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GENSHIN IMPACT'S 4TH ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION (2020—)
#genshin impact#genshinedit#genshinimpactedit#gif#venti#zhongli#raiden ei#nahida#furina#mine: gif#mine: all#I decided to put this up earlier than the actual date because I am impatient and worked super hard on this.#But let's just pretend I posted this on the 28th.#Happy 4th anniversary to my most favourite game in the entire world.#Genshin has been such a big part of my life and I couldn't be more thankful for it.#I adore every aspect of the game and I am overjoyed to see what it has blossomed into all these years.#I hope Genshin is with us for a very very long time. <3#A small gift to show my appreciation for the developers and everyone who made Genshin into what it is today.#Thank you to @actiasteeth for the graphics PSD!#gamingedit#dailygaming#vgedit#videogameedit#gamingnetwork#dailyvideogames
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This is what happens when you complete the "Remembering the Past" quests immediately after you're accused of murder
#they published their first book!!! look how happy he is!!!!#OKAY I KNOW. I KNOW. I KNOW THAT METEOR DOES NOT GET THIS PALADIN FIT IN ARR. BUT FORGIVE ME#i cannot see meteor in any other clothing lmfao he is The paladin of critically acclaimed ffxiv#also I AM SO SORRY THE PALADIN OUTFIT PROBABLY HAS THE MOST INNACURATE COLOURING EVER#it's so fucking busy and i was short on time like i did this in one hour and just left it#i wanted to draw my own wol but frankly i was getting impatient and drawing dragoon armour immediately after paladin armour-#-was not doing wonders for my monkey brain#also happily going to kick teledji in his miniscule balls#you get gay colouring on top of the art#ffxiv#ff14#ff14 art#hyur midlander#ffxiv wol#meteor survivor#teledji adeledji#lalafell#artoftheagni
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i’ve made so many mha doodles in the past couple weeks (most of which will be posted this weekend please bare w me >_<) but here’s some silly stuff from tonight
#fixh art#my hero academia#mha#ough so many ppl n ships….#katsuki bakugo#izuku midoriya#bakudeku#bkdk#toga himiko#ochako uraraka#togachako#mina ashido#tsuyu asui#minatsu#(it was that or kirimina but i wanted to keep the yuri going lol please know i love both)#momo yaoyorozu#yaomomo#kyoka jirou#momojirou#kirishima eijirou#denki kaminari#am i free is that everyone#most of mt mha art will be posted this weekend cuz i’ll be posting it when my friend posts their bkdk fic kyehehe#i got a lil impatient tho sorry>_<#it’s 4 in the morning where am i#wait does#do i tag todoroki…..he’s the moon….#i won’t but know thats him#and also while we’re here know that i tried to make aoyama little stars but it didn’t work out#i gave them stomach laser beams and it hmmm didn’t look right
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so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-
but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again
(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)
i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)
weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward
but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.
right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#ganondoodles rants#sorta#suicide attempt mention in the IRL stuff im talking about in the following tags btw#theres some construction stuff on our house going on#and my father is extremely stressed about it#he used to be very explosive- being silent and then exploding out of nowhere .. probably left me with lasting damage yippie-#but now he much more lets it eat at himself bc hes old and feels bad for the past stuff so now it makes him irritated and depressed#my older brother is the most normal cis straight guy you can imagine and incredibly impatient and bossy (you CANNOT talk with him)#(brother doesnt live in our house)#and while hes helping out hes doing it exactly how my father doesnt like and since you cant talk to the guy (explosive +200) it stresses hi#to the point of my father yesterday saying that “it would have been better if i had just died back in the day”#likely referring to the time when he was drafted for the military against his will and tried to kill himself#which i learned only like .. a year ago- theres so little my parents tell me ....#its like my mother telling me- while my father was in hospital for heart surgery- that she not only almost died back when i was a young tee#and only survived bc of some incredibly unebelievable lucky coincidences (medics on a travel being there that knew what she had-#-while our local doctors said welp- nothing we can do lady AND them beign there with a helicopter and emergency transferring her#to antoher bigger hospital while giving her immediate treatment our local one didnt do- AND at the big one just so happened to have-#-an expert on that illness in the facility when she arrived who was able to narrrowly save her life#BUT ALSO while she was recovering and weak and frail as a dust bunny witnessing someone stealing hospital surplies-#not noticing she was in the room at first (which .. the nurses left her in the nurse room while going on break ... which uhm .. yeah cool)#and if my mother hadnt acted in time like she was fully asleep and the lady stealing stuff beign in hurry- she might have killed her#without my mother being able to fight back bc she could barely even talk (the nurses didnt want to believe her when they got back either)#ANYWAY that comment from my father brough me to tears#and my mom is trying out more ... other medication shes not prescribed in hopes of it helping agaisnt her many pains#but i worry it will interact with the other stuff shes on ...#and i worry so much about both of their mental and physical well being#always trying to be the one to calm them down or help with communication bc that is a big problem in this houesehold#but i myself am also a very much not normal and not medicated shut in who has trouble dealing even with my own feelings
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slow and steady wins the race or whatever (¬_¬)
#i am both the world’s slowest artist and the world’s most impatient artist#*cries*#wip#bloodweave#bg3#astarion#astarion ancunin#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#bloodweave fanart
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playing with clip studio trying to figure it out. not going the best yet but hey here's n :)
#pokemon#pokemon n#natural harmonia gropius#n harmonia#clai speaks#oh my god i missed drawing n So Much i didnt realize how much i missed drawing him#i think i will get csp just bc it;d be nice to finally move off of drawing solely on my phone#i just need to be patient and practice with my tablet and a new program#said through gritted teeth. i am the most impatient person on earth
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Daniel after the race at the 2024 Azerbaijan GP
#daniel ricciardo#autumn posts#all of two pixels with the most celestial glow that my poor editing skills cannot correct hehe#but him 🥺#gosh I'm still kind of reeling after the race today#so glad everyone is okay after the crash#Carlos my beloved I feel SO much for him 🥺💔#and I still wish so badly for better cars where Daniel and Max and Lewis can truly shine 🥺✨#hoping for a much better weekend in Singapore ❤️🩹#on the plus side so so so happy for Franco and Alex!!!! team Williams did so well 💞✨#and I still have the highest hopes for 2025 🙂↕️❤️✨ I am so impatient hehe I just want to knowwww#I know everything will happen in time ahhh#anyways I have to catch up!!!! 💻💕#hope everyone is well if you're reading this!! ❤️
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AU Glamrocks, here we go! Close-ups, lines, and character descriptions under the cut <3
Freddy: Code Name: Gold (jokingly called “Golden Boy” by his team members)
The oldest of the Glamrocks, and an import. He’s been with Fez from the start, and has come a long way from “Friedrich Fassbär” (changed to a civilian Freddy Fazbear - bear being a literal translation, and “Faz” sounding similar enough - what a harmless suggestion by the Fez higher ups). Originally programmed in German, sometimes he still slips up even after all the updates and upgrades he went through. Of the Glamrocks, past and present, he’s the only one who wasn’t commissioned by Fez for the purpose of agent work. He was young when he met the late head of Fez, and promptly scouted - young enough to leave behind his previous life and move.
He’s proud to be such a cornerstone of Abra Fez, but it also comes with a burden. From the start, he’s watched people not return from missions, taking on more missions himself as if he could protect everyone if he just did all the work. But in the end, his friends - because they are friends, thanks to Fez’ policy of agents being allowed to share their identity with other agents if they so choose - pulled him back from that brink, and reminded him that it’s not his responsibility, that all agents chose this work, and are aware of the risks. Things happen, but he can only do so much.
Then Foxy “died”, and only a few short months later, Bonnie “disappeared” - it broke him. Freddy grew into a workaholic, and his anxiety skyrocketed about losing more friends. He doesn’t take it out on Roxy or Monty, and doesn’t fault them for the roles they fill. He’s grown to befriend both, though Roxy and Monty themselves keep a bit of a distance for their own reasons. Freddy would like to be greedy, he would like to have it all - his old friends, well and alive, and new friends joining them. The reality that that’s impossible hurts him, and so he drowns himself in work. He remains close to Chica, though often their conversations take a dive in the direction of nostalgia and grief, so they don’t seek each other out exclusively a lot, and besides, he barely has the time nowadays, anyway…
An all-rounder in terms of stealth and intelligence collection
Roxy: Code Name: Gaze (or Glare, when she’s angry - but only where she can’t hear)
Foxy’s direct replacement, and while she wasn’t told in as many words, she’s smart enough to figure that out. Many, many inadequacy issues about it - how is she supposed to live up to someone she never even knew? How is she supposed to feel like she earned her spot when she was instantly promoted into the Glamrock rank after completing training? Is she even any good? Overcompensates by putting on a show and acting aloof and at times even seemingly arrogant, very proud of her sight and the advantages it gives her. That part is real - and she knows she's good, with very real talents and tricks up her sleeve. But her "competition" is long dead, and the knowledge that if he hadn't died she would have just become a normal agent eats at her.
When she joined she barely got to know Bonnie before he disappeared, too, and while his loss hit her as well, she wasn’t as affected as Freddy or even Chica. Meaning she watched in detail how her new coworkers were crushed by the news, acting like barely a shell of their former selves for a long while. For a long while she thought about if that was their reaction to losing Foxy, too - not that she'd ever know.
Felt very awkward for the short while it took for Monty to be promoted into the ranks, as the only one not still mourning, wondering if perhaps she’s not affected enough, and if that makes her an even worse person in Freddy’s and Chica’s eyes, because she’s already replacing their friend.
Assumes many things about Freddy’s and Chica’s views on her in general, doing none of them a favor. A few times she tried asking about Foxy, but felt too bad about the sadness it caused, and so he now haunts her. Sometimes she wonders if the voice telling her she’s a failure is his, because she has no image of him to compare against. She pushes all of that away and still befriends the two, with just those lingering anxieties she’s too scared to bring up, because what if they confirm? With Monty she’s a bit more relaxed, though he has his own issues to work through, so it’s not like they’re closer to each other than anyone else.
Highly driven to prove herself and her merit, doing her best to prove (to Fez, to Freddy and Chica, to herself) that she is the best, and to leave the shadow of Foxy she was thrust in behind.
An all-rounder in terms of stealth and intelligence collection
Chica: Code Name: Pepperoni (usually shortened to Pepper, or the occasional Pep)
Oh, she tries so hard. Has always done her best to be fun and energetic, and felt comfortable with her spot in the world. Then half her friends died in a very short time, Fez started pushing for upgrades and changes, and nowadays she looks in the mirror and barely recognizes herself. She barely recognizes Freddy, either, and it’s almost scarier - she knows she’s still the same person, still feels like herself, even if that peppy energy feels harder and harder to keep up. But for Freddy, the only old friend she has left, she doesn’t even know if he’s still the person she knew underneath all that grief.
Her little family has changed irrevocably, and she tries to make it a new one, even with all of them resisting in their own ways. She huffs and puffs fake complaints, she teases and jokes, and she’s loud enough to cover the awkward silence that so often settles around them all.
She feels just a little abandoned, and isn't quite sure by whom. By Foxy, or Bonnie? For dying? By Freddy? For grieving? By Roxy and Monty, for not even trying to get as close as she hoped? By Fez itself, for reminding her that everything is temporary, and that their work is dangerous, and not doing more to protect them all? But no, that last thought is dangerous - the seed of doubt is there, after Foxy and Bonnie both started doubting, and look at what happened… She’s smart, smarter than people may think, and she’s terrified of the thought that the agency she has dedicated most of her life to would kill her or her friends so quickly just for being inconvenient.
Most of the time, she’s glad to have “one of those faces”, and a chipper attitude that makes people want to talk to her, underestimate her, and give her aaallll the information she wants. But when she starts feeling isolated by circumstances, with Freddy’s mind too clouded by grief and guilt, and the newbies remaining distant, there are suddenly many scary realizations just waiting to be had, and she can feel them creep closer with a dreadful finality. All she ever wanted was for her family to be okay, and happy, but it seems so unattainable when she struggles to stop everything from tearing at the seams. She pretends she’s fine just to act as the glue keeping them all together, too scared of losing them, too, even if it’s not the happiness she had before.
Her disposition makes her more inclined to accept missions for intelligence collection
Monty: Code Name: Nine Iron (Chica uses any golf term arbitrarily)
Technically, a little older than Roxy, but worked as a normal agent for a while. He quickly showed potential, despite some anger issues that made him decline many polite and formal undercover missions. Loud and energetic as he is, he sells himself as a dumb brute a lot, but hides a keen mind. He’s just not the most patient person, and he knows it - but when he was recommended for a team-up with a Glamrock he didn’t dare question it either.
And then the mission went sideways, Bonnie disappeared (which Fez seemed all too eager to label as destruction after minimal evidence), and Monty was briefly investigated before being cleared. A little while after, when he was offered to join the Glamrocks, he did end up questioning it - why replace the guy so quickly, and with him of all people, who couldn’t even help Bonnie out? That’s just a bit too good to be true - it’s fishy.
Fez calmly explains the facts, and they don’t look good for Monty. A rising star on his best way to become a great agent, but with violent outbursts that have left the clean up a mess many times before. A Glamrock, meant to mellow him out on a difficult mission, and no witnesses to his destruction, with very little evidence. Monty can shut his mouth and take the job and thus the benefits it comes with, or at any point they can reopen the investigation and he won’t like what they’ll find.
He takes the job. But in turn, he’s very quickly disillusioned with Abra Fez as an agency, and only the threat hanging over him keeps him from spilling it all. Sometimes fights with the others about things Fez wants them to do, which they think is because of his little anger issues, and he lets them believe it. Any suspicion the others may have harbored however he quickly dissolves, simply because of the subdued condolences he shares the first time he joins their ranks. They’re all welcoming, and include him in their off the clock hang outs when those do happen, but his lack of faith in Fez makes him feel like an outsider anyway.
But after years of the other shoe never dropping, he does his best to push it all away and just be a part of the group. If he can’t believe in management, he can believe in the people who stuck out their necks to help him so many times before, and he’ll do the same right back - he couldn’t help Bonnie, and he’s feeling so very guilty for his unknowing complicity in his disappearance, but he can make sure none of his friends suffer the same fate.
(Besides, he’s aware of the fact that he’d be the first Fez would silence)
His disposition makes him more inclined to accept stealth missions, and/ or missions with anticipated enemy contact
But then, enter a little menace:
Gregory: no official code name, but when he declared he wanted one, Roxy offhandedly called him Arsonist. Freddy in the background gasped as if personally offended, which Chica took as a prompt to amend “in Training!” - Freddy’s reaction was to cry out a “No!” much like the “Show me what you have” “A knife!” vine, while Monty started losing his shit. Roxy slipped the kid a lighter while Freddy was busy telling Chica that “in Training” does not make it better. Freddy personally calls him Superstar, after Gregory commented that “Glamrocks” sounds more like a band than a team of secret agents. The kid loves it, soothing even the sourest of moods into quiet grumbles.
Doesn’t talk much about the time before Freddy found him - where his parents are, why he was living on the streets, and why he was so insistent to go with the guy who had just started a fire.
It also wasn’t exactly a matter of being found. Gold was on a mission to destroy a particular batch of evidence and prevent the company in question from making headway, so he figured to kill two birds with one stone and simply set the building in question on fire. Easy job, he thought. Not a residential area, and with extensive research on work schedules, there shouldn’t be any casualties - except someone started throwing rocks at him while yelling, and ruthless as he is he would never hurt a child.
Even though said child turns out extremely feral, and barely stops berating him for burning down the warehouse with the laxest security, where’s a kid supposed to sleep now, huh? His things were in there, asshole!
Gold, close to tears he can’t shed, feels incredibly guilty and apologizes throughout carrying Gregory away from the fast burning crime scene. Lil tot keeps hitting him, though. Gold quickly finds out the kid stonewalls at everything except his own name, won’t even say what was in the warehouse that was so important to him. For a while Gold just stares at the kid, contemplating how to continue - he can’t just leave him there, but he can’t expect Gregory to go with a stranger, and his life is dangerous -
“So, where are you going now?”
Entirely too nonchalant, but when Gold does not react as intended (i.e. with a direct answer), the kid huffs and crosses his arms. Boldly declares he’ll stick with - uhh, what’s his name, actually?
Freddy introduces himself through a slip up, and immediately freezes. Gregory grins the smuggest of grins. So if Freddy doesn’t let him tag along, there’s a lot of information he has that many people would be very interested in - namely the police and the company in question. Kid has been living on the streets for long enough to know a sucker, and Freddy is a big one.
The other Glamrocks were a bit wary of the kid first, but not entirely surprised that a feral stray decided to bully Freddy into adopting him. They’re all unfazed through their circumstances, and so when going through missing child reports does not yield any matches, Gregory gets a new faked identity (though various last names had to be rejected - RIP Gregory Fartmaster, you were never meant to be) and gets officially (but technically, very illegally) adopted by Freddy.
He calls Freddy both by his name and Dad, though he’s a little bashful about the latter. Freddy wants to melt every time. Both end up an emotional mess and don’t address it until the next time it happens. Monty is a very cool uncle, but fumbles a lot - especially when Gregory asks about the unholy amount of bent golf clubs Monty owns. He takes the kid to minigolf just so he’d stop asking, which Gregory promptly starts exploiting. Roxy starts out very aloof - but Gregs is very persistent, and quickly figures out how to get her talking. So she can see through walls? So cool! What’s the weirdest thing she’s seen? The grossest? Can she look through that wall right there? What’s on the other side? Roxy is unfortunately not immune to childlike wonder and admiration, and gives in quickly. Chica doesn’t even need to be convinced! She’s quickly very affectionate (lord knows she’s aware that Freddy needed a win - needed to not feel like he failed someone again), and a little too enabling for Freddy’s taste. A little trip to grab some fast food is always on the table, and she very seriously asks him about fashion advice sometimes, so he can feel included. His advice objectively sucks (for formal events), but once she wore hot wheels earrings for him and he’s been riding that high ever since.
Since Freddy found Gregory and thus, has a little human to take care of, he has lightened up considerably again. The novelty of everything keeps him on his toes, and seeing the positive impact he has on Gregory/ the safe home he can give the kid has helped him heal. He still misses his friends, but he has someone to take care of at home, and so he no longer works himself into the ground. The future is once again looking bright, despite the pain of the past, and he’s eager to explore it.
Roxy gets to bask in the admiration of someone who has never known Foxy, and in whose eyes she’s her own person and that person is great, even if some compliments just lead to sly requests of checking gifts for their content before it’s time to unwrap them.
Chica gets to see her oldest friend become himself again, and feels a lot lighter herself in turn. Gregory has no issue keeping up with her energy, and where their interests don’t match up, their sense for shenanigans does and they both enjoy that immensely.
Monty has little time to ponder the past when there’s a menace making a mess of the present, but he doesn’t find it in himself to complain, even if the kid tests his limited patience a lot. He likes being the fun uncle a lot more than being a fraud, and so he embraces it.
(And so, Gregory is starting to acquire parental units)
He does know that their work is secret, though, and has the official explanation of what to say when people ask what his father does for work memorized. After [REDACTED] on the street, he’s smart enough to keep secrets, and only complains when secrets are kept from him. He likes being in the know, and really, with how involved he is, doesn’t he deserve to know? One day he’ll say the wrong thing to the wrong person, all because no one clued him in…
That would be a tragedy, no? (:
#post let luce#dcamv#accidentally undercover#sorry broader fnaf fandom i AM tagging them all for my own tag system#fnaf freddy#fnaf gregory#fnaf roxy#fnaf chica#fnaf monty#my art#2.9K words have fun#and also full disclosure I made Freddy German because I've seen one joke too many about it#plus I want to make my own joke but it only works in German#so I need a German character to bring it up and Freddy is my victim#briefly considered holding this back till the anniversary on the 18th#but im too impatient oops lmao#if all goes well I'll have something else for then#I do have an idea...#for now enjoy! <3#this took me most of yesterday and today fhdjs
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This is my prompt fill for "Truth or Dare" for @doctorrosebingo ! Rose jumps into the Celestial Toyroom and has to play for her freedom. If you happen to read it, please mind the tags. I hope you enjoy!
#DoctorRose Bingo#doctorrosebingor2#my fic#technically#though most of this fic is solo Rose#i probably should've held this and worked on it more#however technically the story is done and i am impatient so#we're just stuck with whatever this is now
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I am sick with a cold it seems ; ;
So I am sitting up with cinnamon tea, and reading the Psalms to feel better — it is sort of working? ♡
(I am not coughing so much at least? My throat still hurts much though)
And in other happy news I *do* have a pretty new sweater to stay comfy, and some marshmallow body lotion to cheer me up!
But honestly I do *not* like being sick .. and am very impatient to be well again !!
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♡ ⊹ 🧸 * ・。 ⊹ 🎀
#♡#rosy things#i am most impatient ; ;#perhaps the Lord wants me to slow down and is gently trying to call me to rest though !#perhaps hehe XD#how are you today my friends ??#has your week been a happy one so far ??#i hope so c:#sending many warm thoughts and much encouragement for your day !!#take care and all the best ~ ! c:#xo ! ♡#♡ ⊹ 🧸 * ・。 ⊹ 🎀
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yeah sure that's how i'll [re]come out
#zymart#zymtalk#rant in the tags ->#okay listen to me this is really important and also i have a witness. this was not intentionally supposed to be posted on june 1st#the stars just aligned for this to be at its funniest. which means its also easier for me to dismiss LOL#i drew this like a week ago after trying to draw a whole like. 5 page comic about it and then stopping it mid-board#bc it was horrifying imagining being perceived that much. so i needed to make it into a joke instead and this was the funniest route#and then i was like 'UGH. UGH!!!! i can not be 20 and deal with this like im 13. if i dont post it by the end of the week#then [the witness to all my rants on this topic. shoutout to twig bc they got the most of it] can joke abt it as if i did anyway'#and now its the end of the week and i looked at the date and went 'oh my god didnt may just start what happened'#'WAIT ITS JUNE FIRST. GOD. THATS TOO FUNNY TO NOT SAY SOMETHING' and who am i if i dont prioritize the bit honestly#in all honesty. kinda hate it! not bc of internalized homophobia but actually bc of internalized arophobia that has somehow been emphasized#after having my brain shift from '1000% aromantic without a doubt no exceptions' to 'just arospec ig lol??'#but tragically as it turns out. you can not just try and self analyze yourself into speedrunning closure.#horrible news for the oscar zymstarz community frankly#SO i needed a way 2 justify shoving this off my plate and into the trash as fast as possible.#im impatient and cant acknowledge my own emotions. its a flaw im working on it#oh and for all the ppl who know the running gag abt 'my allegations' [i do not have any real allegations for anyone not in jems server]:#that was in fact just a running gag for like well over a year and a half. like that was just a long running bit COMPLETELY unrelated to thi#i only started having this weird sexuality shift or whatever not too long ago lol. like long enough to go through 4 of the 5 stages of grie#[evidently bc like. im posting this. i got close enough to 5 to throw in the towel ykwim]#but on 'oscar zymstarz emotional acknowledgement' time that is....... not long.#but yeah ig tldr like. still ace [thank god] just arospec [probably demiro? i hate trying to figure out my own labels] instead of Aro now#idk none of this is that deep but also like it kinda is unfortunately bc i have to actually talk abt it to be able to ignore it ykwim#but i did! we're done talking abt it now! and now i can act like i dont care and try to make jokes about it to speedrun the rest of it#anyway. Happy Pride everyone. Fukign kitty.#side message to jem. by no means does this mean im not still gonna bully you. its a sign of love but also it is you specific bullying 🫶#you are not safe#edit: this is karma for saying 'thank god'. might be demiace too. this is the worst month of my life /j
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I am so beyond ready to quit this job. Wednesday cannot come fast enough.
#to be fair it's bc school starts again in a few weeks#but idk. every day at this office feels like sandpaper on my skin. people always ask me shit i dont understand#and every case is so individual there's no set checklist to follow to troubleshoot#so most of the time I just grind my gears and get stuck#it'd busy more days than not.#and it was advertised to me as data entry only. client interactions was not what i signed up for.#it's all client interaction.#we're short staffed so nobody gets to take the back office and have a break.#when we weren't short staffed i was the new guy and only got 1 day in the back a week while everyone else got 2.#all my coworkers are conservative but talk like they're apolitical.#i thought it'd be fulfilling bc im helping people get benefits#but many are rude or impatient as any other service job. I'm constantly trying to direct people that don't want to listen#or explain the intricacies of something i barely understand.#and i don't want to lead people astray bc you have to start over if you blow a deadline.#but there's just nothing redeeming that i enjoy.#i hate customer service. i hate constantly asking questions. i like seldom few of my coworkers.#i can't be me at work.#and i don't care about the work itself anymore.#this job made me cry every day for weeks last month from sheer stress and overstimulation.#i almost cried myself sick several times.#the only reason I'm not there anymore is bc i dont fucking care anymore.#it took me 2 months to burn out. 2 months!#i was training for half of that!!#idk. everyone decided i was smart and could pick it up quickly so. even though everyone else got 4-6 weeks of shadowing#you can make do with 3 before you start doing stuff solo.#which feels unfair. i wasn't ready for it. and i resent the decision quite a bit.#plus it's been a nightmare for me in terms of external stressors and my generally deteriorating mental health. so.#all in all. i hate it here.#and i can't wait to turn in my notice so i can gtfo in 2 weeks#i am so tired. free me. let me go back to my music please
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[Dark Souls banner popup]
EXAM COMPLETED
#dizzyisms#HARDEST ONE OVER WITH. FUCK YOU FRENCH I WANNA LIKE YOU BUT YOU CAUSE ME SO MUCH PAIN#theoretically I could've/should've waited till a few hours before the actual deadline tomorrow#and spent the rest of today studying so I could go at it fresh first thing#but alas I am stupid and impatient and got too in my own head about it w parents prodding me n just went Fuck It We Ball#brave for someone who never even properly finished taking the last unit's notes#but thank fuck prof FINALLY acknowledged my disability accommodations n gave me a whole extra hour#I kinda left most of the last section blank but w/o that time it would've been more like half blank
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dnd actually rewired my brain and i love it so much i used to have such a hard time focusing on lore but it changed my whole perspective on how much more fun it is to create characters with an in-depth understanding of their circumstances
#i used to be way more impatient about the story and emotional beats#and i still am to an extent i struggle to focus on in game lore dumps and will never be a detail oriented codex mastermind#but it’s fun to have a new perspective and return to dragon age which i adored already#but if we’re being so honest had only the barest most plot relevant extended knowledge of#dnd is the main thing but my friend’s game of thrones obsession also gets a shoutout#lush.talk
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Nimona headcanons I wrote while waiting for my plushies to arrive:
Nimona can regenerate limbs like a lizard
They use all pronouns and if they're feeling more one way than another, or not feeling whatever gendered term used, they'll just interrupt whoever is speaking and go "Nope" until they either give up or guess right. It frequently happens with interviewers, and he'll even switch it up mid interview because she enjoys being an absolute menace to them.
If it wasn't for the fact that she's incredibly durable (see: her getting an arrow to the leg and getting STABBED and being FINE) Nimona would always have bandages and bruises on her arms and legs from doing dumb stuff with no regard for her safety
Nimona DIYs a lot of their clothes, and even taught themself how to sew, knit, and crochet over the years because they got bored and needed something to wear (yes they could in theory just shift into whatever outfit they please but let them have hobbies come on)
Nimona changes his appearance every time they find something cool or has a new idea for the way they think would be cool to look, but always keeps her signature pink color
They have a mental catalog of their favorite appearances and will cycle through them periodically when they get bored of their current one, so sometimes they'll just come in and be dressed like they're from the 1500's or something. One time Bal walked in, and Nimona was just casually trying on their different eras. He was startled at first but it's normal for them to just be doing stuff and for nimona to suddenly look like a completely different person or an extinct animal or something, just for fun.
Nimona and Ambrosius do not handle the heat well. They both overheat incredibly easily, but Bal runs cold, so he's always freezing and will complain when they blast the AC. He's under like three blankets, while nimona has shifted into a lizard in an attempt to cool down, and Ambrosius is literally on the floor directly in front of the air conditioner.
Nimona can NOT handle spicy food. They claim they can and still attempt eating it, but for all the years they've been alive, they have not been able to build their spice tolerance at all. They love it, but they struggle to find spicy food that they can enjoy without sobbing while also being spicy.
#nimona#nimona netflix#nimona movie#nimona headcanon#the plushies have probably arrived now but now I'm out of town so#i checked like every day for them and they didn't come before I left#i am impatient#i want them to arrive#anyways enjoy#more are in the works because you gotta do something while standing in lines for over an hour#i hope nobody has done most of these#it's been in drafts all week bc i didn't have time to write up tags
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People: Aries Risings are ruled by Mars and mars is sharp, aggressive with the bone structure of the GODS.
Actual Aries Risings:
#aries rising#aries is baby of the zodiac#i feel like the sharp and aggressive bones structure is more of a scorpio thing#dont get me wrong i do have very prominent bone structure and i am very angular#but i look very youthful#and most of the aries risings ive seen tend to look youthful#even the men#they look curious and kind of tunnel visioned at the same time#they dont try to hide their feelings at all#and they are usually pretty short#short and spicy#very impatient
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