#i am simply unable to

[haunted-plush]

Me when people have the same f/os

[whumpty-dumpty-doo]

*rubbing everyone's whump creations all over my face and skin*

Mmmm, so nourishing and moisturizing

[nemurian]

@bigboobyhalo Your sacrifices have been accepted by the great Dapper. I'm so sorry but I don't think you'll be getting them back anytime soon. Or ever.

[beaft]

i keep seeing these articles around that are supposed to assist you in setting healthy boundaries, and while i appreciate the sentiment, the phrasing always feels way too vague to be of any real use. for example:

"it's okay to say no when you're genuinely unable to do something" - sure, but what does "genuinely unable" mean? because theoretically i'm able to walk 20 kilometres over mountains in the pouring rain, but just because i can doesn't mean i should.

"don't feel guilty about refusing excessive or unfair requests" - i have no barometer for whether a request is excessive or unfair, which is precisely why i have so much trouble saying no to things

"express your negative emotions authentically" fine if that means saying "i'm sad" when you're sad, or having a cry when you need a cry, but what if your negative emotions are destructive to you or to others? what does "authentically" even mean? if i authentically feel like biting people and screaming and hitting things, does that mean it's okay for me to do that?

maybe i'm just being overly literal, but i feel like so many of these articles are just a lot of buzzwords that have no practical application beyond, like, making people feel slightly better about that time they refused to take on an extra shift at the grocery store

[unironicallycringe]

Sometimes i think about TMM and get all Hearts Emoji about it, but other times i just feel embarrassed or ashamed. It's weird! I feel like my ability to be joyfully cringe and creative has eroded over time. It's a muscle that needs working out. Sharing my work has become emotionally taxing. I started out posting TMM really regularly, then after a couple incidents, I got slower and slower. Now, in posting Dear Brother, I just sort of show up every other month or two and drop a chapter and bail lmao. I talk to a few mutuals and then skip town. I think about how I used to do weekly / biweekly TMM updates and I'm like "who tf was that guy with so much naive energy" LOL

I think maybe when I continue posting TMM, I will have to be way more distant and quiet in the fandom space, as I am lately with DB. Much much love to all of my readers and thank you for your patience and interaction! It's just been such an unexpectedly-long hiatus, and I've been paralyzed on posting TMM for many, many different reasons.

(I know I show up like every 5 months and make a post musing aloud like this, just consider it a proof-of-life if you're not tuned into my TES stuff /lh)

[lesbiandardevil]

just made new ocs but kinda wanna make vampire ones

[yumemiruuuu]

Not once, since I finished TGCF, did I ever stop thinking about Xie Lian’s ultimate technique:

Shattering boulders on one’s chest

[uzumakiheart]

i love people who think alexandra trusova was a victim of corruption at any point in her career. like sure buddy!!!!

[godduh]

deandra reynolds, the woman you are

[laurrelise]

this image pops into my head every time i open my ipad and stare at a blank procreate page for an hour before closing it and doing something else

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

On one hand, yay, the 'special' coffee started my period because I was already two weeks late (normal for my stupid uterus when I'm stressed but still frustrating).

On the other hand, boooo, I thought it would make it start on Monday, not today.

[waytootiredstudent]

When I say that I can not shut up to save my life I mean it less in a "haha look at my sarcastic commentary" and more in a "went in to ask my (technically) boss a favour, ended up arguing with her about politics for an hour because she was saying enough stupid things that I couldn't suppress my eye twitch anymore". Yes I had a problem with authority all my life why are you asking.

[woe-is-tuli]

I am totally🤩❣️

[fearandhatred]

i really need to stop writing fics that make me sad help

[sublux]

what an absolutely exhausting couple of years i’ve had. i hope 2025 has something good in it for me

[sailorsally]

Too much faith in the actor men is the main problem this fandom have.

well, thank you mr ackles for the in person wake up call then I guess. to me at least, not to 99% of people who still think jackles' answer is in any ways positive