#i am just he has such firm lines. such a strong face so it could be so easily >[ but its so SOFT

[grapecaseschoices]

Now we can SEE why Felix looked at this man and thought: I am going make this hottie SO flustered!! [Nat: You don't have to ... Felix: No, I'm gunna.]

Doesn't my baby look so fine and adorable? Thank you to @kirnetart for this beautiful piece of my srs nerd [also psst, if you haven't commissioned Mina you should!*]

[novaursa]

Web of Gold (aegon has a cold)

- Summary: Alicent could only watch as you handle her son like a lioness who plays with her food.

- Paring: lannister!reader/Aegon II Targaryen

- Rating: Mature 16+ (just to be safe)

- Previous part: aegon in love

- Next part: aegon is jealous

- Tag(s): @sachaa-ff @alyssa-dayne @oxymakestheworldgoround @purple-1995

Aegon lounges pathetically in his chamber, propped up by an unreasonable number of pillows, surrounded by the evidence of his misery. The usually bright and playful gleam in his eyes is dulled, his silver hair plastered to his forehead with sweat. A crimson flush colors his cheeks, but not from wine this time—no, it's from the fever that’s had him whining and moaning for hours. He coughs dramatically, letting out a moan that echoes through the chamber as if he’s on the brink of death.

Alicent stands at his bedside, her expression a mixture of concern and deep irritation. In her hand, she holds a small vial containing a thick, unpleasant-looking tonic, brought to her by Grand Maester Orwyle. She tries to smile, though it’s clear she’s struggling. “Aegon, you must take this tonic,” she says, her tone firm but coaxing. “It will bring down the fever.”

Aegon grimaces, turning his head to the side as though the very sight of the tonic might poison him on the spot. “No,” he mutters, voice muffled against the pillows. He pulls the blankets up to his chin like a petulant child. “It smells like the dungeons.”

Alicent’s smile tightens, and she takes a breath, clearly summoning her patience. “Aegon, you must be sensible. You’ll feel better once you take it. Orwyle says it will—”

But Aegon interrupts her with a dramatic groan, throwing an arm over his face. “No, Mother, I don’t want *Orwyle’s tonic! It’s foul, and it will probably kill me faster than the fever!” He opens one eye to gauge her reaction and, seeing her unimpressed look, he lets out an even louder groan. “Why don’t you just let me die in peace?”

Alicent's patience snaps, her voice growing sharper. “Aegon, stop being ridiculous. It’s just a tonic.”

Aegon, however, is already gearing up for a proper scene. He shifts dramatically under the covers, clutching his chest with a moan that would rival a dying knight on a battlefield. “I’m going to die, Mother, I can feel it. The fever’s too strong. I can barely lift my head. The end is near!” He pauses for dramatic effect before adding in a pitiful whine, “And if I am to die, I want Y/N here with me!”

Alicent blinks, caught off guard by the sudden shift. “Y/N?” she repeats, as if she can’t quite believe what she’s hearing. “Aegon, you need medicine, not—”

“I need Y/N!” Aegon insists, reaching out to grab his mother’s hand with a feverish desperation. “She knows how to take care of me. She’s warm, and she’ll make me feel better with her presence. And she’ll bring honey cakes!” He glances at the tonic in her hand with a scowl. “Not that awful sludge Orwyle calls medicine.”

Alicent pulls her hand back, her lips thinning into a displeased line. “Aegon, Y/N isn’t a healer. She’s not going to make your fever go away.”

Aegon, determined to be as difficult as possible, shifts to stare up at the ceiling, adopting a pitiful, far-off look. “Then let me waste away. Alone. Unloved. Without the touch of my sweet lioness by my side.”

Alicent pinches the bridge of her nose, taking a deep breath. “Aegon, you are not going to waste away. You have a cold, not greyscale.”

But Aegon is already in his own world of dramatics, ignoring her entirely. He clutches the blankets tighter, his voice dropping to a rasping murmur as if his strength is ebbing away. “Tell her I need her… Tell her it’s my last wish.” He glances sideways at his mother, his lips trembling with a pout that might almost be convincing if it weren’t so exaggerated. “You wouldn’t deny a dying man his last wish, would you, Mother?”

Alicent’s eye twitches, and she takes another breath, visibly trying to keep her composure. “You are not dying, Aegon. You’re being overdramatic.”

But Aegon ignores her, already raising his voice to the empty room. “Someone fetch Y/N!” he calls out to the ceiling. “Bring her here, or I shall succumb to this fever and perish before the day is done! I can feel the darkness closing in…”

Alicent looks heavenward as if praying for patience. She sets the vial of tonic down on the bedside table with a decisive thud, her expression turning steely. “Fine,” she says through gritted teeth. “I will send for Y/N, if it will stop you from this nonsense. But you will take the tonic when she arrives.”

Aegon’s face immediately brightens, his sudden smile undermining all his previous complaints. “Oh, thank you, Mother! You won’t regret it. Y/N will make everything better, you’ll see.”

Alicent gives him a tight smile that looks more like a grimace. “Yes, I’m sure she will,” she mutters, turning on her heel and leaving the chamber with an air of resignation. She doesn’t bother to hide the annoyance in her stride, the sharp click of her heels echoing through the hall as she goes to find the only person capable of soothing her impossible son.

As soon as she’s out of sight, Aegon relaxes back into the pillows with a contented sigh, a satisfied smile curling his lips. He reaches for the goblet of water by his bed and takes a sip, already picturing the way you’ll fuss over him and bring him sweet treats to “help with his strength.” For Aegon, being pampered by you is the cure to any illness—no tonic required.

You sweep into Aegon’s chambers with a swirl of your golden skirts, exuding the warm energy of someone who has absolutely no idea how to take care of a fever but is determined to make a show of it. Aegon, who is propped up in bed like a tragic hero, immediately brightens when he sees you. He looks as pitiful as ever, a blanket draped over his shoulders and a dramatic flush on his cheeks. The moment you step through the door, he gives a loud, exaggerated sigh of relief.

“Oh, Y/N, you’re finally here!” he croaks, though his voice is suspiciously more robust than it was when Alicent was present. He reaches out a hand to you, his expression one of desperate longing. “I feared I would perish before you arrived.”

You smile indulgently, sitting yourself on the edge of the bed and taking his hand in yours, patting it as if he’s a fragile, wilting flower. “Oh, Aegon, don’t be so dramatic. I’m sure you’ll make a full recovery,” you reply sweetly, though there’s a teasing glint in your eyes. “But I brought honey cakes just in case.”

Aegon’s expression lights up immediately, and he clutches your hand even tighter. “See? You understand me better than anyone. You know exactly what I need.” He leans back against his pillows, looking thoroughly pleased with himself. “I’ve been telling Mother that you are my cure.”

You cast a look over your shoulder, catching Alicent’s displeased expression as she lingers by the doorway, but you offer her a serene smile. “It’s only natural for a wife-to-be to tend to her betrothed, Your Grace.”

Alicent’s expression tightens, but before she can respond, there’s the sound of footsteps approaching, and Aemond strides into the room, his boots clicking sharply against the stone floor. He takes in the scene with a raised brow, his single eye sweeping over you and Aegon in bed, with Alicent hovering nearby looking thoroughly exasperated. Aemond’s lips twitch in what might have been amusement, though his tone is as dry as ever.

“I heard that my brother was on his deathbed,” Aemond says, a slight edge of mockery in his voice as he crosses his arms and looks down at Aegon. “But it seems he’s found his miracle cure.”

Aegon, never one to miss a chance to exaggerate, clutches your hand to his chest with renewed fervor. “Oh, Aemond, it was terrible. The fever—it was like dragonfire coursing through my veins. I thought I wouldn’t make it through the night!” He glances over at you, batting his lashes in a way that he probably thinks is charming. “But now that Y/N is here, I feel hope returning to me.”

You play along with a sympathetic look, pressing a cool cloth to Aegon’s forehead as if that might truly stave off the fever. “He’s been so brave, Aemond,” you say, though there’s a teasing lilt to your voice. “But I think he just needs a bit of pampering. And perhaps a few more of these honey cakes.”

Aemond rolls his eye, clearly unimpressed by the theatrics. He looks from you to Aegon with a resigned expression, then sighs. “Brother, you’ve caught a cold, not the Grey Plague. Surely even you can endure a little discomfort without turning it into a full-blown tragedy.”

Aegon shoots his brother a wounded look, releasing your hand to point accusingly in Aemond’s direction. “You just don’t understand, Aemond! You’re all… stoic and serious. You wouldn’t know what it’s like to suffer through this kind of agony.” He lets out another dramatic sigh, letting his head fall back against the pillows. “But Y/N understands. She knows how to take care of me.”

You pat Aegon’s hand again, your smile turning a little smug as you glance at Aemond. “Well, I can’t fault him for wanting a little comfort in his time of need, can I, Aemond? Surely you wouldn’t begrudge him that.”

Aemond’s gaze flickers with barely concealed amusement. “Oh, I don’t begrudge him anything, Y/N. I merely question whether he is truly in as much peril as he claims to be.” He arches a brow at Aegon, who is now picking at the edge of a honey cake, nibbling on it like a spoiled child.

Aegon, catching his brother’s skeptical look, scowls and quickly adopts a pitiful expression, pressing the cloth to his head as though that might convince Aemond of his dire condition. “You see? Even now, my head is pounding. I’m practically burning up! Feel my forehead, Y/N. It’s like touching the sun.”

You humor him, pressing your hand to his forehead with the most serious expression you can manage. “Hmm,” you murmur thoughtfully, as if considering a grave diagnosis. “Yes, it’s very warm indeed. It’s a wonder you’ve survived this long, Aegon.”

Aegon beams at your attention, thoroughly delighted by your pampering. “See, Aemond? Y/N understands. She’s the only one who truly cares about me.”

Aemond, however, just rolls his eye again, his expression one of long-suffering endurance. “If you’ve truly caught a fever, brother, then you should rest and stop talking so much.” He glances pointedly at the untouched vial of tonic on the bedside table. “And perhaps actually take the medicine that Orwyle prepared for you instead of relying solely on sweets.”

Aegon makes a face, shoving the tonic aside with a weak swipe of his hand. “I told you, that stuff is poison. I won’t drink it.” He turns to you, eyes wide and imploring. “You wouldn’t want me to suffer through that awful stuff, would you, Y/N?”

You offer Aegon a conspiratorial smile, tapping a finger to your lips. “Well, perhaps if you’re very good, I’ll bring you something that tastes better. A little wine, maybe?”

Aemond’s eye narrows at you both, clearly exasperated. “Yes, because what you need right now is more wine,” he mutters under his breath, though you catch the faintest twitch of his lips.

But Aegon’s already nodding eagerly, looking far more animated than any feverish man has a right to be. “Yes, yes, that’s what I need. Wine and Y/N. The two best remedies in the realm.”

Alicent, who has been silent but watching the entire exchange with a tightly controlled expression, finally speaks up, her voice clipped. “Aegon, please. Stop behaving like a child.”

Aegon gives her a wounded look, but his grip on your hand tightens as though you’re his only tether to this world. “But Mother, Y/N is taking such good care of me. Can’t you see how much better I feel already?” He turns his gaze back to you, his voice dropping to a more pitiful tone. “Y/N, don’t leave me. I need you.”

You give Aegon a reassuring pat, your tone soothing. “I wouldn’t dream of leaving you, Aegon. Not until you’re feeling better.” Then, casting a look over your shoulder at Aemond, you add with a playful smile, “Besides, it’s not every day I get to dote on a king.”

Aemond meets your gaze, his mouth twisting into something resembling a smirk. “Indeed. Though I can’t say it’s doing wonders for his dignity.”

Aegon ignores the jab entirely, snuggling deeper into his blankets, content to have you by his side and blissfully unaware of the thinly veiled amusement on Aemond’s face—or the deep irritation on his mother’s. And you, for your part, settle in for what promises to be a thoroughly entertaining afternoon.

[sendpseuds]

[because you’re not the only one who needed a fuck, marry, kill part two]

“Well, I’m glad to hear you wouldn’t kill me.”

Despite years of fighting beside every man around that table, Anakin is certain he’s never seen them move so fast.

In an instant he’s alone, stuck to his seat with fear and deep mortifying shame as he takes in the unreadable expression on Obi-Wan’s face.

“Master, it’s not what it sounds like,” he blurts out hastily, desperately trying to remember exactly what he’d said and formulate a reasonable explanation, “It’s just a stupid game.”

“I am aware of the concept,” Obi-Wan replies matter-of-factly, folding his arms over his chest and leaning against the doorway, “You forget, I was young once.”

Despite his frequent teasing, Anakin has never thought of Obi-Wan as old, though he does do his best to avoid thinking about what he must have been like as a younger man [especially given some of the stories he’s heard against his will.]

“You haven’t given your answer,” Obi-Wan says coolly, his head tilted slightly to side, his striking silver stare sharp and suffocating.

“I— I haven’t—“ Anakin stutters, struggling to school his muddled mind into some semblance of coherent thought, “What?”

“Fuck, marry, kill.”

Anakin doesn’t think he’s ever heard Obi-Wan say the word fuck before and he finds it an impossibility to suppress the shiver that single syllable sends down his spine.

“I— I don’t know.”

“You don’t know,” Obi-Wan repeats flatly, one eyebrow quirked in questioning curiosity, “Oh yes, I remember, you require clarification.” His eyes flash with wild amusement, his tone teasing and bordering on cruel as he pushes away from the door frame and takes one terrifying step forward.

“Tell me,” he continues consideringly as the door slides shut behind him, the air in the room suddenly sweltering, “Would you really trade a sexless marriage with the perfect husband for the chance to fuck him once?”

Not for the first time — that word so sinful in the man’s mouth — Anakin wishes he could simply become one with the Force.

“I’m sorry, Master—“ Anakin rushes to apologize, desperate for anything to excuse the horrible twisting truth of the words he’d spoken, “I’ve been drinking, I’m not thinking straight, you were never meant to hear—“

“Anakin.”

Usually, when Obi-Wan says his name it makes his heart leap— this time, it feels like sinking.

“Please, don’t hate me,” Anakin sobs, burying his head in his hands and shaking his head like he might be able to shake the mortification— like he might be able to wake himself from this nightmare, “I’m so sorry—“

“Anakin,” Obi-Wan repeats, his tone firm and commanding, the voice of a battle hardened general and not Anakin’s kind and caring master, “Look at me.”

He doesn’t.

He can’t

Even when he feels warm, calloused fingers graze gently along the sharp line of his jaw.

“I’m so sorry.”

Strong thick fingers twist in the soft short curls at the base of Anakin’s skull and tug. Hard. Hard enough to wrench his head back, tears springing to his eyes as they fly open to find Obi-Wan hovering over him, staring down with wild eyes so dark, Anakin barely recognizes the man.

“You really think anyone could wake up to Anakin Skywalker in their bed and not want to fuck you?”

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[dionpierre]

EXHALE

The last leg of your world tour has finally arrived, and you find yourself suffering from burnout. Thankfully, your boyfriend knows just how to rejuvenate you.

— [Content Warnings]: fluff, smut, cursing, descriptions of same sex relations (male oral), kissing.

As requested, EXHALE is here, and I hope that it meets the expectations of the anon who requested it (albeit, very apparent revisions have been made). This is my first smut, so feedback and constructive criticism will definitely be appreciated. I did my best to proofread, but if you happen upon any grammatical errors and such, please try and excuse them.

I have several other smuts lined up, but I am still very open to suggestions! [Please do keep in mind that I am more comfortable with writing MxM smuts].

Thank you for reading, and enjoy.

— APD 🧸

You push into the dressing room, closing the door behind you. The silence inside feels stifling, the lingering scent of sweat and stale air clinging to the cramped space. Your back hits the door, and you drag a calloused palm over your face, fingers pressing into your tired eyes. You wish you were anywhere else—maybe at Terry's small apartment in southern Louisiana, the scent of pine and tobacco in the air, cuddling as you watched horror movies in his dimly lit bedroom. The weight of his strong arms around you, the gentle rasp of his gravelly voice brushing against your ear, would be enough to drown out the deafening echoes of chaos closing in on you now.

You weakly lift yourself off the door, moving to the vanity mirrors. A stray bottle of whiskey rests idly on the dresser, beckoning to you. Plopping into a chair, you snatch the bottle by its neck, twisting off the cap and taking a long, deliberate swig. You snarl as the whiskey cooks the flesh in your throat, hoping that the tipsiness you're chasing will be enough to fill the time until Terry arrives from the hotel to pick you up.

There's a heat searing through your back. Your eyes flutter open, and you sleepily lift your head from resting on your arms. After blinking away the grogginess, a familiar figure manifests before you. It's Terry, kneeling at your side, brows knitted together in concern. The usual sharpness of his hazel-blue eyes has softened into a tender gaze. He rakes it over your figure, inspecting you for any signs of harm. Finally, his eyes lock with yours, and a charged silence passes between you two.

He gives a terse nod, as if he'd suspected your frustrations from a mile away. The palm on your back snakes up to your shoulder, giving it a firm squeeze.

You could burst into tears. This night has been the culmination of an impending burnout. Since your first platinum record, the world has been pulling you in all sorts of directions. There are millions of expectations to meet, creating an unbearable weight you feel can only be lifted by giving up.

But your salvation is here, just as he's always been—and his broad shoulders are more than ready to bear this cross with you. You can see it in the way he bites down on his jaw, chewing on a quiet determination to never let you fall anywhere except into his arms. A shuddery breath leaves your nostrils involuntarily, and you feel the familiar sting of salty moisture welling in your eyes.

Terry is alert, moving to scoop you into an embrace. It isn't until the wide expanse of his chest presses against yours, and his careful hands trace the outline of your body, that you realize how touch-deprived you are. It causes a shiver to course through your veins, highlighting how perfectly your frames mold together. Your arms find his back and pull him impossibly close, burying your face in the nook of his neck.

You breathe in his scent—a tender, masculine fragrance with earthy undertones, which only serves to enhance his already grounding nature. After another moment, you reluctantly pull apart, hands still braced on shoulders.

Terry catches a stray tear with his thumb, banishing it from your face as if to rebuke your sadness itself.

He hates to see you like this, you can tell. You take his hand in yours, in adoration of his empathetic ways. After all, the man is hardly anything but an overgrown teddy bear despite his militant stature.

He holds your gaze for a second longer before abruptly pressing his lips against yours. Terry is as impatient as he is caring—you've learned that in the years of your relationship—and you don't fault him. You relish in the fullness of his lips as they move to suck on your bottom one before retracting with a soft smack.

"Ready to go?" Terry rasps, that velvety baritone voice barely above a whisper.

You give a small nod and croak, "As I'll ever be."

"Sit down. I'll run you a bath."

Terry's words are just as gentle as they are commanding. You oblige, taking a seat on the edge of the bed. He moves to store your things away, hauling them into the closet space. His tall frame bends down as he works, boasting a perfect arch molded by disciplined trips to the gym. Your lips can't help but crease into a smirk as you watch his posteriors spread.

Once the task is complete, he straightens up and turns toward you. Your smirk doesn't dissolve in time, and he catches on just before you try to mask it. He smiles and laughs, a thunderous rumble from the back of his throat. His teeth flash white against his tan skin, and crow's feet tug at the corners of his eyes, showcasing a wholesome sexiness that can't be denied.

"So we lookin' at asses now?" He cocks a brow, smirk never quite leaving his face as he stalks toward the bed. He plops down beside you, his weight causing the bed to groan.

You look at him, an incredulous scoff. "Are you saying I can't?"

"Are those the words that came out of my mouth?" He quips, sprawling out on the mattress, tucking his hands behind his head.

You release a laugh at his apparent sassiness and roll your eyes. "Aren't you supposed to be drawing a bath for me?"

Although you feign irritation, there's no real malice poisoning your tone. You actually appreciate the playful banter, as it serves to lift the thick fog of sadness you're under tonight. It always surprises you, how easily Terry pulls you out of your head, even when you're fighting to stay buried in your own frustrations.

Terry leans up, scooting to your side. "I am. But I figured you'd like to talk first."

You respond immediately, your words sharper than intended. "About?"

"Baby," Terry whines, his words lilting with that low, southern drawl. It's a subtle plea for honesty—and just as he is meek, he is also assured in knowing that he deserves nothing less. An arm snakes around your waist, pulling you close. "Don't do me that."

Once again, you find yourself fighting against admitting your failures from tonight. Saying them out loud will only make it all—the shame, the exhaustion—undeniably real. While it is pride, it is equally fear. Terry knows that. He firmly squeezes the dip of your waist, as if to stress the notion. He's right here with you, for you.

You can't deny him any longer, and soon the words start welling up, flowing uninhibitedly. As you speak, Terry is attentive, soaking up the stream of pained explanations as best as possible. Like an angel receiving a prayer, the knowledge that he's listening is nearly the only comfort you need. But his graces aren't limited to only one sense; touch is just as viable.

Terry's hands instinctively find yours, fingers braiding with your own. As you conclude your rant, he lifts them toward his lips, pressing a soft kiss on the back of your palm.

"I'm proud of you," he mutters, locking gazes with you. "But don't be so hard on yourself."

You scoff brashly.

"I'm serious," Terry's voice is firm, leaving no room for protest. "You've been busting your ass nonstop. This was inevitable."

You dismiss him with a sigh and shake of your head. "I just need to step it up."

"You're not listening," Terry says flatly, tone laced with a barely perceptible frustration. He takes your chin in between his thumb and index finger, angling your head toward him so that you are forced to feel the heat in his steady gaze. "The only thing you need to do is slow down."

Your body stills at those words. Slow down. All signs proved them to be true—the pressure in your head is persistent, and there's a tightness in your chest. Your muscles are aflame, burning for recovery. But despite all of this, a conflict still wars within you. Slowing down would mean admitting that you're not as invincible as you'd promised yourself. You'd taken on this tour full throttle, driven by a determination to prove (to who, you're not even sure anymore), that you could push through anything.

Yet, deep down, you know that this pace is unsustainable. The exhaustion, the faltering notes on stage—it's all catching up to you. But giving in, even a little, feels like letting go of the last bit of control you have left.

As if sensing your hesitation, Terry huffs and stands from the bed. He stretches his palm, motioning for you to grab ahold of it. "C'mon."

You glance up. "What?"

"Get up," he commands you. "We'll bath together."

Laughter, soft and hushed, escapes you. "Terrence—"

Terry interjects, his voice a clear warning. "Get up, or I'll make you. I ain't about to watch you do this to yourself."

You know he means every word spoken. The conviction riding in the base in his voice slowly, but surely dismantles your pride. With your eyes on his, you take his hand and allow yourself to be guided from the bed.

God, how did you manage to find a man like Terry Richmond?

Leaning against the doorframe of the bathroom, you watch as Terry kneels at the tub, agitating the soap suds rising from the steaming water with his hand. The muscles in his back flex as he twists off the faucet. He flicks the soaked hand over the tub before standing and turning toward you. There's a magnetic pull between you, both of you resisting the urge to make the first move.

Your mouth curves into a grateful half-smile, and Terry returns the gesture, releasing a breathy chuckle.

"You're far," he mutters, his gaze sweeping over you. "Why?"

You laugh inwardly, knowing the remark is both a question and a demand. Arms folded across your chest, you start toward him, your bare feet padding across the pristine tile. His eyes stay wired to you, glimmering in a way that complements the suggestive smugness on his face. You leave just enough space between you to tease him, because why not?

As expected, Terry is unamused. His smirk drops into an irritated grimace, warning you not to stand in the way of what he wants. But you're just as stubborn as he is impatient.

"C'mere," he tells you.

Feeling bold, you retort, "Or what? You'll make me?"

"No," Terry murmurs, "I'll just come to you."

Before the words fully escape his lips, he's already cornering you against the sink. Heat radiates from his body, his bull-like breath tickling your skin. Whatever sparks were flying earlier have now raged into full-blown wildfires, setting you ablaze with an all-consuming hunger. You need this—you need him.

Your breath hitches as Terry grips your hips, pulling your body flush against his. "Water's gonna go cold, fuckin' around with you."

Whatever reply you have is swallowed by a fervent, insatiable kiss. Staggering against the sink, Terry's tongue wages war against yours, and you're reminded that teddy bears are still bears. You can only repay his passion with feeble attempts to match his intensity. You're his jar of honey, and he's determined to devour every drop, tugging at your lips until they swell.

All your earlier troubles begin to melt away as Terry's lips move down your neck, leaving a trail of hot, open-mouthed kisses. Your hand instinctively claws at his back, your hips bucking toward his. The harmonic tension of his panting fuels your arousal, and you quickly pull your shirt over your head, discarding it to the floor. Terry takes care of the rest, unfastening your pants in one swift motion. You lift your legs to help, and he shucks them off with ease.

When he finds your collarbone, you think he won't go any lower—but he proves you wrong, nipping and sucking his way down. The man is a master at foreplay, his rough tongue flicking over your nipple while his fingers pinch and twist the other.

A guttural groan rips from deep within you, your body melting into the sensation. You're like clay in Terry's broad hands, allowing him to mold you into the relaxation he's intent on making you feel. Your hands enclose around the back of his shaven head, and you heatedly whisper his name—unsure if it's a plea for him to let up or never stop.

The sound of his name on your lips is like throwing gasoline on a fire. Terry hums against your skin, his deep voice vibrating through you as he trails his lips lower, venturing to your abdomen. His fingers dig into your waist with a possessive grip. He's on his knees now, ravenously lapping at the defined trail of hair leading down from your navel. The heat from his breath is agonizingly close to the waistband of your briefs, and a shiver races down your spine at the thought of what comes next.

He glances up, weighing the hesitance in your eyes. His hand presses gently against the small of your back as he reassures you, "You're okay. Just let me get you right."

You've never seen him so submissive, and yet somehow, he's managed to keep his signature dominance intact. He's still the captain of this ship, sailing the seas of ecstasy until he delivers you to the promising shores of climax. You have no choice but to ride along and let him take you there—to the place your body has so desperately wanted to go since the tour's inception. You then nod, giving him permission he doesn't need but has earned.

On cue, Terry hooks his fingers into the elastic of your briefs, slowly tugging them down. His eyes never leave yours, locking you into the moment as the cool air brushes over your exposed skin.

As the fabric clambers to your ankles, Terry ogles the sight before him. He's not one for wasting time, and without a word, his lips smooch along the outline of your hardening length. It's a slow, tantalizing graze down to the head. You writhe at the contact, but he doesn't react immediately—clearly wanting to draw this out.

But you're desperate and ready for him to close the gap. You part your lips, a breathless plea barely escaping them when Terry finally makes the move. He presses his mouth against the head before enveloping you in a slow, torturous manner that makes your knees buckle.

Without breaking eye contact, Terry hooks a hand around the base of your shaft, stroking slowly as his tongue flicks over the tip. His thumb rubs gently where the elastic had bitten into your skin, soothing the grooves there. You barely have time to register the sensation before his lips move further down your length, his mouth stretching as he takes more of you in.

Your hand instinctively reaches for his head, but Terry is still in control. He tightens his grip on your hips, silently commanding you to stay still.

Terry's movements grow more intense, and your hand slips to his shoulders for stability. Without warning, he pulls you deeper into his mouth, his throat tightening around you. Your body convulses, and a ragged moan erupts from your belly. Terry holds you there, hands gripping your waist firmly, and you know there's no way out until he’s confident he has delivered you.

When he finally pulls back, the cool air hits your wet skin, and you're left panting. But he doesn't stop. He wipes his lips with the back of his palm, watching your reaction, before diving back in. His hands grip your thighs, pulling you closer, forcing you to surrender completely to him.

You feel the heat rising, your face flushed and body ready to give in. You beg him to finish you off, but Terry only hums in response, savoring the power he has over you.

It’s a sickening sexual cruelty, but he eventually picks up speed again, working you harder and faster. At last, climax crashes over you. You erupt with a booming cry, rivaling the roar of fanatics and audiences you entertain. Terry takes you well, welcoming the hot spurts of spend that’d been pent up inside you.

When he finally releases you, you're left gasping, barely able to stand. Terry rises to his feet, his lips glistening, and pulls you into a rough kiss. You can taste yourself, and it only serves to turn you on even further.

He smirks down at you, his breath heavy against your skin, before murmuring, "Told you I'd get you right."

The water in the tub remains a comfortable temperature, and the suds haven’t completely dissipated. Terry cradles you from behind, your body situated in between his legs. He swiftly dips the washcloth beneath the surface before bringing it across your back, gently bathing you, just as he promised he would. Your eyes flutter closed, and you cock your head backward to rest on his shoulder.

Terry takes the opportunity to kiss along your shoulders, and a familiar electricity shoots through you, reminding you that you’re still processing the pleasure. There’s a quiet stillness in the bathroom, sharply contrasting with the wet, obscene sounds that were bouncing off the walls several minutes ago. You bask in it—in everything.

Terry kept his word to you, which will undoubtedly deepen trust and add an all new layer to your relationship. What isn’t new, however, is the care and concern that he displayed tonight. Rather it is renewed in each time he finds you functioning below normal.

You don’t need to look to know that your boyfriend is surveying you, clearly curious about your state of being at the moment. A warm smile stretches over your face, and you angle your head to display it to Terry. He returns the gesture with a grin of his own, visibly reassured.

Terry resumes his acts of love, lulling you into relaxation. You find the pressure in your head has lifted, and your once tight chest is now loose, rising and falling naturally. You glance back at the man again, never having to make a request. His lips find yours, and finally, you can exhale.

[anyaeras]

Moya litttle spider || N.Romanoff

Pairing || vampire Natasha Romanoff x AFAB reader

Warning || smut! ,, they/them pronouns ,, reader has a pussy ,, loss of virginity ,, innocent kink (kinda) ,,  possessive ,, a little manipulation ,, Russian usage 

Summary  || y/n was a vampire hunter in their village ,  ended up being fucked by the queen.

FYI || this is short and just smut plus I spent 20 min on it

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Y/n was a hunter, a human hunter at that, known for being ever so brave, the society was split between multiple species, vampires, being one of the dominating species. humans seemed to be on the lower end of the totem pole and would wallow in fear, cowering down to the enhanced.

Tonight was no different than most, y/n was out with the rest of the hunters in the community, their human town was small, but well-kept, and they did well making a system which became their way of living, a few selective people became hunters each person had a different reason for why they were a hunter, which was the most dangerous job, being a Hunter meant constantly putting your life on the line in order to protect your people, most despised the thought of anybody going through that, yet y/n had no one to care for them anyway, their parents were preoccupied, and they never made any friends, they lived as the "wanderer" inside their small town.

"Come on get your shit and let's go, we need to be quick" Kent called out, he was a tall and large man, he was in charge of the hunters for this community, yelling specifically at y/n, they hadn't meant to fall behind just it was a lot for someone their size to carry, that's what they get for being a hunter, shit they only even took this job to try and prove they were worth something to their parents, to show they were just as good as their brothers....

Running to keep up, already a few steps behind y/n was able to catch up to the rest of the squad.

"Draw your weapons" was ordered after a quick rumble with heard between the bushes. Y/n was fumbling with their bow, proceeding to just brush it off and go for a dagger, removing it from their leg holder. Yet in a flash it seemed something had pulled the weapon away. There y/n watched as the whole team ran, fleeing from the situation, leaving no help or communication with y/n, who out of absolute instant stumble back tripping over a long root, cause them to tumble to the ground, as the hunter was trying to pull themself together getting up to run following their group a lengthy hand was felt grasping their arm , panic set in quickly, now holding no weapons having no way to fight back, all y/n could do was try and run, yet due to the firm grasp it seemed the attempts were absolutely pointless, finally the creature who had a hold on y/n flip them around becoming face-to-face with a vampire...not just a vampire clearly a royal vampire.

"Aren't you a little small to be a hunter Дорогой" the red headed women who stood tall above y/n spoke down to them.

Y/n was in a pickle that was for damn sure, no place to run, the idea that this was the end and that this vile creature who stood before them whom might they add was extremely pretty for being a vampire....well what was y/n to compare it to it's not like they've met any other vampires, the only had any idea about them due to story's which have been told throughout the community....but that's besides the point.

"I am not, I am just as capable to be a hunter as any of those men" every small ounce of braveness was pulled from their body as they stood as tall as they possible could in front of the much larger women.

"Aren't you cute, well I'm sure you are just as strong as those big bad men, but maybe even braver they just took off and left you here for me, isn't that right Дорогой" the soft voice was taunting to the young hunter, yet there was nothing they could do about it, the vampire had moved closer one hand reached under y/n's jaw forcing them to look up at the vampire meeting eye to eye.

Y/n tried to pull away but was to no success, being held in a state with the vampire.

"You smell....devine" Natasha's raspy tone was echoing in y/n's head, yet it was quick when Natasha made a move, pushing her lips into y/n's which when y/n didn't entirely pull away a smirk was stuck to her Crimson lips.

"Don't tell me, you enjoy the big scary vampire kissing your lips? Mmm?" The tall vampire teased get a firm "never"' from the human, but that didn't stop her, moving her kisses lower finally to her delight a strangled moan slipped prompting Natasha to go on, something was drawing her to the human clearly going to keep the small being.

"Y/n tell me are you a virgin?" The supernatural asked stoping the sloppy kissed abruptly to ask, noticing y/n's heart race increase telling they were about to lie

"No, I-I'm not" y/n tried to keep a straight face and seem confident in the lie yet the tell tale signs would clearly give y/n away.

"Would you like to say the truth now? Or will I have to do it for you?" The vampire stated with almost a cold expression, which cause the humans cheeks to rush to a rosey shade, the long skinny hands of Natasha started to rome y/n'a body, slipping down into the waistline of their pants feeling the soft underwear material slightly damp causing the women to let out a small laugh.

"Wow for a human who came to kill me, you seen wildly turned on" the teasing only turned y/n's face an even darker shade of red, while Natasha fingers moved pushing past their panties to run her fingers between their folds, coating her cold long fingers in y/n's warm juices, the action caused a choked moan to slip out from them only leading Natasha to smirk.

"Look at you doing so well for your first Дорогой (darling) you will be such a good pet for me, you'll like the castle, it's so much better than the village you come from" Natasha's words went right past y/n, the new found feeling of pleaser overtook their thought process.

Slowly Natasha kept going enjoying how y/n was reacting, getting them hot and bothered while their cunt was just dripping, easily only one finger slipped into y/n, causing them to Yelp at this brand new feeling

"My oh my y/n tell me doesn't that feel good, letting me play with your virgin cunt, you seemed to be enjoying it" Natasha pushed on thrusting the one finger in and out before adding a second one making y/n back arch

"Oh my god, please please don't...don't stop" y/n pleaded with Natasha the pleasure of being penetrated was mind blowing, y/n didn't have it in them to think logically about the fact a vampire was fingering their pussy, all they could do was melt into her hold.

Natasha speed up the movement of her fingers yet when the feeling of needed to Piss came over them they tried their best to push away from the supernatural.

"N-no please stop...gotta pee" the words made the vampire laugh, she then saw how innocent her pet was.

"Shh no, just let go" Natasha said keeping her voice soft, while her free hand moved from supporting y/n who also was leaning in a tree, to placing pressure on their clit. With all the motion y/n was thrown over the edge with a long moan, y/n's cum flushed onto Natasha fingers, yet the vampire didn't remove herself from their pussy until they had a moment to come down from their high, the vampire held the human up with one arm, removing her other hand from their pants licking her fingers clean before turning back to y/n.

"You'll be such, a good good pet Мой маленький паук (my little spider)

[the-hype-on-tv]

i was chatting with a friend who happens to be trans and she was telling me how people mistakenly think that changing sex can affect who you're attracted to, and that gave me an idea for a superbat fic:

bruce gets temporarily turned into a biological woman out of magic (yes cliche i know) and sleeps with clark

the following dialogue ensues:

"You have no idea how long I've wanted to do this for." Bruce's unfamiliar body snuggled against Clark's. It felt like home. The man lifts his head and sends him a look.

"Then why didn't you?" His deep sapphire eyes are filled with numerous questions. "You could have asked before."

Bruce let out a cynical laugh. If he had his original body, Clark would be terrified to see his colleague do so. But at that moment he couldn't help but frown, lips pursed.

"I'm serious, Bruce."

The woman Clark sees changes his expression suddenly. His thin mouth was now a straight line, like Batman's.

"Clark, I am straight." The kryptonian raises an eyebrow. "Only now that I am experiencing this body transformation it would make sense to have this."

It was Clark's time to laugh, but he held his free hand to his mouth. In the dark, Bruce could vaguely make up the shapes around him, but he heard his friend's snicker with clarity.

"Bruce, that's not... That's not how it works." The grin on his face was sickening. The Bat rolled his eyes and kept his glance down, annoyed.

"How is it not? I've been attracted to women my whole life, I should know what my preferences are."

Clark sighed, a condescending look on his face that was the brightest light in the room.

"Didn't you say you wanted this for a while now? Even before this..." His hand touched his partner's new body like a feather sliding down his abs, thinner than before, but just as firm. "...Happened?"

Bruce nodded. His eyelashes flickered as he waited for a conclusion, but it came from his own brain rather than Clark's voice.

How had he been so blind? No, this has to be a mistake, unless...

Bruce closes his eyes and his face goes red. Biting into his lower lip and hiding his face under the soft pillow, realization dawns upon him: he's still attracted to women. Which can only mean--

"I'm not straight." The pillow muffles his raspy voice, but Clark understands him perfectly. "I can't believe... How could I have missed this?"

A strong hand lands on his silky hair, dark as the night, stroking it gently until the pretty face comes out of its hideout. His face is still pink, but he doesn't care. Clark loves it like that.

Clark has always loved it.

[ploompkin]

Idk whether I’ll have time to finish this, but…! Here- just a teaser of what could maybe-in-future be a full fic. Based on @ohsayit ‘s scenario I reblogged earlier 🤭

Summary: You steal Zevlor’s shirt. He wants it back. …And he’s willing to fight for it.

Pairing: (gender neutral) Zevlor/Reader ; Zevlor/Tav

Rating: T

Cw(s): Suggestive!! General sauciness, but nothing explicit.

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“Tav.” Zevlor reaches out his hand, stance firm. “I need it. Give it here. Now, please.”

You prop your chin up on your knuckles, elbows on your knees, smug, because despite the irritation in his voice you can tell by his face that the sight of the oversized sleeves swallowing up your hands has him smitten.

With the most obnoxious smirk you can manage, you issue the challenge. “Come take it off me yourself.”

He sets his jaw, eyes narrowing dangerously. “You’re sure want to play this game?”

As an answer, you just lean back and undo another button— the shirt now gaping so wide it’s just short of exposing a nipple— and stick the tip of your tongue out. His reaction is priceless, body stiffening as his expression flits between aroused and annoyed too many times to count, until it settles on… neither. He looks at you blankly, and just when you’re wondering whether you’ve finally broken him, he lunges for you. You both fall backwards into your tent as you collide, landing in an awkward heap among the cushions. His initiative is better than yours though, and before you can even think what your next move will be, he has you pinned beneath him by the wrists. Both of your breaths mix, along with your gazes, heated. Then, you brace one foot on his thigh and lock your arms around his shoulder, throwing him off effortlessly- but he’s prepared for that, and immediately breaks into a roll to escape a counter attack, pushing himself up into a crouch. You mimic his stance (not like there’s room to stand in the tent anyway), and eye him warily. His tail swishes from side to side, a playful, but confident smile on his face.

“The shirt, Tav.”

But this is about more than the shirt now. This is about pride.

You lift your chin in defiance. “I’m starting to get attached to it, actually. Think I’ll keep it.”

He growls. “That wasn’t a request.”

“And that wasn’t a surrender.”

“Torm’s tears, you’re so…!—“ He grinds his teeth— “stubborn…!”

You just wink at him. “I am. And that’s why you love me.”

He huffs, but you see the lines of his face soften. Unfortunately though, although he calls you stubborn he’s much the same, and this fight is far from over. He stalks over to you, but before he can get close enough for whatever he has planned, you rush to tackle him at the waist. That proves to be a mistake. You might be agile and have a solid technique, but he has all of that and a set of infuriatingly strong muscles. So, you find yourself underneath him. Again. It’s enough to make your blood boil, irritating you as much as it is very rapidly turning you on— but when his teeth graze against your neck, your body quickly decides to favour the latter. A sigh falls from your lips as he kisses along the sensitive skin, followed by a shiver as he drags his tongue over your pulse, torturously slowly. His body feels so pleasantly firm against yours, and you’re suddenly desperate to have more of him, arching your hips up into his with what you’ll deny is a quiet whine. The adrenaline from the fight transforms into something else entirely, your head spinning with want as he encourages you, rocking against you.

Then, you feel it. Fingers creeping between you two, presumably trying to be stealthy, and moving to undo the rest of the shirt buttons.

Bastard!

Now he’s not expecting your resistance you’re more easily able to reverse your positions, pinning him in place with your thighs, doing your best to ignore the longing ache between them.

“You thought I wouldn’t notice you trying to steal it? Really?”

“Steal!” Zevlor scoffs, “I’m just taking back what is mine.”

“By seducing me.” You lean in closer, smiling sweetly. “What an underhanded technique for such an honourable soldier.”

He scowls at you. “If I remember correctly- and I most certainly do- you flashing me is the whole reason we’re in this mess.”

“Ahh, so it did get you hot and bothered. That’s good to know.”

“I’m only a man, Tav.” He grumbles. “I can hardly be blamed for it.”

“No.” Your smile widens, “but you can be for your actions. Tackling me into the tent?” You tsk. “Really, Zev. I took you for a gentleman.”

His lips twitch up at the corner, eyes hooded as he watches you. “You seemed to enjoy it well enough.”

Your mouths are only a hairs width apart now, and you can feel each heavy breath he takes as if it were your own. Just for a moment you forget yourself, and swallow thickly. He spots the bob of your throat and chuckles, hand sliding up the back of your neck and threading into your hair.

“One last chance,” he murmurs against your ear. “Return what you stole, and I’ll go easy on you. If not…”

He knows he doesn’t even need to finish the thought; your imagination will do the rest.

“You’re expecting me to beg for your mercy, rider?” He shudders as your lips brush, and your tongue darts out to kiss his lower lip. “Dream on.”

You groan lowly as his hands grab onto your hips, claws sinking in just shy of drawing blood.

“Mrag, your insolence knows no bounds.” A dark laugh tickles your cheek. “Very well. But don’t blame me if come tomorrow morning you regret it.”

[yujo-nishimura]

Red Hair or Red Nose? - Part 4

You guys are all amazing; thank you for reading and therefore motivating me to continue writing. This all starts off very slow, but I enjoy the tension between the characters and the slow development of this triangle... Part 5 coming tomorrow!

Feeling overwhelmed by the dominating presence of both Shanks and Buggy and their brainless masculinity, you instinctively attempt to break free from their grasp. Sensing your resistance, Shanks swiftly releases his hold on you, recognizing your denial. However, Buggy, less attuned to your boundaries, continues to hold onto your face, his grip remaining firm.

“You are both quite annoying. Nothing has changed. Me leaving the ship had no impact on both of you!”, you assert, directing your words squarely at Buggy while a laugh escapes your lips.

Shanks joins in with laughter, and as the sound fills the air, a moment of realization dawns upon Buggy. For a moment his clown face is frozen in shock. The signs of recognition and understanding become evident.

“Y/N!” he exclaims, immediately letting go of your face, detaching his body parts in surprise again. Shanks continues to laugh uncontrollably, clutching onto his glass and ordering three more drinks from the perplexed bartender, not following the communication at all. 

“Y/N! It is really you! Oh my god, why didn't you tell me, Shanks, you bastard?”

“How could you not realize, Buggy?” 

"But Y/N... you've grown so much!" Buggy exclaims, his gaze lingering on your chest, causing you to blush in embarrassment. Reacting swiftly to his inappropriate comment, you slap him across the face, much to Shanks' amusement, enjoying himself to the fullest.

"Just because I am a woman doesn't make me any less of a strong pirate captain compared to the two of you!" you exclaim, your words laced with determination and a hint of frustration. Memories of the past resurface, reminding you of the gender-based assignments you were often given aboard Gold D. Roger's ship, where cleaning and cooking tasks were expected of you. However, you refuse to let men judge your strength and power based on your appearance. You have a loyal crew, you've made it to the Grand Line, and your gender will not hinder you from competing with these renowned captains seated beside you. Especially if one of them was just a pervy clown!

Shanks, who finally has stopped laughing and already consumed a considerable amount of  Whiskey in a short span of time, speaks now in his usual calm manner: 

 “I am so glad to see you again, Y/N. And you appear like you have made remarkable progress.. I never doubted your potential, but I couldn't help but worry about you, venturing out there all on your own.”

"I have a crew," you retort firmly, your voice brimming with conviction. "We are a team of five at this point!"

Now it is Buggy who erupts into laughter at your response, his amusement echoing in the air. 

"Five people?" That's even fewer than that damned Straw Hat crew! How on earth are you still alive, sweetheart?" he jeers, his words stinging deep within you, striking a chord of defeat.

Yes, it was true that not many were willing to follow a female captain, and five may not have been a large number. But you had just embarked on your journey, and you were grateful for the loyal men who stood by your side.

The effects of the alcohol, combined with the emotional sting of Buggy's comment, overwhelmed you. Without uttering another word, you rose from your seat, determined to put an end to their childish behavior. You are fed up.  You've moved on from the past, and it's time they understood that.

As you turn towards the door, a sudden touch on your wrist startles you. Buggy's detached hand firmly grasps your wrist, refusing to let you go.

"I am sorry..." Buggy's apology sounds strained, his voice carrying a scratch of regret. 

As you turn around, you witness Shanks holding his sword, pointing it directly at Buggy. Shanks, ever the voice of reason, has stepped in to maintain control over Buggy's volatile temper. He does not want you to leave. 

“He is sorry. And so am I. Have one more drink with us and tell us about your adventures, Y/N!”

With a sigh, you come around and slowly return to your seat. The calm and rational demeanor of Shanks has once again persuaded you to reconsider your decision to leave. 

As the evening progresses into the late hours, the effects of the alcohol intensify, and the atmosphere grows increasingly noisy and lively. The three of you become intoxicated, with Shanks proving to be the most resilient drinker among the group. The pub is filled with laughter and animated storytelling. In this state, the barriers between you begin to dissolve, allowing the bonds of the friendship you shared since childhood to be rekindled.

As the clock approaches 3 am, the three of you finally stumble out of the pub. The tired barkeeper, happy about all the money you spent on his place, but exhausted by your laughter and singing, kicks you finally out. 

In a state of lightheartedness, Shanks, Buggy and you begin to sing sea shanties, filling the air with cheerful and drunken melodies as you make your way back to the harbor. To maintain balance and out of affection, you hold onto each other tightly, ensuring that no one stumbles. You feel wonderful. You had missed these two men in your life and you realize this now in your drunken state more than ever. Why did you leave them in the first place? The love and affection you feel for them seems endless at this moment, you remember you have always felt for them like this but now it mixes with a feeling of excitement since these two strong handsome men are holding you in their midst. What a bliss!

Shanks, making sure to walk slowly, holding you tightly and steadily, his shoulder gently pressing against yours. 

Meanwhile, Buggy's hands rest around your hips, his touch radiating heat and conveying a sense of intimacy and desire that contrasts with Shanks' more gentle demeanor. The combination of their touches leaves you feeling lightheaded, overwhelmed with a mixture of joy and excitement. 

"Hey guys, what if we kissed now?" you chuckle, your gaze shifting between Buggy and Shanks, attempting to decipher their reactions. You do not know, why you actually said that.

Buggy's expression morphs into surprise and his eyes widen, while Shanks, taken aback momentarily, raises an eyebrow with a curious glimmer in his eyes. The air around you becomes charged with an unexpected tension as you wait for their response.

To be continued..

[herejusttosufferalong]

Alright, I’ve been an Italy truther for a long time, but I’ve had to readjust my thinking after the live tonight. I am now pretty firm in the fact that they were together in some capacity by the beginning of 2023 (if not a little earlier). There are too many things lining up that don’t point anywhere else. I think L was fully in, but N kept things more at an arms length. She has said she’s cynical about love and honestly I think she was also probably scared by the magnitude of it. My guess is she hid behind her busy schedule filming both Bridgerton and Big Mood and L starting TSOTs as an excuse to keep things more casual. Honestly, I think L getting on Raya and his HBS is more reactionary to this than anything else. It seems like a big game of chicken that went horribly wrong on both sides. N wanted to keep things more casual and al tried to call her bluff.

I think the final straw for a was the Emily Bear incident. She was in too deep and had a glimpse at the negativity and how all of this could hurt their careers which seems like an absolute deal breaker to her. It was also just a smack in the face even though she wouldn’t commit herself. The play is the last time they saw each other before they parted ways. They made sure to do it as friends so as not to affect their working partnership and because they both really love each other.

L was devastated and just dove headfirst into HBS and quickly after him and N parted ways, he met A. She was fun and easy and fit in with his friends. And, maybe most importantly, was the complete opposite of N. He kept it mostly to himself and when him and N checked in and chatted, he never told her he had met one person, just that he was dating. Then the NYE kiss he never intended to get out was broadcast everywhere. This kind of picks up where I originally had thought which is that the early tour weirdness was based on this.

I think what we say Valentines Day on was N and L back together and on a good page thinking they could go forward as friends. They thought they’d found their equilibrium. They were wrong. Bowral showed them how wrong they were. Everything came rushing back once they were out traveling together and spending so much time. L might’ve been upset that N was trying so hard to act like everything was totally fine. I think the Italy convo was more a hashing out of what N was really feeling in 2023 vs what she had previously communicated. Hence why we get them progressively getting loved up and happy the remainder of the tour. I think post Brazil, L and A had a talk that he was still mulling over the rest of the tour.

In Galway, post premiere, when he may or may not have stayed the weekend with her and her family, they had a convo and L told N he was in a relationship with A and he needed to see that through. My guess this was fueled partly by guilt towards A, partly him having real feelings for A (not like he has for N though) and partly cause he was rejected by N previously and was still hurt and also a little reluctant to go down that road again knowing how devastated he was the first time.

N being the strong, badass that she is took it in stride even though she was totally heartbroken. She started to harden her heart back up which is why we see her reacting a little less to L (or trying at times) when they were back in London. I think they both were emotional for different reasons at the London premiere, but they still found comfort in each other cause no matter what, the absolutely love each other and again reaffirmed they will stay friends no matter what.

N has totally softened and begun to believe in love because of L (😭), but totally understands where he is at which is why she has supported him even in light of pap gate. She’s heartbroken, but hopeful in a way she never had been before.

Cut to the video JVN posted of her signing along to T Swift’s Enchanted…

🎶please don’t be in love with someone else…

There is a lot to consider here anon

Thank you for sharing 💜

Also adding in your follow up ask below 👇

“I just sent in an essay length ask about previously being an Italy truther, but I wanted to add something….I’ve always thought it was weird that L brought A to some stops at the beginning (Jan/feb) of the press tour and I think if he was feeling insecure about his relationship with N, it would make total sense for him to bring her as a safety blanket. I’m not saying he’s madly in love or anything, but I think she’s easy. If he was stressed about his dynamic with N, then having an excuse to retreat to something/someone simple would be nice. I think that’s also part of why we maybe didn’t see her later in the tour. Yes, they were busy, but he didn’t need her or want her there anymore.”

[ratha-firesong]

Blind Lucerys part 2???

Aemond would often visit Lucerys in the Godswood. He didn’t understand why his uncle was so kind and attentive. Sometimes he was afraid Aemond would see how much of a burden he was and leave him alone. That would hurt more then the day his sight was taken.

But Aemond never fails him.

He hears his footsteps behind him before that gentle hand touches his own. Lucerys relishes in their differences. The way his sword hand was calloused in certain spots, how much longer his fingers were, how it felt like living fire was burning just under his skin.

“Will you not be attending the trail, Luke?” Aemond asked curiously.

“There is no point in me being there,” he answered and turned his face towards the voice. Silk strips of cloth covered his scarred eyes and he was glad for it since he couldn’t imagine how ugly they must seem to others. “My mother will back my stepsister’s claim as well as grandmother. Having me there…it will only draw attention away from their words.”

“It was once yours, Lucerys.”

“Not anymore.” Lucerys wondered if he should feel bitterness, but it does not come. He just felt…

Lonely.

“Ask me and I’ll stay with you,” Aemond whispered and brought Lucerys’ hand to his lips, tracing softly over his knuckles.

Lucerys’ breath quickened and he felt his face heat up from such an intimate act of kindness.

“You are the son of the king.”

“Command me, and I’ll not leave the Godswood.”

“You should be there with them.”

“You should be with us as well.” Aemond’s voice was firm.

“I…”

A soft sigh left his uncle’s lips and his fingers gently played over his palm as if reading the lines he found there.

“I’m a burden, uncle. I am blind.” It was a statement to prove to Aemond he had no right anymore to be among them.

“You were blinded because of me, Luke.”

There was truth in that, but Lucerys would gladly do it again to spare Aemond the scars he could of carried himself. There was no regret in what he did for his uncle that night.

“Uncle,” he said softly and smiled a little trying to change the subject, “I have yet to ‘see’ your face. I wish to know what kind of man you have grown into.”

Aemond moved his hands to gently grasp at Lucerys’ and raised them to his face so he could feel his features. His soft fingers touched along every ridge and line he could feel. He found he had a strong jawline like his stepfather and his hair was long and soft. Lucerys’ finger tips traced over his lips and his heart started to beat against his chest. It felt…so intimate that he pulled away quickly.

“That…was bold of me to do,” he said and felt his face heat up from embarrassment, “forgive me.”

“Nothing to forgive. I hope you like what you saw.”

Lucerys did like what he felt under his hands. Aemond had grown handsome. He must be the envy of all King’s Landing. The noble ladies of court must throw themselves at him hoping to catch his gaze.

“You must have many suitors vying for your attentions, uncle.”

Aemond scoffed.

“I care little for them.”

“B-But you ride the largest dragon. You have been rumored to be a strong warrior and now I know your face and see it to be handsome, I couldn’t imagine the amount of marriage proposals you receive.”

“Lucerys, I care about my duties to our family, our House. They are below those of us who have dragon blood in our veins. They are below you and I and every presumptuous lord who has offered his daughter’s hand to me has only gotten rejection.”

“But-“

“We are dragons Lucerys. Even without your sight, you are still a dragon.”

Aemond’s words resounded in Lucerys’ chest. He still saw him as a dragon.

-to be continued?

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Title: Wounds of the heart

Nica X Y/n Reader

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A field hospital near the frontlines of the war between Germany and England. The sounds of distant gunfire and the occasional explosion can be heard outside, but within the tent, it’s quiet except for the soft rustling of bandages and the murmurs of the wounded.

Y/n is gently tending to the wounds of Nica Schwartz, a German soldier with a mix of pain and intrigue in his eyes. His face is marred by dirt and blood, but his gaze remains fixed on Y/n as she works.

Nica: (His voice is low, almost a whisper, as if testing the waters) "You’re far too kind for this place, Y/n. Someone like you shouldn’t be here, surrounded by all this death.

"Y/n: (She pauses, meeting his gaze with a mix of firmness and softness) "And what about you, Nica? You speak as if you’re any different. War has taken its toll on us all.

"Nica: (A ghost of a smile plays on his lips as he leans in slightly) "Perhaps. But I’ve never met someone like you. So gentle, yet strong. You make me forget, if only for a moment, that we’re on opposite sides of this madness."Y/n’s hands still for a brief second as she processes his words. She’s heard such lines before from soldiers trying to charm their way out of pain, but something about Nica’s tone is different—dangerously sincere.

Y/n: (A soft sigh escapes her as she resumes her work, her voice barely above a whisper) "This war… it’s not something we can forget, Nica. It’s always there, lurking in the background."

Nica: (His expression shifts, a flicker of something darker crossing his face before he softens again) "But what if, just for tonight, we pretended it wasn’t? Just for a few moments, Y/n… let’s be two people, not a nurse and a soldier. No England. No Germany. Just… us."

Y/n feels a tug at her heart, but she’s wary, knowing that Nica’s words could be just another game. Still, the way he looks at her, as if she’s the only thing keeping him tethered to humanity, stirs something deep within her.

Y/n: (She finishes bandaging his wound and meets his gaze, her voice tender yet firm) "You speak as if we have a choice, Nica. But we don’t. Not really. The war will always be there, between us."

Nica: (He reaches out, gently taking her hand in his, his thumb brushing over her knuckles as he speaks with a mix of sincerity and something more elusive) "Maybe. But I’ve never been one to follow the rules. And I think, deep down, neither are you."

Y/n’s heart skips a beat at his touch, and despite the alarm bells ringing in her mind, she doesn’t pull away. There’s something about Nica that draws her in, like a moth to a flame. She knows she should be cautious, but in this moment, all she feels is the warmth of his hand in hers.

Y/n: (Her voice is soft, almost hesitant) "Nica… I…

"Nica leans in closer, his voice a hushed whisper that sends shivers down Y/n’s spine.

Nica: "Just for tonight, Y/n. Let’s forget the world outside this tent. Let’s just be…

"The tension in the air is palpable as Y/n’s mind races. She knows she should step back, remind herself of the boundaries, but something in Nica’s eyes holds her there, teetering on the edge of something she can’t quite name.

Y/n: (She finally whispers, her voice barely audible) "Just for tonight…"

As the words leave her lips, Nica’s grip tightens slightly on her hand, a silent promise of something more, something dangerous yet alluring. And in that moment, as the world outside continues to burn, Y/n and Nica are just two souls seeking solace in each other’s presence, if only for a fleeting moment.

The night deepens, and the sounds of war outside become a distant hum. Inside the tent, the soft glow of a lantern casts flickering shadows on the canvas walls. Y/n and Nica sit close, their hands still entwined, the tension between them thickening with every passing second.

Nica: (He tilts his head slightly, his voice low and almost teasing) "Tell me, Y/n, have you ever thought about what you’d do when this is all over? When the war is just a memory?

Y/n: (She hesitates, her eyes searching his, trying to decipher his intentions) "I… I haven’t allowed myself to think that far ahead. It seems almost impossible to imagine a life beyond this."

Nica: (He leans closer, his breath warm against her skin as he speaks, his tone more serious now) "You should. A woman like you deserves to dream of something better. A life where you’re not surrounded by blood and pain."

Y/n feels a pang in her chest, a reminder of the harsh reality she’s living in. But Nica’s words, though seductive, are also tinged with a sadness that tugs at her heart.

Y/n: (She tries to pull back, to distance herself from the emotions swirling inside her, but Nica’s grip on her hand tightens, keeping her close) "And what about you, Nica? Do you dream of a life beyond the war?"

Nica: (His eyes darken slightly, a shadow passing over his face) "I used to. Before… everything. But now… my dreams feel as distant as the stars. Perhaps that’s why I find myself here, with you. You make me feel like there might still be something worth dreaming about."

Y/n’s breath catches in her throat at his words. She knows she should be wary, that Nica’s intentions might not be as pure as they seem. But there’s something in his voice, a vulnerability that she can’t ignore.

Y/n: (Her voice is soft, almost pleading) "Nica… I don’t know if I can trust you. We’re on opposite sides of this war. How can we even think about… anything beyond this moment?"

Nica: (He leans in, his forehead almost touching hers, his voice a hushed whisper filled with an intensity that sends shivers down her spine) "Trust is a fragile thing, Y/n. But I’m willing to take the risk, if you are. Let’s leave the war outside this tent. Just for tonight, let’s pretend…"

Y/n closes her eyes, feeling the warmth of Nica’s presence, the steady beat of his heart through his chest. She knows this is dangerous, that she’s treading on thin ice. But the way he looks at her, with a mix of desperation and hope, makes her want to believe in the possibility of something more.

Y/n: (Her voice is barely a whisper, filled with a mix of fear and longing) "What are we doing, Nica?"

Nica: (He gently cups her face, his thumb brushing over her cheek as he looks deeply into her eyes, his voice soft and sincere) "We’re holding onto the only thing that feels real in this madness. Each other."

For a moment, everything else fades away—the war, the pain, the uncertainty. All that exists is the two of them, caught in a moment of shared vulnerability and the flickering hope of something beyond the horrors of war.

Y/n’s heart races, her emotions a tangled mess of fear, desire, and the yearning for something more than the life she’s known. And in that moment, she makes a decision—a small, quiet one, but one that will change everything.

Y/n: (Her voice trembles slightly as she speaks, her heart in her words) "Just for tonight, Nica… let’s pretend."

Nica’s eyes soften, a rare, genuine smile curving his lips as he leans in and presses a soft, lingering kiss to her forehead. The gesture is tender, almost reverent, and it makes Y/n’s heart ache with the realization of how much she’s come to care for this enigmatic, dangerous man.

Nica: (His voice is a whisper against her skin) "Just for tonight."

And as the night stretches on, Y/n allows herself to fall into the fantasy, if only for a few fleeting hours, knowing that when the dawn breaks, they will both have to face the harsh realities of the world outside. But for now, in the safety of the tent, they have each other—and for tonight, that is enough.

LOVE MAKING SCENE!! ( MINORS DON'T INTERACT SKIP THIS!!)

The night has grown quieter, with the distant sounds of the war almost completely muffled. Inside the tent, the lantern's soft glow bathes Y/n and Nica in a warm, golden light. They sit close together, their hands still entwined, hearts beating in sync as the tension between them reaches its peak.Y/n can feel the weight of Nica’s gaze on her, his eyes filled with a mixture of emotions—desire, tenderness, and something deeper, something that she’s been trying to ignore but can no longer deny.

Nica: (His voice is low, filled with an emotion he’s no longer trying to hide) "Y/n… I’ve never met anyone like you. You’re… everything I never knew I needed."

His words send a shiver down Y/n’s spine. She knows she should be cautious, that she’s walking a dangerous path, but she can’t stop the way her heart leaps at his confession. Her breath hitches as Nica’s hand gently cups her face, his thumb brushing over her cheek with a tenderness that makes her chest tighten.

Y/n: (Her voice is barely a whisper, filled with both fear and longing) "Nica… this is crazy. We shouldn’t…"

Nica: (He leans in closer, his forehead resting against hers as he speaks softly, his breath warm against her lips) "I know. But I don’t care anymore. I don’t want to think about what we should or shouldn’t do. I just want to be here, with you."

Y/n’s heart races, her resolve crumbling as she feels the warmth of Nica’s touch, the sincerity in his voice. She’s tried to resist, to keep her emotions in check, but in this moment, with the world outside forgotten, all she can think about is him.Slowly, almost hesitantly, Nica closes the small gap between them. His lips hover over hers for a brief, agonizing second, giving Y/n a moment to pull away, to stop this before it goes any further. But instead, she finds herself leaning in, closing the distance, her eyes fluttering shut as their lips finally meet.The kiss is soft at first, tentative, as if both are afraid to fully give in. But as the seconds pass, the tension and longing that have been building between them finally break free. Nica’s hand slides to the back of Y/n’s neck, pulling her closer, deepening the kiss with a desperation that matches the pounding of his heart.Y/n melts into him, her hands slipping up to his shoulders, gripping the fabric of his uniform as she loses herself in the kiss. All the fear, the doubts, the war—all of it fades away, leaving only the two of them, connected in a moment of pure, unfiltered emotion.Nica’s kiss is filled with a passion that takes Y/n’s breath away, his lips moving against hers with an intensity that leaves her dizzy. She can feel the depth of his emotions in every movement, every touch—this is not just a kiss; it’s a confession, a plea, a promise.Y/n’s heart swells with emotions she can no longer deny. She’s falling, and she knows it, but she can’t bring herself to stop. Not now. Not when Nica is holding her like she’s the only thing keeping him grounded, like she’s his last link to humanity in a world gone mad.As the kiss deepens, Nica pulls her even closer, his other hand wrapping around her waist, holding her as if he’s afraid she might disappear. Y/n responds in kind, her own arms wrapping around his neck, pulling him in as if trying to fuse them together, to make this moment last forever.

Time seems to stand still as they pour everything they’ve been feeling into the kiss—every fear, every hope, every longing they’ve kept hidden. It’s as if the world outside has ceased to exist, and all that matters is the two of them, lost in each other.Finally, after what feels like both an eternity and no time at all, they slowly pull back, their foreheads still pressed together, their breaths mingling in the small space between them. Y/n’s heart is pounding, her lips tingling from the intensity of the kiss, but she doesn’t pull away. Neither does Nica.

Nica: (His voice is hoarse, filled with raw emotion as he speaks, his lips brushing against hers as he does) "Y/n…"

Y/n doesn’t let him finish. Instead, she closes the distance again, pressing her lips to his in a kiss that’s just as desperate, just as full of love as the first. She’s no longer thinking, no longer worrying about the consequences. All she knows is that she needs this—needs him.They kiss again and again, each one more passionate than the last, as if trying to make up for all the time they’ve spent denying their feelings. Y/n can feel the love in every touch, every caress, and she knows, deep down, that this moment is real. This love is real.When they finally break apart again, both are breathless, their hearts racing, but neither pulls away. Nica rests his forehead against hers, his breath warm and uneven as he speaks, his voice barely above a whisper.

Nica: "I don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow, Y/n. But right now, I know that I love you."

Y/n’s eyes well up with tears at his words, and she can’t help but smile through them. She’s scared—terrified, even—but in this moment, she knows she feels the same.

Y/n: (Her voice is soft, filled with all the love she’s been holding back) "I love you too, Nica. I think… I always have."

And with that, they kiss again, sealing their confessions with the kind of love that can only be born in the midst of chaos. For tonight, at least, they have each other—and that’s all they need.

With that, they settle back into each other’s arms, holding on tightly as if afraid to let go. The night continues to stretch on, but for Y/n and Nica, time has lost its meaning. All that matters now is their love and the promise they’ve made to each other.As they drift off to sleep, their fingers still intertwined, the outside world fades away, leaving only the two of them—two souls bound together by love, determined to fight for their future, no matter the cost.

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(Clone Wars) Commander Wolffe x Jedi!Reader: Don’t Let Me Go

Author’s Note:  Hello!! This is a fic written especially for @ladysongmaster for the fic exchange that I am participating in-  @cloneficgiftexchange - run by @ghostofskywalker 

I really hope you enjoy!!!!

Word Count: 1,862

Warnings: Fluff

   The gardens presented an array of vibrant blossoms, greeting its visitors with a pleasant, sweet scent.  It was hard to feel gloomy when walking the stone path that wound its way through the maze of hedges and arches.

   Winged insects buzzed around, harvesting nectars from the plants peaceably.  The sound faded in and out as you passed by.

   Yet the steps you took were slow, unmotivated.  A contrast to the lighter, glad ones that you took whenever he was your destination.  Since being assigned to the protection detail of this young senator, you’d wandered these paths many times.  Memorized them.  Each turn, each slope, and each bench were ingrained into your mind.  It was where you’d spent much time sorting through forbidden thoughts and desires, after all.

   That was what brought you there once more.  

   Though the atmosphere was bright and airy at the senator’s palace, you could not completely enjoy it.  The dreaded silence that had weighed heavily over everyone when you’d first arrived gave way to whispers of gossip amongst the staff and lively conversation as they flitted about the halls.

   All you could think about were his eyes.  His voice.  How capable he was on the battlefield.  How strong his arms were.  How he started out as a complete and utter mystery to you, and now you could tell his mood simply by the tone of his grunt.

   A chuckle escaped your lips.  You’d been walking in silence for so long that your own voice sounded foreign to you.

   Footsteps approached from behind, carrying the familiar thud of trooper armor.  You knew who it was without him having to make himself known, having sensed his presence as he grew nearer.

   “Commander Wolffe.”

   He stopped a few feet away, letting out a huff at your greeting.  That was the sound he made whenever he witnessed you or Plo Koon’s jedi abilities.  It was the closest to bewilderment that you’d ever get out of him.

   “General,” he addressed you.  “Thought I’d find you here.”

   That piqued your interest. You turned around to face him.  “What can I do for you?”

   Wolffe stood there with bucket tucked under one arm in a semi-formal stance.

   He cleared his throat.  “Just checking in.  There’s been talk about transfers.”

   You nodded.  “It looks like our time here is coming to an end,” you said wistfully.  “The senator is safe.  The danger has passed.  I appreciate the measures you’ve taken when it comes to this mission, Commander.”

   “Just doing my duty,” he replied gruffly.  Typical.  The man would not take credit the entire time you’d known him.  Not even after a job well done.  “Any word on where we’ll be going?”

   Your eyes fell from his.  “Nothing is certain.  All I know is I am to return to Coruscant.  You and your men will be transferred elsewhere.”

   Were you imagining it?  The shift in his expression?  His lips pressed together in a firm line as he took the news, but the look vanished as quickly as it appeared.  Perhaps it was hopeful thinking on your part… to think the time spent working together meant something to him.  It meant a great deal to you.  The realization that you would part ways until who-knows-when weighed heavily on your heart.

   Wolffe gave a curt nod.  He sighed, hesitating.  “For what it’s worth, General-”

   “There she is!” an all-too-familiar voice interrupted. “My favorite jedi!  My, I was beginning to wonder where you’d run off to.”

   You bit your tongue and turned to see the approaching senator.  He was wearing a particularly elaborate tunic and cloak set that shone with shimmering stones sewn into it.

   “Senator Gil Illel,” you greeted in the most courteous tone you could muster.  “How may I be of service?”

   “You may do so by accompanying me to a dinner I am hosting in your honor.”  He reached forward, taking your hand in both of his in one of his eccentric gestures of regard.  “You have been a great help to me and my people.”

   Wolffe let out a quiet huff, restraining himself from an eyeroll.  You had to hold back your amusement as you politely retracted your hand and gave a nod.  “The Council was alarmed to hear of any possible danger to you.  I am glad that I could be of help, but with all due respect, Senator, we jedi are not ones for formal gatherings.”

   “Nonsense! This is your last evening here.  I would have it no other way.”  Senator Illel’s tone grew more insistent, as did the glimmer in his eye.  He leaned in, lowering his voice.  “I want to fully express my gratitude.”

   It wasn’t a secret that the senator you were assigned to developed a little crush.  He’d dropped plenty of unsubtle hints here and there in hopes of you reciprocating.  However, you did not feel the same.  Not only that, but your affections already belonged to another.

   Meanwhile, Wolffe looked as if he was barely holding in a comment.  His glare was fixated on some distant fountain or hedge, refusing to meet yours.  You weren’t sure what you were expecting… some sort of help?  The best thing to do would be to accept Illel’s invitation, get through the evening, and be glad that you wouldn’t have to see the senator again.

   You would still miss Wolffe.  Your heart already ached at the thought.

   “Alright,” you said finally.  “I suppose I can drop in for a little while.”

   Senator Illel grinned.  “Splendid.  I will have the maids deliver an extra special gown.”

   “Actually, I’m afraid I have to refuse.  I do have more formal robes that will do nicely.”

   He conceded with a reluctant nod.  “Very well.  I shall see you tonight.”  With an exaggerated bow, he bid you farewell.

   No sooner when you looked at Wolffe did he finally scoff and roll his eyes.  You couldn’t resist a chuckle.  But before you could make a joke on the matter, he excused himself rather abruptly.

   “I have some business to attend to with the men,” he said, turning and following the path until he was out of sight.  Your parted lips closed with the loss of words, and instead, a sigh escaped you.

. . . . 

   The party was over-the-top.  Not one for such gatherings, you made a point to only stay long enough to satisfy Senator Illel.  The event was in your honor, but he seemed rather preoccupied with his other guests for a time.  You took the opportunity to step out for a few minutes, embracing the cool night air with gladness.

   You found yourself in the place you always went to.

   It was the same garden, and yet it felt entirely different in the evening.  Everything was quiet.  The buzzing of insects was replaced with the chirping of their nocturnal counterparts.  Eye-catching hues were washed away by the light of a silver moon.

   Only a few minutes had passed before you sensed a familiar presence.  The unsettled feelings that the evening’s events brought on were gone almost instantaneously as footsteps approached on the path behind you.

   “General.”  This time he greeted you first.

   “Hello, Commander.”  You turned around and offered a smile, letting him know that his presence was most welcome.

   “Enjoying the festivities?” he asked, though there was no mistaking the sarcasm in his tone.  He knew you well enough to understand how you truly felt about the whole thing.

   “Oh yes.  Most certainly,” you replied with a similar sharpness in your tone.  “If I’m honest, I prefer your company significantly more.”

   He didn’t respond right away, and you wondered if it had been the right thing to say.  Before you had the chance to comment further, Wolffe huffed a sigh.

   “I think you know by now I prefer yours.”

   You stole a glance at him in surprise.  You hadn’t expected such an admission from him.  He continued to gaze up at the moon that shone down over the estate.  You felt your resolve breaking.  If you were honest, it was being chipped away slowly as the days went by that you worked with Wolffe.  But standing there, with Wolffe, under the light of the moon… It was finally gone.

   “Wolffe,” you addressed him informally, and he turned to meet your gaze.  “You should know, I-”

   “Well, here you are!” Illel exclaimed.  You jumped, realizing you were so focused on the handsome commander that you hadn’t sensed the senator’s approach.  “Why, oh why, is the guest of honor all the way out here?”

   You chuckled nervously.  “Apologies, senator.  I was getting some fresh air.  It is quite the shindig you have going on in there-”

   Senator Illel held up a hand to silence you before turning to Wolffe.  “Commander- Wolffe, was it? You are dismissed.  I have no need for your service.”

   You didn’t miss the way Wolffe tightened his jaw.  The irritation that flashed in his expression.  The way his shoulder flexed as he excused himself and walked away.  Once he was out of earshot, Illel turned to you.

   “Every time I find you, you’re with that one...”

   Aaaand that was it.  That was the last straw.

   “With all due respect,” you said sharply.  “He is my Commander, and a very important part in your protection detail.  He is deserving of your respect.  If you will excuse me…”  You turned, your robes flowing out behind you, and followed after Wolffe.

   You saw him farther up the path, picking up your pace to catch up.  “Wolffe! Wait, please!”

   He froze, though he didn’t turn around to face you.  You were more than fine with that.  Considering the things you had to say, you weren’t sure you could look him in the eye while you bared your heart to him.  Throwing your arms around his form from behind, you pressed your cheek to the back of his armor.  Uncomfortable as it was, it was rather freeing to finally do so.

   “Wolffe.”

   “General…”  The surprise was evident in his tone.  You weren’t sure you’d ever heard that before.

   “I’m sorry, I…I just need to tell you that I care for you.  I have since the day we started working together to protect that pompous senator.”  

   “_______,” he rumbled lowly.  

   “And I know that it won’t be long before we’re separated…I don’t expect you to feel the same, but I had to at least let you know.”

   He tried to twist around toward you, though restricted due to your hold on his torso.  “Can you-?”

   “Oh, right.”

   Wolffe turned around fully to face you, his expression more tender than you ever expected it to be.  “I…”  he paused, struggling to find the right words.  He seemed to give up with a huff and simply pull you into an embrace against his chest with both arms.

   Your eyes widened, though you found yourself relaxing into it.  For a few moments, neither of you said a thing.  

   “Please, don’t let me go,” you murmured. You knew right away that he felt the same for you.  He didn’t need to say it, but even so, the next word he spoke meant the world to you.

   “Never,” he grunted.  

   To prove it, he held you even tighter.

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Early mornings and Bonfires

Pt 3 of Some Version of You, 5.1k

WARNINGS: 18+ only, MDNI, explicit content, p in v, oral f!receiving, fingering, swearing, some alcohol consumption, Frankie and reader are mushy horndogs, let me know if i missed anything!

You take several more steps in your relationship with Frankie.

The first thing you notice is the warmth. You’re used to sleeping under a pile of blankets, the chill in your house relentless. This was a different kind of warmth than a blanket, though, and you start to stir. That is, until a strong arm tightens around your waist, urging you to stay still. The night before rushes back to your brain as you realize where exactly you are. Frankie is a firm presence behind you and you let yourself melt into his embrace. Before long, you’re drifting off again, comfortable in his grip.

Hours later, you’re awoken by Frankie nuzzling against the soft spot on your throat, his morning scruff tickling you ever so slightly. More awake than the last time you had stirred, you peel your eyes open and wiggle around in his arms. Turning to face him, you find the most adorable sight waiting for you. Frankie is gorgeous freshly awake, his hair uncharacteristically ruffled and soft.

“Morning sunshine,” his voice, somehow even deeper in the morning, sets your nerves ablaze. You smile up at him, threading your fingers through his hair and bringing his lips to your own. This kiss is different from last night, lazier and sweeter than the desperation that had pulled at the two of you the first time you got to be alone.

“Good morning,” you smile, his teeth catching against your lip momentarily. “I had a great night.”

You say it almost sheepishly, and he can’t help but tease you, wanting to see that flush on your cheeks again.

“Is that my pretty girl being shy?” he starts trailing kisses down your throat, yanking the collar of the sweatshirt he had slipped on you last night down so he can continue following his chosen path. “Same pretty girl that was begging to taste my cock last night? That was squirming with my mouth on her cunt?”

You whine, a high pitched, almost pitiful noise that has his morning wood start to grow even harder. He wants to get all sorts of noises out of you, and he’ll do whatever it takes to make you feel good. You shift your hips slightly, making room for Frankie to nestle his own against yours.

“Fuck, Frankie, you can’t just say shit like that this early!” You tilt your head back, maintaining eye contact seemingly impossible with him spouting out such filth.

He grins at you, mouth open ready to respond, when you hear the sharp trill of a cell phone, a ringtone that you know means there is only one person it could be at the end of that line. Frankie smiles one more time, before standing and searching for your ringing phone. You can’t help yourself from checking out his ass when he bends to pick it up from where it had fallen out of your purse. You silently wince at the number of missed calls you have, the majority and most recent of which were from the oldest Miller brother, who honestly scared you more than your own older brothers. You smile apologetically at Frankie, who excuses himself to start making coffee while you answer the call.

“Where. The hell. Have. You. Been?” Will’s voice is taking on a tone you hadn’t heard since you and Benny had broken his drum set as kids.

“I’m so sorry, Will, I promise I am fine.” You try to reassure him without revealing too many details. “I hung out with Frankie last night after my date and we lost track of time, I crashed on his couch so he didn’t have to drive me home.”

Will lets loose a sigh.

“You can’t just disappear like that, bud,” the nickname that you have been called since childhood suddenly sounding mighty patronizing. “We were worried fucking sick. I had to stop Benny from calling the cops and reporting you missing!”

“I’m sorry I really am!” you can’t help but feel like a scolded child. “We fell asleep as soon as we got home and I must have left my phone somewhere I couldn’t hear it. I promise, I’m safe, and I will be home soon.”

Will seems to accept this, and after a few more promises to be home soon, you hang up the phone. It takes you a moment to locate something to cover your lower half. You finally settle on slipping Frankie's boxer briefs over your hips, folding the waistband down so they fit better. As you walk down the hallway, following the sounds of a song humming quietly, you find Frankie making coffee, sweatpants slung low on his hips as he sways to the music. You take a moment to take him in before approaching quietly, wrapping your arms around his middle.

“Ay, carajo,” he jumps, gasping a laugh as he turns in your hold to tilt his head down to look at you. “What’re you trying to do, give me a heart attack? Didn’t hear you make a peep.”

You can’t help but laugh at him, your eyes scrunching at the corners. His face mirrors yours before he leans down to press a kiss on your lips. You stand there, savoring each other’s company before you regretfully pull away. Frankie brushes a piece of hair away from your eyes, his smile turned soft. You reach up for one more small peck, unable to resist him.

“Will is going to kill me if I take any longer to get home,” you explain, and he makes an affirmative noise. You clear your throat, anxiety gripping you once again at the thought of your next question, “If they ask, what do I tell them about, you know, us?”

“You tell them whatever you’re comfortable with,” he cups your cheeks in his large hands, the feeling bringing you peace, “But to be clear, I want to be with you.”

You smile at him, a beaming ray of sunshine that lights up your face. You lean your head up toward him, begging for another kiss.

“Now time to go home, pretty girl, no use getting killed by a Miller 1 day into dating.”

You find your dress from the night before and soon you’re sitting in Frankie’s truck, on your way back to your house. When he pulls into the driveway, you part with a final kiss, and a promise to talk soon.

“So, you were on a date, with a man whose name you won’t tell us,” Will continues his interrogation of your whereabouts the night before, “And you just happen to run into Fish, and just happen to go home with him, instead of your date, and happen to sleep over?”

You are well aware your poker face needs a lot of work, but you give it a try anyways. The brothers had been waiting for you in the living room, as if they were your parents.

“Yes, exactly,” you try to stop the blush from taking over your cheeks, “I don’t know what’s so hard to understand about that.”

Will levels you with a look that says he sees right through your bullshit. He always had a knack for making you break. Benny has a little less tact, and despite taking a second to work it through, he gasps as it clicks for him.

“You fucked Fish!” he is turning wildly between you and Will, as if looking at either of you is going to confirm it. “That’s why you wouldn’t tell me, because it was fucking Frankie!”

“No - I uh,” you start stumbling over your words, dooming yourself from the moment you open your mouth. The brothers raise their eyebrows at you in unison, and you concede. “Ok, yes, my date was Frankie, and I wound up staying over at his house.”

“So you fucked Fish?” Ben continues to push. Your face becomes slightly sterner, trying to give him the hint that you were done with his questions.

“No, not yet.”

“Yet? Oh my god oh my god you’re in love!” Benny cheers, and you feel scarlet spread across your cheeks.

“Oh god,” you groan, putting your head in your hands.

Benny and Will are silent for a second, to the point that you’re terrified of what they’re going to say next. So you’re honestly shocked when Will whoops loudly, pulling you in for a hug.

“I’m so happy, god,” he spins you around a bit before setting you on your feet, and you’re still baffled at what’s happening. “You two are perfect.”

“Wait, why are you happy?” Benny asks his brother. You’re looking at him, wide eyed and scared, waiting for him to continue, “I’m the one that wins, dumbass.”

“Benny I-” you start before your brain fully processes what he said, “Wait, what did you win, exactly?”

Benny goes stock still as Will slaps him behind the head, such a familiar movement that you don’t understand how he isn’t able to dodge it at this point. You raise your eyebrow at them, waiting for an answer. They have a small silent argument, before Benny sighs loudly.

“Ok so, at the party the other night,” he begins, trailing off momentarily before you level him with a withering stare, and he continues, “We may have noticed that you and Fish hit it off real fast, so we uh, we may have made a tiny little bet about how long it would take you guys to get together.”

He says the last bit in a jumble of words, making it initially hard to understand him. And then, it clicks. Your mouth falls open, and you reach behind you to grab a pillow, lobbing it at the two of them.

“You motherfuckers!” you try to sound angry, but can’t help the laugh that undercuts your shouting. “Were we that obvious?”

“You were practically making out on the couch!” Will tries to take a chastising voice; it doesn’t work.

He cackles, narrowly ducking your first pillow projectile. He isn’t able to fully dodge when you launch yourself at him, pinning him to the floor. Since you were kids, the three of you (and sometimes your own brothers joined in) were well known for your play fighting. Some things never change, as evidenced by your current status when Benny joins in the pile. You suddenly find yourself pinned between the two massive Miller brothers.

“Ok boys, I love you but I can’t breathe,” you gasp between them. They take an extra moment to mess up your hair before relenting, helping you to your feet. “So, what was the wager in this bet you made?”

“50 bucks to the winner,” Benny puffs his chest out proudly, “And at exactly one week and 1 day, I am in fact the winner. Oh shit, I gotta call Santi.”

You roll your eyes, flipping him off as you settle into the cushions of the loveseat. Tired from your shenanigans, the three of you settle in to watch a movie. Only 20 minutes into it, your phone starts ringing. Yet again, you miserably fail at keeping a poker face when you see that it’s Frankie who’s calling you. You grin, leaping out of the seat to get some privacy. You take the steps quickly, answering as you shut the door of your room behind you.

“Hi Frankie,” you greet him, the smile evident in your voice.

“Hi pretty girl,” he responds, and you swear you can hear his grin over the line, “Wanted to hear your voice again.”

Even through the phone you find yourself blushing at his attention. You feel like a teenager again, like you should be kicking your feet and giggling.

“I can do you one better,” you respond, becoming slightly shy, “I know we just saw each other but wanna grab lunch? I know some good spots.”

“I’ll be there in 10,” is his simple response, and you internally cheer before hanging up. Over night, the air had gotten significantly more chilly, so you dress in what you hope is going to keep your ever-cold body warm. You slip on a pair of overalls and a plain gray sweater, comfy and cute. You bound down the stairs, a spring in your step as you pass the boys still sitting in the living room.

“Going to see your man friend?” Benny teases, “Tell Fish we said hi.”

“Be safe, make good choices!” Will shouts after you as you pull on your shoes and go to sit on the porch to wait for your ride. You’re sitting cross legged on the porch swing when you see the now familiar red truck pulling into the driveway. You can’t help the giddiness that you feel when Frankie steps out to greet you. You meet him halfway, and he holds his hand out to you, grinning.

“Were you waiting for me?” He teases. With you standing on the top step and him at the bottom, your heights were reversed, and you revel in it, taking the opportunity to grab his cheeks and plant a kiss on his lips. He returns the kiss with enthusiasm. It isn’t until you hear a ruckus behind the door that you part. Frankie peers around you, only briefly catching a glimpse at the Miller boys looking through the window at the two of you. This time, it’s Frankie’s turn to blush as he waves at Will and Benny. Even through the door you can hear them laugh.

“So, I take it they figured it out?” Frankie chuckles, grasping your hand and leading you towards the passenger side of his truck. He gives you your little boost before walking around to his own side.

“Yea I uh, I don’t have the best bluffing abilities,” you wince slightly, nervous that maybe Frankie wanted to keep this a secret. These thoughts disappear completely when you see his face, a soft expression that melts you.

“Fine by me, I like people knowing you’re mine.” Before you can fully react to what he has just said, he flips the truck in reverse, and you give him the annotated directions to a sandwich shop you frequented. You fall silent for a moment, before realizing that you have a lot of thoughts running through your head.

“You want me to be yours?” you smirk, trying your hand at his signature teasing. He swings his eyes over to you, catching the look on your face and grinning.

“What, don’t you wanna be mine? I thought you liked being my good girl.” You choke a bit on your breath at his words. He laughs at your reaction, reaching over to pat your thigh with his hand. “You are just so fun to tease.”

You don’t have time to respond as Frankie puts the truck in park and comes over to open your door. He grins at you as he helps you down, immediately lacing your fingers together, and walking into the restaurant. You’re waiting to be seated when you perk up on your tiptoes and lean close to his ear.

“For the record, I do like being your good girl,” you whisper, and relish in his responding noise, as if he choked on his own spit. You giggle to yourself as you’re walking to your table. Frankie pulls out your chair for you and you wink at him when he’s settled across the table.You fall into a casual conversation, undercut by your feet tangling together under the table. It’s new, what the two of you have with each other, and yet it feels so comfortable already. You try not to think about it too much.

It’s been 2 weeks since you and Frankie shared your first night together. Of those 14 days you’ve only been able to see each other four times, seemingly on complete opposite schedules. And every one of the days you didn’t see him was filled with a one track thought: Frankie, Frankie, Frankie. You feel like you should be embarrassed by how quickly he has cemented himself in your brain, but that is quickly dismissed when you see he is just as desperate.

The nights you spent together were filled with deep conversation, sharing things you hadn’t spoken outside of your closest people. He would always listen, and share just as much as you.

You, the youngest of 4; Frankie, smack dab in the middle of 3. Your older brothers: Noah, Oliver, and Theo; his younger brother, Nick, and older sister, Amelia. Frankie’s parents, married for 38 years and counting; yours, divorced since you were eight. The conversation flowed so naturally between you, spoken over the crackling of a fire in his living room, or whispered as you sat in the backyard where you first met.

Frankie, the gentleman that he always is, never pushed you beyond what you were comfortable with. Of the nights that you had seen each other, they always ended in a similar manner. You, straddling his lap, his fingers shoved down your pants. Him, groaning in pleasure as he buries his face in your center. That was as far as it ever went, though, your apprehension at crossing that final line ever present.

As you had shared with Frankie, you had only ever been that close with a handful of people, none of which had ever been good experiences for you. He understood completely, and that was almost enough to kill all your stress. Almost. There was still this little part, a tiny voice that questioned whether with him would be different. By the time Saturday rolled around, that voice had disappeared completely.

The air had dropped to a chill temperature, and you figured today was the last day to have a proper bonfire. After your shift you had stopped at the grocery store for s’mores ingredients. Will promised to grab some chopped wood from the gas station on his way home. And when you pull into the driveway to see everyone is already there, including Frankie, you can’t help but grin. You pop your head in the front door.

“I need a big strong man to help me with these groceries!” you holler at them. You see a head of brown hair pop up from the living room, and Frankie grins at the sight of you. He hurries towards you, the rest of the boys laughing at his eagerness. You have just enough time to brace yourself before he’s crashing into you in a bear hug. You can’t help but laugh like a maniac when his nose presses against your cheek. You can smell the beer on his breath and you realize they started the party without you.

“Good to see you,” he whispers as you walk out to where the groceries are waiting in the backseat of your car. Before you can open the door, Frankie has you pressed against it, a firm kiss on your lips. You moan, tangling your fingers in his hair as he devours your mouth with his own. You remain like that for as long as you can manage before having to breathe. He pulls away from your lips, panting and smiling lazily at you.

“Quite the welcome” you tease him, standing on your tiptoes to plant a kiss on his nose. His face scrunches and he pats your ass before helping you with the bags in the backseat of your car. You chat as you unpack the groceries, trivial nonsense about your days. Before long, the five of you are outside, Will and Frankie building a fire while you and Santi set up the s’mores station. Once you finish you plant yourself in the hammock that has been your favorite spot for years.

“Gonna help, Ben, or just gonna sit on your ass?” Will grunts at his brother.

“Gonna sit on my ass,” Benny groans back, sinking deeper into the backyard couch. “Santi pushed me hard today, I can barely stand.”

”Aw, poor baby Benny,” Santi coos at him, and you can’t help but laugh at their dynamic. You honestly find it hard to remember that the five of you have only been hanging out for less than a month. And in that same thought, you startle at the fact that you had only known Frankie that long. But, looking at him, making you a s’mores and taking a sip from his drink, your heart beats out of your chest. He looks back at you, holding up the marshmallow to you for approval. You nod, and soon he’s joining you in the hammock.

“This seat taken?” he jokes, the movement of him sitting down rolling you towards the center of the hammock, almost into his lap. You laugh, a joyful sound as you try to reposition yourselves. It takes a bit of maneuvering but finally you sit side by side and he hands the sweet treat over. You take a bite, moaning in pleasure.

“You guys are disgusting,” Will teases from across the fire. The others chime in, razzing the two of you, but their smiles remain positive as they tease. Benny even winks at you, and you know that no matter how much they poke fun, they’re happy for you guys. And you know that you’re happy too. You finish your s’more and take a sip of Frankie’s beer. Without realizing how tired you are, you lean your head on his shoulder. And then you’re drifting off.

You wake to the soft swinging of the hammock, a warm body next to you and Frankie’s voice humming to the music still streaming from the speakers. You decide then and there that “Landslide” sounds better coming from him. You savor the moment, unwilling to open your eyes and end it. And then, you notice the distinct lack of other voices, and realize that it’s just you and Frankie out here. Stretching slightly to alert him that you’re awake now, you open your eyes and peer up at him through your lashes.

“Good nap, hermosa?” He speaks softly, voice sounding as content as you feel. You nod up at him and he smiles. “The boys wanted to go to the bar, figured you would be fine not tagging along.”

“Mmmm, much rather stay here with you,” you stretch further, the movement interrupting the balance of the hammock. You giggle as you’re rolled onto his strong chest, his arms banding around your waist to steady you. You become extremely aware of how much you can feel of him as you lay across his body. Without thinking, you slip your leg between his, bringing your center down onto his strong thigh.

Your movement does not go unnoticed by him, and he smirks, a dangerous thing that has you tipping your head up in desperation. He complies immediately, pressing his lips against yours with a groan. Shifting you up his body, and bending his leg to keep it pressed against you, he steals the breath straight from your lungs. The burst of pleasure that rips through you is overwhelming. You whine, delirious with the desire that makes your heart pound.

Frankie pulls away, just enough that you can’t quite chase them. His eyes are dark with lust, and they take in your face with hunger. Your swollen lips, panting breath escaping, pink tongue peaking out. You can feel his cock twitching underneath you, and without thinking you grind down, seeking friction on your aching clit. He snarls, an animalistic noise that sets you on fire.

“Fuck, baby, you’re gonna kill me,” he whispers, and your mind is made up when he pulls you back in for a bruising kiss.

“Please, Frankie,” you beg, “I’m ready, I’m ready, I need you to fuck me.”

In a flash, he’s standing and you’re wrapping your legs around his hips. He carries you through the house, and you give him directions to get to your room. You only have a moment to consider being anxious about the state of your room, the pile of clothes in the corner and your pale pink duvet. You’re immediately losing this track of thought when you find yourself flopped down on your bed with Frankie standing at the foot of it.

You take a second to really appreciate the sight of him as he pulls his shirt off. His jeans are low on his hips, and the unmistakable bulge is pressing against the zipper. You take in his broad chest, soft stomach and dark line of hair running down, down, down, to where he was now undoing his button. You sit up, pulling him to kiss you as you yank his pants down. He steps out of them and kicks them to the side, before pushing you back down on the bed and hovering over you.

“Hermosa,” he whispers, peeling off your shirt, eyes widening slightly at your lack of a bra, before continuing, "Linda, preciosa...”

You tip your head back and tilt your hips up until he’s pressed tight against you, nose tucked into your neck. He nips you with his teeth, and your answering gasp spurs him on. With a sharp grind of his hips he’s biting and licking his way down your neck, to the swell of your breast. Your breath is coming fast, hands finding their favorite place, buried in his hair.

“Fuck Frankie,” you pant, his name breaking off in a gasp when he wraps his lips around the stiff peak of your nipple. You start to squirm, begging him to keep going. He complies, mouthing further down your body until he’s at the edge of your sweatpants. Looking up, and seeing your affirmative nod, he unties them and eases them down your legs. His groan when you see you’re without panties as well is enough to make a rush of arousal run down your spine.

Frankie takes a moment to admire you, fully nude in front of him, before holding up his finger and bending down to his pants. You sit up on your elbows to observe him as he straightens up, holding a foil packet in his hand. Your heart starts hammering as you reach forward to palm him through his underwear. He groans, crawling over you to press a kiss against your chin and then your lips. You pull away after a moment, looking up at him as you start to tug at his remaining clothing.

“Eager, huh?” he teases, assisting you in pulling down his underwear. His cock springs out and your mouth waters at the sight, remembering how it had felt to have him on your tongue. You reach out, ready to take him in your hand. Fast as lightning, he grasps your wrist to stop you, tsk-tsk noises coming from his teeth. “Not yet, baby, gotta get you ready first.”

If you weren’t already soaking wet, his gruff voice and cockiness would have sent you over that edge. You allow yourself to relax, legs falling open as he settles between them, wide shoulders pushing your thighs even farther apart. You're dripping in anticipation, hips bucking when he runs a finger through your folds. You can’t keep your head up when he follows the same path with his mouth, licking up to your clit before sucking lightly. Your wanton moans fuel him, and he doubles the speed and pressure of his tongue before sliding two fingers straight into you.

“Holy shit,” you gasp, one hand twisting in the sheets while the other laces with Frankie’s. He squeezes your fingers, while flexing his own inside you, pressing against that blinding spot, “Fuck, yes, right there!”

He doesn’t stop until you explode beneath him, hips squirming despite his hand planting itself on your thigh. Even after you’ve caught your breath, he keeps going, pulling every last bit of pleasure out of you until you’re writhing in his grip.

“Feel good, baby?” he murmurs, “You ready for me?”

You nod, so hard that your ponytail begins to fall out, and reach for him.

“Yes, Frankie, please, I’m ready, I want you.” You ramble, watching with rapt attention as he rolls the condom down his length. He plants his hand next to your head, leaning down to catch your eyes.

“One more time, baby, tell me you want this.”

You could cry at his kindness, but instead you become infinitely more horny. You reach up to push his hair off his forehead, the locks slightly longer since you have known him.

“I want this, Frankie,” You assure him, “I want you.”

He groans and reaches down, guiding himself into you. The breath you had been holding is pushed out of you, feeling like he was rearranging your insides with every inch pushed forward. His head drops to your neck, seemingly just as affected as you are.Your whine as he fully sheaths himself inside of you is covered by his deep growl. You wind the fingers of one hand through his hair, while the other grips his shoulder tight.

“Fuck, jesus christ,” his voice is strangled as he pulls out for a moment before pushing in with a heavy thrust. He starts to repeat this motion, rocking into you over and over again until you feel like your eyes can’t stay open. You gasp when he hits that spot inside of you every time, fireworks exploding down your spine. “I’m not gonna last long baby, I need to feel you cum.”

He doubles down his efforts at your answering whimper, and his fingers find your bundle of nerves with ease, gliding across it over and over again until you can’t take it anymore. Your back arches, pressing your chest against his as you burst, breath stolen by his lips as you squirm.

“Oh my god, Frankie, oh my god,” you can’t help but mutter his name over and over, chanting it like a prayer as he chases his own high. It only takes a few more pumps of his hips before he’s still, and you can feel the muted warmth of him inside of you. He collapses on top of you, spent, and you relish in the firm weight of him. The two of you stay like that for a few minutes, just absorbing each other and catching your breath. After a while, Frankie moves to pull out of you, and with a soft kiss on your lips he stands and disappears into the bathroom. You have no strength to follow him, and no embarrassment when he returns with a wet washcloth to find you still naked, sprawled across the bed.

“You did so good, hermosa,” he whispers in reverence as he cleans you up. You grin at him, sated and tired. “I wasn’t too rough, was I?”

“Mmmm, no, it was perfect,” you murmur, sleep taking over you, “But to be honest, I think I like it when you’re a little rough…”

He chokes on his breath before laughing, a warm sound that settles deep in your belly. Neither of you bother to get dressed before he’s slipping into bed next to you. He pulls your duvet over the both of you, and tucks himself behind you. His strong arm wraps around you, and he plants a kiss on your cheek before reaching over to switch off the light.

“Thank you, Frankie,” you whisper in the darkness. You can feel his breath catch a bit against your back.

“Thank you, pretty girl,” he whispers back, “Now get some sleep.”

His statement is punctuated by you yawning, and with your hands intertwined, the two of you fall asleep.

[sparklyslug]

I HAVE FINISHED CHAPTER THREE, CRACKED 40K, ANNOUNCED THE POST DATE and according to my serial killer progress spreadsheet, am 68% to my new projected word count (original was 35k lol oh baby look as us now)

To celebrate all of that, here is a sneak peek of some assholes behaving extremely badly:

……

Steve is moodily drawing shapes into the spilled bit of sugar next to his cappuccino (ordered, depressingly, with the hope that he might need his energy for a long night of getting to know the love of his fucking life or whatever) when the chair across from him is finally pulled back. 

He startles, with a white-hot flash of near euphoric surprise, until all the light drains out of him a mere second later. 

“Of all the gin joints in all the world,” Eddie Munson jokes, the absolute last person Steve wants to see right now. 

He wonders if he’s dreaming for a second, less because of how totally unexpected it is to see Eddie here and right now, and more because of how unlike himself Eddie looks. Unlike the Eddie Steve has become used to, anyway: gone is the black suit, black shirt, black tie. Instead, Eddie appears to be wearing jeans (dark blue wash, but still), and a richly-saturated blue turtleneck. Steve’s used to him looking hard, and sharp, but the sweater is all softness, looks as luxurious to the eye as it doubtless feels to the touch. His hair looks a little different too– like he’s put a little pomade in it, or something, the curls pushed back from his face. That, and how Eddie has actually shaved the bit of scruffy stubble Steve had been just getting used to as a part of 1990s Eddie, kind of make his mouth goes dry. It takes a few years off him, it’s closer to the Eddie Steve had known more than ten years ago, but even more alarming than that is how there’s nothing hiding how the line of his jaw is firm. How his chin is stubbornly rounded and strong, and how impossible it is not to notice his full lips. Which are currently twisted up into a smile. Not a particularly genuine one, either. 

“No, no, no,” Steve hisses, once the horror dislodges itself from his throat enough for him to form actual words. “You can’t be here right now.”

“Man, if I had a nickel for every time I’ve heard that one,” Eddie remarks. “Granted, usually with a little more that-extradimensional-portal-wasn’t-here-a-second-ago dread to it, but–”

“I mean it, Eddie,” Steve says. “You can’t be here.”

Eddie considers him for a second. 

“And yet,” he says. “Here I am. What’s the big deal, Steve? Expecting someone?”

“I am, actually,” Steve says with a sneer. It’s not a lie, and Eddie certainly doesn’t need to know that PK is a depressing forty minutes late. 

“Wow, get a load of that blush. That, and the whole delectable, reach-out-and-touch-me ensemble, sure does make a guy wonder some things,” Eddie leans back in his seat, looking unfortunately like he has zero intention of clearing out. “Would this happen to be a date, Steve? Wait a minute– of course it is, you’ve even brought flowers. Well– flower. Singular. So maybe it’s not a hot date, but a date nonetheless.”

To Steve’s mounting horror, he picks up the sunflower laid across the cover of The Wizard of Oz. Waggles its drooping head towards Steve’s with a grin. 

“Would you believe me if I told you that this happens to be my favorite flower?” Eddie says, before slipping the stem between his teeth. Wiggles his eyebrows suggestively like he’s about to do a tango, or something. 

“I would not,” Steve says through gritted teeth, making a half-hearted gesture to try and get the flower out of Eddie’s mouth while also not drawing any attention to the two of them (it’s really impossible to accomplish both things, so he quickly gives up). “It would just be more bullshit, as usual.”

Eddie fortunately takes the flower out of his mouth, rubbing a thumb over the clear marks of where his teeth were pressed around the stem, as though he could smooth away the indentations they’d left behind. The sight of it makes Steve almost want to cry. 

“I don’t bullshit you, Steve,” Eddie says, and Steve would almost think it was serious from the look in his eyes, if it wasn’t for the way he’s still grinning at Steve’s discomfort. “And it’s true– one of many things you might find out, if you got to know me.”

[rep3llista]

Uncertainties and Confirmation | Bediguda

Sir Bedivere of the Round Table, the most chivalrous of them all, is currently Ritsuka’s favourite servant. Who can blame her? Especially after witnessing his determination to his King, which she secretly hopes he would do the same for her. He definitely would. But she wishes it was out of some kind of bias, not his unexclusive devotion.

Ritsuka’s little secret is every night; her mind would go to places she knew she shouldn’t, feeling his robust and veiny hands around her tiny waist, his sweet, deep voice, the precious emerald eyes, wishing he were hers.

Technically, he is hers. Her Servant, to be exact. She wouldn’t dare to cross the line. It’s not because she isn’t daring enough; she respects him too much and knows Bedivere has firm boundaries and principles. The last thing she wants to do is upset him.

It would instantly break her heart.

Speaking of breaking her heart, Ritsuka remembers when her heart first sank after being lightly scolded by him. His scolding was out of worry for his Master, but that day, her heart was softer than usual, and the slight change in his voice caused her to withdraw from him in the middle of a critical mission.

“Master, do not ever do that again. You are putting your life on the line! Let me do all the work—No, let me continue to protect you,” he firmly reminds her; his hands are holding hers, not letting her run away from this situation. Sir Bedivere is still a knight, and discipline is his way of showing that he cares. He wants Ritsuka to be responsible for her mistake. It is tough love.

Meanwhile, it is Ritsuka’s thing to be a bit headstrong and stubborn. Being the last Master of humanity forces her to be independent and strong. That is what she was until Bedivere came into her life. Bedivere’s ways will always find their way to break her hard shell. He only wants her to depend on him, but her circumstances don’t allow her to be one.

She is not privileged enough to be a damsel in distress.

She will never be the one for him. He hates her now.

She wants to run away, but his metal hand tightens its hold around hers as if it were hoping, no—believing she would eventually own up to her mistakes. He believes in her potential to grow. He always does.

“I am sorry, Bedivere,” she finally says out loud, her eyes desperately searching for his approval on his face. Then, it softens. And just like that, a heavy load is lifted from her back. She knows so well what that smile means. It means ‘I am proud of you.’

“Master…” he immediately pulls her into a warm embrace, rubbing her back in circular motions to ease her anxiety. During these short moments, Sir Bedivere’s boundaries are blurred. In the deepest crook of his heart, he hopes he is hugging the woman he loves. Not the woman he swore an oath to.

Could those two things overlap?

Maybe he is in love with her.

He quickly brushes his inappropriate thoughts away. Dreams should only stay in dreams. Now, he should focus on reality, where his precious Master looks like she could cry at any minute. He never want to see her cry.

“I don’t ever want to lose you, Master. You are so important to me, more important than my own life. So let me be your sword, depend on me, be selfish for me. Stay alive for me.”

His hug tightens like he doesn’t want to let her go.

“I cherish you. I truly do.”

In the midst of their shared uncertainties, they found solace and strength in each other's company, reaffirming their unbreakable bond.

[protect-daniel-james]

Ao3 wrapped ask game! 18, 27, 29 x

Thank you!!

18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

Already answered, so just to make it short - the Redknapps, since the Lampardverse is all about the Lampard(s) obsession with the Redknapp(s), and ofc that makes the Redknapp(s) hard to read/write/understand, since the only opportunity to see him/them is through the Lampardian gaze. Unreliable narrator, unreliable storytelling, and all that. Currently, I'm writing a Poch/Ange fic and I'm having a trouble to keep Ange's character in the "believable" spot, without making him a Zorba the Greek reincarnation lmao.

(tho I do want to see him teach Poch The Dance)

27. What do you listen to when writing?

That heavily depends on the story! So for example for "thematic" stories - like Txoria txori - I will listen to something that I imagine the characters listening to (so, in this case, Beti Mugan, Hertzainak, Oskorri...), or something that could accompany the scene if the fic was a movie.

Sometimes I will connect a song with characters for seemingly no reason whatsoever lmao. So for example to write emotional parts of Howe/Tindall fics, I will listen to Weather with you and The sun always shines on TV. I just imagine a movie with them as characters - two guys who weren't close in the playing days, but now are "made" to work together in very shitty circumstances, and they have to do everything on their own (cut the grass, repair stuff around the stadium, plan the trainings, scout the players...), and I just imagine them working their asses off, drinking bad strong coffee, driving for hours in a car together, eating awful egg sandwiches at gas stations, getting soaking wet outside, and growing closer and closer... All to the sound of very 1980s music (well, Eddie is an a-ha fan, so that could work).

But I think I am most productive when I listen to Binaural beats on Spotify, or some vaporwave/mall music with no lyrics, because then I can just concentrate fully on the scenes and sentences.

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

I am proud of the ending of Just a step from Heaven, hehe. I knew I wanted to end it on a sort of ... cliffhanger? Or, I just wanted the readers to follow Franko's messy thoughts the whole time, thinking "well, obviously he's not right in the head, he's imagining all this and giving it significance but he's unreliable" - and in the end, to realize that maybe he's not just wishing and dreaming and fantasizing, maybe Jamie ... knows. Or wants.

I'll put the rest under a read more cut since it's nsfw-ish and ... unai-esque.

"It was warm, he could feel it through the thin paper tissue, and he shivered as he focused on the two contrasting sensations, the warmth in his hand, and the cold, lifeless weight pressing against his face and he moaned, realizing that this was what turned him on so much, the contrast of the life and the lifeless, his body with its fluids and heartbeat and breath, against the firm and hard surface that couldn’t produce anything if the kind, his short, labored breathing against the definitive and firm shape of an item. He loved facts that couldn’t be argued with, he loved hard lines that couldn’t be changed, he loved concepts that couldn’t be touched at all – and the trophy combined all of it; his, virtuous, non-judgemental. He believed that on some level, the trophy could understand him."

As y'all might have noticed, I'm obsessed with objectum Unai. It's deffinitely more difficult than writing a regular smut I'd say? But it just makes a great opportunity to explore all the sensations that... a person can experience alone? just with their thoughts?

And of course all the stuff about Villa and Villa Park, and stadiums overall. Tbh, I'll never look at stadiums the same. And I might (?) get to go to Birmingham next year? (not just because of this; I have a friend studying in Coventry, but maybe on the way there ... ?)

He needed it to get a sense of any club he's ever been to, to be able to feel what the supporters felt, to walk into a stadium and breathe the club in, see the walls of the stadium, and not think of them as walls of a stadium covered in advertising boards, but to consider them part of the club's identity. Not think of the fastest way to make it past the walls, but think of the generations that have - or will have - seen them and walked along them in the rhythm of collective choreographies of congregation, interaction, rest, and relaxation, passing them in the secular rituals and pilgrimages in the quest of being there, at the stadium, where the club existed in its purest form, not just as a profitable cash-cow in the marketing team's wet dreams. The club wasn't an idea or a brand roaming the globe there; it was real, made of bricks and turf and wood and plastic seats in its colors, and it was tangible, present, smelling of fresh grass and soil and omelette bocadillos and cheap canned beer that was sold nowhere else but the stadiums, but also of the strong gassy smell of petrol that was used for travels to these places of worship. Unai has seen his fair share of stadiums during his playing and managing career, and even the smallest, most insignificant stadium in the Spanish third division left him with a strong sense of place - it was a place like nowhere else, it was unique, it was special, and he still remembered clearly all the travels, the excitement, the rushed parking of the car he and Juan Carlos shared for such travels to any available stadium in their proximity, the quick beer and an oily sausage on a paper tray - all these memories were like an appetizer, an introduction, the necessary and beloved part of the ritual, that had to be done because otherwise, the experience wouldn't be complete. Even when he used to watch fourth division bound clubs where the tactics consisted of instructions in the sense of 'try to score a goal and stop them from scoring one', he was mesmerized. When the game wasn't good or worthy of following, there was still so much to focus on, to watch, to take in; the smell of the pitch, the taste of the half-time beer, the humming sound of the crowd, and the wet smell of the pitch if it rained in the morning, the first raindrops splashing against the concrete steps of the stands.  There was nothing quite like it. It was always familiar, but never the same, there was always a reason to go again, to move on, to go to another nearby stadium. It was the loveliest thing there was.

I mean, all of this is pretty much a "normal" thing that people who do groundhopping and similar stuff do - it's just that Unai feels more strongly about it than a regular person.

When he walked onto the pitch for the first time, he knew he made the right choice. This was it. He got the right kind of kick, inhaled the air, and smelled football, football, football, football in everything, in every single color and shape, and smell and taste around the stadium. He saw the year 1874 displayed in golden numerals above the pompous staircase leading to the stadium, and he felt it, the breath of the passing decades, of the hundreds of thousands of fans who had to pass through the stairs and turnstiles. Villa. It felt like a piece of home away from home. The softness of the double "l" was familiar, so often harbored in his mouth that it felt like a natural fit. Aston was foreign, yes, but Villa always brought him home. The ending of the word, it wasn't lost in the air like Paris Saint-Germain or hidden under the tongue like in the name Arsenal  - Villa was a two-syllable whisper ending on a high, having a sense of expectation - Vil-la, Vil-la, there was hopefulness in the suffix; where Arsen-al was closed inwards, Vil-la curled outwards, reaching out to the new heights. He rolled the syllables around in his mouth and could taste them - in a way that no other club has ever made itself known to him.

God, I could put the whole fic over here - I said I am the most proud of it, and I wasn't lying ♥ (and I know you read the fic so it's probably pointless telling you hehe)