#i am nothing if not resilient

[okami-zero]

FINALLY have upgraded my phone and aside from getting it back to being my comfy electronic sidekick again, it is interesting. Especially the battery life, but my old LG was...at LEAST four years old, if not five, so we were due. Had to do a plan upgrade, but we had been thinking about that for ages.

Also had two bits of really not great news yesterday, and while it hasn't really sunk in for me, I need to be there for the folks who have.

[antique-symbolism]

(11.28.23)

Living in a dying body,

Stranded on a dying world,

What shall the dying do?

Grind our bleach-white coral bones,

Drown in rising water, our limbs too weak to tread?

How about this instead?

On New Year's Eve, my father, a doctor of the weather said: 

"I believe in the resilience of our atmosphere."

And thus began my year,

With a body set for ambush storms, and unprepared to take my cover,

Hopeful, kicking at the knees that wouldn't last the summer.

But if Dad can see the damning data and give us yet our chance, 

Then I will face the fates that are written in my scans,

Feed the sturgeon lunch at the museum,

Bend slowly to the waterline and whisper this to them:

"I believe in our resilience, too."

[iksydk]

i think working in emergency management would be so fitting for me and my interests. i used to be obsessed as a kid w the cold war and civil defense programs. but i couldn’t articulate what i wanted to know. i wanted to know why they were the way they were, why they made the choices they did and what they’re doing now in the same way. covid fascinated me bc of that. i worked for ups at the time and i loved reading the internal information system stuff about it bc it seemed they already had some plan and i wanted to be the people that did that.

[butchshepherd]

this is the information that we had about D dog. that's the info on her page (put through a translator, but its accurate) regarding how she is with other animals, and during the interview reactivity was only mentioned as a possibility not as a known fact about this dog. only dog? no problem. no cats? even less of a problem. potential for reactivity? sure. it can happen with any dog. known aggression towards other dogs? why the hell are you waiting for people to apply and go through a fucking interview before letting them know a week later that they're not fit for this dog and that that's the reason why. all that does is give people false hopes and upset that could be avoided by clear, direct, honest communication of a dog's issues/challenges. i heard about the specific language/way of wording things shelters and rescues use but i had hoped it wouldnt be a universal thing, at least not something i'd experience myself. turns out i was wrong!

maybe im being immature and unfair to these people, they probably dont all have the same amount of knowledge of the dogs and communicating all that inbetween volunteers/workers/and us can be difficult. but im angry and im allowed to express that ffs.

[bluenotemagpie]

tfw you listen to a song for the first time and your brain goes "great. let's listen to this fifteen times over the next 24 hours" for no reason that you can discern

[rule-of-rose]

CHOTU. [why a 9 day vacation has caused me to break and lose the drive to consume food.]

This is extremely personal and I wrote it for the purpose of venting. It is not indicative of the majority of my work as a writer. I use this form of scattered writing as a way to keep myself sane. [All of this did happen over the past 9 days. I just do not have any way to cope with it aside from writing or praying to the Gods.]

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[dmertens]

someone please say that everything's gonna work out for me and I will achieve my goals and my dreams

[buckleydiazmp4]

talking with mom about working after college and she's like. yeah you'll have to learn to be tolerant towards ppl who don't know how to do their job right. girl i'm gonna DIE

[itspileofgoodthings]

It’s really hit me that before I make any big life decisions of any kind I have to heal and grow more. Like what do I want to DO or BE. I want to get better. I want to be better. (In a healing way. Perfectionism dni)

[butchdykekondraki]

bitches (headmates) hate me for my swag (ability to front for days on end without being tired of it)

[daz4i]

when ww said "this is not my life, I'm no survivor, i only happened to survive"

[atbussysparks]

⚠️ psychological horror, mental scars, shitty metaphors, slight gore, and references to "sl-cing skin." Read tags for context

None of y'all can ever claim to know horror and terror until you experience watching a completely wholesome g-rated knockoff bargain bin kid's movie and hearing IT. That slicing voice honed on a stone of utter fear.

Cutting and chopping through spices to perfectly stab at the mind until it's mush, and leave the flayed nerves burning.

Agony is the only thing you can feel everytime you see that character, because you know you'll be caught in the white of its eyes and never know the reason why. the voice, perhaps even the face was shrapnel caught in your rib, and everytime you turn you turn your torso it rips your lung again, and you grew around it. But there it is again, that familiar carousel of up and down, radiating cutting. your hands aren't their own. This is unfamiliar, foreign. This is a child's vision. This apparition was haunted you since childhood and after years, years into your life, traveling, forgetting, living, and loving, it's come to take another victim. IT. IT is hungry and unwavering. It was beyond anything we could've dreamed of, no. IT, was a nightmare and to it, there's nothing more it'd love to feast on than long grown over, but never quite removed needles under the skin.

But this, this MAN. He was nothing to do with that. This is a man making money, making a living. This is a man with no intention to thrill, to rip at the scalp until fused bone is exposed. This man shakes hands with smiling gentlemen in fancy suits and kisses babies. This is the man in a different costume. And in another costume, perhaps the glass may fall out of your ribs.

[unnerving-presence]

Was glad to see 5 terrormisu but then got camped so hard and first hook to death

Lmao thats why I hate playing survivor

my survivor games actually haven’t been that bad ??? i didn’t get many tunnelers except for a blight and a singularity

it’s the anniversary event idk why people are so sweaty either 😭

it’s been fun for me so far though ! maybe because i still haven’t gotten my rank up too high since i don’t rlly play but either way the games are still pretty fun

had a wesker before taking a small break and i was slugged on the ground and i wasn’t even insulted i was just giggling the whole time

it was on the plague map so he told me to jump down the hole LMAO unfortunately he hooked me but i def could’ve wiggled and i regret not doing so bc i think he had a change of heart when he saw he couldn’t hook me 😭

[mieczyhale]

please love jewish people at LEAST as much as, if not more than, you hate antisemites. yeah we'd all punch a nazi but will you stand by our jewish friends, defend them, love them?? they deserve that just as much as they deserve to see the people who hate them get their shit rocked

[samerpal]

"First, I would like to thank everyone who supported me.🙏🌹

This is my new platform, friends, after my old platform was deleted for reasons unknown to me.

I ask for your help in sharing my story again to keep hope alive for me and my family, friends.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.♥️

My family and I appreciate your cooperation and hope to reach the desired goal and save us.🙏

Attached are the verification links for the old account from the supporters.

Link vetted by @ibtisams

Link vetted by @el-shab-hussein and @nabulsi

Link vetted by @sar-soor

My approved number by the families in need and endorsed by the supervisors is 196."

@90-ghost @ibtisams @nabulsi @aces-and-angels @sar-soor @sayruq @fairuzfan @palestinegenocide @vakarians-babe @northgazaupdates @northgazaupdates2

Trapped Family in Gaza Appeals for Help to Survive 🕊️🇵🇸🙏

I Samer Abu Ras, am reaching out to you with a heartfelt humanitarian appeal, after the ongoing war in Gaza has cast its dark shadow over my life and the lives of my family. Our lives were once filled with peace and stability before the onset of this catastrophe, but now, we find ourselves living in a situation described as nothing short of tragic.

My wife, Shurooq, our three children, and I are now homeless, without a source of income, and without hope for the future. My family and I have lost our businesses and our home due to the war, and we now have nothing left but the cold streets and troubled hearts.

My children are suffering greatly as a result of these horrific events. They have lost the security and stability they once enjoyed and are now facing new health and psychological challenges that threaten their lives. As a father and husband, I feel powerless in my ability to provide adequate protection and care for them.

My child, who is a year and a half old, is experiencing hardships far beyond his tender age. Since the war broke out, we had to flee our home and seek refuge in a tent in a displacement camp. My child lives in extremely difficult conditions, deprived of safety and stability. The tent does not provide adequate protection from harsh weather, and food and medicine are scarce. My child suffers from malnutrition and illness, lacking basic healthcare. He cannot play or grow in a healthy and suitable environment. My only dream is to see him grow up in a safe place full of opportunities

In the face of difficult circumstances, Samer Abu Ras and his family find themselves facing serious challenges in their daily lives. They reside in a modest tent lacking comfort and security, suffering from a shortage of clean water and food, and encountering difficulties in accessing necessary healthcare. Despite these challenges, they continue to express hope and resilience in confronting adversity, holding onto hope for a better tomorrow and a return to a more stable and secure life.

I appeal to you today, dear friends, to extend to me a helping hand in escaping this hell. Regardless of the size of the donation, every drop of generosity will contribute to alleviating our suffering and rebuilding our lives anew.

We need your help to secure the funds necessary to travel away from these destructive wars and seek a safe and stable environment where we can build a better future for our children

Let us stand together in these difficult times and let hope triumph over despair by providing support and assistance to those in dire need. Let us be part of the solution and build a better future for ourselves and future generations.

Thank you for listening and for the potential generosity of your giving, and for your generous donations that will change the lives of my family for the better.

With sincere gratitude and appreciation

‏Samer Abu Ras and family.

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🌹🍉🇵🇸❤️🌹🍉🇵🇸❤️🌹🍉

[xcziel]

plans for the evening are hope on the street docuseries and a little midnight gardening