#hopefully im smarter tho

[gifti3]

Thinking about my failed cringe attempts at trying to "date"

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Tag rambling ignore me

[shevr]

pricked

im scheduled to attempt to do a self injection on monday anybody got tips

[reilikeslifting]

This is the person who just did their first lift, I totally forgot to ask but, do you have any tips for new lifters ^^

of course! and congrats!!!

new l!fting tip #1: tumblr 101

no tags!!! do not tag ur posts, it makes it easier for non-l!fters to find and report l!fters

censor out brands and l!fting terms!! such as dn@, 3B, etc. (dn@ is did not arrive and 3B is empty box!!! different l!fting methods)

never ever put any defining objects in your photos if you are gonna post! make sure its the haul and ONLY the haul.

remove exif data from your photos so they can’t be traced, personally i dont do think bc im lazy but you should!

don’t put your total in your bio! i used to do this bc i liked to tell ppl i saved $20k-$30k over the year but it’s not smart to flaunt that you’re over the felony limit!

next, #2: how to lyft

so you’ve already completed your first lyft (woohoo proud of u!!) but how can you go about being safer and smarter?

my first tip is always scan the school for cameras! be sneaky tho don’t like just stare at the ceiling, but yk get a feel for how many cameras, what type, and what direction they’re facing. most places are gonna have the dome cameras, those are the worst because they see in every direction. always always try to body block if possible. either get someone else to block you or duck behind something while you’re concealing. better to not be caught on cam!!

nobody in that store is your friend, remember that. always assume that customers are plain clothes LP (disguised security) and always assume that sales associates WILL rat you out. don’t think “oh well it’s just me and one other person in the aisle it’ll be fine” because it’s gonna be the one time it’s not fine.

on that note, be kind to everyone. this isn’t just a lyfting tip it’s a rule i live by but just be kind. they’re gonna suspect you much less if you smile and answer questions and compliment them if you feel so inclined, just be a nice person. i believe this is one of the reasons i’ve never been caught, i’m just very friendly.

concealing!!! where to conceal? i personally like using my bag most often. your bag is important too!!! i use one off amazon (you can type like kawaii heart school bag and it’ll pop up, its black and has a big heart cut out for pins) but i dont have any pins because i dont want it to be too identifiable. its purse enough for people not to tell me to take it off (a lot of places don’t allow backpacks) but big enough to fit a LOT of stuff. structured bags are always a good idea too! that way people won’t be able to tell if you’ve put anything in there. i like to conceal in aisles without cameras most often, but if i have to body block sometimes i’ll put stuff up my sleeves first! another idea is to use a shopping bag from another store. this way people will think you’ve just already bought stuff! the target ones are my favorite since they’re opaque<3

onto the next section, #3: all about tags

de-tagging is definitely a more experienced lyfting practice but you can definitely start with rfids!!

rfids are gonna be the little metal wires in plastic, paper, or sticker tags. these are very common and you’ll see them at places like w4lmart or t4rget. these are easily removable by either cutting them off or disabling them with a magnet. you don’t NEED any tools while lyfting, but some of them can come in handy. if you do find yourself with a magnet, to disable rfids you just need to swipe your magnet against the tag. if you don’t have one, simply cut the metal wire in half. you can use scissors or nail clippers or cuticle nippers or whatever you might have!! if you can’t cut them, simply remove them and i personally stick the tag in the pocket of a really ugly item on clearance so that it hopefully goes unfound for a while!

hard tags! hard tags are any tag from the solid tags you find usually on clothes to spider tags you find on electronics or wire tags on jewelry at hot topic, etc. these all require tools to remove. some will require a magnet, others will require hooks, but it’s definitely worth looking into if you decide to branch out on your journey.

brief mention, #3.5: booster bags!

booster bags are small bags lined with many layers of foil to prevent signals from reaching the towers. just in case you didn’t know, towers are the tall sensors by the front door when you walk in! with a booster bag, you can put any kind of tagged item you want, zip it up, and walk out without beeping. you need many layers however!! the way to test if your bag works it by putting your cell phone in there and asking someone to call you. if the call goes through, there aren’t enough layers!! once the call doesn’t go through you’re set! this however is a more advanced trick so please be careful if you’re gonna try this!

lastly, #4 online “shopping”!

so you’ve heard of dn4ing or empty boxes, well lemme tell you what it all means! did not arrive is when you purchase an item, wait for it to arrive, and then message the carrier and tell them it never arrived. typically our goal here is to get a refund, but any times they wont be as easily persuaded and you’ll end up with a replacement instead. however it’s not impossible and many places are easier others. if you think you wanna try this, she!n or am4zon are a good place to start!! if she!n opens an investigation, it’s just a bluff, go with it!

empty box is another form of online lyfting, it’s when you tell the carrier that your item arrived with nothing in it. the process is similar to the first one, message the carrier etc. however just claim that it’s an empty box!

I HOPE ALL THESE TIPS HELPED PLS LET ME KNOW<333 LOVE YOU GUYS STAY HEALTHY AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES

[bukuoshin]

I'm gonna fucking cry: I was looking at pictures and vids of Kami from when he was a baby to get some ya know. Basic timeline stuff, since we're gonna have another litter in a couple of weeks.

(Hopefully we have less complications than the last two litters: the most recent resulted in a single pup litter-- why we kept Kami, if you're not keeping up.)

But

I love my dog so fucking much!!! I delivered him from his mother's womb and became his mother myself and I fucking love him so much!!! He's my little boy!!!

[cgirat]

i’m not always proud

brain big so this is a bandersnatch (2018) and pride (2014) crossover fic purely because theyre both set in the 80s and i think that joe & stefan would be a sweet couple. title is from thos moser by gupi ft fraxiom because im like that

joe cooper/stefan butler

Pride 1985. Joe marches proudly; lesbians and gays do support the miners, it's an act of solidarity as they're both treated unfairly by the government and the police. It's the best feeling being proud of who he is because for so long he'd hidden it for fear of how his family might look at him, he was out to practically everyone but the people that were meant to be closest to him. Within just a few months a lot has changed, he's moved in with Stephanie, he's working at a café near Gay's the Word, the pastry chef likes him enough they Joe gets to help out sometimes and the activism is going well so life is really looking up. It's a new way of living and he's getting used to it and overall he's happy with it.

Love does not seem to be something that's going to happen for Joe. He deals with that as best as he can, he doesn't try and force anything, if he goes to the bars and a man there wants him he's okay to make out. But no one asks him out or seems to be looking for commitment, he gets it they're young and he's still early into adulthood so it's whatever.

A young man seems to be loitering after the march is over with his hands in his pockets, eyes wide open and lips set in a straight line. Joe sees him across the street while Steph's abandoned him for some goth lesbian and they make eye contact for a brief moment before he looks away. Joe finds him a weird kind of beautiful, something about him is sharp and Joe doesn't look away. He wouldn't have crossed the street towards the man if he hasn't looked back at Joe. Pride is as good a time as any to be friendly.

Close up the man is shorter than Joe. He's still weirdly handsome at this distance and his dark hair and green eyes are intriguing.

"Did you have fun at the march today?"

The dude looks startled if wide eyes are anything to go by. "Uhhh, well, I didn't catch much of it, I was just on my way back home, actually."

"Oh cool, you should come to next year's march it'll be bigger and better hopefully." Joe smiles politely, getting the cue that the dudes not like him and he's prepared to turn around until he hears him speak again.

"Stefan. Me, uh. I'm Stefan." Stefan falls over his words, smiling sheepishly, revealing rows of shark teeth. His smile is endearing. He puts his hand out for Joe to shake.

"I'm Joe." he accepts Stefan's hand in a shake and Joe notes that his hand is warm but his shake isn't very confident.

They smile at each other for a bit even though it's awkward when Stefan releases Joe's hand and his own retreats to the pockets of his jacket.

"Well if you're not in a rush home feel free to come to our post pride party. It's at Gay's the Word; last years was good so hopefully, this year will be too."

Stefan smiles again. It's toothy and contagious.

They spend the rest of the night getting to know each other. Stefan isn't as closed off as Joe was a year ago, he talks about work and geeks out over computers and video games. He works at Tuckersoft and has already developed a "choose your own adventure" game based off of a book that received decent reviews. Joe thinks he's probably being modest. When he talks about it it seems very complicated and Joe instantly knows that Stefan is way smarter than he'll ever be because he knows smart, educated people things. It's like looking into the past, Stefan is 20 and he's closeted? Straight? Joe doesn't want to ask as it's none of his business no matter how much he wants to kiss him a little.

Joe and Stefan walk arm in arm to the bus stop and stay linked there while waiting. Stefan is a little drunk and so he talks a lot but Joe welcomes it. Joe's laughing at Stefan who can't seem to get over the fact that Joe's nickname is so shit.

"Bromley, of all the town's to be named after-"

"Even now I wonder if it's meant to be cute or if they're taking the piss."

Stefan huffs out a laugh, "I'm thankfully uninteresting so I don't have any nicknames." He pauses. "Having two friends helps as well, one of them is my dad but he's not the nicknaming type."

"It's lonely in the office?"

"Very." Stefan rests his head on the glass of the bus shelter. "Especially today, I wasn't even supposed to be in but my therapist forgot to tell me that she'd moved my appointment to Tuesday so I went there instead. I bet she was at the march today." he pauses for a moment. "Why does she even do appointments on Saturdays? Overworking is my thing."

Joe can't take his eyes away from Stefan's face. His eyes are closed and his face glows in the orange of the street lights.

"She's a lesbian?" He may be curious but whatever Stefan goes to therapy for is none of his business. He wants to know, though, one day.

"I'm not sure, I didn't ask, but you know when you can kinda just tell?"

Joe gulps. "I didn't meet a lesbian until my 20th birthday."

Stefan laughs, eyes opening and staring at Joe incredulously. "Wow, you were incredible sheltered. Can't you just tell? Like Colin's girlfriend, I don't think she's a lesbian because she's dating him but something about her isn't.... Normal."

It's past midnight. June 30th. It's officially his birthday and Joe can't catch a break. "I'm Bromley, remember?"

Stefan's laugh is glorious to hear. It's aided by a few cans of beer but welcome nonetheless. "Well happy gay birthday Bromley." he laughs, gesturing to the pin on Joe’s jacket that he’d forgotten about. of course he blushes, that’s all he’s capable of doing.

Stefan’s bus comes too soon after that. Joe says that if ever he wants to meet up again he should just go to Gay's the Word and ask for him. Then he's gone. Joe's heart flutters.

-

The next time they get the opportunity to hang out Joe ends up going to Stefan's workplace. He brings pastries and coffee which Stefan's boss eyes and makes a point of mentioning how disrespectful Joe is to come to the offices without offerings. Like the weakling he is, he gives Thakur the pain au chocolat that was meant for himself. Stefan laughs to himself, even if he keeps his eyes trained on his monitor. He and Stefan spend the day there, Joe dicks around on the computer next to him and they talk easily about the game, the book and work. Stefan reveals he wasn't really planning on releasing any games after Bandersnatch but he just kept on living after its release and with nothing better to do he started coding again. Joe hates being presumptive but he sees why Stefan's seeing a therapist.

On the way out, they swing round the record shop.

"I told my dad about you. I told him I have three friends now..." But he quickly looks up looking for reassurance from Joe, "if that's alright with you. If we aren't friends he won't be surprised if the number goes down I'm not the easiest person to get along with so-"

"Of course we're friends. You compliment my baking and photography I'm an easy man."

"Really? How easy?"

Joe flushes.

"Bad joke, sorry I didn't take my medication."

"Your medication makes you less inquisitive to your friend’s private lives?"

"Well yeah. I found out most of what I know about Colin when I was flushing them."

"Funny how that works...."

Stefan rolls his eyes while he picks out a record. Pearl jam. Steph loves them.

-

Stefan's a welcome addition to his life. He's easy to get along with, not as loud as Joe's other friends and he makes time for Joe.

He's helping at the book shop (filling shelves, taking some books upstairs for storage) with Mark.

"Y'know Bromley, I'm surprised you have time to be here between work and that boyfriend of yours." He says offhand.

That strikes Joe because boyfriend? He's been single forever having never dated seriously. He tries to never think about that because he's only getting older. He pauses from flipping through the book that he's holding.

"Boyfriend?"

"The one from pride. How'd you not know your own partner, the one with the dark hair and leather jacket?"

"Stefan?" Joe can feel himself flushing. "We're friends, what?" He laughs nervously.

"Oh, poor naive Bromley. You sheltered folk sure do congregate." Mark laughs. It's a joke that Joe doesn't really get it. It's not funny because they're not into each other that way. Joe rationalises it to himself, how Stefan and him just wouldn't work out because Stefan seems preoccupied and Joe doesn't fight for attention. He won't.

[emsartwork]

Major Villains part 2!! The Wizards of the Black Circle, Valtor(baltor?), and Darkar/The Shadow Pheonix.

again, I changed a lot. I changed the Wizards’ signature color to green because i got SO TIRED of red and black villain color schemes. Also Valtor’s original outfit and hair was like. so bad. dont @ me you know im right.

The Wizards of the Black Circle are earthen born, and really really old, like crypt keeper old, older than Morgana, maybe as old as Faragonda. The reason they still look young is that they’ve retained use of their magic when the rest of the earth hasn’t, and they eat fairy wings. Wings are the outward manifestation of a fairy’s magic and form a sort of battery loop with the fairy’s natural magic production, sustaining and boosting for as long as the transformation is held. When ripped off, the loop is broken unnaturally and severely damages the fairy physically and mentally, usually they can’t transform again for a week to a month. The wings retain a large portion of magic, and by consuming them, the wizards supercharge their abilities and prolong their lives, if they had kept doing this eventually they would become faded like the ancestral witches in my other post, but it would take a while.

Ogron is from early Scotland, he was the one who forged the black circle out of iron. Iron is a notoriously difficult metal to enchant (the specialists ships and weapon bases are made of enchanted iron and are hard to destroy with magic). He practiced for years before successfully storing his magic in the black circle. He was always power hungry and calculated, he knew he wouldn’t be able to conquer the world without help, and began to seek out fellow wizards while spreading anti-fairy sentiments. It took him awhile to find people who were able to use the Circle with him, and went through a couple other Wizards before setting on the three others. He first found Gantlos in the Americas, the Anagan in Africa, and finally Duman in Southeast Asia. They all use the Black Circle as a magic vessel, and begin to actively hunt down fairies and other magic users or creatures. Morgana had only just taken the throne when they started, and as a young ruler, mistakenly believed these four posed no great threat and wouldn’t dare question her rule. However, the Wizards attacked Tir Nan Og and it’s sister island Neverland. They purposefully didn’t fully destroy everything, wanting to keep any magical artifacts intact for their own use, but did strike a serious blow to the benevolent magic users. Fear mongering lead to fewer people pursuing magic in hopes of not becoming a target. One of the Wizards’ only large scale attack was on Tir Nan Og, usually they prefered to lay traps and pick off solitary fairies. Eventually people began to shun magic users in common society, and many fled to the injured Tir Nan Og to avoid being attacked or killed. Morgana and all the fairies on Tir Nan Og placed a barrier around the island, and created the white circles out of glass and moonlight as keys. When the Wizards attacked the island again, they couldn’t break through the barrier with out completely draining the black circle, so instead they returned to their guerilla tactics, and attacked all the fairies bringing other people onto the island for safety. After they believed all the keys to be destroyed, they began to hunt down any fairies that might have escaped, using spells to track and locate sources of fairy magic all over earth. They eventually raised their power levels enough that they were able to surround Tir Nan Og’s barrier with one of their own, trapping the fairies in their own haven. They then spent the rest their time keeping an eye on the any potential magic users, placing more black circles around other sources of magic so it would be directly funneled into their reserves,  and manipulating governments and societies to their own will. They started several wars and were the cause of some natural disasters for the fun of it. Sometimes they take a break from ruling dull stupid humanity and will spend several decades sequestered away on an island or something. They also need break from each other and will go off on their own occasionally. They each have iron gall ink tattoos that keep them connected to the Black Circle.

Fun facts about the wizards because they’re like almost my fav villains. Ogron refuses to say whether his obnoxiously bright hair is dyed or not. Orgon usually prefers kilts, but tbh its hard to get a hold of one now-a-days unless you know how to use the internet. Orgons skirt is a shitty faux leather one from forever 21. Anagan is actually the most popular with the ladies~~ Gantlos is actually the oldest, and is potentially from before the Mayan civilization’s era. Duman is from Thailand and his skirt is technically a Sarung(which i think were used in Thailand but correct me if im wrong). Duman likes to change his hair color every couple years or so. Duman actually convinced Gantlos to dye his hair once but messed up the bleaching spell and oops now Gantlos is permanently blonde(and duman has one less rib) Anagan shaves his head every 20 years. The last time they were all involved in society was the 60s and they’re clothing reflects the mod/punk fashion at that time. Anagan and Duman barely tolerate each other in day to day situation, but their fighting styles actually complement each other pretty well. Ogron is a total narcissist and considers Gantlos the closest thing to an equal in the group. Gantlos spend the most time with duman so long as he’s not being too annoying(duman is basically the obnoxious little brother of all of them lmao)

Valtor isn’t “human” even in a loose sense of the word. He’s more like a homunculi created by the Ancestrals. As such he doesn’t need to eat or drink, tho he can enjoy both. He doesn’t necessarily have a “true form” as he can use his magic to mold and change his body as needed. His heart is a spark of the dragon flame and the shadow flame encased in the ancestrals magic. He was originally intended to be a servant, going out and physically searching for the dragon flame while the witches researched where the dragon could be hiding. He briefly took a young starstruck Ms Griffin on as an apprentice, but it didn’t last very long. After the witches were defeated he was still able to use remnants of their magic leaving him still very powerful, and connecting him to their spirits. He was defeated by Faragonda and the Company of Light, but being a homunculi powered by the dragon and shadow flame he couldn’t really be killed, so was banished to the frozen planet Omega as punishment. Valtor stores and channels his magic through his body, making him a sorcerer instead of a wizard. He resembles Dominians but this is thought to be because of his connection to the dragon flame.

Lord Darkar isn’t an ancient entity, but he does possess one. The Shadow Fire is the ying to the Dragon Fire’s Yang, and originally both were considered neutral, keeping the light and dark in balance. Domino’s royal bloodline passed both the Dragon and the Shadow from one generation to another, but a young prince sought to possess both of the flames and summon the ultimate power. He killed and stole the Shadow Flame from it’s bearer, tainting it with blood and violence. His murder was found out and defeated by the holder of the Dragon Flame, and thrown into the then newly formed Obsidian as an execution. While it was hoped he would die in Obsidian and the Shadow flame would pass to a more worthy bearer, Obsidian turned out to be a pocket dimension instead of a death sentence, and he emerged again, was defeated again, emerged yet again, decided to be a little smarter, and found the Ancestral Witches to do his bidding. However, the witches eventually betrayed him, and sought to possess the Dragon flame for themselves, they created Valtor with sparks of both so he would, hopefully, be protected to both powers. Darkar’s time in Obsidian tied him to the pocket dimension, so every time he’s defeated he gets sent back there lmao. Due to the “equal-opposite” rule, When Obsidian was formed was also when the Relix was created, it holds the only power strong enough(theoretically) to destroy Obsidian in the power crystal, but using it is more than likely to destroy you in the process so it was sealed away with the codex. After the Winx defeat him he’s not destroyed, just sent back to Obsidian. The only way to kill him would be to separate the Shadow Flame from his body, or use the water stars on him.

[harryseyebrows]

Ooh love that. Is Harry feeling similarly? As if he’s taking advantage of Jeff’s kindness and guilting Jeff into holding him because he’s hurt? And so both feel that they’re secretly using the other?? And if they don’t talk about it in the morning... when do they? Is it later once Harry’s more on his way to healed and ready to move back out on his own? Is it less dramatic and more of a conversation? Is it things slowly reaching a routine that feels right and something they both want again?

Oh! Also would prob be important who asked for the divorce the first time around? Or at least the first one of them to bring light to their issues. Cause whoeever it wasn’t (hopefully Harry :))) is likely not going to be able to swallow their pride and ask for a second chance when they’re harbouring feelings that the other person didn’t want to be married to them anymore so why would they want to date them again

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im sorry i always take 900 years to answer these i just like to reread them and think of different answers but then i always get sidetracked aksdjflakj ANYWAY i think yes to harry feeling similarly. like even tho jeff offered, harry can’t help but think it was maybe just an offer to be nice, and maybe jeff wasnt anticipating harry agreeing to it? and now he’s stuck with him etc etc i also think less drama might be nice. they fall back into a routine--obviously not the same one from before the divorce, but something new that feels different in a good way, as well as leaning into older, more familiar habits. perhaps once harry is well enough that he could potentially live independently again, THEN theyd have a conversation of ‘i dont want to be away from you again’

as for who asked for the divorce, im thinking it was maybe a decision they both came to together. there was obviously some serious fighting leading up to it (about what? undecided so far lol) but after a while, its more quiet resignation and eventually they sit down and have a discussion that pretty much just says ‘this clearly isnt working, we’re both not happy, i think we maybe shouldn’t be together for a bit’ which....could then be ‘what do you mean ‘not together’? like a divorce?’ and ‘yes, a divorce.’ and harry being like ‘...oh’ because he thought it might just be a separation/break thing? and jeff is on the other side of it thinking harry hates him and WANTS a divorce so he says it because he doesn’t want to be the one who says ‘no thats not what i meant’ and look like a fool. and even though its hard and painful and really sad, ultimately in the end, splitting up was right for them at the time. they needed it, in a way. because they come back together smarter and stronger than before

[gukooky]

I take it all back..... give me my fluff back. 🥺 Also, Mina should go dig a hole and stay there for the rest of eternity. 😤

you cant take back you wishes for angst OOPS let’s just bury mina alive why not

Anonymous said: Y/N.... NO. Y/N. PLS REMEMBER. UR RELATIONSHIP IS /CURRENTLY/ FAKE. IF TAE WAS REALLY WITH MAY. HE'D TELL HER THAT. Y/N USE YOUR RATIONALITY AND COMMON SENSE. DONT LET THE HEART BREAK WINS. NOOOOOOOO FUCK. Pls tell me Mina will suffer for this. Oh god

he would tell her wouldn’t he??? WHATS RATIONALITY AND COMMON SENSE WHEN YOURE IN LOVE THO???? 

Anonymous said: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO poor y/n 🥺 poOR TAE 🥺😭

yup sorry bb had to do it :/

Anonymous said: that "oh..." is me throughout the whole part

the weight two letters can have amirite? :(

Anonymous said: IM FUXKING THROWING HANDS IM BOXING EVERYONE INVOLVED AND NO ONE IS SAVE AT THIS FUXKING POINT 😤

evERyoNe??? SLDJASD RIP MY CHARACTERS LMAOOOO

Anonymous said: the may chick part didn’t hurt as much as I thought it was bc ik its all fake but I’m hurting for y/n bc she doesn’t know that

that was the beginning sizzle so hopefully i can make your heart twinge with pain soon oof

Anonymous said: Nooooooooo Alyssaaaaaaa 😭😭😭 they’re gonna confess and this tea is spilt. I’m crying.

they weRE SO CLOSE :((( damn what kind of monster would just keep them apart like that???👀👀👀

Anonymous said: Oh please she can't be believing this crap can she! Come on y/n you are smarter than this! Nooooooo!

...is she tho?🤔

Anonymous said: FUCK MAY

yeah wtf may get out of here

Anonymous said: Ouch. Lowkey my heart!🤧💔 but I'm loving the au! You're doing great love!❤❤

thank you so much!!! im glad you like it uwu

Anonymous said: GOD THOSE SNAPS 😭😭 AND HE SAYING HE LOVDS HER AAAA AND THAT MF MAY MAI IDK I NEED AM UPDATE THANKS

yeah damn who knew fluff and angst could be in the same part ;) 

Anonymous said: It's only the beginning and I'm already crying-’

rip yeah i wonder what the heck is gonna happen while tae is gone 

[tears0fsatan]

being ace is cool as hell but yeah it's like you said 😭

and yeah!! we're just in our cool little bubble and going at things at our own pace :) pls my whole life is just "im just gonna get this over with so i can burn in hell in peace" LMAO and yes fictional characters >>>>>>>>>>> real people

IT'S THE HAIR ISNT IT 😭 AND YES HE'S CUTE AF he hidin all that anger behind that sweet little face of his 🤭 and omg kuya i didnt like him at first but the new event made me like him hes so endearing and very pretty too

calling all transfems come get yalls free titties ova here babes !! thats a 100% discount baby !! and glad we in the same boat 🤝 HEHE I LOVE TALKING TO U TOO UR VERY LOVELY DONI

HAKKEN AND LEGOLAND LMAO TRUE ive been legoland once actually! very fun!! i barely remember anything tho LOL and luv u too <3333333 NOT THE JAMETS AND JOCKS HELP ME hang in there darling,,

and about you grouped up with cis indo dudes god i feel you so much...everyone thinks im a girl but things Will Not End Well if i came out 😭 i literally witnessed my classmates misgender other people on purpose so i think it's better for me to stay in the closet for now (and hopefully not forever). and yeah literally same about the women thing im also much more comfortable around women too,, wishing you luck with your jamet arc ur gonna need it doni

-🔶

LMFAOOOOO at least all the cool gay people will be with you in hell <3333

ITS NOT ONLY THE HAIR BUT ITS ALSO THE POSE ND THE FITTTT his hair tho oh my god .... like i already thought 'oh woah luv the streak of pale red / orange' bUT THEN I SAW HIM FROM OTHER ANGLES N HIS OTHER CARDS AND ITS LIKE A PEEKABOO THING????? best decision they could make ong 💯

why give them away for free when u can sell each one for a high price 🤨 think smarter not harder mon ange <3

ANW ME TOO 😭 i went there when i was young but it was very nice i luved it hehe!

sea dudes when people are lgbt 😨😦😟 like,,, my old classmates are the stereotypical 'dude wtf thats so gay' N *bj gesture* types buT THEY ALSO CALLED ME BY MY PREFERRED NAME???? AND WHEN TALKING ABOUT THE DRAG QUEEN THEY USED SHE / HE / THEY PRONOUNS????? they're so progressive and backward its lowkey kinda funny LMFAOOO

nd hopefully it won't be long until u can safely come out of the closet mon cheri!!! that AND getting ur tits chucked away! 💪💪💪

[getoswhore]

i am not getting engaged 😭 and i am back to hades (have been for a while ☹️) so you can change the tag bae !

and we’re dating to marry but we’re only 20 so… and he’s 18 turning 19 in november 😔 he’s a youngin atm but he’s a science student and he’s way way way smarter than i am and he has great wide shoulders and nice arm veins and holds my hand to do the thumb rub thing and holds me tight when he thinks i’m about to fall and kisses my temple 😔 but he’s like 848384 miles away from me now so :(

i was on a 3 month long trip to pakistan and i insanely miss it but now i’m back in the states 😐

i hate it here but then again ! my car, driving, getting into my life again, volunteering and blah blah blah

but he put a ring on my finger, yes ! it’s a promise ring tho, not an engagement ring 🤨

although my youngest uncle and aunt and a few of my cousins know but i’m not sure if i’m in LOVE love or if i’m just liking him but if it gets serious, i’m telling my parents that i don’t only love hanging out w the boy next door, i am in love with him.

and then, i kid you not, i will be posting engagement pictures by next year

OFMGMFG UN DA THE CUT

OKOK HI HADESS <333

wow. this is a lot to take in and ofmgmfmg the thought of possibly getting engaged scares me ngl, i cannot see myself in a year being engaged. im unhinged and not ready for that type of commitment 😋🤞

but i understand, it's with a lot of cultures? no? correct me if im wrong but ik some cultures take relationships VERY seriously and getting engaged early on in a relationship, (well idk how long y'all have been together skdkwkd) (and m only saying this cause i had a friend who was from pakistan and got married at 18) but again, correct me if im wrong PLEASE—

BUTTT GOOD LUCK TO YOU IF AND WHEN YOU DO, LIKE SRSLY. id be so happy for you, and ill track you down to force you into letting me be the flower girl <3

he sounds so AMAZING FOR YOU. very smort and has his priorities straight!! good for him! and he got you a promise ring already 👁️ IM TOTALLY NOT SHAKING IN JEALOUSY.

but i understand, loving someone but not knowing if you're IN love :(( it's sucky and confusing :((( it's difficult to go through but m sure you'll realize soon, hopefully, cause he seems vv caring and loving towards you, and m so happy that he is! <333

[videostak]

bri’s hierarchy of needs

.)williams arcade greatest hits on ps1

.)qix on gameboy

.)namco musuem on ps1

actually wheni phrase it like that i guess im not too interested in getting stuff rn which is good. cause like i def wanna get those someday but when i list them im not super passionate abt getting any of them at this moment. like namco museum would be the only one id rly prolly be like I Should Get This Now and that has more to do with the fact that i wanna get the japanese version and i have to act quick if someone is selling it for cheap shipping from the u.s.. cause like the two other games i  think id want more/ it would be smarter to get b4 but theyre both very very cheap to find online which is great ! so like rn i think ive just been thinking of stuff to get because ive rly just been waiting for pac land to come hopefully it doesnt get lost in mail T-T im worried cause the tracking hasnt updated these past few days and since it was thanksgiving n all i hope it didnt get lost tho it prolly didnt and if it did my japan class doesnt end til like 3 weeks so i still have stuff to focus on lol

[saneislame]

lmfaoo ok so i’m very different from last year me and i love it, it’s interesting to see what seems important or what takes so much space in my head at the time. right now i’m deciding whether or not i should take a leave of absence next quarter only bc idk if i should pay for a quarter,,, but it might b smarter to get the bag for a car bc that’s my top priority right now i decided this morning when i was pacing back and forth in ayo’s room. i think it’s good for him to observe me going through a depressive state because he can analyze it and whatever and add to his giant brilliant mind lmfao. hmm let’s see also i am in fact coming down and i wasnt feeling well earlier but i ate a banana and i feel better now, ready for bed. i recently saw the boy and it was really nice, i think i needed that. and then i told the guys about how much i love them but i wish jesse was there to hear it come from me, idk of ayo told him but i think he would. my study abroad got cancelled today but that’s ok, relieved some regular and financial stress lol.. i feel bad for being friends w this one kid because i know i will never truly like his or trust him but i still use him for my advantage which is fucked up,,, he’s a ticking time bomb tho i just never know when shits gonna hit the fan. hopefully i’ll come back to this and nothing will have happened lol. i happy for my mom now she’s happy and i can tell. and i’m not that lonely anymore like i was after the breakup,, so weird i didn’t even know it affected me like that but it makes sense that it did, im not gonna lie i still think abt him and i do wonder if he thinks about me or checks my social media, i don’t check his, i would rather not and just let myself get over it.. it wasn’t the healthiest way but it was good for me kinda i think. i miss jorel a lot, really was the best best friend i’ve ever had, idk if he knowms his impact, one day i shall tell him but in person and casually otherwise he’ll get weird lol, anyway, i feel better i was feeling shit earlier oh and love island , im addicted to love island and i’m happiest in my bed and i’ve appreciated that super recently when i kept sleeping 12 hours,, ok that’s all for right now i’ll b back another time for whatever reason

[survivormontenegro]

Episode 15 (Finale): “I COULD LITERALLY WIN A TUMBLR SURVIVOR SEASON WHAT IS THIS LIFE” - Ali

Did that vote make me a villain? Cuz I don't think I can avoid that anymore. But did it screw my chances of winning? Did it add to my resume? Did it make sense? Who do I work with next? Do people understand that Ali is gonna win this game? Is Ali gonna win another immunity challenge? Can I get him voted off or is it smarter to get him to vote with me, because its Benj and I and we need one more. I have more questions after last night than I started, but knowing that Benj was going to vote Jones I didn't think I had much of a choice.

JONES WHEN U SEE THIS ILY IM SO SORRY :((((((

breakdown.

Seamus enjoyed seeing me suffer with maths and black rotating puzzle

Ok so Ali won immunity so cant use idol on himself so im in the F4 hehe (unless hes seriously been playing me this entire time LMAO)

My 0 votes will prob be ruined tho but oh well still a huge improvement from 20 in kili

honestly think im losing in any F3 scenario ugh im gonna be a 2 time ftc loser LOL kinda iconic tho

regardless this has been one of the most fun games ive ever played hehe

I am trying my best to stay safe this round. I think it would be crazy for them to let me make it to F4, not that I think I am gonna win, but the momentum is definitely with Ali, Tom, and Jason, and I seem like the logical vote.

With that, there are some things I would like to say about the game. I'm actually pretty proud of the way I played. I know it wasn't the most graceful, or the most honest or loyal. I votes out Alex when he really trusted me. I flopped on Jules to win my way back in with that side. I stuck by Mo, but ultimately let him go when I had no choice, and then I did the same thing but more dramatically with Jones. I helped idol out the power player Mitch, but my strongest attribute was creating tight relationships with people who always felt they need to get that extra vote, Tom, Ali, Benj, Alex, Jones, Mo. The closeness has always made me less of a target, I hope not because they think I'm not a threat, but rather because they think I might be that swing vote for them. I feel like I have largely been the only one to make real decisions in this game except for Mitch, because Benj followed whoever told him to vote what, and Tom and Jason only make decisions because they just need to target whoever targets them. Ali and I are suppose to be in a secret bond, but the only time we vote together is when I switch and vote with him (Alex and Jones). I was the flip vote with Jason on Jules. I helped make the decision to vote out Mitch. I told Ali that I think it needs to be Jason this time. If I make it through this that would be soooo freakin fun. If I don't I worked my magic to try to get the target off of me, and so far I think the vote is Jason v Benj (sorry Benj that I had to convince Jason that I could work with him in the case that he idols). The biggest kink to that game is Ali winning those immunities, because truly I think the F5 would have been so different. Him winning rn changes everything and I can truly see the chinks in my strategy and gameplay now. I'm a mess, but I'm a calculating emotional mess, so hey points for me right?

okay so Jason left, which is really good news. He was clearly a major threat, and I acheived my goal (admittedly with no contribution to Mitch going) of Mitch, Jones & Jason being three boots in order.

So I'm in the final four with Caeleb, Benj and Tom. AND TOM IS NOW TARGETTING ME THAT MUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPET. I saw this coming, I knew he would, he thinks he is gonna pull a fast one on me, but little does he know Benj is the KINGEST KING, and we've been allies since the first round.

So I really REALLY wanna win final four immunity, because it might be the Final Immunity and I am cautiously optimistic that if I can just make FTC, I can win this whole thing. If I win immunity, I'm voting out Caeleb with Benj and Tom, who will... kicking and screaming have to vote with me ajkdslfa.

I think no matter what, I'll be able to go to firemaking this round at worst, since I think Benj is firmly in my corner. And I've been dominant in challenges thus far, and could hopefully continue to do so? We will see ahh.

I just desperately want to win immunity this round, because then I can vote Caeleb out and drag Tom to F3. mwahahahahahahahahahaha. HE WILL HAVE TO SIT WITH ME IN A FINAL THREE, like it or not!

I'm literally so close to FTC this is gonna drive me insane. If its a F3, I think I'm literally a challenge away from winning this season, I could truly SCREAM hnnnnnnnnnngh.

There's so much riding on this next immunity challenge. Like so much. And i just realized that I have no won immunity since Merge and everyone else left has, so umm here's hoping.

I WON FINAL IMMUNITY OH MY GOD. i literally.. my heart was pump pumping so fast, when Caeleb won the first two rounds I literally was gonna throw up/throw something/throw a fit.

But HNNNGH I won (and I filmed my reaction, which I'll upload), and I need to vote off Caeleb in my opinion. Benj is a king, but he hasn't done as much as me in this game, and Tom is solidly getting third place I think at this stage, so I think I have a great shot.

IM SO CLOSE ASKLDFAF. I COULD LITERALLY WIN A TUMBLR SURVIVOR SEASON WHAT IS THIS LIFE.

I know that this game is an emotional mess. And HELL I have been an emotional mess. But this I think is the first time that I'm actually angry. 6 immunity wins? Are you fucking kidding me? What the hell? I coulda made it to FTC, and like I'm not done yet I'll keep fighting so hopefully I can make it. But in normal circumstances I would be there. I just. Am so. Livid. There's no strategy involved when you can't vote someone out consistently. Now I have to fight tooth and nail just to have a shot and go against the freakin contender to win. Like its so disheartening, and Ali is a sweet guy sure, but he hasn't even made half the moves I have. His biggest move and most unexpected? Voting out Julia. If I get my chance to make it to FTC I'll have a lot to say, but I don't think its looking up for me at this point.

this is the worst video i've ever filmed nobody watch this

I CANT BELIEVE I MADE F3 AGAIN!!!!!

WOWOWOWOW

and with Ali our day 1 duo actually did it WTF?

Tom king too the anzacs made it

I know im losing but its been SO FUN!!

Good memories only

Okay so... FTC was yesterday, and I kind of want to do a final wrap up confessional, just to kind of bring some personal closure.

So it seems unless a lot shifts, that I am decisively going to win this game. I'm so unbelievably excited, I've literally only ever come second in survivor games, so to have finally snatched the win genuinely means a lot. It shows me that 2019 truly has been a year of real emotional growth for me, and the personal roadblocks I've put in front of myself that have cost me games in the past, have been lifted and I have my act together much much more.

FTC was... just such a weird experience yesterday, I always get dragged at FTCs, particularly live ones. I've only done two ever (Athena: All Stars and BB Pokemon: Orre) and both times, not a single juror spoke positively about my game that was present. To have jurors come on, and say that I unequivocally played the best was such a bizarre experience, but I love all the jurors so much and their high estimation of me is genuinely so flattering.

With that said, FTC was also a really rough experience. I love Benj and Tom with my full heart, and watching Tom get relentlessly told he was rude was tricky because I know how good of a guy he really is, and how well he meant with everyone. Benj was rough because... it seems I just outplayed him, and him mentioning our duo in his opening statement when I didn't at all... was really rough because I felt partly at fault for his dragging. I just love both of them, so it was hard.

I also feel bad for what I was like in confessionals this season, from memory at some point, I went in on JJ, Mo and Caeleb in confessionals, and while I apologised for all, I still feel awful that I let myself get so worked up in this game to sort of snap at them? Like Mo is a genuine friend of mine, so the fact that he wrote like... a sentence and I got so pressed is really stupid, I love Mo so much and hope I can make it up to him. Caeleb I got so mad at after the Jones' idol play for literally no reason... like he outplayed me that round, and its so pathetic that I got mad at him for that. I think Caeleb played a PHENOMENAL game, and did so well.

If I had to predict the POTS of the season, I would say my top three would be Jones, Caeleb and Mitch. Jones is... Jones, she is so likable and has such charisma and hold over people, and her idol play was arguably the most impressive move of the season. Caeleb was someone I underestimated to such at the start of merge, but he played such an impressive middle game, and would've had my vote if I was voted out at F3. Mitch it sounds like was hated by the jury, but I think he played amazingly? Like he has been a target since F20, his name was thrown out so many times, and I just think he did so good? I lowkey think he would be my player of the season to be honest.

I wanna talk about the other jurors particularly that I haven't really referenced in this. Alex is someone I somehow feel most guilty about voting out? He is just such a genuinely good guy, and I think I had this preconceived notion of him as like a gamebot, when he is just so wholesome, I can't wait for him to return, and make single digits. scratch that, I can't wait for him to return and WIN.

I also wanna talk about Jules. I am such a Jules warrior? Like... such a Jules warrior? They were such a pleasure to work with, and I just love them so much. I did them dirty by not idoling them/telling them they were going, but they are someone I have SO much time, love and respect for.

Who else, omg JASON! He was the perfect final juror for yesterday's FTC, someone who went easy on Tom who needed that, and just... is such a wholesome good guy, I love Jason.

Anyway, this is already really, really long so I need to wrap this up. I just want to say how happy this season has made me, and how much of a pleasure its been apart of. I joined the ORG community right before a lot of messy personal stuff came my way, and a lot of my org memories are tied to that. I used to let my personal drama get itself interwoven in my games, and I would just be so emotional. To have a game where I could play hard, cracked and WELL, and just have fun has been such a pleasure, and Im so emo about it.

I just wanna thank the hosts again too, I literally am a full on Asya, Drew, Johnny and Seamus WARRIOR, I love all four of them for hosting my favourite org experience EVER, its been amazing. I've been such a crackhead, was the only OG Budva Tumblr Survior newbie to make merge, spammed my host chat with an unbelievable number of messages, been AWFUL at the bridge idol hunt system yet ended up with two idols, been a crackhead (bears repeating because of how much of a mess i was), its been... a time KLADSF

But yes. I just have had a phenomenal time, crackheads are gonna crackhead and this brit is joining the tumblr survivor royal family, and I truly could not be more excited.

[survivor-islands-of-adventure]

EPISODE 11

So I really pushed for it and it happened, Madison is officially gone and that’s one less person I gotta suck up to. But now mark is pissed at me. WHY WOULD WE VOTE KAREN OFF. She does not have a strong game, she’s floundering, she’s a prefect goat to take to the end. But whatever! Be as mad as you want. I was trying to help us both. But you just wanna be a big MAN BABY because I’m not letting you run this game. Remember how I said I wanted to run this and take no prisoners- well it’s now in full fuckin swing. I’ll do anything to get to the end. Even if that means cutting off mark, my number one ally. I’m actually super upset because I feel like he won’t be my friend anymore and wow I need to stop rambling whatever goodnight goodbye Goodluck 

I did a confessional before i got a strike lmaoooo I won immunity bitches time for revenge in Madison’s name. I’d love to just take out Tracey’s boring ass this round but there’s bigger threats in the game and unfortunately she’s not a threat to anyone or anything ever so let’s hope we can actually flush stoners idol this round and take out dan or drew 

I didn't win immunity but i beat Drew the legend's score so im really happy about that. Tonight's plan is to tell people we're voting dan but actually vote drew, so I'm hoping it's seamless and not a fucking trainwreck like it has been. We're also trying to get Chris to use his idol. Lastly, im not sure i trust charlie atm. Mark wants her in on the Drew vote but im nervous that she might spill. 

mark brought up a good point, but pat could potentially play the sapphire idol this round or the next for a big move, and with the way the game is going, one of these two tribals is probably the time to play it to try and swing some momentum back in his favor while also making a big move to add to his resume. just ideas™ in my head

Another fucking mess vote. Will I vote Drew? Maybe. Will I vote Chelsea? Maybe. Am I getting blindsided? Maybe. Idk it just feels weird. I feel like people are talking a lot but not a lot at the same time. Like we’re all beating around the bush. Let’s hop to it ladies. I’ll proabbly turn on Drew this week, I hope that doesn’t effect anything with Stoner in this game or the other game I’m in with him.

I'm writing another log because I'm so nervous for tonight once again. Idk why but I'm skeptical about Pippa being included in our voting information because I think she is secretly spying for Chris. The other night I told Pippa that I might vote Chris and not even a minute later, he messages me saying "I heard I'm getting votes against me." Coincidence? Idk. I want to be able to network and work with people but I don't know who to trust. Pat and Mark are pretty cool, but even Sammy I'm a little bit worried about. On the same night with the Pippa situation, I got a message from Chris telling me that Sammy asked him if he would vote me. So, now I'm not sure if Chris was just baiting me to start a fight, or if Sammy might also be working with Chris. Fuck. 

This round is a mess but honestly, I’m like so here for it. I’m lowkey hoping Pat hits the bricks bc I told Drew he’s getting all the votes. I can’t wait to get voted out hahahahahaha. That would be so fucking funny. Everyone thinks Chris has the idol, but Drew does :~)

so this round has been very boring. Everyone is being predictable and sticking with their comfort.  However I really want to switch things up and stop giving Tracey stoner and Chris so much power. Tracey just keeps coming to me to get information and it's low-key annoying cause like obvs I know she is working w Chris and Drew.  Like she could be making power moves but she has not worked w me once and keeps like not going w anything I tell her. lmao whatever.

I feel like I have my little baby hands in every honey pot in this game. I’m the swing vote but I’m also deciding who it swings on. I’m letting Mark and drew think they’re picking who the vote is, but I’m whispering in their ears ehehhehe. Hopefully drew goes home tonight and stoner uses his idol

So uhhhhh last tribal was iconic skdndkndkdnd it actually worked and I'm still here ??????? Anyway nothing new has really happened so yeah :/ but um the others are flushing chris' idol and me drew and Chris are voting for Sammy. Also I need to keep an eye on dan because he still seems like a flip flopped skcjfkfnfj

CONFESSIONAL: This week is supposed to go smoothly. My alliance of sammy chelsea and mark is going well. I trust them a lot. With my alliance members getting voted out its easier for them to want to vote for me in the end. I miss madison but we have to keep moving forward to eliiminate drew, chris and tracey. i CANNOT STAND THEM. especially tracey. if she takes me out i will actually cry. No matter what happens atlast i have majority. and it seeeeeeems like people are noticing me and I realllllyyyy like that. Like if they keep going for chelsea and mark Its going to be amazing. This is literally how I won my BB game so I think this is a good way to get myself into the same position

OKAY SO SOMEHOW the concept of voting out madison actually worked?? Charlotte's interest in playing both sides was so incredible and useful in the last minute. Rip Ricky btw, i hope by the time this comes out, things are better for him. So the challenge was firedragon, which means i lost right the fuck away. So once again, a brilliant idol play was necessary. I'm bitter af that it couldn't be Chelsea ...but sammy probably was the better call. But now i'm stuck, F8, no idol, very little hope. It's nearing the end of the road but honestly making it this far is a triumph in itself.

SAMMY IS VOTED OUT

I’m shook. This is my third individual immunity win. My target is definitely growing but I still feel like I’m playing a reasonable game. I would love for Pat to use his Sapphire idol this week bc I would be safe regardless, but honestly Drew is the easy vote. The only thing that sucks is that he knows Pat has the Sapphire idol and if I flip, he could easily tell Pat or others about me telling him. I could do some damage control this week and tell Pat that Drew asked me if Pat had won the power and I said idk. And act like drew knew where everyone competed and it’s wideled down to Pat possibly having it. That’s a little risky but if it comes out that Drew told Pat I told him about the idol, it could save me and I can easily back pedal and say that Drew has a lucky guess. But at the same time, why would Drew lie if he was going out the door hnnnnn. It’s best if Pat doesn’t feel safe this week/thinks it’s gonna go to rocks. I think I could push a tie narrative by throwing Charlotte under the bus, but we’ll see. Regardless I’m going to the f7 and hopefully I have a solid group of 4 and maybe an idol of my own up my sleeve. 

Okay I literally forgot that prevotes are due tonight; not being in an alliance chat this round made things weird, but iIve been working with Pat, Dan, Mark, and Charlotte to find the idol this entire time. I'm gonna be voting Chris, Tracey, or Drew, but I guess I should be talking to people about that and not idol clues lmfao.

Trying to fucking explain to Pat how his own Sapphire idol works is like trying to explain not being racist to my Uncle Bill. It’s just not....happening. 

So!!!!!! Another tribal another person gone whew it sucka that it had to be sammy bc I actually wanted to work with him a bit but I gotta do what I gotta do to stay in the game. We had touchy subjects this round and I got most annoying which I'm sure I got bc I snapped in the tribe chat that one time JSJDJDJDJ and who doesn't deserve to still be here which is like ????? I get it!!! Y'all wanted me out for so long but you can't your way bc I'm smarter but w/e!!!! They can stay hatin ! I think I got most likely to get to the end and win or lose idk but I like my odds tbh rkdjdofnfk so this round will prob end being split 4-4 which is exciting bc it means we'll prob be going to rocks !!!! I'm nervous about being rocked out but hey at least it'll be exciting lol. I'm hoping after this round or next round to get dan out tho, he's playing a superb game and it'd be a great move to take him out t b h

Eek I really hope drew finally goes home! Glad I won funniest tbh! Haha! I’ll make a longer confessional later! I’ll prob be sent home tonight oh whale

I LOST THE CHALLENGE I DON'T HAVE AN IDOL This should spell death for me. It really should. it probably still will. But I have three people willing to vote with me, two willing to pull a rock for me. So far, at least. A lot of shit changes when the revote is upon us. There's also Pat's sapphire idol to think about. I'm honestly not expecting to make it through this round but if I do, there are only four rounds left to go. Four rounds, it's not that much. We're trying to vote Pat because making me and Pat both safe was the best way to keep Dan on board with the plan. That and the fact that he won immunity and wouldn't pull a rock. Also I got biggest threat and needs to go next. These whores really know how to flatter a bitch.

IM FINALLY VOTING TRACEY OUT.. too bad shes not actually going home bc Pat has the reward from the dark week. He started getting nervous with his name apparently going around this vote and only charlotte or dan would need to flip to cause rocks/send pat home. So Pat is safe with his idol but it cancels votes for the top 2 vote getters. So we had to maneuver the votes so Tracey is actually the second vote getter and Drew is the 3rd so Drew goes home. Me Dan Pat and Chelsea searched every name in survivor history on the blog for the clues to the idol, and then searched those numbers. We dont have it yet but should soon. Touchy subjects was interesting. Apparently i really am perceived to be running this game, not sure how that happened. But hopefully if i get to the end after "running the game"  since merge thatll make up the lack of social game i have compared to some of the people left in the game.

[mylostwanderingsoul-blog]

(1/#) Hi hon, I know I keep bothering you because I asked before, but I just want to ask someone, anyone. Does he like me? I'll start from the very beginning. We met two years(?) ago, he's a year older but we had the same class-Art. at first, I don't think we ever caught each other's eye. He was just someone, who i shared the same last name with. And at the time, he had this girl he was "seeing" & she's much waaay prettier and smarter. But then later on, my friend, close friend, had saw him.

(2/#) They never actually met, but she asked me who he was and I told him, and she said that he was cute. & then me and my other friends decided “Lets hook them up.” At the time, I ddin’t like him, I didn’t even know him. I didn’t know he had a girl at the time tho. But then, we started talking, like skype groupchats or a skype call once. & at first I was just like “Hey he’s pretty funny & cool.” But the more I began to talk to him, the more I ddin’t realize, that I was slowly falling too.I mean I kept avoiding it, especially after summer bc I felt guilty as hell. Like how did I allow myself to fall for him? But I brushed it aside, thinking it was just a silly crush at the time, and I began to try to get him to hook up with my friend. & we talked a lot in group chats and at school, we sort of talked whenever we saw each other in lunch or in the mornings at the hallways. I later even had him on snapchat. It wasn’t until, half a year later, I realized that I really liked him.Like a lot. & i mean, we talked over snap a few times (we have a streak too) & we talk sometimes at lunch. We always catch each other’s eyes tho. Like a lot in the hallways or during lunch. But I kept my feelings hidden, bc I love my best friend more. But her? She’s always talking to guys. As if she doesn’t like him but at the same time she does?? I don’t get it. I know that he’d go for my friend bc shes way prettier and smarter. But lemme tell you, last month, our grade had a presentation & in this presentation, his grade came to see ours. & like apparently out of me & my friends, he only came to see my presentation. He only came to me & we talked for a while, & he even teased me a lot, by taking my laptop & trying to read my poem while I tried to get it back from him. & then two weeks ago, I think I realized that I am too deep in liking him, bc for the first time, I saw him unexpectedley in the hallway& my heart began to race, like speed up and race. & it all felt new to me& I told u this before, but I asked for some guy’s snapchat that’s in his grade, & like he said he doesnt have it, but then he asked my if i was interested in the other guy. I said no obviously lol. But yesterday, I was walking with a guy friend, and every single time we passed in the hallway, he would playfully tease or shove him for fun. But I realized he sort of only does that when I am with that certain guy friend, & im srry for this longass story lol but I just want someone’s opinion.

Hi Anon! 

Because you wrote a lot (don’t feel bad, I appreciate the background and more information), I am going to write my answer out in points, just to make it easier.

1) This is something simple, but I don’t want you or anyone to feel like they are bothering me with questions - even if they are repeated. This is what I’m here for, so ask away!

2) Please don’t compare yourself to the other girl or your friend and say they are way prettier and smarter than you, so the guy will never choose you. If that’s the only reason people dated each other - well those are shallow people. It’s the personality that is important too, so please don’t put yourself down like that and compare yourself in that way to others. It’s not fair on yourself.

3) You can’t help who you fall for - feelings don’t work that way. We can’t just say whether or not we are going to like someone, so don’t feel guilty. If this is something you feel bad about because your friend may like this guy, then you should talk to her about it and see where she really stands with him. Get her thoughts about the situation. But again, this isn’t something you can’t control and you certainly cannot force yourself to not like someone. If it happens, then it’s natural. Feelings and emotions come and go as they please really. 

4) And this is the important one……whether or not I think he likes you. And quite frankly, I would say that he does have feelings for you. So I’ll break this down too. Taking time to see another person, especially someone you may like is huge. I mean when you are in a relationship, you always want to make sure you make time for your partner and always see them/talk to them. So the fact that he went to see your presentation only, makes me think that he really cares about what you are doing and will take time out of his schedule to see you. As well, the whole teasing bit. So story time: when I was in high school, there was a guy that liked me, and the only reason why I knew was because he always teased me. Like I’m talking pretending to push my binder over the desk, hold my chair in with his foot so I couldn’t pull it out and sit down, that sort of thing. The teasing never stopped - so if he is teasing you, that’s actually a good sign, oddly enough. Usually guys in and around the high school age group show they like someone by teasing them. That’s just what they do for whatever reason. So if he is teasing you like you’ve mentioned, I would take that as a good thing. 

Overall, it really does seem as though this guy is certainly interested and may possibly have feelings for you. And like I said - if you are worried about your friend, I would go talk to her about it first. That way you don’t have to feel guilty about where she stands if you two want to pursue a potential relationship. 

Hopefully this helps, and hopefully it wasn’t too much to read! Stop by again if you want clarifications or just to chat some more. I wish you luck anon!!

~ Sky :)