#i also don't know why i bother with art at all anymore tbh

[goldensunset]

sighhhh. i have a really ambitious drawing idea but . this is coming from a person who struggles and bleeds and screams and cries trying to even do one painfully simple drawing. like i want full body multiple figures a particular something i have no experience with. but i take like 10 hours to draw a 3/4 bust of a simple character design. it would take me a really long time and i don't know if i have the strength to commit to that when maybe i should be practicing with simpler ideas to improve on the basics first

[saturday-byte]

Hope this doesn’t bother you a lot, but can we get some headcanons of the teachers? I was curios about ur vision for them

Dw it doesn't bother me !! I love getting asks ^^

Anyway it's going under read more bc this feels like a long one

Sketch

• she/they enby, omnisexual (<- me when I'm projecting)

• mentor figure for the newer teachers

• gives drawings and crafts as gifts, might or might not have various voodoo dolls

• uses Colin as a monitor for digital art

Tony

• he/him, bisexual

• you CANNOT tell me he doesn't drink tea 24/7. Most British mf I have ever seen

• weird hearing, very sensitive to loud sounds but can barely hear normal talking tones. Applies to his own voice too so that's why he screams a lot

• kind of an inferiority complex for the decaying use of clocks over technology lol

Shrignold

• gay and homophobic idgaf

• aware of the harm he's doing but genuinely loves his cult- "family" a lot

• likes telenovelas, granny type of beat

Colin

• he/it Libramasc, pansexual (here I am, projecting once again)

• has haphephobia but is working on it (this one might as well be canon idk)

• everyone has a computer day, so even if you see him every day you only get screentime once a year

• autism 🫵

• his tail is retractable

• has SO MANY viruses, that's why he glitches and talks slow

Healthy band

• doing them all together bc how can you think of them alone :[ don't separate them

• common fanon of them being a family ykn the drill

• their "birthday" (or date of release lol) is actually fridge and steaks anniversary

• depending on the day they either make the most rancid bizarre food or a 5 stars, Gordon Ramsay approved meal

• running on the same luck, fridge can either be filled with normal groceries, nothing (you have to buy groceries) or gore. Like those are his guts leave him alone

• everyone hiding inside fridge is apparently a normal bonding experience

• bread boy is transfem !! (Should we start calling her something different?)

• spinach is also a she/they enby, nobody in here isn't lgbtq

Lamp

• he/him but doesn't really care, pansexual

• has been trying to be sober but he's already very fucked up, that's why he's like That™ in the TV show

• the other teachers we see in his episode are his party friends

• absolutely watches the others dreams, likes to bother them about what they mean

★ ok now the TV show ones

Briefcase

• has an absurd amount of skills, barbie kind of ridiculous

• lives with his brother and sustains them both

• workaholic

• was mr.petersons before red guy

• actually not that bad he's just really fast paced, genuinely just lost the trio on the fabric

Coffin

• he/him goth gf <3

• doesn't like music AT ALL. And is very mean about it

• besties with the tissue box !!

• originally only used his hush tone for work but it slowly morphed into his normal voice

• pretty bad PTSD

• very kind with kids and people in general tbh, it might be something useful for his job but it's just how he is really

Lily and Todney

• I don't think about them a lot sorry

• they know what they are doing and that their whole family dynamic is pretty fucked but they genuinely just really want a mom tho ,,,

Warren the wo-Eagle

• genuinely just hate him so I don't think about him a lot either lol

• had no power over the trio because he was fired and not technically a teacher anymore

• his whole Thing (ykn) comes from bullying and a feeling of inferiority. He still sucks tho

Mr.Transport

• well. I guess I just don't think a lot about the newer teachers

• was actually a really nice teacher before still going to work at 120 years old

• nobody really liked him but he was the other's only way of going outside the house so they endured him

• there was a fight over his will. People died

Electracey

• she/they enby n°3, lesbian

• really scared to touch her batteries now, has caused her to get cranky but still refuse to change them until forced

• puts up light shows for her friends

• huge sci-fi and videogames in general fan

• Colin's cousin. Actually all electronics are related

• wanted to be a music teacher but her biology said no

★ this is more of a general one but all of them are somewhere in the aroace spectrum !! I think it comes with the object nature. I have not defined where all of them fall tho

That's it I think. This is so long I am so sorry I just enjoy them a lot so I have a lot of thoughts

[quailxcrossing]

hi im coming in here to bother you with random questions :3

who is your favorite character to draw in tuesday? who is the easiest to draw? hardest?

HELLO BELOVED oh my goodness this is such a fun question, i've got about an hour before my meeting so let me see how much i can type >:3cc Tuesday art questions!! how exciting!!!

for FAVORITE, currently, it's based upon characters I'm focused upon in Tuesday! right now I'm pretty lost in the Tuesfries characters, so that's characters like Esperanza, Ruse, Maiceo, Giana, etc! I really love drawing Esperanza, her color palette is just heaven to me and I adore her immensely :3 She also has a lot of forms which keeps me running circles about her Lore and gives me lots of interesting shapes to draw!

I love drawing faun Ruse too for similar reasons, its all character love- Ruse's story is one of my favorite little nuggets I've made, i'd like to thank Midveil for enabling some of my favorite tropes so I could go really crazy with her. Her backstory is one I would REALLY love to make into a sketchbook comic. I feel like it would take very well to that! And I know it can be really confusing to explain :'D I'm under the assumption no one knows what's going with Ruse because I feel like it's a lot to infodump and there's a lot of forms to keep track of. a long-form comic might make it easier to explain! She's one of my favorite characters I have, overall, so of course she's one of my favorites to draw in Tuesday! Even if she doesn't live there anymore.....

for HARDEST......okay. a lot of them. Tuesday has some of my favorite design notes - but also some of the hardest for me to draw! Like horns, for example- i LOVE horns. Which is why so many characters have them!! but keeping track of horns can be hard for me! but i'm practicing!! i'm learning!!!!

but that means the hardest character popped into my mind super fast.....it's Paola 😔 the agony. i love her so fucking much.....honestly, her dads are really hard for me to draw too. Simon and Van are some of my favorite OCs, and some of my favorite designs, but SO MANY sketches of them have been started, and then set down.

but cmon. they're so beautiful!! i really love these guys!! I'M the one who needs to get better. I don't know what it is with these guys....

for EASIEST! most fauns tbh, besides some of their horns! Fauns were made in 2019 of my favorite design traits- tails, paw hands/feet, that certain nose marking, furry, fun markings on a humanoid character- I always enjoy drawing them!! I need MORE of them- Tuesday feels very undercasted to me right now, I am still in the process of fleshing out the world- i'm such a person who loves worlds with tons of side characters, i am very much a large world writer. as you know and understand :3c oooo if youre my friend ooo you wanna design trade a faun so bad- /nf

some fauns who are very easy for me to draw are Evie, Baaree, Mardi, and Georgiana!

oh Evie.......

Some non-fauns that are very easy for me to draw are Kelleher (dude im literally in love with Kelleher), Judías + Arandano, and Tiwai!

these are still characters with a lot of details (Tuesday characters tend to be really detail-heavy) but i generally don't spend a long time fussing over the quality of the character's image. you may notice their horns are more uniform or simpler shapes than Paola or even Esperanza/Ruse, which i DO have a lot of trouble with keeping those antlers consistent, but you see, favorite privilege..... /lh

this was very interesting to think about!! i hope you don't mind multiple characters per question, and I know i could go even deeper and grab more examples and talk about each individual character and how I feel about drawing them. King Josephine jumped out as someone a bit trickier to draw, and Chyenne is pretty easy-

but I'd be here all day! thank you already for spending some Tuesday time with me <3

[thebratprincexo]

why did you guys stop talking to lance and frey

after being ghosted for several weeks and then blocked, we couldn't. the one who wasn't immediately blocked had a few more days, most likely because his place was the bed and shower for a concert, and was then informed that "some friendships aren't built to last" before he was also blocked

he had a point, tbh, because you can't have a friendship with anyone when you push people away and don't communicate with them. one of them didn't say a word to anyone and let the other speak for him.

and the saddest part? it was over the stories and art, for the sandbox we were playing in together to be theirs and theirs alone. they seemed to not want our ideas filthying the pool of theirs. we went from a lively gc to a dead one that felt like we couldn't participate in without bothering them, then a truly dead one when they left.

i can't speak for the others, but i liked seeing their work. it was exciting watching the story change over time because they were my friends and i got to see something they made come to life, and they wanted me to see! do you know what it's like to be allowed behind an artist's creative process, to know that you're trusted enough to see the incomplete work? i loved hyping them up, because they were my friends and i loved giving them the support they deserved.

and they wondered to us about how hard it was to make friends. i really fucking wonder why, with this trail of dead friendships one has left behind, all with the same story as ours. the distancing, the latching on to someone new and shiny, the inevitable blocking because you're not good enough anymore.

if I sound angry, it's because i still am. i'm angry because lost two friends and watched two more struggle to cope with the devastation left in their wake. i'm angry because my stupid brain still makes me wonder if i could have done anything differently when i know they don't deserve a shred of my affection.

they're terrible people, and that's why we don't talk anymore

[dovelydraws]

Im no creator or anything, but that last part you wrote about how the internet is becoming a lonely place…i kinda feel that. Most likely not in the same sense you do, but everywhere the release of new and newer stuff and media is on the forefront, AI is rising and making the release even faster (at the cost of quality most of the time) and it‘s just…there‘s no appreciation anymore? Nobody stops to listen or see or engage with stuff because newer music or art or anything really is coming out and everyone wants to keep up. Communities or fanbases become short lived and that‘s for the huge pieces, and the smaller ones kinda seem to just…fall behind and are forgotten

Engagement also seems to have become somewhat precarious. That‘s solely an opinion of mine, but whenever I hear what creators have to deal with due to the animosity made possible by the internet…it‘s just sad. And as such, I for one don‘t want to bother anyone and so I feel like not wanting to say the wrong thing and in the worst scenario cost an artist some motivation or joy (yes, Im aware, me sending an ask anonymously is a bit ironic, but that‘s mostly my anxiety peaking)

Yeah, I totally agree about everything going way too fast. Over the last few years I REALLY began hating the binge-format brought on by streaming services, ever since I noticed how quickly communities die out after new shows air because of it. I remember a lot of people complaining when certain ones like hbomax and disneyplus decided to release their shows weekly instead of all at once, but I actually felt relieved and excited by the idea, because it meant we'd all actually have time to digest and truly appreciate what we were seeing and have actual discussions around it like we used to.

It's why I describe the feeling I get when people simply leave a quick "like" on my art without actual engagement with me and my work as "consumption." I don't fault people for doing it on occasion, I get sometimes we just like what we see and don't have much to say about it and that's that, I certainly do the same thing sometimes. But when it's constantly the only form of recognition I'm getting, it really starts to feel like I'm not being seen as a person behind the screen, that my work was churned out for instant individual gratification with no extra thought behind it.

This feeling started to get really, really bad with the rottmnt fandom in particular actually, which is why I swore off making any more fanart for it. Seeing several strangers discover me, spam-like through my blog on all my fanart posts, ignore everything else, no reblogs, no comments, and not even follow me afterwards, it really began to leave a bad taste in my mouth and made me super uncomfortable. It was happening literally every day for months at one point, after the movie came out. It made me feel like a content mill, and I very nearly deleted every single one of my fanart posts because of it. I'm hesitant to jump into making fanart for any other fandoms now too, because I don't want that to happen again.

As for what you said about the way people treat artists making you nervous to engage yourself, in worry that you'll bother them or make it worse- tbh, I think your recognition of that makes it even more important for you to say what you want to say? Art is a form of communication. Artists are looking for community, when we share our work to the world. We're always bound to not be understood or treated fairly, when you open yourself up like that. Whether that's feeling hated, or ignored, or disrespected, I think every positive comment left by someone who enjoyed what they saw helps to drown out those bad experiences. It's all we're ever looking for, to know that our effort meant something to someone.

I totally get where you're coming from with your anxiety, but I truly think you could only do more good than harm by letting someone know that you liked something they put a lot of love and effort into creating. I always reblog art that I like over on my personal blog, and I try to leave little comments in the tags whenever my brain's not totally fried after an 8 hour shift at my job, lol. It doesn't even need to be anything specific! I try to do that for people when I can because I know how happy it makes me feel when someone else does that for me. :)

[epicwinsauce]

Green colors survey answers found here, if you'd like 'em, I promise I tried to be funny occasionally:

green: Whats your favourite way to spend your day off?

Eee I don't even know. I don't get my days off to myself anymore, always working on my friendships or distracting myself with a video game. I should pick up another book.

jade: whats your favourite music genre?

~I like everything~ nah I kid. There's a certain amount of liveliness of music I enjoy but not like electronic music as much. Look up "Odo" by Ado and that's what I'm talking about.

emerald: whats your favourite place to visit? why?

The grocery store lmao. Which I haven't even done this month because I need to get a jump for my car and I just haven't done it yet. Soon.

peridot: whats on your bucket list?

To kick it.

envy: what are your hobbies and what got you into them?

I'm not sure envy is a specific hue of green? I have been enjoying pixel art and 3d art on blender lately. My buddy and I wanna make a video game and he's doing programming, I'm learning art. I haven't been progressing on my languages much (but my Japanese speaking feels much easier these days)

tea: top favourite movies growing up?

I wasn't into movies as a kid. I was very into the plots of the video games though.

mint: top favourite toys from your childhood?

I had a green Monkey Cat, a rainbow bear. My sibling and I liked pokemon figurines and we had some kind of house we used to play in. I had a lot of toy cars, too, but I gave them personalities and basically played them like Barbies tbh.

lizard: last show or series you binged?

I'm rewatching this anime series True Tears. Parts of it are eeeh cringe but it's got character. The main love interest in these animes are always the wrong ones imo like Noe was way better than Hiromi, get out of my face Shinichiro-kun

lawn: favourite show or series to binge?

One Piece obv. I also rewatch How I Met Your Mother a bit. Toradora was an instant fav.

sheen: do you like podcasts? why or why not?

I struggle to pay attention to them, so I don't listen, especially if they're on the longer side. My siblings and I listened to some like 10-15 minute spooky scary story podcasts and I was in and out but still getting most of it, it was nice

lime: if yes to the last question, do you have a favourite podcast?

I forget the name of the spooky podcast but it was on the Luminary website.

slime: do you prefer watching movies in theaters or streaming at home?

I prefer streaming at home but the theater has its charms. I'm sure it's impossibly expensive these days though

forest: list one thing, or person, that always brightens your day and why.

I have been existing in a server I made for a few friends on discord and I've been living in it tbh. My friends are so funny and it's genuinely exciting to engage with them, especially Morgan, but I've been too emotionally codependent on her and I need to fix that lmao

neon green: do you prefer breakfast, lunch, dinner, dessert or snacks?

I actually have been eating more than once a day but I'm still very low energy when it comes to any of them. Pb&j's were my main food source for a few days because it's so relatively simple. but I don't care for time restrictions on my food, if I want dinner food at 1 pm I'll eat dinner at 1 p-fucken-m

light green: whats your favourite song for a dance mix?

I have an entire set of jam lists on my spotify that I turn on late at night and just dance to (quietly enough not to bother my roommate but also naked sometimes).

Ado: Odo, Ready Made, Gyakkou, Tot Musica, The Faking of the Comedy

Yoasobi: 夜に���ける, Idol

Yonezu Kenshi: 海の幽霊, Cranberry and Pancakes, 感電, 春雷

Basically anything by La Dispute

We could be here all day

pastel green: what top things always help calm you?

I've been kind of struggling with this because I usually just sing loudly and scream for a while but that is inconsiderate to my roommate lmao. Mortal Kombat 11 has been helping

india: what app do you use on your phone the most?

I have a tablet now so I can play my games on it so probably discord, Facebook, Signal, and Pixel Studio on my phone. I love Resourcer, Nonograms Color, and YuGiOh Duel Links on my tablet (tbh the tablet was like $100 and sucks, it can't handle everything I want it to do without crashing and I'm not asking a lot, but def make sure to get one worth your buck if you decide to do the same lol

fern: do you prefer cooking or ordering food?

Cooking. Ordering food is too expensive now, but I do love having GOOD food and not just QUICK, EASY food like I usually cook

hunter: do you prefer going out to eat or ordering from home and getting it delivered?

Going out. Delivery charges are necessary but they still suck

castleton: do you have a favourite board game?

This is probably not a good time to bring up the board game called Pandemic, but imagine if I did 2-3 years ago, am I right?

cadmium: if you drink coffee, do you make it at home yourself or prefer ordering it?

I don't drink coffee

british: if you make coffee from home; how do you make your coffee?

What is British green???

phthalo: if you order it; how do you like your coffee made or whats your usual order?

Come ooon maaaan

chartreuse: what's your most prized or "favoured" possession?

Phone and computer tbh. A few books I have that I've had for years. Car. I'm very sentimental in general but those cost MONAYYYY

juniper: have you ever been to a concert?

Yes, a fair share of them. Not always worth it unless the band really makes a show out of it tbh

sage: whats your favourite genre? does it depend on the media?

Didn't we already have a music genre question? Otherwise there's zero context for this question

pea: whats a plant you really like?

Moon flower!

moss: do you have any plants? if yes, what are they? if no, would you want one?

No. I've been looking into planting but honestly it's a hassle, I don't think I'll find the fulfillment I imagine there is to be had there

shamrock: what would you do if you had $500k right now?

Pay off my car, start helping those around me pay their debts

seafoam: do you have a lucky item? if so what is it?

My clothes, they keep me from getting kicked out of the grocery store.

olive: do you have a lucky number? if so what is it?

I have dabbled in the synchronicities of finding or designating a lucky number, but nothing sticks in the long run, so no.

parakeet: who's a person you envy? if youre comfortable saying so, why do you envy them?

Would rather not answer.

pine: if healing methods from video games were available in real life which would you choose?

Resta. Heal myself and everyone around me. Not particularly Technique Point heavy (normally). No clear drawbacks, though whenever I imagine magic where healing is possible, I basically throw it back to being a doctor. You can't just heal with words, you have to know how the body functions so you can magically guide the body to a quicker healing process. I like that idea.

seaweed: if you had to work one task as your job for the rest of your life, what would it be, why and how much money do you think it would earn you per hour?

Give me a shift's worth for sleeping every night and I'll get 8 hours every night lmao

pickle: if you could cure one thing from the world forever what would it be?

Joe Mama

pistachio: say you could heal anyone in any form, emotional/physical/mental etc, how your healing have to activate and whats the drawback?

Well I guess I already answered most of these questions, I'm not sure specifically on how to activate. Magically, I guess

basil: if you could magically summon money or artificially create wealth through mystical means, what would be required to do so?

Food!

crocodile: a veggie you despise with all your being?

If I don't like it, I just don't buy it, there's no need for me to expend energy in hating it. But I don't like citrus fruits

sea: thoughts on jealous partners?

Excess is the enemy. Small dosages may be natural (I've felt it before, I know it), but each person's feelings are their own responsibility to manage, so if your jealousy is so much that you can't manage it (specifically: it slips into your behaviors, not just your thoughts), maybe you should consider getting help. Perhaps even of the venting variety of help

uniform: are you the jealous type of partner? (romantic or otherwise)

Recently I have been a jealous friend (it's not fun watching your best friend call another bestie over and over or talk about drug use history) but like I said, I manage it. I had to step out of a game night this week because I realized my emotions were unfair and I had to go sort it out (which I'm still working on).

forest: thoughts on jealousy in friendships?

Happens. May be natural. Learn to manage your emotions. If you struggle, google it or get help. It may be hard but if you're a human, it's not impossible, I honestly believe.

Sacramento: whats something about the concept of luck you find ridiculous?

How it's connected to good karma or bad. And I believe in karma, but not quite in the universalistic sense of justice (there are probably better words for this). Sometimes shit things happen to lucky people and vice versa.

russian: whats something you find refreshing?

🎼enjoy coca-colaaaa🎶

I've also been drinking water with flavoring packets in them and they have helped make my 3 cups of water a day goal much easier to reach lol

army: something in your room that helps it feel more peaceful?

My TV, it plays Spotify for me lmao

jungle: whats a song you find peaceful?

I have a Spotify playlist for Eng, German, and Japanese called ENG Soft, DE Soft, JP Soft, and ALL Soft for these exactly. We'll just go with "In Our Bones" by Against the Current

asparagus: whats the most peaceful atmosphere to you?

Rainy days, sitting on the back porch with soft music in one ear. Maybe dancing, maybe reading poetry, maybe writing it. Maybe just sitting there in my thoughts. Rainy days are good days.

harlequin: whats something that makes you feel safe?

...rain. lol. Locks on doors!

kelly: something that makes you feel hopeful?

... haaaaa

spring: list 3 things you love about nature

Rain (and any body of water tbh), trees, warmth.

viridian: list 3 things you hate about nature

Cold, excessive urbanization, mosquitoes LOVE MY BLOOD

mantis: whats your ideal environment?

Warm summer rains. I feel like I've made this clear 😂

sap: an energetic memory from childhood?

I did not like childhood, next.

dartmouth: if you could bring something back from the past to be renewed or used commonly again what would it be?

COMMON SENSE, HA .. HA .. HA .. [laughs in old people]

Sorry, it's TOO easy to make fun of the cringy parts of the older generation. Um, nothing specific comes to mind, I'm sure there's something but my brain just ain't reaching for it.

camo: whats something you used to do that youre proud you've grown out of?

Go on dates. Lmao. I really don't want to do that anymore, it's clear I am too mentally fragile for it.

[wired-migraine]

look i know i dont vent as often on here anymore just cause im really trying to get out of this habit where i reread and rethink the same bad thought process over and over

but every time and i do mean EVERY time i bring up something my friend doesn't exactly know or i guess care about he just doesn't bother showing interest. or shits on it without going into detail why.

like today i brought up detroit become human. its whatever! not my favorite but i liked the story of Alice and Kara and also Hank and Conner. but i really LOVEd the story of sentience and coming to be. not really gameplay oriented or even really story oriented. i just brought it up and said i liked it.

my god i've heard nothing but "game didn't know what it wanted to be, the stories and characters are trash, i only liked hank cause he's the fuckin poster badass" so of course i shut up i stop talking about it cause clearly he doesn't want to talk about it. back to this fuckin streamer named destiny.

but this has happened so many times. only with things i bring up. even when i express interest in the first half (oh its not so bad i actually liked-!) it doesn't go well. we somehow always circle back to things he wants to talk about. one time i tried to talk about pokemon and he just shut that conversation down the same way, said magic was better and more strategic. fuck off i dont care about magic i want to talk about anything else for five seconds!! i'd give more direct examples but honestly i think i blocked out most of what he says and just go to the "uh huh, yeah, they did what now?" cyclical talking points

and im not gonna lie i'm getting pretty tired of it! i made fuckin vent art of me like a pull string doll just talking away! hanging on a lil back string. thats all im good for is an echo.

but i think the worst part about any of this is how GUILTY he makes me feel about it. im fr talking puppy dog eyes but i dont actually look at his face when he does it. he just makes the sound and lip thing you know the one. its gross tbh and it SUCKS because i skip my fucking break so he won't be so whiny about it. TO TALK ABOUT THE THINGS HE WANTS TO TALK ABOUT

i hate it i really do. i know he's using me for therapy because he told me he wanted a female therapist. (also haven't talked about THAT either, i think we're only friends because i'm afab and a bit of a weirdo so that makes it like same league or something?? idk idc) he talks TOO much about sex and sexual activities to the point where regular conversations go back into lol i saw this anime... god i can't stand it i can tell im getting looks by the other people there because the room is too quiet i desperately need to leave this job.

he's also physical, mostly just by poking and prodding. he does hit me with a stack of papers as a joke but the jokes getting less funny. he's getting angry with how i respond. i know i can tell him to stop and he will but it'll just cycle back around to making me feel guilty that i should've told him sooner so he doesn't feel like an ass. like i guess yeah? but don't forget that you're the one that did this and i didn't feel safe telling you.

idk i just feel like as much as "good" friends we are he's desperate for attention and its really getting into my work. like i can tell when he looks at me and i hate it i hate having him just LOOK at me because and HE has told me that he had a dream of me naked. i hate it i hate it i want to burn off my skin it makes me feel so unbelievably small and worthless to be reduced to just my body and echos i hate this.

i really hate this and god forbid i tell ANYONE about it cause it comes on and off in passing and nothing will happen with it. i know i choose to sit in that fucking corner but what other option is there? because if i change if i so much as MOVE people will notice and they know we sit together and haha its so cute they're sitting NEXT to each other.

it honestly feels like i've been masking for three months and it only took the middle guy being fired to direct all this energy towards me and i hate it. i hate how i cant say no and can't talk about the things i like without feeling like a freak. i hate how he looks and straight up stares at me. i told him i can't look people in the eyes and talk at the same time and he took that as a challenge to stretch my comfort so thin that spider silk can't sew it shut.

thank god i still listen to music so i can at least focus on that (for the most part) but i can't even find respite in that because he keeps wanting that cyclical conversation that he knows i don't care about. i'm just playing the tape and hoping it wasn't a genuine question about my thoughts (it usually isn't)

[cinnaminsvga]

yeah i don't interact with fandoms i never really have, so i get how easy it is to lose interest in it. but with bts it's easy i can go and rewatch and remind myself why i loved them in the first place. (besides music their personalities are>>) and the only fics i ever read or actively waited or looked for were yours. but i also don't like consume content like i used to so i feel like maybe i've grown. but someone way older than me told me that as people get older they don't just lose "interest" life would be boring and sad usually it's switched to something else or depression acting up, and i had a theyre right moment (the were 50, and used a bunch of different things, actors, movies, video games (theirs), shows, anime, even binging netflix, knitting, they said the gym too, basically everyone has a something that they focus on or interested in, in some way and that it's okay. not to be pathetic but i broke down and was crying about how nothing interests me and i can't find new ones either (and it had been a year for me too) but maybe that's what's being a grown up and what it's like. and they were like sweetie no. *rant* and i was like oh they're right) there was more to it. but yeah lmao

i'm glad you realized the love you still have for that little cat man<3 i hope you always have love for something or someone no matter how crazy or sad or numb or happy or exciting life gets for you! yeah! sometimes a frog video post or something pops up and i'm like "didn't zee once like frogs?? i wonder if she'd like /this/ frog" all i remember now was a frog that was living its best life!

well if you're writing again that's good for you! (you were always a writer, personally i think if you can world build and actually get it into words you get to claim your a writer) it takes talent! no matter how long it takes. i've sent asks of wishing you well before but it's been awhile, but i still always wished you the best and hope you're doing alright/taking care of yourself!

a yoongi fic? sounds interesting. hey though.... if you ever feel down remember you had so many asks of people letting you but as yoongi wanting him to have a happy ending! and loves your characterization of him which means by extension....🤪

YEAHHHH like what i mean by interact with fandom culture, it's more like "consuming" fandom culture, yenno? like reading fics, looking at art, etc. so with bangtan, i don't really do much of that anymore, but i do still watch their videos and sorta keep up with their schedules and stuff, which is all fine and dandy but GOD i miss being obsessed ig??? maybe that's just my adhd talking but somehow i've forgotten how to enjoy media a normal amount instead of being unhealthily fixated HAHAHAH

and what that person said is true!! unless you're like, going thru something, people don't totally lose interest in everything - often times, they just move on to the next thing. and that's exactly what's happening to me tbh!! lately i've been really deep into this other fandom (cough) and i know that's the main reason i've lost interest in bangtan :-( but yeah!! we grow and we go as i like to say,,,

but i'll always like bangtan!! which is why i'm still adamant to write some fics for them, but just not with the same excitement as before. it's like... dialing down from a 100% to a 80%, yenno? mayhaps i'll write froggie!yoongi because i'm insane... who knows...

and thank you for reading my fics btw HJASDHJSA idk how i became your go-to bangtan fic writer, but that genuinely means a lot!! i just hope that when i drop my next fic, there will be some people who are bothered enough to read it LMAO exciting times ahead!! cinnaminsvga is not dead, just resting!!

[tokugou]

Hi. First: I love your GIFs! They're pleasing to see on my dash (and sometimes gives me niggling ideas for creating GIFs of my own but almost never do it cuz procrastination and my creativity sucks haha 😅)! Please keep creating! <3

Second, genuine question (and out of curiosity): Why do you self reblog your posts often? People can see your posts on their dash, and even on the search thingy. The search thingy doesn't let people see your self-reblogs (just the original post). Even though I've kinda been on and off of Tumblr for years, I don't really get how it works, so I'm a bit confused as to why you and other bloggers self-reblog your/their own posts?

You don't have to answer if you don't want to, though! I'm just genuinely confused and I don't know who/where else to ask/search 😅. Thanks in advance! Have a nice day! <3

I honestly don't know what I did to get dragged into this discourse

Thank you for polite question, I honestly don't know if I can help you a lot and if my answer will explain it as you expect. I also was on and off tumblr for a long time and often, but I can answer it based on my own experience on this becasue it was confusing to me too when I first met with self reblogging.

Long reply under read more so to not trash other people' dash

first of all self promotion isn't a bad thing and i'm staring to think some of people here see it as a crime

compared to old one nowday t/mblr is a mess, lot of people left this site and most of them were content creators (either artists or gifmakers) and back then it seemd more welcoming to editors? People would rb your stuff no matter your popularity becasue hey it is content from my fav series i wanna see more i wanna keep it on my blog and show it to others so there was no need for people to self reblog becasue it circulated around a lot on its own.

new people who join this app are raised on i/stagram t/itter and/or f/book where LIKES means everything, you show your support by liking posts THIS NOT APPLY TO TUMBLR AND NEVER DID [you can check this amazing post about rebloging]. As nice as it is to get likes on your post becasue it is like a pat on a head - it is only a pat, doesn't mean anything on a long run. Reblog = spreading. If people don't spread it we stay unnoticed and we tend to self reblog more.

another thing that changed is: people no longer scroll from top to the last post they saw before going to sleep, cos why would they? You wake up in the morning open app while eating breakfast or drinking coffee and you sroll past ten or twenty post or an equivalent of hour or two of your absence - you dont go deeper cos it would be a waste of time - again, I say USUALLY, some ppl still do this and it is ok either way - which leads us to main point of self/reblog:

DIFFERENCE in TIME ZONE not all of our followers live in the same time-zone, when I post something in my free time it doesn't mean others have it too, most of them are probably sleeping or in working place at that hour. We self reblog so people who were absent (and we think might be interested in - becasue why not? they follow us for a reason right?) can see it when they get back on here. By reblogging ourself multiple times, that puts the post back on the follower’s dash and hopefully gives them a chance to see it.

most of people follow ton of blogs (one of my friend I met here told me they follow over 1k blogs) imagine even half of these blogs posting regulary, a few things per hour, the dash is messy and crowded OUR EDITS TEND TO GET LOST IN IT. Most of people follow a lot of blogs and might miss our posts becaue their dashes are WAY more active than these who follow five or ten blogs.

t/mblr fandoms aren't welcoming to new creators in my experience, to get notes you need to be popular/have lot of followers but you can't have lot of them if your posts aren't spread/seen and so on and so on it go in circle (a lot of ppl also only reblog popular posts and avoid these with litte of notes - don't know why it is like this, maybe they think these posts are suspicious?) so with self reblog we also give some of these fake notes to make a post more appealing, i guess? this one is just speculation.

the search function you mentioned is very rarely used tbh people don't go to search for things daily, they usually only do this when they join new series/ship/etc to check if there is something. People usually stick to what they see on their dashes. AND most importantly this option doesn't work as it should. It is some type of algoritm that promote post that are alive/active - even if your post is relativy new it might not show in search becasue it died quickly (as if it wasn't interacted with for some time). With search option it is 50/50 your thing either show there or not. ALSO REMEMBER search option is a terrible promoted thingy that doesn't show you everything so you better stick to /tagged/ thing you can enter manually while on dash if you are using web t/mblr.

people no longer go straight to specific blogs to check if they missed something, they might do it for their besties (as they call it) but other than that DASH is all people see and focus on, so the more often content creators self/reblog the higher chance followrs will see it.

we are not paid for what we do and it come to everything: edits, gifs, arts, writing, video and META POST we are not paid for it and no matter how many people say notes are just numbers these numbers are our motivational payment, the less you get the less you create because you just don't feel the point of sharing your creations if it is not received well or at all.

when I started posting I used to post new content daily even twice a day, nowdays seeing most of my edits not being well recieved in fandom I lost motivation to the point I was thinking of quiting because it didn’t give me joy anymore and I'm still considering it.

I personally never felt bothered seeing self rebbloged post, I follow a bunch of content creators, some of them sr twice a day some each hour, some more or less often. It often helped me to see something I would missed becasue I wasn't here and personally it often give me joy to see the post I remember seeing that had 2 notes when I rb it and now it is 500 or more.

to anyone who read it and still think self reblog is a bother: do not tell people to stop self reblogging. If you genuinely have a problem with self reblogging, just unfollow or block the person who does it and don’t make a fuss over it!

I hope I managed to answer you at least partly? I probably lost the point somewhere between first sentence and second but... well

[char-lotteral]

Look I'm not one of those people who believe Kishimoto decided to have Hinata and Naruto end up in the middle part of Shippuden. I believe he decided in the very last arc but he wanted to sound smart so he said he decided earlier on. Otherwise, they obviously would have more scene together. In Shippuden, they have only three scenes together ; when Naruto came back, the pain attack and the neji death scene. That's it. In the original Naruto, they probably have less than ten canon scenes not including fillers.

So I'm sorry I'm one of those who wasn't convinced by The Last. They literally had a basic villain go after Hinata who was cringe btw (the villain). They gave Hinata op powers which she doesn't have in the novel 👀. Despite having op powers, they made her the damsel in distress. Very "The hero saves the princess" cliche. Again, to justify them being together. I mean Naruto can't differentiate his love for ramen and romantic love so how??? He was just being nice to Hinata just like he does to everyone. He stood up for her just like he does for everyone.

Don't get me started on the Sakura Sasuke relationship 🤣. Cringe. They never knew each other. The whole Sakura's love for Sasuke saved him doesn't make sense. They spent barely a year in their genin year before sasuke left. Sasuke tried to kill Naruto and Sakura multiple times. Then at the end of the war, Kishimoto tried to do the "oh they have such a deep understanding between each other" which comes off as cringey. He gets her pregnant then leaves for years. She's literally a single mom who's broke.

Every relationship in Naruto is so cringey and forced except shikatemari. Kishimoto should've focused on the main story and fixed his potholes and leave the ending open.

Naruto would not have been perfect but at least it would've been remembered for staying true to its vision but instead it's remembered for cringey relationships, dumbass villain (except pain and madara) and a story that lost its core which is a shame coz I used to love Naruto. I was inspired by its messages but now....

OKAY LOL WAIT I ACTUALLY HAVE THIS LONG ASS RANT PREPARED XD

BUT FIRST Ive read what you said and I lowkey agree :p

HOWEVER

I DRAW THE LINE AT TONERI SLANDER. BECAUSE WHY

TONERI?? CRINGE?? THIS SEXY MOTHERFUCKER??

LOOK AT HIS WHITE FLUFFY HAIR AND HIS CERULEAN BLUE ORBS STARING DEEPLY INTO YOUR SOUL

SAY SIKE RIGHT NOW?!#*@*#&@*

okay lol now for the juicy part click readmore and beware I shall be brutally honest so yea enjoy

I mean, Naruto in general is a mess, not just the ships if we're being realistic. Alot of plotholes, rushed endings, this and that, the w a r a r c, Kaguya, the way they rushed Boruto ehhh. Honestly, getting into Naruto is literally my biggest regret of 2020 :"DD

Im an NH shipper as you can tell by my hotmess of a blog but i fully respect your opinion and understand your point of view. I also know a bunch of nh stans who have their complaints with their development. I wish Kishi gave more attention to his female cast really, thats all I fucking ask. If he did that one single basic thing, then maybe the endgame relationships wouldnt have been an asspull and theyd be given propper screentime with their love interest, both Sakura and Hinata. The Last tbh i think the writers played it safe and stuck to the whole Naruto shounen vibe thingy, so im not surprised it was plotted that way. Typical cliché shounen movie.

But does that bother me? No! The Last was a mess, their development was shit, they definitely needed more screentime but hey at the end of the day theyre cute as fuck, we have that kiss scene, flirting scenes, a shit ton of official art, three kids, Seiki's gif :33 and a whole ass arc for their wedding all that for just a shounen anime so eh. Compensates for it i guess xD theyre not toxic, unhealthy or whatnot. Theyre wholesome, soft and vanilla as fuck and exactly what i need in my hectic life rn. No drama, just two kind souls who are adorable as heck and theyre dynamic means so much to me and I will love them until i shall leave this earth.

Anon, im not even gonna waste my time and defend their development because i think it sucked too xD but if you wanna know why i love them so so so soooo much, Id be more than willing to tell you :33

Sasuke and Sakura on the other hand eeeehhhh i can see why people like them. Sasuke's hot, he's your typical hot bad boy aad Sakura's hot and pretty too. Basic blue and pink trope. Aside from their canon interactions, fans have all the opportunity to play around with their dynamic but for me, its just sooo basic and so hetero and can easily appeal to any 16 yr old teenage girl, no wonder it has an active fanbase on twt and---- AM I MAKING ANY SENSE? AHDBAJJE LIKE ITS SO-- BASIC, your usual bad boy x pretty girl trope that you get to read in YA and coming of age novels. Not only that, but going back to canon, they have too many negative interactions for me to like them together :p The least Sakura can do is put down her own foot and yell at him for not contacting them for god knows how long. I also dont like how he always gets easily forgiven >=[[. I mean at least He's compensating as a dad good for him but ehhhh i still dont like him and Sakura together :v And im not falling for that "Sakura is the reason why Sasuke isnt lonely anymore" because thats NARUTO AHHH. Sasuke said that Multiple times. HE LIGHTS A FIRE INSIDE OF ME. HES MY SUN. MY ONE AND ONLY FRIEND. LIEK?? THATS NARUTOOO romantic or not, Naruto was the reason for his not so lonely existence anymore smh >=[[

Sasuke almost murdered her and Naruto and made their lives a living hell but hey its all good!! He's my best friend and Sakura loves him!! So set him freeee into the worldddd~~

Sasuke left his family without even simply contacting them but can easily contact Naruto through a hawk but hey thats fine! His and Sakura's feelings are connected afterall! Sasuke gave her a ring and said thank you! Who cares about leaving your family. She loves him and he loves her so yey!!! All is forgiven :D

DID I MENTION SASUKE ALMOST MUREDERED HIS OWN DAUGHTER AND HE WASNT CALLED OUT FOR THAT@*#&@??!?#,*@#,#

Sasuke gets too many life points this isnt fair >=[[ But tbh he's nerfed so bad in Boruto manga and anime power wise. Like in that time travel arc and the manga. The rinnegan kunai thing was still so funny to me even if it was Borushiki. I just idk its so funny to me lmaoo

OKAY WHAT ELSE. I dont even know any more. Im tired of complaining about Naruto and just when Ive finally gone a little bit away from Naruto, Hinata fucking pulls me in again 😩 she has me on chokehold pls send help. Watch castlevania!!! and one piece!!!! ten times better than this anime about a loud blonde boi who wants to be president. Trust me

overall, i dont fully agree but i lowkey agree i guess. I do respect your opinion tho :))

EXCEPT WHEN YOU CALLED TONERI CRINGE. HOW DARE YOU CALL THAT SEXY MF CRINGEY---

[bukojuiice]

hello bestieee 💞💞 congrats again on your milestone! hoping for more followers for you in the future! 😘💞 may i pretty please get a match-up with a male jjk character? 👉🏼👈🏼

you already know who i am HAHAHA but anyways, hi hello nice to meet u my name's franz my pronouns are she/her, i love to draw/sketch when i have free time, i also love to read books or fanfics mostly! my idea of a perfect date can be anywhere really as long as it's with someone you click with and while you're with them you just know they are the one char! they are someone you wanted to hang out more with. my personality online differs very greatly from my personality irl lol – i'm more like the edgy type irl HAHAHAH i don't like being around many people all the time so i either just hang out with my close friends or just be by myself in a social event with my phone. i'm easily amused, and i'm also easy to get bored. if i don't click with someone, i really don't bother hanging out with them anymore, because what's the point? sgdjsks n e wayzzz if we're really really close you'll find out i'm a softie and not the antisocial kid who hates people lol and i care so much about my loved ones, i also like to give lil gifts whatever the occasion, or sometimes i just feel like it! my appearance (although you already know that bestie!) is not that phenomenal lol – i have medium length black hair that is hard to tame 🙄 my eyes are slightly slanted i prefer to call it cat's eyes but it's kind of big lmao, my face is chubby now than before, my nose isn't that much as attractive sjsksks and yeah i'm short lmao but i'm taller than my mom so 🤷🏻‍♀️ not sure if this is a cute little quirk but,,,i love leaning my head on my friends' and/or loved ones' shoulders and arms when we're sitting together or just together HAHAHAH i miss doing that tbh also sorry if this is too long bestie! 🤧

hi bestie!!! hMmMm i think you’re a new visitor to my blog and idk you yet, so welcome! 😌👋 chz AHAHAHAH thank you sm for participating in my event franz bestie! ily! 😘

i match you up with...

the terribly aloof but lovable grade 1 sorcerer, nanami kento!

you and nanami would love each other’s company!

the two of you are absolute homebodies who would love to just stay at home. either reading whilst cuddling with each other (your head on his lap or resting your head on his shoulder, his arm draped around you uwu) or watching the newest scary movie or series on netflix with him (although nanami is awfully unfazed by the things the two of you watch most of the time) those were just some of the many things you loved to do with him at home!

To add to that, the two of you aren’t the most sociable people in person, and so, in a way, that’s how the two of you are able to connect with each other the most! basking in the comfort of each other 💗 and despite how cold and reserved nanami is around other people, it’s a total 180-degree shift in his personality when it comes to you! he’s a lot more talkative,  would watch intently as you draw and compliment your pretty art may they be scribbles or doodles, he becomes lively, and there are times when he tends to ramble and rant his heart out whenever the two of you have deep and intelligent conversations!

when you first met him, however, he had his cold and frigid facade radiate around him, and you thought that the two of you would not click at all. but, fate proved that wrong and now the two of you are dorks in love who have so so much love to give to each other. you’re such a big softie for him that you’d give him cute little back-hugs and he’d take you by the hand twirl you around whenever you did so! 💞

 he’s a very domestic boyfriend and nanami would totally be the type to dry, comb your pretty hair, and the one to give in to your cute little temptations and cravings! (like if you want to eat your favorite strawberry-flavored desserts and whatnot!) the two of you are a match made in heaven and you are the reason why the bespectacled sorcerer was able to come out of his shell! (even just a little bit! qwq)

[dailyhiddles]

If you don't mind me asking, why is it that don't you like Thor: Ragnarok?

Oh god…. Ok. First of all, let me be really clear that I don’t despise Ragnarok with the passion of a thousand suns, the way that some people seem to. I promise you, it’s not that deep. However, with that said, there are many things that bother me about Ragnarok. I’ll put my answer under the cut.

One of the things I love so much about the Marvel films is that every franchise contributes something different to the MCU. Iron Man is a more generic action/superhero movie, Captain America is kind of a thriller, Guardians of the Galaxy is super comedic, and Thor is/was dramatic and shakespearean. I understand that Thor (and certainly TDW) were not as critically acclaimed as many of the other movies, but I really resent the fact that they did a complete 180 and tried to turn it into GoTG 2.0. We already have a Guardians franchise and it’s fantastic! 

A few random things I didn’t like about the movie (not a conclusive list lol): 

I don’t like how they killed off the warriors three without any real acknowledgment from Thor. Like those were his best friends?

I don’t think Hela was a strong villain. I wish they gave her more screen time because Cate is amazing. She had so much potential. It’s a BIG deal that she’s Odin’s mysterious other daughter. I wish they delved into the “family” part more. Thor was always a story of two brothers. It was a familial drama at its core. They kind of threw in “Hela is Odin’s snubbed daughter” and in the end that detail was negligible, when you really think about it.

I’m really disappointed in the follow through of the “Loki’s disguised as Odin and took the throne” storyline. Again, there was so much potential here. It was a great cliffhanger. We wondered what would happen next for years after the movie ended. And… well… it was anticlimactic to say the least.

I also don’t believe that Loki’s reign would be solely devoted to “narcissistic glorification.” I do think he would be a great King, albeit an arrogant one, perhaps.  But I could go on about that forever.

The resolution with Odin. Okay, so he kicks the bucket. That’s fine. We’re better off anyway. However, we can’t pretend like the one scene with him and his sons resolved all of their problems from the first two films. It didn’t. That’s impossible.

And I’ll add that there are many things that Taika has said that have rubbed me the wrong way ( tbh I think that Taika’s comments make it really difficult for me to like the movie at all):  

“Here’s the thing about me guys, I did not really do my research. I read one issue of Thor as my research. Not even a graphic novel, one of the thin, thin ones. And by the end of it I was like, well we’re not doing that, let’s not really look at those anymore. Cool art, I love the art but I can’t stand the way everyone talks.”

“When you look at comic book characters we don’t have anything in common with them, especially not with this rich kid space Viking”

“My favorite performance is Chris’s performance because just knowing how fun he is and funny and charming, and he often is the kind of person who makes you feel like, ‘Oh, man, if you actually were Thor, I would totally come on an adventure with you.’ I just love having the opportunity to give him free rein to just be himself and to be charming and to be the favorite character.”

"This entire film is what it was. The destruction of Thor 1 and 2 and everything you really felt like you knew from those films and the recreation of this thing which I feel stands alone by itself”

“Whatever you’ve held onto, whatever you fell in love with in the last films, allow us to respectfully disrespect that stuff.”

…..Ok, Question: how are you going to sign up to direct the third film of a franchise, without doing your research— without giving a fuck about the other movies involved. That seems incredibly pretentious, to me. Maybe he doesn’t relate, understand, or care about Thor, but there are so many people that love these characters and are so invested in their stories. It makes me sad to know that characters I care a lot about, were mischaracterized solely because they were in the hands of a director that didn’t care enough to try to understand them. What does he mean “we” don’t have anything in common with them? I’m definitely not included in this “we” he speaks of. Thor and Loki might originate from mythology, but their complexities and character motivations are very human and very relatable. To say that they’re unsympathetic characters is just not accurate.

To conclude, I’ll reiterate that I hate that Ragnarok divided the fandom into “pro-Ragnarok” and “anti-ragnarok.” It’s such a divisive movie and I wish it wasn’t.

[chaos-and-cookies]

I don’t want to be that one person but I thought the little girl in Valkyrie was dark? I’m pretty sure her brother was dark. But the spray with mercy and Hanan (the little girl) shows her as like light pinkish skin so idk. Also what makes Michael Chu a bad writer in your eyes? I didn’t really like the previous short stories but this one seems okay to me. Just want to know how I can improve my own writing. Sorry for bothering you!

You're not bothering me! Sorry for the late response too, it's been a busy week.

But okay yeah I mean she wasn't exactly dark, she had a bit of a tanned "olive" skin tone yes but I dont recall her being any darker than that. And yes they did make her already fair skin tone, even fairer. But I guess that's just the art style they went with cuz everyone in those sprays are lighter even tho they were pretty pale to begin with. Like yeah mercy is white but she wasn't ghostly white with pink accents like in her sprays 😂

And omggg I could go on forever about how much I hate how incompetent chu is and how he's always backtracking and retconning. Hell, he pretty much rewrote Reaper/Gabe entirely from what he used to be (why a lot of fans think they cancelled the comic for tbh). Gabe was way edgier and hated 76 and just.... so stereotypical and emo it was a joke. Then chu went towards more of how the fans were writing him to be like, u know, a likeable character lmfao. But he also does a lot of weird things like taking out dialogue then saying he "doesn't remember ever writing that" even tho millions of people heard it themselves in game... most popular one I can think of being when they took out the dialogue between reaper and mercy that heavily implied she created the monster that he became. And sometime after that I remember pharmercy fans saying they took out dialogue between them that was kinda shippy (idk much about that one cuz I dont ship them lmao but it is weird they dont rly talk to each other in spawn anymore).

BASICALLY he just...isn't good. He backtracks and rewrites things all the time, even things that you would think would have been set in stone (ex: d.va being the #1 starcraft player). He acts like stuff never existed if he's REALLY trying to erase something from the past lore. And half of the things he writes just doesnt make any sense to begin with! When the game originally launched he put out a piece of lore that clashed what he said directly in an interview (I believe it had to do with Mercy getting Genji after Hanzo "killed" him, don't remember full details atm tho). He also originally said Mei was frozen for 30 years which raised a million and 1 questions by itself, especially how Mercy would have known Mei if it were 30yrs, which made us think Mercy should be about Ana's age and ended up having a huge rabbit hole of conspiracy theories ranging from Mercy being an immortal necromancer to a ton of other things. Then EVENTUALLY I'm talking YEARS later when the Mei short finally got made and released they lowered it waaaaay down to her being frozen for only 9yrs. THATS A LOT LESS THAN THE ORIGINAL 30, CHU.

imma stop myself before I rant way too much, more than I have already lol, but basically, if ur gonna make a story with a ton of characters, make a character page for yourself so u can at least be consistent and coherent so ur fans dont have to make a rabbit hole of conspiracies everytime u decide to chuck a piece of lore towards them whenever things dont add up lmfao

[the-jade-goblin]

for the pester me ask, would it be too much trouble to ask you to answer all the numbers? or as many as you can do! i can't think of one thing in particular i want to ask! you don't have to if you don't want sorry if im bothering you!

oho anon that is not too much trouble at all, answering questions about myself is a favourite pastime of mine. strap in kids its gonna be a bumpy ride

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life?

yes, this is him. this wreck of a human being

2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?

it was my dad, and yeah sure because he didn’t mean to so it’s okay

3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?”

um, my cat i guess?

4: What’s something you really want right now?

motivation would be nice. the will to live? even better!

5: Are you afraid of falling in love?

not of the love part, just the jerkface that will most likely ended up hurting me. im in love with so many fictional characters already so im not afraid of that

6: Do you like the beach?

sometimes, i have to be in the mood or else the sand getting everywhere will just piss me off

7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?

with someone else? i dont think so, only by myself

8: What’s the background on your cell?

this, my husband. natrually 

9: Name the last four beds you were sat on?

i dont even know what this means tbh

10: Do you like your phone?

yeah its pretty good, better than spending my life savings on an iphone

11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned?

fam if i planned to be broke, single, and living in squalor while being totally satisfied with my stagnant existence than yeah sure

12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?

my boss

13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?

i dunno, im not much of a dog person, but a poodle i guess?

14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?

physical. i can do emotional all day every day i aint got no soul anymore anyway

15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?

as much as i love animals, its sad seeing them in captivity, even if its probably better for them then being in the wild. plus i love art, so an art museum

16: Are you tired?

i am always tired my dude. i dont remember ever not being tired

17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact?

like about 10 years

18: Are they a relative?

nope, my best friend

19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?

FUUUUUUCK NOOOOOO. All of my exes were abusive, fuck that

20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?

I havent spoken to my last ex in like, six months or more

21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?

if i knew without a doubt they were the right person hell yeah i’d marry them. i’d marry my best friend right now if she’d let me

22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

ew no. my ex was a disgustingly bad kisser and he’s a dick

23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

right now, none

24: Is there a certain quote you live by?

“no one can do you better than you, so do you and do you well”

25: What’s on your mind?

the inevitable and impending doom of death

26: Do you have any tattoos?

nope, but i want some. but im a pussy im scared of pain

27: What is your favorite color?

purple or green

28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?

literally never. its disgusting and id rather set myself on fire

29: Who are you texting?

my group chat friends who i organize kpop merch/cds buying and selling with

30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?

yeah i think it was my couch.

31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?

you mean like, every day? because yeah

32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?

eh, not really.

33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you?

i sincerely doubt it

34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

my ex-girlfriend said that a couple times

35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?

i literally wouldnt care

36: Were you single on Valentines Day?

yeah i’d broken up with my ex by then (he gave me my V Day gift as a ‘plz take me back’ thing, i took it and still said get out of my house)

37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed?

hell no.

38: What do your friends call you?

apart from various nicknames to do with being a trash human being, mostly just T since my name is hard to nickname, or just my name

39: Has anyone upset you in the last week?

thankfully no, its only thursday

40: Have you ever cried over a text?

yeah when my second-last ex broke up with me by telling me he’d been lying to me through our whole year-long relationship and never actually cared about me in the first place and that he just dated me because he felt bad for me since i was sad i just broke up with my girlfriend

41: Where’s your last bruise located?

my hip. 

42: What is it from?

i run into the counter at work a lot

43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?

oh when i just got home from my trip to japan and my now-ex picked me up from the airport and i remembered how uncomfortable he made me and i wanted nothing more than to be alone and away from him

44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

my dad

45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes?

yeah, they’re reeeally worn now, i need to get a new pair

46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?

no i just deal with my ugliness

47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style?

nope, hell no.

48: Do you make supper for your family?

i cant cook

49: Does your bedroom have a door?

yes

50: Top 3 web-pages?

tumblr, youtube and like i dunno facebook i guess?

51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping?

yeah one of my friends

52: Does anything on your body hurt?

my neck kinda

53: Are goodbyes hard for you?

i dont even do the goodbye thing i literally just walk away to avoid it

54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?

like milk i think

55: How is your hair?

56: What do you usually do first in the morning?

complain

57: Do you think two people can last forever?

you mean like a relationship, or immortality? 

58: Think back to January 2007, were you single?

i was like 11 so yeah

59: Green or purple grapes?

green motha fuckaa

60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug?

probably when i move in with my best friend in February 

61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?

preferably in a big warm library surrounded by books in a comfy chair with a fluffy blanket over me

62: When will be the next time you text someone?

monday when my friend tells me she’s here to pick me up

63: Where will you be 5 hours from now?

in this bed like i am right now, scrolling through tumblr like always

64: What were you doing at 8 this morning.

sleeping 

65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked?

yeah my abusive ex

66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

my many fictional husbands and wives, my kpop group members. but someone i actually know, like i guess my best friend

67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today?

nope

68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

‘fuck why cant i fucking sleep this is bullshit’

69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

literally the story of my life

70: How many windows are open on your computer?

three. tumblr, youtube and facebook

71: How many fingers do you have?

all of them? 8, 2 thumbs

72: What is your ringtone?

my phone’s been on silent since 2008 dude

73: How old will you be in 5 months?

22

74: Where is your Mum right now?

probably at work

75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?

because a) she lives in texas and i live in australia b) she was abusively controlling and manipulative and i had to get out of that situation

76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

nope

77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?

yep

78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?

ew yes hahaha gross 

79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?

my best friend’s step dad i guess, he’s a dick

80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?

my ex a few times. its really uncomfortable.

81: How many people have you liked in the past three months?

real people? none. fictional people? way too many

82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?

nope

83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

well i mean i could replay the arcana and see julian again

84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?

ew. i would never do that in the first place bc i dont drink nor do i harass strangers out of car windows.

85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care?

yes, bc fuck that im out of here immediately. 

86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?

i mean, we nearly got killed going to a maccas at 2am by a homeless dude, and we also tried to cook pasta in the microwave bc the hotel’s hotplate wasnt working, and i also was suuuper tired and was screaming nonsense wrapped up in a doona and crashed into a glass door.

87: Who was your last received call from?

my bestie telling me her landlord said i could move in

88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?

i mean, i guess? like thats a bitch move and id be super sad but im a broke ass homie ok i need the money

89: What is something you wish you had more of?

motivation. seratonin or whatever that chemical your brain makes that makes you happy

90: Have you ever trusted someone too much?

yeah like everyone i’ve ever dated

91: Do you sleep with your window open?

only if its super hot

92: Do you get along with girls?

hell yeah girls are awesome

93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?

no

94: Does sex mean love?

sex means me throwing up

95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?

fuck yeah, someone better unlock the door before that fuck ends up dead

96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?

no

97: Did you sleep alone this week?

yesssss andits greeeeat

98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?

sure, my bestie always makes me happy

99: Do you believe in love at first sight?

i guess. i dont know if i even feel love so im not sure how i would tell

100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise?

what am i 12?