#maze of miroh

[danbisroom]

Ep. 18 - Shatter my long-frozen heart to carve the proof of my life

Hello my beloved fellow souls,

welcome back to Danbi’s Room, your weekly dose of safe space. Go grab a cup of something warm and get yourself cosy.

I hope you had a nice week where you had the opportunity to slow down, or maybe you received some kind of good news.

I was reflecting on words that start with the letter C. Creativity and creation. Counter-intuitive. Courage. Clay. Colour. Can, as in the verb meaning “to be able to”. Carving. Cycle.

I’ve just been through a death cycle. Actually, I’m still coming out of it. But that’s slow, as it should. Planted seeds need their time to sprout. Nebulas explode during a climax, birthing millions of new lives, but it takes time for new stars to actually form. It takes time for the snake to shed its skin and it itakes time for the caterpillar to shift into its butterfly form. Creation, gestation, birth, growth, death. The constant circular flow, always the same and always different. Death is an act of creation: in fact, there’s a magical moment where the two overlap, intertwining as lovers, holding each other tight.

Now I’m kind of hermiting inside my shell, feeling the first rays of filtered sunshine, until, in a bit, I’ll be able to crack it and fly high and to the Gods again. It’s just how things are, we need to give ourselves grace to love them, too. I know I always end up talking about love, but in all honesty, one way or another, it’s really just about that. And I always, constantly, feel it. Always. Even when I’m out of myself in the pits of desperation, I feel love. I feel love holding my soul and my body. If I think about it, it’s such a nice thing. It’s soft and fierce at the same time. I think there’s nothing like it, it is the ultimate synthesis of everything. So choose love. Choose to direct your energy towards things that serve you and your contentedness. Contradiction might hide truth and treasures. What’s evil can reveal a kind side. Even apparent stillness continuously swings, all the time. Just see for yourself: stand up, close your eyes and observe the little dance your body wisely choreographs. We find warmth in a cup of hot and fuming cocoa, but fresh blood is warm, too. We admire waterfalls, jewels of the forest, then why do we frown upon pearls falling from our eyes? Suppressing flows is always bad. There’s a difference between pause and stagnation. Connect your bare feet to soil, and feel all the earth within you. Whisper to a tree, and hear your ancestral mothers giving you answers. What were you before your current form? Maybe a holy bull guiding a people to their land. Maybe a daisy adorning a bride’s hair. Maybe both. If you look carefully and patiently inside yourself you might be able to see that. Whatever you find, love it. Don’t let go, take a little walk in the world inside, call your own names, rest on the knowledge this will never ever end, for eternity. Walk in, untie your hair, lose your breath, empty your lungs to gain new air every time. Breathing itself is the junction of life and death. Everything’s odd, but all the odds are in your favour, so be extraordinary. There’s no easy part, but don’t let the noise blind your senses, go live and breath in life. Count five stars making a yellow wood and let the levanter wind guide you through the maze, hearing the gentle tinkling of those same rocks we call stars. It grows and grows until you finally understand the sound is from within you. You? This massive accident generating a cascade that tells a neverending story? You? Me? I am not, you might say. I am who, to hold all of the universe in my hands? It’s because you are me, and I am you. If you lead the pack, then let me be the shield of your neck.

Today’s song recommendation is Ichizu (One Way), by King Gnu. As trippy as this episode, but also as deep and questioning.

I hope you enjoyed this episode and that you have a beautiful week ahead of you!

I’ll see you in the next one, big hug!

With love, yours,

Danbi

[sugurugetos]

Run through the maze like a beast, I'm avoiding all the familiar paths. MIROH — STRAY KIDS (2019)

[nomacam]

The Stray Kids Megaverse: A Journey Through Parallel Realities

In the vast expanse of the multiverse, where infinite possibilities unfold across countless dimensions, there exists a phenomenon that transcends time and space. This is the Stray Kids Megaverse, a complex and interconnected web of parallel realities that has captured the imagination of fans around the world.

At the heart of the Megaverse lies Bang Chan's Room, a mysterious chamber that serves as a gateway between dimensions. Bang Chan, the leader of Stray Kids, possesses a unique ability to navigate this vast and ever-expanding universe, guiding his fellow members through the myriad of worlds that lay before them.

As they journey through the Megaverse, Stray Kids encounter a multitude of alternate selves, each living a life shaped by different choices and circumstances. These alternate selves serve as a reflection of the group's own journey, highlighting the themes of fate, free will, and the power of choice.

The connections between the members are a central theme in the Megaverse, with each alternate reality revealing new facets of their relationships. Bang Chan and Changbin, for example, are often depicted as close friends and allies in one universe, while in another, they may be bitter rivals or even enemies.

Similarly, the bond between Hyunjin and Felix is explored in various ways across different realities. In some universes, they are depicted as inseparable friends, while in others, they may be estranged or at odds with each other.

The "I am" series represents the group's initial exploration of these alternate realities, with each album offering a glimpse into the diverse and captivating worlds they encounter. In "I am NOT," they confront their innermost fears and insecurities, symbolized by the dark and dystopian landscapes they traverse. "I am WHO" sees them questioning their identities and roles in the universe, while "I am YOU" explores the interconnectedness of their lives and the impact of their choices.

The "Clé" series then builds upon this foundation, introducing new dimensions and challenges for the members to overcome. "Clé 1: MIROH" plunges them into a world of chaos and uncertainty, where they must navigate through a maze of trials and tribulations. "Clé 2: Yellow Wood" sees them facing the consequences of their actions, as they strive to find redemption and a sense of purpose.

Mirrors, doors, and clocks are recurring motifs in Stray Kids' music videos, symbolizing the interconnected nature of the Megaverse. Mirrors represent self-reflection and the discovery of alternate selves, while doors and clocks signify the passage between dimensions and the fluidity of time.

One of the most intriguing theories involves a "lost" universe, where a version of Stray Kids exists that never debuted. This universe serves as a cautionary tale, reminding us of the importance of seizing opportunities and embracing change.

Overall, the Stray Kids Megaverse is a testament to the group's creativity and the boundless imagination of their fans. It is a journey through parallel realities, a quest for identity and purpose that transcends the boundaries of our own universe.

[skzkiyoon]

💤 MASTERLIST!…

💤 ABOUT!…

profile - background - relationships with stray kids - some relationships with other idols - relationships with family - a-z quotes - dynamics - skz family profile

💤 SCENARIOS!…

coming soon!

💤 VIDEO IMAGINES!…

skz talker ep. 48

💤 SOCIAL MEDIA!…

texts - instagram - tiktok - twitter - bubble

💤 ERAS!…

SKZ2020 - GO LIVE - IN LIFE - NO EASY - CHRISTMAS EVEL - SKZ2021 - ODDINARY - MAXIDENT - SKZ-REPLAY/ SKZ-RECORD - 5STAR - ROCKSTAR

SKZ2020:

BEWARE - SPREAD MY WINGS - DISTRICT 9 - MY PACE - QUESTION - GET COOL - I AM YOU - MIROH - VICTORY SONG - BOXER - CHRONOSAURUS - SIDE EFFECTS - DOUBLE KNOT

GO LIVE:

GOD’S MENU - EASY - TA - TOP - HAVEN - PACEMAKER - AIRPLANE - BLUEPRINT

IN LIFE:

THE TORTOISE AND THE HARE - BACK DOOR - ANY

NO EASY:

CHEESE - THUNDEROUS - DOMINO - SSICK - THE VIEW - SILENT CRY - WOLFGANG

CHRISTMAS EVEL:

CHRISTMAS EVEL - WINTER FALLS - DOMINO (ENGLISH VER.)

SKZ2021:

ROCK - N/S - MAZE OF MEMORIES

ODDINARY:

VENOM - MANIAC - CHARMER - FREEZE

MAXIDENT:

CASE 143 - SUPERBOARD

SKZ REPLAY/ SKZ RECORD:

FAM (KOREAN VER.) - TRUE (KIE) [replay] - LIFELINE (KIE) [record]

5STAR:

HALL OF FAME - S-CLASS - ITEM - SUPERBOWL - TOPLINE - FNF - DLC - YOUTIFUL

ROCKSTAR:

MEGAVERSE - LALALALA - COMFLEX

HELLO STRANGER - ALL IN - CIRCUS - SOCIAL PATH - BUTTERFLIES - WHY? - LOSE MY BREATH

💤 OTHERS!…

SKZ VLOG: KIE’S DAY

LOG 1 - LOG 2 - LOG 3

RACHA LOG

LOG 1: changbin x kie x lee know

2 KIDS ROOM

bang chan x kie - lee know x kie - changbin x kie - hyunjin x kie - han x kie - felix x kie - seungmin x kie - i.n x kie

INTERVIEWS

buzzfeed: reading thirst tweets!

[the-bangtext-is-rich]

Set Me Free Pt.2: on Mazes, Lies and Setting Yourself Free

Written by J.

Jimin’s Set Me Free Pt.2 is a powerhouse of a masterpiece. It is well anchored in BTS’ discography all while going beyond it and being fresh, unexpected and unique to Jimin and his journey. A perfect official solo debut for Jimin. ❤️

Read on if you’d like to explore these topics with me:

Set Me Free Pt.2 being anchored in BTS’s discography

Jimin’s journey from Lie to Set Me Free Pt.2

Anchored in BTS’s Discography

Set Me Free Pt.2 is anchored in BTS’ discography firstly because of the title itself: a nod to, as well as a continuation of sorts of Agust D’s Set Me Free. In Jimin’s words:

There isn’t a connection, and we weren’t trying to divide part one or part two. But since it turns out my song talks about freedom and moving forward, and SUGA’s song talks about some of the stories that come before, I thought it would be good to come after that.

Just like BTS’ Airplane Pt.2 is linked to J-Hope’s solo track Airplane, Jimin’s Set Me Free Pt.2 is linked to Agust D’s Set Me Free.

Next up comes the maze. Set Me Free Pt.2 uses the metaphor of the maze twice:

In the first verse:

I wandered into a maze

And in the second verse:

Still in a maze.

The metaphor of the maze is scattered across BTS’s discography:

RM in Louder than Bombs:

Every day a maze Wonder if this is my place

Suga in Answer: Love Myself:

Our lives are long, trust yourself when in a maze When winter passes, spring always comes

Without forgetting the song Love Maze itself! Jimin’s maze lyrics in this song:

Trapped in a maze of decisions Exhausted by all the different chaos We’ve wandered around, looking for the answer Lost in the maze, in the darkness

We love a motif that keeps popping up throughout various songs. It creates strength to the overarching storytelling of an artist and instantly brings meaning without having to go into detail each time. (See this post which talks a lot more eloquently about BTS motifs across their albums!) I love that Jimin ties his solo song into the BTS maze motif by bringing the maze in his own way. Not only does it create links between this solo song and BTS songs, but it also means army immediately knows the maze means difficulty. Indeed, the metaphor of the maze signifies darkness, being lost, going through hardships, etc. It can be nuanced in different ways depending on the context. (This powerful metaphor has not been lost on other k-pop artists. See for example Stray Kids’ Miroh (miroh, 미로, meaning “maze” in Korean) and Maze of Memories, TXT’s Maze in the Mirror, and (G)-IDLE’S Maze.) The maze in Set Me Free Pt.2 signifies hardships too. Jimin said the song wanted to express the ideas of “determination, passion, and overcoming”, and the maze represents the hardships that required determination and passion to overcome.

BTS explored darkness, hardships and overcoming them extensively throughout their discography, most recently and impressively through ON. This song has similar vibes to Set Me Free Pt.2, confirmed by Park Jimin himself: “I think you can feel the same vibe watching the “ON” performance as you will watching this performance. You’ll feel that feeling once again.” There is also clearly a shoutout to ON’s “Gotta go insane to stay sane” lyrics in Set Me Free Pt.2′s “Going insane to stay sane” lyrics. Parallels between ON/other BTS songs talking about overcoming hardships and Set Me Free Pt.2 are clear.

(Sidenote: see RM’s El País interview in which he talks about why overstraining/“working fucking hard” is such an important theme within k-pop/Korean culture.)

Darkness was also very much explored in Suga’s Interlude: Shadow. I can’t help but think that the voice distortions in Set Me Free Pt.2′s second verse may be a reference to Shadow’s third verse, which contain similar voice distortions.

The voice distortions in Set Me Free Pt. 2 come when Jimin is talking about hardships:

I got feel low Still in a maze But I got no time to break soul Just let me flow Hey fool, just get out of my way Shut up, fuck off I'm on my way

These are the darkest lyrics of the song imo. They show the darkness, dare I say the shadow, that Jimin has lived with and through. When Jimin addresses the “fool,” he could be speaking to his shadow, to his own self-doubts. The voice distortion accentuates the fact that he is talking about darkness, a dark side of himself.

Suga’s biggest voice distortions in Interlude: Shadow appear over these lyrics:

Yeah I'm you, you are me, now do you know Yeah you are me, I'm you, now you do know We are one body, sometimes we will clash You can never break me off, this you must know Yeah yeah can't break me off, whatever you do Yeah you'll be at ease if you admit it too Yeah succeed or fail, whichever way you flow Yeah you can't escape, wherever you go

This is also the darkest part of the song. Rather than talking to his shadow like Jimin, Suga is speaking from his shadow’s perspective. He is talking about how it’s impossible to escape his shadow always being part of him. Suga’s shadow is greed and ambition, whereas Jimin’s may be more akin to self-doubt, a self-doubt that has made him pretend to be someone else. This would explain why it would seem that while Suga is trying to accept living with his shadow alongside him, Jimin is working on setting himself free from his shadow.

I might be making parallels where no parallels need to be made. Playing with voices is common in the music industry in general, and very much in k-pop too. At the same time, both Set Me Free Pt.2 and Interlude: Shadow have both Pdogg and Ghstloop as songwriters and Ghstloop as a producer. And I think it’s interesting to think of discussions with one’s demons as being highlighted by voice distortions.

Lie, Set Me Free Pt.2 and Jimin

I cannot help but interpret Set Me Free Pt.2 as being linked to Lie. Musically, they both have a grand orchestral feel. Meaning-wise, they seem very linked as well.

Lie is all about the suffering that comes with having to live a lie. Here are the lyrics of the chorus, as a quick refresher:

Caught in a lie Find the me that was pure I can’t be free from this lie Give me back my smile Caught in a lie Pull me from this hell I can’t be free from this pain Save me, I am being punished

The lie in question is not specified and is left up to interpretation, which is amazing. Lots of people can find themselves in the lyrics in various ways.

At the same time, thinking about Jimin, the first thing that comes to my mind is this quote of his from this video when he talks about/to his younger self:

I think I wanted to appear like a strong man. Now... I don’t have to pretend. I can just be myself. Talk about myself without pretending anything. I realised that I was such an aspiring person and I realised how I’ve become better. I don’t look like I’m about to weep anymore. I don’t. That’s the difference as per my appearance goes. You were trying very hard. I was impressed and moved by you. I could feel how hard you were trying. I mean... Your eyes looked eager to show something. I felt somewhat sorry for you too. I was shocked a bit. Hurry up and be me soon. You will learn and realise so many things. Fighting.

The lie may indeed have been about him not being himself, him trying, pretending to be someone else, a “strong man”. This is something he has overcome, and Jimin affirms that he now feels free to be himself without having to pretend. With this in mind, let’s have a look at some of Set Me Free Pt.2′s lyrics:

Ah, yeah, ah, yeah I'm standing at the edge Not yet, not yet I won't look back Now yeah, now yeah Fly away, butterfly-y-y Finally free-e-e Look at me now (Me now) I won't hide anymore, even if it hurts Going insane to stay sane Raise your hands for the past me Now, set me free-e-e

Tears in my eyes at “Finally free”, “I won’t hide anymore” and “Raise your hands for the past me” (especially as in the MV Jimin is actually raising his hand while he sings this).

To me, one interpretation of the song is definitely about setting yourself free from the expectations you have bound yourself to (bearing in mind that these expectations are very often hammered into you by society). Setting yourself free from pretending to be someone else, from hiding yourself, from being blocked in your own prison, your own lie. Jimin has very much done this, as he clearly feels a lot more comfortable with allowing himself to be who he wants to be compared to the first years after debut. (I highly recommend reading these two excellent posts that go into great detail about this about how Jimin is the personification of the whole Love Yourself concept: “Jimin and his Journey with Gender Presentation” and “Jimin and his Journey with Food and Body Image”.)

The journey from Lie to Set Me Free Pt.2 is striking. In Lie, Jimin cannot seem to be able to escape the lie. He is crying for outside help, unable to save himself. “Pull me from this hell,” “Save me, I am being punished.”

In Set Me Free Pt.2, he has agency, and he has overcome his hardships himself.

Finally free Look at me now I won’t stop, even if they mock me.

Jimin has said that that’s what the song is all about:

“Set me free” means setting myself free, so I thought it was important that I be the one to set myself free — not someone else. In the end, I’m the one who has to set myself free.

The MV visually shows that he has set himself free as he ends up in an all-white outfit after having been in a black (and somewhat naked) outfit up until the end of the video.

Visually representing a light in the darkness, as he said is this song’s energy:

I would say the song has the energy of a light in the darkness. I wanted to express that kind of picture everyone has in their head — a ray of light coming into the darkness is the only thing you can see. If I had to say specific colors, I’d say black and white.

It’s one hell of a powerful message. That we can set ourselves free on our own, no matter the darkness of the maze, of our shadow. That in fact, we are the only ones who can set ourselves free. I don’t have the words to express how inspiring it is, how much of a privilege it is, to watch Jimin express this in such a musically and visually striking way as Set Me Free Pt.2.

In conclusion, Jimin places the song firmly in BTS’s discography by using the motif of the maze, talking about similar themes (overcoming hardships) and referencing ON and Interlude: Shadow (maybe). At the same time, the song is uniquely his at it is very personal to his own journey of setting himself free from hiding and pretending to be someone else.

Thank you, Park Jimin.

[kangaracha]

NEVERMORE: THE WATCHLIST

everything you should watch while reading each chapter

hihihi. i recommend watching these after each chapter so that you can find all my lil easter eggs etc but do as you like. possibly minor spoilers for things like the interludes if you haven't immediately clocked where they're coming from. spoilers for upcoming chapter names & concepts for the rest of the miroh arc.

if you see the name of a song and nothing else; that indicates the music video. if you see 'listen to', disregard the music video in that instance if there is one. misc videos are listed as they are named on YouTube.

CHAPTERS 1-35

Stray Kids: Prequel (Highlight Reel)

CHAPTER 1: CRUEL AND FEARFUL DAYS title: hellevator

Hellevator

listen to: Grr (Law Of Total Madness)

ARC 1 - INJEON

CHAPTER 2 + 3: NO PLACE FOR YOU HERE title: district 9

I Am Not Trailer

District 9

listen to: NOT!, Awaken

CHAPTER 4: INTERLUDE: MAYDAY, MAYDAY title: heyday

listen to: Heyday

CHAPTER 5 + 6: THERE'S SO MANY VOICES title: voices

District 9

Voices Performance Video

listen to: Mirror

CHAPTER 7 + 8 + 9 + 10: THIS WON'T CHANGE MY HEART title: scars

Scars

I Am You

Chapter 10: listen to: Entrance

CHAPTER 11: TELL ME YOU HATE ME (A MEMOIR) title: red lights

Red Lights

Miroh (Kingdom Stage Vers.)

ARC 2: MIROH

Miroh Instrumental With Congo Chant

CHAPTER 12: OUR SONG BURNS RED title: maze of memories

listen to: Maze Of Memories

listen to: Mixtape #4

Stray Kids "20190325"

CHAPTER 13: A WORLD FULL OF BLINDS title: maze of memories

Miroh

UNVEIL: TRACK "승전가(Victory Song)"

listen to: Maze Of Memories

CHAPTER 14: RUN THROUGH THE MIROH title: miroh

listen to: Maze Of Memories

listen to: Miroh

CHAPTER 15: TELL THE CITADEL; DREAM title: maze of memories

listen to: Maze Of Memories

listen to: Miroh

CHAPTER 16: A MOMENTARY SILENCE title: maze of memories

listen to: Maze Of Memories

Miroh

listen to: Boxer

CHAPTER 17: RING, THE VICTORY SONG title: victory song

Victory Song (Performance Video)

Miroh

listen to: Boxer

CHAPTER 18: TICK TOCK, TICK TOCK title: chronosaurus

listen to: Chronosaurus

CHAPTER 19: COUNTDOWN, COUNTDOWN title: chronosaurus

Chronosaurus

Miroh

TMT

listen to: Maze Of Memories

listen to: Road Not Taken

CHAPTER 20: THE ROAD NOT TAKEN title: road not taken

Cle 2: Yellow Wood Trailer

Chronosaurus

TMT

listen to: Road Not Taken

ARC 3: YELLOW WOOD

CHAPTER 21: NERVOUSNESS title: side effects

[w3bgrl]

billie’s complete discography

predebut releases on soundcloud (@/wndus999)

hug me tight — 9/4/14 (heo hoy kyung)

ghost — 11/06/14 (lim ha ram)

sunflower — 4/2/15 (soojin)

honey tea — 7/10/15 (oohyo)

해야 돼 (have to) — 11/23/15 (teddy bear rises by oohyo)

lovememore. — 12/20/15 (dosii)

island without the ocean — 3/1/16 (shin yun su)

binu — 5/15/16 (bibi)

love me or hate me — 8/12/16 (song soo woo)

uptown girl — 12/29/16 (mirani)

kazino — 1/20/17 (bibi)

my bad — 3/10/17 (jerd)

trap — 7/7/17 (sumin)

flowering — 1/26/18 (soojin)

cantsay — 3/03/18 (bryn)

skz-replay (incl. record & player)

player: sunset — 5/16/19 (soojin)

player: tyty — 8/9/19 (soojin)

player: i got that — 5/12/20 (wow by mirani)

record: young lady — 6/11/20 (agassy by soojin)

record: cantsay re-release — 3/03/21 (bryn)

record: piece of a puzzle — 03/25/21 (changbin & seungmin)

player: up all night — 6/18/21 (chan, changbin, felix, seungmin)

player: bloodredroses — 7/16/21 (soojin)

record: the weekend — 2/3/22 (bibi)

player: restless — 5/16/22 (bibi)

record: what do you think — 10/31/22 (sumin)

sole producing, songwriting, and/or choreography credits

3rd eye - i am NOT (lyrics, prod.)

insomnia - i am WHO? (lyrics, prod.)

you. - i am YOU (lyrics, prod.)

0325 - i am YOU (lyrics, prod.)

maze of memories - clé 1: miroh (lyrics, prod.)

19 - clé 1: miroh (lyrics, prod.)

tmt - clé 2: yellow wood (prod.)

booster - clé: levanter (lyrics, prod.)

easy - go live (lyrics, choreo, prod.)

the tortoise and the hare - in life (lyrics, prod.)

domino - no easy (lyrics, choreo, prod.)

charmer - oddinary (lyrics, prod.)

taste - maxident (lyrics, prod.)

DLMLU - the sound (lyrics, prod.)

hall of fame - 5 star (lyrics, choreo, prod.)

item - 5 star (lyrics, prod.)

megaverse - rock star (prod.)

why? - single (lyrics, prod.)

a/n: to be updated as needed!

note* all songs produced by 3racha also list juyeon in the credits (core4)

[hyunpic]

🎵💿 DISCOGRAPHY TAG 💿 🎵

tagged by: @seungs @ttathinker @seungmoes @hyunebear & @mybodyfails thank u 🫡💘 i tried to avoid doing this cause making decisions makes me throw up but im being so brave about this!!!

rules: pick an artist or band and share your favourite song/s from each of their albums, then tag some mutuals!

mixtape: hellevator

i am not: grow up, 3rd eye

i am who: question, awkward silence, my pace

i am you: get cool, n/s

cle 1 miroh: maze of memories, chronosaurus

cle 2 yellow wood: side effects, mixtape#1

cle levanter: double knot, levanter, astronaut

go live: easy, haven, god’s menu, top

in life: the tortoise and the hare, any, wow, b me

all in: slump jpn version, all in

noeasy: ssick, red lights, wolfgang, star lost

christmas evel: winter falls, christmas evel

oddinary: charmer, muddy water, venom

circus: circus, fairytale

maxident: taste, 3racha, can’t stop

skz replay side a: fam, love untold, stars & raindrops, lovestay

skz replay side b: alien, miss you, ice.cream, streetlight, i got it, zone, maknae on top, piece of a puzzle

i feel beyond sick to my stomach because ik there’s songs that should be included but i tried to limit myself 🤧🙇🏼‍♀️ but here u go!!!!

tagging: @jizung @euijin @milfho @yonglixx @wantbytaemin @njaems @sunmisbf idk who else to tag i fear so many ppl have done this 🫠 also no pressure of doing this obviously!

[lee-minhoe]

💿DISCOGRAPHY TAG 💿 tagged by @chanrizard @hyunebear @seungmoes @septicrebel @hyunpic my beloveds thank you

rules: pick an artist or band and share your favorite song/s from each of their albums, then tag some mutuals!

_

ARTIST: Stray Kids

Mixtape: Hellevator

I am NOT: District 9/Grow Up

I am WHO: Question

I am YOU: My Side

Clé 1 - MIROH: Miroh/Maze of Memories/Boxer/Chronosaurus lmao the whole thing

Clé 2 - Yellow Wood: Mixtape 2

Clé - LEVANTER: LEVANTER!!

Go生 (Go Live): Easy/Haven/Phobia/Slump

IN生 (In Life): God's Menu/Back Door/Wow

ALL IN: All in <333

NOEASY: this is a crime i shouldn't have to choose one bc the whole album is so good, but domino/thunderous/ssick/star lost/sorry i love you/wolfgang lol

Christmas EveL: Christmas EveL

ODDINARY: Maniac/Lonely St/Waiting for us

CIRCUS: Circus/Fairytale

MAXIDENT: Taste

SKZ Replay A-SIDE: Limbo/Stars and Raindrops/Love Untold

B-SIDE: Close/Wish You Back/Piece of a Puzzle/Alien/Streetlight/Maknae on Top/HaPpY

tagging: @agibbangs @alrightyaphroditie @ambivartence @chanstopher @decembermoonskz @jinniebit @minchanz @strayklds @strayz if you haven't done it and want to

[skzrinasworld]

song credits ♡

MIXTAPE (2018)

hellevator (songwriter)

beware (songwriter)

spread my wings (songwriter, producer)

4419 (songwriter, producer)

I AM NOT (2018)

district 9 (songwriter)

mirror (songwriter, producer)

awaken (songwriter)

grow up (songwriter, producer)

3rd eye (songwriter, producer)

I AM WHO (2018)

my pace (songwriter)

voices (songwriter, producer)

insomnia (songwriter, producer)

m.i.a. (songwriter)

awkward silence (songwriter, producer)

I AM YOU (2018)

i am you (songwriter, producer)

my side (songwriter)

hero's soup (songwriter, producer)

get cool (songwriter)

0325 (songwriter)

CLÉ 1 : MIROH (2019)

miroh (songwriter)

victory song (songwriter, producer)

maze of memories (songwriter, producer)

boxer (songwriter)

chronosaurus (songwriter)

19 (songwriter, producer)

CLÉ 2 : YELLOW WOOD (2019)

road not taken (songwriter)

mixtape#1 (songwriter)

mixtape#2 (songwriter, producer)

mixtape#3 (songwriter, producer)

mixtape#4 (songwriter)

CLÉ : LEVANTER (2019)

double knot (songwriter)

levanter (songwriter, producer)

booster (songwriter)

astronaut (songwriter, producer)

sunshine (songwriter, producer)

you can stay (songwriter)

NEVERENDING STORY (OST) (2019)

(songwriter)

MIXTAPE : GONE DAYS (2019)

(songwriter, producer)

GO生 (2020)

god’s menu (songwriter)

easy (songwriter)

another day (songwriter, producer)

airplane (songwriter, producer)

phobia (songwriter)

blueprint (songwriter)

haven (songwriter, producer)

IN LIFE (2020)

back door (songwriter)

b me (songwriter, producer)

we go (songwriter, producer)

MIXTAPE : OH (2021)

(songwriter)

NOEASY (2021)

cheese (songwriter, producer)

thunderous (songwriter)

the view (songwriter)

sorry, i love you (songwriter, producer)

silent cry (songwriter, producer)

secret secret (songwriter)

star lost (songwriter)

red lights (songwriter, producer)

CHRISTMAS EVEL (2021)

(songwriter, producer)

ODDINARY (2022)

venom (songwriter)

maniac (songwriter)

charmer (songwriter, producer)

lonely st. (songwriter, producer)

waiting for us (songwriter, producer)

CIRCUS (JAPANESE ALBUM ) (2022)

circus (songwriter)

fairytale (songwriter)

your eyes (songwriter)

MIXTAPE : TIME OUT (2022)

(songwriter, producer)

MAXIDENT (2022)

case 143 (songwriter, producer)

chill (songwriter, producer)

give me your tmi (songwriter)

3racha (songwriter, producer)

SKZ-REPLAY (2022)

my tears richochet (songwriter, producer)

blueming (songwriter, producer)

invu (songwriter, produer)

miss you (songwriter, producer)

crying in the club (songwriter, producer)

wish you back (songwriter)

until i found you (songwriter, producer)

5-STAR (2023)

hall of fame (songwriter, producer)

s-class (songwriter)

item (songwriter, producer)

topline (songwriter)

super bowl (songwriter)

collision (songwriter, producer)

youtiful (songwriter)

SOCIAL PATH (JAPANESE SINGLE) (2023)

(songwriter, producer)

ROCK-STAR (2023)

megaverse (songwriter)

LALALALA (songwriter, producer)

blind spot (songwriter, producer)

cover me (songwriter)

leave (songwriter, producer)

songs produced for other groups !

ENHYPEN

BORDER : CARNIVAL (2021)

intro : the invitation (producer)

drunk-dazed (songwriter, producer)

mixed up (songwriter, producer)

DIMENSION : DILEMMA (2021)

tamed-dashed (songwriter, producer)

go big or go home (songwriter, producer)

attention, please! (songwriter)

MANIFESTO : DAY 1 (2022)

future perfect (pass the mic) (songwriter, producer)

paradoxxx invasion (songwriter, producer)

shout out (producer)

DARK BLOOD (2023)

fate (producer)

bite me (songwriter, producer)

sacrifice (eat me up) (songwriter, producer)

CRIMINAL LOVE (2023)

(songwriter, producer)

MARK FROM NCT

GOLDEN HOUR (2023)

(co-writer, producer)

masterlist

[mybodyfails]

🎵💿 DISCOGRAPHY TAG 💿🎵

i was tagged by @jerirose​ @hyunebear and @seungmoes. thank you for bullying me into making decisions i was not ready to make ❤️

rules: pick an artist or band and share your favourite song/s from each of their albums, then tag some mutuals!

-

ARTIST: Stray Kids

Mixtape: Hellevator

I am NOT: Grow Up / 3rd Eye

I am WHO: Voices

I am YOU: I Am You / Get Cool

Clé 1 - MIROH: Maze Of Memories

Clé 2 - Yellow Wood: Side Effects / Mixtape #1 / Mixtape #2 / Mixtape #3 / Mixtape #4 (idk what choosing means, clearly)

Clé - LEVANTER: Levanter / Astronaut

Go生 (Go Live): Easy / Blueprint

IN生 (In Life): B Me / Any

ALL IN: Fam

NOEASY: Cheese / Mixtape: Oh

Christmas EveL: Winter Falls

ODDINARY: Venom / Maniac / Freeze / Waiting For Us

CIRCUS: Fairytale

MAXIDENT: Chill / Taste

SKZ Replay A-SIDE: Love Untold / Run

B-SIDE: I Got It / Alien / Because / Wish You Back / Happy / Ice.Cream

i tried to limit myself to two tracks per album, but uh, trying doesn't mean succeeding. 😌 still left out a bunch of favourites, but this has taken me forever and i am torn on the inside and just want it to stop fjfjfjcnv. so there.

tagging @aloeichi @arewedoneyet @geniaparadox @hanjisoonie @hyunpic @hyunsung @jisungsjaistandjeekies @jizung @ssiyeonn and @ttathinker (if you feel like going through a traumatic experience)

[mulletlix]

🎵💿 DISCOGRAPHY TAG 💿🎵

Tagged by @hyunebear​, thanks Adri! ♥

rules: pick an artist or band and share your favourite song/s from each of their albums, then tag some mutuals!

☀

ARTIST: STRAY KIDS

Mixtape: Spread My Wings / Yayaya

I am NOT: District 9 / 3rd Eye / Rock

I am WHO: My Pace / Insomnia

I am YOU: 0325 / N/S / I am You

Clé 1 - MIROH: Miroh / Victory Song / Boxer / Maze of Memories

Clé 2 - Yellow Wood: Side Effects / Mixtape #3

Clé - LEVANTER: Stop

Go生 (Go Live): God's Menu / TA / Easy

IN生 (In Life): Any / The Tortoise and the Hare / Back Door

ALL IN: FAM

NOEASY: Wolfgang / Domino / Thunderous / Red Lights

Christmas EveL: Christmas EveL

ODDINARY: Venom / Maniac / Charmer / Freeze

CIRCUS: Circus

MAXIDENT: Case 143 / Taste / Super Board / 3RACHA

SKZ Replay A-SIDE: Doodle / Deep End / FAM

SKZ Replay B-SIDE: Up All Night / Maknae On Top

☀

Tagging some lovely individuals: @sup3rbo4rd, @caseiloveu, @blueprintchan, @pinkhaech, @minchanz, @ykimchi. Feel free to ignore ♥

[faceglitchsworld]

Discography tag

Tagged by @onlyoneofyouu (thank you Jo, I needed to do some new games 💘)

rules: pick an artist or band and share your favorite song/s from each of their albums and then tag some mutuals

Oke, since I'm a freaking multi and choosing only one artist would basically be the death of me, I'll choose five (5) groups/bands that I love this time.

Monsta X

Trespass: Trespass and One Love

Rush: Perfect Girl and Broken Heart

The Clan Pt.1 Lost: Ex Girl, Sweetheart, Because of U and Unfair Love

The Clan Pt.2 Guilty: Fighter, Queen and Roller Coaster

The Clan Pt.2.5 The Final Chapter: Ready or Not, Miss You, Beautiful, Incomparable, Need U, 5:14 (Last Page) and All I Do

The Code: DRAMARAMA, Now or Never, In Time, From Zero and Tropical Night

The Connect: Dejavu: Jealousy

Take.1 Are You There?: Underwater, Shoot Out and Myself

Take.2 We Are Here: must admit, I think every song here is good, I can't choose one 😅

Follow-Find You: Find You, Monsta Truck, U R and See You Again

Fantasia X: FANTASIA, Beautiful Night and IT AIN'T OVER

Fatal Love: Love Killa and Sorry I'm not Sorry

One Of A Kind: GAMBLER, Heaven, Secrets and BEBE

No Limit: Rush Hour and Mercy

Shape of love: LOVE, Breath and Wildfire

Reason: Beautiful Liar, LONE RANGER, Crescendo and Deny

Honourable mentions to Who Do You Love, Middle of the night, You Problem and The Dreaming from the English albums

Gorillaz (I needed to do them, their new album will come out like this friday 🤣)

Self Titled: Tomorrow Comes Today and 19-2000 from the singles, Sound Check (Gravity) and Slow Country from the b-sides

Demon Days: Feel Good Inc., El Mañana and Dirty Harry from the singles Kids with Guns and November has Come from the b-sides

Plastic Beach: uhm, all of them? I'm sorry but this was THE ALBUM, every song here is perfect 🥴

The Fall: Revolving Doors, Little Pink Plastic Bags, Amarillo and Bobby in Phoenix. No distinction between singles and b-sides because the only single here was Phoner To Arizona and I still don't like it that much 😅

Humanz: Saturnz Barz and Strobelite from the singles, Ascension, Busted and Blue, She's My Collar and Out Of Body from the b-sides

The Now Now: Humility and Tranz from the singles, Fire Flies and Souk Eye from the b-sides

Song Machine, Season One: Strange Timez: Strange Timez, The Lost Chord, Aries and Dèsolé from the singles, Chalk Tablet Towers and Dead Butterflies from the b-sides.

Honourable mention to Hong Kong from the D-sides anthology aka the reason why I love songs with a traditional sound on it 🥹

Stray Kids (in honour of their deserved vacation, even tho it lasted like...three days 😅🥲)

Mixtape: Spread my wings

I am NOT: District 9 and Grow Up and Awaken

I am WHO: Awkward Silence

I am YOU: I am YOU, My side and Hero's Soup

Clè 1: Miroh: Maze of Memories, Chronosaurus and 19

Clè 2: Yellow Wood: Side Effects and the Mixtapes. All of them.

Clè: Levanter: Double Knot, Levanter and Astronaut

Go Live+In Life: Back Door, We Go, Wow, My Universe and Another Day

NOEASY: Silent Cry and Gone Away

ODDINARY: Venom, Waiting for Us and Muddy Water

Maxident: Case 143, 3RACHA and Can't Stop

SKZ Replay: any solo song made by Han and Changbin+Deep End, Stars and Raindrops, Hug Me and miss you

Honourable mention to Hoodie Season, which is into SKZ 2021

Melanie Martinez (in honour of her trailer for her next album)

Crybaby: Pity Party and Soap from the singles, Alphabet Boy and Mad Hatter from the b-sides

K-12: Drama club, Strawberry Shortcake, Orange Juice and High School Sweethearts

Oneus (in honour of their vacation from the tour, hoping it will last more than SKZ or I'll go through a tantrum)

Light Us: Valkyrie, Red Thread, HERO and Crazy & Crazy

Raise Us: Twilight and BingBing

Fly With Us: LIT and Stand By

Lived: TO BE OR NOT TO BE and COME BACK HOME

Devil: Incomplete, Lion Heart and What You Doing?

Binary Code: I can't choose one song here, everything here is good. Yes, even Valkyrie (rock version).

Blood Moon: LUNA, Life is Beautiful and Yes or No

Trickster: Skydivin', Firebomb and Mr Wolf

Malus: Same Scent, STUPID LOVE, Mermaid and FULL MOON

Honourable mention to STAY, because the WeUs family is the most dear thing to me ❤️

Tagging @jongside and @atinystraykid

No pressure, have fun, I love you ❤️

[anautumncarol]

omg is that leila back with useless facts? haha you bet your sweet ass it is.

so i figured as i am nearing the dreaded adulthood i should probably pretend to learn how the fuck a spreadsheet works since it could be more useful than writing everything out in some random notebook andd since skz’s discography is gargantuan i was kinda right for once.

now what does skz’s discography have to do with me learning how to use a spreadsheet? well i decided to see skz’s songs from the most streamed to the least streamed because what else am i supposed to do? actual work?

So here is the complete list (get ready, it gets a bit long) from most streamed to least streamed skz song on spotify

God’s Menu

MANIAC

Thunderous

Back Door

MIROH

CASE 143

Red Lights

My Pace

Hellevator

Charmer

DOMINO

Side Effects

Christmas EveL

Easy

S-Class

Double Knot

VENOM

CHEESE

Get Cool

District 9

CIRCUS

ALL IN

TASTE

Mixtape : OH

Silent Cry

I am YOU

TOP (Kr + Jp versions)

Victory Song

Neverending Story

SLUMP (Kr + Jp versions)

GO LIVE/The Tortoise and the Hare

Any

WOLFGANG

Levanter

Voices

Going Dumb

FREEZE

Wow

N/S

Sorry, I Love You

Ex

Lonely St.

Insomnia

Mixtape : On Track

Awkward Silence

Surfin’

Mixtape : Time Out

The View

Muddy Water

Another Day

3RACHA

Boxer

Grow Up

Mixtape : Gone Days

Maze of Memories

Scars

Chronosaurus

Blueprint

Phobia

Question

SSICK

Secret Secret

Waiting For Us

TA

Astronaut

We Go

THE SOUND

Airplane

M.I.A.

19

Pacemaker

Here Always

SUPER BOARD

Haven

CHILL

Spread My Wings

B Me

Gone Away

TOPLINE

Star Lost

Sunshine

YAYAYA

Winter Falls

BEWARE

Mirror

Hall of Fame

Mixtape#2/Behind The Light

3rd Eye

Give Me Your TMI

My Universe

Super Bowl

TMT

Deep end

ROCK

Mixtape#4/Broken Compass

ITEM

Mixtape#1/Placebo

Maknae On Top

You Can STAY

Can’t Stop

My Side

0325

Awaken

Mixtape#3/For You

FAM

Hello Stranger

Limbo

Connected

DLC

GET LIT

Drive

24 to 25

Booster

Collision

Your Eyes

Youtiful

STOP

GLOW

FNF

Hero’s Soup

Road Not Taken

DOODLE

School Life

Stars and Raindrops

WHO?

i hate to admit

There

Up All Night

Fairytale

CALL

4419

DLMLU

ice.cream

Love Untold

YOU.

Hoodie Season

ZONE

#LoveStay

Because

miss you

NOT!

RUN

Hug Me

I GOT IT

Alien

Entrance

Lost Me

Streetlight

Close

Wish You Back

One Day

Battle Ground

Piece Of A Puzzle

Novel

HaPpY

Close To You

And that’s it for today. These are bound to change but those are the stats and they definitely reinforce me telling everyone to listen I Am YOU because this is physical proof you’re all missing out. Also Levanter is by far the most underrated title track in lowkey all of kpop, I mean look at this.

[that-crazy-five-foot-two-chick]

It's been so funny and interesting to me getting into Taylor Swift after already having long been into Stray Kids and kpop in general, so here are some funny parallels I've noticed between the two and/or their fandoms:

Ryan Reynolds

The Vault/Chan's Laptop

Really dumb fun fandom energy. Like please, I did not expect the ship name Toe, but that is the only one I am using now. Please I am begging Stays to have this energy when skz start dating publicly

Videos appreciating them existing in cute

Taylor's cats 🤝 Minho's cats

Frothing at the mouth over good/cathartic lyrics and the analysis of such

Ed Sheeran appreciation

Being serious derps irl/online with fans

Loving how their hearts and minds work and how they convey the contents of the same

Reluctant song ranking tiktoks

Knowing exactly which era a photo was from solely based on hair and/or clothes

Knowing details about them that would sound really creepy to someone outside the fandom it's not creepy if they say it in an interview or behind the scenes I swear

TOO MANY SIGNIFICANT NUMBERS and on that note, lowkey wanna leave the list here solely for the sake of things

Learning vocabulary because of them. Seriously. Why did it take me until the last month to figure out that Miroh meant maze and that Clé means key when I've been stanning them since 2021. I'm so mad.

Songs instead of therapy but please go to therapy if you legit need it. "this is me trying" was not about using lyrics as a replacement for professional help. That's a Placebo.

"yes they can actually sing live and here's the proof"

Very involved in their songs from start to finish and it shows and we love them for it

OH SHOOT—I just realized Taylor's Versions vs SKZ 2020/2021—

ME! lol. I do mean the song but also technically me myself as well now heh

Writing love/breakup songs except it's completely made up

Extremely prolific

"so I made this song at stupid o'clock in the morning and here it is lol" and it's the freaking sparkly cd meme

We CARE care about album drops and about them making the money off of it that they deserve as artists

Wanting merch but wiping the lint off the bottom of our wallets to try to find the money

"Please let one measly concert seat be available even if it sucks"

"wait a second, they/their fandoms AREN'T hysterical like the media paints them to be?" *insert mental hurricane that eventually dies down here* "wait, am I actually considering joining them??" *narrator voice: but by then, it was already too late*

Seeing the same memes/edits but in different fandoms but it's not memes I've seen in non-music fandoms. Like literally. Just watched one.

Acronyms that look like keyboard smashes to everyone else please though Swifties you're way worse please have mercy on this baby I'm still learning—

Recycling quotes from haters into song lyrics, like please yes queen/king, continue, go off

Giant creepy creatures as tour set pieces

Taylor and Chan being parents even though they have never actually had children

And on that note, knowing everybody in their industries

Rolling out our list of reasons like a scroll every time we say we stan them and the other person so much as inhales to start a response. We could probably recite that list in our sleep at this point.

Stay Stay Stay HAHAHAHAHAHA

I seriously need to shut up or I will get nothing done today but yeah if you stan one, please give the other a chance because you're doing yourself a disservice if you don't.

[armyhome]

(Un) Perfects | Beomgyu

⇢ summary: Lilo is a complicated girl, but also is Beomgyu and the journey of both are a mess.

⇢ pairing: Lilo x Beomgyu.

⇢ a/n: hi  my people, it's being a long time since lost in your love story right?  well i was really trapped in this thing called adulthood, it's sucks i  know, but for me is always better then anything i lived while i was a  tennager, i'm working on that on therapy I promise, which is why this  story came to me, I think, here you will find deep things about me, so  please don't judge... too much... ok?I know we live in a plastic society  today, where everyone is so perfect and lives those perfect lives, but  in this story everyone is (un)perfect, like me, so I'm showing the most  human that my perfectionism allowed me to be, hope you all undertand.

Chapter 1: Attention. Chapter 2: Ditto

Capter 3: Hype Boy

My whole life this semester was constantly waiting for him every single Sunday, he was always there waiting for me with a big smile on his face, I settled my feelings for him, deep inside my heart, guys like him would never fall for a girl like me so I was content with being his friend. I sit next to him, Jun was distracted by looking at the sunset. Something about him gives me the courage to do the things that scare me the most.

"Cause I-I-I know what you like boy, you're my chemical boy" I sing Yeonjunging a little bit of the original song arrangement, my singing classes show me how my voice could be beautiful if I used it right, and after I discover that Junie was a producer and love music, I wished unless my voice could have some power over his heart.

"Wow," He says looking at me "Wasn't you that once told me that I didn't sing?" I smiled at him.

"Suddenly I found a reason to do so…"  I say looking at the sunset.

"How was your week?" My smile became even bigger, I was a winner this week.

"I was the first in my class on every single thing so that idiot could eat my dust!" Remember Yeonjun's angry face made my day even better.

"By idiot, you mean that Beomgyu guy? Don't you think sometimes you overthink about him?" Is he jealous? My heart whispers.

"He treats me as if my feelings didn't matter because his best friend may be hurt…" I sigh. 

"Why would it be like that?" Junie turned his whole body in my direction, that was what I love the most about these moments. 

"Because he is the son of the woman that was Henry's mistress, I can't say that I hate the guy 'cause I didn't know him, but that's the thing I don't wanna meet him… Yeonjun says that I'm dramatic but he is the one overreacting, 'cause I didn't even leave my seat between classes so I don't bump into his precious Yeonjunie" I roll my eyes.

"Do you think you're gonna hate this guy that much?" Junie asks, I took a deep breath.

"Why are we only talking about me? What about your music? And your band? Did you guys find the drummer?" I lay on the grass looking at him.

"Yes, his name is Seugmin, he is dope" He moves his hands like he is playing drums.

"So during winter vacation all, you're gonna do is rehearse right?" Junie smiles like a little kid and waves his head positively. 

"You wanna help me choose the name?" I sit so fast that makes me dizzy, this was such an important thing "I just have two rules, needs to have M and H on the name…" His look on became sad.

"Can I ask why?" So Jun looked at his hands "You don't need to answer…"

"No, that's okay, I can share with you, that's the initials of my dad and my little sister…" his eyes became full of tears, by instinct I hugged him like I could protect him from all those memories that hunt him. To my surprise, he hugged me back, and we stayed in silence for a while. 

"What about miroh? Mr. Kang teaches me a few words of Joseon, his hometown, which means maze, and sometimes life feels like this…" So my cell phone starts to ring, I look at the screen and is Hueningkai "Just give me a moment, this may be important…" I leave his arms and get apart and feel steps "Something happens Hueningkai?"

"Ariel will kill me Lilo…" His voice was so sad that breaks my heart, Ary was given him a hard time with the musical, she became the first freshman to become the theater team director and now her next stop would be the first one to be the musical lead, and considering Hueningkai was her choreographer he was having a hard time "Can you please just help me with two or three steps? Please"

"Okay, in one hour, at school, deal?" I look at Jun he doesn't take his eyes off me. It was foolish of me to put the salvation of my torment into a boy, but I couldn't help myself. 

"Deal, I'll wait for you at the theater club room," Hueningkai bring me back to earth.

"See you later, bye" I come close to Jun "I wish I could see you more than just Sundays…" The confession slipped my mouth before I could hold the words inside my heart, he held my hand.

"Maybe in the future, we could make this happen" He didn't know but his promises became a tattoo on my skin.

"Well probably in the next semester beginning at a school tournament, I'll be on the football team. I know you can't cheer for another school, but cheer for me to be the striker of the league, please? I promise to cheer for you at the swim competition" And I would anyway, 'cause I prefer dying to cheer for Yeonjung, so Jun smiling cross his pink finger with mine.

"Deal," He says laughing but that happiness for some reason doesn't appear in his eyes like he was nervous about something.

"Now I gotta go Hueningkai needs me, and he's waiting for me at school on  a Sunday, so I know it's really serious…" I explain and in one second Jun gets up.

"I can give you a drive…" That sentence would make me smile the whole week. I hold Jun with my head resting on his back. I could sleep there so well, imagine waking up like this but on his bed, wearing his shirt…"Lilo.." His voice calls me so I realize we are already at school.

"Sorry I was daydreaming, thank you, Junie, see you next Sunday?" Junie smiles and waves his head positively. 

"See you next week Lilo" So he did the unthinkable thing, kissing the top of my head. I don't know what was wrong with me, but I just start to run I run like I was in a marathon, so I enter the theater club's room, lay on the floor, and wait for Hueningkai. Daydreaming about a world where I'm not a crazy person that just panics with a kiss that wasn't even on the lips!

"Something happens?" Hueningkai's voice wakes me. 

"He kisses me on the top of my head…" I whisper, and Hueningkai's eyes became wide.

"THAT SUNDAY GUY?" He almost screams so I cover his mouth white my hand. 

"Yes, him! Do you think that means something?" Hueningkai sits with me on the floor.

"I don't know, he said something before the kiss?" That question makes me sigh.

"I run away…" I make my confession almost whispering. 

"Why?" 

"I don't know, I just freak out, and when I realize I'm running…How was it for you and Soobin? You were afraid too?" Hueningkai looked at me worried. 

"You promise you wouldn't fall for your stranger Lilo…" The same sadness in Jun's eyes of early there. 

"You said that my idea of never falling in love was crazy…" Hueningkai would never hide something from me would he? 

"And I still think it is, others people's stories belong to them not you, your parents are not you…But anyway I don't feel like that with Binnie 'cause I know him my entire life, and I love him since I discovered what romantic love means so when he kissed me I stay, I can't say if like you, or if just playing with you Lilo, we don't really know him…" I sigh, he was kinda right so I wouldn't talk back "Now to the choreography we should start…"

"What's going on with Ariel?" I start stretching my body helping Hueningkai stretch his.

"She is possessed by Sharpay spirit since Mr. Ortega was enchanted by you singing Satisfied of Hamilton's musical" He gives me that accusing look.

"I was just practicing for my vocal classes…" Hueningkai sighs. 

"As your friend, I must say, if you want to keep your relationship with Ariel, don't take from her what she worked her entire life to achieve, but before you say that's not your dream anyway, as a future director your whole thing is precious, has soul…" He took a deep breath and finish the stretch "Don't wait, let's go, let's make this choreography"

And that's what we did until late in the night when our English slash arts professor Mr. Ortega interrupts saying that school needs to close, my legs were tired enough to me don't contest.

"I just need to use the bathroom before we go," Hueningkai says running through the hall. 

"One more time Miss Fisher, I must say, you should apply to our play, you would be an amazing Vanessa on our In the Heights…" I smile politely at him, I would do that only if I wish lost my best friend "Ah I have a favor to ask you," He took a piece of paper from his notebook "I didn't know if I should ask you, but earlier I saw that he brings you here so it must be a fine thing at your home now" I read the paper was an English test, made by Choi Yeonjun, Danielle's child "Can you give this back to you stepbrother?" I can't find an answer to "See you guys tomorrow!" And he leaves.

My heart lose a beat, and I felt dizzy like Jun was the gravity, the force that keeps me connected to the earth, but I lost this, he knew it, and he played me like a fool, oh my god I'm so stupid after all Henry did to mom I still made myself believe so blindly on the first guy that show up in front of me. 

"What I lost?"  Hueningkai asks so I remember that look on his face early, I put Choi Yeonjun's test in front of his face.

"You knew that Sunday's guy was Choi Yeonjun?" Hueningkai look at me without saying a thing, he knew it "Oh my god, I am such a stupid person, why didn't you tell me? Aren't we friends Hueningkai"

"Of course we are, is just, is more complicated than you think, I discovery just a feel days ago, I was just trying to choose the right words to tell you to cause you a sensible…" I take a deep breath was so hard to breathe, Hueningkai tries to hold my hand but I push his hand away.

"Don't touch me" Hueningkai's eyes became full of tears "You should say when you found it" So I turn around and one more time I start to run like I always do, run until I don't feel my legs, run until I don't feel anything. And I only stop running once I'm in front of Henry's house. The door opens before I knock, showing Ariel's face, I just lose my two best friends in one night, and someone upstairs really hates me. 

"I can explain Lilo…" His voice was just a whisper.

"Straight A's you were forgetting your charm in my room…" Jun, better saying Yeonjun, was talking until he saws me "Lilo…" I crumple up the paper and throw it against your chest. "Here's your English test, Mr. Ortega ask me to give it back to you, is delivered now… Jun, better saying, Choi Yeonjun!" Ariel's eyes became wild.

"I didn't know it I swear Lilo, I didn't even imagine he was Sunday's…" She tries to reach me but I step back.

"To the hell the fact he was Sunday's guy, you knew very well that he is Henry's stepson, and you knew more than everyone how I feel about that! How would hurt me"

"I just thought that you were being over dramatic, nobody can hate a parent so much for the rest of their lives!" My blood boiled inside my veins "And I don't know maybe our bond makes your heart easier to be reached, cures a little bit of your anger, and accepted the new members of your family, as much you did with Mr. Kangand Taehyun" 

"First and remember really well my words, don't you ever compare Mr. Kang to his mother, Mr. Kang didn't sleep with his mom while my dad was treating cancer using every single energy that he had inside his body to get better through chemotherapy was the otherwise" I look her up to down "You should be Henry's daughter, because you both are so selfish, with a protagonist syndrome, like the entire universe should bow to you, how stupid narcissist a person should be to THINK THAT I WOULD FORGIVE YOU FOR THAT?" Ariel's eyes became full of tears "Save your tears, Ariel, 'cause even kids know that crocodiles cry while they eat…"

"He is not your enemy Lilo!" I look at Choi Yeonjun's face the tears are running down his chick.

"I didn't mean to hurt you…" His voice was just a whisper "I just wanna became close to you, and things start to complicated because I knew that at the moment you discover you would hate me and I didn't wanna that, you're so important to me Lilo, one of my best friends in life"

"So you lied to me, and started to date my best friend to reach me…" I accuse him, but he didn't say anything.

"What is happening here?" Nice timing Beomgyu, for the first time you are at the right place at the right time "What are you doing here again?" He asks Ariel. 

"She is visiting her boyfriend" I answer white all hate in my voice "Apparently they start this whole thing to make my heart softly and accept the new members of my family…" So Beomgyu look at me like he knew every single thought in my head, how insane I think was that idea and he agrees.

"Are you trying to make her explode from feeling so much hate? Cause I wanna remember you both, that's my exclusivity" I hold my laugh, and the idea strikes me as thunderously.

"Don't talk about her like you are in times that much…" Ignoring Choi Yeonjun's words I walk decided looking at Beomgyu only, he stares at me but doesn't resist even for a second when I hold his neck and pull towards me I look into his eyes, and his eyes were on my lips, I take this as consent and kiss him and my insanity. 

Beomgyu's body against mine was insanity, his strong arms holding me even close making me feel every single muscle of his body, his lips so softly but strongly against mine, my legs became jelly, when we stop kissing, he looked inside my eyes. like somehow he could read everything inside them, so he kiss my ear lobe, making my entire body tickle.

"Don't think this will make me take it easy on you in class…" And there he is, disturbing me again, now hits differently but still wanna punch him. 

"What you think old stepbrother? Felling more connected with me now? Did I reach your heart kissing your best friend?" The silence was my answer. 

"You're such a child," Ariel says after all. 

"You don't see anything yet little princess, I feel now that I need to cure your protagonism syndrome and Mr. Ortega asks me one more time if I wanna be Vanessa…" By the look on her face, she got mad.

"You wouldn't" I make a sarcastic pound. 

"I will, 'cause I need to cure you… And you," I turn to Beomgyu that didn't take his eyes off me, and right now I must admit if it was just the two of us... "I need my bond with my brother to become even more strong, so see you later!"