#hrmb

[foxfireartz]

"ember I thought you hated Carlota what version are you talking about"

[badcaninecemetery]

hrm. forgot to tag rappa in that doodle post, sigh. *explodes into confetti*

........ on a side note, i'm cooking up some new merch ideas. stayed tuned after this piece is either finished or almost finished

[quitedisastrous]

hrmb

[eyelessfog]

🤔 hrmb

[truckfreaks]

one thing did happen yesterday at that writing thing that I've been pondering a bunch and it's really the only "weird vibe" i got from this group but HRMMMMM

we were critiquing one members poem (a white woman in her 60s who was very well meaning but also clearly had some confusion about the spectrum of genderqueerness) and someone else (middle aged white woman who also was well meaning but didn't seem to really be pro-freeform grammar in poetry) made the suggestion that "it's all well and good that you're writing these messages of togetherness but who is your audience? maybe if this is about trans people, you should include concrete things about the experience of being trans, or write more from a perspective of your queer audience"

so i spoke up and said hey, i know i'm new and i know i didnt correct anyone cause i'm still pretty nervous about being public with this stuff, and i'm sorry if i'm wrong in what i'm about to say, but i am pretty sure i am the only trans or gender queer person in the room, and you wanted perspectives. (and a word of confirmation from the group leader that yes, all of them were cis). i disagree that it would be useful to include concrete experiences in the poem. it detracts from (theme a and theme b) which i think are enhanced by respecting the diversity of but not overly defining human experiences, and what we want to highlight here is more of the idea that it's the experiences adjacent to one another that brings richness to life, rather than the specific experiences themselves. especially because the audience, if marginalized, can then see their own experiences reflected by using lived experience to fill in those gaps - which is something we very frequently do in poetry, because it encourages analysis and reflection.

and a bunch of folks agreed, and fwiw the room was 100% cis (except me) and maybe idk 75% white (and yes, i promise all of this is relevant. BUT if youre reading this and youre a writer you should know its relevant REGARDLESS, because if you are ever going to be a good writer, you really should seek out creative spaces that ARE NOT HOMOGENEOUS. red flag, baby). so I was like "hrmb do I do this? it's my first time being here" but I felt like offering a counter perspective from somebody who has been actively engaging in and pursuing and exploring transition options for several yrs would be useful, particularly since they said that adding trans perspectives was important

for example, it would be pretty tone deaf for me to write something about what it's like to grow up in (our area) as a black person, because i can't speak to that lived experience and it isn't my place to, but one *could* write about the problems that occur in our area that are particular to a marginalized group, so long as you actually talk to said marginalized group and educate yourself first. but to do otherwise would be a misrepresentation of your lived experience and i don't think thats adding anything to the conversation when there are dozens of authentic voices of experience that get talked over by cishet white people all day, every day.

and the guy who leads the group was basically like, well, I think writers have a range of talent and if you are talented enough you can write from that point of view and we shouldn't limit ourselves. just because you wouldn't write things about experiencing a childhood growing up in our area as a black person doesn't mean anything, that's just your own self imposed limit.

(and I just thought to myself "gosh, i wonder if he'd say that in a more diverse room of people!") and i was like "wait so did you want trans perspectives or just ones that agree with you hahaha"

and I meant it as a joke and I'm like 99.9% pretty sure it landed as a joke and like I said everyone was super positive about my presence there and encouraged me to come back and all but AGGGH that one thing just keeps kinda eating at me and it sorta bothers me a lil.

BUT to be fair after i said what i said there was another person there who said "actually this is a good time to say i am considering changing my name to (insert name) and i am questioning and i agree w sam" and ... the facilitator, right, he repeatedly kept portmanteau-izing their name saying "hahaha I'm gonna mess up i can't remember, this is easier for me" and they were like "but you do remember otherwise you wouldn't be able to make that joke every time you address me" and I was like huh!!!!!!!!!!! ............ maybe they just don't respect genderqueer people here (shocker)

I'm still gonna go, cause there's a lot of cool people there even if the facilitator is sort of a knob

[lunarsickle]

affection.... hrmb

[perce]

either i become an atla blog or i make a sideblog. decisions

[guholiveira008-blog]

Unera turbo do tsu! 🤪 👉 youtube.com/speedy008 #uno #unoturbo #millefire #hrmb #racing #pista #youtube #turbo (em Race Valley Motorsports Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/B210hhdgIq8/?igshid=1t84buhkt3ig4

[draconicz]

you are loved and appreciate, you are S P E C I A L AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AWWWW LOVELY THANK YOU SO MUCH... BRO YOU BETTER STOP BEFORE I TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ON MAIN!!! /R 💘💖💝

[etgramen]

    no i will not be providing context

[zillyeh]

do I finish the Voss/Castel thing I started months ago

[bromantically]

hm......... thinking........ having thougths about the name Kitty............... hrmb,, much to think about

[arktic-blocks]

Hrmb.... thimking....

I obviously already made a lil change to the villager model to test it out but...

Should I stick with a human concept? Or should I make villagers a more cryptid-esque, non-human species rather than just another form of human?

[eyelessfog]

i. hrmb. what if land of the lustrous

[thebigcomed0wn]

1, 16, 26?

1- fav game

trigger happy havoc is so so special to me nd sdr2 was pretty good. im sorry but v3 i will endlessly drag through the mud idk why it got so popular

16- absolute brotp

hajime and kazuichi and fuyuhiko NO doubt. u cant go wrong. also i think makoto and mondo were great cause every conversation ended with “ugh fuck me hes gonna kill me why do i hang out with him” and the next day they hang out again

26- fav execution

hrmb,, ch. 1/5’s in thh and ch. 2’s in sdr2 :] not cause of the characters really, cause like ch. 4’s in sdr2 and ch. 5’s in ndrv3 wouldnt be as good if it was a different character yanno