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Mc that just finishes the p.e class at rad: I may not be good at working out but at least I can do quick math *panting heavily*
Satan: really? What's 81 x 7?
Mc: 88 *still panting*
Satan: mc that's wrong
Mc: *about to collapse because of light headness and still panting non stop* but it was fast
#i just finished my workout#when i walked down a stair i almost collapsed because my head is wobbling like crazy#i am lacking some sugar#obey me#obey me incorrect quotes#obey me satan#obey me mc#omswd mc#obey me shall we date#obey me crack
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lying here in bed and thinking abt how alienated out i feel in the cookie run fandom. and then theres a polish sitcom playing in the background from a different room.
#mostly like. i feel so alienated out for like. having such different views of chars.#dark choco is a char i find myself to relate to a lot. i see so much of myself in him.#and yet. i cant get fully interested and that makes me feel. am i even a true fan of his character#if my interpretation is so vastly different from the fandoms#and how his kingdom is probably my least favourite out of all the ancients' kingdoms#for how i feel like ppl and the narrative tend to forget how dark cacaos kingdom is so flawed.#like the whole âno sweet mealsâ thing. i am not talking abt irl influences and how it impacts the presentation of the kingdom but more like#i feel like ppl tend to perfectionize dark cacao kingdom while ignoring a ton of systematic issues in it.#then theres my opinion on hollyberry. i love her. shes my favourite ancient. but i wish we got a more serious storyline with her#im not all catched up on the lore but i just wish rlly wish we got more of the hollyberry kingdom. and see holly display a wider range of-#-emotions.#i hope the eternal sugar update will get us some hollyberry kingdom angst because i need some more serious characterization for her that r-#-not just snippets#then theres. white lily. i feel like im the only person who liked the fact white lily got her own kingdom and was split into two versions.#it DID come out of nowhere but like. i feel like its sort of more interesting than just white lily being fully DE?#her update was a fiasco with how shadow milk stole the show that was meant to be hers.#but like. so many of my opinions are different than the fandoms that i just cant help but feel like an intruder sometimes#i dont want to sound like a pick me or someone who thinks they r special for being different. because im not.#i do not like this feeling. but i needed to be open abt it ig#cookie chat#theres also like. the lack of proper characterization for carrow besides âgood loyal soldierâ.#that annoys me as hell too#fyi i DO NOT hate dark cacao kingdom to be clear. i love it a ton. the cultural influences are so interesting and i love the setting.#i just wish ppl didnt brush off a lot of systematic flaws abt it.
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What the food pantry on campus does:
- gives me snacks and drinks to supplement my regular groceries, breakfast stuff, maybe ingredients for 1-2 actual meals
What the food pantry is really bad at doing:
- giving me food I can make into proper meals for the week
Oh you want juice? Hereâs 2 little juice boxes. Nothing else; theyâre limited. You want pasta sauce? 1 can; limited. You want produce? 2 produce item limit, except for the apples which are starting to spoil. You can have all of those. You want frozen chicken? One container only. Oh, theyâre all stuck together and frozen? Sorry, you canât have two; no chicken, I guess. Pasta? One box only. Rice? Two small bags, max. Breakfast bars? Yeahhhh, those are a snack, and you can only have five snacks, total. But if you put those pop tarts back, you could have some! Oh, you want donuts instead? Sure! But thatâs a bakery item, and you can only have one baked good, so youâre gonna need to put that bread back. You want ziploc bags? Here, have two. Not two boxes, two bags. Item limits. Sorry. You can come back next week!
How the fuck are people supposed to actually *use* these things for weekly meal planning if thereâs not enough to last a week???
I swear I am grateful for these resources Iâm sure theyâre doing the best they can with what they have Iâm just *frustrated*. Iâm trying to spend less on groceries bc I canât really afford them. Itâs nice that the food pantry gives me these small portions to last me a couple days. But that still leaves several days with not enough food unless Iâm really creative or go grocery shopping, and I simply do not have the energy or time to be really creative.
#blue chatter#yes yes u have pasta noodles thatâs GREAT#thatâs not a full meal until I have sauce and meat or veggies to go with it#and your produce and meat stock are very limited if they exist#oh you have rice? great! rice on its own is not enough for a meal. what is going Into The Rice.#like obv if I have to I will just eat the pasta or the rice but a lot of the food bankâs stuff focuses on shelf stable staples and not like.#ingredients you can actually make into a full meal. like. protein and fat and vegetables or fruit.#carbs are super important but if you only have carbs then your body is gonna suffer#same if you only have protein or only have veggies/fruit or only have fat. you need all of them.#and like yes. they do have a couple basic staples like peanut butter. if I needed to make a balanced meal I could probably eat a spoonful of#peanut butter and some rice and snag a bag of apples and eat those. and I will do that if I gotta.#but the effort it would take to turn that into a dish I would enjoy and feel full after eating is. so much.#and they donât have staple ingredients like flour or sugar or eggs#sometimes they have butter. sometimes. they had eggs once but they were rotten.#like I am so grateful for the free food believe me I am but I donât understand how they expect students who donât have grocery money to eat#you could get everything they let you take and still go hungry or feel sick from lack of nutrients or be unable to make food bc they donât#have spoons or the equipment or both#also. the food pantry is SUPER not wheelchair accessible. and the parking situation is DIRE.#why are there only two (15 min limit) parking spots. but 38584847 meter spots. and the closest non-meter lot 10 minutes walk away.#I had a pain flare yesterday from lugging my groceries all the way back to my car. my gosh.#I should not have to pay for the privilege of parking a reasonable distance from the food bank when thereâs spots RIGHT THERE UNUSED#nobody goes to this part of campus! everything is closed except for the food bank! why are these meter spots!
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well hold onâŠ.. drop a fact or two about your funny cookies ideas⊠Iâm inch rested now
HIII okay. i will try to keep it to a fact or two bc i could talk about this all fuckin day!! spillways is the larger universe that working hard at follow through takes place in, which posits an alternative dark choco healing arc + eventually sprawls out to most of the cookies of darkness defecting, and the effects it has on the story continuing from hollyberry kingdom or so. the projected end of the "main" story is the end of dark cacao's storyline, though there are a whole buncha side stories + a cookie run odyssey plotline i've been rolling around. dark cacao's storyline focuses a lot more on plot threads i thought it dropped the ball on - namely how bad this man has been fucking up his kingdom in his grief, and the fascinating implications of the ruined villages (licorice!!! licorice!!! i think about it all the time!!!) and, of course, what happens if dark choco is there. from my notes:
the main bit of ch 14's emotional beat is definitely, i think, both. dark cacao's no good very bad soul-jam-worsened illusory time & also a bit more focus on hey dark cacao your maladaptive coping mechanisms have screwed your kingdom over just a bit tfw your paranoia is justified by the licorice sea attack but also it isnt at all!!
spillways 3 is my favorite to talk about because it goes the most off the rails (pom & de get to pull a lot of fun horror bullshit & also evil wlw bullshit, because by that point they're the only cookies of darkness left) but spillways 2 cannot be discounted. it's a heist fic about red velvet & his relationship to dark enchantress, strawberry crepe's Revenge Of The Ten Year Old, and poison mushroom missing their older brother and i think about it often
#kbitycus talks#sillypix#the side stories are some of my favorites that i have sketched out!#'growing pains' is about crepe splicing some of red vel's dragon dna into themself. and the consequences#'married with a lack of vision' is a silly fic about parfait & snow sugar & licorice putting on their first joint performance#'aurora borealis' is my pre-spillways 3 cotton & dark choco friendship manifesto#etc!!!#i am always so happy to talk about this au thank you hocus!!!!
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â i am afraid i will love you forever.
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ambessa x sugar baby!reader x sevika. men & minors dni.
synopsis: ambessa & sevika are married for business reasons but cannot stand each other. however, they love youâyou who are unaware that they are together.
cw: age difference, older woman/young woman, polyam but is it really bc they just love you and not each other, sugar baby!reader, business moguls!ambessa & sevika, power dynamics, power imbalance (you're a sugar baby, lol), sw, pining, non-sexual intimacy, sexually explicit content, threesome, cunnilingus, vaginal fingering, oral sex (everyone is receiving at some point), masturbation, exhibitionism, voyeurism, dom/sub, sub!reader, dom!ambessa, switch!sevika, mommy kink, strength kink, face-sitting, face fucking, possessive sevika & ambessa, y'all there's a lot of nastiness in here idk if i can warn for it all, discussions of sexuality, implied assault (non-graphic, within conversation), slightly dub-con, angst, angst with a happy ending, misunderstandings, arranged marriage, sexual tension, hate sex, bisexual!reader.
wc: 10.3k
PLAYLIST.
notes: y'all, i'm going to hell. i had fun with this. i have such a soft spot for plots like this.
ACT I: CONCEPTION. you were used to feeling like a guest in your own life, everything fleeting, everything temporary.
sugaring was something inherently lacking permanence, even in name. it was sweet for a moment, full of gleaming gifts that you accepted with perfect tears in your eyes.
you had more than enough money, saved from endless months in which you traipsed across the world in the hands of older men. maybe it was about the attention now, this idea that you were still young enough to be considered enticing without effort. maybe it was the desperation to wring what you could out of an age gap connection before you became the older one.
still, in the beginning years of your twenties, you found it increasingly grating. very quickly, you understood that the men were the main problem.
they were all the same: fleshy jowls wiggling as they chewed thickly through caviar and jasmine rice, their boisterous laughs sailing across tables when you attempted to join conversations. they took your interests and re-explained them to you, returning them pulpy and distorted as they attempted to convince you that you didn't understand them the way they did. their self-importance clung to them like cheap cologne.
the rare occasions where you actually slept with them were mercifully short, and you learned to suspend yourself out of your body. you would imagine hovering somewhere over yourself, banished to the lavish mirrored ceiling of the ritz or whatever opulent hotel they'd chosen. they shuddered awkwardly above you, and afterward, you'd come back into yourself only to scrub viciously at your skin under the unforgiving spray of the shower.
the women were differentâusually. you found yourself drawn to their luxury perfumes and high society drawls. it was because of this that you dropped working through an agencyâwhich you had originally chosen to better protect yourself from male clientsâand began independent contracting.
you kept a private log of the ones you liked best. there was the private university professor (who was really a nepotism baby) who loved to wear le labo matcha 26 and smelled so deliciously of fig whenever she kissed you that you sometimes bought the fruit just to continue tasting her. her nickname for you was something in greekâÎŒÏÏÏ ÎŒÎżÏ
, you think. moro mou. she told you it meant 'my baby', but in all honesty, she could have called you anything. you just liked hearing her speak.
you were a dreamy, distant creature. your appeal lay in your ethereal quality, moving through the world in a way that suggested you were detached from it. people described your presence as lingering, smokey and soft, like a fading perfume in a sunlit room. there was something endearing about the tilt of your head, the deliberate pause in your movements and speech as you stewed in thought, that made people stare a second too long.
you had plied yourself with romantic imaginations since you were younger, when you first grew to hate your mother. that hatred had led you across far waters into a glittering life of your own making. but you'd learned that women could be just as dangerous, if not more so. they could ensnare you, shatter your heart with just the flicker of a glance.
so, of course, this meant that you were bound to get caught in the tides of extensive affection at some point. you just didn't expect it to be with them.
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the first sign should have been the unusual nature they coaxed from you.
you typically focused on one relationship at a time, securing yourself to a single person until you became too honest or too sensitive or too old. but with them, you foïżœïżœâund yourself with what you called a rosterâa term your best friend and fellow sugar baby clleo (yes, two l's) took issue with during your weekly brunches.
"it's not a roster when it's only two women, [name]," she said, stirring her mimosa with a silver straw.
"it's more than one, no?"
"i feel like you have to have a minimum of three." she raised an eyebrow. "though i have to admit, even two is unusual for you."
the first was ambessa.
you'd met her when you weren't even looking, at some jazz show clleo had received tickets for from her newest beau. you had been perched inside the red velvet of the box, eyes roving over the insides of the other open balcony seats. you loved to observe, to look into others' lives and pretend they could be your own.
that night, you'd worn a navy slip dress that pushed the line of being dress-code appropriate, but it was comfortable and you had been tired. your hair was elaborately braided away from your face, threaded through with silk ribbons of the same color. despite its usually disagreeable nature, you'd managed to make it look elegant enough. your skin was littered with goosebumps from the fervent blasting of the air conditioning.
for once, you'd done your makeup the way you preferred itâless blushing ingenue, more cool nudes and a dark, bold lip. in the bottom of your purse sat two rolling bullets of lipstick: one a berry shade, the other a satiny red slightly subdued by a touch of brown pigment.
your feet had been curled beneath you, your ballet flats cast aside in the corner. the rounded tops were slightly scuffed, but you only saw it as a testimony of love. again, you looked out into the crowd only to find a woman looking back.
she was utterly beautiful, and your body flushed with heat for a moment, eyes wide like a doe. her skin was a dark, rich brown that gleamed with a sheen of oil and perhaps a shimmering body mist. her hairâblack and streaked with thin rivers of grayâwas pulled up into a tight bun, though the front was cornrowed. her mouth was full and smooth, a small gold cuff inserted in the middle of her bottom lip.
that night, she'd worn an oversized blazer over tailored pants. your eyes caught on her diamond cufflinks, and you felt your fingers clutch tighter around the bulk of your vintage ysl clutch.
she watched you with a sense of urgency, as if you might take flight like a bird and never return. bashfully, you turned back to watch the performance and clapped politely as it came to an end. her gaze never strayed from you, and as you rose to leave with clleo, you knew that she would be waiting.
you don't remember much of what happened after, of arranging the contract and indenturing yourself to her wealth. you only remember how she made you feel, her great body towering over you as she pierced you with her shrewd gaze. she'd cupped your elbow, pulled you gently to the side so that you were less in the way. the movement was easy; you trusted her with your body immediately.
now, ambessa reigned over the entries of your leather journal as your clear favorite. everything she did further endeared you to her, and you found yourself tumbling out of bed to check your phone where it lay on the floor, desperate for her messages. you watched the device all night, its flat body connected to a limp white cord plugged into the wallâwilling it to ring.
and when she did call, you were almost delirious with joy.
ambessa's world was a carefully curated exhibition of power. noxus corp dominated the skyline with its obsidian tower, all sharp angles and tinted windows that reflected the setting sun like spilled blood. you'd learned early on not to ask too many questions about her work. the corporate merger making headlinesâsomething about expanding into the industrial district of zaunâwas just background noise to the way she'd trace your collarbone with cold fingers heavy with rings.
belatedly, in the midst of your betrayal and anguish, youâd berate yourself on your refusal to engage with real life when it inconvenienced you. you couldâve caught on, dived deep into the hole of information that was the internet as clleo did when taking up with someone new. but you didnât, you just answered her call.
she liked to dress you up. tonight, it was a paper-thin black dress that cost more than your month's rent, the fabric liquid against your skin. you'd paired it with kitten heels that made soft clicking sounds against the marble floorsâambessa preferred when you were shorter than her, easier to maneuver, to possess. your lips were stained the color of coffee, and you'd lined your eyes with something dusky and soft.
the restaurant was the kind of place that didn't list prices on the menu, where the silverware felt weighty enough to be used as weapons. you liked this style of dining; it allowed you to escape further. you could pretend that since there were no prices, every morsel you ate was free and that the woman across from you was someone whom you loved and received love back from instead of bills.
âpull your hair back,â she commanded softly when you sat down, reaching across to brush a strand from your face. her touch lingered longer than necessary. âi want to see you properly. you should never feel a need to hide from me.â
you obliged, using the elastic around your wrist to gather your hair into a loose knot. the movement exposed the necklace she'd given you last weekâa delicate thing of white gold and diamonds that probably cost more than your university education. her eyes darkened with satisfaction. she liked marking you with beautiful things, preferred to communicate through touch and gifts rather than words.
you preened under her clear pleasure. the idea that youâd done something right flowed through you, sweet as sugar as was the phenomenon of female favoritism. your tongue settled behind your teeth as she skimmed the menu, ordering for you as she always did. she seemed more aware of what you liked and needed more than you had ever been.
âare you alright with sharing the roast monkfish tonight, little lamb? iâm not all that hungry, so i think we should deal with something light.â
you nodded and she smiled, chucking your chin as she flagged down the server. you squeezed your thighs together, resisting the urge to rise from your seat and sit at her side with your head resting in her lap.
the waiter arrived with a bottle of wine you were unfamiliar with, which meant it was far more expensive than your beloved six-dollar gas station sémillon. as ambessa swirled the dark liquid in her glass, her phone buzzed. her expression hardened for a fraction of a second before smoothing over.
"business," she said simply, standing. "order whatever you'd like. i'll return shortly."
you caught fragments of her conversation as she walked awayâsomething about zaun's infrastructure and liability concerns. one hour bled into two. the waiter refilled your glass with practiced discretion, and you watched the ice in ambessa's water melt completely. your phone remained silent except for a single text: an urgent matter requires my attention. car service will take you home.
the words blurred on your screen. you'd grown used to her absences, the way she could withdraw completely into her world of corporate warfare, leaving you adrift in these expensive spaces. but tonight, the emptiness felt sharper somehow. you had, more than ever, wanted her to take you home.
it was then that the woman entered the restaurant, right as you blinked upward to dispel the gathering tears. the air seemed to shift with her presence as she absentmindley looked in your direction.
she moved with the fluid grace of someone who knew how to handle herself in the cruel maw of this world, efficient and forceful despite wearing an expertly tailored suit. her left arm caught the light strangelyâsome sort of advanced prosthetic that spoke of military tech or private healthcare. a significant scar bisected her face, but rather than diminishing her beauty, it enhanced her striking features.
your paths crossed at the bar while you waited for a fresh glass of wine. she ordered whiskey, neat, and her voice was rough velvet.
"you're wearing that necklace wrong," she said, not looking at you directly. "the clasp should be centered at the nape. here."
before you could protest, her fingersâwarm, unlike ambessa'sâwere at your neck, adjusting the chain. you caught a whiff of motor oil beneath expensive perfume. you swayed slightly, pressing into her touch. she steadied you with a single finger at the beginning knob of your spine, strong where you were momentarily weak.
"i'm sevika," she said, finally meeting your eyes. something in her gaze made your breath catch. youâd never seen eyes that grey. "you look like you could use something stronger than wine."
you smiled, albeit shakily, which avalanched into finding yourself talking to her about everything and nothingâabout the book of poetry you kept on your nightstand for late night reading, about the way you collected vintage coats, about how you sometimes felt like you were floating three feet above your own life.
she listened with an intensity that made you feel anchored, present in your skin in a way you hadn't felt in months. her questions were sparse but precise, each one drawing out another story, another piece of yourself you hadn't meant to expose. and then she asked you to leave with her, and the answer was quick and easy. a light, eager âyesâ.
the speakeasy she took you to was hidden beneath an auto shop, all exposed brick and piano medleys that wrapped around you like rope. in the dim light, you noticed the way her prosthetic arm moved with incredible precision as she gestured, the way her eyes softened almost imperceptibly when you laughed. she noticed you shiver and draped her jacket over your shoulders without comment, the leather still warm from her body.
"i manage specialized acquisitions," she said when you asked what she did, her smile suggesting there was more to the story. "currently dealing with some complex merger negotiations. but that's boring. tell me more about that poetry collection you mentioned."
you talked until your voice grew hoarse, until the early hours when the city felt like it belonged only to those who were lost or hiding. when she dropped you home, she fixed your broken porch light without being asked, her movements quick and purposeful. you found out later she'd also left her number saved in your phone under 's'.
what you didn't knowâcouldn't have knownâwas that across town, ambessa was returning to the penthouse she shared with her wife of six months, their marriage a carefully hidden clause in the merger agreement between noxus and zaun's industrial empire. their shared living space was largely ceremonial, each woman keeping to their own wing, intersecting only for appearances and board meetings.
that night, sevika found ambessa in their shared study, both of them surrounded by contract papers and acquisition reports.
"the zaun infrastructure reports," sevika said, dropping a thick folder on the desk. her wedding ring caught the lightâa simple band worn only within these walls.
"you're late," ambessa replied without looking up. "the board expects updates by morning."
"i had a personal matter to attend to."
"as did i."
neither woman acknowledged sevikaâs missing jacket which she never was without, nor the faint perfumeâyour perfumeâthat clung to ambessa's blazer. their arrangement was clear: their marriage was business, their personal lives their own. they had trained themselves not to care what, or who, the other did in their free time.
but that night, for the first time since their arranged union, both women found themselves thinking of the same person as they worked in silence. it was one of their more agreeable evenings together.
ACT II: GROWING PAINS.
âwhere do you go?â
you turned, half-lidded, your hair mussed into an untamed birdâs nest. sevika lay beside you, her smile a lopsided thingâteasing, warm, a little worn. you leaned toward her instinctively, pressing a lazy finger into the shallow dimple that cut into her cheek.
she caught your wrist before you could withdraw, lips brushing the tender pulse beneath your skin before pulling you into her chest. her hand slid across your stomach, warm and heavy, before it wandered higher to pinch your nipple just shy of too hard.
the two of you had met in a hotel, yet somehow, it felt less clinical than it should have.
âwhat do you mean?â you murmured, breath catching as her hand stilled.
âyou go somewhere,â she said, âwhen we fuck.â
the words hung between you, and you felt your body shift under her scrutiny. her gaze trailed the uneasy motion of your shoulder blades as you shifted upright. honesty clawed at your throat, but you tried to swallow it back. youâve never been the tiger, only the tigerâs bride.
âi oftenââ you broke off, tongue darting to wet your lips. her arm tightened around your waist, as if sensing your instinct to retreat. âi tend to disassociate when i do this part of things. iâm notâwhat i want, i usually canât achieve. i donât want to make it anyoneâs problem, so i float.â
âfloat?â she repeated softly. her tone was unreadable, but you refused to meet her eyes.
âi pick a spot on the ceiling,â you admitted, voice small. âfrom there, i phase myself out of my body. itâs like itâs happening to someone else.â
sevika said nothing at first, and the silence thickened as you focused on the slow, steady rise and fall of her chest. then, carefully, she shifted you into her lap, holding you there like a delicate thing. her lips found the center of your chest, pressing a kiss over your heart before trailing up to the vulnerable line of your throat.
âyou do this with me?â
ânot always,â you whispered. âyouâreâŠdifferent. you pay attention to meâwhat i need. only two other people have ever been that way. both women.â
âmmm. do you still see them?â her voice was calm, but you caught the subtle current of possession beneath her words.
âonly one.â
âand?â
âitâs good with her. one of the best.â
âand what do you want?â she pressed. the question lodged itself in your chest. âyou said you canât achieve it.â
your cheeks burned, and you squirmed in her lap, but she held you fast. âiâthis is embarrassing.â
âthereâs nothing embarrassing about your desires, baby girl,â she murmured, her tone soothing. âi wouldnât be here if i didnât want you to enjoy this too.â
âi do enjoy it, butâŠiâd like to go further. i like to go under.â you hesitated, then added, âyou know that iâmââ
âsubmissive,â she finished for you.
you nodded, your voice softening as you continued. âi donât really like the harsher aspects of submission, but i love being taken somewhere elseâbeing softer. i love being told iâm good, that iâm doing well. i love being pushed past my limits, to the point where iâmâŠhazy. overstimulated. freed from my worries through my body, through the pleasure i give and receive.
âwhen you manhandle me, when you pull me close and push into me like youâre starving for it, when you break me apart with your mouth, i get so close. i hover in this warm heaven where iâm nothing but what i feel. you know?â
sevikaâs expression softened, her face almost unbearably open. before you could process it, she moved, pressing you into the mattress beneath her. her broad frame blotted out the light, sheltering you in a cocoon of warmth and safety.
âyou are good, baby,â she finally said. âso good.â
her lips fell again to your neck and you felt her slide her thick fingers into the warm walls of your cunt. a sound slid from your throat, something gutteral and worn. she began to move, curling her fingers as if you pull you closer. there, in the back of your mind, was that heaven.
she kissed your temple, her lips lingering there as your body arched into her hands. âthank you for telling me.â
then, softer: âthat heaven? i want to take you there.â
the words sank into your skin, heady and heavy, as if sheâd whispered she loved you.
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ambessa had endured a long dayâone filled with tedious negotiations and the peculiar frustrations of ruling over people who thought themselves her equals. she'd craved just one moment of quiet in her house, but fate, it seemed, had other plans.
when she stepped through the door, the sight of her wife pacing their kitchen dragged a weary sigh from her chest. sevika's movements were sharp, her broad shoulders taut beneath the worn leather of her jacket. even now, after months of marriage, seeing sevika in their shared space felt like an intrusion.
for a fleeting moment, ambessa considered turning around, but she hadnât built empires by running from conflict.
âsevika,â she began, voice clipped, âif this is about zaunâs profit percentage in the acquisition, i suggest you take it up with legal. iâve no patience to discuss business tonight.â
âitâs not that,â sevika muttered, her tone bristling with frustration. âbut thanks for your grace, medarda.â
ambessaâs eyebrow arched. âthen what?â
sevika stilled, the weight of her gaze pinning ambessa in place. âare you the other woman?â
for a moment, the words didnât register. then irritation flared, swift and hot.
âi thought we agreed we werenât in love,â ambessa replied, dry as the desert. âwho i see outside this house is none of your concern, unless it compromises our arrangement.â
sevika exhaled sharply, the sound edged with restrained anger. she reached into her pocket and retrieved her phone, its screen casting a gentle glow across the marble counter. with a few taps, she pulled up a recent conversation.
she paused, a smile stealing across her face as she took in the selfie you'd sent of you and clleo in matching milano blaniks. the tenderness in her expression was something ambessa had never seen before.
my feet hurt but it might be worth it!! you'd texted. she had responded in record time.
looking cute, baby girl. i like the purple.
me too! they had a navy and gold pair i would kill for, but i'm trying to be responsible.
sevika's smile deepened, and this time she sent a bank transfer along with her next message.
you can be a little irresponsible.
oh, sevi. that's not what i meant.
i know. i don't mind. get them both.
"i'm sorry, but were we not having a conversation?" ambessa's voice cut through the moment like frost.
sevika snapped back to reality, her face twisting into something uglyâthe expression she reserved solely for ambessa. she selected another image, and ambessa stepped closer, her eyes narrowing at the familiar necklace adorning your throat.
she recognized it instantlyâit had rested on her desk just nights ago, a small token of indulgence sheâd gifted you during one of your afternoons together.
you were smiling, beaming, caught mid-laugh. your hair was damp, clinging to your cheeks, and a sea lion nudged at your side. it was an image of unfiltered joy.
"she was talking to me the other night," sevika began, her voice tight as a wire. "mentioned some other woman. i thought it was a client thing, but then she showed me this." she gestured at the screen. "that necklace. it was on your desk when i saw you."
ambessa said nothing at first, her jaw working. finally, she sighed, the sound heavy with something like resignation. âi didnât know. i assumed she might have other clients, but i didnât pursue her because of you.â
sevikaâs shoulders sagged slightly, but the tension in her face remained. she bent her head, palms pressing into the cool marble of the counter. âwhat the fuck.â
âdoes she know?â ambessa asked after a beat.
"what would it matter?" sevika shot back, her voice rising like tide. her gaze locked on ambessa, and her lips twisted in disbelief. "holy shit. are you in love with her?"
the question hit like a blow, but ambessaâs reaction was instant.
âas if youâre any better,â she snapped. her tone turned venomous, sharp as a blade. âyou sulk through the door, reeking of her sex, then slink into the shower as if i canât hear you simpering in there.â
sevika straightened, anger sparking. âand youâre what? innocent?â
ambessaâs laugh was cold, cruel. âiâve never been innocent a day in my life. but youâgod, sevika, youâre pathetic. youâre worse than i thought.â
sevikaâs fists clenched at her sides, but she didnât lash out. instead, she held her ground, her gaze fierce. âwhat do we do now?â
ambessa hesitated. her mind raced through the implications, the potential fallout. finally, she crossed her arms, her posture stiff. âwe donât tell her.â
âand keep lying to her?â sevikaâs voice cracked slightly. âhow long do you think thatâll work?â
âas long as it has to,â ambessa replied, her voice low and final. âthis arrangement isnât just about her, sevika. itâs about us. about what weâve built. if you care about her as much as you claim, youâll think before ruining what little stability we have left.â
âfor fuckâs sake, ambessa. sheâs a sweet girl. she wonâtââ
âyou have no idea what she will do if she finds out,â ambessa hissed. âand i know how sweet she is. sheâs the only goddamn person i know who can stand me. who do you think iâm really protecting?â
for once, sevika had no retort. the silence between them was loud, heavy, filled with unsaid things.
âiâll handle it,â ambessa said after a long pause, her voice softer now but no less firm. âbut donât let your feelings make you sloppy. if you canât compartmentalize, this will all fall apart.â
sevika turned away, her shoulders tense. âitâs already falling apart.â
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ambessa didnât sleep that night.
not because of sevikaâs wordsâthough they lingered like a sour taste in her mouthâbut because of you. sheâd grown accustomed to the softness of your skin beneath her fingers, the way your presence softened the edges of her world, made it almost bearable. and yet, she couldnât shake the nagging thought that you might be nothing more than collateral damage in this carefully constructed house of cards.
the following morning, as sunlight filtered through the sprawling windows of her office, ambessa reached for her phone. her fingers hovered over your contact, her mind warring with itself. sheâd always prided herself on her control, on her ability to compartmentalize. but now, for the first time in years, she felt the cracks forming.
her phone buzzed before she could decide, sevikaâs name flashing across the screen.
âwhat now?â ambessa answered, her tone clipped.
âthe gala,â sevika began, her voice unusually subdued. âthis year itâs your turn to host, right?â
ambessaâs grip tightened on the phone. âyes. and what about it?â
âand,â sevika said, dragging out the word, âsheâll be there. she got an invite through one of her clients.â
the air seemed to still around her. âyouâre certain?â
âpositive,â sevika replied. âwhat do you want to do?â
ambessa leaned back in her chair, her gaze fixed on the skyline. the decision should have been simple: handle the event with poise, maintain appearances, and ensure that you remained blissfully unaware. but something about sevikaâs tone made her pause.
âweâll stick to the plan,â ambessa said finally. âshe doesnât know, and she wonât find out. not from us.â
they both knew it was only a beautiful dream.
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and then suddenly, it was different. it was horrible in its subtleness, but enough to make you less comfortable than you were before.
you went to dinner. ââambessa watched you with eyes as sharp as her diamond cufflinks, and you wondered if she knew how small you felt in her presence. you let her brush her thumb over your lower lip, and you leaned into it, hoping she doesnât notice your hands gripping your clutch too tightly.
âis something wrong?â you asked her, throat closing around the end of the question.
she seemed to startle, and leaned back with a shake of her head. you knew what was coming next. she was going to blame work or her family, which you barely knew about, or maybe something as clandestine as the weather. you suddenly felt entirely too sick. you took a sip of wine, eyes falling on the little brown bag that sat next to you.
every gift you unwrapped felt a little like a goodbye, the sparkle dulled by the unspoken terms behind it. you kept smiling, face stretching tediously through the pain though your heart was sinking because nothing ruined a good arrangement faster than too much honesty.
you mustâve overstepped somewhere down the line, and she had grown weary of it. you were sweating now, looking away from her. it didnât help that your phone had stayed dark all evening, your slew of messages to sevika read and unanswered.
âi finished that book you gave me,â you offered and ambessa nodded. âit was lovely. a little macabre, but i managed to push through.â
âbessa?â you asked, voice small.
the nickname seemed to spur her back into herself and she reached across the table, clutching your hand. her rings pressed cold indents into your skin. you'd grown to love the weight of them.
"the annual noxus environmental gala is tomorrow night," she said finally. her thumb traced circles on your palm. "i'd like you to come."
your heart stuttered. she'd never invited you to a public event before. "another client already invited me. iâll be there."
she squeezed your hand once before letting go, unfazed by the mention of someone else. "good."
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the evening was opulent in a way that made your skin prickle. the ballroom shimmered with soft golden light, chandeliers casting their glow across marble floors that reflected everything like still water.
you'd been invited by marcusâa client who preferred your company over dinner to discuss art and literature, who looked at you like you were made of gold but never asked for more than conversation. he was safe, a spiderweb you could free yourself from anytime without losing any skin.
your dressâa gift from ambessaâfelt like a confession of infidelity. marcus had said nothing in the car, but his face had been momentarily confused. he kept track of what he gifted you, and he hadnât seen this before. you offered no explanation, just smiled softly and held his clammy hand.
the fabric whispered against your skin with every movement, reminding you of her touch. you held your champagne glass like a shield, watching the bubbles rise and disappear, each one carrying a fragment of your certainty with it.
the past week had been strange. ambessa's usual sharp edges had softened into something almost tender, while sevika's messages had grown shorter, more distant. sheâd eventually responded to the ones that had been read, but you felt as though you had disturbed her with them. you'd attributed it to work, to the upcoming shareholder conference business weekly had written about. you were good at making excuses for the people you loved.
and then you saw her.
ambessa stood on the stage like she'd been born there, her voice carrying across the room with the kind of authority that made everyone else feel small. her dress was long and white, with a delicate slit framing the plump skin of her thigh. it clung to her frame with an elegance that made your heart ache. you didn't want to admit how your chest tightened at the sight of her, how your body betrayed you with its instinctive pull toward her presence.
but before you could fully process the sight of her, another figure emerged from the crowd.
sevika.
she stood near the base of the stage, her broad frame impossible to miss. her presence was quieter than ambessa's, but no less commanding. the way she held herselfâlike she belonged here, like this was her world tooâmade something cold settle in your stomach. you shifted away from marcus, moved slightly forward with a furrowed brow.
it wasn't just their proximityâit was the way they moved. the way sevika's gaze lingered on ambessa, the subtle nods they exchanged, as if communicating in a language only they were privy to. and then, as if to confirm your worst fears, ambessa's hand brushed sevika's arm in a gesture so familiar, so natural, that the truth hit you like a truck.
the matching rings caught the light. the world tilted sideways.
the soft hum of conversation turned to static, the lights too bright, the room too warm. you tried to steady yourself, clutching the edge of a nearby cocktail table and nearly taking it down, but the weight of realization pressed down on you like a tide. marcus was asking after you, but you snapped at him.
you thought of the giftsâhow similar their tastes had been. the way they both knew too much about each otherâs companies, about each other's worlds. the little moments that should have added up but hadn'tâbecause you hadn't wanted them to. you'd ignored the signs, wrapped yourself in their separate affections like blankets against the cold.
someone nearby whispered, "isn't that theirâŠ" the words trailed off, heavy with implication. you spun, eyes wide and searching. you couldnât tell who had spoken.
the champagne glass slipped from your fingers. it didn't shatterâcaught by a waiter's quick reflexesâbut the sound of it leaving your hand seemed to echo through the room. both women turned at the noise, their expressions shifting from professional neutrality to something raw and complicated.
âdo you know her?â the question came from a guest nearby, their curious tone laced with amusement.
the tension shattered. the murmurs began, the subtle shifts of the crowd as more guests turned to watch the unfolding spectacle. your voice was barely above a whisper, but it cut through the gathering noise like a blade.
âhow long?â
ambessa stepped forward, her movements slow and deliberate, as if approaching a wounded animal. âitâs not what you thinkââ
âdonât,â you snapped, your voice trembling with anger and heartbreak. âdonât you dare lie to me.â
sevika tried to intervene, her hand reaching out as if to steady you, but you recoiled, your fury spilling over. âyou both knew,â you said, your voice rising. âyou knew, and you let meââ
sevika tried again."babyâ"
"don't." the word came out hard and cold.
you backed away, your heels suddenly unsteady beneath you. the crowd parted like water, their whispers following you like shadows. you felt that your dress was transparent, exposing your body to the their ravaging gaze. you made it halfway down the marble steps before sevika caught your arm. her touch was warm, familiarâeverything you'd grown to love and now couldn't bear.
"please," she said, her voice rough with something like desperation. she couldnât possibly understand what it meant to be desperate. "please."
"let go of me." you tried to pull away, but she was stronger. had always been stronger.
"we never meantâ"
"what?" your voice cracked. "to hurt me? to make me look like a fool? do you think i love being a loser? that i would be fine because i would view this as some way of knowing what it was like to win?" you yanked harder, and suddenly you were falling.
the puddle wasn't deep, but it was enough. your dressâambessa's dressâsoaked through instantly, clinging to your skin like shame. you stayed there on your hands and knees, watching your tears make ripples in dirty water.
"stand up," ambessa's voice came from behind you, softer than you'd ever heard it. âcome inside. we canââ
"no." you pushed yourself to your feet, water streaming from ruined silk. your makeup was runningâyou could feel it tracking down your cheeks, and somehow that small detail destroyed you more than anything else. for the first time in a long time, you felt ugly. "i donât want to come inside."
when you looked up, they were both there. ambessa's perfect composure had cracked, showing something raw underneath. sevika looked like she wanted to reach for you again but didn't dare.
"were you laughing about it?" your voice was barely audible. "about how pathetic i was, falling for both of you?"
"no," sevika said quickly. "god, no. we didn't even knowâ"
"until when?"
"a week ago," ambessa admitted. the truth fell between you, landed hard.
you stepped back, barefoot now, heels dangling from one hand. "oh my god. were you ever going to tell me?â
their silence was answer enough. the air around you grew thin.
a scream rose up from the depths of you before you could stop it, and echoed wildly from the sides of surrounding buildings. you clutched at your face, eyes screwing shut as you let out a terrible heaving noise. you knew they were seeing you now as you really were: a frantic girl who clasped desperately at whatever she could get in order to save herself.
âi hate you,â you screamed at them, hurling the words like they were knives. âi hate you! i never want you to speak to me again.â
it was rendered useless because the three of you knew that simply wasnât the truth.
âjustâleave me alone,â you said, your voice barely above a whisper.
their expressions were unreadable. if you gave in to your delusions, you could believe that ambessa looked slightly ill.
you walked away, legs shaking, each step carrying you further from everything you'd thought was real. behind you, you could hear them arguing in harsh whispers, but you didn't turn around. the city lights blurred through your tears until everything was just a soft shape and shadow.
your apartment felt suffocating when you returned, the silence oppressive in its stillness. you sank onto the couch, your dress pooling around you like a shroud. the tears came in waves, each one more relentless than the last.
you thought of ambessaâs calculated charm, sevikaâs quiet strength, the way theyâd both made you feel seen, cherished. and then you thought of the lies. you reached for your phone, your fingers trembling as you typed out a message. but no words came. what could you possibly say? that you hated them? youâd done that. that you missed them already? that you wouldnât know how to exist without them?
instead, you deleted their numbers, one by one, the act feeling both liberating and excruciating. for the first time in what felt like forever, you were truly alone.
your mother was right. you were such a fun girl, but impossible to love. when someone looked at you, theyâd never see someone worth settling down with. another wail unearthed itself, reverberating through the grave of your body. you twisted, holding yourself with your own arms as you felt the grief break you down.
you would never see them again. there was nothing worse than this, not now. you felt like youâd be better off dead.
ACT III: DEFORMATION.
ambessa hadnât slept in days.
the boardroomâs fluorescent lights cast harsh shadows across her sharp features as she reviewed contracts she couldnât focus on. every word blurred into the next, her thoughts returning to the look on your face when the truth unraveled.
âi donât think i can fix this,â she had told sevika the night it happened, her voice hollow as they sat in the dim confines of her private office.
sevika hadnât responded, her silence cutting deeper than any argument could. ambessa could tell her wife blamed her, and in some ways, she couldnât disagree.
sevika, in response, buried herself in her work. her nights were spent overseeing global operations, her jaw clenched tight as she barked orders to underlings down the phone who didnât dare question her unrelenting pace.
but even the chaos of the companyâs industrial sprawl couldnât drown out the memory of you. the sound of your pleausre haunted herâhigh and wispy as she ate at you. her dreams were vivid, stuck on the way youâd lit up when you talked about the things you lovedâthings she hadnât known enough to ask about.
theyâd both lost you, and they felt it in the empty spaces youâd left behind.
ambessa, meanwhile, pulled back. she gave the reins to her daughter for an indeterminate amount of time, something viewed as largely positive and a sign of trust. but those who knew her interpreted it as a sign of grave danger.
her days were spent much like yours, wrapped in the endless heart of her bed which she only left to sink underneath the soapy water of a warm bath. there were several evenings where sevika would stumble home, slightly drunk but coherent enough to check on ambessa and yank her from the bottom of the bath.
âno,â she rasped, her hand tight on ambessaâs thick wrist. âyou face it.â
and you?
well, eventually you realized that the world would continue to move on. blessedly, your breakdown hadnât hit the headlines or social media platforms. you knew this had to be the work of them, but it was the least you deserved. you cut all arrangements you had leftover. the gifts were boxed up and put into storage.
despite your dramatics, you reminded yourself to not be stupid. all cash you had kept was deposited into your bank account, in increments so it wasnât flagged as suspicious. you had well over thousands, so you broke your lease and found a block several miles from where you used to be.
youâd invited clleo to live with you, but sheâd refused citing her current suitor as her preferred living situation. she felt that he was the one, that they would marry. you felt your bitterness rise up, but you shot it right in the middle of its scaled head. you were happy for her, you said instead of âhe doesnât mean it. please donât believe him.â
please send an invite.
sheâd cupped your face and kissed your cheek. of course. youâve been with me through everything.
so, you broke another lease and left the city.
ACT IV: REVIVAL.
true to her word, clleo did get married, and she did more than invite you. you were her maid of honor; the only bridesmaid at that. this meant that you were captured into a lavish gown that showed more skin than you thought would be appropriate.
âwe canât forget where we came from,â clleo had said coquettishly, pressing a soft kiss to your shoulder. she treated you so fragilely now, and you clung to it. you were pretending it was something else.
the wedding was a spectacle of opulenceâivory drapes cascading from every corner of the venue, chandeliers dripping crystal tears, and flowers so fragrant they felt like an embrace. the air buzzed with the cloying sweetness of a celebration meant to declare love eternal. you floated through it all, a wraith in your own right, bound by duty and the magnetic pull of clleoâs joy. you wore the dress she picked for you: black satin that crushed in on itself like paper whenever you moved and clung like sin, with lace so delicate it felt like a secret. it revealed too much and not enough all at once. you wondered if sheâd done it on purpose, if sheâd wanted you to stand out or to feel exposed. to embarrass you.
no, this was clleo. you were simplyâŠparanoid now.
the ceremony was a blur, a kaleidoscope of vows and veils, of clleoâs radiant smile and the way her hand trembled in her husbandâs. you caught the bouquet because sheâd aimed it at you, her laugh like champagne bubbles bursting in the air. it was later, during the reception, that you felt itâthat electric hum at the back of your neck, the awareness of being watched. you turned, and there they were.
ambessa and sevika.
they stood together, an impenetrable force against the crowd. ambessaâs gaze was as sharp as ever, her golden gown gleaming meanly, a study in power and restraint. sevika, beside her, had the air of someone caught between worlds, her hand resting on a glass of something dark, her eyes locked on you. they hadnât been invited. you knew this because clleo would have warned you. yet here they were, as if summoned by the threads of some cruel, cosmic joke.
your stomach tightened, but you refused to look away. instead, you tilted your chin, the soft wave of your hair catching the light, and took a slow sip of wine. if they wanted to haunt you, they would have to work for it.
it didnât take long. ambessa approached first, her steps deliberate, her presence cutting through the crowd like a blade. âyou look beautiful,â she said, her voice low enough that it felt like a secret. you hated how your skin warmed under her gaze.
âyou shouldnât be here,â you replied, though the edge in your voice felt dull, worn down by something deeper.
sevika joined her then, her expression inscrutable but her proximity unnerving. âwe needed to see you,â she said, her voice rougher, as if it cost her something to speak.
âat a wedding? how romantic.â you let the words hang, your lips curving into a smile that didnât reach your eyes. âgood thing itâs not mine.â
sevikaâs lips twitched, and you scowled. your pain was not for her amusement.
â[name], we made mistakes,â ambessa said, and for the first time, there was something fragile in her tone, a crack in the glass. it distracted you from your ire. âbut we havenât stopped thinking about you.â
you set your glass down, your fingers trembling against the crystal stem. âi donât think this is the time or place.â
âwhen is?â sevika countered, her voice steady but her eyes revealing something raw. âyouâve been avoiding us.â
âi said i never wanted to speak to either one of you again and yet, here you are,â you said, your voice sharper now, cutting through the haze of alcohol and longing. âdo you think crashing a wedding will fix what you broke?â
ambessaâs jaw tightened, but she didnât look away. âweâre not here to fix it. weâre here because we canât let it end like this. and itâs not crashing if the groom extends an invite at the behest of the bride.â
your heart stuttered, and for a moment, the noise of the reception faded into a dull roar. clleoâs laughter rang out from somewhere behind you, a reminder of where you were, of what youâd tried so hard to rebuild. why did everyone betray you?
âi canât do this,â you whispered, stepping back. the movement felt like tearing yourself in two.
âbaby girl,â sevika said, her voice low, almost pleading. âlook at me. this isnât some big scheme, okay? letâs talk. we donât even have to do it here. we can go anywhere you fucking want. just like before, mama.â
you shook your head, the weight of their words pressing against the fragile walls youâd built around yourself. âi need air,â you said, your voice barely audible, and before they could respond, you turned and slipped into the crowd.
â[name!]â ambessa called.
fuck being the tiger's bride, you were the tiger. you stood your ground, kept walking.
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the gardens were quiet, the air cool against your skin as you leaned against the wrought-iron railing. the night sky stretched endlessly above you, an intricate canvas of stars that felt too indifferent to your pain. but the world wasnât responsible for soothing you.
youâd thought the distance would help, that the cool air would clear your head, but instead, it only magnified the ache in your chest.
you heard them before you saw them, the soft crunch of gravel underfoot. you didnât turn, didnât acknowledge their presence, but you felt itâthat charge, that unbearable pull that had slaughtered you repeatedly since the beginning.
âi didnât ask you to follow me.â
âweâre not asking for forgiveness,â ambessa said, her voice soft but firm. âwe are willingâweâre willing to take what we can get. we want to make this right.â
you turned then, your eyes meeting hers, and for the first time, you saw itâthe vulnerability, the regret. sevika stood slightly behind her, her expression shadowed but her eyes fixed on you with the same intensity.
âand what does that look like?â you asked, your voice breaking despite yourself. âwhat could you possibly do to undo the damage?â
ambessa stepped closer, her hand hovering near yours but not quite touching. âwe canât undo it,â she admitted. âbut we can promise to be better. to show you that youâre the only thing that matters.â
âyouâre both so good with words. but words donât mean anything if theyâre not backed by action.â you laughed then, a bitter sound that cut through the stillness. âyou always made me feel like i mattered. thatâs why it hurt so much. i have no place between you.
sevika finally spoke, her voice quieter but no less resolute. âthen let us prove it. on your terms.â
âyouâre not good for me.â
ambessa glided forward, caught your chin inbetween her thumb and index finger.
ânothing in this world that we want with so much intensity will ever be good for us.â
you looked between them, your heart a battlefield between desire and self-preservation. the silence stretched, heavy with the weight of everything unsaid. finally, you broke out of her grasp, a small, tentative gesture that felt like stepping off a cliff.
âi have no place between you,â you said again, your voice barely more than a whisper.
sevika's shoulders sagged with disappointment, but ambessaâs lips curved into the faintest hint of a smile. she was like a bloodhound with weakness.
âis that what you want, lamb?â you looked up at her, sensing a shift in the air. âyou want to be between us? coddled, warm, and safe?â
âambessaââ sevika began, but the other woman held up a hand.
âyou wouldâve been fine if you had know that we were married from the beginning, hmm? is that it? your conscience wouldâve been sated, right? because itâs not homewrecking or infidelity if the partners are aware of the others transgressions.â
âthatâs not fair,â you snapped.
âmmm, well life isnât. besides, you must be stupid if you think every client youâve been with hasnât once had someone waiting at home. this is your life, little lamb. your permanent affliction,â ambessa sneered. âi think you like it.â
you knew this game well. she pushed you, said the best things to make you act your worst. if you gave in, she won.
âfuck you, ambessa.â
âgladly,â she said with a small smile.
you scoffed, irritated beyond belief and moved to storm past her. by doing so, you gave her what she wanted. as you made an effort to leave, she cinched your waist with her arm and pulled you back into her chest. you could feel her breasts against your back, full and ripe like fruit.
âwhat are you doing?â you asked incredulously.
she didnât answer, only hiked your dress up to press a ringed hand to your cunt. she held it there, groping the warmth of you until you were leaking in response. you let out a strangled squeal, legs kicking to no avail.
âsee? you want us so badly. itâs like an instinct.â
you glanced at sevika, hoping for some fucking common sense but found her gazing at your lace-clad panties with something unfathomly angry lurking across her face.
âwho the fuck gave you those?â she said quietly.
you stopped struggling, looking at her fully now. her stormy gaze lifted, piercing you like a spear through weak flesh.
âit wasnât me, and ambessa never gifted you shit like this.â
âi hadâi had other clients,â you answered and she rolled her shoulders, skulking forward. âbut i bought these myself. i donât see anyone else anymore. i canâtâi couldnât. it was hard.â
her face softened at that, and she came closer. her large body covered the front of you, shielding your exposed body from any prying eyes. this meant that ambessa could slide the fabric to the side and dip a finger into your cunt. the slide was slick due to your drooling arousal, but the pain still startled you.
she was large, almost too much, but it seemed to burst a part of you that had been straining at its locks. you let loose a silent cry, shuddering desperately in her grasp as she explored you tenderly. sevika cooed, claiming your mouth in a bruising kiss.
âhold on,â she murmured into your mouth and you clutched onto her, gripping tighter as ambessa gave you over.
sevika walked you over to a small alcove, expertly hidden from immediate vision and grunted as she held you up with one armâremoving her jacket with the other. once the concrete floor was covered appropriately, she lowered you on top of it carefully.
you released her, but barely had a moment to thank her before she was on you. your first thought was that it was like before: relentless, tender, and crushing. her hands slid up your thighs until they grasped at your hips. you rocked into her, moaning softly as she squeezed the soft meat of your stomach. your breath came fast, labored and fueled by aching.
âitâs okay, baby. âm right here,â sevika said, her voice low and firm.
she pulled back, spreading your legs till the pink of your pussy was revealed to her hungry gaze. it winked at her, clenching around nothing the longer she looked.
âjesus, iâve missed this,â she murmured.
you flushed, body pulsing hot with flame. from the side of you, ambessa came prowling. she lowered herself to her knees, back arching neatly as she crawled into the apex of your thighs. her mouth descended upon you with a fervor, her lips closing around your clit and sucking. your back bowed until you were practically hunched over her, hands in her thick hair.
she only adjusted herself so that she could better lick into you, her tongue lapping at every crevice of your cunt. you were dripping all over her face, hips bucking as you fucked forward onto her tongue. her hands came to cup the peach of your ass, squeezing and tugging until you felt like nothing more than a piece of meat. after a moment, ambessa pulled back and laughed as you tried to follow.
âsorry, little lamb, but i need to know if iâm doing a good jobâ she watched you, eyes sharp. âi know you are.â
you shivered at that, and she smiled. impatiently, you further opened your legs and pushed your sopping pussy toward her.
âcâmon. please.â when nothing happened, you let out a groan. âyouâre doing a good job.â
âwhoâs doing a good job?â ambessa asked, moving closer.
you shivered again, your brain beginning to mottle and smear.
âyou are, mommy.â
âfuck,â sevika groaned.
satisfied, ambessa suctioned her lips back over you. you let out a high moan, pushing your chest out. sevika reached over, tugging the bust down and exposing your tits. your nipples were straining toward her, so she dragged one in between your teeth. with a cry of surprise, you slammed your thighs closed around ambessaâs bobbing head. she did nothing to open them herself, only slapped a hand on your inner thigh to get you to correct yourself.
âyes, fuck,â you cried. âfuck, please. please. ohhhh.â
ambessa shook her head back and forth, letting herself get messy as she pushed her face deeper inside of your pussy. you were fully fucking her face now, your clit engorged and begging. whatever filter youâd had before was gone now; your mouth ran like water from a faucet.
âyeah. yeah, mommy, like that. eat your babyâs cunt. lick your girlâs pink little pussy.â
ambessa moaned, her nails digging into the skin of your ass. you bounced as much as you could, that warmth coiling deep inside your stomach. sevika was still teasing your tits, but she had a hand inside of herslef nowâher pants pushed down for better access.
when you realized she was trying to rub one out, you came with a primal grunt. ambessa attempted to pull back but you kept her where she was with a firm hand at the nape of her neck. breathlessly, you coaxed sevika up for a kiss and then pulled her away by her hair.
âi want you to touch her,â you instructed. your voice was shaky as you edged toward your second orgasm.
it took her a minute to register what you meant and you watched her cheeks darken, her eyes flickering toward ambessaâs rippling back inbetween your legs and then back to you.
âi know you want to, sevi,â you murmured.
your mind was almost gone now; you were so close to heaven.
you could see her warring with herself, but you also knew her love for you would win out. with a curt nod, she moved until she was behind ambessa and lifted her dress until she was face to face with her naked ass. with an efficent movement, sevika pushed ambessaâs legs open so she could smell the musk of her large cunt. there was a moment where you werenât sure if she would obey, but then she dived inâlicking a large stripe between ambessaâs folds. you seized around ambessaâs tongue as she squealed in surprise, your orgasm pouring from you like honey.
you puhsed her off of you and crawled onto all fours, squatting slightly to make the push of your fingers easier as you entered yourself. despite not pleasuring you anymore, ambessa made no effort to move as sevika slapped a hand on her ass as she slurped at her pussy.
âholy shit,â ambessa muttered and you grinned.
âhave youâhave you touched each other like this before?â you asked, voice breaking as you reached that spot long your walls. âdid you fuck when i left to try to stave the guilt?â
there was no answer, but ambessa stiffened. you laughed, bright and a little unhinged. it was confirmation that theyâd thought about, but had never actually followed through. you were in a squatting position now, positioning your hips as you rode your own fingers. you wrist twinged in discomfort, but you were more determined to cum for a third time.
faster and faster, you rode. your head was turned up toward the ceiling of the alcove, your tits bouncing as you began to crest that wave. you closed your eyes, focusing on the shaky inhales of ambessa and the wet squelches of sevika feasting on her.
there was a pause, so you opened your eyes and found sevika flipping ambessa over so that the bigger woman sat on her face. like this, she was even more insatiable. she rocked ambessa back and forth on her face, spreading her own thighs weakly as heat cascaded through her.
you werenât sure what did it: sevikaâs newfound desperation to actually fuck her wife, ambessaâs unrelenting eye contact as she came, or the high whine sevika released when ambessa leaned back to fuck two fingers into her frantically pulsing cunt.
but whatever it was ravaged you. you screamed as you came for the third time, legs trembling as you squirted all over yourself and sevikaâs suit jacket. the comedown was impossible. you were incoherent, moaning wildly as the pleasure possessed you.
you heard them both scrambling to move toward you, but you held a hand out. your neck bent, your body settling onto all fours like a lame animal as you let your cunt flutter and clench through the remnants of your orgasm. your chest heaved frantically, but you were euphoric. youâd done it, reached Heaven and taken control.
you glanced up at them and know from the look on their faces, youâve never been this beautiful. if this was what the french called a little death, you wanted to die forever.
âthis is your place,â ambessa said hoarsely. âyou belong right in the center. you are the only one who understands. you are our center.â
sevika lay next to her, and she said nothing for a long while. then her face turned toward you. you met her gaze unflinching.
âbaby girl, please. please.â
you thought you were the loser.
âit has to be different,â you finally said. the two women broke into identical smiles. âit has to be. i want you to be transparent with me. iâm not a little child.â
you thought you were down for the count.
âlike you said,â you continued, staring right at them. âyou are my life. this is my life.â
but here you were, the last woman standing.
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Pairing: Male Werewolf x Fem Fox Hybrid Reader
Warnings: Sex, unprotected sex, public sex, breeding, creampie, knotting
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Realistically, your feud with your massive werewolf neighbor was not something you should spend so much time and energy on. In all fairness, he started your little feud when he trampled over your flower garden on his way back from one of his runs.Â
You confronted him once you saw it, and he told you to stop being so sensitive and grow more flowers. From that point on, he became enemy number one. If he wanted to be an asshole, you would be petty and make him miserable. It started small with things like sending him anonymous packages that shot out hot pink glitter when opened and sprinkling his entire front yard with orbeez the night before it rained. He always matched your energy, giving just as good as he got.Â
Months later, you needed more ideas. However, a new thought pops into your mind as you see him arrive home from a run. You have lived next to him long enough to know his rut should be starting tomorrow, and he is always particularly wound up the day before.Â
What better way to torture your werewolf neighbor than to tease him right before his rut? You quickly run to your bedroom and change into a very short sundress, deciding to forgo panties.Â
You make your way to his house and knock on the door with a sickly, sweet smile. Upon noticing your presence, he answers the door with his usual scowl. His voice is gruff and slightly raspy as he asks, âWhat do you want?â
His voice sends tingles straight through your core, and your brain falters momentarily as you take in his scent. Your pussy begins to slick with arousal, and you squeeze your thighs together. You recover quickly, watching as his eyes rake over your figure and his hands clench, his claws biting into his skin.
You bat your eyelashes and reply, âWell, I was going to make some cookies and realized I am out of sugar. I was wondering if you had any I could use.â He looks at you skeptically before he licks his front teeth and says, âNo, I donât have any sugar.âÂ
You give him a pout, smiling internally as you watch his eyes flicker to your lips. âOk. I figured, but it was worth a shotâ, you say as you begin to make your way back down the steps of his front porch.Â
Right as you get to the last step, you give a small jump to get down to the ground. The small rush of air causes the short skirt of your sundress to rise. You use your tail to flick the skirt even higher, clearly showing your lack of panties and spreading your arousal through the air.
You make it one more step before his strong arms pull you back and into his large chest. He dips his head low, his snout brushing your ear as he says, âYou shouldnât have done that, little fox. I have been fighting for control since I opened the door to you in this fucking tiny sundress. Iâm starting my rut, and you decide to come over here and put your ass on full fucking display. This slutty little body is just begging to be bred and knottedâ.Â
You know you should stay strong and pull from his arms. This is supposed to be you teasing him, not giving in to him, but as you feel his massive cock rub into your lower back, you canât help but moan and rub back against him. He growls before pushing you onto your hands and knees right in the front yard.Â
âWait, we need to go inside. People could see usâ, you say, moving to get back up. He places one of his hands on the back of your neck and shoves your chest against the ground; your ass is high in the air as he flips the bottom of your dress up and over the small of your back.Â
âI donât think so, little fox. You werenât so concerned about others seeing this perfect little ass. Iâm going to fuck you and breed you right here where everyone can see you being my little slutâ, he says. Before you have a chance to respond, he thrusts inside of you, and you scream out at the stretch.Â
He sets a brutal pace as he fucks you with the sole purpose of knotting and breeding your tight cunt. You canât help but meet him thrust for thrust, as he rearranges your insides. He manages to hit every fucking nerve ending in your dripping pussy, pleasure crashing over you in tidal waves.Â
You should be embarrassed by the spectacle he is making of you. A small glance up shows that your neighbors are indeed watching him breed you; your moans and screams clearly caught their attention.
He leans down and gives a low chuckle as he feels you cream all over his cock again. He gives your ear a little nip before teasing, âYou like this, donât you? Everyone watching me claim and breed you. I can feel your tight cunt cumming all over my cock, and you havenât even gotten my knot yet, little fox,â.Â
You canât even respond, too overwhelmed with pleasure as he gives your ass a harsh smack, grabbing your tail and pulling on it to drag your pussy back to him with each thrust.Â
His thrusts speed up and become harsher as he works to fuck his knot inside you. Your nails dig into the dirt as he gives one last push, his knot popping in and splitting your pussy wide open. Your scream as you cum harder than ever before, your legs shaking and tears pouring down your face as your try and fuck yourself back on him as much as possible.Â
He moans loudly as his cock finally starts filling you up with his seed, his knot keeping everything locked in tight. He holds your trembling body close to his own as his orgasm finally comes to a stop, your pussy and womb overstuffed and full of him.
He holds your lower half against him tightly, trying not to jostle you on his knot too much as he stands. He begins returning to his house as he says, âGet ready for when my knot goes down, little fox. That was just a taste; I havenât even truly started my rut yet, and you havenât seen what I plan on doing to this gorgeous little body now that no one is watchingâ. Your cunt clenches around his knot, already excited for whatâs to come.Â
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A baby ?!
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Summery: his departure always bugs you, and surprise, it was just your lil hormones messing with you.
Wc: 3.4k
Warnings: Fem!reader, sfw because we decided to be sweet, pregnancy, reader is pregnant, there are some suggestive comments but that's all. Happy ending because i love yall.
Part one and two if you missed it my loves.
Notes: welcome to part 3 which i believe is the last part. I am kindly asking not to ask for a part 4 because i have run out of ideas. If i ever decided to write for capitano again, it wouldn't be part of this series, it would be like headcanons instead, you could imagine the reader being the same, apologies for spelling errors and thank you. :)
Credits: the art of the left panel is by @/reaperpie
Fall was slowly approaching in Snezhnaya, and you had already expected it to be colder than the normal autumn. Which to your bad luck, it was not a suitable place for your picnicâs.
Your husband has continuesly rejected your date ideas, but you expected that anyway, you knew he couldnât. He had duties to attend to, responsibilities to the Fatui, to the Tsaritsa, to the world. He couldnât stay, as much as youâhe wanted to.
It's not fair, You think while pouting as you stare outside the window with your chin resting on the palm of your hand, looking like a princess in need to be rescued from the tower. Your thumb toying with the diamond ring resting around your ring finger.
âUgh, it's unfair baby.â You slump back on the bed, while your little fur baby only meowed at you in return, the orange cat jumping on the bed to make itself warm on your lap. âmeow back if he doesn't love me.â
You're met with silence, only happy purrs reach your ears, and you grin, âobviously he loves me, obsessed even.â Your hand reaches to slowly pat the kitty.
âI miss him.â You sigh dreamily, deciding to stand up while carrying kitty with you so it doesn't feel left out. You make your way towards the desk in the corner, pulling the seat to take your place before pushing yourself closer to the desk.
You rest the kitten on your lap againâwho quickly adjusts like nothing happened, looking as sleepy as ever.
You open the drawers to take an envelope, some wax, a stamp, a paper, and a quill.
Yeah, you're going to write him a letter, he said he didn't mind recieving even hundreds of letters from you.
How romantic.
âDear, husband.â You start, dipping the quill in ink to brush it along the neat surface of the paper.
âi miss you.â you narrow your eyes at the empty page, saying that you miss him felt too boring.
âi utterly miss being next to you.â Hm, it lacks excitement.
âPlease come back soon or i will run away.â Huh, you could already imagine the army's he would send to search for you.
âi want you insideââ okay, now you're being desperate.
You rest your arms on the desk, leaning your head on them while sighing.
â
âDo you know when will he return?â You politely ask one of the guards in front of the estateâs gate. Your hands together behind your back.
A leaf flew by in front of the guards with still no answer from them, and you narrow your eyes, wondering if they even heard you in the first place.
Finally, one of them shook their head and you only sigh in resignation, âthank you.â You mumble before heading your way back inside the estate.
It has been more than two weeks since he left, and he would sometimes send you neat letters to inform you about his well being, but the last letter you received was about a week ago, it was worrying you.
âMy lady, are you okay?â Your personal maid, Marina, asked out of concern, watching you put an apron with a frown plastered on your face.
âJust hungry.â You take the glassy bowl, eggs, flour, butter, and sugar. Then you set them on the table. âI can help you.â Marina stands next to you, taking the butter to melt it.
âyou want to make cookies, correct?â She asks, and you nod with a small smile. With the butter fully melted, you begin mixing in the sugar, beating the mixture until it becomes light and fluffy. The repetitive motion of stirring is almost meditative, and for a brief moment. âBaking is rather calming, i should've tried it before.â
Marina chuckled softly at your admission, a knowing smile on her face. "Yes, baking can be quite therapeutic," she stated, watching as you mixed the sugar and butter together. "I've found that working with your hands, especially when it involves creating something good to eat, is a great way to clear your mind," she continued, adding chocolate to the bowl.
You had both finished combining the ingredients, and the room was now filled with the warm, comforting fragrance of cookie dough. Marina stood beside you, watching as you shaped the dough into small balls and placed them on a baking tray. As you finished placing the last cookie onto the tray, you and Marina stood together, admiring the array of small, round cookies waiting to be baked in the oven.
The sounds of the gates opening is what catches your attention next, making you stand up from your chair to immediately abandon the kitchen and rush towards the entrance, your eyes searches him when you reach the front door, and surely enough, your husband has arrived.
He looked almost disheveled, tired, yet he still held a straight posture.
Capitano's weary eyes widened behind his helmet as you rushed into his arms, his body stiffening as if caught off guard by your sudden affection. But the tension in his form swiftly melted away as he wrapped his strong arms around you. His grip was tight, as he pulled you against his body. He was silent for a moment, his chin resting on the top of your head, his chest rising and falling with deep breaths as he held you.
âIâŠâ you want to break the silence, you want to tell him how much you missed him. âI missed you.â
Capitano's grip intensified as your voice reached his ears, he was more than relieved to hear those words. To know that somone dear is waiting for him, someone as precious as you that he's willing to risk his life for.
He exhaled deeply, "I missed you too," he whispered, making sure the words only reached your ears. He pulled back slightly to look down at you, his gaze raking over you as if to confirm you were real and not a trick of his tired mind.
Capitano allowed you to lead him inside afterwards, his hand careful to be gentle when holding yours. The weariness in his body was evident as he stumbled a bit as you pulled him along. However, he matched your pace as best he could, following obediently as you guided him to your chambers.
Being greeted by the familiar room before him made his shoulders relax, the only place where he can be himself.
"How was is it? Being away from your wife for more than two weeks?" You ask while your hands started working on helping him out of the thick layers of his heavy, dirty clothing. Each layer you removed revealed more of his muscular, battle-worn physique, the scars and marks on his body a testament to the dangers he had faced.
He paused, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips as he noticed your pout. He reached out a calloused hand and gently tugged at your lip, "It was a long two weeks," he admitted gruffly. "I have missed you sorely.â
âI'm sure you did,â you hummed, walking towards the closest to grab a sweater for him. "Don't pout like that," he chided gently, "You're making me feel guilty.â
You try hiding your smile when you hand him his new warm clothes, your arms crossing next, âas you should.â
"I've missed that pout," his lowers his voice, "but I don't miss your little attitude.â
You shrug, âi don't know what you're talking about.â Capitano's gaze held yours unflinchingly, his eyes studying your expression. He knew you were baiting him, daring him to guess your reason for being upset.
"Let me see.." he started, his voice taking on a tone of mock contemplation. "Perhaps it's the fact that I was gone for more than two weeks and left you here all alone. That's a start, is it not?â
âmaybe.â
"Or perhaps it's the fact that I didn't send you a letter everyday and left you wondering about whether I was alright or not. Hmm, that could be it, couldn't it?â
âGo on.â your raise your eyebrow while tapping your feet impatiently.
"Or maybe," he stepped closer, taking a few strands of your hair in between his fingers, "It's because I didn't come home and ravish you as soon as I returned, instead letting you pout and sulk and complain like a spoiled little thing.â
He could see right through you; the way you suddenly straightened your stance and tried to act nonchalant only confirmed his suspicions.
You gasp, âwhaaaat? Nonsense.â
"Is that so?" he drawled, his hands now taking your upper arms, his thumb thumbs rubbing circles around your skin "i will make it up to you, my wife.â
Despite his promise that you could do later, you wanted him to rest more than anything, so you make him sit down on the bed while you leave to get the cookies you baked together with Marina.
âYou have to tell me your opinion.â you hand him one of the chocolate chip cookies. Capitano let the taste of the chocolate chips and the buttery cookie dough settle on his tongue for a moment. He swallowed, his gaze still fixed on you, before giving his verdict.
"They're good," he admitted, "Better than good, actually. Well done.â
Praise kink goes crazy huh? Your smile widens, and it makes you feel all giddy, as you took a bite of the cookies as well.
He leaned back against the plush bedding of the bed, his strong arms resting on his lap as he observed you. "You've been busy while I was away, hm?"
âNot really, more bored than busy.â
â⊠i am sorry. I do not mean to leave you alone.â
You scoot closer to him once you see how guilty he looks, you sit next to him, your head resting on his shoulder. âWhen do you have to leave again?â
Capitano's silence spoke volumes, pausing before answering, "My duties are unpredictable, and there's no telling when the Tsaritsa will call for me again. I cannot give you an exact timeline, and that is the reality of what I do. I am a warrior first, a husband second.â
Ouch, that's fine. Totally fine.
You knew what you were getting into when you married him, after all. Still, a part of you couldn't help but wish for more. The thought kind of makes you sick⊠quite literally.
âI think the cookies had too much sugar.â You put the dessert back on the plate before standing up from the bed. âShall i go get you wateââ
âno, thank you. I can do it.â
â
You were rotting in bed. From the morning, and now it's afternoon. It makes you feel useless since you barely did anything.
Capitano left before you woke up, even though he promised to return later today.
You felt miserable, your body weak and your spirits low. It was a mixture of loneliness, hormones, and the unease bubbling in your stomach. Capitano's absence only made it worse, adding to the feeling of helplessness that had settled upon you.
You tossed and turned in the bed, the plush sheets tangling up around you as you tried to find a comfortable position. But no matter how much you shifted, the discomfort in your stomach remained, persistent and nagging.
âMake the pain go please, I'll take any disgusting medicine,â you tell Marina weakly as you look up at her while she sat on the wooden stool next to you.
"I can give you some ginger root. It might help soothe your stomach.â she offered gently, handing you the ginger root she prepared just for you.
â⊠i lied i can't take anything disgusting.â
Marina chuckled softly at your admission, "I thought so," she said, setting aside the ginger root. âHave you considered telling Lord Capitano?â
You shake your head, ânot that he's here. It's not that important.â you cover half of your face with the blanket, âwhy though? Isn't it just a normal cold from the change of weather?â
It was clear that you were trying to downplay the severity of your symptoms, perhaps not wanting to worry anyone or admit that something might be seriously wrong.
"Dearest, it's not just a cold," she chided gently, "the symptoms you're describing are not typical of a mere cold.â
You frown, âis it not?â
She shook her head, her voice soft but serious. "No, it's not. The nausea, the fatigue, the changes in appetite...these are all common symptoms of something else." Shee paused for a moment, "my lady, have you considered the possibility that you might be... Pregnant?â
You immediately rise from the bed, sitting down with eyes wide to stare at her, "what? Pregnant?â you ask in shock.
"I shall ask for a healer right away, my lady.â
â
You stare outside the window at the dark skies, although your eyes fixated on the gates opening, indicating his arrival.
You almost flinch when he dashes inside your shared chambers, taking his helmet off but not bothering to take the rest off before he's gently grabbing you by your arms.
âwhere?â He asks urgently, âwhere are you injured? Who did it? Do not hesitate to tell me.â He says in a dangerously sharp tone, his eyes searching for even a single scratch on your body.
âwhat⊠are you talking about?â You raise an eyebrow, and your unbothered state made him confused. âthe healers were here, yet you're not injured?â he blinked before sighing, his hands caressing your arms instead, âthen why? Are you sick?â
âSick⊠no not sick.â You tell him, your hands ever so gentle taking a hold of his face, â⊠but pregnant. I'm pregnant.â
You both stare at eachother, both of you holding your breaths. You have never seen him so distracted, like he didn't hear you the first time.
Does he hate it? You never thought of the possibility.
âCapitââ before you could continue, he's down in one knee and you're bewildered, unsure of what to do.
âyou're carrying our child.â he utters out so softly that you think you might tear upâand you really are in the verge of tears. He takes your hand, he's held your hand many times, but this time it feels different, he holds you like you're glass, he's so careful with it.
âI swear to protect you both, and put you both first. Should anyone hurt you, i will not hesitate to draw my sword, if i ever hurt you⊠then you should not hesitate to draw your sword on me.â his words hung in the air like a sacred vow.
You tried to speak, to respond, but only a soft gasp escaped your lips. Tears welled in your eyes, and you could only stare at him, utterly overwhelmed.
Capitano's gaze softened even more as he saw the tears falling down your face. He rose to his feet in one fluid motion, his hand still holding yours in a gentle but firm grip, he reached out with the other hand, his large palm cupping your cheek to brush your tears away. âDon't cry, I'm here.â
His embrace, so warm, so protective around you that it eases every single thought in your head.
Everything is going to be okay. With him, it will.
â
Months passed in a blur of morning sickness, cravings, and blossoming excitement for the new life growing inside you. Capitano, as promised, was by your side through it all and he went away for more than a week.
He attended to your every need, from getting up in the middle of the night to find the most ridiculous late-night snack, to comforting you on days when you felt overwhelmed by the changes happening to your body.
You rest back against the bedâs headboard while tracing random shapes on the skin of your swollen belly, a hum of some sort of song followed after. You stop once you hear the sound of slow footsteps, catching your husband freeze.
âI'm sorry, i didn't mean to stalk you like thatââ
âyou're so silly. Come here, honey.â You pat on your empty side with a smile, inviting him to share this moment you.
Capitano took his place next to you then continued watching as you gently caressed your belly, tracing over the stretch marks with your fingers.
âThey're beautiful, you know.â he speaks first, as if sensing what you were about to say. âBeautiful?â You repeat. He lifted your hand to his lips, gently pressing a kiss on your knuckles before he replied, his voice a soft murmur. "Yes, beautiful. They're a sign of life growing within you. A sign of strength. Of creation. That's beautiful.â he continues his trail of kisses to your arm up to your shoulder, âI want to kiss every inch of you, stretch mark or not.â
You've come so far with him that it feels surreal, it feels right, âi love you.â You whisper to him, turning your attention to him again. âI love you.â he doesn't hesitate to say it back, the declaration coming out of his tongue smoothly like it was meant to be.
His hand then moved to your growing bump, "and I love this," he added. âThis?â You giggle.
"Mhm," Capitano confirmed, his hand now rubbing your belly in slow, soothing circles. "This. Our baby." His eyes flickered up to yours, "We created this," he continued, his voice with pride and awe. "Our love made this.â
Love.
â
Were toddlers always this fast? Because one second he keeps an eye on her then the next he looks around before she's gone right from infront of him.
He was supposed to play tea party, but a little butterfly flying creature must've caught her attention.
Capitano, despite his size and strength, found himself struggling to keep up with your energetic three-year-old daughter.
He chuckled as he chased her around the garden, his large frame a stark contrast to her small, fleeting form. As she ran past you, you couldn't help but burst into laughter at the sight of your husband's face, "almost got her," he panted out, his hand on his knee as he attempted to catch his breath.
âYou got this old man!â You decide to tease him from behind, laughing endlessly from the sight. Though he shot you a mock glare through his labored breaths, âold man, huh?" he grumbled, straightening up and crossing his arms over his chest. "You think I'm old now, do you?" he continued, raising an eyebrow playfully. "I'll show you 'old,' darling." With that, he took a step further to sweep you off your feet, carrying you effortlessly in his arms, and your smile only widens.
âMe!â Your little girl raises both of her arms at her father, and he kneels down to carry her in his other arm. Now carrying you both in each arm.
âOh, how strong.â You tease, poking at his bicep and he shakes his head almost shyly, âpapa, butterfly.â Your daughter proceeds to show you both the butterfly she caught, the little creature doesn't seem scared of her as it rests on her tiny fingers.
âLooks pretty,â Capitano smiled, his expression amused as your daughter leaned toward the butterfly, attempting to kiss it. "Careful now," he warned gently. "Don't scare it away." He watched as the butterfly fluttered its delicate wings at her attempt and she giggles.
"You have to be gentle," he told her, his voice soft. "Just like how you handle the kittens.â
She gasps, suddenly remembering the cat that's half asleep on the grass with the three of you. âKitty!â She shouts at the cat, jumping off Capitanoâs arm so suddenly that it makes him gasp, worried that she mightâve injured herself.
âshe's fine.â You pat your husband's chest and just like that, he's relaxed again. âi think our cat is tired of her sometimes.â You get down as well, watching how your daughter carried the lazy cat in her arms to run in circles with her. The cat that grew within these years, from a mere kitten to a big cat now.
"I think we should just be glad the cat hasn't hissed at her or swatted her yet," he sighed, and you hum in reply, âi don't think it ever will. That cat has been clinging to my belly ever since i was pregnant. Kept me warm i must admit.â
You grin when your daughter runs back to both of you, carrying the cat in the air, it's eyes almost closed, unbothered, "meow."
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I am slamming that validation button like a rodent wanting more sugar water so here's more mostly rough draft Jayvik.
A continuation of the nicknames fic. More science dorks being dorks, this time greatly featuring some seriously questionable boundaries between totally normal lab colleagues, and much more briefly featuring Viktor being so horny it makes him stupid. Also appearing is Jayce Talis, ADHD King and allusions to Viktor's past slut era. Both fics are a sort of preview chapter in the bigger thing @amahhi and I are working on!
Thank you to @avelera for planting the idea of platonically dubious scritches in my head, and for being a constant sounding board!
Rating: PG
Pair: Jayvik pre-relationship
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It continues to be surprising, how not surprising everything is when it comes to Jayce.
A week into the partnership, and that initial bright thrill of something new has not dulled in the slightest. Nor has the perfectly ordinary, easy comfort that he feels with Jayce. The un-remarkability of this calm is what makes it remarkable. With Jayce, there is none of the discomfort of dealing with another person. None of the abrasive tension that arises when Viktor must face other people as distinct personalities which he must contend with, instead of the larger concepts of People. People as an idea have problems that he can solve, whose suffering he can reduce without any needs for interaction causing issues.
But Jayce functions outside of these issues Viktor often finds himself in. Jayce slots into a space Viktor hardly knew existed, like there had always been this jagged edge to him that, to his great surprise, was actually part of a puzzle that Jayce had the other half to.
Past experience would have him expecting that, with time, the shine would wear off. The glow would dim. He would learn all the little faults and human contradictions of Jayce and would grow to feel that jagged tension return. Spending hours upon hours each and every day for a solid week with him have revealed Jayceâs little foibles, yet not one has grown into a frustration. In actuality, Viktor has had nothing but further data points to add weight to his newly forming thoughts of destiny and its relation to himself and Jayce. For each little fault and lacking Jayce has, Viktor can help. He can, perhaps, be the puzzle piece that returns the favor to fit neatly into Jayce's life.
For example, Jayce can grow blind to his surroundings, his mind too caught in their work. Viktor had assumed that the apartment was in the state he first found it in due to an explosive force of arcane power. He still thinks that, but he has learned that this great force was not the struck gem amplifying and reflecting the kinetic force aimed at it to exponential levels, but Jayce himself. He often forgets his keys, or his mugs, or his pencils behind an ear, his goggles on his head, his tools, everything but his journal really.
It was the third time that he left his keys in the lab (on top of twice that he came in groaning that he had locked himself out of his temporary housing), that Viktor realized what the pattern was, and that he could provide a solution.
Jayce had more important things to focus his mind on, so it was both useless and counterproductive to adjust Jayceâs behavior or habits so he could track the little necessities of life. Fortunately, Viktor is well practiced on keeping track of what he needs to. Itâs a skill that was refined when he first used it to avoid detection in the Academy, and then even further developed as Professor Heimerdingerâs assistant. When Jayce left his keys behind again, the answer was simple and obvious. They were already missing from Jayceâs person, so Viktor simply took them to the sort of establishment in the lanes that would never ask any questions, but would always make a perfect copy of any keys brought to them.
Jayceâs keys were neatly returned to him, and Viktor took no small delight in waiting for the next time Jayce smacked his forehead as they left for the day, realizing that he had once again locked himself out of his rooms, to reveal his backups. There was a brief moment, where Jayce stared at the keys hanging from Viktorâs finger, when he worried in a flash that this was not something a friend or colleague should do, that he had overstepped in some way. Then Jayce snorted with his grin, called Viktor brilliant if a little terrifying, but mostly brilliant, and everything was perfect.
The key was only for Jayceâs temporary rooms in the Academy housing, but Viktor could make another set once the apartment repairs were complete, even if it seems wasteful to have Jayce eventually move out of the building that Viktor lives in.
Jayce is also wonderful at taking notes for his work, but less skilled at going back to reorganize or refine those notes. His notes are exemplary, even with the little flair of him signing every single page, but it leads to problems.
These problems are their current struggle in the cramped space of their semi-lab at some odd hour of the night. Viktor stands and contemplates the board crowded with copies of Jayceâs notes, additional observations both have about that first successful arcane spell, and Viktorâs little chalked notes next to clusters of paper denoting what sections of an article each goes to. Behind him, Jayce is not exactly pacing, which would require repeating of one path, but he is in a constant state of muttering movement with occasional bursts of frustration over paperwork.
Because they can make a fully stable arcane frame that affects the gravity within the deanâs office, but that means nothing to the academy if it is not properly written and submitted for review. They are on their fourth draft of the paper, and the initial excitement over being published has dwindled with every draft that has been returned with Heimerdingerâs cheerful blue ink slashed across the pages. One of Jayceâs faults, Viktor is finding, is that he does not take such things gracefully. It takes the second set of revisions for Viktor to realize that pride is not the primary hurt that Jayce feels, but the thread of anxiety Viktor had seen woven through Jayceâs journal. The need to prove himself, and the fear of impending failure at every turn.
âHow else do they want me to explain it?â Jayce groans, and Viktor does not need to turn around to know that the perfectly clean cut hair is likely sticking out in every direction.
âI was hoping the Professor would not have edited âcrank itâ so quickly out of the methodology.â Viktor muses. That was his greatest disappointment. âI am deeply curious on how he expects us to find half of the citations he has requested for this entirely new scientific field.â
âAnd when the Academy insists there arenât more tomes on mage lore!â Jayce snarls.
âWe will have to expand outside of the Academy in the future.â Viktor agrees, turning a little to once again look over the taped up pages of their latest draft and what blue marks are where. âHowever, I think a more concrete description of the runic array you conducted into the stabilizer may be our ticket past many of the other issues he has found.â
Instead of grumblings or more huffed complaints, a heavy weight thumps onto Viktorâs shoulder. He pauses, realizing immediately that it is Jayceâs head that has slumped against him, and Jayceâs impressive body heat against his back indicating that there is, at most, a few inches of space between them.
âI donât know how.â Jayce groans, but itâs less petulant and quieter, almost fearful. âI donât know how to describe what I did.â
âHm.â Is all Viktor can say in that exact moment. He is, briefly, distracted by Jayceâs hair brushing against his jaw with the strong scent of some sort ofâŠof fancy wood. It is not an unpleasant scent.
âSorry.â Jayce mutters. âSorry, I know youâre not touchy I just- gimme a second I gotta think.â
âThatâs perfectly alright.â Viktor assures him. It is alright. Jayce is correct that Viktor is not nearly as tactile as Jayce is, but he is at this point well acquainted with Jayceâs propensity towards touch. His own lack of aversion or any other strong reaction to it was one of the earliest surprises in their partnership. âTake your time gathering your thoughts. This is a far less dire circumstance than that first stabilization was.â
âYou told me there was no pressure then.â Jayce mumbles, already sounding a little less miserable.
âThat is because I was lying.â Viktor hums, delighted at the snort he gets, and the way he can feel Jayceâs movement from the small laugh.
âSeriously V, I just remembered that night, remembered what the mage looked like and what all the magic looked like and IâŠdid the same thing. But it wasnât the same thing, because no one got teleported. I donât even know if what I did was a spell.â Viktor thinks he can feel the resonance of Jayceâs voice through his core, spreading in waves from the point where Jayceâs forehead presses down at the top edge of his shoulder.
The distraction is not a true distraction however, because Viktor catches something in what Jayce is muttering. âYou can remember how he moved, what the runes he summoned looked like?â
âI remember everything about that night.â
âYes but-â There is something here. He has already seen Jayce's remarkable skill at memorizing things that Jayce deems worth memorizing. If Jayce says he can remember it, Viktor does not doubt it. âThe order of them, could you remember that?â
The head on Viktorâs shoulder shifts as Jayce rolls it slightly to one side, but he doesnât move it in the other to shake his head. Itâs a contemplative movement. âMaybeâŠI think so. Let me...ok this is going to sound so weird but can I just uh, hang out here for a second? It helps me think.â
âBy all means.â Thereâs something particularly marvelous about becoming a stabilizing agent for Jayceâs mind, he would be a fool not to agree to the opportunity. As Jayce calibrates himself, Viktor once again considers their paper, the problems it has given them. Jayce had moved the dial of the stabilizing framework like a conductor, with precision. Heimerdinger wants written out theories and explanations and citations, but what if they could instead find a formula. What if the precision of Jayceâs input could be broken down into components and quantifiedâŠ
His free hand moves with habitual lack of awareness to where it would usually begin fiddling with his own hair, and it takes a few moments for him to notice the slight change in both texture and location of the hair he is rolling between his fingertips. Even then, he only notices because Jayceâs head becomes an even heavier weight on his shoulder.
âAh, apologies.â He says, stopping the movement, thinking this might be a thing to feel awkward about. âForce of habit, it helps me think.â
âNo, sâfine.â Jayce says, voice thicker in a way that is dangerous for Viktorâs higher thought processes. âItâs nice, actually. I donât mind.â
After a second, Viktor continues. This time he notes the finer texture of Jayceâs hair. Itâs very soft, sleek almost, with traces of the gel he uses to style it making sections of stiffness that crunch away under Viktorâs fingers.
âYou smell nice.â Jayce mumbles.
A response to that requires some consideration. ViktorâŠconsiders.
There was a time, not all that long ago, where he would have leapt on someone with Jayceâs build telling him he smelled good while standing a scant inch away from Viktor. He would have assumed that the intent was for him to leap. Viktor is more discriminating than he used to be about sexual escapades, mostly because he began finding the nights spent on dalliances not worth the distractions, but even he can admit that if Jayce had put a head on his shoulder and told him he smelled good a week ago, Viktor would know exactly how to respond. It would have involved leaning back against that broad heat, turning lightly twirling fingers into a fist in Jayceâs hair, then gleefully seeing where things went from that point.
But nowâŠ
Jayce fits in like a missing puzzle piece. Whatever Jayce is, it is not one of Viktorâs brief encounters. Viktor would want to tell Jayce he didnât need to get his apartment repaired, when Viktor lives much closer to the lab and things would be much more efficient if they lived together. Viktor can be wildly in love with this man in every definition of love that exists, but romantic or sexual entanglements (and if there is one, Viktor very much wants the other as well) often end. In Viktorâs personal experience, they ended before morning, and that was only considering the sexual entanglement. Heightened intimacy was desperately tempting, but it risked a greater end to the entire partnership. Even if nothing ever started, a proposition alone could forever poison what there already is.
Jayce is tactile in a very casual way. He flirts with everything that smiles at him for more than three seconds, and there has been nowhere near enough data for Viktor to calculate the risk of losing that side of the puzzle, or how much of a reward he would gain from taking that risk.
âThank you.â He says eventually, slow and still considering. Then, because that feels incomplete and awkward, he adds, âI use soap.
Jayce snorts again, the head on Viktorâs shoulder shaking as Jayceâs body shakes with quiet laughter. Viktor knows he is shaking with it, because every other hitch up of Jayceâs shoulders causes a tiny sway forward, which bumps Jayceâs chest against Viktorâs back. Each of these millisecond bits of contact makes Viktor once again run through the considerations of risk versus reward in relation to getting his hands on that chest. Under the shirt. He would need both hands. There is an awful lot of chest, after all. Maybe both hands and his mouth. Definitely all three. It really is so much chest.
He takes the fantastic effort to rein his mind away from Jayceâs prodigious chest, even more effort to pull it further from contemplating the amount of shoulder matching that chest and what the rest of the torso probably looks like. There should be a response in kind to Jayceâs. A friendly compliment to return a compliment.
âYour hair is very soft.â He decides, as that seems safe as well as relevant to Jayce's compliment. Jayceâs silent laughter turns into some small hitched sounds that near a squeak, which means that Viktorâs thoughts are successfully pulled away from the sexual distractions, but only into the romantic sort.
âThank you.â Jayce says with a dreadful mimic of Viktorâs accent, which only strengthens Viktorâs resolve to not take any uninformed risks that could lead to him losing this, âI use a leave-in conditioner.â
Viktorâs hand drops from Jayceâs hair, and he turns his head as much as he can to shoot a baffled look at the top of Jayceâs head.
âWhy the fuck would you leave in a hair conditioner?â He asks, affronted. âConditioner already feels dreadful. Itâs heavy and slimy, absolutely horrendous.â
Jayce shoots up (which is a shame) so that he can lean around and give Viktor a look of equal outrage. âWhat does- Viktor itâs a different thing from- do you not use conditioner!?â
âOf course not. It feels terrible, I already said that.â Jayce makes a pained sound, and Viktor waves him off. âEnough of that nonsense. It is a waste of time. I have an idea.â
Jayce moves up next to him, facing Viktor with an intent eagerness. âWhat is it?â
âYou are going to describe to me exactly what you remember. Each rune, each movement, as much as you can.â Another thought occurs to him, and Viktor snatches his cane from where itâs leaning on the board so he can turn to the inert stabilizing frame sitting on a table. âAnd I want you to dial in the stabilizer as you did in Heimerdingeâs lab as you do so. I will record everything. I believe there may be something we can measure, some sort of constant in the timing and the runes used, a way to-â
âWe can make it an equation.â Jayce interrupts, breathless and awed, knowing what Viktor is thinking without Viktor needing to explain any of it. He so deeply wishes Heimerdinger had let them keep âcrank itâ in the paper. âSomething concrete.â
âPrecisely. The runes are instructions, a code. Perhaps the clockwise and counter-clockwise cycles of them are additional instructions. We can use your stable field as a baseline to begin working on a formula.â
âWe can give them a solid theorum.â Jayce is already rushing to the stabilizing frame, even recreating the hunched over pose he had that wondrous night. âOkay, tell me when youâre ready.â
Any thoughts on conditioner or smells are gone. In the future, it will be as common as breathing for them to be drawn together when they need help thinking. Jayceâs head will always find Viktorâs shoulder, and Viktor will learn that playing with Jayceâs hair further settles his restless mind and channels his thoughts towards solutions. Whatever else there is, the most important goal to further all other goals of Viktorâs life is to keep the partnership. In the partnership there is the work, the thrill. The endless infinitesimal ways they fit together, two pieces destined to find the other. In the moment, Viktor takes up his notes and marvels again on the nature of fate, of probability, and of magic.
#arcane#jayvik#my fic#totally normal behavior for colleagues#theyre so fucking normal#oh my god they were lab partners
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dilf december
day three â toru oikawa â sugar daddy x reader
tw : nsfw minors dni, age gap, implied sugar baby dynamic, vaginal fingering, slight impact play.
a downside to being a professional volleyball player is the lack of longevity. most players are put out of work by thirty; some may make it to thirty-five, if they're lucky. but generally after they've reached that age, they have past their prime and their athletic performance begins to decline.
for oikawa, his thriving volleyball career reached a glorious finish at thirty-three. he still does interviews and associates with the argentinian volleyball league, but his time as a player had ended.
but a massive perk to being a professional volleyball player that largely nullifies the previous issue, is that the money he made and the fame he gained during his short-lived time as a player was enough to last him for the rest of his life.
even at fourty-three, he is filthy rich: living in his big house by the seaside, appearing on national television and making guest appearances on shows and news outlets constantly. paparazzi swarms him whenever he steps foot out the door, journalists continue publishing articles about his legacy and magazines still beg him to be on their front cover. the headlines would read: "top ten men who only get hotter with age!"
however, he rarely indulges in satisfying the media anymore; he prefers to stay private these days. not because he doesn't love seeing himself in the media, because he undoubtable does, but rather because he doesn't want them catching wind of his new relationship. the age difference might stir up controversy.
not that either of you thought there was anything wrong with it. when he first saw you at the private golf club, working as a cart girl, he thought you were just the most beautiful woman he had ever laid his eyes on â baring in mind, he's had oppertunies to do photoshoot with famous models, but all of them were nothing in comparison to you â and your age had nothing to do with this.
meanwhile, you've always had a soft spot for an older gentlman with a pretty face and fat wallet. so it was only natural that he two of you immediately clicked, and in less than three months, you had moved in with him.
which is why you are currently laying in the centre of your queen-sized bed, chest pressed flush against your eiderdown bedding while your nose is buried in your phone, doing whatever you please. but out of the corner of your eye, you see your bedroom door creep open and a voice call out, "guess who?"
you purse your lips and furrow your brows in thought, "hm, i don't know."
he scoffs and steps out into the room to reveal himself, sauntering over to the bed and playfully flicking your forehead, "silly girl. don't even recognise your own boyfriend, huh?" he takes a seat at the side of the bed, and since you are laying on your front, he is able to place a hand on the back of your thigh and caress your tender skin.
"i suppose not." you murmur, still typing away on your phone, prompting him to lightly smack your ass.
"put that thing down. pay attention, sweetie. i've not seen you all day." he says with a smile, gazing lovingly at you.
while you simply roll your eyes, placing your phone anyway but still huffing in disinterest. "why should i? you barely pay attention to me, like, at all. you've been busy all week. we don't get to spend any time to together."
"i know, baby, and i'm so sorry. i've just got so many things to do."
"like what? i thought you were supposed to be retired.."
"i am, but work never really ends." he chuckles awkwardly, "i've got interviews to do and they still ask me to visit the team to give speeches to boost morale. it's a waste of my time, really."
you don't seem to impressed by this reply. your small 'hmph' prompts him to continue.
"but that's not an excuse, i'd rather be spending time with you, my gorgeous girl." he says solemnly, leaning in to place long kiss against the exposed skin of your thigh. "we will spend the weekend together. just us, with no distractions. we can do whatever you like. how does that sound?"
he waits patiently for your response, but you lay there with your hand propping up your chin, simply averting your gaze. he takes your silence as a response again and continues, "we can go shopping n' by you whatever you like. some new shoes, or clothes. maybe a new birkin, or whatever handbag it is that the new generation of women obsess overâ"
"coach.." you reply plainly.
"right." he nods, "or we can get you a new phone. you mentioned needing an upgrade. plus, i don't like the front camera on your current one; it makes my eyes look asymmetrical." he cringes at the misrepresentation of his lethal facecard.
"i guess it would be fun to spend the weekend with you." you mumble, hesitantly gazing over your shoulder at him, "i really missed you, toru."
"you don't need to miss me, baby, i'm right here." he reassures you in a quiet tone. gently gripping the flesh of your plush thigh as he leans in to plant a sweet kiss against your lips. it lasts a while before he returns to his seat on the edge of the bed. this is when you begin to feel his hand creep from your mid-thigh, up and under your skirt until it was rested on your ass.
"in fact, let's start spending some quality time together right now." he kneeds the skin for a moment before his fingers curve inwards, and dip down between your thighs, brushing against your clothed pussy. he toys with your hole a little, and lovingly massages your clit and labia, basking in how wet he is making you and the cute moans and mewls that slip from your throat.
he pulls the fabric aside once he has you sopping enough for his liking, but continues to only tease your hole with his fingers. pressing against it and feigning penetration to get you needy and desperate for him.
"has this cute pussy been needing me all day?" he muses, playing with your clit under the rough pads of his fingers.
"uhuh.." you whine, arching into his touch.
"oh, poor baby." he says tauntingly, then proceeds to smack your ass, causing you to gasp. however, he simultaneously pushes to finger into your aching hole, which makes a lewd moan immediately follow your deep gasp.
he only chuckles, amused by your reaction to his ploy. it doesn't take him long before he starts thrusting his thick fingers in and out of your pussy, gradually building up a moderate yet rough pace. two fingers is enough to strain your tight walls, and he adores how each vulgar thrust is enough to elicit another loud moan from you.
since you have been deprived of sexual attention for so long, you had already got yourself so worked up at the idea of oikawa, that you end up finishing quicker than usual. creaming around his fingers and arching back into himself, letting him fuck your wet hole through your orgasm.
once he's done, you collapse onto your front, breathless, and he lays down next to you. turning his head so your faces are inches away from each other, "and there's more to come, princess."
#oikawa smut#oikawa tooru#oikawa x reader#haikyuu smut#oikawa x you#oikawa x y/n#oikawa tĆru#oikawa fluff#oikawa toru x reader#dilfâdecember
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Info time: Diabetes and related issues [this is long but I highly suggest reading]
Do you ever see something and you go "that doesn't sound right, but I don't know enough about diabetes to dispute it"? Well, I can help you there. I can help you know enough about diabetes to dispute it if need be. Especially because well, there are seemingly a lot of scams going around where people claim to be diabetic [in my experience it's maybe 3 scammers that just remake] and the information is not very correct in most cases. Not to mention this type of scam pisses me off because I am in fact diabetic, and not only are people preying off of others' lack of information about the chronic condition, but it's also trivializing a serious lifelong condition that can be fatal. If you have now or have lost a loved one to diabetes complications, you are already aware of how dangerous it can be as well as how dangerous misinformation is as well.
What is diabetes? Diabetes is a chronic condition related to the endocrine system- the pancreas specifically. However, if complications get serious enough other parts of the body will be affected. In type 2 diabetes, the body's cells have become resistant to insulin, which is a hormone produced by the pancreas that allows cells to use glucose from the blood- your body's energy it needs to function. When someone is 'type 2', the food that person is eating is not able to fuel them, regardless of caloric content. Glucose is commonly called "blood sugar". It's a type of sugar that is processed and then transported via the circulatory system to your cells where it's needed. With type 1 diabetes (which used to be called "juvenile diabetes"), the pancreas does not produce any/enough insulin for some reason or another, generally because of autoimmune or other damage. [For me personally, I was diagnosed as an adult and had to have it confirmed as type 1 due to the presence of autoimmune antibodies, also apparently my pancreas hadn't quite given up at that point.] As we've seen before, insulin allows your body to use the food you are putting into it. As a double whammy, you can have type 1 with resistance, so not only is your body not producing any/enough insulin, what's there can't be used properly. [RIP Spider who has this] So to explain the effects, think about what happens when you're literally starving. Now imagine that's happening no matter how much you eat. Your body may go into starvation mode and store fat. This can be misleading, which when combined with fatphobia has people concluding that "well, you have diabetes because you're fat, duh". Heck, I have/had diabetic relatives who believed that eating too many carbs will automatically cause the condition because that's what everyone is told/assumes. Eventually, you'd starve and your body would start deteriorating as so. HOWEVER because you would have so much glucose that just sits there because it can't be used, your kidneys are going to work overtime to try and correct this- and they can't do it alone. Your liver can also suffer severe damage. That's not to mention a whole host of other complications that can occur.
So what about it? Well, obviously there are treatments. Insulin injections have existed since the 1920s. There are also medications that can help your body actually use the insulin it's being provided, be it naturally or artificially. So yes, people with diabetes are dependent on prescriptions to survive. My grandma lost a sister in childhood due to insulin treatments apparently not being available in the extremely rural area they were living in at the time. More recently, the israeli occupation has banned insulin from being distributed to Palestinians. [Insulin has also been used historically in psychiatric hospitals to force low blood sugar in psychiatric patients, but that's a whole other rabbithole about psychiatric abuse.] There are resources for the US and beyond if you or someone you know and/or love are in dire straits financially and need help with insulin or other diabetes medications/ related medical help. That's only one aspect of treatment, though. Because pain, stress, hormone changes, other medical issues, and plenty of other factors can raise your blood sugar to dangerous levels, other kinds of treatment to manage other factors may be necessary.
Now that that's out of the way, let's get to specifics. So the most common problem you're going to see mentioned is high blood sugar. We've already covered what the effects are, but what is considered high? For the most part, "high" is 200 milligrams per deciliter. My CGM (continuous glucose monitor) lists "high" as anything 181 or higher but stops giving an exact number after 350. This is why I had a good laugh that time I saw a scammer using an image of a meter reading glucose in the 120s- that's good blood sugar. If you're going to get even more specific you want your pre-breakfast blood sugar to be 80-130. So when you see an accompanying image reading in the 500s, that's extremely dangerous. That's "you're in danger of going into a coma" dangerous.
Insulin pricing? How come I'm seeing people saying they need $300? In the US, pricing cap was set to $35 somewhat recently. What this means is that per insulin pen (as far as I've experienced, the above-linked resource post should have links with better clarification) it's $35. Can't be more than that for one pen. How many doses that provides is very up in the air. It absolutely varies from person to person. I have relatives with type 2 that have to inject a dose of very long-acting insulin weekly, one has gone back and forth with daily doses on top of that. I'm type 1 and have to take one dose of long-acting nightly with injections of a short-acting insulin before every meal, with the exact dosage amounts varying per meal. Insulin is measured in units (there's probably an actual mL amount, both of mine are 100 units per mL with a 3mL pen). How many units someone needs is determined with their medical provider (or care team? When I went to 'diabetes education' after diagnosis I was set up with a "care team").
Edited:
["...pharmacies can refuse to split boxes of insulin pens depending on company/store policy. so if someone lost their insulin and needed to get a replacement because insurance wont pay for more, the pharmacy could make them get a full box of three or five pens."]
via: anon ask (thank you much!!!) So it turns out that yes, with $35 being a cap it would very much likely be for EACH pen, with 3 being $105 in this case and 5 being $175.
But at any rate, if someone is in an emergency situation in the US should be able to get an insulin pen for $35 pretty much when they get to a pharmacy [again, from edit: no, not every pharmacy]. Yes, I get that this can be difficult in some situations, but that's outside the concept of insulin prices.
If someone's blood sugar is over 500 though, they almost certainly need a hospital more than they need an insulin pen. Yes, alright, the actual real single mother on twitter who was the source of the profile images/meter images that whatever the current url for vero-og has stolen and been using for months... that was actually months ago and I'm sure she doesn't need to be told to go to the hospital right now. [That said, if you get an ask from someone and the url is a variation off of 'vero-og' that is a confirmed scammer.] And then on top of that, yes, why would you block people that can get you free or discounted insulin? If someone was offering to save your life for free or find you what you need for far less than what you were expecting to spend, why wouldn't you take it? Unless what you're actually after is money.
SO TO RECAP: Insulin does not cost $300, $350, $370, whatever someone is sending you an ask about. In the US, it is federally capped at $35 per pen, with further resources available, as well as further resources being available internationally. If you need help, please be honest about it. I promise there are people who care, you don't have to try and explain yourself- but it absolutely does not cost that much and if it did, there are ways to lower the cost by quite a bit if there aren't resources to make it free. Diabetes is a lifelong chronic condition that is not caused by "being fat" or "eating too much", it is caused by your body not functioning right and your body can starve no matter how much food you eat. Unfortunately, people have been lying on this site for months if not years claiming to have type 1 with an insulin emergency. These people cannot possibly have diabetes, or they would be well aware that they do not need hundreds of dollars to get their insulin. They are counting on you not knowing this so you will donate to them. The 'vero-og' scammer had been harassing someone who donated and threatening them with the intention of bullying more money out of the donor.
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multi x fem!reader
⥠. eek my first post!! some simple headcannons for you guys! enjoy :) nothing explicit (for now đ) but! there are references to dicksucking!
⥠. includes: law, sabo, sanji
LAW
Law is constantly on edge. It hurts seeing your captain so stressed all the time.
So, being the dutiful crewmate you are, you decide toâŠprovide him with a little ârelaxantâ. Itâs not your fault heâll have to work for itâŠ
âY/n-ya, what are you-â âItâs hot, Captain!â
Law blushes at that. You can barely see it through the Tangâs dim lighting and his tanned skin, but from the way his eyes widen and his breath hitches, you can tell your plan is working.
Why is he harping about your wardrobe? Well, your typical Heart Pirates boiler suit had been traded in for a tight tank and skimpy shorts. How old were these? With the way your thighs were pinched by the elastic of your shorts, and the way your breasts practically fell out of your top, Law was certain you had dug deep in your closet to fish these clothes out.
âY/n-ya. Seriously,â his tattooed hand rests on your shoulder now, dangerously close to the thin strap of your tank top. âWe have uniforms for a reason.â
âAre you really gonna make me change, Captain?â you pout. You watch his brow furrow, and you know youâve got him now.
âI think Iâll have fun ripping this off of you, Y/n-ya,â he grunts, hot breath now in your ear. His hands wander down to your shorts, palming your ass and taking notice of your lack of panties. âEven more dress code violations? I might just have to punish you tonight, Y/n-ya.â
You gulp. Law says Room and suddenly youâre in his bedroom.
âRegretting your decision, Y/n-ya?â
SABO
Once again, Dragonâs given him far too much paperwork.
As his secretary, itâs your job to provide him with some repose from his workload.
SoâŠWhat better to let him take another load out on you? Maybe you should snag a pillow from your desk chair next timeâŠ
âChief, I brought you the tea you asked for. A splash of milk and extra sugar,â you say, repeating his order sweetly and perfectly from years of practice. When you cross the threshold to his office, you find your chief of staff with his vest off, cravat undone and on the table, and his shirt partly unbuttoned.
The sight of his scarred, muscular chest makes you gulp. Itâs okay Y/n, you can do this, you assure yourself.
âThank you, Y/n-chan. Youâre so kind, helping me out,â Sabo says, his cheeks rosy and smile innocent. You think him the perfect caricature of a schoolboy.
âItâs nothing, chief. I am your secretary after all. Itâs my job,â you grin, placing the tea on his desk in front of him. You make sure to lean over and give him an eyeful of cleavage, just in case he might be interested.
âIs it your job to tease me as well?â
You freeze. You didnât actually think heâd take the bait. Shit.
âDonât be shy now, Y/n-chan. Iâve already gotten a nice view of your tits. And your skirt could be pulled down a tad, I suppose. Youâre hardly professional these days,â you listen, face hot, sweat beginning to run down your back. At least he wasnât scolding youâ that was evident in the fact he said âtitsâ, and the generally teasing lilt in his usually silky smooth voice. Itâs gotten deeper because heâs so tired, and itâs starting to make you clench your thighs.
âI-uh, Iâm sorry, chief. I- I figuredâŠâ you scramble, trying to think of some excuse to remedy this situation. âI figured you might want a, uh, distraction. Right! A distraction from work!â
âOh really?â the blond grins, pushing his chair away from his desk and moving his hands to unbutton his trousers. âDragon-san has been giving me so much paperwork. Itâs the least you could do, right Y/n-chan?â
You watch in awe as he takes himself out of his boxers.
âNow, Y/n-chanâŠHow much of a distraction can you be?â
SANJI
Sanji gets hard just from smelling womenâs perfume. So seducing him is easier thanâŠreally anything.
So, one night you canât sleep. And the chef in the kitchen preparing recipes seems like a wonderful target for your affections.
âSanji-kun, whatâre you making?â
Sanji jumps from his place stirring on the counter, surprised at the sound of your beautiful voice.
âOh my! Has an angel descended down on me to try my humble cooking?â the man swirls around you with hearts in his eyes, eventually bending down on one knee to kiss your knuckles. âItâs nothing special, my dear Y/n-swan. Simply practicing recipes for fruit tarts.â
You cup his cheek. A trickle of blood comes down his nose, but he pulls away from your touch to quickly wipe it away.
âSounds yummy, Sanji. Could I try one?â
âOf course, mellorine!â Sanji keens. You smile at how cute he is. The blond grabs a fruit tart, which happens to be your favorite fruit, and brings it over to you.
He sits it on a plate in front of you, waiting like a lapdog as he anticipates praise for his cooking. However you donât move to pick up the tart.
âY/nâŠswan?â
âFeed it to me, Sanji-kun?â you say seductively, leaning over the kitchen island so your breasts pop over your crossed arms. Immediately Sanji is staring, but you donât scold him this time. This was your goal.
âOf- of course, anything for my Y/n-swan,â Sanji stutters. He brings the small tart to your lips, and as you reach the last bite, you grab his wrist.
You decide to be extra bold, and lick a stripe up his finger. Your mouth detaches with a pop, and Sanji looks like he might pass out.
âThat was good, Sanji-kun. Do you have any other special treats for me?â
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Slim Pickens - Tyler Owens
Authors Note: Not me writing this smut on election day..... anyways enjoy! Cause I have no clue what happened to me.
Word Count: 5080
Warnings: SMUT, stranger tryna get laid and Tyler not having it.
Requests: OPEN
Main Masterlist ~ ~ Halloween 2024 Event
[Thank you for the gif @chrishemsworthsbitch ]
Enjoy!
âGuess I'll end this life alone
I am not dramatic
These are just the thoughts that pass right through meâ
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There was a simple saying that been passed down from generation to generation, and you knew it all too well.Â
âNo use crying over spilt milkâ.Â
Your grandma used to say it whenever you had boy problems back in middle school and your mother took up the saying when you went on to middle school and in both of these stages in your life you hadnât quite understood what they meant.Â
Now, sitting cross legged on Tyler Owens hotel floor as he repeated those very words to you, you knew them all too well. And by the look of his smug smile in your direction as he got ready for the day you knew he knew his words struck a nerve.Â
âNow donât get cranky at me, sweetheart.â He warns, pointing at you as he kicks his boots closer to the bed so he can sit on the end of it to put them on. âI warned you he wouldnât be worth it last night when you left.â
The âheâ in mention was some guy named Jake that you had matched with on Tinder last night, and who you had dumbly agreed to meet up with. It had been a long week of storm chasing and dealing with Tylers crappy music in the truck and you just wanted to relieve some pressure.Â
âHe quoted shakespeare.â You try to defend only for him to laugh at you.Â
âYou sleep with every guy that quotes shakespeare?â
âGuys who quote Shakespeare are hotter than guys who havenât touched a book in their life!â You snap back. âAnd-â
âIt is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing.â He interrupts, shoving his feet into the boots with a small look in your direction. But you were too focused on staring at the floor from exhaustion.Â
âMkay Yoda.â You sigh and his hands fly up in the air from lack of belief.Â
âSeriously?â
âAnd I mean he was hot.â You continue, falling back to lay on the floor and stare at the ceiling as he finishes with the boots and moves to get his bag together. âHonestly he kind of reminded me of you. But then he had to talk. And he just kept ruining it.â
âHow so?â
âHe was all âYou ever seen a jet, Sugarâ? And canât forget âThere is almost nothing better than the high feeling of flying through the airâŠ.almost.â And it was-â You finish off the sentence with a loud groan as you slap your forehead making him laugh.Â
âDid he not know what you do for a living?â
âOh, you mean chase storms and kill them? No. Why would he? That would involve him asking me a question.â You seethe before Tyler comes into view, standing over you with that smug smile you hated and loved so much.Â
âAlright, come on Sugar. Itâs time to go.â
âTyler, Iâm gonna die alone.â You groan, closing your eyes before covering your face. He is having none of it though, reaching down to grab at your forearms, hauling you up with an ease that makes your skin flush. His hands are warm on your skin and the way his thumbs circle your flesh has images of your nasty daydreams flashing through your mind.Â
âEnough of that mopinâ. We got storms to chase and I ainât got time to tell you that youâre never gonna die alone.âÂ
âCause you donât believe it?â
âNo, cause the chances of us dyinâ in a tornado together are far more likely.â He laughs, deep and throaty as he leans down to scoop you up by the waist, taking a second to slap at your back thigh before exiting the hotel. âCate will also kill us if weâre late again.â
-
âAll the douchebags in my phone
Play 'em like a slot machine
If they're winnin', I'm just losin'â
-
âNot to be that guyâŠâ Tyler starts, his voice already filled with annoyance. âBut is now the time to be checking your phone?â
His hands were tight on the wheel as the truck raced through the fields, efficiently tracking down the storm that had caught Cateâs eye. And while you normally took the passenger seat next to Tyler after fighting with Boone for it so that Cate could take her own ford with Javi, today she had taken the seat and you were in the back with Boone who was just as upset by losing his special spot next to Tyler.Â
It had been a rough day, between realizing one of the cars were completely broken down in the hotel parking lot and Boone nearly breaking his pinkie while trying to fix it. Letâs just say the hood of the truck came down a little too fast. Not only that but you had gotten stuck in the bathroom of your room until Tyler had to come save you in your towel, treating you like you were plague victim number one ever since.Â
But the best part of the day so far? The introduction to Scott loservains new team, conning poor victims one at a time.Â
âHey man, Iâm tracking our filming.â Boone argues, already offended.
âIâm making sure Javi has the same stats as us.â Cate argues.Â
âNot talking to either of you. Iâm talking to little miss lovestruck in the back.âÂ
âHey!â You snap, immediately closing your phone. âMind your business Tyler.â
âYouâre in my truck. My truck is my business and everyone in the truck is my business.â He snaps back, shrugging his shoulders. âAnd besides, the more you let those fools win the more you lose.â
âHow do you even know I was texting a guy?âÂ
âBecause Sugar, I know you.â He snaps, casting you a quick look from his spot at the wheel before turning back to the road.Â
âI think if you focused less on me then you would be able to drive better.âÂ
âI think if you focused less on the boys in your phone you wouldnât be bitchinâ and moaninâ at me all the time!â He snaps back making you gasp as Cate and Boone switch their attention back and forth between you both.Â
âShould we be worried?â Cate blurts, landing her gaze on you with her eyebrows pinched together in worry.Â
âNot unless Tyler canât learn to mind his own damn business!âÂ
âIâll mind my business when you stop makinâ it my business!âÂ
âFINE!â
âFINE!â
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âA boy who's jacked and kind
Can't find his ass to save my lifeâ
-
The bar that sat 3 blocks away from the current hotel the team was staying at could only be described as a dingy cowboy bar, and considering you were mad at a certain cowboy this was the perfect place. Surrounded by dozens of cowboy hats, none of them belonging to âMr. Canât Mind His Own Businessâ.Â
He currently stood at the other end of the bar, closer to the live band as the dance floor began to fill with line dancers. Even that far away he was still being a pain in your ass with the way he glared across the floor every time you looked over.Â
âYou two donât fight a lot. This is weird for you.â Cate chuckles, spinning her bottle of beer on the counter sat in front of you both, hearing the glass ring on the wood of the counter. âIt sends the entire vibe of the group off.â
âItâs his fault.â You huff, scratching at the label of your own bottle as you avoided looking in his direction again. âI honestly donât know where his freakout came from.â
âYou donât?âÂ
âNo!â You huff, slapping your hands on the counter. âWe were fine yesterday, I told him about that date with the aviator-â
âOh that Jake guy. He was kind of cute.â
âThank you. Anyways-â You take a quick inhale of air before looking at her. âWe were fine and then today he was fine when he came to help me out of the bathroom but the second the door to the bathroom opened he got pissy.â
âDo you know why?â
âNo, I assumed he had been getting hounded by everyone all day. He must have been stressed.âÂ
âHmm.â She hums out, taking a look around the bar as you sit and mope. âIâm sure you both will get over it soon enough.â
âSlim chance. I am gonna ignore him forever now.â Itâs obviously just you being over dramatic but you were angry and embarrassed that he would call you out like that in front of the group. âBesides, if he didnât want me talking to him about all that boy stuff he should have just told me. I don't know where his boundaries lie unless he sets them.â
âDamn, thatâs deep.â She nods before tilting her head. âThey should have put you on the shirt.â
âThatâs what I said.âÂ
âAnd yet they-â
âExcuse me for interrupting ladiesâŠâ A new voice joins the group, making you both turn to the figure. A tall man with bruises along his jaw and a scratch right above his eyebrow. A black cowboy hat paired with a black shirt. A fine specimen if you could say so. âI just saw the most beautiful woman Iâve ever seen in my life and I had to come say hello.â
âWell would you be pickinâ here?â Cate smiles.Â
âThere is no wrong answer.â You hum out, tilting your head like a cat assessing prey.Â
âThen can I say both?âÂ
âOh, look at that. Even with a map leading to the answer he still managed to mess it up.â You snipe, giving Cate a knowing look as you both grab at your bottles of beer and move to make your exit.Â
âWait wait.â He reaches a hand in front of you to try and stop you from passing. âNot a great start. I know that. So let me just start over, yeah?â
âOh⊠I didnât realize I did do overs.âÂ
âThen what can I do to be granted one?â
âIs there a problem here?â Leave it to Tyler Owens to enter this scene, giving his best glare as he inserts himself between you both with his back to you so he can glare down the cowboy.
âThere is no problem here.â The cowboy smirks, and you are shocked to see just how brave he was. Then it clicks, the bruises and the hat. This was a bull rider. âYou got a problem, bud?â
âOh yeah I have-â
âLETâS DANCE!â You interrupt, sending a glare to Tyler before pulling the bullrider to the floor as Tyler rolls his eyes.Â
Before you can make it too far his hand reaches out to grab your elbow with a knowing look, and even when he is mad he still holds your arm with a gentle ease and traces the skin with his thumb. âThis isnât a good idea.âÂ
âWell thatâs interestingâŠ. Cause itâs MY business!â You scoff, pushing his arm back and moving to the dance floor with the stranger.Â
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âOh, it's slim pickings
If I can't have the one I love
I guess it's you that I'll be kissin'â
-
It was only fair, since there werenât many options of men you would just lower your standards and have fun with this idiot for the night.Â
He had two left feet, and was pressed against you the entire time but not in a hot way, more so a sweaty mess kinda way. And you would have abandoned him already but every time you looked for an escape you saw Tyler and his glare, there was too much at stake here. You could never admit Tyler was right. In YOUR business.Â
So you ignored him and turned back to the stranger, just in time for this waste of space to press his lips to yours. It was awkward, the way your noses pressed together and how hard he smashed his lips to yours. There was no rhythm, no preparation or molding together. It was just his lips devouring your face as you tried to lean back. But the further you tried to get away the more he leaned with you.Â
When he pulls back he keeps his hands on you with a sharp smile. âWanna go back to your place?â
There wasnât many options, and the one option you truly wanted would never happen let alone the fact that you were fighting with him so you would make do with what you had. âSure, letâs go.â
-
âJust to get my fixings
Since the good ones are deceased or taken
I'll just keep on moanin' and bitchin'â
-
Telling Cate that you were heading out with him was easy, she made you promise to update her that you were okay, which was easy to do. You managed to avoid any conversation about Tyler in his truck, which was hard because Mr. Bull Rider was dead set on asking about him.Â
âWhat was that guy with white hats problem?â He asked, and you changed the conversation to the music he was playing. Then he tried the âYou guys ever date or somethinâ?âÂ
That one was harder to change since your throat got clogged up thinking of the answer. Itâs not like you never wanted to date Tyler, in fact he was all you dreamed of. But it wasnât meant to happen. Tyler wasnât yours.Â
So you simply started giving him directions to the motel like he hadnât asked. And by the time you made it to the destination you had hoped that the conversation had passed as you unlocked the door.Â
âThis is it. Home sweet homeâŠ.. For a little.â You smile, allowing him to look around while you take your shoes off.Â
âSo you live in a motel?âÂ
âWhen itâs tornado season, yes. We travel around but when he find a specific spot we try to stay.â
âYou follow tornadoes?â
âYes, and we chase them. And if there is destruction we try to help out the communities.â You explain, picking up the tornado shirt with Tylers face on it so you can show him then debate it at the last second you drop it down. âItâs fun.â
âIâll bet.â He nods before allowing himself to sit on your bed. âWe doing this?â
âOh. Straight to the business.â You mumble, a little shocked as he begins unbuttoning the black top.Â
âSorry, did you want to talk or something?âÂ
âWell no- I just-â You couldnât tell if you were thankful that the door opened in that second or absolutely furious as Tyler appeared with that fake innocent smile.Â
âHey Sugar,â He starts, letting himself in fully and shutting the door. âI just wanted to come make sure that bathroom door was all taken care of for yaâ.âÂ
âTyler, is now the time?â
âOh, please. Itâll only take a minute.â He chuckles, walking past you both to get to the door. âWouldnât want you getting stuck in there again.â
âTyler, what on eart-â
âHey man, we were kinda in the middle of something here.â Stranger boy snaps out, scooting so he was right on the edge of the bed, his face pinched between confusion and anger.Â
âHey, safety first.â Tyler laughs, the sound fake and bitter as he leans down to check the hinges of the door while you just blink in shock. âAh I see the problem here.â
âTyler.â You hiss.Â
âJust give me a moment.â He murmurs, working on the hinge of the door while you glare. âJust a minuteâŠâŠâ
âDude.â Stranger boy sighs and you are wound between shock, anger and embarrassment.Â
âI canât believe this is happening,.â
âThere she is. Good as new.â Tyler smiles, standing to swing the door. âLook at that. Bet youâre glad I did it.â
âTyler. Out.â You snap, moving forward to grab parts of his shirt to drag him out the door and slam it on him. âNow where were we?â
But itâs no use, since the door reopens with Tyler giving yet another innocent look. âOh, sorry to interrupt. I forgot my screwdriver here.âÂ
âTyler, grab it and then leave. And leave the key.â The fact that you were even in this moment was so bizarre.Â
âActually, I think Iâm gonna get going⊠but let me write my information for when you get rid of dumbass barbie over here.â Stranger cowboy mutter, grabbing the pad of paper from the desk and writing his stuff down before moving forward to attempt to kiss you but Tyler is there, patting him on the back aggressively with a slight shove.Â
âSorry to see you go bud.â He smiles, a tense and angry smile before throwing an arm around your shoulder. âBut weâll be fine here.â
And you watch the bullrider leave, the door shutting before you whirl on him.Â
-
âJesus, what's a girl to do?
This boy doesn't even know
The difference between "there," "their" and "they are".â
-
âI can murder you.â You seethe, shoving his arm off of you and taking a couple steps away from him. âMatter of fact, whatâs stopping me from doing so?â
âI just figured you might want help with the door-â
âEnough with the bullshit Tyler Owens!â You yell, whirling on him with your hands on your hips and a heavy glare. âWhat on earth were you thinking? After your fit today and that scene Iâm starting to think you have lost your damn mind!â
âHang on now-â
âAnd what on earth-â You take a moment to snatch up the pillow from the motel bed to swing it at him. âWOULD MAKE YOU INTERUPT-â
âHE WAS TERRIBLE!â
âIT DOESNâT MATTER!â You yell. âLook around for a second Owens! There arenât many options. The ones that are worth it are already taken, the one that I want would never go for me. I donât have many options!â
âAND WHEN AM I GONNA BE AN OPTION?!â He yells out, grabbing your wrists before you can hit him with the pillow again. âWhen do I get the chance to prove myself?â
âOh stop.â You snap, moving to walk away. âDonât mess with me about this.â
âWhy would I be messing with you? Is it so hard to believe that I want you?â He follows, making sure to keep a hand on you. âTime and time again you rant to me about these men, how they suck and you hate them. And I keep waiting for you to notice me, to give me a chance. Cate tells me that you might just be nervous, or that our time will come but Sugar I donât think I can survive this much longer.â
âWhat do you mean?â Your tone is gentle and youâve given up walking away, choosing to turn to him and allow him a chance to talk. Your heart was thumping through your chest and you were struggling to catch your breath.Â
âSweetheart, from the moment I met you Iâve been stuck. Cominâ in with all that attitude like you owned the world, which if you ask me you do, and you didnât hesitate to put me in my place.â He continues, moving closer to set his hands on your hips. âAnd I just kept begging the winds to give me a chance. To give me a single shot with you.â
âThen why wouldnât you say anything?â
âWhy would you give me a chance?â He laughs, pulling you in. âBut I need one now. Iâm begging you for a chance here.â
And though no words are spoken you both know the answer, especially when you pull him in with your hands on the back of his neck to attach your lips to his. And unlike the kiss in the bar this one felt perfect.Â
There was awkwardness. He tilted his head perfectly, pulling you chest to chest as his hat covers both your heads while his lips melt against yours. He takes his time learning the kiss, his hands rubbing up and down your back as you deepen the kiss some more. This is what was meant to be and you both knew it at that moment.Â
There is no objection when you begin unbuttoning his flannel, one at a time, never breaking the kiss as you push it off his shoulders and allowing it to fall to the floor before he reaches a hand up to throw the hat closer to the nightstand. He doesnât waste time after he hears the thump of it landing to reach and lift his undershirt off, throwing it somewhere else as he makes eye contact.Â
âPlease tell me I ainât dreaminâ right now.â He whispers out as you begin to undo your own shirt to slip off before leaning up.Â
âI canât tell.â You whisper back, leaning on your tiptoes to attach your lips once more, his arms wrapping around you to undo the back of your bra.Â
Normally when a man removes the bra it is thrown away and he doesnât focus too much on any of it, but Tyler? He kisses around your jaw as he undoes the buckle of it before his kisses move down your neck while he drags the bra down until he can drop it, allowing his hands to roam. The feel of his hands sends shivers throughout you and yet they keep you warm as you try to back him to the bed.Â
âYou sure?â
âNever been more sure.â You whisper back, undoing his belt as he kicks off his boots. âI want you.â
âIâve been waiting to hear those words from you.â He grunts out, pulling you closer before falling back onto the bed and dragging you with him.Â
-
âYet he's naked in my room
Missin' all the things he's missin'
God knows that he isn't livin' largeâ
-
It doesnât take long for you both to strip, slowly and gently, until you are both bare. He doesnât waste time kissing you gently before guiding you up the bed until youâre leaning on the pillow you hadnât dragged away, kissing along jaw as you sigh out in relief.Â
He takes his time kissing down your neck, nipping a bit to pull out a breathy moan from your lips before moving further down to kiss and suck at your breasts. He grunts out at the way you wiggle, a breathy giggle passing your lips until a moan passes them the moment his tongue circles one of your nipples. The sound draws his eyes to yours and that sweet lovestruck look falls into one of ferocity, the heated light within them as your lower stomach tightening and your hands rushing to get some contact.Â
Once your hands find purchase he abandons your breasts, leaving them cold to the air, as he makes his way further down. Every kiss is followed by a lick, every nip is given a bushel of kisses to make up for it. He works your body until he makes it to your thighs, spreading them open for him to view, sending a shiver across your body.Â
âTyler, please.â You gasp out, that tight feeling in your stomach begging for relief as your thighs beg to shut, but he is having none of it. Keeping them forced open so that he may give your inner thighs the same treatment he had given the rest of your body.Â
He gives up his torture with a growl before diving straight in to lick right between your folds. He keeps his hands around your hips to keep you pinned to him when your back arches as you moan out loud. He devours you, licking and sucking over and over with grunts and growls to match your moans.Â
He doesnât relent until your moan hits near scream and your hands grip at the pillow, dragging it to your face to bite into as you reach your peak, entire body shuddering as you moan out.Â
He continues until you come down, pulling away to give you the smuggest smile you had ever seen from him, your entire body ablaze as you sit up to reach for him.Â
The other kisses were sweet and gentle, this one was two animals claiming each other. And he let you take charge, your speed and your lead. Tasting your own juices as you dragged him back down to lay over you.Â
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âA boy who's nice that breathes
I swear he's nowhere to be seenâ
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Heâs quick to flip you both over so that heâs beneath you and you are on top, a wave of panic filling you.Â
âTylerâŠ.Iâve never-â You begin, hands landing on his chest as he gazes up at you with the softest eyes you have ever seen from him.Â
âIf you donât want to then thatâs fine, Sweetheart.â He mutters, reaching over to grab where his hat landed and bringing it to set on your head. âBut you might just need a little confidence.âÂ
And he was right, with the way he was looking at you and the way the hat felt, suddenly you believed you could rule the world. So you lifted yourself a bit, keeping the gaze as you reached down to line yourself up to him, and with a loud moan you sunk yourself down.Â
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âIt's slim pickings
If I can't have the one I love
I guess it's you that I'll be kissin'â
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His grunts were easily replaced by moans as you sunk down, his hands digging into your hips, letting you take a moment to adjust before guiding your hips slowly. You tilt your hips with each guide, struggling to catch the proper rhythm and getting pleasure nonetheless.Â
A moan escapes you as he guides you down at the same time he thrusts up and itâs like something clicks as you begin to find your own rhythm. Using your hands on his chest to keep yourself stable as you begin to speed up your movements.Â
Tyler gives in, enjoying your new pace, thrusting up into every bounce. Grunting and growling as his nails dig into your hips and he closes his eyes to enjoy the pleasure while you lean down to nip at his chest which makes him groan. âDarlinâ...â
And that makes something inside of you burn, a feral moan passing your lips as you speed up, nails digging into his chest before he sits up to kiss you, helping you bounce on his cock with ease.Â
âY-youâreâŠâ He groans. âFuckinâ perfect.â
His arms wrap around you, and he readjusts so that he was on his knees to thrust into you, pulling you down to meet him. The sound of skin slapping is alluring and your thighs clench to cage him in as you lose your breath and shut your eyes.Â
âTyler.â You whine, nails digging into his back as something in you begins coiling, tighter and tighter until he bites down between your neck and shoulder and it all falls in an instant. All you can see is white as you bite down on your own lip, holding him tight to you as the waves of pleasure subside.Â
He continues to thrust before falling under the same spell that had you, keeping his forehead pressed into your collarbone as he spills his cum into you.Â
You both fall into the cushion of the bed, shuddering as he pulls out before closing your eyes to catch your breath from that experience. And when he wraps his arms around you itâs far too easy to fall asleep from his warmth surrounding you like a blanket of itâs own.
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âJust to get my fixings
Since the good ones are deceased or taken
I'll just keep on moanin' and bitchin'â
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Itâs the feeling of him moving that wakes you a couple hours later, when the bed dips as he stands, making you blink in the dark to see what he is doing. Apart of you panics that he might be leaving, and this was just going to be a one night stand until he pulls on his boxers and turns back to come lift you.Â
âWhy are we awake?â You croak, already feeling cranky at the fact that you had been woken up.Â
âI figured youâd want to shower, and this is when I normally do.â
âYou shower at 4am?â You scoff, clinging to him as he sets you down so your feet touch the cold bathroom floor.Â
âYeah. I figured out that no one else showers at this time-â
âBecause itâs crazy.â
âWell since no one else showers at this time the water is always at its best pressure and warmth.â He explains, reaching in to turn it on. âThen I can get another hour or so of sleep.â
âOddly genius.â You giggle, laughing when he shucks the boxers off as a pretend strip tease before hauling you into the shower with him.Â
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âMoanin' and bitchin'â
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He takes his time washing your body, lathering the soap over your body with gentle hands as his eyes traced over you over and over again like he was trying to memorize every inch of you.Â
He let you do the same, the only words spoken never went above a whisper so you didnât break the bubble and shampooed eachother before shutting the water off and using the towel.Â
When he swings the door open he makes sure to raise his eyebrows, a look of pride covering his face that makes you scoff.Â
âYou cannot be serious.â
âI wonder what hot scoundrel fixed that for youâŠâ
âHmmm. I wish I knew.â You tease, âI might have rewarded him.â
A small growl leaves his lips as he scoops you up and hauls you to the bed once more.Â
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âSince the good ones call their exes wasted
And since the Lord forgot my gay awakenin'
Then I'll just be here in the kitchen
Servin' up some moanin' and bitchin'â
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You sit on the motel floor as Tyler works around you to get ready for the day, listening to you bitch and moan as he struggles to put his boots on.Â
âIâm so sore.â You whine, falling flat on the floor to stare at the ceiling. âYeah? At least you never have to worry about dying alone.â
âNo,â You huff out a laugh. âNow I just have to worry about you killing me.âÂ
âNever.â He smiles, coming to haul you off the floor just to throw you over his shoulder and head for the door.
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Tall blonde and evil! | Katsuki Bakugo x f!reader
chapter 4; what am i paying you for? â
today was friday, ugh honestly if you lost your job youâd cry. but you wouldnât dwell on it because at least youâd be free from the clutches of the evil blonde man. You wouldnât bring it up though because if bakugou does forget about firing you, you wouldnât be opposed to staying his manager, he may be a total and complete bitch but he was rich and paid his managers and people who worked for him very well which is something you can respect, today you and him were going to head out so he can get some shots for the banners and posters for 2024 hottest man award, it was a big deal for models, actors and artists where the fans would vote who was the most attractive man in the industryâs. Not shockingly that bakugou got nominated. I mean he was super attractive but youâll never admit that if anything thatâll be taken to the grave with you, because one you have to keep it professional and two itâll inflate that huge ego of his. You rush to finish getting ready. You have to look professional and good because youâd hate to be labeled as âbakugou ugly managerâ . You'd jump off a cliff literally if you were publicly humiliated. The chauffeur picked you up and had coffee waiting for you, he said it was from bakugou âweirdâ you murmured as you sat in the back sit sipping on your iced coffee window watching till you get a âdingâ from your phone
The car ride was filled with small bickering and bakugou shaming you for drinking something with so many calories âiâll put 10 pounds of sugar in your americano bakugou i bet youâd love it.â you say rolling your eyes âas fucking if. The only time I'll have anything with sugar is an actual dessert NOT A BEVERAGEâ he says scooting closer to his side not wanting to be next to you, you guys make it to the shoot and itâs your first official time seeing bakugou at work and in his zone. It was kinda mesmerizing seeing someone being able to pose and look picture perfect with such easy, so much so the shoot was done and over with pretty fast as you wait there by the door while bakugou signs some of the workers posters of his face, you rolling your eyes at the sight of this stupid scene. He walks up to you âjealous much? Do you want a signed autograph too?â he says smirking âno iâm just shocked how those girls fawn over you when you're such a pain in the ass bakugou.â you say laughing leaving the building to head to the car and bakugou follows behind you on his phone not wanting to interact which you couldnât care less about, the ride to his house was silent you were tired and so was he, he thanked the chauffeur as he left and rolled his eyes at you as he turned around to walk into his huge house he threw his hand in the air as a measly goodbye. You scoff at the lack of manners he had for you, âfucking blonde cuntâ you said under your breath.
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Could you ever so kind and provide some general dating Headcannons for all the four boys?? đ„șđđ
Maybe some extra with red leader or someone else if youâre fine with that??? đ„șđ
Mwah mwah you have amazing work <3 /p
Oh my gods I am SO sorry that this is so late!! For some reason, Mr. Tumblr decided not to notify me about your ask?? And then I was at my bestie's house this weekend, so I haven't checked my inbox until now. Begging for your forgiveness rn Anon!!
Also literally kissing you for asking for Red Leader!! Mwah, mwah!!
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Edd
If you are dating Edd... girlie I am so sorry for your sanity.
Don't get me wrong, I love Edd! He was my first Eddsworld love, my pookie bear for real! But he's the biggest bastard of the entire gang and I stand by that.
Calls you dumb pet names to try and make you laugh. Sugar Tits (regardless of gender or lack thereof, might I add), Baby Doll, Sexy.
He WILL grab/slap your ass all the time. Even in public. Only grins when you glare at him.
This man is a horrible influence. It will be so hard to get your shit done if he has decided that you need to be spending time with him. Why worry about work or chores when you could be all cuddled up with him and Ringo on the couch?
Will sulk if you reject his attempts.
If he's trying to get shit done and you're pestering him for attention? He will drop his basket of laundry or the dishes in his hands in a millisecond.
If he's working on a commission or animation, he'll let you sit in his lap in his chair, let you sit all pretty for him while he works. When he finishes, if you've fallen asleep by then -which you usually do - then he'll carefully move you both to his bed and snuggle up to you and take a nap with you.
Speaking of cuddling, he does naturally run hot. Comes with being a big boy <3 But if you don't enjoy that, then he'll use his powers to cool down his skin for you. Anything to keep cuddling!
He also uses his powers whenever possible. Will abuse them without shame. He puts things on the highest shelf, just so you have to him for help. He'll put patches of ice on the floor under your feet, just so he can catch you before you fall (he'll never let you actually get hurt), and uses his super strength to scoop you up randomly and carry you around.
You cannot show your text messages to ANYONE. He will say filthy things, just to fluster you. Horny Bastard. Finds ways to turn even the most mundane conversations into teasing.
He'd do cute couple things with you, like painting together and swapping canvases every 5 minutes. His favorite is going to cat cafes. The cats literally love him, its like he's made of catnip with how they swarm him.
Physical affection is a huge thing with him. Even little touches throughout the day, like ruffling your hair as he passes by, or a big hug from behind while you fix food.
Overall, big teddy bear that just likes to see his darling blush.
Tom
As I've stated in previous works, Tom is a secret romantic.
He's not a traditional romantic like Matt, but he's romantic in his own way.
Likes parallel play a lot. Finds it relaxing to just sit in his room, testing new songs on his bass while you lay on his bed reading a book. Or in your room, lounging on one of your plush beanbag and organizing his Spotify playlists while you fold your laundry.
Dates with him consist of record stores, concerts, and late night walks.
He'll sing for you if you ask him to.
Very down to earth, both as a person and as a boyfriend. If you have problems, he'll listen patiently until you're done, then help you brainstorm solutions. He doesn't downplay or ignore your feelings, but he doesn't jump to emotions like others might.
He tends to sleep in late on his nights off, since he's more of a night owl than anything. You know that, so you've made it a little tradition to fix him coffee around 11. You know exactly how he takes it, and he always thanks you with a kiss on the cheek and a sleepy, mumbled "you're the best."
Very caring. He'll make sure you've eaten and had water. Will usher you to bed if he can see that you're tired, or do your chores for you if you can't do them for whatever reason. If you can't sleep, he'll make you a mug of chamomile tea and sing you a little lullaby.
When it comes to his monster tendencies, he tries to keep you away from it all. He's bitter about what he is, and he thinks that you're better off separated from that side of him.
At the start of relationship, he'd get angry if you tried to push it. He'd snap at you, distance himself, not talk to you for maybe a couple of days. Further on in the relationship, though, if you push the issue and reassure him that you love every side of him, even the monstrous one, then he'd be more willing. Willing to let you in, to let you see that part of him. He'd be nervous about it, but he'd do it because he loves you.
Matt
He is a traditional romantic! His Mama raised him right, and he drinks his Respect Juice.
Makes sure you two have date night at least once every week. Dressing up nice, going out to dinner or a play, taking a walk through the town to wind down the night. Heading back into the house, changing back into comfortable clothes. He'd wipe your makeup off for you, if you wear it.
Absolutely the kind of guy to get down on his knees in front of you and unbuckle/untie your shoes or high heels for you. He's just so devotional.
If, for whatever reason, you guys are unable to have your date night, he'll make it up to you in some way. A bouquet of your favorite flowers sitting on your bed with a little note. A passionate kiss before one of you has to leave the house. A heartfelt love letter sealed with wax.
Makes sure to text you throughout the day with sweet messages. Compliments, "I love you"s, selfies, updates on what is happening at work. Or just reminders that he's thinking of you. Misses you.
Likes to cook meals for you if its just the two of you at home. Breakfast is his forte, but he's not the worst at following a recipe.
Always amazing for advice. He'll let you talk to him while he hugs you from behind. If it's something sad, he might cry. Just the idea of you going through something negative makes him sad, too.
If he doesn't have advice for you, he'd do anything in his power to find someone who does. One of the other roommates, or even his mother, if you're comfortable with it.
Speaking of his mother, she absolutely adores you. Since Matt has such a good relationship with her, he's already told her so much about you. She thinks its wonderful that her baby has fallen in love. After a while, Matt will even bring you along to his lunches with his mother. You two hit it off instantly.
If you're okay with it, then Matt would love to show you off on his social media. He thinks you're so gorgeous, the entire world should know that he managed to land you. Its never anything invasive, and he always gets your permission before he posts things. Blocks any weird or gross comments.
Loves going on shopping dates with you. Most of the time, its at the mall or a mall in a different town, because he loves walking around and window shopping. Occasionally, he'll take you to more expensive stores. It doesn't bother him, he loves spoiling you. No matter where you two are, he'll buy you anything that you want. If you are adamant to spend your own money, he won't put up too much of a fuss, though he does prefer to pay for you.
He'll do that couples trend with you where you find nail polish that matches the other's eye color.
Gift giving is just one of his love languages in general. It makes him so happy to give his loved one things that he bought. For you specifically, he'll also throw in hand made gifts. He may not be the most talented artistically, but he'll stay awake late into the night, sitting on the floor with a YouTube tutorial playing, paper and cardboard scattered around, a pencil between his teeth, paint on his hands and smeared on his cheek. The end result may look a little crude, but he'll still present it to you with pride. And, of course, you always love it.
Tord
Tord is probably the most romantically stunted of the four. Its not that he doesn't love you, far from it really. He just grew up in an environment where love wasn't freely given, and was often limited for appearances.
His father, as the Red Leader, insisted that he keep a professional and feared image. So, Tord never saw him being affectionate with his mother.
It might be hard at first. You'll struggle. You two may fight. But you'll always make up in the end. He'll listen to you, try to understand your point of view.
He's not against physical affection, but he's able to live without it. Will indulge you whenever you ask. If he's busy, which he usually is, he'll let you drape yourself over him from behind while he sits in his chair, letting you rest your cheek on the top of his head and watch him work.
More than anything, his love language is words of affirmation. Despite being a man of few words, he'll always give you praise. He'll make sure you know that you are his, he is yours, and he loves you. Nothing will change that.
Scary dog privilege. He'll always walk just behind you in public, keeping a guiding hand on the small of your back. Stays alert of you surroundings and the people around, so that you don't have to. You don't even have to worry about people approaching you in public. One piercing glare from Tord is enough to deter anyone.
Not the best at giving advice to problems. He'll listen, but sometimes he can't quite understand why something is an issue. Doesn't invalidate your feelings on purpose, it just happens inadvertently at times. Always, ALWAYS apologizes and holds you close when he realizes what he did.
His preferred dates are nights in at home. Cuddled up on the couch with takeout watching shitty rom-coms. Cooking food that he ate growing up in Norway while you sit at the kitchen table watching. Going to the convenience store at midnight to get Ben and Jerry's in the middle of anime binges.
You become his crutch. When he's having bad paranoia on nights that are too quiet, he'll seek you out. Just having you lay in bed with him, warm and solid and breathing, always calms him down.
He will never let you meet his parents. You are one of the very few good things in his life, and he wants to keep that away from his fucked up home life. Might let you meet his little sister, but not for a long time.
Surprisingly, he does tend to talk more when its just the two of you. He allows you into his head, verbalizing his thoughts to you. He'll ramble about his projects, tell you about the history behind his culture, or rant about things that annoy him. Denies it vehemently in front of others.
He is a huge tease, second only to Edd. What's dangerous is how casual he is about it. Loves making you squirm, and he'll never even change his expression. Sometimes he won't even be looking at you, but rest assured that he is swimming in satisfaction over how flustered you are.
Red Leader
I have so many thoughts about him. Oh my lord.
This is going off the scenario where Reader is a Red Army soldier and met him through the army, after the events of The End.
I want to clarify that this is NOT following the events of TBATF!!! This is my own Red Army timeline, what I refer to in my Eddsworld bubble as "The Bad End"
There are two ways that you'd be able to catch Red Leader's attention. Either you are an extremely talented soldier that does well among your peers, enough to earn the praise of your superior officers and eventually Red Leader himself. Or, you were assigned as his personal assistant to help with paperwork and meetings, but you were so good at handling his temper and attitude that he found himself surprised.
The latter of the two is my favorite, so I'll be working under that one.
Before you, Red Leader had been through several assistants. None of them lasted more than a month. By nature, he was a moody, temperamental man. The stress of the army and oncoming war only made that worse. He saw those previous assistants as nuisances, only getting in his way. He would yell at them, berate them, drive them to the brink until they beg Paul and Pat to transfer them.
When they assigned you to him, they expected the same thing to happen. The two even made bets on how long you'd last. On your first day, Red Leader was nasty to you. Gruff and rude. But... you bit back. That took him by surprise. Instead of taking the insult and shuffling out like a puppy with its tail between its legs, you pursed your lips and gave him a stern look and talked to him in a way that nobody dared to. He should've been angry. Should have screamed at you, discharged you from the army in a heartbeat.
Instead, he found that he quite enjoyed it. He enjoyed your spitfire. Not that he'd let you know. He only gave you a noncommittal hum and dismissed you with a wave of his hand. But... he kept you around. Even found excuses for you to come into his office more than necessary. His penchant for teasing came back full force. He'd poke and prod, finding ways to make you react with that fire he so loved.
It takes a long time for him to finally make a move. Probably takes a near-death experience for him, or an injury to you for him to realize that he wants this. He wants a future with you.
At first, he may seem a little cold in public. Not to the degree that his father was - he promised himself that he would never be like his father. Simply a more... professional air about the entire thing. It was more out of anxiety than anything. He didn't want to make you a target, didn't want to cause you to get hurt. As his army grows more powerful and takes over more and more countries, he grows more comfortable with PDA. He knows that when he is the most powerful man in the world, he doesn't have to worry about anyone hurting you.
He would probably treat you more like a spouse than a girlfriend/boyfriend right off the bat. He's older now, thinking more about the future than the present. He already knows that he wants to be with you forever, so why go through the formalities and hassle of dating?
Always makes time for you whenever he can. If he's in a meeting with his generals or another world leader, he'll sneak text messages to you. Doesn't give a shit if he's caught. What are they going to do to him, Red Leader?
If he's cooped up in his office all day, his door is always open to you. Loves having you drop by unannounced to bring him food or coffee. He'll let you climb into his lap while he works, or sit behind him in his chair and cling to him. Even if you're just sitting in a separate chair nearby, working on your own stuff. He's happy.
If you want to continue being a soldier, or his assistant, he'll let you. But he's also perfectly happy to have you simply be his partner and not have a care in the world. You could sit all pretty in his quarters waiting for him to get off duty, or use the time to pursue your own hobbies and interests. As long as you're happy and cared for, it's okay with him.
Spoils you rotten. You're Red Leader's, so of course you only deserve the best things. Anything in the world you want, you only have to ask for it. It's yours. He would raze entire cities just to see you smile.
He does enjoy taking you out on dates. While also spending time with you, he sees it as a way to show you off to the world. Dressing you up in the finest clothes that he got you, the prettiest jewelry that he bought. Taking you to restaurants and operas where everyone can see you hanging on his arm. It makes him puff up with pride.
When the two of you are alone, he's so adoring. Loves snuggling. It's a struggle to convince him to let you out of bed in the mornings, he'll just be clinging to you. If you do somehow manage to escape his grasp, he'll catch you around the waist and drag you back to bed. Won't stop until Paul or Pat message him to get his ass out of bed. He always grumbles about how "it's my damn army, I should get to sleep in as long as I want".
Sometimes, at night, he has pains in his right shoulder, the side where he's burned and amputated. It can range from a dull ache to excruciating pain. On nights that it hurts too much to move, you'll scramble out of bed and get his medication from his nightstand, gently coaxing him to take it. You'll hold him and comfort him until the pain subsides and he falls back asleep.
He doesn't like to talk about it, really. It feels weird, letting anyone see this part of his life. Letting you see his vulnerability. Letting you see him.
But he does.
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âđ Can I Get Your Number? âđ Ch 12
Jason Todd x (f)Chubby!Reader
written with a female reader in mind, first person pov, no use of Y/N, will probably get NSFW later, let me know if there's anything else I should tag this with!
warnings/labels:Â a tragic but necessary lack of Jason in this chapter, reader's friend calls her a bitch (affectionately), talks about insecurities wc: 2k
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âBitch, get out here already!â Stella called from her perch on my couch.
I chuckled softly, slowly entering the living room. It felt so strange to have such a fancy gown on in my dinky little apartment, but Stella had pulled the best friend card, so of course I had to show it to her! I did a little spin so she could see the full effect.
She gasped softly, covering her mouth with one hand. âOh my fucking godâŠâ
â... What?â
âGod, you look like a princess!â She squealed before pouting a bit. âIt's downright criminal that you're not even going to ask them about letting me tag along! I want the princess treatment too!â
I chuckled, smoothing out the skirt. âI'm not going to ask favors of people I barely know, Stell!â
âSo ask your boyfriend, you know him!â
âNext time. I don't want it to look like I'm using him for his family connections, or his money.â
She sighed; âI guess you have a point ⊠hey, he's got brothers, any of them single? Maybe I could swing my own invite to this thing!â
â... You know what, I don't know if Dick is single or not. ⊠Tim's got a boyfriend, so the only definitely single one is the fourteen years old.â
She sighed, throwing herself back on the armrest. âLame⊠well, at least let me live vicariously through you; what are you gonna wear with it?â
â... Elaborate?â
She raised an eyebrow; âjewelry, shoes? Oh! Let me do your hair and makeup, pleeeaaaase let me do your hair and makeup for the gala!â
â... Jewelry; I don't know. Shoes; these black heels Stephanie helped me find - she said they're the most comfortable heels she's ever worn, I just have to wear them for a few hours at a time the week before. Hair and makeup; yes, you can be in charge.â
Stella beamed, clapping excitedly. âOk! Go get changed, we're going shopping!â
âWe- ⊠I literally just put this on, now you want it off???â
âWe have to get you some jewelry to go with your dress!â She grinned, shoving me toward the bedroom. âUnless you think he's going to get you something special? Should we leave your options open?â
âOh god, he better not⊠Nah, he wouldn't. The only reason I let him buy the dress was because I couldn't afford to do it myself, he knows that.â
â... Girl, you are the only person I know who could be handed a golden opportunity to be a sugar baby and wouldn't take it. What is wrong with you? Do you like the diner that much?â
She helped me out of the dress, hanging it back up and zipping the garment bag around it while I found some casual clothes to wear. âNot particularly, but I do like my independence. I do like knowing that if something went wrong I would still be able to take care of myself. And I definitely like knowing that I'm not relying on a man I've known for less than a year to pay my rent.â
She rolled her eyes at me. âOk, but ⊠what if you guys got married? Would you let him pay the rent then?â
âIn that highly unlikely scenario? Sure, why not?â We kicked our shoes on and headed down toward the bus stop.
âWhat do you mean âunlikelyâ?â
â... He's who he is, and I'm who I am. ⊠I love him, Stella. I think I probably would marry him if he asked, but honestly, ⊠sometimes I still wonder when the other shoe is going to drop. I mean, come on; he is so hot-â
She groaned her approval; âindeed~â
â-and sweet, and clever, I just ⊠what on earth does he see in me??â I sighed softly, fidgeting with the strap of my purse.
âUm, hello? Beautiful, smart, kind, generous, creative; gee, I wonder what he could possibly like about you!â She smacked the back of my head gently; âdo I need to shout your many excellent qualities to the whole street? Cause I fucking will!â
I snickered, shoving her off of me. âOk, ok! Yes, I have many good qualities. But still, we don't exactly make sense together; he's a Wayne, he could have anything and anyone he wants, and I'm-â
âWhat he wants.â
â-broke, the fact that we met at all makes no sense.â
âYes, thank god for the weird pushy brothers, we must remember to include them in our prayers.â She rolled her eyes affectionately as the bus pulled up and we got on.
âHe is built like Hercules-â
âAnd you're built like Aphrodite - thick thighs, soft squeezable curves, excellent tits.â
I snorted; âyou show me the Aphrodite statue with a tummy like this, please. Stella, be real. I know I'm pretty - I'm not questioning that. I know Jason doesn't think there's anything wrong with my body, and I don't dislike my body myself. It's just ⊠I also know what the women who are typically at these events look like. I've heard the comments my whole life, I know what people think of bigger girls, and ⊠at a certain point it gets disheartening ⊠I don't want to look out of place next to him.â
She pinched my cheeks between her hands, staring into my eyes. âNow you listen here; you are not allowed to be this defeatist about my best friend and her hunky boyfriend's future. Got that? Yeah, you're in totally different tax brackets, now. But you can't forget, he's the Wayne boy that got lifted out of Crime Alley. He didn't look like he belonged there at first either. Hell, maybe that's one of the things he likes about you; you're kind, and practical, and you don't care about his status.
At this point he's probably used to girls tripping over themselves to say, be, and do whatever he wants because he's a Wayne, not because they like him. We have established that this is not some convoluted college boy prank. He likes you. He's been devoted to you for months; I know because I have barely seen you - youâre always together. He wants to show you off in front of all those one-percenters at that gala. You are what he wants. Sit back and enjoy the ride, girl; stop looking for car crashes!â
Stella gave me a firm look as she released my face, and I slowly nodded; â... You feel better?â
âMuch.â She grinned; âyou?â
âMuch.â She nodded happily and hugged me. I leaned against her, looking out the window for our stop.
Stella pulled me along to store after store, insisting I needed the proper undergarments for a gown like that, then that I should have a new perfume - ânot a bath and body works body spray, a proper perfumeâ for special events -, then since we were already there she wanted to pick the perfect nude lip color for me. Finally, we ended up at the jewelry store.Â
âAre you thinking gold or silver?â She peered into the display case.
âI don't know ⊠maybe gold? ⊠Nothing too expensive obviously⊠maybe a ruby pendant, to match the dress?â
The store clerk ignored us while we looked through the options, busying herself with something at the register. I was looking at a necklace with a gold chain and a teardrop shaped ruby pendant when she hurried over behind the counter. âHello, Mr. Drake-Wayne! Is there anything I can help you with?â
Stella and I jumped a bit, turning to look behind us. And there was Tim, and Duke. Duke had his usual smile ready for us, but Tim simply raised an eyebrow at the associate. â... These ladies were here first.â
Her smile fell just a bit. âO- oh, of course. Um, ⊠ladies?â
â... We're fine for now, thanks. ⊠Hi Tim.â I chuckled softly; âhave you upgraded from running background checks to actual stalking?â
Duke laughed, elbowing me playfully, and Tim groaned softly. âI'm sorry, ok?â
âI know, and I forgive you. You had to protect your family, there's nothing wrong with that. But I now have the right to tease you about it forever.â
Stella elbowed me firmly, wide eyed. âOw! ⊠Tim, Duke, this is Stella, Stella - Duke, and Tim.â
She grinned, holding out her hand for Duke to shake. âHi! Wow, I can't believe I'm finally meeting a few of you!â
I chuckled softly. âYeah, so what are you guys doing here?â
âJust hanging out, but we saw you over here and figured we should make sure you aren't looking at anything for the gala?â
â... Yeah, why?â I raised an eyebrow.
Duke grinned, shaking his head; âthen stop.â
â... Jason knows I don't like him spending a bunch of money on me, and he already bought my dressâŠâ
âGirl, get over it. It's a gala, let him get you nice things!â Stella grinned.
Tim tilted his head, frowning; âwhy don't you want him to spend money on you?â
â... I don't know how to explain this to you Tim. Just, ⊠suffice it to say, Jason knows I don't want him doing that. So why should I not be looking at jewelry?â
The boys looked at each other, having some kind of silent conversation, before back to me; â... Look, just trust us? ⊠We'll help you pick some earrings!â
Duke grabbed my hand, pulling me away from the necklaces. I followed, frowning a bit; â... Alright, but only because I trust JayâŠâ
Tim nodded, clearly relieved, and the boys started looking through the earring options. Stella followed along, offering her opinions as well. Finally, they had it down to a pair of earrings they insisted was perfect. Only problem was they were $500.
âJesus Christ, Tim, what's with the bougie taste?â I sighed, setting them back down.
âWhat? They're perfect!â
âThat's like ⊠half my rent, rich boy!â
â... Ok, so I'll get them for you.â
â... Tim, if I don't want Jason spending this kind of money on me, what makes you think it's ok for you to?â
He shrugged; âcause I'm not going to sleep with you after?â
Duke smacked him, wide eyed; âum, dude???â
Stella blinked, not sure what to make of this, and I fixed Tim with my best âare you fucking serious?â look.
â... Is the problem with Jay spending money not that it would make you feel bought and paid for?â Tim frowned, looking me over. âHuh, I'm not usually wrong ... Ok, sorry then. ⊠I really don't understand though, what's the issue if not that?â
â... If I let him buy me too much too quickly it will start turning into a situation where I need him. If he's getting me expensive gifts, and paying my rent, and buying my groceries, how is he supposed to know that any steps we take in our relationship are because we want to take them, and not because I feel like I owe him for funding my lifestyle?â
A glimmer of understanding filled Tim's eyes, and he nodded slowly, a little grin on his face. âOhhh, you're good. ⊠Figure out what you want to do with your life, a brain like yours is too valuable to be wasted.â
I chuckled softly, nodding once. âI'll get right on that.â
Tim nodded. âOk, so ⊠let me get the earrings. Cause if I get them, we can say we're even for the whole stalking and background check thing.â
I thought for a moment. I liked having the upper hand on him, it was funny watching him squirm, but I also really did like the earrings, and they would look incredible with the dress. Plus, I wanted to look like I belonged at the gala, and these earrings would help me do that. â... Hmm ⊠Deal. You'll buy the earrings, and I'll stop teasing you with the background check.â
He grinned and nodded, turning back to the counter and the store associate. âAlright, the lady will take these, and those matching hair pins.â He pointed to a set for $300.
âWha- Tim???â I stared at him.
He smiled brightly; âthose are my gift to you. You've been a good sport about a lot of weird shit, and ⊠I haven't seen Jason this happy in a long time.â
â... You're not allowed to get me a Christmas present.â
He shrugged, smiling. âAh, but you will be around for Christmas? Good.â
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are we still friends? (can we be friends?)
minatozaki sana x fem!reader ; fluff, angstÂ
synopsis: seeing sana again during christmas causes feelings to resurface
warnings: food ; alcohol ; datzu crumbs ; cursing ; proofread halfway bc i got lazy + grammar and spelling errors probably
a/n: how to write angst?? am i cooked?? (I'm cooked) ALSO I wrote this in December so a lonnnngg time ago like when I touched the doc for the first time two days ago it said last edited 12/30/23 T-T
ây/n! come help with the decorations, it a bit tough to reach.â your mom calls out from the entrance. Â
pausing in your place, you turn to respond to her, âiâll be there in a bit, let me finish mixing everything.âÂ
âokay honey. make sure to wear a coat when you get out here, itâs chilly!â she yells back before closing the door.Â
a giggle leaves your lips as you continue to sift the dry ingredients, trying not to spill the flour and sugar. when youâre done with a part of your cookie process, you wash your hands and throw on your puffer jacket before heading out to help your mom.Â
christmas is in four days and your mom has this annual thing where she throws a big party at your place every christmas eve. she invites all her friends who are back in townâsome even fly out to come to this big eventâand it goes on until the concerningly late hours of the night. Â
your mom didnât get to throw this big party last year because she was terribly sick, so you missed it that time, but now sheâs so back. Â
this means youâre in charge of the baking (yet again) and also helping her out everywhere. itâs not that you donât enjoy this, if anything you look forward to this eventâjust not this year, it wonât be the same as the previous christmas parties.Â
your mom has this friend who moved in five minutes away from your house when you were twelve, and they had a daughter your age. of course, both your mothers found a way to get you guys to meet, and eventually, youâd be spending the majority of your middle and high school years together stuck by the hip.Â
her name was minatozaki sana; she was the first person you had fallen in love with inside and out. Â
she had this type of vibrance to her that spread through her surroundings like a bullet train. if the room was dim, itâd seem like she had brought a piece of the sun inside just by being there, instantly illuminating it. it was palpable that she had her flaws, everyone did, but with the way she held herself up and gave her all, youâd see right past her imperfections and into that warm heart of hers.Â
sana expected nothing and appreciated everything, thatâs what made her lips curl up into a contagious grin. the streaks of creased skin in the corner of her eyes as she flashed that toothy grin gave everyone the intimation that she was simply overjoyed to be able to have the ability to love and to care. she was so beautiful in the way she found adoration so enticing, and thatâs why you had fallen in love with her.Â
your years with her passed by quickly, each year was filled with vibrant memories that led you to fall even deeper into her charm. however, you never mustered up the courage to tell her how you really felt toward her, and by the time you had gotten close to spilling out your pent up feelings; sana had found herself a little boyfriend.Â
chris was some guy on the basketball teamâwho was also a bit short and lacking skill to even make the teamâhe was an arrogant, pretentious, and egotistical snob who managed to win sanaâs heart. how did he do this? who knows, everyone whoâs interacted with him either hates his guts or is in love with his pathetic self. Â
he was only nice around sana, but you had seen him when he wasnât pretending like there wasn't a stick up his ass. he was below the bare minimum and thatâs how youâd describe him, he was nowhere near sanaâs league. if anything, maybe you were just jealous (and that you were), but you knew what kind of person deserved sanaâchris was not someone who deserved a wonderful woman like her.Â
that asshole managed to win sanaâs heart and keep it for half of junior year and all of senior year of high school, then he managed to convince her to go to a college that was a five-hour flight away from homeâand by the way, your town was a two-hour drive from a well-known, top notch university, one that you and sana agreed to go to when you were both in middle school.Â
there was no way youâd let sana go to that college, not when chris was the reason she was going. it was a school that wasnât even comparable to the one not so far from home, the one that had significant alumni and programs fit for the both of you. sana could easily win a decent scholarship to the university youâve been dreaming of going to, but she was going to let him change her mind in a matter of seconds.Â
there was no way youâd let that happen, so you simply walked over to her house and stormed up to her room after seeing her text regarding this whole plan, a foolâs plan. Â
-Â
you remember the argument that shattered your friendships in seconds, almost like it was yesterday.Â
âsana, you canât just go to that school because of chris. look, iâm saying this as your friend and because i love you: heâs not all that, and the uni nearby has great health programs, theyâre ten times better than the school over there and you know it.â you argue. Â
youâre pacing around the room that you and sana have had countless late-night conversations and sleepovers in, the place where you had done more for sana than chris did. your eyes land on the two strips of laminated paper that hold the memory of the time you two had gone to the photobooth on your sixteenth birthday, your brows crease at the sight of your cheeks squished with sanaâs as the two of you posed. a heavy breath makes your lungs shrink as you exhale.Â
âi canât let you do this, not for him sana.âÂ
âbut i love him so much y/n, you know this. he promised we could stay in an apartment together and that everything would be perfect, we have a whole future planned and iââÂ
âwhat about us sana?â you cut her off, voice breaking slightly. âwhat about our future? we promised that weâd go to that uni together, what happened to that? youâre going to throw it away for him?âÂ
âyouâre being ridiculous y/n, we were thirteen! things change and you need to grow up, lookââ Â
âweâve known each other since elementary school and youâre throwing away this opportunity for a guy whose grades are falling apart. not only that, heâs a fucking ass! youâve come crying and complaining to me more times than i can count on my left hand.â you respond angrily, and much louder than you meant to.Â
sana looks at you in disbelief, her expression almost carrying some sort of disappointment or disgust. she scoffs and you feel your heart shatter just from hearing it, this isnât like her at all.Â
âif you were so fucking annoyed by my misery then you couldâve told me,â she responds harshly, water lining her eyes. Â
âsana thatâs not what iâ"Â
âyouâre supposed to be my best friend, always there for me and to support me. now look at you, what happened to that? canât you be happy for me and chris? i seriously love him and all youâve been is mopey and bitchy whenever heâs around.âÂ
âi know more people that have treated you better than him. heâs an asshole sana, itâs clear as day and even dahyun agrees.âÂ
her eyes meet the floor and she says in a smaller voice, âi love him y/n, and he loves me.âÂ
not like i love you, never will he love you like that.Â
your features soften as you look at her. âsana you canâtââÂ
âget out of my room.â sana spits in a stinging tone thatâs worse than a dagger to your heart. she shakes her head then turns to avoid your gaze and your heart completely shatters as you watch a tear slide down her cheek in the process. âget out of my house, i donât want to hear it.âÂ
âsana,â you begin, but when you hear her sniffle, you hold back everything thatâs burning in your chest. your shoulders give up and sink in defeat before you croak out an âokay.âÂ
turning around, you step out of her bedroom with a heavy heart and trembling lips. tears stream down your cheeks as you make your way out of the house where sana and you had spent countless hours togetherâhours that youâd never forget no matter how hard you tried.Â
-Â
each breath you take is visible in the cold air and snow compresses with each step you take whilst hanging up the christmas lights. your mother smiles once you pin the last string up and then you take a step back to admire the illuminating pattern of diverse hues beaming when your mom presses the âonâ button.Â
âthank you again honey, i appreciate it.â your mom says, holding your hand and squeezing it gently. Â
you turn and smile at her, shaking your head before responding, âanytime mom.âÂ
the two of you enter the house again and immediately youâre on your way back to the kitchen to finish up your famous cookies. you three different types of cookies: chocolate chip cookies (the fastest batch to be eaten), matcha cookies with white chocolate chips, and ube cookiesâsanaâs favorites.Â
--Â
âube? whatâs that?â sana says, giggling softly as you hand her a purple cookie with white chocolate chunks. Â
âjust try it sana, youâll love it.â you assure, urging her to try. âitâs purple too, how could you not?âÂ
she rolls her eyes at you then picks up the sweet treat, taking a bite of the cookie. itâs crunchy on the outside and perfectly soft on the inside, making her shoulders sink down and eyes close when the new, thrilling flavor meets her tastebuds.Â
âso, how is it?â you ask, raising your brows. sana simply smiles and nods, shooting a dorky thumbs up before taking another bite.Â
âitâs wonderful, itâs like coconut and nutty and has vanilla and oh my gosh itâs so⊠itâs really good.â she sighs, melting as she consumes your baked good. she looks adorable.Â
you laugh at her response and take a bite of your own experiment, eyes widening at how good they were. sana was right, theyâre wonderful.Â
--Â
âah the purple cookies, those were a hit ever since you started making them.â your mom says, rubbing your back. she looks at you with some pity, knowing about your little falling out with sana.Â
you simply smile and nod. âi like them, i was going to save some for myself too.â you joke, easing some tension in the air.Â
âwell, iâm going to call your dad up, go visit the kimâs later and tell them i said hi.â your mom insists, placing a twenty dollar bill on the marble counter. âheard they have a holiday latte out, you should try it. dahyunâs also been experimenting with her baking and beverages, she gets better each time i visit.âÂ
âof course she is,â you chuckle lightheartedly, âlet me just finish these last cookies and iâll put them in the fridge for a bit. did you want anything from their place?âÂ
âno, itâs fine. oh wait! i have a present for dahyunâs mom, can you give her this if sheâs there?â she asks.Â
âmhm,â you hum, âjust put it near my bag on the couch.âÂ
âthanks sweetie, iâll do that.â your mother beams, then rushes towards her room to grab whatever it was that she needed.Â
--Â
ring Â
the sound of the bell chimes throughout the cafĂ©âwhich is not too busy other than the elderly group in the corner and a student typing away at their computer to the side. you catch sight of the familiar face, instantly grinning when you walk towards the register.Â
dahyun is turned away from you and cleaning the espresso machine, wiping it down and yelling a âwelcome! feel free to check out the holiday pastries and beverages!â without turning towards you.Â
you laugh and speak up, âitâs nice to see you miss know-it-all.â and upon hearing your voice dahyun instantly turns around, beaming a bright grin and setting her rag down.Â
ây/n? you didnât tell me you were in town? what the hell where were you last year?â she questions, walking out from behind the counter and then towards you to greet you with a warm hug. she smells like coffee grinds and cinnamon, you hug her back and smile.Â
âi was deathly sick last year, like seriously fighting for my life. i didnât tell you?âÂ
âno stupid, you didnât.â she sighs, then pulls away to look at you. âiâve only seen your instagram posts, havenât seen you in a bit and wow⊠you look better than in the pictures.âÂ
âthank you?â you giggle before she walks over to return back behind the register. âiâve also seen your instagram⊠whoâs that girl youâve been posting? got a girl and didnât fill me in with the details?â you pry, smirking cheekily.Â
âoh, tzu⊠gosh y/n we have so much to talk about, iâm glad youâre back in town.â dahyun says appreciatively, and you donât miss the slight pink that dusts on her cheeks before she starts again, âletâs talk over some coffee. what can i get you? on the house by the way. we have like, thirty minutes before a bunch of people start piling in.âÂ
a giggle leaves your lips again before you decide on a peppermint mocha. dahyun gets to work and weighs out the coffee grins as you situate yourself to the side, watching her work her magic.Â
the two of you catch up on whatâs been going on with college, dahyunâs love life that youâve missed out on, and what youâve been up to yourself. twenty minutes pass and youâve both ended up on some old memory that has the two of you laughing like idiots again, making both your stomachs hurt.Â
âso⊠weâve talked about whatâs been going on with me⊠what about you and your love life? bet youâve met a girl too.â dahyun interrogates with a teasing tone. Â
âoh, wellââ you begin, awkwardly staring at the cup in your hand. âi dated this girl for a while, but we ended up falling out and staying friends, nothing much⊠we just werenât right for each other.âÂ
âi seeâŠâ dahyun responds, holding herself back from bringing up the sensitive topicâor, well, person. Â
dahyun was aware of the falling out as well, but still stayed friends with sana. however, she was your friend before she met sana, so she had made sure if it was alright to keep contact and whatnot. of course you didnât want your own personal problems to get in between other friendships, and you still loved sana despite everything that had happened so you gave dahyun the green light. Â
after running to dahyun the same night of the argument with sana, you cried for an hour or two in her room. this was the first time you turned to someone other than sana, and dahyun had been on your side of the whole situation, making it easier to comfort and reassure you. she also disliked chris, but not as much as she liked you.Â
she pretty much agreed with everything you had ranted about and thought it was stupid that sana would rather choose that asshole over someone like you, and later on youâd confess that you were in love with sana to dahyun. when everything had been rocky with sana, dahyun had been by your side, and you were grateful for that.Â
âwell, maybe youâll land yourself a kiss under the mistletoe, who knows whoâll be showing up to your christmas party.â dahyun nudges you, smiling as she hands you some peppermint chocolate bark treat. âi could always set you up~âÂ
âitâs fine, really.â you guarantee. a smile spreads across your face and you dismiss her offer with a wave of your hand. âum, by the way⊠has um, has she stopped by or anything like that recently? does sana still visitâ"Â
thereâs another ring from the door opening that cuts you off, making dahyunâs attention redirect towards the customer walking in. her eyes widen and she pauses in place before smiling awkwardly, then she mumbles an uneasy âum, be backâŠâ before walking over to the register.Â
you donât think much of her weird mood shift and instead swirl around the small remainder of coffee in the latte cup.Â
âhi dahyun! itâs nice to see you again.â a voice beams. Â
you freeze in place, all of your body tensing up as soon as the familiar voice processes through your ears. itâs smooth, itâs sweet, and it has that same high-pitched ring and giggle that follows. immediately, your heartbeat spikes and youâre doing anything you can to avoid interacting or even looking in the womanâs direction.Â
âitâs nice to see you too sana,â dahyun greets with a bubbly tone. the name being uttered from dahyunâs mouth is enough to make your hands grip the cup in your hand a little tighter. âcan i get you anything?â Â
âhm⊠iâll have that peppermint mocha please. iâm also going to take a look around the bakery, i need to grab some treats for others. you know how it is, holidays and whatnot.â sana says in that adorable tone, it has you falling for her all over again just when you thought youâd gotten over everything thatâs happened.Â
quickly, you finish the last sip of your coffee before setting the empty cup down abruptly. it makes a small yet noticeable sound with the glass plate it had been sitting on, making sana advert her gaze. Â
the small gift you had set down beside you is now placed on the glass that covers the display of christmas themed cakes. dahyun looks at you in confusion and tilts her head before you turn to smile at her, avoiding sanaâs widening eyes.Â
âthanks for the coffee dahyun, take the present on the glass to your momâitâs from my mom to yours.â you start, trying to keep your voice levelÂ
every ounce of restraint and discipline is fighting back the urge to simply glance at sana, whoâs standing right in front of dahyun. you almost manage to avoid her, but itâs inevitable, your eyes land on your first love for the first time in almost two years.Â
sheâs looking at you with parted lips and surprise, but she still looks as beautiful as you remember. sana looks a little more mature than when you last saw her; the curve of her jaw is sharper, lips somehow brighter and her features are more defined overall. sana is wearing a scarf that fits around her neck comfortably, a brown, fluffy sweater, and dark sweatpants with uggs to compliment the outfit. thereâs simplicity in her lookâsheâs jaw dropping, the sight of her makes your jaw tighten and heartbeat spike. Â
her eyes meet yours for exactly three seconds, enough time to have every memory flowing in.Â
clearing your throat, you finish your farewell to dahyun with a smile, âiâll see you around, my mom says hi to your mom, tell her i also said hi too. iâll get going now, have a good one.âÂ
your body doesnât fight back the urge to glance at sana againâbig mistakeâbefore turning around and walking out the door.Â
sana keeps her look on you the whole time, baffled to see you here and her own heart yearns for you. sheâs missed you more than youâd ever know, and more than sheâd like to admit. it doesnât help her case that youâre ten times more attractive than when sheâd last seen you at graduation.Â
âyou should talk to her.â dahyun says softly. sana keeps her eye on the door, youâre already out and probably in your car, but she keeps her eye on the door still.Â
âwere you talking to her earlier?â sana asks, now turning to face the younger woman.Â
âwe were catching up.â dahyun answers. the woman behind the register turns around to start making sanaâs drink, unknowingly the same drink you had ordered. it all makes dahyunâs own heart sink in her chest a bit. âhow long has it been since youâve talked to her?âÂ
âsince graduation.â sana explains, looking down at the counter. âi messed up.âÂ
dahyun turns around again to see sana, sorrow and regret etching into her features. the barista frows and reaches over to place her hand on sanaâs shoulder, then rubs it gently. Â
âtalk to her, thereâs always time to fix things. especially with y/n.âÂ
--Â
a few days past since that meeting, youâre still shaken up from it to say the least. Â
sana is too, but you arenât aware of that.Â
to stray away from this event that is dreadfully close to leading to some form of existential crisis or spiral, youâre helping your mom out with setting up the last few decorations and tables while your cookies that you chilled a couple days ago bake. Â
dahyun is also coming over with her girlfriend in the evening to exchange a couple of greetings and to properly introduce her girlfriend tzuyu to you. your mother had met tzuyu before and talked highly about her, so you were excited to meet her yourself. Â
when the time comes, you hear a knock at the door and shoot up to answer it. you open the door and dahyun stands there with a nervous grin on her face. next to her stands tzuyuâand sana. Â
your eyes widen and your jaw tenses when you see her perfect face, standing next to tzuyu with this awkward smile. sheâs wearing a gray pullover and black sweatpants; an orange scarf also wraps around her neck comfortably. she looks snug and cute as ever, no matter what sheâs adorable in your eyes. your heart flutters and you get all nervous like a teenager again.Â
pushing away the edginess flowing throughout your whole being, you greet dahyun with a warm hug, then give tzuyu and friendly one as well. youâre not sure how to greet sana, being all shaken up by just her presence, so you resort to a smile and a small âhi sana,â then invite them all in.Â
sana walks in and her hand brushes against your arm on accident, the two of you definitely notice itâthough you both decide to ignore it and the warmth in your chests. Â
your mom greets all the girls with a hug and the five of you sit down in your homey living room. sana sits across from you on the couch next to your mom, and you sit there avoiding eye contact as you all catch up.Â
an hour passes by and dahyun is over in the living room talking to your mom about whatâs been going on with her parents and the bakery. in the meantime, you decide to give yourself a break from feeling all nervous just by being near sana.Â
standing up, you announce, âiâm going to the kitchen for a bit.â your mom simply raises her brows at your sudden departure, youâve been silent for most of the conversation and it seems like youâre the only one affected by the tension in the room. âwonât be long.â you add, smiling weakly.Â
the fridge is still full of some essentials, and to the side, thereâs some cold brew and your favorite coconut milk; everything you need is right where you need it. you head over to the counter and grab your favorite glass cup, heart stinging at the memory of when you had received it. it was one of the many gifts from sana.Â
you grab some ice and put it in the cup, then add your cold brew inside. then you grab a small cup with some honey and search for a spoon so you can mix it in with the coconut milk.Â
âdrinking coffee at this time?â a voice says, making you freeze. you break out of your short trance and hum in response before continuing to make your drink.Â
âyou know i canât resist a good coffee, sana.â and the way her name slips off your tongue feels right. you havenât said it often since the falling out and it still rolls off perfectly, it feels right coming from you. youâre hesitant to talk again, feeling her eyes drill into your back. something in your heart shifts and you manage to ask, âdid you want something to drink?âÂ
âyeah,â she answers, walking over to you and sitting at the kitchen island. âsame thing youâre drinking, but sweeter.âÂ
of course she wants it sweet, just like always. Â
âokay.â Â
your back is still turned towards sana and she watches you grab another glass. as you do so, she gets a glimpse of your own glass and smiles. âis that the cup i got you?â Â
still fixing up her drink, you nod and answer, âyeah. itâs my favorite.âÂ
âa lot of your gifts are my favorites too.â she admits, her voice so soft and fragile that youâre scared the thick tension in the air might break it.Â
sana watches you turn around, but you still avoid her gaze. you place both cups on the surface of the kitchen island and begin to pour the coconut milk mixtures into the coffee. the liquids swirl as they combine, creating a satisfying view. sanaâs quick to redirect her attention back to you, staring at your face again.Â
last time she had saw you at dahyunâs cafe, she only had the chance to get a simple glance at your features, not enough time to fully take in everything thatâs changed about your apperance. thereâs two new piercings on both ears and a new, small tattoo below your ear; the length of your hair is also noticeably longer. your lips part as you swirl both cups in your hands around, and then you take a quick glance to the side, allowing sana to admire your side profile and the unique curve of your nose and lips.Â
you hold the mug out for her and finally meet her eyes again. sanaâs favorite thing about you were your eyes, theyâre still as pretty as she remembers. Â
-Â
itâs some thursday night during your sophomore year of high school, you were supposed to be studying with sana for your math quiz tomorrow, but she had other ideas. Â
âstay still,â sana mumbles softly.Â
she situates you in the chair near her desk and tilts your head up with the fingers holding your chin. sheâs inches away from you as she puts some sort of sponge on your face, brows creasing as she does so. your heart is racing.Â
after a couple of minutes, sana finishes up your makeup. sheâs done some type of natural look on you, nothing too heavy or bold. you look at yourself through the mirror and take a moment to examine sanaâs doings. as you do so, sana canât keep her eyes off you.Â
something in her heart shifts as she admires you. her eyes land on your lips, theyâre oddly alluring, and sanaâs cheeks burn.Â
âsana youâre staring⊠do i look weird?âÂ
âno,â she practically breathes out, mouth slightly agape. âyouâre beautiful.â she says breathlessly, her expression turning all serious it makes you giggle awkwardly.Â
there have been many moments where sana has found you pretty, not just physically. your small gifts and reassurance have made her heart flutter, but sheâs always figured that was just because she loved you deeply as a friend. but when you stare at her with those eyes in this moment, sheâs so surprised by everything she feels. she's giddy and happy and warm inside and gosh her heart wants to jump out her chest and cling onto you. she's not opposed to the feeling; she always has this feeling aorunf you and she loves it. that's why sheâs always around you in the first place.Â
her face burns and youâre gazing at her all confused, you look so cute.Â
growing nervous from how non-verbal sana has been, you try to shake her out of her trance. âhey, youâre scaring me. earth to sana? helloooooâŠ?âÂ
âhow are you so pretty all the time.â sanaâs eyes soften and her whole body relaxes as she rests her head on her palm. âlike, your face is so perfect and your eyes⊠god y/n, whoever gets to be with you would be so lucky, seriously. like, youâre honestly the prettiest girl in our school, how do you not have a boyfriend?âÂ
your cheeks flush from the abrupt compliment, so you push her gently and giggle. sana giggles along with you, still star-struck. youâre both young and unknowingly in love with each otherâgiggles and teasing seem to be the only way to hide that.Â
-Â
sana has always found you attractive, after all these years she still hasnât figured out why she made the mistake of pursuing chris instead of the person who was always there for herâand ten times prettier. youâve always been right there, sheâs a fool for looking right past you.Â
sana grabs the mug, still making eye contact with you and both your eyes soften at the same time.Â
ây/n iâm sorry.â she says immediately, âi messed up really bad andââÂ
âsana,â you cut her off, âjust enjoy the drink.â she watches you smile at her, itâs genuine and small, still enough to calm her nerves. you grab your glass and walk towards the door to the porch, tilting your head and urging her to come follow. sana figures she could pour her heart out later, if it were on the porch it wouldnât be the first time sheâs poured out her emotions there. Â
the two of you find a seat across from each other, the fairy lights above create some type of ambiance to ease the tension thatâs hanging in the air like an invisible cloak of some sort, suffocating the two of you with its unease.Â
âhow have you been?â sana asks. itâs clichĂ©, but what else was she supposed to say? Â
you donât look up from the drink in your hand when you respond, âgood, you?â Â
âlikewise.â sana lies, her jaw clenching. Â
âyou know,â you begin, and with intent, your eyes meet her face and sheâs doing the same as you had been doing before; she simply sits there with the drink in her hand, looking quite on edge. âi figured if i were to see you again like this, chris would be with you.â Â
âwe broke up three months after we moved in together.â sana says quietly, âi broke up with him.âÂ
âsanaâŠâ you mumble quietly, surprised to say the least. âwhyâ what?âÂ
âi ruined everything between you and i because i was so blinded by his affection, i couldnât stay with him anymore with guilt clawing at me.â she explains, her voice breaking slightly. âand i couldnât bring myself to talk to you after hurting you. losing you was the biggest mistake of my life. god, it took everything in me to come back to you.âÂ
âyou never lost me sana,â Â
âiâm just⊠sorry for everything, i really am.â she says sincerely, âand i donât think enough words could really explain how sorry i am.âÂ
you look at her with pity, and despite her coldness towards you during the last semester of your senior year, you decide to let everything go. sheâs your best friend after all, you promised yourself to be there.Â
âitâs okay.â you say, itâs not the truth, but itâs not a lie either. âit was my fault too for letting the distance between us get larger.âÂ
âdonât say that, itâs not your fault.â sana sighs. she takes a sip of the coffee, itâs good, of courseâ everything youâve ever made for her has been great. âi only stayed with chris because i was scared. thatâs why it was so easy for me to leave everyone i loved behind, i think.âÂ
âscared? âŠof what?âÂ
she looks dead into your eyes and exhales, âi realized that, that maybe i was with chris because i was trying to push down how i felt about you.âÂ
you tilt your head in confusion, then begin to pry, âsana what do you meanâ"Â
ây/n, i was falling for you and it terrified me. i mean, i loved you, and honestly, i think i still do. i'm so fucking dumb, god i'm just oblivious.â sana says, then immediately, your heart rate spikes and your brows raise. she continues while fidgeting with her fingers, âi guess itâs easier to admit now because weâve grown distant, and physically weâre distant enough. chris treated me alright and loved me, but i came crying to you all the time because he never treated me like how i wanted you to treat me, i donât know why i did that. i donât know why i let myself go through that when i had you. every time iâd kiss him i wished it were you, every time we did anything honestly.âÂ
sana's eyes shimmered with unshed tears, their glossy shine failing to hide the immense emotions she was desperately trying to suppress. the weight of her confession hung in the air, causing the entire world to momentarily freeze. it felt as though time itself had paused, giving you a moment to absorb the magnitude of her words.Â
sana loved you, and she still does. you loved her, and you still do. Â
but really, you canât. you canât go through with this. itâs too sudden, so unorganized and uncertain.Â
all of this is a recipe for disaster.Â
the echo of her vulnerability reverberated through the atmosphere, your mind spun in a cyclone of emotions. thoughts collided and collided again like football players during some game, leaving your head in a dizzying state of confusion, the sheer intensity of it all was jarring, leaving you all disoriented. the feelings you suppressed were finding their way back out, and you found yourself teetering on the precipice of vulnerability once again, just as you did years ago.Â
finding out that sana loved you still gave you hope, but the revelation also made you uneasy. it had been too long without sana, and so much had happened, so there was the chance that things would be all rocky. besides, itâs just too sudden.Â
âiâmâ sorry for dumping all of this, i just wanted to give you closure because⊠well, i shouldâve given you it years ago.â a tear streams down her eye as she says this, and then she begins to stand. âi should leave, iâm sorry for not letting you know i was comingâ god iâm so sorry.âÂ
âsana waitââ you start, grabbing her wrist. she looks into your eyes, herâs are still glossy. you decide itâs better to let her go for now, unsure if this is the last time youâll see her after thisâhopefully not. âitâs okay, just⊠be careful. you know iâm always here, always sha.âÂ
the nickname that you made up for her makes her heart crack a little, she can only smile back at you for now.Â
âÂ
the conversation between dahyun, tzuyu, and your mom is interrupted when dahyun catches the sight of sana pulling her scarf off the hook and wrapping it around her neck again. she takes account of the slight flush of her nose and cheeks, as well as her water-lined eyes.Â
âyouâre leaving?â dahyun asks, concern clear in her tone. sana simply smiles and nods, âyeah, iâll see you at the holiday party. it was nice seeing you too miss l/n, i missed all of this.âÂ
âyouâre always welcome honey,â your mother assures, âwhereâs y/n?âÂ
âout on the porch, she said sheâll be back in a bit. iâll see you all, thank you.â sana says before departing, leaving the three women in the living room perplexed.Â
a few minutes later whilst the three in the living room conjure up theories of what had happened while you and sana had been goneâyou appear with a blank expression. you sit down next to your mom and lean against her, not saying a word.Â
tzuyu (who is only briefly caught up with whatever had happened between you and sana, and she deinfitely needs a thorough presentation on your history) looks at dahyun and tilts her head, dahyun simply shakes her own head.Â
âsana and i talked a bit, resolved and made things clear.â you say, answering the elephant in the room. âiâm heading up, iâm getting sleepy and i want to have some energy for the party tomorrow.â you add. âit was nice getting to know you tzuyu, youâre perfect for the idiot beside you. night everyone.â chuckling quietly in between responses.Â
and with that youâre walking up the stairs to your room, leaving your mom, tzuyu, and dahyun perplexed yet again.Â
-Â
december 25th, five oâclock pm.Â
you're greeting guests, various familiar faces and their parents, family friends, and whoever else you mom managed to fit on the list.Â
the party is lively, with people scattered in the backyard and on the little porch while your dad grills his signature bbq meats. your mom laughs with her friends as she sips on her wine, moving her hands around as she talks to emphasize her little life updates.Â
in the basement with you are your old high school friends: momo, her cousin mina, jaehyun, mark, johnny, seulgi, sooyoung, jeongyeon, and dahyun, whoâs accompanied by tzuyu. the rest of your frineds couldnât make it, they were probably out of town. all of them sit on the floor or couch with a can of smirnoff or soda, all chatting and laughing over old memories.Â
you lean against jaehyun as you laugh, letting yourself hide behind his shoulder while mark ruthlessly brings up each embarrassing phase youâve had. what a guy, a guy youâll be figthing soon if he keeps this up.Â
the feeling of your phone ringing against your palm as you hold it catches your attention, directing you from the conversation at hand. the screen shows a call from âmomâĄâ which earns a confused look. you answer the call, cupping the phone so you can hear her better as you answer.Â
âhello? did you need something?âÂ
âhey honey, would you mind coming out for a bit? someone wants to see you.âÂ
âsomeone?â you ask, âone of your friends or...?âÂ
âjust come on out sweetie.â she insistts.Â
âokay okay, whatever you say.â you respond before ending the call and starting to get up. jaehyun looks up at you with a quirked brow as he sips on his drink. you look back and shrug, âmy mom wants me to meet âsomeone,â probably one of her friends or something. i wonât be long.â you respond to him and let the others know.Â
"alright, take your time," jaehyun says with a nod, setting his drink down. "hopefully, it won't be too boring," he adds with a small smirk, teasing you gently. you roll your eyes playfully in response before grabbing your jacket and heading towards the sliding door. Â
you were right about the guess on seeing your mom's friend, orâfriends. however, the sudden chill you get when seeing the minatozakiâs on the porch makes you tense up. Â
they're standing there, glasses of wine in their hands as they look at you. sana's mom has a smile on her face, so does her dad. you walk up to them and try to shake off your nerves, fully hugging sanaâs mom and giving sanaâs dad a side hug.Â
âitâs been a while hasnât it?â sanaâs mom says, putting her hand on your shoulder and grinning. âitâs wonderful to see you again.âÂ
âlikewise.â you respond, melting into relaxation the more you get used to this atmosphere. âhow have you all been?âÂ
after a tense reunion with sanaâs parents, they find out about your ambitions and what youâve been up to. not much is mentioned about the falling out between you and their daughter, but the thought most definitely lingers in the cold, winter air. Â
sana's parents tell you about an internship she earned at a hospital her first year, saying theyâre proud of her for helping others and the bonus of the nice paycheck that came with the experience. they tell you sheâs found herself a guaranteed transfer to your school and that sheâs excited to help even more people in the nursing program. it sounds like sanaâs a great person, sheâs always wanted to help others, it makes you smile and nod as her parents update you on what sheâs been up to.Â
but thereâs this feeling of uncertainty and sorrow brewing. the fact that you have to hear about sana from anyone but her breaks you a bit, knowing that the two of you wouldnât hesitate to update each other back then. now, it seems like youâre missing a chunk of memories that you couldâve shared with sana.Â
âwe asked her to come to the party.â mr. minatozaki says, looking at you with a sympathetic smile. âshe said sheâd consider it.âÂ
âoh, i see.â you respond, nodding whilst looking at the ground. Â
part of you is glad that sheâs not here, but who are you kidding, there would never be a time where youâd be dissapointed to catch her near you, despite the paranoia taking over.Â
âwell, itâs nice to catch up y/n. we've missed you, itâs great to see how well youâre doing. your parents must be proud.â mr. minatozaki concludes, looking at you with admiration.Â
âyeah, thanks.â you say, âwell, i'll leave you to talk to my parents, but i'll stop by again to talk to you two. it's really nice to catch up, i've missed you guys too, and your wonderful dinners.â you add jokingly, earning a laugh from the couple.Â
sana's mom kisses your temple and hugs you, then lets you walk back into the house.Â
it seems like this whole night has been full of surprisesâscratch that, at this point, everything is a surprise ever since you've been back in town. especially now, because once you step into the kitchen, thereâs a familiar woman whoâs making your knees weak all over again.Â
ây/n, hey.â sana greets softly, smiling at you.Â
she's just hung up her scarf on the little hook near the fridge, the same place sheâd always hang it back then. there was this unspoken rule that when sana was here, there were certain spaces that belonged to her; the hook near the fridge, the chair at the dining table closest to the living room, the right side of your bed, and the left side of the couch in the basement. Â
still, youâre pissed at the fact she had practically cut you off completely over a boy just to come back years later to win you back. it irritated you how easy it was for sana to convince you, but you were much angrier at the thought of her coming back to see you because her and chris didnât work out. was she serious about the breakup? was that all it took to forget that she had caused so much mental turmoil?Â
despite this, her being in your house again and seeing her at this christmas party like years before; everything reminds you of the fact that sana had always lingered in your home.Â
âhey, didnât think youâd make it.â you respond, watching her shrug.Â
âmy parents said your signature cookies are here, i had to.âÂ
can't be the only reason, you want to mumble, but your lips stay sealed.Â
sana speaks again, âi stole a couple, ate some earlier actually. still as great as i remembered.âÂ
âthanks.â you mutter, walking over to the fridge to grab a bottle of water. âdid you want to talk about something?âÂ
âwhat do you mean?âÂ
âthereâs a reason you came, and i know itâs for me since youâre not in the basement with everyone else. we both know thatâs the signature spot.âÂ
sana cringes at your tone, but gives in.Â
âi just wanted to see you, and hopefully talk to you normally.âÂ
it's taking everything in you to hold your ground, to protect yourself from this sudden appearance thatâs making you all uneasy again. you canât let sana screw you up again with a simple visit, you canât.Â
âi know youâre sorry but sana, you treated me so terribly. do you know how much i cried? how fucking terrible i felt after losing my friend of years to chris?â you seethe, sighing. âpart of me wants to start over, maybe try againâbut how can i do that when thereâs the chance of you throwing away everything, we rebuild over another stupid fucking guy.âÂ
she looks at you with guilt in her eyes, her shoulders sinking and words jumbling in her throat. Â
ây/n, nothingâno one, despite what i've done to you, will ever make me forget how much i love you. there's always a space in my heart for you.âÂ
you scoff, anger flowing throughout you now, then walk over to her. she stands against the frame of the entrance, you stand in front of her now, looking down slightly. sana's looking at you directly in the eye, you can see the hurt and regret in her eyes; her look brings you back to your senses.Â
âhow do i know youâre not bluffing? sana, every ounce of me wants to redo this.â your voice cracks slightly, the hurt evident in your tone. Â
âyou just have to trust me, i'm sorry, i'm really sorry.âÂ
you feel like curling up into a ball and hiding, the way your chest tightens makes you want to cry a bit.Â
-Â
the party ends around one in the morning, considering the fact that some of the attendants are adults that donât have the energy to party until the sunrises. Â
jaehyunâs just crossed the line, now slurring his words and laughing stupidly while he gets touchy with the guys, so mark ends up driving him home. johnny catches a ride with seulgi and sooyoung. with them gone, youâre in the basement with momo, mina, dahyun, and tzuyu. all five of you end the night with some recollections of memories, momoâs recent date, minaâs annoying professor, and before you know it you all are hugging goodbye.Â
you've already gone through three cans of the smirnoff cans, it hadnât done much except make you a little more giggly and talkative. you were a little tipsy, that was all.Â
throughout the night, tzuyu and dahyun exchange glances, their eyes meeting repeatedly, dahyuns hand rubbing tzuyuâs thigh, and the little smiles they give each other. all of it doesnât go unnoticed â at least by you â and hints at the potential for something you donât want to think of in detail once they return home. Â
as you observe their subtle interactions, a pang of envy stirs within you, longing for that same allure and anticipation. amidst the swirling emotions, a sense of emptiness creeps in, amplified by the beers youâve had. you're left to ponder on whatâs making you feel hollow, still feeling bad after raising your voice at sana earlier.Â
you canât feel bad, you shouldnât. whatever you did wasnât comparable to her practically pretending you didnât exist for almost two years.Â
after rolling your eyes and saying some stupid joke to dahyun and tzuyu â the last to leave the house â you head back to the basement. Â
of course, sana had to be sitting on the couch, head turned towards the tv as she sipped on a beer. Â
âhey.â you mutter, earning her attention as she turns away from the christmas movie you paused earlier.Â
âhi.â sana greets.Â
every ounce of anger, irritation, and dread had been squeezed out your body at the sight of her. you genuinely think itâs the alcohol thatâs making you rethink everything, making it hard to fight back that voice in your head thatâs trying to stay reserved and petty.Â
sana sits there, her gaze fixed on you with intensity. her glasses are perched on her nose, a familiar sight whenever she's engrossed in watching tv or anything like that. the sight only adds to her charm, making her look even more adorable. you can't help but notice her favorite cardigan draped over her shoulders â the fluffy, white knit cardigan she adores so much âit's a cherished gift from your mother, and she's held onto it all these years. her eyes bore into yours, drilling into your skull and compelling you to plop down beside her as if nothing had ever transpired between you. you surrender, maybe itâs the late hours of the night, maybe the beer, o rmaybe just sana.Â
(itâs probably just sana.)Â
she turns back to the movie playing, some stupid romcom jaehyun had put on as background noise.Â
your eyes trace the curve of her nose, lingering on her lips and the impeccable contour of her jawline as she remains fixated on the tv screen. her side profile captivates you for a moment, holding you in some sort of spell until she breaks the silence with her soft voice.Â
âi think our parents are playing card games in the kitchen.â Â
âprobably betting money too.âÂ
âremember when your dad took your christmas money for their game?â sana asks, giggling at the memory. her eyes are still fixed on the screen, you decide to tune into the movie too. âdidnât he lose too?âÂ
âyeah.â you sigh, sinking into the couch. âhe paid me back double the next day though.âÂ
âso it was worth it?âÂ
âyeah, i think we went out to eat with that money.âÂ
sana turns to gaze at you, her eyes tracing the soft contours of your profile in the dimly lit room. the glow from the tv accentuates her favorite features of yours, and she finds herself lost in the sight before her. for a while, she simply stares, allowing the comfortable silence to envelop the moment. Â
you turn to look at her now, you two just stare at each other for a while more.Â
âmaybe we can try again.â you mumble, giving into the beauty in front of you. âevery part of me is against the idea.âÂ
âthatâs understandable.â sana agrees. she sighs before adding, âyou donât have to try again.âÂ
âi know.â you assure, âbut i think we should.âÂ
âiâm sorry.âÂ
âi know, sana.â Â
as the music from the tv fills the room, silence once again settles between you and sana. you know that you can't let this opportunity slip away â it's everything you've wanted, and deep down, you realize it's everything you've needed too. Â
there's a mistletoe thatâs hung above the two of you, itâs been there the whole time, both of you were aware of it. it dangles from the light tantalizingly, but neither of you do anything about it. neither you or sana even mention it. your mind races to the memory of dahyun and tzuyu kissing each other under it and part of you wants to kiss sana like that, but you wonât let her kiss and make up.Â
you reach out, your fingers gently intertwining with hers. you lift her hand to your lips, feeling the warmth of her skin against your own. softly, you press a kiss upon the back of her hand, you linger in the intimacy of the gesture.Â
the two of you sit there for a moment, letting the world around you two fade away.Â
everything about the moment renders you weak. you think to yourself that maybe, just maybe, a second chance is enough to patch things up. if itâs with sana, then maybe itâs worth it.Â
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