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There is nothing worse than being on a long road trip in the backseat with RUSH playing.
#i am experiencing first hand#I DONT WANT TO LISTEN TO TOM SAWYER#i literally went through this yesterday#groundhog day#but reverse
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the never stop blowing up vhs is where cute twinks go to get harmed
#not art#nsbu spoilers#kirk blade.... johnny manhattan..... maybe tenuously cosmo chase#also genuinely I Love that vic ethanol is showing himself to be bit of a dick#and kingskin conversely First Actual Communication With The Player is like. idk I just work here#(I am vibrating in my seat abt liv bloodlust. shes experiencing a bit of emotional consequence. hope she powers thru it and#becomes even worse)#I also love that g13 and jack manhattan are both like. gone#I know in adventuring party they're charting it to shape up as like. usha also slowly losing herself to the work like g13 did#and them becoming one entity entirely in the sense that their selves stop mattering in the face of their hacker capacity#(also called the Forum Moderator Dilemma)#but I also like to think that g13 handed it back to usha cleanly in the second episode with that one interaction#and is now fully unplugged from everything. left the movie. man is Sleeping#we all agree that paula ate jack manhattan tho I think it's fine to assume that#and! the way russell has been like. fully going whole hog full tilt into helping other people and moving the plot along#while Suggesting That Doing Self Reflection And Learning Lessons From This World Might Help to Other People#like I love that. 1/lieutenant syndrome but also 2/extremely transfem coded#like past the ''ohh I have realisationd I'm coming to'' stage. far past. man is bored with thinking abt genders#not new realisation to him! had that thought two decades ago. not motivated enough by anything to change anything#I think I just love the scenario of like magical mystical journey in a fantasy world clearly designed to make you contemplate ur gender#and ur like oh no what? we did that years ago. whats up#deeply interested tho. open up russell we wanna see whats up with u#dang is perfect no note 10/10 more important than anything else he is genre aware and savvy and that truly is all he needs here#the ''let's make it fun'' scene he does with liv is SO good I love him. Im so scared the vhs will snatch him away. hes too genre perfect
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going from my cool transgender college dorm to the Weird Old White Men Convention is soooo freaky like why am I experiencing misogyny for the first time
#reconsidering my position on giving condescending old white men the benefit of the doubt#it's just the way they talk down to u and how they clearly think of themselves as the most important and coolest ppl in the world#freaky experience to be treated like this but like they can't actually harm me in any way so. whatever#it's sooo weird I can't believe I am 18 yrs old and recognizing that I'm experiencing misogyny for the first time#who u should be honored to speak to and the way they get too fucking close to u. like fuck all the way off oh my god#I have got to stop being so shy and pathetic bc all I am doing is playing directly into their expectations of me#guy who said he thought I was 13 or 15 and then proceeded to shake my hand for too long and grab my shoulder as he walked away. ewww#whatever. I hope their wives leave them and take the house in the divorce#narcissus's echoes
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some silly siren au doodles for you in these trying times? <:3
oh my god im losing my shit over the first doodle they are so Goopy and silly, there are no thoughts in those eyes !!! lights are off !!! the image of bard scooping them out of water and they’re just “:D okay” about it the entire time is so 😭😭 ... they are simply happy to be here
ALSO POINTS AT THE OTHER TWO. YES !!!!!!!!!!!
venti wrapped around the bard from every direction possible is so real and so true, clingy ven !!!! humans are just so squishy compared to sirens !!! they are fascinating to hold !!!! absolutely love the contrast between the two Like where venti is just this is :] my beloved :] look at him, he is wonderful. bard im so sorry youre being assigned as a human teddy bear plush. and then the venti. the venti . just laying the bard on them. i !!!!! am !!!!!!!!!!
#deeply intrigued by what the third vens thought process would be like#staring intensely at the hand on bards leg while i say this#bards 0_0 is cracking me up too HDJDJ#bard experiencing being moved around like it’s nothing : huh !#that first doodle is so exciting to me actually bc that is like . exactly ven’s size as Baby#they were the runt#also the . the blushing bard in the second .#i know what you are bard /j#the way you draw the scarf so flowy is also soo :]]#<33#god i am just enamored how you showed off their slight size difference HDJD#bard and his dear siren who is not only stronger than him but bigger too and insists on curling around#him every opportunity#actually that’s making me wonder if in the third doodle ven got cuteness aggression#ty so much for these 💕💕💕💕💕💕🥺#having so much joy omg#lantern replies#mutuals !#arson art :] !!#the boy and the whirlpool au#the bards bemused :3 in the first doodle is also everything#hehe …. tiney#and him just going stockstill in the second 😭😭
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Jason the Mosquito Sniper (Part I)
Welp. I was incredibly productive with my schoolwork yesterday BUT NOT TODAY. Only managed to finish my physics homework and half of my calc. Have only barely started writing out my upcoming college applications (Part II). I'm scared. :,D
ANYWAY... Started this thing back in... the second week of November?? Daum. Look at how Dickie's hair grew. ;w;
These two panel sheets were drawn nearly a month apart... AND I STILL CAN'T DRAW DICKIE'S ABS.
DEFENESTRATES MY PEN.
#jason todd#dick grayson#tim drake#batfam#batfamily#tim drake's missing spleen#am i a dick (grayson)?#me at age 17: *developing carpal tunnel and experiencing back pain*#the whole batfam: *freaking flipping quad loops and summersaults harder than I can flip a birdie*#Alfred: *cocks the shoty*#Alfred the Butler: *cleansing the manor and the gardens even more hand sanitizer that rids 99.99% of bacteria*#hehe#which Alfred did you think of first? >:3#I kinda wanna draw Alfred the Cat cocking a shotgun now
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Your reply, please
Our circuits are connected
As if our hands were intertwined...
#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#metal sonic#metonic#mecha sonic#mecha#oil and water#oaw#gotta draw fast!#this took. many hour#anyways our introject is having. such a time poor guy#what if i got roboticized and we held hands and experienced touch for the first time all over again and we were both 'boys'#looks at the 6-year-old fic in my docs. sigh im never writing this am i
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Don't turn back!
#ffxiv#ff14#zero tag#zero ffxiv#my drawing#(wolzero implied but like idk. spent ages going like should i put ysh. there or my dearest wol)#but now im kind of ride or die for them so like. :]#(<- first media where ive had oc/canon ships was xiv and i am experiencing growing pains anew)#other two shapes based on ff4 fiends btw. gestures#hummm what else. inspired by that one untranslated jp interview that mentions her :)#also this iis too calm for their actual dynamic theyre biting each other half the time .#but sometimes . hold hand is nice :)
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Is it just me or is it so cathartic when v tears johnny a new one. Idk why but whenever you get the option to just start chewing him out im like YESSS HAHA 😈🫵
#If johnny were in my head i would be rubbing his nose in it every chance i got we would not like eachother#I am generally a pretty tolerant person but as the game goes on esp as you start experiencing his memories first hand i would be so mean#Bc thats the only way he actually listens lmaooo#You cant get 100% with his relationship unless you verbally beat his ass then tell him to shape the fuck up or else#Like he NEEDS to be held accountable because every inch you give him hes gonna stretch as far as possible as shown w the pills scene#If you dont keep your boundaries firm with him hes just going to slide right back into his old ways#Which i think is why im so picky ab how people characterize him when hes too nice i always visualize He Would Not Fucking Say That#Johnny is a bitch. Let him be a Fucking bitch!!!
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#personal#ladies... its lovesickness on the menu again tn NDNNDNDNDMDMDNDMDMDMDM#god help me#i made it like 29 years without this. why now NFNDNDNNDNDNDNDMD#like ok im happy to be experiencing this in the sense that like... now ik what it feels like to really like someone#but man oh man is it... A Lot#and like maybe its this intense at any age. but idk..... it feels like So Much.....#and im freaking out bc i talk to my mom about it ok. and shes like oh ya that reminds me of how i felt with ur dad in the beginning n im#just... like ... o#bc my parents were like friends first and are like in Love love and have a v happy marriage so im just#the... Potential of having that n like oh god idk. i just dont know its all too much......#and im also like what if its all in my head. but then again like why is he waiting around for me n messaging me out of the blue.#i also caught him staring at me n looking away after i caught him. i just..... idk like i wanna Believe so bad but im so scared too........#im all over the place JDJDDMDMDMDMDMDMDNJDND#but i also am just..... i'll be patient .... bc rushing is no good#like idk. i feel like things have been Moving. and its not super fast but its a pace i can handle#bc ok say i Do ask him out or he asks me.... then oh fuck. then all the Scary things happen. like ok not scary#i dint think itd be scary with him#but idk.... physical... things. would start happening n like. id l9ve to hold his hand n like k___ him ok OK. but at the same time i just..#idk !!!!!!! im v shy !!!!!@@@@@ and ya. ....... idk 😭😭😭#like i like him so much that i think id want him to .... i just .. ya idk.#getting kind of ahead of myself here but what else is new
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YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO FALL FOR DEWDROP'S LOOKS, YOU FOOLS! DON'T FALL FOR THE SIREN!!!!!!!
#I say as if I am not explicitly the person in the friend group who will die at the hands of a musically talented creature#my friends have experienced this first hand with me#so the lesson is...if we're out in the woods or outside at night and we hear music#don't let me follow it because I will without thinking for a SECOND about it#just 'ooohh pretty' listen I'm just I WANNA FIND THE PRETTY SOUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i knew no less than 6 transmascs named garrett in 2014…. i wonder where they are today….
#honorable mention for my first official boyfriend who changed its name to warden halfway through our ill-fated romance 😔#idk where it is either…. we stayed twt mutuals for years but idk enough about its current name to figure out if we still are#anyway i hope all the dudes in 2014 whose bios were like#‘garrett. ♂. 17.’#are having way normaller relationships with women than they were in 2014. probably they are#but boy were they not in 2014. and idk if it was a thing specific to guys named garrett or if it was just that all the guys in that space#were named garrett. but i experienced some of the most out of pocket internet queer-flavored misogyny at the hands of garretts in 2014#extremely funny to look back on bc like 7 months later i stopped being a cis woman and started being… whatever i am. now#漫言
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Oh my god why didn’t anyone tell me any of this sooner?
#I’m in work training for the first time EVER and I am so pissed off right now#I know almost everything they’re teaching which is fine but#All of this would have been really fucking nice to know back when I didn’t know it; but no I have to learn it now#How was my hiring process even legal? It shouldn’t be legal to get into working for the school system like I did#I was constantly asking for training and the answers I got were either “You’ll learn as you become more experienced”#or “Sorry you can’t attend that training because it’s for district employees only.”#I am working with children. I have to lay my hands on children to prevent them from harming themselves and others.#What do you mean you can’t train me?#I’m so thankful to have it now but god damn#So now I have to sit there thinking about all the situations I miserably failed at handling in my first and even second years#because I had no training#Fucking hell man
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My heart goes out to all the queer folks who haven’t come out not only or at all because they think straight people won’t accept them, but because of the queer community being so divided and gate-kept they don’t think they’re “queer enough” or that they are “too weird.”
It goes out to people who if they were to come out, would face backlash or hate from not only straight people, but queer folks who don’t like them for reasons that should be unrelated to their sexuality or gender identity but for some reason was decided are.
Closeted people who are religious/famous/politicians/farmers/live in a place or do something that is associated with heterosexuality and/or being cis. I may not see you, but I love you.
And to the Queer HOA. Stop It. You suck.
#as someone who had experienced this hostility from the ‘community’ first hand#it’s not good#I grew up in a fortunate/wealthier position#and now I have poultry and work at an agricultural/feed store.#and because of those things I am apparently too straight to some of y’all#also being on the asexual spectrum gets me kicked too#from both sides#fellow aces and aros ily#weird queers ily#kink community ily#I am one but furries ily too#send me anon hate I don’t care
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i don’t think i truly understood cultural appropriation till i saw s5 of the vampire diaries
the season’s evil there are “the travellers” who abduct people’s bodies, are witches (or a variant of witches, idk) and are group-chanting spells in “czech”. now, fistly, for all the comprehension there is they could literally be chanting in ancient greek with zero difference. all their speeches are literally unintelligible. once a main guy dramatically screamed “viď!” to turn a guy into the bodysnatcher traveller and i was honestly impressed by his acting, this was the only time i distinguished a czech word. dude must’ve actually practiced with the google translate reading function - i refuse to believe there was more effort into their “czech” than a random google translate.
also, and this annoys me the most. the leader of the evil bunch is called markos. Markos. the czech version of the name marc is marek. THIS IS NOWHERE NEAR. NOWHERE. it only plays into my ancient greek theory.
#don’t judge me for bingeing tvd i broke my big toe and sprained an ankle on the other foot#i have been on home arrest for a month and a week#also jk i experienced first hand culture appropriation when i tried reading the book lights of prague#it scarred me#moje kecy#me? coming to my long dead tumblr just to rant about a 10 yr old show i am rewatching? more likeoy than you’d think#or rather watching bc last time i stopped watching way earlier than s5
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since october i didnt stop to think about how in a way this is personal
im not palestinian and i dont have family from palestine
but as a muslim i still feel the horror and sadness with each new matyr, the only comfort coming from the fact that they are all now in heaven with God and every matyr that came before them
as someone who loves Christ and tries to follow his teachings along with Muhammad's, i still feel the horror and sadness of seeing his home and his people destroyed without second thought from the people launching each rocket and firing each gun
as a romani person i still feel the horror and sadness when no one speaks on behalf of the dom living in palestine, every day of silence bringing more and more fear for their safety and their lives
then i realize its even more personal when theres news of a new genocide, a sickening domino effect of hate and violence and wickedness
this desensitization of just killing, ruthless killing affects every single person on this planet
i never saw human bodies being eaten by emaciated animals until this, never seen the reaction a man has to his leg being blown off until this, never seen a dead child let alone children dying in these hellish and horrifying ways until this
i will never forget these images, the sounds of people being murdered, the mourning cries of so many now unwhole families, the names of the matyrs and doctors and journalists, this will be with me until i die
im not palestinian, but this is still fucking personal dammit, as it should be with every person with a heart
so i wont rest until every person is free and safe and healthy
i know i wont see that world in my lifetime, but thats the point, ill die fighting for this. if i die without having done something, then my life was utterly in vain
i guess just. keeping fighting and fight with love being your motivator and open your heart to the good and unjustly persecuted people in this world
please
#as an outsider looking in i never want to speak over the people experiencing this first hand#but i am just hurting so horribly#and also loving so much at least as much as i can from here#this i guess rollercoaster of emotions these past months exhaust me#but i still want and need to keep going#opre palestine inshallah
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watching any part of the revue starlight franchise with me is just having to listen to me exclaim “oh my god my rights” every time Mahiru & Hikari are in the same frame. BONUS i will say it very loudly if Karen is also there
#pris has experienced this first hand again today.#thank u.#shut it mono#if mahika has 10 fans i am one of them. if mahika has 1 fan that's me. etc
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