#hyukjae's first win

[duckflyfly]

Hyukjae's first win for his first solo debut after 20 years in the music industry, i'm so proud of you my bias wrecker #aswellasdonghaeis #UP_N_DOWN1stWin (translated by 86updates)

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HYUKJAE FIRST WIN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[lgcmanager]

TEAM UNKNOWN 006

SCHEDULE TYPE: TRIMESTER ( PART 3 OUT OF 3 ) SCHEDULE RESTRICTIONS: cannot be paired with another trimester schedule, unless stated otherwise. for reference as to whether your muse is eligible for this event, please click over HERE.

( important note: there are no writing requirements for this, just an update as to the events that went on. )

the conclusion of a team unknown project was one that JANG INSUNG missed at times because while there was usually good news, there was also some bad news he had to share as well. with the team unknown trainees ( CARTER JAEJIN, CHO ISEUL, KIM SEYOON, MIN HANBIN, and PARK HYUKJAE ) altogether in one meeting room, INSUNG knows that he has to relay the information and feedback to them.

“many arduous weeks have passed and here we are. after evaluating your performances, practices, and the meeting you had with me, we’ve decided on who will be joining TYPE ZERO. first trainee that will be joining the group is… KIM SEYOON. i’ve seen your progress over the past few months and like you have mentioned to me, you are a fast learner and adaptable, which was a role we were looking for to join the lineup. the current TYPE ZERO have members with strengths that makes them stand out, but we needed someone who can assist some of them with those strengths all while having something that makes them shine and we believe that your skills in variety and hosting will be beneficial to the group.” INSUNG commented while thinking about what he had discussed with CHANGBIN before. “according to the coaches’ notes, they still want you to continue working on MANDARIN. i've been told as well that you were asked to work on rapping during LGC FALL BOYS and after discussing with the coaches, it looks like they want you to continue to work on rapping specifically for TYPE ZERO's comeback. this is mostly to aid their two rappers, HYOSEOP and KAI, with their upcoming songs. but aside from that, continue working on your performance related skills to keep up with the TYPE ZERO members.”

INSUNG maintained a stoic look on his face as he turned his attention to the remaining trainees. “the second and last person that will be joining TYPE ZERO and SEYOON is…CARTER JAEJIN.” the coach shifted his focus to JAEJIN as he gave his feedback and reasoning behind the decision. “you and i both know how many times i’ve mentioned working on ACTING but hearing your thoughts about the ACTING workshops was what i wanted to hear. i don’t expect you to be an award-winning actor overnight, but i wanted you to work on that to help you become a more expressive vocalist. the coaches and i knew from the beginning that you are a singer who has so much potential, but it felt difficult at times to connect with your performances. seeing you progress in that field gave us hope that when the time comes, people will get to see how captivating of a vocalist you can be. i do want to let you know that although you will be debuting in TYPE ZERO, you will be with other vocalists who may be just as skilled, if not more skilled, than you. it might be a challenge finding your footing in a pre-established group and with one that has multiple talented singers, but remember that you have other skills too that can make yourself stand out, like your ability to be entertaining on variety shows.” INSUNG paused, recalling the advice that the coaches wanted JAEJIN to work on in the meantime. “as for the coaches’ notes, they still want you to work on DANCING, PERFORMANCE, and ACTING, but you are heading in the right direction.”

INSUNG then tells SEYOON and JAEJIN that the TYPE ZERO manager, KIM BOMIN, will be picking them up and helping them move their belongings to the TYPE ZERO dorms, where they will be meeting with the remaining TYPE ZERO members. once he dismisses the two of them, INSUNG looks back at the three trainees. “sadly, this is the end of the team unknown project for now. while your three weren’t chosen to debut, we do expect all of you to take into consideration the pointers that were mentioned in the last meeting about the skills that you should work on. while this is the end of the project, i will still be here assisting YOUNGJAE and SOYI with some of the tasks and workshops so this will certainly not be the last time you’ll see me.” he smiled at the trainees, understanding how it must feel to take in such news. “now you three should go back and help the other trainees with the winter concert. i heard it’ll be a fun experience to celebrate the end of the year.” he leaned closer to them, patting their backs as he concluded the meeting and escorted them back to their training.

for JAEJIN and SEYOON, please read PART 2 of the TYPE ZERO MISSION for more information about dorm arrangements, group positions, and comeback preparations. once again, congratulations to JAEJIN and SEYOON for being chosen as the new TYPE ZERO members!

[keroinnie]

jeongin birthday, hyukjae first win, aespa tomorrow, cbx weekend, jongin free from the army……. kind of a great few days icl

[lgchyuk]

✍🏻 reflections;

it was a tiring month, but necessary if i’m being honest.

i had so much in my head i didn't realize i needed to stop and reevaluate everything i had been doing with my life lately. why all it took for me to guess what my problem was were those games played every saturday?

(i should really thank all the hyungs who made an effort to set all those activities for us)

i have to call dad and tell him how i’m pretty sure i can beat him when we play yutnori during christmas. he will be surprised and ask me how in the world i learned how to play that decently and when i tell him it was due to some activity we had in the company i’m so sure he’s going to question if this is a rite of passage to become an idol.

but how am i supposed to tell him that those saturdays were all i needed to bring me back to reality? to make me see how much of hyukjae i was missing these past months? being reconnected with my early childhood memories while learning the story behind games i was only taught how to play when i was growing up, somehow helped me.

i’m sure i won't ever try to engage in a sseireum match - no matter how much people bribe me and how the instructors would say it’s safe and how much respect i would get from everyone else once i throw my opponent on the ground and win a fight. please, i can do that anytime without risking getting hurt (i still have to listen to rowon grunting in pain and it sucks). sure it was interesting learning about the history of the game and how wrestling made men manlier (no, just kidding), but no, i have no talent for that.

reasons why i loved yutnori so much - dad’s favorite game. i remember how bad i used to be but now, now i think i practiced that so much during the past month, even weeks after that first class we took, i’m sure i’ll make dad proud - or really mad at me once i win a match. 

well, that’s for me to do and for you to learn about it later.

i missed writing here. but hyukjae’s back. for good.

[lgchyuk]

while hyukjae wasn’t entirely opposed to the idea of valentine’s day, he never really paid much attention to it, unless he was involved with someone - then he’d be disgustingly nice (depending on the person). but he was aware of people who would literally roll their eyes whenever they saw any public display of affection; hyuk thought they were as funny as the ones making a fool of themselves in public.

that day for example, he had bumped into minjun twice and both times the taller boy looked borderline grumpy like he had never seen before, contrasting with a roommate that spent the previous night trying to improve his decorating skills. in the end, hyuk left the room with a win, eating as many chocolate-covered strawberries as he could.

when maylin talked to him, at first he thought she was directing her thoughts to someone else but once he realized the area around the vending machine only had the two of them, his reaction was to chuckle - she was one of those. he had never stopped to think about the whole cupid figure but now that she mentioned it, he openly laughed.“well, having a half-naked baby shooting arrows isn’t that bad. did you ever stop to think that maybe shooting an arrow at someone to make them like you is just as problematic?”, he asked, tilting his head to the side, eyes going from starting at her, to the vending machine. “protein bar?”

the joke.

"if cupid appeared in front of you suddenly, shot you with his arrow, and hit someone else… do you think you would instantly fall in love or fight against it?"

there were always mythical creatures created for every holiday that happens on this planet. maylin for one, figured it was for the children who had nothing better to do than imagine. imagine what their lives would be like once they are forced to finally grow up.

Valentine's Day was one of those holidays forced on your face for the whole month of February. it was honestly, disgusting to say the least. maybe she was being dramatic, but approaching @lgchyuk seemed easy enough while approaching the vending machine in the company building. "it's kind of weird that people entertain the thought of a baby shooting an arrow at them out of love." was it the desperation of people that this character was created? or did they simply want to enhance the story of cupid from the Greek mythology stories?

the world may never know.

[blu-joons]

DATING SUPER JUNIOR A⇴Z HEADCANON ⇴ Lee Donghae

A ⇴ AFFECTION

You can guarantee when Donghae gets affectionate with you, his cheeks are a dark shade of red. He finds affection very reassuring and comforting, so will often try and hold you against him or bury himself into the crook of your neck.

B ⇴ BEFORE DATING

Being a bit quieter than some of the other members, you were intrigued by him when you first met the group. Hyukjae could tell instantly that Donghae had taken a liking to you, he tried to often bring the two of you together in conversation because you were usually too shy to approach each other. He found himself talking around you a lot more which he loved.

C ⇴ CONFESSION

He was incredibly shy when it came to confessing, he was a perfectionist, and nothing could go wrong. He didn’t plan anything huge, just in case he got rejected, but he still put together a nice meal at his house, a casual movie night was all he had planned. When he turned to you at the end of the film, you had a funny feeling that something was going on. It took a while, but eventually he built up the courage to tell you exactly how he felt.

D ⇴ DATES

Your dates were quite typical, Donghae loved to pick you up in his car and drive you around before taking you somewhere nice. Your dates had a lot of variation too, sometimes you’d just go out for dinner, but other times you’d try something a little more competitive, maybe the arcade or bowling. He was super competitive and hated when you won, especially when it meant the loser paid for dinner. He’d often surprise you with little songs or poems that he’d written late at night whilst working on music for the group on your dates.

E ⇴ EXPERIENCE

For a long time, he’d been too nervous to date, he knew that the other members were louder, so girls tended to gravitate towards them. When you began to pay attention to him, he had a strong feeling that this was the world’s way of telling him he was ready to start dating. It had been a long time since he’d been in a relationship, and at times things felt very strange to Donghae, but you were very understanding. He loved being around someone, he hated being alone, so very quickly the two of you began to spend a lot of time together as Donghae learnt about love again.

F ⇴ FIGHTING

If the two of you ever argue, expect a lot of tears. One minute the two of you will be yelling across the room at each other, desperate to win the argument, and then the next minute, you’ll look across and see Donghae struggling to hold back his tears. He hates conflict and confrontation, it breaks his heart, and eventually gets him very upset. As soon as one, or both of you, start getting upset you’ll make the decision to sit down and talk about everything, preventing things from getting any further out of hand then they already are.

G ⇴ GETTING TO KNOW HIS FAMILY

He was very keen for you to meet his family, after only a couple of months he invited you to a family dinner with him. There were thousands of questions on your first meeting as everyone tried to get to know you, but luckily for you, they were very impressed by your answers, and very impressed that Donghae had found you.

H ⇴ HOME

Again, he doesn’t always like to be left alone in his own company for too long, so it won’t take long before Donghae mentions about moving you in. To begin with, you’ll just think it’s a bit of a joke, but after the fifth time of mentioning it, you’ll begin to realise he’s being serious, and start to talk about it properly together.

I ⇴ “I LOVE YOU”

Donghae was the first one to say it one night at the end of a date. As he pulled up in front of your house, he didn’t want to see you get out of the car. Before he’d even realised what he’d said, the words came from his lips as he tried to encourage you to spend the night at his. Your head snapped around with a wide smile, as you told him you also loved him too.

J ⇴ JEALOUSY

He’ll try hard not to get jealous in your relationship, but sometimes he just can’t help it. He knows he’s not the loudest person in the room, so there’s usually someone who has your attention more than he does. If he gets jealous, he’ll become very reclusive, he’ll usually walk away so he can deal with his emotions alone so no one else can see. When you look around and notice he’s not around, you’ll quickly walk around until you find him, recognising straight away what’s going on. He’ll always apologise for feeling that way, but as you always assure him, jealousy is only a natural feeling.

K ⇴ KIDS

He wanted kids at thirty-three, so when that didn’t happen, he was desperate for it to happen as quickly as possible. It didn’t take long before he brought them up for the first time, and when you moved into his apartment, the conversation became a lot more serious. The two of you would spend many late nights talking about how you imagined your lives in the near future, deciding that you’d wait for when the time was right.

L ⇴ LAUGHTER

Donghae laughs more than he talks most of the time, which you laugh. He’s got a bright smile, one of your favourite features about him, and seeing him happy always touches your heart. He’s very good with cheesy jokes, which as much as you don’t want to laugh at, you usually end up doing so. He loved to make you laugh, he’d always be tickling you or doing something funny to bring a smile to your face, especially when he knew you’d had a bad day. If he’s not making you laugh, he’ll somehow find a way to make sure that you do.

M ⇴ MISSING

He hated being away from you, it was incredibly hard on him. He’d always worry about you and fret that you were by yourself, checking up on you numerous times throughout the day. You’d have long phone calls whenever the two of you could find the time, usually they wouldn’t end until one, or both, of you fell asleep. He’d also send you plenty of photos so you could see all the fun things he was getting up to, expecting the same from you too so he could make sure that you were taking care of yourself. The minute he got home; he’d refuse to leave your side for quite some time.

N ⇴ NICKNAMES

He’s very affectionate with his nicknames, ‘bub,’ is his favourite as it’ll always make you smile. You love to tease him with nicknames, knowing how hard he’s working on his body, ‘muscles,’ will always wind him up.

O ⇴ OBSESSION

Donghae is obsessed with your eyes, he feels like he can tell a lot about how you’re feeling from your eyes. He also loved to hold eye contact with you, even if he usually does end up getting too shy and looking away.

P ⇴ PDA

He’s quite shy when it comes to PDA, he hates to make a massive deal of pointing your relationship out to people. His affection is very subtle, he’ll usually hold your hand, so people know that you’re his without being obvious. If he’s in a playful mood, maybe he’ll peck your cheek or something, but that’s usually as far as he goes.

Q ⇴ QUESTIONS

One of the most frequent questions he’ll ask is if you’re busy. Whenever he’s worked on something, whether it be music, or a recipe, he’ll be desperate to get your opinion on it.

R ⇴ RANDOM FACT

After a little over a year into your relationship, Donghae began to introduce you to people as his wife. The people close to you always referred to the fact the two of you acted as a married couple, so Donghae would love to play on that. What he enjoyed more however, was the confused faces of people, who searched for a ring with no idea what he was going on about.

S ⇴ SEX

Very loving, he’s very attentive and very romantic. He’ll always work hard to make you feel special, he doesn’t care if he doesn’t get as much attention, you’re his priority. He loves to have your hands in his hair, it always makes him shy. He loves to take his time and pay as much close attention as he can to you.

T ⇴ TEXTS

He doesn’t text you often when he’s at home, but the second he leaves you for tour he’ll text, constantly. He tries to have as much contact with you as possible so it can still feel like you’re there with him.

U ⇴ UNIVERSE

Not many people appreciated his character as he was so quiet, but you were definitely one of them. He had plenty of quirks, and terribly cheesy jokes, but whilst others would tease him for it, you’d always laugh and make him feel special.

V ⇴ VACATION

He’s very keen on taking at least a few days out of his schedule in the year to take you on holiday. It’s his way of making up to you the many days you’re left waiting up for him to come home, or not even seeing him at all. He’ll tend to keep it all a secret, and surprise you that morning with tickets for somewhere he knows you’ll love.

W ⇴ WHINING

Donghae doesn’t whine often, but if he needs your help with something, he’ll be sure to let you know about it.

X ⇴ XXXXX

In private, he kisses you quite often. If you’re sat at your desk working, he’ll appear with a kiss to your cheek and a mug of coffee, or when he finds you sat reading, he’ll come up beside you and kiss the top of your head. His kisses are always when you least expect them, which in turn means they’ll always end up making you blush.

Y ⇴ YOU

You were his best friend, well, if Hyukjae would ever allow you to be.

Z ⇴ ZZZ

He loved to have you nice and close when he slept, especially if you were playing with his hair. You’d have many late nights staying up, laying face to face and talking about anything that came to mind.

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Masterlist

[justcallmemitchie96]

Just like drops of water

Prompts "This is, by far, the dumbest thing you've ever done" and "People are staring" for @2ya2yao​​‘s Super Junior Prompt Fic Challenge 

It took me ages to finished but I hope you like my first Super Junior piece for different reasons but it´s now here and hope you like.

P.S. The gif of Kongie and the baby the edit is mine. Also I´m writting a Leeteuk fic on Wattapad but is on spanish if you would like to read it my user is DisasterNefilim13 (from that story comes the inspiration of the female on this piece.

Carry a toddler looked like if Leeteuk was going to a trip instead to work, this was something new that he have to do to deal in his wife absence, she had an emergency work trip. He struggled to balance his schedule with his clingy daughter, he thought that her mum absence did actually affect her. 

Once he entered the building with his sleepy daughter, he noticed how most of the people stare at him, it was something that he was used because it was part of being an idol but this was a different kind of attention. He had a casual look and some sunglasses and a blanket over the body the toddler, his manager was helping him with some of his bags. 

"People are staring" he said in a low tone to his unconscious daughter. "Probably more for you that for daddy" he chuckle. 

He walked all in the halls of the SM building saying hello to the people passing by, he stopped on the elevator, but he wasn't alone. 

"Hello" said him to the other people waiting for the elevator. 

"Hi, hyung" said to him someone he knew, Donghae he was smiling but his face change when he noticed the girl in his leader arms. "Wait, what's doing Eunhae here?" 

"Long story" said the eldest letting out a sigh. 

"If you want one manager or assistant can take care of Eunhae while we do the meeting" Donghae suggested. 

"I don't think that it could work" Leeteuk said while he lightly lift the blanket that covered his daughter and Donghae noticed how the girl was holding tight her dad t-shirt. "Y/N had to go to a work trip and Eunhae doesn't want to leave me, yesterday I did a program while she was asleep but when we woke up made a tantrum and had to do the rest of the show with her playing in the set" he explained with a little smile. 

"She really must be missing her mum" said looking at the toddler. "It's the first time Y/N she goes to a work trip since Eunhae was born, isn't?" 

"Yeah, she's more used to be with her mum and now she's gone, she doesn't understand why" 

While they were talking they arrived to the meeting room, Donghae helped him with Eunhae bag and both enter to the room, most of the members have arrived already. 

"Hello" said Leeteuk doing a little curtsied while holding his daughter. 

"Why did you bring Eunhae?" asked Shindong confused. 

"Are you practicing to be in The Return of Superman?" added Heechul. "Cause I'll do if you too" 

"Y/N went to a business trip" responded Donghae. 

"Oh, that makes sense but still think about my offer" said Heechul making a wink. 

"Your kid just born a few months ago" added Yesung. 

"I wanted to be part even before having kids now I have one and can be part" 

"I like the show but I'm not sure, the fans still don't know Y/N and she likes that, it's more comfortable for her and Eunhae" Leeteuk said while watching his daughter and he could notice that she could wake up anytime soon. 

"Hey, but don't you upload pictures of Eunhae and Kongie to Instagram" comment Yesung, thoughtful. 

"He doesn't show her face" defend Kyuhyun. "Yet" finally adds with a wicked smile. 

"Hello" Siwon said behind them, making them turn around. "Uh, hyung you bring Eunhae?" asked curious. 

"Yeah, she didn't wanted to stay with my sister" 

"And Y/N?" asked again the newcomer. 

"In London" answer the leader. 

"I get it, so Eunhae had increased the attachement with you, right" 

"Siwon are you a psychology or something" said Heechul impressed, cause everyone noted the hold she had on her dad. 

"No, it's something I read on a book about child behaviour, those are quite interesting" 

"Why are you talking about children?" asked Ryeowook walking into the room. 

"This is what happens when some members started to have children" added Eunhyuk jokingly. 

"Oh, look how cute looks Eunhae" said Ryeowook when noticed the baby and walked to see her. "She's definitely prettier every time I see her, she has definitely her mum genes" 

"What if we better start the meeting?" comment Leeteuk to change the subject of the conversation. 

They started their meeting, it was mostly to see the plan of their new comeback and a new season of Super Junior Returns, they talked about how to fit their individual schedules with their team at SM. When Eunhae wake up, the members were just casually talking, his dad was the first to noticed. 

"Oh, look who wake up from her nap" said in a cute tone, the one he use with Kongie and Eunhae. The toddler just smiled and looked to her dad. 

"I can't really get used to this" said laughing Eunhyuk. 

Eunhae change her attention to her uncle, and the she looked confused, and started to look between her dad and Eunhyuk. 

"Poor Eunhae looks like she just found out someone looks like her daddy" added jokely Donghae. 

"Please don't make her confuse, she still too young for your games" comment Siwon looking the maknae expression. 

"Yeah, don't do that if Y/N found out about that she'll kill me" said Leeteuk worried. 

"It never worked on her" comment Ryeowook disappointed. 

"Eunhae, come with uncle Kyuhyun" said the youngest to the toddler, she got closer to Leeteuk and tried to hide on her dad chest. 

The attitude of Eunhae made the rest of the members smile but Kyuhyun didn't stop his attempts to call her attention. After 5 minutes the girl went to his arms. 

"Please don't make her cry" ask for it, Leeteuk he knew his members and also assumed the evil maknae intention. 

"I just want to help you" answer playing around with the toddler. "Eunhyuk, can you sit next to Leeteuk?" asked to his hyung.

Eunhyuk was curious about what Kyuhyun was planning to do, like the rest of the members, even when all thought the same. 

"Eunhae, where's daddy?" asked cutely, making her smile and pointed out between Eunhyuk and Leeteuk. 

Eunhae looked to both men, she surely knew her dad but the two man in front of her looked so similar and she got frustrated, first she started to pout and in a few seconds the toddler started to cried uncontrollably, Kyuhyun tried to calm her but didn't worked. 

Eunhyuk and Leeteuk stood up quickly, getting close to the toddler and calm her, she only wanted her dad but both react to Eunhae crying. When she saw the familiar face she tried to free herself from Kyuhyun hold and she did with a little help from her uncle. 

The members were surprised when Eunhae was calm once again but the biggest surprise was for her dad that watched next to Kyuhyun, she didn't realised that Eunhyuk was holding her instead of him. 

"I feel betrayed by my own daughter" commented Leeteuk, as he was staring at Eunhyuk playing with his daughter. 

"She just likes her uncle Eunhyuk" comment Hyukjae walking close to his leader to give him his daughter. 

Once Eunhae was in her dad arms she smiled to him and put her head on his chest, close to his heart, that action made the rest of the members let out a sigh for the cuteness of the toddler. 

"Hyung, even though Eunhyuk can help you to take care of her while you work" added Ryeowook. 

"I really don't have nothing in my schedule this week" said Eunhyuk shrugging his shoulders. 

"Surely she doesn't like to be unknown places, surrounded with lots of people" added Kyuhyun. 

"You're right, she's been stressed" agreed Leeteuk. 

He knew that this isn't going to be a good idea once his wife found out but it was the best for Eunhae and his sister probably would help him but he tried before and his daughter didn't like that option. 

Eunhyuk definitely wasn't going to make fun of Leeteuk and Heechul for complain about parenting, it was hard. Eunhae wasn't a baby and he had to be behind her, Shimkoong playing with her and be around her like a protector was a problem sometimes. He literally had to learn how to be a dad for a one and a half year old. 

"Eunhae what if we watch something different to Poporo?" asked Eunhyuk to the girl sit next to him but she was too focus on the TV and someone called to the door. 

"Who could be?" he said to himself. 

"Hey!" said Donghae smiling and entering the house loudly. 

"What are you doing here?" asked the eldest surprised. 

"I thought you might need some help" said showing some bags that he bring. "And also I wanted to see Grace" 

"You too call her in her american name" answer surprised. "But she's watching Poporo with Shimkoong, they act like sisters" 

"Shimkoong was Leeteuk first daughter, even Y/N had to win her" added Donghae laughing. 

Both men were watching the toddler from the kitchen and she was still in the same position. 

"How are you doing as a babysitter?" 

"Hahaha" said sarcastically Eunhyuk. "With all the instructions from Leeteuk and the ones Y/N leave him, have been easier but is still challenging, I realised kids are unpredictable" 

"Well you can practice before you have your own" comment the youngest. 

"Leeteuk couldn't practice a lot before Eunhae and he seems doing a good job"

"Basically he have just taking care of us since our trainee days" 

"You're right" agreed Eunhyuk. 

"We should eat before the food gets cold" 

"I need to prepare Eunhae food, smoth baby food"

"I bought something for her, I'm sure she will like it" said Donghae surely. 

Both men took care of the toddler, they played with her and even shared her afternoon nap. Leeteuk was supposed to arrive soon for Eunhae bath time. 

"Leeteuk says he's on his way here" informed Eunhyuk to the youngest who had the girl in his arms. 

"You heard that Grace, your dad is coming" she just looked him, recognition dawned on her face. "You know your uncle Eunhyuk isn't your dad" he said in a low tone making the girl let out a cute laugh. 

"Eunhae, here's your little snack" Donghae sit with Eunhae on sofa, the other man bring a plate and a bib. 

Eunhyuk put her the bib, when she was free and saw the fruits that her uncle prepared her, picked the fruits with her hands, both men laugh seeing her eat. 

"I have an idea" said suddenly Donghae. "She doesn't talk properly, does she?" 

"No really, at least not for the time I have take care of her" answered his bandmate. "Why?" 

"We can help her to say dad and surprise Leeteuk when he arrives" 

"I'm sure that we can't do it in less than a hour" said Eunhyuk denying with his head, he was sure his friend really had bad ideas and this was one of those. 

"Let's try" said Donghae and hold Eunhae and place her in front of his friend. "Take her snacks" 

"Okay" 

They tried to make the girl say the word 'Dad' in their language and on english but say didn't even tried. 

"Leeteuk is coming soon, what if you show her a picture of him and we keep saying dad only in korean?" comment the youngest of the men, cheerfully. 

"Well, we could try" agreed the other man. 

Donghae sit Eunhae again between his legs and Eunhyuk searched for a picture of his leader to show the little girl, when she saw it, she became excited. 

"Oh, who's here? It's dad" said cutely Eunhyuk when he saw the girl reaction. 

"Yes, Grace" added Donghae. "Dad" 

"Dad" 

They keep going for a few minutes, but they were so focus on their task that they didn't hear that someone arrived. 

"Who's in front of you? It's Dad, just say it one time that's enough Grace" said the man holding the girl. 

"D-ad" finally said the girl. 

"Yes, finally she said Dad!" Both men celebrated on the floor with the girl. 

She said one more time and went to the other man, and he held her and Eunhae saw someone very familiar and started to make noises calling the men attention. 

"Eunhyuk, why my daughter called you dad!" said furiously the new arrival woman. 

"Y/N" said surprised the mentioned. "I can explained she didn't…" his voice had a little fear. 

"First, tell me where's my husband?" she asked more calmly. "Come with mummy, Grace" said to the toddler in the man arms. 

"He's…" started to say Donghae when the door opened. 

"Eunhae, daddy is home" said cutely to his daughter, she was more excited her both parents were home. 

"Can you take Grace to her room?" asked politely Y/N to Donghae, he agreed quickly, trying to escape to the trouble that he caused. 

"Park Jongsoo, come here immediately" demanded Y/N, he instantly knew he was in trouble and he didn't knew why. 

"Jagiya, you're home" said Leeteuk once he was in front of his wife, he tried to hide his fear, Y/N was a bit scary mad. 

"Eunhyuk you tried before with me and didn't worked and why did you play with my daughter tell her that you're his dad" Y/N ignored what her husband said, she was between both men, staring furiously. 

"You really did that" asked calmly the eldest man to his member. 

"No" Eunhyuk respond honestly. 

"Then when I arrived she said dad and when to you" added the woman suspicious. 

"Because Donghae is stupid and have stupid ideas, he wanted to teach Eunhae to say dad and one of them it was me showing her a picture of him in my phone, she did but the she wanted my phone and I held her for that" Leeteuk laugh at the explanation of this member, Donghae always was causing big trouble from little things. 

Y/N had her hand in her nose, she was looking to the ceiling hiding a small smile. 

"Go with Eunhae, and tell Donghae to come" 

Eunhyuk leave relief, leaving the couple for a few minutes. 

"Why D&E are at home?" asked Y/N leaving out a little laugh. 

"Don't get mad but Eunhae didn't wanted to leave me and a had some programs this week and she confused Eunhyuk with me in the meeting I had with the members and Kyuhyun said that Eunhyuk could help with Eunhae" said Leeteuk embarrassed. 

"What about your sister?" 

"The problem when you left was that Eunhae didn't wanted to leave my side and it seen to work for both of us, a set isn't a place to her" 

"This is by far the dumbest thing you've ever done" said Y/N smiling, she was happy to be home. 

Leeteuk kissed her, he knew that she wasn't longer mad and probably Donghae had been saved from being scolded.

[rainingspellforlove]

falling again.

Tell me once again, tell me you love me like, you did that day.

 I couldn't believe it, everything about you was like looking in the mirror, we were so much alike. 

 But your lips that had spoken of love, don't say a word like they're locked shut, I can't understand with my heart, why you said you loved me. 

 But now you're trying to run away 

                                                                              Baekhyun - Love Again

The continuation of shouldnt have. 

It's been three months since then. Hyukjae been living well in Tokyo. He did his best to overcome his broken state. He did many things there and it really helped him a lot. He did yoga class, worked out his body, studied new languanges, even composing some new songs. for these three months, he already recovered well and he can back to his normal bubbly self again.

Hyukjae decides to come back to korea after feeling well. In a sunny sunday morning, hyukjae finnaly arrived at south korea. He walked alone with lot of luggagges with his mask on. Then he saw one familiar face to pick him up,

"Lee hyukjaeee"

"Hyunggggg"

Leeteuk comes to pick him up because he promises to grab a meal together later in a seafood restaurant..

"How are you hyukjae? Feeling better?"

"Eung of coursee hyung. I cant wait for our comeback finally"

"Of course we will have best of the best for this comeback. Lets work hard okay"

"Sure"

Then they enjoy talking to each other about how hyukjae's life in tokyo and how about the members doing while he was gone. They were doing pretty well with their individual schedule as well.

"Uhm so how was him? Is he doing pretty good these days?"

"You dont contact him at all?"

"Nope hahahaha"

"You really want to get rid of him huh?"

"Not to that extend lol he did messaged me sometimes, for the first week i went to japan, he texted me a lot like "what should i do" "im sorry" "i'll do everything for you to forgive me" "please" he did it so many times until 5 days maybe? Then i replied at the 6th day , i said "im okay. Youre not at fault. Just live your life as usual okay? Im fine here dont worry. " 

"I thought you blocked him lol"

"No way i cant block him we're still gonna work together right"

"Wah our pro-idol lee hyukjae. Amazing im proud of you. "

"Nothing's to be proud of. So how's he been?"

"Nothing special because we didnt meet him often bcs of our individual schedule"

"Oh then?"

"But i already met him few times actually asking him for a meal together, he wasnt like himself either i think. His soul is like leaving his body lol"

" He's not that lonely right if i left him like that? He already had a lover anyway"

"I dont know either. maybe you both need to talk it out, dont you feel it to try to talk to him?"

"Yeah ive been thinking about this too hyung. Maybe i will talk it out with him later"

"Good then"

After getting a meal with leeteuk, hyukjae comes back to the dorm with the help of leeteuk to bring his lugagges. And when he opened the door,

"Suprisseeee welcome back uri myeolchii"

Turned out the members already prepared the welcome back surprises with many foods and confettis.

"Oh my goddd guyss hahahahhaa"

"Welcome back uri hyukjaee, lets eat together!!!" Shindong said

"Yesss lets celebrate!" leeteuk finally said

Then they eat happily and tell so many funny stories like they always did.

"How is it at tokyo?" kyuhyun asked

"It's fun of course i did many stuffs there to clear my mind"

"Im glad you're feeling well right now.. we're so worried about you really. You should think less and dont overthink too much okay? You have us to lean on man!" yesung said

"yeah, we can help you anytime bro just tell us about anything" ryeowook said

"Of course i will haha im totally fine right now really!!"

Actually there's donghae too there who's been just smiled blandly at the situation. Fortunately bcs of this crowded condition, no one realized that donghae havent talked a single word to hyukjae yet. Then some times after they had fun and ate well, the members starts to go home one by one. There's leeteuk and donghae left , ofcourse with kyuhyun and hyukjae too.

so hyukjae  cleaned the dishes first and the rest of them cleaned the main room. When hyukjae washes the dishes, donghae actually comes to him and helps him cleaning the dishes

There's like silent in them for like few seconds.

"So, how have you been?" Hyukjae starts off the convo

"Nothing much it's just the same. You?"

"Yeah i did many stuffs there"

"Oh... im glad then"

Then silence again..

"Uhm, i- apologize for-"

"Nah it's not a thing for you to apologize anyway. Im totally fine"

"but im not..."

Silence again....

"Why? It's not that youre lonely without me right?" Hyukjae jokes

"hm maybe?" They laugh softly

Then hyukjae tried to ask something.

"How's thing with her?"

Donghae feels a bit flustered..

"yeah we're fine" said donghae plainly

"Good then"  hyukjae smiled

"I miss you" finally donghae said it

"I miss you too.. lets work hard more for our comeback soon. Lets just get back like we used to be okay?" but hyukjae not acting like he’s flustered. he acts cool

"Uhm sure.. "

Then hyukjae was about to go to the main room then donghae said

"im sorry.. lemme just say.. ehm- dont cry again hyukjae."

"sure i wont" hyukjae left and smiled after that..

flashback

The day after hyukjae went to japan, donghae was like a soulless man. He ignored all of the calls and messages in his phone. He just wants to talk to hyukjae. He wants to meet him rightaway but he cant. He cant disobey leeteuk because he always obedient to all leeteuk's words. He resisted himself and stayed at his house for almost a week. He ignored all of the messages and phone calls. He just wanted to see hyukjae's reply. But he didnt reply at all. He didnt answer his calls either.. donghae was really like a zombie.. then hyukjae suddenly replied to his messages in the 6th day. Donghae was startled like hell. Then he replied.

"it hurts to see you cry dont cry again.... im so sorry. I dont know what should i do... dont hate me...please.... im so sorry"

But then of course hyukjae didnt reply him again.

Actually donghae became so confused after hyukjae left. He thinks about him a lot. He thinks how hyukjae acts around him this whole time. He just realized this whole time, hyukjae must be suffered to hide this feeling alone. When he's the one being so touchy and stuffs....

He didnt know either why he feels so hurting while he's the one who hurts his friend. He hates being left especially when his important person who did it to him. He feels so confused after hyukjae left. He didnt know what happened to his mind recently. He cant think of anything. His mind was full of hyukjae. especially the kiss he gave that night. 

It feels like he poured all of his feelings to it.. but it was the most heartbreaking kiss that he ever felt. the tears that fallen in his cheeks. and his warm lips that melts into his. 

he hates to acknowledge this but he wants to feel it again... but not after feeling like this.   he missed hyukjae so much... it feels so wrong but he missed him so much......

but life must go on,  donghae tried to forget this confusing feelings and try to meet his girlfriend.

He actually met her few times. But donghae always didnt look fine at all. He always been on his mind and cant focus on her at all. And it's always been like this..

Donghae didnt seem to reply at her mesaages as often as before. And he rarely pick up her calls. Donghae was like a whole different person.. sometimes he would be ignorant or careless... even he was not actually like this.. 

he had a fight with his girlfriend recently.. because donghae keeps losing his focus when they met. And he keeps ignoring her messages and calls. He said that he was busy with works and stuffs. Still his girlfriend had it enough and asked him for break up. Donghae asked her not to end it so quickly. he said they can figure it out together. But his girlfriend insisted that they must break up. She was so tired of him. So they break up in their 5 months.. 

Donghae was shattered... he was miserable..

 he thought "maybe life was fair enough"

end of flashback

Donghae intentionally didnt tell hyukjae that he's already breaking up with his girlfriend. He thinks maybe it's for the best to stay like that. It's already been 1 month since he had broken up. And it's the time for hyukjae to come home to korea too. Actually donghae already recovers from his broken state too after 1 month. But now he saw hyukjae is a whole different. He's like happier, shining, and lovelier. It's like he's really getting himself better. He's getting way cuter... donghae seems a lil bit flustered to see hyukjae arrived... he was stunned for a lil bit. 

“is it just me or he gets cuter after coming back......” he thoughts.

Fortunately after their little talks, they can be like they used to be again.. 

The comeback is near.. so they keep practicing and practicing. They have been busy all the time after hyukjae arrived. They have been busy with many things to prepare the comeback.

Hyukjae is working hard too. He's even more refreshed for now. Donghae and hyukjae come back as they are used to be. Playful to each other. They are just being professional to not mix their private life and works. So they act like the things that happened 3 months ago are also dissapearead.. they just act like nothing happened.

They finally released their comeback songs successfully. It was a hit and success. They did many shows, interviews, and some variety shows to promote their comeback. They are so busy because of these schedules. But they are happy because finally they did a comeback again after a long time.

So after the day they brought a first win from mcountdown, they celebrate it in a restaurant and have a big feast there. Then they had drunk too after having those meals. It’s time for going home and there were no schedule tomorrow so leeteuk said just rest well for tomorrow. The members are going home one by one.

"Hyung, tomorrow i will have schedule for new journey to the west, so i cant come home with you. Is it okay for you to come home alone?"

"Nah it's okay. Bye bye kyuhyuna"

But actually hyukjae is in drunk state so he will go with his manager to come home.

then donghae comes

"I can take him home, i bring a car here so you dont need to worry managernim"

"Oh? You bring a car? Okay then i'll just come with you." 

Then hyukjae and donghae go home together with donghae's car. It's the first time for them having a drive like this for just both of them. 

"Hyukjae-ya, are you sober enough?"

"Hmmm 60% sober i tthink why?"

"Actually i want to tell you something"

"What is it?"

"I... i broke up with her"

"Her? Your lover? Why?" suddnely he’s 90% sober up

"Some things happened and we fights then she asked for breaking up. uhm yea thats it"

"Oh.. since when?"

"It's been like almost 2 months before our comeback"

"Ah... so you already broke up that time i ask you?"

"Hm yes.... sorry for not telling you the truth, im just scared that it will make you uncomfortable yknow"

"It's okay i understand... uhm.... so, you okay?"

"Yeah i had been not okay that time but right now i feel better a lot"

"Good for you then, hope you can find another person who's better for you then. life must go on right" 

Then silence... donghae doesnt give him any replies. 

They stopped at the red lights apparently..

"Do you already have a person you like this moment?" Suddenly donghae asked

"no there isnt. I didnt think of it at all because we've been so busy"

"Youre right"

Then the green light appears..

Donghae drives again... 15 minutes in silence and finally arriving at hyukjae's dorm..

"Okay.. would you want me to take you to your room or-?"

It turned out hyukjae already sleeps. He didnt dare to wake him so he puts hyukjae in his back and piggy backs him to his room.... and he still sleeps soundly at donghae’s back.. 

Donghae puts hyukjae to his bed and tucks him in the bed softly.. then unconsciously, donghae leans in to hyukjae's face..

Donghae pressed a soft kiss to his forehead...

"What if you're the better person for me hyukjae? What you’re gonna do if i fall for you?" He said while carressing his hair softly.. 

After that, donghae turned off the lamp and went home rightaway....

actually hyukjae didnt fall a sleep at all... 

he listened to all of them.

"The hell is that just happened...... oh my freaking God what the hell just happened....." he wakes up rightaway.

Hyukjae still can feel donghae's kiss in his face. he cant sleep at all that day. Even after hyukjae's arrival, they had been in a good terms. It is like nothing happened back then. They acted like they used to. Everything seems so natural. There were no feelings for each other.. hyukjae completely erased his feelings for donghae but why did he act like that last night....

"God he's confusing me again.... "

After that confusing situation for hyukjae, he will never know that was the start of all donghae's affections to him.

 and it's likely more affectionate than he ever imagined.

They did many shows and got many interviews. In those shows, donghae always finds chance to get close to hyukjae even doing some skinships to him. But it's like he did it unconciously and natural. It's like the usual donghae but it's more clingy than usual.

He's always backhugging him when they played something, or when in a music show ending, and many more. But hyukjae just lets him bcs he didnt want to be so obvious of avoiding donghae in the tv or shows.

Hyukjae hates to admit this but he liked it. It's like he misses these moments so much but in fact he's already moving on.... or...... are those feelings coming back again...

His warm and soft touches against his body are endearing. He just loves those affections. He missed how to be loved by someone...

But he didnt want to admit it.... never. it’s too contradictive. his mind says he’s already moved on but his heart told him otherwise. 

He still cant get over what donghae said few days ago....

Day by day passed by, and the promotions are coming to an end...  they did their last music shows on inkigayo. hyukjae went to the rooftop to rest for a lil bit because the members are just too noisy right now.. he didnt feel like to talk too much today. 

"what are you doing here alone hyukjae-ya?" 

"Oh donghae, uhm nothing just sight seeing" he’s startled by his voice

Donghae comes to hyukjae

"Do you have something burdening you?

"No actually i just feel grateful finally we can success this comeback.."

"im proud too for myself and the members too. we’re doing great"

“right” 

they smiled together and felt the wind that breezed for them. and hyukjae got some dust into his eyes

"Aaah my eyes" he tried to rub his eyes but donghae held his hands

"Hyukjae-ya are you okay? Which eyes?"

"Leftt aaaah its stuck"

“dont rub it, i’ll blow it for you”  

Then donghae just blows a little to hyukjae's left eyes while cupping hyukjae's cheek.  hyukjae’s heart is pounding like crazy while he did that

"I-Is it gone?"

"Maybe.." hyukjae tried to open his eyes and he's surprised, donghae was just 5 cm in front of him

Then donghae looks into hyukjae's eyes  and carresses his cheeks softly... hyukjae cant back off and staring into donghae’s eyes also

"I think you're more beautiful in this comeback" while holding his cheek.

"How so? I just feel so usual"

"It's your eyes. Your eye make up is stunning"

"U-uhm thanks"

“this comeback fits you so well”

They still stood like that for a while until donghae leaned in to hyukjae.. and hyukjae automatically closes his eyes... donghae just pressed a soft kiss into hyukjae's left eye...

Then he pulls out and smiles..

"You must be tired today. Lets just go home.." donghae said and grabbed hyukjae's hand to enter the building...

Hyukjae is dazed and cant say a single word... he just follows him to the building in silence... 

One day hyukjae drinks alone again in the usual bar. He just wants to drink because he wont have no schedule tomorrow.. and he talks alone in the bar.

"Im getting confused again. Why did he do that then?"

"If im just a rebound of his broken heart, i swear i would kill him rightaway.. gosh but he's already broken up from long time ago... eish but i doubt he likes me though he's fucking straight"

"he's weird. Or am i? Huh idk"

Hyukjae been blabbering for himself there for a few minutes..

Then such a coincidence happened, there just came donghae and jinu who were hanging out with the others because it's their friends who own this bar.. and donghae just watched hyukjae drunk alone and ran to him quickly. his face shows he’s worried as hell. 

"lee hyukjae.. hey what are you doing here? I thought you slept because you didnt reply me at all. you cant come drinking alone like this. you know you cant support youself enough while drunk. why are you like this?"

"Oh hey cheonsanim is it my death yet? Why there's cheonsa here.. thats so weird" he blabbers and doesnt listen to donghae’s nagging at all

"Hey get yourself together hyukjae-ya" 

"Oh im totally fine! what time is it? I should go practicing. let me go. comeon lets practice!!!"

"There's no practicing schedule for today and it’s almost midnight... lets just go to your dorm"

"No but cheonsanim, there's still liquor left i must finish-"

"Shut up and just lets go home. understand?" donghae’s face becomes all serious suddenly. and hyukjae shuts his mouth and let donghae do what he wants. he’s kinda scared too actually even he’s drunk. 

Donghae just pulled hyukjae from the seat and put his arms into his shoulder and starts walking to the car.. donghae brings him home again... like that day

after the silence for a while, donghae finally softened and his serious face gone

"This reminds me of how you were so drunk back then and you keep sobbing because of me.."

"Back then i really didnt know. Yes im a fool didnt realize your feeling and im a fool too bcs i fell in love too easily with some women. Maybe im just too lonely. But i realized that i actually not lonely this whole time. I have you. Thats a shame of me who didnt realize it. Im just so sorry.."

He said while holding hyukjae's hand. Meanwhile hyukjae is sleeping since donghae starts driving.. he’s always like that after being drunk. he sleeps rightaway. 

"You're becoming more refreshed and stunning. Im so flustered to see you like “ah it turned out im really friend with this beautiful human?" Thats exactly my thoughts for you when u came back"

"then i doubt it myself why would i have that kind of thoughts. I feel like i wanna have you for myself. Your cute face, funny jokes, and even your weird actions. It's like i wanna keep it all for myself. I even got jealous when you acted cute in front of the fans lmao i shouldnt do that but idk myself is just being weird."

"i love those smiles of yours. Your gummy smile. Thats just so pretty. It warms me up. I even think why didnt i realize i live with the prettiest angel for this 20 years." 

donghae still driving while looking at the road.. and he keeps pouring his words...

"Youre really my important person hyukjae. I wont ever erase you from my list. Youre my person... your presence to me is a healing and strength. Without you im nothing. You complete me. You're really my everything. Please just erase those bad memories of us. Just let me fill it again with good memories of us... let me try again.. im hoping i can be your source of sunshine too.. like you give me those warmest smiles every time we met... thats the most amazing feeling ever..."

Then silence...

"I knew you're not sleeping right... im not asking you for anything but i just wanna tell you that... and we're almost arrived"

Hyukjae cant hide again from his so called sleeping,, then he’s awkwardly wakes up and straighten his back... 

"uhm.. uhmm..  thats quiet long speech of yours.... uhmm okay..."

Honestly hyukjae is speechless as hell, he never knew donghae will talk it out and he's basically confessing??? But thats so ambiguous...

"Can i hug you?" Donghae asked before hyukjae opened the car's door

"uhm s-sure"

Then donghae hugs him... donghae's hugs always feels so warm... his big body is covering hyukjae's small body... it’s always been these hugs that he loved the most.

donghae who circling his arm into hyukjae’s neck and hyukjae who hugs donghae’s waist tightly.. its always been like this. their typical hugs from time to time. 

"dont go out alone to drink.. bring me,   so i will take you home"

hyukjae just nods in  his warm embrace.. 

Donghae takes off his arms from hyukjae and presses a soft kiss to hyukjae's forehead...

"Good night.. rest well for today"

 hyukjae is gotta explode. 

He's confused too and doesnt know what to do either. But his mind is a total mess right now so he acts like he's totally not in his right mind too.

his act and his mind are always fighting. it’s not completely going in a one way. it’s totally contradictive!!

hyukjae in his not right mind suddenly leaned in and kissed donghae's cheek quickly. 

He's so red and dying inside, then he just

"g-g-good night too bye bye" he's so flustered and running quick to his room

Donghae who feels hundred times flustered than hyukjae, cant even move a flinch after hyukjae's cute lil kiss. He's smiling like an idiot and messed up his hair. 

"im really going crazy" 

Meanwhile in the other side, hyukjae runs to his room and throws himself to his bed and screams.

"arghhhhhh why did i do that you fool lee hyukjae you fooool"

One day after that lil kiss event, donghae asked hyukjae (as if nothing happened) to a drive. he’s that amazing to act like nothing happened between them. 

"hyukjae, are you free this sunday?"

"Uhm maybe, why?" hyukjae pretends nothing happened too. BUT he’s just pretending. so he just replied casually

"i want to have a drive, wanna come? its no fun if i drive alone"

"u-uhm sure. But where to?"

"Hmmm it's up to you"

"Me ? Ah no, it's you who should decide donghae-ya"

"Finee, then beach? Lets watch sunset. How?"

"Call! Good idea!"

"Okay see you on sunday i'll pick you up"

"Of course"

Hyukjae didnt know why he agreed to his plans lmao he’s too excited to watch sunset. 

"eish what should i do.. that god damn smile wtf i cant even ignore him"

"Nah its okay we're usually like this. Its a usual thing for us to have a drive tgt. We even watch sunrise together every year.. it shouldnt be a bad thing right........ right..... but for now i should try calming my heart more" he’s trying to convince his heart more 

Sunday comes and they really go to the beach....

They have so much fun in the car, they sing and laugh happily in the car.. hyukjae who jokes a lot while donghae who gives his best reactions to it. It's just their  another ordinary days.. but its been so long so they're beyond excited for themselves.

It's winter and they wear warm clothes right now.

"Hyukjae, dont you feel cold of just wearing that coat?"

"Ah this. Hmm maybe i can bare it haha"

"You can wear my padding, i'll wear yours"

"Eish no need. Im fine really"

"Uhm okay then"

They have arrived at the beach and they go to the side of the beach while playing with the water. They had so much fun playing and running for each other.. they're just like kindergartens..

"It's unbelievably cold goshhh maybe you’re true though,  my small body cant bare it haha" hyukjae been shivering for a while and he almost stutters because of the cold wind.

"I told you so.." then donghae stands behind hyukjae and opens his padding to back hug the shivering kid. his padding completely covered him and hyukjae together. Hyukjae is small human being so it fits for them together.

"Ya- what are you doing let me go" hyukjae tried to let go but of course he’s lost. 

"Its cold its better like this right" he tightens his hugs more. 

Hyukjae cant say a single word he's just dazed while feeling the cold air from the sea.

They stayed like that for a while until sunset..

"Beautiful..." finally hyukjae mouthed a word

"Uhm.." donghae hugs him tighter from the back

"We're almost the same height but why i feel you're so tiny" donghae said

"im 3 cm taller you know!! but i admits im a real myeolchi because im not that workout holic like you. and im not the type who builds my body like you. the bulkier type. nah i didnt like it"

"Alright alright  i agree for that"

they enjoy this so much. and maybe hyukjae loves it too much. it feels like the cold air is completely gone because of donghae’s back hugs. it warms him up...

after some moments of the sweet warm sunset, they think of going back. they can freeze if they stay too long. 

"Should we go back?"

"Okay..."

Its time for going back and its time for donghae to let go of his hug.... why hyukjae feels dissappointed all of sudden...

Donghae lets go of the hugs and he pulls hyukjae to face him...

"Hyukjae"

"O-oh why?"

Donghae takes out his hands and carress it softly... then brings it into his lips... donghae just kissed every hyukjae's knuckles one by one..

Donghae turned to face hyukjae and leans in slowly..

Hyukjae stops him by pointing his forehead..

"can i-?”

 he didnt finished his words but suddenly hyukjae said

"kiss me"

Donghae got startled but he smiled softly and leaned in to kiss hyukjae

Donghae moves his hands to cupped hyukjae's cheeks while hyukjae's hands slowly circling donghae's neck.. they kissed slowly and softly.. donghae takes a lead and hyukjae tightens his hands... they never expect this day would come.. they pulled out for few seconds, then hyukjae cant get enough and kiss him again.. they kissed so long but slowly...

then they got losing a breath and plus they cant bare the cold air then hyukjae pulled himself from donghae... his ear got so red and he cant even say a word.

"i-its cold lets go home." hyukjae said and ran  leaving donghae who smiled softly..

They go home with hyukjae who covered himself with his scarf.

Donghae who laughs softly said

"Hey dont cover yourself like that, i cant see your face" he teased

"I dont want to see your face idiot"

Donghae chuckles and takes hyukjae's hand... he pressed a soft kiss to his hand...

"stopppp argghh focus on driving bastard" he pulls out his hand quick

Donghae drives home with a widest smile ever

Arriving at hyukjae's dorm, he packs his things and ready to get out but..

While on the way driving here, the snow falls so hard even donghae drives his car slowly to go here..

"You know, the s-snow is falling so h-hard right"

Then donghae turned his head to hyukjae waiting him to say something

"So...” hyukjae hesitates..

"Eh hem so?" Donghae waits while smiling to him

"Eish stop smiling like a weirdo you bastard"

"Hmmmm So?" donghae teased 

"Y-you can come to dorm until tomorrow morning i-if you want-"

"Of course i will. Lets go" donghae quickly answers and goes inside

Donghae has expected this , no way he would let his best friend fighting the snow falls for himself.

They enter the dorm together.. and it's already almost midnight..

"Kyuhyun is home already maybe he's already sleeping... you can sleep on the sofa or other rooms here okay bye im going to bed" hyukjae was about to go to his room but donghae stops him

"What now?"

Then he gestured his head in hyukjae's room (it's like “i wanna sleep with you” gesture)

"N-no way!"

"Aaah we used to sleep together why cant we"

"Its different! We're grown ups right now!"

"Hnggggggg pplleasseeeee or i will nag at you until morning"

Donghae keeps nagging and nagging so hyukjae just lets him to go to his room

"Fine"

Hyukjae already changed his clothes and brings his clothes for donghae to change also.. then hyukjae goes straight to sleep and doesnt want to wait for donghae who changed his clothes

Donghae who comes back after changing his clothes, climbs up the bed beside hyukjae... hyukjae  sleeps facing the other side and donghae feels dissappointed..

"Face me while sleeping or i cant sleep"

"Its not my business"

"We just kissed why do you treat me like this?" He pouts

"Eishhh sssssshhhh. fine fine. i'll face you lets just sleep"

"Hyukjae ya"

"Hmmm" he already closed his eyes

"I wanna hug you"

"why are you so demanding"

“pleaseeeeee”

“arghhh fine” 

Then donghae hugs him and places hyukjae's head in his chest

"It's cold i must keep you warm" hyukjae stays in his embraces like that without complaining.. he's too sleepy to complain.. 

"Hyukjae ya"

No answer...

Then donghae leans in closer

Hyukjae feels donghae's breath becomes so close and slowly opens his eyes..

Hyukjae stops him again by placing his fingers to his lips..

"lee donghae......." hyukjae loses all his drowsiness.... and his eyes looking at donghae's

"I like you..." donghae said with his softest eyes ever

This. those puppy eyes of his. His soft voice.. his gentle touches. His body's heat that runs into hyukjae's body.... it drives him crazy

 hyukjae never been so speechless.. he's weak.. he doesnt know how to act...

Hyukjae feels his heart about to explode..

"Y-you know.. b-but i dont know... i cant understand my feelings at all.... i-"

"I know.... i know.. i'll wait for you"

"but why?"

"Because it has to be you. I love being with you. I just love it so much. youve heard me before. in the car, i told you everything. it’s just you."

Hyukjae cant say anything and keeps his head down in donghae’s chest... he cant face donghae.... he might explode... he bets his ears are all red... and he feels so damn hot even it's winter...

"Can i kiss you?"

Silence.....

Then hyukjae nods softly..

Donghae slowly moves his hand towards hyukjae's cheek and the other hand pulling his waist closer...they kissed again.. but its more passionate and have more feelings... they didnt feel cold anymore, they are heated by the kiss...

donghae who's now on top of hyukjae and keep kissing him like there's no tomorrow... it's like hyukjae is his property only..

They kissed until they both are out of breath and pulled out from each other.... donghae hugs him again from the side while carressing hyukjae's hair and kissed it for few times.....

"잘자요 hyukjae ya"

"good night.." hyukjae who feels embarrassed to death and he just hides himeself in donghae's chest...

They both stay like that until morning comes.... they embrace each other warmly and they sleep like babies.

Morning comes and hyukjae slowly opens his eyes...

"emhhh.... oh my.." he still doesnt believe it either what he saw...

The first thing he saw is donghae's face beside of him.. he suddenly remembers the kiss.. 

"He already looks so good even he's sleeping, like how.."

"eishh whats wrong with me"

hyukjae tries to come down from the bed slowly because donghae's hand still in his waist.. so he slowly removes it.... afraid to wake him up... when he's about to success for coming down, then a pair of hands slip into his waist tightly and a voice appears next to his ear closely..

"where do you go?" said donghae who just woke up with his hoarse voice. He put his head above hyukjae's shoulder and keep whining

hyukjae almost jumped after hearing it *dammit that hot voice*

He always knew this kind of voice every morning they woke up after sleeping together.. because they did it often back in those old days.. but now, it is not the same,  it's like hyukjae always got heart attack when donghae comes close like this

"maybe take a shower and buy a breakfast..."

"sleep more :(" said donghae lazily in hyukjae's shoulder

"it's almost 9 am... i must go to gym later.."

Then he pouts cutely..

"Let me take you there then..."

"Fine.."

"Lets take a shower together"

"NO eish i can shower alone lemme go" donghae still hugs him tightly from the back

"Lee donghaeee comeonnnnn"

"letsss take a shower together like the old dayss"

"No fuckin waay lemme gooooo" hyukjae tries so hard to let it go and finally succeeding

Donghae just whines and tries to wake up also.

They both already been showering and they will have breakfast together..

After finishing breakfast and stuffs. Donghae drives him to hyukjae's gym.

"Okay then thankyou for dropping me off" said hyukjae awkwardly

"Of course. Dont overwork yourself, rest well after this. Bye bye"

"Sure bye"

"Oh wait." Donghae said

"What is it? Is there something i left in your car?"

"You left this"

Donghae shamelessly pressed a quick kiss in hyukjae's right cheek.

"YA LEE DONGHAE"

"bye bye!" Then he winks and leaves

"Eish im really really going insane"

Day by day passed and donghae keeps being clingy to hyukjae. But extended version, he always kissed him goodbye while parting ways. It can be forehead kiss or cheek kiss. Hyukjae is lied if he doesnt like it. He liked it so much but he didnt show it and always runs away from donghae after that...

"Ah where is the boy who used to cry here bcs of his bestfriend? Is he really opening up his heart again?" Teased leeteuk

"Hyung please"

"Hahahaha you arent bothered at all right by him? I knew you love it"

"No way"

"You cant lie to me hyukjae. You fall for hin again right?"

"But i hate for admitting "that feeling""

"It's been so long hyukjae, it's okay for falling in love again"

"I dont know hyung... but why it has to be him? i just dont know"

few days after, hyukjae who just woke up suddenly gets a call from leeteuk..

"Lee hyukjae it's urgent, donghae is sick and i cant go there bcs i have works. Can you come instead of me? He's been in high fever. im scared he will faint or something"

"Okay hyung i'll go there asap"

Hyukjae is worried as hell and he brings all the medicines from the dorm for donghae.

As he arrived there, he found donghae sleeps on the floor.. and he's freaking out

"Yahh lee donghae, are you okay? Hey, lemme take you to hospital come one wake up"

Hyukjae got so worried and try to lift donghae's body.

"Ehmmmh oh what time is it? Why am i on the floor? And why are you here hyukjae?"

"Leeteuk said youre sick af so i came.. lemme take you to hospital right now. can you stand by yourself?"

"Ah.... im not sick.. i just got hangover and maybe i fall asleep on the floor last night..... im totally fine but a little dizzy"

"what the-”

then he realized 

“Aish leeteuk hyung i'll get revenge on you someday arghhh" then hyukjae stands up and ready to walk out

"Im going home then. Bye im wasting my precious times"

"Aaaah dont go im really dizzy... can you help me please eung?"

"Its ur fault anyway"

"But i always help you after you drunk so many times..."

"Okay t-thats... ugh- fine"

Hyukjae walks to donghae and lifts him up. He helps donghae to get on the bed..

"Okay it's done im going. Eish wasting my time  worrying for nothing"

"Are you worried that much?"

"Bye im going home..."

Donghae pulls hyukjae's hand..

"Can you just stay with me?"

"Why should i?"

"I need your company.."

Donghae pulls a lil harder until hyukjae's body falls on his chest..

Donghae hugs him rightaway so hyukjae cant go...

"Hyukjae-ya.. there’s no a single time i would not think of you.. you know what, when you went to japan, i messed up all of things.. i cant get focused on anything... i just wanted to meet you.."

Hyukjae who still in donghae's chest said carefully

"How can i trust you? I cried so hard that day.. im tired of hurting"

"You know it hurts to see you cry. That day my heart breaks into pieces... i think how much i hate myself... i was so dumb. i knew.. but now i realize how can i live without you.. i cant stay away from you... i wanna hug you so tight and give you every little kisses every day.. i dont know when this started, but i want to make you mine every time i see you..  i wanna protect you and embrace you.. i cant take my eyes off of you"

"Hyukjae-ya look at me" donghae lifts hyukjae's head who leans in his broad chest then he saw hyukjae is crying...

"dont cry sweetheart please dont cry.." donghae carressed his tears away softly..

"I-i think i completely forget you. i convinced myself that i already moved on. i believe i had erased you completely.But i just realized i cant... how can i? i really cant forget you at all... i just keep pretending that i was fine if i keep this feelings alone.. i thought i already threw away my feelings. But you suddenly came to me again with those affections.. how... how can i just forget you easily.. i just cant.... life is so unfair i cant understand"

Donghae suddenly sits and lifts hyukjae easily to sit in his lap.. hyukjae who's still sobbing got flustered by his sudden actions.

"Ssssh dont cry... you know that im the crybaby, it's not you. You shouldnt be crying.. youre not supposed to cry... "

Hyukjae still sobs.. and palmed his face..

Donghae leans in and takes hyukjae's hands from his face slowly

He cupped hyukjae's face and leans in.. donghae's forehead touched hyukjae's completely..

"I love you so much.. can you love me back?"

Hyukjae still sobs but he nods softly..

Donghae smiled softly... this sweetest smile that always stuck in hyukjae’s head

"Say that you love me back" 

Donghae wiped off the tears that keep falling in hyukjae's cheeks..

"i-i like you so much i could die.." he sobs cutely

"good.. and i love you too"

Donghae leans in and kisses hyukjae's watery eyes delicately.. he pressed those little kisses slowly from hyukjae's forehead, eyes, cheeks, nose, and finally his lips...

The way hyukjae's lips melt in donghae's.. he kissed hyukjae passionately... the finally-you-love-me kiss that he always hopes.. not that heartbreaking kiss again, this kiss feels more delicate and warm. donghae moves his body and presses hyukjae down to the bed..

"Do you mind if..."

"just do whatever you want”

“good” 

hyukjae never thought that this day would happen for real.. his shirts and pants are on the floor... his  outfits that he wears prettily today is all on the floor mixed with donghae's.. they both are covered with blanket with donghae's hand for hyukjae's pillow.. hyukjae cant say a single word after all of the things that happened so quick in few hours..

"Say something babe"

"You idiot bastard how can i say something after you marked me like this... we just- arghhh i shouldnt say yes for whatever you will do... ive been tricked."

Donghae turned to sulky hyukjae and kiss hyukjae's shoulder..

"you know i cant resist you.. "

then donghae pulls hyukjae and hugs him close to his broad chest and hyukjae slowly hugs him back..

"stay with me until tomorrow?"

"Of course" hyukjae nods and hugs him tighter

"Dont you feel cold?"

"Nope. You hug me is enough.."

Donghae smiled  softly and hugs him tighter... 

“best day of my life.” donghae kissed hyukjae’s head softly

While hyukjae finally asleeps, donghae quickly messages leeteuk

"Hyung i will appear on your youtube more often!! i promise. Thank you for everything hahaha!"

"Eish this little punk. Happy now? Stop calling me just for crying that you miss him so bad. Ughhh im so tired listening your broken ass.  Dont send me even a single pic of both of you or i'll kill you."

"HAHA i was about to lmaooo bye bye hyung♡"

-end

[duckflyfly]

Shit SJ Says 74/∞: “If I win today, I will retire.” - the artist with the fastest retirement in K-pop history, Lee Hyukjae (c)

[eunhae-code]

Have you made an eunhae timeline? If you haven’t, could you make one, please?

Anon I thought I did. I have to edit my blog again -.-

Predebut: Donghae knew about SRD (Song, Rap, and Dance), probably someone told him about it. It was a group with Junsu (known as Xia) and Hyukjae (along with their other friend). He admired them.

Debut (2005): Donghae and Hyukjae, now Eunhyuk officially know each other. Eunhyuk is an awkward fella, kinda lanky with a gummy smile and not too confident in himself. Donghae is beauty incarnate, one of the chosen few as the face of a large group. Their main interaction is through the choreography and rapping. Although Donghae is all over him already saying “his lips are mine”. At this time, Eunhyuk can’t comprehend why someone who is beautiful and cute likes him and instead, shies away.

2006: ADONIS CAMP. I have a few posts on this. But to summarize: it’s the official start of EunHae.

2008/2009: Sorry Sorry and Super Junior-M (without Eunhyuk) Donghae was in China a lot, thriving and blossoming and I’m sure this was when Eunhyuk really started to notice how empty his lanky life was without Donghae bothering him.

2010: Bonamana. Introduction of Hae!booty plump as ever. Now our boys are MEN. Both Eunhyuk and Donghae got muscular and yes, Hyuk certainly noticed. Now he can’t stop checking Donghae out and we get cringe photos like this:

2011: Introduction of Eunhyuk to Super Junior-M. SKIP BEAT BLONDE!DONGHAE. This is also the official start of Eunhyuk’s insane jealousy and clingyness because blonde!Donghae is fine af, he’s got an acting gig, everyone loves him, he’s built like a Buick and Hae!booty exists. The official start of D&E. This hug over winning a soccer game.

2012: Confident!Eunhyuk who is experimenting with looks and finding himself glued to Donghae in Sukira. This is also the end of the year scandal with Eunhyuk and IU. Eunhyuk goes into hiding for the remainder of the year and Donghae isn’t happy. He posts on IG, a subtle message that says a lot. The song is “All men are like that” by Kim Jong Kook. And boy, the lyrics speak for themselves.

“Now I feel burdened when you say you can’t live without me”

Donghae often tells Eunhyuk he can’t live without him.

All is well by the end of the year, they take a photo of Eunhyuk holding a tray of food.

2015: “Growing Pains” a song written by Donghae sung by D&E. It’s an amazing heart-wrenching song that speaks of one person loving another more and hoping they aren’t hurt by the separation. During this time, D&E are pretty silent towards one another. There’s visible tension that something happened, what it is we’ll never know.

“Still You” is also written by Donghae and the video is of them in LONDON. It’s literally a love video of finding each other. Which we find out PARIS is important because Eunhyuk literally had a mural done in his bedroom, spoke about how much PARIS means to him and when he showed it off to SuJu he smiled shyly towards Donghae.

In the end they’re off to the military at the same time, days apart. Now this is especially crucial because 1). They spent their vacations with each other 👀👀 and 2). When they finished, they were the first to hug each other. And I’m talking LONG finger gazing the back of necks hug. The type of hug you give to a long-distance lover. It was intimate.

After their discharge in 2017, the rest is history. They eat with each other’s families, Donghae’s mom absolutely adores Hyuk and all is well again. They returned to music and overall being themselves fully. There’s nothing to hide because they served their country. That was the biggest stressor in why they went back and forth so much. Now Donghae’s more into producing/writing and Eunhyuk is into reality shows for his funny personality. But it works because they have their own company and people barely cared for SuJu in the past. It allowed them to get away with so much more to begin with and I think that’s what really saved them. That, and how much Donghae doesn’t give a f*** about what people say. If he loves you, he will love you. To hell with everyone else.

[sapphireblueevanesce]

Eunhyuk Video Fan Call Event - Fan Account and Tips

As you may already know, I won a place in SM’s Video Fan Call Event for Super Junior D&E Bad Blood album promotion to have a video call with Eunhyuk (who I usually refer to as Hyukjae, but will call Eunhyuk here).

Above is my notice that I had won!

There were several websites holding video call events for Super Junior D&E.  One of them was SMTown & Store. The reason I selected to enter SMTown & Store’s event instead of one of the others is because SM was the only one with English instructions. I don’t trust online translators enough to be confident that I could fully understand all of the terms and conditions for winning.

When I entered, I had to choose whether I wanted to enter for Donghae or Eunhyuk. I chose Eunhyuk. I waited to enter until close to the deadline in which we had to enter, and this was actually a good thing because I only had to wait in agony to find out if I had won for about a day, instead of several days. Winners were listed on the SMTown & Store website. At first, when I scrolled down the list and got to the end, I thought I had not won. But then I realized they had listed all of the winners for Donghae’s event first, and then started a new list for Eunhyuk’s winners! Luckily, I kept scrolling long enough to see my name! We later received an email confirming that we had won as well.

Once I learned that I had won, I only had a few days to prepare. Some other websites I have seen for other events for other groups give you a much longer time between announcement of the winners and the event itself.

During that time, I read and re-read the exact time and date of the call. I went on a Time and Date website to convert the Korean time and date to the US time and date. There was no way I was missing this call! The next few days, I downloaded Kakao Talk for desktop so that I could accept the call from my laptop. I was afraid that the call may be more liable to drop if I used the mobile app, plus I wanted to see him well. I did a test video call on Kakao Talk with my relative who also has it. I checked the audio and video settings with her. I even purchased a new laptop camera cause I didn’t like how I looked on the camera built into my laptop!

The call was scheduled for very early my time. Earlier in the day, I got a friend request on Kakao Talk from “Super Junior D&E.” I accepted the request and they sent instructions on there, including a request to let them know if I required language translation. You could choose to have Chinese, Japanese, or English translation services during the call, so I selected English translation service. I got ready to go to bed for few hours before I was planning to wake up and get ready. But before I did so, I made sure that my notification sounds were on for my phone, which also has the Kakao Talk app downloaded.

It’s a good thing I did so, because sure enough, I was awakened a few hours later by the Kakao Talk notification. It was a notice that SMTown & Store staff would be conducting a test call within an hour or so and to be ready to respond to this call. The purpose of the call was to test the audio and video quality and provide further instructions. They also said I would be getting a NEW friend request, which I soon did. It was from another user also called “Super Junior D&E.”

The test call happened to be in Korean. Luckily, I am studying Korean and was able to understand. But at one point, I didn’t quite understand so I said, “I’m sorry?” In English. Then they gave me instructions in English!

I couldn’t really sleep after the test call, so I got up and put on a Tempus tshirt (I mean, may as well, right?) and some makeup (because I looked like underslept hell). I waited for the call to start and practiced everything I prepared to say to him. I took many deep breaths and paced around trying to stay calm!

Above is my Kakao Talk notification that I had an incoming call from D&E!

That’s me in the corner (behind the OMG)!

I was so star struck at the sight of him, even though I have seen him in person before! I thought the distance created by video call would diminish the impact of seeing him again, but it did not do that at all! I in fact forgot everything I had prepared and did not even once glance at my little index card, which was propped up against my laptop in preparation!

He was so great and funny, and everything you would hope he would be! He was just like how he is on TV. Although we were allotted two minutes, I would not stop talking (to be fair, I certainly was not keeping track of the time!) and it went on for four minutes. I get the impression that others got extra time as well. The translator did not do very much work, since he wanted us to talk in English!

I have a mini rundown of our conversation on Twitter, which you can check out here.

As part of the winnings, I also got a signed album from him about a week and half later. How did he know that I would want him to sign right on this page, next to this picture?!

So, if you ever enter and win a video call event, I would highly recommend you prepare, be ready for any changes or surprises, and enjoy yourself!

[sunggyunites]

SuJu OTP Challenge

OTP Challenge: Pick your top ten ships without reading the questions

Eunhae

Teukchul

Kyuwook

Yeteuk

Teukmin

Kyusung

Hyukmin

Kyuteuk

Heehyuk

Kangteuk

(Disclaimer: All of this is for fun! I am not trying to insinuate that any of the members are actually romantically involved.)

1) Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6?

I think it was the scene in the SJ Returns episode where some of the members had a meal with Kyuhyun before he enlisted (You have to pay to watch it tho). I love how cute their older brother-younger brother dynamic is!

2) Have you ever read a fanfiction about 2?

 Y e s, and it still haunts me to this very day.

3) Has a picture of 4 ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr?

 Nope!

4) If 7 were to suddenly break up today, what would your reaction be?

 Since Sungmin is a married man I would be very concerned...

5) Why is 1 so important?

 Because Eunhyuk and Donghae have been friends for what, twenty years now? And they’re still going strong. Most people don’t have relationships that last this long, so it’s very heartwarming to see how far they’ve come :)

6) Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship?

 Well seeing as it’s Heechul and Eunhyuk the two biggest clowns of the group I’d call them a funny ship, they have that kind of friendship.

7) Out of all of your ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry?

 Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Eunhae I guess? You can’t beat their bond.

8) Out of all of the ships, which ship has the strongest bond?

 Mmh Eunhae, Kyuwook, Teukchul, and Hyukmin probably

9) How many times have you read/watched 10’s fandom?

 Only once but I noped out of there faster than Hyukjae can run away from Jongwoon

10) Which ship has lasted the longest?

 Haven’t they all known each other for around the same amount of time (almost two decades)? But I guess Eunhae, Hyukmin and Teukchul.

11) How many times, if ever, have 6 broken up?

 Um they’ve never broken up before haha but maybe when Kyuhyun kept ignoring him.

12)  If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive?

Eunhae, Teukmin, Hyukmin, Heehyuk, maybe?

13) Did 7 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason?

 Yes, because of K-Elfs’ incessant boycotting and hating on Sungmin basically all the members were forced to hide their relationship with him. Sucks because Eunhyuk and Sungmin used to be close :(

14) Is 4 still together?

 Sure? Maybe.

15) Is 10 canon?

 LOL No they are in fact the least canon ship on the list.

16) If all ten ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win?

 I have a weird feeling it would be Hyukmin, they just give me the Katniss x Peeta vibes. Plus Sungmin knows martial arts.

17) Has anyone ever tried to sabotage 5’s ship?

 K o r e a n  E l f s

18) Which ship(s) would you defend to the death and beyond?

 Ships 1-9, but especially Teukchul.

19) Do you spend hours a day going through 3’s tumblr page?

 H a h a no, I once did it for about ten minutes though.

20) If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she’d break them all up forever, which ship would you choose?

 Easy, Kangteuk, they’re already broken up anyways xD x3 uwu owo

[obsessedwithbbandsuju]

Growing Pains | Part 1

It never got any better.

Pairing: Lee Hyukjae (Eunhyuk)/Son Taeyeon

Warnings: Boring-ass cliches, probably

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sshi: a Korean honorific used when the speaker is relatively unfamiliar with the object of their words, usually regardless of age

seonsaengnim: literally translates to teacher, but can be used to refer to someone considerably older than the speaker who has his/her respect or works in the same industry

sunbaenim: a word used by a junior to refer to a senior in the industry

oppa: a term used by a female to refer to a male, older than her, that she is close to

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It never got any better.

Before her, Hyukjae had always believed that you could recover from breakups, no matter how painful they were. No matter how much you loved a person, he’d believed that it was possible to get over them, one day. You just had to try, and that belief of his had only been reinforced by experience. He’d had a few girlfriends, he’d loved all of them, and things had ended eventually with all of them. It hurt at first, of course. It hurt badly, the constant and stark realization that she was no longer a part of his life, that he could no longer talk to her again, hold her hand again, kiss her again. Sometimes he sat in numb silence, staring at the wall in a dazed stupor. Sometimes he cried; full, trembling sobs, burying his face in his hands and ruing the times he hadn’t treated her in the way she deserved to be treated. Sometimes he found himself smiling without mirth, thinking of the fond times they had shared with a bitter taste in his mind and tears stinging at his eyes.

But he always recovered eventually. Some recoveries took longer than others, but by the end, he was always back to himself as he was before his previous girlfriend, except with more cherished memories in his heart that he might muse over one day when he was old and stiff. It was a painful cycle, but not a pointless one, and Hyukjae never came out regretting that he’d dated any of them. They’d all done things for him in their own way, made him grow in one fashion or another, and in the end, he was always better off for it.

Hyukjae thought this time would be the same, too. He fought through the hollowness over and over, reminding himself over and over that it would fade someday, like it always did. He wiped his eyes off after the crying again and again, repeating that the pain was temporary. He gritted his teeth and endured every single of the emptying pangs in his chest at the jarring thought that he would never be able to hold her again. Even when the pain didn’t dissipate, several months later, Hyukjae had dismissed his worries. Son Taeyeon had been the woman he was probably the most serious about so far, after all. He had proposed to her, and she’d accepted; they had been engaged for over a year, before things started … crumbling. She had been such a precious, major part of his life for so long that he thought, of course, of course, it would be this difficult to get over her. But he would. Eventually.

But months became a year, then a year and a half, and still, the longing didn’t lessen in the slightest. Hyukjae still woke up sometimes, groggy and disoriented, reaching over next to him on the mattress to pull Taeyeon against him. Then the realization that she wasn’t there, that they had broken up long ago, would crash over him and he would be cruelly jolted to full consciousness, feeling unfilled and vacant. He still found his mind drifting to her and wondering where she was, how she was doing now. He saw her on TV, of course, but it wasn’t the same, nowhere even close. She was out of his reach, and more than that, she looked lively and confident as she always had.

Did she even remember their times together? Did she even care anymore? Everything he saw, everything he heard, everything he read, seemed to be indicating that she didn’t. That she had moved on. Hyukjae knew it was unhealthy, he knew it shouldn’t be like this, but the thought, the possibility, that she had really gotten over him, it shook him. It made him feel betrayed, no matter how ridiculous and irrational and practically hypocritical his emotions were. How could she just … be okay after the way they had broken up? How could she simply go on with her life after everything that had passed between them? Everything they had been to each other? Hyukjae knew, he really did, that he had no right to say anything, since he was constantly trying to get over her, reminding himself that she was part of a past he needed to erase, but still. Still.

He couldn’t forget her. It didn’t get any better. It was like there was a hole in his life where Taeyeon had been, a hole that was refusing to close. No matter how hard Hyukjae tried, no matter what he did to cheer himself up or help himself get over her, he couldn’t do it. He – his thoughts, his emotions, his life, it seemed – always came back to her.

And then an idea seized him.

It was an idiotic idea, frankly. It made him look like a complete bumbling, clueless fool, so cliché and overdone and ridiculous that it wasn’t even something that some people might consider romantic anymore. But in his state, Hyukjae thought … well, he didn’t think, really. He still wasn’t even sure what exactly his idea was when he realized this particular day was free of schedules, bought a bouquet of larkspur flowers (Taeyeon’s favorite), drove to her apartment complex, and now found himself pacing in front of the gates of the two buildings, wondering if she was home and just how he was going to convince her to come out to see him, her ex, even if she was.

Taeyeon lived in Hanwha Galleria Foret (had moved after their breakup, according to Heechul-hyung), and if not for the circumstances under which he was here, Hyukjae would have marveled at the sheer scope of the twin complexes rising into the sky. It had obviously been built to show off the wealth it required to own an apartment here, but more importantly, Hyukjae knew it was a high-security building, for the number of top celebrities that lived in it (G-Dragon-sshi, Kim Soohyun-sshi, even Lee Sooman-seonsaengnim, to name a few). Thanks to that, he didn’t have any worries about anyone spotting him and creating rumors, but now he was here after an hour-long drive with no idea what to do next. It wasn’t like he could simply walk in.

Only then did his stupidity catch up to him. What was he doing here? With flowers? Trying to win Taeyeon back? Trying to get her to take pity on him? Trying to express that he still missed her and loved her? What was the point of all this? And how was he even going to see her if he turned up so abruptly? Taeyeon was a busy person, and there was a high likelihood that she wasn’t home – in which case, he’d just wasted car gas and a good portion of his free day.

But what if Taeyeon was home? What if he somehow could talk to her face-to-face? What was he even going to do?

The thought almost made Hyukjae turn on his heel and run back to his car to drive home – almost. But when he thought of his apartment, dreary and empty and full of only more past memories of his time with Taeyeon, he didn’t want to go back. Home – home offered him nothing good, and rather than just giving up here with nothing accomplished, nothing even attempted, he wanted to do something, even if it all turned out pointless in the end. Then maybe, he thought, just maybe, it would feel better, if only because he tried. If he didn’t even do that, he would never know what might have been if he did.

If he backed out now, Hyukjae was sure he would regret it forever.

And so, he continued to linger aimlessly in front of the apartments, adjusting the mask on his face from time to time so he could breathe more properly. He took a seat on the bench near the gate, his legs bouncing up and down from nerves and impatience. Then he got back up, paced for a few minutes, clutching the bouquet in his hands. And then he sat back down, carefully placing the flowers on the bench next to him and staring up at the sky, trying to calm himself down. It was chilly, but Hyukjae realized he was sweating. He continuously took out his phone and put it away again, wondering if he should try to contact Taeyeon. It would be sensible, since at least then he had a chance at knowing if she was even home. But what if she’d deleted his number? Or blocked it? It wouldn’t be unusual after the way they’d broken up …

“Eunhyuk-sunbaenim …? Excuse me, aren’t you Eunhyuk-sunbaenim?”

Startled at the sound of his stage name, and even more caught off guard by the title sunbaenim, Hyukjae looked up from his spot on the bench, where he’d been staring ponderously at his phone. The face staring down at him in surprise was one that took him barely a second to recognize, even though it was his first time seeing it completely bare. It was hard for anyone in Korea, and especially for someone in the entertainment industry, to not recognize G-Dragon, after all.

But Hyukjae blinked. Despite knowing who was in front of him, it was a bit of a surreal experience. He’d seen GD here and there, of course; music broadcasts, performances, variety shows, and on television, but he’d never spoken to Bigbang’s leader one-on-one in person. Especially not in such a casual setting. GD looked nothing more than normal, his face free of cosmetics, his hair tucked into a cap, dressed in a winter coat, baggy jeans, and boots.

Somehow, the unreal feeling of seeing such a popular star looking so casual wasn’t completely unfamiliar. Hyukjae struggled for a second, trying to remember why he’d experienced it before.

Then he realized it was because he’d felt it often when he was dating Taeyeon, at least in the earlier weeks of their relationship. She was a phenomenally successful star, too, but off-camera, she hardly ever wore makeup, and her sense of fashion was simple and casual, similar to GD at the moment.

Hyukjae fought a grimace at the pang in his stomach, incited by the unintentional memory of his early relationship with Taeyeon. It had been nice then, he thought with what should have been fondness, but had soured to bitterness given their circumstances.

Awkward, but still nice. He’d been nervous, terrified of messing up and upsetting her, awestruck at the prospect that he was dating her in itself, but the butterflies in his stomach and the thumping of his heart had been strangely pleasant.

It dawned on him that GD was still staring at him expectantly, waiting for an answer. Slightly embarrassed, Hyukjae nodded. “Yes,” he muttered, painfully conscious of how strange he must look to the other idol, pacing in front of the gate of the apartment complex in this chilly weather with a bunch of flowers in his hand. “Yes, that’s me.”

GD hesitated, the puzzlement in his eyes plain to see. I can’t blame him, Hyukjae reflected bitterly. I probably look ridiculous.

“This might be none of my business, but … what are you doing here, sunbaenim?”

Hyukjae looked at the ground, wondering how he was going to answer that. As he fished for words trying to explain his senseless actions and situation, a revelation struck him like a lightning bolt. His eyes widened, and he let out an almost inaudible gasp. If he could convince GD to cooperate …

Which likely wouldn’t be easy, Hyukjae realized, scoffing at himself for letting himself get the impression otherwise. He didn’t know GD personally, but Taeyeon talked fondly about Bigbang’s leader, and it was no secret how close they were to each other. It wasn’t hard to see why: they met when they were young, they were in the same agency, they were both leaders of their respective groups, a position that came with considerable burdens. And from what he’d seen of GD on television, his affection for Taeyeon was obvious as well, from the way he looked at her to his comfortable attitude around her to their understated and touchy interactions on camera.

They seemed just like siblings, and Hyukjae knew that if he had a younger sister, he wouldn’t be happy with a person that broke up with her the way he broke up with Taeyeon. GD was being polite now, but if he was aware of Hyukjae’s history with Taeyeon (and there was no way he couldn’t be, not when they were so close), Hyukjae wouldn’t fault the other idol for wanting to punch him.

There was no way he could convince GD to cooperate. None at all. And yet … Hyukjae had to try. He had to.

“Jiyong-sshi?”

“Yes, sunbaenim?” Jiyong looked surprised at the question in response to his question, and Hyukjae felt a tad apologetic. But really, he was too swept up in his mounting desperation to voice his feeling sorry.

“If it’s not too much trouble, can you ask Taeyeon if she can meet me?”

Now the other idol looked outright startled, and frankly, Hyukjae couldn’t find it in himself to be the least bit surprised. Jiyong, no doubt, was shocked at his implied admission of wanting to see Taeyeon after the hurtful way that they went on their separate paths. And Hyukjae didn’t blame him. He didn’t blame Jiyong, not even when he saw anger flickering to life in his eyes.

“I can’t do that, sunbaenim.”

Nor could Hyukjae fault that reaction. In fact, he might have thanked Jiyong for being as calm with his refusal as he was, because Hyukjae was sure if it were him, he would have punched the offending male right in the nose.

Jiyong’s gaze flickered to the bouquet in Hyukjae’s lap, clearly putting two and two together in a flash. He was an intelligent man, Hyukjae knew – Taeyeon wouldn’t be so close to him if he wasn’t. And his suspicion was confirmed when the other idol’s eyes traveled up and down his body once, as if contemplating what to do with him. Jiyong wasn’t pleased with his request; Hyukjae could tell. In fact, he was sure that it was only thanks to the other idol’s naturally calm temperament that he wasn’t beginning to raise his voice.

But he couldn’t give up. He wouldn’t. Not even if the other man (understandably) really punched him.

“Please,” he begged, knowing how desperate he sounded, not caring at all. “Please, I need to see her. I need to talk to her.”

Jiyong took a deep breath and looked away, but Hyukjae could clearly see that it wasn’t because he was wavering. It was a look away that was a blatant attempt to calm himself down, to stop himself from exploding at the source of his frustration – which happened to be Hyukjae himself.

Again, he couldn’t find it in himself to fault Jiyong in the slightest.

“Sunbaenim,” Jiyong said, his voice tight. “Are you asking me to help you meet Taeyeon, knowing what you did to her?”

His junior’s straightforward question caught Hyukjae slightly off guard. What he had done? He … he did know – of course he did. He was more than aware of what he did to Taeyeon. He’d pushed her away, treated her coldly, shunned her without reason. She was always a calm person by nature, rarely one to let her emotions get the better of her and add to the volatility of the situation. They had argued during their time dating, of course, like any normal couple, but he could barely recall any instance that she had become riled up enough to raise her voice. He remembered her getting upset, naturally, but she would always handle her frustration with remarkable tact and calm. It was something Hyukjae admired about her, her self-control. Her self-control that remained almost unwavering, even after their relationship began to fall apart. Even after he… began to ruin everything.

Hyukjae had always felt like she treated him too well, had always marveled at how lucky he was to have her, when he had had her, but now, in hindsight, he couldn’t deny that he was outright ashamed of how good she had been to him. And how unfairly he had repaid her for her patience and devotion with him.

Of course he knew what he did to Taeyeon. And yet here he was, begging her close friend to help him meet her again. This is so laughable.

“Yeah,” he muttered, hanging his head and unable to look Jiyong in the eye. “I am.”

The other idol stood silent for about thirty seconds, and it took those thirty seconds for Hyukjae to gather the nerve to look up at him. When he did, the frustrated hatred simmering in Jiyong’s gaze startled him. He expected Bigbang’s leader to dislike him, even hate him, but why did he look like he was restraining himself, trying to stop something from escaping his mouth?

“I won’t help you, sunbaenim.” The leader of Bigbang’s voice was tense with displeasure. “With all due respect, please leave Taeyeon be. You’ve done enough to her.”

The harshness of the reply caught Hyukjae off guard again; Jiyong had always seemed to be a rather shy person, not at all like the almost larger-than-life G-Dragon that was his stage persona. But of course, he knew, he was probably pushing the limits of the other idol’s patience.

He couldn’t say he hadn’t expected as much. Jiyong sounded firm, sure, confident, and on top of that, Hyukjae could tell as clear as day that the other idol was angry with him. He had a right to be. And Hyukjae – he had never counted himself as the stubborn type, and neither had the people around him – but this time, just this once, he couldn’t budge. No matter how impossible it felt like it would be to convince Jiyong.

“Jiyong-sshi, please. Just this once. Please.” Hyukjae was prepared to get on his knees and beg if he had to. “I need to see her. I’ll regret it forever if I don’t.” It would have been humiliating, pleading with someone he didn’t know like this when said someone was so clearly unwilling to listen, but Hyukjae was past caring at this point. He had to do this.

One more chance. Just one more.

“Oppa, who are you talking to?”

Jiyong spun around at the sound of the very familiar voice, and Hyukjae’s eyes flickered to its source as well. His heart skipped a beat – or more accurately, about ten, and he stiffened, caught off guard by the sudden turn of events.

Because Son Taeyeon was making her way down the sidewalk. She looked as beautiful as Hyukjae remembered her, large brown eyes glinting in the bright light, pink lips smooth and stark against her alabaster skin, black hair tied into a hasty ponytail, a few strands escaping to flutter about her face by the slight wind caused by her momentum. She was bundled up in a black winter coat that sleekly outlined her slender figure, blue jeans, and a pair of brown winter boots.

“Taeyeon,” Jiyong sounded a tad bit frantic, no doubt not happy that his friend had walked across her ex-boyfriend. At the same time, though, he didn’t try to block her or usher her away, and for that, Hyukjae was grateful. Even when Taeyeon’s eyes landed on him and she stopped in her tracks, a blank expression settling on her face, stifling any hint of emotion.

A few seconds of awkward silence passed, and Hyukjae swore that Taeyeon did it on purpose to unnerve him. Jiyong didn’t say anything, just stepped away from the bench and watched Taeyeon resignedly, like he was unsure about the situation but deciding to leave it up to his friend to decide what to do.

“What are you doing here?” Taeyeon’s entire demeanor was calm, which was both surprising and unsurprising at the same time. Surprising because the way that they split hadn’t been pretty, and Taeyeon had walked out the door of their shared apartment, slamming it behind her. Unsurprising because that was the one time he’d ever seen her lose her temper like that, and usually when arguments struck, she talked curtly and mildly, voicing her displeasure with her words but not with her volume.

“I…” Despite having badgered Jiyong so insistently to help him see Taeyeon, when actually faced with his ex-girlfriend, Hyukjae found that he was somewhat at a loss for words. “I needed to see you.”

Next to the bench, Jiyong-sshi let out a frustrated breath through his nose, but he remained silent and kept his eyes on Taeyeon, who kept her eyes on Hyukjae. He couldn’t get a hint of what she was thinking – her face remained carefully neutral and she studied him as if deciding he was worth her time. It wasn’t a pleasant feeling to be appraised like that, but Hyukjae knew better than anyone that he deserved it. The fact that Taeyeon was even bothering to look his way again was more than he could have dared hope for. This was nothing – just as long as he could talk to her, this was nothing. “Please,” he added softly.

She inspected him for a moment longer before turning to Jiyong. “Jiyong-oppa,” she said, “I’m really sorry, but can we delay for a little bit?”

Bigbang’s leader glanced back at Hyukjae, the misgivings on his mind obvious, and Hyukjae, for the millionth time, found himself unable to hold it against the other idol. “Are you sure?” Bigbang’s leader asked, his voice laced with protective concern.

“I’m not,” Taeyeon replied, never taking her eyes off of Hyukjae. “But I’ll give you a chance. Come on.”

[myspacetaeyong]

A hope in spring

Character: Donghae/OC

Genre: Romance, comedy

Rating: PG

Word Count: 2783

Summary:  After a lunch that didn’t go as expected, Donghae invites you to his dance practice. This time, things must go better.

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6 / Final

Today was the day you would finally date Donghae. Coincidentally, it was also the day you were supposed to meet him, Hyukjae, and Heechul at the dance studio – actually, just Donghae and Hyukjae. You agreed with Heechul that you’d go there together. And Heechul agreed to help you out with Donghae. So, today you both had missions; you wouldn’t lose your shit around Donghae’s dancing, and Heechul would help create the perfect environment for the confession.

You were just about to leave when your phone buzzed. It was a message from Donghae, followed by another from Heechul. You opened the first one.

“Hyukjae’s going to be a bit late :( So don’t hurry, ok? ^^”

 Should I reply? I already read the message… He’ll know I read it. Must get advice from Heechul. You opened the message from the second sender.

 “Guess what your love just texted me? The monkey’s gonna be late, which mean, I’m gonna be late. Shoot your shot, sunshine.”

“he messaged me too

I read the messag

what do I do?

do I repl?”

“I think that’s what most people would do, yes.”

“what do I say?????????

HE etold me `don hurry ok? ^^’”

“Tell him that you got his message, and leave anyway. When you get there act like you accidentally arrived early.”

“thank uuuuu ure my life saver”

“You owe me. Now text the man.”

Time to message Donghae.

“Okay ^^. Do you know how long he’ll be?” Is that too much? Will he think I’m desperate?

“Hopefully not too long :( I’m going to get lonely otherwise. And we need to practise.

But don’t worry!” He replied too quickly.

“I’ll see you, then. Do you need anything?” My heart, maybe?

“A support banner for me and Hyukjae? ^^

I’m joking.

Your presence is enough.” sjkdksjdkdjskldjadjadjkla

 Time to go. If you hurry, you can get there in about 15 minutes. The dance studio is in this new, fancy building belonging to one of the biggest entertainment companies in the region. However, Donghae… and Hyukjae, were just choreographers. Had they been idols, they would’ve been critically-acclaimed, international artists. Naturally, such power had to be contained. That didn’t stop them from being too popular on social media. You heard from Heechul, who heard from either of them, that Donghae got asked for selfies and autographs when he went out sometimes. And you were pretty sure they had a fancafe.

It was nice outside. Not too warm, and not too cold. There was a gentle breeze that blew the petals to the ground. It resembled snow, but it smelled a lot better. Maybe you could grab some coffees for the boys, a token of appreciation for allowing you to see them dance up-close. You’d seen the videos they uploaded, but this would be different.

What kind of coffee do they like? You wondered, approaching the coffee shop. Americano, maybe?

Your train of thought was interrupted by the cashier. ‘Hello! What would you like to order?’

‘Uh… Three Americanos… and… that pink frappe special thingy? In medium?’

‘Sure. Three medium Americanos, and a medium Spring Frappe. Will that be all?’

‘Yes, yes. Thanks.’

Soon after you had your drinks. Maybe they all wanted a frappe? Should I have asked? Too late, I guess.

 When you arrived in front of the company building you realised you missed one thing – you didn’t know what floor, what room, or how exactly to enter the place. You went to the front desk.

‘Hi…’ you gave the secretary a small smile. She didn’t return it.

‘Hello, do you have business here?’

‘Yeah, I’m supposed to see Donghae.’

‘Really?’

‘Yes…’

‘You’re the third person to try that today. Please leave the building or you will be escorted outside.’

‘But it’s true!’ you retorted. ‘I know him.’

She glared at you, and pointed at the door. So much for impressing Donghae. Guess you’ll have to call him. Ughhhhhh.

You went outside and called Donghae. It didn’t go through the third ring. He picked up.

 ‘Hey! What’s up?’ He was cheerful.

‘Hey… I got a bit of an issue. They won’t let me in the building?’

‘Oh, crap. I totally forgot to leave the name at the front desk.’

‘No, don’t worry about it.’

‘I’m really sorry, I’ll get you right now.’ He was worried. He felt bad. For me…

 A few minutes later you saw Donghae running down a corridor, and stopping to speak with the lady at the front desk. He looked a bit… angry. He leaned over the desk, picked up a post it note, and wrote something on it. Then, he stuck it to her monitor. He turned to you, and sprinted.

‘Did you wait long?’ he smiled at you. At. You.

‘No, it’s quite nice out here actually.’ You raised the bag. ‘I got some coffee.’

‘Oh, wow. That’s super nice. Is this mine?’ he pointed to your pink frappe.

‘Yeah.’ You half smiled.

‘I’ve wanted to try this for days! Man, you completely read my mind.’

You would exchange all the coffee in the world for the smile he just gave you.

‘I guess I did, huh.’

‘Totally! Let me show you around.’ He paused. ‘Oh, let me carry these, ’ and took the coffee bag from your hand.

He put his soft hand on your back, and guided you to the lift. He took the first sip of his drink, and paused. ‘This tastes like heaven. Wanna try?’

‘Sure.’ He tilted the drink towards you.

‘What do you think?’ It was incredible. You had to get one for yourself later. A big one.

‘It’s pretty good.’

‘Have you noticed how you always use words like “a little, a bit, pretty” before describing something? It’s cute.’ He scrunched his nose before the last part.

Who knew he was so observant? And most of all, he thought you did something cute! Win.

‘I didn’t.’

‘You do, man! Freaking cute.’ Man? Does he… think of me as his bro? Is this… a bromance? The lift dinged. ‘Oh, we’re here. Come.’

Donghae motioned for you to follow him. ‘They moved to a new building, and the practice rooms are so nice. They put these laptops and screens, and you can cover the mirrors now. And they’re much bigger than before! And! We have a sort of lounge area in this practice room. Which means, you… can sit down! Isn’t it great?’

It was really cute when he got excited. Everything he did was cute, but this was extra cute.

‘Yeah! Fantastic!’

‘It’s nice that you get me.’

Donghae opened the door. ‘After you.’ He’s a gentleman too.

‘Thank you.’

‘Don’t worry about it.’ He smiled again. ‘So, that’s the couches. You can sit there. Or, you can sit on the floor if you want. But your butt will get sore after a while.’

‘I think the couches are just peachy.’

‘”Just peachy.” That’s cute.’ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

 You sat where Donghae showed you, and he placed the rest of the drinks near your feet. He sat down in front of you; he crossed his legs, and leant back.

‘Isn’t this exciting? You’re going to see me dance for the first time!’ he tilted his head to the side. ‘I’m a little nervous too.’

‘Oh, is it because of me?’

He closed his eyes and laughed. ‘You’re a… different audience.’ He leaned forward. ‘But, tell me honestly, have you seen videos of me dance?’

‘I mean… I follow you on Instagram and stuff… I watch them sometimes.’

‘That’s funny, you see.’ Donghae smirked. ‘Because I noticed something.’

‘What’s that?’

‘You liked every single one of my posts on Instagram. And you watch all my stories too.’

‘Huh… would you look at that…’ You looked away. Donghae noticed, as he did with every other thing, it seemed. He got up on his feet. He got closer, and grabbed your chin. Gently.

‘Why won’t you look at me?’ he whispered.

‘Donghaeeeeeee! I’m her-‘ yelled Hyukjae. ‘Why didn’t you answer? I messaged you like-’

Heechul pushed him aside to see exactly what he had interrupted. Then he slapped the back of Hyukjae’s neck.

‘Ouch. Don’t you think that was unnecessary?’

‘Don’t push it, or I’ll make you unnecessary.’

Donghae rushed away from you. ‘You’re here!’ He looked down and grabbed the bag. ‘Look, someone got us coffee!’

‘Oh, sweet! I love Americano.’ Hyukjae took a sip. ‘Aah, so refreshing! Thank you!’

‘Don’t you feel more American now?’ asked Donghae.

Hyukjae laughed. ‘I feel like Bruno Mars, man’

‘I’ve been told I sing like him.’

‘Who lied to you?’ Heechul said. He then looked at you, disappointed. He grabbed his coffee from Donghae, and sprawled next to you on the couch. ‘Why don’t you guys start?’

‘I just got here, let me stretch.’ said Hyukjae.

‘Yeah, stretching is important. When we’re done, you’ll get the best show ever.’

 The guys started stretching, so Heechul turned to you.

‘What happened before I got here?’

‘He told me that he knows I stalk his social media,’ you whispered.

‘We all know that.’

‘What?’

‘Literally everyone knows that you crush Donghae and stalk his Instagram, his Facebook, his Twitter-‘

‘Okay, okay.’

‘You think he knows you have notifications for his posts?’ Heechul raised his eyebrows at you.

‘Oh god… I hope not.’

‘I’m gonna ask later, don’t worry. That’s why Dr. Love is here.’

‘Please don’t call yourself that.’

‘You hate it because it’s true.’

You gave him a disgusted look, and Hyukjae caught that.

‘Funny, that’s exactly how I look at Heechul too.’

‘Listen here, you little-‘ Heechul was about to get up, but you grabbed his arm. ‘I’m not done with you!’ he threatened.

‘Get back to your story.’

‘I got shy and looked away and he grabbed my face and said “Why won’t you look at me?”’

‘He did what?!’

 Donghae and Hyukjae turned to the two of you.

‘Don’t you have some stretching to do?’ said Heechul.

‘I mean, if someone hurt-‘ Donghae started.

‘No one hurt anyone. Just my brain cells.’

‘So it was one of us then?’ asked Hyukjae.

‘Careful, monkey man. I might start liking you.’ Heechul smiled back at Hyukjae.

‘Take me on a date somewhere nice. I’ll wear that T-shirt I borrowed.’

Donghae laughed at the exchanged. He loved it when his friends got along. He looked at you and smiled. Your heart melted.

Heechul waved his hand in front of your eyes. ‘Ground control to Major Tom.’

‘Yeah?’

‘Stop gazing lovingly in the eyes of your man.’

‘But smiled at me.’

‘He smiles at everyone.’ He shook his head. ‘At least you admit to staring.’

‘I don’t stare.’

‘Uh huh.’

‘Is Hyukjae in on this?’

‘Slushie, if Donghae had more than one brain cell he’d know it too.’

‘Yeah, I get that. But is he in on /the mission/?’

‘He might be,’ answered Heechul, as he slurped his watered down coffee.

 Donghae ran to you. He held out his phone, with Instagram running.

‘We’re going to start dancing, do you think you can livestream it?’ He gave you the cutest smile. His eyes were twinkling too.

‘Sure thing!’ Sure thing? God.

‘Film horizontally, people need to see our moves.’ yelled Hyukjae.

‘Okay!’ you yelled back.

‘I believe in you.’ said Donghae. He put his hand on your right shoulder, and ran back.

‘You too!’

‘”Enjoy your meal.” “Thanks, you too.”’ said Heechul to you.

‘I thought you came to help me.’

‘I will, but I can’t do much when they’re dancing.’ he whispered. ‘They invited us to watch them work.’

‘Fair point.’

You looked back at the screen and Donghae already had 10k people watching. It was incredible how many fans he had, for someone who wasn’t an idol. You weren’t the only one who liked Donghae, as you’d noticed time and time again in the comment section. Shaking off invasive thoughts, you turned your attention back to the guys, and made sure to keep the camera steady.

After finishing the dance routine, Donghae ran to you. He took his phone back and turned the camera to the front.

‘What did you all think? Was it good? We worked really hard to give you a good performance.’

‘Stan D&H! Don’t forget to stream.’ added Hyukjae.

‘I hoped you really enjoyed this! We have to go now!’

 Donghae and Hyukjae quickly finished their goodbyes, and decided to take a short break. While Donghae was downing his frappe, Hyukjae offered you his hand. Naturally, you were confused.

‘Come on, I won’t bite.’

‘You’ve bitten me before.’ noted Donghae.

‘I’m just offering a dance.’

Donghae pouted. ‘You never offer me any.’

‘What are you talking about? We dance together all the time!’

‘We never slow dance!’

Hyukjae’s eyes doubled in size. ‘I wasn’t going to slow dance.’

‘Still, you never slow danced with me.’

‘We can slow dance if you really want.’ Hyukjae said, and raised his eyebrows.

Donghae smiled upon hearing that. ‘I do.’

 Heechul looked at Donghae. Then, he looked at Hyukjae. Finally, he turned to you. Things were not going the way he wanted.

‘Are you going to do that now? Because, if we’re interrupting, we’ll just go’ asked Heechul.

‘Oh, we won’t slow dance now! But we wanted to show you the main dance.’ exclaimed Donghae.

‘So you’re just going to kick us out to dance with Hyukjae, is that it?’

‘I think “kicking out” sounds a bit harsh, don’t you?’ added Hyukjae.

‘But that is what you’re doing.’

‘We need to teach the kids the dance. It’s not like that, you know we love you.’

‘Yeah, we really love you!’ said Donghae.

‘Okay, okay. We’re leaving.’

‘You guys were great!’ you said.

‘Thanks, you’re great too!’ said Hyukjae.

 He gave you a quick hug, while Donghae waved cutely.

‘Maybe we’ll host you again?’

‘You call this hosting, monkey man?’ asked Heechul.

‘I’ll up my MCing skills by next time.’

‘Yoo Jaesuk has nothing on you, Hyukkie.’ confessed Donghae.

‘We’re out!’ announced Heechul, as he waved his hand behind him, never looking back.

 Before you left the building, you noticed the lady at the front desk glare. Heechul walked with you half the way home, as he suddenly decided he needed a haircut.

‘I’m gonna look even more beautiful, slushie.’

‘Didn’t know it was possible.’

‘Just you wait. I’ll talk to you later, okay? We’ll figure this whole Donghae situation out.’

‘You really think there’s something I can do?’

‘Worst case scenario he doesn’t like you.’

‘Thanks, I feel so much better.’

‘I’m not a motivational speaker, alright? I gotta run now.’

 Later that day, you decided to message Donghae, and thank him for inviting you to rehearsal. You opened the app, and clicked on his name. Then you stared. You didn’t want to bother Heechul or your best friend yet. You could talk to him on your own this time. It would be fine.

“dear donghae,” No. Can’t write that. You deleted that.

“hey, are you done with rehearsal yet?” Does that sound too curious? You deleted that too.

“just messaging you to let you know that im thankful for inviting me to see you dance” Jesus. No. No. No. You quickly tried to delete that, but you accidentally clicked on the Call button. Well, shit. Before you could click End, Donghae picked up.

 ‘Hey! I wasn’t expecting you to call me. What’s good?’ said Donghae. He didn’t sound bothered by the phone call, which was good.

‘I didn’t mean to, sorry!’ You, on the other hand, sounded way too panicky.

‘It’s okay, don’t worry. It happens to me all the time. Sometimes I call and don’t even realise. Once time I butt dialled Hyukkie when I was on the toilet, and I wasn’t-‘

‘That’s fine! I don’t need to know! I have to go now, bye!’ you blurted, and ended the call.

 I’ll just leave a message explaining, then hope I’ll forget this.

“I wanted to say thanks for inviting me to rehearsal. Sorry for calling.” Sent.

Donghae is typing… Already?

“It’s fine! I hope you enjoyed it. ^^”

“Yeah! I’m your biggest fan.” What did I just type.

“I think I might’ve seen taller. :D” Eye roll. “But, who do you think danced better, me or hyukkie?”

“you!!!” Did I reply too quickly?

“Heh, maybe you are my biggest fan. <3” HEART. HE. ADDED. A. HEART.

 Your conversation with Donghae ended there. You went to sleep, hoping to dream sweet dreams of sweet Donghae. Little did you know that when you’d wake up, a spring frappe delivery from a certain someone would be waiting for you. One thing was certain, today was not the day you would finally date Donghae.