#i am all these things gdi

[hinamie]

10 years later

[thefloatingstone]

*buys Psychonauts 2, Divinity Original Sin 1 and 2, Persona 4, and the BG3 Deluxe Edition upgrade*

Ok perfect! not a bad price for 4 games plus yeeting some money at Larian. That's a good haul for the Steam sale.

....

*remembers I wanted to check out Halo because everyone on tumblr yelled at me to do it when I asked*

*sees the ENTIRE 7 game collection is marked down 75% at the moment*

[essektheylyss]

Listen, I don't think class discussion forums are really that bad in general but they do become absolutely hellish when you actually care about the course and the professor not thinking you're a fucking dumbass.

[ai-the-broccoli]

aaghh I hate health anxiety ocd (or whatever you call it), it's literally doing nothing other than contributing to make my health worse

... wait actually, does anyone have like, tips/advice for that kind of thing? I really think I need some help with this one

[count-doodoo]

idk if this is a hot take or not but i would literally rather everyone just throw all their insults and criticisms of me at my face. like i'd rather just know. a) so i can fix the problems and b) because the not knowing drives me bonkers (what if everyone hates me, a social anxiety story. but seriously what if everyone hates me tho--). getting notes like "sorry to bother you but this thing you've been doing has been really annoying for awhile" is legit The Worst because we could've fixed that!!! i would've tried to do better if i'd known!!! i don't ever claim to be a good person, let alone a perfect person, but i do /try/ to be better!!! (but then again no one would be /wrong/ to assume that me attempting things scarcely results in success so like)

[change-the-rules]

*grabs your hands earnestly*

it's not about the Canon, that is not to invalidate any feelings that is to say we are fandom, our works are transformative because we take the bits and pieces of a something we love and we break it, take the pieces that speak to us a spin them into something that resonates, it's about the dynamics and the potential and putting characters we adore In Situations because the narrative failed them or it failed us, or for fun or for science or just because it's fucking hot, it's not that serious and it holds a certain gravitas

it's playing in the sandbox, pure and simple, beholding ourselves to Canon is the antithesis of Spirit of the thing

do you see?

[ace-malarky]

finally told my boss about wanting to shift libraries :3

I was gearing up to it for Friday haha but she called us back to SH after we'd finished in the bus and asked if I could hang back rather than go to access bc she had something she wanted to talk to me about

and like ok it's been an Open Secret for a while (my old library knows. all the old hands here know. even access knows) but still. one of the other team leaders offered to tell her at one point and I said no the fuck you will not but I don't. exactly trust him? not to have?

always fucking fun when she goes "we'll just use this meeting room here" because that definitely ups the tension. last time I was in here she was checking I was still Definitely OK after the Suckages and I do not do well with that much earnest prolonged eye contact ok.

but nah she asked me about the supervisor post back in my old locality bc everyone knows how strong my ties are there lmao

so I had to sit there and go "actually. the problem is the promoted post. can I go back to being an advisor pls. preferably in access where the work is far more varied I feel like I'm clawing at the walls" with a heavy side of this isn't a reflection on you or the team because it isn't but dear god SH is so. quiet. I can see maybe five borrowers in a seven hour shift kinda quiet

(also I don't really want to work in MH. not good with the teens yet and also my brother will be in the same building. maybe we'd see each other more than we do? that might've been interesting lmao)

anyway I've specified not until after RA moves into its Real New Building (possibly at the end of Aug? maybe?) but. christ

hello I hate having to admit I'm not working well in places.

[gaminegay]

if I had a nickel every time I wanted to do a nice thing for a man and the immediate reaction I got was "be careful, he might misunderstand, you're a girl, the statistics" and got really bummed out I would have two nickels etc etc

[saiibeo]

// I… might have passed out before I could do that inbox call but I should be properly medicated in the morning to do that and to answer things finally. 😭

[sometimesiship]

i wrote sylvia and franky as a joke in omwf not planning for it to actually go anywhere

but now i ship it

gdi

[astramachina]

Medical offices that do not let you schedule appointments via website.... why.

[space-ninja-fashion-show]

I occasionally alternate between "i have no reason to MR grind, i have a million better things to do, and the benefits are tiny in comparison" and "man being MR30 would be so cool and also MR grinding is a nice brainless-yet-organised thing to work on"

I'm currently in the latter phase

Went and grabbed every forma-free weapon blueprint from the dojo and put in what i could to cook

[plzu]

writing is supposed to be FUN i shouldn't have to feel stressed out & guilty over not Actively Writing omg

[cosmosarcana]

Hu5h

[hotvintagepoll]

Propaganda

Anne Baxter (The Ten Commandments, All About Eve)—her soft, gentle voice in "all about eve", those gentle eyes with something odd behind them, the way she flips from Sweet Innocent to Viper on a dime......there was something Built Different about anne baxter, man, and it makes her so good for playing people who are Built Wrong. also one of my favorite batmen villains (her joint episode w vincent price is a delight) and of course I'm obsessed with her columbo episode where she bosses around edith head and does fabulous movie star things for no good reason. and i would be REMISS if i didn't mention her slink—oh the slink—in the ten commandments...................pardon me i must go think of sinning again

Waheeda Rehman (Chaudhvin Ka Chand, Pyaasa, Sahib Bibi Aur Ghulam)—90+ films and counting, an absolute legend of Hindi cinema. When I see her in Sahib Bibi Aur Ghulam it makes me want to chew glass

This is round 3 of the tournament. All other polls in this bracket can be found here. Please reblog with further support of your beloved hot sexy vintage woman.

[additional propaganda submitted under the cut.]

Anne Baxter:

The prettiest murderer in that film. Just so beautifully evil as Nefertari.

Anne Baxter was part of my Bisexual Awakening. My family has a tradition that every Palm Sunday we watch The ten commandments on TV together... And starting from a very young age, I essentially developed a crushes on Anne Baxter's Nefertiri & Yul Brynner's Ramses. Dude, the woman was HOT! They both were! My crush definitely wasn't helped by the fact that Anne Baxter's costumes were a bit on the sheer side. She had a way of capturing you with her eyes, and I never understood why Charlton heston's Moses didn't just have a threesome with Nefertiri and Ramses. LOL

Her Nefertiri in The Ten Commandments was FORMATIVE TO ME. If not the hottest old movie lady, then she definitely played the hottest old movie character. if that makes sense.

Look. Listen. I only *just* discovered her on a post from the Have You Seen This Romcom poll blog. Saw she had the same last name as me and went OOH hi hello. Went to her IMdB and saw she was born in Indiana like moi. I am now even more intrigued. Been eagerly telling my partner this, and he was like "maybe you guys are distantly related?" And after 2 hrs of going down the tumblr tag + her imdb photos, I'm In Deep(tm) and I can't stop looking at her like 😍 When I go to my grandma's house, bet your ass I'm gonna check my grandpa's genealogy and see if we're somehow related. Sorry that's not really propaganda I just got real excited, esp when I saw that the submission deadline was extended (bless your soul). Narrowing down the movies where she's hottest in was Hell tyvm. I've only just discovered her, she looks gorgeous to me in every movie still I see of her gdi lol.

Waheeda Rehman propaganda:

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[suzukiblu]

hi, how are you doing? I hope the brain fog has cleared at least somewhat. Brain fog sucks.

I mean, like, def still having some lurking brain fog over here, don't get me wrong, but my overall energy level's doing a lot better and I can actually think sometimes again, plus I wrote about 4.5k today after several days in a row of not even breaking 500 and only hitting about 1k for several days before that, so that's an improvement, for sure. like, that's very much an improvement.

now, is it an improvement that I am SATISFIED with? no, because I am an insane person who was put in the gifted program instead of being put into "how to handle the genuinely ridiculous levels of ADHD that your pediatrician is going to recommend your parents avoid pursuing both an actual clinical diagnosis and/or any form of treatment for" therapy as a child and therefore the imposter syndrome is strong with this one.

but objectively it's an improvement! objectively it's an improvement, and objectively it's a good thing!! we ACKNOWLEDGE our accomplishments up in this bitch, gdi!! WE ACKNOWLEDGE!!!!

( also yeah I think we can all get an idea of the somewhat ridiculous expectations I have of myself when I'm like "ugh I ONLY wrote ten thousand words while recovering from COVID last week, geez what's WRONG with me, am I just never gonna write AGAIN??" like. perhaps. perhaps just a small idea, hahaha. )