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Participating in a smol hackathon today while also doing the cinematography for the event and finalising the edit for a previous event please pray that I survive today
#abhi colleges#this weekend is gonna be soooo hectic#i have to go out tomorrow too so no rest on Sunday#i have classwork pending too so ill have to somehow manage to finish that on sunday as well#how am i gonna survive this#abhi rants#please pray for me okay😭
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theres kh content in the air and my next hyperfixation is afoot
FUCK.
#i dont need this rn#I NEED TO BE ABLE TO WORK#IF THE FF7 REBIRTH TRAILERS KNOCKED ME OUT FOR TWO DAYS#HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE THIS#oh by just pretending i didnt see that?#*disintegrates*#khml#fuck this
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#i need to be put down#HE'S SO HOT AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#I'M GONNA COMBUST#THIS IS THE SECOND TIME I'VE TALKED TO HIM#I HAVE SO MUCH MORE SOLAS CONTENT TO SEE IN THIS GAME#HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE THIS#I'M NOT GONNA SURVIVE THIS#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#solas#datv spoilers#veilguard spoilers
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💛 if only... 💛
#arcane#jayvik#jayce talis#viktor arcane#why can't we just have nice things!?!?#(9oO A Oo)9#like~ science boy cat dads!!!#and Viktor has an adorable service dog who goes on jogs every morning with Jayce?!?!#also i decided that their dog's name is Spline and he helps around the lab and has his own goggles (oT v To)#whhhhyyyyyyyyyy~~~~#i'm gonna die tomorrow night aren't i???#HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE S2/P3!?!?!?#pidgy drew
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Jayce and the fallacy of the butterfly effect in Arcane's narrative
If Jayce's symbol is the butterfly, then my theory is that we're going into a full "butterfly effect" narrative in Act 2. Either we'll watch it happen, or we'll only see Jayce come out the other side of it changed by the experience, knowing - or more importantly, THINKING he knows - what to do to change the future. Literally, to "defend tomorrow."
tl;dr: Jayce will encounter the butterfly effect in season 2. Viktor and Mel both foreshadowed this in season 1. I think Jayce will fixate on Viktor and will believe that stopping or changing Viktor either in the past or the present - most likely the present - will mean he can save the future. I believe this will lead to an even worse tragedy and may have the same effect as a self-fulfilling prophecy. Ekko's approach to changing the future by sticking closer to the present - considering only tiny increments of time to alter more immediate future outcomes - will be the superior approach. I also think that Jayce attempting to change the future will create the conditions that push Viktor to become the Machine Herald.
One of the most common reactions even the casual viewer had to Arcane season 1 was this: "If [character] had just done this one small thing a little differently, [tragic event] wouldn't have happened!"
Arcane has been called a Greek tragedy for the main reason that because of how well built up the characters' personalities and reasonings are, there's no other way season 1 could have gone. There was no stopping the multiple tragedies that occurred, because with one event leading to another, the chain of seemingly inevitable events goes too far back to identify what one singular event caused everything, what one character made what one decision to put our characters on the terrible paths they walked.
Arcane is about to investigate this idea in its own narrative, and I think that Jayce will be the character to stumble into the flawed idea that you can change one event, or stop one character, and change the future for the better. This is because Jayce struggles with a few very interesting character flaws, one of them being that he believes himself to be the main character, and it is therefore his responsibility to intervene, be a hero, and fix things.
Viktor and Mel both foreshadow Jayce's future encounter with the butterfly effect.
Recall that Viktor said: "There is always a choice."
Jayce sees choices in black and white, believes that he has no other options but to go along with what he's persuaded and pushed into, and acts too boldly with too much power multiple times.
Recall that Mel said: "We can't change what fate has in store for us, but we don't have to face it alone."
Jayce tries to solve big problems on his own, and though he delegates to Enforcers and the like, Jayce relies on his reasoning and his alone to make important decisions if he doesn't simply become persuaded - usually through strong emotions like fear - by other characters. In addition, since Mel is specifically talking about Viktor's plight here, it's worth mentioning that while Jayce did say that he would help Viktor in acts 2 and 3 of season 1, Jayce does wind up leaving Viktor to face his fate alone. When Jayce tries to change that fate in s2 ep1, ep2 shows that only tragedy can come of this as well.
Viktor and Mel's statements here are not contradictory. Viktor makes the point that you can always make a choice. In context, he's literally referring to the classic "secret third option," because given a choice between aggression and passivity, war and surrender, Viktor chooses to defuse the bomb instead. Mel, interestingly, seems to believe that destiny is fixed in a broad sense, and she operates as a politician and diplomat and investor who navigates that line of destiny in the most optimal way possible. In reality, in context, she is referring to the fact that Viktor can't change the way he was born and so he has no way to change his fate and therefore must face it, which is true - she's only missing the information that Viktor actually does have the means to change his illness and his body. Her wisdom still applies however, because he'll have to accept the hand that fate deals him after he makes that choice. Will he face it alone, or not?
There is always a choice, there's even secret third options, because having a fate doesn't mean that you are doomed to make only one possible series of choices. What it does mean is that each choice comes with a hand that fate deals you. It is impossible to know what all of these branching choices and consequences are in advance, and it is just as impossible in hindsight - the branches are too complex and the end outcomes are all equally meaningful, just different. If Arcane season 2 is to be a tragedy, it may show us that each possible outcome is still tragic if you fall for the fallacy of the butterfly effect.
Jayce is counseled by some of the wisest, cleverest characters with the deepest life experiences in Arcane, but he hardly ever takes that counsel to heart. If he does, he still acts on that counsel in flawed ways that have unintended consequences. This will come to a head in season 2.
Viktor and Jayce both have a butterfly following them around in season 1. The butterfly effect refers to one small seemingly insignificant event changing the course of history, and changing that event therefore changes history. Viktor bled over the railing of a Hexgate in season 1:
And Heimerdinger sees what we can only assume is Viktor's blood contaminating (?) the Hexgate in s2 ep3:
This might be the seemingly unimportant "inciting incident" that Jayce (and Heimerdinger and Ekko) settle on as something that should be avoided or erased by changing the past (if they time-travel with Ekko, for example).
I doubt that, if this is what this crew chooses to fixate on, it will be the only event that is considered as something to change. But let's take this and run with it for the sake of discussion.
As silly as it sounds, how do you stop Viktor from allowing his blood to come into contact with the arcane? Stop Viktor's involvement with the Academy entirely? Don't invent Hextech at all? But what if someone else invents Hextech besides Jayce? What if future tragedy befalls Piltover because it didn't invent Hextech?
The possibilities and what-ifs could branch on forever. But because Jayce is who he is, and because his tragedy with Viktor is still raw and recent and frightening, I think Jayce's butterfly effect experience will have to do with Viktor.
My personal prediction is that the timeskip between s2 ep3 and ep4 will be Jayce experiencing a timeline where Viktor, taken over by the Hexcore, brings about an apocalyptic event similar to what Heimerdinger experienced in his past. Either Jayce and co. can't go into the past to change the present, or Heimerdinger and/or Ekko advise strongly against it to avoid a paradox. This will lead to them re-entering the canon Arcane timeline before this apocalypse, but still after the timeskip. Jayce, believing that destroying Viktor and his cult will save the future, and believing that resurrecting Viktor was Jayce's mistake to fix, attacks him. But the consequences don't unfold the way he hopes, because trying to change fate once the cards have already been dealt has led to tragedy before.
The butterfly is a symbol of something other than just the butterfly effect - change, evolution, and rebirth. If the butterfly symbolizes the butterfly effect for Jayce, then I think it has a different meaning for Viktor - the change and rebirth meaning.
I've always found it very interesting that we see a similar-looking butterfly on Progress Day... but made of metal.
Every time Viktor's situation changes, he adapts and evolves. If Jayce attacks him, if his cult is destroyed, if the Hexcore is causing Viktor to decay, if all of these things happen at once - he'll just evolve again, and I think the Machine Herald is the next step. And the Machine Herald will be a triumph for Viktor, but Jayce will believe that he's created something even worse. The resulting feud will be a personal nightmare for both of them.
I think this still allows Viktor to use his own agency to choose to become the Machine Herald (the MH will probably be the "secret third option" that saves Viktor, or there will be a secret third option that ends the feud) while still allowing Jayce to be offended and horrified at whatever the Machine Herald represents or is trying to do in the undercity. Introducing the element of time travel allows Arcane to explore the meta concept of tragedy and fate that season 1 was built on while showing that you can't "solve" a tragedy, because there are other terrible possibilities lurking behind alternate choices. Especially if what you're trying to change is singular people or events and not systems of power.
This is why Ekko's approach with his Z-drive will be superior to Jayce's sweeping attempt at changing the future. Ekko's goal has always been societal change. He creates his own punk society in the undercity, more progressive and successful than anything Vander or Silco ever created, and a better bastion of safety, hope, and progress than what Heimerdinger founded in Piltover. Trying to change systems by going back in time is most likely futile. But taking what Ekko has already built in the Firelights, curing his tree, and fighting for the Firelights' survival bit by bit by optimizing the present with the Z-drive shows that:
It's more worth it to focus on becoming wise (Ekko's mask is an owl) and making choices you won't regret
It's best if you don't face your fate alone (act as a collective and take care of each other)
Consider every option, not just the obvious black and white choices
Maintain and fix what you've already built instead of abandoning it once things get difficult
Adapt as needed if the choices you made lead to dark consequences, and once again, stick together and take care of each other when the bad times do come
That's my Act 2 but, ultimately, my season 2 prediction based on the butterfly symbolism we've already seen. Ekko's involvement is what will give the series the at least partial happy ending that the creators have referred to. I personally don't think that the Viktor/Jayce feud will end quite so well, but maybe, they will still survive.
#arcane#spoilers#arcane s2#arcane spoilers#jayce talis#ekko#viktor#viktor arcane#long post#meta#jayvik#arcane meta#heimerdinger#I'm positive that Mel will be deeply involved with this too considering her comments on fate#honestly the thought of her being caught in the Viktor/Jayce feud is terrible to contemplate so I'm just gonna pray for my girl#I did not like the time travel implications when i first watched act 1 but after thinking about this i feel way better about it#Another reason I think this will come down to Viktor is because Heimerdinger has distrusted Viktor since season 1 and he will focus on him#Ekko will see the faults in focusing on one person#Jayce is least likely to survive all this considering how fast the consequences of his actions are catching up with him#but there could also be a chance here of viktor choosing to spare him - if only to curse him with the Defender/Herald feud forever idk#anyway i am feral for season 2 so far can't you tell
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Awwww! Man they are so sweet! :D
Hihi my friend will love it, maybe I will get milder restrictions regarding Rusger..? Probably not </3
But yessssss thanks darling your artstyle(s) is so pleasant🥺🥺🥺
Golden Days🍁༄.ೃ࿔*:・
For my dear @zhenyu777 so that I can be debt free once again yay <3
Inspired by your interpretation of the characters, look at his pretty face 🥰
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When will he get himself in debt again? Only time will tell.
#Honestly Reichpol core hihihihihhi#shhhhh don't mind me#kinda gay tho#also help a friend is visiting and I can't draw ch#how am I gonna survive this#ohhhh actually I should post the Sovpol drawing#🥺🥺🥺#soft old men#(kinda)#(not really)#(errr you'll see)#man I was kinda drunk yesterday and watched the Sonic movies with my friends#I remember. So. So little. Basically nothing.#👍👍👍#Anyways gonna watch the third movie today in cinemas#tho- I'll be missing. So much context#Erghh I hate the taste of Alcohol so much#I just like it's effect 💔💔💔
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The Dreadwolf rises
#I'm gonna go FERAL when the teasers for da:d release this summer#foaming at the mouth#I was able to borrow and Ipad with procreate again and made this gif! Actually my first ever digital animation and I am LIVING for it#Like#How I am living in solavellan hell for months now#Don't know how some of you survived years#Stay strong my friends#dragon age#dragon age dreadwolf#da: dreadwolf#Solas#Solas gif#Digital animation#Gif#Dragon age gif#Solasmance Solasmancers#The dreaded husband#the dread wolf rises#my art#videos#digital art#Bioware#Dragon age inquisition#Fen'Harel#solas dragon age#Solavellan#solavellan hell#Daze Chroma
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i love when ppl draw bumblebee like the happy little creachure he is but also i love when people draw bumblebee like he's had 500 beers in the last 1 hour and still the pain won't even ebb
#bonus when they do both by making him just utterly psychotic but he smiles so no one notices#i am a shameful idw bee enjoyer but like in the tired af ppl pleasing libra girl who needs a therapist so fking bad but#has 700000 billion duties and 900000000 billion expectations and mean bitches in his ear telling him hes stupid#sense#and not the he feels like an officer sense like no my queen is just a teachers pet doing her best which is her worst im afraid#anyways i love bee hes very indignant and a bitch but also im gonna stand beside her sorry#u do not understand how powerful it was to give him a cane . a literal crutch to hold onto to feel stronger even when ratchet says he doesnt#have to anymore but yet bee still insists bcs he doesnt have time for the repairs itll take when others cannot survive#and 2 it comforts him with support and also power and so he cradles it close with the idea of him being weak & needing smthing else#to make him strong#even tho at this point it's rlly just for comfort but he cant afford to allow himself to have comfort when others cant#or dont need it in his heroism ideals (specifically optimus being seen as so much stronger than him)#optimus also had bee tho. had him. but bee is so self conscious he just sees all his failures surrounding optimus & views himself not a#crutch to lean on but a crutch to optimus' character#he rlly needed rodimus and his fiery upbeat persona so they could fake it till they made it together and he left & fucking exploded#(in bees eyes)#like idk im just obsessed with this little tryhard loser#he islike a sad little clingy mother who refuses to think herself as human. she is just mother. lives off evrryones accomplishments#never her own#idk like hes so interesting tonme i want to kill him teehee#chew on him like sponge cak#bumblebee#transformers#tf bumblebee#tf idw#idw#tf#????#maccadam#i hate not knowing waht tag to use
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I went to go read sonadow fics on AO3 and then saw it was down
Ten thousand dead one million wounded
#Nah cuz I even saw that it was gonna be down#Yet I am still sad#How will I survive without my hedgehog yaoi#smolldust#smolldust rambles#Ao3#sonadow
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I screamed

Moon Byul Official Fanclub 1st Generation 🐹 The Secret Life of My Ham 🐹 ⭐ Coming soon ⭐
#moonbyul doing things is my roman empire#mamamoo moonbyul#how am i gonna survive this#as if the comeback wasn't enough#i have to prepare mentally and physically for all of that
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For every reblog, please write a reason you love Seoho for or why/how he makes you happy. Days remaining - 543
#seoho#foroneus#ultkpop#malesgroupnet#kpopccc#idolnexusedit#lucieblr#foraddy#rintag#tuserchrissy#useroro#eyestrain#cheytermelon#useranusia#rhitag#usermairin#kngld.edits#seoho countdown#these are extremely zoomed in but he looked so cute while keonhee gave his speech#MY SHAYLA MY DEAR SEOHO HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE TIL AUGUST'26 WITHOUT YOU
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"there’s a defining moment where he sees her in a different light for the first time”
"there is a spark between them"
"THEY ARE SOULMATES"
#bridgerton#polin#penelope featherington#colin bridgerton#NICOLA LUKE I AM BEGGING YOU I CANNOT GO ON LIKE THIS HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE UNTIL MAY
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this VIDEOOOOOOO oh my
the chain
the shirt
the hair
the jawline
the earrings
the smile
EVERYTHING
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I think I'm in the "conscious incompetence" stage of being a social animal in the real world and it sucks so majorly. bro what do you do after you realize you're bad at socializing and then in-person interaction gets harder because you know you're failing at it now.
#Robin processes emotions on main#I WANT to get good at socializing#I used to be better and I'm now worse >:[#in some ways. in some ways I've improved (e.g. am kinder). but I used to have more confidence and an easier time staying present#now I'm always shutting down and running away#literally I leave the room and go calm down in my room#I want to learn to regulate that impulse and become a chill person to hang out with. but How#I've been struggling lately with punishing myself for running away (not physically but with like. spirals of self-recrimination)#I think one good step would be to get mindful about praising myself for small steps again. I'll change faster if im kinder to myself#also I think seeking reassurance from the people I'm around more often even if it seems silly would be good#ALSO. a major problem I'm facing is that I am living with my parents. and my little sisters. and I don't... I... it's rough.#I used to parent my 15 (then 9) y/o little sister when my parents were gone and I still struggle with feeling Responsible For Her#so every time she's a little cringe I end up feeling like it's my fault and I'm gonna be punished for it and I don't know how to deal with#—how to deal with it#BIG SIGH#I'm TRYING to become a good adult who can help others rather than just living in desperate self-defensive survival mode forever#but it's so hard bro#and another issue is that I'm growing further and further apart from my parents' fundamentalist brand of Christianity#and feeling more and more incapable of making friends and bringing them to visit me. because I have to be perfect around my parents#how can I make friends if I can't offer them hospitality??#how can I be a fully realized adult if I have to hide in plain sight??#I need to move out so bad. even if I'm lonely at first I HAVE to move out#in related news my seasonal job is Over and I'm looking for full-time work! please pray for me if you're the praying type or just#send me encouraging words#that would help#<33333 I will be ok it's just a bad situation rn
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reading a manga after fixating on the anime adaptation is so fun bc not only do you get to see what elements are added and subtracted and see what's in store for the protagonists, but you also get blindsided by major plot developments that utterly rock your understanding of the story's overall tone.
what im saying is wistoria: wand and sword is gonna shift genres on a dime and i am Not Ready to see that animated.
#screaming from the void#wistoria wand and sword#im not gonna spoil but...lets just say someone gets maes hughesed and i am Not Okay about it#its recent in the manga so im hoping that it turns out they somehow survived but...the story isnt shy about killing characters#after all its already killed off one named character who was important to will so i kinda doubt there will be a miraculous survival#then again that character was the Token Gay so who knows#wonder how theyll haunt the narrative
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no but like I'm going insane over this bc wdym we'll get First as the absolutely shameless "sir this is a police station" type of flirty guy again like that bitch gonna have Bison on his lap in his tattoo studio and wipe away the blood from his face and be like thank god u cant kill me bc u already hav my h3art *uwu* <3 and I'm already sick of it 😭
#the heart killers#firstkhao#firstkhaotung#kantbison#gmmtv#thai bl#bl drama#died in 2022 born in 2024 welcome back yok 😭#i barely survived him in not me how am i gonna cope with this#that pic of him with khao on his lap is driving me insane like frfr#i cant think of anything else
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