#i always feel like it's my fault
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For the people outside the US, the US says if you are self-employed, then you pay more in taxes because your employer isn't paying those taxes for you. So if someone else paid me the small amount I live on, I might get a refund, but because I pay myself the small amount I live in, I have to pay toward social security and Medicare myself (ok) plus a "self employment" tax. Taxed as employer and as employee.
Isn't that bad for a country that says it loves a small business? Isn't that bad for a country where 30-40 % of the population now work side gigs that count as self-employment income?
Yup. That is ancient tax law that has never been updated.
It means no real savings ever unless you suddenly make a ton of money, enough to qualify for you for the "rich people pay less in taxes" tax bracket. OR for me personally, I have to spend enough in business expenses to cancel out the taxation, essentially. Either way, I am out about a fourth or so of my income. Love it.
#i always feel like i am such a failure#even though the sysyem is set up this way#i always feel like it's my fault#i don't earn enough or i am also being punished for being single or whatever ugh#anyway i made homemade kahlua for xmas presents this year and i guess i will drink some#i am explaining it badly but anyway it sucks
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and i got eyes on the back of my head, i got eyes everywhere so i know where you go
#yrdnzz art#blue lock#blue lock fanart#isagi yoichi#isagi#bllk#artists on tumblr#hey#been a minute.... sorry fazgang#I FEEL LIKE IM ALWAYS APOLOGIZING IN THE TAGS my fault#ill do better mb yall i just graduated this month and ive been just chilling doing fuck all bc ive been artblocked AYE EFF#big thank u to jamie for talking me thru this piece even tho its sooo simple#just having someone to talk to about how i feel abt my art was very helpful bc i was definitely stuck on how to start drawing again#what graduating with a bs in comp sci does to a mf i guess#anyways hope yall like this one LOVE U ALL MWAH
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DpxDc AU: Tim as a child was never given a lot of information regarding the scribbling messy handwriting that appeared over night all over his arms- naturally he came to his own conclusions.
Tim Drake was home entirely alone at 9 years old and was about to go out for the night to test his brand new long exposure camera lens when he sees the writing on his arm. It’s not English, like he assumed it was at first, but it was using the alphabet to represent… Tim isn’t bad at math but this formula is complex for his little genius brain.
Looking at his camera, he decides he can spare a moment to look it up, solve it, and get back out into old town Gotham in time for Batman and Robin’s final patrol lap. He does just that, finding the problem to relate to some aerospace engineering and then quickly deduces what laws and theorems need to be applied. He finds a pen, writes down his findings in much neater handwriting onto his arm, and goes out. It’s barely a remarkable night at all. He gets a much more memorable photo of Robin roundhouse kicking a hench person.
Things just continued on that way. Tim would find some complex math, physics or chemistry prompt on his arm (surrounded by various question marks or notes or sad faces)- he’d answer it as best he could and move on with his life. Perhaps his parents were manifesting these pop quizzes? Perhaps his subconscious felt guilty about abandoning his studies for more Bat related pursuits? Tim really didn’t care to think much about it once he became Robin- there was too much on his plate and too many peoples problems for him to fix.
Notably, however, after the attack at the Tower, the pop quiz appeared and Tim wrote back that he wouldn’t be able to find an answer to this one. It was the only time Tim questioned the markings appearance and it was because the next thing that appeared was “Hope you feel better soon.”
… his parents wouldn’t include that on a pop quiz. Cursed then. Tim decided it must be a curse, whatever, he’d deal with the implications later in life.
Tim then has the worst year of his life, hes 15, no longer Robin and the questions from his curse are getting less math oriented and more… philosophical. A lot of mentions of death that, in hindsight helped him actually grieve, and a lot of theories about dark matter and souls. Tim answers back as best he can but he’s drained and his answers aren’t very good in his opinion. He gets minimal feedback.
It all comes to a point that he’s at a family dinner, Bruce is at the head of the table, Jason has promised just to stay for dessert, Damian hasn’t thrown a single insult his way and Steph was laughing at him- when a new theoretical model appears on his arm.
“You’re just as bad as Bruce, Timberly. Hiding a soulmate from all of us, how fucking typical.” Jason points out, while watching Tim scribble back some math with a question mark onto his arm.
“A what? No, this is just a curse. I get pop quizzes every now and then.” Tim bats away Steph who rapidly approaches and began to analyze his arm (the rest of the family isn’t far behind).
“Drake. Explain how you came to this conclusion.” Damian seems more curious than anything, if his lack of insults was anything to go off of.
“Since I was young I’ve had at least weekly math check ins, I never had a parent or anyone else around so I assumed my parents had me cursed to ensure I stayed on top of my studies. Sometimes it’s physics or chemistry, for a while there it was a ton of philosophy and behavioral psychology.” He shrugs his shoulders.
“Master Tim, I believe the lack of adults in your life has led you towards a false conclusion. That is most certainly a soulmate mark. The individual to whom you are responding is undoubtedly your other half.” Alfred attempts to calm the room before explaining to Tim. Tim isnt sure if he believes the butler, though Alfred only very rarely lied, so he grabs the pen once more. He writes his first question back: “Who am I to you?”
The room waits in anticipation and within moments a brand new line appears on Tim’s arm and he is vindicated: “We do math together???”
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The reason Danny is failing English is because his built in homework helper sucks ass at metaphors and has apparently never read any classic literature. The tutor on his arm is great at puzzles and math tho.
Danny gets a reply back one night that he wasn’t expecting (Who am I to you?) and he mentions it to Jazz. Who goes insane that Danny didn’t even question it and just went with “meh, probably haunted” as his explanation for the phenomenon for all these years.
Apparently, if Jazz was right, he had a soulmate who was uh, super fucking smart. That was an overwhelming thought.
The next day Danny is in crisis mode and writes back “Wait, WHAT AM I TO YOU??? Can I help on your homework??”
Danny gets vindicated when the writing on his arm presents a shit ton of dates and information for an unsolved Gotham cold case. See, Haunted.
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Eventually between Danny becoming the top candidate for astrophysics at Wayne Enterprises and Tim Drake being outed as having contributed tips to the GCPD that solved cold cases- they meet and realize just how dumb they’ve been.
#dcxdp#dpxdc#dc x dp#dp x dc#danny phantom#dc crossover#dp crossover#long post#braindead ship#brain dead#deadtired ship#tim x danny#soulmate au#soulmate marks#I feel like I really cooked something here#two super smart total dumbasses#in my head then then fall in love and try to pretend that they’ve known this whole time lmao#Tim looks at college level physics questions on his arms as a kid and is like ‘must be a pop quiz’ and then solves them#danny just thinks it looks neat at first but then his haunted arm replies back with actual answers and explanations???#your honor these two meet in person realize that they are literally soulmates admit no fault and carry on like they’ve always been in love#tim is naturally paranoid and Danny is naturally curious so tim always answers and Danny always asks
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Vettonso complaining about each other not respecting schrondinger's track limits on the radio compilation + Seb's commentary that made me a bit feral
Must include these sexy ass pics okay, it makes me feral how hard they race each other.
Also SO upset that we got this vid and there's also pictures(and presumably a vid out there somewhere) of Fernando, back then, ALSO debriefing this race. And yet we never got them together?????? Evil. Fucked up.
Imagine seeing them complaining about each other but also having to (begrudgingly if you're Fernando) compliment each other IN FRONT of each other. Maybe its a good thing it doesn't exist, bcs then I'd have a heart attack.
#this is just a supercut of the f1 vid in the source so you should watch that as well :)#thank you boo to inadvertently pointing me towards this moment cause man it makes me insane#like the added context of knowing seb was just being bratty cause he KNEW fernando was heated on the radio is SO funny#fernando's radios....actually so feral#'give back the position IMMEDIATELY'#fernando i dont have the position but i will do my best to give it to you anyways#grrrrrrr theres smth about getting to see seb discuss such a vettonso hard racing moment#he clearly respects him 🥹#but even years on you can tell hes SO pleased abt how much he was irritating fernando#this is the kinda clip that makes me wish f1 had proximity chat#them both on the radio like 'does that idiot EVEN know what hes doing'#also the annoying confidence of seb on the radio saying its fernando's fault if he gets a punctuee#and not even mentioning the fact that he could get a puncture 😭#but again. to hear him complimenting Fernando really kills me#just about his spacial awareness and how seb feels like he can always race him to the limit bcs he TRUSTS him#like that is the true f1 romance to me. racing someone hard and complaining on the radio but +#admitting that you never rly felt in danger bcs you TRUST the other driver!!!!!!!#i love sassy angry radios. they both sound so........yeah. im unwell#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#we do a little bit of f1#2014 british gp#vettonso
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Time will change you, We all outgrow our roots.
SURPRISE I've been thinking about Rip again, jk that's not surprising. anyways text is Rips inner thoughts from Time Masters #8. sort of.
#rip hunter#my art.png#anyways reminder daffodils represent rebirth and new beginnings which i feel like rip also represents within the meta.#but also i could go on a rant about how rip did the whole ''learn the past cant be changed without gravely hurting everything around-#-you can only move forward even when looking back and grow with the changes'' before booster did. and he did it alone (his own fault)#rips battles with mental health and violent self destruction and realizing that he isn't always right r important to me. SIGH.#also let me go ahead and post this at 2am my bad#idk if i like this but i havent finished art like this in months so we move on.
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Me and the bros
#Hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin#hazbin art#Lol#guys I literally cannot seem to finish anything#School just ended but the creeping feeling of always having assignments is still lingering xD#So I apologize for not really being here#lol#it’s obviously cause my stats all dropped like rocks#Dies *#Anyways#the moth dragon is my friend#And I made myself a funky deer thing#ITS NOT MY FAULT ALASTOR STOLE MY FAVORITE ANIMAL
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Do you think if the trolls all came back, like everything in the main comic did happen and they were alive again. Do you think Feferi would actually forgive Eridan? Or want to even be his friend after everything? I don't personally like the erisol and fefertasprite interaction…felt rushed…..so I just wanted to know your opinion if things were different! :)
Yeah, I think they would be! Feferi is one of the trolls who takes dying the least badly (relentless optimism) and Eridan does genuinely feel bad, which means a lot when it's Eridan. I think she really is genuine when she says she wants them to be friends and also that she's really not the type of person to hold a grudge, and like... death is SUPER cheap in Homestuck, it's really not the horrific, irredeemable, irreperable damage that it is IRL - and if you're talking about (Feferi) and (Eridan), then they're both dead (and irrelevent) now, so the score is kind of even.
In general, the fandom - I mean, people in general, really - tend to have difficulty divorcing themselves from other people. We tend to assume that the people and characters they like will hold similar opinions to themselves. This is how people who like Karkat and don't like Eridan can mentally gloss over or even block out their clear, close friendship, or how people who dislike Cronus can end up overlooking that Meenah actually takes his opinion seriously and unironically defends his wizard thing. Feferi really isn't mad at Eridan or upset about dying the way we probably would be, because she's friends with the horrorterrors, relentlessly cheerful, comfortable with death in general, and death is also just not really that big of a deal in this setting. "I'm really sorry about that, that was shitty of me" is honestly probably all the apology she needs, especially if they came back to life anyway.
#i dunno in general the fandom loves to blow stuff up#and make it all way way angstier than it needs to be or was even shown to be#by all accounts feferi takes dying really well#im sure shes still not STOKED to be eridan's friend again but out of all her faults#holding long unreasonable grudges isnt really one of them#(that's a kanaya thing actually)#eridan's always gonna be an annoying pest to her in large doses but i think she basically thinks of him as a friend#also eridan responds to problems overwhelmingly with Fight#so this idea that eridan will be forever mopey and angsty also doesnt ring true to his character#if anything i can see him becoming annoying again because now he won't stop fucking apologizing#like bro chill its fine already oh my god why is everyt)(ing suc)( a PRODUCTION wit)( you#because thats the last point too like#homestuck always returns to humor#hussie even says in the book commentary that homestuck is lighthearted and comedic at its core#that it keeps returning to that as a touchstone#even during its tensest moments like murderstuck theres just constant funnies and gags#so i just end up going kinda :/ when an interpretation is purely maudlin or cathartic#like its more homestuck when its funny and characters treating murder with the same gravitas as irl#not only doesnt make sense in universe where death is cheap - ESPECIALLY for trolls#but also just doesn't really feel very homestuck to me#but that is 100% personal taste so if you like that stuff by all means keep enjoying it lol#you just arent going to get uber angst from me u_u
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it was in fact a Pomefiore licensed apple
#i always thought that genderbent Ashi wasn’t a good idea cuz i would feel like i’m just. copping kazunari a3!’s everything 😭😭😭#*directly genderbent btw. previous ashis weren’t like DIRECT gender bends of twstshi#LIKE ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT IF YOU CUT ASHI’S HAIR SHORT ITD LOOK LIKE HIS#the mullet is mandatory tho. like legally you can’t take mullets away from me#but like i do think atsu’s uniform is really cute#better than normal ashi’s……..#the only reason why I’m considering doing full art for him#but i wanna see what you guys think…….#twstshi#ashi tamadai#epel felmier#epel twst#twst#twst wonderland#twst yuu#disney twst#twst oc#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland OC
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@openphrase123 your fanfic(s but i mainly made art of the mira and siffrin one because i cant remember words for the life of me for i do not speak french) IS???? ? SO GOOD. SO GOOD IM FOAMING AT THE MOUTH finally something to look forward to in the week fr
Mild spoilers for it ig!! But nothing too explicitly groundbreaking i dont think it'll kill your mom to look at these without having read the ff first
Don't mind the shit quality i??? I drew all these so fast theyre kinda shit and i have yet to fully acclamate isat to my artstyle so it's mid
Teehee me when i make shitty rushed fanart to show my appreciation that i cannot put into words for my faovorite games and also authors
peep the rant in the tags
#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat mirabelle#god ive been obsessing over isat lately#its terrible how ive been feeding into it#ffs of it be having me giggling running around because siffrin is healing#not in this particular one though#at least not at the part thats written rn#i do love seeing them suffer in equal parts#siffrin my scrimblo i will microwave you#a mosquito is in my room as im typing this girl gtfo#slight spoilers for this fanfic i suppose#okay so THE FANFIC BROO that part where sif lets mira pick his name?! makes me think that sponsors always pick the names#hence why sif never got a new name and spica feels outdated#also i love LOVE seeing mirabelle get better and better at yk... remembering#needing sif to reintroduce themselves every time is such a creative way to do like a pseudo timeloop#everything was so neat#upset that i cant do them justice in drawinng though i have very little experience drawing black hairstyles#or like being around black people with such hairstyles which is a shame!! i would wanna get a better look at the texture and the variation#BACK TO THE FF i literally read this to my older brother out loud (thank god i managed to pester him to play Isat)#and my throat got so raw from speaking that i had to stop but then itd get to another cool detail and i HAD to tell him#so my throat pain? your fault not mine nuh uh not the lack of self control#case in point thanks a bunch for writing!! i wanna get as good at that as you at some point
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https://vaulthunters.gg/how-to-play
Go play Vault Hunters. It's free and very fun [waves bamboo-shaped sword in your direction menacingly]
#hermitcraft#my art#iskall85#impulsesv#ethoslab#more of a suggestion of impulse and etho than anything but whatever#I couldn't decide between these two colorways so I just uploaded both#This isn't associated with Vault Hunters at all btw#I feel like most of you wouldn't even assume that but I don't want to get sued lmao#Fun fact I had to brawl with Tumblr to upload this#This is the THIRD TIME I'm typing these notes because Tumblr KEEPS EATING MY DRAFTS#Also turns out that the images I was trying to upload were roughly the size of the continental US without me knowing but is that my fault?#No. Of course not. It's never my fault and always Tumblr's fault#Don't worry though I hit Tumblr in the back of the neck with a steel chair and knocked it out. I saved us
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I'm going to sound like such a smartass but I'm glad I'm seeing more people express that "Huh, maybe this girl who has an entire song repeating to herself over and over again that her murder was not her fault meanwhile she-
portrays herself as a giant grotesque bug in her headspace with her victim, who she clearly still holds a high opinion of, being the only human in said headspace looking at her with visible disgust and fear,
Making this expression upon realizing what she just did
These being the lyrics that follow right after, having a moment of reconsideration
Before jumping back to trying to convince herself that she was in the right, because she put her trust in us to tell her if what she did was right or not, and the answer that came out was yes... That maybe, just maybe. She thinks that what she did...
Might have been her fault."
#{ ⚖️ after knowing all I wonder. can you really forgive them? 👁️}#~💫 a constellation!💫~#milgram#milgram project#muu kusunoki#kusunoki muu#milgram muu#also this goes without saying but if you dislike Muu that's perfectly fine#there are very valid reasons to dislike her#But even before I joined the fandom fully I was aware of the Muu hate wave that washed over when It's Not My Fault dropped#And it always confused me because even upon first watching the mv having very little context about Muu's case as a whole at the time#I was like “girl friend you are coping so hard”#and even though (to my knowledge) Muu doesn't get as much shit anymore#To this day I still see people misinterpret her as an entitled manipulative bitch without looking deeper into her character or crime#so like... I'm feeling a little catharsis right now please forgive me#Haru's having his own It's Not My Fault moment lmao
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it's true that sometimes people will soften eiffel, forget that he's kind of a dick, and play up the more good-natured, goofier aspects of his personality while downplaying how self-centered he is and the amount of undeniable Cis Guy Behavior he is known to display. but his character arc only works the way it does because he is, despite everything, very lovable - it's there in how minkowski's reaction to eiffel's conviction is set up to mirror the expected audience reaction, and desire to believe the best in him. wolf 359 captures something very real in eiffel that i've never seen as authentically represented anywhere else: a sincere, kindhearted man who still perceives himself as the default type of person, who wants to do right by people, but perpetuates harm through selfishness and ignorance. he's held to account for it, but isn't condemned. it matters that he improves because the people holding him to account are doing it out of care for him, because they want him to be better, and to be in their lives.
#wolf 359#w359#doug eiffel#i'm half asleep but. you know.#eiffel is a difficult person and a screw up in very average ways. and i think that makes some people LESS charitable to him#because it's far more likely you know someone with eiffel's faults compared to some others who are. objectively worse people but#in ways that might feel less personal.#and i think that's an important aspect of his character too but like. that's why i like him. he's a real guy. to me.#and i think the show wants you to like him too. at least as a character. it wants you to care what happens to him.#but i'm always surprised when eiffel is someone's 'i like him but would hate him irl' character because that is Not my experience.
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espresso needing to weigh the moral pros and cons of the research he wants to conduct and shadow milk is just floating there like DO IT
(he's gonna do it 'cause that stupid blonde jock likes him a whole lot for reasons he cannot understand)
#cookie run#shadow milk cookie#espresso cookie#madeleine cookie#espresseleine#creme university au#the second image comes first technically but it is fun to imagine espresso thinking about that moment#and it being part of the motivation for him to say yes#it isn't as bad as it looks i promise#shadow milk just radiates this air about him that makes everything feel sus#in truth espresso is agreeing to continue his research under supervision#and maybe figure out how to do forbidden magic without the actual COST of doing forbidden magic#since espresso has already been bit by it once and shadow milk is like HELLO NOT ON MY WATCH IDIOT#shadow milk is a good professor i promise#espresso is so smart until he isn't and it is almost always madeleine's fault#he keeps stealing espresso's braincells
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Y'all since we already know that Gwen can and probably does look at Peter B being happy now and think how her Peter never got a chance for a better life cuz he died so young because she accidentally killed him now imagine she goes to Earth-42 and finds Miles-42 fatherless and she knows that she almost let that happen to this Miles. I get that we assume Miles will understand that she had her own problems and was forced to be in Spider Society and he would eventually forgive her but I'm saying that I don't think she will forgive herself, ever.
#friendly reminder that peter was also in love with her and i feel like that and the fact that he didn't hate when he was dying just added#more weight to the whole thing#cuz he forgave her immediately and she never forgive herself because of it#she knows she didn't do it on purpose but she still did it and that's what always follows her knowing that she was the one who did it#so far every other spider man that i know caused the death of their loved one but wasn't the one who did it and this was all her#it wasn't a supervillain that did it it was her#and on top of that her own father blamed her for it for years and after knowing it was her#so imagine her after staying with the spider society thinking of that like was this really my fault my own father thinks so maybe i was too#forgiving to myself i did it so i should stay away from everyone and she even had jess tell her all the time to not grow attached#sorry for so many tags lol but think about it it's wild from her pov#gwen stacy#miles morales#spider man across the spider verse#beyond the spiderverse#spider man beyond the spider verse#across the spiderverse#Spiderverse
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Rewatched that amazing scene where Dazai and Kunikida lock eyes with each other and then dash to opposite sides across the room . GOD I love them GOD I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! I wish there were seasons of them solving mysteries together
ARENT THEY JUST SO
#kunikidazai#kunikida doppo#dazai osamu#ahli spams bsd#that is if Kunikida survives those recent manga chapters#spoilers#I will always be salty about Dazai’s intelligence power creep#yes it does make fyodor x Dazai a very good ship but it also kind of takes away from these old scenes#the tension the drama the unpredicatability of these old scenes feel lessened to me with the understanding that he’s so smart that he#guess numbers in people’s minds and control his own heart beat like#okay#okay….#you know what I while we’re at it nerf FYODOR’s intelligence too#memorized every scratch on the card my ass omg#and if Asagiri wants to play like that tell me why the guy with photographic memory couldn’t notice color contacts AHHH#I truly do think one of the only truly clever things fyodor did was trick ace into dying#not a fault of the characters.. it’s a fault of the writing#I am bsds no 1 narriative hater and bsds no 1 character lover
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#see the issue is i feel like that isnt the main problem with kabuto here lmao#I've been gone for so long but ahem. as a kabuto scholar-#i feel like kabuto's main issue is that he was forced into this position by literally every outside force around him#the leaf village tried to kill him. he had no choice but to stay with orochimaru. after orochimaru died he had -nowhere to go-#but at this point in the story kishimoto doesn't want to acknowledge the problems with ninja society that led kabuto here#and that's why this explanation falls so flat to me#the most kabuto gets is itachi saying ''well it wasn't all his fault'' but not elaborating on why#and itachi is the one that is seen as in the right for making the decision to kill his entire clan in the name of upholding the status quo#so kishimoto can't outright blame kabuto's problems on the leaf village. so instead some reasons are thrown out here#that genuinely make no sense to me#and itachi claiming kabuto reminds him of himself also doesn't make much sense to me#because itachi always came across to me as incredibly sure of himself. always knew who he was and what he needed to do#which is... the opposite of kabuto#and itachi's explanation doesn't make it make sense to me.#kabuto had an amazing arc and this little summary from itachi here just ignores all of it to make up something entirely different#just in my own opinion at least.#naruto#kabuto#kabuto yakushi#mangacap#everykabuto#fourth shinobi world war: climax#chapter 587
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