#huge fan of the comma myself

[chiefguideandcentre]

You know, as the youngest in my family, growing up, a lot of my opinions were my siblings and parents opinions. Comes with the territory of being the youngest I guess, I watched all of them and incorporated “them” into my personality so to speak. Most of it was silly too. Like I behaved a certain way bc my older sister did and that’s how I thought I was supposed to be (*surprise* we are completely different and that’s a good thing bc she’s not a nice person and we are currently estranged), or my brother hated a certain college football team so I did too (I don’t even care about football), or my dad hated several popular 80s rock hair bands bc he thought they were ridiculous. So, I thought that too and said I hated them for years even though I was actually neutral. Now, as an adult, I’m still trying to figure out which opinions are actually mine. Turns out I love those completely ridiculous 80s hair bands. I actually like Van Halen, Def Leppard, and Motley Crue! Their songs are generally upbeat, catchy, and fun to play really loud when driving down the highway. All those guys ARE completely ridiculous and that’s basically the point. They are over the top on purpose. They are complete losers and I love them for it. It just feels like a shame that I missed out on years of listening to them bc I’m apparently incapable of making my own opinions. Anyways, that’s just what I’m thinking about as I listen to Kickstart my Heart by Motley. Unimportant info for y’all today

[saradika-graphics]

thank you so much for answering my previous ask! i’ve thought it over and asked some friends, and we gathered some ideas. sorry if it’s a lot!!

for some of these, i removed will’s name from the quotes. i figured it’d look/flow better that way

- will’s clock (i attached an image as an example at the end)

- “this is all i ever wanted for you. for both of us.”

- “if i saw you forever, i would remember this day.”

- “this is my design.”

- “i’m not fortune’s fool. i’m yours.”

- “this poet wrote you a poem. are you going to let his love go to waste?”

- “i’ve never known myself as well as i know myself when i’m with him.”

- “killing must feel good to god.”

- here’s the full quote: “killing must feel good to god, too. he does it all the time, and are we not created in his image?”

- could maybe make cool matching dividers?

- “it’s nice to have an old friend for dinner.”

- “i am who i’ve always been. the scales have just fallen from my eyes. i can see you now.”

- “No one can be fully aware of another human being unless we love them.”

- full quote: “No one can be fully aware of another human being unless we love them. By that love we see potential in our beloved. Through that love we allow our beloved to see their potential. Expressing that love, our beloved's potential comes true.”

i also am a huge fan of the movie “the silence of the lambs,” and, if you don’t mind, i compiled some quotes from the movie you could maybe use?

- “a census taker tried to test me once. i ate his liver with some fava beans a nice chianti.”

- “i do wish we could chat longer, but i’m having an old friend for dinner.”

- “well, clarice, have the lambs stopped screaming?”

- “you fly back to school now, little starling. fly, fly, fly.”

- “quid pro quo”

- full quote: “quid pro quo. i tell you things, you tell me things.”

- i think maybe this one could make a good divider too? or naybe like a matching set?

- “Caterpillar into chrysalis, or pupa, and from thence into beauty.”

- here’s the full quote: “The significance of the moth is change. Caterpillar into chrysalis, or pupa, and from thence into beauty. Our Billy wants to change, too.”

- "Of each particular thing, ask: What is it in itself? What is its nature?”

- full quote: “First principles, Clarice: simplicity. Read Marcus Aurelius, "Of each particular thing, ask: What is it in itself? What is its nature?””

- “his pulse never got above 85, even when he ate her tongue.”

- maybe as two dividers, split where the comma is?

- “memory, agent starling, is what i have instead of a view.”

i’ve looked over this list and it’s WAY longer than i initially thought it was, i’m sorry 😭 i don’t mean to flood you or anything, genuinely — i’m just a big enjoyer of the show & movie 😭🙏🙏 thank you for entertaining my ask!

and last but not least, will’s clock:

Thank you so much for these suggestions! I had thought of Will’s clock initially - the dividers are just so narrow, that I worried the detail would be lost. I have some ideas for it, though!

I’ll also pick some quotes from this list, and have a set queued for later this week (right now I am thinking about 12 or so dividers total, including the clock!) 💕

[just-otter-thoughts]

Hello

Hi! Welcome to my blog.

My name is Lex, but you can also call me Mason, Opeth, Vladislav (Vlad for short), Aragorn, Ezra, Thall and Paddy. I'm a certified otter and wish I had the confidence to post thirst traps like all these other otters on Tumblr. This blog is just posts that I think are cool and original funnyposts. I may reblog fanart and furry art sometimes.

I really fucking like music, especially progressive metalcore and progressive death metal (and a touch of djent). My favorite bands are Jinjer, Periphery, Opeth, Meshuggah and A Sense of Gravity. I also like pop (Billie Eilish, Melanie Martinez, Britney Spears) and EDM (Crystal Castles, Alice Glass). I like screaming a lot (the metal kind). Oh, and there's some artists I really like that I don't know how to categorize (Kim Dracula, Jazmin Bean). I'd like to be in a band at some point doing vocals.

I really fucking like Half-Life. Like really. If you want me to I can narrate the entire story from Half-Life 1 all the way over to Half-Life 2 Episode 2. I also am a huge fan of Portal and speedrun Portal 1. Under the cut is my latest Portal Inbounds run (257th place as of writing this).

I write fanfic sometimes, you can find that stuff under #writing and #fanfiction. Sometimes there'll be a poem and original fiction here and there.

Under the cut is my tagging system and some alt codes for myself (though you can use them as well). This post will have all the tags because Tumblr's search feature is dookie.

All the tags that use "Mason" as a first name are older, the ones that use "Lex" are newer. I'm tagging both because changing all the posts with the old tag would be a hassle.

#mason speaks his mind & #lex speaks his mind — Original posts.

#mason does vocals — Currently don't use this tag much, I used to post singing clips and what I thought were safe fry screams. Please don't listen to the screams. Please.

#mason takes meds — Inactive tag that I once used to report on how my psych meds were affecting me.

#lex shows himself — Pictures of me.

#lyric posting — Sometimes I just feel like posting lyrics and sometimes I like to go back and see those posts.

#important — Legal things and things to look at when feeling down.

I have a dreamcore/liminalcore sideblog which is @abaddon-of-secrets. I don't use it a lot at the moment but there's still stuff there. I also have a ventblog but I don't want anyone seeing that shit.

Hex codes for special characters:

U+2003 ->  [EM SPACE]

U+2013 -> – [EN DASH]

U+2014 -> — [EM DASH]

U+01F7 → Ƿ Uppercase Wynn

U+01BF → ƿ Lowercase Wynn

U+201A -> ‚ [SINGLE LOW-9 QUOTATION MARK] (comma for tags)

U+2122 -> ™ [TRADEMARK SYMBOL]

U+2026 -> … [HORIZONTAL ELLIPSIS]

Post that leads to alternate dashboards

Portal Inbounds run (no video only demos)

Portal Inbounds run with video (2min slower than my current PB)

[ahdriking]

A03 wrapped 3 and 29

Love you Ames! Prepare yourself for some unnecessarily LONG and introspective answers 😂

3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?

Blue Blood. Probably goes without saying 😂 however! I'll pick from my one shots too! Of all of them Make Me Come Undone stands out the most. AND I'LL TELL YOU WHY.

It's not just that it's SUPER long, it's not just that it has more orgasms/orgasm descriptions than any other fic I've written, it's not just that it's super fucking kinky and I still kinda blush when thinking about it- it's that it was fucking hard. Sometimes when writing fic it's a straight shot from start to finish, you feel inspired from the get go and that carries you to the end. But other times? You run out of steam. And you feel like giving up. And it gets really difficult.

Make Me Come Undone started off as a side project to refresh me from Blue Blood, as a gift fic for @kissporsche (who was very stubborn about giving me kinks, she was all "but I'll love anything you write!!"). The motivating, main kink I eventually got her excited about was "overstimulation and punishment" and everything else was kinda up in the air. I was keen to start it, inspired to explore it. But I ran out of steam after 500 words. Maybe it was the intimidating factor of knowing how many orgasms I'd have to creatively and non-repetitively describe, or maybe it was the fact that it was meant to be reasonably short but the finish line just kept getting further and further and further away, making progress feel stagnant. I don't know! All I know is that eventually I was at the point of having to either decide to abandon it temporarily, or force myself to knuckle the fuck down and do it. You can probably guess which one I went with 😂

The writing process was a constant game of oh we're at 3k? Probably well over halfway. Oh we're at 6k? Uhh I'm sure it'll wrap up soon. Shit 9k? What the hell is happening?? 12k??? This is getting out of hand???? 15k??????? WHAT HAVE I DONE. Honestly, after we hit 7k mark and I realised there was still so much I wanted to explore, the rest of the process was just laughing hysterically while tears streamed down my face.

As soon as it was finished, I wanted to just post it and move on (it was SUPER DIFFICULT not immediately shoving it under Kissporsche's nose, because she's my beta/muse and I crave her approval ahah) because I'm not a huge fan of editing- I'll give every fic a once over, and when it's really important (like blue blood) I'll invest serious time into it, but I prefer to be diligent during the writing process and re-read/edit sections as I go so that I don't really have to. I also tend to rely quite heavily on my betas 😂 But Make Me Come Undone had gotten to be so big, so fucking monumental, that I couldn't stand the thought of having done SO MUCH work on it, only for it to end up sub-par because I couldn't be bothered to edit. So I sent out a call on the discord to see if anyone would be up for reading it, because @kissporsche wasn't allowed to see it till it was done.

@mortimerlatrice volunteered, and I was like awesome! It's always a little scary getting someone to beta for you the first time--because you never know if your styles will clash, or if they'll be able to work in line with your vision, or if they'll invest as much love/care/energy into it as you want from them-- but I had a good feeling about Mort, who's art I adored. And then do you know what happened? This stunning individual, this saint, this god, went through all 15k with a fine toothed comb like they were being paid to do it. They murdered my commas, tidied my grammar, challenged my repetitions, suggested improvements, provided entertaining commentary, HIGHLIGHTED IT LIKE AN ENGLISH REPORT, poured over each section individually and collectively, re-read it at least 4-5 times, answered all my questions, investigated all my concerns, and spent fucking hours doing it. I was not only blown away by their dedication and competence, but I was personally humbled by their attention to detail and desire to make the fic the best version of itself that it could be. It had been my intention to have Mort edit it, integrate their changes/suggestions, and post it. But after I got that first draft back, I literally couldn't. There was just too much more that could be done to improve the fic, and after all the work Mort had done, I couldn't not do it. So, instead I religiously went through the whole damn thing again, picked Mort's brain relentlessly for various ideas/improvements, genuinely restructured entire sections, spent time meticulously investigating the dynamics/continuity for quality and consent-levels control, and just generally fucking worked some damn magic on that fic over the course of 2 more days, passing it back and forth with Mort, until it was done.

Editing Make Me Come Undone was the longest, most meticulous and most arduous refinement process than I have ever committed to for a single fic. So not only had it been quite challenging and taxing to write, but it had been a monumental effort to edit as well! But I tell you what. When Mort and I finally finished that last edit, and I could sit back and look at the whole thing completely, I have never felt more fucking proud of a fic. I was genuinely, deeply impressed with it. Normally, when publishing fics, there's always a part of me that thinks it could probably be better, or that maybe it isn't really that great, that's just a natural part of my nerves. But with this fic? I have never felt so absolutely, unabashedly confident that it was amazing. I was 100% happy with it. That was the reason I called it my magnum opus- not just cos it was impressively long, but because it truly is the most professionally, dazzlingly perfected fic I've ever written.

Basically tl;dr Make Me Come Undone was a hell of a project, but thanks to the magical talents of @mortimerlatrice, and with a little bit of extra effort on my behalf, it truly feels like the most high quality fic I feel like I've ever written.

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

I'm really terrible at these kinds of questions, cos I don't fuckin remember what I've written most of the time 😂 I remember having moments where I'm writing something and I feel moved by it, or amused by it, or excited about the layers to it, but I cannot for the life of me recall any off the top of my head. The one exception to this is "Better to dance with the devil than wait with god on your dance card" cos @kissporsche specifically pointed that out during their edit 😂

I'd be curious to know though if anyone does have any favourite lines of mine that come to mind? It's always really inspiring to see what impacts people!

Anyway, if you've made it this far I'm giving you a pat on the head and a kiss on the cheek for being such a cool fan!! I really appreciate you 🥰🥰🥰

[armyhome]

Lost In Your Love Story | Yeonjun

⇢ summary: Hwa Suji is a very skilled makeup artist who works at her best friend's salon, serving major Korean entertainment companies and that includes the artists she is a fan of: Tomorrow x Together! One day when protecting one of the members, she ends up having a car accident that takes her to another universe! The universe of your favorite fanfic called "Winter Song" but the thing is, life is not a strawberry, her new universe got a target on her back, she's the villain and has no idea how survive this cannon.

⇢ pairing: Choi Yeonjun x Hwa Suji.

⇢ Chapter 1 : Life is not a strawberry.

⇢ Chapter 2 : Love is a Disease.

⇢ Chapter 3 : Made a little cookie...

⇢ Chapter 4 / 5 / 6

⇢ Chapter 7 : Why Don't You Stay?

⇢Chapter 8: Beyond this universe

⇢ Chapter 09 : I know I love you

⇢ Chapter 10: Lips on You

⇢ Chapter 11: Opening Sequence

⇢ Chapter 12: Sour

⇢Chapter 13: Waiting for a lifetime for you

Chapter [14/16]: Breaking Down

POV Suji

Six months later

I took a deep breath and pressed the play on the camera one more time.

"I decide, to start all this, by telling about myself, and how makeup change my life because this is the main point of my life, I meet my best friend, slash, sister, slash, soulmate, during make attempted on became a chemistry engineer, then we give up on university, mom wasn't happy about it, but once she saw our business working out she accepted, even not being happy with that, but she knew overall thing how makeup helps during my teenagerhood!" I applied foundation on my skin blending with the concealer " I suffered an accident at school, and that fine line crossing my face was huge, today is a little bit smaller, but that's when I fall for makeup because hide this, and kids stop calling me monster, etc…" I start to used contour to make my nouse more elevated "I think people don't know real monsters, that's why they use this word so lightly.." I keep recording my tutorial, and practicing speaking to the camera, is getting easier, but always gives me a big headache, dreams that look like memories battle with reality in my mind. I press the stop once I ended, and take a deep breath.

Since I woke up in that hospital, I had crazy dreams, I was so afraid to tell the doctor that I kept to myself, but sometimes they were so real to me that I mixed them with my real world, even more since Yeonjun and I get closer. So I decided to focus as much as possible on the present, recording things, like my day, my make-up, and my thoughts, I didn't post anything, was just the way I found to canalize all those feelings. So TXT's company thought would be great material to help both sides to tell our side of the history since so much was talked about while we aren't able to defend ourselves. 

So I decided to do a makeup tutorial, with all members, but one by one, all with their next comeback concept, something very fairy, with a daydreams vibe, I would show how I work on their skin, which colors I like to use o these concepts, all the details. 

"You know, I almost lose my mind while you don't wake up…" Jieun says helping me organize the makeup, I look at her, this was so random "You know, I kept sending you massages, even knowing you wouldn't respond," I hug her "You're my only family Sujiah, you know that right?"

"You're my family too unnie" I kiss her chick "And you have Taehyun too…" The worlds scape through my mouth, and the moment I close my mouth I know I mixed my dream with reality shit!

"How did you discover?" WAIT! WATH? "Or you finally read the new version of that manhwa and…"

"WAIT! YOU…HIM…OH MY GOD!" breath Suji, breath "Did, you guys have conversations in my room, while I was in a comma?" Jieun searched for her memories…"My god, how long have you guys been together?"

"Little bit before your accident, I would tell you, but this chaos happened, and you looked so fragile when you woke up, I decided to wait until you fully recover.." And maybe my dream was based on the conversations around me… I sigh, this was so much better explanation.

"I'm happy about you two, don't worry, but take care to not hurt yourself, he is an idol, and we know how these things work…" Jieun hugs me.

"I'll take care," She looks at her cell phone, "It's time Yeonjun will be here soon" My heart lose a beat for a while "Do you think will be fine if only two of you are here?"

"Yes, there are things that we only feel comfortable saying when are two of us, things that only we understand without judging, and the camera is a lot of pressure already…" I explain.

"Okay, I will be upstairs, anything, just scream okay?" She kisses my forehead and leaves the room.

I sit in front camera to record some introductions, deep breaths, Hwa Suji, you can do this, fighting, one two three.

"Hi, my name is Hwa Suji! Most of you know me because I trow a trash can on a guy," I laugh "I watched your remakes all over social media, you guys are so much cooler than I! Well, I'm here because a lot of things have been said about me, and I just wanna people to know me, through me. Does that make any sense?" I tight my hair  "And to not say I'm being biased, I'll bring some people that know me to tell, honestly, who I'm… Wellcome mom" I Open my arms like she was in the room, and laugh again "Just kidding, but I'm really bringing people that worked with me, and I'll do my favorite thing on them, make-up! Hope you guys enjoy…" At the moment someone, probably Yeonjun, "Look, someone is already here let's see who it is?" So I pause the recording.

When I open de door Yeonjun gives me the bright smile he has and hugs me, I would never become used to being his friend, I hug him back. 

"How have you been," He asks without letting me go.

"Just much as fine as I was the last time we talk one hour ago" We laugh "How was your training? You're not pushing yourself too hard right?" 

"No, I like promised you"

"Okay, let's start before Parallel 38 appears…" He gently puts me against the wall, I can feel his breath so close, a flash of the dreams in my mind.

"Are you trying to get rid of me?" The way he looks at me makes me shiver, and my stomach contract. He was playing with me, I roll my eyes.

"I'll throw a trash can on you if you don't step back.."We laugh at the joke we always use with each other "Let's start recording before HYBE sends the ROKU to me"

"Okay, where do I sit?" I point the cair in my mini scenario "Wow! You really put effort into thins!" He sits on the chair I was sitting before, and I start recording again.

"And our guest today is the amazing, the only one, my best buddy in the afterlife, Choi Yeonjun!" We clap together "You wanna say something Jun?" He looks into my eyes, sometimes I feel he is looking for someone inside me, I don't know how to explain it.

"Hi, I'm Yeonjun of TXT" He browns "First, one more time I wanna apologize to make my love, moas worried! Is really nice to be here, alive with my dearest friend, the best make-up artist on this planet, Hwa Suji! Moa doesn't need to worry about my safety while I'm with noona, cause they know you throw a trash can power!"

"Okay, no more trash can jokes, is enough, let's start work, Jun today has a photo shoot for TXT's next album, and I think moas will love the whole concept" I start to tight his hair and moisturize his skin "Now beyond do makeup we're here to tell about our history, during this chaos…How do you feel when you wake up?" 

"Was like wake up from a long dream…" He simply says " And you noona?" I start to apply the primer.

"The last thing I remember was the car, it feels like we were flying, trying to hold your hand, and then I was in the hospital, The first thing I feel was worry, because that guy, I was afraid that while I was unconscious he was able to do something with you…" I touch his chin to move his face and verify if I fully cover his skin. 

"That's so you, worry more about others than yourself…" I show the primer on the camera, all the products were from labels that TXT's members were the face of the label.

"This prime gives you so much glow, you all will be so perfect for this comeback, how are you feeling about seeing Moas again?" Yeonjun put his right hand on the left side of his chest.

"So excited, I miss them so much!" I start to draw his eyebrows.

"I know they're feeling the same, now can you give they a little spoiler?" I ask starting to softly apply concealer on specific spots.

"Will be really sweet, a lot of Sugar involved!" I start to apply foundation on this skin "Now, my turn, your favorite manhwa will become a k-drama, are you excited?"

"Well a little bit, I heard the author change a feel thing, I didn't have time to read yet because of work, but I'll real soon as possible, L.M. Andrade is my favorite author, so I will definitely read it, maybe I will do a live reading, I don't know…"  I start the work on his eyes "Did you read?"

"Yes," He looks up automatically so I could apply the eyeliner "I like this so much more this version than the previous one" I start to use blush Yeonjun look right into my eyes and I end up applying too much.

"Don't move" I turn to pick the tissue to remove, and once I turn to Yeonjun is like someone scratched my mind, the left eye of Yeonjun is full of tears, and the other is worried "You can hold a little bit Jun, I know that," I say without knowing why I was saying that, so I use the tissue to remove the blush "See, you made it, now your lips," I apply the lip gloss, focus as much as possible "It's done!" I show Yeonjun's face to the camera "Hope you guys enjoy it. See you next time" I just press pause on the camera before I fall, I feel Yeonjun's arms around me. 

"Noona.." The darkness swallows me, and this time I'm completely alone.

[syncopation53]

Overall I think lightfall felt about the same as beyond light for me, maybe a little bit less so without eramis’ lore and the lack of (narrative) conflict when it comes to strand like stasis had. I know that we’re moving beyond the “light good, darkness bad” dogma, as drifter puts it, and it’s been three years at this point since stasis has been introduced and we’ve had time to get used to it, plus the fact that strand is more of a… I want to say “neutral force” than stasis, which had been an explicit gift from the witness as we now know. I’ve seen how it almost feels disjointed from the overall narrative, and I can sort of see where people are coming from. The missions with the meditation place and vex network almost seemed like adventures rather than a part of the campaign itself, which is a shame. I can see where they were going for the “secret power that the bad guys don’t know about but is hard to master so we only use it in Important Scenes and have a training montage about it,” but that’s me filling in the blanks after the fact, not an actual thought I had while running the campaign. I found osiris and ghost’s dialogue about the whole “perspective shift” thing to be laughable because I’d been doing the exact same things with strand I’d been doing from the beginning. There was no perspective shift for me just incessant banging on bungie’s door yelling to let me unlock strand in full already. Will be interested in getting more lore on the nature of darkness-based powers vs. light-based ones in the future. As you can tell by my recent posts, the ending was the true best thing story-wise. I felt completely dead inside after that 10/10 will be crying myself to sleep thinking oc thoughts for the next week.

The story was… alright, I’ll say. Somehow bungie made it feel like nothing was happening and simultaneously everything happened all at once. Definitely felt like I missed some stuff in my race to get to softcap so that the tormentors wouldn’t eat me for breakfast but I’ll definitely be doing the campaign again in full on my hunter to see if there’s anything I didn’t catch the first time. Titan… eh, I’m not usually a fan of video game microtransactions but if it’ll let me skip right to strand titan a bitch might just buy some silver.

I will say, I’ve never been a fan of calus’ lore. I didn’t actively dislike him or the cabal/uluran as a whole, and he is an interesting character in his own right, but I just never felt that personally interested in learning more about them like I had the hive and eliksni. However comma, his cutscenes with the witness were some of the highlights of the campaign for me. They carried, as the kids say. The other part being helmet-less cutscenes for lots of pretty screenshots of xira. Osiris was also a highlight for me. His character felt more in-line with that from curse of osiris than any other season I’ve played before (I know season of dawn was a huge hit but I’d been away for college at the time and thus couldn’t play for a while so I’m not familiar with the osiris lore from that). I liked his growth from pushing the guardian to master strand and getting frustrated when we failed to helping us hone our abilities and being proud and excited when we succeeded.

I’ll also throw in my two cents into the Nimbus Discourse as a non-binary person: they were fun. I liked them. I like that they’re not a 100% perfectly androgynous anime prettyboy and I know that’s caused people to misgender them but I enjoy their design overall. I can understand being annoyed with the voice modulations, but that’s about it. I understand their character, neomuna being a separate hidden colony on the second-to-last planet in the system whose last contact with earth was during the warlord era and all, and how blasé they were about things as this would probably be the first time they’re dealing with something other than the occasional vex incursion. I honestly didn’t feel that much when rohan died, but I’d originally thought what his “battle cry” was had come from nimbus as he sacrificed himself, and honestly I prefer to think of it that way because it’s clear in the following interlude and cutscene that nimbus is trying to deal with their grief through keeping themself busy with the legion, and also I’m guessing that cloud striders (and possibly neomuni in general) have different views on dying and the grieving process than earth-bound people do. I haven’t finished the quest for the void machine gun yet but I also hear the ending is pretty good as well.

Neomuna itself is a good location, maybe a little bit jarring compared to other destinations in destiny 2, but I’m sure that was intentional. Only thing I had a problem with is the patrol space being very unfriendly to little 1650 me when I tried doing some bounties and patrols for the first time. Even my arc buddy was struggling, we were in truly desperate times running around barely above the power floor trying not to get one-shot.

Season of defiance’s one (1) battleground is already getting on my nerves. I’m this close to turning off dialogue and subtitles whenever I’m waiting to load into it. The bosses were hell and I hate them, especially the last room. Not a fan of the activity but also excited for new things such as the seasonal exotic mission. I also liked the sort of minor update to the ascendant plane look, much easier to see where I’m going. I also like how open mara is with us now, as someone who used to have issues with her character her growth has been amazing to see.

Overall I’d give the lightfall campaign a solid “I mean, it wasn’t perfect, but still enjoyable at least.”

Season of defiance gets a “you tried” sticker for compensation.

[carmenized-onions]

OKAY SO SOME RESPONSES

1. It genuinly took me a few chapters to realize chip and mikey were platonic. Buuuut I do like them as both. Like Chip and Carm feels more pure (?) in a way when everything with Mikey was platonic (cause like Chip wasn’t romantic with his bro first) but i also love the idea of Chippy and mikey being cute and romantic - sue me. honestly maybe it’s both!! maybe they were really close friends who sometimes acted a bit closer than what someone who’s platonic would. maybe some light flirting and touches that lingered a bit too long. it’s anyone’s guess!!

2. bro wanting to ruin it on purpose before he can ruin it on accident is yeah…. i’ll lock myself in a room

3. oh yes it’s very clear chips ‘n’ dip only thinks they’re at fault with what happened to mikey. your writing conveys it perfectly i promise!!

4. BEAR IS A FUCKING POOKIE, HE IS MORE WHIPPED THAN THE CREAM ON THE HOT CHOCOLATES AND I ADORE IT

5. A FUCKING SNIPPET IM SO BLESSED. IM GONNA SOB OVER HIM WANTING THE COFFEE JUST HOW SHE MAKES IT (better than luca wow wow wow, biggest compliment me thinks) BUT ALSO INSTEAD OF VOICING IT HE JUST SAYS HE WANTS IT BLACK. PERFECTLY IN CHARACTER MWAH

6. ILL DEFINITELY STILL REREAD AND SEND MORE YAPS.

7. OH YEAH THE HAIRDRESSER THING IS ACCURATE. A BUDDY OF MINE USED TO WORK AS A HAIRDRESSER AND HE SAYS SOME PEOPLE FULLY INVOLUNTARILY MOAN WHEN THEIR HAIR GETS WASHED

8. CHIPPY BEING CLOSEST TO RICHIE AND TINA IS PERFECT AND ILL DEFINITELY HAVE TO REREAD THE CHAPTERS FOR SOME MARCHIPPY CRUMBS.

9. Yeah that thing about bisexual femmes,,, accurate

10. please as a fellow yapper i absolutely believe people can speak many sentences in one go, or monolouge. my biggest enemy when writing academic papers is trying to shorten my sentences cause when i write my first draft i fully truck what looks like three sentences into one oops

Beep bop boop beep I have a rule of clearing out my inbox before I post a new chapter so yee haw!!! After this chapter's dropping hehehehehe

We will get into it story wise, because I did definitely tow a line a little bit, but yes, I agree. I wouldn't say pure but more like-- As a sibling, if a girl that dated my brother then wanted to date me? Hey. No. Hey man? No thanks. Cooties.

IT'S VERY IN CHARACTER TO WANT AND NOT ASK LMAO, it's just so fussy to be granular. also I'M EXCITED FOR EVEN MORE YAPS

WE ALL KINDA WANNA MOAN WHEN SOMEONE WASHES OUR HAIR LETS ALL BE HONEST

Marchippy is so funny, they'll definitely have actual moments in the future, lmao.

And YES TO THE YAP!! Big fuckin fan of commas ova here. I just be sayin shit. Also a huge Dash person, yknow the -- i do all the time? I do them in essays too, i'm constantly interrupting myself, i'm CRAZY!!!

[new-albums-daily]

John Denver – Poems, Prayers, & Promises (1971)

12 tracks, 38 min 17 sec

Rating: 9/10

Top Track: Take Me Home, Country Roads

So as previously mentioned today, as a weekend, was subject to my whims and my whims said folk, and boy am I glad they did. Even if it is yet another 1971 album. Went into this knowing a bit about John Denver in general, having half paid attention to a documentary on him, but only really knowing Country Roads and Leaving On A Jet Plane very well, and I don't think I've heard anything else from this album even in passing. If I have, I don't remember it. (side note: the lack of oxford comma is bothering me, and spotify uses "and" instead of "&", but it's all totally fine yep mhmm)

I really enjoyed this album. I've never thought of myself as a huge fan of folk, but I guess I am because there was not a song I didn't like here. The only thing preventing this from being a 10 (and I'm being entirely serious, it was that close) was the poem as a closer. It was nice and very powerful and well read and all, but I still would've preferred a song. It did help though that this album included covers of a few songs I already love, namely Let It Be, Junk, and Fire and Rain, all of which are some of my favorite songs ever. In light of all the covers on this album I feel weird picking favorites that Denver didn't write or originally perform, but I will mention Around and Around as a surprise hit with me.

[noveltyreads]

The Butterfly Assassin (The Butterfly Assassin #1) by Finn Longman Book Review

ARC kindly provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review

To be honest, I enjoyed this book way more than I thought I would. I'm not a huge thriller fan. I don't usually seek the genre out but for some reason, I was drawn to this book and decided to give it a go. I'm so glad I did because this book was just the dark and gritty YA book I was looking for. 

The book follows Isabel Ryans, a minor who wants nothing more than to escape the secret assassin program she was born into and live a normal life. Traumatised by her parents, one a high-ranking chemical weapons specialist and the other a renowned assassin, Isabel flees and adopts a new name. However, Comma is far from letting her go and we see Isabel's struggle with accepting and letting go of her dark past. She questions if she can exist outside of her previous life and be normal or if assassin was all that she could be.

This book is very much underrated. I really enjoyed myself even though it took me a while to get used to the writing style. Isabel was quite reserved and introverted however you could tell that she dreamed of living the typical teenage existence of making friends, going to school and planning out a future. I felt like the author portrayed this yearning for more really well and also showcased trauma and mental health in a way that felt realistic and authentic. I enjoyed Isabel's character a lot and think she deserves all the hugs in the world. 

It wasn't just Isabel's character I loved, it was all the side characters too. Emma was absolutely gorgeous and I wanted her and Isabel to explore their connection a little more. Is it bad for me to say I was absolutely shipping the two together? When that ending came it honestly shattered me. No spoilers but Emma 100% deserved better. I also felt like Nick deserved better. He just wanted to be there for Isabel and then... well... I won't spoil that one. 

I am so excited to read the second book. While I was reading the first, I actually requested book two from the library. I hope Isabel can escape her parents and live the life she always dreamed of. This is a book and a series I would strongly recommend for those looking for asexual rep and a really solid YA thriller. 

ACTUAL RATING: 4.1 STARS

[musette22]

Hi, darling (I hope it´s ok to call you darling) I´m starting to write ff so I am really curious to know more about your dont´s and any other advice about writing that you might have. I´m a huge fan of your stories and I think you´re an incredible writer so I will really value your opinion on the topic

Hi, lovely! It's absolutely fine to call me darling, you can call my anything you like as long as it's something nice 😘 Thank you SO much for your kind words about my writing, I appreciate it more than I can say 💗 I'm so happy to hear you're starting to write fanfiction as well, that's very exciting!! As for writing advice, I really don't feel qualified to dole out advice lol, but I'll do my best to tell you about a few things that I try to do and/or avoid myself when I'm writing! I'll put it under the keep reading tag for you, since it's a little lengthy 😘

1. Make sure you stick to one tense. I personally always write in present tense, but I know a lot of people who write in past tense as well, and that's just a matter of personal preference. Both are absolutely fine, as long as you consistently use one or the other throughout your fic (with the exception of course of when a character is recalling something, or in dialogue etc. But that speaks for itself, I imagine)

2. Make sure you stick to one POV within a single scene. Unless you're writing from the omniscient narrator POV or something like that, you always write from one person's perspective, meaning we are in their brains and looking through their eyes. It's incredibly jarring to me when within a single scene, multiple POVs occur. It just jolts me out of the story immediately, because that's impossible in real life, and it should therefore also be in fiction. It's fine to switch POV from one chapter or even scene to another, as long as it's clear that it's intentional POV switching.

3. Avoid the use of epithets and characteristics (i.e. when someone is described as 'the taller/older man' or 'the blond woman') to indicate someone instead of using their name or he/she/they. This does not apply when it's a character whose name we don't know yet. It makes sense to describe those characters by some of their characteristics, although if it's a while before we learn the character's name, I personally prefer it when people just give them a nickname (blondie, Hot Gym Guy, Sarah's dad etc.)

4. When writing dialogue, try not to use too many alternatives to the word 'says/said'. It's understandable to want to avoid constantly going "Bucky says" and "Steve says" etc. since that can get irritating too, but only using substitutes like "grumbles" or "sighs" or "whines" or "mutters" can also start to become tedious after a while. The trick is to find a balance, and to also write dialogue in such a way that it's often clear who's saying what without always having to indicate who is speaking.

5. Try to use a mix of shorter and longer sentences. I personally find it difficult to get into a story when it consists of only short sentences, but of course, when an author only writes very long sentences with lots and lots of commas, that can get a little tiring too. So the trick is to try and mix it up, but in an organic way (so not alternating or anything like that, but finding a balance that works).

6. Use proper punctuation. I can't stress this enough. Commas and full stops and hyphens all exist for a reason. Please use them as they were meant to be used as much as possible, and be economical with exclamation marks. In my opinion, it's almost always possible to show that someone is agitated or enthusiastic by simply using the right words, or sometimes some well-placed italics.

7. Pay extra attention to your opening sentence/paragraph. Make sure it's engaging, and draws your reader in. An easy way to do that is to open with dialogue, but if you do that, do make sure that you take the time to set the scene as well. Your reader will want to learn the who-what-where at some point during the first few paragraphs. It's sometimes tempting to open a fic by explaining what happened before this scene, how the character(s) got to where they are, and exactly who they are, but to me, that can feel decidedly clunky a lot of the time. So again, try to find a balance (but I'll admit it's a tricky thing to get right!)

8. Try to find a balance between exposition and dialogue. It's totally fine and understandable that some fics are heavier on one than the other (it depends on a lot of factors), but if a fic consists almost exclusively of descriptions without there being a good reason for it, I personally find that it gets less engaging. Similarly, if a fic uses a LOT of dialogue and rarely delves into exposition, it can kind of make me feel a little unmoored or stressed, and like I need to catch my breath. If possible, try to alternate.

So basically, it's all about balance 😅 I could probably go on, but I think these are some of the most important practical things I can think of when it comes to writing a story. Please keep in mind that I am not a professional author, and that I've only been writing for about three years, and learned through trial and error more than anything. I still struggle with a lot of the above - as you, as a reader of my fics, will probably know! But I do always try to pay attention to these issues, so I hope some of these tips can be useful for you too!! Let me know if you want me to elaborate on any of these points, and best of luck with your writing, lovely!! 😘😘

[17tetsuro]

could u do fake dating headcanons where they slowly fall for u w atsumu, kenma & oikawa,, gn pronounces are fine :)

haikyuu boys slowly falling for you (fake dating edition) (gn!reader)

feat: atsumu, kenma, oikawa

warnings: fake dating, abuse of cliche tropes and commas and question marks, timeskip setting because im anything but creative, swearing

requests are open!

a/n: thank you for requesting this!! i hope you like it :D

atsumu

* you’ve been friends with him ever since high school and you watched his career grow

* youre both equally proud of each other n your friendship is built on mutual respect, trust and love

* you basically live in his apartment, with how much time you spend over there

* he would complain 24/7 about not having anyone to go to events with

* at one point you wanted to strangle him for never shutting up about it so you propose you go with him from time to time

* atsumu: “yeah, that was a setup”

* he KNOWS you’re drop dead gorgeous and everyone will be jealous of him that you’re with him (and you also look very good in formalwear, which he very much enjoys)

* and you get to have free food and drinks and also wear immaculate expensive clothes

* so,, you became his regular date for sponsorship events and stuff

* and you never really outright said you were just friends?? so you’re used to the media portraying you two as lovers but your close circle is aware that your relationship is platonic

* everything was going great until one of his sponsor company’s heir started hitting on you

* atsumu saw you flirting with the person and his mind went blank

* he,, he didn’t understand why he wanted to commit multiple crimes on the spot

* bokuto conveniently showed up next to atsumu at that moment

“hey, atsumu? why is your date flirting with them?” bokuto asked, suddenly appearing next to atsumu, which startled the latter out of his thoughts.

a better question would be why atsumu saw red at the thought of you getting friendly with anyone but him that night. he tried his best to keep his composure, but it was hard when you rested a hand on the heir’s shoulder, leaning your head back while laughing.

“atsumu, are you not going to answer me? your lover is-“

“my what?” atsumu asked, attention now completely off you.

“your lover? is that a term you don’t like? i could say partner... significant other... or anything you want, really,” bokuto answered, apologizing.

“you- you think me and (y/n) are together?”

“aren’t you? what, with the way you look at each other i was convinced you two were like... high school sweethearts or something, who hate pda,” bokuto explained, while atsumu’s eyes trailed back to you.

“you think... you think they’d wan’ me?”

“are you blind, buddy?”

you must have sensed their gazes, because as soon as those words left bokuto’s mouth, your eyes snapped towards atsumu and bokuto. the latter started waving with a cheerful smile while the former just stood, entranced by you and your presence. atsumu noticed traces of confusion appearing on your face, and watched as you excused yourself from the conversation you were previously interested in.

“‘tsumu, are you alright?” you questioned, approaching the pair. bokuto grinned and left, which made you even more confused.

“yeah, i’m fi- fine. hey, uh, (y/n), say... do you- why did you offer to come to these events as my date?” atsumu asked, eyes dead set on yours. you cracked a confused smile. you seemed to be capable of nothing but confusion at the moment.

“because you’re my best friend and i hated to see you so down because of your loneliness at these gatherings,” you replied, holding his gaze. “why didn’t you oppose it?”

his eyes studied you and when he saw nothing but sincerity, he let out a loud sigh. this was all very new and confusing to him. it’s like bokuto calling you atsumu’s lover set off a bomb inside his head that instead of causing a mess, made everything fall into place; why his gaze seemed to linger on you more often than before, why he was so eager to choose your outfits for these events, why he went to parties he didn’t even have to attend, why he got so jealous and angry when he saw you with the cute heir.

“holy shit,” he breathed and ran his hands through his hair, letting out a nervous chuckle and lowering his gaze to the ground. “holy shit.”

“you look like you’ve been enlightened, and i love that for you, but ‘tsumu, i’m still very confused.”

“i’m in love with you,” he said in disbelief, and quickly snapped his eyes back to your face when he realized he said it out loud. “i- i mean- i’m not in love with you, no way in hell, you’re- you’re my best friend, you- you smack my head whenever i say somethin’ inappropriate, you keep me from underminin’ myself, you always lift my spirits and for fuck’s sake, please, stop lookin’ at me like that because i will be getting hopeful and if you’re just joking, i will never hear the end of it and-“

you finally hd enough of his rambling and cut him off with a kiss. at first he froze, but seconds later he melted into your embrace, hands sneaking around your waist, pulling you closer.

when your lips separated, atsumu gasping for air after his word vomit and the long kiss you shared, you spoke up. “miya atsumu, you’re a real dumbass, you know that?”

his breath hitched and you kept quiet for a second to let him suffer a bit.

“but you’re my dumbass. i love you, you absolute piece of work.”

atsumu honest to god giggled and leaned in for another kiss, which you gave him without hesitation.

somewhere in the room, bokuto was collecting the money sakusa promised to give him if he got you two to kiss.

kenma

* kenma and you are both twitch streamers with similar content so you knew of each other but weren’t properly introduced

* until one of your mutual friends invited you both to stream among us with them

* you obv accepted

* so during the 3 hr stream, you and kenma were imposters together a lot and had the biggest, most twisted imp plays

* a friendly competition broke out at one point, too, trying to see who exposed the most impostors between the two of you

* your fans ate your dynamic up

* from then on, you two interacted more and started to appear in each others’ streams

* kenma even invited you to his minecraft smp

* you became besties basically

* SO

* all fun and games

* and then a huge sponsorship opportunity rolled in

* and the people at the company assumed you were dating

* uh oh

* you couldnt just tell them they have it wrong bc the whole thing depended on your relationship

* so

* big brain kenma suggest you two start to “date”

* you were against deceiving your followers but kenma assured you you could have a public breakup and tell everyone you were better off as friends

* so you reluctantly agreed

* it was only for two months anyways, what could go wrong?

* both of you, on week 3, in separate discord calls: uh oh, im in l*ve

* you both tried to cope (read: repress everything) but the realization on both of your parts threw your dynamic off a bit and fans have noticed

* so you had to do something abt it

* so kenma suggested you try your hand at a minecraft challenge together

* it was all fun and games until it wasnt

* you somehow ended up flirting back and forth ????

* chat was goin crazy, even in sub only mode

* both of you: ha ha im in danger

* when the stream ended, you stayed on call, because that was a routine you stuck to no matter what

“so... how are you doing?” you asked kenma, trying to clear the awkwardness from the air.

“good.”

maybe you should have taken kenma’s refusal to talk about anything into account when initiating conversation.

kenma, on the other end of the call was anxiously playing with his fingers, trying to figure out if his chat was right, and you were indeed flirting with him. and him with you. god.

“hey, y/n,” kenma said after a while, “were you flirting with me?”

his bluntness startled you and you had to mute yourself for a few seconds while you collected yourself.

“is there a correct answer?” you asked hesitantly.

“yes.”

“oh... uhm, maybe? it wasn’t intentional. or maybe it was, subconsciously, i don’t know,” you admitted quietly.

“good. it was intentional on my part, i think,” and okay, that was not the reply you expected to hear.

“really?”

“yeah, i- i like you i guess,” he said, sounding more confident by the minute. “do you like me too?”

“i- yeah. i do. i like you, kenma,” you replied, sighing a breath of relief. it felt good to admit it aloud to him.

“do you- would you maybe want to come over?” he asked sheepishly, which made absolutely no sense because he sounded so confident a second ago. “we could play mario kart?”

you let the beaming smile you were holding back take over your face. “i’ll be there in 10, kenma.”

“i’ll be waiting for you.”

oikawa

* on god mans hated your guts

* like,, okay, you were iwa’s close friend but you were so annoyingly honest all the time

* it drove him mad

* what also drove him mad is the fact that you loved to tease him

* no matter what the circumstance, whether he was in japan or in argentina, you always found a way to make him blush

* okay so maybe hate is a strong word, because he kind of thought you were pretty, but in a platonic way

* dumbass

* iwa always give both of you shit for not liking each other

* so you came up with a big brain idea

* you: ”oikawa! we should date!”

* oikawa: “what”

* after you explained the concept of fake dating to him and its benefits (which included a staged dramatic breakup, giving you both a reason to hate each other without iwa complaining)

* he was totally down

* iwa, when he first saw you holding hands: “i knew it”

* SO!! thus began weeks of pretending to be in love with each other for the sake of iwa

* which turned from pretending to not pretending real quick for your liking

* falling in love with oikawa was not a plan of yours

* (falling in love with you wasn’t his, either)

* with iwa’s constant nagging of “i knew it, you both were head over heels for each other from the moment you met”, the time for the breakup came quicker than expected (maybe you both had enough. so what.)

* you agreed to do it in front of iwa so he could see it happen

* you chose a mcdonalds parking lot, because then you could storm off and iwa would follow you to make sure you were ok and oikawa could go home and sleep

* maybe winging it was not the best idea

“babe,” you said with venom, “haven’t i told you a thousand times that i do not want to hear about your exes? seriously, it’s like the only thing you talk about,” you complained, as your fake-boyfriend took a sip from his drink.

“well, babe,” his tone matching yours, “i would shut up about them if took the hint sometimes. maybe i don’t like going to the movies as much as you seem to, it’s boring,” he rolled his eyes, subtly glancing at iwa, who looked very uncomfortable third wheeling your argument. good

“jerk. i don’t even want to go to the movies that much, asshole,” you spat, crushing your empty cup in your hand.

“oh, you want to go to the movies plenty. face it, (y/n), you’re boring. no wonder you didn’t have a boyfriend before me,” he replied and his words, even though you knew were fake, still hit hard and you couldn’t help the tears gathering in your eyes.

“okay, then, thanks for these wonderful past few weeks, so glad you decided to take pity on me.” you tried to keep acting, encouraging yourself with the fact that if oikwa meant what he said, you wouldn’t have to talk to him if iwaizumi finally saw you two break up.

you expected a lot of things, but genuineness in oikawa’s eyes was not one of them.

“(y/n), i’m sorry, i didn’t mean it like that,” oikawa pleaded, clearly forgetting about your mutual goal.

with a mumbled whatever, you started walking home, letting the sunset wash over your face. when you knew you were out of sight, you sat down on a bench and just started crying.

you don’t know how much time passed, but you heard a voice behind you speak up.

“hey (y/n).”

“what the fuck do you want, oikawa? to rub in the fact that my first boyfriend was just faking it so his best friend would get off his back? leave me alone, jerk,” you said, trying to wipe your tears away.

“i- i didn’t mean it like that, please, believe me,” he replied, taking a seat next to you. you scooted away from him. he sighed.

“why would i believe you? why do you want to make up, anyways? this fight was pretty real, no way iwaizumi didn’t believe it,” you sniffed.

“because maybe... maybe i was very happy about the fact that i could be your boyfriend, even if it was fake. maybe i’m in love with you,” he said softly, leaning towards you.

“please, stop playing games. it’s over,” you replied, trying very hard to ignore the raw emotion in his voice as he spoke.

“i really am, (y/n). i wasn’t at first, i admit it, but now i am. i love you, please, believe me,” he begged and you finally made eye contact with him. eyes were mirrors of the soul, after all.

you studied his face for a few minutes, looking for anything that could indicate he was trying to pull a shit prank on you, but you found nothing.

“asshole. maybe i’m in love with you too, what would you do if i said that?” you asked, wiping your nose with your sleeves.

“kiss you.”

“do it, then, i guess. but you’re still not completely forgiven.”

“what do i have to do to earn your forgiveness, (y/n)?” he asked and you sent him a mischievous smile.

“take the blame for this whole fiasco with iwaizumi.” he froze at your words and visibly gulped, but nodded nonetheless.

“okay, i will. can i kiss you now?”

you rolled your eyes. “yeah.”

and he did.

[heymacy]

how do I make friends on here? I feel like everyone already knows each other and I don't want to be annoying :(

💛 don’t worry my love, i felt the same exact way when i joined the fandom. i was super late to the game in retrospect, didn’t even make this blog until october of 2020. didn’t know who anybody was, who to follow to see what kind of content, nada. i felt like i was adrift at sea 😅

i made sure that my messages were open to everyone, my ask box was set up, and my reply function was on, and then i literally just started interacting with people. reblogging posts, participating in ask games/tag games, making content of any kind (just text posts in the beginning, then fic stuff, then gifs, etc.) and just being kind to everyone i met. since i didn’t know anyone’s story, i wanted to tread lightly, so i made sure to interact with people that i saw putting out kindness and positivity, and refused to follow people i saw engaging in drama. that way, the only people i interacted with regularly became a small group of kind, talented, empathetic people.

i think empathy is what makes people decide whether or not they want to have continued interactions with people. if someone emits an energy and exhibits repeated behaviors that are kind, considerate, and thoughtful, people tend to gravitate towards that. not always for the right reasons, though, so you do have to keep your wits about you.

don’t be afraid to approach people. don’t be afraid to put yourself out there. also, don’t equivocate numbers with connections - i’ve made some of the most significant, life-changing connections on tumblr (i mean, i literally met my wife on here, c’mon) and i have a very very small following, far smaller than what i’ve gathered is average for an active user in this fandom. but i have so many people that i’ve made a connection with at one point or another that are just simply kind and wonderful humans, and those connections only happened because i put myself out there (and only as my true, authentic, bizarrely unhinged self 😅).

i often feel like i found my “people” here, and part of that came with the willingness to be vulnerable. let’s face it, i don’t know a single mentally stable person in this fandom 😭 we’re all a little messed up in one way or another. we’ve all seen shit, and felt shit, and it’s okay to talk about that here.

i’ve also learned that the expectation of reciprocation will almost always lead to disappointment - put yourself out there and expect absolutely nothing in return. just be at peace with your existence. much like you should live for yourself and only yourself, you should post for yourself and only yourself. curate a presence that’s completely, 100%, authentically YOU and the right people will find their way in. 💛

also: hi, i’m macy, i’m a cancer, i speak fluent gifs, i love metaphors and commas, i’m a huge fan of those edits with cartoon characters where they make them look stoned as hell, i enjoy making middle aged white women uncomfortable, and i’d love to be friends 😇 my ask box and messages are always open 💛

[just-otter-thoughts]

You have wandered into the crimson forest, pt. 2

Decided to make a new about me! I said that I'd changed my name a while ago and I did, so I decided to take this time to update things around here.

My name is Lex, but you can still call me Mason or opt for Vladislav (Vlad for short). This blog is comprised of posts I think are cool/cute/unhinged/funny and original posts. I reblog art and that sometimes includes furry art (I have mutuals that put furry art on my dashboard sometimes and I like that shit) and fanart (mostly Half-Life stuff).

What I want out of being on Tumblr is honestly a mistery, I'm just out here. I like to think I'm a little funny so follow for mild funnyposting.

My favorite type of music is prog metal and prog metalcore, with a touch of djent in there. My favorite bands are Jinjer, Periphery, Opeth and A Sense of Gravity. I also like pop (Billie Eilish, Melanie Martinez, Britney Spears) and EDM (Crystal Castles, Alice Glass). I like screaming a lot (the metal kind). Oh, and there's some artists I really like that I don't know how to categorize (Kim Dracula, Jazmin Bean). I'd like to be in a band at some point doing vocals.

I really fucking like Half-Life. Like really. If you want me to I can narrate the entire story from Half-Life 1 all the way over to Half-Life 2 Episode 2. I also am a huge fan of Portal and speedrun Portal 1. Under the cut is my latest Portal Inbounds run (257th place as of writing this)

I write fanfic sometimes, you can find that stuff under #writing and #fanfiction. Sometimes there'll be a poem and original fiction here and there.

Under the cut is my tagging system and some alt codes for myself (though you can use them as well). This post will have all the tags because Tumblr's search feature is dookie.

All the tags that use "Mason" as a first name will be changed to "Lex" in the near future. The name change may be reversed as I'm still seeing if I like Lex.

#mason speaks his mind — Original posts.

#mason does vocals — Currently don't use this tag much, I used to post singing clips and what I thought were safe fry screams. Please don't listen to the screams. Please.

#mason takes meds — Inactive tag that I once used to report on how my psych meds were affecting me.

#lyric posting — Sometimes I just feel like posting lyrics and sometimes I like to go back and see those posts.

#important — Legal things and things to look at when feeling down.

I have a dreamcore/liminalcore sideblog which is @abaddon-of-secrets. I don't use it a lot at the moment but there's still stuff there. I also have a ventblog but I don't want anyone seeing that shit.

Hex codes for special characters:

2003 ->  [EM SPACE]

2013 -> – [EN DASH]

2014 -> — [EM DASH]

201A -> ‚ [SINGLE LOW-9 QUOTATION MARK] (comma for tags)

2122 -> ™ [TRADEMARK SYMBOL]

2026 -> … [HORIZONTAL ELLIPSIS]

Post that leads to alternate dashboards

Portal Inbounds run (no video only demos)

Portal Inbounds run with video (2min slower than my current PB)

[isthatbloodonhisshirt]

Hi! I really admire your writing so much!!! I’m a huge fan and I really love all your work. I was wondering: I’m a new fanfiction writer and I hear a lot of people talking about using beta readers. Do you use betas for your writing or do you edit it all yourself? Do you think that betas are necessary or helpful? (If this is something you don’t feel like talking about, that’s ok!! It’s just something I’ve been wondering about lately and I wasn’t sure who to ask :) ) ❤️

Greetings! o/

First off, thank you so, so much for your kind words. For real, you’re super nice and I hella appreciate you, thank you!!! 

Second, sorry I took ten thousand years to reply |D I am really bad about that. I always reply (unless Tumblr eats the asks, which I have been informed it does when mutuals send me some), I am just slow. But yeah, if Tumblr doesn’t eat an ask, I always reply, so I’m sorry for the delay |D 

And huzzah for new writers! Welcome, welcome! Here’s your complementary pillow to scream into when your characters take over your brain and refuse to do what you want, welcome to the club, we love you already :D 

In terms of betas, I do not have a beta, no. I do the whole writing, editing, formatting thing myself and post it (that’s why I have a bazillion commas everywhere and so many typos ahaha |D). I think it really depends on the kind of writer you are because I have two reasons for not having a beta. 

The first is honestly because of bad personal experiences. I know a few people who do have betas who are amazing and it works super well for them and is really helpful. For me, I’ve had maybe 4 betas total in my hobby writing life, and all four of them were literally just the kinds of people who like, said they were betas but really just wanted a chance to read a fic before everyone else. None of them helped me brainstorm, or helped me work through problems, or even pointed out any typos because they literally weren’t looking for them, they were just trying to get an early start on reading what I was writing. 

That ended up working out in the long run, because as I grew up and wrote more, I realized that I was already super hard on myself in general about fics and my writing and having someone constantly trying to re-direct the flow of my fics wasn’t something I’m into. I talked about how I feel related to Constructive Criticism here, because I think it’s something I was more into in the early days, but now I’m more the kind of person who I recognize is very fickle? Maybe? Like, I have so many ideas bouncing around in my head allatiems that I really have to like, write the fic, edit it, post it and be done with it. If I have to send it to someone for their input, wait for them to get back to me, edit the fic with their recommendations, resend it, rework it, resend it, edit it, format it, post it, I would 10000% never get anything posted anymore. I’ve hit a point where I am where I am, I do this for fun, and it is what it is |D 

But I think the takeaway on that is you need to recognize that I have been writing for literally -counts- at least 20 years now (GOD I FEEL OLD SAYING THAT!). Like, I started writing self-insert bullshit (as we all do, don’t judge me) when I was in middle school and internet was barely a thing and still needed dial-up. So I’ve been writing for a long time, and while everything for me was self-taught, I do honestly think that if I’d had better/real betas at the beginning, I’d probably be a better writer now. 

At the end of the day, it’s really up to you and what you want. If you’re still relatively new and you struggle and get stuck a lot, or want some advice on like, story flow and whatnot, then finding a beta, an honest to God true and good beta is perfect. Good betas (like some of my friends have) will help you so, so much when you’re working to improve how you write. You just have to be open to the fact that they are going to tell you when things need to be improved on (though they should be doing this politely, if they’re being an asshole about it, they’re a troll, not a beta). 

So end of the day: betas are good when they are actually real betas, and not trolls or people just trying to read shit early. If you know some people who offer themselves as betas and have heard good things about them, there is never any harm getting one. 

If you’re an impatient bitch like me who just wants to slap the story on the page and get it over with so you can work on something else, then a beta is not for you |D lol 

Sorry I wrote an essay, it happens sometimes. Hope this helped? Even a little? lol <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

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On an average, how long does it take you to come up with a drabble, edit and post it??

Much love:)))

I have different methods for the types of drabbles I do.

If it's for Chelle Chats (400 words or less), I can write about 8 over the course of the 4 hour segment without too much stress. I typically don't go over the top with the editing of these pieces, just chuck it through Grammarly, and then post. The whole process, if I'm not struggling with the prompt, takes about 15 minutes? More often than not, I'll find an error or two when I reread later on and fix it. I think the longest part to CC drabbles is when I write TOO many words, and I have to cull it back down to as close to 400 as possible.

For Challenging Words drabbles (I would say most of these range between 360-800 words), it takes around about half an hour to write? Maybe a little less or longer depending on the word count. However, I don't edit right away.

For other drabbles / stories that are up to 1000 words or less, I would say about 45 minutes would be a rough guess for the longer pieces, sometimes an hour. Really depends on how the words are flowing. I write pretty quickly at times, and others it can take 2 hours for the same amount of word count as something else. Again, I don't edit right away.

I'm a firm believer that if I have time to, I won't edit anything on the same day as I wrote it. I tend to leave them for a good 3 days at least before going back to edit, because I know if I've just written it, I'm not going to pick up on my excessive commas, buts littered everywhere, or the pesky you/your I always put wrong lol. Grammarly only helps to a certain point. I'd say editing takes at least 10-15mins on a short piece, and longer with more words. My 3.5k Jinyoung story I posted on Tuesday was about an hour in editing - and I'd already reread it the day after writing it and caught a few errors.

My editing process is - reread a whole page worth, catch the errors I can myself, then chuck that page (usually around 500 words-ish a page) into Grammarly to recheck the things I'll miss, and then move onto the next page until I'm done with the story.

Posting/scheduling I try to do all in batches, so Sunday I usually leave aside to edit and schedule all my stories for the week ahead - but lately I've been busy on Sundays so right now I have to edit tomorrow's post and schedule it, which I find more burdensome because it's daily and I'm not a huge fan of editing or scheduling. On average, it takes another 5-15 minutes just to format the post - by formatting, I mean, write up the information at the top of the post, collect links and update the index if I'm posting a piece in a series, copy over the header for a series, add all the line breaks, tags and footer links/copyright post.

So for drabbles not in CC, I probably spend more time (or sometimes break even) with how much effort I put into editing and scheduling as I do writing the piece.

I hope this helps with me breaking it down into detail. I don't think a shorter answer would make sense >_<

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Friday Five Fic Recs

So a few Bennguin fic recs to keep everyone entertained while we all social distance!  I would like to say off the top that I’m not a *huge* stickler for perfect grammar.  I joke that I can barely write myself through a scathing Amazon review (I confess so many random commas!) but as long as the story is strong and if not an AU, has a certain level of accuracy, I’m okay with that.  So just a few examples: has a passing knowledge of locations in Dallas or knows that it doesn’t tend to snow very often on Vancouver Island (edit: except in the higher elevations.  Not so much in Saanich) so there shouldn’t be mentions of Jamie or Jordie playing shinny on frozen ponds growing up.  They would have played road hockey instead.  Also just like Americans we sound different based on where we live or grew up so I’m not a big fan of mentions of The Canadian Accent.  Jamie and Jordie definitely sound like they’re from The Island (ie: you can hear it when Jamie says “I love it!” in the latest Dude Perfect Stars video or any post game scrum Jordie does ever) Tyler sounds like he’s from the GTA.  I have a good friend who grew up in Brampton too and they sound a lot alike although his seems to be somewhat tempered from the years that he’s lived in the US .

Anyhow, for this first one the picks will be kind of random although I’ll try to keep them somewhat lighthearted since I’m not sure if anyone truly wants to read apocalyptic or dystopian fic right about now and they definitely reflect what I personally enjoy so they might not be for everyone but next time if people are interested they can make suggestions for what they would like to see.  That being said, any recommendation I make be sure to check the archive warnings and tags at AO3 just in case it’s not something you’re interested in or it’s out of your comfort zone.  I’m pretty zen with alot (read: I am a fan of the sex) but that’s me.  It might not be for you and that’s perfectly okay.  Never feel bad about hitting the back button.

Romantic Motherfucking Best by lightgetsin

Jamie’s supposed to boyfriend this shit right up, and Tyler wants to see that.

This is an early one from 2014 and you might have read it already especially if you’ve been going through the tag after sorting by kudos but I think it hits alot of the right notes and considering that was from 2014, I can see how they made the interpretations and exploration of the Jamie and Tyler we see in those early interviews which I don’t think was always easy to do.  Especially with Jamie.  Yeah, they missed Tyler’s pineapple allergy but since that wasn’t well known until after the National Pizza Day clip Tyler did with SN in 2017, I don’t hold that against them. 

Sweet Sweet Love by lightgetsin

“Sweet, sweet love,” Jamie repeats, because really there’s no option here but to own it. He raises an eyebrow. “You in?” He leans closer. “Dare you.”

“Oh,” Tyler says, sitting up straight. “It is on.”

Same author but this one just cracks me up every time I revisit it.  Anytime someone writes these two goobers like the utter goobers they are, I’m there for it.  Also the Jordie in this makes me cry laugh.  And hey!  There’s podfic available too if you’re so inclined.  

Off-Ice Situation by orphan account

He waggles his eyebrows, grins and looks over at Jamie like do you want to tell them or should I? Jamie elbows him and everyone laughs, and neither one of them can stop smiling. Crisis averted.

I’m pretty sure that I recall this writer from before they orphaned their account and they had two other ones that tend to get a little more attention (aside: one which has Jamie and Katie breaking up which I figured was a little too…timely.  I might recommend it in the future once the furor dies down.) but this one is fun.  Includes one of the greatest Jamie and Tyler interactions outside of “Do you like horses?” “I like stallions more.”

Naked and Afraid by makeit_takeit

“I’m Tyler,” the voiceover says, laid on top of a still photo of a shirtless guy with a sick sleeve and a giant grin hanging by one hand from an outcropping of rock, flexing the not-inconsiderable biceps of his free arm as he mugs for the camera. The drop to the water below him has to be 10 meters, maybe more.

“I’m 26, from Brampton, Ontario, but I’ve lived all over the world.”

Jamie hasn’t really been paying that much attention - he’s eating dinner and looking at his phone, the TV more background noise than anything - but he puts his phone aside when he hears Ontario. As far as he knows, only one other Canadian has ever been a contestant on the show.

This time an AU.  Jamie the awkward family charter boat owner and Tyler the wanderlust traveler without roots…until.   I know nothing about the show so I can’t speak to how accurate a fusion it is but going into it not knowing anything, I just found it so entertaining and I could see hints of Tyler and Jamie here not that they were just characters that share the same names.                       

Door to Door by Ferritin4

“I work two jobs. I’m Tyler,” Tyler says, extending his hand. “Do you want to come in?”

Well, he’s not doing anything illegal, Jamie thinks, shaking it, because no criminal in the history of crime has ever willingly invited a cop into their house, and there is no one in the city of Dallas who hasn’t pegged Jamie as a cop within six seconds of meeting him.

Another AU.  Jamie is a detective.  Tyler is a bartender slash mechanic.  Together?  Well, they don’t fight crime but they have great banter.   It’s not particularly deep, some familiar references (ex: Jamie needs a hair cut and new clothes) but it’s light and fun.   Also starring Marshall, Cash, Jordie with special guest: Hilary Knight.