#i am right and yall are just afraid of the truth

[nianeyemystic]

Traveling & Love (Pluto astrocartography observations)✈️👩🏽‍❤️‍👨🏾

Traveling is in my opinion one of the best ways to meet new lovers, friends or find connections you otherwise may not come across. Here are a few of the experiences I have had when traveling and how love played a role.

Pluto on the Descendant (DS): The Power of Transformational Relationships

I traveled to San Juan, PR for my 28th birthday, the early start of my Saturn year. It came a week or so after leaving my highschool sweetheart. and was probably one of the best vacations I have ever taken for reasons I will share in this post. So this time as very transformational for me, my whole life was changing and I was feeling a sense of freedom and rebirth while in PR. I kept joking with my homegirls about how I was going to meet my Puerto Rican papi while I was there so keep that in my mind. First let me explain how this Pluto DS line played a part in the events that happened.

The Descendant in astrocartography represents partnerships, relationships, and how you connect with others on a one-to-one level. When Pluto is prominent on this line, the relationships you form in this area are intense, transformative, and potentially life-changing.

Transformational Love 💖

So while in PR I end up meeting somebody whose love has been what you guys see me describing in most of the posts. We met on the water where I was completely caught off guard in the best way. Being with him feels like a transformational love in so many ways. Meeting my love near my Pluto/DS line feels like a deep, magnetic connection that is fated or karmic. He has definitely have awakened a side of me that I hadn't accessed before. This is important bc again, I met him right after freeing myself from a toxic cycle of love I was so afraid to leave. And there he was. The connection with him challenges me to confront deeper truths about myself, my desires, and my capacity for vulnerability and intimacy.

Healing and Rebirth✨

Pluto governs transformation, endings, and new beginnings. Traveling to San Juan after ending a 15-year partnership symbolized a personal rebirth for me. This place was a catalyst for me to shed old patterns and step into a new chapter of my life.The love I found there to me is a reflection of this rebirth—a relationship that feels profound and meaningful, and one that has helped me to heal & redefine what partnership means to me.

Intensity and Depth 🧡

Relationships under the Pluto/DS influence are rarely surface-level. The way I feel like I have known him before.Like everything I manifested in a partner came directly to me in the person I needed at the right time. I was so serious when I said I was looking for my husband, and the more I spoke that the more real this became for me.its a connection that feels intense, all-consuming, or like it’s touching parts of my soul I didn’t know were there.The emotional depth and passion he brings feels like the opposite of what I experienced in my previous partnership, creating a stark contrast. a breath of fresh new air is what I look at it as.

Emotional Rebirth: San Juan, near my Pluto line, served as a backdrop for a symbolic death (the end of my past relationship) and a rebirth (my new connection). It’s as though this place holds the energy I needed to step into a new version of myself..

It gets better. I learned that he lives in Houston, Texas. another city I've traveled to where I have had some of the best times of my life. I saw Beyonce there and met some of the most genuine people. The way I felt like again,I belong here was so real. I could see myself living there and being a more vibrant person each time I went. So when he said he was fom Houston I immediately am like. hmm.

So I check to see what line Is have going through Houston.... yall. why is it my Venus & Mars IC line go directly through it. I have them conjunct natally. So let me break that down in a separate post. But just knowww, I think I was meant to meet this man. By the way for context he's a Capricorn sun, and Im a virgo sun.

Where is your Pluto line in your astrocartography chart? Have you ever traveled anywhere you felt called to go and something out of the world happened to you?

-@nianeyemystic

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Fandom observation nicknames and funny tags: Part One Piece

Okay, one piece fandom it's your turn and I'm going to highlight your creativity. Again this is not meant to shame or call anyone out. I am genuinely impressed with the creativity and you guys made me laugh. So again in my opinion these were too good just to be lost in the tags or in the anonymous messages, several you sent me. So expand post at your own risk. This one is unhinged

*updated as of May 4th with more tags and new characters

I have mentioned this before, but for some reason that is beyond me. One Piece fandom you guys refer to your characters as daddy and mommy (And it's in a kinky way) way more than any fandom. I think I should just start with the list of characters that have been labeled as such before I go into the creative names for individual characters. Because trust me who makes the list and who doesn't is actually funny.

One piece Daddy's: Shanks, Mihawk, Buggy, Sir Crocodile, Benn Beckman, Killer, Sanji, Rayleigh, Roger, Doflamingo, Rosinante/Corazon, Katakuri, Ivankov, Arlong, Yamato, Marco, Izou, Smoker, Garp, Sengoku, Zeff, Kuzan/Aokiji, Kizaru, Fujitora, Akainu, Blackbeard

When it comes to the One piece Mommy's: Nico Robin, Boa Hancock, Charlotte Smoothie, Charlotte Galette, Charlotte Amande, Vice admiral doll, Catarina Devon, Ivankov & Crocodile

Now due to popular demand the new category the One Piece Babygirls: Ace, Buggy, Sanji, Luffy, Sabo, Zoro, Ussop, Marco, Crocodile, Doflamingo, Kid, Law, Bepo, Killer, Mihawk, Shanks, Perona, Yamato, Kuzan/Aokiji, Kizaru, Fujitora, Rosinante/Corazon, Katakuri, Smoker, Robin, Nami, Vivi, Jinbe, Hatchan, Roger, Zeff

Now when it comes to individual characters there have been some interesting standouts but I'm just going to do some highlights because you guys have so many characters

Ace: "Depressed sunshine orphan boy with daddy issues", "ace has that grungy line cook riz you know he lays legendary pipe", " he got goofy older brother swag", "Beautiful butch dyke wife", "Ace my greasy fire narcoleptic king", "The narcoleptic babygirl", the greasy crusty desert rat. "He would be worth the burn risk", "my favorite fire donut", "something about greasy alabasta ace hits so different", "with his riz he's probably a walking STD risk but it would be worth it. Just look at him probably also probably got a couple bastard kids running around the grand line", it's ok he's still greasy in my heart worlds most feral baby boy he looks like he eats dirt I could fix him (force him to bathe regularly)

Akainu: "The world's next top authoritarian," magma Daddy, "He makes donuts and I still love him"

Arlong: "Y'all are too afraid to recognize the truth too afraid of his drip, his swagger, his saw nose, to admit that he's hot also live action arlong?!?!the only sexy fishmen," "arlong looks like a toxic florida frat bro," "I legitimately think there's something wrong with me sometimes due to how bad I want arlong the rancid personality enhances the appeal", "yall are p****" arlong is sexy put some respect on his name look at those lips the laugh the hair!"

Bartolomeo: "the man hasn't showered in probably a week he's obsessed with the strawhats he'll pee anywhere and he's an absolute dweeb he's like a stray mutt that followed me home look at his fit it's AWFUL AND FABULOUS he's gross and dumb and if something bad happens to this silly barrier- creating puppy i'll LOSE IT"

Belo Betty: "True story: Belo Betty made me, an Aroace woman have a sexuality crisis."

Ben Beckman: Dilf, "retirement blorbo", "Benn Beckman is a religious experience", "to me? beckman is the character with the most sex appeal ever. raw sex appeal. I would [redacted] if I met this man. just sayin", "He can ruin my life any day of the week", "Also lest we forget pre TS Beck a++ quality right there I just want someone smart who will also hit a guy with a gun is that so much to ask for", "This p**** wants what she wants and its always going to be Benn “back breaker" Beckman", husband material, "men are like wine in order to get a good vintage you want the one that's aged", he had that sexy blind and reckless loyalty about him", "Beckman is a fine aged vintage of wine as men should be", "DEAR GOD the things I WOULD DO to that man LIKE [redacted] and [redacted] because [redacted] and [redacted]", "idk how to explain it but he's so wife", "benn beckman? more like benn breastman ok sorry yeah anyways. said it before and ill say it again beckman exudes raw sex appeal like jesus christ. why would you not want to fuck this man ive had lesbian friends who said he would be an exception to them which is so real his tits are big he loves his captain he STUBBED HIS CIGARETTE IN A MAN'S EYE UNDER THE GUISE OF DEFENDING HIS CAPTAIN so fucking sexy mwah mwah beckman my wife you are so hot SO HOT. in conclusion benn breastman you will forever be a top sexyguy in my head oh also forgot to add. he canonically gets bitches which is so real. he could get me any day", "Oh dear I just realised I have a thing for older men with grey hair and have substance abuse issues I choose to believe lung cancer does not exist in opu", "

Buggy: Assigned clown at birth, walking disaster, "my pathetic sniveling wet clown", my Beloved, "he has blue hair and pronouns", Failboy, "the skrunkly clown", "my clown wife", "he has that fail boy cringe", "buggy has the stronger levels of foolishness and fumbling his way to success", "the cringefail clown extraordinaire buggy", "he is silly and pathetic like a bisexual divorced dad",

Catarina Devon: "my problematic lesbian sugar mommy”,

Cracker: "if Cracker just let his hair down he'd be unstoppable i fear", "get wrecked cracker", "I am so curious about the people voting for cracker let me study you please", "cracker getting murdered as expected", "you can't do my biscuit husband like that", "i find cracker really hot"

Crocodile: desert daddy, Babygirl, "He's like if tony soprano was trans", crocodaddy, crocomommy, Big titty mob boss, He's 8ft tall and I would let he ruin me,"Mr. Sandman", "the human sandcastle," "literally has sand in his britches", "son of a beach", "World's Most Expensive Sand Sculpture", "he's got 99 problems and his hook is one of them", "casino blorbo", "I would subject myself to sandburn any day for THE SIR FUCKING CROCODILE Anakin Skywalker don't go here because I WOULD love sand if it was like 8 feet tall and had a voice like that absolutely rabid he could stick his sand in so many places and I'd thank him crocodile is one of those guys i wanted to hate so bad and then went actually no i want this guy carnally Crocodile has some weird rizz goin on and i need to climb that sandcastle", "I'm so sorry but I need to eat crocodile's pussy", "With Sir Crocodile you can have Sex on the Beach. Literally. Plus he owns a casino so you could probably sip on the cocktail version too...while getting some cocktail.", "mafia vibes and style", "crocodile's got style. class. you will be wined and dined in the most exquisite way you can imagine", "He's got DADDY vibes", " One handsome mafia boss", "I love crocodile but also i wanna punch him and i feel like hes got the sandiest pussy/dick that shit will give me a rash", "my evilest baby boy", "Crocodile invented evil trans swag just saying", "im sorry az but crocodile was my dilf awakening", "in Crocodilf we trust",

Dragon: "the revolutionary scrungle dragon",

Doflamingo: "Dofy's got some wierd (potentially fun) energy but he would NOT treat you well he'd be awful", "The psychopathic pimp on a shoestring budget. Seriously dude, San Diego Zoo called and they want their flamingos back. That coat is so last season.", "fashion travesty", "Doflamingo dresses like an eye test and will probably steal your credit card by the end of the night not because he needs the money. because he finds it hilarious", "Mingo is just a spoiled frat fuckboy who's too full of himself to be interested in anyone/anything else", "a balding white man", "evil florida man my beloved they dont understand you", "Budget Pimp who robbed San Diego of their world famous Flamingo flock"

Eustass Kid: Pirate punk, "He's a sopping wet loser", "a man wearing eyeliner and nailpolish is by definition hotter", "my scrungy little fuck", he would also probably give me an STD and it would still be worth it

Franky: " Three words light up nipples"

Fujitora: "fujitora yes plz that like calm collected way he fights makes me KNOW hed take care of his partner real good", "have you seen how he slurps his noodles? I just know he could eat me out in ways I could never imagine"

Gol D. Roger: "the "Tom Selleck" of Pirates. He mustache'd the gold somewhere. You think these puns are bad wait until you hit my NSFW tags. Can't believe no one pointed those out yet, his name is a literal gold mine of innuendo. king of pirates? nah he's the king of rogering roger this roger that roger anyone he damn well pleases he has the D", "why does no one thirst after Gol like i do? youre all weak! cowards", "sorry but i am all about his dads mustache", " I can't be the only one that wants to ride that mustache"

Jinbe: "I wanna suck on the webbing between his fingers", does anyone else contemplate how soft Jinbe's tits are to lie on or is that just me?

Kaido: "beefcake beast of a man",

Katakuri: "I'm a monsterfucker at heart", "Katakuri is literally so good man he's a family man #he's badass he's got a great sense of honour you know I had to go for the mochi man", "donut king", "KATAKURI MY MOCHI MONSTER TEETH KING CHAMPION HUSBAND THAT I WOULD CLIMB LIKE A MOUNTAIN #I'M ALWAYS ON MY CLIMBING AGENDA WITH MY ONE PIECE KINGS!", "i just know this man would treat me right we love kata", "Kata definitely ticks that hot box"

King: "King is literally the most beautiful OP character you can't change my mind", "Gotta chose the melanin yknow", "king is so ajdhjdjdjchjd bark bark bark bark", "I saw King and decided he is my blorbo", "king of my [REDACTED]", " I know he's like 20 ft tall and I'm probably the size of his d*** but it would be worth it. I would gladly choose death by snu snu for one night with him"

Killer: "big tiddy murder boyfriend",

Marco: Bird daddy "Mr. Dr. Emotionally-Stable Scrungles", "surfer hippy electric blue glasses wing flapper", "DR. MMMMM", Fineapple

Luffy: "l am in the minority here I need luffy's gomu gomu no [REDACTED]"

Mihawk: The Vampire Pirate, Goth Dad, the sword father, Pirate Dracula, the big titty goth husband, "I think mihawk would treat you right. i want mihawk to treat me right", "I love his gay wine uncle energy", "I appreciate that he dresses Like That everywhere extra ass bitch", "hot vampire cowboy pirate", Morticia Addams, "Mihawk oozes 'step on me' energy",

Robin: "she has irresistible weird girl rizz", "big tiddy archaeologist gf"

Rosinante: "my insane clumsy tall dilf", "wife material", "he has cringefail dad swag", "rosi is everything to me actually. I would climb that tall clumsy king like a tree", "the klutzy mime", "he has that pathetic depressed clown vibe thats irresistible", "He's the epiome of strong but silent, he's the asshole with a heart of gold, he has everything", rosinante is hot tho and his clumsiness somehow enhances it", "I've said it before and I'll say it again I WOULD climb that clumsy king like a tall tree want to kiss him until his silly jester makeup is all over me too", "I am loyal to the guy who actively sets himself on fire",

Sabo: "bc he said killing woth lead pipes and then he just kept doing it its the crazy for me"

Sanji: fail wife, Cooking Daddy, "I NEED sanji to f*** me to tuesday and make me dinner before and breakfast after", "The man will feed you the best meal you've ever had and genuinely compliment something about you", "His fighting style is 'kick the problem until it goes away' and he chugs Love Women Juice", "he can cook and fight and he's damn fine while doing both"

Shanks: Margaritaville Himbo, "Dilflicious", "the deadbeat malewife wifi user", "I am a whole lesbian but if there were a butch girl version of these men I would let shanks ruin my life", "favorite guy in the local frat" He's probably a walking STD risk but he's hot and I'm a slut that has a thing for red heads, "the unwashed bitch", "LOOK AT THAT SCRUFF ON SHANKS the three scars on his face that smile", "my Scrungle drunk bastard", I would volunteer to be his next baby mama you know shanks got a few a dozen red haired children all over the grand line tell me I'm wrong"

Smoothie: "ah...smoothie....or as i call her... one piece tsunade Imaoo", "ultimately my desire to be crushed by Smoothie's thighs won out", "SMOOTHIE. THANK YOU mommy long legs... gauhggfghgh......i want her to juice me pleeeeaaaseeeeeeeeeee /silly",

Silvers Rayleigh: "Silver Fox Rayleigh", "he's old but he can get it", "Rayleigh has that 'your daughter calls me daddy too' energy", "he's a gilf who married a literal queen", "rayleigh has spent his entire life SERVING CUNT", "Raiyleigh has that gilf energy despite having no kids", I need him in so many different ways I cannot list", "he has my heart around his little finger", "Rayleigh makes me howl like a dog I swear", "I mean come on look at his HAIR his GLASSES that incredible STARE even his wrinkles are hot", "Rayleigh got the 50 year anniversary in the bag idk why you would go for anything else", "helloooo????? Rayleigh is the hottest old guy in one piece please", "I would let rayleigh ruin me and I would thank him", "Rayleigh to me is more like a really smooth mead", "genuinely may be the hottest man of onep just like. objectively", "rayleigh you will always be famous for being the most fuckable old man ever. there may be dilfs galore out there but ur the only gilf in my heart", "that scene where Rayleigh gets out of the ocean shirtless After swimming to the island of women I actually said Daddy out loud",

Smoker: "Smokedaddy", "Smokestack. 'Ole Smokey. Smokin' Hot Smoker", "smokers allergy to keeping his Tits covered compels me", "i do love smoked sausage i'm sorry i'll see myself out", "smoker he's just so beefy like fuckkk and he's like almost 40 i just wanna be smokers lil housewife", "smoker is a beautiful lesbian to me", "smoked sausage I just *know* he's got more to work with than a cocktail weenie", "SMOKEYBEAR PAPA SMOKE MY KING i would smoke him like a chimney if you're pickin up what I'm putting down wink wink nudge nudge he really would kill my lungs but it'd be a fun time", "SMOKER PAPUCHO RICO I NEED HIM", "smoker is solid (despite being made of smoke)", "smoker. smo-yan. ultimate "guy who is allergic to wearing shirts" and honestly? he's so right for that. he needs to show off his tits! in a one piece man boob ranking he's coming number 2 (after crocodile) i said this in dms earlier today but it needs to be released to the world "fat d*ck fat tits fat ass he has it all" smoker is PACKINNNNN in every way he's genuinely so attractive, even just considering him physically and look at his sexy facial scar also (beck also has one. very good) and his slicked back short hair.....not to mention the things that are very endearing about him personality wise - he does masculinity like NOBODY ELSE. genuinely NO ONE does it like him like. he's gruff but he has a very strong personal moral code and he really *does* care..... the man's a tsundere and he's never been cruel to those undeserving like in his introduction - kids bumps into him, spills ice cream on his pants YOU KNOW WHAT SMOKER SAYS? YK WHAT HE SAYS? "my pants ate your ice cream." KILL ME NOWWWWWW HES SO FUCKING HOT IM EATING MY OWN HANDS and then he GIVES THE KID MONEY TO BUY MORE ICE CREAM. jesus christ smoker big d*ick big tits big heart i fucking love him good god", "something something vague moaning sounds I would call him smokey just to provoke him", "

Trafalgar Law: "DR. Slut", "He has them tattoos which makes me go fucking feral", "A stoner greasy boyfailure", "the edgy emo orphan boy with daddy issues", 'My tried stressed bitch", "law is hot because hes pathetic has tattoos and is the narrative's favorite punching", "i am DERANGED over a depressed formerly-suicidal surgeon",

Yamato: "I need my trans man big naturals...... I know nothing about one piece but yamato lives rent free in my brain and my heart at all times the only anime figure i have is of him and i don't even watch the fucking show", "he's new + he's trans + he's over 8 feet tall + he's a wolf god what more could you want?!", "he is filled to the brim with TRANSMASC SWAG", "it's transmasc dog boy swag for me he's my best boy", "Yamato's boobs call to me I need to motorboat yamato titties. whoa who said that", "yamato could crush me and i would thank him yes indeed", "I just found out Yamato is Literally a whole entire meter taller than me & that's all the convincing I need", "my canon transmasc king", "cant compete with is the fact that on top of beautiful yamato is just. fucking huge like i can not will not get over it every time i remember he's 8'7 in canon I'm like aaaAaaAaAAaAAAAaa kiss me on the mouth big boy", "as an aroace person. if yamato stepped on me id thank him. thank you for your time", "hes literally the whole reason i started watching/reading one piece

Zoro: "The President of the strawhat's local big titty committee", "The king of boobs", "Beautiful butch dyke wife", I would probably get an STD but it would be worth it, "his stupidity and gay attire make him very appealing", canonically the biggest tits in one piece, He got them big naturals, "Big honkabadonkaroo hoinkybadinkirs massive man tiddies Zoro", "Zoro oozes 'I won't let anyone hurt you' energy", "zoro is hot because of his big naturals

Zeff: "He will wine and dine me before leaving me lovingly bedridden the day after. And he actually takes care of his kid", "Zeff is honorable and can cook and clean and bathes and almost dies for a kid that's not his and then adopts him" He's got line cook energy. If you know you know

I definitely know I'm going to have to add to this since there's so many more characters and you all are definitely going to get more creative after seeing the list.

And a few observations. Why did Sanji make the daddy list and not Zoro? Characters that I thought would be short cliff notes turned into some of the longest sections And characters I thought would have some of the longest sections turned into some of the shortest ones. And I still think this was worse theyn JJK I just forget how unhinged this fandom can be because your unhinged craziness is dispersed amongst so many characters. And I haven't decided which fandom's next.

I now have my answer on why Sanji made the list and not Zoro. Overall the fandom is just thirsty so very thirsty. Hence the many updates to this list

Commentary added as of May 4th.

Characters that I never thought I would ever add to this post are on here and I am so confused. When I started this blog, I was warned that the JJK fandom was unhinged horny and thirsty AF. But in my opinion, the one piece fandom is much worse. Just look at this post for proof. One Piece you guys are definitely the thirstiest fandom by far I mean Catherine Devon has a section. You guys just hide it better than the JJK Fandom. Plus I do regret challenging a few of you to come up with tags as a joke because you definitely delivered

[cosmic-ghost-hermit]

Hey everyone. I am back for a little bit to let yall know im working on making a divination discord server. I have some other things i need to set up before i open it up to the public but im very excited to see yall there! Remember to take what resonates and leave the rest behind but always be open to new experiences. 🩵

-ghost

PILE 1

Crystal: Amethyst

Astrology: ♈️♌️♐️♒️

Vibes: 💛📝🔑💰🚧🎷🏆⚜️🔆🍻🍯🧀🍋🌦️🌻🐝🐣🐱🤲🫨🥱🍰🎾🎗️🏵️🚜🏜️🎁☢️☣️⚠️🚸🔱

Hi there, pile one! So this one is pretty dang straight forward. I see you embracing motherhood. This could be literal motherhood and you could be participating in raising a child but I also see it could be a pet. It definitely looks like it is a little bit of a surprise to everyone involved. I do need to warn you. I can see someone who says they’re on your corner trying to sabotage the situation. It could be purposeful but it also could be accidental. They could just be scared of such a big commitment. Make sure you are equally spreading out the work and everyone is carrying some of the weight of this commitment. There will be chaos if things are not equally distributed. Have everyone research how to help and read up on important information so everyone is on the same page. A village is needed to raise a child but if the village isn’t in harmony. All must be in tandem when raising a little one. If someone isn’t following along with everyone else make sure you are strict about how things are meant to be done. Do not let your village stray from the path. Keep nasty people away from this baby.

PILE 2

Crystal: Black Tourmaline

Astrology: ♉️♏️♓️♊️

Vibes: 🏳️‍🌈🌺🌈🦄💐🥗🍭🛼🎡🚦🎉🎊❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🛍️��🏩🏕️🎭🍎🍊🍋🍏🫐🍆🍇🍡🍬

Hellooo, pile 2! Your new journey is a self help adventure. You have been gaslit a lot in your life and I see you learning how to use discernment and seeing right through people's lies and straight to the truth. Your presence is becoming a truth serum for all that surrounds you. Your way more powerful than others have coerced you into believing. You have been polishing your skills in private and now you get to shine like the diamond in the rough you are. This journey might not even be something you notice as it comes and goes. You have proved yourself enough already. Allow yourself to stop filling the cups of others and take time to fill your own. If you do not you will eventually dull that shine and become just like those who coerced you. You have the choice to choose a different fate than the one they chose.

PILE 3

Crystal: Rainbow Moonstone

Astrology: ♎️♊️♏️♉️

Vibes: 💜💖🏳️‍⚧️🎀🫐🔮❄️🍆💠🍧🌸🐬🌷🪻🩵☂️🐙👙🚺👛💎🫦🦋😈💦☯️🩻💞🧷

Hi, pile 3! Your new adventure is a gender expression journey. You will be exploring femininity to its core. Femininity might not be something you are very familiar with but you are learning about using your charm and charisma to get what you desire. You are realizing how much your appearance means to you and how to use it in manifestation. It might be kind of scary to you due to some kind of trauma. I see you could be trans-feminine but i also see you being a cis woman and just afraid of what might happen if you use your appearance like that. The patriarchy is definitely terrifying so I understand the apprehension. Use your appearance for justice. Use your feminine charm for your desires. Do not fear because you are protected by spirit. I see Gaia looking after you while you explore your Empress energy.

PILE 4

Crystal: Flower Agate

Astrology: ♋️♓️♑️♒️

Vibes: 🖤❤️💯🕹️🎸♟️🎳🍉🎮🎹🍒🍓🔌🍎🚬🔥🪨👹🔪🥵🥊🛞🕷️🕸️🐞🦊👠♦️🧣🕶️💋💄♣️

Heyooo, pile 4! Oh my goodness this is exciting. Your new adventure is steeped in love. Romantic, platonic and familial love surround your lonely heart. You were a very lonely kid but now love is filling your life. Suitors are at every turn and you get to hand pick who gets to love you. Make sure you are using good discernment when choosing. Look into the future at what heart longs for and aim for it using that criteria. Your values should align with those you love and they should respect you. Don’t go for those who don't make you feel sparks. Don’t bet on boring or mean people because you deserve to be adored.

PILE 5

Crystal: Dragons Blood Jasper

Astrology: ♏️♍️♋️♌️

Vibes: 🖤🩵❤️🤍✒️⚗️📌🎹🎼💎🧲🎲🎱🧊🍷🫖🦨❄️🔥☁️🐧🦋🎒👟🕶️🪢🥼🫀🥶♠️

Pile 5, welcome to your reading. You are opening doors that you can not close. You are beginning a spiritual journey. It also looks like you are nearing the end of another journey. This journey is meant to take a lot of self reflection. You must stare into your shadow until you love it as much as you love your light. You must look at the part of you that disgust you with love and acceptance. Which believe me I am aware that is much easier said than done but you are ready! You can do this! Seek out a spiritual teacher or a therapist to show you the ropes of shadow work. Facing this alone is scary and it is much easier when you have someone to help guide you through the dark. The universe loves you and wants you to love you as much as it does.

[bubbbii]

All Of Me

title : All Of Me

pairing : Jimin x Reader

genre : enemies to lovers, kpop smut, dirty talking

warning : Doggystyle, deepthroating, choking, hair pulling, dirty talking, spitting, missionary, pu$$y eating, edging, very dirty content

Summary : Very unsure of how it’ll turn out for Y/N, she finally faces the truth and Jimin soon faces it out for her himself. By also facing the truth.

[Hey guysss!! It’s been a minute and i so apologize but i am back and starting Saturday i’m going to be uploading until i can find a fitting schedule. Love you all !!]

!PURELY FICTION! !NOT FICTION!

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“Y/N … you’re overreacting” “And how so?” “Y/N you haven’t texted anyone at all in 3 days, you’ve isolated yourself completely! What’s really going on!?” “Oh i thought i was overreacting?” Lisa sighed in defeat, as i went back to watching my show and finishing my food. But she paused it, looking at me making me sigh in defeat. “I’m your best friend .. we are all, your best friend. What’s going on?” “Yall aren’t my best friend” “WELL I AM GODAMNIT SO WHATS GOING ON!?”

I sighed, giving in as i put my bow down. “I’m afraid, ok? I tend to do this when i’m in the mode” Lisa sighed, scooting closer as she laid a hand on my thigh, rubbing her thumb comfortingly. “I know you, i know you can get. Which is why i was the first to come here and make sure you’re ok” I sighed, a soft smile appearing on my face. “Just feel like it’s best for everyone” “Yea, i get it .. but you wasn’t gonna get away with it with me. We’re going,” she put a flyer on the table, making me look at all the details.

“To BamBam’s party tonight. It’s saturday, good vibes .. and if you don’t want me with them then i will do that ok? I’m here for you” I smiled again, sighing for the 3rd time. “You don’t have too … i’ll go myself?” “Oh I’m definitely going with you” “Actually, who’s all gonna be there?” “Campus! Everyone! Including Joon, Jin, Hobi, Yoongi, Tae, Rosie, Jihyo, Chae, and Jimin” i froze at that name, sighing shakily as i looked away. “Umm .. you ok?” “Hm? Oh uh .. do i have to go?” “Y/N - wait ..” “I really don’t have to go i mean - i’ll be fine!” “You … CHAN Y/N!” My eyes widened, not daring to break eye contact.

“IT MAKES SENSE! Oh we’re definitely” I sighed right before the doorbell rung, causing Lisa to get up and open the door. I caught a glimpse of who it was and i immediately made my way to the kitchen before her voice made me stop my tracks. “Y/N” i huffed, turning around and made eye contact with the 6’0 man. “Y/N” “Namjoon” “Is she still not talking to me?” “She isn’t talking to anyone .. if i didn’t come here she wouldn’t be talking to me either” Lisa answered, opening up the door for him.

“Why are you here?” “You know i would never EVER put you in a situation to hurt you, Y/N. You mean the WORLD to me! And i am NOT the one to ignore, you know better than that” I huffed at Namjoon’s aggression. Joon was always the type to get me in check, in situations like this .. he would never go more than a week without making things right. Specially came down to me. “Do i though? Or did Jin send you here so he can get a pass too?” “Jin doesn’t make me do anything, i came here because i miss you and i care! Hobi wanted to come here first but you know me .. i beat him to it” Lisa chuckled and i put on a soft smile.

“I’m big bro for life, never forget that” Tears came in my eyes as Joon pulled me in for a tight hug. This is why he’s big bro for life. “You told her bout the party?” “Oh yea .. and she’s DEF going” we all laughed at Lisa’s answer. They calmed me down, setting me on the couch as we talked about the party. “I told her i would stay with her until she was comfortable to be around them again” “If you’re gonna do it i will too” “Joon you don’t have too” “i’m going too .. i’m not leaving you by yourself” I smiled at the both of them, kicking joon playfully making us laugh. “So .. you and Jimin huh?” i scoffed, putting down my drink. “.. I don’t know”

Jimin POV

“I still can’t believe that bastard LEFT ME to see her! I still don’t understand why he didn’t take me along with!?” “You do realize Y/N is the type to not take all at once. I’m surprised Joon hasn’t came back yet” I sighed, scrunching my hair in my hands as i thought about what could be happening. They didn’t even let me go .. which angers me. Because i wanted to go first.

“Yall upset? I WANTED TO GO BEFORE ALL OF YALL!” “Now you know damn well how that would’ve turned out” “SO LET IT TURN OUT! I know what i’m doing - that’s why we’re going to that damn party tonight because i know Lisa all too well, and i know that she’s already convinced her to go so guess what im about to do” I expressed, huffing as i plopped back down in the stool seat. I’m pissed. “W-Well let’s just sit and calm down ok? She’s not that pissed .. right?”

Hobi’s phone rung, making him pick it up and look at the caller ID. “Who?” “Joon” he responded as i got up and went beside him and he answered the phone. “Joon?” “Hey .. she’s doing ok guys, we convinced her to come to the party” Me and hobi looked at each other as i looked at him with my ‘i told you so’ face. “Alright .. tell her i said i love her, we all love her .. and ill meet you when we’re getting ready” “Rodger that” he hung up, making us sigh as i leaned against the counter. “I know one thing,” i started, sitting up and looked at Hobi.

“It’s about to get reaaaaal truthful in this peace” I finished before leaving the kitchen and into the living room. Oh REAL truthful.

Time Skip

-Party-

“Guys … this is crowded, than crowded” We walked in and the house is packed. To the bone. “Our campus isn’t that big” “Well no shit obviously he invited like one other campus” I responded to Rose, pushing past the group gently to get a good look at the environment, looking for one person. I soon spotted Joon, then Lisa, then Y/N. I locked eyes with her, seeing her pupils widen a little before looking away, i knew exactly. “You see them?” “Yea they over there” I responded to Hobi, still looking at her. She was gorgeous. Hobi’s phone started to ring, seeing Joon’s contact.

“Hello?” “Yea we’re here” “Us too .. i wanna go over there, ask Y/N if she’s ok with that” I soon saw Y/N’s eyes dart to where we were. “Hey man .. can i go !?” I asked Joon as i took it from Hobi. “Jimin you know how this goes” I sighed, rolling my eyes as anger rose in me. That’s ok .. i got a better plan anyway. “Hobi come” We fist bumped before he went over there. “I know you’re upset” “HELL YEA! But that’s ok , i got a better plan anyway” I answered Tae, us going to the rest.

Y/N POV

I’m sipping the drink they handed me as “Blick Sum” by Latto blasted in the house. I soon felt a presence, a familiar, joyful presence that made me turn around and saw Hobi slowly approaching us. I sighed, gulping as tears wanted to form, but i held myself together. “Hey.. Y/N” i smiled, sighing as i looked into his sorrow eyes. “Hey hobi” His eyes started to tear up, looking away as he held it together. He’s such an emotional soul … that’s why i love him so much. “H-Hope you’re holding up well” Hoseok crocked out, taking a big sigh as i continued to smile at him.

“Come here” He immediately ran into my arms as i hugged him tightly. He gives the best hugs. “I’m sorry i-i didn’t think it’ll end like this and -“ “Shhh it’s ok, you’re ok” I squeezed him before letting him go and he wiped his tears. “Y-You’re not mad?” “Never at you .. i love you too much” We both smiled as Lisa came beside me to hold me. “Where are the others?” “WE’RE HERE!” I heard Rose’s voice ring in my ear as i turned and her and Chanmi came running into my arms, hearing chanmi sniffle as i hugged them tight. “We missed you” “We apologize i mean we didn’t think you were gonna do this and -“ “Shh .. i missed my girls” They hugged me, wiping their eyes.

“Oh, Jin” “My child oh my god” Jin hugged me next, feeling the warm embrace of him. “I love you dearly, and you know that” “Of course i do, and promise .. it’s behind me” I said softly , feeling his wam hands cup my red cheeks. “I MISSED YOU GIRL! I GOT DRUNK ALONE!” “Finally off my back now that everything is good again” “I missed you the most yoongles” i hugged them both as i ruffled Tae’s hair. “Now that you’re back, you can finally go back to my workout lessons” “I should smack you upside your head with that dumbbell” We laughed as me and Kook did our handshake and he hugged me like a little baby making me chuckle.

The rest came, hugging me as we talked and had conversation. “Hey Hobi where is the keys -“ I locked eyes with the person i least expected to see , my eyes narrowing the more i held contact. “So i see you all, comforted ?” “Get the keys” Hobi handed it to Jimin as he still chose to stare me down. “Where’s my hug at?” “You don’t get one” “Awwh why? I want one! I haven’t heard from you in weeks” “That’s good” i spat at him, handing my drink to Yoongi as i got up and walked away. He’s lucky he’s cute.

Author POV

Jimin watched her leave, letting her go for a little bit. “Oh don’t tell me you’re just gonna sit there and let her go” “You know better” Jimin responded to Kook, fist bumping Hobi before slowly walking towards where Y/N stormed herself at. He found her talking to someone, his eyes lowering figuring out it was a male. Jimin’s plan popped up in his head, slowly walking towards to where they were and slowly appeared behind her. “You mind if you move away?” Jimin asked, not really asking. More like demanding.

The guy went away within a heartbeat, Y/N glaring at Jimin before trying to escape, but Jimin was faster. He grabbed her arm turning her around as his eyes never left hers. “What Jimin” “Why are you acting this way?” “Like what !?” “LIKE YOU DONT CARE!” Jimin yelled at Y/N , having her token back at the sudden move. “LIKE YOU DONT GIVE A FUCK!? Not a care in the world! I FUCKING SUFFERED!” “WELL I SUFFERED TO GODAMN IT I KNOW HOW IM FEELING” “Oh trust me i know how you’re feeling, YOU’RE JUST TO STUBBORN TO KNOW I FEEL THE SAME WAY!” Y/N gulped, her eyes softening a little.

“I LOVE YOU .. LONG ENOUGH! IVE BEEN DOWNING THE DAMN TRUTH DOWN MY FUCKING THROAT FOR LONG ENOUGH!” Jimin continued to yell, seeing her eyes soften. “I let it out, because i know you’re still downing it too … when are you gonna look at me differently? Y/N …” Jimin trailed off, sighing to himself before slowly past her. But Y/N was quicker. She pulled him by his arm and they were inches.

“Show me … show me that YOU care” Y/N whispered aggressively at Jimin, her hands drawing his black hair back, seeing Jimin’s eyes turn hungry and lustful. “There’s a lot of things that i rather not speak about but if there’s one thing i would say, daddy,” she started, hearing Jimin’s breath hitch at the nickname as she kissed the corner of his lips softly. “Is that you reminded me who i was” That broke Jimin.

And you’re wondering, how so? Let me give you a little background.

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“Fuckkkk oh my god just like that, just like that daddy yes! Yes!” Jimin hungrily sucked her pussy, slobbering and biting all over as his moans vibrated her. “Yea you like that, you like me deep in it yea? That pussy missed me, i know that pussy miss me huh” Y/N moaned at the dirty words, pushing her head back as Jimin continued to suck her out like no tomorrow. “This is a-amazing, fuck .. i wanna cum” “Oh you wanna cum for daddy? You wanna cum for me baby?” “Yess daddy yes please, let me cum in your mouth please!” “Cum for me baby, you can do it” Y/N moans got louder and soon exploded in his mouth, feeling his hums vibrate against her.

“Seems like you haven’t forgotten” “Of course i haven’t” Jimin smirked, taking both tits in his hand, sucking them gently having Y/N moan softly at the sensitivity. He gave them attention for a while, going up to her neck and sucked on her sweet spot hearing her moan louder than before. “Ooou fuck!” “There you go, my good girl” Y/N whimpered at the praise, feeling his lips connect with hers once again as he rubbed his tip against her entrance. “You’re gonna put it in?” “I’m gonna put it in, and you’re gonna take it all like a good girl, understand?” “Yes” “Yes what” “Yes daddy” “Good girl”

He put it all the way in, hearing him hiss at the pleasure and Y/N grab his arms clawing her fingers in his skin. “Fuck .. you grew, shit” “And you got tighter, looks like i need to loosen her a little bit” He did a couple of thrusts, making her yelp at the sudden move. “Give me a warning first!” “Fuck it” He snapped his hips, making her back arched as he pounded into her pussy with no mercy. “It feels so good, so fucking good!” “You like that shit? You fucking bitch i don’t wanna hear anyone could fuck you like this you understand? You belong to me” He turned me around, grabbing me by the hips and keeping his pace like before.

Never knew how much Y/N missed this till now.

“I don’t know if i’m gonna last long, I think i’m close, daddy!” “You’re gonna cum? You’re gonna cum for me again hm? Feel that dick, you got it” His pace slowed a little but his thrusts became powerful, having a ball of hair wrapped around his hand leaving her back arched. Y/N just knew they wasn’t done. “I’m cumming .. i’m cumming - Daddy!” She was lost of words, she didn’t know what to say. “That’s my good girl come for daddy baby, gimme that nut” Jimin went faster and She soon soaked his cock, jolting and shaking at the intense orgasm as Jimin chuckled in victory.

“Good girl, that’s my good girl” He pushed her back in, his pace consistent as his high was almost reached. “Cum in me .. daddy i-in me” Y/N whimpered, looking behind her as she tightened her pussy around his cock making him hiss. “Fuck .. fuck you know how to get me” “Please cum in me, daddy please, i need you. I need you daddy please” “There you go good girl - fuck i’m cummin” He got more aggressive and soon came inside her, his pace slowing down but his thrusts got more powerful, pushing his cum deep inside her. “That’s my good girl, good job take all of it” Y/N clenched around him, squeezing more cum outta him hearing him moan softly at the action.

“Fuck, yes good girl baby. Such a good slut for me yea?” Y/N moaned softly at the praise, feeling his kisses down her back and to her cheek. “You wanna stop?” He asked gently, turning her on her back she felt the gentle kisses down her jawline. “N-No .. no - i still need you” “I know baby i know it’s been so long, it’s been so long i’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything” She kissed him, cutting him off as they spent the time kissing on each other.

They needed this, consider, everything that’s happen between them.

“I don’t wanna go back, i need you. I want you - start over with me .. lemme give you a chance to look at me differently, give you all of me” Y/N smiled, kissing him softly before connecting her forehead with his. “I already have” Jimin smiled, his eyes disappearing as the two enjoyed the heartfelt moment, connecting their lips once more. Jimin loved every single moment. “Will you be mine?” Y/N hummed, rubbing his cock with her foot making Jimin’s body jolt a little. “I’ll consider” He smirked, flipping her over her stomach. “How about now?” She chuckled nervously, feeling him softly kiss the outside of her ear.

“I-I guess i’ll consider”

[ionlyeverwantedtobeyourequal]

Don’t ever tell yourself that you’re not enough, I am certain that you’re truly fine

PART SEVEN

Ot8 x reader

Word count: 650

Just a warning, this is my first fanfic! Does have age regression themes so if you’re not a fan, I ask that you respectfully just don’t read <3 also this will definitely have some angst

!THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION!

“Maybe we should go…” Felix speaks up almost quietly, feeling like they’re now invading a conversation that should be private.

You look at Han, trying to search anywhere that he’s just messing with you. But you know that Han would never do that, never say something with so much emotion just for it to be a stupid prank in the end.

The others gradually leave the room, Changbin having to be dragged out by Hyunjin. Once it’s just you and Han, alone, his brown glassy eyes start looking deep into yours. “I would never lie to you about that…” Han says softly, his face serious yet gentle.

“How long?” You ask, your voice barely a whisper as if you still don’t believe Han. It’s hard to believe that the guy you been in love with since you first laid eyes on him, would like you back.

He takes a shaky breath as he starts to slightly fidget, something he tends to do when his anxiety starts to act up. “R-Remember when you came to my house for Christmas a-and we spent the whole time in my room watching different anime’s?”

You nod and blush at the memory.

“You fell asleep, snuggled up against me…”

Han continues, his voice shaky as if he’s afraid to voice his feelings. “That was when, uhh, you know… when I started to fall for you…”

“Ji, that was not even a week after we first met.” You say softly, your mind going wild.

He nervously laughs, now avoiding looking into your eyes. “Was it?” He ask anxiously, as if he didn’t know that himself.

“If that’s the case, I win.” You say proudly, trying to lessen his anxiety, taking the weight out of the conversation.

Han looks at you confused, “you win? What do you mean “you win”?”

“I’ve been in love with you longer,” you say with a smile as you notice his anxiety slowly fade to shock.

“I didn’t know this was a competition, princess.” Han says with a smirk, now he starts to sit by you. “All this time, I didn’t say anything because I didn’t want to ruin what we have.”

You nod, turn on the couch to face him. “It seems like we both didn’t say anything for nothing,” you say laughing.

After a while, things become serious again. “So where does that leave us?” Han ask, looking soft into your eyes.

“Where do you want it to leave us?” You ask. You never were good at making decisions, but Han never was good either.

“The right option is for yall to go on a date, but what do I know.” Minho says, walking back into the living room. He’s been eavesdropping the whole time.

Han and your heads snap into his direction. “Hyung, how long have you been there?” Han ask, his cheeks turning red.

Minho pretends to think, “practically the whole time. I had to make sure my babies were leading themselves in the right direction.”

“My babies” makes you and Han blush. Though Minho said it in a teasing tone, there’s still a hint of truth to it. Han knows your little crush on Minho just like you know of Han’s crush on Minho.

“It’s not a good thing to eavesdrop, Min.” You say softly, laughing a bit which causes Minho to playfully hold up hands up.

“In my defense…” he starts to say then puts his hands back, “yeah I don’t have an excuse… other than wanting to make sure things were going good here.”

Han and you look at eachother, then back at Minho. “Things are pretty good, I think.” Han tells Minho.

Minho starts to walk back but turns around, “okay I lied, well I didn’t but I have a real reason for being here.” He comes back and sits in another couch, facing us. “I want to go with yall on yall date.”

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Best and Worst of Both worlds (part 9)

Tw: monty being a fuckin creep, vomiting, the girls are fightingggg, so blood and violence, yves being a dick and elitist, using the word queer in a derogatory manner

DAMN i was expecting the votes to be like to go to the uni cause Yves is hottest choice rn

anyways if u guys read the original series where Monty was from, u would know he's like a sub but his behavior depends on the reader, he's actually a switch

tanks for reading, pls send in anon asks, reblog or comments i love 2 hear yalls thoughts and it keeps me going PLSPLSPLS I AM DESPERATEEE

Part 10

The mall it is. You've been visiting the university too much to escape your home and to take your dreaded exams, despite having air conditioning, you're going to feel miserable there. You barely have friends in the university aside from Yves. A change of scenery would be nice, to note down the things you wanted for yourself.

You tried to decide how you feel about Yves. The urge to run away from him and hide is there, but it's not as strong anymore. Because he already saw it all. The mold, your room, your tears, your puke... you can't possibly embarrass yourself again to that degree, right? The worst should be over.

And, he did say it himself; he is interested in you too. So... it should be safe to proceed with this weird relationship. You think. He's already doing way more than what a lover typically does, let alone someone who you barely went on a first date with.

You shouldn't be afraid of bumping into him. He's not going to bite your head off, you hope.

And speak of the devil, you received a text from him.

"(Name), this is Yves. I hope you slept well. Please reply to me as soon as you wake up."

You bit the inside of your cheek, you held onto your bag tightly as the bus drove over a hump.

It's not like he could see that you read it. You don't know what he is going to say next, once you respond.

But it's rude to just leave him hanging like that. He's probably going to find out you're ignoring him anyways.

Might as well text him back. You told him that you're now awake. He must be a fast typer because you received a message a few seconds later.

"Good afternoon, how are you feeling?"

You replied that you're feeling fine.

"I assume you are currently resting at home?"

You don't know if you should lie. But then he could easily find out the truth by asking your housemates. So you let out a defeated sigh and told him the half-truth. You said no. That was it, you didn't elaborate further.

"Where are you? Did you at least apply sunscreen?"

You replied that you're now getting off the bus. You're going to text him back later. After that, you put your phone into your pocket.

You walked away from the bus stand and looked at the billboards littered all over the area. It takes a six-minute walk to get to the Mall, maybe a bit longer because your usual path is blocked by a construction job. The workers gave the pedestrians an alternative pathway to travel.

As you start walking, you wonder why was the bus stop never built directly in front of its entrance. It's such a nuisance to get there if you don't own a car.

You frown because the sun is beating against your head, you're among a group of people being funneled into this other path and you're starting to overheat. You remembered Yves packed a UV ray-blocking umbrella, so you went ahead and took it out. You opened it and shielded yourself from the rays, sighing in relief as you felt coolness instantly wash over you.

You were minding your own business and fighting your own inner demons until suddenly a large hand clamped itself onto your shoulder. You let out a surprised yelp and a jolt at the unexpected contact, this cannot be Yves's because it's too calloused and careless, mildly hurting you in the process.

"Joe?"

Who?

You turned whipped your head to the back and saw the person who paid for your poisoned meal. He took your umbrella off your hands, making you hiss at the sun.

"It really is you!" His eyes lit up and the corners of his mouth curled up into a wide, happy grin. "How ya' been? I didn't see you yesterday. Where were ya?"

You eyed him up and down, he's in uniform.

"I'm on my break right now." His hand guided your back. "C'mon, let me treat you lunch."

You said that you had food poisoning from the place you ate with him. And you asked what he meant by "Didn't see you yesterday".

His jaw dropped in shock at your words.

"It really sucks to hear that, so that's why you look a lil' too thin today. I guess you're just not used to their cookin'. I was fine and dandy." You and him seem to move along with the crowd aimlessly.

You repeated your question about what he meant by not seeing you yesterday.

"I came by your school 'cause I got you some Chinese. I couldn't find ya' and no one seems to know who the hell was I talkin' about. Why didn't ya' call me? I was waitin' all night for your voice."

Luckily you gave him the fake name of "Joe M." on your first meeting with him. But it's not like he would have gotten any information on you anyway, you're invisible in your university. Unless he happened to come across Yves, which you doubt he will divulge him about you.

You just said 'oh'.

"Hope you're feelin' better though. Hey, I know a great place to get some hearty chicken soup. It's gotta be good for your belly, it sure helped me when I'm sick as a dog." You took notice of his deepening southern accent.

You're starting to feel uncomfortable around this man, he's wrapping his arm around your shoulder like he's your boyfriend.

You said that you were full, you had something to eat earlier.

"Aw shucks. That's fine, I'll just hang out with you till my break's over." He ruffled your hair affectionately, laughing as you tried to smoothen it out.

You don't like him. Who does he think he is? You're barely even acquaintances with him. But you think it's safer to play along until you find an opportunity to escape, there is no way you could fight off a 6'5 man who lifts steel pillars for a living.

"You got any plans this weekend? I wanna take you out to have fun, you must've spent all your time studyin', and that's good! Education is important. But you gotta loosen up a little 'cause life is short!" Montgomery is either oblivious to or disregards your uncomfortable body language.

You said you made plans already. He momentarily looked dejected, but he reverted back to his cheerful self when he thought of something.

"What about next week? I heard there is a festival goin' on by the pier. There's going to be a Ferris wheel, cotton candy, funnel cakes--"

You decided to rip the bandaid off and straight up tell him that you're not interested in pursuing a relationship with him. Since there were witnesses, you wriggled out of his hold and waited to see what he would do to you. Hoping that he would just respectfully leave you alone but expecting to be angrily punched right in front of everyone.

He was stunned, speechless for a moment until there was a strange glimmer in his eyes that was concealed by his shaggy, brown hair.

"...You're playing hard to get."

A horrified, incredulous look crossed your face. Absolutely not! What makes him think of you that way? You took a couple steps backward as he tried to get closer.

"I see how it is, sweetheart. You want me to chase you, don't ya'?" He playfully pinched both of your cheeks. You wince, struggling to pull his hands off.

You genuinely do not understand why he has this impression of you. As anyone would do, you vehemently denied it.

"Aww, look at you. Red-faced and all." He giggled, grabbing you by the wrist and pulling you away from the main foot traffic so he could toy with you in private. "If you weren't into me, you would have left me to die that night. I may not be the richest or the most handsome..." his smile faltered when it came to the topic of his looks. "...but I know you saw something in me! I'm gonna make sure you don't regret saving me!" You're already regretting being born.

You called him crazy, anyone would have helped him! You're no one special, he teasingly rolled his eyes.

"Yeah, keep telling yourself that, beautiful. Anything to help you sleep at night."

You were adamant that you're not interested and you already have a boyfriend! But this doesn't seem to faze him, he just bent down to your level and placed his hands behind his back.

"Oh yeah? Where is he then? Get outta here, you don't have one. At least, not yet." He winked at you.

Yeah. He is impossible to reason with.

You argued that you do. In fact, he is right behind Montgomery!

He's definitely not believing you, but he turns around anyway to see... no one, as expected.

"I don't see him, do you-- huh?" He was momentarily dumbfounded when all there was in front of him was air.

You managed to blend in with the crowd and successfully entered the mall. You ran into the nearest retail store and hid behind one of the shelves. Everyone was too busy shopping to care what someone shaking like a leaf was doing crouching in the baby and maternal department.

Your hand trembled as you pulled your phone out to see Yves sent you another text.

"Take care. Send me a text message as soon as possible. I will give you a call fifteen minutes later if I do not hear from you by then."

It's been 12 minutes since he sent that text. The next reasonable course of action is to seek comfort and safety from Yves. You thought Montgomery was unhinged and delusional, he thinks you're his just because you saved him that night. You cared as much as everyone else, no one wanted to see another person die if they could help it! But he took it as some ultimate love confession for him.

Then you realize that you should have run as soon as you first rejected him. You hit yourself on the head, he must have thought all the attention you gave him trying to explain yourself was a green light for him to go forward!

You called yourself stupid for not catching this earlier. There's not much you could do now except tell Yves you don't feel safe.

You texted Yves your exact location, even down to the aisle and section. Your texts are a series of panic-induced typos begging him to pick you up because you're scared.

"I will be there in 15 minutes. Is it safe for me to call you?"

You disregarded that text and just dialed his number.

"(name)?" It was so good to hear his smooth, calm voice. Your blood pressure momentarily dropped but rose back again after remembering why you called him in the first place.

You frantically explained what had happened, even your first meeting with Montgomery and the takeaway that gave you food poisoning. Spilling everything even though you didn't mean to, but you're just scared and trapped in a store. You felt upset that he had the umbrella, you apologized and-

"Raise your hand above your head for me, please." He cut you off. You did exactly what he asked, now distracted from your ranting.

"Inhale, following my count." He counted up to four.

"Hold." He counted to seven.

"Exhale." You breathed out for eight seconds. He repeated the cycle a few more times until he could tell you calmed down. Montgomery wouldn't find you from where you're hiding.

"Very good." He praised. "You may put your hand down."

You forgot about that, so you quickly retract your arm to your side.

"I will stay on the line with you until I arrive. Do you understand, (name)?" You gulped and said a shaky yes.

"Stay where you are. You're safe there." He continued. Yves sounded so confident in his answers that you can't help but trust him fully.

You wished you had friends. You wouldn't need to solely rely on him if you did.

"What did you think of the breakfast I made for you?" He asked, in a tone and cadence as if he was casually chatting up with his partner about their day. But you can tell he's speeding through the highways by the intense humming of his car engine.

You said that it's nice. You thanked him for taking care of you.

"I'm happy you enjoyed it. I will be making chicken soup for you tonight, did you apply sunscreen before leaving the house?"

You paused for a while, trying to remember what you did. You eventually tell him no.

"It is important for you to protect your skin. Remember to do so next ti--"

The call suddenly dropped. Your heart started beating wildly again, what happened? You pulled your phone away from your ear and looked at the screen.

You let out a visceral scream that caught everyone's attention, your phone battery is dead.

Seeing that you caused a scene, you flee the store out of embarrassment, forgetting about Yves telling you your original spot is the safest place for you to be in. Now with no means of contacting your savior and being out in the open like this, your brain starts to short-circuit. You begin running aimlessly in no particular direction.

All this stress and explosive physical exertion on you right after a bout of illness is making you queasy again.

But you kept going, just... roaming around while periodically looking over your shoulders. Customers and staff alike were staring at you, thinking that you were suffering from some sort of inner turmoil or drug abuse issues. However, they knew better than to intercept.

However, you focused too much on your back, and not too much on the front.

You slammed into a sturdy pillar, lost your balance, and fell back onto your rear.

"Whoa! You alright?" Except that pillar can speak. And it was the last person you want to see right now. Concern riddled his face as he crouched down to help you up. "This is fun and all, but you gotta watch where you're goin-"

At that moment, your stomach decided to empty itself onto Montgomery's chest. He grimaced as you continued to spew and release more vomit from your mouth.

--

Yves knows where you are. He knew your phone battery died, Yves is just mildly annoyed he didn't catch the fact that one of your room outlets was faulty. It so happened to be the one you used to charge your phone.

Yves pushed the door of the mall's clinic open, glaring daggers at Montgomery as he spotted him waiting on the bench, covered in your puke; noting his filthy fingers wrapping the handle of your bag. He was taken aback by this sudden hostility from an apparent stranger, he looked at Yves confused, what did he ever do to him? Was he offended that he happened to be covered in someone else's throw-up? What a stuck-up bitch!

Yves took his wallet out of his handbag and walked up to the receptionist. He shared a few hushed words with her and spared a couple of unkind glances for Montgomery. The woman behind the counter had both eyebrows raised momentarily before she nodded and picked up a phone. While speaking to someone unknown on the other side of the line, she accepted Yves's credit card.

Soon after, she handed him a clipboard and a pen. He had to sign something before receiving a receipt.

Montgomery looked him up and down with equal animosity, his eyes trailing behind Yves as he took the seat opposite of him.

The dark-haired male elegantly crossed his legs and rested his hands on his knee. Now a blank expression took over his beautiful face. Montgomery took note of his feminine demeanor including his usage of makeup. He somehow deluded himself that he was better than Yves even though he was hunched over, resting his forearms on his thighs while spreading his legs.

Montgomery tried to look away and ignore this stranger. But he couldn't, because Yves was burning holes through his head with his constant stare.

This really ruffled Montgomery's feathers. He's clearly trying to start something.

"What the hell is your problem?"

All eyes landed on Montgomery. Young or old, they're now invested in this sudden outburst.

"What do you mean?" Replied Yves calmly as he tilted his head to the side to feign ignorance.

"You're lookin' at me like you wanted to fight!" Montgomery finally sat up straight while accusing Yves. Meanwhile, the graceful man placed a hand on his chest to express disbelief.

"I do not understand this explosive reaction from you, I have done nothing wrong." Yves's long eyelashes fluttered as he blinked, already winning the hearts of the public. It ticked Montgomery off so bad. For some reason, this androgynous person is making him angrier than usual. Maybe it's because Yves's old money aura reminded him of every city girl and boy who fucked him over emotionally, socially, financially, or physically.

It was quite unusual, Montgomery would usually just not engage with these citizens. But today, Yves is exceptionally infuriating while doing the least. He even smelled the same as those rich bastards, they all must be using the same cologne.

A mere five minutes had elapsed since they first met, yet Montgomery despised him with every fiber of his being.

Yves knows his own effect on the construction worker.

"Don't play with me! You had that stupid look on your face, what have I done to you, huh!?" He rose from his seat.

A ghost of a smile graced Yves's otherwise serious face. That simpleton took the bait.

"Please calm down. You're causing a scene out of nothing." Yves continued provoking him. Mothers began to leave the room with their children, and other patients quietly changed their seats to be further away from the two men.

"Why you-" Something distracted him from his rage.

Yves turned his head and saw you slowly dragging yourself out of the hallway, carrying a prescription slip in one hand and cradling your stomach in the other. You look pale and exhausted as you limp towards the waiting room.

"Joe!" Montgomery called out for you. "Are you alright? What did ya' doctor say?"

You were spooked, you froze in your tracks. Not noticing that Yves is a few steps away from you.

"Dear." You snapped your neck to the source of the quiet but assuring voice. Yves is now standing tall, his arms open for you to run into.

And so, you did. You buried your face in his chest, refusing to see the other man. Yves had a pleased smile as he picked your prescription script from your hands, he slid it into his handbag. Right after, he wrapped his arms around you.

The room was eerily quiet. Everyone was holding their breaths, wondering what was going to happen.

You felt Yves stroke your hair. But you couldn't see or hear anything. So you lift your head a little to see what was going on, he rested his palm on your shoulder.

Montgomery has his eyes open so wide staring at your boyfriend. His mouth is open but soundless. The veins on his forehead and arm were throbbing while he trembled uncontrollably.

"Do you know him, my love? He seems dangerous. You know you shouldn't mingle around men like him, they're usually raised by dysfunctional families- sometimes, they don't even have one." Yves asked you, soft enough for no one else to hear, but loud enough that his pathetic excuse of a rival absorbed every word. This was the last straw for Montgomery.

Finally, he dropped your bag to the ground before launching himself against Yves. Your boyfriend pushed you out of harm's way as he allowed himself to get tackled by the unstable male.

Yves closed his eyes as he took a devastating punch to the face, he was flung to the side from the force and it left a reddish mark on his once pristine face.

"Fuck you! The fuck you mean that's 'your love', you don't mean shit to them!" Montgomery yelled in Yves's ear, and a struggle ensued between them.

Screams and shouts filled the clinic, and the patients present all ran out of the room. Those who stayed tried to film the tussle. Some doctors and customers poked their heads out of the consultation rooms to see what the commotion was all about.

Whereas you grabbed your bag and went outside, securing your safety behind the tempered glass walls.

"You think you better than me?! I'll teach you a fucking lesson to be humble!" Montgomery swung at him again, but Yves dodged in time and utilized his long, slender legs to trip him. Now that he has gotten what he wanted out of this scenario, Yves allows himself to defend his own body.

He got up fairly quickly and tried to land another punch, but Yves grabbed his wrist on time and used minimal force to twist his arm against his back. Montgomery cried out in pain as his limb was contorted to an unnatural position. Being an opportunist, Yves took his chance to strike his broken rib using the side of his hand.

This made Montgomery's legs buckle on itself. You silently cheered for Yves as he subdued the creep on the cold hard tiles.

He pressed a heel against his chest, right behind on fractured bone. So Montgomery was powerless against him.

Yves reached for his handbag and pulled his phone out. He dialed emergency services and reported Montgomery as being aggressive, being a danger to the general public.

"Bullcrap! Fuck you asshole! I will kill you!" Screeched the man currently being stepped on and humiliated in front of his object of obsession. Unfortunately for him, the operator heard his threat towards Yves, increasing your boyfriend's credibility.

He tried to grab his leg, but Yves only drove his sharp heel deeper into his ribs, knocking the air out of him and making stars appear in his vision.

At the same time, the mall security arrives with their batons.

They took over from there, it took more than ten of them to try and get Montgomery under control. He was like a bull seeing red, only goal was to try and disfigure the pretty boy's face as much as possible.

He was forcefully expelled from the premises while kicking, howling, and straining. You saw the tears of anguish in his eyes as he cussed everyone out for treating him as subhuman, he wished horrible fates on all who witnessed but stood by. He was shouting incoherently about having everything stolen from him by the rich, he had one thing good going on but a billionaire had to come along and take you away from him.

He vowed to take what was rightfully his and punish the bad, especially Yves who he referred to as "That fucking queer freak".

Eventually, though, his yelling became inaudible as he got further and further away. The others returned to their day, dispersing as nothing else interesting was going on.

You walked up to Yves, who is now gently dabbing his bleeding nostrils with a folded piece of tissue. He smiled at you, caressing your cheek with his thumb.

"Well done." He praised. Disposing of the soiled napkin into a trashcan nearby.

You said you didn't contribute to anything good. In fact, you're the one who caused all this.

"Don't think too lowly of yourself." He picked up a hairbrush from his bag and started fixing your hair. You looked at his face.

The patch around his nose and under his left eye is already starting to bruise, swelling to a degree that he can only see out of his right. Red dripped down his chin and onto the floor, splattering into many dots.

You look around and see the broken pot, flipped chair, and scattered magazines.

You shudder, asking Yves if you could go home.

"Not yet, (name). The police should be here soon, they have to take my statement." He invited you into his arms, and you snuggled into him as his blood dripped onto you too.

"I packed you something to eat." He softly pried you off him. Reaching for his handbag once again, he retrieved a square container before handing it to you.

You opened it to see a sandwich. It's intentionally bland to accommodate your current weak stomach. As if on cue, your belly growled. However, Yves stopped you from devouring it.

"Always sanitize your hands before eating." He squeezed a good amount of hand sanitizer on your palms. Yves only handed the meal back to you after he was satisfied with your application.

You sit on a chair as you take bites off it. Yves sat next to you too, this time he was tidying his luscious black hair with the same brush and compact mirror.

You continued munching on as you heard distant sirens growing louder.

[hostilecandle]

Howdy! Welcome to my blog!

Y'all can call me Cain! I'm a happily married gay man who also happens to be gif maker, fic writer, and fanartist :) You can find my Masterlist of ALL my fics, art, drabbles, and gifs from all of my accounts below the cut as a central hub!

Currently vibing in the Call of Duty fandom, but this is not a singular fandom blog and I tend to just post whatever I feel like at the time. This includes NSFW content as well.

I do take ask requests for writing and art. Open to most things so don't be afraid to send an ask :)

All my Commission Info is linked right here!

☆I'm in my mid 20s and have dyslexia lol

☆I was in a car accident a few years ago that has left me an ambulatory wheelchair user. I talk openly about this and my experiences about that

☆I went to university for traditional theater and have been a state sanctioned judge for Forensic acting and Public Speaking (I often use these skills and experiences to discuss character analysis and have open conversations about acting)

☆(This one is mainly important because I'm currently in the CoD fandom) I am VERY anti-war but talk openly about my experiences growing up in a conservative and strict military household on a farm in the Midwest of the United States.

☆I'm a reader. I read all the time, can't get enough. I love curling up on the couch with something to read and a fresh cup of tea :)

-I DO NOT tolerate harassment or censorship of any kind. If you're one of those individuals who scream and cry about "propshippers" or "problematic content" my blog is not a safe place for you.

-I don't have a limit on ages (kinda). Look, I also remember being a horny teen on the internet. Hell I was in a conservative home with no other outlet so I get it. THAT BEING SAID: My rule is don't be stupid. If I know or find out you're a minor following me, I will block you. Have some basic internet safety and common sense. You know what is and is not a space for you. Don't be dumb about it. (SERIOUSLY STOP PUTTING YALLS REAL NAME AND AGES!! ARE SCHOOLS NOT TEACHING THIS ANYMORE?!)

-Don't be an asshole. Treat me with respect and I will offer the same. But I have no problem being an absolute cunt myself and I block liberally :)

ALL Masterlists below the cut! [includes Call of Duty, Palia, Gladiator II, Saltburn, The Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent]

A03 Link [Here]

Twitter Link [Here]

NSFW CoD Twitter [Here]

Palia Side Account [Here]

Gladiator II Side Account [Here]

All Dividers/Resources Blog Links I use can be found [Here] (All credits are also given on each individual post. This is just for people to find their blogs easily)

Call of Duty

This Truth Is So Well Fixed - Price x M! Reader Regency Au

Palia

Kindling [Hodari Pavel x Reader]

Espresso [Hodari Pavel x Reader] ch1 ch2 ch3 ch4

Call of Duty

Got A Light? - Spicy Price x GN! Reader

My Price Headcannons - What it says on the tin lol

Sick - 141 members would taking care of sick GN! Reader

Swap - 09 and Reboot Soap swap places

Office hours - Spicy Price x M! Reader

Dark Waters Au- Mermay 141 concept

Palia

Not really a drabble per se but long post about how Hodari is Definitely™ autistic

Call Of Duty

Poly!141 Pacific Rim Au

Ghoap character sheet-Pacific Rim Au

The General Zapped Soap

141 Debrief meme

Pin-up Price

Ghost Concept sketch

Dark Waters Au Price

Dark Waters Au Gaz

Palia

Pavel Christmas Card

Nsfw/Nsft Hodari

Reth

Najuma

My OC, Adam

Hodari -Gladiator II Au pt 1 pt 2

Phone Wallpapers: Nai'o Jel Reth Hassian

Gladiator II

The Toy General

GIFS/Edits

The Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent

Javi singular

Javi Gutiérrez gifset pt1

Gladiator II

Acacius edit

Saltburn

Licked the plate

Love Story

Minotaur stills

Icarus stills

[Dividers by the-aesthetics-shop, cafekitsune, and drizztdohurtin]

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

OKAY! Okay. I’m back and I HHHHH I am back from my Mirage Mews Comic Review and I f-hhh I FOUND! GOOPY! MEW! MAYBE??? And I don’t know how to feel??? BUT ALSO! HHHHNNNN! MY THEORYYYYY! AAAGHHHH! I-! Ok if I’m too close to the truth plz don’t feel like you have to post this because of spoilers but I ADFSKG AAAAHHHH! I AM SO CONFLICTED WITH THIS DISCOVERY??? I AM AFRAID! BUT ALSO EXCITED???? BUT IF I’M RIGHT…AT WHAT COST??? I just… Just… Here’s what I’ve got.

Observe the circle

Are you looking?

ARE YA LOOKING YALL?

HHHHHHNNNNNNNGGGGGG I DONT KNOW WHETHER TO CHEER OR CRY?????? THAT TANK BEHIND THE MONITOR DID NOT HAVE A SPECIMEN UNTIL MOSY WAS INCUBATING. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED YET DEVASTATED AT THE IMPLICATIONS OF THIS.

And a meme to break the absolute madness.

Interesting but that tube just connects to the main system. Both tubes connect to the system in a kind of M shape. You’re kind of on the right track though 😉

[johnniesmoke]

Enlightenments Hangover - Johnnie Smoke

Analysis:

Johnnie Smoke’s lyrics are a deeply introspective journey through struggle, ambition, and the weight of expectation. The song balances raw emotion with philosophical musings, painting a vivid picture of a mind navigating the pressures of existence. Themes of perseverance, self-doubt, and authenticity weave throughout, creating a powerful narrative that resonates with listeners seeking meaning. The juxtaposition of vulnerability and confidence is striking—expressing hesitation about fame while simultaneously asserting artistic dominance. Smoke’s wordplay is sharp, exposing societal flaws while reinforcing personal convictions. The repeated questioning of belief highlights the search for truth, making the lyrics relatable. His commentary on enlightenment and the cost of wisdom emphasizes that knowledge comes with burdens. The closing lines suggest resilience, as despite the heaviness, there's a determination to remain level-headed. This work captures the essence of an artist who refuses to compromise, driven by a purpose far greater than personal gain.

Enlightenments Hangover - Johnnie Smoke

Lyrics:

Hey, fam. /

I hate breaking hearts, but it's better theirs than mine, just trying to stay alive. /

Okay? /

It's a place where it's to me and mine and fuck all those other guys. /

Yeah, fuck all else. /

Fuck lying when the truth is the truth. /

Some vibe that'll move you. /

Some vibe to fill the void. /

Some vibe for those kids without a voice. /

At the end of the day, I suppose, we all have a choice. /

But this one's for the—yeah, this one's for the dreams i'll soil. /

And for the instance, one kid brings it all home. /

Exclude me from the question, /

Are you restless about just what it is? /

I'm laughing at every kid who says this is what it isn't because they ain't the ones really living it?/

And it is all one might get to, believe in the finer things. /

There were days where I couldn't see them, couldn't believe it. /

You don't need it, like I fucking need it. /

I can keep it. /

Nah, there's always a catch. /

Yeah if it's too good to be true, what you all[yall'] forget is the hangover. /

The one that came with enlightenment but I won't let you forget it. /

I'm only partly lucid, but I'll take it over no taste of the real real world /

Tell me what I'm really here for./

Yes sir! Because I know there's something that wishes was you, not me. /

But if you're hearing it, well, you were pretty fucking close with humanity. /

What am I supposed to believe after what happened? /

Do y'all really think I could come with something less than classic? /

Someone of this stature is hard to convince of anything. /

But I'm quick to go all in./

Now getting after this pretty radical. /

Make sure you're surrounded by love. /

It's only when push comes to shove you'll find the inspiration to give it a run. /

High and dry they will leave you with money on your mind. /

Something must have rubbed me right, and something must scare me enough to hit it this hard. /

I'm shining on them. /

I don't gotta ask, "What if?" it's more like as if it's all me. /

More like I've got all I need and I see all I want scrolling my feed with every risk, there's a leap of faith. /

And well, if you realize it's hard to get this deep on a record, yeah, let it set in./

We'll be seeing eye to eye on one thing. /

Hopefully restoring faith. /

If you're gonna compliment the day, I'll hear it /

But most shit if rather leave it where it is./

Dared by revelation. /

Yeah, I was promised the world. /

Sure on the piano, I can play a few chords elevated by the hurt. /

And it's a natural ecstasy that I'm afraid of because I'll go into it feels like I was just crowned king. /

But by the morning, I'll be wishing it wasn't me, yeah. /

With new responsibilities and the weight of an entire era riding on me well I'll wear a smile on my lows. /

Just because I want you all [y'all'] to know I touched the peak. /

Hoping it's reminiscent of just what we need. /

And I'd give anything to let you experience it. /

If you were inspired once, then you're still inspired it strikes every day as long as you let it. /

Yeah its heavy but we're still level-headed. /

[aubzikins]

Fate's Hand - Ch 14 - Maknae on Top?

I was a little stuck with how I wanted to go with this but I am hoping I did well. I want to send a special thanks out to Bae and Lysa! They both were awesome and helped give me some ideas! I am so grateful to have some amazing friends who are willing to help get my brain unstuck! This is a bit longer than my other posts but I hope yall enjoy it!!!!

*** Jeongin ***

Nia agreed to go to dinner with me tonight. I remember her discussing the Dynasty Warriors and Samurai Warriors games when we first got to Japan. Later that night I texted her asking about her favorite characters and she told me they were Wang Yuanji and Kunoichi. Which gave me the perfect idea for a date. But I was also second guessing this.

“Hey Min, can I talk to you for a few?” I asked Seungmin while we were getting ready for the pool.

“Whats up Innie?” he asked.

“I am kind of second guessing this dinner I had planned for Nia and I…” I say.

“Oh? Why? I’m sure she will love just spending time with you.” He says.

“You don’t think she will think a ninja restaurant is childish?” I ask.

“Nope, she already told us how much she liked those games, she even wants to go to Ieyasu’s shrine. I think she will like the restaurant.” He says.

“You don’t think she will think its childish?” I ask nervously.

“I highly doubt she will Innie, she hangs out with the 8 of us. If she doesn’t find us childish and what not, I doubt she will find the restaurant that you picked out childish.” Seungmin says to me with a smile.

“Minnie, you know I’m not good with this stuff. You are the only one I’ve been comfortable like this around. Also, what if she likes one of the others more than me? Is she actually wanting to go on a date with me or is she just doing this to keep,” I start rambling.

“Innie, stop. I don’t know her as well as I like but I can tell you she’s not the type of girl who is going to go along with something just to go along with it. She really likes all of us, and this is all new to her. Just give her a chance.” Seungmin smiles.

“Yeah, I know… I’m just, I don’t know.” I confess.

“Innie, are you thinking about what happened between us back then?” Seungmin asks and places his hand over mine.

I look at Seungmin, unsure of what to say. We were young and the dating ban was in effect. We have never sat down and discussed it before. How would I tell the girl that had sparked something in me from the moment I saw her, that I had kissed one of my best friends. Would she freak out? Would she call me disgusting? That terrified me more than anything else.

“Well, the date is going to be one of the only times I will be able to alone with her. I know she probably doesn’t want to hear a bombshell like this on a date, but if I don’t tell her now, when will I tell her?” I say with a bit of panic in my voice. “I’m not afraid to tell her, I’m afraid of her reaction. We don’t know her thoughts and feelings about all of this. What if this hurts her? What if it scares her off? What if I ruin this for all of us?” I ask starting to spiral.

Seungmin pulls me into a hug and moves my hair out of my face. “You won’t hurt her by telling the truth. You have to be honest with her, this is not something that needs to come up later when there are more feelings involved. Honestly, with as many rumors and speculations of our orientations that are out there among our fans, I highly doubt that this would be something she’s not okay with.” He says with a sweet smile.

“Okay, I will tell her tonight. I hope you are right Minnie.” I say.

“Now let’s get down to the pool before they start questioning where we are.” Seungmin says as he grabs his towel.

When we get down to the pool, Chan, Minho, Felix and Hyunjin are already in the pool with Nia. Nia is laughing and enjoying herself. I sit down at the side of the pool and just watch everyone. Nia turns towards me and gives me the warmest smile… which should have made me happy, but right now feels more like a knife twisting in my gut...

*** Nia ***

Chan was the first one down to the pool. I swear that man must have been wearing swim trucks under his sweats ready to go. I am assuming that one the others had already told him we were rotating the sightseeing with time just at the house. Day of sightseeing then a day of house activities, rinse and repeat. Man did he look good in swim trunks. As soon as I walked out, Chan whistled and smiled. I put my towel down on a lounge chair and put my hair up. Chan swam over to the side of the pool as if he was watching a movie. I smiled and walked over to the pool. He held his hand up to help me, which made me giggle. I slightly put my hand out as if I were going to take him up on the invite and then pulled back at the last second. I instead dived over him into the deep end and swam to the other side. When I came up for air, he looked at me like I had rejected him which made me giggle even more.

“You gotta be quicker than that Channie boy!” I yell and wink at him. He immediately begins swimming towards me. I swam off the other way so he wouldn’t catch me.

“Been a while since someone was able to outswim me slightly. I might have to try to catch ya.” He smirks.

“I can promise that I am worth the effort Chan. Hope you can keep up!” I say teasingly.

“Oh, that sounds like a challenge Chan!!! I can attest to the fact that she is worth the effort” says Felix as he stands there next to Hyunjin smiling.

“I can also vouch that she is absolutely worth the effort Chan!” Hyunjin says with the biggest smile.

“Yall are supposed to be helping me! Not encouraging the wolf to eat Little Red Riding Hood!” I yell at both of them.

“Are you sure that’s not what you want?” Lee Know walks out of the house with a devious smirk on his face.

I look at Lee Know as if I was highly offended, “Wow Minho… I thought we were cool. And here you go sacrificing me to the wolf itself!”

“Gotta help my Hyung out. Not my fault you left yourself open to that!” He says with his maniacal laugh.

“Ill remember that!” I say before I must dive under the water again to escape Chan. I can feel his hand brush my ankle as I swim as fast as I can away.

The next two down to the pool were Seungmin and Jeongin. Seungmin smiles at me as he throws his towel on a chair and sits at the edge of the shallow end. Jeongin sets his towel down next to Seungmin's and then sits on the edge of the deep end. I smiled at him with excitement that we are going to have a date night to ourselves. I’ve been wanting to spend more time with him, but he has always seemed a little stand offish. He smiles back but he looks incredibly nervous. I chalk it up to the fact that we have never spent time alone and we are going to be spending time together.

Han and Changbin are the last ones down to the pool. They apparently had gotten into a karaoke match and Changbin walked into the pool area still singing “LISTEN TO MY HEARTU BEATU!” while Han is shaking his head at him trying not to laugh.

Out of nowhere Chan grabs me from behind, “Looks like I caught you!” he smiles.

“Only because I was distracted,” I say in protest. “If Changbin hadn’t walked in being all adorable, I totally would have avoided being captured!”

“What!? What did I do?” Asks Changbin.

“Nothing love! Just joking around with Chan here!” I called out to him.

Chan spins me around to look at him. “Now that I have captured the fair maiden, what do I get as my prize?” he asks jokingly.

I give him a sweet peck on the lips before I hear my alarm on my phone go off. “Ooops, looks like I need to go get ready for a certain date night!” I smile and swim over the edge of the pool. I climb out and grab a towel before walking over to Jeongin. “I should be ready within about forty minutes if that’s okay?” I ask.

He smiles and nods, “Yup, that should be plenty of time for me to get ready.” He says.

I kiss his cheek and whisper, “I am so excited to spend some time with you!”

He smiles and I walk off to go get ready. After my shower, I styled my hair and decided to put on very minimal makeup. Just some eyeliner, and mascara. I hear a knock on my door, I walk over and open it to reveal a very handsome Seungmin standing there.

“Hey beautiful, mind if I come in?” he asks.

“Of course not, as long as you are fine with me in a towel.” I say.

He chuckles a bit and comes into my room, “The towel covers more than your bathing suit” he says with a smirk.

“Seungmin! That’s not very gentlemanly!” I say giggling.

“I’m kidding! Maybe… hey I just wanted to stop by and let you know that Innie is very nervous about his date with you tonight, please be understanding?” he says with a little bit of concern in his voice.

I stop and look at Seungmin, “Of course, I really like Innie and would never want to make him more nervous or uncomfortable!” I say.

“He’s a sweetheart, just sometimes gets stuck in his head a bit and plays out scenarios before they even have a chance to happen.” He says.

“Understood, thanks for telling me Hun. Mind helping me pick out an outfit since I am sure you know what he has planned?” I ask.

Seungmin walks over to my closet and pulls out a nice pair of black jeans, a silver tank top with a black cardigan. “I would suggest comfortable shoes.” He adds.

I smile at him, “thank you love.” I say.

“You’re welcome. Just remember, be understanding with him please.” He says.

“Of course, I promise!” I say as I smile.

Seungmin smiles, kisses me on the cheek and walks out. I stand there thinking that Jeongin must be beyond nervous if Seungmin is coming to me ahead of time to ask for understanding.

Once I am finished getting ready, I head downstairs. The guys have all migrated into the house in various stages of wetness from the pool. Felix notices me and whistles, which causes the rest to turn and look in my direction. I get a few wows and oooos which make me smile. Jeongin walks up to me in black slacks, black shoes, and a black button-down long sleeve dress shirt.

“You look amazing!” I say when I look at him.

“That’s my line!” He scolds me playfully. “Ready to go? The car is out front.”

I nod my head as the rest of the guys all come up to say their goodbyes and what not. Jeongin leads me out to the car and opens the door for me.

“Thank you, Innie!” I say.

He smiles, “You’re welcome!”

We sit mostly in silence as I can tell that Jeongin is beyond nervous. The ride to the restaurant is about 20 minutes and I feel like those 20 minutes are some of the longest minutes of my life. I don’t want to push him, so I don’t initiate the conversation. We pull up to the restaurant and Jeongin gets out first before walking over to my side of the vehicle to let me out.

“I really hope you like this place…” Jeongin says with a bit of his nervousness showing.

“If its something you picked, I’m sure I will love it, Innie.” I say.

When we walked up to the restaurant there’s a sign that said, “Welcome to Ninja Akasaka!”. The name rings a bell, but I can’t remember from what. We checked in and a Ninja suddenly appeared. After the initial shock, I am beyond excited to see a ninja. The ninja leads us to our table through the Labyrinth, walking past a few beautiful dragon fountains and a few gorgeous cave waterfalls. I am entranced with the experience so far.

When we finally got to our table, it was a beautiful black table with dim lighting. I see all the different celebrity signatures on the walls of the cave, including the Stray Kids themselves. This makes me smile. The ninja who escorted us starts bringing out designated courses per the menu that Jeongin had preordered. It all is very tasty and there seems to be a small, amazing trick that comes along with every menu item that is delivered to the table. This is one of the most fascinating restaurants I have ever been to.

“This is absolutely amazing Innie; I love it so much!” I say excitedly.

“I am so glad you are enjoying it. Ever since the first day when we were discussing the sightseeing and you had mentioned Dynasty and Samurai warriors and I had found out that you loved Kunoichi, I immediately thought of this restaurant.” He says with a huge smile.

“You are so good to me Innie; I love it and I am so happy that you thought of it.” I say as I finish my last bite of dessert.

Jeongin smiles and then gets up and moves next to me. I smile at him, and he smiles back, the first smile of the day in which he doesn’t look so nervous.

“Nia, I really like you. I know I said I needed more time before I agreed to this whole arrangement. But I’ve liked you from the beginning. You are the first to make me feel like I want more of a connection. I’m scared and excited at the same time whenever I look at you.” He leans in closer.

“Innie, I’ve liked you too, that’s why I couldn’t say goodbye to y’all back then. I didn’t want to risk hurting you guys or seeing that you guys wanted me to stay because I wouldn’t have been able tor resist that.” I confess.

Jeongin moves closer to be and leans closer to my face. His lips were just a couple of inches away from mine. I bite my bottom lip, resisting the urge to close the gap and kiss him myself. He seems to have sensed my urge and closes the gap himself, kissing me passionately. One of his hands on my cheek while the other finds it way to my hair, grabbing a fistful of hair gently.

Jeongin pulls back after a few seconds, licks his lips, and looks at me with concern in his eyes. “There is something I need to tell you Nia… This is my first kiss… outside of kissing Seungmin before.” He says as he stares into my eyes.

I look at him still trying to process the kiss that just happened, let alone the fact that he just admitted that the only other person that he has ever kissed was Seungmin. I’m frozen trying to figure out what to react to first, but I see the look in Jeongin’s eyes change. He looks absolutely terrified and scoots away from me, grabbing his card off the table that the server had just brought back, Jeongin gets up and rushes out. “I’m so sorry!” were his last words before he runs off.

I sit there for a second utterly confused and then start grabbing my stuff. The server comes over to me and explains that Jeongin left. I sit back down in utter disbelief. The server asks me if he could get me anything else, I ask for a glass of wine. Why would he just run off like that? He didn’t even give me a chance to respond… I think to myself. The server brings me the glass of wine and I go to give him my card to pay for it, he shakes his head and tells me it’s on the house.

I bring out my phone and text Jeongin:

Me: Innie, where did you go?

Me: I’m still here at the restaurant, you didn’t even give me a chance to say anything!

Me: Innie!

All three texts are left on delivered. I sit there and drink a glass of wine on the verge of tears.

*** Jeongin ***

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! I knew she would freak out; I fucking knew it. I can’t deal with this, I gotta go. I gotta go now. The bill is paid for, she will be okay.

I look at Nia who looks in complete shock. She is taking so long to respond. I can’t handle it if she reacts badly to this. I scoot away from her as soon as the server comes back and leaves my card on the table.

“I’m so sorry!” I say as I pretty much run out of the restaurant. I flag down a taxi as soon as I get outside and tell them to take me back to the house.

How could I be so stupid, of course she wouldn’t accept me after I admit to kissing another guy. Why would she when she has the rest of my Hyungs to be with!

By the time I get back to the house, I am on the verge of crying. I walk through the door, take my shoes off and head directly to my room. Seungmin and Minho are the first to see me.

“Innie! What’s wrong!?” Seungmin asks.

“Nothing, I’m an idiot, I fucked up.” I say looking up at him.

“You told her?” He asks.

“Yeah..” I respond.

“And?” he asks.

I look at him and shrug, “She didn’t say anything, so I panicked and left…” I said as I stopped in front of him looking down at the ground.

“YOU WHAT!?” Minho asks loudly.

“Hyung… I… Left…” I respond.

“YOU LEFT A WOMAN BY HERSELF IN AN UNKNOWN PART OF A CITY IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY?” Minho is full on yelling at this point.

I look up at Minho, realizing what I have done. Minho pulls out his phone and starts texting. At this point, Chan and Felix came rushing down the stairs to see me in tears, Seungmin standing there and Minho beyond livid.

“You better pray that she is okay!” Minho says in a stern voice.

*** Nia ***

It’s been forty-five minutes and Jeongin hasn’t come back. I figured that he had probably gone home. When the server walks over, I use my google translate to ask him if he speaks English. He nods to signal he does.

“Do you know a nearby hotel? I think my friend is upset with me, so I’d rather not see him right now.” I say.

“Yes, down the road there is a hotel. I can have taxi come take you to it.” He says.

“Yes please, thank you very very much.” I smile softly.

The server walks me outside to the taxi and tells him where to take me in Japanese. He gives the driver some monies and thanks him in Japanese. He looks at me and smiles. “Stay Safe” he says. I nod and the taxi driver drives off. About ten minutes later, we pulled up in front of a small hotel. The taxi driver walks me inside and speaks to the front desk. They smile, the taxi driver bows and leaves. The hotel clerk gives me a room key and shows me to my room. Once I get into my room, I make sure to lock the door.

My phone dings:

Minho: Nia… where are you? Are you okay? Are you safe? Send me the address, I’m coming to get you right now!

Minho: Nia! Please answer me!

Me: Minho, I am fine, I just got a hotel room, I’ll be home tomorrow. My phone is dying and there is no store nearby that is open for me to grab a charger.

My phone starts to ring but before I can answer it dies completely…

Shit… this isn’t going to end well…



[velvet-midnight]

ETA: okay it appears the below post was specifically examining parent-child relations, which requires a different set of rant recommendations, leaning heavily towards the parent setting up space/patience/time to try to help their kid process

But this post is about a thirtysomething processing a lifetime's worth of peer relating that failed in sometimes spectacular ways and at some point, you have to stop hiding behind a linguistic crutch and start breaking down your own process to yourself. With aid of a guide like a therapist or in a journal or in relationship with someone trustworthy. But we can't keep doing this yall.

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Also, if the 'idk' really meant 'you can't change me just by having the same conversation again'

I would have really fucking liked to KNOW THAT before I poured time, effort, energy, and brainpower into trying to help someone who never wanted to be helped at all but didn't say that

Like

Identifying and validating a processing issue is a beautiful thing;

and absolutely I spent a lot of my life trying to help other people so I didn't have to help myself, so I am hugely to blame in sinking my own resources into situations that didn't even ask for my "help"

But relating requires the effort of finding the right way to communicate in a manner others will receive you (aka knowing your audience)

Which is something I learned the hard way by failing social situations because of a processing issue

And on the flip side, relating requires you have the space and patience to wait until they struggle through their own processing, or being a bouncing board for that processing, or saying "okay" and putting a pin in it and then, whenever they are ready to talk about it, going back to that pin and not dropping it entirely.

But both sides require compassion, space and effort in order to be worthy of the relationship.

You have to try. Both sides have to try. If you value the connection, you just fucking have to.

And trying can mean failing! It may not work! No matter if you try to communicate in a way you think they will receive, they still might not!

But you can't just stop at 'I will use the same phrase for all sorts of different truths I am afraid no one else will accept'.

It is their decision whether they will accept your truth or not. It is their decision to decide if they want to work through whatever the differences between you are.

(Another fact I learned the hard way by trying to manipulate social connections into "accepting" me)

Knowing yourself means working to learn where you need assistance in adapting. And where you need accommodation. And in either case, communication is the base layer.

[turtletots4lunch]

Wait a minute

...

Do y’all,,, kno each other?

[athenaseden]

A little Work Wives Au for yall. I am a sucker for Gerald and Joe not existing, Melissa and Barbara meeting at work, falling in love, getting married, and having kids ! No TW here just a whole bunch of family fluff. (Blame my Moesha binge for this.)

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Melissa picks up the infant, quietly telling her not to spit up again as she situates the throw up towel. She just had to change out of a shirt she's been dying to wear and she refuses to have to change this one. Gina is babbling happily on her hip, grabbing at her mother’s hair. The redhead knows being in a rush caused the accident. Her niece is coming over to look after the girls while Barbara and herself go out. Nina dragged her into a double date and last night called to ditch them. Barbara convinced her that they still needed to go and that Toni was already looking forward to looking after their girls. (Barbara didn’t actually have to do much convincing.)

Leaning over the bed, she puts her phone on the side of her purse before checking that she has her wallet one last time. Pulling her hair from the tight grasp of Gina’s little hand, she hears the doorbell ring. “Sounds like Toni’s here, lovely.” The clock on the nightstand displays 6:30 in a glowing red. She could laugh, it’s Toni alright, right on time not a minute before or a minute later. Melissa throws her purse on the opposite shoulder and heads out of their bedroom. Down the hall, she hears her niece greet her wife and ahead of her she sees their toddler making her way to the living room just as fast as her little feet will take her.

Usually, she’d call out to be careful but Barbara beats her to it. Passing the threshold to see everyone, just as her oldest slams into Toni’s legs squealing. Melissa chuckles a little watching the brunette take a step so she doesn’t fall over while pulling away from Barbara’s embrace. Taylor’s squeal causes Gina to make a similar sound, right in Melissa’s ear. Leaning away, she gives her daughter as much of a glare as one can give their smiling infant. She loves their children very much, but at the current moment, she would love 10 minutes of space from them.

The truth is Melissa is hungry and tired and really needs this date night more than anyone can get her to admit. Just an hour or so to breathe. Melissa’s gone back to school, the catch up has been dreadful. Barbara is equally tired, home with both girls and helping Melissa’s cousin, Diane, with various portfolios and other projects for her classroom. Barbara was missing being in the classroom and Annette, Melissa’s cousin, had mentioned her daughter needing some help. Barbara didn’t hesitate. She said yes before Melissa could finish asking.

Across the room, Taylor is begging to be picked up and Barbara is leaving Toni’s side offering her a “Good luck”. Toni has her knee brace on tonight, which means Taylor will not be carried around or picked up for a few hours. Toni hurt her leg in high school as a cheerleader, it was the moment Barbara decided they needed more than one ice pack and heating pad in the house. That decision has since been very useful with their toddler running about and into everyone.

Barbara meets Melissa halfway across the room reaching out for Gina, “Come, dear. ‘M afraid your mother might have you for dinner at this rate.” Although she rolls her eyes, Melissa knows her annoyance with these small things is because she is hungry. Pulling the towel from her shoulder, she offers it to Barbara who shakes her head, “Don’t need it.” A mild disappointed look passes her face, at that but quickly fades away as she sees Toni approaching them.

Before she and Barbara had Taylor and Gina, they had a stubborn teenager. Melissa never wanted Barbara to see her actual family drama but the day Toni showed up at Melissa’s apartment when Barbara was over, it was too late. During those hard months, Melissa saw for the first time just how fiercely Barbara loves. “Hi, Aunt Mel.”

The redhead wraps her arms around the shorter woman’s shoulder, “Hey, hun.” It has been a few months since they’ve seen each other. “Thanks for doing this.” Toni pulls away from the hug with a big smile that tells Melissa, she really did jump at the opportunity. “Of course. Besides I miss you all and wouldn’t pass up getting to see these two again.” Eyes following Toni’s gesture behind herself, Melissa sees Taylor is standing on the couch listening. She gestures for her to sit not stand by pointing down, which her daughter understands and follows.

“Let me show you where Gina’s things are before we leave.” Barbara beacons Toni down the hall first, baby leaning against her chest, thumb in mouth. Melissa scrunches her nose at the back of their heads. Turning around she finds Taylor looking up at her from the couch sadly, eyes wide with her little lip poked out. With brows frowned in confusion, the redhead walks to the couch opening her mouth to ask what is wrong. Taylor speaks before she can, “You and mommy are leaving?”

Taylor has been struggling to fall asleep without being tucked in by them both. Melissa has come home to find Barbara dosing holding Taylor's hand with the child nearly as far gone as her mother. Just as soon as the girl heard her, she was begging to be tucked in and afterward would fall right to sleep. Melissa sits on the couch beside her and smooths out her skirt, tapping it to invite Taylor to sit in her lap. “We are. We will be back in a few hours, ya know.”

Her reassurance has stopped the impending tears but has done little for the already heavy breathing. Sucking her teeth, she pulls her daughter to her chest who then buries her face in her mother’s shoulder. The toddler has had one or both of them home more consistently the last few months than she has since she was a baby herself. Barbara and Melissa have enjoyed it just as much as Taylor which is one of the reasons it's taken them so long to go out. While rubbing her arm, she listens to both the sniffles of the little one in her lap and passing conversation as Toni and Barbara walk toward the kitchen.

“Hey, mommy and I will tuck you in when we get back, okay?” She feels Taylor nod and take a deep shaky breath. She chooses to wait to move until Taylor does or others come back. Mel knows after a minute that her daughter’s calm again, but doesn’t stop rubbing her arm. Just as Taylor separates from her mother, the other three reenter the room. “Ready?” She asks them, Taylor hopping from her lap to walk to them. Before Barbara can nod, Toni pulls out her phone, “Wait, you have to see the pictures of Lily.”

Though she has calmed down some herself, Melissa is still very hungry. In hopes of getting them on the move, she opens her hands to take Gina from Barbara, “Time to say goodbye, Mommy.” The older woman kisses Gina's cheeks before handing her off. Melissa chuckles, taking their daughter and wiping the small lipstick marks off tiny cheeks, replacing them with her own as she walks to the carpet across the room.

She places Gina in her bouncer, shaking the rattle to get the toddler’s attention. Taylor walks up beside them, her own toy in her hand and Barbara’s lipstick on her cheek, looking at her sister first then her mother. “Love you, mama.” she says, hugging her mother’s legs. She makes quick work of kissing Taylor's forehead and replying, "I love you too, belissima." Mel's own forehead against her daughter's. The redhead has known one thing from the moment she and Barbara started planning their life together, this (the girls, the house, and Barbara) is the best thing to ever happen to her.

Toni is putting her phone away, walking away from Barbara over to Melissa and the girls by the time she’s given both a kiss again. Barbara is by the door with her coat on and Melissa's in her hand. As she walks to the door, she can hear Taylor talking to her sister about her own toy and knows she’ll be okay for the next few hours. Turning her back to Barbara, she slips into her coat, waving goodbye before opening the door for her wife. On the way from the door to the car, Barbara reaches over and grabs Melissa's hand, “You’re cute.” Not liking the jab at her facade, she replies rather high pitched, “I just told her goodbye?!”. Barbara simply smiles and kisses her cheek before walking around the car.

3 and a half hours later . . .

They’ve come back to find all three girls asleep on the couch. Toni is startled awake by the door, Taylor by their voices. They took their girls to their own beds, kissing them both goodnight. Melissa made her way straight to their bathroom afterwards. She had brushed her teeth and changed, expecting Barbara to have joined her already when she emerged to their bedroom. Halting her routine, she made her way back to the living room where she found Barbara and Toni on the couch that was pulled out the bed. Leaning against the door frame she watched quietly as her wife told her niece that it was never any trouble to stay the night and that they always enjoyed her company, no matter how unexpected. In the morning, Melissa will check in on Toni. For now, Barbara’s taking the lead. Neither seem to spot her, she’s happy to just watch.

In one last reminder to get her point across, Barbara gently caresses her chin and rests her forehead against Toni’s, “I mean it, sweetheart. You have a home here whenever you need it.” Toni’s voice is small when she replies, “I am good, Auntie I promise.” but still she nods that she understands. Barbara kisses her head, telling her goodnight and stands before she sees Melissa. If it were any other night where they weren’t both exhausted, Melissa might have been wearing a shit eating grin. But she’s not, she’s got tears in her eyes and looking at Barbara with so much love. The older woman wraps her arm around her, walking them both to their room. “You’re cute.” Melissa repeats her line from earlier. Barbara only shrugs. Later, when they’re in bed, with Barbara’s arm around Melissa’s stomach and Melissa’s fingers threaded through her’s, the redhead will mumble, “I got it from you.” and Barbara will know exactly what she is talking about even on her way to sleep because she’s been thinking about it all night.

[dialovers-lover-xoxo]

If you want to cry, you’re in the right place

The Sakamaki’s reaction to their s/o waking up from a bad accident with no memories

It’s an x-reader bu also from the diaboy’s perspective

Trigger Warning: Memory loss

Mukamis, Tsukinamis, and Kino’s version is linked at the end

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Shu

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The doctor walked out of your room and faced Shu, who looked up at him. “She’s awake but-“ Shu had already gotten off his chair, pushed past him, and dropped into the seat next to your bed, clutching your hands in both of his. You turned at him and his heart dropped when you asked him a question. “Uh...who are you?” Shu’s eyes widened in horror, his chest felt like it was compressing to the size of a pebble. “You...no...you really don’t...?” You shook your head. “I’m sorry, but I don’t remember you. I don’t...I don’t remember anything.” Tears sprang into Shu’s eyes. He felt like he was falling, spiraling into an endless abyss of darkness, and all he could think was, no, not again.

Reiji

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Reiji stroked your hair, applying more medicine to your injuries, which were thankfully healing well. You groaned quietly and your eyelids fluttered open. Reiji let out a gasp of relief, saying your name. “Who-who are you?” You asked Reiji. What killed him the most was that you didn’t even sound dazed, so you weren’t just foggy from the injury. But...you couldn’t have...? No, it wasn’t possible. Reiji had saved you in time, he’d given you only the best medicines and treatment. So why...? “No, you must not be recovered yet.” Reiji told you, forcing himself to stay calm. “No, I feel fine.” You sat up and Reiji saw that you sat up just fine on your own. Under any other circumstances, he’d be thrilled you recovered so quickly, but now it just sent a pang through his heart. He couldn’t even fool himself into thinking that you were still recovering and that’s why you couldn’t remember him. You really had...forgotten him. “No, I’ll-I’ll fix this. I’m going to recover your memories.”

Ayato

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Damn, that four-eyes still wasn’t finished? Wasn’t he so damn great at this stuff? What was taking him so long? Ayato paced back and forth, anxiety and fear tearing him to shreds on the inside. Reiji opened the door and Ayato whirled around. “Ayato,” Reiji said, his tone surprisingly gentle. “Reiji! Is she okay? What’s going on?” He added when Reiji’s face became downcast at his first question. “Ayato...she has no memories.” Ayato’s stomach lurched. He ran past Reiji and into the room Reiji was keeping you in. You were struggling to sit up when he came in. He helped you sit up and kneeled down by the bed. “You’re okay, right? You’re okay?” “I’m fine...just...I don’t know...anything.” Ayato’s eyes welled with tears. Reiji was telling the truth. But...how could you forgot him? “But...we laughed! And-and-and...we’ve kissed and you’ve helped-“ Ayato rambled on, desperately trying to make you relive your whole relationship with him. He started to cry, hanging his head. “I’m sorry...” you told him. Ayato shook his head, quietly sobbing. He was the great Ayato. He could get you to fall in love with him again.

Kanato

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Kanato kneeled down besides your bed. “Dollie?” He asked, with a small hopeful smile. You stirred and blinked. “Huh...?” Kanato beamed. “Fangs!” You exclaimed. Kanato frowned, his eyebrows narrowing. “What are you talking about? You know I have fangs, don’t you?” “N-no, I don’t...” you said, backing away until your body was pressed up against the wall, as far from Kanato as you could be. Kanato stared at you. Why were you suddenly so afraid of him? He couldn’t even remember the last time you had looked this frightened. You had come to love his fangs! “Don’t play with me!” Kanato said angrily. Your eyes shone with fear and he softened his expression and tone. “Now that you’ve recovered, I’d like you to kiss me please.” “I-I can’t.” “Why not?” “I don’t even know you. I don’t even know me.” You told him. Kanato blinked as tears rolled down your face. They started to roll down his cheeks as well. “No...no, you have to remember me!” Kanato yelled, smashing a lamp on your bedside table. You screamed and cried harder. Kanato’s entire body shook. He’d do whatever he had to to make you remember him.

Laito

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“Princess?” Laito asked, patting your shoulder gently. He had taken you home. You had no visible injuries and Reiji had checked all over. Nothing was wrong, so why weren’t you waking up? You woke with a slight gasp and Laito beamed. You slowly moved yourself into a sitting position. “Who are you?” You asked. “Who am I?” Laito blinked. “It’s me, Laito. Look, see? Me.” Laito smiled, holding your hand. You shook your head sadly. “I don’t know anything...about anyone. I’m sorry.” Panic welled up in Laito’s chest but he forced it down. “No, no, you’re okay.” He said in a quiet, soothing tone. “You’re-you’re-“ Laito choked up, tears streaming down his grief-stricken face. “You’re okay.” He cried quietly, falling to his knees. He didn’t move for a long time.

Subaru

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It was his fault, all his fault. How could he fail to save the one thing he loved most? A dark thought answered him. Because you’re a worthless filthy monster. You shouldn’t be put in charge of someone as precious as her. Tears sprang in his eyes. Of course that was the answer. But that didn’t mean he didn’t love you, wouldn’t do anything to save you. His back shook as he cried next to your bed, hoping for you to wake up. You woke up and blinked, seeing a sobbing man next to your bed. “Who-who are you?” Subaru looked up. You had forgotten him entirely? After an accident like that he expected some sort of brain damage but...he never anticipated this. “I’m...” This is your chance, said the voice. Rid her of you forever. She’ll be better off. Subaru forced down a sob and, for once, he didn’t let that voice tell him what to do, he didn’t agree with what it said. The two of you loved each other, he knew that, and he wasn’t going to give up on you. He stood tall and faced you. “I’m Subaru. Your lover.”

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I know these are sad but I left them ambiguous and yall are free to imagine a happy or sad ending to any of them

In fact if you want to create a short fanfic of your own interpretation following what I wrote, you’re more than welcome too!

Behind the writing fact: I was originally going to make Subaru’s a lot sadder, with him saying he wasn’t important and the reader didn’t need to remember him while the reader insisted he must be important to her life. I ultimately decided against that because I wanted it to be more uplifting, with him starting to overcome his self-hatred in favor of love

[gb-patch]

Ask Answers: July 10th

I really let asks get away from me lately. I was super focused on working on that Patreon Moment. With that done I can finally think about doing other things, so here’s a new collection of answers!

Thank you for sending in questions everyone ^^.

For the new Patreon moment, will you be able to reference it in step 4? Or just like a tiny nod to it if you pick certain choices?

There won’t be. I’m sorry if you were hoping for that! The Patreon moment is meant to be entirely optional, it’s not something that gets you extra content in the main game.

Is the new CG artist the main one now? :0 I’ve noticed theres been a difference in the art style recently. Is the old CG artist still going to make art for the game? :0

The original artist still makes CGs for the game sometimes, but he mainly focuses on character sprites.

Are you going to put the NSFW our life moment on a website other than patreon? I would love to get it but I can't use patreon atm.

I don’t know. I'm afraid we can't release the Patreon Moment on a normal game storefront because we can't mix 18+ content with our family friendly game. If there's some other place similar to Patreon where it's not the normal type of full-scale public content releases we'd consider using that, but I’m not sure if there is another site that’s better than Patreon in that regard. I'm sorry.

Out of curiosity, in all of your games so far, which characters in each were the most fun to write? They obviously don't have to be your favorite characters!

Buffalo Seer in AFA, really everyone in XOD/XOBD is pretty equally entertaining to write, The Guide in LoV, and Cove in OL!

idk if you accept "personal" questions, but is there anything you've been watching/ listening to lately

Mostly, I’ve been watching/listening to Authortube videos as of late! It’s people who talk generally about the process of how books become traditionally published and/or share their own experience as they attempt to be published. I don’t have an interest in writing normal text based books, but it’s really interesting to hear about that world. I’m listening to a video about royalties right now as I answer these asks.

Will one of the desserts we get to pick be fudge? That'd be such a cute reference! 

Haha, yeah, it should. Unless I completely blank on it and forget when trying to include the various referential food options.

I don't know if this has been asked previously but what would be the approximate heights for the presets MC can choose from Step 2 ~ 4? Are there any measurement you had in mind? Sorry if I didn't make myself clear kk I've been struggling with my English lately 💀 

I don’t know, ahah. I didn’t have any numbers in mind for that. So it’s whatever you imagine it is!

I noticed a bug with the Patreon moment when it comes to what your character wears. When Jamie and Cove are kissing while my character only had dresses selected, I had both the option to remove the dress or to remove the shirt... Picking one of the options to interact with Cove, after he removed his shirt, it had Jamie remove their shirt followed by ther pants despite only having dresses picked. 

Thank you for reporting ^^

I keep refreshing steam to see when the new doc for xobd will be released. I noticed you haven't posted anything about it in quite some time. Would it be possible to ask about a timeline/potential date? (If it's even this year—) I know you and your team are probably working super hard, I'm just super curious! ~Thank you!~ 

There are more stories done, I just haven’t gotten around to publicly releasing them. Hopefully I will have a chance to spend the time on that sooner rather than later!

hello!! i’m not sure if it’s an update but i’ve just replayed our life and at the end i can’t propose to cove anymore? :(( i’ve actually tried playing twice but the options are not there anymore, did you guys remove the options? i’m sorry if you’ve answered this before!! thank you and have a good one :) 

I’m afraid things haven’t been changed or removed, so I think you might’ve accidentally picked the wrong things somewhere along the way and locked yourself out of being able to propose by mistake. Sometimes you meant to say you want to get married but instead you mis-click and have it so the MC isn’t thinking about marriage or something. All I can suggest is starting from the beginning of Step 3 and making sure to follow the steps listed in the FAQ. I’m sorry for that.

Did yall remove some of the options for when youre making out with Cove in the charity moment? I could've sworn you could grab his bonkadonk and its not there anymore 

This is the same situation as the above. We didn’t remove things and you’re not wrong that there are sometimes those options. But there are various choices you have to make to get those options and it sounds like you accidentally missed something. If your relationship isn’t long-term, you can’t do it for example.

HI IM SO EXCITED I CAN FINALLY GET THE STEP 3 DLC 

Thank you for getting it!

Is Shiloh super totally straight bc I’m very gay and a huge Shiloh fan, would my man make an exception?😩

Sadly, he is one of our super straight characters. I’m sorry.

Hi, I have a very dumb question. In Step 2 does Cove not wanna share his drink with us at the mall (or rather why he stops drinking it) because it's an indirect kiss? Or is it like ...weird to him to share? Because if I remember right he eats off our spoon in the birthday scene right? 

Yeah, he’s awkward about it because he likes the MC and it feels very personal to share a straw with his crush.

Hi! If you don't mind me asking, who is the artist for OL2? Their style is so pretty! 

Thank you for saying so! This is her Twitter- https://twitter.com/redridingheart

Do Beginnings & Always and Now & Forever exist in the same universe? 

Yep! XOXO Droplets also exists in the same universe. It’s one big GB Patch world, haha.

Do Pran's parents regret the way they raised him? Do they feel ashamed of it?

No. They’re the type of people best cut out because they’re not gonna change. Which is why Pran does go very limited contact when he’s an adult.

Hi! I just wrapped up my second playthrough of Our Life, and I absolutely adore it, but I had a question. I went to the gallery and found I was missing 2 CGS (specifically Step 1-3 and 2-3) and I had no clue where they would've shown up. Which moments are those found in? 

You get it by telling Cove about his dad offering you money to be his friend in Step 1 and Step 2. You can’t get both in one playthrough, since you can only tell Cove the truth once. I’m really glad you liked it!

Hi hi! Please, how tall is Baxter and Derek? Love the game so much and I can't wait to see more! 

I don’t know, aha. I think Baxter was around 5′10 and Derek was like 5′8/5′9, maybe. I really am not one who has specific heights for things in mind.

is adult cove a bottom, top, or switch? 

A switch, though would choose the top if he had to pick.

I was wondering if there is a way to transfer save data? Even if through the game files. I wanted to be able to transfer my save data from my desktop over to my laptop so that I could continue playing right where I left off from but I'm not entirely sure how to go about that. 

If you save the save folder/persistent data of the game from your desktop and put it into the game folder on your other device, that could work.

Hi! Is it possible for us to know the date when our life: now and forever comes out on steam? Sorry if you've mentioned it before but I haven't seen it and I'm looking foward to that happening and just wanted to know :) 

It’s gonna be a long time, I’m afraid. There’s no estimate right now.

I started playing Our Life with my sister a while ago, and I think you guys should know that we discovered your secret. >:)

L from death note and Cove are clearly the same person, and this whole game is just an origin story!!

I’ve never seen that show so I’m sorry to say I don’t understand the connection/reference you’re trying to make. I’m pretty out of the loop when it comes to media. I don’t watch movies or TV.

Will OL2 have options for disabled MCs?

I understand if it's too complicated, just curious

Unfortunately, it’s not really something we have a plan for. We couldn’t finish the game if we tried to include every disability and have it be meaningful. It’d just be too much content to create. But if we decide to only include a few, how would we choose which disabilities get to be represented and which are left out? I don’t know. It’ll probably have to be something we don’t include as an option again, sadly. I’m sorry.

playing our life > anything else 

Haha, I’m glad you’re enjoying it.

Honestly, I would like to thank Our Life for helping me come to terms with my sexuality. Before, I never would've actually thought that it was possible to like boys romantically and still be asexual. Almost all of the BL visual novels I've read had unskippable sexual content in them and it honestly just didn't click with what I feel. I'm glad I found Our Life. I love the game, the developers, and this fandom so much. Now, I can safely come out as homoromantic AND asexual (at least anonymously here anyway; my parents are still huge homophobes 😂). 

Aw, it’s great to hear you felt comfortable being yourself in the game! That’s wonderful. I’m really sorry about your parents, though.

Will the demo for OL2 be on android? Really not sure if I could wait any longer than I have to aha 

Yeah, it’ll be available for Android once we eventually release a demo!

Do all these reveals perhaps mean development is progressing ahead of schedule? Please let that be the case I'm already obsessed with Qiu 

No, sorry, aha. Art comes along much faster than script/programming-work for us. It’s gonna be a long time before the game is a finished thing you can actually play. But at least we can look at the beautiful images.

Hey! First of all I wanna say I reallllllyyyyy loooovvveeee Our Life and XOXO Droplets! I have over 300 hours of playtime on Our Life… Anyways, I was just wondering, are the Derek and Baxter DLCs going to come out at the same time? If not, which one do you plan to release first? :3 

They will come out separately and Derek will be first! Glad you like the game.

I keep replaying Our Life to get every possible iteration and I am loving it <3 I was wondering if Cove gets locked out of his confession because MC was talking to Lee, would it be possible to confess to him in step 4? 

Yeah, you can avoid the confession in Step 3 and then get it in Step 4.

Hi, my Cove wears bracelets through step 2 and 3 but I still don't get an option to give him a bracelet? I didn't even know that was possible until I seen someone else ask about it lol 

Hm, did you use the Cove creator? Maybe there’s a bug where using the creator to add bracelets doesn’t fulfill the requirement to give Cove a bracelet in Step 3.

Wait, I'm dense, when does Baxter appear in step 2? Is it from big park firework? I feel so bad since i really love Baxter and waiting to buy his dlc. 

It’s in the Soiree Moment. You have to be just friends with Cove, indifferent, or crushing but not ask Cove to the dance at all. Then while there you can find someone new to dance with. But if you bring Cove to the dance while crushing, the MC won’t wanna dance with anyone else so you can’t get the scene.

In step 2 when we go to the soiree I made my mc go alone and baxter chooses the mc to dance, i'm curious, why did he pick the mc? sorry if this has been asked before! 

Because the MC looked to be around his age, seemed to also be searching for a partner, and had nice legs. A perfect option for him.

I read some of the FAQs, and I saw that we could tell Baxter about the condo that he rented there was previously the mean old grandparents. how do we get the mc to tell him that? 

It happens in the DLC Moment “Late Shift”. If you don’t have a job you instead get a longer scene with Baxter.

I don’t know if you’ve addressed this or not, but are you planning on paying voice actors for our life: now and forever? 

Yeah, we pay our VAs in all our projects.

hey can i ask how you did the moments thing in ol? im trying to get into making visual novels and while im VERY sure its out of my comfort zone and all that atm i kinda wanna know just for the future, bc im p sure it would work well for something i wanna do :O but its also fine if you cant say for other reasons :> 

I’m afraid I’m not sure what you mean. Are you asking how we programmed the screen or something script related? Adding Moments like that is pretty straightforward, though. You just have buttons that open to different labels and then the scripts are essentially individual short stories/vignettes. Good luck with your VN!

Since Autumn becomes gender fluid later in the game, will there be a character who remains as he/him to romance in game? 

OL1 has the he/him LIs, OL2 is all about other genders.

I don't want to impose on your creative plans, but a parrot could possibly make a good pet in an OL-type game? They're pretty long-lived and likely to still be thriving by the end even if the MC got them back in step 1. 

I do appreciate the suggestion, but I’m afraid it’s not likely going to happen. I understand there are technically some animals that could theoretically live long enough to last the whole game that or we could have the MC only get a pet after some years have already passed. But the many things that would have to be considered/accommodated for makes it just something we probably can’t manage adding. I’m sorry.

As time passes will we be able to see Qiu and Tamarack's other stage arts as well?

They are both so cute i can't wait to be friends with them!

Yeah, we’ll show content from other Steps in the future. It’ll be a little while from now, though.

Can you date Cove and still have your family comfort you in the car?

You can’t get Cove’s Step 3 confession scene if you have the family comfort you in the car. But that’s not the only way to date him. You can get together with him earlier in the game or later on in Step 4.

Is Mc always going to be the one walking down the aisle or could Cove do it? Also could you choose to have one of your moms walk you? 

No. Cove wouldn’t want to walk down the aisle like that and the MC automatically respects that. And the MC also gets to have their preferences respected, so it’s up to you whether they want to do an aisle walk or not. You also can pick who, if anyone, walks with you.

Once step 4 is out, will you be able to go the whole game on crush/love without either of you confessing? 

Yes, as long as you tell the game you don’t want to progress the relationship. Even in Step 4 it won’t force you to officially get together.

Howdy, so in Step 4, there will be any Romance with Derek that is not part of any dlc? 

He’s only a friend unless you get his romance story.

Will the step 4 in OL2 be one big step or are you considering moments? 

Step 4 is just an epilogue in both games.

hi kind of a weird question but!! we know tht cliff doesn't start dating again but. wht abt flings? like does he ever do 1 night stands or anything? thank u!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Nope. Cliff has a very small interest in sex. If he’s not in a real relationship with a partner he’s crazy about it simply isn’t something he feels a need for, so one night stands wouldn’t even cross his mind.

sorry if you've already answered this, but i was wondering if there were plans for there to be bonus love interests in OL2 like how we have derek and baxter in OL1.

Maybe! There are side characters who could be given romance stories, but whether or not it will happen depends on funding and how long everything else takes to finish.

I don't know if i'm allowed to ask about ol2 here yet, if not u can ignore this or answer it later. My question is can you date one of them and be good friends with the other? I don't want to be strangers with the other bcs i love them both a lot :<

Yes you can!

what patreon level do i have to be to unlock the nsfw moment? im on the $5 one right now, will that give me access to the moment, or just access to the moment progress? 

That’ll give you access! Tier 2 and anything higher allows the player to download it.

[sunshinetoshi]

saying and staying in love

timeskip!oikawa x reader (2.4k words)

tw: angst, cheating, arguing/fighting

A/N: OKAY so this one caused me SO MUCH pain. it took me weeks to write through it (lol i also cried proofreading it today) xx this is part two of a (5) part fic but i don’t think it’s necessary to read all of them or read them in order. they’re split up to be an easier read but, if you’re interested, i’ll be linking the other parts at the end of each part as they come out. also tysm for all the support on the first part yall made me real soft yikes

That night you didn't say much to Oikawa. You didn't question him about any of it, afraid of the lies he might craft. That would make it all the more painful.

You used the same lame tummy-problems excuse on him and he reluctantly gave you the space you ask for but other than that he acted like everything was normal, like everything was okay.

The next morning he gave you a kiss goodbye before he went to volleyball practice. "And where are you off to today, my love."

You tried not to make the tightened grip on the mug you're holding obvious. "Oh I'm stopping by an old high school friend's place after my classes. It's been a while since we caught up."

It was a half truth. Oikawa smiled at you and told you to be safe before heading out the door.

You did catch up with a high school friend. Yesterday evening before Oikawa got home you made a phone call to a friend who knew the girl Oikawa was with. And he told you where she worked.

-----

That’s how you later found yourself outside a hair salon, telling yourself this was a bad idea. You knew it was. But the thought of coming here was the only thing that stopped the incessant tears you shed after Oikawa left earlier.

You started tearing up again and you turned back around to head to your car. You couldn't do this.

But then you had no choice.

"Oh my- Y/L/N?" It was her. Headed toward the hair salon doors with a lunch box. She must've just come from break. She got closer to you. "It is you!"

You meekly waved at her and tried to muster a smile.

When she finally reached you she frowned. "Hey are you okay? Have you been crying?"

"Yeah, I'm-" your tears threatened to spill. "Actually, I'm not." You said it quietly but she heard you.

And she wrapped her arms around you as you sobbed. You remembered that she'd been known as a kind girl and a sweetheart in high school, of course she would be comforting you. A wave of insecurity washed over you and your hurt deepened. She was an amazing person.

When you quieted a bit she spoke up, "Do you want to talk about it?"

And you didn't. Not with her. But you knew you had to.

Your voice was so shaky when you spoke. "I’ve been dating Oikawa Tooru for the past two years."

Her eyes widened but she listened intently as you spoke. You explained how you saw them yesterday. How you haven't spoken to Oikawa yet. How you were sorry to bombard her at her work. How much you loved him. How you were so broken.

When you finished and looked at her she calmly asked to see pictures of you and Oikawa from the past two years. You obliged and flipped through photos on your phone. It was hard to avoid the look of joy the two of you had in the pictures.

She sighed and rubbed her temples. Then she looked at you earnestly. "I am so sorry Y/N. He told me he wasn't seeing anyone right now. If I knew he was dating someone I would never have done this." She went on to tell you how they ran into each other two months ago. And they’d been talking ever since. When she finished she glanced away embarrassed. "What are you going to do now?"

You took a while to respond. It was the first decision you made yesterday after you saw them. You didn’t want to say it aloud.

"I'm leaving him."

With the way you clenched your fist you could feel your fingernails sinking into your palms. You hated how you spoke, it wasn't your voice. It was so much colder and there was an emptiness to it. What you hated more was what you were saying. Will it be the right decision? Will you be able to do it?

You're brought out of your thoughts when you noticed her nodding her head.

"I think you should," she gave a sympathetic smile before quickly continuing, "And don't worry about me and him, that's over now. I would never knowingly date such a jerk."

Part of you was relieved and wanted to praise her. And another part of you wanted to defend Oikawa and say he wasn't a jerk. But you didn't have to choose which to go with because she continued.

"He disrespected both of us, Y/N. And I'm just really sorry."

Again you felt the need to defend Oikawa. But she was right. He did disrespect you. You and everything your relationship was. 

-----

When you heard the jingling of keys by the door you knew it was Oikawa entering your apartment.

You picked yourself off of the floor where you'd been slumped over since you got home, thinking of how this might play out.

His eyes lit up and his shoulders relaxed when his gaze landed on you.

And you were confused. How could he still look at you with so much warmth after what he’d been doing?

He immediately frowns when he notices your tear-stained cheeks and glossy eyes. He dropped his gym bag and rushed over to you.

"Hey, what's wrong? What happened?"

You burst into tears and hid your face in your hands.

Oikawa wrapped his arms around your shaking body. He shushed you and pet your hair to calm you down.

You wanted to stop him, to push him away. But you sank into his chest and cried even harder.

How did it happen that the person who you could always go to at your very worst was now the very person who had put you in that state?

“Love, tell me what happened.”

You shook your head.

He sighed, “Please, you’re worrying me. I want to know.”

You lifted your head off his chest and he loosened his hold on you. You didn’t look into his eyes.

“I saw,” you started but you hiccup from your crying. You tried again but all that came out was incoherent mumbling as tears started again.

“Y/N I can’t understand you. What did you see?”

You brought your head up straight. You managed to stop the sobs enough to hear the breathy, quiet sentence echo in your living room. “I said I saw you cheating on me.”

Watching his eyes widen snapped something inside you. You began to ramble, not perceptive to Oikawa shaking his head or his repeated whispers saying ‘No, oh no.’ You didn’t move as he grabbed your hand and gave it a kiss or when he dried your tears and ran his fingers through your hair.

You can only hear the words fighting, rather spilling their way out of your mouth. Bits and pieces of what you say register in your head and the images replay and hurt you all over again.

“You lied to me..I was at the shopping center..I saw you kiss her..she made you smile..you played with her hair..you came home... kissing me with those same lips that touched her..you acted like everything was okay-”

“Everything is okay!”

His words brought you out of the trance-like state you were in. And your eyes darted to him. You got goosebumps at the bellowing of your voice. “How is everything okay? Everything is not okay and apparently things haven’t been okay, have they? For two months.”

“How did-”

“She told me! I saw her and she told me how you ran into her two months ago. How you told her you were single. For two months you’ve been hiding things from me and lying to me and treating me like I’m some idiot you can fool and the worse part is you did. I was an idiot. I didn’t see any of it until I saw you two in front of me.” Your throat was in so much pain from the yelling. You tried to catch your breath through the congestion from crying. A sudden tiredness from the constant crying hit you and now when you spoke it was weaker. Broken. “Why did you have to cheat Tooru? If you wanted to take a break you could’ve talked to me, if you wanted me to change, I would’ve..”

Oikawa jumped in. “I didn’t want to take a break. And I would never want you to change,” he cupped your cheeks with both hands. He was crying and his eyes were desperate. “Please, please listen to me.”

This time you did push his hands away. You backed away from him a couple of steps. “Are you in love with her?”

You spent hours of the day preparing yourself for this, preparing to shield yourself from getting too hurt when he said yes.

“No, of course not.”

And somehow that answer was worse.

He closed the space between you and held your arms as he spoke. “Y/N, please listen to me. I made a mistake, it was a stupid, stupid decision. I should’ve never talked to her. You’re the only one I love. I never felt anything for her that came close to the love I feel for you. I love you. I love you. I love you.” He had begun sobbing and he fell to his knees, repeating those three words. 

Your hand covered your mouth at the sight. 

“Tooru.”

He lifted his head to look at you.

“I am in love with you.” No matter how wrecked your voice was it was still so pure and genuine. Because it was true. You were still in love with him. You waited for his answer.

“I love you too, I love you so much!” He reached forward and wrapped his arms around your hips. You could feel his tears through your shirt as he put his head against your stomach. “Please, Y/N. Please forgive me. We can work this out. I know we can. Please, my love. We can work through this.”

A part of you was screaming that what you were about to do wasn’t fair. That it was a petty reason. That he can’t read your mind and know what you were looking for. That you should lift him up and tell him you two could work this out. It was your heart screaming.

But your gut was telling you to stand firm. You had a plan going into this. And this part was going exactly as planned. And you hated it.

He said he loved you but he didn’t say he was in love with you. It was a small detail and he may have easily just been overwhelmed to think about semantics but to you it was indescribable what that phrase meant to you. That phrase was at the core of this relationship. It was an exchange of words you two have had everyday for the past two years. If anything it was more than that.

You told yourself earlier that you were leaving. You knew you had to. No matter how you felt, you were leaving. And the one phrase that maybe, just maybe, could have redeemed you and him from this pain wasn’t said. It’s final, you were leaving.

So you took a deep shaky breath and couldn’t help but tangle your fingers in his hair. One last time. “I’m in love with you Tooru.”

You shut your eyes before looking at him again. “But I don’t think we can work this out.” You removed his tightened grip on your legs and bent down across from him. Your own tears fell down your face but still you focus on wiping the tears off his cheeks. “I’m sorry. But I can’t let myself stay. I can’t do that to myself. Even though it’s going to hurt like hell,” you laugh but it was strained and empty. 

And you could see the moment that Oikawa realized it for himself. He broke you and nothing he said would make you stay. You’ve made the decision. You two sat quietly, mourning what you both realize you’ve lost. “I’m going to miss you.”

Oikawa’s breaths suddenly became laborious and this time you wrapped your arms around him and let him sob, trying to soothe him.

A while passed and you lifted his head. “Tooru, I want you to listen to me, okay? You are one of the most strong-hearted people I have ever been blessed to know. And you are going to Argentina. I want you to go. And I want you to show them what you’re made of. You have worked so damn hard for this and I can’t be prouder than I already am. I want you to know I will always be cheering for you. Alright?”

He knew you were saying goodbye. He was clinging to every word you said. “Are you leaving right now?” His voice was barely above a whisper.

You smile sadly, “I don’t think I can sleep here anymore.” You look around the apartment that, despite being yours, felt like the home you two were building together.

You moved even closer to him and looked at him. You took each other in. You sighed and leaned your forehead on his. “Please take care of yourself, Tooru.”

“Only if you promise to do the same.” He lifted your head up and brushed his fingers on your cheek, “I’m so sorry Y/N.”

You nodded. “I know.” You did. “I know,” you repeated. You felt your eyes water again. “Tooru, I know I’m leaving but please know I don’t hate you. I know you’re going to beat yourself up and I can’t handle that thought so please don’t be so hard on yourself. Because I don’t hate you. I am still so deeply in love with you.”

You looked at the love of your life. You leaned forward and softly placed your lips on his. You never thought about what your last kiss with Oikawa would be like, you never imagined his kisses would be limited. And while this wasn’t the most clean or romantic kiss, you two could feel the passion. As it progressed you two tried to convey in this one kiss what the other person meant to you. And it was all there. The pain and the guilt but more importantly the care and the love.

You pulled away first and steadied your breath. “Tooru.”

He looked into your eyes.

“I don’t want your last words to be ‘I’m sorry.’”

He looked down in guilt but you lifted him gently by the chin and gave him a soft kiss on the cheek. “I know it’s selfish but can you tell me you’re in love with me.”

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