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aromanticsuzuya · 2 months ago

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one thing that really, really scares me is being wrong about my memories. I usually remember them in soo much detail, and the thought of getting it wrong makes me panic!!! if that's not how it was, then what was the thing I remembered? why was it so detailed if it was wrong? what if everything I remember is wrong? what am I gonna do then??? what do I do? what do I think?

#; talking #this maaay or may not be because i had all this go through my head just half an hour ago!#seriously though. im scared chat. i dont know what to do.#i am lost and confused and scared #all cause of :RE. maybe i shouldnt have finished :RE #fictionkin #fictionfolk #fictionkind

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sga-owns-my-soul · 10 months ago

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crying at 7am bc your best friends are Science Brains and try to explain the Cool Concept of Dimensionality to you but you are Too Dumb To Understand

#DONT CALL ME SMART!!!!!!!#I AM NOT AND THATS OKAY #IM A DUMB BITCH AND THATS FINE #okay moving on #i'm so confused #literally how does the y axis change based on what you're doing #how is it measuring different things in different contexts #and how the fuck is TIME a dimension!!!!!!!!#HOW DOES THAT MAKE SENSE #'well bc you can be in the same location at two different times and it's technically a different location' i'm gonna cry what does that MEAN #HUH #mushroom i love you and i love that your interested in so many amazing things #but i'm SO CONFUSED #science side of tumblr do NOT explain #my poor brain #my partner tried explaining it to me too and that made me more confused #what a great way to start the day 😂😂#literally so lost #science brains yall scare me just a little bit #im only mostly sure that you aren't all just doing witchcraft #insanity #anyways #personal rambles #mushroom and stick against the world #not stargate

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tamagotchikgs · 5 months ago

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i went to town w my mom and the entire time i couldve sworn my sister was with us but when we got home she wasnt in the car,,, i ,huh. whuh

#I SWEAR I HEARD HER LAUGH............#IM SURE OUR MOM TOLD HER TO HURRY UP BEFORE WE LEFT #i am so confused i feel so lost #i already felt sick n this did not help LMAO.... o(-<#my wisdom tooth has been harming me especially bad these past couple days the pressure on my jaw/ear is making me feel so dizzy #i can handle the pain but when it starts doing things like that im oogf....ug...#& i wanted to tell my mom about it having come in but i was too scared #esp so because i thought my sister was in the car too

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gena-rowlands · 1 year ago

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CHANGED MY TUMBLR ICON FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ABOUT A YEAR

#feeling scared feeling confused feeling lost #who am i?????? does anyone remember me??? because i don’t???????#rip msp poogle </3

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serkonans · 8 months ago

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the way we handle medical leave in the states even for people with good benefits is cruel

#the number of hoops i have to jump through. the way that my requirements for one surgery are apparently different from another surgery #even though there's nothing in the paperwork to indicate any need for that and the surgeries don't differ all that much #the way that they lost my initial letter and now i'm up against my deadline next week and they haven't even told me what day next week #so i'm worried that it's literally tomorrow #the way i am not receiving ANY pay for an entire month because of all the delays so i'm having to live off my savings #the way that every single person i've talked to has said something different about what is and isn't required #the way that for a lot of this i had to be navigating it while high on painkillers immediately post-surgery #the way that the group my employer contracts through has two different emails and names and flips between them constantly #the way that my healthcare provider does it differently than every other healthcare provider so i need special forms from them #instead of the leave group but then the leave group doesn't seem to accept the forms that they send #the way that the doctors office has seemed incredibly confused by my requests #the way that the ROI office told me they'd send over a completed form and never did #the way i literally don't even know who to call next to try and sort this out or if it's possible TO sort out #like i guess i'll call the leave group tomorrow and cry and beg for an extension. i guess i'll grovel bc it's the difference #of getting a few thousand dollars or not and i can't just be like oh well guess i won't get my short term disability pay #especially bc none of the hospitals have billed me yet and i'm getting scared bc i don't know what my ER bill is going to look like #bc they did xrays and a CT scan and they gave me a splint and a sling and a lot of drugs #so i do need the money. just sitting here like. idek what to do lmfao.#not tagging this bc i'm on desktop and i can't do the accent mark easily and idk where my phone is rn sorry

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axewchao · 2 years ago

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Gotta give credit to TheFuzzyWolfyDude on dA for this pupper, since his suggestion of Lycanroc (and by extension Rockruff) for Dal was actually a really good match!

Personality-wise, Rockruff and Midday Lycanroc tick off a lot of boxes:

Rockruff Excellent sense of smell ✔️ Some have reunited with their Trainer by following the faintest scent (parallel to Trainer!Dal's search for Valerie in the PMD AU) ✔️ Never forgets the kindness of others ✔️ Becomes more vicious as it matures ❌ Very loyal and will protect friends when they're threatened ✔️ One of its abilities is Keen Eye, something an aspiring Pokémon Doctor would need ✔️

Midday Lycanroc Calm, collected, and avoids unnecessary fights ✔️ Prefers living alone, but is fiercely loyal to whoever it bonds with ✔️

(Lycanroc's list is shorter because I copy-pasted it from one of my replies and was comparing each of Lycanroc's forms, with Midday having the most checkmarks)

Again, it's a damn good match. Plus, both Rockruff and Lycanroc's shiny palettes are blue, so it suits Dal on an aesthetic level too! (With some minor alterations; the brown that's on a normal shiny Rockruff just... did not fit here =w="")

Also threw in a bit of Growlithe as well, mostly because Growlithe is also a good pupper and I like the claws on its front paws. Why Arcanine loses them upon evolution, I'll never know ;w;

#pokemon #pokémon #pmd #rockruff #shiny rockruff #Dalex Rathmore #Trainer!Dalex #Rockruff!Dal #this literally popped into my head as I was showing my ma the pic:#having this be Dal's pmd form would make him a literal *lost puppy*#he at least acts like one at the start; scared- confused- and starts following the first person to show him kindness #whether it's the Partner or an NPC #oh cod am I gonna have to pick *another* Partner?#I kinda do but kinda don't T^T #alternatively I could just make him go it solo but pmd is ALL ABOUT Heroes and their Partners!!#my brain sucks sometimes ;w;#axewchaoscribbles

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electricpurrs · 9 months ago

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it is really weird to be anything at all, isn't it

#feeling weird. been feeling weird for so long #after years and years im still not sure #what i am. who i am. who do i want to be. why i want it. what do i want to do. how #i feel lost and scared and confused and its even more embarrassing now because im supposed to be starting my adulthood #but i feel as lost and scared and confused as i was at 15 #and i think my fear paralyses me from ever actually doing or becoming anything #a static self thats also not a defined self. an underdeveloped blob of Something or Someone #living in my mother's house and being on my computer all day because im scared to get out #i feel less than alive. i guess less than real sometimes

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bunnihearted · 1 year ago

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#my dad left physically and emotionally #my mom never left physically but i think she left emotionally #im all alone and confused and scared and ill always be a fucked up pathetic child #just let me die. why am i even alive #i do nothing i am no one fucking #let me offff #i want out of this existence i cant take being awake or conscious anymore like stoppppp i cant even sleep anymore #idk where to turn #but also.. humanity and society are a fucking joke so there isnt rlly anywhere to turn #i just lost the lottery that is life so just let me fkn die nd stop

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queerhoodies · 2 years ago

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this year was inarguably the worst of my life yet i’m so scared of actually letting go because every year it just keeps getting worse

#i guess after you’ve hit rock bottom you can just go uphil from there so that’s something #it’s so scary to go into a new year alone after you’ve lost the most important person in your life #and i don’t want to exist in a new year when they won’t #but also i’m looking forward to some things so it’s not all awful #and i’ve been so busy and tired lately i didn’t even have time to unpack all of that and now i’m panicking #i’m very torn rn #or just high #al rants #my new year’s resolution is to come up with a better personal tag #also i want a tag for my queue #like a fun pun or wordplay that a lot of people have #i think that i’ve actually never used the post queue in all of my time here #there’s many things i’ve never used here before and at this point i’m just too scared to ask #like side blogs #they always confused me #i used to just have multiple different blogs and log in and out of them #wait how did i go from a grieving depressive post to this #maybe i am high yes #to the new year !

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sapsolais · 1 year ago

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#so i was hoping 2 have a pride icon ready for today but #i was suddenly Struck Emotion at 5 am and wrote out a whole comic i think i might want to make #because it just hit me like. Wow. i'm ***alive***#SHDKFHGK and i'm putting this here bc i think this might be a bit too heavy (sorry twitter circles)#but just like. really. wow #6 years ago i didn't think i'd make it very far nor did i want to #i spent so long lashing out at myself and clawing at my own skin because i was confused and lost and scared and hurting #and here i am #a bit ago i was putting on the bandaid for my t shot next to some particularly harsh scars #and it Hit me so hard i was sittin there tearing up shdkfjg #it's hard to put into words but. fuck #wow #i feel like my body is actually Mine and Me and i am *in* it #this makes me sound a bit like a stoner i think SHDJFHDKHF but it's true!!! i am not high just.#spiritually sitting with the me a couple years ago that felt miserable and alone for her first pride month #the me that didn't quite get it yet #Feelings.#ough #sap says #*i* did this. i found and Made me all on my own. wow ;;

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crqelsummer · 2 years ago

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wait wait wait what happens if the user for OFA dies before they pass it on

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lanne13 · 2 years ago

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I forgot that the life with derek movie was happening but then tiktok showed me an ad for it and this comment?

what in the folgers incest commercial is happening in this reboot

#i am scared #i’m so confused #I’m sure it’s a marketing ploy and that 100% of the people who watch it will be watching just to see what in the city of bones is going on #but like. it’s a kids show (or movie? idk i keep blocking it out)#anyway I’m going to bed now but seriously what in the fosters is this #(also why are there so many incest and pseudo incest properties? i could’ve also gone with what in the borgias or #cruel intentions or clueless or lost - remember boone and whatsherface from season one? why are there so many stepsiblings who fuck on tv??)

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sepiasys · 19 days ago

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Current Mood:

#sepiasys.txt #sepiasys.priv #We accidentally manifested mass alter/identity confusion when 👑 updated our bio on dissociative.cafe #WHO IS THISSSSSS WHO AM I!? I refuse to believe. But I didn't feel like 🪴 so like 😭#Who knew laughing and making fun of your friend and shit was enough to realize you do not feel the same internally.#Mentally going through our identity list with my hand on my forehead like *No god please tell me I'm someone else actually*#might private later might not idfk #I'M LOST AND CONFUSED MOM PICK ME UP I'M SCARED (Joke - fuck mom; we don't like her >XP)

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ottertotterz · 2 months ago

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girls love an imperfect victim until you meet one irl

#just bcus i was (am) confused and scared and overwhelmed #and am not able to make the Right Decision immediately #just cuz it is taking me more than a few weeks to come to terms with things #means im wrong #idk #its lonely #but also its ok #im trying hard to make new friends and find new ppl :)#trying hard to reclaim things that were rlly comforting to me that i felt like i lost #im putting on their playlists and im not gonna b depressed!!#at least not any more depressed than i am now #and then after im going to move on to new things i can create with new ppl #vent #kinda? i mean idc if u rb it ig cuz all of the actually moaning is in the tags #just feelin a way #trying to work through this shit #its not easy!!!!!!#therapist save me

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watch-out-it-bites · 6 months ago

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I am. SO being fucked over by my school 24/7 but if I take extra classes I get to graduate early..

#And not only that- i could take some college credit thingy classes apparently and im gonna do math because MAYBE #that means i wont need to take math next year? im not sure. this stuff is confusing.#they apparently lost our paperwork again and they said that im not allowed to make up my classes so im 'failing' but i also have 98s and stu #ff but ?? gpa bad but?? confused #school isnt very nice and they keep lying to me but i never trusted them in the first place because school people always lie to your face #then theyll lie further and i fucking hate them for that #but they keep on. not doing their fucking job. and im really sick of 'failing' because they lied or 'werent given' paperwork that i went and #gave them in person. paperworkmy mom emailed to them and bills and whatnot #i am. very fucking sick of this school not doing anything except punish me.#i put in so much effort and all i get is my good grades revoked and told 'oh sorry!! you missed too many days but you cant go to makeup sch #ool.. youre gonna have to figure this out!! no way we can help!!'#literally have to goad answers out of them and they refuse to talk to my mom because shes 'too aggressive' yeah no shit shes a mom #you would be mad too having to deal with this dumb fucking school!! it isnt a valid excuse to leave due to a loss in the family!! or illness #my doctors notes dont fucking count what do you mean??#you tell me all this shit im so confused bro make it make sense am i failing or not? are you even trying?? fuck this school #and then you lie in front of the school spouting bullshit shining your shoes and saying you did wrong to make yourself seem good like #WE HAVE KNOWN. THIS IS NOT NEW INFORMATION.#im scared to go back to school on monday

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duhmemo · 7 months ago

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I think I just got adopted by one of my clients?

help?

So I’m a hairstylist and one of my clients just kicked her 17yo daughter out of her house(for calling the cops on her for playing music to loud) and to be fair her daughter was a brat, but anyway a few days later she comes into my salon hugging me and crying about how much she loved me and was so proud of me?

Then she proceeded to rant about how she’d had the gallbladder surgery she had talked about during her last appointment, got pulled over on her way home from surgery(that she almost died during by the way) cussed out the officer who pulled them over, and then had to call the surgeon a few days later because her incision got infected?

Then got arrested held for a few days cussed out the officers who arrested her, attempted to brake out of her handcuff(she still had bruising on her wrist from trying to pry the cuffs off) insisted on waiting for the judge, then got acquitted by the court a few days later?

And then she’s in my salon a few days after that saying her ex husband is paying for her to get her nails and hair done and she asking my prices?

She just left saying she loved me, she was proud of me, and she’ll be calling to set an appointment again soon?

#business owner #hairstylist life #costumer service #am I adopted #I scared #lol #crazy #confession #confused #I’m lost

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