#i WISH I COULD DO THIS W JAPANESE but for some reason everytime i get back to studying jp smth keeps happened 🙃🫠

[meattruck]

I love reviewing my chinese, idk y i started prolly (productive) procrastination that I keep doing, I just practice my other languages by speaking and for example rn I used 新 but had to look up if what I said was reasonable and I just remembered 新 is also used in 新加坡 (singapore) isn't that fun 😆 it's like there's a little treat everywhere when I find something old to go back to

Anyways I want this semester to be over with already crys

[nerdycatastrophe]

Idk did some pixel art and I’m now gonna attach my danganronpa fancharacter biographies because I can :DD (sprite edits, character details and designs are subject to change btw and this very post will be re-blogged everytime I edit something.)

W/ SCARF AND BEANIE

Name and Talent:

Ikani Rinyu, Ultimate Digital/Multimedia Artist

Birth Date and Age:

February 13, 16 years old

Race and Ethnicity:

Polynesian Japanese // Filipino Japanese

Accent:

Japanese, just...japanese.

Blood Type:

A+

Weight and Height:

128 lbs, 5'2 ft

Mental or Physical disorders:

Recovering Pyromaniac (I’m still researching about Inattentive ADHD and if this oc has accurate symptoms) and Peptic Ulcer

Sex, Pronouns and Gender identity:

Biologically Female, Prefer She/Her/Herself & They/Them/Themself or any pronouns & Demi-girl

Sexual and Romantic orientation:

Asexual Biromantic

Religion / Belief:

Agnostic

Other Hobbies:

Cooking, Baking, Making things out of matchsticks and wood and Drawing traditionally.

Likes:

Making digital artworks, playing with match sticks and flowers.        

Loves:

The idea of setting things on fire or being around fire (for emotional reasons and urges) and warmth.      

Dislikes:

Theft-related activity, acidic food and seafood.

Despises:

The idea of water and feeling cold.

Personality type and traits: ISFP

(INTROVERTED;SENSING;FEELER;PERCEIVING)

Personality description:

Ikani is mostly self-aware of reality’s hardships yet tend to keep up an ‘’whatever goes, is what happen and I cannot potentially do anything to change that.’’ carefree, reckless, will only believe when she has seen attitude that pretends to be a healthy optimistic nihilist way of dealing with life but when unmasked turns out to be a faulty uncertain self-hate of pessimism that pretends to be optimistic or a realist way of thinking and solving problems. This can badly affects her creative ability to do any problem solving, thinking outside the box or standing up for herself and the people she loves alone unless she has encountered that situation before or has help from someone with far more experience. She does not rebel that much to authority or dictatorship as she believes rules are rules or the law is the law and whatever unintended consequences that follow or reports of abuse of power are normal and natural but she’s open-minded and adaptable enough to consider changing rules and regulations peacefully if she’s convinced or confident enough. Either way, Whatever happens is whatever happens in the present and she won’t make any effort to neither change or preserve any rules or laws that much. She, most of the time, follows whatever happens in the present world with no consideration for the consequences that would follow because she doesn’t like to think philosophically or overthink.

Habits:

Stimming, flapping hands around, running around in circles when stressed, excited, happy, confused or afraid if she can’t bottle up her emotions, Running away from problems as much as possible (literally and figuratively) and bottling up her feelings. Also tends to get distracted and daydreams a lot yet when it’s her turn to talk about herself she goes a little overboard which can put off people and assume she is selfish. (when it’s just a habit she does)

Character morality alignment:

Lawful Neutral <-> Neutral Good

Name Etymology and Shenanigans 1:

Ikani Rinyu once translated from Japanese to English respectively means ‘’How’’ and ‘’Renew’’ forming the phrase, ‘’How renew.’’

Name Etymology and Shenanigans 2:

Mess with the letters on Ikani and you’ll get ‘’Ikanai’’ which means ‘’Don’t go’’ referring to her brother, ‘’Ika’’ which means ‘’not exceeding’’, ‘’Kanai’’ which means ‘’Flower’’, ‘’Kani’’ which means ‘’crab’’, ‘’Ikan’’ which means ‘’Fish’’, ‘’Ani’’ which is another term for ‘’brother’’ and ‘’Ni’’ which means ‘’to go’’

Name Etymology and Shenanigans 3:

Mess with the letters on Rinyu and you’ll get ‘’Rin’’ which means ‘’Cold’’ in Japanese and ‘’Dignified’’ or ‘’Severe’’ in Italian, ‘’Inu’’ which means ‘’Dog’’, and ‘’Rinu’’ which can mean ‘’Freelance of flowers’’ and ‘’Beautiful’’ or ‘’Pretty’’ in Indian.

Zodiac and Planet:

She is an Aquarius and is assigned the planet Uranus based on her zodiac.

Backstory:

Ikani Rinyu was born as a second child to a worker class family (Rinyu family) who mostly had time for her. Many years went by and her parents had to focus on things they deemed far more important in order to sustain a family with regular income. Her family’s income condition worsened when the day before Ikani 7th birthday, She, her brother and her parents were robbed of a lot of yen at gun-point by a gang after they went to the store and bought a digital tablet for her as a gift (because they felt as if they were neglecting Ikani because of work). After the incident happened, Ikani's mother divorced with her husband because it turned out that Ikani's father had connections with the gang that robbed them and never told her about it. Another reason for her parents divorce is that both of her father and mother had an underlying conflict in which both were never really interested in each other and only agreed to marry back when they were friends so that they can decrease their tax and avoid debt and they both felt guilty about divorcing each other because both felt that they were selfish with their underlying mutual motivations for marriage,  they were still saving up money and investing and couldn’t afford to divorce early, and that divorcing will affect their children greatly if they will be honest about it to them at an early age (suprise suprise, bottling up your feelings worsens everything, yourself and everyone around you). This robbery incident went mainstream after the time Ikani’s mother divorced Ikani’s father and her remaining family was secretly interviewed by a group of ''journalists'' and this is how (insert academy name) found and scouted Ikani just so they can replace and -cover up an ultimate's death.- So her mom and the group of journalists made a contract in exchange for financial gain and basically free education for Ikani and her brother and also medical + financial insurance. Ikani started setting things on fire (mostly flowers, sticks and wood) on ‘’accident’’ just to gain attention from her busy mom, brother and everyone else she was close to and was forming a relationship with, in which her ‘’habits’’ slowly spiralled and developed into impulsive Pyromania because she felt that she was never loved enough + with her parents divorce taking a toll on her (her brother tried to help but also didn't know what to do and was busy with their own school). Around this time, she also felt like eating would decrease her family's money greatly so she tried skipped eating snacks at school but not basic meals yet she still developed peptic ulcer. On her 11th birthday, Ikani’s brother finally took a stand and consulted a ‘’reliable’’ therapist/psychiatrist and a dietician (who helped with the insert academy's goals) despite it being expensive and discouraged by her mom. Her therapist/psychiatrist then noted to her parents that Ikani should focus more on expressing her emotions in more artistic and creative ways in order to cope with her bottled up emotions, trauma and urges and using the digital tablet she got at age 7 when everything was still relatively alright should be a good head start. Her dietician also helped her with resolving her peptic ulcer and convinced her that she shouldn't feel bad about eating extra snacks and set out a diet for her to follow. Soon, The academy’s contract money given to her parents was enough to sustain her creative urges as Ikani eventually learned to create moving and still digital artworks including complex 3d and photography by simply using her tablet that had limited features over the years despite her age as she contributed to many famous and iconic company logos, designs, presentations, artworks, animations, movies, edits and videos that are found in the media. Over the years, Ikani secretly wished that the contract would stop as that diverted corporate's financial wants for themselves because of her hidden relations with the academy journalists and she wishes she was never born and regretted that time she was too ''needy'' at age 7 (she shouldn't blame herself though) but never took her own ground against it to her mom as she felt like she was selfish for wanting to do something her mom didn't desire so she ended up ONLY EVER venting her emotions through her work/hobby and sometimes forgot how to express her emotions.

Reasons for acting the way she does during the killing game:

The reason why she doesn’t vent her emotions and only bottles it up during the killing game is because just like in the original Danganronpa series, Monokuma would confiscate your belongings that allowed access to communicating with the outside world (and it just turned out her only venting item was a digital tablet that would probably screw up Monokuma) Also, it’s because the idea of ‘’Survival of the Fittest.’’, ‘’Being weak will kill you.’’ and ‘’No time for crying because it is not yet over’’ is in her head all the time + fear of being impulsive again and accidentally resurfacing her Pyromania and basically rendering her brother’s efforts to help her with her problems useless so yeah she’s guilty of wanting to feel emotions so she eventually becomes numb to the things happening around her.  All of these are her ways of justifying being emotionless, being unintentionally ignorant and coping with loss and grief in a dangerous game that could kill you any moment.

Student percentile, Predictability and chances:

>Gets killed normally: 30%

>Punished and killed for breaking rules OR due to unfair trial misconduct shenanigans because plot: 4.6%

>ATTEMPTED to murder someone: 20%

>Blackened AND escapes:  10.5%

>Blackened BUT executed:  25.5 %

>Killed someone BUT died during or before their murder trial:  9%

>Betrays everyone as the MASTERMIND: 1.5 %

>Betrays everyone as the MOLE // TRAITOR: 5.7 %

>Survives the killing game as an forever evil MOLE // TRAITOR // MASTERMIND in the killing game: 0.8 %

> Survives the killing game as a redeemed MOLE // TRAITOR // MASTERMIND in the killing game: 0.3 %

>Survives the killing game as a normal person in the killing game:  35%

W/ VISION CORRECTING VISORS

        2. W/ VISION CORRECTING READING GLASSES

         3. N/A EYEWEAR

Name and Talent:

Cyl Bol // Cyden Boliver ^ Ultimate Arcade Attendant

Birth Date and Age:

July 9 ^ 15 years old

Race and Ethnicity:

Dutch Japanese

Accent:

Russian mixed with Dutch and Japanese

Blood Type:

B-

Weight and Height:

100 lbs ^ 5'5 ft

Mental or Physical disorders:

Developing schizophrenia symptoms (I’m still researching on this so I’m not sure) and PAPD (Passive-Aggressive Disorder) and has genetic Albinism + Astigmatism.

Sex, Pronouns and Gender identity:

Biologically male, Any pronouns but They/Them/Themself and He/Him/Himself are preferred, Gender-fluid

Sexual and Romantic orientation:

Toric // Quadrisan or Viramoric

Religion / Belief:

Reformed // Progressive Judiasm (yeah, this the correct term-)

Other Hobbies:

Debate, Internet surfing, Meditation, Reading philosophical/theology books, Practicing first-aid methods and crushing herbs.

Likes:

Salt, Bread, Dieting (fasting), Figs, Bread, Wheat and Grains, Krupnik with meat

Loves:

Philosophy, Theology, Basic human rights, Debating, Eating Chopped Liver 

Dislikes:

The taste of pork (im sorry for adding this if it feels a little bit racist but I genuinely hate pork and I wanted to add it to a character that fits it the most without being too ignorant and stereotypical while still making the character that dislikes pork have an actual personality and backstory other than just RELIGION stuff. keep in mind this character hates pork not because it’s ‘’unholy’’, it’s because it tastes horrible for them), Immature // Karen customers, His own talent, Seeds, Human contact, Getting sick and parties/social celebrations.

Despises:

Strict people, Strict rules, Strict regulations, Dense and stubborn optimists, Peer pressure, Being taunted for being weak // frail, The sun’s warmth and sunlight, Going outside, Backstabbers and being manipulated.

Personality type and traits: INTP

(INTROVERTED;INTUITIVE;THINKING;PERCEIVING)

Personality description:

Really really intentionally and maybe unintentionally paranoid, superstitious, ‘’weird’’ passive-aggressive and lonely since it's his way of avoiding unnecessary conversations that could drain out his energy for him to save up on topics he deems far more important (philosophy + theology) and people that could potentially hurt him again unless they specifically ask him or want something from him for a short // limited amount of time and say it extremely extremely politely to the point where he feels pity or someone out-smarts his passive-aggressiveness causing Cyl to do your favor immediately out of embarrassment, anger, frustration or getting flustered. Most of the time, Cyl has a rather nihilistic and pessimistic (but sometimes, realistic and optimistic at times) views and mindsets of life and would rather die rather than following strict regulations // rules. Although he is a passive type of Nihilist and knows there isn’t that much value in life despite searching it (even with religion), He still is sort of a coward and ends up helping other people out of pity, jealousy, admiration or respect and will still be willing to fight for people’s rights things society deems unworthy despite the odds and his diminishing motivation on doing so. Cyl prefers to be individualistic, thoughtful, overthink for hours, alone and free when it comes to him making decisions or going onto places. Although he’s an INTP, He allows his emotions to run wild at times (even if in the process, hurting other people whether he realizes it or not) which allows him to make thoughtfully calculated decisions without having the burden of emotions and mood. Because of his defiance against the norms, He can usually think outside the box and think of solutions quick enough to solve an underlying problem on time in an creative yet messy analytical manner. Also yeah he struggles following rules.

Habits:

Praying a bit too much than usual, Rapidly cleaning visor goggles // reading glasses even when not needed, Limping hands and fingers to relax hand tendons, muscles and bones and tugging at Hanukkah snow cap when embarrassed / flustered.

Character moral alignment:

Chaotic Neutral

Name Etymology and Shenanigans 1:

Cyl is an abbreviation of ‘’Cylinder’’  which indicates the lens power your doctor is prescribing to correct your astigmatism (and this oc has astigmatism)

Name Etymology and Shenanigans 2:

Bol can be an abbreivation for Broek Op Langedijk (a dutch town), Beacon of light, Bread of Life, Bolivia’s (sounds like Boliver) ISO Country code,  Beginning Of Life and Balls Of Light (paranormal phenominon associated with crop circles) Name Etymology and Shenanigans 3:

Cyden is of English origin and means "To stand strong and be brave together as one" and Cayden is of American origin and means ‘’Fighter’’

Name Etymology and Shenanigans 4:

Bolivar is the name of the South American soldier that had a country (Bolivia) dedicated to him. Oliver is a boy name that means ‘’Descendant Of The Ancestor’’ in English, In latin it means Olive (symbol of peace); peaceful. Olive is a girl’s name meaning ‘’Olive tree’’ and is another symbol of peace.

Zodiac and Planet:

He is a Cancer and is assigned the ‘planet’ moon based on their zodiac.

Backstory:

N/A (ITS ALMOST 2 AM LOL MAYBE TOMORROW)

Student percentile, Predictability and chances:

N/A (ITS ALMOST 2 AM LOL MAYBE TOMORROW)

[xp-egg]

paranoia/mental illness/disturbing tw.. related to the post i made on my main blog

So im about to drive up to see my mama for hanukkah, alone as i do each yr. redacted THING happened a few summers ago but essentially bc of it she believes ppl from [Japanese automobile corporation] tried to m*rder her on the job nd now cant keep a job or a place to live so she lives w my baba . i havent talked to her in a year for reasons i will explain ...so we r texting abt my travel plan, cooking plan, talking for the first time all yr besides birthday wishes n stuff, shes talking normally, we say our goodbyes/cantwaittoseeyous. bht 12ish hours later she sends me, un-explained with no preface, a cryptic list of what i slowly figure out are license plate numbers out of nowhere n says ppl are trying to run her over n cackling (this is not new.. just i havent had to deal w it all year and i was hoping she could let it go for just a few days....), i ask if she has gotten to a safe place and ofc she says shit like 'well unfortunately natasha i will never be safe. they follow me at all moments and one day you will read abt ur mother having been killed, etc etc.' like omg i just cant talk to u. At all. Anymore. can i not have one day.. without this... please g*d... she cant be around ANYONE bc she thinks they are all working w [car company] conspiring to m*rder, slander, whatever her.. shes lost 12 jobs in the past 4 years. everytime we go out in public she screams at people for even glancing at her/smiling at her and claims they were [doing some weird threatening thing they certainly werent ? .. like sometimes ppl with certain names or wearing A CERTAIN COLOR is enough to be a SIGN and she loses it and starts telling them loudly to fuck off and stop looking at her.... my non-hallucinating brain as a witness] and im mildly concerned someone WILL kill her in retaliation for her being insane in their face.. (she had some guy start yelling back at her and she recorded it as 'proof'. He was clearly very annoyed at her saying terrible accusations at him when he was trying to mind his fucking business.....it was indescribably scary but like can i blame him? she was being highly inappropriate publically.. SHE was prob scaring HIM. she scares me lmao) like she has been so mild mannered and rational her whole life.. she has a degree in chemistry and a literal genius IQ. its like watching a loving animal slowly go violently rabid. It Sucks

last year she finally accused ME of also being paid off/threatened by [company] to conspire against her JUST bc i went to visit her older brothers family (my aunt n cousins who are the family members ive been closest to our whole lives aside from my mother nd baba) w my bf at the time bc i wanted him to meet my non-insane family members..... JUST FOR VISITING MY OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS BC THEY ARE EXPECTING ME TO VISIT N THEY LOVE ME ? Like they love my mom too but multiple years of being accused of being bought off, or [company] threatening to m*rder my cousins (she always says the most brutal and disturbingly specific details too) if they didnt do whatever thing would intimidate my mom, [in this case purchasing the most affordable reliable new family car they could from [company] ..it WAS right after she told them about her initial event but likethey needed a new car and her claims are literally delusional. i rly dont want to disown my other family for that but its a hard decision.. terrible situation], but being accused to conspire to m*rder her gets tiring so they gave up a while ago. when she accused ME even tho i have been the literal last person to stand by her for the past 4.5 years.. i never made her feel like her claims were impossible even when literally everyone else did bc i figured she needed a buoy.. i said fuck it i can't talk to you anymore. i will start going insane too . we have all tried to comfortingly reason w her (well i didnt for a while, i just wholly accepted her story without trying to reason with her INSANE JUMPS IN CORRELATION.. fully bizarre and delusional.. bc i wanted to support her), i spent so much more money getting a less reliable car just to avoid buying from [company], supported her contacting the authorities (obviously they can't help bc she is making insane claims), make her feel as safe n protected.. did as much as we possibly could but like... theres a limit. this is year 4.5 of this, every day, every hour. EVERY year she says well the dirt on [company] will get out this year.. youll see.. ill be validated (essentially). she went to inpatient treatment and she said they accused her of having barbituates in her system when she arrived (what) nd the only diagnosis they gave her was 'rule out paranoid delusion' (bro come on... she thinks EVERYONE is trying to k*ll her.. help) so she wont get any more help. i want to at least try and save my baba bc she is old and puts up w this every single day. but on top of having my own problems, by saving my baba id be damning my mother, or myself. i never know what to do....

but well anyways i love driving hours into a fucking hornets nest each year. at least there are latkes ig

[momorabu]

13.08.2017

Ensemble Stars! Event Story - Reminiscence＊Monochrome Checkmate / Checkmate (Part 1)

A new blog, a new beginning! It’s been quite awhile since my last translation, and partly it was because this event story was soooo long... I probably spent two weeks on and off just to finish reading this , but it’s really worth it as it revealed alot of the back story of how “Knights” was created, how Leo had fallen, and the evil plans of Eichi... =w=“ 

I actually felt quite depressed after reading it, since it’s very true to the evil side of how things work in real life, poor Leo TWT I shall not reveal too much and would just let you guys read the story below! +W+

Anyway as always, the summary of the story can be found below. Translation may not be 100% accurate due to my poor Japanese skills~

Prologue

The story starts off with Eichi and Izumi having a chess match between themselves. Eichi was already smiling as he’s confident that he was gong to win it while Izumi rebutted him, saying that this was just the first round, and wonder why Eichi had asked him to play chess together if he had really wanted to talk instead. Eichi apologised that he had made Izumi pissed off but still smiled and told him that Izumi himself had already made a wrong step initially, and claimed that it would be near to impossible for him to make a comeback after that.

Izumi however didn’t backed down, saying that he doesn’t feel like he would lose at all, and wanted to continued the match. Eichi agreed, though once again he just deemed it as Izumi wasting his time and efforts afterall. He boasted that he’s really good in chess, since he had always played it regularly in his room when he was forced to stay indoors due to his weak body back then. He was even good at mathematics, music, and even the ballet that Izumi was good at too. In fact, Eichi claimed that he had never lose to any adult ever since from the age he had turned 10. (Wah.. Eichi’s attitude... it’s very annoying ><”)

However, due to a bad memory, for a period of time Eichi didn’t want to touch chess at all. He continued that he had never seems to be able to win a match against Leo though, which Izumi found it impossible since he himself had already beat Leo multiple times, saying that Leo was good at nothing else other than music. (How come that definitely doesn’t sounds like he’s praising Leo... ^^;) He thought that Eichi must have lose on purpose to please Leo back then, but Eichi shook his head and said that he would never do that on purpose since he had everything: the talent, the environment (his family background I reckon), the people and the information. (Eichi boasting about himself again... =w=“) He also said that chess was a game for gentleman and to cheat or to lose on purpose was something deemed not “gentleman” at all. In fact, Eichi didn’t want to “kill” Izumi at all, and would actually rather him to give up on his own, but... to him it seems like Izumi won’t take it down and would rather struggle.

Izumi kept quiet the entire time, that made Eichi felt abit lonely and he wondered perhaps Izumi was just concentrating to think of a way to win this chess match. Finally Eichi came to the main point why he had gotten Izumi to play chess with him, he had a deal that he wanted to negotiate with him. Izumi showed a glum face upon hearing that, and asked Eichi that whether he had planned to make use of them (knights) as pawns again and killed “him” again. However, Eichi continued smiling as he clarified that he would only “kill” people if there’s a “need” too and said that this is something that Izumi had knew all along about him, aditng on that he had already lose the human side of imself ever since he had became the “emperor”.(That’s scary Eichi TWT)

Eichi went onto nostalgic mode as he remembered the days where he played a match against Leo, and commented that he had always confidently played the “knight” pawn everytime. Izumi dissed that he wasn’t sure that Leo could even play chess actually and asked that whether he had even knew about the rules XD (That’s... kind of mean Izumi ^^;) Eichi admitted that Leo actually added new rules into the game when he played, like making the “knight” pawn being able to release destroyer beam XD That made Eichi faced a hard time playing a game against him, and was why they could never finish a match which explains why Eichi never won a match against him.

Eichi asked Izumi that he really can’t understand. He knew that everyone had said that it’s his fault, which he won’t deny that it’s partly his fault, but Eichi himself had really like Leo, and had enjoyed playing with him. The thing that Eichi doesn’t understand was ... why did Leo had “broke” and asked who exactly had “killed” him?

(Yes this story is going to mainly revolved around Leo and how he broke TWT)

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 1

The timeline took us back to a year ago, where Eichi was admitted in the hospital as he still had a really weak body back then. Tsumugi had went to the hospital to visit him, but felt hurt when Eichi mentioned that he doesn’t know who he is. (Ouch...) He told Eichi not to forget about him and introduced himself as his classmate - Aoba Tsumugi. Eichi started talking about things at a fast pace that got Tsumugi confused, as he requested time to catch up. Eichi sighed and remarked that he had been told so by multiple others in the past, and asked Tsumugi that he doesn’t have to try to reply him if he had found it too difficult, since all these comments like “I see”, “that’s interesting” were just words that exist to make the other party feel better afterall. 

Tsumugi found what Eichi had said seems kind of lonely, since he would feel that people would wish that the other party would try to understand what they’re saying when they communicate with one another. However, Eichi was sure that Tsumugi won’t be able to understand him, but clarified that it wasn’t because that he looked down on Tsumugi’s level of being able to understand him, but because it was all an illusion that people thought that they could understand each other. (That sounds so depressing, Eichi... TWT)

But the good thing, Eichi became quite fond of Tsumugi after that, since it’s rare that there’s actually someone who expressed an interest to want to know more about him. Tsumugi was glad to have a great relationship with Eichi, seeing that they’re classmates starting this spring. Eichi smiled as he hoped that he would be able to have a normal teenager’s life this spring, and was in fact looking forward to it since there’s alot of stuff that he had wanted to do.

Eichi had initially called Tsumugi by his surname “Aoba”, which Tsumugi insisted that he wished that Eichi would call him by his name instead, stating that he doesn’t like it when others called him by his surname. Eichi gussed that Tsumugi might have disliked his bloodline, and thus doesn’t to be reminded of the fact that he had the same surname as his parents. However, Tsumugi smiled and told him that he doesn’t have such a stigma against his parents, and was in fact grateful to them that he won’t be able to repay them in his entire life. The main reason why Tsumugi doesn’t like being called by his surname is very simple, because being called “Aoba-san” can sound like “Obasan” (which means older woman / aunt) and poor Tsumugi was teased because of this in his childhood TWT

One of the reason why Tsumugi was here was because he was the class president, and asked Eichi to approach him anytime if he had any questions, though partly it was because he was being entrusted to take care of Eichi by the teacher. He handed Eichi the printout from the teacher, and also included some very “interesting” notes that he had made in class, stating that he had taken down EVERYTHING the teacher had said, since he wasn’t sure which information would be required by Eichi.

Actually other than what the teacher had said, Tsumugi had even added gossips talked among the students in class that Eichi found it really interesting that it could be an important information source for him instead. (Didn’t know Eichi could be someone who’s interested in such gossip?! OWO”)

Because Eichi had been in the hospital frequently since he was young, he had found visitors really annoying actually and had even asked that his servants / helpers to deny anyone to access his ward. But that was only possible in his own private ward, and now that Eichi had moved to a shared ward, he won’t be able to stop all the visitors (since some of them had came to visit some other patients, you can’t stop people from wanting to visit them... =w=“) Tsumugi took it as a compliment that due to his low sense of presence, he had managed to sneak through to visit Eichi, but Eichi remarked that having a low sense of presence is not a good thing since they’re aiming to be idols after all...

Just then, Eichi started coughing and that made Tsumugi worried as he thought he must have overstayed his welcome here. He didn’t want Eichi to spend more of his energy and decided to take his leave. Eichi thanked him and called Tsumugi a “blue bird”, which is actually a word pun on his surname “Aoba”, and told him that he wished that they would be able to get along and hoped that Tsumugi would be his friend. (If you had really wanted Tsumugi to be your friend, why would you push him away in “Element”, Eichi...? Orz)

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 2 - 3

Outside the hospital, Izumi was seen scolding Leo. He scolded him multiple times that he’s an idiot, and asked him why he had gotten himself into such a commotion, informing him that he might ended up being suspended, or worst expelled. He advised Leo that before he punched anybody, he should take a deep breathe since what’s important for an idol is his popularity and trust. If the news of one had punched anybody was released, his life as an idol would have ended . (It’s... really... that seriousl? OAO”)

(I just found it so hilarious that Izumi actually asked “Are you an idiot?” for 3 times in a straight row XDD)

Thank goodness that Keito had helped to keep the matter under the cover this time, but Izumi warned Leo to promise him that this won’t happen again. Leo however found Izumi really naggy and complained that he sounded like he was his mum or something XD That pissed Izumi off as he tugged hard as Leo’s cheeks, and Leo cried out that Izumi was just taking this chance to bully him XD

Izumi remarked that he would really like to see Leo’s parents so that he could lecture them on how they’re taking care of their kids, but this seems like an insult to Leo, as he demanded Izumi to stop insulting his family and he’ll be dead if he kept doing that. However, Izumi wasn’t threatened by his words at all, and asked Leo to watch his own actions and behave well for his family’s sake if he doesn’t want people to talk about him or his family behind his back.

This only angered Leo even more as he lashed out a series of verbal attack on Izumi, calling him “an idiot”, “smart but still an idiot? XD” “stupid” (X2) and also... “shit” XD Izumi just gave him a side eye and remarked that Leo just seems like an elementary school kid, and wondered how he could write really beautiful songs and lyrics like a professional when the words he used everyday has no sense at all ^^;

Leo was proud as he declared himself as a genuis since he could create melodies, however he also admitted that he’s not good at writing lyrics actually, and thus would asked for help from “Luka”. Izumi doesn’t know who “Luka” is even though he had heard Leo mentioned about her a few times, to which Leo answered that that was his sister, who Izumi had already met for a few times prior to this. Izumi then remembered who she is, but he could only remember her hiding behind the door and looking at him through the gap, and had run away when Izumi tried to talk to her, and added that he doesn’t even really know what she looks like actually. Leo just smiled and said that his sister was just shy, and offered to show Izumi a photo of her since he had a folder full of her photos in his phone.

Just when Leo was happily reaching out for his phone, he realised that... he doesn’t even have his phone with him! Izumi can’t believed that Leo had lost his phone since that would mean a loss and might reveal his personal information to others. But since Izumi had already set a password onto the phone, it would be alright even if it was picked up by a bad person (since the person won’t be able to unlock the phone without the correct password). He even offered to call the telecom to cancel Leo’s phone, and that made Leo really gald that he could feel at ease that Izumi would help him to handle everything.

In fact, without Izumi, Leo thought that he won’t be able to persevere onto becoming an idol actually and would have given up easily. Izumi told Leo not to give up so easily like a kid and that he should learn to grow up like an adult by bearing things down and fight things through, since he does have the talent to be an idol. However, his words just fell on deaf ears as Leo pouted and complained that he doesn’t want to be an adult =w=“

Tsumugi was just leaving the hospital when he had spotted them by the entrance, and approached them to greet them. Leo doesn’t know who Tsumugi was so Izumi helped to introduce them to each other, since he was in the same class as Tsumugi. Izumi had asked why Tsumugi had appeared at the hospital, but guessed that he must have been entrusted by the teacher to pay a visit to Eichi here. Tsumugi went on to ask Izumu to come and visit Eichi when he had the time, since he felt that Eichi seems to be very lonely over there. He tried to give Izumi a omamori in blessing of good health and even offered to hang it on his school bag when Izumi rejected him and asked him not to touch his bag without permission. (Though Izumi seems kind of harsh, it feels kind of creepy that Tsumugi just went onto touching his bag wanting to hang the omamori on it. I won’t feel comfortable about it if I’m Izumi ^^;) He clarified that he’s someone who doesn’t want to rely on “god’s power” and thus had no need of a omamori.

Izumi explained that he had brought Leo here since Leo had broke his arm a few days ago, and had also caused quite a commotion though Izumi doesn’t know about the full details as he wasn’t there at the scene. He wanted Leo to come and treat his injury, but Leo just grumbled that he doesn’t like the hospital and kept wanting to escape. Leo complained that he doesn’t like the smell of medicine, and also people who are carrying needles around and passing medicines around. (They’re doctors, Leo...)

Tsumugi doesn’t know Leo either even though he knew that he’s someone from the same school because of the uniform. Thus Leo introduced himself,  praising himself as a genuis who doesn’t really goes to school. (Is that something to be proud of...? ^^:) Izumi asked Leo that maybe he should quit school if he disliked it so much, but since Leo’s parents had already paid for the school fees, Leo felt sorry if he had quitted school halfway, and besides Leo himself stated that he can’t do anything else other than music actually, so he won’t be able to attend normal school as he isn’t good at studying. Izumi dissed him that if he had knew that, he should all the more work harder by taking lessons seriously and do more activities as an idol. (Besides I think skipping lessons is a waste of his parents’ school fees too... =w=‘)

Tsumugi who was watching them, remarked that he’s glad to know that Izumi actually managed to make friends, since he was worried when he noticed that Izumi seems to always be alone in class. Izumi denied that he’s friends with Leo but Leo insisted they are, and even went onto hugging him as he told Izumi that he love him XDD Izumi had no idea why Leo could still be so hyper and energetic when he had an injured arm seriously ^^;

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 3

Eichi had heard the commotion from his ward and thus head over to the window to take a look. He noticed Tsumugi over there and could recognised Izumi as they’re in the same class. However, the remaining small kid there was someone which Eichi didn’t recognise at all.

Eichi looked at the photo of Keito when he had participated in the archery compeition, where he was in a very good condition at that time, but still lost the trophy to someone who was in the same year. This was one of the rare times which Eichi had seen Keito being agitated and felt nostalgic about it since the last time he saw Keito being hung about losing was the time when they’re still elementary students. The two of them were really close when they’re young, but now that they’ve grown up and have drifted apart, that Eichi doesn’t even know what Keito was thinking about nowadays. (That sound sad... TWT)

Just then, Leo barged into the ward, screaming out of the window that Izumi is an idiot yet again. He was pissed that Izumi had dumped him at the hospital, saying himself being a poor thing and Izumi being the devil, and added on that it was all just a myth from shoujo manga that those who have good-looking looks were kind-hearted and gentle. (Wait.. which shoujo manga sells that idea? I thought “bad boys” who were good-looking was quite a norm ^^:) Izumi had heard him but still ran off with his hands on his ears in the end XD

Poor Leo screamed that he could see Izumi running away from the window and begged him not to go and leave him here, while still calling him stupid and mean though XD

Noticing Eichi who was standing next to him, Leo asked if he had something that’s about the size of a hand. Eichi was confused why he was asking such a question, but offered him the fruits which Tsumugi had brought over earlier on, since Eichi couldn’t eat them actually since everything he ate needs to go through the nutritionist. 

Leo happily accepted them, and said that he shall eat half of them, whereas for the other half... he would use it to throw at Izumi! Eichi tried to stop him from doing that, stating that that would be mean and bad to the farmers who worked hard to grow the fruits if he’s just going to play with them. Leo started apologising to the farmers when he realised his mistakes (awww so cute >/////<), but asked Eichi on what he should do then since he was also quite a poor thing being abandoned here by Izumi.

Since Leo had broke his arm and thus unable to play any instrument, he decided that he shall sing instead. He even asked Eichi to listen to his new song, which he had called it “The mean Sena who would grow mould all over his body and die a suffocating, painful death...” XDD (Song created and written your one and only Tsukunaga Leo~) It was then Eichi realised that Leo wa quite a weird child...

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 4 - 5

Izumi had returned to the school while thinking how he can’t believe Leo had even come to school and started writing songs as per usual when he had a broken arm. He can’t bear to leave Leo there untreated with his injury, and thought that it’s best that he pulled him to the hospital to let him heal over there, even if the way he had done it was a bit forceful. 

Izumi had actually booked a practice room actually, but due to him bring Leo to the hospital, he had wasted some of the time that he could have used for practice at the room instead. However, since Leo would be working on the song and also the outfit design as an “extra” service, Izumi won’t have to spend too much money in preparing for a performance, but that could also mean that they would need to buck up soon in order to gain some earnings. Izumi thought to himself that Leo was someone who would just take care some random people who Izumi thought of them as being “unusable” (or say... useless) and thought Leo was quite stupid in that way, since those people aren’t really people who knew about “repayment” and would just suck Leo dry knowing that he’s someone who is a “useful idiot”. 

Izumi sighed to himself knowing that Leo had smiled and laughed being unaware that he’s being made used of by those people. Even though he had tried to scold those people about their actions, Leo had came up to him and told him to get along with the others like Izumi was the one who wasn’t aware of the atmosphere. (Ah, I guess Leo thought Izumi doesn’t get along with others because he can’t blend into the atmosphere of everyone getting along, but Izumi doesn’t want to get along with them since he had already seen through their real colours... OWO”) Izumi was pissed and would wished that everyone (in the group) would just die already XD (Izumi’s curse XDD)

Izumi wondered to himself why is he unable to get away from Leo even though he knew how stressed he would get from being around him (due to having to look after him all the times ^^;) But there’s nowhere Izumi could escape to now that he can’t return to the modelling world, and resigned to his fate that he would just have to survive here now. 

Just then, he noticed a very familiar face by the entrance and called out to “him”. (Though he was calling him a “kuso megane” XDD) And... that person was none other than... Arashi!~ (He looks so cute like a mini Akiyomi with that hair colour and specs, is brown his original hair colour or the blonde? OWO”)

Arashi got a scare himself, and told Izumi that he had not heard him approaching. He said he was hurt by the insult given by Izumi and asked him why is he calling him “kuso megane”. He wondered if it’s because he doesn’t suit glasses, but laughed it off by saying that it’s impossible that they don’t match him since he had gotten the same pair as Akiyomi Sensei, while gushing over how cute the spectacles are himself XD

Izumi just felt disgusted with the way Arashi is speaking and acting, and asked him what on earth is he doing outside the gate since he’s in the way. Arashi just took it as a joke since there’s still so much space by the side (so there’s no way he’s blocking anyone from walking through XD) Izumi admitted that he just found Arashi’s presence an eyesore though, and asked him why had he enrolled in the same school as him, adding on that he had headed towards a disgusting direction of transformation that his unpleasant feeling towards him was just increasing... (I guess Arashi was very different now than how he was in the past. But I bet Izumi didn’t like him very much in the past and now ^^;)

Arashi thought that Izumi was just bothering for no reason, and told him that he had no interest in him unfortunately as he’s now blind by love and unable to see anyone else~ (We all know who his love interest is anyway XD) Izumi doesn’t like how Arashi is calling him “Izumi-chan” and want him to call him as “Sena-senpai” since he’s his senior afterall. He lectured him that he should respect his seniors and use honorifics, dissing that Arashi’s ears are just decorations (since obviously he had not listened to Izumi at all ^^;)

Arashi was actually waiting by the gate as according to the information he had gotten, the work day for teachers had already ended, so it should around this time that Akiyomi Sensei would come out through the gate. However, there was no sight of Akiyomi so Arashi asked Izumi if he had know anything about it since he heard that he’s close to him. However, Izumi revealed that weirdly Akiyomi Sensei just likes to be friendly to him and somehow their relationship were better over time. Izumi was confused about the relationship between Arashi and Akiyomi though, since the two of them belonged to different modelling agency and wondered perhaps there’s a time where they’ve worked and get to know about each other. Unfortunately, that triggered Arashi into wanting to share about his side of the story (or say love story ^^;) of how he had first met Akiyomi Sensei, stating that it’s a meeting of fate that would make one cries when they heard about it. (... Really...? o.O) Izumi shot it down quickly, stating that he had no interest in wanting to know why a guy is so fixated on another guy,adding on that it seems very unhealthy. (Welp, Izumi you’re not any better yourself later on when you are obsessed with Makoto though...? OWO”)

In the end, Izumi told Arashi that Akiyomi Sensei had stayed behind to finish up some work, since he was a new teacher and had alot of tasks being entrusted to him. Arashi wasn’t pleased that Izumi had actually knew much about Akiyomi (more than him XD), and wondered that perhaps Izumi had been targeting Akiyomi as well. He started getting defensive and warned him that it’s not allowed, stating that Akiyomi was the fated person for him. (Guy jealousy?) Izumi cooly remarked that he’s doesn’t want him anyway and could give him to Arashi XD The reason why Izumi actually knew much about Akiyomi was because he had came to Izumi and talked about it by himself, and Izumi guessed that perhaps Akiyomi Sensei was just feeling lonely since he doesn’t really knew anyone in the school. (Somehow, it’s kind of cute imagine Akiyomi Sensei being lonely ^///^”)

Arashi could understand why Akiyomi had approached Izumi though, since even though Izumi had a bad attitude overall, he’s easy to speak to and would listen seriously to their problems. Izumi would even helped to solve those problems or give advice about it. (Izumi sounds like a good counselor in a way ^^) 

Since it would be a waste of time for Arashi to wait outside of the gate for Akiyomi Sensei, Izumi asked him to accompany him. Arashi thought that Izumi was asking him out for a date and rejected him, stating that he already had promised himself to a certain someone. By now, Izumi was already frustrated with him and revealed that he wanted him to go practice with him, since he would be able to practice more stuff with one more additional person rather than him alone. Also Arashi would be able to look at Izumi’s performance and helped him to pin point out what are his weaknesses and areas to improve on. Even though Arashi wondered why Izumi was so hardworking that he would be treated like an idiot in this school (since it was the norm to slack in this school a year ago =w=“), but he decided to tag along too as he was getting cold and lonely just waiting outside anyway.

For Izumi, he was alright in getting anyone to practice with him since he wasn’t able to get people from the same unit anyway, but Arashi took that as Izumi being too forceful usually and thus other people doesn’t treat him as a comrade in the end. Izumi explained that that was because his unit worked more like a guild actually, where people were not really bound to it and stayed to gain whatever that’s of advantage to them.

(At this time, I think Arashi didn’t belonged to any unit yet since he claimed that he’s someone who doesn’t want to work for a unit back then. Though he enjoyed having the advantages of being in a unit, he doesn’t like the responsibility aspect of it =w=“ Izumi knew that his personality was like this since in the past, that Arashi was someone who won’t even move a finger if it’s something for someone’s sake instead.)

Even Izumi wasn’t a fan of Arashi’s personality, he knew he had the potential and skills. Izumi continued to talk more about the unit he belonged to now, though it was initially named as “Chess”, it had since changed names multiple times, to “Othello” (meaning ‘reversi’), and now called as “Backgammon”. (They’re all names of board games OWO”) “Chess” was actually the 2nd oldest unit in the school ever since it was created, and Leo was one of the members who had been there since it was called “Chess” and he was viciously against changing of the unit name.

Arashi didn’t know who Leo is back then, so Izumi told him that Leo was someone who was in the same unit and year as him, and that made Arashi remembered who he is, since he was someone who was seen with Izumi and looks like a girl since he had long hair. (Hmm... Leo actually could be seen as a girl somehow~ +W+) Izumi insisted that they’re not friends though, and he only viewed Leo as someone he can’t bear to leave behind like a kitten in the rain ^^” However, Arashi noticed that Izumi seems to show a good expression like how he did way in the past when he was with Leo, but Izumi shot back that he had always showed a good expression all the time. (Are you sure...=w=“)

Just then, Izumi noticed someone who had collapsed by the school gate and thought that it was a corpse. But Arashi said that he had already noticed it earlier on since he was at the school gate for a long time already, and mentioned that this person had walked sleepily, tripped, and fell asleep over there, thus Arashi had thought that he was just taking an afternoon nap. (Arashi just seems very not caring at all ^^;)

(And that person that they’re referring to, you might have guessed who is it by now... it’s Ritsu~)

Izumi thought that Arashi really had no interest in other people and wished he would be abit more caring, since the person might have fainted or in a bad body conditions. Besides,he felt that it would too weird to just leave such a suspicious person there alone. (There goes Izumi with his “I can’t leave behind such a person” tagline XD)

Izumi rushed up to Ritsu and asked if he’s alright, even offering to call for an ambulance. However, Ritsu groggily replied that he’s alright and Izumi was interrupting his sleep, even stating that he’s going to kill anyone who stop him from sleeping XD That made Izumi pissed and since he guessed that Ritsu must be a first year, he demanded him to be more polite to him as he’s a senior. (Is it me or how many times had Izumi throws around the seniority card demanding his juniors to be polite to him...? ^^;)

Ritsu answered that though he’s a first year, he’s a student who had retained for a year so most probably he’s at the same age as Izumi actually. He requested Izumi to leave him alone and let him sleep, since he wasn’t feeling so energetic as the sun was too much for him. Ritsu was actually awaiting for Mao to pass through and carry him back home via piggyback, and wanted to just lie here until the sun had set ^^;

Noticing that Ritsu seems to be feeling unwell, Izumi offered to bring him to the sickbay, and later on insisted on bringing him indoor even though Ritsu claimed that he’s alright. He called for Arashi to help him carry Ritsu, though Arashi wasn’t pleased that he’s calling him “Kuso Megane” again ^^; Izumi remarked that he’s calling him that since Arashi doesn’t like to be called by his name, to which Ritsu had overheard it, and claimed that he’s the same too, that he got a weird feeling whenever someone called him by his surname. (And he called Arashi “Kuso Megane” too XD)

But when asked about his full name, Ritsu groggily answered that he’s “...Kuma Ritsu”, that Izumi ended up calling him “Kuma-kun” after that. (Kuma-kun sounds like bear XD) Arashi thought that that was a cute name and decided that he wanted a cute name too, asking them to call him as “Naru-chan”. Izumi thought that this wasn’t the time to be talking about names though, and quickly got Arashi to carry Ritsu to the sickbay together.

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 6 - 7

Izumi changed and arrived at the practice room later on to realise that nobody was there as expected. (The other members of his unit didn’t turn up at all) Arashi smiled and remarked that the other members of “Backgammon” really had no motivation for practice at all. He still insisted on Izumi to refer him as “Naru-chan”, but Izumi dissed that he’s not the body size to be called as a “chan” since he’s quite muscular, and asked him whether he had been playing any sports. Arashi revealed that he was actually in the Track and Field Club, and thus would practice for it sometimes. Izumi wondered why he had went and joined into a club when he claimed that he’s not that free usually, since the school did not make it compulsory that one has to join a club actually at that time.

Ritsu, who was still sleeping, woke up and complained that they’re too noisy. Arashi asked him whether he had felt better and that is it really alright that he doesn’t need to be brought to the sickbay. Izumi was glad that Arashi was around to help him, since he knew he isn’t going to be able to carry Ritsu all the way here with his strength alone, but Arashi was more envy of the fact that Izumi was slim since Arashi himself complained that he gained muscules too easily ^^; 

Ritsu assured them that he doesn’t planned to stay here for too long to disrupt their practice. He wanted to call for Mao to come and picked him up, thus asked if anyone had a smartphone which they could lend it to him to make the phone call. Izumi lent him his, though he warned him not to leave any fingerprints on it. (How do you use it without leaving fingerprints... OWO”) However, Ritsu had trouble in using a smartphone even though he had already remembered Mao’s number, and that made Izumi impatient with him, stating that he would call Mao for Ritsu, and asked him to tell him his phone number instead. Ritsu was thankful and told him that he shall repay his kindness one day.

(Ritsu really doesn’t seems like he’s someone who live in the modern world OWO” I realised that quite a number of students in Yumenosaki Gakuen doesn’t know how to use a smartphone ^^;)

Izumi started playing a music, remarking that this was a new song made by the “idiot”, Leo. Even though they won’t be able to practice singing since the song doesn’t have any lyrics now, he wanted Arashi to get a sense of the melody of the song and the rhythm, since he wanted him to participate in the next live performance with him, stating that this was an order. Arashi was alarmed and clarified that he’s just standing in to help replace those seniors in  “Backgammon” in practice, and doesn’t want to perform on stage actually, but Izumi answered that the other members aren’t interested to perform anyway, and even if they did, they won’t be doing it seriously. Since Leo had his arm injured, Izumi declared that it would be just him and Arashi left to perform, stating that an idol’s job was to make the audience happy by singing and dancing, asking Arashi whether he felt that way too. 

Arashi in the end reluctantly decided to join him to show that he’s a “good girl”, though he stated that he had come to this school initially just to chase after Akiyomi. That made Izumi glad as he praised Arashi being a “good child” XD

Ritsu also started dancing along with them, so Izumi told him to just stay put and rest since he wasn’t feeling well. Ritsu explained that he just suddenly felt like moving after listening to the music, mentioning that he’s quite fond of the music as it gave him a feeling of being alive. Since Ritsu wanted to know what music it is, Izumi explained to him that this song was created by Leo, which was actually an arrangement from a certain famous movie. 

Just then, Ritsu remarked that he could smell “Mao, and sure enough, he came into the practice room at the next moment. Mao came rushing into the room, saying that Ritsu had said to “rescue him as he’s dying” before hanging up on him, and that made Mao really worried since Ritsu doesn’t even tell him where he is located. (So cute how he’s calling Ritsu “Ri-chan” here~ >///<)

Ritsu was all smiles though as he assured Mao that he would be able to find him no matter Ritsu is at in this world. (This guy has too much trust in Mao’s abilities XD) Mao complained that he had spent alot of efforts asking students around the school for information whether they had spotted Ritsu, and was mad since it seems that Ritsu was just playing around with him seeing how Ritsu seems to be all healthy and energetic here. (I like this new pose of Ritsu +W+)

Izumi told Mao and Ritsu that they’re being too noisy and disrupting their practice. He also told that Ritsu really does look unwell just now and requested Mao to bring him home since he’s Ritsu’s childhood friend afterall, telling him to treasure such a relationship since it’s rare for childhood friends to be still close to each other even when they’ve become high school students. In the end, Ritsu returned with Mao, asking him to carry him home by piggyback XD He also returned the smartphone he had borrowed from Izumi, even though he threw it back and almost gave him a heart attack. (I would too if someone threw my phone ><”)

After getting his phone back, Izumi received a call with an unknown number. Picking it up, he realised that it was from Leo, who had called from the hospital as he was lonely there. However, Izumi was mean to him, asking him to call his family instead if he was lonely since he’s not his mum XD He also encouraged him to talk to other patients since Leo was much more friendlier unlike Izumi himself, and since Eichi was there at the hospital too, Izumi encouraged Leo to talk with him and become friends. He assured Leo that his injury isn’t too serious, and if he takes care of himself, he would be able to get out of the hospital soon.

Arashi who was watching Izumi talking on the phone, remarked that he really does showed a good expression whenever he talks to Leo, much like how he looks like in the past. He felt nostalgic and mentioned that Izumi was still the same now that he would take care of a young kid back then. Izumi realised that he was referring to Makoto, and asked him if he had knew that Makoto had also enrolled into this school. Izumi mentioned that he was surprised when he spotted Makoto walking around at school, but when he called out to him, Makoto started escaping from him instead. He was worried for Makoto and wondered if he was the same as him being in hardship as it was hard to change from being a model to an idol, and even wanted to protect him himself, but he knew that he no longer had the right to do that anymore, since he knew that he would bring trouble for Makoto if he had gotten him involved.

Aarshi mentioned that he had remembered hearing that Makoto had escaped from the modelling industry due to some reason, and he would cried out whenever a camera was found aiming at him. Izumi said that he doesn’t know what was the reason either, and wondered whether he should call Makoto’s mum to ask about it, if she hasn’t changed her number by now. 

Because they were talking about Makoto’s mum, Madara appeared as soon as he heard the word “mama”, asking if they were actually looking for him XD Izumi wasn’t pleased to see him and answered that no one has called for him. He asked him why was he here when they’re the ones who had booked the dance room for this period of time. Madara was looking for Leo but he wasn’t here, as Izumi explained that he had broken his arm. He was curious in how Madara actually knew Leo, that Madara answered confidently that they’re actually friends. 

He murmured to himself that Leo actually had his arm broken when he was in so much pain at that time, and wondered perhaps he should pay a visit to him at the hospital. Izumi offered to tell him the location of the hospital he is saying, and also asked Madara whether he had knew how Leo had gotten himself injured since Madara seems to know something about it. He wanted to know why Leo would get into a fight when he’s someone who doesn’t even bear to kill a fly.

However, Madara denied to share anything, as since Leo had kept silent about it, Madara felt that it would be bad for him to reveal the reason. Izumi asked once again whether Leo had gotten himself into something that’s criminal, since he was worried that he might get involved into the evil of this world due to how naive he is usually. Madara asked him back that in order to answer his question, he would first have to know what is Izumi’s meaning of “committing a crime”, since everyone’s definition of a “crime” maybe different from one another.

In the end, Madara left after asking Izumi to pass a message to Leo on his behalf, that “the cat was alright after that”, and “he had already punished the bad guys and won’t bother Leo anymore”. Izumi was left confused and frustrated with Madara’s actions, complaining that everyone around him just seems to do whatever they like ^^;

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 8

Back at the hospital, Leo was happily playing the piano, as he was having fun with playing instruments though usually he was a digital type of person. (People who preferred making music digitally?)

Looking at him being that happy, Eichi was glad that he had gotten his helpers to brought the piano into the ward. Leo had recovered really quickly that the doctors were shocked at his rate of his recovery, but he was still very stressed (being cooped up in the hospital), and started playing the piano really violently to release his stress. Eichi persuaded him to play it less violently since the piano actually belonged to another patient actually. (Please don’t break the piano Leo TWT)

Eichi had since then moved to a private ward actually as his health had deteriorated, and multple medical machines of the newest technology had also been moved to his ward too. He was glad that the piano could be used as a gift for Leo (his new friend), and asked to play the piano together. Leo was all too happy to get him to play together ^^

Eichi asked Leo what was the song he was playing earlier on, since he had found it familiar but couldn’t remember what it was about. Leo replied happy that it was the “The Killing Song”. Leo also gave Eichi a nickname, called “Tenshi” (Angel), since it derived from shortening his surname (Tenshouin -> Tenshi) However, Eichi felt abit embarrassed being called as a angel as he was now a high school male student, as angels have such a lovely image. Leo argued that Shu had told him that gods and angels seems to kill alot more than demons actually, so angels doesn’t really have such a lovely image afterall. (Erm, is that explanation going to make Eichi feel any better? ^^;)

Eichi was more surprised of the fact that Leo actually knew Shu. (Since he was really well-known in the school at that time as he was part of Valkyrie, which was s very powerful unit at that time.) Leo happily replied that the two of them talked frequently about arts actually, though most of the time it ended up with Shu grabbing Leo by the collar. (I bet Leo pissed him off in the end ^^;) Leo would also get Shu to help him with designing the outfit for their live performances. 

Suddenly, Eichi started getting dizzy, though he mentioned that it might be because he had gotten himself too excited. He doesn’t want Leo to call for the doctor though, since he doesn’t want to prolong his stay in the hospital and knew that Leo who hated in the hospital would know how he felt too about the hospital. Eichi mentioned that he had stayed in hospitals for almost half of his life since he had a weak body ever since he was born, and thus he longed for the world outside. He worked hard to keep himself healthy just so that he could finally go live the life that he had envied others on having. However, whenever he just started to enjoy the life like others did by stepping one step, he was soon taken back to the hospital. 

Leo listened and replied that he could understand what Eichi is feeling, since as a guy, they would wished that they’re strong, and thus agreed on helping Eichi lied, which is to think that Eichi is being healthy and didn’t call for the doctor later on. However, he still got Eichi to lie on the bed and rest, and to ask Eichi to rely on him if he had needed anything since it’s not embarrassing to ask for help as Leo won’t look down on him even if he had asked for it.

Monologue

Back to the present, Eichi talked about how narrow their views were back then, but somehow Eichi felt that he had the same thoughts and feelings as Izumi. He wanted to have a good relationship with Izumi as classmates, but Izumi just asked him to keep quiet as he was still thinking about the next step he should take in chess and found it hard to concentrate when Eichi was babbling by himself ^^; Eichi expressed that he had felt bored facing such a chess match where things are in a standstill, and regretted not setting a time limit for it. 

Izumi still thought that Eichi was being noisy but Eichi ignored him and continued talking about the next main topic he wanted to bring up about - which is the DDD event that was approaching soon. As the event date crept nearer, the school started to get noisier, with people practising their performance and singing. However, Izumi doesn’t seems to be practising for it, which gets Eichi attention, since Izumi was well-known as someone who likes practising. Izumi admitted that the “Knights” now had already been pulled off the stage and doesn’t has the glory like how it used to in the past. Even if they were to return to the stage now, it would just be an embarrassment, since including the newest member they have now, “Knights” only has 4 members in total. 

However, Eichi thought that when Leo returned, Knights’ power would increased as well overall, and guessed that it would highly possible since Leo had not quit school yet. Izumi showed a sad face upon hearing this though and answered that Leo won’t be fighting anymore. Seeing Izumi’s reactions, Eichi was sad too and said that he had visited Leo after “that” too, but it seems that he was still really depressed. He said that the person he had seen was not the “Leo” that he likes and wondered that perhaps geniuses are people who are easilly crumbled. He remarked that it seems that the history of “Chess” might soon come to a end, to which Izumi asked him sarcastically who was the one who had caused all of this actually. (It’s Eichi... =w=“)

Eichi denied that it’s his fault though and said it’s “Chess” themselves who had destroyed themselves, stating that “Chess” had long lost their meaning of why the unit had existed and was just expanding and thus corroded on the inside, passing down the evil traditions from the past. Eichi thought he was one who had appeared to cleanse the school and with the times changing, it was destined that units that were not up to standard got flushed away.

Izumi doesn’t like how Eichi is saying it though and asked whether he had thought of himself as a god. Eichi smiled and answered that he’s an angel, since Leo had called him that. He thought of himself who had cleansed the dirt and corrosion from within, gave the punishment to those who are guilty and brought the school to a new revolution. However, because he had gotten himself too deep into this mindset, Eichi had ended up losing friends, and losing his way. Since Eichi was now a third year, he doesn’t have much time left in this school, and thus wanted to make better use of the “pawns” he had in hand.

錆びゆく心 : Chapter 1 - 2

Going back to a year ago, Eichi was still at the hospital but he already had thoughts to carry out his plans / story. Soon, he won’t be the one just looking out of the window longingly, and thought that soon the story of Keito and him would soon start...

Just then, Tsumugi came into the ward, asking Eichi whether he had called for him. Eichi sighed and told him that he had not called for him, and was amazed that Tsumugi had actually came and visited him regularly. Tsumugi was all smiles as he replied that it was because Eichi and him were friends afterall, and since now that they were in the same unit, Tsumugi thought that it’s best to show his face regularly so as to be in a better relationship with each other. (Ah... Tsumugi was still so pure and naive here TWT)

Even though Eichi thought that he doesn’t meant to create an unit where everyone gets along well, he was glad that Tsumugi had felt this way, and also asked him to get along with the other members of Fine. Tsumugi was all too glad to do so, and Eichi told him that he would be friends with him as long he showed himself to be of good use. (Wah, that... doesn’t sound nice Eichi! It totally sounds like you’re just making use of Tsumugi, even getting him to get along with the other members for your sake... =w=“)

Eichi had returned to the hospital as he was too excited earlier on when he was just discharged, and felt bad that he’s cooped up here again, since their main operation was just going to start. Tsumugi wanted to cheer Eichi up, telling him that if there’s anything he could help him in replacement, he would be glad to help. “Backgammon” had changed its name back to “Chess” again in the meantime, and Eichi, feeling that the unit was a threat to him, wanted to get rid of the members in it. He would try to persuade and negotiate with them to get them to break apart using all kinds of methods he could use. However, there’s two members that Eichi actually wanted for himself, since they’re good to boost up the power for Fine.

The two members he was referring to was “Nagisa” and “Hiyori”, and since Tsumugi mentioned that he actually knew Nagisa, he offered to contact him. Hiyori was actually someone Eichi knew personally, since they’re both from rich families, but Eichi admitted that he didn’t want to have much to do with Hiyori actually, since Hiyori was someone that Eichi felt hard to deal with as Hiyori doesn’t listen to Eichi at all ^^; (Unexpectedly Eichi actually has people he doesn’t want to deal with OWO”)

Eichi also talked about the five oddballs and how he had already decided on who are the five selected. The main three that was decided swiftly was of course: Sakuma Rei, Shinkai Kanata, and Hibiki Wataru. Adding on to them were Itsuki Shu from Valkyrie and Sakasaki Natsume who was a first year to make up the five oddballs in the end. It was hard for Eichi to decide who to be qualified as an oddball, but he ultimately selected these five as they’re the ones with the highest power of influence in the school. 

Tsumugi was excited that Natsume was selected and wanted to tell him as soon as possible, since he felt that it was something to celebrate about knowing that he’s one of the five most popular soloist idol in school. (Erm, I don’t think Natsume would be happy to know about this... Orz) 

Eichi thought of himself being from the side of righteous, and was all fired up to defeat the “evil”. Tsumugi doesn’t really understand what he had meant about that, and wanted Eichi to get some rest since he’s worried about his health more. Eichi talked about how even though their views maybe different, he found Tsumugi as a really good “yesman” overall. (Ouch...) Tsumugi was oblivious to it as he happily replied that he’s just someone who can’t read the atmosphere. (Wait, Tsumugi are you really that naive that you’re glad to be a yesman? OWO” I really wonder if Tsumugi is really that naive or he just doesn’t’ mind that Eichi just insulted him Orz....)

Just then, Leo had arrived too to pay Eichi a visit, and that cheered him up alot as he remarked that it seems that he had quite alot of visitors today. (Leo called Tsumugi as “Oba-chan” (Grandma) though XD The nickname that Tsumugi said he dislikes ^^;...) Leo mentioned that Tsumugi would always give him some omamori whenever they had met, that Eichi sighed after hearing about it, and stated that this was just one of Tsumugi’s bad habits... 

Leo also mentioned that he had also started to receive present from his fans recently, though he wondered why the leader from “Backgammon” (which was the past leader of the current “Chess”) had quit school due to an “unfortunate” event... Leo was being elected as the next leader, and thus this caused a new change in direction. However, he was glad that the unit name changed back to “Chess” again. (Since Leo was really fond of that name~) He was still quite defensive and helped to protect the other members when Eichi talked about them later on.

Eichi warned Leo that the other members were just in the same unit as him because he would provide them with songs free of charge, and thus they stayed around to suck him dry. However, Leo doesn’t listen to him and said that he’s doing what he wants just because he wanted to do it. (So I take it that Leo doesn’t mind giving out free songs to others?) He started to get pissed at Eichi that he’s speaking bad about his unit members when he had came here specially to pay him a visit, and wanted to leave because he was angry.

Eichi wanted him to stay for a round of chess, which they couldn’t finish the match the previous time. But Leo was still angry and told him to just play with Tsumugi instead. He was actually quite busy as he revealed that “Chess” seems to be breaking apart on the inside and everyday was a battle for him. Even though Leo had felt tired from battling everyday, he had wanted to come here and take break by listening to Eichi singing to the songs he had created with his beautiful voice. 

Eichi was amazed that Leo had yet another new song created, since he was creating songs at a fast pace, praising that he’s really a genius. Leo answered that he already knew he’s a genius but he wanted to do was to use this talent of his in a place that could make everyone happy, and this was the reason why he had wanted to become an idol. 

Leo started reaching out towards the window and that gets Eichi worried, as he had a feeling that Leo wanted to jump out of it. However, Leo didn’t listened to him anyway, and got out of the room that way, telling Eichi that he would remember that they’ve yet to finish their chess match, and asked Eichi to continue living till then. (And... you just stole one of the chess pieces, Leo... =w=“)

Eichi really felt that Leo was a weird person, and really someone who is a genius. Tsumugi mentioned that the school was now in quite a huge commotion over how “Chess” had revived, and was curious why didn’t Eichi selected Leo as one of the five oddballs since he was someone who had the skills and talent to become one. Eichi was surprised and answered that he had actually never thought of that even though he agreed that Leo does have the power that could match with the other oddballs. But he admitted that he doesn’t really want to fight Leo in the end, since he would feel bad as if he had beaten a pure and naive child actually.

However, what Leo was doing now (being really active) was according to Eichi’s plans anyway, since he had expected the surroundings to be critical of “Chess” due to how frequently they’re starting battles with the other units. His plan for “Chess” was to see how one that was being respected and loved by the others get reversed in the end, though a part of him still wished that he could get along well with Leo as per normal, since he loved the song that Leo had created specifically for him.

That’s all for Part 1~! It’s quite lengthy but there’s still Part 2 to be continued on~ Hoping I could finish it as soon as possible so please look forward to it! ^^

[joshpup]

Beginners Guide to Memeteen

No one asked for this, but i made it anyways

General Info:

So the memeteen group signed under Pledis which also has Pristin, Nu’est, Orange Caramel and After School (Everyone has issues with Pledis don’t even get us started about them). 

Group name Seventeen with 13 members because 13 members, 3 units and 1 team equals 13 (also originally they had 17 members but this works too). 

They finally debuted on May 26, 2015 after being pushed back for far to long 

debuted with the amazing song Adore U, and so far have had 8 comebacks: Mansae, Pretty U, Very Nice, Boom Boom,  Don’t Want to Cry, Clap, Thanks, Oh My!

They also have an mv for their song Healing, Love Letter, Shining Diamond, Smile Flower, and Q&A (just scoups, woozi and vernon), Change Up (scoups, woozi, and hoshi)

Have 9 amazing albums: 17 Carat, Boys Be, Love & Letter (Repackaged), Going Seventeen, A|1, Teen,Age, Director’s Cut , and You Make My Day (buy the albums tho) 

They made their Japanese debut on May 16, 2018 with Call Call Call! and released an album called We Make You

Units

Hip-Hop Unit:

Scoups (leader), Wonwoo, Mingyu, Vernon

-created the masterpiece that is Check-In

Mansae Hip Hop Ver.

Trauma MV

Vocal Unit:

Woozi (leader), Jeonghan, Joshua, Dk, Seungkwan

-created the masterpiece that is Chocolate

Adore U Acoustic Ver.

Very Nice Acoustic Ver.

Pinwheel MV

Performance Unit:

Hoshi (leader), Jun, The8, Dino

Adore U Perf Ver.

Mansae Perf Ver.

-created the masterpiece that is Highlight rip carats

Lilili Yabbay MV

Seventeen-BSS

Hoshi, DK, Seungkwan

Just Do It

Just Do It Dance Practice

Members

Scoups/Seungcheol {info} aka the dad 

-So he’s the leader of memeteen, #1 dad lets be real, longest trainee in svt, someone please give this boy a puppy he just needs a dog in his life okay. super sweet and caring, best leader ever honestly no one else could handle those other 12 boys. 

-appeard in Nu’est Face MV, After School Blue’s ‘Wonder Boy’ MV, Happy Pledis ‘Love Letter’ MV (pledis boys ver)

Jeonghan {info} aka the mom

-one of his nicknames in angel, but don’t let that fool you, he’s a swindler. Will not hesitate to cheat watch out for this one. sleeps everywhere possible anytime possible. each comeback his hair gets shorter, lets just hope he doesn’t go bald. Exo’s Sehuns worst nightmare.

Joshua/Jisoo {info} aka the church boy

-Instagram

-Oh shua, our beloved meme and church oppa this is a very dead joke now plz dont use it but if you see it thats shua. 1/2 of american line. Seems quiet and normal but the longer you know him the weirder you realise he truely is. Has a weird obsession with aliens (1,2) Stan talent, stan pindropping shua. huge anime lover. He has also had pink and purple hair and every carat cried 

-beautifully covered Overcome  with Nu’est’s Minhyun

-The jokes that never die: Drink water, not Alcohol, when in doubt, sings Sunday Morning, and his crappy beautiful rapping

Jun/Junhui {info} aka the real mom of the group

-Crazy for you cover

-1/2 of china line. Best eye rolls the world will ever know. people call him greasy, hes not reall but whatever. very sassy. his legendary part in Mansae that makes him look like the McDonalds logo. Also the time he dressed up in an actually carrot costume. 

Films: The Pye-Dog {pt.1 pt.2} (sorry i couldn’t find it in one part), Ip Man: The Legend Is Born, Intouchable (a series)

Hoshi/Soonyoung {info} aka naega hosh

-Okay so choreographs all their dances goals so naturally, best dancer ever. LOUD. Also shinee’s biggest fanboy, if you thought that you were shinees biggest fan ur wrong its Hosh proof: 1, 2, 3. a cute little hamster i die everyday. 10 hours 10 minutes. Black belt in Taekwondo... why dont we ever get to see anything ??

-appered in Nu’est Face MV, and Hello Venus Venus MV

Wonwoo {info} aka rbf master

-was originally a singer, but switched to rapping before debuting, so not only does wonu have an amazing voice but can rap suuuuuper well, and can easily switch between the two its stunning. always calm and usually has an rbf but hes actaully really fun love our emo wonwoo. kinda reminds me of a sloth but i love him even more becasue of that lol

-appered in Nu’est Face MV, and Hello Venus Venus MV

Woozi/Jihoon {info} aka smol fairy devil

-fear him. He may look tiny and soft but he will crush you. Composes almost all of svt’s songs. Super cute and hes coming to except this as time goes on lmao. shortest member. one of the big reasons svt became a self producing group

- first to get a solo in svt called Simple

-appered in Nu’est Face MV, and Hello Venus Venus MV

Dk/Seokmin {info} aka literal sunshine

the sunshine of svt, always smiling. i saw a video of him crying once and my world shattered. LOUD pt2. super funny i love him. one of the most stable vocals in svt. can hit those high notes like nobody else. 

-has this beautiful cover

Mingyu {info} aka gaint germ

-Instagram

-walking puppy? yes actually he is. also a gaint germ (1,2) so get ready. sneezes everywhere then touches everything. can go from cute to sexy with no time in between its insane. If he’s not your bias he’s your bias wrecker. Wild orange hair durning Check In era end everyone made fun of him or loved it no in between.

-Svt’s personal hairstylist  

-appered in Nu’est Face MV, and Hello Venus Venus MV

The8/Minghao {info} aka arthao

-Instagram

-Literally has become the biggest artist in the world what an icon

-other half of chine line. last member to join the group. He did b-boying in china for like 6 years. here is baby hao b-boying at age 12 (he’s the tallest skinny guy and also the leader). crazy good Martial arts skills.  comes off super cute a fluffy and sweet with that voice and all but a serious thug tho like 1, 2, 3 

Seungkwan {info} aka future mc 

-Instagram

Boo Seungkwan our sassy little guy that i love more than life itself. LOUD pt3. gonna star in the next hollywood film because of his flawless acting. Also one of the most stable vocals in svt. hits high notes so easily its not fair (like in pretty u i died). a cutie from jeju. Koreas next best MC watch out world Seungkwan is coming. pretty much helps set the happy fun tone in svt

-covered Beautiful Tomorrow perfectly

Vernon/Hansol {info} aka the living meme

oh vernon. other half of american line. best friends with Seungkwan. literally a walking meme. anything he does is dumb and i love it. example: his weird dance from Boom Boom. lots of Hotline Bling. His iconic: “mom, i won this.” terrible hair durning mansae era 

-was on “Kids Explore Life” when he was little. Also a contestant on ‘JTBC Made in U’ .... headlines headlines ....

-appeared on one of Eric Nams Can’t Help Myself stages and Hello Venus ‘Venus’ MV, Sickness ft. Eunwoo of Pristin

Dino/Chan {info} aka the baby

The baby of the group. Once a baby always a baby. Dino, nugu aegi? tragic hair durning mansae era as well. best glow up of the world let me tell you i called this. Like if you think jungkook of bts had a glow up time to meet Lee Chan because his was more intense and if not faster. Fresh out of High school and living life large lol

-This amazing fancam

-his song Zero (here is the performance) and you can bet i cried when i heard this. He grew up so fast T.T

Other

Active Twitter Fansites

Seventeen’s One Fine Day: Season 1: {1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9}, Season 2  

Best Stages

Girl Group Medley / Relay 

Sorry Sorry cover

Happiness

Tell Me (Immortal Songs)

Boy Group Remix

Bindaetteok Gentleman

My Ears Candy (Jun and Mingyu)

My Ears Candy (Seungkwan and DK)

U

Who (performance unit) oddly enough this song isn’t talked about much, i think it killed every carat cause it killed me

Decalcomanie

and some of my personal faves: Show Me Your Love, Honey + Very Nice (Remix), 2016 Melon awards: Very Nice

Dance Practices/Part Switches

Adore U: Fixed Ver, Follow Ver, Part Switch Ver

Mansae: Hide Ver, Seek Ver, Follow Me Ver, Part Switch Ver

Pretty U: Love Ver, Letter Ver, Dear Carat Ver

Very Nice: Roof Top Ver, Dance Practice Ver, Part Switch Ver

Boom Boom: Front Ver, Review Ver, Santa Ver 

Don’t Wanna Cry: Front Ver, Review Ver, Part Switch Ver

Clap: Practice

Thanks: Choreography Video

Other Video worth mentioning: Highlight (13 Member Ver), No. 1 Cover, Without You

Offical Links:

Offical Website // Youtube // V App // Twitter // Instagram // Weibo // Soundcloud //Facebook

Extra

Seventeen TV

Boys Wish Kindergarten Skit    

Bongbong gyus precious child (a few of the many insta posts: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, also bongbongie has no gender so stan talent)

the famous English Time w/ Svt

the memeteen diaries (ive never laughed so hard tbh)

ISAC aerobics - inspired by Transformers 

ISAC 400m Dash

ISAC warm up dance created by our boys (ft dokyeoms singing)

Seventeen and Monsta x interactions (they’re debut buddies if you don’t die everytime they interact with each other you are doing something wrong)

Seventeen x Nu’est stage Heaven (aka the best crossover the world has yet to see)

so yah stan talent stan my memes Seventeen

[hoekage-chan]

You should answer all the hella cute questions

yall about to learn so much about me

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? -uhh someone i went on a date w yesterday lmao2. Are you outgoing or shy? -im pretty outgoing, i only seem shy since i dont want to be cringey lol3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? -my friends ig lmao4. Are you easy to get along with? -yes! i love talking to people5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? -probs not, but like im not close enough to ask that of them, and im gucci w that6. What kind of people are you attracted to? -stylish, confident, funny, good taste in music, seems like they would ruin my life7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? -bih i dont know i always find myself in something so maybe8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? -yee some guy i went out w friday c:9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? -nope im an open book10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? -probably my friends lmao (shout out to the 24hr diner ty for letting us just get fries and soda everytime)11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? -BIH I KNOW OMG IM DEAD12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? -glow like dat, faygo dreamns, killamonjaro, need you, love me13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? -yes omg easiest way to get me whipped lmao14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? -yes!15. What good thing happened this summer? -i met up w all my friends again16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? -uhh some guy i went out w yesterday lol17. Do you think there is life on other planets? -yah the world is too big for it to just be us18. Do you still talk to your first crush? -nope! i dont even know what has happened to them19. Do you like bubble baths? -yes. bath life is the best life20. Do you like your neighbors? -i dont kno my neighbors21. What are you bad habits? -i respond rlly late to things22. Where would you like to travel? -japan, korea, places w good food23. Do you have trust issues? -yah lmao that shit gets thrown in my face24. Favorite part of your daily routine? -my makeup! only reason i get up25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? -everything26. What do you do when you wake up? -regret having an 9am class or regret staying up lmao27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? -uhh either tbh, i just dont rlly like the tone in general28. Who are you most comfortable around? -my friends c: i hang out w them for a reason29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? -lmfao nope 30. Do you ever want to get married? -kinda... i wouldnt mind it31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? -yeeeeeee32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? -... michael b jordan for sure and uhh maybe chris hemsworth??33. Spell your name with your chin. -no34. Do you play sports? What sports? -i used to swim but i just lift now35. Would you rather live without TV or music? -tv omg ill die w out my playlist36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? -ALL THE TIME 37. What do you say during awkward silences? -anything so they dont feel awkward38. Describe your dream girl/guy? -nice, big dick energy, good taste in music, warm in general lol39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? -f21, h&m, khols, target40. What do you want to do after high school? -well i went to college so theres that41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? -sometimes they do, but if they hurt u rlly badly then maybe its best they dont42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? -im tired, high, thinking, or confused43. Do you smile at strangers? -yeee44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? -bottom of the ocean omg45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? -the fear of failing another class46. What are you paranoid about? -my life in general47. Have you ever been high? -yes48. Have you ever been drunk? -yes49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? -not really lmao50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? -navy blue51. Ever wished you were someone else? -sometimes i do52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? -uhh everything lol53. Favourite makeup brand? -juvias place54. Favourite store? -........... i actually dont kno lmao55. Favourite blog? -... imma be real i dont even kno who i follow anymore tbh56. Favourite colour? -green57. Favourite food? -spam58. Last thing you ate? -rice59. First thing you ate this morning? -water60. Ever won a competition? For what? -if i did it was a swim competition61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? -nope im a good noodle62. Been arrested? For what? -nope63. Ever been in love? -yah64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? -i inv my friend to come over, we chill at my house, he asks if we can do something friends dont normally do, we kissed and then we did other stuff >:)65. Are you hungry right now? -not rlly lol66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? -nah lmao 67. Facebook or Twitter? -twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr? -tumblr69. Are you watching tv right now? -nope70. Names of your bestfriends? -i dont put names on the internet lmao71. Craving something? What? -spam72. What colour are your towels? -like a teal/sea green color72. How many pillows do you sleep with? -273. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? -yes 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? -5 for sure at my apartment and at least 5 back home75. Favourite animal? -sea otters76. What colour is your underwear? -blue/white77. Chocolate or Vanilla? -choloclate78. Favourite ice cream flavour? -chocolate or matcha79. What colour shirt are you wearing? -.......... 80. What colour pants? -........................81. Favourite tv show? -golden girls82. Favourite movie? -uhh i guess either to all the boys i loved before or the breakfast club83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? -mean girls84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? -mean girls85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? -all too iconic to choose from86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? -crush87. First person you talked to today? -my snap streaks88. Last person you talked to today? -welp days not over yet so....89. Name a person you hate? -i dont rlly hate anyone rn90. Name a person you love? -my friends!! they deserve everyting91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? -dumbass bitches92. In a fight with someone? -nope miss me with that bs93. How many sweatpants do you have? -294. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? -too many95. Last movie you watched? -into the spiderverse96. Favourite actress? -kiera knightly97. Favourite actor? -michael b jordan98. Do you tan a lot? -not anymore99. Have any pets? -i have a doggo back home100. How are you feeling? -fucking cold omg101. Do you type fast? -probably lmao102. Do you regret anything from your past? -yah but i try not to dwell on it103. Can you spell well? -NOPE LMAO 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? -nah lmfao105. Ever been to a bonfire party? -nope but it seems fun106. Ever broken someone’s heart? -probably i can be p distant so i wouldnt put it past me107. Have you ever been on a horse? -yeee108. What should you be doing? -studying109. Is something irritating you right now? -the fact im a bitchass lmao110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? -a couple times111. Do you have trust issues? -yah like i answered eariler112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? -my friends (at the diner lmfao)113. What was your childhood nickname? -shark bait, mosquito bait114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? -yeee115. Do you play the Wii? -used too116. Are you listening to music right now? -heck yeah i got a 15hr playlist on rn117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? -not rlly118. Do you like Chinese food? -yeee119. Favourite book? -uhhh its basic but animal farm (or maybe to all the boys i loved before)120. Are you afraid of the dark? -not rlly121. Are you mean? -nah i cant do it, but i feel like some would see me being distant/roasty as mean tho soooo122. Is cheating ever okay? -depends on the context of everything123. Can you keep white shoes clean? -barely124. Do you believe in love at first sight? -yes125. Do you believe in true love? -yes! i believe everyone has a soulmate out there126. Are you currently bored? -kinda lmao127. What makes you happy? -cute things, blankets, music, food, my friends, cuddling128. Would you change your name? -nah, ive thought about it tho129. What your zodiac sign? -scorpiHOE130. Do you like subway? -its aight131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? -test the waters, you never kno what will happen132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? -my friends (at the diner lmao)133. Favourite lyrics right now? - gusto ko lang naman ang lambing mo (i want to kiss you)134. Can you count to one million? probs in japanese but ill loose focus (esp in english omg)135. Dumbest lie you ever told? -too many to choose from (and i dont wanna expose myself)136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? -closed137. How tall are you? -5′7″138. Curly or Straight hair? -either or139. Brunette or Blonde? -ive been both soooo140. Summer or Winter? -winter (but i like summer style)141. Night or Day? -night all the way142. Favourite month? -november (my bday month)143. Are you a vegetarian? -nope144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? -dark145. Tea or Coffee? -tea146. Was today a good day? -it was ok (it wasnt bad but it wasnt good)147. Mars or Snickers? -either148. What’s your favourite quote? -getchu a mans that treats you like a queen in the streets and a slave in the sheets149. Do you believe in ghosts? -yah and i dont fuck with them150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? -nope that shits a textbook and i dont want to look at it

damn that was a lot to type but uhh now yall know shit about me

[preezypop]

It took me a while to put words on what I feel. I formerly planned to write something when the disbandment news came out. But I backed out because I didn’t want to open my scars. That news hurt me in thousands ways for obvious reason, but the irony was that I discovered about it on the bus on my way to the airport because...I was about to fly to Japan to see Big Bang...Whatever. I must have looked pretty silly to the other passengers but a girl crying while going to the airport is not that strange after all. Anyway. How do I start? Where do I start? Well it should be easy. Because it all started with them. Those 4 amazing and fierce girls. One random summer night 6 years ago, I was chatting with my cousin on the internet (for the older ones, it was on MSN, feel old yet?) and back in that time I knew literally nothing about South Korea. Nothing. I was a J-Pop/J-rock enthusiast. She told me she wanted me to check out a music video. “It’s not Japanese though, it’s Korean, but I’m sure you will like it, it’s totally your style! And it sounds a lot like English when you’re not paying attention.” Ok, shoot. I must admit I was a bit jaded because Korea? But okay, I told her to send me the link and I gave it a try. “I go by the name of CL of 2NE1”, oh okay wow. Totally not what I expected! I mean I was kinda into J-Pop so I lowkey expected cute schoolgirls and stuff but no. Not at all. I had the Street ver. of the Fire MV playing in front of my eyes and W-O-W. Snatched. Blown away. Shookt. You name it. I was hooked. The clothes, the attitude, the choreo, THE SONG. (I mean c’mon, I’m a West-Indian and those girls just delivered a dance-hall-ish song!) Oh-my-God!!!!! I replayed it immediately! I couldn’t believe what I just saw! I let my cousin know how AMAZED I was and she was like “ikr?!!!! I knew you would like it”. Liked it? Little did my cousin and I knew but she has just launched the biggest change in my life. This night I listened to Fire for hours!!! I felt like there was a whole new world I had to discover. The J-Pop and J-Rock worlds were full of codes so I was sure K-Pop had its own too. And judging by the comments under the video there were A LOT. I was confused about everyone making a fuss over that weird guy dancing behind Minzy for like 2 seconds (little did I know that later I’d sell my soul to that weird dude and turn him into my husband ultimate bias). So there I went, because I wanted to know more about 2NE1, who were they? What were their names? Where did they come from? Why are they called the female Big Bang? Who even is Big Bang (LOL)? Who is papa YG? What? I downloaded the mini-album (why mini? why were the Korean codes so different from what I’ve known up until now?) and lost my hair for the 2nd time because of them. Perfect. That album was perfect. A bit of pop, a bit of r’n’b, everything I like!!!!! Those girls were winning my heart at a fast rate! And soon enough I was a 2NE1 fan, a Blackjack, a future YG stan and a full kpop fan in the making. The rest is history. If someone asks what is 2NE1 to me I will ask them if they know about the concept of the butterfly effect. How a small event can lead by some domino reaction to HUGE consequences. Because this is exactly what 2NE1 is to me. Because of them my life made a 180. And the person that I am today, the things that I do, the music I listen to, the food I enjoy, the people who are my friends, the countries that I visit, everything is because of them. Being a kpop fan has changed me and allowed me to do amazing things that I would never have allowed myself to imagine. I met people who lifted me up and allowed me to be a new me, a better me if I may say. And I would not be a kpop fan if I had not discovered 2NE1. They are and will stay my #1 girlsband. Each of them shows me that you gotta do what you gotta do. People will always say something, people will always judge. At the end of the day, what matters is that you feel good with what you decided for yourself. And often, too often, the ones who badmouth you the most are the ones who wish they’d be like you. So just go and chase your dreams. Make mistakes, learn, take some time for yourself and go at it again. One of the thing I’ll be the most bitter (and sad) about is that I will never know what it feels like to attend a 2NE1 concert. It hurts but that’s just how it is. I used the word irony twice already I think, but really that’s just the adjective which would describe a lot of my situations with 2NE1. And I have 2 big examples: They came to France once (in 2012 or 2011), for an annual event about media. They were invited and a French Kpop magazine posted 2 days ago that they would do a fanmeeting for those who can attend. It was sudden, they announced this 2 days before the d-day. It was in the middle of the week, at the opposite side of the country, bad mix. But impossible is nothing. I booked a train ticket and jumped into a night train and travel alone for 8h to a city I’ve never been too. But my girls were there, so I had to be too. I remembered arriving around 9am or something and I waited into a McDonald’s. I was seeing people with their badge for the festival and was envying them so bad. It had nothing to do with kpop itself. It was about media and communication. So most of the people were 30 years old tech guys. It was so unfair. Why would they’d be able to see the girls and not me? Do 2NE1 mean the world to them like they do to me? Did 2NE1 changed their life for the better? I don’t think so. I should get an access badge, not them. Whatever. Around 10am or so I called my part-time job to tell them I misread my schedule and that I actually had a big test that day so I couldn’t come and that I was sooooo sorry. I’m usually a trustable person, so they trusted me and told me it was okay. I felt a little bad for lying when they told me “good luck for your exam” when really I was just at the opposite side of the country to try see 4 girls who had succeeded to have one of the biggest impact on my life. Anyway, the day went by and my heart was beating so fast inside. I tried going around the city, hoping that maybe I would run into them but it never happened (but I discovered later that they did a photoshoot in the streets so :’) ) Time went by and I came outside the venue, saw a few fans and the fan meeting organizer. It was not that bad and I had a little fun. At some point we (the fans) were given bracelets, “you will be attending their showcase”. I thought I was about to die. I was thinking about seeing them, waving at them but seeing an actual showcase?!!!! I tried to calm down but really my mind was in a frenzy. At some point, people started running and screaming. They arrived at the venue. A few girls were crying. I wasn’t fast enough so I didn’t see anyone. 1st disappointment of the day but it was okay, I got the bracelet for the showcase anyway so really it was okay. But now that I was sure that they were inside the venue I couldn’t believe that 2NE1 and I were breathing the same air and that we just had a few walls separating us. How I wanted to run, kicked the guard and go inside the venue. But I had the bracelet for the showcase, it was okay. With the other fans, we waited and sang and danced to 2NE1 songs while waiting. But the official time of the showcase start was getting closer and yet no one was making us go in. Finally one of the “organizer” came to us and dropped the bomb “Sorry, there are too many of you, the security thinks it will be too complicated to handle you so you can’t go attend the showcase anymore”. Honestly I can’t remember how I felt at this moment, but it was like everything was slowing down brutally. I wasn’t expecting the showcase in the 1st place but I was given a fucking bracelet, I got my hopes up for nothing. Not even a compensation. People were screaming and crying, it was chaos. I just wanted to disappear. I hate broken promises. Don’t hype me up. If you’re not sure about something just shut up and wait for when you’re sure. That was the 2nd disappointment of the day. Finally when the showcase ended, we were told that the girls got the news about us being there all day and getting the entry denied so they would improvise some kind of fan event for us. I didn’t want to expect too much but who was I kidding just knowing that the girls were so thoughtful was making me want to cry out of happiness. Ofc they would. We were asked to gather in front of a building and wait for the girls so they would come and wave at us. We were asked to sing, dance and cheer for them. And we did. Cameras were filming us, random by-passers were asking us who we were praising like this. Everytime a representant would come and say that “they’re on their way, just 5 more minutes”. This lasted for like 1h if I remember correctly. “Sing louder, clap your hands, do this, do that”. We did everything wholeheartedly. Only for the same fucking representant to come and tell us after 1h that they wouldn’t come. No explanation. We were asked to leave the area. This was the 3rd disappointment and the last stroke. I was tired and disappointed. And for the 1st time I was mad at the girls. I didn’t know who were responsible but I was mad at the girls because as a fan, a very dedicated fan I felt like my love was looked down upon. I felt disrespected and unloved. And I swear this was the worst feeling ever. Finally we were said that their car would go down the road and that they would wave to us. Not expecting much for the 4th time, I still ran to the barrier and saw the car approaching but it didn’t seem like it was slowing down. But in like 0.02 seconds, the Double Park sisters iconic duo aka Dara & Bom appeared through the car rooftop and smiled and waved at us. It was quick but I screamed as loud as I could. I was thankful, so so so so so so so thankful for the gesture! Thank you my dear unnies for at least acknowledging us peasant i-fans. The car did a u-turn, and I was hoping to see CL (my ult female bias) and Minzy but they didn’t show up. This disappointed me to no end. If 2 out of the 4 did it why not the other 2? Weren’t we good enough for them? Don’t they care about us? Did they realize all the things, all of the sacrifices that some of us did just with the hope to take a glance at them? Later that day I took a train back to my city (yay 8h new hours of night train ride) with confused feelings. But mostly it was pain and disappointment. I was mad at CL the most but I was also mad at myself for being mad at CL. I ranted so much on Twitter! Ah, just thinking about it...I now realized how much I remember from that day and it feels so weird! But well, time heals everything and I calmed down about it. End of the 1st example. 2nd example, it will be shorter loool. Time skip, we’re in 2015 now. 2NE1 is missing from the radar because of the Park Bom situation. And I’m starting to register that I won’t be able to see my OT4 before a while. Anyway, now I’m mainly focusing on Big Bang and EXO. And here come my chance to see both bands at the same event: MAMA 2015. Fun fact, I bought my ticket for MAMA based on my guess because none of BB or EXO had confirmed their attendance. But I had that feeling. 2015 was the MADE era launching, it was impossible for BB to not attend MAMA, I mean they own it!! And SM would never not send EXO to MAMA like please. So I did it, at 4AM, I bought a ticket for the MAMA and went back to sleep like nothing happened because I was in denial. Anyway, that’s not the main point. Later I got the news that CL was attending too so really it was perfect. D-day, here I am enjoying the MAMA 2015 in Hong-Kong, CL just KILLED it with her Hello Bitches! perf and she disappeared. And at this moment for like 0.00002 second I thought “what if?” but before I calm my delulu ass down, Dara unnie appeared...then Minzy...and then...yes, our beloved Bom unnie! Even her was there! Right at this moment I had the very 1st kpop band I knew, loved and stanned, performing the very 1st kpop song I heard. And I lost it, I started crying like a heartbroken girl. It was like all of the frustration, all the longing, all the love, all the resentment, everything was coming crashing down on me. The poor girl who was sitting next to me was so confused, she was looking at me frequently and I know she was hesitating about helping me or not because really I was a mess. You know when you ugly cry and it’s so hard that you have to hold your stomach? Yeah, just like this. The 1st part of Fire was like in a blur but I couldn’t miss this, so I did my best to calm down and enjoyed the show. I don’t know which ancestor I should thank for this amazing gift but being able to see 2NE1 perform at 4...my very first OT4… this was one of the best surprise ever. The highlight of the night. My best HK memory. But it hurts too because there is something very bittersweet in the fact the 1st time I had the chance to see 2NE1 perform was also the last time they would perform as 2NE1 the OT4 at all… And to finish, the little bonus. In March 2016 I went for the 1st time in Korea (to attend EXO’s concert but then again, that’s details here). Only a few hours after I landed, I “ran” to the YG building. This was the 1st place I wanted to go, and that’s what I did. When I arrived in front of the building there like 2 girls only and that’s it. After maybe 10 minutes, a taxi arrived and came to pick someone up. That someone was the one and only Goddess Park Bom unnie. We got closer to the gate and started waving at the taxi and to our surprise, the taxi stopped in front of us and the back window rolled down. Bommie unnie asked the driver to stop to greet us. We didn’t ask for it, and didn’t even try to block the gate or anything, it was her decision. She wanted to greet us, she accepted the gift of one of the girls. I managed to tell her that I wanted her to come back. It only lasted a few seconds but it was intense enough. She might never know the impact of that. But I will never forget this. This really meant a lot. She was the one who asked the driver to stop the car. She saw us and and wanted to greet us. Not many idols would do that (I’m not blaming them), but that’s important, so so important. Unnie, thank you so much. I wish I could protect you from everything, you deserve the world and so much more. What happened to you is so unfair. But it’s about time. You can still make your dream come true not matter how long it takes you. You’re talented. You can achieve anything. Believe in yourself and most of all don’t blame yourself. Minzy, our talented, sweet maknae and dance machine. You hurt me. But I respect your decision. I will still have resentment because that’s just how I am. But I honestly respect and understand your decision. I wish you the best as well. You were the youngest and you’re the one with the most time ahead of her. I wish you success and I hope to hear your new music soon. Dara unnie, our adorable Ssantokki queen. You’ve been through so much already, before 2NE1, during 2NE1 and probably after. I really wish you’d stop thinking you’re untalented because that’s not true. No matter what we do, we will always find people better at doing something than us. What is important is to improve and compare ourselves to ourselves. Tomorrow you will be even better than today. That’s all that counts. Look at you doing great in dramas and TV shows! Thank you for being 2NE1’s most supportive fan and the only real 2NE1 manager haha! CL, my queen, our leader. I hope none of the bullshit people throw at you every single day will reach you. It disgusts me how jealousy can make people ugly. People are mad at you for showing a confident image, fuck’em all. Most of them are just insecure people who wish they were at least 50% of what you are. Since when being confident makes you a bad person? Foh. What’s worst is that that deep down we know that you’re not that confident. You’re strong, so strong though. Thank you for leading 2NE1 with such greatness. No matter what you choose to do, be sure it’s something you enjoy. Screw what people say. Enjoy yourself! 2NE1, thank you. Those words seem so simple but they mean A LOT. A lot. I just don’t know how to sum up those last 6-7 years. You turned my life upside down for the better and the woman that I am today will forever be grateful for that. If I had to do it again, I would like to start this journey with you again. I wouldn’t change anything. I was, I am and I will always be a Blackjack. I will love you forever. Goodbye queens ♥ (It hurts so much)