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period cramps are the price i must pay for slaying this hard ig
#i cant breathe properly tho#like this sucks#i am getting closer and closer each day#to picking up a knife#and a cheap anatomy book#and cutting it out myself#the doc says i have to get married before they’ll consider it#which is annoying#i am never having kids dawg#certainly not from MY womb w MY genetics
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Explorations on Doug Eiffel
#wolf 359#doug eiffel#art#fanart#i feel like this podcast is my artistic muse in that i am just always drawing the characters over and over and over and over again#and someday i will have the perfect line up that fits exactly the vision i have in my head#each day i get closer...
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do you ship ravage and drift? you draw them a lot and they're always so touchy lol
nah. they're really touchy amicas, tho. probably because im always touchy with my friends and it just kinda rubs off on my art. ravage is my Me character so i do end up giving him traits i have. one of those is being touchy with people he cares about 🤷♂️. he's especially touchy with drift as when they were grouped together in the dead end (which is where they met in my brain), ravage spent a lot of hours curled up in drift's car alt with laserbeak and buzzsaw for shelter. that touchy aspect never really left their dynamic.
and besides,
drift/deadlock's candle has always been lit for someone else.
(plus an extra doodle of them)
#ask: anon#tf art#transformers#more than meets the eye#transformers art#maccadams#maccadam#blight rambles#drift | deadlock#drift#ravage#tf ravage#transformers ravage#mtmte#transformwrs idw#not gonna go all out on tags here#my art#good rule of thumb for me is that unless it is specifically tagged as ship then its not ship#not much of a transformers romance person in general#like there are exceptions and i DO enjoy tf ships. i am actively encouraging ppl to ask about em/about my opinions on ur otps#but my rav and drift are amicas#very TOUCHY amicas. i draw them touching a lot bc i think theyd be pretty physically affectionate with one another#they hug. they cuddle. drift carries ravage occasionally. they speak through hand simply just to feel the contact. ravage puts all his#weight on drift on bad pain days. drift does the same for him. its a big part of their dynamic. its the Trust that comes with that touch#theyre sparkbonded to each other as amicas too. like these two cant really get closer. but its not a romantic dynamic 🤷♂️#i cant stop you from seeing it that way and. im not gonna try lol. but anon asked so i figured id answer and talk a bit more about em#idk rambling in the tags
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qpr jean and neil. that's all i'm gonna say.
do you see my vision?
#i might add onto this later but right now I'm too busy crying#“misplaced forever partner” ARE YOU KIDDING ME THAT DESTROYED ME#neil ordering a hit to keep jean safe changed my brain chemistry#i need them to be friends#i need them to call each other and gossip and send each other stupid memes that only they understand#i need them to slowly grow closer as they heal until one day they can finish each other's sentences#and they ocassionally make super dark jokes about their trauma out of the blue (they bet on how people will react competitively)#i need them to call each other derogatory names but get Super Upset whenever anyone else talks shit about the other and offer to kill them#and i would love them to reclaim the spots next to each other that riko set#and make them their own#they're not partners on the court but they sure as hell are partners in life#the mcs ever#at one point andrew and jeremy are just looking at each other across a table at a restaurant as these two bicker#and realize they have somehow both become the Third Wheel despite the fact that 1) there's four of them and 2) jean and neil aren't dating#the amount of queer platonic pining i could fit in these traumatized people#the: “i'm lowkey obsessed with you but I Really don't like you romantically and I don't know what to do with it”#and the: “oh thank hell me too i thought i was even weirder than i already am. wanna go harass the fbi with me?"#jeremy and andrew watch this trainwreck both exasperatedly and proudly you can't convince me otherwise#cannot convince me that these four won't somehow end up living in each others pockets even if they live 1000 miles away#kevin pops in frequently as his usual wonderful diva self#anyway i'm going insane how yall doing#neil josten#jean moreau#all for the game#the sunshine court
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no actually I’d like to hear your thoughts on the isat ending
Like i said it felt really tropey and by that i meant that it’s just Everything Good Happens forever and…..that’s it ? like idk we were building up to this huge catharsis sort of thing and then we got to it and it was so sudden and not a good payoff and just kind of nothingburger of an ending . the fact that everyone just forgives siffrin bothers me, or at least the fact that they don’t confront them about the shit they’ve said and done. call me a mental illness villainizer but i think if you’re a fucking asshole and doing the most insensitive things to the people you care about then hey, i think those ppl have a right to fucking tell you off for it. likeeee idk being at your lowest point …… not an excuse …. not feeling it chief ……. like sure the message is to move past your mistakes or whatever but ? that doesn’t mean just getting away with it ??? and i just really don’t understand Why everyone forgives him. honestly at the end of the day the ending is just one problem, the root of which are the characters. everyone feels like trope cardboard cutouts. oh, this is the smart one. this is the smol bean. this is the himbo. and they all care for each other btw. Did u hear that? they all care for each other. we’re not really going to explain to you why these people are so close or what they went through together but just trust me man they’re sooo found famy. like …. okay. i’ve played 30 hours of this game and not once did i buy that any of the characters really cared about each other. like??? why???? You’re telling me everyone super cares about siffrin even though they barely know them?? you’re telling me siffrin cares about everyone sooo much even though he never even bothered to find out their problems before ? Wat ? and this just breaks the ending more because literally whyyy do these people care about him so bad. and then it’s just whyyy does siffrin Have to tell them anything he doesn’t even seem to know them that well. everyone feels like colleagues and Just Friends at best. and so the ending just seems really forced. like it was written by that type of tumblr user who’s always talking about aww why does the found family have to break up after the end of the journey :( which is like fiiiiine. i guess. but u guys know that u have to build up to it right?? you can’t just tell me they’re Family Members(tm) 102829 times and that they super care about each other source: trust. you can’t just do that and then expect me to believe it ….. It feels unearned. the ending feels unearned and i don’ttttt understand what i’m supposed to take away from it . that it’s ok to fuck people up because you’re traumatized and insecure?? that you have to talk about your deepest problems with people you barely know??? i just dont know. Like i said if im being honest the problems with this game’s writing are more than just the ending, it just stands out so much because there’s a lot of build up and then just …… That
#honest to god if you want a Good Example of a story like this just look at dungeon meshi#we start the story from the end of the characters’ journey. they all don’t know each other very well and they’re just working together#hell they don’t even like each other that much. And then as the story develops and they go through their journey we get to see them bond and#get closer and fight and make up and admit they care about each other and still be mad at each other#nobody even gives a fuck about laios at the beginning of the story but by the end of it they’re all willing to die for him. THAT feels#earned. when marcille super fucks up and everyone tells her off for it but still wants to just make sure she’s ok That feels earned#like honest to god i’d take marcille’s arc any day than whatever’s siffrin going on#i just feel like this game suffers from a chronic Tell Dont Show syndrome. we get old over and over again that these characters are close#told*#and that they care about each other. And that’s just ….. not a way to write a story ………#when all the characters exist just to comfort the Whump Main it’s like how am i supposed to get invested. in any of this#u know when the dev replied to someone who was asking them how to write a story and they just said ‘glue your fav tropes together until it#becomes a story’? Well i think that is isat’s main problem. it’s not really a story. it doesn’t really have characters#it’s just a bunch of tropes in a trench coat. And let me tell u that is notttt how you make a story. at all. at all#anyways this was supposed to be about the ending but this story just has so many inherent problems i could critique it forever🤷♂️ my badddd#it’s fun as a game and it’s Fine as a story but at the end of the day it just reads like fix-it fanfiction to me#which is not Bad on its own but i wish people would at least recognize how the story is kind of built on sticks#cramswering
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buying the heart aspect hoodie off topatoco after i get paid this week <3
#moon yaps#i am SO EXCITED. <3<3<3#because like - im making a purchase of my own (satisfies a teens need for independence and agency)#its for a piece of media i like (duh.)#and its a hoodie - which. i wear a sweatshirt most days. so ill get much more use out of it#and.... its subtle enough to wear to school - but noticeable enough for my friend's brother (homestuck fan) to notice (step closer to being#-friends with him) <- which i really want. i dont have a crush on him per se i just think he's pretty cool and funny and we have a lot of -#-shared interests! so this could be a big step in the right direction. because his group and our group hang out close to each other and -#-interact a lot at lunchtime (the two groups get kinda blended then) and that whole group is very fun!#i'm actually in a minecraft realm with them. theyre very cool people#sorry im rambling so much in these tags. i just really wanna be pals with this guy. because the more friends the better and i need more -#- people to talk homestuck with. speaking of. if anybody wants to chat with me feel free#if youve read this whole thing congrats!!
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how long do we think it’ll take people to finish veilguard. a month? two months?
#see my drafts folder has a bunch of do-overs of Veilguard polls#to be published when people are more familiar with the characters#I want to start scheduling them#but if they come out too soon#ppl will still only have surface-level impressions of characters#but I don’t want to leave it too late because…#well. I am excited to open my Christmas presents (Veilguard polls)#dao and da2 both originally took me a weekend each#dai took a little longer but still only about a week#however I had a broken leg at the time so i literally spent all day every day playing it#if it’s closer to the scale of bg3 that took me like a month#but I was only working 3 days per week#whereas it seems in the u.s. a lot of people have to work even more than 40 hour weeks to make ends meet#folks if you have gotten this far through the supplementary tags#let me know how long it took you to get through dai and bg3#not a poll
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feel like I've genuinely spent at least a quarter of my day too horny to think. i was going to do some kind of art today but I've been thinking about the boy...
#for like the third day in a row#me: I've gotten so much hotter fr like i'm SO hot now and i was already hot i can't believe this#me when a friend who knew me from before says he thinks I'm hot: buddy what do you MEAN??¿?¿¿ 😵💫😵 really?? 👉🏾👈🏾#i enjoy his friendship and his company ♡ and i don't want to make it weird so i needed to cool off for a couple hours (。ノω\。)#i just kinda asked him if he wants anything more of me and what his boundaries are :3c and we can go frm there#i don't like to drive myself crazy wondering and letting a crush build. i nip it in the bud before it consumes me by just asking 😌#this isn't my first crush on him but i did keep the other ones to myself.. he's different 👉🏾👈🏾 but things r p different these days#and it's been a while since we've last seen each other. I've never been more attracted to him than i am now 😵💫😵💫#what happened.. wait no we have been getting closer i suppose. I remember always wanting to know him more in our#friend group back then and i feels rly nice to actually understand him more these days (❁´◡`❁) ♡ to be seen and understood myself.#it's a whole thing lol but basically i split off frm our old group then he kinda got kicked out and the group fell apart#but then we reconnected months later and we're better friends than we've ever been :3 i like him and appreciate him either way ♡#😮💨 having a crush on someone is so exhilarating yet exhausting lmaoo. he's a good boy though i like himmm ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ#ougggh... waaaahh.... auhgggghhhhggggg........#i haven't had a crush on someone in a while (。ノω\。) I've been blissfully hanging w my bestie but he keeps getting me#god..
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sorry. valentino rossi races in wec???
#since WHEN#me every few days like 'damn i wish i could get into moto gp fandom if only moto gp and everything it entails was not deeply triggering 4 m#but at least that means i am safe from the derangements rosquez would bestow upon me'#but now....the danger is nearer and closer than ever#i do love wec and think it deserves more respect than just#'the place u go when u fail out of every other motorsport category'#but also very funny to me how deeply it suffers from MLS retirement home syndrome.#like what do you mean nyck de vries and robert kubica just took each other out at the first corner. what are you talking about
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no i truly don’t think i’ve processed how clinically of unsound mind it is that production is spinning a romance for the ages based on a guy who thought a pile of q-tips on a public counter should remain untouched and a girl who knew him for maybe two weeks and gave him an awww in response to him saying he had a crush on her.
#bb25#like he got an hoh letter from her!#everyone is still learning each others names the first few days#so like you know they didn’t start really talking till closer to week 2#and even still i highly doubt they jumped right into deep conversation#production is WERID for this#like maybe they will make it work when they get to see each other again#i’m not saying they won’t be a thing cause idk them and didn’t see them on feeds really#but what i am saying pushing a showmance storyline between these two is wild
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"Ah man, my dad's dead" me, just now remembering that my father is in fact, actually dead and has been for almost 3 years
#i was thinking about his family and talking to them about him and it just hit me that hes gone#that i don't get to talk to him ever again#that he won't get to watch my little brother get married next year. or even meet his fiancée#he won't meet my children that i want to have#he missed his first great nephew being born#he missed meeting my first boyfriend. and my first heartbreak when i found out he was married and lied to me the whole time#he's the reason i had a mental breakdown and can no longer leave my house without having a panic attack#his genetics are why i have such deep depressions and go days at a time without sleeping because I'm manic#from my height to my gray hair to the shape of my face are all his#the autism and the bipolar disorder and even the pcos and insulin resistance. all from him#that my siblings and i are closer than anyone else and would do anything for each other is because he taught us to be#that i never got my college degree and now live in abject poverty are also partially his fault#since he died I've been angry and bitter about him. but also full of grief and i want nothing more than to see him again#i still don't know how to live with him gone. my world shattered and fell apart the day he died. what am i supposed to do?#how to i go on without him? how do i deal with his sisters without him. how do i deal with my mother without him? how?#this got a lot sadder than i anticipated it was supposed to be a funny post and the grief overtook me#i started crying and im laying down so now there are tears in my ears and i can't hear#fuck#dead dad club
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tomorrow is my last day my job.... I'm almost free
#I CANT WAIT TO GET OUT OF HERE each day gets harder and harder but i made it. i did it. i worked for almost a full year#and im moving on to better things now.#like if i had stayed 2 more weeks it would've been a full year#just looking forward to finding a job that is closer to what i want. i am NOT built for retail/customer service/food service#and that's ok. I'm surprised i came this far without laying my hands on somebody at this job
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#badfinger#the iveys#maybe tomorrow#1968#1969#i love this video because i could take the story of it in at least two ways#'maybe tomorrow i will love again' as the girl gets closer and closer#as the video goes on#like she's right around the corner#it could be only one more day and they'll find each other#but in another way#another point of view#it's like he's not really noticing her#he's singing the song about lonliness when she's right there#dwelling on it so much that he's not seeing what's right in front of him#there's a third thing i have in mind about having their backs turned to the lively world behind them but#i'm feeling too lazy to keep typing and my thoughts feel too heavy for my brain to hold at the moment#and i mean any thoughts at all not just these ones#some days i need some 'turn off the brain' time#anyway i am also laughing at mike and ron in the second gif
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every time something bad happens to me i immediately turn to dazai. like ah, who else would understand my mommy issues if not the most miserable character of bungou stray dogs
#i have yet to be proven wrong. only dazai gets it#i am hanging on by a thread and that thread has been getting thinner and thinner with each passing year#one more time and i will either become a serial killer or erase my online presence altogether#every day my self control gets tested and every day i get closer to playing body by mother mother on repeat for hours#to be deleted
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#I keep thinking about how mad I am at my dad#for various things#and then I think about how one day I’ll have to exist in a world where he isn’t#and then I get so sad I could spend days crying over and over again#I think about how I spent so much time hating my mom#and how she didn’t deserve most of it#how if I had just tried harder things could’ve been better#we could’ve been closer as a family#we could’ve loved each other better#things could’ve just been better than they fucking are
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I wanted to finish the puppy fic today but instead I started a new wip... it's just that I'm at the smutty bit and that's the part where I need to know what I wanna write before I do it and I'm kinda drawing a blank (or more precisely I didn't have enough time to be at peace and alone to figure it out yet)
#I had the hubris of hoping that I could finish the puppy fic today and maybe get closer on the ski fic tomorrow#but instead I wrote about two sentences into each#and I was rotting in front of my laptop all day switching between listening to christmas music and watching 911 ugh#glad to see people like the insta fic idea though#I already have so many notes though I try not to go near it until I finished the mudslide fic and the jealous eddie fic#and of course the christmas fics lmao#why am I like this 😭#newbie stuff
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