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truethes · 3 months ago
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still looking etheral while having an existence changing experience ...
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faceless-conspiracy-buff · 11 months ago
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hey thank u for making this blog and ur amazing writing!
[ Hey! Thank you so much for your kind words! I had no idea that people were still reading my work in 2024.
Like, I started this blog in 2019. That was nearly five years ago.
I figured that most of my old followers had moved on by now. I definitely didn't expect any new followers after months of inactivity.
I don't know if I'll be updating anytime soon -- as much as I'd like to, my life is still insanely busy -- but it's really nice to know that my writing still makes people happy. :> ]
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ranvwoop · 1 year ago
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I've seen a few things primarily citing alloros people as the reason for like. romantic / sibling dichotomy but i am going to be honest. being aro does not absolve you of benefitting from thinking more critically about your own amatonormativity and prioritization of the nuclear family
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the-punforgiven · 1 year ago
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Seeing Elphelt ditching her entire bridal aesthetic in favor of becoming a metal vocalist is deeply funny to me
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cawziiku · 2 years ago
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I sniff the air and I smell tiktokkers on this platform!!!!!! why is the sudden fluctuation of that audience so prevalent!!!! I read your comments and I know who you are!!!!!!!
please do not send your community to migrate over here i will BITE /hj
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iishmael · 3 months ago
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todays one of those days. just googled how much an adhd or autism assessment would cost in Ireland. Over 1.5k each lol. do I look like I’m gonna spend 3k just to be told smth that I a) already know and b) no one can do anything about? lmfao shut uuuuup 😭😭😭
#I’d have to pay for it privately due to Complicated Immigrant Situation That Influences My Health Insurance Situation (TM)#sometimes I just feel like it would be easier if I knew what was wrong with me yk#I have this ALL OR NOTHING mindset thing and I’ve always had that and my mum has been on my ass about having to work on that all my life#anyway it’s come to bite me in the ass once again#yk when ur brain just gets like. Stuck on a thought#not in an OCD way tho more like. ‘if this doesn’t play out EXACTLY like I thought it would I will have a meltdown’#and then you have to exert sooooo much energy bc you have to stop the meltdown from happening#my boyfriend changed plans we had and it fucked me up so hard I don’t know#and when I say ‘I wish I was normal about this’ he replied he loves me for who I am#really????? it is simply impossible that you love someone bc they have a crying hyperventilating breakdown bc the plans for one day on one#weekend change lmaooooooooo#(I didn’t have the meltdown. I suppressed it. I’m not a bitch!)#I don’t want him to feel guilty#but he picked up on it and I don’t know how to explain to him that it’s not about the damned change of plans#I’m upset bc I feel unseen bc I have to mask and mask and mask and I don’t even know WHAT I’m masking#maybe I don’t even have any neurodivergence and I’m just a horrible person#frankly the most likely outcome but I sure as fuck am not paying 3k to be diagnosed with Basic Bitch 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂#shut up Sam
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angorwhosebabyisthis · 2 years ago
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having to ration my meds for a week thanks to refill fuckups right as i'm slamming facefirst back into my Extensive Web of Infodumps About Quarry Meta hyperfixation is biphobia. if it's a sign i'm ignoring it
#who. Who. is going to talk about kaitlyn and jacob's codependency in great depth#both what we got in canon and in versions of their dynamic where she /isn't/ just like. a ballsout sadistic emotional abuser lmao#they're both really really interesting dynamics in different ways and i'm like#they set up ALL the pieces for her arc to involve facing and trying to learn how to move on from her codepency with jacob#to admit that it's hurting them both and holding them back from living their lives#that romantic or not you can love someone very deeply and still need to let each other go#even by their own standards where they think they're not portraying her as abusive lol they set it up#'kaitlyn chooses inaccessible people to crush on and then refuses to follow it up because the elephant in the room is that she feels guilty#at the idea of pursuing her own relationships when she Owes Jacob Keeping Him Out of Trouble(tm)#she has appointed herself guardian of her best friend who does need help and support for his brand of destructiveness self and otherwise#but she does it by suffocating him; and he did not ask her to do it; and she resents that he doesn't seem to have gotten the memo#that she is chained to him; so he should be chained to her too. hence her being Like That about his relationship with emma'#i am going on but there's So Much Here they could have explored; that would have been genuinely humanizing for even an abusive kaitlyn#and instead we got 'Mom Friend whose character is mostly relegated to being the shoulder fairy for the majority of the game' :|#anyway ANYWAY anyway i am so very normal about them more disastrous toxic/abusive alterous relationships please#[kettering by the antlers plays in the distance]#quarrytag#quarrycrit tag#the crit files
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starimusprime · 3 months ago
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ok ok!! ya got me to start a talkin!! ok so anyways im not much of a storyteller but my hc is post movie so big fat spoilers on the way
anyway, elitas been like SUPER clingy to optimus after she gives him the lil pep talk
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peep the images. constantly being by his side. heck, even CHOOSING to run ACROSS the battlefield to be next to him
so oppys like “hmm, she DOES know what she’s doing and i do need someone who’s more experienced in leading.”
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yea THAT scene (her flustered “who me 🥺??” will forever be living rent free in my mind)
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(ew wips)
optimus: Well, I’ve been thinking of another promotion; With the Quintessons still at large, there’s a chance they’ll have my head. I’m needing a bodyguard. Someone by my side 24/7 to ensure I don’t make “stupid decisions”
(im terrible at writing dialogue dont bully me 😔👊🏽)
so elita sees this as an opportunity. Which yknow, her whole character arc was her wanting to prove herself and all.
especially now bc she feels SO SO guilty that she couldn’t save optimus, or stop Megatron in time :((
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(adding to this hc she does cling to his left arm after the events(tm)
Oh yea and oppy now lives in the tower as he is now The Leader Of Cybertron
he moves most of his pals in their too (jazz, B, WheelJack, Arcee etc.)
HOWEVER THO
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(nother wip)
he wants elita in HIS quarters bc shes his bodyguard. so of course he’s gonna need her berth closest to him
(Perhaps 2 ppl 1 bed trope teehee 🤭)
anyway. das my 2 cents. i hope that helped in anyway for prompts. again i aint much of a storyteller but i have concepts!!
I need to break this down into a summary of my favorite points because WHAT THIS IS SO GOOD!
Clingy Elita. Makes sense, especially her tendency to be on his left. Launchpad for tension, perhaps Optimus starting to wonder if she’s okay because she’s being overprotective even for a bodyguard.
Optimus seeking leadership advice from Elita since she was the captain of his mining team and he’s never been in an authoritative role for anyone ever. Builds trust, confidence, and mutual respect between them. Beautiful.
Mutual subconscious pining revealed through Elita’s desire to prove herself via protecting and advising Optimus and through Optimus’ desire to station her as close to him as possible at all times, maybe because he is as afraid of losing her as she’s afraid of losing him (again). Did I mention mutual pining? 🤌
Optimus not just taking over Sentinel’s tower (does anyone know its official name?) but sharing it as a sort of headquarters with his Autobot High Command. Love exploring the facets of his being that separates him from mecha like Sentinel, selflessness being one of the biggest differences.
Thank you so much Munejewels I am eating this up for dessert tonight and will use it as inspiration to produce a banquet for my fellow Optimus Prime X Bodyguard Elita fans
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teaboot · 6 months ago
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Batman? As in extended batman universe, specifically batman, or movies batman? I'm going to die from the hilarity of /accidentally/ following another batman fan. Generally it's on purpose lol
I was actually absorbed into the Fandom by osmosis before I even touched any of the Canon material
Even now I've only seen the Affleck movies and the Battinson one, plus a couple cartoons and like. Four comics out of order
With next to zero evidence tho I have decided that
Dick Grayson has Eldest Daughter syndrome that, speaking as an Eldest Daughter (tm) really should be addressed in the lore somewhere before he goes on a drunken bender, gets a tramp stamp, kills a man, and has a full-on mental breakdown when the Repression Dam breaks
Stephany Brown radiates "angry teen girl needs a hug" energy imo but I feel like she might break my arms? I don't know anything about her except her dad sucks but honestly same boat, would hang
Timothy Drake cannot be the helpless boohoo I see a lot of, but somehow the cool, collected, hypercompentant, übermensch-tweenybopper look is kinda sadder, like seeing a twelve year old buying groceries at the store by themselves. I want to send his ass to normal kid summer camp
I don't know pretty much anything about Duke Thomas except that he's a meta whose parents might be alive but crazy. I can only conclude that he suffers from Black Character White Fandom syndrome. I headcanon that he had an embarrassing weeb phase in middle school because he feels like the kind of kid Who'd have gone through a phase of saying "ohaio" with peace signs as a baby tween. I have no evidence to support this
Cassandra Cain might be my favourite. I think she deserves to go on an angry, irrational rampage or two, as a treat. Aggretsuko vibes that I cannot explain. I bet her favourite colour is purple
Jason Todd is my guilty comfort character and I refuse to believe he kicked the shit out of a fifteen year old while wearing a legless adult onesie. I refuse. Also yeah as a huge angry-kid-book-nerd there is no way that pride and prejudice was his number one fave, my money is on the Percy Jackson series but that could just be me projecting
Damian Wayne is Autistic, personal subscription. Because I am too and I said so. Reminds me of my baby brother, but crankier. Like a tiny old man who doesn't want to be at bingo with the other folks at the senior center.
I feel like Alfred should be allowed to be wrong about something sometimes but I still love him. Give that grandpa a gun
Bruce Wayne strikes me as a man who should have put a lot more thought and study and personal therapy consults into the idea of adopting multiple highly capable highly traumatized children he's never met before before but fuck pobody's nerfect am I right. Bisexual
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nohaijiachi · 1 year ago
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Why I Think The Fandom Has Been Doing Aziraphale Dirty Ever Since Season 1 And It's Only Gotten Worse With Season 2 And It's Killing Me Inside
Before we get into the subject matter of the title let me preface a couple of things:
1- All that will follow is, big surprise, my opinion and my interpretation of this character. Do I think I am The One And Only Who Gets The Blorbo Right and that my ideas are 100% the way the author(s) intended to convey the character? No.
More likely than not the way I see Aziraphale could be intensely different from the way Authorman sees him, or Actorman sees him, and I don't think that my interpretation is necessarily any more correct than anybody's else.
That said, if I also did not think that I am, in fact, correct on a certain level, I wouldn't have bothered forming such a thought out opinion of Aziraphale in the first place, nor would be sitting here, writing this post that I can already tell is going to be entirely too long and might probably ruffle some feathers.
So I'll be writing the rest of this post with the caveat that I while I do think my interpretation correct, I'm also not trying to change anybody's mind nor to discredit anybody's else interpretation of Aziraphale. We can sit here in the sandpit and hold different opinions and still be able to build sandcastles together, it really isn't that deep at the end of the day; I can assure you, I'm not here to fight nor cause fights with this one.
2- With the above point, comes also the fact that I won't bother continuously saying "In my opinion" for the rest of this post. You already know that. So, if something will come across as a bit caustic, do know that it is very much tongue in cheek and I am poking a bit of fun at general fannish habits that I am also very much quote-unquoute 'guilty' of having partaken into, and will partake into again plenty of times in the future, I'm sure.
So, with that: Here's Why I Think The Fandom Has Been Doing Aziraphale Dirty Ever Since Season 1 And It's Only Gotten Worse With Season 2 And It's Killing Me Inside
A large part of the people comprising this fandom prefers Crowley. There, I said it.
This fandom's preference blatantly skews toward Crowley. Can we admit that openly? Let's admit that openly.
To be clear, this isn't meant to be an accusation or recrimination or any other -ation you can think of, I am merely stating matter-of-factly a phenomena I've observed in the last four years.
It is also not a wrong nor bad thing in any way, shape or form. I adore Crowley myself. I love them both so much it's unreal.
But I started with that because I think it is very much a symptom of the fact that a lot of people don't get Aziraphale.
I remember back with S1 there had been plenty of times when I found myself reading discussions and opinion exchanges about Aziraphale and Crowley, their dynamics, all the things that went unsaid behind the things that were said, and found myself genuinely surprised by seeing how some people interpreted certain moments wildly different from how I personally saw them.
I look back at that and I think "Oh, sweet summer child". Nothing could have prepared me from the onslaught of takes about Aziraphale that make me go "Good lord, what???" in the wake of S2, and the infamous Last Fifteen.
Now because I don't want to be pointing fingers at specific things and risk upsetting somebody more than I already am by being open in admitting that, guys, yes, some of the takes y'all have been sharing make me go "Yikes(tm)", I'll move on the interesting part and what I would actually love to discuss, aka cracking Aziraphale's head open and see what that actual fuck is going on in there.
Another preface: Because this duo is intrinsically linked and woven together it is downright impossible to only focus on Aziraphale without also mentioning Crowley, so... Let me circle back to our fav demon bae for a sec, here.
I think the reason why it seems that a larger part of the fandom favors Crowley is because I feel like Crowley is a much easier character to grasp. He is very open in his thoughts and feelings, at any given moment us, the audience, have a much easier time watching a scene and sort of ruminating in the back of our heads about Crowley's motivations for saying the things he says and doing the things he does.
That isn't to say Crowley is a less complex character than Aziraphale. They are very much equally complex and multifaceted individuals with their strengths and weaknesses, their issues and the way they each cope with them, how differently they approach their existence and so on and so forth.
But whereas Crowley as a character presents itself with a certain dynamism and a far more outward openness about his complexity, Aziraphale does the exact opposite; we can say Aziraphale is downright hermetic about it.
For us, the audience, he presents a challenge that requires a good deal of thought being put into him to see over the facade he presents at a more superficial level; he requires time and effort to fully dismantle him in our minds to try and see what makes him thick (other than his thighs), and thus I think it is entirely natural that more people latch on the far easier to identify-with, and relate-to, Crowley.
And that is the inevitable consequence of everything that makes Aziraphale... Well, Aziraphale.
So, where to start? Let's try and jot down what Aziraphale truly is at his core.
He is a contradiction.
This man-shaped being is a walking contradiction, constantly existing in a state of being coated in three thousand layers of misdirection and obfuscation and double thinking.
Why is that? Well. He's an angel.
Aziraphale loves being an angel. It is a tenet of his entire existence and something he cherishes. He wants, so very much, to be his ideal of what a good angel is: An entity who is kind and loving and understanding and forgiving.
Of course us, the audience, know that is utter bullshit, because we know angels can be individuals just as complex as the humans Aziraphale loves so much, with all their inherent flaws and capability for cruelty. And, on a certain level, Aziraphale knows that too.
So there we have it, one element of contradiction: Aziraphale wants to think that angels are always Good and Righteous and Never Wrong; Aziraphale knows that angels aren't, in fact, always Good and Righteous and, by god, can they make plenty of mistakes, too.
What else? How about Aziraphale sitting there, being in love with a demon, fully knowing that at the end of the day demons really ain't that different from angels, and also desperately hanging onto the concept of Good vs Bad.
And he sits there, existing with these two contrasting idea equally taking space in his mind, neither side ever capable of taking over the other.
What else do we have? Aziraphale loves God and wants so hard to believe in Her love for humanity and Her ineffable plan, and Aziraphale also time and again does things that very blatantly go against Her will, lies to Her face, and Doubts. He Doubts, a lot, and that requires the capital letter because those Doubts are what spur him in going against everything he's ever told to believe in order to do the right thing.
Aziraphale's very existence is a constant push-and-pull of things he wants to believe and things he knows are real; things he's told to do and things he wants to do. That's how we get "My side" and "there's a bit of good in you" and "you are the bad guys".
And nothing he's lived through has managed to break him out of this unhealthy way of existing quite yet; that's why he acts the way we see him act in the Edinburgh flashback in S2, or at the start of S1 when Crowley has to ease Aziraphale into the idea of trying to stop Armageddon with the usual song and dance of "temptation" and "plausible deniability" and "you'd be thwarting me", even though from the start we can tell there's a little part of Aziraphale who is clearly not at ease with the idea of the end of the world, and once he's been given 'permission' by Crowley nudging him, he is all the way in with the whole saving the world business, not take-backsies.
Both the moments I mentioned here are very important for different reasons, but of the two is very much the Edinburgh flashback that gets a lot more flack by the fandom and is blatantly misunderstood, which I think is the inevitable consequence of that minisode immediately following the glorious, beautiful, heartbreaking piece of art that is the "A companion to owls" minisode.
I've seen a lot of people lamenting that Aziraphale acts obnoxiously in the Edinburgh flashback and, yeah. He does. But I feel like the fact that we are seeing this after watching Aziraphale struggle his way through saving Job's children, even being willing to go to Hell for it, is a though act to follow and probably soured Edinburgh-Aziraphale for a lot of people, made them think that the character had regressed instead of progressing.
But, see, the way he acts is wholly congruous with who Aziraphale is and has always been and keeps being up to the very end of S2. Yes, even after what he does for Job's children.
If you get down to it, Aziraphale had been ready to give up and let the children die, in episode 2. For a brief moment, after Crowley told him he 'longed to destroy the blameless children', Aziraphale was walking away, having tried all he thought he could try to do to stop this senseless act. That was until Crowley tested him by making the crows bleat, cuing Aziraphale to the fact that his impression of Crowley wasn't wrong, and the he could count on him to do the right thing.
To be clear, I don't want to undermine Aziraphale's action by only giving the credit to Crowley but... It is, also, only thanks to Crowley cajoling him and giving him the right excuses, that Aziraphale feels safe in doing what he's always wanted to do all along.
He'd wanted to save Job's children, and thought he couldn't until Crowley threw him that hell of a lifesaver. He wanted to save the world and thought he couldn't until Crowley nudged him on the path of plausible deniability.
He wanted to save Elspeth's eternal soul, blinding himself to the hardships she'd have to endure in her not-eternal life, and was smacked right in the face by the reality of human suffering multiple times.
The way Aziraphale acts in that flashback can't be a regression, because there never was a progression in the first place: He'd always walked the line between Heaven's and God's will and his own, personal morality and sense of justice.
By all means, if we look at Uz-Aziraphale and modern-day-Aziraphale at the start of S1, his reticence about the whole saving the world business should, by all means, appear as a regression as well. You mean to tell me that he'd been ready to become a demon for the sake of three mortal children, and then suddenly a handful of thousands years later when faced with the prospect of the whole world going up in flames he'd just be all like "Heaven will triumph over Hell and it will be all rather lovely"? Like, fuck off, Aziraphale, you lying double-thinker, you (/pos)
Aziraphale constantly exist while being at war with himself. Circumstances have allowed him to rebel the will of Heaven and God more or less safely time and again, but he never quite managed to break free entirely. He'd always ended up being reeled back in, being fed the party lines, being made to feel shame for his independent thinking, until it all becomes too much and he is forced to step back from that freedom he'd been inches away from grasping.
Back and forth, back and forth, never stopping.
And all of this, all of what he is, makes it so hard for us, the audience, to truly see him. To truly grasp him. To truly watch any given scene with him and figure out what he might be thinking or feeling.
To understand Aziraphale is to understand what he is not saying when he says something, which is a good deal harder to do than it is to understand and relate to a character like Crowley, who very much revel in saying exactly whatever the heck he thinks whenever he damn well pleases.
All those layers of obfuscation and misdirection and double thinking that Aziraphale coats himself in are as much an armor that makes it harder for the audience to understand him as they are his very own downfall because, good lord, if you exist like that, if you exist forced to keep things hidden from yourself, well... It's inevitable that at some point you are going to stumble into pitfalls of your own making.
And I love him for it.
So, there? I hope I managed to explain something with this post, and that it wasn't just the rambling of someone who spends way too much time thinking about her blorbos. To be clear, I don't think people who haven't spent as much time as me trying to dissect and better understand Aziraphale's character are like, dumber than me or anything. It's just that this pair of angelic-demonic blorbos take too much real estate in my mind, lol.
Feel free to let me know your opinion and if you think I am wildly off mark and my Take Is Bad. I might answer, I might not, it all depends on time and my mood ◝(ᵔᵕᵔ)◜
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ms--lobotomy · 30 days ago
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Hear me out: Submissive wump Rogal Dorn.
(I think I'm using the term "wump" correctly here?)
This guy is a such a pent up stoic brick desperately yearning for companionship who's stuck in tradition and hierachy, always holding himself to the cold emotionless standard because he feels he has to or he fails duty tm (and canonically struggles to express himself). I picture him feeling guilty a simmilarish kind of guilty about his lust to religiously repressed Lorgar, only replace religion with "duty". So he's a bit looser about it and probably does jerk off, not wanting to bother the reader with his failure, but does feel bad about not being able to "get a hold of himself" ("This is not the time. I am failing at my duties. I am a failure" etc) and feels bad waking up with sticky sheets because of them.
There's also the joke of him having a humilation kink. So when reader torments him during intimate moments it's a damn feedback loop of him being mortified at how he's reacting…. and getting harder from it. Cock emberrasingly twitching in his pants at every "good boy" and oh is that a wet spot forming sweetheart? He looks away in humilation. And he's so down bad he's practially at the readers beck and call after being riled up and teased relentlessly. Think this big primarch being bossed around by a small baseline human. Other primarchs (bar maybe Mortarion or Ferrus with their strength bs) would be more alright with it, the likes of Roboute or Sanguinius being much more used to seeing themselves on equal footing with humans meanwhile Dorn would definitly notice the whole "primarch getting bossed around by human" and oh by the emperor why is he getting hard from it. Traditionalist Dorn is the one getting femdommed.
Of course I am a giga sap so my heart won't take him being put in an actually uncomfy situation so the attraction is mutual.
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Hello, hi! HELLO I NEED TO DOM THIS MAN PLEASE. AAUUUH. wrote a blurb 207 words ENJOYYYYYY
He looked up at you, wrists and ankles tied behind him. You saw something wet in his stone-gray eyes as you looked at him with mirthful glee. The hint of a tear was beginning. You cupped his face in your hands; it was a few times the size of yours, yet you had it cradled, nay, caged like an animal. He was hairy and fat like a polar bear, at the very least.
"Do what you want to me," he said in a defeated tone.
Your face softened. "Rogal..." you began, pressing your forehead to his. While he was kneeling, he was maybe your height, if not still bigger. "Rogal, we don't have to continue if you don't want to. If you remember the safeword, we can stop."
He was huge, and he likely had the power to break out of his restraints if needed. The muscle underneath the hairy fat on his arms was more than enough to rend the rope to shreds, but he looked at you with a shy expression in his eyes. You made him shy, you, oh! As he broke eye contact, he looked down to a wet spot in his pants.
"Oh, Rogal--!"
"I believe there is a different reason for us to stop."
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nihilitix · 2 months ago
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You talked about art requests (or sum) on your other account, and hear me out:
IvanLuka (actor au) and Ivan is like holding a kid/doing sum with one of the replacement child actors and Luka is thinking to himself "I don't like these kids at all, so why are they tolerable when I'm managing them with Ivan" or like something idk it's your fault I'm into this rarepair now I never knew they existed and then suddenly they've infected my mind andabsksvs hhuahahuahhhuh
(apologies for the incoherency; also this is gonna be hella embarrassing if this is the wrong account 💀)
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it's messy and maybe not the best to understand but i did my best 😿 and ivan was so cute to draw wjnjdshd
i am Not Guilty (tm) for spreading the ivanluka agenda to you. i'm actually proud, ONE OF US, ONE OF US !!!
send another request whenever u want, and sorry if this one took a while ! > <
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absolutepokemontrash · 2 months ago
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Ignore how late I am but I saw the post and I feel the the need to complain about this. A squick I have when it comes to fics and headcanons is when Belphie is completely villainized while the rest of the brothers hate him with their whole being while also depicted as perfect. And while that's annoying on its own, whenever this happens everyone else in the work also gets fucked over.
I specifically mean works where Belphie gets reduced to "the cold and callous villain who killed MC" and that's it. No acknowledging any circumstance around or about why he did it and making being manipulative his entire personality trait. And the rest of the brothers hate him for killing and manipulating MC, which I would understand more if this didn't so frequently come with them acting like they've never even hurt MC before.
The brothers love and protect MC by lesson 16, yeah, but they also almost put MC six feet under on multiple occasions themselves and only just got used to seeing humans as equals. They would be upset with Belphie for killing MC, but they wouldn't hate or never forgive him because they've been brothers long before MC got there and it would be hypocritical.
And this causes the rest of the brothers to act extremely out of character as well. Especially when it comes to why the brothers can't forgive him. Sometimes the brothers will hate Belphie for "killing Lilth" or hurting her descendant which is??? Or they'll treat MC like they're a replacement for Belphie, which is also???? And in these situations, MC acts like they're the antagonist of a replacement AU.
For some reason in works where Belphie's personality or lore gets tossed out of the window, so does everyone else's and both of these are so nerve grating to me. Okay, done complaining.
I have so many thoughts and opinions on Belphie and the fandom’s treatment of him, that I could deadass write a peer reviewed thesis on him…
TLDR: The mischaracterization of Belphie in the fandom is so rampant that I’m convinced some people writing him or complaining about him haven’t played the game.
Just to get this out of the way, Belphie’s character redemption arc suffered due to the 20 lesson limit in season one. His grand evil plan got put into motion in lesson 16, and we had to spend the entirety of lesson 17 (and into lesson 18) turning him into a viable Husbando (tm), therefore, his redemption and development was incredibly rushed.
Onto the good stuff 😈
My take on Obey Me and the brothers as a whole is that while yes, the writers have been woobifying them a whole lot, a LOT of their “toned down” behaviours can literally just be explained by them not having a *reason* to be assholes anymore because MC has done so much work to help them repair their relationships with each other.
I was raised Catholic (decently progressive Catholic, still got the fun guilt though lmao) and the way I was taught to view sin, was that it was an act of violence against someone else, and/or yourself, because there is some kind of deficiency or problem in your own life. It’s that whole “hurt people hurt people” thing, and you can literally SEE it with the brothers.
Lucifer isolates himself and puts on the persona of the tough, scary, intimidating eldest brother when in reality, he’s scared, and guilty, and fucking embarrassed about what happened with Lilith. You can see this when Luke took the Grimoire, Lucifer wasn’t acting out of rage, he was acting out of fear and disguising it, and then lashed out at Luke and MC and only stopped when Diavolo told him to because Dia is literally his boss.
Now what does this have to do with Belphie? Belphie is downright homicidal when the game starts in season one (which is why Luci locked him in the attic, to protect him AND the exchange program), now the question is “why?”
To put what Belphie has been going through in perspective: this guy has been drowning in guilt, trauma, grief, and self loathing for thousands of years. He feels guilty that Beel saved him instead of Lilith, and most importantly, he feels guilty that he led Lilith to the human world to begin with. He’s lashing out because he’s been grieving for thousands of years with no one to turn to about it BECAUSE THE OTHER BROTHERS ARE ALSO STILL GRIEVING
Now of course, this doesn’t excuse what Belphie did to MC, but it does EXPLAIN it. He’s so angry at humanity and himself that he’s the emotional equivalent of a suicide bomber. He’s self destructing and trying to take the people he’s blaming with him and praying that makes the guilt go away.
Finally, when Diavolo and Barbatos reveal Lucifer’s secret about what really happened to Lilith (how she was reincarnated and got to live a happy life as a human), this is the kick that gets ALL the brothers to finally be able to move on. We spent the entirety of season one making pacts and going on silly little adventures with everyone, all the while being the support system they needed to finally move on from their grief.
So THAT is why it makes me so angry when people act like Belphie is uniquely The Worst.
This is coming from someone who doesn’t mind writing the brothers at what I believe to be “their worst” in terms of shitty behaviour (if you want an example, look at how Asmo is currently behaving in A Lovecraftian Exchange Student). But I think characterizing Belphie as some pure evil villain is a massive disservice to him as a character. (Ignoring his survivor’s guilt and grief etc etc)
Also, to act like the other six brothers would immediately hate and despise Belphie over this is so wrong, I’m sorry but it’s grossly wrong. Belphie is their sweet baby brother, yes they love MC, but guys, especially at that point in season one, yes they liked MC, but BELPHIE 👏 IS 👏 THEIR 👏 BABY 👏 BROTHER. I think they’d be disappointed and maybe angry at him, but they’re not going to just up and abandon him, no chance about it.
I’d say the brothers didn’t truly begin to love-love MC until the end of lesson 18-20 after they’ve done some growing as people, but that’s just my interpretation.
Finally.
Y’all.
Did you forget that Belphie literally offered a pact to MC, SPECIFIED THAT IT WASNT BECAUSE OF THEIR CONNECTION TO LILITH BTW, and did this entirely of his own free will because he liked them???
Guys, a pact is offering control of the demon’s entire being! Belphie had grown enough in trusting a human to the point where he was willing to put his life in their hands!
This was so ramble-y and confusing, I’m so sorry- I just have so many thoughts about the brothers and Belphie in particular 😭😭😭
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lemon-russ · 2 months ago
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Hear me out: Submissive wump Rogal Dorn.
(I think I'm using the term "wump" correctly here?)
This guy is a such a pent up stoic brick desperately yearning for companionship who's stuck in tradition and hierachy. Holding himself to the cold emotionless standard because he feels he has to or he fails duty tm (and canonically struggles to express himself). I picture him feeling guilty a simmilarish kind of guilty about his lust to religiously repressed Lorgar, only replace religion with "duty". So he's a bit looser about it and probably does jerk off, not wanting to bother the reader with his failure, but does feel bad about not being able to "get a hold of himself" ("This is not the time. I am failing at my duties. I am a failure" etc) and feels bad waking up with sticky sheets because of them.
There's also the joke of him having a humilation kink. So when reader torments him during intimate moments it's a damn feedback loop of him being mortified at how he's reacting…. and getting harder from it. Cock emberrasingly twitching in his pants at every "good boy" and oh is that a wet spot forming sweetheart? He looks away in humilation. And he's so down bad he's practially at the readers beck and call after being riled up and teased relentlessly. Think this big primarch being bossed around by a small baseline human. Other primarchs (bar maybe Mortarion or Ferrus with their strength bs) would be more alright with it, the likes of Roboute or Sanguinius being much more used to seeing themselves on equal footing with humans meanwhile Dorn would definitly notice the whole "primarch getting bossed around by human". Traditionalist Dorn is the one getting femdommed.
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What I love about this is I can't tell if you like Dorn or not. Same results regardless lmao go off ✨️🫡
More of these big men need to be dommed
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sw33tl1es · 10 days ago
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Honestly dunno how can some people write post-game Kaito as mostly fine or taking it better than the others bc??
The guy feels guilty about having even the slighest of pessimistic thoughts and you think hes taking being a murderer lighty???? At best he's having an identity crisis lol
Honestly. I feel like people fall into Kaito's facade a bit too much (that or they make him the worst person ever tm) I won't argue that he's not a strong character, he is! But *vaguely gestures at chapter 4* he's incredibly INCREDIBLY insecure and fragile
And it's already bad in-game (tho ofc, we view the story trough Shuichis lenses, but even with that its CLEAR that he's not doing fine and he's doing backflips to deny that) imagine in a post-game au in which he not only feels guilty for not stopping the killing game sooner, thus indirectly causing his friends deaths, but now he has to live with the fact that he directly killed someone
He does see the nuance, he does understand Noone of it was real and he does get that it was Kokichi's plan, it was necessary.
But then when he thinks about himself the only word that comes to mind is "murderer"
Personally I am of the idea that in a vr au his her complex is at his maximum because now he feels like he has to make up to everyone since he already failed them once lol before it was "you live for yourself and others" and now is "I live only for others"
He just really needs an hug, someone gives this guy an hug please
(Fair disclaimer that this is my personal hcs, so you are allowed to disagree, at the end of the day we might never know how those characters would act in this context)
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bulletsxlattes · 7 months ago
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Do you have any headcanons of Jay and Tim? Together or separetedly, doesn't matter
Oh boy, honestly whenever anyone asks me this question I ALWAYS without fail: blank. Im positive I have plenty. Like Jason being the romantic in the relationship. But anytime I answer this question I always forget 90% of them. I also am guilty of not fully committing to my own HCs. Like I think of one and then ignore it in my art HAHA but off the top of my head, I do like to think of both of them as being differing degrees of Demisexual & Demiromantic. Like I see Jason strongly in both. He feels absolutely nothing for anyone until he feels that emotional attachment. But he's also longing and starving for That Romance from his Novels(TM). So, when he starts falling he falls HARD. While in contrast, Tim is very demisexual and the type to compartmentalize his emotions for later. Or just someone very uncomfortable with affection. The kind of person to squirm from a hug or crack a joke to make it less intimate. But he's low key starving for it as well. He's more uncomfortable in his longing for that while Jason wants to drown in affection the moment he gets a little taste. Hence my art where he's on his knees with Tim. Also, I do head canon on the side that Jason, yes is a book nerd, but he never actually understood the books he read? He was just so passionate about them and his own nonsensical interpretations to them. For instance, in his early childhood he wouldn't really have anyone to help him understand these grand classics he's reading and would ask around to random people what X or Y means. In turn, they would tell him something random and he would believe it. In example, his interpretation of star crossed, might be so literal that he would think stars formed an X in the sky and that meant not even the stars wanted them together, lol. And even as an adult he would sit people down to explain, in long impassioned rants, this wild interpretation of a book that while it is incorrect, he still gets to the same general area? He's definitely on the right track. and there is still a huge childlike wonder and essence to his observations. He's deeply creative.
Anyway, that's all I can think of at the top of my head for now. Thank you for the question, Anon! I hope you have a nice weekend. :)))
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