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#it’s been a month without her#how can time pass by so fast#I have never spent so much time without seeing her#except for the lockdown#cause we sent 54 days apart#it was so stressful and scary#and now it will be this same feeling forever#there is no way i will stop missing her#i tear up every time im thinking of her#i can barely say the word and mention her now#i think think you can get used to it in the way people say#i think you will always miss them but will create this safe imaginary life in your mind#where they still are beside you and you kinda feel them around you all the time#but it wont go away#some voids are too big to pretend you are gonna replace that emptiness with something else#i miss her and I will forever wish I could have had her here just one more minute#one minute. i wish memory could help me remember what did we talk about the last time i call her#but it keeps giving me just one painful memory of her saying it was so long until we would see again’#I wish I was there for her#i am being good at divind work case and my real life#i dont get much stressed now#but this feeling of loneliness i feel is overwhelming and i hope she will prove to me she’s here somehow#I desperately want to say to her I am sorry I wasn’t there and im sorry I left#the only thing i know is she was proud of me and that the only comfort thought i have
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she says he won't let her get a dog, which is fine, because they're in an apartment, and that's the kind of thing people say about their partners. he won't let me get a dog. and you're at a dinner party and you tilt your head a little to the side just like that dog he won't let her get, because is this the thing that's going to upset you? you don't know every corner of their relationship, she could be joking, they could have had so many healthy conversations about the dog, right, and maybe she's not letting herself get the dog because of money and time and whatever. but, like, she did say let
and she wants to move away from his hometown and he wants to stay and then he tells you with a wink and a conspiratorial stage whisper don't worry i'll convince her and she laughs about it - so clearly this is something they laugh about. but you do just stand there and stare at him like what the fuck, man. you can't say what you want to say which is why do you get the final say on everything because they're both obviously aware of the other person's stance on this and have obviously had private conversations about it and what are you going to do about it except make a scene and then he'll be mad at you and call you one of those bitches behind your back and she'll cut you off, which is a loss that doesn't feel worth it just because he makes you a little skeeved out every 3rd comment
and they both agree he just isn't the type to get flowers which is fine because everyone shows love differently, and are you really gonna judge someone based on their sense of individual relationship responsibility? maybe he's constantly cleaning her car and writing her poems and making her furniture or something. maybe she doesn't even like flowers and this is perfect, actually. and no you couldn't date him, obviously, ew; but like, she tells you she's happy. you almost send her a tiktok that says don't be 25 and the cool girl that doesn't need anything, you'll hate not getting flowers at 30, but that's like, starting drama & you shouldn't start drama needlessly.
and you're a little older than her but not so much older you can pull the whole trust me on this one babe thing and besides that wouldn't have worked anyway (when does it ever) and besides you have trauma so you and your therapist both agree that you're always looking for a problem even when there isn't one. and you tell yourself that just because you see them for 15 minutes every month does not mean you can identify every single red flag based on a single shitty half-joking(?) comment
and besides, what are you going to do? she says i actually wanted another stand mixer but thankfully he stops me when i'm about to spend too much money and you're standing there like are you okay? is this normal? is this just something people say? and again - what are you going to do?
to your therapist you try to language it - it's not, like, any of my business. but sometimes, doesn't it feel like - you should do something. there's got to be something, right? you've tried dropping little hints but they sail right through and you've tried having a single serious conversation and she got upset because why does it matter to you, yes it's different but we're happy, it doesn't need to make sense to you and you're like. really unwilling to push a boundary about it anymore; because the truth is that you know logically it shouldn't matter to you, as long as both parties are happy.
and besides, you've been wrong before. it's just... like, every time you see them both, something else happens, some kind of shiver down your spine like do you even hear each other when you talk. it's their strange, bickering orbit. just the way he's on his phone through dinner or watching sports instead of helping in the kitchen or, fuck, another one of these little throwaway comments he makes about we'll see about that, babe. she laughs when he calls her passions stupid shit and meanwhile she gets him tickets to see the knicks and he tells you well at least she's smart about something and still! it's none of your business.
you say get the dog anyway and she laughs. like, this is is you being funny. and not you saying - no really. get the dog. get the dog and get out of here. pack up and start running.
#this btw is not including toxic friendships this is legit just something ive experienced MANY times now#writeblr#you ever have a friend in one of those relationships where ur like#u don't HATE their partner explicitly#but ur like. what the fuck y'all#like the weird part of being an adult is that you can't be like . CERTAIN their relationship is toxic#and also if u move too fast or push too hard u can hurt someone who is already in a scary situation so you just are like#frozen there. laughing awkwardly. saying ''haha..... yeah..... couldn't be me....''#and like u can't tell - is this banter or does he actually think like. he's better than her.#all you can do is be there for your friend and hope they wake up to it#or ... that it really IS good#and it's just odd to you#tbh btw id rather have my friends feel safe coming to me if they have a concern about my relationship#like yes it's not ur business but it also IS bc im making u hang out with them and also ur my friend#it's a weird thing to experience as an adult bc it is such a blurry line and when u spend time#around couples that aren't like ACTUALLY ur friends but instead ''extended friend circle'' ur like#.... i don't know y'all well enough and he just called you a cow. and ur okay with that . and i don't know how to respond.#so ur like :) okay. um. go to couple's counselling i think#but also you are NOT supposed to pass judgement so it's like.... this weird limbo of feeling like you SHOULD say something#but knowing you CANNOT#idk that there's a way to resolve it!!!!!!!! it's probably a different approach person to person#edited my tags bc tumblr's new system fucked em up#PS EDIT: btw i should have said:#the pronouns in this can work in any and every direction. every gender and every sexuality and every#type of relationship tbh. even non-romantic relationships where ur like ''what do u mean ur bff calls u stupid''
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life comes at you so fast
#tw personal#tw death#tw cancer#not my usual silly goofy post but it’s hard to remain that way when there’s a lot weighing on your mind#cancer sucks#and it’s unfair how quickly it can take people from us#one moment they seem fine and the next they’re in the icu with a week left to live#he passed two nights ago#i wasn’t planning to post about it but i have the tendency to disassociate from my grief#so here i am instead of wherever the hell!#it’s heartbreaking because he and his wife weren’t just my mum’s bosses - they were long-time friends#i have clear childhood memories of playing at their house with their son#his youngest child is only 3 years old#as soon as he found out he started giving his final messages to his staff#obviously nobody wants to die in that situation#but you could feel how much he *wanted to live*#when i was told about his death it was in the morning and it didn’t feel real#every time i had seen him in the last year he always had a smile on his face#it’s always been hard for me to deal with the prospect of death#and understand how fragile life is#how REAL mortality is#it hits even harder when it happens to someone who was so FULL of life#sighs#life comes at you fast#sometimes in all directions and in every possible and testing way imaginable#i’ve been trying to write and feel any sense of normalcy this evening but for a multitude of reasons i have a sinking feeling in my stomach#sometimes when i’m upset i try recycle the feeling into excitement or happiness over something else#yeah … i can’t really do that tonight#apologies if my energy is bleh. hold your loved ones close. now i return you to my regular scheduled programming
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That episode wouldve been perfect if the pacing was a liiiitle bit slower
#look i liked it i loved it i think there was a lot of dear work put in it it was genuinely a very cool episode and all#BUT i cant get it outta my head since j watched it that it was so QUICK#i know they had to fit it all in 20 minutes or so#but it was SO rushed to me#the first part was okay#and then we move to court and it was a biit fast and i have not processed what happening yet#we dwell a bit on the court thing so by now my emotions have properly landed#although i still wish it was a little longer#and then BAM blitz being executed that part is pretty cool#but the part where he sacrifices himself also let me wishing for a longer time#although i they probably did the best on that one#and then stolas arrives and starts singing out of the blue#which okay fair thats the point he jumps to singing#but i really wish they took a bit longer on A. him stopping the axe and B. he taking in all of the situation and trying to clear things up#and THEN starting his song#the song was *also* a bit quick to me and the transitions from one layer to the other felt a bit rushed#but who am i to tell the music professionals how to music#i mean i as the audience kind of can. but i feel like its not rlly that bad or anything its just that the WHOLE episode passed in a blink#didnt give time for my emotions to keep up with everything#helluva boss#helluva boss spoilers#helluva boss s2#helluva boss mastermind#mastermind#hb spoilers
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it's legit so funny watching all the hardcore rule-loving bros on instagram shit their pants just because they were 'forced' to watch someone else dm in the main campaign. cry about it. aabria iyengar be upon ye.
#they legit run out of facts real fast and they rewrite their own narrative in 2 replies#“she doesn't know how to calculate encounters” ok both matt and brennan have had instances of non-intended tpks. ??#matt has had this happen *twice* this campaign. if it weren't for FCG. both otohan's fights were severely badly calculated#but because it's matt he can get the pass#brennan forgets spell checks all the time (as it's usual) and gives the help action for free 99% of the time#and many more and it's normal because not 1 dm will be perfect and remember legit every rule#like c'mon honey your sexism is showing and it ain't cute#they're hating on her for the very same reasons they uplift matt and brennan#“brennan is so good at improvising” meanwhile aabria's “reactions to players are just too callous and dramatic”#how about you suck on a lemon and watch aabria rock your shit on four hours how 'bout that#this has been an excellent reminder of why i don't interact with the CR fandom outside of tumblr (:#what does the fox say
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It's really funny because technically serverbox Kinito himself should be around more but he formed an early distrust of everyone AND everyone demanded to protect Nio. He'll be back soon but it's so funny that he got derailed so much.
#I'm purposefully keeping my plot very open and vague so I can make quick time adjustments like this so that it's more fun for all of us#Amie COULD have been purely malicious if people had been completely mean to him#But so many people were nice from the start that he's more of a confusing motivation guy who likes you guys#He's fucked up still all three of them are. But any malicious nature he could've formed was squashed rlly fast.#Y'all keep narrowly avoiding Nio death by making it continuously more interesting for me to keep him alive LMAO#Like if Amie had gone feral? He would've ripped Nio apart to see how much was the same that he could take#But Amie likes YOU and you guys like NIO so he can't do that#serverbox au (kp)#I can't say anything else due to spoilers but since these bits passed I can#Trust me there's sooo much I wanna say but ourgh
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when you’ve worked at one place for a while there’s a golden era 5-6 years in where you’re proud of how long you’ve worked there and can brag about it. but anything beyond 7 years becomes deeply embarrassing and you’re always silently begging every new hire PLEASE DON’T ASK HOW LONG IVE BEEN HERE PLEASE DON’T ASK I PROMISE IM NOT A LOSER PLEASE DON’T ASK
#I just started my 8th year 🫠 now I don’t tell fucking anyone because it’s just so embarrassing to have worked here for so long…#I make the same as the position above me so I don’t want and will not ever want a promotion but it’s like I promyyyy I’m not a loser#my coworker was talking about how she’s been there for almost 4(!) and how she didn’t even realize how fast the time passed and how easy…#and I was like IVE BEEN HERE FOR 8 DUE TO INACTION AND IT CAN HAPPEN TO YOU!!!!!#my employee numbers are a whole digit less than new hires……. like that’s how long. they ran out of numbers.#I’m only staying because of that sexy sexy $10k towards adoption and 12-18 weeks paid maternity leave…#at 10 years you get to take a year off and I won’t take that long but I might take 3-4 months to chill the fuck out. in 2026 when I hit 10.#godddddd that’s sooo long Jesus Christ. so embarrassing. don’t tell the hoes.#a day in the life of steeve#the sad part is if we had universal income I would still work here and probably forever because I love my shit job it’s like toys to me.
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how hard can sewing your own dungarees be really
#^ afflicted by hubris#the thing is i want completely useless only vaguely fashionable corduroy dungarees and i will not be spending 100 euro on sometjing useless#because i am. saving up!! also not in support of fast fashion#i looked at the fabric and a similar one about 10 a metre. i need about 2 metres to make these i'd say#so that's like 20 plus some parts i can just cut out of old clothes (free yay)#PLUS after finishing it i will have figured out how to sew a dungaree i like: isn't that a nice skill#however. do i have infinite free time: no.#also if i fuck up i will just have thrown away 20 i guess. this is also not saving up BY THE WAY#so maybe i should just let this one pass lol
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fuck. i'm gonna be 27 soon
#whyyyyyyyyyy does time pass so quickly#and yea i KNOW that's still young. i just hate how time passes so fast and i can barely do anything but let it fall through my fingers#i hate this time of year#personal#mine
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#I'll be turning 24 in two months and I don't know how I feel about that#on the one hand I'm glad I'll be older again#on the other I can't believe a year has passed again#I don't know how time can be flying by so fast??#there's less than a year left of my apprenticeship and I both feel like I've worked there all my life and like I started yesterday#I think I'm also worried about where I'll be and what I'll do after it's over#confusing times..#personal#mine
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dazai's thought process is so stressful to write but so fun at the same time. my boy is working through things so fast.
#he's putting together the puzzle pieces but not QUITE in the right order#he's working with what he has though#but also trying to bring him to a conclusion rapidly is so fun cus we know how fast he can connect dots#and im trying to portray that while also acknowledging that SOME time has passed#and also also still trying to keep it logical enough that it would make sense as a conclusion to draw from the events#ough my brain#maybe writing after benadryl napping isnt the best plan#shh ac#wip: blackhole time fuckery
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Gonna go running tomorrow!!!! Gotta hype myself up because i know once my alarm goes off at 6am i will not be as excited anymore ((((: BUT I'LL GO RUNNING!!!!
#i just#need to get some actual exercise#where i can completely exhaust myself#i mean. i get some pretty exhausting 10 minutes every morning on my hike to class#but i want something a bit longer and something that will end in a nice shower and not in a seminar room#I'm just a bit scared of how it'll go because so far the paths where people exercise are also occupied by other people#and then there's bikes that might kill you if you don't watch out#so i wanna go early so i hopefully avoid random people taking a painfully slow walk in the middle of the path#so you can't pass them#but I'll be moving!!! fast!! i cannot wait tbh#i should have gone tonight#(watch me oversleep and be too unmotivated to go tomorrow morning... istg if i don't get up at 6#I'll still go at 8 or 9 or 10 am and have to live with the consequences of the paths being crowded#I'd go to bed early but my neighbors keep me up until 2am every night so that's fun#but the running will be worth it#(I'm not even a runner ㅠㅠ i just need to substitute my usual high intensity workouts with something other than pilates and yoga#i mean it's definitely not bad to be forced to do something out of my comfort zone but i really miss my jumping around time)#void screams
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Only just woke up, somehow made it down the stairs, and got hit with the ‘everyone has aches and pains suck it up’ talk. Sorry but if everyone had aches and pains the way I did, they’d have my exact diagnosis. Getting really sick of the way my family forgets I’m disabled. And when I point this out to them I’m told ‘there’s no reason to get aggressive’ okay.
#it’s laughable that they were like do you need to rent a wheelchair at the horrible museum/park we went to#I didn’t get one of course. and later regretted it. but like—#you can’t be like yes. isadora uses a cane and sometimes a wheelchair#and then turn around and say well everyone has aches and pains#okay? like yes. we’re all sore from the hikes and the car rides. but you guys can actually walk like are you seeing the difference here#recovery time is Needed. I am going to be in pain at least three times as long and also. can’t walk easily! so like#no I don’t think you all have aches and pains like I do#then they were like well how do you know what kind of pain im in and like. again#i was like if yall were in the same amount of pain or more. you’d have my diagnosis. so come on what are we gonna do here im sick of this#they’re talking about going to busch gardens and they’re like of course isadora will need a wheelchair and someone will have to push her#(accompanied with an eye roll and a muttered why can’t she just walk like the rest of us it’s not that bad. but I’ll take it)#and it’s like. you guys can remember im disabled when it benefits you!! being in the wheelchair means fast passes usually 🙃#anyway. hidden disabilities are so fun!!! like y’all I am disabled enough the state government recognized it#and paid for my medical leave. that is not nothing!!!!!!!!#anyway. I probably won’t be downstairs for long. think im going back to bed after this one tbh. my mother is impossible
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i forgot that activity isnt working properly and i had missed quite literally everyone's tags on my art KGJFDHG
#glad everyone is enjoying the lil pokemon doodles :] i love my boys i had a fun time hunting for them#ONE DAY I WILL GET A SHINY LECHONK WITH THE DAWN MARK. ONE DAY.#i worked so hard to get harvey bc i did not know how pokemon breeding works jkhfgk#i got a shiny one. cool! was really hoping for quirky but i'll take it ... wait what do you mean you can guarantee natures get passed down-#welp time to do that again! *20 eggs later* jhgfk HE SHOWED UP AGAIN SO FAST. AND HE WAS QUIRKY !#and the other drawing got to the 3 people who i wanted to see it so im happy with that :P#im not pinning it bc im still so proud of my pinned that is the best thing i'll make for a loooooong time <333#i want that to be what new ppl see first if they somehow get directed here lol#chat
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cons of going to a “good schoolTM”: insane workload, unbearable classmates, next to no support when you have any kind of extenuating circumstances Including literal hospitalization, etc
pros of going to a “good schoolTM”: the 9-5 lifestyle is genuinely a major improvement
#taylor.txt#the extenuating circumstances point was not me btw. i know someone who had his degree delayed an entire year because of two weeks in psych#we’re in a co-op program or else maybe it wouldve just been one semester but. lol#i hate it here…i hate it#but hey…at least i have the world’s shittiest health insurance!#some of my classmates say they dont feel like working full-time is easier than going to school full-time but it so is#for me. anyway. even when i fumbled my time management bad on the field and make no mistake i was incredibly busy plus i chose a field#notorious for Unpaid Overtime and Taking Your Work Home. even then. it was still easier than this#i would never do undergrad again. i loved everything i learned. i took interesting and awesome classes#but i would never ever do it again. miserable overworked spent most of it friendless until i got on the field#i have a friend who keeps being like idk how you did 4 physics classes this sem and im like girl we are education students…thats an average#semester for a physics major. how must THEY feel#also i have to say just you know. generally. ive worked full-time while living with my parents#AND while living alone. and 50 hours a week was incredibly manageable in the former arrangement. i even wrote and edited an entire novel#in the beginning stages of a pandemic while working 50 hours a week of retail and fast food hell. 40 hours full-time with weekends off#while living alone though? thats hard. i still managed to go to the gym almost every day#currently? i cant get out of bed in the morning. i am putting in 12 hour days and then goinng to bed unable to sleep because im so stressed#i have dreams about school. tangentially theres a really good marxist poem i read last year about this phenomenon in workers#ANYWAY. i have just 8 more days 4 exams 1 research paper and video project#i think i can pass and then thats it. my next semester is hell but just because scheduling the actual classes will be easy#and then i get to go back on the field and actually want to wake up every day. lol#and 8 days from now i will have my christmas shopping done and my apartment will be clean and i will be a fanfic writing machine#also my friends and i booked a demolition room so im sure that will be beneficial kfldjfldndks
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born to do a Saeko Only y7 run forced to be technically illiterate
#snap chats#we all know if i knew how to mod id make so many stupid masadai screenshots but not the point#ive been obsessed with solo runs for rpgs for a while so NATURALLY i wanna ask the question if each y7 chara can solo the game#i was thinkin of saeko specifically cause. 1.) love u 2.) in my first playthrough i primarily used her for support#though subsequent playthroughs obvi i switched her up to be way more offensive#the only chara you really can do this with is ichi and MAYBE adachi since. well ichi's obvious but adachi's the earliest accessible#'what about nanba' girl he LEAVES FOR THREE CHAPTERS#and ofc you only get saeko come chapter 5 - same thing for eri. not gonna even MENTION joon gi and zhao LMAO#so obvi i dream of a mod where you can swap ichi- at least for battles- for any of the other party members#if youve seen rpg runs that ft multiple members at a time then yk the plan is to just have everyone else block and do nothing#or get them ko'd as fast as possible. but obvi in this Mod Reality i would just have The One character to make it. awful LMAO#i mean me and other rpg enjoyers think y7's easy enough so why not the extra challenge#adachi gets the Can Also Do This Run pass since he's playable just about as long as ichi is#exceptions being of course the first chapter / beginning of second chapter and the first sawashiro fight / chapter 3#i already know people are thinking of the jima fight.... throwing up at that thought#honestly i think JUST them might make the challenge impossible#at least with ichi you have the poundmates but the others Id Consider to be out of luck#itd be fun imo to see how far each chara could get tho#beyond grinding i think youd HAVE to master perfect guarding not just for the jimas but ESPECIALLY for tendo#kiryu doesnt exist to me. apparently. idk he was a wash on my first playthrought but joon gi WAS the unintentional punching bag so--#anyway im almost done with this comm i just gtta shade it so bye
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