#hoping to have at least an ounce to spend when Levi’s here

[milo-is-rambling]

Theoretically what if I took a tolerance break and didn’t smoke real flower for like. Three days at least. If I only did edibles and vapes for the weekend. Like. Finish the bowl I have now and not smoke any more. Hmm.

[otakusheep15]

Escape the Wedding

So, my best friend/mother is currently trapped in a wedding she doesn’t want to be at, and I’m hoping that she’ll be able to escape. And because of this, I’m gonna post a quick, unplanned scenario of MC escaping a wedding they don’t want to be at. Basically, the brothers get summoned by Mc and they take Mc home. 

You have no clue how you ended up here. In the middle of a crowded hall full of demons, two of which had supposedly gotten married. You didn’t even know marriage was a thing in the Devildom, so when Lucifer sprung this up on you, you were not happy. 

The panic had started out minimal. You had come in with all the brothers, and managed to stay by at least one for the whole night. But then, your last defense, Satan, had wandered off to mingle with some higher-level demons. 

Now, all alone, you curl up in a corner on the verge of a panic attack. With the last ounce of strength you have left, you manage to cast the summoning spell, and your favorite demon stands before you.

Lucifer:

He had just been talking with Diavolo and Barbatos before being summoned

At first, he was annoyed that he was taken from his conversation

But then he saw your expression and the way you were curled up on the floor

Immediately, he went into overprotective mode

Crouched down next to you to talk to you, and made sure to use as quiet of a voice as he could

Also calls Dia to ask if he could take you home, to which Dia says yes

Once Dia agrees, Lucifer is quick to pick you up (with permission of course) and carry you home

You stay in his room for the rest of the night where he cares for you and helps calm you down

Mammon:

Was definitely partying on the dance floor or chatting with some fellow models

Extremely panicked at first cause he thinks a witch summoned him for money again

But became even more panicked at the sight of you

He tries his best, but he’s so bad at helping out with panic attacks

Probably ends up making it worse by being too loud on accident

So he just decides to shut up and drag you home

Apologizes so much once he has you safe and sound in his room

Genuinely feels bad for not being able to help, but you’re just glad he managed to get you out of there without causing a scene

Leviathan:

Bold of you to assume he even went to begin with lol

But, for the sake of the scenario, let’s pretend Asmo dragged him along anyway

This can go one of two ways for him

Option one: he’s sitting awkwardly in a corner while playing games on his phone

Or option two: the demons getting married are super important people, and so Leviathan had to enter Grand Admiral Mode for the occasion 

Either way, he’s completely freaking out on the inside

Levi does not want to be here, and is so grateful when you summon him

Completely understands how you feel and is able to get you out without any trouble

Offers up his headphones for you to borrow if you feel too overwhelmed with the noise

He gets you home and invites you to his room where you spend the night watching anime together

Satan:

Didn’t even realize you were no longer by his side until he turned to ask you a question and you weren’t there

Started getting nervous, which was exactly when you summoned him to your panic corner

Feels a sense of relief that you are still in one piece, even if you are having a breakdown

Sits down next to you and helps you through breathing exercises to relax you and level your breathing

After he’s calmed you down a bit, he helps you stand and walks you out of the venue

Immediately takes you to his room where he puts your head on his lap and reads you stories

Asmodeus:

In the center of the crowd attempting to take the attention from the newlyweds

Spoilers: it’s working

Until you summon him to the corner of the room

Confused at the sudden change of scenery, but stops thinking about it when he sees how close to tears you are

Does not hesitate to grab you up and pull you out of the venue

Like, he doesn’t even spare a glance back until he’s locked the door to his bedroom and sat you down on his bed

Then he sits down next to you and gently talks you down from panic, and his sweet voice certainly helps the process

Offers to help you de-stress with some self-care (or other methods if you prefer *wink wink*)

Beelzebub:

Stuffing his face with all of the food there

What else did you expect?

Is upset when he sees he’s no longer surrounded by food

And then becomes more upset when he sees you on the floor looking like you’ve just witnessed a murder

Doesn’t even question what’s wrong

Just throws you over his shoulder and walks out

It obviously attracts some attention, but he couldn’t care less right now

Beel has a very one-track mind and refuses to stop or put you down until he knows you’re in a safe environment 

That just so happens to be the twin’s room

Only when he makes sure the two of you are alone does he actually put you down

Offers food as consolation

Belphegor:

Let’s be honest here; he fell asleep at a table somewhere

Or, more accurately, he passed out on the floor and Beel carried him to a table

Also didn’t want to be here, but came in solidarity with the antisocial trio (you, him, and Levi)

When you summon hi, it throws him super off guard

Hates being summoned while he's sleeping, so he’s about to yell at you until he sees the state you’re in currently

Sits down next you and leans your head on his shoulder

Might start singing or humming to you if he knows you like him voice

After ensuring you’ve calmed down a bit, he’ll gently help you stand up and take you to the attic

Might also grab Beel if you’re okay with it

If you are, then the three. of you all go up to the attic and cuddle

If not, then it’ll be just the two of you

He’s fine with it either way since he gets to cuddle with you and leave the party 

This was super random, so sorry if there end up being any mistakes. And shout out to my friend how has managed to escape the wedding while I was writing this out. 

[bukojuiice]

get you.

ೃ pairing: (husband! executive levi ackerman x wifey! reader)

ೃ  warnings: nsfw (18+) - the rest of the tags are below the cut! c:

ೃ genre: smut

ೃ word count: 2,696 words

ೃ  my nav  →  my college au! eren x fem! reader (fluff)

ೃ song inspo: get you by daniel caesar ft. kali uchis

ೃ  please do reblog if you enjoyed!! it really helps writers and content creators on tumblr! (feel free to add tags too because i love reading them and my heart swells with happiness when people love my work!)

ೃ “visit your husband at work” day is an actual event that happens every 3rd Thursday of the month at the company Levi works in. however, after he’s become too focused on the workload for the day and you’ve grown impatient as he wasn’t paying attention to you at all, you had to find a way to grab his attention. 

additional tags: fem dom! reader, slight bondage, sub! levi then a dramatic shift to dom! levi 

hope you enjoy reading!

Today is the 3rd Thursday of the month.

Which meant “Visit your Husband at Work” Day.

No. Like, it was literally an actual holiday that existed in the company.

One of Levi’s fellow executives, Hange Zoe, created a whole-ass holiday just so to tease you and Levi.

Not that it was a problem though, it was always so fun to watch your husband work so sternly and seriously. Even if he ignored you most of the time, especially when you were being annoying and were asking too many questions.

This month’s iteration of the holiday though… left much to be desired.

Your ever so busy husband promised you a lunch date at one of the swankiest restaurants in the business district, however he was so swarmed with papers, business plans, and taking calls from important clients that could he not take 1 hour out of his day just to spend time with you and keep the spirit of this “holiday” alive?

It really doesn’t make any sense. He could relay the client calls to his secretary, Eren, for an hour and a half, then once he gets back, he could go through them and call them back again.

Was it that hard to do?

Despite your many pleas of asking him to just stop working for a few minutes and eat some take out McDonald’s chicken nuggets with you, he still refuses to do so. He even remarked about how unhealthy they were, but you corrected him by telling him that it was alright to eat from time to time at least.  

The whole chicken nuggets exchange you had with him, put you into an even more sour mood.

Before he could even ask where you were about to go, you stormed out of his office, trying to get a reaction from him, so that he would try and make it up you. However, that did not happen and your romantic fantasy of Levi holding you by the wrist, whispering huskily into your ear, not wanting you to leave was not achieved.

So, you then head over to Hange’s office where they were eating lunch with their secretary, Moblit, and surprisingly, the company’s very own Erwin Smith, the CEO of Survey Corp. (get it? Because survey corps? Mwahahaah ok I’ll see myself out)

This got you even more confused, because why are both Hange and Erwin able to eat lunch so casually whilst your husband is so tense and stressed about all the paper works that he has to go through?

“AHH! Ms (Y/N)!” Hange beams at you as soon as they see you enter the room. “What brings you here? Does Levi not want to leave his office again?” They giggled. You greet the three of them back with a wave, but a sad smile present on your face. Erwin raises his eyebrow at you in worry.

“Ms (Y/N), is everything alright?” The blonde man asks worriedly, taking another sip of his afternoon tea. “Did you get into a fight with our most loved and hardworking executive?” He teases, trying to keep the atmosphere light and carefree.

“That’s the problem actually.” You laugh exasperatedly, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “He promised me that we would go out for lunch, but he didn’t commit and told me he was caught up in a lot of business calls, and he didn’t want to miss any of them as they were very important.”

“Oh? He can just give them to Eren though. They aren’t extremely important calls. We’re not even trying to bag some huge business deal right now. I told Levi to loosen up a bit, but he continues to want to see through with everything.”

You breathe out an irritated sigh, crossing your arms in disappointment. “I’ll be going back to his office now. I’ll be talking to my husband about this and his workaholic tendencies.” You bite your lip, trying to muster a smile, waving goodbye and leaving as soon as you arrived.

“Aw. I wasn’t able to ask if she wanted some sashimi.” Hange pouts, holding a small paper bag that contained the premium dish. “Erwinnn should I go after her?”

“Nope. Don’t.” Erwin shakes his head, laughing, clearly in a very good mood.

“Huh!? Why can’t I-“

Erwin gives them a knowing look, raising his eyebrow suggestively as if referring to something.

“Ohhhh.”

You arrive back at Levi’s office, your arms crossed, waiting for the raven-haired man to greet you. The man you know and love so well, was still very much engrossed with the materials and blueprints he was reading.

He looks up at you then goes back to what he was doing.

You lock the door behind you and then proceed to sit at the long velvety couch situated in the middle of Levi’s huge ass office. Your arms remain crossed, so were your legs as you begin to read a random book laying on the coffee table.

Levi steals some quick glances at you from time to time and your petty self pretends that you don’t notice him doing so.

You hear him sigh and take off his black rimmed glasses that he only wears during work. He then rubs his temples and clear his throat, to try and get your attention.

“(Y/N) love, I know you’re disappointed over the fact I didn’t push through with our lunch plans. I know that you know how much I love you but this is a very important-“

You stand up from the couch and throw the book carelessly to the table. Approaching him with a rather alluring aura surrounding you, your husband giving you a puzzled look as you arrive in front of his table.

He stands up, thinking you were about to envelop him in a hug and accept his apology until…

You grip the lapels of his suit and yank Levi hard against you.

“Prove it.”

Your lips clash with his. Kissing him with every ounce of frustration and heat in your body. But even as Levi’s arms come around you, holding you flush against him, he suddenly pulls back with a questioning look on his face.

“(Y/N)…”

“Maybe you might be too busy for this too Mr. Ackerman.”

You push his jacket off his shoulders before your fingers slide along the back of his neck as you guide his wet, hungry mouth back to yours.

Levi spins you around, pushing your back against the cold glass of the windowpane, the beautiful city skyline as your backdrop whilst you make love? It was perfect.

He lifts your wrists up above your head, holding it there with one hand while the other explores your body, caressing the skin he could touch even though you were still fully clothed.

“Levi…”

You feel exposed in a way that makes your pulse race, the intensity and the heat between the two of you continue to escalate as his fingers find a strip of bare skin at your waist, then slide up beneath your clothes to trace the curve of your breast. He continues fondling it whilst his other hand slowly unbuttons your blouse, revealing the beauty that was your upper body. Levi takes in the view, breathing

You arch your back, pressing your body against him. His tongue continues to tangle  with yours, and he moans into your mouth.

“Can you even get back to work after this?”

“It depends how much you can keep me busy.”

Levi picks you up easily in his arms. You lock your legs around his waist as he carries you across the office.  He sweeps everything off his desk with a loud crash and lays you down.

Again, you were seeing a different version of him. Not only was it not typical of him to be careless and thrashing things around like this, but the way you can feel his heart beat and his emotions just by these gestures and the two of you haven’t even arrived at the good part yet.

Your head swims, going wild over the thought of what the two of you could end up doing as he unfastens your clothes and throws them across the room. Very out of character for a man who wants to be clean and organized all the time.

His lips trail kisses all over your body, pausing to skim his teeth along your side, caressing each soft spot, turning you on even more.

“I want to eat you up…” He whispers, continuing to smother you with all the love that he can give, touching you everywhere he can.

You look down your body at him, taking in the intense look in his eyes. You want him…

But you also want to make him pay for how he treated you today.

“You have to earn that privilege, Mr. Ackerman.”

You sit up from the desk, pushing him back lightly.

“(Y/N)…”

“You’ve been a naughty boy, Levi.” You wink at him, sucking your finger and waving it in front of him. “And you know what that means…”

“I’m going to tie you up.”

Levi, lets out a soft curse, as you hop down from the desk and motion for him to take a seat behind it. He has no choice but to follow you, albeit a bit surprised as this was something new that the two of you haven’t experience yet. He starts to move around the desk when you call out to him.

“Wait.”

You lean in and skim your fingers over the exposed skin of his chest, then tug lightly on the open flap of his shirt.

“I don’t want to have to deal with this later.” You wink at him again, running your fingers through his abs, caressing them, and you know that something was stimulating inside of your raven-haired lover.

Levi then quickly strips out of the rest of his clothes, then takes a seat in his office chair, arms on the armrests.

You grab a spare cord from one of his desk drawers, then tie his wrist to the chair. You do the same for his other hand, letting your fingers trail along his bare body, noticing the bulging erection in his pants before you step back and admire your handiwork.

“Aren’t you a sight?” You tease him, your husband smirks and shakes his head at how you were the one showing dominance this time around.

Levi tries to reach for you but stops when he pulls against the cords. He sits back with a pout.

“This isn’t fair.” He cursed under his breath. “I want to touch you.”

“Oh… you want to talk about not fair? What have you been doing all morning then?”

You lean over the chair, careful not to touch him, to try and tease him even more. You let your breasts idle near his face… so close, you can feel his breath ghost over your skin. He visibly gulps.

“And now you’re being punished for it.”

You hop back on the desk, facing Levi. You spread your legs so he can see every inch of you, you hear him gulp again and you were loving the attention as you slip your fingers under your panties.

“Tch…” He cursed under his breath.

Your head lulls back as you let the pleasure course through your veins, trying your best to stop yourself from mewling in pleasure. You call out his name, as if imagining that you were pleasuring yourself whilst he wasn’t around. “A-ah…”

Touching yourself in front of Levi is a power trip like nothing you’ve ever experienced before. You can barely control your movements as your hips buck up. You continue to rub your clit in a circular motion. Your husband continues to watch.

Levi licks his lips as he struggles against his restraints. You slow your fingers as you consider him…

“Hmm… have you been punished enough yet?”

“No… but I can’t make it up to you properly unless you let me touch you.” He continues to breathe heavily, still trying to free himself from the restraints.

Selfishly, you know he’s right. You reach out to untie the cords, and he’s all over you, quickly pressing your body onto his, before the ropes even fall to the ground. Levi continues to kiss you deeply, pressing you back against the desk as his hands work your panties down your thighs.

“I haven’t been able to think about anything else all day. I know we could have just done this at home.”

“And now? What do you think is the point of this work holiday?”

His fingers make their way back up your bare legs, stroking you teasingly.  “And now… I can barely control myself. I want to devour you.”

You lean back and let your legs fall open as wide as they can. You fight back a blush as he hungrily takes in every inch of you. Levi bows at your feet, lowering his mouth between your thighs and working his tongue against you. He slowly licks the inside curves of your pussy, taking in every inch of you. He continues to make work of exploring your insides by a finger, pushing it in and out.

You shiver and grip the desk, reeling from the sensation.

“Levi!”

“If you want me to make this up to you properly, then you can’t come yet.” He stops for a second, now it was his turn to tease you.

“Can you do that, Ms. Ackerman? Can you hold back until I tell you?” Levi punctuates his question with a devilish twirl of his tongue, and you gasp.

“Yes. I can.”

“I can take whatever you have to give. Don’t hold back.”

Levi smirks at you, and you know he’ll rise to the challenge. He licks his lips… then dips his head and licks you. His tongue continues to ravish you, deeply and heavily, unrelenting.

“A-ah I’m going to!“ You mewl, your hands looking for something to grasp.

“Already? I thought you said you could take it?”

Your body trembles as he sucks and nips on your nipples, leading you toward the brink. He makes his tongue rigid as it flicks against your clit. You lift your head enough to see Levi’s hand working between his legs, touching his cock in rhythm with you as he groans out your name.

“L-levi…” You gesture him to enter you, your finger pointing down as your breath continues to hitch, craving more for him.

He slowly enters as if teasing you, and you feel your juices stimulate as you become one with him. He continues to thrust in, shifting from a normal to a fast pace, still relentlessly teasing you. How the tables have turned.

Levi’s pace grows even faster and faster, it was as if his dick was enlarging inside of you too. Your moans were in sync with his and with one final thrust…

That’s all it takes. Your body clenches, and you fly over the edge, ecstasy crashing over you.

You both exchange your I love you’s, leaning in for one last kiss as you feel the last pump enter inside you.

Levi slowly holds you and helps you down from the desk. It was such a smooth release that not one drop fell onto the desk. If it did though, his clean freak tendencies would probably show by now.

“Let’s clean up. I have a meeting at 3.” He says, still catching his breath, picking up his clothes that he threw from the other side of the room.

“So… you’re telling me that we can still have our lunch date!?” Your eyes lit up; the raven-haired man offers to help you clip your bra.

“Yes. Then let’s go to the spa after.” He smiles, combing a hand through your hair, kissing your shoulder before you finish wearing your blouse again.

“Does that mean we can also do it in the spa?” You ask, suggestively.

“No.”

“Aw. You’re no fun.”

Fin.

me after writing this and as i hit post now:

[diavolosthots]

I'm not sad but I figured it was time to continue these. Also shoutout to you if you catch the little easter egg of his character song in this!!!

ₓ˚. ୭ ˚○◦˚LEVIATHAN proposing headcanons ˚◦○˚ ୧ .˚ₓ

MaRrIaGe iS fOr NoRmIeS 

But he can’t deny that when it comes to you, he’ll gladly be a normie, just this once. 

In all honesty, he was completely content with just the boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other label just because it already took him forever to get to this point…. Marriage is a whole other ball game he isn’t sure he’s qualified for. 

It came randomly too, the urge to marry you

Probably a late night anime marathon and you chose a harem and or just a really cheesy adventure-turned-romance flick and here we are. 

He really just thought about the idea of ‘forever’ with you and… well…. He liked it 

Don’t get me wrong, though. It’ll take forever for him to actually propose. 

Say…. you’ve been with him for 5 years. Solid time, right? Yeah add another 15 to that before he can get the courage to get on his knee and not cover it up by tying his shoe or finding a random penny on the ground. 

He’s just so nervous! What if you finally found out that he’s nothing more than a yucky otaku? What is he gonna do then? Make a fool of himself? He can’t! He’s already a fool! He can’t afford to look more foolish! 

It’s… this doubt and lack of self confidence that has manifested itself in the back of his mind millennia ago. It’s hard to let go. 

But at the same time, he’s SO sure that it is you whom he wants to spend the rest of his life with, or yours, whichever comes first. 

He’s had the ring for months. Years. Probably a decade by now, but he was never unsure about it. He knew that THIS is the ring for you and by God he was going to deliver it… at some point. 

The ring is white gold with a princess cut topaz and a twisted split leading up the gem. The twists themselves have small diamonds on them; not too many, not too little. It’s simple compared to some of the other ones, but he believes it represents the two of you and it also reminds him of the ocean, which is where he feels most at home. 

The ring was never the problem

Finding the words to propose was. 

He’d like to do it alone; just the two of you. However, he will hint at it toward Lucifer in hopes that the eldest would A.) pick up on it and B.) somehow manage to capture pictures of the moments. In secret. From far away. 

Lucifer told Diavolo and Diavolo has a whole team of photographers hiding because the Demon Lord is SHOOK that the third born would ever do something like this 

Honestly thought it was a joke at first 

Anyway, chances are, Levi is going to take you to some body of water; a pond, the lake, the ocean, a nice stream in the middle of the forest 

Of course, it’d be done under the moonlight; no exceptions. The less you can see him, the better 

pspspsps---> I HC demons have nightvision of some sorts so he can see YOU very well

He’ll most likely be super quiet during the whole talk, which may or may not be good because that means you get to talk a lot! Unless you’re not a talker… in which case we’ll have a problem 

He’s kind of counting on you to talk right now so he can think about how he wants to do it 

“What’s wrong, Levi?”

But it’s so obvious that something is wrong, right? He can’t hide it anymore and he’ll take literally every ounce of confidence he’s ever possessed to stop dead in his tracks and take your hands in his 

“Listen (Y/N)....” He can’t even look at you but he’ll force himself to look between your eyes to at least be nice about it, ya know? 

“I…. I suck at this, what am I even doing…? No! No don’t.. Don’t tell me otherwise. You deserve so much better and I know that. I know you know that, but… I don’t think I can ever have better than you. You’re the best, you’re…. You’re my Ruri-chan… but like, in real life! You’re breathing and your own persona and--! And… I guess what I’m trying to say is…”

He reaches into his pocket to pull out the little ring box that has been there for literal ages, before getting down on one knee and looking up at you with hopeful, but somewhat scared, eyes…

“What I’m trying to say is that…. This is for normies… But if they got one thing right, it’s that everyone… everyone deserves a chance… at happiness and love, and you are that chance. You’re My Chance. I… I love you more than anything, anyone,... And I can’t… I can’t take the chance of you leaving me one day. You deserve so much better than me.... So much better... But I wouldn’t know what to do. I need you by my side, to be weird together. I need you to continue loving me and holding me and telling me that I’m not just a yucky otaku because no matter how much I disagree, you seem to see differently and it… it helped so much. You changed me so much. I love you, (Y/N), please… will you marry me?” 

[wqk-k]

Obey Me Brother react to an idol!MC

 hi this is my first set of headcanons for the brothers  👉👈 i apologize if the brothers are ooc in this, though i tried my best jksajdufhj. i hope you enjoy!

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Warning(s): Cursing

Reader Pronouns: They/Them (4A)

Background: MC is a very popular idol in their world, best known for their impressive singing skills, music and the amount of rewards they have recieved because of their talents. Surprisingly, they aren’t only popular in their world, but in the Devildom and Celestial Realm as well.

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Lucifer

since lucifer didnt actually read who you were on the paper that had blown to his feet, he had no idea you were an idol at first

but after couple days at RAD, he noticed that random demons kept coming up to you in between classes and didnt leave until the next class started

most of them had come up to you with a pen and some paper asking for your autograph

he was just like ??? 

after a while of this happening luci decided to just ask you straight up why they were coming up to you like that and you had told him you were an idol back in the human realm

that explains it

he honestly doesnt mind

if people start hating on you in public, he’ll honestly just shoot them a death glare and it works

so damn well

he got too much pride to deal with those underlings

if you start working on music/mv projects that you left off on in the human realm (like shooting mv or singing) he will absolutely rent you a recording booth or fuck, even a whole ass theatre if you needed it

sometimes he likes to sit in the recording booth and listen to you sing for a bit before returning to his stacks of mammon’s bills 

v proud of you dont get him wrong

but he will make sure you’ve done all your homework first LMAO 🛌

Mammon

when mammon first found out you were an idol he started digging through boxes that had been in his closet

after what seemed like hours he finally found the box he was looking for and he started to dig through it

he pulled out an old camera that levi gave him a couple hundred years ago bc he said he didnt need it

mammon had the best idea ever, he could sell pictures of you to your fans for at least 10,000 grimm each.

surprisingly it worked

like really well

so well that you found out

you confronted him about it, saying that you find hella uncomfy with him snapping pictures of you at random times. not only that but it was an invasion of your privacy

despite him earning so much grimm, he agrees to stop but keeps some of the pictures to himself to look at when he misses you 

if you get hate in public he’ll turn into his demon form and scare the person away, maybe scaring you in the procees but apologizes right away if he does

if you start working on music/mv projects he’ll offer to help you shoot mvs or record you singing if you need the help

just make sure he gets some credit for helping you

but he genuinely thinks you look amazing in anything, like anything

you could be wearing a big bird cosplay and he’ll think you look breathtaking

gets you to model w him sometimes

Leviathan

wait you look really familiar

really really familiar

you almost look and sound like that one really popular human idol that hes simped for time and time again

wait

oh shit

v embarrassed when he finds out it is actually you and gets really nervous when hes talking to you

is the demon asking for your autograph

but you have no idea how much power you have over this man

you could tell him to come out of his room and he’d come out with ease, no protesting, no nothing

may ask you to record a ringtone for him for when he wakes up

even after months of you two knowing each other, he still gets flustered when you start talking to him with your stupid cute ass eyes and your perfect hair and your perfect voice and your perfect-

yeah you get the point AKJSDKLASFBG

if you get hate in public he will deadass growl at the person before escorting you to your favorite ice cream place

if you start working on music/mv projects he will be by your side 24/7

he wants to see the god/ess themselves at work

hes like your personal butler for the time youre working on the projects and its adorable

hes bby

Satan

when he finds out youre an idol he will 100% voulenteer to help you write lyrics for your next song

but besides that, like luci, he really doesnt mind

he hears some other demons talking shit about you after art class and he’ll be angy as usual, but after stomping off and accidentally bumping into you he just

turned into puddy??

idk what it was but it was something abt they way your hair was a lil messed up and looking at him like that wish a small embarrassed look

just wow

every ounce of anger just evaporated while you apologized over and over again because the face he was making made him look like he was angry for some reason 

when he snaps back into reality he says its cool but then asks if youd like to go to the library w him because honestly youre his safe haven now

sometimes he asks you to hum a tune for him when hes reading

if the demons start hating again, you may need to hold him back KJASNDJFG 

if you start working on music/mv projects, again, will voulenteer for helping with lyrics

if you already have the lyrics down he’ll review them and give constructive critisisim if needed

or he’ll just write every lyric himself and you can judge it after hes done

Asmodeus

is not surprised at all

hes actually heard some of your songs and damn id he doesnt have them on his “on repeat” playlist on devilfy

he thinks you have an outstanding voice, not only that but youre a gorgeous lookin thing

asmo likes to hit on you a lot because he likes to see that flustered look on your face but he would never over your boundaries

he wouldnt want to be over the internet bc he made one of the most praised artists in devildom (thats not even a demon) angry

asmo doesnt want to be cancelled yet JKSJKDGFUA

but seriously, he thinks youre amazing

like really amazing

there like no lust involved in his admiration for you he just geniunely thinks youre cool

but he does think you look amazing 24/7

will ask you to model things for him for devilgram

if you get hate in public, he’ll hold your hands and shower you with compliments and tells you to ignore them

if you start working on music/mv project he will insist on doing backup vocals or being a backup dancer

or like the head backup dancer or whatever theyre called

is like your personal stylist wherever you go as well

along with that he can also help you come up with a beat for your song if you need one, he is more than happy to help someone like you

Beelzebub

he honestly thinks youre really cool

asmo showed him one of your songs before and thought it sounded really catchy

not only that, you sounded beautiful, almost like you were actually from the celestial realm, consider him a fan

so when you showed up for the new exchange program he was surprised but got really giddy

was one of the demons who asked for your autograph

you gave him a sweet smile after he asked and he just- melted

man down man down

will want to spend lost of time with you and take you to ristorante six on fridays as his treat

you usually end up paying though which he feels really guilty about but you tell him its fine

youre an idol who is loaded to the chest, youve got nothing to lose KLSKADJHF

if you get hate in public he’s also the type to death glare but people dont really hate on you in public when youre w him bc he has a naturally scary aura

lowkey thought you wouldnt like him at first :(

if you start working on mv/music projects he’ll start cooking you meal and making sure you get enough water

will absolutely cook your favorite meal- or any meal in fact- if you request it

if you dont request anything he’ll just wing it and make something he think you’ll like kjskdhsf

Belphegor

couldnt care less  🧍

he thinks your voice is pretty nice tho

hears beel listening to your music once and agrees w him on you having a really nice voice

lowkey sing him to sleep

like its super cute

plus he thinks youre gorgeous?? like wow you rlly pretty

once tried rubbing your face bc he thought you were wearing makeup but when nothing came up on his thumb he muttered a small “wow” and hugged you

it was the cutest thing ever ohmy god KJSJDSIF

ever since that day hes obtained a habit of rubbing your face when he finds you stunning or at random moments

if you get hate in public he will literally murder the person?? but in like an alleyway or something

he’ll say something like “wait here” and walks toward a dark area to do his thang

when he comes back he’s covered in this red shit and you worry for him but he just glosses over it and takes you into a pillow shop LMAO

he is v protective over you

if you start working on mv/music projects he’ll occasionally help out but most of the time he’s sleeping so he doesnt really care 

sometimes he’ll give beat/lyric suggestions or help flim the mv but thats it  🧍  

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[lettersinscarlet]

Notes (Obey Me! Lucifer Imagine)

What’s up guys? It’s me again! See, I promise, I’m slowly resuscitating my blog. Apparently, it just takes me forever to write, so that’s fun. But anyway, I am here to deliver an imagineto you! My requests are open, and I have a whole list of different fandoms and characters I write for, so feel free to drop a request in and I will get to it! It’s just I’m a little slower now when it comes to writing. Hope you enjoy this one!

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You were walking down the halls of the House of Lamentation, just heading back to your room after classes. Your teachers had given you a ton of work to do, and you figured that if you started now, you might be able to finish it all before you passed out from exhaustion. But if you’re being honest, you might do a few assignments and then procrastinate and turn the rest of them in late or make an excuse as to why you couldn’t do them. Maybe Diavolo would take pity on you and give you a pass or something.

As you walked by, you passed the door to Lucifer’s office. You stopped outside, wondering if he was in there. You didn’t want to disturb him if he was working, but you just wanted to check up on him. You heard some soft music playing, which was just a little sign to you that he was in there. You sighed, hesitating outside the door, before you just shook your head and walked away from the place.

Honestly, you really felt bad for Lucifer. He was always in his office, almost like he was trapped in there because of the paperwork. You knew he never left, because when you would sneak down for a midnight snack from the kitchen or to get some water, you could hear that soft music playing from behind the door. He just had to be exhausted, working that late into the night without a lot of sleep, rarely taking breaks often. You could appreciate his work ethic, but you knew that was also one of his flaws, that he really would just work too hard.

With Lucifer always in his office, that also meant that you didn’t get to spend as much time with him as you wanted. You’d actually gone to hang out in his office, and those times were great. It was easier to talk to him than it normally was, and it gave you an excuse to make sure he was taking breaks and eating and all the good things. But even in those precious times, someone would come in with more work for him to do, or more forms he had to review and sign. It always seemed to kill the mood, and that smile of his that would show up would quickly disappear.

The hall seemed to stretch on forever, but you finally arrived in front of the door to your room. With a heavy sigh, you pushed the door open, heading straight for your desk, dropping your bag down beside the chair. You knew this was going to be a long night, and not even a single ounce of your being was looking forward to doing all this work. As you settled into your chair, you pulled out your various notebooks and textbooks, diving in and getting started.

Hours later, you decided it was time for a break. You were about halfway through with everything you had to do that night, but you knew you needed some sort of sustenance and water if you were going to keep going. Hopefully Beel hadn’t already cleaned out the kitchen, and maybe there would be a snack or two left for you. You stretched out your arms and legs, a few satisfying pops and cracks following the motions.

Quietly, you slipped out of your room and headed back down the long hallway, on your way to the kitchen. Before you headed to your destination, you wanted to check on Lucifer. You’d been working for awhile, and you really hoped that he’d decided to take a break, or maybe he’d stopped for the night. It was late anyway, and most of the other brother’s were asleep, with the exception of Levi. He’d told you he was waiting for a new sale that was starting tonight, and there was no way he would be sleeping until it was open.

When you stopped at the eldest brother’s office, you noticed that the door was cracked, but the music was still playing. A sign that he would be in soon, and you assumed he must’ve went to get something quickly, or maybe a bathroom break. A realization came to you that now was a chance to get him some water, because you were certain he hadn’t been properly hydrating.

You ran to the kitchen, making sure you were light on your feet so no one would hear your thundering steps. Snagging two bottles of water, you checked the cabinet, and it seemed you were in luck. There was a few snack options, and you grabbed your favorite of the options, then grabbed something you knew Lucifer would like. You hurried back to his office, feeling a bit like a spy on mission.

He still wasn’t back, and you walked into the room, heading straight for his desk. Papers were a bit scattered, his pen left on top of a small stack of documents. From the looks of it, he probably wouldn’t be stopping until the early morning with this amount of work. A sigh escaped your lips, and you went to set the water and snack on top of the papers, making sure he would see it. You noticed a stack of sticky notes nearby, and you grabbed one, placing it in front of the little refreshments you’d brought. Grabbing his pen, you wrote a little note.

“Don’t forget to have some water and food to keep you going. If you get a chance, please take a break, because you’re health is more important than the work.”

You signed your name at the bottom, adding a little heart. But, as you looked at it, you realized the heart was a bit forward. He could be coming back to his office at any moment, and you knew you didn’t have much time left. Somehow, you managed to turn the heart into a strange looking flower. Satisfied with your work, you put the pen back how you found it and ran out of his office, making sure you grabbed your own snack and water.

You made it back to your room unseen, and you took your snack break. It was more needed than you thought it was, because you seemed to be starving. The snack would be enough to hold you over, but you’d probably eat a little more at breakfast the next morning. Once you finished the snack, you walked back to your desk, setting the water down and getting back to work.

At some point during the night, you’d passed out on your desk. Notebooks sprawled out, papers scattered, pens on the floor but luckily your pencil stayed safe, just a few inches away from your hand. You woke with a start, an alarm you hadn’t realized you’d set blaring some annoying tune that you just had to turn off. When you finally succeeded in that task, you looked at the mess of things on your desk. Turns out you’d gotten more than you thought you had, and there were only a couple of assignments you would need to turn in late. Lucky.

You stretched out your hands, your back arching as you yawned, your body trying to wake up. It hadn’t been the most comfortable sleep, but at least it was something. As you were stretching out, you glanced down and you noticed a bright pink square. Next to the pink square, there was a water bottle, and what looked like some sort of food. Breakfast food. Wiping at your face, you blinked a couple times, waiting for your vision to clear up some. Then, you grabbed the note, bringing it to your face so you could read it.

“Thank you for the food and drink, and don’t worry, I took a break eventually. Looks like you could use some of the same. Don’t be late for class.”

The words were written in a fancy script, almost cursive, and it was very easy to tell that Lucifer had left it. There was even a small little flower drawn on the corner of the note. It made you smile, and you moved to eat your food and to get ready for school.

Neither of you ever really mentioned the notes to each other, it was just an unspoken thing between you. Each of you appreciated what the other had done, and it was almost like it was your little secret.

It started off as just that. Every now and then, you would leave a little note for Lucifer in his office. Most of the time, there was a bottle of water and a snack with it. Sometimes just the water, or sometimes it was just a little note for a check in. Usually, some sort of drawing accompanied it, of course, nothing with too much detail. Just a little something to maybe make him laugh or smile.

For whatever you’d left, he always gave you a note back. Even if it was just to say thank you. He’d leave them around your room, and sometimes, if he felt daring, even on your door.

This little passing of notes between you, it was almost like a game of tag, waiting to see if the other would leave something, waiting with anticipation to see how they would respond to whatever had been left. It was a wonderful little thing. So wonderful, that eventually, it became and everyday thing. You’d leave a little sticky note on his door, in his office, or just places around the House of Lamentation that you knew he would see. Most of the time, if you weren’t feeling super creative, you would just write hello in different languages, or maybe leave him random facts about yourself. The facts were his favorites, and you didn’t know, but he always saved the notes in one of his drawers.

Lucifer was walking to his office, and when he reached the door, he noticed a little blue square, just right above the door handle. He smiled, going to pull it off of the door to look at it closer.

“Out of all the stars, my favorite has to be the morning star”

The little compliment made him flush, and he quickly went to his office, going to put the note in the little drawer. He sighed, sitting down in his chair, leaning back as he spun a little bit as he thought.

He would never admit just how much your little notes meant to him, but he absolutely loved to read them. It made his heart swell with pride, and a little something else, too. The messages you left them, no matter how strange or weird, he found them wonderful and adorable. Even if it was just some random fact that taco cat is the same spelled backwards or forwards.

With each little note, he could feel himself slipping more and more into these little feelings for you. It had started off as a simple little crush, and then you actually took the time to check up on him, make sure he was pacing himself while he worked, also making sure that he was caring for his health. Just showing that sort of care towards him, it made him feel something a little stronger for you than just his little crush.

He sighed, rubbing his temple as he sat in thought. He hated not being able to do anything about these feelings for you, just keeping them trapped in his head and in his heart. It frustrated him, the fact that his thoughts kept wandering to you, knowing that he couldn’t act on them.

Wait a second... why couldn’t he act on them? He is Lucifer, the Avatar of Pride. He’s the oldest, he’s well respected, hardworking... so couldn’t he act on these feelings? Let you know that he wanted to hang out, more than just leaving these little notes between you? Of course he could.

He went to stand up, his brain determining that he should just talk to you, but then he stopped. Something about it didn’t feel right, and what would he even say? Slowly, he sat back down in his chair, now lost in his own thoughts. How was he supposed to do this? Lucifer’s eyes began to wander, and he settled on a sticky note pad.

It was almost as if a lightbulb had went off over his head, moving to grab the pad so he could begin writing. The perfect way to do this would be through your own little communication system, wouldn’t it be? This definitely felt like it was the right way. He took his time, elegantly writing out his little message. He looked it over, shook his head, and threw it out. Starting over, he wrote it out again, workin the phrase just a bit differently. Turns out, he didn’t like it any better. Writing this note for the third time, he made another few adjustments. This continued for about half an hour, until he finally crafted the perfect note.

Lucifer waited and then left, going to your room. He knew you weren’t back just yet, probably out with one of his brothers. He quickly slipped in, going to leave the note on your desk. There was no need to spend too much extra time in here, so he left relatively quickly, going to find something to do so that he wouldn’t think about the time. Now, he played the waiting game, feeling the anticipation of when you would see his note, wondering how you would answer it.

You came home a little while later, laughing as you walked back in with Mammon. He’d needed you to come along with him today to some sort of important event, but it turned out that the event was rescheduled or something, so the two of you just ended up hanging out together for a little while.

Once you could escape to your room, you flopped down on the bed, sighing as you relaxed into the soft material. It had been a bit of a long day, and you closed your eyes, just resting for a moment.

You woke up from your accidental nap, sighing as you sat up, just waiting for your body to truly wake up. When you finally did, you stood up and walked over to your desk, intending to start working on your other assignments or at least map out what you needed to do. That’s when a small pink square caught your eye, and you picked it up to read it.

“If your free, what would you think about dinner tomorrow? Just the two of us, at 7:00?”

The little question made you smile, and you held the note close to your chest. So he’d finally asked. You were bursting with excitement as you went to write on your own sticky note, your handwriting sloppy but still legible. You underlined what you’d said, and this time, you’d added the little heart. But it was under an exclamation point, so you could just play it off.

Nearly sprinting down the hall, you almost knocked over Mammon in your rush. But that didn’t matter, you could apologize later. You were just wanting to make it to Lucifer’s office as quickly as you could. Finally, you reached your destination, grinning to yourself as you realized he wasn’t in his office. You placed the note right in the middle of his desk, so that there was no doubt he would miss it, and then you dashed back out of the room. Now, you were headed to Asmo’s room, hoping he could piece together some outfit for you to wear.

Lucifer was riddled with nerves when he made it back to his office, sighing as he closed the door. He hadn’t really been able to focus since he’d left the last note, and it certainly didn’t help that you hadn’t answered yet. He knew you were back from RAD, because he’s heard you and Satan talk as you came in. Hours had passed, and still nothing. Was that your way of saying no? Surely, you’d tell him if you weren’t interested.

He sat down in his chair, reaching to grab a pen so that he could attempt to start on some paperwork, hopefully get through a few stacks, when something caught his eye. It was bright yellow, no mistaking that it was a sticky note. Lucifer’s heart pounded in his chest as he peeled it up, going to take a closer look at what it said. When he read it, a smile came to his face, followed by a quick breath of laughter. Just with a few simple words, you eased all his anxiety from the past few hours, almost making him forget them completely. He tucked the note away in his drawer, just smiling and overall pleased. He couldn’t wait.

“It’s a date!”

Three simple words, and it was enough to keep him smiling for the rest of the night.

[jean-does-not-have-a-horseface]

Before Dawn (Levi x Reader)

So, I wrote this mostly in one sitting because I longed to post it on Archive of our own but I'm sure not all people read stories there, so if I can make someone's day brighter with some not so slow slow burn and eventual fluff then I'm in. I hope you enjoy, also I don't know how to add the read more option on mobile

Your face meets the hard, cold pillow of your bed with a loud but somewhat muffled thud. Your room turns darker and darker by each passing second as the sun slowly disappears behind the mountains. When you can't feel any stream of light entering the room you peak outside of your dormitory's window. Another exhausting day has finally come to an end.

Being the youngest member of Erwin's team isn't always as good as many of your comrades picture to be. Most of them believe you're babied, treated softly and specially, which is untrue to any possible extend. If anything, you're practically silenced by your other team members, who are much older and far more experienced than you. You do errands for everyone most the time and you're even assigned paperwork concerning fallen soldiers. You humph quietly. Soldiers can talk and gossip as much as they want, you're used to having to hear a new rumor about every one every passing week anyway.

Time seems to pass slowly as you're laying there, not moving a single inch of your body. In fact you contemplate on weather to even bat an eye to the direction of whoever's poking you. You have been satisfied with not having to talk to anyone for that little time you had to yourself.

"(Y/n) come on, we're just finished forming new squads."

Your much necessary time to relax seems to have to come to an end. It's almost never your choice, whether you get to rest or not that is, but you only sense it's going to get worse now that Erwin has been ranked as the new survey corps commander. A loud groan makes its way out of your barely parted lips. It only takes one second to storm out of your bed and another one to be able to stand still on your feet.

"Uhgh Hange, I hate that they have to do this right now. I was about to go shower." You mumble under your breath, solely with the intention of whining your way out of this situation. There's no such thing as convincing Hange out of pretty much anything anyway though, you scold yourself for believing it's worth the time.

The walk down the corridor is dull and silent and the only noise that can be heard comes from inside the dining hall that you pass without missing a heart beat. It's been a while since you started skipping dinner because your appetite was going down hill. In addition, it's not that Hange even brought up dinner at the sight of the dining hall.

Upon arriving at Erwin's door Hange lifts her hand and steadily knocks twice. You're not even standing on the spot for a second before the familiar word of approval is spoken from inside. Hange practically drags you inside, instantly adding tones of despair into your misery for the night.

Despite your best wishes, everyone in the room has fixed their eyes on you after the squeal you let out due to Hange's rushing movements. "Welcome (y/n)" Erwin speaks and you nod in response before saluting boringly. He urges you to take a stand between Levi and Mike and you comply without even trying to give it a second thought. Even though it's frantically silent in the room in a way you think that a single sound carrying breath could break it while Erwin speaks, you witness as Mike decides to tresspass that.

"You're squad Mike girl!" He whispers to you in a prideful way. His smirk betrays the happiness that has swelled on him by receiving this rank.

"Any questions?" Erwin asks before he forces his voice to come to an halt. Seeing that no one requests to know a thing from him he proceeds to call new squad leaders, one by one to pick members for their teams. Surprisingly enough, Levi gets called after Mike, speculating a peculiar reaction by the remaining veterans, even you, someone who has no place in voicing any object to Erwin's commands.

"Levi's not to doubt, I believe you all know that, and he will be running the new special operations team."

It occurred to you that no one was actually doubting Levi's abilities; most of them had probably been jealous to having to work that hard to receive a rank when he was only in the regiment for a year. However had they known Levi even in the tiniest bit though they'd never have an ounce of jealousy for him. Not that you knew much to beging with. What you had managed to gather from him about his past were a few broken sentences a night he accepted to come and hang out with your squad mates that he only spoke to you as he accompanied you to your barrack upon being forced by Mike.

You sit there, between the two men quietly for the rest of the long meeting and once you're dismissed you practically sprint to the showers. You know the water ought to be freezing cold by now but you preferre to endure this rather than having to wash alongside your female comrades. Growing up, your little given time in the shower was your only rightful privacy and you intend to keep it that way.

The water stops with a twist of your hand at the handle. You search for your towel in the dark and as you set your hands on it you rapidly begin to pat your body dry. Throwing your long nightgown on, you begin stomping out. Momentarily you seem to be in a haze of meaningless thoughts that pass your mind so fast, you can't even get a grip of them, many things seem to occupy your mind lately. New formations, improved harness gear, the news of your mother's death. You can't seem to put your thoughts in order, not for tonight at least. It's only when a deep, monotone voice rings in your ears that you jump and leave a little squeak come out of the depths of your throat.

"Oii"

"Shit! Don't sneak up on me like that" you wonder if you have to address him but in the end you do; in the end of the day you are one of formalities and everyone who knows you can confirm that. "sir.."

Levi simply clicks his tongue in response. You're the first person to address him as a commanding officer as of now, probably because every one else would need a moment to take it in, including himself.

"Thanks for making Isabel feel welcome back then." Levi's voice is barely louder than a whisper yet it never cracks, not even a little but that isn't what's taking you aback. The statement, in fact, sends you literally a few steps back and shoots your hand to your forehead in an act of despair. The cruel scene still plays in your head from time to time and you wonder how many times it must do so in his. You find your heart stopping for a moment before you feel a teeny flicker that sends your pulse running through your veins.

It's natural for someone not to be able to comprehend trauma in ways they are expected or rather forced to. Levi in particular is introverted and moody, if not most, then all of the time but this statement shines a different light on your understanding of his character. He's as emotionally drained and traumatized as someone can be. In fact, everyone is but this doesn't mean ones personal pain is lessened, in your opinion it makes it even worse.

"Not everyone is taught mannerisms I guess. The girls who made her feel unwanted can eat shit anyways."

It's obvious that Levi doesn't want to utter another word of the matter and you're not the one to push him out of his comfort zone. An uptight upbringing and the misfortunus chance of interacting with superficial assholes for equal parts of your life have taught you how to have temperament. To be patient even when you physically can't take it anymore.

"Tch.. Go to your barracks you're dismissed." It's time to bid eachother goodnight and of course Levi's eager to be the one to remind you of it. Tomorrow's a big day with everything you have to take care of after today's events. No cadet should be unable or not in position to assist by command.

"Sweating the chair already I see."

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The next day starts with Nanaba waking you up. You take some time to adjust your eyes to the semi lit room. It strikes you how some people have always talked about how they missed feeling the magic of watching an eventual sunrise and even if you can see where they're coming from you're reminded every day of how much you despise every single aspect of it. Starting off with the runny nose it always bears for you as a hatred gift.

"I know it's kind of first thing in the morning but we have to help squad leader clean the office he was given.

Then again maybe you're just envying anyone who got to be woken up by sun's glowly warmth once it was already up in the sky.

"Hey, psst, don't zone out, get dressed."

Erratically, you skip breakfast. You fail to be in the mood for food lately most likely due to exhaustion or general disgust of whatever soup dish you are to be served. Your stomach has stopped trying to object to you since a young age. The only thing that ever makes it groan nowadays is guilt. With that devil of mother dead though it's not like you have anything to feel guilty for anyways.

"So here's your mop." Mike forces the object into your hands before you even get a chance to greet him. "Okay I repeat. Nanaba scrubs, (y/n) mops, Henning waxes. Lynne and Tomas you dust everything off. Understood?" All of you salute him with a 'yessir' before you watch him exit the room.

You spend most of your morning scolding Nanaba to go faster before you ultimately decide to switch places with her. You want to be over with cleaning, although you have no idea as to why but you do find yourself imagining that Levi sees you cleaning and thinks you're amazing at it and asks you to help him far too many times to count. You end up scolding yourself for that too. Nevertheless, it takes almost half an hour to finish with scrubbing, something you guess would have taken Nanaba eternity and a day.

Any sweat that's falling down your forehead you rub it off with the back of hand before you excuse yourself to a break. Seeing that no one will follow you stroll swiftly down the wooden hallway, with the restrooms in mind. You walk past Mike on the way, whom you greet cheerfully while fast informing him about your break. You're positive he practically smell your bladder is about to burst.

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Tonight Hange draggs your unwilling piece of meat to dinner. She takes you to her usual table and sits you down amongst higher ranks. Some part of your brain fights you about not taking a stand against it. Your mother has always pressed for you to not enjoy what other in higher hierarchies have. But that's just a wooden fucking table with a stall. The voice in your head can shut it.

"Eat." Hange looks at you with a toothy grin, head tilted in your direction as she a eats a spoonful of her vegetable soup. You still feel an excessive amount of absurd guilt about raising objections so you smile back and stuff a portion of the food in your mouth with the intention of gulping it down as fast as possible. And of course Levi doesn't fail to notice the look of disgust in your face from across the table.

"Eat" Mike orders from Levi's left, gesturing to your plate with his spoon, an awkwardly soft smile plastered on his face. It beats you as to why they've decided to be persistent tonight out of all nights.

"Tch, show some respect to the people who work on your daily food. Drop that disgusted face or take cooking duty for the week."

With a pout in your lips you avert Levi's gaze in anger and overall shame. You lift the bowl containing the soup and you gulp it down as you try to ignore the knot at the back of your throat that threatenes to push back everything if you continue forcing your body to endure this.

Mike seems to be physically scolded to look at you because you see him jump in shock due to the unexpected action towards him for a fragment of a second. He takes no real interest in scolding you however, something that puts pressure on Levi for the matter.

"You just earned yourself cooking duty for the week, keep this up and Mike won't be as lenient as me." He talks sternly as he bores his eyes into yours. The unreadable lack of expression in his face remains intact, as always, but once again you choose to look away.

"Can I be dismissed?" You simply utter while your orbs take turns to look between Hange and Mike.

"Shoo shoo, I'm not pushing you girl" Mike pays little attention to you as he chunks on his bread with his eyes shut. If looks could kill you swear he would have been slashed to death by both Hange and Levi. To your luck of course, they can't, so you sit up from the stall in the most discreet way possible. Hange observes in silence as Levi's eyes follow your form across the room until you take a turn to get lost in the barracks. He then averts his gaze to the bowl of soup in front him for the remaining of his time in the dining hall.

It's one of those nights that you decide not to throw your whole body, face first, onto your bed; you've abused it very much in this way, the last thing you need to is for it to break apart and take down the twin bed on top of it. You sigh deeply before you bring your hands to cover your face in hopes that it will soothe your tingling skin.

Why was that silly little scenario of Levi watching you clean still stuck in your head all day long and why did it keep repeating over and over. To be clear with yourself, you didn't really know.

Your other roommates start flooding the room in a matter of seconds. It's always like that; the come back from dining and they chit chat for a few minutes before some of them go to sleep while others decide on showering before taking their given amount of rest for the night.

"(Y/n) lift your fucking head up you look like a corpse." Nifa, the girl who sleeps on the bed on top yours speaks.

"Not in the mood Nif. I'm sorry."

"You could try and talk to us!" Petra says on response, cutting Nifa off.

"I just don't want to cook for everyone. That's all." You spit a lie that's debatably believable. The girls that starts probing the walls of your stomach almost feels like liquid fire.

Did they really want to know the truth, or would they be disgusted by whatever came out of your mouth. Almost every one in the survey corps had a rough backstory and a purpose, and though you didn't lack of tragic and despair your purpose was pathetic and delusional.

"Look, I hate to see you like that and well you've been that moody way that before that punishment tonight. So spill."

"I don't want to be a burden!"

"Cut the crap." Lynne rhetored as she sat at the end of your bed, pinching your calf.

Well, you're probably annoying them by not letting any one of them in. "My mother died."

A few apologies and condolences are heard in response by the girls around you as they stare at you with oggly pitiful eyes.

"She was horrible and old no need to be sorry, I'm just conflicted on whether I loved her or not. I'm just unfazed but my mind guilt trips me on it." Your words are soft and your gaze fixed on the wooden floor underneath your legs. "I don't want to go into much abusive details, I'm sorry."

"Don't apologise!" Petra exclaims from her kneeling position next to you. "It's fine if you don't tell us anything. We shouldn't have pushed you." The girls all nod in response and the mood seems to darken the rooms aura with each silently passing second.

"I thought it was like boy problems" Lynne says as she wraps her right arm around your shoulder and squeezes you on her. Her palms quickly travel straight to your cheeks to poke and squish them in the most humorus way. "Tomas likes me and I avoid him, give me a breeak!"

You can't help but give a muffled giggle out to her. It's almost as if you approve of her little impression of you, and you do, mostly because laughing helps you take a weight off your chest. All girls around you are giggling in their turns with closed eyes, happily narrowed brows and scrunched up noses.

You shouldn't even let yourself be that moody anywayy.

___

To say that Levi is merely perplexing would be an understatement. Because here's the deal; no one could maintain such a straight face while pinning someone down. You're basically a lost cause as you maniacally move your head on the grass to avoid his gaze. Mentally you try to recall what brought you in this position in the first place. Was it because you challenged him to engage in combat or because he was a complete show off, it's beyond you at this point.

"I have your knife."

"What?" Levi looks at you with the tinniest bit of a puzzled impression plastered all over his face. Yet he doesn't get up from you. In the end he can't even know that you feel your skin burning with rage.

"I have your knife, sir. I won" you remark in a tiny little voice from the back of your throat.

"Tch, just because you have the knife doesn't mean your opponent won't attack you or even use that against you." Levi's voice is also calm and steady and even matching your tone in volume. You watch with anticipation as he opens his mouth to speak and when words begin to form he's interrupted.

"Ah sir, I want to spare with you as well!" Petra smiles as she fixes some lose strands of hair behind her ears.

Deciding to spend anymore time on this position on top of you, Levi pushes your wrists on the ground once again before completely getting off of you. You realise he's taken the dummy knife him, something he probably did in the blink of an eye. Of course he'd make his point whatever it took.

Training has stripped your stomach of the fullness that breakfast has secured you with and now you can hear the organ growl angrily inside your body. Having spent a week as the survey corps cook as a punishment has also worked wonders for your little appetite, because it physically drained you to the bone. You don't even know where to start about that unexpected shenanigan.

Unbeknownst to you, Nanaba and Lynne roll their eyes at your blanked expression. "Wall Maria to (y/n)? Hello? Is anyone in there?" An inpatient Lynne knocks a little too loud at the side of your head. Nifa laughs at the sight as well.

"Ohhh, I am." You whine. "Also ouch! I'm just not in my right head!"

"You uhm... mean piece of mind?" A few pieces of bread fall out of Nanaba's hand as she stuffs her mouth. It only takes a while to come up with a line to say to excuse your absurdness.

It's not that you want to feel that way about Levi or that you choose to either. It's probably an outcome of fatigue and a tiny infatuation that rule your mind like an empire that's about to fall. Levi's handsome, there's no denying in that, you've thought so ever since you set your eyes on him but he was ten years older than you and pretty much uninterested to almost everything. Maybe it's that you hoped he could look at you with the same enthusiasm that made you feel like you had a crush.

In reality you believe that these are pretty much lame reasons and Nanaba especially will laugh at you. 'Do you even have a reason to have a crush on someone?' Ugh, you can literally listen to her.

"Hmm, sorry I can't seem to communicate today. Might as well share." You decide it's not polite to keep things to yourself when others are trying to care for you. "Well it's that-"

"Do you guys find the Captain handsome?"

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[the-gedonelune-times]

My Player One

While I know my blog is more centered to Wizardess Heart, I’ve found myself also playing Obey Me and of course at like midnight I get my brain to scream at me like ‘Hey, how about writing a fanfic for the series.’ so here we are at almost two in the morning posting this one-shot fic of one my absolute favorite characters from the game: Leviathan. This is literally the first time I’ve written a fanfic for the series so uniokjonkm enjoy!

“We’ve watched TSL a few times already and volume two still gets me…”

“Which part?” Levi hummed while rummaging in the popcorn bowl.

“The part where the Lord of the Fools finds his deceased former lover after being run off by the trap Henry and the Lord of Shadows set up. I mean, talk about terrible luck!”

Leviathan chuckled. “I think the Lord of Fools deserved it, he’s the least likable character in the series in my opinion.”

“Is it because he reminds you of Mammon?”

“Precisely.”

I gave a small snort as I leaned over to grab some popcorn. 

“You know, he can be an idiot, but he can be fun to hang out with sometimes.”

“Please tell me you didn’t just say that. Now I may have to demote your status from girlfriend to ‘normie peasant’,”

“Hey, there’s no need to be mean.”

“Humph.”

Levi crammed more popcorn in his mouth before hitting the button on the remote to play the next volume of TSL. Hours had passed by since the end of Volume two and we were just about to finish the final volume; volume seven, when I began to find myself nodding off every so often. As the credits started rolling, I could fell Levi stretch his arms in the air and then wrap around me in a tender embrace.

“Mmm, Levi, what time is it?” I asked drowsily while burying my face sleepily into his shoulder.

“Around five in the morning.”

“Ah, that’s nice…” I sighed, feeling relaxed, or at least I was until realization hit me. “WAIT WHAT?!”

“Ow, critical hit on my ears! I can feel my HP draining!”

“Oh no, oh no!”

I scrambled out of Levi’s embrace and quickly grabbed my stuff that brought with me into his room.

“Why are you in such a rush?”

“Because I have early morning classes today!”

“Why don’t you just skip with me?”

Oh that cheeky smile…

“No way, I’m not skipping. I’ve seen the lectured that Lucifer can give and I’d like to avoid that at all costs!”

“Wait, will I see you later after class then? We can watch that new anime I got! I even got the limited edition Blu-ray disk with some bonus content. I think you’ll really enjoy it.”

“I’ll try and head over after class, but I’ll need to stop by Hell’s kitchen on my way back for a quick caffeine boost. Is there anything you want me to pick up from there and bring back with me?”

“Hm..oh! I want one of their lunch specials with their spicy rainbow pizza.“ 

“Alright. I’ll see you later then.”

I watched as Levi waved me off slowly before passing out, right there on the spot, or at least I assume he did. After I left his room, I headed straight for mine, all while avoiding contact with anyone that might have been roaming the halls at this hour. When I finally reached my room, I quickly shut the door and changed out of my clothes before sliding into a steaming hot shower. I was hoping that maybe the shower would have woke me up, even slightly, but instead, it made me even more sleepy than before. So in a last-ditch effort, I splashed some cold water on my face after changing into my school clothes.

Needless to say, it didn’t work and I began questioning the life choices that I made just hours prior to this. Of course, I wanted to be upset with the fact that I allowed myself to stay up that late, despite knowing that my classes were going to be so early. But at the same time, the image of Levi’s adorably goofy smile had burned an image in my head and I just couldn’t stop thinking about him and the fun we had!

“Gah!” I slapped both of my cheeks. “Get it together! You have classes, or you might have to face Lucifer…”

I hoped that my little pep talk to myself would help give the strength I needed to get through my classes. Oddly enough, it somehow worked, well, except for when I accidentally fell asleep at my desk during the last class. Of course, Mammon had decided to scare the living daylights out of me and Asmo even joined in to help him. They’re lucky I was tired, or I’d be scheming of a way to get them back. 

Alas though, I couldn’t, which now that I think about it, was a good thing because I didn’t want to make and then proceed to deal with any more problems today. All I wanted to do right now was pick up the things from Hell’s Kitchen and head over to Levi’s room.

Knock knock

I knocked on the door a couple of times until I heard Levi’s voice from the other side.

“What’s the password?”

“Come on, seriously? I have so many thanks I’ve been carrying and I’m tired, can’t you let me in just this one time without a password?”

“No way, how do I know that you’re real?”

“What are you talking about?!”

“Remember that game I was playing? The clones of Doomsday? What if you’re actually a clone?”

“Levi so help me god if you don’t open this door!”

“Password first~”

I could hear his sing-song tone from behind the door and it took every ounce of energy I had to not try and bust the door down.

“Otakus rule and normies drool. There, are you satisfied now? Can I please come in?”

“Yes, you may enter my domain.”

“Finally…”

I somehow managed to open the door, despite having both of my hands pretty full. When I got inside, I closed the door with my foot before walking over to place the stuff I had brought with me. I heard Levi laughing at something while on his computer while I found myself a nice cozy spot to lie down on.

“Are you trolling on forums again?”

“….n-no…” I could hear the hesitation in his voice and could only shake my head with a smile on my face. 

“Oh, by the way, your stuff is over here, whenever you want to eat.”

“Did you get you something to eat?”

“I had some coffee, but it didn’t do much to help keep me awake. Is it alright if I rest here for a little bit?”

I heard the sound of his chair spin around as he faced me.

“Sure, go ahead and rest up and then afterward we can go and watch that new anime I was talking about. Wait, do you have classes again tomorrow?”

“Hm…I don’t think so. I don’t think Solomon does either, maybe he and I are exempt from them? Ugh, I can’t remember much of anything from earlier, my mind has been fogged up all morning…”

I pulled a nearby cover off from the sofa and wrapped myself in it before turning on my side, facing away from Levi, who only chuckled as he rummaged through the bag of food.

“Well, that just means more time for us to spend together and play video games, watch anime, oh, there’s this really cool manga I saw while browsing Azukon today, maybe we could - huh?”

Levi looked over at the human who was resting so comfortably on the floor, wrapped up in blankets while being surrounded by a plethora of pillows. 

“Humans get tired so easily that it amazes me how you get any work done. I know you can’t hear me but…” Levi’s voice trailed off a little as his cheeks began to burn. “When your energy is maximized, how about being my player one again tonight?”

[sharmrocksims]

For the Love of Cherish

Chapter 1.4: The Meeting

Cherish: "Yeah, girl they got me coming in on my day off to meet up with some new hot shot designer for the game I've been working on. He's already 15 minutes late. Oh wait this must be him now, I’ll talk to you later sis.

It had been a few months since I initially started talking to Dr. Lawrence about what happened with Levi. I was starting to feel lighter, emotionally that is and well physically too I suppose. My weight loss was going well and was consistent. I am in love with the dance workout video and have started to venture out into others forms of exercise as well. Talking to Dr. Lawrence…I mean Andrew has been so helpful for my mental state. He has helped me navigate through some serious emotional roadblocks that I was not even aware I was suppressing. Nonetheless, things are going well and work has been mad crazy but exciting. The video game was coming along and the suits upstairs have really been going all out by hiring some of the top vendors in our field to assist. That makes me know that they have a great feeling about this game.

Grayson: Ms. Lawson? Cherish Lawson? I truly apologize, but I got lost getting here. I'm Grayson Laurent from the LLT Group.

Oh good lord, this man is fine as hell. I’ve never had a problem acknowledging a handsome man or beautiful woman for that matter but there hasn’t been anyone who has taken my breath away at first sight since Levi’s passing…until now. I mean I have gone on a few dates and I actually was starting to think things with my co-worker Akira were going somewhere but he turned out to be so possessive and jealous for my taste. Although I’m starting to think that maybe I was the one overthinking things and subconsciously pushing him away romantically. It made things in the workplace a bit awkward for a while but luckily he met someone and we were back to being good friends as we always had been.

Cherish: (Nervously replying) Umm yeah, that’s me. Nice to meet you, we have a lot of work to do so let’s head inside ok. We went inside to the conference room and immediately started brainstorming ideas for the game. It took every ounce of self-control I had to not stare or start drooling over this perfect specimen of a man. Not only is he fine but there is a hint of an foreign accent slipping in from time to time. I need to focus, concentrate, and get it together bih! This man is here on business and he would never be interested in a woman like me. He probably has a super model girlfriend or wife waiting for him to get home anyway.

We had been working for hours and had come up with some amazing ideas and designs for the game. We ended up talking about so many things in between concepts for the game. He turned out to be so easy to talk to despite my attraction to him. I was soon able to look him in the face and not forget what I was saying. Surprisingly, we have a lot of the same interest and he was actually single (I call bullshit on that one but that’s what he claims).

We had moved over to my office so we could do some quick research on the computer when I noticed Grayson kept looking up and staring at me. He always had this adorable smirk on his face.

Cherish: Why are you looking at me like that? Grayson: Like what? In amazement? Well I will admit that your ideas and visions are extraordinary and you are so easy to work with and quite easy on the eyes also. I'm sorry if that was out of line but you probably don't hear stuff like that in this male dominated field very often. I pride myself on telling it like it is.

I was taken aback to say the least by his comments. I honestly did not know what to say other than a meek thank you. Was this man actually attracted to me or just being nice? I’m not sure but I know that I wasn’t in any place to play games if he was about that playboy life (someone as fine as him has to have women all over, right?)

Cherish: (Shyly) Well thank you for that. I love what I do and I need to make this the best project that this company has ever produced. It’s a chance to prove myself I guess. How about we take a break and go test out the demo?

Grayson: Let me warn you I am a pretty good gamer myself so I hope you don’t think I’m going down without a fight.

Cherish: (laughs) Yeah ok, I’ll be gentle (rolls eyes).

We went to the testing room and Grayson was definitely a fierce competitor but this was MY game and I ultimately wiped the floor with him.

Cherish: Nice try but you know you never had a chance (laughs victoriously). I think we accomplished a lot today, thank you so much for all of your help. Grayson: Ouch, are you always like this when you win? (Shakes head at defeat). No problem I could not think of a better way to spend a Sunday. I will get started on the stuff we decided on today and stop by the office when I am done. Maybe we can grab lunch or something.

Cherish: (Hesitantly) Yeah ok maybe. Well I will walk you out.

I could feel his stare as I walked away. I cannot help but to wonder if he is really flirting with me or is he genuinely this nice to everyone. Only time will tell will suppose.

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[prettylex]

This Feeling That You Can’t Fight (SL With @LeavingMyMarck)

Levi: -It had been weeks since Lexi had been back to the club, but she’d needed the time away, even if she wanted to be here. The baby needed her at home, more than the club needed her here. But the time had finally come for her to come back to work. I knew she was anxious to get back into the swing of things, though I didn’t plan on letting her dive in over her head on the first day. I knew she’d put up a bit of a fight, but having Lizzie with us was enough to keep her busy.

She was going to have to put at least of her focus on taking care of the baby and let me take care of the club, at least to a certain extent. I hoped it wouldn’t all be too much for her, but I figured between the two of us, we’d be able to manage both the club and our daughter together.

Tonight was as much about bringing Lizzie to her first night at the club and getting her acclimated to the nursery there as it was about getting her mother back into the swing of things. I was a mixture of emotions. I was nervous, hoping everything would go according to plan, but if I’d learned anything in the past year and some weeks, it was that my best laid plans were never going to follow the path I laid out. Things happened. The best things that had ever happened to me had been far from what I had planned.

Lexi had fallen into my lap. And Lizzie had been the last thing either of us had expected. But they had, in turn, been the best parts of my life in the last 13 months. My world had changed completely, but I was happier than I’d thought possible. I’d never seen myself with a wife and daughter, but here I was, wrapped around both of their fingers so firmly that I wasn’t ever going to be able to find my way out.

I wouldn’t have changed a moment of it.

I was making sure the car seat fit snugly in the back of my new Rolls Royce, the one I’d bought the day after I’d rushed Lexi to the hospital. She’d been adamant that I wasn’t going to be able to bring the two of them home in a roadster. She wasn’t wrong. It had been a matter of timing to go out and leave her while she was sleeping to trade it in on something a bit more practical.

Now it was just a matter of time, waiting for my wife to come out of the house with our daughter so I could drive the two of them to the club for the first time together. Leaning up against the car, I turned my attention to the door as I heard it open and close, Lexi walking out to the car with Lizzie in her arms- Well, Mrs. Marck, are you ready to head back to work?

Lexi: {I was ready for this. I had been dying to do this for a very long time. There was no way I hadn’t enjoyed the time at home with my daughter. Lizzie was everything I hadn’t been expecting. It was a joy I didn’t know I needed. And I could watch Levi just holding her for hours. And she loved him almost as much as he loved her. He’d talk to her with that smooth English accent, and she would just coo and laugh at him.

It didn’t bother me. Not in the least. The days were usually his time if he was spending the night at the club. They needed time with each other. It was something I would never deny him. He was turning her into the perfect little Daddy’s girl. And I couldn’t blame him.

Lizzie’s nursery was full of dresses and tutus. I wasn’t sure what I had been expecting, but I didn’t think Levi was going to go full on Princess with his little girl. It should not have been a surprise. But it was the soft coo that brought me out of my head. With my collar in place, I turned my attention to the little girl dressed in a red dress that her Daddy had bought for her. It was her first night in the club, and there was no way she wasn’t going to be in red. She was the daughter of the only two people allowed to wear red in the club.

But tonight was a little different for me. I knew that even if I was going back to work, I wasn’t going to be allowed to do much. Levi was going to watch me like a hawk. And I was still off my medication. There was a lot that could go wrong. So I knew that easing back into work was going to be the only way to do this. So I didn’t go for my signature red. I also needed to be comfortable. And the only thing that made me comfortable was Levi’s clothes.

I had sent him to get the car seat set up in the car before I got dressed because I wasn’t sure what he was going to say. I needed to be comfortable, though. And I could pretend that my clothes made me comfortable. But the truth was that I was the most comfortable in his clothes. So as soon as he was downstairs, I was in his closet pulling out a white button up. Once the sleeves were rolled up, I tucked it into the full length skirt sitting on my hips. A black belt and black and white five inch oxford heels were the completion to the outfit. I may not be back to full capacity in my club, but I still did own it. And I’d be damned if I didn’t walk  in there with that image painted on every inch of me.

Scooping up my daughter, I leaned down and pressed a small kiss to her head. I could see Whisper sitting in the corner watching the room. It was where she liked to spend her time, and I couldn’t find anything wrong with it. Whisper watched and protected Lizzie. It was something both Levi and I were incredibly thankful for. There had never been an ounce of jealousy from Whisper. Lizzie was just a tiny thing that needed to be protected. And she would forever have a husky to take care of her.} I’ll bring her back in one piece, Whis. I promise.

{There was nothing left to grab because Levi had made sure we wouldn’t need anything. The nursery in the office was stocked with everything Lizzie could need. I could only assume he had also added some spare clothes in there for all of us, too. And there was no need for food because I was breastfeeding. It was the only reason I wasn’t back on my meds yet. After making sure the door was locked, I made my way to my husband as he leaned against his new car.

When he first came home with a Rolls Royce Wraith, I didn’t know what the hell he was thinking. A $400,000 car. To bring a newborn home in. But I couldn’t yell at him. There was no logical reason why he couldn’t have the car. As long as the car seat fit in it, it didn’t matter. I stole a kiss before handing my husband his little girl.} As ready as I’m going to be, Mr. Marck. Put your daughter in the car and let’s go to work.

Levi: -I took the tiny bundle of baby and clothes and blankets from my wife with a soft chuckle, moving to get her secured in the car seat I’d just finished securing. I wasn’t going to admit out loud that I’d checked the buckles and belts three times before I was satisfied enough to close the door and move to the driver’s seat, but I had. The sight of Lexi in one of my shirts brought a grin to my face as well. I wasn’t certain why she’d waited until I’d been outside to go into my closet and fish one of them out, but I didn’t mind. If she’d asked, the answer would have been yes anyhow. She looked much better in them than I ever had.

It was a quick motion to press the button that sent the car engine purring to life. I knew she thought I was ridiculous for coming home with such an expensive car, but I had a couple of weak spots. She and Lizzie were the largest ones. The other was cars, and I had to admit that I was quite spoiled when it came to that arena. But Lexi never gave me a hard time about my choice, as long as it was safe for the baby and had room for a car seat, she was satisfied. Besides, I didn’t plan on going far without both of them for quite some time now that she was old enough to join us in the club.

I’d bought the red dress she was wearing simply because it reminded me, at least in color, of what her mother had been wearing the moment I set eyes on her. Red. The one color no one in the club besides Lexi and myself could wear. I had a red tie on, as per usual. It matched the baby’s dress. I was probably ridiculous there as well, and I was certain that Lizzie was going to wind up spoiled, but I frankly didn’t care.

I threaded my fingers through Lexi’s as soon as the car was in gear, steering with the other hand until we reached the club, and I pulled into our accustomed parking space. I shot a quick text to Ashlee as soon as the car was parked to let her know the three of us were here. She’d told me she’d be waiting on us when we arrived this evening, along with the rest of the girls who wanted to see Lexi after she’d been gone for so long.

I turned with a grin to my wife, tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear before I ran my thumb along the line of her jaw- Welcome Back, Mrs. Marck.

Lexi: {I could only lean into my husband’s touch as he welcomed me back to work. I let out a breath as a smile crossed my face. It was true that I loved being home with my family. But I missed this place. It was my happy place. It was the one place I loved to be. And I had missed it. I missed my girls. I missed the guys in the kitchen. I missed the kids in the nursery I kept running for the single mothers.

I took a quick kiss from my husband’s lips before I slid from the car and pulled the littlest bunny from her car seat. I didn’t bother with leaving her in it. There was no reason. She’d just get put in her crib as soon as we were back in our office. Or her Daddy would take her. There was no doubt in my mind. He loved having her in his arms, and he would spend the night with her if he could manage it.

As the three of us walked into the club, I heard the club fall silent. Levi could only shake his head with a laugh as I rolled my eyes and walked through the dining area. As I walked into the office with Lizzie in my arms, I put on a stern face. There was a small crowd standing in the doorway to her private nursery.} I know  did not hire all of you to stand around and watch as I brought my daughter into work for the first time. Go wait on your tables.

{My eyes caught Ashlee’s as the women left the office. She didn’t hesitate as she walked over and took Lizzie from my arms. She may have been a terrified girl when we both took a pregnancy test, but she was good with kids. She was a natural as she swayed with my little girl.} Now, just because Mr. Marck likes you does not mean you can get away with stealing her. You’ll have to fight my husband for time with the baby bunny.

Levi: -I watched the girls gather and fawn all over the baby. They fawned as much over Lexi even if she didn’t see it. They’d missed her while she was away. I could run the place, and she could tell me I was good at it. I’d kept it open, but she was the heart of the club. We all knew it. It wasn’t the same place without her. We were all glad she was back.

Ashlee took the baby from her with a knowing glance between the two of us and a half laugh as she continued to keep the baby to herself. I would allow it for the moment, though I knew as well as Lexi did that I would have Lizzie in my arms with any spare moment I could snatch for the remainder of the night. It was an absolutely decadent pleasure of mine, and I could sit with the baby for hours at a time and not get bored.

I felt the same way about her mother. Having the two of them here with me made this place as much home as the house we all shared. It was just something I spent the time I wasn’t with them doing before. I kept the club running as smoothly as possible for my wife’s sake, but now that she was back it was a place I honestly wanted to be.

Chuckling, I glanced over at Ashlee- I’ll win that fight, young woman. Believe me there. I’ll give a moment for now, but don’t get too comfortable there.

-I pulled my wife into my arms and stole a kiss off her brow. I was going to use the brief opportunity that neither of us was holding the baby to get as much of her as I could before one of us was inevitably taken up with something having to do with either Lizzie or the club- I hope you know I love you, Mrs. Marck. Now, if you’ll excuse me. I have some business to take care of in the kitchen. - I stole another kiss before I made my way out and down the stairs to visit the kitchen staff.  I’d sent word ahead of time. They knew how Lexi liked her food. I hadn’t had to get more than a sentence out to the head chef before he finished her order for me. I’d also told them when we were leaving the house in order to have it ready when we arrived at the club.

Things had been right on schedule, and the plate was waiting for me at the normal place where the servers picked up their plates. A simple nod to the head chef with a soft laugh before I was walking back up stairs with her dinner in hand. A steak, medium, cut into small pieces, multiples of threes, a pile of mashed potatoes and a matching set of roasted mushrooms on the side. It was the exact thing she’d ordered the night we’d eaten together for the first time. It wasn’t a meal I was ever going to forget, and I thought it would be fitting greeting on her first night back at the club.

She was still waiting in the office when I opened the door with my free hand to set the plate down on the desk along with the bundle of silverware I’d snagged on my way back through the dining room.- Your dinner, Mrs. Marck.

Lexi: {I could only smile as Levi placed a plate in front of me. It was the same stuff we had the first night we met. While I sat down at my desk to eat, Levi had managed to take Lizzie away from his right hand while I had been distracted. Ashlee was a good girl. And she knew what to do to take care of things around the club. And she didn’t bow to Levi’s every whim. It was somewhat refreshing to watch.

But it was the soft tapping on my plate that brought the somewhat stern “Bunny” to my ears. I hadn’t even thought about the tapping before I started doing it. Which made me realize that I was more stressed than I was letting on. I had put on a brave face about being back to work, but the truth was that I was still scared out of my mind.

I wasn’t sure I could handle being here and running the club while I wasn’t on my meds. There was enough stress without the baby. And even on my meds, I had my bad days. I had days where everything got to be too much, and I couldn’t keep my worst compulsions at bay. I couldn’t even begin to imagine what would happen on a bad day without my meds. I felt my hands start to shake as I looked down at the plate. The shame was there. The shame for not being good enough to get through tonight. The shame of not being able to run my club the way I wanted to run it.

But I didn’t have to do this alone. That was where everything was different. I had Levi next to me. I had him to take over some of the responsibilities. But right now, I needed him to focus on me instead of getting a run down of what was going on in the club. My voice was stronger than I thought it would be, but I knew Levi would notice the shakiness that was there.} Ashlee? I need to talk to my husband for a few minutes. Can you please give us a few minutes alone?

Levi: -I’d heard the tapping in sets of three before I settled into the chair with Lizzie in my arms. My saying ‘Bunny’ to bring the tic to the front of her mind was a habit more than anything else. I wouldn’t have done it in front of anyone but Ashlee here at the club, and now she was asking Ashlee to leave. I was worried her compulsions would get the better of her if she became overwhelmed. I was hoping to ease her into things without letting it become too much for her, but I was also prepared if it did become too much for her.

I wondered what she wanted to talk about, but I waited until Ashlee left the room to stand and move to lay Lizzie down in her crib. Somehow, during all the noise and business of the girls greeting both her and her mother, she’d managed to drift off to sleep. I was careful not to wake her as I lowered her gently onto the soft green of the blanket that lined the crib and made my way over to where Lexi was eating-

Is everything alright, Bunny? -I settled into the chair opposite her, giving her a reassuring smile as I stroked a finger over the back of her hand-

Lexi: {I wanted to lie to him. Tell him that all of this was nothing. But I knew the truth. It wasn’t as easy as it being nothing. This was something. And I knew I had to be honest with him about what I was going through. Even if I wasn’t taking to him as Sir, and he was simply my husband, he needed to know what was going through my mind. He needed to understand why I was freaking out. And I knew he would know the best way to handle it.

The pressure of his finger against the back of my hand brought me to a type of center. I was still terrified of being back here. But I also knew that I wasn’t doing this alone anymore. I hadn’t been doing it alone for a while. I was used to having him with me. Levi gave me clarity when almost nothing else did. It was refreshing.

I could only take a breath as I looked at the man across the table. I could see the worry painted on his face, but there was pride there. I was putting myself above the club. I was asking him to help me. It was strides from where I had been when I first met him. Taking a breath, I let my eyes focus on his. I knew this was something he needed. He needed to be able to see that I wasn’t hiding anything from him. He needed to see that I was trying. That I was serious.} I’m scared. I’m a little afraid that being back here is too much right now. Being here so soon after Lizzie was born, and being off my meds, might be a little too much. Even on my meds, the stress of running this place can get to be too bad.

I know we had talked about slowly working my way back into the club. And I wanted to be able to help you tonight. But I don’t think it’s the best idea. I think it’s a good idea that Lizzie and I are both here, don’t think I’d rather be home. I wouldn’t. I would prefer to be here. But I don’t think it’s a good idea for me to handle any of the business things that could come up. I don’t want to have a complete and total breakdown. And I know that you will agree with me. You’ll be okay with me sitting in the nursery with Lizzie. You’ll be fine taking point in the club. But I needed to tell you what was happening. You need to know the truth. Because I can’t do this without you. I can’t be here without you knowing everything that is going through my mind right now.

Levi: -It was a bit of a surprise to hear her admit that she needed to take it easy today. It was a pleasure to have her back, but I’d known throwing her into the deep end of the pool on her first day back was going to be more than she could handle. There was no way I was going to have expected that of her, but I’d been scared she was going to expect that of herself. I was glad to see she wasn’t going to try to get back into all of this all of a sudden, and it was an excellent sign that she realized it enough to let me know.

My hand moved to stroke along the space between her shoulders as I leaned down to press a kiss to her forehead. I knew that it was a big step for her to be able to admit she needed help before she had a complete meltdown. I was more than happy to continue handling the bulk of things while she worked herself into being back here. She had more than just coming back to work to transition into. She also had to figure out how to balance being Lizzie’s mother and running the club simultaneously. I knew she was going to manage it beautifully, but I was glad she wasn’t going to push herself so hard to be perfect on day one-

Well then, Bunny, focus on being Lizzie’s mother today. The rest can come as it comes. You being here is all I need. The rest will come when you’re ready. All you have to do is say the word. You know I’m here for you. Always - the last word was a whisper, brushed along with a kiss across the shell of her ear-  

Lexis: {The only thing I could do was moan softly as Levi whispered the word Always into my ear.  It was the one thing we had always been able to promise each other. Even if it didn’t seem possible, we always had each other. We were always going to be there for the other. We would always be together. It was really all we had to give each other

There was so much that I wanted to say to him. I needed him to understand that I knew this was a huge step. This wasn’t about anything other than me accepting my shortcomings. And if I was honest, this was the thing I was the most terrified of. I had always loved my girls. And I loved this place. I never wanted to be in the position where I had to give my club up to someone.

But everything was different. I had never seen myself with a family. Married with a kid had never been in the cards. Levi and Lizzie were unexpected. But they were a major part of my life now. Everything needed to revolve around them. I needed to take care of them the best way that I knew how. I was almost ashamed as I whispered into the space as I relaxed back against my husband. Voicing my deepest fear into the world was giving it power, and I didn’t know how to handle it.} Levi, what if I can never come back?

Levi: -It hit me suddenly that she was terrified she wasn’t ever going to be able to come back to the place she had been, and I couldn’t pretend that the thought hadn’t crossed my mind. It wasn’t something I was going to tell her she couldn’t do. My wife was going to be able to do anything she wanted to do as far as I was concerned, at least anything within her power. But in the same token, I wasn’t ever going to push her into anything she wasn’t ready to do. I’d learned enough about her, and in the time that I’d lived before her, to know that pushing her into anything wasn’t going to end well for either of us.

Her body leaned into mine, and I slid my arm around her shoulders and pulled her in closer. I wasn’t going anywhere. Sometimes that was such a wonder to the both of us, that we had each other, that nothing was going to separate us unless for some reason the other decided that they didn’t want to do this anymore, and I didn’t see that coming any time soon. I pulled her in closer, keeping myself close to her ear as I spoke to her.-

Darling girl, you’ll do whatever it is that you can. If that means you just come and sit in the office and take care of Lizzie or that you take part in running the club or even that you come back and take it over completely. Whatever you’re ready to do is yours, and I’m here to run the rest of it for you, at least with Ashlee’s help, for as long as you need me to do it. If that means I stay here like I have been then, I stay. I want you to do whatever is best for you, my Love.

Lexi: {I knew there was no way I was going to be able to take the club back completely. To be honest, I was blessed having Levi be here to run the club. People tended to take him seriously. It wasn’t the girls, it was the patrons. They could tell that Levi wasn’t a man that you wanted to mess with. He put my employees above everything else. When he was here, they were his responsibility. And it was something that he handled beautifully.

I knew there was an option to toy with. I could come back, and run everything in the back of the house. Scheduling, meetings, the daycare. I could have Levi work with everything else. In the few months that he had taken over for me completely, he knew how to run the floor. The girls enjoyed him being there. They felt safe with him. And they knew that he wasn’t there to hurt them. He was there to enhance them.

But it was an idea to address on another night. I knew I was nowhere in the right frame of mind to do anything but spend time with Levi and Lizzie. I didn’t have it in me to think about the club. It was something that Levi could worry about.

All of this was new, though. And I couldn’t help the dashes of fear that ran through me. I had worked hard to make my club mine. And handing it over to someone scared me. What if he decided to pull it out from under me? It was a ridiculous thought, but it was a thought I had. I knew Levi wasn’t going to steal my club. It was a place he loved as much as I loved it. And he knew what it meant to me. Levi had always put what I needed and loved above his needs and loves. He just wanted to make me happy. And if being here made me happy, he was going to do anything in his power to make it possible.

I felt the tears start to prick my eyes. It wasn’t because I was scared. It was because I loved him. I hadn’t ever felt it before. And I was scared to let it go. There wasn’t much I had ever been able to give him, but I could give him a family. I could give him things he never thought he wanted. I could stay beside him. I needed him. And it was a thought I told him all the time. All he did was kiss the tip of my nose and remind me that he needed me just as much.} Thank you for supporting me, Levi. Even understanding that I needed to talk to you about this like Husband and Wife and not Dom and Sub.

Levi: -I didn’t even fight the urge to reach out, stroking my thumb along her jawline to brush over her lips. She was thanking me, and it was absolutely something I didn’t think she needed to thank me for. I could see the tears in her eyes, and I knew the difference between these and the tears of panic when everything was starting to become too much.

Lexi was far too used to having to do everything on her own. It was an impulse I understood well enough. I’d spent longer on my own than she had, but she’d had nothing to depend on even as a child. She was always her own fallback and her own contingency plan. At least she was before I came around. -

My Darling Girl, this isn’t something you have to thank me for. I’m your husband before I’m anything else. And I’m her father. -nodding gently towards the crib where our daughter was sleeping- We are here for each other. And I’m whatever you need me to be. Right now you needed your Husband.  And as far as this business goes, we are in this as partners. I’ll do whatever it is you need to make it work. I’m nothing if not yours and at your disposal.

-smiling as she left a gentle kiss in the pad of my thumb where it ran across her lips. I knew it wasn’t going to be something she could resist, it was what happened every time I repeated that gesture and one of the many things that absolutely meant I was as wrapped around her finger as she was mine-

Lexis: {I couldn’t stop the tears from falling down my cheeks as I heard Levi’s words. There was so much that I could say. I wanted to start in on the conversation we had more times than I could count. I wanted to cry and tell him that I didn’t deserve him. He’d just roll his eyes and tell me that I wasn’t a good judge of what I deserved. He was a better judge of that. And it was a sentiment I let him tell me.

He was right. I had been on my own for so long, I didn’t know what I deserved. And it wasn’t  just because I was high on hormones. It was also because I didn’t have anyone in my life until Levi. I didn’t know that that was something I could expect. I hadn’t learned that there were people that wanted the best for me. It had taken Levi walking into my club for me to realize that.

I didn’t have to be alone. I didn’t have to make decisions on my own. And it was absolutely okay for me to have bad days where my OCD spun out of control. I could rely on Levi to handle things. And it wasn’t just about handling things at the club, I knew he would take care of everything at home.

Realizing that I had someone I trusted helped. It made the panic fall to the wayside. Levi also made me realize that I didn’t have to have all the answers right this second. There was no such thing as rushing with Levi. Everything was at my pace. And it wasn’t something I knew how to understand. But I did know that I could just accept what he was giving me. Was it hard? Absolutely. But it was something that I could do. It was something I wanted to do.} #ThisFeelingThatYouCantFight