#i also have clinical depression

[pastaghostt]

Would you jump for the beef?

[squeakadeeks]

rotating my OC in my head wasnt enough. I had to bring him into the physical world too. four different times.

[bruhstation]

of fucking course the best, most harrowing, most gut-wrenching tugs character only appeared in one episode (a bit of ramble in the tags)

[solei-eclipse]

okay. hello guys. my bad for not responding to stuff or being as active recently, had a lot of work to be done and other stuff to focus on that took a lot of my time. I wanted to make more art, but I unfortunately had to put that energy into other things (which got to the point where I could not put them off any longer and had to stay working on it). I know I missed a lot of stuff and I'm sorry for it

[lord-squiggletits]

I was at a "making friends" kind of social event just this past week and ended up having two subsequent conversations with different people that gave me an interesting reflection on my own reasons for writing without me even intending to make the conversation about it.

First conversation: The person talked about the feeling of awe from being at a music concert and how incredible it is that so many complete strangers can be united by a singular love of music. I related to it with regards to my own writing and how many people have read my stuff. Ended up telling this guy about some of the AO3 comments I've gotten from people to the effect of helping motivate them to live/just reflect on life in general. Somehow went into a tangent about a suicidal friend of mine who died when we were in high school, and me saying that maybe the reason I write so much about the things I do is because of the influence his death had on me. And the other person ended up asking me, 'So do you think it's like every time you write, you're doing it in his memory in a way?'

Subsequent conversation was with someone who was a psychologist for a day job, and I ended up telling them that I was kind of thinking of getting a degree in psychology/therapy one day because writing about mental health issues had gotten me so interested in the world of helping people heal themselves. But then I was also like, "Well, I don't know, it could be that I don't need to become a psychologist to help people with mental health. Maybe helping people by being a writer and telling stories is enough."

It was just a surprising, but topical realization for me to have talking to a bunch of strangers. For someone like me who's often preoccupied with doing and having knowledge and expertise, I often fall into the idea that you need to be directly involved in helping people to really be making a difference. I've literally had thoughts in my mind along the lines of "I'm so smart, hardworking, and dedicated when it comes to writing, but wouldn't it have been so much more of a net gain to the world if I'd decided to be this passionate about something like being a doctor or activist that actually helps people?" It's not like I truly regret being a writer (or ever will, because there's nothing else that I love so much), but in my bad moments I truly do sometimes think "Why does it make a difference if I entertain people or make them feel nicer for a while if it doesn't actually change anything in the world?" To quote one of my favorite Transformers fics of all time, "There was nothing that would have been more worthwhile, but that didn't rule out the possibility that the whole damn universe was wasting its time."

I guess the answer is that making someone feel better, even in a small way, is changing the world, even if it's just a few people, and even if it's just as simple as making someone's day better.

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

silly vampire costumes and their added benefits™️ (directly based on this)

[kitausuret]

fanfic is great because you can make characters that don't interact but SHOULD have uncomfortable conversations where one party is actively wishing to flee but the other knows where they're coming from and isn't going to let that happen

[ankhisms]

genuine question does anyone have some tips on getting an official diagnosis for adhd in the usa. i was diagnosed with "ADD" as a kid when they still thought there was like a difference between that and adhd. im looking into something in my state that could possibly help me with getting my own housing but id need an official diagnosis

[yellow-kudzu]

I'm hopped up on ibuprofen and still the cramps cling to me. Do I need to bug-bomb my uterus with pain pills????

[im-still-a-robot]

Terrible opinions in the vc tonight 😔

[nightmareonpeachstreet]

Genshin 4.1 spoilers below

Neuvillette: *talks about the weird random laws of Fontaine, including that you're not allowed to name your domesticated animals after Furina*

me, who is literally adopting a new puppy soon and had already decided prior to this news I was going to name her Furina: I don't believe in that law I think someone else made up that law specifically to thwart Furina. did you see her playing with that cat? she loves animals.

[muninnhuginn]

Twilight's perception of Sylvia vs. how she actually is intrigues me more after the latest chapter tbh.

We already knew he only found out about her daughter in the Bond intro arc, and given he had known her since she started training him (which would have been several years prior) that's quite a while to not know this sort of information. Of course, they're spies and so the private type. Twilight has deliberately shed his own history and so would have nothing to share with Sylvia if she did ever open up. So it makes sense they remain as colleagues only.

In the latest chapter though, we as the audience have a few more things confirmed. Firstly, she's indeed kept the german shepherd from the Bond intro arc and has even named him. She intends to keep this dog. And when Twilight finds that out he's lowkey surprised himself.

Secondly, the manga has confirmed probably as clearly as it's going to that she's been depressed since she lost her family. She hasn't been keeping up with housekeeping since she lost them (and we can see in the flashback that this didn't use to be the case). She's also continually late and a mess. And it's at the point where people who see her regularly have picked up on it.

The reason why Twilight (and we as an audience) haven't picked up on this is because he's out on mission most of the time. He isn't privy to what those who work more closely with her see. Though even for him there have been hints (see: when she left the label on her clothes during that bonus chapter).

The other part of the latest chapter I liked was how it used the depression aspects to tie together parallels between Sylvia and Twilight. I don't know if I'd say Twilight is depressed at present, but he is someone who had very little joy in his life prior to the start of the series. And what's been changing that for him is his new family. In the same way, Sylvia losing her family has put her into this spiral. Sylvia adopting Aaron is what has the potential to change this. She heads home after the chapter, having seen Bond and Anya and thinking that she wants to try for Aaron.

In both cases it's about having someone/something to care for. It's not a magic cure, but it is motivation and as they're people who work for their wider good to the neglect of themselves, it's nice to see them find some personal joy.

[lucysweatslove]

Finally back home!

So the “testing” was literally a brief 30 min convo where she asked some clarifying questions from my intake form and then I did the WAIS-IV. That’s it, just the WAIS. The psychologist did tell me though that she isn’t interpreting my scores on the typical IQ scale but is looking at how my own scores compare to each other. The psychometrist was taking times I think in between lines and for each problem, so I’m curious if they will be looking at how I fatigue and my error rate as time goes on for some tasks like the processing speed ones.

I also hate the general knowledge questions because how tf am I supposed to know the circumference of the earth around the equator in this setting if I have never not once heard it? I tried doing the fermi problem way of rationalizing it but I couldn’t quite scale what I know to be ~300 mi to the equator in my head. Whatever. And like. I give 0 shits about any European historical monarchy (or history in general- why bother remembering specifics when the internet exists) so my brain has pruned any of that information I may have gotten 15 years ago and thus I couldn’t tell you that stuff. I always hate how it’s administered because I have a VAST knowledge of anything sciency (you know, things I’m interested in) but nah if you cant remember who one monarch was and then can’t remember a geography question then who cares how much science info you’ve retained.

Anyway I was expecting that computer based attention test but nope just intelligence testing. And I won’t find out concrete results for 3 more weeks so I’ll see the NP before then. I was hoping to get some answers and be on a first trial medicine before I go to my rural site (one month from today) but I guess probably not. And I guess that’s also if they see patterns of ADHD in me. Which they might as I tend to do poorly on processing speed and working memory tests, I just don’t know if the effect size will be large enough for them to agree that yes I have adhd.

[gxlden-angels]

I'm only in the introduction and the misogyny is overwhelming. "Are you more friendly or totally PMS-ing?" babygirl if you're PMS-ing most of the time that's not a Jesus-less personality trait, you need to get your ass to a doctor

[gyrovagi]

i doooo think rosamund, roz or rose for short, is the cutest new name for r to pick and it feels quite fitting for her. she's the rose of the inquisition...! :) tag will probably stay r for the time being due to the complicated nature of a character who would in any worldstate be transitioning over the course of the story and only commit to a new name after like half a year if that. but that's literally my friend rosamund

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

May I ask where the "bart absorbs the whole speedforce" happens? I've seen it referenced and it soulds like a really wild read.

Oh that's from Bart's short short short short run as the Flash.

I do not recommend reading it at all. It was hot garbage. Terrible writing, almost zero understanding of the characters and it just kinda spat in the face of the Flash as a concept.

The lore implications are neat but they don't go anywhere and they don't explore it at all. So yeah, I mostly just take the cool lore and forget literally everything else about the series.