#how to stop procratinating

[loveanaox]

Enhypens personality Off Camera

(This was a request from @sungine , thank you so much for the request!)

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Jungwon

Cards pulled out: The hierophant, the fool reversed, knight of swords, temperance

Yeah so what im getting is that off camera he's a very traditional guy with traditional values here and there he shares it, off camera he still can be a bit reckless like all the kpop idols, cause we all know they're humans. A little neglectful. But even the cards say a leader lmao. Still witty, sometimes daring, very like single- minded. But ja

He's a balanced guy off camera and has a little bit of patience and calmness. It's like he doesn't let things get to him, but he only gets to himself. If you know what I mean.

Overall pretty good tbh.

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Heesung

Cards pulled out: Knight of pentacles, the tower, the hermit, queen of swords reversed

Okay damn, so off camera he is practical, logical, hard worker, making his dreams come true, but at the same time extremely chaotic, which causes him to like go home take a shower and think deep about what he has done and how chaotic shit is. Very pessimistic too which causes him to be very nasty at times and make cruel comments, bad at communicating too.

He's a good person deep down and he means well, but communication skills are bad and he's too focused on the bad and being perfect.

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Jay

Cards pulled out: four of cups, the empress, page of swords, seven of pentacles.

Okay so he's very in his head a lot and he's so in his head that he misses good opportunities for him and he even refuses some offers to him, idk if it's pettiness or just because he's so stuck in his head, but he had a lot of nurturing and creative energy, not shocked from all his Taurus placements.

But he's more on guard and tries to think before he speaks and tries to not get into arguments. But ja sometimes he questions things a lot. Too in his head, but nothing too bad. He should just get out of his head otherwise depression starts.

Overall chill, but ja something he should work on.

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Jake

Cards pulled out: Ace of wands reversed, chariot, seven of cups reversed and the devil reversed.

So I feel like off camera he does have a lack of enthusiasm and gets bored easily and has a blocked creative side. Idk what stopping it but I think he's fixing it rn. He's overcoming obstacles and has self-discipline and some will power in him.

He's too focused on materialistic things and I feel like he feels trapped, but I think he out himself in that trap not gonna lie, he tries to avoid these problems but I think he realized he can't now.

Now he's getting over his addictions and gaining control again. Yaya yaya

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Sunghoon

Cards pulled out: king of wands reversed, seven of cups, queen of cups, the emperor reversed

Idk this is confusing, so he can be very nasty and abuse his power and be a bitch, but still very emotional like nice and kindness and shit, womanizer bro. Anyways. He might break a lot of his promises

He has a lot of options and he procratinates a lot and has a lack of enthusiasm, I don't blame him.

But he's very controlling ngl and abusive, or abuses his power. He seriously needs to get a grip of himself.

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Sunoo

Cards pulled out: Nine of cups, five of swords reversed, two of swords reversed and four of pentacles.

So off camera he is still very cheerful, optimistic, confident and had a high self-esteem. But he can be a little relentless and be emotionally cold to some people and be like cold and gone.

He can be very indecisive and he holds onto his fears and anxiety a lot. But that's not all he holds on to, he holds on top people, his belongings, ect ect.

A little stingy ngl and ja very possessive.

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Niki

Cards pulled out: all reversed, knight fo swords, three of cups, ace of pentacles and ace of cups.

Damn. So he can be a little hurtful with his words and be sarcastic, sometimes a know it all, he goes with the flow and is a follower. So he just follows the group.

He had a lack of social life and friends which is sad and he has a lack of security and he can be a little stingy with his money, he's very heartbroken though. Ngl I can imagine, he basically doesn't even have a proper teenage fun years. He has blocked emotions and stuff. Shame man he just needs more friends and people that will hear him

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I hope you guys enjoyed the readings. Till next time. Byeeee

[sailingeverynight]

i had a whole weekend by myself

the goods: time spent with no compromises and just however I felt which is nice. social battery is recovered. I finally watched The worst person in the world which I wanted to watch for months and years and it was as good as I thought. I baked plum crumble (buckwheat mixed with oats which was okayish) and made (good) soup and a walnut pesto (from scratch) and kitchen time is always rewarding. got a bit of reading done (even if it was just a graphic novel but it's so gripping). did something I procratinated for a long period. watched og youtube vloggers going out in London, making me feel soothed and calm in a nostalgic and parasocial nice way.

the bads: had to think about the fig anthology from Sylvia Plath. about how different my life would be if other things happened, or things happened differently. anxiety crept up on me on sunday evening with all things I wanted to do and needed to do. watched people having breakfast in a cafè together or going on a walk hand in hand or going shopping and I felt lonesome. and sometimes it's fine and it's good and I need to be alone. but sometimes I don't want to be. I felt like Saoirse Ronan playing Jo March in Little Woman, really felt that 'I'm so lonely.' And I spoke with no one I love today which probably does something bad for the brain. and I could change it but I don't and I don't know why. and sometimes I just overthink things and I think of things and how it could be differently (even if they could never) and I think of someone I like and what it would be like to just have a casual sunday together - from freshly made pancakes to walking to a new coffee shop to meeting up with a befriended couple to lying head on chest or hands in hands or feet in lap on the couch watching a sequel to a movie series we love. and I think of the guy I matched with on a dating app and what life would be like with him but I try try try to stop romanticising every word. then I remember what I look like and that my period is annoyingly late and that I still need to do the dishes and clean up my shoes and I am angry at myself that even though I had almost no plans I still didn't do all the chores and monday creeps around the corner and the worst part is: i don't want to do all this every.single. fucking. week. again. it's always the same and I don't like my job and it's all so exhausting. I feel like it's all wasted - all this time, all this effort and not-effort when I'm procratinating and not activly doing anything. in the words of a new favourite film I've just seen: 'I feel like a spectator in my own life. Like I'm playing a supporting role in my own life.' and I don't know if I can change that.;

[faithisthekey-23]

That's right. God is way more important than the good things of this world. This world is temporary, but life with God is everlasting.

That's why seeking Him is so important to walk with Him. Once we lose our chance to repent when there is still time to do so, we lose the chance forever. Right now, Lord Jesus is asking us to open the door for Him. Do it. Don't wait for ”the right time” and don't procratinate. Lord is coming very soon. Thousands of people have dreams and visions of Jesus Christ our Savior coming back on earth for the second time. I'm not writing this to scare you but to make you realize the importance of walking with the Almighty, obeying His word and sharing it.

Remember that God can use anyone to bring Him [Almighty] glory. No one is perfect, there is not a person that didn't sin. Everyone sinned. God loves us so much that He wanted us to have a chance to be with Him in Hevean. That's why He sent us His Only Begotten Son. He set an example how we should live, paid the price for our sins on the cross. He died on a cross in such a brutal way and got treated in a way that we should be treated because of our sin. But Jesus loves us so much, that He decided to obey His Father's will and died on the cross, so that we could be treated in a way He deserved to be treated right from the beginning.

You still have some time left to change and repent, be born again. You still can get baptized with the Holy Spirit. You still can turn to God. It doesn't matter what you did, you can do this. God is Merciful and if you admit that you're a sinner and repent, He will forgive your sins and forget them. For when He looks at the cross Jesus died on, He sees our mistakes and imperfections but when He looks at us, sees how perfect Jesus was, is and will forever be. So don't think that you're not enough and don't let your past stop you from serving God. You are a new creature in Jesus Christ, your past doesn't matter anymore. You're someone new, you have a new start. Do your best to obey God's Word and stay on the right path.

God bless you, I hope that your name is/will be written in the Book of Life. Remember that Holy Trinity loves you and have a day full of blessings.

[sugarpopss]

Her dear, how about “Yes, but stop laughing at me.” for the response thingy? <3

Thank you for helping me procratinate!! I haven't been in the writing vibe for a while so it's nice to get back into it.

"Do you feel better now?"

Gareth groans, props his elbows on the table and leans onto them, pouting. You huff a laugh and reach out to work your fingers through his pretty-albeit a little sweaty-curls.

The hideout is nearly empty, as it usually is on Tuesday nights. Or really Wednesday mornings, seeing as the one clock in the esteemed establishment stuck midnight almost thirty minutes ago.

Despite the lack of a crowd earlier in the night, Gareth had gone at the performance as enthusiastically as ever. He was gorgeous when he played, hair bouncing, necklace thudding against his collarbones, flushed and grinning.

Maybe even a little too enthusiastic.

Because during Corroded Coffin's last song, your gorgeous, lovely boy smacked himself spot on his right cheekbone with his drumstick.

To be fair, he finished the song like a champ.

To be entirely fair, he also walked off the stage visibly holding back tears.

You knew as soon as you saw his slowly swelling, purpling cheek what you needed to do. So you took Gareth-who was assuring that he was fine through small sobs-by the hands and led him to a table, then went on a hunt for the owner of this shithole bar to ask if they had any ice packs hanging around. You got a frozen water bottle. Beggars can't chosers.

You had sat next to Gareth at the table with the suspicously sticky top and pressed the bottle to his hurt cheek, kept your hand there until he took it himself.

"It's okay if you need to cry a little bit, babe. It looked like it hurt."

He switches his hands on the water bottle and sniffles.

"No, no I'm good. I've got it."

You laugh softly. Stubborn as a mule, or maybe just a Leo.

"You never answered me; do you feel better?" You hope the bottle is helping. It's really all you can do, aside from offering him an Ibuprofen and a kiss.

He drops his head onto your shoulder, good side down.

"Yes, but stop laughing at me."

[kahvilahuhut]

For the 100 OC questions, 10, 13, 20, 30 & 50!

i'll answer with Dana <3

10. What are some of your oc’s pet peeves? How do they handle it when the annoyance doesn’t stop?

They really hate it when people complain about something they clearly have no idea about. Usually they're just standing there, while feeling internallt like one of those tumblr stick-guy-biting-something-violently pics. They do /sometimes/ tend to correct the person, especially if what the person is saying is completely wrong.

Another pet peeve is when people don't clean up after themselves, and they always mention it to this person.

13. What is your oc’s confidence like? Are they self-confident to the point of being arrogant? Are they terribly self-deprecating?

It depends! Sometimes she's very confident, sometimes she really really hates herself, especially if something bad happens and she was involved in it in at least some way. She does tend to cover up her self-deprecating to the others by talking about this bad thing from different perspectives and what else could have led to this or saying something like "well at least we're still alright."

She's an unstoppable force in both situations though. If there's something that needs to be done, she'll definitely do it. (Though, the process of doing things often includes procratinating on doing something else)

20. Does your oc have any favourite games to pass the time? What other hobbies do they have?

Hmm I don't think they have a favorite game! When they're bored, they often like to read news or research random information that they want to know at that moment.

For hobbies, they draw A Lot, and do that when they're bored, too, if they have the materials to do so. They also like working out 😳

Rumors say that they also sometimes do yoga at three AM especially when they don't feel like sleeping. # self care (not really)

30. How caring/empathetic is your oc? Are they the type to immediately adopt and protect others, or are they a true sadist?

They're very caring, even if they don't show it and aren't really that empathetic. They just feel like what they do should help people in one way or another, and when it comes to choosing what to do in difficult situations, they tend to choose what brings the least amount of suffering to people.

50. How attentive is your oc? How perceptive are they? How easily do they get distracted?

Dana? Attentive? that happens like 10% of the time. She tends to do many different things at the same time, but also has the ability to remember everything someone said to her, even if she seemed to not pay attention. She also tends to trust her intuition instead of paying attention to the details to figure out what to do.

Then again, juggling different things at the same time helps her keep up the motivation to work by changing things around her, so maybe it's for the good :)

[ajab-leher]

my personality goals for when i meet people consistently again ahahah, and when i'm able to once again understand how i function in a society! (2021 don't fail me please):

i want to have a proper self-care routine in place! not only skincare/hydration/exercise (none of which i consistently have lol) but also meditation and yoga and breathing!

for the life of me i want the persona that i kind of thought i had back when i was 11-13 a.k.a your local friendly quiet girl who has good grades and is known to be a nice person.

i want to make friends! lots of friends! and acquaintances! (which is the part i'm most worried about aaaaa but i'm actively repressing these fears because uh i have more things to worry about right now)

i want to live on my own (as in, not at my parents' place, but with a roommate/housemate!!!) and i want to cook and do dishes and buy groceries and make meal plans and stash snacks!

i also want to uh 👉👈 develop my own aesthetic and style,,,,, and i want it to have wide-legged jeans and pastel/bright colours! i want a haircut like @/notangel on youtube (highly specific but! i just do!) and a room like @/linh truong's and a fashion sense like @/bestdressed.

I WANT TO BE ASSERTIVE AND CONFIDENT but still be me and i want to be liked for it! and i want to like myself for it! i want to learn to be comfortable and loud (as loud as i can ahah).

i want to volunteer in libraries! and i want to make friends with all sorts of people! (tumblr mutuals i want to be friends with you ALL please! but i'm shy rip,,,,)

i want to be the sort of person who small babies like ahaaha and i'll play with them and wave at them in super-markets or something idk. and i want to make friends with crows!

i want to study well and get good grades (i....don't think i can unlearn this folks 😔 my academic self-esteem ties very centrally into my overall self-esteem) but more than that! i want to make myself proud any way i can and i want to be a positive role model!

i want to make churmuri, which is this south indian snack we make with vegetables and murmura (which in my language we call chanburo, pronunciation is not the same as the english spelling lol). and i want to share it with all my friends because i perfected my version of it recently and it tastes like **chef's kiss**

i want to hold on to all my friendships. well, the ones that will be held by the other person too ahahah.

i want to tell all the people that i've even sorta kinda liked romantically that i liked them and laugh about it because it's in the past and it was funny and it made me happy for a while. i was thinking in the morning about giving all the people that i questioned my platonic feelings for a letter writing about it ahahaha. but i'm not sure if they'll be out of my life after this year and i don't want to make our friendships awkward lmao.

i want to give myself more space to breathe and i want to learn to distance my personal self from who i am around people. and i want to put myself first, learn to overcome guilt, and stop keeping high expectations from people! also.......i want to put less efforts in the friendships when i feel like it isn't reciprocated ahahah! guess that's putting myself first?

i want to read more books! watch more tv shows and movies and visit more places! love life and things more and more and more!

i want to get over my sad writer's block and continue writing my fanfiction! because it's fun and makes me proud of myself ahahah.

i want to know if dec 18th is real and if he is real i want to date him or something ahahahah. i want to be in a real relationship nfbwjdksj GOD THIS IS GETTING EMBARRASSING NOW.

very very further down the line, i want to live by the beach, with those who love me. that's my end goal.

this feels like i'm talking to myself but bro! this felt so fulfilling and fun! and yes i'm procratinating on studying but uh i'll manifest doing well on my pre-boards and practicals and boards and entrances and............... i'm dead 👌.

[raindrop-on-a-spiderweb]

So, in true form of procratinating for the evening, I went into the wormhole of Youtube watching movie scenes. I managed to get into Reese Witherspoon, and from there went back to one of her more underrated roles in a movie called Election (1999). 

Reese as Tracy Flick is honestly the best thing ever. 

I recommend this movie if you haven't seen it yet. It's great and does a wonderful job of giving the inner workings of how deep an election can be via the setting of a small highschool election. Even if it's minuscule to us, it gets to the grit of how people can be, and how far one would go for results to sway in one direction.

But, this isn't why I brought it up. As with Heathers, Election reminded me of Ragnatela. Now, the characters don't exactly line up the same way our favorite mains do, but it would be an interesting modern twist.

Honestly, if Leo was a short female, Reese could be him (maybe that's a reach, but work with me here lol). Tracy is a go-getter, trying her best to achieve the high status of becoming school president. Though not the most popular, she's known for her ambitious and somewhat overbearing nature. She's had an affair with a teacher and got him fired when her telling her mother about it. This brings on the resentment of one teacher, James McAllister.

McAllister is a pleasant teacher who is liked by many students, the teacher fired was a close friend of his, and although McAllister does believe it was right for the teacher to get fired for having an affair with a student, there is resentment against Tracy for not only being the other half of it but having her mother's influence as a paralegal to help cover her tracks.

When Tracy decides to run, McAllister does all he can to put up a fight against her. From getting a popular guy to run against her to tampering with the election results, McAllister becomes obsessed and ruins his life trying to take down Tracy.

This reminded me of Patience and Leo. Although what Leo did was a lot more evil, he and Tracy are the same. They're both ambitious, wanting political power in some form, and are manipulative in getting what they want. Patience and McAllister are the ones who want to do the right thing, but in the end, get dragged into the mud and become just as scummy (McAllister is caught tampering with the ballots and is forced to resign).

What got to me though was the ending. McAllister finally achieved his dream of going to D.C. and he sees her being chummy with a Republican representative. He's still very bothered by how successful she became, slithering her way to the top. He throws his drink on the car she's in, but when it stops, he ends up being chased away.

Although Leo does end up facing justice, in the end, Patience is chased away even when she attempts to get the last hurrah of sorts. Both McAllister and Patience are underdogs who get themselves into situations and can't get a break. Despite the crumbling of their morals, it's hard not to root for McAllister and Patience seeing their warped view of justice over time.

I said all of this only to say it would be interesting to see an AU of Ragnatela in a high school/college student body election setting, just to see the underworkings in how muddled things can get for an election that small. I mean there's a lot more to the movie that would transfer well into it as well (characters, situations, overall themes), but if I write about that this post will never end lmao. Damn, I'm honestly getting ideas now. Don't be surprised if I write about this now lol.

I should probably use my analysis skills towards finishing my paper at this point lmao. But yea this is my late night thought I had to get out .-.

[classicalguitarcoach-blog]

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I did my graduation recital on November 11, 2018. I had to play ten pieces and two of them have movements: one has six movements and the other seven. That makes an equivalent of 23 pieces for one recital. So I had to be very organized to…

[mylifeinhopeworld]

That hyungwon oneshot was *blushes* really good❤️👌👌 but of course it was IT WAS WRITTEN BY YOU! So the writer asks, prepare yourself cuz I got questions. (Sorry for so many ask, ur just so interesting ❤️) Ink, genre, backstory, & playlist ❤️❤️❤️ily

You liked it? Thanks!♥  You’re making me flustered again❤️

ink: what do you do to “set the mood” when writing?

Idk, I just…go with the flow? I have so many ideas, so when I actually get inspired to write and stop procratinating, everything just makes sense and it’s actually not that hard to do for me.

genre: what genre do you prefer to write in?

Ahem, I think it’s pretty obvious have you seen my blog lol Smut.

But I also like to write fantasy/adventure sometimes, I just don’t post it online♥

backstory: how did you come to love writing?

I’m someone who talks a lot and has a HUGE imagination, so I started writing when I was very young, to make my daydreams come to life. Also, I have always admired writers, since I read a lot (to give you an Idea: I read the entire Harry Potter series in about 4 months when I was 6-7 years old)

playlist: what kind of music/songs help you write? do you have a writing playlist?

As I mentioned in a previous post, I mostly listen to kpop, so that’s still true when I write! I do have an Itunes playlist of songs to listen to during smut hours…

I could make a Soundcloud playlist if you guys want? Tell me if you do, because I’m 100% ready to make it♥

[changbinsplushie]

Get To Know Me Tag

I was tagged by the cute @3rachans​ (THANKS FOR THE TAG!!!) I’m sorry i’m doing this years later... I just took time to do these now; (like mate stop procratinating)

What’s my name? Tamiris

What’s my nickname? Tami, Tam... if you wanna call me anything else feel free...

How old am I? I’m 18

What got me into Kpop? iThis is kinda a long ass story, because i met kpop long time ago but i was too hipster and indie to like it. So after a while a friend made me fall in love with Mark (got7) and well now i’m here.

What’s my favourite Kpop group? I don’t stan lots of groups... So only got7, monsta x and stray kids basically.  

Who’s my ultimate bias? I don’t really have one ??  is this why my bias list is so big ??

What groups/artists do I stan? Okay i kinda answered that before... Stray Kids, got7, monsta x... I kinda stan uniq, kard and blackpink too...

What groups/artists do I casually listen to? b1a4, astro, nct 127, wannaone, red velvet, day6, lovelyz, seventeen, f(x), sf9, winner, bigbang, up10tion, nu’est, exo, loona, dean, heize, jay park, zion.t, sunmi, IU.... I’m blank oh my... 

What artists do I listen to that aren’t Kpop? halsey, the 1975, twenty one pilots, bea miller, bastille, charli xcx, dua lipa, lorde, coldplay, demi lovato, one direction (their solo careers too), kehlani, the neighbourhood, fall out boy, mgmt, panic! at the disco, little mix, marina and the diamonds, mcfly, of monster and man... I’M BLANK NOW OH MY...

Who’s my bias and bias wrecker from my ultimate group(s)? Okay big list now... So from Stray Kids my bias is Chan but minho and changbin are BIG bias wreckers. From got7 my bias are Jaebum, Mark and Jackson. From monsta x my bias are Kihyun and Wonho but... i mean Hyungwon, IM and Jooheon wreck me .... From uniq my bias is Seungyoun but idk what i did to Yibo that this boy loves to get on the bias lane from time to time. From kard my bias is somin. From blackpink my bias are Lisa and Jennie, but Rosé is a powerful bias wrecker. 

(god help me idk who to tag) i’m tagging: @jeongn @jeojangins @bunny-jisungie @one-jisung IF YOU GUYS ALREADY DONE IT I’M SORRY!! AND FEEL FREE NO TO DO IT IF YOU GUYS DON’T WANT TO

[mysticmessingupmylife]

The RFA+V+Saeran giving you cute nicknames

heyheyhey i’m just procratinating studying for the 5 hour chemistry test i have tomorrow (kill me plz), so enjoy this fluff!

Yoosung

You know those sickening sweet nicknames

Like honey bunny, cutie pie and sweetie

That’s everything he ever calls you

Everyone hated him for it but he looked so happy whenever he made you blush, so you could never ask him to stop

Would die if you called him that as well, so guess what you did?

Lots of forehead kisses, hand holding and cutesy nicknames

#Goals

Zen

We all know he calls you babe and princess way too much

If you call him babe or prince, he will blush with 200% certainty

In private, he likes giving you playful and suggestive nicknames like hot stuff or pretty lady everything sounds playful and suggestive when he says it

If he’s tired after a long day, he will just ask for his baby girl to join him to bed

Jaehee

She calls you cookie

The first time she did it you were stressed about the next RFA party, because the emails you were supposed to answer didn’t make sense

How were you supposed to answer an actual cat?

When she hugged you and said “you’re a smart cookie, you will figure it out”, then she realized that it was the perfect nickname

You were sweet and comforting after a long day

She liked to joke about how she wishes she met you earlier when she worked for Jumin and only had time for a glass of milk for breakfast, saying how you already then would be perfect for her

Jumin

He likes the traditional pet names, like sweetie, darling or princess don’t get me wrong i love those but what an old man

You bet your ass he will spoil you and dress you up as an actual princess

No suprises here, he also calls you kitten

You just reminded him so much of his Elizabeth

Both of you were loving towards him, smol, precious and soft

707

Most of the time he jokingly calls you his monkey, as you’re able to put up with (and return) his crazy jokes

Sometimes he also calls you alien, claiming that you’re “out of this world”

When he’s in a more serious mood, he uses names like my love and doll bc you’re so precious and he’s till lowkey scared to hurt you

Will most definitely dress up as a ghost and call you his boo

V

Like Jumin, he would use those old, cheesy nicknames he’s also an old soul don’t blame him blame where he grew up

Like angel, honey, darling or love

After he has gotten his eye surgery, he couldn’t stop looking at you and repeating that you were beautiful

That kind of stuck around, now he calls you beauty or beautiful more often than you bother to keep track of

Saeran

He honestly isn’t too big on nicknames, claiming they’re stupid

He does call you babe sometimes, especially if you’re in public and he is worried that someone is flirting with you, but usually he just calls you by your name

Unless you’re alone, then he would feel more comfortable with calling you things like baby girl or princess

When he’s feeling extra affectionate he likes to hold you close, kiss your forehead and say that you’re his everything not really a nickname but shh

~jane

[ktrxs]

7.12.19

My bun is sick. I called two hospitals. One didn���t have their rabbit person on site. They referred me to the second. I call the second. They don’t take fucking rabbits.

I go to other vets around the area. The websites refer me to the second hospital. The hospital that doesn’t take rabbits.

The last time he was sick with gas, he acted a lot worse. I audibly heard noises coming from him. This time, he’s silent, so I have no clue what’s happening.

My only option right now is to hope that he gets better like he did last time. I’m going to force-feed him soon. 

I just don’t get how veterinarians need a specialty for animals other than cats and dogs.

My only hope right now is that his energy isn’t as bad as last time. He’s still hoping around and doesn’t seem to be in pain. But the internet has me thinking he’s going to die.

Please, please, please be okay Rumple.

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I’m super late to work today. I have a huge writing assignment due at 10am tomorrow. I have to write for the biz. Brandon didn’t go to work until 2. We went food shopping. And then he was watching tv next to me. So of course I couldn’t concentrate because of that and

But of course, my mind is hyperfocused on the bun. I can’t stop worrying.

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I’ve been craving soda and coffee the last few days. I haven’t craved soda in so fucking long. Giving up soda was like the easiest thing ever even though I thought I wouldn’t be able to do it.

I’ve gone all of 2019 without a soda. Now, why do I crave one? 

I saw a vegan mocha cold brew coffee today at grocery outlet. I wanted it soooo bad. But I’m not paying 2.50 for a sip of coffee.. So i paid the 2.50 on vegan icecream instead because at least it’ll last longer.

Also have i mentioned how awesome being a vegan is?

It’s never been so fucking easy to be a vegan than RIGHT NOW. TODAY.

Literally EVERYTHING I want, I get and no babies are being tortured for it.

Even if I want to feel included with the fam and have familiar, childhood, family foods like burgers and hotdogs. BOOM MOTHERFUCKERS.

Vegan burgers and vegan dogs. Right at Walmart. Easily accessbile. 

Do I want cookies? BOOM Walmart, Dollar Tree. Vegan cookies. I even have a microwavable vegan cookie that I’ve been making (and basically surviving on since I no want to cook). 

It goes: 3 tbsp oat flour (literally oatmeal through a blender). 1 tbsp SUGAR (i know, but it’s a fucking cookie). 1 tbsp cocoa (because you can have chocolate as a fucking vegan). 1tbsp of peanut butter motherfuckas (i used peanut butter powder). Literally mix that shit with 2 tbsp of water and microwave for 1 minute.

Fucking cookie in my mouth.

Do i want ice cream? Even Ben & Jerry’s are on board. I love chocolate fudge brownie. And I have enjoyed vegan Ben & Jerry’s chocolate fudge brownie. But it’s hard to find. 

But So Delicious vegan ice cream is all over the place. BOOM! Ice cream.

What else... what else..... oh donuts. Well... i havent seen or eaten a vegan doughnut. I know of places within a 2 hour radius of me that sells vegan donuts. But... 2 hours. So you got me on the doughnuts. And i want  one sooooo bad xD

But ice coffee? check. fried, junk, comfort foods? check. Cereal? Check. Going out to restaurants? Almost check.

 I normally am able to find SOMETHING. Like I literally found dragon broccoli and fries on the menu at RED LOBSTER. My stomach was so full i almost died. 

But, of course I wouldn’t go to a steakhouse or Arbys or Hardee’s. Like... I won’t even go to a McDonald’s now unless they bring the vegan burger to the USA. Wendys is out. 

The selection there is so sad. Literally: plain baked potatoe. Side salad... pick off cheese. And Burger King, for reasons I will never know, changed their vegan veggie burger to a vegetarian one. We don’t stan a burger king anymore.

Pizza? My friends. there iz vegan pizza out there. it’s under some rocks but it’s easier than  donuts.

I’ve order a custom vegan pizza from dominoe’s. Little Ceaser claims to customize a veggie pizza without cheese. If you’re near a Mod’s Pizza, get fucking vegan cheese!

There are also wonderful ingredients you can find to make your own pizza. Vegan crust. sauce. vegan cheese if you can find it and veggies.

I know my mind is all over the place but it’s only because I’m hungry and procratinating.

being vegan is so fucking easy. if you want to be a health nut with it, go. if you want to eat exactly like you do now, go ahead and make those tiny switches. 

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[jordanjaspergreeen]

11 Questions

Thanks @bellamyslaugh for the tag!!

1. Favorite spot in your house? Id say the living room. When im in the house its probably where i spend most of my time

2. What can you be found doing at 11pm on a monday night? Ill be in my bed, probably on my phone watching netflix or scrolling through this hellsite

3. Biggest regret in life atm? I wish i had continued playing soccer when i was young. I was good at it, but then i got discouraged and stopped. Always wished i had picked it back up. Id probably be in better shape

4. One thing your looking forward to in the next month? Wizard con next sunday. Im meeting Billie Piper and i am EXCITED

5. Goals for summer? Just to relax and have fun really

6. Favorite food to eat raw? Cookies. Like cookie dough. That counts right? Yeah that counts

7. Pineapple on Pizza? Not in my house

8. What fictional character do you relate to the most? This one’s tough. Id love to say someone badass like raven reyes but i dont think that level of perfection is humanly possible. Im just gonna be boring and say i dont know

9. Work Routine? Procratinate and then freak out when the deadline is close. I honestly wish i was better than this but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

10. How do you comfort a friend? Ngl im not very good at this, but usually i just listen, offer advice if they need it, and then try to lighten the mood

11. How long till chocolate cake turns into being hung upside down and drained for their blood? Lol not very long, Cage was evil

For my questions im tagging @quick-to-the-tardis @the100lunarsship @as-inevitable-as-morning @be-my-lasagna

Do you prefer Jeans or Sweatpants?

Whats your favorite game that you have on your phone?

What movie can you watch over and over and never get bored?

Whats your favorite season?

Favorite song atm?

Are you an early riser or a night owl?

Whats your favorite vine?

Any pet peeves?

What was the last show you binged?

Where would you like to travel?

Do you have any pets?

[thelastlesbiander]

I'm so desperate that I'm about to google "how to study a subject you dislike and stop procratinating"

[upslapmeal]

I was tagged by the wonderful @ilwinsgarden​!

Rules: Answer all the questions, then add one of your own, and tag as many people as there are questions (lol that last bit won’t happen)

1) Coke or Pepsi? neither they both taste the same and they both taste bad

2) Disney or Dreamworks? I mean...disney bc it has pixar but dreamworks did make my fave animated film so

3) Coffee or tea? I guess tea is less bad than coffee (as you can tell I like a wide range of drinks)

4) Books or movies? I wish I could say books and it definitely used to be books and I still love books but my free time and attention span are much less than they used to be so I’ll go with movies

5) Windows or Mac? mac

6) D.C. or Marvel? I’ve seen like...3 marvel films and the only dc film I’ve seen is suicide squad so that’s probably not enough to go on

7) Xbox or PlayStation? my brother has a playstation so I’ll go with that

8) Dragon age or mass effect? not played either

9) Night owl or early riser? NIGHT OWL. I mean I’m often awake early in the morning but that’s just bc I’ve not slept yet

10) Cards or chess? cards

11) Chocolate or vanilla? as a flavour? vanilla. as a food? chocolate.

12) Vans or converse? converse

13) Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar? ravenclaw (I've not played dragon age) 

14) Fluff or angst? fluff

15) Beach or forest? forest

16) Dogs or cats? BOTH don’t make me choose but if I had to then maybe cats just don’t tell my dog ok

17) Clear skies or rain? I like both but it’s been pretty grim here for a while so clear skies

18) Cooking or eating out? in an ideal world where nothing costs money then eating out bc my cooking is limited to pasta and fishcakes

19) Spicy or mild food? I am very White™ and can’t deal with even a little bit of spice

20) Halloween/Samhain or solstice/yule/Christmas? christmas definitely

21) Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot? a little too hot I guess? neither sounds like much fun but I suppose I’m more used to that one

22) If you could have a superpower what would it be? shapeshifting or flying though I guess shapeshifting entails flying doesn’t it

23) Animation or live action? animation

24) Paragon or renegade? gatorade

25) Bath or shower? bath

26) Team Cap or team Ironman? team the incredibles

27) Fantasy or sci-fi? preferably a mix of the two tbh

28) Do you have 3 or 4 favourite quotes if so what are they? I mean I think I do....not that I can think of any of them now.....

29) YouTube or Netflix? youtube bc you can get everything on netflix for free elsewhere

30) Harry Potter or Percy Jackson? harry potter but I really loved the percy jackson books too. so many books I need to reread.

31) When do you feel accomplished? lmao

32) Star Wars or Star Trek? star wars but I’ve never seen star trek

33) Paperback books or hardcover books? paperback bc they’re not too heavy and you get nice creased spines

34) Fantastic beasts or Cursed child? fantastic beasts had a better plot and lots of animals but I really want to watch cursed child to see how they do all the effects bc I’ve heard they’re amazing

35) Rock or pop music? I genuinely don’t know what genre the music I like is...maybe a mix of the two?

36) What is the most important thing in your life? good question

37) Mountains or sea/ocean? mountains as long as I don’t get tired going up them

38) How do you express yourself? not very well (I genuinely don’t know, I’d be interested to know what answers friends would give to this about me)

39) What’s the first book/film that really counted to you? drift house by dale peck, I read it when I was 10 and it’s with me at uni now

40) What’s your element (air, water, etc.)? is this like a horoscope thing? bc if it is then I’ve no idea. though tbh even if it isn’t I’ve no idea. I like playing with fire. I’ll go with fire.

41) If you could travel anywhere, where would you go? I’d love to go to japan or back to russia, and I might be going to canada soon so there too

42) If you had any job in the world, what would it be? anything in film, like a set designer or editor or anything. which is why I’m studying linguistics.

43) If you were granted three wishes, what would they be? 1) everyone in the world to just be decent human beings that are loving and tolerant and just. decent people ok. 2) an ability to pause time so I can get my work done despite my procrastination. actually scratch that, it would make my procrastination worse. an ability to not procrastinate. 3) to clean up the environment

44) If you had to eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?pasta probably. or fish if we can vary how we eat it.

45) What’s currently the most pressing issue on your mind, and what’s stopping you from fixing it? I should be doing reading for an essay but I’m tired and I don’t want to so I’m procratinating

46) What is your dream companion animal? ooh a tiger

47) Raptors or songbirds? songbirds

48) Do you think there is life on other planets in universe? there’s so much universe out there it would be amazing if we were the only life anywhere

aaand my question: 49) What’s your strangest childhood memory?

I’ll tag: @musicalhog, @the-desolated-quill, @jaime-donc-je-suis, @peterbaeafcapaldi, @sancriss, @pentatonicadenza

[deanandcastrash]

cant we all just love our fandom and ignore the small things we dont like that happen involving our ships/fandoms and replace it with the thought that there are probably thousands of people in your fandom? thousands may even ship the same ship as you and because of this wonderful place called tumblr we can all love the fandoms we love together. can’t we just think of that and stop exploding after every little thing?

i love this website, and i love the people on it, but i dont like it when the people on it get upset over teeny things that happen but shouldn’t matter all that much. and then, when they make a post about it, people unfollow them. some may be curious and leave a message-they don’t know what’s going on, and it just makes that person more upset, sometimes petty.

maybe you guys dont see this, maybe im just being annoying and really procratinating on all the other things i should be doing besides writing this, but its been on my mind for a while, so i think i should say it.

part of being in a fandom, really your main fandom, is creating something. well, it is on tumblr. everyone on this website contributes in some way to the big idea of the fandom. whether it’s fanart, fanfiction, meta, gifs, simply speaking to others about the fandom, etc, we all contribute. 

so when something you don’t like in your fandom happens, just remember how much you’ve contributed. think of how much the thousands of fans in your fandom must have contributed, the amount of time they’ve spent on that fic, or art. don’t just give up and get so upset over one thing that happens. dont keep it in the back of your head.

most of the time, arguments are over what’s cannon and what isn’t. don’t let that bother you. what’s cannon shouldn’t matter because being a part of a fandom means you can contribute-you can create. you can make art.

you can twist a certain thing anyway you want to, a million times over again, all in amazing ways. put it in a picture, in a sketch, or in a short story.

you can interpret things. you can pick through a scene so carefully that you can convince yourself that while one thing happened, something under it all did too.

and while it actually happening out for you without all of the work would be so freaking amazing; it becomming cannon would be so great, it wont always happen.

but thats just part of the beauty. you get to make up what you would want to happen. you get all the credit.

you can make others so incredibly happy for even a few seconds as if it were actually true, and that is a gift.

sometimes you need to remember that. some people need to realize that.

it isn’t always important for it, whatever it may be, to become cannon, so please don’t let small things get in the way for you to continue to contribute to the big things-the things that matter.