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WIP Wednesday | Obikin Big Bang

I planned to play a game where you send me a word, and then I look for it in my Obikin Big Bang project and post a segment with the word.

Here's last week.

This did not entirely pan out. Hence, I'm supplying myself with a word today. More words are, of course, welcome.

Today, I pick powerless:

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Obi-Wan’s hands had fallen to his side, and the burning ghost of Obi-Wan’s touch wasn’t enough to keep Anakin’s wrist restrained. He reached for the third waffle, which made Obi-Wan’s expression contort into frustration, the powerless type Anakin was intimately familiar with.

“I will wait,” Anakin promised. “Go to your meeting, Obi-Wan. The galaxy needs you.”

I do, too, he almost added, but he reeled in those willful, selfish words.

“Very well,” Obi-Wan said. Then, he raked a hand through his hair, probably realizing this conversation wasn’t going according to plan. Anakin could sympathize. When Obi-Wan left the kitchen, Anakin took a large bite from his third waffle.

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Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars: Obi-Wan Kenobi (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Luke Skywalker & Darth Vader, Luke Skywalker & Anakin Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi/Anakin Skywalker Characters: Anakin Skywalker | Darth Vader, Luke Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi Additional Tags: Darth Vader Redemption, Slow Burn, Darth Vader has enought of being a Sith, Darth Vader in exile on Tatooine, Luke is a sweet sunshine Summary:

Following the events of confronting his old Master after ten years of relentlessly searching for him just to be bested again in the most devastating way possible, Vader had two years of thinking about the choices he had made during the last decade. And it all boiled down to his current Master, Darth Sidious, who had manipulated and controlled him, who had set all those terrible things in motion that had ended with him being not much more than a walking corpse, kept alive by a mix of elaborate and crude machinery, that was making every day torture and full of pain.

On Tatooine he meets a sweet little boy, who soon becomes the most important person in his life…

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i was at a restaurant last week, watching the political ads on the TV between sports games. one from the trump campaign ended with the slogan “kamala is for they/them. trump is for you”. it was vilely clever - and it made a clear statement about who was the enemy, the other, the unwelcome, in trump’s great america. i thought about how the right had gone all-in on transphobia this election season, and i hoped it was a gamble that would cost them.

this week has been a gut punch, and i’ve been feeling a lot of things - rage, fear, grief, and subspecies of those emotions. what i kept coming back to, though, as i digested these feelings, were the people i love. my queer friends. the trans kids in my community. the people who, already, are losing their rights to bodily autonomy, state-by-state. the way that i’ve had to start looking at our country as a fucked up patchwork of safe and not-safe. the way that access to medical care, increasingly, changes depending on which side of an arbitrary border you’re on. i’m also realizing the ignorance and privilege it is to only think of our country this way, now. america has always been about picking and choosing who deserves rights, who we consider a person. but, despite the deep-seated flaws of this country, i live in it. so do so many people i love. and that’s what I keep coming back to: the people i love, and my desire to protect them. at the very center of all the rage and hurt and anxiety and sorrow i’m feeling, is a deep, perilous love. i am holding onto that love. i hope you are, too.

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It’s time for our first deadline poll!

As it is now, our first deadline is from the 23rd of November to the 7th of December, and you can decide when you want to post in this period.

We'd like to have an idea on how many submissions we'd be looking at for our first posting period and if you would need an extension for this first deadline, which could be up to a week and half.

Remember that we still have our second deadline (Feb 28th-Mar 14th) to go through.

Keep in mind that, while prompting will close November 16th, claiming will remain open until the end of our fest. So there could be quite the time for you to even decide to create for multiple prompts should you like to! Or for those who feared they would have to drop out to have time to finish their creation in time. Or even for new people to join! All up to you, guys! If you want you can also vote on twt, HERE.

But now it’s…

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"Rubble shifted under his boots as he trudged through the skeleton of a city, its name unknown. Irrelevant in a sense. The skeletal remains were an echo of a thousand other cities. Dread sloshed inside Anakin, a cup threatening to overflow. He would spill all these ugly emotions if his precarious equilibrium was disrupted.

So, he clung with the desperate tenacity of a dying man -- a corpse walking through a field of destruction. They had contributed to this hell, their arrival marking the start of the end for the locals. In the aftermath of another grueling, long drawn battle, Anakin wondered why they try."

*laughs nervously at the deadline*

I'll make it work! But this will be interesting.

It’s WIP Wednesday!

Why don’t you give us a taste of your creations?

Reblog this post or tag us and share five sentences of your fic, or sketches/studies of the art you are working on for our event!

If you still want to submit your prompts to our fest, remember to do so before Nov 16th when our prompting phase will close!! Drop your prompts HERE. Claiming instead will continue until the end of our fest.

Don’t forget that our first deadline will be from Nov 23rd to Dec 7th!

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The feelings are hitting hard in this one

Thank you! I suspect we're talking about Rako Hardeen?

I keep thinking of the dull sound of roses hitting the top of a coffin while writing this fic. Even now that we've left the deception arc behind. Sometimes fics do that. Funny how it's sometimes the things we're determined to remember that haunt us. Either way, I'm currently working on part 4. Officially titled For All It Is Worth, but unofficially called Obi-Wan gets a taste of his own medicine.

It'll be fun! I promise.

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WIP Wednesday | Obikin Big Bang

On November 23rd, I will post my Obikin Big Bang project.

So, for the next three Wednesday, I would love to play a game. You can send me a word, and I'll present you with a snippet in return.

I know we've moved on to a new game, but I'm most empathetically not going to be counting sentences or words.

I'll go first with disloyal:

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Padmé and his Master talked, while Padmé had refused to answer any of his questions. She had deflected them masterfully, but her silence whispered a million possible answers in his ears. Paranoia haunted him, assuring him that neither of these possibilities would bode well for him.

Disloyal, his mind whispered. They’ll betray you, everyone will.

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Till Death Do Us Part [Obikin | AO3]

Part 2 is posted. In which Obi-Wan makes several unpleasant discoveries.

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Till Death Do Us Part [AO3 | Obikin]

A retelling of the Rako Hardeen arc in the Clone Wars 2008 series.

Alternatively; When Obi-Wan Kenobi dies in Anakin's arms, the whole galaxy learns Anakin loved Obi-Wan. This has implications when Obi-Wan refuses to stay dead.

Tags: Canon Divergence - The Clone Wars: Rako Hardeen Arc Angst and Hurt/Comfort Top Obi-Wan Kenobi Bottom Anakin Skywalker A retelling of the Rako Hardeen arc and its aftermath Grief/Mourning Sexual Tension Fluff

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Hi everyone!

As promised, here is the official* posting schedule for the Obikin Big Bang 2024!

From November 1st to December 22nd, each of our Authors and Artists has been assigned a day!

*Changes to the schedule may be made due to extending circumstances. Handles for Authors are AO3 and for Artists are tumblr/twitter.

Week One (Friday, November 1st to Sunday, November 10th)

✨laeveteinn & kittonafoxgirl on Friday, Nov 1st ✨BarmaDumet & pararararablof on Saturday, Nov 2nd ✨gaily-daily & starryariart on Sunday, Nov 3rd ✨buying_the_space_farm & rancidmice on Monday, Nov 4th ✨teaforkenobi & Gaylittleeldritchhorror on Tuesday, Nov 5th ✨LordSuven & p1nktw1nk on Wednesday, Nov 6th ✨invisible_ink31415 & sharkmata on Thursday, Nov 7th ✨TheSocialRisksOfAgriculture & ayceofcard on Friday, Nov 8th ✨Himilce & silvipeppers on Saturday, Nov 9th ✨wanderingmusician & finniigan on Sunday, November 10th

Week Two (Monday, November 11th to Sunday, November 17th)

✨innominatta, boguspreston, & SendPseuds on Monday, Nov 11th ✨GrapeNehi & obikinz on Tuesday, Nov 12th ✨espurred & Ladydinaga on Wednesday, Nov 13th ✨lord_is_it_mine & Noothgrushhh on Thursday, Nov 14th ✨EdenPierce(ChunChan11) & Imperfectmooncat on Friday, Nov 15th ✨ThatGayJedi & AberrantCreature on Saturday, Nov 16th ✨thesunkid & WhitePadi on Sunday, Nov 17th

Week Three (Monday, November 18th to Sunday, November 24th)

✨Lady_evelin & abandoneddogg on Monday, Nov 18th ✨coirionin & crybabyskywalkers on Tuesday, Nov 19th ✨Graciously & jarenka on Wednesday, Nov 20th ✨thegingerwrites & daysofauldlangsyne on Thursday, Nov 21st ✨Meleth_03 & silvipeppers on Friday, Nov 22nd ✨exonerin & afabulousjello on Saturday, Nov 23rd ✨SpoopyTheOtherAlien & eggchayi on Sunday, Nov 24th

Week Four (Monday, November 25th to Sunday, December 1st)

✨greyghoulclub & rancidmice on Monday, Nov 25th ✨blahzarry & k333t333 on Tuesday, Nov 26th ✨LilRedGhost & EdieHhil on Wednesday, Nov 27th ✨calico_sky & phoenixspencer on Thursday, Nov 28th ✨cottonraincoat & funtimeLJ6789 on Friday, Nov 29th 14:00 PST ✨phoenixspencer & starryariart on Friday, Nov 29th 20:00 PST ✨Mynthe_Absynthe & finniigan on Saturday, Nov 30th ✨deathbyobiwan & nickytess on Sunday, Dec 1st

Week Five (Monday, December 2nd to Sunday, December 8th)

✨dragons_and_angels & pararararablof on Monday, Dec 2nd ✨EvenAfter & abandoneddogg on Tuesday, Dec 3rd, 07:00 PST ✨CreativeSweets & k333t333 on Tuesday, Dec 3rd, 15:00 PST ✨minarchy & eggchayi on Wednesday, Dec 4th ✨maragny & Noothgrushhh on Thursday, Dec 5th ✨tennessoui & human-rocket on Friday, Dec 6th ✨withyourrhythm & alexagirlie Saturday, Dec 7th ✨Narlth & pararararablof on Sunday, December 8th

Week Six (Monday, December 9th to Sunday, December 15th)

✨silianrail & Kittona on Monday, Dec 9th ✨quietlybookish & nickytess on Tuesday, Dec 10th ✨passeridae & bosooka on Wednesday, Dec 11th ✨palfriendpatine66 & SendPseuds on Thursday, Dec 12th ✨arcadienne & ayceofcard on Friday, Dec 13th, 07:00 PST ✨JMT722735 & absolute-artlad on Friday, Dec 13th, 18:00 PST ✨AFishNamedSushi & prettyboize on Saturday, Dec 14th, 10:00 PST ✨auldays & yatsukisakura on Saturday, Dec 14th, 17:00 PST ✨lemon_sprinkles & phoenixspencer Sunday, Dec 15th

Week Seven (Monday, Dec 16th to Sunday, Dec 22nd) (Part 1)

✨soldieronbarnes & kaleidoscopeeyee, Monday Dec 16th ✨Riduurburton & pararararablof, Tuesday, Dec 17th ✨UsakoStar & AberrantCreature, Wednesday, Dec 18th ✨rooftopsong & rancidmice, Thursday, Dec 19th ✨stardies & human-rocket, Friday, Dec 20th ✨TheSopherfly & kaleidoscopeeyee, Saturday, Dec 21st ✨Happyp1neapple & eggchayi on Sunday, Dec 22nd, 19:00 PST ✨hopeforchange & chiyoponnn, Sunday, Dec 22nd, 23:00 PST

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Do we get any more inside scoop on Hardeen? 😈😈😈 Can’t wait!

Of course! And thank you for the question. I have 24,255 words at the moment, and I'm working on the second half of the fifth chapter at. It's all my first draft (more or less, but I won't bore you with the details. I did some extensive rewriting).

Before I post my situation (boring) and a snippet (might be interesting), I'll ask a counter question.

Depending on the answer in a week, I'll arrange something.

For option 1: as soon as everything is finished, I'll switch to daily updates, too.

Snippet and irrelevant explanation below:

Now, I'll talk briefly about my situation. So, looking at my AO3 account, I released Not Made To Last in June and then remained silent until September with Bringing Him Home and Insult & Injury in close succession. You might suspect I took a break, but I didn't.

Because this is not an entirely accurate timeline. I wrote my Obikin Big Bang (77k) and a non-Star Wars related project (20k) in this time gap, too.

So, since the end of June, I've written 130k and edited 175k words. I also have a 40 hour office job and a (one-person) household to run. This has implications for how I spent my time, as you can imagine. By which I mean, I had several weeks of very long nights.

I planned to continue with the Hardeen fic (Till Death Do Us Part) immediately, but I was a little bit... well, overwhelmed, perhaps. I write for fun, and I might lovingly call it my second job, but I don't make any money on this. It's a hobby. That means, I have to have fun while writing (which I do!).

I guess, what I want to say is: I took an involuntary break to keep this sustainable in the long run. Therefore, I didn't make any progress with my writing since I posted the last chapter of Insult & Injury

Here's the good news, though: I started again on Monday, and I've been making solid progress. So, we will get there.

Lastly, the most important part: the snippet! And I have 25k to pick from, so it's very difficult. Here's my snippet:

Turning the large sniper rifle in his hands, the movements both elegant and eerily familiar, Hardeen twisted the blaster from the guard's hands. While the guard stumbled back, Hardeen pushed for an advantage, aggressively gaining terrain as he landed a barrage of blows that took the guard to the edge of the plaza.

Rako Hardeen.

Vaguely, Anakin remembered that the Chancellor told him Hardeen had escaped.

It was unfair.

Slowly, Anakin struggled to his feet, swaying as he staggered after Hardeen, determined to make him pay. He felt punch-drunk as he approached Hardeen, his gaze on the mercenary's back to avoid acknowledging the world spun wildly out of control.

Each breath was loud, coated in blood and agony.

Sensing Anakin limp closer, Hardeen turned around, and his eyes were so… They were so… pale blue. Gray. Overcast skies and icy shards. So Obi-Wan.

How cruel that the man who had slain his Master had stolen his eyes, too.

Desperately, he gritted his teeth, grinding them with so much pressure that his molars ached.

"You killed him," Anakin growled, his voice a low hum that vibrated behind his clenched teeth. "I loved him, and you killed him."

Tapping from energy reserves Anakin didn't possess, burning the embers of his being, he lunged at Hardeen. For a brief moment, as Anakin barreled into Hardeen and sent them both to the ground, he believed he could win.

Then, Hardeen rolled them over, twisting Anakin's left arm behind his back. Hardeen's other arm curled around his throat, pinning Anakin in a hold he couldn't escape, the threat of pressure against his throat a clear warning.

If Hardeen believed Anakin was scared of death, he was dead wrong. Vindication made Anakin bare his teeth like a feral animal, and he struggled in the hold, his joints protesting as he forced them in awkward angles. Hardeen applied more weight, pinning Anakin against the smooth stone of the plaza. The arm pressed against his throat tightened marginally.

Anakin had depleted his energy, but he had hatred left, and he would fight as nastily as he could. Hardeen applied more pressure, and Anakin knew he wouldn't win.

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Nothing better than cats being cute to cope.

I have a lot of ideas and wips, I already sketched The Bad Batch in a big cat pile together cuddling and a I want to draw ref sheets for each one too.

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coming soon, obikin fans! stay tuned for more info to follow.

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Mirrorverse snippet 2

(First drabble here)

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Obi-Wan doesn't really understand why his counterpart is so indulgent with their version of Anakin. He's more than familiar with the other man (having been on several missions with him) and he's very loud and obnoxious. He's nothing like a Jedi should be.

He can understand that the bond between Padawan and Master probably helped a lot in that aspect, but even so the way they acted around each other was so unbecoming. You'd think Kenobi could show a little more decorum considering he was a Master Jedi! Speaking of which, it had stunned Obi-Wan to the point of speechlessness to learn that the other him was not only a Master, but a Council Member at that! What he wouldn't give to have a seat on the Council!

Still, he must be patient. If it happened for Kenobi then perhaps it would eventually happen for him too. One could only hope. He tries not to be jealous. He really does.

He was currently meditating in the room of a thousand fountains. Trying to clear his mind from his turmoil emotions. Ever since the appearance of their counterparts he's had to meditate twice as much it seemed. It was like the universe was testing him.

Out of the corner of his eye he spots Anakin. How curious. He almost never saw the man in here. Before he knows it his body is moving before he gives it permission. He's not sure what possesses him to go over to Anakin. Normally Obi-Wan likes to spend his time alone.

He sits down beside him and gives Anakin a nod. Anakin nods back. Then they both close their eyes and meditate for a while. It's surprisingly peaceful.

Obi-Wan breaks the silence first. "Have you put any thought into taking a Padawan?"

Anakin opens his eyes with slight confusion.

Obi-Wan offers a smile. "I hear your counterpart really quite enjoys teaching."

He'd been surprised to hear that Ahsoka Tano, his very own padawan, was actually Skywalker's Padawan in that other world. He cannot even begin to imagine the chaos those two got up to.

Anakin shrugs. "Dunno. Maybe."

They fall into silence again.

"Did you ever–"

"Are you–"

They both stop.

"You go first." Anakin insists, unsure what he'd been saying anyway.

Obi-Wan gives him another smile. Anakin swallows quietly. Damn the man but he really did look nice like this. Now that he knew what a laughing Obi-Wan looked like he couldn't get it out of his head. Now that he knew what an Obi-Wan that liked him looked like, would he even be able to return to the status quo?

Just as Obi-Wan opens his mouth, Skywalker drops onto him from behind. His arms snake around him, head nudging catlike against his.

"Master!"

Obi-Wan stiffens and squeaks indignantly. Skywalker pauses. He leans back to look down at the man he's accosted.

"You're not Obi-Wan," he says like it's Obi-Wan's fault for confusing him.

He unlatches off him and stands up. "Now where did he go?" Skywalker mutters under his breath.

He spots Kenobi by the pool and runs off. Kenobi senses his approach and turns to greet him. Kenobi accepts him happily into his lap and the two fall over laughing as they roll in the grass.

Obi-Wan coughs and runs a hand through his ruined hair. He cannot believe any counterpart of himself would ever be so obscene. So brazenly open. They just sat there nuzzling each other! (And yet he must begrudgingly admit the pair did look quite happy.)

Obi-Wan clears his throat, needing a change of subject. "I was thinking about a game of chess if you're up for it?"

Anakin's mouth opens slightly. He tilts his head. Then smirks.

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Unbeknownst to Obi-Wan, Anakin had played the game plenty of times with Qui-Gon. The man thought it a marvelous way to expand the mind. Anakin had gotten quite proficient.

They end in a stalemate. It seemed Qui-Gon taught them both well. They eat and drink and play until it's twilight. Anakin's feet feel stiff from sitting so long. He needs to stretch. That's when an idea alights in his head.

"Do you want to spar?"

Obi-Wan's expression slackens in surprise. Several emotions flit through his face too fast to identify. Then he smiles softly. "Yes."

Together they make their way to the courtyard. Apparently they weren't the only ones with the idea, for Master Kenobi and Knight Skywalker are already sparring. They're breathless and sweating profusely. Twin grins of joy stretch their lips. They move as one, fighting like they're two sides of the same soul.

Anakin wants that. He wants to know what it's like to have that.

The two finally notice them. Or rather Master Kenobi does. With Kenobi glancing away from his opponent, Skywalker takes his distraction to his advantage and tackles him.

"Anakin!" Kenobi shrieks. But then he laughs. They roll around trying to wrestle each other into submission.

Skywalker wraps his arm around Kenobi's neck. "Yield Master!"

Kenobi mumbles something, seemingly yielding. The arm loosens. Then Kenobi throws Skywalker over his back and onto the unforgiving ground. Skywalker looks up at him betrayed. Kenobi shrugs unapologetic.

"Never let your guard down, darling."

“You're one to talk!”

The two stand, fight now over, and greet the other pair.

"Mats all yours!" Kenobi says pleasantly.

But Anakin doesn't really feel like it anymore. how he's supposed to spar with what he's just witnessed?

Nevertheless, they get into position and begin.

Their rhythm is off. Right from the start it's clumsy and awkward. It's nothing like the natural ebb and flow of their counterparts. It's all wrong. Anakin can tell Obi-Wan is frustrated as well. They try to change it up but several minutes in its clear that they just can't get it right.

The match ends far sooner than either would like. They part ways back to their respective quarters. Anakin has the strangest urge to ask him for another spar tomorrow. But he doesn't. There'd be no point.

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What movie would you like to watch for the first time and what movie is so good you could watch it every day?

Thank you for the question!

A movie I would like to watch for the first time is, predictably, Revenge of the Sith. I'll always be heartbroken when I watch that movie, but on my first watch, I was also shocked. Because I sincerely didn't anticipate Anakin's Fall or the whole Darth Vader debacle.

You can't imagine how confused I was that Obi-Wan cut off Anakin's limbs. I totally misunderstood the genre of the movie I was watching, so this turn of events was impossible -- it should be impossible. I sincerely believed I was watching a generic albeit super entertaining and fascinating action movie. And until that very last moment, when Obi-Wan leaves Anakin on the lava banks, I somehow believed things would take a turn for the better.

It was a little devastating to realize this was actually it. And then that I loved you. My feelings truly weren't spared.

The second question is a tough one. And I will cheat, actually. I don't watch many movies. However, I used to watch a lot of anime. And I think if there's a series I could rewatch episodes of each day, it would be Saiyuuki. I admire Minekura Kazuya greatly. She writes character dynamics and chemistry so well -- unmatched, I would say.

But maybe the problem is more that I don't watch the right movies. Because I watch some, but I don't feel particularly attached to or inspired by any of them -- even if I do enjoy them. I don't know. Maybe I'm not really a movie person?

On an entirely unrelated note, I did watch Virgin Territory lately. And I actually did enjoy that movie. I don't think I'll ever watch it again, but I had a genuinely good time.

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Something I think about a lot is Anakin hanging out with the other Padawans in his age group at the Jedi Temple, listening to them discuss past field trips when they were all eight years old or which crèche master they had back when they were young kings or even what their favorite type of candy was when they were kids, and being completely unable to related to all of it but at the same time, desperately hoping no one points out that he’s different and doesn’t have the same memories or experiences as the rest of them do.

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Obikin omegaverse | alpha/alpha | Finished (28,503 words)

They get to be bonded in this chapter. Predictably, they make things actively worse before anything gets better. Also, more Ahsoka!