you scoff. You have been debating between you about who you think is the best all round performer on stage between you both.

“Uhuh, sure. That’s what you need to do.” You sarcastically respond, completely disagreeing with his statement.

“Don’t be like that, you know it’s true. Come on, help me improve! That’s what you are mean to do as my girlfriend and senior.” Jisung whines, throwing a small tantrum like a child as you huff.

“But you’re perfect already.” You silence him, taking his hand in yours as he stares at you intently, rendered speechless for once.

“Ah why are you like this.” Jisung uses his free hand to cover his face but nothing can hide the crimson colour that tints his cheeks.

“You’re adorable.” You giggle as you move to hug him, his head nuzzling into your neck as he engulfs you in his hold.

Felix

“Can you not.” You complain as Felix takes your hand in his hand begins playing with your fingers, a pout on his lips at you dismissing him. You have been sulking for a while, annoyed because you overheard Felix confess to Changbin that sometimes it annoys him when it’s bought up that you are his senior.

He resorted to laying his head in your lap, placing your hand onto his head to try and entice you to play with his hair and talk to him. But it hasn’t been working. Drastic times call for drastic measures.

“You heard it completely out of context. I didn’t mean I don’t like it, it’s just because people like to reference it a lot, I just don’t want you to constantly see me that way.” He explains, trying to reason with you to get you to forgive him.

“But I don’t. It’s just the way it is, I can’t help that.” You sigh, feeling deflated from the situation. You can understand where Felix is coming from, but it’s not like you can change anything.

“Look, I’m really sorry. Can’t we just forget about this?” He leans up a little, sending you his best puppy eyes to get you to break. You roll your eyes knowing that he is right and it’s a petty argument anyway.

“Fine.” You mumble, a shy smile on your face as Felix cheers and sits up beside you. You let out a chuckle under your breath as he puts his arm over your shoulder and pulls you into his side, placing a kiss on top of your head.

Seungmin

“That’s it, I’ve had enough of this.” Seungmin states as everyone laughs at him. The guys had been teasing him, saying that they think he is lucky that you are his girlfriend because you are his senior and you could be with any guy you wanted. It had never really bothered Seungmin before, until he was teased about it every time one of the guys got the chance.

“I don’t think it really matters who debuted first, it doesn’t make anyone better than the other. I don’t choose who I want to be with based on that.” You defend Seungmin, sending him a warm smile.

“And you chose me.” Seungmin proudly states, feeling confident from you backing him up. You feel your heart skip a beat seeing his boost in confidence and bright smile, it’s one of your favourite things about him. Nothing else can compare to Seungmin when he smiles.

You nod your head as he approches you, intertwining your fingers together as he stares down at you fondly.

“Ugh get a room.” You hear Hyunjin utter in disgust at your PDA. But neither of you care, too engrossed in each other to even think of responding.

Jeongin

“But I’m smol and cute.” Jeongin childishly companies as you try to get his hand to let go do yours. Your group was waiting for you but your boyfriend refused to let you out of his sight, being in a clingy mood.

“Stop being so clingy innie.” You say as you continue to pry your hand out of his tight grip.

“Never!” Jeongin exclaims as he uses his strength to pull you into his chest and wrap his arms around your waist.

“Good luck (Y/N).” Chan chuckles as he walks past, not even trying to help you get free. You mentally curse at him for leaving you to deal with Jeongin alone.

“Please, my group is one of the main performances for tonight and I need to rehearse.” You plea, resorting to begging Jeongin to let you fee as your strength is nothing compared to his.

“It’s not my fault you’re my senior and your group is a main act. I just want to cuddle with my girlfriend.” Jeongin stubbornly answers, relentlessly clinging to you.

“If you let me go I promise I will cuddle with you all you want later.” You compromise, trying to persuade him.

“Promise?” Jeongin answers as he unconsciously loosenes his grip.

“Yeah, see you later!” You hurriedly respond as you rush out of the room, already exhausted before you’ve even started for the day.

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joyxsoul · 5 years

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han jisung as ur boyfriend

-lmao there’s so many of these, but here’s another !! (highschool au rlly lol)

-okay, so u two met at school in ur senior year. he was a class clown type, always making jokes, being loud with his friends annoying every one of his teachers along the way.

-bUt, you made him soft !! like the instant he saw you, a little smile was on his face, making his friends (especially his best friend Felix) tease lil jisung, wondering who, or what could have made him this flustered

-i mean, he stopped talking for a full two hours after he saw you, your power

-anyways !!

-you had a couple of classes together, being history and english, and jisung just loved to watch you whenever there was free time between lectures

-it sounds hella creepy (it kinda was), but the way you scrunched your nose when you were concentrated, or your smirk when you finally figured something out or finished a project made his heart jump in his chest

-you were making THE han jisung shut up

-(like i said, your power :3)

-eventually, he grew the courage to talk to you (which included a pep talk from all of his closest friends, making him stand in front of the mirror and scream, “YOU ARE THE SHIT !!”)

-his tactic was to start with a pick-up line, a very classy, “on a scale of one to america, how free are you tonight ?”

-hyunjin cringed listening to that one, seungmin was sure jisung had blew it and was gonna beat his ass after

-you were a bit surprised; you two weren’t in the same friend group and you hadn’t been seated together at any point

-but you DEFINITELY knew who he was bc who in this school didn’t know his group (a weird combination of crackheads, intellects, and stoners)

-i’ll let you decide who the stoners are in skz ;)

-being as easygoing as you were, you just laughed, responding with “are you from tennessee ? because you’re the only ten i see”

-jisung thought he was going to piss his pants he was so nervous

-glad that he hadn’t completely ruined his image in front of you, he pulled out the empty chair beside you and struck up a conversation, most likely something related to the substitute asleep at the teacher’s desk

- you guys began to talk more often, working together on various projects, “studying” in the library (all it was was him pointing out random people in a textbook and saying, ‘that’s you’), and sitting together at lunch

-one night, he was facetiming you about homework for your history class. it was probably around 10 pm, and he spent most of the call complaining about how the pizza place messed up his order and gave him pepperoni instead of cheese

-he had this gray hoodie on; he looked so tired and you constantly fussed over how he should get some more sleep, but he looked so cute in-

-wait did you just call him cute

-you couldn’t lie, jisung was attractive; his almond shaped eyes, his heart shaped mouth, his fluffy long hair, how his nickname was ‘quokka’ due to his face and his personality, how he texted you every morning and night, the way he said your name-

- “y/n ? is something wrong ? stop staring at my face.”

-oh shit you have a crush on han jisung

- “i told you to stop staring !! what, you have a crush on me or something ?” you shook yourself out of it, staring at him through the screen with wide eyes

-he was playing with the strings of his hoodie, his hair being messy with all the times he ran his hand through it. it was a habit you always rolled your eyes at; he’d obviously spend time in the mornings to make it look nice, only for him to ruin in ten minutes into talking about the cold war

-your other friends (wendy and lucas in particular) always teased you about your relationship with jisung

-”DO YOU SEE THOSE PUPPY EYES ?? LOOK AT HIM STARING AT YOU! !”

-”lucas please shut up.”

-but when you did look, jisung was staring at you, his smoothie straw hanging out of his mouth

-you couldn’t help but laugh at how dumb he looked

-and wow, you almost thought you saw his cheeks turn pink when you giggled

“i know i wasn’t the only one who saw that.” lucas was looking like he was going to cry, wendy just looked fed up

-you didn’t know when your crush on him started. in those seconds of silence where you and jisung were just ogling at each other through the phone camera, you reflected on where it could’ve all gone wrong

-was it the time he held your hand when he was walking you home when an older man got too close for your liking ? or was it the time you were hanging out at his house and he fell asleep on your lap, only to smile in his sleep when you began running your fingers through his hair ? or was it the time when you two went out for boba tea when the waitress said you were a cute couple, only for him to smile and say, “thank you.”

“..y/n ?”

-”jisung, i have a crush on you.”

-silence

-pure silence

-oh my god, you messed everything up. the screen had gone black, you didn’t hear anything. building up your courage, you actually saw that he had hung up the phone, the numbers taunting you.

-call ended 2:29

-you didn’t know what to do. your body felt numb, all sounds muted. you could only focus on a car passing by, a bird flying against the wind, the soft raindrops against the window.

-what are you supposed to do ? you had just lost the one person who you cared about the most. you two had known each other for a little over two months, but you'd already grown extremely close. you told him everything, he trusted you.

-and you fucked up a perfect, amazing friendship.

-the rain was getting heavier now, but you didn’t mind. it was always comforting to listen to, especially when you felt upset. your parents weren’t home until sunday, and as it was a saturday night, you had plenty of time to cry it out.

-”Y/N !!”

-god, you were going crazy, you swore you just heard jisung’s voice

-”Y/N !! PLEASE LET ME IN ITS RAINING AND I’M TIRED”

-dumbfounded, you looked out your bedroom window to find jisung, still wearing his gray hoodie, a little drenched, with pebbles in his hand

-oh wow he rlly went full rom com with this one

-rushing downstairs, you pulled open the front door, only to be attacked by a hug from jisung, giggling to himself in glee

- “i got here as fast as i could, i need you.” with that, he pressed his lips against yours, still wet from the rain. he smiled into it, letting out a chuckle when you kissed him back. you pulled away quickly though, the blush on your cheeks turning into a full on tomato. jisung pouted, you poking his face as he flushed pink

- “in case you couldn't tell, i like you too. thought it was obvious.” he elbowed you, leading you up to your room while muttering “this isn’t real, this isn’t real”

-”you sleepy ?” you asked, making room for him on the bed. he just nodded, saying the homework could wait

-it was a little past midnight, and all you wanted to do was sleep. you climbed in, turning off all the lights, feeling jisung’s arms snake around your waist. he put his head into your neck, humming a song that wasn't familiar. just feeling his breath on your neck was making you drift off

- “goodnight sunshine, i’ll see you in the morning.” he placed a lazy kiss on your cheek, and drifted off.

-when it came to you two actually dating, no one was surprised (except mark, but he was oblivious at the best of times). the rest of skz couldn’t care less about what you looked like; they all knew how happy you made jisung and really, that’s all that matters

-jisung was always clingy, but dating him made it worse. he was always nearby, wanting to hold your hand, wanting to play with your fingers; basically any excuse to touch you. if you don’t like pda, he would definitely respect that, it made all those moments you shared with him that much more special

-he always had a nickname for you, but ever since you had first met, ‘sunshine’ had stuck. you never knew why, but jisung just thought you glowed, even at 3 pm on a school day or 7 am on a weekend because wow he loves you

-more than anything, he loved when you played with his hair, whether you were just touching it, or running your hands through it

-he might have liked it a bit too much, but uh you were not ready to venture down that path

-jisung would also spray his cologne on all of the hoodies he gave you because he knows how much you love it

-you have SO MANY OF HIS HOODIES IN YOUR HOME

-it’s not funny

-you keep telling him to take them back, but he doesn’t want them ?? “cooties bro. can’t.”

-you aren’t complaining, they’re comfy >:((

-jisung teases the ShiT oUt OF yOU

-like one day you came into class with your friend acting cute in an attempt to steal some of her hot cheetos

-only to have HEADASS just stare at you blankly, exclaiming “you look mentally unstable” while he laughed at you

-this along with doing middle school boy shit

-i’m talking taking your notebook and hiding it in another spot of the classroom, scaring you in the hallway, making you pull worksheets out of his hands while he passed them out

-think of ANYTHING that gives off middle school boy energy, he’s done it

-as annoying as he is

-he loves you. a lot. like, his main goal in your relationship is to make sure you’re happy with him, that you aren’t going to leave him because he isn’t putting the effort in

-you keep assuring him you love him, that you’d never do that to him. but no matter how many times he nods, or smiles

-there’s uncertainty in his eyes. because of that, he always assures you how beautiful you are, stays up all night if he has to when you pull an all nighter to study, gives you all the hoodies he can provide

-not only because he feels like he has to, but he’d do anything to see you happy; no matter how tired he feels

-it breaks his heart to see you upset

-one day, you had gotten a test back while hanging out at jisung’s house, trying to help him study. you opened your score and your heart dropped. a 59%. that’s the worst you’d ever done. you had stayed up multiple nights to study, putting off your own personal needs in order to success

-it wasn’t enough. and that hurt

-jisung saw you start to cry and he f r e a k e d

-oh god, his precious sunshine was crying and he didn’t know what to do

-he fumbled for a bit, saying, “it’s going to be okay !! it’s just one grade !!” only for you to cry harder and him to freak out even more

-eventually, he just hugged you from behind, laying you down on the couch. you were shaking so bad and it was making jisung tear up; he really hated seeing you like this

-he knew talking wouldn't help, so he let you cry, wiping away your tears and rubbing small circles into your back.

-”you’re okay sunshine, just hold onto me.” you always thought you didn’t deserve someone like him. someone so loving, so supportive.

-but you love him. you’ve never loved someone like him; how dumb he sounded but always gave the best advice, always teasing you at any time during the day but shows up in front of your door with flowers just because

-and so when he sings “i smile” while caressing your cheek, you know there’s no place you’d rather be. in his arms, the vibration of his voice lulling you to sleep and just how warm he was

-and when you got to see him perform with the rest of his rapping group, your eyes just couldn’t leave him. his charisma, his confidence, how he’d always wink at you when he spotted you in the crowd. he was truly ethereal there, almost angelic in whatever he wore, because look at him

-almost nothing was better than seeing him backstage after a show to see him; him smirking when he’d pull you into his arms still sweaty when he’d whisper “missed you babydoll”

-no matter how much he’d nag you for staying up too late and not putting enough time into yourself, and no matter how much you’d nag him for not eating enough, you wouldn’t trade each other for the moon and all of her stars

-if soulmates existed, you were lucky enough to find yours in a shitty high school at 9:40 a.m. with a cheesy pick-up line

-but you wouldn’t have it any other way

AGHHHHH i really hope everyone liked this ?? ugh, it feels so rushed, but it’s really late here, so i hope i did sungie justice :((

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honeyjaez · 5 years

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Maze of Miroh-Chapter 8 “Derailing from the Plan”

Seungmin grunted as he was pushed forward, a gun hard-pressed on his back. Both he and Hyunjin had been blindfolded as if they didn’t already see all of The Order’s base and they were being escorted somewhere. Seungmin grit his teeth in annoyance. Their guns had been taken away, they were captured by the enemy and had no plan of how they were going to get out of this mess.

There was a cough next to him and Seungmin sighed in slight reassurance. They only thing keeping him even remotely calm was the fact that Hyunjin was here. Hyunjin was with him. He wasn’t alone in this mess.

If there is one thing in this life that Seungmin hates more than stupid people it’s that Seungmin hates being alone.

Ever since his childhood, growing up with his cruel hearted asshole of a father. The man never hugged them, he never said that he loved them. Who never gave an ounce of love to his two children. And it’s not like their mother could due to the account that she died giving birth to him. Seungmin almost grew up not knowing the pure emotional feeling of love and being loved. Thank god he had his brother though.

Wonpil was his light. His only real family. The two of them grew up in that hell hole of a home but unlike Seungmin, Wonpil had experienced the feeling of their mother’s undying love for her children. Seungmin had not. So Wonpil made it his mission every single day to make Seungmin feel loved. To let Seungmin know he wasn’t alone. They clung onto each other like glue.

But their father saw that as a sign of weakness.

Seungmin would always cry when their father would separate them. Locking both into different, soundproof rooms so that they couldn’t even talk to each other. How long they would be locked away always depended on their father’s mood. Could be a day. Could be a week.

But no matter what it drove Seungmin insane.

He remembers day after day, crying for his brother, crying to talk to someone….all falling on deaf ears. Because of this inhumane form of torture Seungmin had developed somewhat of a condition.

He hated be alone.

You wouldn’t have guessed it if you saw his interactions with his friends. Coming off like an egotistical bastard who couldn’t imagine spending a second with anyone. But what do you do when you are in so much pain and fear about your flaws? You push those who care about you away. And it wasn’t like he was clingy. Not anymore. But he needed to be around people.

A feeling of a hand on his own snapped the younger boy out of his down-spiraling thoughts.

“Minnie” Hyunjin said quietly, low enough to where the Agents couldn’t hear. “Minnie it’s alright. I’m here”

Seungmin let out a shaky sigh, nodding despite knowing that the older couldn’t see it. Seungmin hated being alone, but also hated people having to comfort him. It made him feel weak. Yet somehow he managed to find a group of 7 asshats who stubbornly wouldn’t let him go.

“Yeah” he bit back, his defensive walls shooting back up “I know that genius”

Seungmin could have sworn he heard a chuckle coming from besides him, but before he could snap at him a guard took him by his wrist, shoving him and Hyunjin through a door and into a room. Their blindfolds were ripped off, and Seungmin had to blink a few times for his eyes to adjust to the dim lit room. In the center of it was a single table, 3 chairs attached to it. They were forced down in both chairs by an unknown pair of hands. He assumed that the one who shoved them would sit in the chair across from them and start the interrogation. But instead the hands leave both their shoulders, and the sound of footsteps with a closing door hit his ears. He and Hyunjin were alone.

The silence was drawn out for a few moments more until Hyunjin sighed very loudly next to him. “Well this is just shit.”

“This is bad.” Seungmin grumbled. He turned and grabbed Hyunjin’s face roughly, making the older look at him.

“Look at me Hyunjin. Don’t tell the-“

“Hyunjin hyung” the older boy interrupted, and Seungmin stared at the older boy in disbelief. Finally he just decides to slap the older boys head lightly.

“Idiot!” he hissed “Do NOT tell them your name. Do not tell them our plan. Nothing about S-K-Z. Got it?”

Hyunjin just stared at him, eyes on Seungmin’s, his lips pursed like he was pouting in Seungmin’s grasp. “Well duh.”

Seungmin rolled his eyes and let Hyunjin go, his head falling on the table as he groaned in annoyance and stress. “Hopefully Changbin hyung is doing alright.”

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“Not alright. Not Alright. Definitely NOT alright!” Minho heard Changbin yelled from a few feet behind him. They were currently running down what felt like the hundreth hallway, trying to escape the growling and snapping of the demon dogs that had been released on them. They had discovered rather quickly that it took a lot of bullets to down a single dog, and they soon were outnumbered, so they did the only logical thing, which was to run.

Minho loved to run. He could do it all day. But when you add the stress of the past few days, his still healing bullet wound and the fact that they were in a life and death situation with monster dogs snapping for their flesh….well let’s just say Minho was done with it all.

He turned on yet another corner, and saw a slightly opened door. Without much thought, acting purely on his human fight or flight insticts, he grabbed Changbin and shoved the younger into the room, not caring at the moment if it was filled with enemies. The two stumble in and Minho shuts the door without a second though, locking it and crumpling to the floor catching his breath. The room was silent other than the far off sound of constant barking, and he could hear Changbin shuffling behind him, grunting in pain as he caught his own breath.

“W…What the hell….were..those…things” Minho choked out.

“I….I “ changbin breathed “I don’t know…..I…didn’t get a good enough look.”

Minho had. But he wished that he hadn’t.

They were nothing like the dogs Minho had grown up around. Nothing like Grandma Yoo’s little terrier Boxer.

These creatures were sickly in color, almost like a pale green shade. Sure they walked on 4 legs and had a tail, but they also sprouting what Minho could only describe as little horns on its back, jutting out every which way. Their eyes were black and soulless, like holes.

Just thinking back to them Minho’s heart raced. Nothing about them was normal.

“Greta just great.We wouldn’t be in this mess if you hadn’t had an itchy trigger finger!” Changbin hissed at him. “We wouldn’t be running around an enemy base from fucking dogs!”

“Those…..” Minho gasped out, shaking his head weakly “Those are NOT dogs.”

“Quite right you are” a foreign voice spoke up.

Changbin and much to his own amazement, himself, shot up, taking defensive positions against the new enemy. Minho watched, frozen as a taller male with jet black hair and glasses stepped out from the shadows. He wore a white lab coat which told Minho that he was some sort of scientist or doctor here, but why would they need someone like that here?

“Who are you?” Changbin growled out.

The taller, older male put his hands in the air as a sign of surrender and peace.

“My name is Yamako. I’m from the Shuixia branch. I was sent here by The Order a few months ago, but as you can see I am now trapped down here with those beasts same as you.”

Minho and Changbin looked at each other, both trying to silently decide what to do with their new friend. As if the older male could read their thoughts he stepped forward, a look of desperation on his face.

“Please trust me I mean you no harm!” he gushed out.

“Yeah sure okay. Like I believe that” Changbin growled. He glared at the man but straightened out of his defense position, relaxing slightly. Minho noticed this and relaxed himself slightly, though still on edge.

“Please….” He trailed off, looking at the floor “I didn’t even want to be here. But they threatened me and my family. I had no choice but to obey orders.” At this Minho’s eyes narrowed and he was brought back to his previous question. Why were there Scientists here? His fears were only heightened as he took in Yamako posture. His hands here behind his back and he was shuffling back and forth. He must have been ashamed about something because he wasn’t looking either boy in the eye nor despite being significantly older than the two. This was bad. If they were experimenting on Jeongwoo…..

“What orders?” Minho asked, his gaze darkening.

“Doesn’t matter what he was doing here” Changbin hissed, interrupting the two “We need to get out of here alive. Which means getting passed Fluffy” he glared hard at Yamako “Where are all the Agents?”

Yamako pushed his glasses up, trying to think “Once Phase 2 is in action every employee has strict instructions to evacuate the bottom floors. My guess is that they are up on the first 5 levels, away from the beasts.”

At this, Changbin raised his eyebrows in slight shock “So what? You guys release a bunch of demon dogs that even you’re afraid of? Where is the logic?”

Yamako sighed “Despite our efforts we haven’t found a way to soothe the beasts into submission so as an extra precaution everyone is ordered out of the way.”

“And you couldn’t spread an ounce of that thoughtfulness for us?” Minho heard the shorter boy grumble. Then he sighed and walked towards the door, the barking getting significantly louder.

The 3 of them stayed silent, no one dare to speak. Then finally it was broken by a quiet gasp of realization.

“You’re them……aren’t you?”

Changbin turned around, his gaze hard “I don’t know what you are talking about.”

“Yes you do” Yamako said, a ghost of a smile on his face. “You’re THEM. THE group. The famous group! You’re SKZ-“Yamako’s words were cut off as the air was knocked out of him. Changbin had him pinned up against the wall in a flash, arm against this throat cutting off his air supply.

“Changbin!” Minho hissed.

“You don’t know what you are talking about” he hissed in Yamako’s face who was flailing widely around needing air. “But if you mention that name again, I will kill you right here and now understand?”

Minho shivered at how ice cold Changbin’s voice was, giving way to the severity of the threat. His eyes burned with a dark intensity and Minho suddenly knew he would never want to be on the other end of that gaze.

He let Yamako go, who landed on the floor gasping for air. Changbin glared at him a moment longer then turned back around and walked towards the door, listening.

“I’m…Sorry” he managed to get out “I didn’t…I didn’t mean to offend.” Yamako stood up rubbing his throat lightly. “It’s just…where I come from…you guys are legends. Your group….what happened 5 years ago… my people were in awe. My brother….” He trailed off, a fond sadness sparkled in his eyes “My brother actually ran off and joined his own group against The Order. He said you guys inspired him to fight. I actually haven’t seen him since.”

Minho smiled softly, hearing the pride in Yamako’s voice. But his attention snapped back towards the door as there was a loud bang against it. Changbin raised a single finger in the air, signaling them to stay silent. Minho gulped, terrified that even a sound like that was too loud.

The banging stopped but they could hear the sound of sniffing on the other side, growling ever so slightly. Eventually the sound faded away and the boys all let out a collective sigh. Changbin turned towards the two, eyes hard, face serious.

“Alright. I have a plan…”

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Jisung froze, his breathing completely stopping for the hundredth time in the past 10 minutes. After what felt like hours, Felix who was apparently his backup arrived at the van, now moved farther away to avoid trouble with The Order. The red headed boy held two jackets in his hands as he arrived explaining that he stole them on his way here from a bunch of unconscious Agents and thought to use them. Luckily he had them however because as they walked into the building, dressed up like the enemy they momentarily panicked at the amount of Agents swarming the first few floors.

“Those idiots must have really done a number” Felix had muttered quietly. But Jisung hardly listened to the boy, his ears pounding and his own anxiety grew. “Let’s just destroy the jamming signal and get out of here” he mumbled, moving forward.

That’s how the duo found themselves slowly making their way down the staircase, moveing slowly as to not raise suspicion. Already they had almost been caught a handful of times, both being significantly shorter than most Agents and raising a bit of suspicion. Luckily all attempts were thwarted by the Agents desperate need to capture the intruders down below and so they were left alone.

“They really fucked this one up.” Felix groaned, walking down the steps with Jisung at his side.

Jisung’ already annoyed just scoffed. “Minho probably is the cause of that. That or he sold Changbin and the others out.”

Felix stopped mid-step, placing a hand on Jisung’s shoulder who also stopped. “Jisung. What the hell is your problem with Minho?”

Jisung scoffed, rolling his eyes “Do I need a reason? I’m sorry, not to be rude but why don’t you have a problem with him? You act like he is your best friend Felix” he ripped Felix’s hand away from him “For gods’ sake, all he did was like your story.”

“He also saved my life remember?” the boy hissed.

“After also endangering it!”

“He didn’t do anything. I revealed myself out of my own free will so chill the fuck out!”’

Jisung froze. Never in the past year that he has known Felix has he raised his voice like that. Not to anyone. Felix must have realized too because he suddenly pulled back his hand, looking away from Jisung.

“Look” he said quieter as to not alert anyone nearby. “I know I can’t make you trust him. But trust ME when I say this; Minho isn’t the bad guy.”

Jisung huffed, turning away “I’ll trust him when he shows me that I can”

They managed to get themselves down to the 10th floor where the security camera room was and Jisung gulped at the sheer amount of Agents rushing about. Both he and Felix continued down their path, silently and once they reached the door, they used their stolen name badges on the Security Room Door. It slid open and immediately they were met which atleast a dozen stressed out, highly annoyed faces.

“What are you doing here?” a short balding man hissed. Jisung narrowed his eyes and saw his name badge read Kwangsoo and without thinking, glared slightly at the man. This was the guy that tried to hurt Lix’.

Jisung turned to the boy in question who just seemed to stare at Kwangsoo with an uninterested, bored look. “We were sent here from Headquarters Sir. It would seem the President is not so fond that his base was so easily broken into. He asked us to relay a message.”

Kwangsoo narrowed his eyes but did not argue. He motioned towards the others and they all slowly started to pile themselves out of the room. Once alone the old man sat on the desk, his face giving way to the amount of stress that he was currently feeling. “Alright Alright. What does the bastard want from me now? What’s the message?”

Jisung stayed silent next to Felix, knowing that this was Felix’s territory. Hacking things? Awesome. Computers? Great. But when it came to actual field work, Jisung was a lost as a duckling.

Felix stayed silent a few moments longer, which added stress to Kwangsoo’s already red face. Finally the boy ripped off his hat, revealing his fire red hair and rushed forward head locking the stumpy man and cutting off his airflow. Kwangsoo flailed desperately, but in seconds was getting weaker and weaker. “Y-You!” he managed to cough out.

“Good to see you again Pint Sized Agent Man” he huffed, tightening his grip on him. “Bye Bye now” Kwangsoo’s arms dropped and his head rolled back out of Felix’s grip, now out cold.

Jisung rushed forward once he knew it was safe, hooking his laptop up to the monitors.

“That maybe bought us 10 minutes Ji” Felix said while shoving Kwangsoo’s body underneath a table “But eventually the guards will want back in.”

“I know” Jisung muttered. He began typing furiously looking for what he needed. Unbeknownst to him Felix, uninterested in computer work began to look around the Security room. His eyes landed on a single laptop, property of Lee Kwangsoo and he walked forwards scanning the various documents that were scattered on the desktop. One file in particular caught his eye and he clicked on it. His eyes started to scan the document wordlessly, a frown forming on his face.

“Got it!” Jisung yelled suddenly. “Hello? Hello? Seungmin? Can you hear me?”

Radio Silence.

“Fuck! Why isn’t it working?”

“Jisung” Felix finally spoke up, voice grave. But Jisung ignored him and continued to type furiously trying to find their friends on the cameras.

“Jisung seriously” Felix said “You need to read this.” He gaze was dark, unreadable, the only emotional seen being that of anger.

Jisung groaned “Fine, but you have to look for our friends while I do.” and the two boys swapped roles. Jisung’s own eyes began reading the document and as he read through it, his stomach began to churn. Once done he looked up from the computer screen to Felix who had been waiting for him to finish. Both their gazes’ were dark as the digested the information.

“Where’s Minho?” Jisung suddenly asked.

Felix turned around in the chair typing furiously. “I don’t know…”

Jisung ran up to him, placing a hand on the desk and the other on the back of the chair “Well we need to find him….and now!”

“I know I know….Look!” he suddenly said, pointing up. Jisung’s head snapped up towards a monitor that showed Seungmin and Hyunjin locked in a room, the two of them at a table talking to an agent. Jisung frowned, not realizing how bad the situation had actually gotten. Getting communication back up was one thing, but breaking them out of custody was another. “That must be why they aren’t answering.” Jisung hummed.

“Well what about Binnie hyung?” Felix asked worriedly.

Jisung nodded, sharing the boy’s anxiety, as his eyes continued to scan the various monitors “I don’t see them……..Wait! There!” Jisung pointed upwards towards a screen in the upper right hand corner. There he could see a faint outline of Minho and Changbin hiding behind a corner, poking their heads out to the side to look down a hallway at an unseen force.

They seemed to be saying something but Jisung couldn’t read the lips clear enough to know what. Minho slunked out of view, and he watched as Changbin moved forward, out into the full hallway and put his fingers to his lips in what Jisung realized was a whistle. His heart quickened as he saw the boy then quickly turn back around, running back from where they came. A few more moments passed and then he saw black blurs running past the security camera. Too many to count. That’s when he realized.

They were being chased

“Binnie hyung! Minho hyung!” Felix yelled.

Jisung’s stomach dropped. This was bad. This was really bad.

“Jisung! I’m-” Jisung grabbed hold of Felix’s shoulder before he could continue, his mind working furiously.

“Felix. I know you want to save your friend but I need you to help Seungmin and Hyunjin. You are the only one that could slip past those guards and break them out. I’ll go to Changbin hyung and Minho-ssi. You have my word”

Felix didn’t say a word as he was contemplating Jisung’s order. Finally he sighed and nodded in submission “I’ll get those two out before the guards realize their boss is out of commission and we will meet you down there as soon as possible.” without even waiting for a reply the boy turned around and walked out the door, placing his hat back on and ordering something to the guards waiting outside. Jisung grabbed his laptop along with Kwangsoo’s placing it in his uniform to hide it.

“-e is on a very serious phone call with the president. Do not interrupt him until he says it is okay” Felix finished saying to the guards posted outside. Each hesitated for a second and then nodded in submission.

He turned towards Jisung, an unspoken conversation passing between the two. Then without a second thought Felix turned and walked down the hallway. Jisung nodded towards the guards and made his way to the stairs.

His mind was clouded with the new information that he bared. Jisung grit his teeth as he made his way downstairs, farther and farther. The document that Felix found now weighed heavily on his mind and for some stupid reason his thoughts went towards the naïve idiot he was about to save. He had to get to Changbin and Minho….he had to warn them. He just hoped he wasn’t too late.

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“This can’t seriously be your plan” Minho groaned, looking over Changbin’s shoulder to the hallway that was crawling with at least a dozen dogs dozing quietly. They had given up on the search for them, but were now hanging out, sleeping in various spots on the floor, which wouldn’t be bad if it wasn’t right in front of the only exit.

“Shut up” Changbin hissed quietly as not to alert to the beasts “you have a better idea?”

“No but you’re short. You have short legs. Why do you have to do this?” he hissed back.

“Because princess, as much as I would love to throw you as dog food I told Lixie before I left that I would protect you…begrudgingly. Knowing you, you’ll find a way to fuck this up.”

“If it is running Changbin let me do it.”

“Out of the question now get in position!”

Minho bit back a retort and silently cursed the stubborn guy in his head. He took a step back towards the room they had been hiding in with Yamako, the scientist in question fumbling with his coat in nervousness. Changbin turned to look at them both “Alright now listen, when I start running get ready. While the dogs are chasing me make a break for it and run towards the exit. I’ll roundabout back here and meet you there. Under no circumstances do you wait for me Got it?”

Both souls nodded their heads and Changbin almost sighed in relief. “Alright then get ready”

Minho started to close the door but before it totally closed he stopped and looked out at the younger boy. “Changbin.”

“Don’t die.” He heard a quiet scoff coming from the boy who didn’t take his eyes off the dogs.

‘Don’t intend to.”

And with that Minho closed the door, but left it open enough for him to peak out and see Changbin now standing out in the open. He brought his fingers to his lips and blew loudly, a high pitched whistle sounding in his ears.

“Hey! Hey!” he shouted, flailing his arms. “Come and eat me stupid mutts!”

Without hesitation Minho watched Changbin turned around and start booking it past the room. The Barking sounded loudly in their ears and Minho gulped. The entire room was shaking from the vibrations that the dogs were producing as they were running. Suddenly Minho was cursing himself for not fighting Changbin harder. There was no way he could outrun those things.

As if on cue, Minho saw the dogs bursting through his field of vision, scrambling after Changbin. Foam coated their mouths again and they looked rapid enough to frighten even the biggest of adults. Luckily – or unlucky enough they didn’t take notice of either of them hiding in the room, all their senses focused on Changbin. Once the last one was gone, acting purely on instinct he never knew he had, Minho pushed the door open running straight towards the exit in question with Yamako at his side. He didn’t care if the dogs saw him leaving or not, all his senses were focused purely on the exit, his eyes gaining tunnel vision.

The hallway seemed to get longer and longer as they got closer but eventually the two managed to make it. Yamako pushed his way through without hesitation, but Minho lingered, halfway through the door. He turned around and looked towards where area that he would soon see Changbin soon. He could still hear the barking but it was faded which meant they were halfway and that Changbin should be appearing soon.

But something was wrong.

He wasn’t appearing.

Minho grit his teeth, his anxiety setting in again. Come on idiot.

The dogs barking started to gain in volume and Minho gulped. Either they caught Changbin and all was lost or-

He didn’t even have time to finish his thought because the boy in question appeared in his field of vision and Minho’s heart lurched in relief.

That relief was short lived however as he took in Changbin’s limping appearance. He was panting heavily, pain clear across his face even at this distance. Minho looked down and his heart stopped.

He was injured.

He didn’t know how or when, one of the dogs must have caught up to him but blood was rather apparent down his leg, clothes torn from claw marks. He did well to stay ahead but Minho knew it, and if the look he gave him as he ran closer was to any indication so did Changbin.

He wasn’t going to make it.

Even know the dogs were inching closer and closer towards their target. Changbin himself was starting to run out of steam.

“You can’t even listen to the simplest of directions can you Princess?!” Changbin shouted over the sound of barking. “Go!”

Minho grit his teeth and wanted to scream. Sure the guy was an asshat, but he didn’t deserve to die like this. His hands fumbled in his pants pocket, trying to think of a way to get out of this. Suddenly it felt something small and Minho’s eyes shot open wide in realization. He pulled out the object and opened his hand to reveal a small black ball, similar to the one Hyunjin had used earlier.

He remembered how the younger had slipped this into his hands shortly before they had separated.

“Save this. You may need it” he had said. Minho gulped, knowing that if there was any time to use it, it would be now.

It was a long shot. But at least it was a shot.

Minho ran forward, closing the gap between himself, Changbin and the dogs. He took out his gun, still attached to his body and aimed upwards. He tried to remember Hyunjin’s instructions and took a deep breath before firing upwards. He hit his mark, the sprinkler system, and suddenly the hallway started to rain. Changbin saw this and his eyes shot opened wide. “What are you doing idiot?”

“I don’t know!” Minho shot back, taking stance. He had only thrown a handful of balls in his life, and he had never hit his mark with any of them. But he had to. Now that he had done this, if he failed it would mean death for both of them.

“Changbin!” he yelled “Run faster you idiot!”

“I swear to god” he growled “If we survive this I will kill you myself.”

Minho didn’t respond as he stood still. He waited. And waited. And waited. Trying to calm his breathing. The hallway was now thoroughly coated in water, he, Changbin and the dogs included.

Finally Changbin was close enough to grab and Minho lurched his hand forward, catching the younger his collar. The dogs were maybe 20 feet back.

Without hesitation Minho threw the black ball forward, towards the onslaught of dogs, and aimed his gun at it. His hand shook slightly as he tried to aim but then a vision of smiling Jeongwoo and Hyunjae flashed through his mind and the shaking ceased.

He fired. Hitting the ball dead on.

Suddenly the water soaked floor erupted in shocks of electricity and Minho felt Changbin shove him backwards as to avoid their own water soaked bodies from getting shocked. It seemed to work however because the dogs barking soon became howls of pain as the electricity coarse through their system. One by one they began to drop like flies, bodies unmoving. Soon all that was heard was the pounding of the water hitting the floor, and the hissing from the electricity currants that were starting to fade. Changbin and Minho looked up from where they had falling on the floor and saw his handiwork. He could hear Changbin panted besides him but he hardly noticed it. All his senses were focused on the light tingling feeling that was coursing through his body, the feeling of pure adrenaline. Never before had Minho been so scared. But he also felt excitement in that moment. Being so close to death but narrowly escaping in the end. His body felt so light and his hands shook as he realized in that moment that he loved the feeling of adrenaline rushing through his body. It was a different form then that when he runs. Different then when he had a gun pointed at his head. It was adrenaline he caused to himself as he fought back.

Changbin hissing in pain caused Minho to snap out of his thoughts to look at the younger boy.

He panted but looked back at Minho, his gaze hard. He looked down towards the black ball Minho had thrown. “Hyunjin give that to you?”

Minho nodded the adrenaline leaving his body. Changbin nodded once, an unreadable expression on his face. It sounded like he wanted to say something more, but changed his mind and focused back on his leg.

Slowly Minho stood up, his eyes not leaving the dogs corpses. He picked Changbin up by his waist, letting him use his body as support and looked down at the boy’s leg. Blood coated it thickly he knew after running on it that long that Changbin wasn’t going to be able to walk on it. They slowly limped out of the hallway towards the exit where they found Yamako waiting for them, his expression frantic as he saw Changbin’s leg.

The older male began to fret over the two of them, shouting and flailing his arms, but neither boy responded to his question. They both just continued in silence as they now found themselves walking forwards, not sure of where they were going. Finally Minho heard Changbin let out a long sigh and he pointed his gaze downwards and the smaller boy.

“Thank you.”

#kpop #stray kids au #stray kids #maze of miroh #lee know #minho #han #jisung #minsung #ot9 au #changbin #felix #changlix #hyunjin #seungmin #seungjin #hyunmin #woojin #chan #chanwoo #woochan

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spooky-skz · 6 years

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Fanboy!Hyunjin AU

HELLO GUYS! It’s 2 something in the morning where I live and I’m itching to post an au for hyunjin aside from the au’s I have in progress ( the nephilim!au and youtuber!au are coming soon i promise.) SO WHAT BETTER TO DO THAN AN IDOL AU

•so you’re a very popular member from a girl group called, A+. (ik, it’s lame, bare with me its 2 am)

•your music can be heard blaring out from many shops, restaurants, cafe’s, etc.

• and the group has received nothing but praise for the hard work you all put in during your trainee days to the present.

•NOW LETS GET TO FANBOY!HYUNJIN.

•skz are all stans of your group but each boy has a different bias.

• hyunjin is a very proud stan. he has you as his lock & home screen. it’s a photo your company first released of you when they were announcing the members of the group.

•he picked you to stan bc of your cool personality and amazing talents! you weren’t just a pretty face uwu

•collects every album/photo card of yours no matter how many versions your company releases.

• a cashier asked him once why he had ten copies of the same album and his reply was simple. each album has the possibility of having a signed photocard.

•he held his breath every time he opened an album, however he found a different member’s signed photocard.

•not gonna lie, he was kind of bummed but nevertheless still happy that he got the rare chance to own such a precious product.

•texted in the skz group chat who he got.

• then his phone started ringing and it was jeongin.

•he had to move the phone away from his ear bc the kid was screaming his dolphin scream from the other line.

•”YOU GOT HEYOON’S PHOTOCARD?!” the younger boy asked, panting from his battle cry.

• hyunjin responded with a yes.

•”I’LL TRADE YOU, I GOT (Y/N)!” jeongin shouted.

• cue both of them screaming at the same time after they agreed to trade

• this guy jams to A+’s songs while doing anything.

•going grocery shopping? he’s listening to it w/earbuds.

•eating dinner at a restaurant by himself? still listening.

•driving to pick up his dog from the groomers? the people outside his car can hear the song and see him TURNING UPPPPP to every bop y’all had ever released.

•he knows every line you have by heart. can recite it backwards too, true talent.

• first to open a fansite for you and it became a vERY big thing for your fandom????

•this guy, he’s like the ideal fansite everyone wishes to exist.

•he doesn’t white wash photos because he firmly believes that you are beautiful just as yourself, no lightening of skin necessary.

•he lets people edit his photos too but as long as they don’t crop out his infamous cute pencil and paper logo that has a red, “A+” written on it.

•he also runs an instagram that is dedicated to updates for your group.

•everyone is always like… “how tf does he get this info so fast? like your company just posted about the news of your comeback two minutes ago and he’s already got a whole post about it with his own personal concerns and hopes.”

•unbeknownst to the company, your group always keeps up with social media posts. you and the rest of your own members have secret accounts that you use to follow fans who like to give detailed inputs on your recent performances and interviews. all their cute edits and encouragement fill your heart full of love!

•you actually took notice of hyunjin’s account first because he was one of the most popular fan accounts in the fandom. EVERYONE could count on his posts bc he didn’t publish any info till he verified it as true.

•you appreciated how he wrote about the little extra movements you made in your dance choreos that really make the overall concept of your song pop. the tiny habits you hadn’t noticed about yourself were things he wrote about as well. he also wasn’t creepy in his writing too. you could really sense how much this boy adored your music.

•btw he posted one selfie after hitting a milestone of 2 million followers and you might of… choked on your drink for a bit bc wow! this guy is behind all them posts?!

•ooooof don’t get me started on the first fanmeet your company held.

•hyunjin’s palms were sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy (bahahaha sorry i had to put in a little eminem in there.) because he was literally going to come face to face with the individual who brightened up his life with her jokes, performing abilities, and more!

• the plane touched down and your group was led out into the airport lounge area where he and the numerous fans already waiting there, IT WAS INTENSE.

• security were doing their best to keep everyone calm but most of the fans were shoving and pulling to get a closer look at y’all.

•not hyunjin though. he was just nervously waiting for your group to make a turn in the corner of the large hallway with a small present in his hand.

• the second he saw you round the area where he stood, he didn’t try and take advantage of the fact that the security were only covering one side of the hallway from the crowd, leaving you completely exposed to simply walk in front of him with no one to hold him back if he invaded your personal space. which he totally didn’t :D

• see? The fansite every group deserves lol

•you paused when he called your name because… you’ve seen that face before!!!

•tbh he didn’t expect you to stop bc his words got caught in his throat when your eyes met his and instead his hand held out a small neatly gift wrapped box.

•you accepted the gift with a smile, a thank you, and a bow. your fingers brushed against his wrist for a moment and you both felt static surge through your hands.

•AHHHH THE CUTE FACIAL EXPRESSION YOU HAD ON WHILE YOU APOLOGIZED FOR ELECTROCUTING HIM WAS MAKING HIS FACE TURN REDDER AND REDDER BY THE MOMENT.

•”no worries! we’re both okay and that’s what matters.” he said looking very flustered.

•you were called to by heyoon bc the other members were already in the van just waiting for you.

•while the stylist was adding some finishing touches to your outfit, she asked, “do you have a specific jewelry piece in mind today?” you held up the gift hyunjin had given you and it was a beautiful necklace with a pendant that had the words, “side by side, or miles apart, your fans are always connected with you through the heart,” engraved onto it.

•this guy had the biggest smile on his face when he saw you wearing the gift he thought about for a while.

•”cute necklace!” he heard a member beside you say.

• “thanks, it’s my favorite.” you replied, and now it was his turn to kneel in front of you, his heart beating faster/harder than earlier.

OOF! would you guys like a part 2, ya girl is totally open. it’s like four minutes to four am here now, ahaha took me a while to make this. hope you enjoyed it! if you’re going to kcon la on saturday and sunday, let me know bc i’ll be there!!!!! time to sleeeeeeep. i might edit little errors here and there when i wake up later on lol. sweet dreams, my precious cabbages.

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yourhanandonly · 6 years

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get to know me tag

for this tag, i was tagged by Sammy (@scene-steala), love you lots💛💛

rules: tag 10 followers you want to know more

name: misia (your little bear cub)

birth year: 2002

sign: gemini

put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 4 songs:

Still - Daughter

I’m Through - Ingrid Michaelson

Moon - Sleeping At Last

What I Wouldn’t Give - We The Kings

grab nearest book, turn to page 23, what’s the 17th line?

“Gee, thanks. You sure know how to flatter a girl.”

ever had a song or poem written about you?

i guess? my best friend wrote a rap, dissing me when we were in grade 8. thinking back, it was really funny.

when was the last time you played air guitar?

i... don’t... know? probably the last time i listened to All Time Low.

celebrity crushes?

literally all of skz and astro lol

what is the sound you love/hate?

okay, so i’m a total weirdo and love the sound of thunder. something about it is just so cool and like , i don’t know how else to describe it. I also love keyboard clicks. once again, I am weird. but my brother owns a keyboard that lights up and everything, and when he’s playing games i’ll sometimes just go and chill in his room to listen. ah, but one thing i can’t stand is the high pitched sound that comes from scratching a surface. you know, like a blackboard or something. nuh uh. not happening.

do you believe in ghosts?

i can’t say that I believe in them for sure because I’ve never experienced “proof”, but I can acknowledge the fact that something may exist and it that it kinda creeps me out.

do you believe in aliens?

same thing as ghosts. don’t know because i haven’t really seen definitive proof.

do you drive? if yes, have you ever crashed?

i have my beginners, so i’ve driven a whopping three times. in that amazing amount of practice i have managed to run over a curb twice. i can say that my dad was not thrilled.

do you have any obsessions?

dance? i’ve done it for so long that it doesn’t really seem like an obsession as much as it is a hobby/future career. besides that it would be kpop.

are you in a relationship?

nope. i am single and proud. but it is a struggle because most of my friends are dating so guess who has the constant honour of third wheeling? this girl.

tagging anyone who wants to do this tag! tbh i’m scared of annoying the people i normally tag lol.

#shush misia #get to know me #tag #i'm annoying #byeeeee~~

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yonglixx · 3 years

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oh yeah there's a few groups i like!! of course my ults are skz but i'm also keeping up with ateez, itzy, twice, shinee, day6, and a.c.e :D as for casual listening, i listen to about a million groups but mostly bts, monsta x, txt, nct, red velvet, blackpink, sunmi, somi, chungha, and so on

if i'm correct it should be around 2am right now in your timezone (it's 10am here) so you'll wake up with this ask in your inbox hehe

so i've fully settled on what type of gifset i'll make for you by the time christmas comes around, i'm gonna have to step a little out of my comfort zone but i'm really looking forward to making it for you 🥰 i hope you're looking forward to receiving it as well hehe

and uh can we talk about the incredibly beautiful gifs you're making at such rapid speeds ??? bc i could never 😭 i always sit down with my laptop thinking 'ah, time to gif' and then i never gif </3 i'm especially in love with your felix x star countdown set he looked so good there 😔💘 (who am i kidding he always looks good)

oki i think i have some more q's cooked up in my little brain;

who are you closest to in height? (for me it's seungmin)

you also said you were a new stay in the first ask i sent so i was actually curious on when you started stanning? which, by the way, good choice 😌

and more in general, how long have you been into kpop? what was your first kpop song?

do you own any albums??? if yes, how many? (i'm curious bc i'm always spending too much money on albums and then i complain about being broke </3)

do you have irl friends who also like kpop? (i'm incredibly lucky bc my three closest friends are also kpop fans, one of them an atiny, the other an army, and the last a deobi and moa)

i hope you had a great weekend, sun ☀️💞

— your skzanta ✨🎁🎄☃️

You are absolutely the sweetest like I woke up to this message so your predictions were correct❤️❤️ I am so, so, sooo excited like you really don't have to do anything special but I am so looking forward to my gift and I know I will love it no matter:) the fact that you are doing this for me is enough❤️

Yes, besides skz and bts,I also love Ateez, TXT, and I occasionally listen to NCT 127, Blackpink, ENHYPEN, Shinee (I love Taemin), and some random K-pop recs on my Spotify haha bc I'm still kinda new so I want to know what is out there❤️

I saw the new group, they are pretty young and so good already but tbh, I don't think I will invest in anymore groups bc having three main groups is enough for me. I don't know how people do it like I can't multitask like that 😂

OMG!!! thank you so much for your kind words but you are so right, I make way too many gifs for someone who is going through finals :(( whenever I see anything new, esp with Felix, Im like hes so cute I have to gif that 😂😂 I may have some issues haha

So I like to call myself "fun-size" and I'm probably most closest to Changbin❤️

I started stanning SKZ around the time CHEESE(MV) was released so about 3-4 months now, but it feels like I've known them since forever❤️

My first Kpop song was "MOON" by Jin and ofc, my first group was also BTS❤️❤️❤️

sadly, I don't own any merch yet because im too overwhelmed by everything already and there are so many content of the groups I like that I need to go through first. Like, believe it or not, I'm still watching (and rewatching) Run BTS 😂

I'm also very lucky to have two amazing close friends (ONE OF THEM IS ALSO AN ATINY!!!!!) who love , and who also had a hand in getting me into K-pop but they don't have blogs dedicated to their favs haha nonetheless, it is very nice knowing that I can always vent to them and that we can always jam to K-pop when we're together. My sisters tolerate it and I think they are slowly starting to like it, they just don't wanna admit it yet😂😂

These were so fun and I know I already said it but I always love your questions, you are so lovely and I already love you❤️❤️ I hope you are having a wonderful day❤️❤️

#oh im so excited!!!!!#like it is giving me something to look forward to after these finals :))#thank you so much for making my morning ❤️❤️❤️#secret santa #asks #💜

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httpetras · 4 years

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2020 for me - K-pop songs edition

2020 was a... tough year. Personally, globally. But for kpop? It was one of the most successfull years and instead of talking all the achievements and breakthroughs, I wanted to share my thoughts on some songs and artists I liked this year

LONG POST (and bad english sksksks)

- no japanese releases

- title tracks mostly

- personal opinion

Favorite albums of 2020 (one album/artist)

Some thoughts:

TWICE

More & More, I Can’t Stop Me, Cry for me

A lot of people disliked the song and TWICE got many hate from various of fandom to the point where the girls were insecure just by standing on the stage and perform. I never understood the senseless fanwars anyway, but this time I truly didn’t understand why everyone was hating on this song? It was definitely among the best summer releases, the album was perfect for the season and TWICE showed a new side of their artistry. There were many releases this year which followed the generic trend, but More&More managed to stand out and show something new among summer songs.

Their next comeback was just p.e.r.f.e.c.t. Okay, first and foremost, I’m a sucket for retro concepts so 2020 was a bless for me from this perspective sksksk. Besides my bias I’m literally in love with this song.

Also with the whole album, I can’t stop myself from listening it. TWICE as always tried something new, showed a different side of them, was not afraid to discover new sounds and concepts. One of the reasons that I’m still with them after 4 years is the fact that TWICE grew up and matured along with their music. This album was their fifth year destination. I just can’t express how much I love not just the concept, but all the songs are so unique in their own way that you can never get tired of listening them.

TWICE being one of the most unique girl groups out there (along with Red Velvet, hope they comeback soon), and I’m just so happy for them and so proud I could be with them for four years seeing them growing as artists.

A.C.E - Favorite boys

Hands down, this was definitely one of my favorire comebacks of 2020. The way I thought they could never do a song like “undercover” again....I was so naive. From the first second till the last you can’t look away from the aesthetically pleasing MV where traditional mixes with modern, gender is a non-existent, meanwhile the song so effortlessly goes from a very strong rap to high notes wigh catchy beats and chorus.

Also the dance and the outfits, don’t forget to mention the teaser photos... it was one of the strongest comeback of the year.

However, I feel like their releases were among the most underrated songs of 2020. I just can’t help but think what if they were a bigger company especially that nowadays when stan twt is all about numbers, groups from smaller company get less and less attention. All I can hope that A.C.E getting the hype they deserve will be one of the positive changes 2021 will bring.

(A million thank you for TATE for introducing me to them!)

ITZY

Wannabe, Not shy

There are some songs from ITZY I really like but their title tracks were really not my style (they are not bad in any way, but felt too much for my taste). But this year!

Wannabe and Not Shy was just *chef’s kiss*.

I felt the same with them as with skz - in their first year they were looking for their sound, trying to find the best sytle for them. In this second year, they seemed to be more confident in themselves and their concept as a group. (And also, finally these songs fit into Lia’s range!). Every member could shine in these eras, show off their singing (and dancing) skills. All together these two songs (and albums) were something I could enjoy very much.

AKMU - Happening

The nation’s siblings came back and created another masterpiece! If I wasn’t in love with the song itself, the MV would have made it fall for it. Something comforting, something melodic, a song you didn’t know you need until you hear it... Recommend it 1010292725282920/10

STRAY KIDS

Too much releases sksksk all of them are amazing obvi

I can’t choose one song from them, they released something new in every month and I’d have so much to talk about sksksks so a short-summary:

2020 was their year. Eventhough I felt like stray kids could not surprise me anymore, I would have never been able to prepare mysef for this year when they came back with full power. Starting with SKZ2020, followed by anime openings and on track, then the iconic God’s menu and Back door - they evolved and said FU to the industry who still rejects them. And I don’t know how to explain, but they seemed much more confident in themselves and in the music they put out, and that was definitely something which helped them to make 2020 theirs. All the concepts, all the song genres while staying unique and not following trends? Every. Comeback. They. Had. This. Year. Just blown my mind. I literally just... I’d show you the songs they released this year and I’m 100% sure even a non-stay would agree with me saying that they deserve so-so-so much more for their songs alone

ONEWE - End of spring

As lovesick girls gave me 2010’s summer song vibe End of Spring gave me the same vibe, something bands such as imagine dragons would release back in around 2015. I LOVE IT. It has such a nice fun energy, whenever it comes up on my playlist, it’s an instant adrenalin boost. It does remind me of summer camps and just having fun with people there

DAY6

I wrote about them in my 30-day Day6 challenge back in september-october

Lee Hi - HOLO

Lee Hi is one of those idols I feel for the most as she’s been through more than enough hardships in her life. She seriously deserves the best from this cruel world.

This year a company change happened and she released a comforting, yet, heartbreaking song about depression and self-worth most likely reflecting on her own struggles. Tissues recommended because this is a song everyone can relate to in some ways and also be prepared for the MV.

SUNMI - pporappippam

The queen of retro is back with another masterpiece because she’s Sunmi, she can’t make bad songs! I love the vibe of the song, the aesthetic MV with purple as the dominant color... it truly felt like a song from 80’s with an unique sound none can master but Sunmi. Kpop would be not kpop without her!

Also, on a totally unrelated note: even though I’m not a fan of her, just a casual listener, I want to state how fcking proud I am of her. I can’t even imagine how difficult it was for Sunmi to be this open about her borderline-disorder especially as an idol. I truly hope she’s healthy and doing alright, wishing her the best for the future

Chungha - Play

As much as I loved every releases from her in this year, Play was the song which was on repeat. Like, this song is full of energy, has such a fun vibe which makes you want to dance along with it! Also, also, the MV was super colorful, her stylist did a great job and the tango was well incorporated into the choreo, it was creative and entertaining to watch her performances of this song.

And let me add how happy I am for Chungha, this year she released songs always trying out something new and participated in many different projects. I also loved her collaborations! They were super underrated even within the fandom.

Gfriend - Mago

Retro. Disco. 80’s. Love the MV. Love the song! Such a different concept from what we are used to see from them, but again, this year Gfriend was not afraid to deviate from their usual sound and try out new things.

As much as I’m in love with this song (and Apple as well!), just as much I appreciate the visible artistic growth they have shown in this year. Wish them many luck for their future!

BTS

Okay, let me tell you quickly a little story. Before the first lockdown happened, in the beginning of the year in school we had this agreement in french class. If we don’t want to take a french exam, we can sit in the back and studying or doing something silently. This was around the time when Mots7 was released and so, during every french class I listened to this album on repeat while studying chemistry. Then quarantine came, classmates got sick, drama happened, took exams, a lonely summer, then university... the world was burning. For me, this album was the “last” normal thing before pandemic hit europe; whenever I listened to it, it takes me back to me our french classes, my friend sitting next to me doing her make up, me reading my chemistry book, windows are open, you can hear a class having PE class, the teacher explains something for those few students sitting in the first row... seems peaceful? Maybe too nostalgic. But Mots7 became that album for me which was there for us before the world fell, which reminded me of the “normal” life throughout this year, and helped me a lot. And I’ll be forever thankful for that. Dynmite: Retro, english, fun, we need it. Hungarians hated it so much? But hungarian kpop fans are edgy they hate everything popular because they “appreciate talent” *eye roll* Life goes on: This song for me is the new spring day in a way - calming, nostalgic, comforting, something we really needed after this hectic year. A perfect song to end 2020. “Life goes on“ = “This too, shall pass”

Taemin

HAVE YOU SEEN A MAN SO PERFECT?

Okay, but seriously. Taemin owned this year! 3 comebacks with SuperM and 3 comebacks as a solo act, multiply MVs and performances, not letting anyone forget about him nor SHINEE. Whenever I thought that okay, this is his peak, he can’t do better than this - Taemin came back and proved me wrong again. Never Dance Again act 1 and 2 were among the best releases this year

Somi - What you waiting for

As much as I didn’t like birthday, I found myself enjoying this song a lot! Nothing astonishingly new or different, but has a catchy beat and chorus, suits to Somi’s range and she even looked more confident while performing on music shows (naturally, she got more used to being a soloist after a year or so, but still. It was good to see her owning that stage and being happy there). Similar to BP, it also has a western pop feeling especially with the full-english chorus, but somehow worked better for me personally here!

Oneus

Such an underrated group which I got to know through one of my moots on twitter, otherwise I would have never heard of them. And what a mistake it’d be!

Alone the concepts stole my heart, I adored the whole prince, vampires, kinght theme going on in a fantasy world vibes of the MVs. Besides that, I love how they sound together as a group, it’s so pleasing to hear how all those different voices comes after each other and somehow makes it work, resulting in an amazing song.

TXT

This year, when the debut hype is long gone, TXT proved that they are much more than just a boy group next to BTS. Their success is thanks to their hardwork and magical, unique style which made millions of people fall in love with them. (Big3 privilige is still a thing tho, but their hardwork should not be underestimated. Because of their privileged situation, they were offered oppurtunities, had a financial background other artists don’t - but it doesn’t make them less than others. Just shows the faults in the unfair music system).

Despite my worries that after Run Away it’d be hard for them coming back with another song, they managed to release a no-skip mini album with an awesome music video “Can’t you see me”. One moment they are laughing, and in the next one they’re killing eachother while singing about growing up and losing touch with friends once they were inseparable with.

Their journey of growing up with its pros and cons are portrayed through their songs, using mystical themes such as a fatal game and a long forgotten magical promise. They enforced this concept furthermore in this year by their next songs, Drama, Blue Hour and We lost the summer which about the impact of the pandemic on teenagers (side note: such a creative MV! They’re truly part ofour generation sksksk).

And I haven’t even mentioned the anime openings and OST they made this year, capturing such a familiar feeling of the magic of our daily lives and fights.

They make music for us, for our generation, about issues and feelings we all face with every day in our daily life. And gosh, we needed TXT in 2020 so bad, I’m grateful for them

Red Velvet - Psycho

(Okay, so psycho is technically was released in 2019, but like only few days before new year’s eve so... I count it as a 2020 release)

RV had only one comeback this year as a whole group, they still made it iconic and served a song which quickly becamone of of THAT songs of 2020. I may say this too many times, but I’m in love with groups with unique concepts and sounds whoch can only be done by them. It’s especially true for RV: they always serve and never miss.

And I could go into details how perfect this song is and that I could spent a whole day just watching the MV, but I think everyone knows what I think exactly. It’s a masterpiece.

(Side note: though it’s not quite my style, I surprisingly like Irene and Seulgi’s song “Monster” too! One of the most iconic songs of this year)

Ateez

Answer, Inception

This was THAT year for 4th groups!

As I mentioned at Itzy and briefly touched on it at skz, i do feel like groups which debuted 1-2 years ago found their own sound, own style, own concept now and more confident and better in the music they put out. Don’t get me wrong, these groups were never bad - but now the improvement comparing to their debut days are so visible. You could feel ATEEZ are going hard, wild yet keeping it elegant and never losing their own style. I’m literally unable to tell you how much I loved their songs in this year and I’m more than excited to see what 2021 will bring for them and for us!

LUCY

Flowering, Jogging, Snooze

Definitely one of the best debuts of 2020. After all, you can’t see many korean bands with a violinist (if I’m correct, there’s only LUCY out there). I am absolutely in love with their uniqe style. It’s so different yet, it’s so needed, especially in this crazy times.

They sound like spring. Hopeful with the re-born nature around them. They sound like summer, july. Full of fantasy, and childish dreams of adventures in the backyard. They sound like early autumn. Something changed, something passed, a little grief in the begging of “please stay a child for a bit longer”.

3YE - yessir

Girl crush conceot is running high, kpop is full of powerful anthems for girls (and I love that!), but completely different what we were used to hear from 2nd generation groups. Music evolved throughout the time so there’s nothing surprising in this. Yet, 3YE was able to release a song which gives me off second generation vibes, it was impossible for me to not fall in love with it. It’s powerful, and catchy... deserved more attention from the gp.

Songs I liked and recommend but lazy to write more mini-essays:

Seventeen - Homerun, Left & right

Iz*one - The secret story of a swan, Panorama

Berrygood - Accio

Wjsn - Butterfly

G-Idle - Oh my god

Pentagon - Daisy

Loona - Star, So what

Blackpink - Lovesick girls

IU - Eight

KARD - Gunshot

Hoppipolla - Let’s

Hwasa - Maria

Weekly - Tag me

StayC - So bad

CLC - Helicopter

Everglow - La di da

Astro - knock

Dreamcatcher - boca

April - lalalilala

Apink - dumhdrum

BAE173 - crush on u

E’LAST - Tears of chaos

Oh my girl - secret garden

fromis9 - feel good

p1harmony - butterfly

HA:TFELT - Life Sucks

Sunmi x JYP - When we disco

Yukika - Soul Lady

Eric Nam - Paradise

Stella Jang - Villain

Zico - Any song

DPR LIVE - Jam & Butterfly (ft. Crush, eaJ)

Got7 - Last piece, Not by the moon

Weekly - tag me

Lacuna - Dancing in the rain

Cignature - Arisong

Jessi - Nununana

Blackswan - Tonight

N.flying - Oh really

Brave Girls - We ride

DreamNote - Wish

Natty - 19

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