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Arc Trooper Echo reporting for duty 🫡
#art#my art#sketchbook#do i count as an artist on tumblr???#artists on tumblr#pencil art#clone wars#little bit of charcoal#more like a TON#arc trooper echo#ct 1409#echo#tcw echo#501st battalion#republic clone#501st trooper#how is it not more filthy?#clones are my babies#is there an echo here?#YES
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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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saw this post before my ass accidentally refreshed the goddamn feed BUT BUT—
someone said her man would grunt in her ears and say something like, “c’mon baby, fuck me back.”
and when she says, “s’too big :((” her mans apparently replies with, “well, s’all yours so take it all.”
I SCREWCHED??? ITS SO KYLE IM GONNA CRY
#HIM TALKING U THROUGH IT I STARTED GUSHING#also all of this is paraphrased </3 the og are much more filthy BUT I CANT REMEMBER HOW THEYRE WORDED#sun rambles#gaz x reader
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I know i like to joke around that haha tsukasa scared of bugs haha funny loser, but please do remember and be mindful of people irl with fears that might seem silly or petty to you, because you never know how it truly makes them feel
#not meant to be a tks angst post necessarily i just relate to his fear a bit so hes a good outlet#its just something i think about sometimes#bc ive had ppl esp family laugh at me for being scared of bugs#and sometimes i laugh too! especially if i made the joke first#but sometimes its frustrating because it really can make you Feel Bad and Scared and Filthy. and they laugh like those feelings dont matter#so this is moreso just me kind of. setting a reminder to be respectful and kind of any kind of fear someone expresses#no matter if you understand it or not or if it feels stupid to you or not#its Their feelings#this doesnt mean im mad at anyone for any jokes and in fact i do like to joke about it too sometimes!! so its not a sign to stop#im just moreso saying. if someone says its not funny at the given moment then its not. period#bc i alsohave moments when it rly isnt funny. and then laughing at it just. yeah. isnt fun#anyway this is just a ramble bc its just been on my mind for a while#and maybe at times i feel annoyed at how tsukasa's fear is played off for jokes in the game more often than not#esp since akito's fear of dogs is not as much. and even got a whole event abt it. yk#like theyre Different but also Not Really#so i wish someone other than toya was more kind about it instead of. throwing bugs at him more. yk. at least sometimes#im mostly saying this in reference to real people though of course. please dont take this too seriously as a tks post 😭 do keep making fun#its not that serious and im probbaly just projecting onto him lmao#anyway ramble over peace off#tw bugs#cw bug#its not super graphic but yk#prsk#tenma tsukasa#akito shinonome#kerizart#project sekai#prsk fa
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Its fine if you see Kanji as straight or use she/her for Naoto. I appreciate how Kanji's storyline is about accepting that its okay to not have masculine hobbies and how queerness and toxic masculinity are linked. I appreciate how rooted in a Japanese subtext Naoto's story is and how your going to have to understand it from a different perspective of a different life. Both of these characters I like and find interesting.
But I swear, if another Youtuber or other says in some variation "Thinking Naoto or Kanji's stories are queer means your MISSING THE POINT OF THE THEMES OF TRUTH IN P4" or that as they are in canon their arcs are perfect and not needing any sort of change and are not at all at least a little dated or problematic" I am going to start screeching.
#Hiding in Private is the only P4 Youtuber fan I respect on discourse matters#I may not agree with all of his opinions but his clear research and love of the series mean I can see from his viewpoint in a good manner#Everyone else at least sorta pisses off because it always feels demeaning when they say it#No I am not some evil twitter user getting my filthy hands on your beloved P4#I just think the game has flaws just like every other Persona game#Specifically a certain flaw with how these games are horrible at representing any sort of queer narrative#Tbskyen said it right#I love this series but goddamn is it conservative as fuck#A P4 remake scares me because I don't want more of these damn comments#Anyway Naoki Konishi is peak and the greatest character this game has given me#naoto shirogane#kanji tatsumi#discourse#persona 4#persona 4 golden#Also I finished Naoto's dungeon recently so no spoilers beyond their deadline please#I use they/them for Naoto too#Also if you want proof I've got like at least four exmaples
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good night and sweet dreams to the best, sexiest, sluttiest, smartest, realest, most based, valid, relatable, girlipop, sympathetic, cunt, fun, cool, feminist, aspirational girlboss character in dead boy detectives: doll spider <3
good night to her and no one else. i hope the rest of y’all have a bad night and terrible dreams.
#doll spider did nothing wrong ever#i will defend her every action in a court of law#‘she tore edwin apart millions upon millions of times in hell’ wouldn’t you?#some gay nerd shows up in your house saying shit like ‘oh my how filthy this establishment reflects very poorly on the host’#he’s sashaying and sauntering down your halls and pivoting and you’re like ‘hang on i’m supposed to be the cuntiest bitch here’#so yeah you tear him apart like WHATEVER this shit happens#but he keeps getting reborn and like it’s fine when he’s quiet but every time he makes a noise you just HAVE to kill him again#i bet she was so happy when he escaped and SO MAD when he came back#and then the whole payneland in hell scene she was so real#she interrupted whatever gay shit charles was gonna say to edwin after ‘mate i’ve-’ bc she knew it would be disgusting & didnt wanna hear it#and then they HAD to just KEEP BEING GAY ON THE STAIRS LIKE OF COURSE SHE CHASED THEM OUT?? THAT ORPHEUS AND EURYDICE LINE WAS UNACCEPTABLE#SHE WAS LIKE GET THESE F*GS OUT OF MY HOUSE#she did what she had to do to set boundaries and honestly is that so bad?#thank you doll spider for protecting us from more devastatingly romantic charles rowland lines <3#dbdshow#girlbossifying doll spider is so funny to me idc if no one sees this. this is for me. and for her <3#payneland#edwin payne#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#yeet my deet#yeet my deebd#dbd4ratch#revive dead boy detectives#chedwin#the case of the very long stairway#dead boy detectives#dbda#dead boy detective agency
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Rise of Kyoshi deleted chapter/conversation: Animated
(Kyoshi thought Kelsang thinking she was the Avatar was her only trouble, but she miscalculated. Rangi's inquiry reveals a new level of uncomfortable conversations she'll have to tackle in the future.)
#rise of kyoshi#shadow of kyoshi#rangshi#kyoshi#rangi#rangi sei'naka#rangi seinaka#silly colors#silly edits#silly animates#it's sloppy i know u_u#i wanted to get this done before i went to bed#well I got that out of my system! I'mma finish gremlin!rangi >:3c#.....aaaaaat a later date#that one will take awhile#I'm surprised by how fast I did this one tbh only took! .....6ish hours! :D wait....#(it helped i had one pic done too tbh that saved me like 4 more hours I'm sure TT0TT)#this is totally canon I know cause I talked to FC Yee :'D (<-I'm a filthy liar)#silly video
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RIP Timothy West (20.10.1934 - 12.11.2024)
"We met when we were cast with small parts in that really boring play, so had both brought the crossword to stop us going mad. We saw each other across the rehearsal room doing it, so decided to sit together. Then we couldn’t record because of the strike one day so we went to the cinema, Pru and I, to see The Grass is Greener with Cary Grant and Deborah Kerr. The show was cancelled, but a bit later Pru sent me a card saying ‘they’re reviving that terrible play, are you in it?’ I wasn’t but we started writing to each other then."
"Humour is vital, and respect for what people do and what people think. Kindness is important, and we’ve always had the same humour, laughed at the same things, been interested in the same things, got cross about the same things. And been in the same business. We have often been away from each other work-wise and therefore we’re always very glad to see each other again."
#timothy west#rip#death ment tw#character actors#brass#bleak house#edward the seventh#big breadwinner hog#the day of the jackal#villains#hine#randall and hopkirk (deceased)#nicholas and alexandra#the fellows#tales of the unexpected#hedda#hard times#cry freedom#not going out#going postal#not just a titan of the english stage and screen (and how few actors can truly say they've risen to the prominence he#achieved in both mediums?) and not just a talented chameleon able to play filthy grotesque‚ noble kindness and cold#arrogance with equal assuredness; not just these things‚ Tim was also one half of one of the greatest love stories in the history of#the british stage. his more than 60 years with Prunella Scales are almost unheard of in 'showbusiness' tho truthfully they were not a#very showbiz pair. just two good souls who found each other and were gloriously happy together. even in recent years (Tim has been her#primary care giver for more than a decade now‚ since her dementia diagnosis) they somehow seemed to remain upbeat‚ hopeful‚ and more than#anything in love. my heart honestly breaks for her. i can't even imagine.#anyway. hum. i try to rec something less known with these posts. Tim's ep of The Edwardians‚ as rascally MP (and conman) Horatio#Bottomley is a really lovely thing. and as im sure i must have said at some other time‚ more people need to see the incredible BBH#perhaps the first time i saw the (until then‚ to my eyes) cuddly Tim West as a truly repugnant‚ horrific character (he's brilliant)
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I'm reading character rankings and Downton Abbey and apparently we are supposed to be annoyed at Branson when he shows up for....being right about class issues? Being a socialist? Annoying the Crawleys by making them think about the ethics of their money? Like seriously what am I missing here?
Multiple articles talk about him like he only became a good guy once he shut up and became one with the Crawley Aristocrat Horde but honestly I found him kind of boring when he didn't have a love interest. And speaking of, when he did have a love interest---the way poor Sarah was talked about jfc. When she showed up I was like "okay great I love her and her finally calling him on losing his socialist principles once the palace doors were opened to him, she's going to bring him back to his morals" but instead she was thrown out and treated like the absolute devil incarnate and all the protagonists joked about how obviously evil she was because as Mrs. Hughes said "heaven forbid we contradict the holy Family."
#i thought the whole point was that he was pretty much right#like his first cause is literally “women deserve the vote”#and he gets Sybil into politics which is a good thing and treated as such in the narrative#and he's against the filthy amount of wealth these people have but doesn't want to see their homes burnt in front of their kids#like he's a reasonable guy who just understands the scale of the inequality#one of my favorite moments of him is when he goes downstairs after announcing he and Sybil are engaged#and Mr. Carson asks “HAVE YOU NO SHAME???” because this is literally the worst thing a servant could do in his mind#seduce a daughter of The Family#and Branson looks at him and is like “No I have no shame” because seriously why not they are two consenting adults#and everyone is like O.O “....are we allowed to do that...no one told us we were allowed to do that....”#I guess that might be why people get annoyed at him#because the articles talk about how he acts “superior”#but he doesn't act any more superior than The Family#So in a show that does frame The Family as inherently worthy of their money through divine right I guess#having This Guy act just as entitled to Thoughts might be jarring#anyway I am an early season Branson fan#and a Sarah stan#she is probably the most underrated character#the sheer amount of confidence it takes as a working class woman to argue with an earl in his own house while he has higher ranked guests#anyway I don't get the early dislike for him#like it's one thing from english tv writers who i get being weirdly nostalgic for ye olden times#but like the articles surprise me#tom branson#downton abbey#sarah bunting
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I have discovered Ambessa Medarda for the first time
Here's a silly video I made
#shitpost#ambessa medarda#arcane#arcane ambessa#i also put a bunch of images from pinterest in the chat#guys bad news i think im gay#how was i supposed to stay heterosexual after she appeared on screen though#like if i wasnt a lesbian before i certainly am now#shes so hot though#im not super in the arcane fandom i really hope nothing bad happens to my new favourite minor deity#im on her appearance episode#IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME NOT HIM IT'S NOT FAIR#she could fondle MY face :((( ive got a soft round ready-to-be-fondled by big rough hands face :((#my hair is fluffier and prettier than his :(( sure im not blonde but everything is negotiable#ive even got a fringe that could be brushed out of my face when it's sticky with sweat and blood after a losing battle :((#i have a face made to go flat and dull when I tragically die after the somebody-or-other failed to do this or that#seriously ive got huge “”am i gonna make it?“ as ive lost three litres of blood” energy yk#like im a flashback death that motivates an important character to keep going or whatever#if that guy dies in a way i described it will be so fucking funny#i hope he dies and gets his filthy eyes off my wife#how many fictional women have i called my wife?? probably a lot#local cuisine#local cuisine arcane#ambessa's twink#hydrated viktor#found out his many bitch named#alsoo he's not blonde i just paused at a bad time and took a photo of a screen#which meaaans my hair is EVEN MORE NICER than his
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I COME BACK FROM THE DEAD AND OFFER YOU THIS !!! A WILD TIMOTHY APPEARS!!!
#borderlands#vakenart#timothy lawrence#borderlands fanart#borderlands 3#rhys future husband#borderlands the pre sequel#I come back from the dead from who knows how many months!#i lived bitch#art✨#fanart#Timothy how much I miss drawing your gorgeous face#idk about you jack your filthy-filthy with me#sorry I love Tim more#jack why must you be so fucking hilarious and-
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(more context)
#u can tell that feud was always more strongly felt on casey's side than valentino's#because if valentino had taken REAL offence to casey's response to laguna he would have simply. stopped talking to him#//#brr brr#idk i guess with motogp i've just become more used to these guys being a bit more straightforward about showing what they feel#like usually u can date photos quite easily by how bad the feud is in each of them. 2005 vs 2004 2016 vs 2015 it's all child's play#maybe it's just my filthy european mindset but it is funny how casey of all people doesn't just toss the social niceties out of the window#casey in writing: Laguna Seca Was A Turning Point Where I Understood The Darkness Within And The Corruption Of My Enemy's Soul#casey in photos: hey valentino :)#//ht
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https://x.com/michisugussy95/status/1852280879499927784?s=46&t=EJf1IZe829ESeTE8fr69oA
Thoughtssss?
OVERALL I AGREE but i don’t think it’s right to call gojo ‘arrogant’, and i also think it’s wrong to imply that he views other people as inferior. he messes with ijichi and utahime because ijichi is his bulliable kouhai and utahime is easy to rile up, he canonically trusts ijichi more than most + doesn’t realize utahime hates him 💀💀 obviously he knows when other people are weak but i don’t think he views others as inferior just because of that. even in his teen years he takes a liking to riko, a ‘weakling’ he was tasked to protect. gojo is a people person!!! he’s just rude lmao
as for the arrogant thing . definition-wise it’s plain wrong because being arrogant implies that you have an exaggerated view of your own abilities, and that is Not the case with gojo 😭 he really is just that strong. it’s the same mistake people make when they say he has a god complex — he doesn’t, he never has, he’s just fully aware of how strong he is. gojo is confident, not arrogant. and i don’t think he enjoys being strong very much if i’m being honest, he’s just completely resigned to the role he was given. he enjoys fighting but he’s not that bloodthirsty.
overall though!!!! i agree in the sense that i think people mischaracterize gojo when they veer too far in one direction. he’s not a power-hungry morally gray freak, but he’s also not a saint who acts out of his heart and pities himself. he’s not as gooey and soft as people sometimes make him out to be but tbh i’m infinitely more irked by people who view him as mean or cruel 💀💀 or just ‘godlike’ in general . when you peel back his ‘godly’ strength he’s a fairly normal guy, just EXTREMELY detached from the world
#i hope that makes sense#this is a weird example maybe but#people tend to characterize gojo either as vash-leaning or nai-leaning (trigun stampede)#and he doesn’t fit the mold for either of them.#obv he’s more vash leaning than nai leaning but you get what i mean#i mean all that aside though . i think people should see gojo and write gojo exactly how they want#i just get irritated when ppl push certain traits onto canon gojo …. i think#admittedly im a filthy elitist though#🙏🙏#ask tag ✩
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If you know how to do it you can use someone’s phone number to find their full legal name and home address. It’s just a bit of Google and knowing what websites stores this kind of info. Saw your tags asking how a phone number could verify someone’s age
So, I appreciate you dropping into my askbox to pass that info on - genuinely, it's kind of you - and I can see how my tags came across, but what I actually meant wasn't 'how can you find info on someone just with their phone number??' -- I actually do exactly that kind of thing in my day job pretty regularly, and I have to conform to a lot of real strict ethic constraints that uh, bluntly, random discord moderators...do not.
What I was actually getting at is the fact that, assuming the hypothetical server is just using a phone number as age verification (and doing data broker/google search on that), how in the hell is it controlling for someone doing what people under the arbitrary age limit du jour have been doing since we started implementing this sort of check, ie, lying like rugs and supplying info for someone in their family/social circle instead who is older than [whatever age].
like. sure. maybe you get a phone number for age verification. awesome. plug that into your data broker/google/etc of choice, run your searches, and ok, it belongs to jane smith, 38 years old, accountant who lives in ballarat, she's totally fine to join the 18+ server! come on in jane, the smut is plentiful and the doves are extremely dead. Jane smith has a kid. jane smith's kid is 15. jane smith's kid isn't allowed in the server, because it's an 18+ only server.
jane smith's kid almost certainly knows their mum's mobile number.
how the hell can Hypothetical Server Mod control for 15 year old jane smith's kid putting in jane smith's mobile number instead of their own? and also, separately, how the hell is HSM dealing with the many -- many many many -- different privacy laws around the globe?
not just in terms of handling that sort of information on people (and also requesting it in the first place!), but also just. some countries you can get so much fucking info on someone! (the US. I'm talking about the US.)
some you can't. because privacy laws, because the info isn't publicly accessible, because it's not online and is only in hard copy at the local government office, because it's collated but only in a nonenglish language, because it's geolocked-- etc.
also, like. even if the hypothetical phone number brings up someone in the US, and also your hypothetical mod team has decided, y'know, fuck privacy laws, security of information and data ethics can take a long walk off a short pier, we're keeping this server 18+ or dying trying!
data brokers aren't...actually consistently what you would call...super accurate, or like, accurate at all. if you have a unique name, yeah, sure, you're probably kinda fucked! (assuming you're in, again, somewhere the data brokers focus) but like. if you're named something a little more common - say, james smith, or maria sanchez in the US- uh. well. there sure are a lot of people you could be, and some of them - most of them! - are over 18.
and ok, sure, a phone number is (usually) only associated with one person, but. you can get a lot of false positives, false negatives, and straight up 'we don't know 🤪', the latter of which is sometimes hidden by the databrokers going 'our best guess is that this person is: An Age!! somewhere between 0 and 200 years old. 😇'
again, I use this stuff for work, I can tell you exactly how inaccurate it can get as soon as you throw something like 'not based in the US/UK' or 'uses a nickname/multiple name formats' or 'isn't super online' or 'older than 65 and not turbo wealthy' at some of these - I've had more than one confidently tell me that [my wallet name] is an accountant based in darwin who makes horror films in alice springs on the side, and also, is 26, and had 2-3 kids with her husband Lauchlan.
literally none of these facts are true. like. even vaguely.
and that can of worms doesn't even get into if someone has requested to be removed from data broker databases and/or takes online privacy Very Seriously and/or is just fundamentally ungoogleable, which is...more common than you'd think. less common than you'd like, but more common than you think, even before google started enshittifying itself out of existence.
which is why when you're trying to do things like prove your identity to uhhh goverments, banks, etc, they want multiple forms of ID, one of which is usually a photo ID, none of which anyone should be sending to a random on discord, or, frankly, asking for from a random on discord, both bc my god privacy and security risk but also like. handling that information can actually have legal requirements!
anyway. extremely long ramble on the failings of databrokers over, I appreciate you reaching out to help explain and it was very kind of you anon, sorry that I have. uhhhh kind of a lot of professional feelings about data privacy and basic social engineering, by which I mean saying 'no I'm totally 18 pinkie swear' in the grand tradition of teens wanting to get into age locked areas ever, your forebears lied on LJ so you could lie on discord.
#waters words#also I have failed utterly at sleeping so. uh. *fingerguns* sorry if this is totally incomprehensible.#also yes some of these are more accurate than others etc etc you SHOULD keep your data locked tf down#and request to be removed from databases where you can#but like. y'know. there are varying ranges of how much info is on you#and also. age verification is just. it doesn't work.#you basically cannot guarantee it for something online unless you're a government department#and even then. only specific government departments.#also I will own that I am somewhat biased about this#both bc. professionally I know what these tools can usually do and also how much that costs#and bc of *what* I do and what I have previously done I am fairly easy to find on some parts of the internet#assuming you have a couple of (specific) datapoints about me.#but also. I am very difficult to google‚ generally‚ even with that info#(also yes I *am* one of said forebears who lied on LJ. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#sometimes you are 14 and carefully sprinkling in mentions of Adult Things like your coworker who has the most annoying habits#in between reading/writing/discussing filthy smut of your anime blorbos or your LOTR blorbos or your torchwood blorbos. etc.#it was what you did! you kept your mouth shut and you did your best to be passably adult.)
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no matter what taemin is taemin and don’t you FORGET IT
#I LOVED IT SOOOOOO MUCHHHH i cant even explain it#never mind that the grungy start and the filthy fawking guitar combined w INCOMINGGGGGGG pavlov conditions me into my eyes rolling back in#pleasure. it’s also the way it’s so gorgeously experimental and new and yet still SO taemin#it’s literally my FAVORITE thing about him like no one else is doing this and it’s soooo so exciting to me#also i’ve only had a little bit of time to myself so i planned to listen to like 3 songs and ended up listening to sexy in the air thrice#(i just can’t get ENOUGH we are SO fucking BACK) but how much do you wanna bet the rest of the album is mostly easily digestible#easy to listen songs that will automatically be crowd pleasers#like at the end of sexy in the air mv it’s like horizon starts and i was thinking like this is SO smart#do sita (undeniably taeministic and absolutely excellent and will no doubt be revered in a few years just like move/want and any other#song that wasn’t universally liked at release) and follow it up with a double title of a massively likeable song? SO good i hope that’s#what he does but i reaaaaaally really am so delighted i have another weird dark sexy grungy (!!!!!) absolute MONSTER of a song to listen#the SHIT out of auhhhh i love him BAD#i have SO many more thoughts on the DANCEEEEEEE too and the song itself but they’ll wait until im back home
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Also for people that didn't know me for that much of a long time; I know I semi-consistently make it sound like I was practically "trapped" with some raging bigot and couldn't escape because Abusive Relationship Moment and never elaborate, but I was not. It is a long story but if anything, I knew exactly what I've gotten myself into, and why I did. I saw what he was like and what he was saying, and I chose to jump in. I don't deserve compassion, only pity for being short-sighted and picking a responsibility I was no match for, but there was a guy who triggered a lot of stuff, and we were both victims. Of each other, and of the world.
I often call him 'basically a Morgott' and this is what he was: a person jealously and fanatically guarding a ruined, corrupt system he himself was and is oppressed by. He didn't deserve to experience a single traumatising event that guaranteed that he ended up being like that. At some point certain people came to lynch him for the shit he didn't fucking do, and it was beginning of the end. And when I insisted on being loud and proud about our bond, certain people came to lynch me for the shit I didn't do. I guess despite everything, I've found a lot of romance and value in knowing that he sort of passed his "curse" onto me, although not intentionally. Just like him after he survived witch-hunt, I, too, went to lick my wounds and seethe in the company of very questionable people. I walked back when I saw the bunch that promised me safety was just as rotten, and I sure hope he walked back from his weird bunch too. I had a chance to learn about his life updates, but I didn't.
All this is to say, not he was ever an actual villain of this fucking mess. It were always the witch-hunter people. He would hate me for speaking like this, I guess. Because he is up against "woke NPCs" and meanwhile God will forsaken me for choosing "degeneracy" or whatever... 🙄 Still, I saw enough to know that any group who separates people on worthy or unworthy is inherently bad, regardless of their ideals and goals. None of this shit would've happen if witch-hunters stopped doing their darnest to kick anyone they deem "heretic" out of society in the beyond, where members of other cults can swipe them up and ideologically groom them. People should do their hardest to preserve members of their community regardless of inconveniences of suspicions, and my enemies will always be those who refuse to do it. People like him or me are just symptoms of what you can diagnose humanity with, and the only reason I was able to recover my compassion, faith and willingness to support was because I've found true friends and he struggled with that. I could've been a good friend to him too, but I've failed. I took too many things too personally when they were obviously expressions of insecurity, distrust and past trauma... I should not speak ill of those who act cruel to "bad victims" as much as I do when I didn't practice what I preach when it mattered, though I hope I will become better.
In any case, humans can't exist without humans. Nobody is safe from becoming a hateful bigot if it is only other hateful bigots who give them community after their previous one discarded them. I was ever so close to "everyone is an NPC except for us" mindset and only persisted because genuinely good and innocent people chose to keep pulling me out of bad place over and over and I was always given second chances. I don't hate someone who never got enough help and safety, and I sure don't hate someone for failing to meet their emotional needs. I hate witch-hunters tho, they are the problem. They, and their opposition that always picks up what they've thrown away.
#personal#/vent#I don't know how to say 'I am still mad and need to uproot many negative consequences but he was a sympthom and not cause'#at the very least I considered us true friends because of how much pain that friendship caused#I strongly assert that true friendship endures#any fake shallow looser can be friends with someone who is all only fun trust and comfort and good vibes#but only true friends fight and still make peace#tbh I saw him more like a brother but idk if I make a good Mohg at all lmao#the only thing that matches is raw intensity of my emotions both in love and in wrath#and my willingness to make something filthy and dark a natural part of the world. like he tries to force 'blood' within gold#......okay yeah maybe I see the parallels hahah.
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